#this is what i call progress

[dimitrscu]

i love spending hours writing only to read it back the next day, cringe, and then delete the whole thing

#this is what i call progress #coming to terms with how awful i am then erasing it from existence before it gets worse #made the terrible mistake last night reading some very opinionated persons comments on the way ppl write and well #they were trying to make it sound like helpful criticism but tbh it only sounded l like hate #kind of like ‘omg ppl who do ‘X’ are just so bad’ #anyway a lot of what they said ended up being incredibly discouraging #like if you don’t write like this then you’re bad kind of thing #the mental torture i put myself through i swear #for years i have wanted nothing more than to actually do something meaningful with myself #even if that means writing or whatever #cause god knows i’ll never be able to draw #but i will never get over this hurdle it seems #i am only ranting so pls ignore #i'm having one of Those days today #just need to get over myself thats all

[altijd-november]

a year ago i was in therapy

now i'm carefully considering the best way to kill a god

#this is what i call progress

[alterumsinealterononest]

oh I wanted to share!!

I told my best friend the words "I'm not happy" out loud today. I've never admitted my unhappiness to anyone that wasn't paid to listen to me before.

#it's a big deal! im gonna tell my therapist tomorrow #he'll be happy to know #this is what i call progress

[tiredalwayss]

Lee Dong Sik and his perfectly successful attempts to flirt with get under Han Joo Won’s skin

+bonus Joo Won flirting back

#beyond evil #jwds #beyond evil edit #kdramaedit #beyondeviledit #jtbc beyond evil #there are so many examples of them flirting i struggled to pick just a few #look at them #ds knows exactly what he’s doing and jw loves it #also the progression of jw’s reaction is so good #look at him trying to be all affronted to begin with only to end up looking smug when ds calls him a prince #I haven’t had any time to make gifs recently so this was a lot of fun!!!

[mccoalminer]

Alison Bechdel

#alison Bechdel #dykes to watch out for #ive been thinking about this image a lot partly because that right there is what we like to call a shared experience #but also because of the god damn gender of this dyke in particular #dtwof holds a special place in my heart because as a comic strip about queer/butch experiences it feels like a rare insight into how wlw #felt in the 80s-00s and especially over that progression. its not about traumaposting or sending a message #it was just dykes going and not to play into a cliche here but i think thats beautiful #just lesbians living their lives #i always think of it like if the f.r.i.e.n.d.s. cast was replaced by a group of gay ppl living politically charged lives #only without making the gay ppl the butt of the joke lol #ive forgotten what i was trying to sau with these tags but basically these two lil panels feel like a lot like home to me #gender #oh no i used the dreaded quotation marks in my tags and it has ruined the order of the tags #the 8th tag was supposed to say something like 'its just dykes going 'this reminds me of a dyke i know' ...' #7th tag not 8th i cant count #the point is #i tried

[gold0kapi]

Workin on Zombie!COD comics/story

#call of duty #cod #modern warfare #zombie #ghost #simon ghost riley #zombie ghost #wip #work in progress #art #drawing #comic #illustration #digital art #i'm obsessed with zombie ghost's eyes #blood #skull #what else should i add #in case people don't like this stuff #its kind of gorey i guess #gore #lol #obviously #i dunno #that's it i think

[lesbiansforangusmcdonald]

Fig, this episode: “I don’t think I wanna be a bard anymore.”

Me, already planning out the set list for the junior year tour in my head: WHAT?!?

#I mean I only have one song #it’s called ‘Wanda (Where Do You Wander?)’ #(it’s a work in progress) #but like WHAT?! #fig faeth #fhjy #fantasy high junior year spoilers #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high #fh #like do whatever makes you happy babygirl #not only are you not a real person you’re not even a cartoon character you are literally a woman in her 30s pretending to be a high schooler #so like literally do whatever #but still WHAT?!? #when Emily said that she made a decision halfway through an episode this season that completely changed the direction for the character? #I did NOT think it was gonna be her quitting the cig figs! #but I mean #I’d be lying if I said I didn’t see it coming #with all the ‘I will do literally anything to not write my album’ ir’ like yeah I see you drawing your line in the sand #fantasy high junior year

