#too bad i failed the check

[faoluoo]

what did she mean by this

#i think this is how the lines goes #too bad i failed the check #disco elysium #de #should i even tag this as spoilers #de spoilers #harry du bois #digital art #fanart

[arson-09]

thinking about the idiot at pitchfork that gave unreal unearth only a 5/10 and then proceeded to write the worst music review/explanation/critique thing i have ever seen in my entire life

and ive been a reader for years, i have read many reviews of differing quality

and that was SO bad

#unreal unearth unheard #unreal unearth #THE WASTELAND BABY ONE IS SOOOOO BAD TOO #hozier #andrew hozier byrne #wasteland baby! #the worst part imo was bro yapping about icarion carrian and said hozier got his metaphors and greek mythos mixed #with icarus (duh) and atlas with the holding up the world but last my ass checked atlas held the SKY up #i love greek mythos and i have read many different tales but i cant recall mf holding the whole ass world up #reviewer tried to pull an um actually🤓☝️ and failed MISERABLY #Also they said the held frozen like an angel like basically made no sense and i was dumbfounded #pitchfork is run by idiots actually #AND THE REVIEWERS WONT LET TAKE ME TO CHURCH GO??? THEY GO HE TRIED TO RECREATE IT AND FAILED #NO SHIT HES NOT TRYING TO RECREATE TMTC HES GOT THAT POINT ACROSS HES GOT OTHER SHIT TO WRITE #i love tmtc SO much but the reviewers need to let it go

[foldybikes]

wow fuck c3e13 really is a fucking episode alright. this is the best ball/gala event they've ever roleplayed in my opinion. what a richness of interactions and possible conversations and events and people. the fact that they had familiarity with a number of the attendees really made a difference, made them feel much more embedded in the event. this is vying for top spot with the c2e97 party.

super super enjoy matt's design of the event so far. having a free-for-all dance specifically made for short interactions is inspired. having the guests sleep at the venue after the party opens up so many different approaches and possibilities. throwing the cast off by adding figures like the lord of the quadroads and cyrus 'fucking idiot' wyvernwind and the captain of the paragon's call was mwah mwah chef's kiss.

and then a BUNCH of shit happening simultaneously, everyone getting little moments to shine, adding in FUCKING shade creepers at the 11th hour and ending the episode on a duel cliffhanger. just. aaaaah! party of all time.

#critical role #the ring bit was insane #the fucking tension #I was so in laura and sam's corner about it all #really too bad about that failed deception check from orym making armand suspicious #and the way they forget half the party is there under eshteross' name #y'all are gonna fuck this man's reputation to an early grave #critical role spoilers #cr3 #bells hells #c3e13 #foldycr

[boxwinebaddie]

yoooo so Ive read that one post about how you work with kids and I was like "omg literally same !" and I was wanting to lyk that even though some kids can be little shits, a lot of the time if youre patient with them, joke with them and, heres a big one, talk to them like theyre friends and not just kids theyll treat you wayyy better. I also know you said you work with first to second graders(at least Im pretty sure you said that) and I work with fourth to fifth graders so there probably is a difference. I thought youd wanna know just in case you needed advice or anything. My question is how has that been going so far? Like are you enjoying it, regretting it, that typa stuff.

P.s. im not a really old guy who's a teacher sitting at my laptop, im in my last year of high school and Ive done a lot of volunteer work with kids in it. Hope youre doing amazing!!!<<333

hello, my dear!!! no, thank you so much for the advice -- tbh i have been Struggling lately...this job is stealing the light from my eyes.

( this is a long ass post that is probably too personal but i am honestly not vibing At All so i'm answering this honestly. you do not have to read this message, it is me bitching for several paras. :// </3 )

but i digress!

that is not to say that i dont love working with kids/teaching, but the particular job i work is not...totally within my wheelhouse and is not that fun for me...per say. also, as far as first and second graders go, 1, 2 and kinder are actually the grades that i want to work w/ the most! and are unfortunately the kids i get to work with...sigh...the Least.

my particular position deals mostly with middle school and high school students which is NOT!! what my teaching credential is in btw. so i am suffering, omg. please free uncle nina from high schooler hell.

i also took this job because i weenie hut jr'ed out of taking an Actual Teaching position at a school because i got really nervous ( bc kids in 1st grade have to read A LOT, like without context, they start at the begining of the year reading a level books and have to finish the year reading i level books WHICH IS A LOOOT OF LEVELS )

and that bc ur first year of teaching is the hardest year ( a lot of ppl drop out/quit ) i would fuck up bc idk what i'm doing yet and a bunch of kids would end up behind bc i didn't teach them how to read correctly. like, when i tell you that sitting here in the lounge typing that literally makes me want to cry like...that would Devastate me. :(((

but anyways, i am...trying to be chiller w/ the older kids. bc i came out the gate being Strict ( because no jokes, every other school i worked out the kids had to be HELLA quiet like they could not talk or be rowdy ) but i guess…the school i'm working at is not like that? and a lot of my coworkers...don't press the kids that hard? WHICH!!!

