#those sorts of things

[turndecassette2]

#watercolour #art #tolkien #elf #feanor #or it was meant to be feanor but I was too lazy to google what hair colour he was supposed to have & I know some ppl care deeply about #those sorts of things #I need to re-read this book #just remember it being good tragedy #& the author cares about trees in a way I find strangely moving & sweet

[thecosmicsleep]

okay, so. obviously, i'm going to continue doing what i want to do, but my brain just reminded me that i have no clue what most people follow(ed) me for.

so, like,

leave any specifics in the tags or replies, please! i'm trying to be slightly more engaging (i have the attention span of a 3-second video. please be patient with me).

#sage speaks #i know this blog is all over the place #bc it's been more than a decade of me just following what interests me most #but i'm more than happy to *try* to stick to a theme if people have more they'd like to see from me #like art or writing or like gameplay or character analysis or whatever #those sorts of things #tumblr polls #my polls

[cerula]

Normal Fans: Make headcanons over how sweet and lovable and perfect partners their fave characters would be. Me: Makes headcanons that dials up canon negative personality traits to 11 for the Angst™

#ffxiv #have some thoughts involving aymeric being a workaholic #estinien being emotionally distant and awkward #g'raha being more of a fan than actually attracted to WoL #thancred's various one night stands putting a strain on any serious relationship #urianger being hung up on moenbryda #those sorts of things

[astearisms]

catalysts, protectors

#man those episodes #so many things put into perspective #like Simon’s role as a protector and his kindness and empathy and compassion and existence being the catalyst for the rest of ooo to #flourish #and Betty is a protector of Simon #I wonder if the last two episodes will explore more of her character? there’s so much to be explored about her giving so much of herself #to Simon but not thinking about what she wants for herself #do we get to explore her feelings or see her at all? will she have changed or learned to let go #I think there will be some sort of closure for the both of them #but at what cost #I am still crying over that scene with Simon’s memory of Betty and their song #my art #fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof #golbetty

[ars-matron]

I really need to talk for a minute about this new mobile update and how much I as a legally blind person hate whatever the hell is going on with the photos and how it's making this app nearly impossible for me to use

I'm not sure the same thing is happening on the desktop version but for those who may not know in the app whenever you tap on a photo it used to just pop up and you could double tap to enlarge it and zoom in and scroll around and all was great.

A double tap now likes the photo and it must be pinched and pulled to zoom in and out. A mild annoyance, and nothing compared to the rest of the update. If you scroll up, which I do frequently when trying to navigate an enlarged photo, it will send you to ANOTHER photo based on the tags of the post.

That's right, a completely different photo!!! A feature no one asked for and no one wants!! This isn't facebook, or instagram, and maybe tiktok but I never had that so this is a guess. When I click on the photo I only want to see that photo (or in the case of multiple photos in a post I want to be able to easily scroll side to side for those). I do not want to be taken to another post!!! Also if you scroll too far to the left you are then sent to the profile of the person who reblogged the post. I do not know why. Who wants this feature? Is it a feature at all?

As someone who only taps on a photo because I cannot see it and I need to enlarge it, this is beyond a simple annoyance. I cannot navigate the photo like I need, there's a hair trigger on whether it sends you to a new post completely or if you are sent to the profile of the reblogger. Neither, again, are things I want. this leaves me having to back track a lot, re-zoom the photo as it reverts back to normal, and hope dearly that this time I can just read the damned text before it freaks out again.

I haven't seen anyone else talk about this outside of the tags, but really this is making the app unusable for me, and I'm sure for many others.

@staff I know you guys haven't cared about your disabled community much in the past (other photo updates that stopped allowing me to zoom into gifs is proof of that) but please don't make this app unusable for me. I would rather not have to leave.

#staff #tumblr update #tumblr #thanks tungle #I really hate it #please put it back #it's worse even that instagram or facebook because at least I can stop those from moving on and well #I feel like I singed up for that sort of thing with them

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[ryssbelle]

Drew a bunch of Marinettes in a bunch of different artists styles it was a lot of fun!!