OKAY FUN FACT NO ONE TRAINED ME HAHA!!! they just dropped me in the middle of this goddamn school and were like good luck! so no one gave me insight onto the kids, where the classes were or how they were interacting with them...so...HSLDLSKH SIIIIIGH.

this...job.

like i said though, i'm trying to chill more with the kids because HOOOOOLY SHIT SOME OF THEM ARE SO MEAN!!!! WHAT THE FUCK OHHHH MY GOD!!!! when i tell you i saw 17 boys on their phones, walked past them 3 times and only took ONE PHONE???? BECAUSE ITS LITERALLY MY FUCKING JOB????? and all 17 boys like twice as tall as me heckled the SHIT out of me??? :'((((

like made fun of my dye job and Everything abt me??? </3 for taking One Cellphone that a kid wasnt supposed to be on Bc If I Didn't I Would Get In Trouble that the kid could have probably just begged to get back and would be gotten back immediately?!!! thats how UNSERIOUS they are about bustin the kids at this school!!

WISH SOME1 WLD HAVE TOLD ME THAT! LOL THX!!!!!

but like it was sooooo....it made me so stressed out and it was so awful, i also had really gnarly experiences w/ bullying in high school and middle school, so being back in it is honestly kinda triggering? needless to say, i did spend the rest of that period crying in the teachers lounge like it seriously sucked; i was rlly embarrassed. :c

that's so fun ur working a lot with 4th/5th though! i student taught in 5th this time last year and it was sometimes hard ( i am so stupid like i can only teach k-2, i'm too dumb to do any math harder than that ) academically and socially but i had a lot of fun!

when i wasn't dying!

i am not dying as much rn as i was doing that, but it was certainly more rewarding? like tbh this position is basically me being a human punching bag for middle and upper kids all day long and is really kind of...demeaning? which is annoying bc ( not to be like that ) but bc i literally have my teaching credential i could Be A Teacher In An Actual Elementary School Class, but bc i took this job/chickened out...

i am doing this lowk whack job that i'm both underqualified and overqualified to run. i Do get to work with the littles very early in the day & in the evening and thats...worth getting my shit kicked in by 14 year olds all day long. truly love the k-2 kids; its my happy place.

THANK YOU FOR ASKING THOUGH!!! this is unprofessional, obvi, hopefully will not bite me in the ass later but at thiiis point? idk. respectfully fuck this job lol. i am so tired every single day and there are only brief moments of sunshine. i would not wish this on anyone.

high school boys stop being mean to me challenge! very whack! however, elementary school children! you are so lovely!!! i had a girl make me a little origami flower and give it to me <3 like okay little pep stan! i see you! there is like a kgarten boy who gives me a hug every day, a girl whose shoes i tie every morning -- all of them remember my name which is more than aaaaa lot of the older kids will do for me.

( which!!! they're just kids you know!! its not their fault that they're being a lot!!! their brains are still forming and u know!! i was in mid/hs and it does suck and its hard and stressful! i am not really even mad at them its just...unfortunate. it's also not an age level that i rlly connect w/also discipling them or...not ig idk, is not really something i'm passionate about...like man i just want to sing the fucking calendar song and clap call and response and count on my fingers again. ;-; )

i'm sure as the semester goes by i'll feel better but right now, i am having a pretty rough time and wish i just bit the bullet and started teaching because this is seriiiiiously humilitating, fml. <///3

-uncle nina who is really bad at my job ig? lol i hate this

p.s. this isn't even really a request because every single one of you is kind and wonderful to me, but idk if i seem stressed or it's annoying that my asks are building up/i'm not updating my fics, know its bc i am here from like 6am until like 4:30pm, get my shit rocked, and then go home and sleep for like three hours and repeat every day. just b gentle w/ me if u can; i'm Very Depressed. :(

p.s.s. also unfortunately i cannot take a different job; i signed a contract that keeps me here until june, so i gotta tough it, smh.