Artists who's styles I mimicked: @buggachat @hamsternamedmarinette @ladybeug @sabertoothwalrus and @anna-scribbles all epic artists 🤟😎

#my art #marinette dupain cheng #miraculous ladybug #miraculous fanart #style mimic #sorry for the @s btw #yall should go follow those artists if you dont already also #this was sort of inspired by a post the three artists on the top row made #i think they all got together and drew with one another #which is really cool #but i was genuinely confused because i mimic styles a lot #and ive seen others do it too so i was just like #wow they really know each others styles really well #until i thought about it and read their posts some more #style mimicking is really freaking fun and i think its really good practice #and a good way to explore other ways of doing things #like you really have to learn new techniques and get out of your comfort zone #also anna scribbles i could not find a recent pic of marinette in her main outfit #so thats the only marinette i drew in different clothes cuz i couldnt find a more recent ref of you drawing it #anna scribble marinette has privileges thats the others dont #but ye #i also threw my own style in there as a frame of reference to what me draw like #ive drawn marinette before just not in a loooong while #sabertooth walrus was the hardest for me to mimic cuz they have a broad range in their style #so its like which sabertooth do i wanna be in this pic #Buggachat has such a distinct style thats very clean and consistent which is amazing so they were easy #being easy or hard arent bad things either it also has to do with like styles meeting up with one another #buggachats and mine arent too too different in some shapes and aspects #so yeah itd be easier plus they drew marinette like 3 sec ago so i have more recent of a ref #as opposed to sabertooth who i have a recent ref of ladybug but not marinette so we got two diff styles in one

[liquidstar]

look this site really is awful for ppl with OCD so i just wanna reassure anyone that you are not Tainted Forever for consuming a piece of media with questionable content. the fact that youre able to recognize it speaks to your critical thinking skills, which is good, certain depictions should be critiqued. but you dont need to ruminate on it to the point where you begin to feel guilty for simply witnessing gross or creepy writing choices. you dont have to vindicate yourself to the fictional tumblr discourser inside your head, saying that youre now a bad person bc you watched the wrong anime. your actual response to it still matters of course, but thats that and this is this. just seeing it is neutral, you didnt commit a thought crime. its literally fine.

IF YOU ARE USING THIS POST TO ONLY FURTHER YOUR STUPID PEDANTIC BLACK-AND-WHITE DISCOURSE TO GET A "GOCHA" OVER THE OTHER SIDE YOU ARE THE PROBLEM. DON'T USE OUR DISORDER TO VINDICATE YOUR BEHAVIOR. THOUGHT CRIMES ARENT REAL BUT ACTIONS STILL MATTER. PEOPLE WITH OCD ARE CAPABLE OF THINKING CRITICALLY ABOUT OUR ACTIONS AND RESPONSES, EVEN WITH INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS AND RUMINATIONS. TREATING US AS IF WE CANNOT, ONLY TO FORCE US TO USE YOUR STRINGENT UNNUANCED DISCOURSE OPINIONS ABOUT "PURITY CULTURE" (TRIGGERING TO THOSE WITH OCD) AS THE ONLY REASONABLE GUIDE DOES MORE TO EXACERBATE OUR OBSESSIONS THAN HELP US. YOU ARE THE ISSUE AS WELL. YOU ARE ALSO THE TUMBLR DISCOURSER INSIDE OUR HEADS. DO NOT USE US FOR YOUR DISCOURSE. WE ARE PEOPLE, NOT HYPOTHETICALS TO USE TO EXPLAIN IF YOUR FROZEN INCEST FANFICTION IS OKAY OR NOT. TREATING US AS IF WE CANNOT AUTONOMOUSLY HAVE OUR OWN OPINIONS ON WHEN MEDIA IS TANGIBLY HARMFUL IS ABLEIST. FORCING US TO ABIDE BY YOUR IN-GROUP'S SET OF UNEQUIVOCAL MORALS IS ABLEIST. ACTING AS THOUGH THE ONLY SOLUTION FOR US IS MINDLESS MEDIA CONSUMPTION IN WHICH "EVERY DEPICTION OF XYZ, NO MATTER HOW POORLY DONE OR EXPLOITATIVE, IS ALWAYS OKAY AND IF YOU DISAGREE YOURE ACTUALLY AN EVIL 'ANTI'" IS ABLEIST. THOSE ARE THE SAME BLACK-AND-WHITE MORALS THAT SEND US INTO OBSESSIVE SPIKES, BUT FLIPPED. A SET OF MORALS IN WHICH QUESTIONING THE IMPACT OF A PIECE OF WORK MAKES YOU AN "EVIL CONSERVATIVE PURITAN "ANTI"" DOES NOT HELP MORAL OCD.