#i'm sorry this is probably too personal and upsetting #ALSO SOMEONE STOLE MY FUCKING MUG #W MY COLLEGE LOGO ON IT AND MY UNDERGRAD DEPARTMENT LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING #no but seriously no one checks these kids and i did it one time and every single one gutted me it was seriously brutal #a bunch of the other adults were like oof yeah ur braver than me like HELLO??? DO UR FUCKING JOB MAYB? IM SOOOOO #and like it gives me no joy to take a phone that was the first one i ever took and i was sick to my goddamn stomach :((( #not enjoying this job where i have to terrorize the kids and they terrorize me back its v whack im legit scared 2 do my job #i do have a lot of kids that do what they need to and are kind to me so i appreciate them a lot #and i think that respect is gathering for the other kids but when i say no one trained me or gave me any perspective #AND STOLE MY FUCKING MUG LIKE PLEAAASE CHOKE #it is nice working w the tiny people later in the day tho im love them so bad theyre so cute like i love u my lil people #i seriously should have just taken a k-2 job i really just got nervous and its BECAUSE I CARE NOT BC I DONT which UGGGGH #but yeah lol i am crying i'm sorry if this was too personal or is too whiny but thank u for asking this was building inside me #put uncle nina back in elementary school challenge FAILED SEVERELY middle and hs is so unchill i am sooo tired :((( #fml i'm gonna cry again

[satans-knitwear]

Hope you're doin' okay. I know things have been rough for you lately <3

Am getting through it, surrounded by love, thank you my sweet ♥️

#The funeral is tomorrow and i cant tell if my body is failing me bc im depressed or bc i have a fun new plague or something #Its gonna feel way too real tomorrow. still been thinking its all a bad dream. Both so ready and not ready at all for that reality check #I will be very glad for some time to myself after this weekend though #Also i havent actually tried on my funeral outfit yet so im hella nervous about that #Asks

[canarydraws]

I don’t think I ever shared my Curse of Strahd character here! I’m playing Dex, a dhampire ranger and so far I have been the trouble maker of the group lol. For example, just last session my friends had to get me out of jail because I had managed to enrage every guard on the city wall because I was trying to cause a distraction.

(Said distraction involved spider climbing up the wall and swearing at all the guards. …hey it worked? They just thought Dex was the devil or something)

#dnd #dungeons and dragons #dnd art #dhampire #ranger #character #they’re a gloomstalker btw #art #dex #we were trying to get into town and in my defense every single person had failed their persuasion check #so I’m like fuck it let’s get every guard to chase me so the rest of the group and sneak inside #it work a little too well…… #I didn’t know there was a guy w a creepy demon arm that shoots fire just casually patrolling the city ok #I would have made different choices #dex is the embodiment of that bird meme: the risk I took was calculated but boy am I bad at math

[ryo-maybe]

Leave it to me to catch a fairly dated literary allusion while being completely oblivious to the astoundingly obvious anime reference very much steeped in a time period I'm well acquainted with

#you think my failed dick spotting checks are bad but you cannot fathom how blind I am #to things spelled outright because I'm too busy trying to dig through something that's not even there

[murdoc]

before taking my road test i did genuinely think everyone who said some of them will try to trip you up or be overly harsh were just sorta stretching the truth, but after how stupid my test was i understand.

i ended up autofailing bcz it was a two lane (same direction) parking lot where there were signs and cones saying one side was for the road test & one was for regular vechicles EXCEPT FOR ONE VERY SMALL AREA ONLY AT THE BEGINNING. but then she proceeded to make me continue on and do a parallel park, making me assume i didnt do anything wrong, and then have me circle back to the beginning and THEN fail me.

not only that, but she.. lied? about me not using my blinker when either going in or leaving the park????? which i straight up did do????? 🥲