YOU ARE THE DAMN TUMBLR DISCOUERSERS MAKING THIS SHIT WORSE FOR US! YOURE THE EXACT SAME BUT WITH FLIPPED BUZZWORDS! YOU'RE MISSING THE WHOLE DAMN POINT!

#the fictional tumblr discourser inside your head is like the opposite of critical thinking its just extremes #blocking that helps you form better thoughts and come to a better understanding of why said content can be harmful in said depiction etc et #and to be clear shutting off all critical thoughts is not the solution either bc then you end up with.... Those People #the ones who jack off to lolicon on ao3 and think its the same artistically as lolita x_x #this post is not a vindication for that sort of thing. or say like actively supporting an openly bigoted series or author #those are different things because they are actual choices and actions. you chose to respond that way #thats what i mean when i say your actual response still matters. as in your actions surrounding it

[theabigailthorn]

spent ages preparing to audition for a role I really really wanted and it's looking like (still unconfirmed) they might not even be holding auditions at all but have just given it to someone directly

which, meh, that sucks but that's the industry!

I'm just like now what? I spent a lot of my free time the last few months prepping and I genuinely don't know what to do with myself now!

#guess I'll... have a bath? #call my mum? #keep prepping anyway on the off chance the rumours are false? #I already asked my agent to investigate but she can't find out either! #that's hollywood baybeeee #sorry mario your blorbo is in another show #I should get myself a treat as a reward for all my hard work even though it didn't work out #I have 3 criteria for this sort of thing and if I tick them all off I can walk away happy #Did I approach it from curiosity not ambition? #Did I make it known in the industry that I wanted the role? #Did I prepare for the role? #I did all three of those things so audition or no audition I can hold my head up high #might get myself one of those nice cookie dough brownies from the coffee stand this week as a consolation prize

[calware]

karkat envying vriska's leadership and her ability to command others vs vriska envying karkat's relationships and the way he easily forms bonds with the people around him. but at the same time both are incredibly insecure in these ways; both vriska's bossiness and ruthlessness and karkat's obsession with romance and relationships are a result of them wanting to be mature (vriska wants to be mature so others can't take advantage of her, karkat wants to be mature so others will respect him) they both want control over these parts of their lives due to their respective traumatic upbringings. but deep down they are still flawed in these areas. vriska feels guilt when she kills tavros and is insecure over her failure to live up to alternia's cold-blooded expectations. karkat's relationship with terezi blew up because he didn't have the emotional maturity to treat her with respect and his friend group fell apart under his leadership (before they died). it's like they both envy each other's facades? is this anything

#oh and they both really really hate themselves #i'm sort of conflating karkat's deal with trying to boss his friends around with his friendships and also romantic relationships #those 3 are separate #so i may be off in that regard. they're all relationships but they're different *things* #so if it doesn't fit then um. oops

[mindibindi]

The Doctor (having yet another mid-chase identity crisis): If you take away my arrogant certainty, my fix-all sonic screwdriver, my magic TARDIS, my regenerating Timelord genes, who even am I?

Donna (used to mid-chase identity crises now that she has all her memories): My Favourite Martian? My new housecat? The skinny weirdo I let live in my garden in exchange for him putting the bins out? I dunno. Come home, have a decent meal and we'll figure it out.

#dr who #doctor who #dw #dw 60th #dw specials #dw spoilers #the 14th doctor #the fourteenth doctor #the doctor x donna #14 x donna #donna noble #catherine tate #david tennant #who'd have thought this was not just another moment of the doctor being insecure #they DID take away all those things (sort of) and now he gets to figure out exactly who is without them

[canisalbus]

That juice box ask is so right. Machete will definitely shrivel into dust if he does not have his daily H2O intake.