#i think id have been less devastated by the fail if the just immediately told me to turn back around bcz i failed at the bad signage #i genuinely think that if anyone else saw that signage theyd be confused too. in fact im pretty sure my instructor didnt even know #bcz we needed to turn right but instead of going over to that tiny area that clips into the road test section #we went the long way around so we didnt go in that lane #the lesson i went to before my test was two hours and heavily inconvenient for my sponsor so to go through all of that and autofail.. #odds are w her id have failed anyway. i genuinely dont see why she lied about the blinkers but AT LEAST if i went through the whole test & #failed it wouldve hurt but at least i could walk away knowing it wasnt as stupid as it was #now i have to renew my id bcz i wont have a license. and renew my permit. and pay $200+ for another test bcz i dont have #a car that can be used for the regular rmv. and now im paying rent for a place i cant even go to yet bcz the next rmv appt is in MID MAY #(the rent thing is normal and i did plan for it. but if you havent experienced rmvs 'post' covid.. you dont even do the test there. #you 'check in' and leave to do it at your house.) #i may try to beg my ride that i now 100% need to drive me to a further out one but. sighs. who knows #i ❤️ lifeeee #diary #sorry this is so long lol. im not as inconsolable as yesterday but now im just annoyed #i also wish to stress that while i love my car i fucking hate driving #my reward for getting my license is high car insurance and paying a ton for gas? YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! #AUUGGHHHHHHHHH 🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣

[grimm-the-tiger]

Fallen London attended the “Don’t bury your gays but make them SUFFER” school of writing and you can tell. 

#fallen london #bury your gays #i realized this when i was writing a whole-ass literary analysis #on the irony of the fate of Gilgamesh in the original story and in Fallen London #and then realized technically the first mate and captain of aigul are queer? #idk we don't know the first mate's gender so maybe #by default if the pronouns of a Fallen London character aren't mentioned I just assume they're nonbinary #and if you fail the stupid hearts check it turns into bury your gays #but there's more good ways to end that storyline than bad so it counts #but yeah pick a random queer romance in FL and there's about a 50/50 chance it went badly for at least one of the parties involved #the same rule applies for the straights too though so I'm not too mad

[forthehonoroflove]

Own a home, they said. It’ll be fun, they said.

#ok i’m being dramatic #but after having spent almost an hour trying to find a safe way to climb into our attic #and failing miserably #i’m a little bit peeved #we have one of those pull down wooden ladders #but it’s facing the wrong way #so when you get to the top #you have to contort yourself around to try to get to the correct side #because the wrong side is nothing but insulation #and the correct side has boards laid down so you can walk #anyway #all this to say that i’m afraid of heights and could not get myself turned around #to go into the correct direction #and my husband is too big and can’t go up himself #our a/c is out and to check the filter we have to go into the attic #luckily it’s no longer 100 degrees out #so it’s not too bad in here #but still #i hate anything having to do with our attic #personal

[vettelcore]

bro i was already thinking about having to pay all the exam fees again because i was sooooo sure i had failed

after the exam is done, the examiner tells you the mistakes you made and he was telling me so many. i was like oh shit i didn't pass then? no way if i made that many mistakes lmao but i ""only"" had 5? brb crying

#he was like #you did a shit job at parking #you forgot to signal one time #you were on the wrong side of the road to turn left #you skipped a give way signal #you forget to put 1st gear after stopping #there was a 50km/h speed limit in the tunnel and you were too close to not making it #and i was just sitting there like. oh so i failed then okay cool #the only mistakes i had were stalling #the give way signal i completely ignored thank fuck there were no cars coming #not checking my mirrors enough #i forgot to use my turn singals once lol #and turning to the left from the right side of the road lmao #<- that one i thought i had fucked it up real bad bc another car who was positioned correctly had to let me through #but who caaaaares i passed im now gonna start my fines collection until i get my license revoqued :)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sometimes u just gotta have a cringe fail weekend. is what i tell myself bc i let the fact that i forgot to check my new #email completely obliterate me. also i haven't been sleeping enough. also just the normal thoughts in my head #by which i mean the part of my brain that demands consequences for inattention by means of suffering. devine punishment. #which is irrational and annoying but knowing that doesnt seem to help. so ive just been laying here in the hopes i come unspooled and start #to disintegrate. which is annoying bc ive got stuff to do #specifically bc i am supposed to b a TA this semester. which is what i figured but also feared #so. thats gonna b a lot. tho not as much as my old school bc they dont make TAs do literally everything here apparently #but. itll b a lot. and also i have to finish signing up for classes. bc i didnt do that back in April by my brain was melting. also i have #to keep doing my job and dealing with my data. ugh. well. being a TA isnt so bad. i do like to help ppl learn even if im not very good at it #like. i struggle with thr talking to ppl part. like the transition of ny thoughts to something thst makes sense #oh well. hope i end up teaching something im not too unqualified for. i could do soils. Ecology. uhhh. maybe intro bio but i never even took #university level biology. i just skipped upper level courses. that's probably it. anything else would b a lotta faking it #ugh. im tired. i should go to sleep at 9pm. thr sun hasbt even set and i should sleep #tomorrow i have to get my shit together. but also i wanna email my new professor like hey bro like what do u want me to do??? #like how do i start in this lab? when do we start talking. like just not to b pushy but whats thr procedure? #i like Structure but also its like weeks until the semester starts so we got time. im just a lil nuts #jesus. its gonna b an interesting semester. hopefully fun but uh it is sorta like taking a boat out when u can see big ominous clouds #like im sure ill b fine but also i might get dumped over into a watery grave. i just. i have a lot of papers to write #and its gonna b hard to b a student on top of that. partly bc what im gonna b doing now is almost completely unrelated #which is probably y ppl stick to the same track they stsrt on. that awkward moment when ppl ask u if ur gonna keep working with bi0crust #and ur like uhhhh no fuck that actually the work ive done in the past 4 years makes me hate myself✌️ #so we r back at square 1. well not 1 bc its sorta related but its a pretty big reset #itll b fine once things start. its just thr anticipation that kills me #unrelated