.

#oh no oh geez #he looks MUMMIFIED #did he dry out so badly his eyes retracted into his head #like some sort of SNAIL #he needs a long soak like one of those tiny shriveled dinosaur figures that expand when you put them in a glass of water #potentially the most cursed thing anyone has ever drawn for me #genuinely unsettling 10/10 #gift art #thagoldennugget #own characters #Machete #I have an unfathomable urge to get a spray bottle and mist him #but I don't think it would be enough

[sunderwight]

Nie Huaisang pulling a Jaskier where somehow everyone thinks he's physically tiny, because of how he tailors his clothes and the way he moves and acts and refers to himself, but in actuality he's almost the same height and shoulder width as Nie Mingjue and the impression of him as "just a little guy" is a carefully crafted illusion that would shatter if the main cast all lined up naked together.

#mdzs #cql #the untamed #mo dao zu shi #nie huaisang #like I wouldn't say he has nie mingjue's build precisely because he doesn't actually train nearly as much #but the framework is still there #everyone assumes his flashy outfits are adding bulk to him #meanwhile those 'shoulder pads' are in fact like 99% actual shoulder #and if you ask lan xichen he'd say that nie huaisang is shorter than him but taller than a'yao (though most people are taller than a'yao) #but nie huaisang is in fact half an inch taller than lan xichen and has been since he was seventeen #that sort of thing

[humming-fly]

Theatre Kid (Derogatory)

#I had some fun on my most recent plane flight and figured I'd give it some color #the great thing about the king in yellow is i can and will draw him completely different every time #and that is 100% in character #if you draw an eldrich madness god the same way twice it's missing the point let chaos reign #was originally just gonna be the lefthand sketch colored in #but the colors alone actually looked pretty nice so you can enjoy those too #malevolent #malevolent podcast #the king in yellow #my art #doodles #I actually wasn't planning on making the bug mandible crown going into this it just sort of happened which I enjoy #lot of centipede/earwig vibes going on with the guy #something something crawls in your ear and drives you mad #anyways here's my one nice art post of this character now I can move on to shitposts guilt-free #i guess there's one other thing I wanna draw that isn't quite shitposty but it sort of is jury's out #we'll see if i get to it lol

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: death mention / blood / injury / abuse / codependency / panic / a lot this time oof ]

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You don’t spend six years alone with just one other person to talk to and just drop them.

Even if it’s your worst enemy.

#rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #prison!leo au #rise leo #rise krang #rottmnt krang #rottmnt movie spoilers #blood / #death mention / #injury / #abuse / #codepency / #worlds most unhealthy roommates #make no mistake Krang is Awful #and Leo Hates him #but those few moments of respite and talk were the ONLY thing Leo had to look forward to #he knows what it’s like to toil away in infinite loneliness so #as a thanks? of sorts? he can’t bring himself to leave the Krang without any contact #Krang doesn’t deserve this courtesy and Leo doesn’t really want to give it to him but #it’s complicated #‘you were the worst Roomie ever but ur ramblings at 4 am were the only thing I had so ig I’ll call now and then lol’

[yesokayiknow]

do you ever think about how one of doctor who's most famous time loop episodes (heaven sent) isn't a time loop. like the fact that time is passing normally is a huge plot point

#i'm writing a heaven sent au (well plotting one out. i haven't actually written anything yet don't look at me) #and i was getting ready to deal w paradoxes and then i was like wait a minute. there are no paradoxes. time isn't actually looping here #it isn't even a time loop to twelve since he doesn't remember it until like the last moment #(and i have Thoughts about that #does he actually remember it??? bc like. how. that wasn't him. he didn't do those things #each version that did the loop was essentially a seperate clone #did he leave himself some sort of psychic memory download at the wall??? bc if so. fucked up if true #but also entirely in character tbh) #doctor who #the doctor #twelve #the fact that there's no paradox to deal w makes things less awful for my au 😔 so i will just have to make it worse in other ways 😌