[leatherbookmark]

my (probably easily solvable with just reading the necessary parts in the novel lol) problem with the post abt how it’s not that nmj doesn’t have any hobbies, it’s just wwx being unreliable, is... okay. “wwx knew this from the time my was working under nmj” -- how did he know this? was he close to them during that time? close enough to notice my’s attempts at finding nmj a hobby and nmj’s incompatibility with these? were there rumors about these that reached wwx’s ears? why would people talk about that, though? or did wwx come up with a random headcanon on the spot?

(i’m honestly puzzled by quite a number of things wrt the narration; often i can’t discern if the narration is from wwx’s pov, showing us what he knows, or if it’s omniscient narration that tells us the true state of things. in the first chapters of the novel, after wwx is brought back to life, a lot of the information feels too... informed to be wwx’s knowledge, unless he spends most of his time in inns gossiping with people, but also too flimsy/gossipy-sounding to be the Objective Truth.  that, or i’ve lost the ability to read lmao;;)

i do feel like empathy is less “a sequence of separate scenes shown by the deceased exactly as they want it” and more “the deceased sharing with wwx the state of having experienced their memories, with focus on the memories/feelings they want him to see”, though. nmj’s empathy sequence has time skips, sums up nmj’s dissastisfaction with his new deputy envoy without a concrete “scene” to illustrate it... therefore, my trying to “find nmj’s weakness/hobby” could be just something that happened between the lines that wwx/mxtx simply didn’t find important enough to describe earlier. it wouldn’t be surprising, considering other things that mxtx doesn’t consider necessary to write about.

wwx sure can misinterpret people’s activities, but i don’t see him coming up with a headcanon about something as mundane; he could have simply observed that nmj can taste “tea. that’s tea for sure, aye” regardless of the quality of the leaves, that he doesn’t care for wartime tension-relieving hookups or about the artistic properties of a calligraphy scroll. the “meng yao was trying his best to find something in nmj that he could exploit later” bit is a bit confusing again, because it talks about my’s intent that was somehow noticeable for either nmj or wwx or both. but then, i could easily imagine my trying to get nmj to relax, asking him how he unwinds and then trying to find something for him (and failing), or alternatively: nmj adding the “everything he did was to figure out my weaknesses to exploit my trust!” tint in, uh, post-production.

on the other hand, i also simply wonder if the 当年孟瑶在聂明玦手底下做事时魏无羡就见识过了 sentence has anything in the phrasing that would hint at how exactly wwx obtained the ~intel~: personally during the war or via empathy. hmm

in general though -- i don’t think that nmj having no hobbies other than practicing his saber is necessarily bad, or something a hater would say. dude seems like someone who’s busy as hell, and there’s a certain straightforwardness about him that just gives me the idea that he’d be... rather utilitarian in the things he does. he focuses on the saber training because the nie sect Does Sabers Here, sir, to the point that he doesn’t even go “okay whatever, my did is shit at the saber, let him be a diplomat instead” but constantly nags him about saber practice. practice your saber, and you’ll be a good sect leader, and you’ll be able to protect people and vanquish evil. functionality!

and if he sees a painting, well, does the painted mountain succeed at looking like a mountain? then it’s a good painting, he guesses. is the calligraphy legible? then it’s good. but are they useful? if it’s a book with lan rules, a map, a name of a pavillion or a motto for the disciples to live by -- then sure, but if it’s yet another poem about the beauty of flowers? eh, they’re fine. a character written on fancy paper solely to be beautiful? in what way is it going to influence you? it’s not? then why have it in the first place. an expensive fan painted by a master painter? you’d cool yourself down just as effectively with a blank, cheaper one. etc, etc

#i kind of have some thoughts rattling up there about nmj and the concept of Attachments/everyday joys #like... he's. going to die and he knows it. i feel that aside from 'is it useful' things like women arts food etc etc are things that... #make one reluctant to part with the world. distract one from their true goal -- fucking these wens up and making sure nhs ends up a good #sect leader (task failed succesfully.) #idk. it just. checks out. i'm aware nmj enthusiasts will have more to say about his internal life because they want to see him human and #full of Thoughts and Emotions! but i uh. have seen one 'nmj actually a cool chill dude ruined by the Bad Evil jgy' take too many #and i don't actually care for a nmj who collects beetles and makes them little houses or tends to a private rock garden because it just #feeds into this idea that nmj was essentially fine. just needed his meds! and then jgy went and ruined everything! #when it uh. wasn't the case. so #shrimp thoughts

[six-of-ravens]

so recently I've noticed that there are like, at least 3 cars in the parkade here that are covered with such a thick layer of dust that they're completely grey, and it's mildly concerning bc why haven't those people been out to at least dust off their vehicles, if not drive? but also kind of a great setup for a horror novel where a serial killer slowly picks people off and the only evidence is their abandoned vehicles (or is that unbearably cheesy?)

#one of those im pretty sure is my next door neighbours car and i think they're too old to drive now (they're 80+) #and another is the car that's had the New Driver sign in the back window for a solid 3 years #tho that person almost hit me last summer bc they failed to yield at a yield sign sp maybe they just realized that #after 3 years you're no longer a new driver you're just a bad one and they shouldn't be driving if they still feel like they need the sign #anyway. it's weird for sure. #even if i didn't need to drive id still go check on my car...and wash it if it was getting that dirty in case i needed it in an emergency #like they're so covered in dust the windows are opaque now

[valandherweekofwonders]

yeah so apart from a small assignment a professor gave me an extension for, i am all done this semester and thank goodness for it.

#wrote my last exam this morning and you know what? even if i fail i really did do my best given my circumstances #which were INSANE these last few months and constantly changing too #idk im just im so proud of myself for surviving through this far its been really difficult and its still all difficult but yeah #celebrate the victories you do get #attempting positivity and bright thinking is so hard after being so sad and bitter for such a long time but also refreshing #already today i got myself yummy treats and watched a movie under my blankets for fun and it was so nice to just watch the movie and #not have to check my phone to sew if i was needed or to get back to working on a deadline or some task #and i actually have time to play video games now and i always say ill play for 12 hours but i usually get a headache after like 3 hours bu #but the point is having fun i just want to have fun i have not had any fun in months im not exaggerating #everything really has just been so grim and bleak for me but hopefully dedicating some time to forcing myself into an activity will help #i really need to shift gears and focus on recovery now because i let things get so bad #yeah sometimes i experience hope and various types of positivity #ezra.txt

[zhuhongs]

girls when logistics....

#i feel the need to plan out everything i do each day bc like. since im not in my element.. at all here. i plan exsessively so that i don't #combust internally from Situations and rn im planning a trip and im just hhhhhh... sage embrace spontaneity.... but like. its hard when ur #in a place you dont know and dont speak the language.. i have too much shame. i dont want to be That foreigner yk... hhhh #also for some reason meals are usually the most stressful part of the day bc i hate.. speaking... i feel like such an idiot if i say smth #wrong.. like ik its fine but it makes me so!!! god #but like... my worst fays usually happen when i dont have a plan so i just.. yk. fear. so i try to plan everything out so if all else fails #i have smth to rely on..hhh #so far the plan is: waje up. eat at home. bring snacks. go to class. make my 2 hr journey to my hotel. check in. get smth to eat near by. #catch a bus to jiufen. do all my shopping that night. head back once ive looked around #then enjoy that night. get some food and alcohol. and then saturday. play it by ear depending on the weather. probably go to that tea house #look around take pictures. head back and relax and do one last look around on sunday then head home. like 3pm. eat pasta at home for dinner #yep.. thats the plan. i was gonna go to houdong too if my whim and the weather alows for it #but if not. its ok. the weather is. rlly bad