[lunarharp]

pretty & cute witch men

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i'm not drawing as much or as well as i'd like to be doing. i'm trying to get through a comic i've been really wanting to do #but i'm just finding it so hard. disheartening. btw the 2nd one relates to some official art of qif wearing a dress like the girls #and the 4th one relates to how i've been drawing EXTREMELY SMALL for years. idk how to explain it but i always clicked 'fit to screen' #and so all my art EVER has looked bad when you zoom in bc it's already like size 1 zoomed in to the MAX pfhgguguhfpfhGHAHHHHH #i was so confused allll this time why brushes always look different for me than what they're supposed to #'wow this brush is so jaggedy..really rather jaggedy...calling it the Jagged Cai Special..bringing it out for those jaggedy moments.. #really quite jaggedy i must say...' and it's literally not jaggedy #but now i have to get used to how all those brushes that i'd gotten used to indeed look how they're supposed to finally. Alarming #I have simply been working out absolutely everything by myself for years and that's why my technical progress is slow #ppl say my progress is fast and i certainly have improved much since i began doing all this but #like..it took me a year and half to start using a program where i could Colour In The Lines aka the..whatever it's called. whatever.. #just on my lonely confused solemn journey to express gay love better than yesterday.. -_- *picks up my pack n continues through the snow* #btw thank you sm for people's kind words enjoying my narumitsu art & fic over the christmas & new year period <3

[shirozora-draws]

Feeling a bit insane for taking on this merch project while trying to sruvive work, finish a fic, and continue working on another fic. Have I ever done merch before? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Have I been doing research here and there on vendors and their processes? Absolutely.

The idea is to turn all of them into stickers. Depending on how they turn out, I plan to move forward with the following:

turn the Clan of Three into an acrylic standee with Tatooine and Ossus base options

turn the keldabe kiss and Clan of Two into acrylic charms (test epoxy and holographic options?)

turn the grogu and frog eggs into an acrylic shaker charm

"Live Cheen Reaction" is too niche to do more than make a few stickers for shits & giggles

Still need to order test prints but I hate the "convert to CYMK" step and have been procrastinating. Anyway, that is the progress report on the merch front. Sure is an interesting endeavor.

#shirozora draws #dinluke #skydalorian #clan of three #clan of two #din djarin #luke skywalker #grogu #OC: cheen yofree #star wars #the mandalorian #art-in-progress #i'm still at a loss over how to brand this shit #i'm gonna have to open an etsy store and I have no idea what to call it #have the entrepreneurial spirit i do not #i hope to have a few keychains on hand when LACC rolls around #can't believe I'm in this position and trying out this shit because of star wars and the mandalorian and dinluke #god i hope i pull this off

[the-sage-libriomancer]

Shigure's relationship with Kyo drives me crazy. he doesn't hate Kyo in the slightest - in fact, he pities Kyo, and not in the condescending "oh you poor little boy, cursed to be a horrible, disgusting monster" sort of way that everyone else does. Shigure pities Kyo for the reason he should be pitied: he's just a kid caught up in a system so inhumane it can't possibly be survived without some seriously unhealthy coping mechanisms.

and it drives me crazy because - listen, Shigure is the only zodiac member who's emotionally aware enough to see the other zodiac members as exactly what they are. he knows Yuki is a severely traumatized kid who projects all of his self-hatred on a single convenient target. he knows Akito is really a scared little girl with a raging god complex (literally) and no concept of a healthy relationship. and he knows Kyo is a regular-ass human being who doesn't deserve to be locked up for the rest of his life just because some arbitrary system says so. he KNOWS it's stupid. he KNOWS it's ridiculous and unfair. and he has to share a house with Kyo knowing that Kyo is living with a sword over his head, hating himself and hating others in perfect tandem because he has no other way of coping with the insane amounts of negativity he's had to deal with his entire life.

but the thing about Shigure is that he KNOWS all of this, and the same time he doesn't really CARE. he feels sorry for Kyo, but an apathetic sort of pity, a disinterested "this is how it is. such a shame." sort of pity. in some ways he's worse than the other zodiacs because he DOES see Kyo as a person, someone he likes being around even, but he still considers Kyo below his attention because all his focus is on Akito and breaking the curse. and sure, once the curse is broken Kyo will theoretically be set free with the rest of them, but that's more of a coincidental side effect than anything. despite being in a much more dangerous and precarious mental space AND comfortably in Shigure's reach, Kyo is about as much a priority for Shigure as Ritsu or Momiji.

and it drives me CRAZY because i think Shigure does start actively caring about Kyo as the series goes on, but it's hard to tell when that happens and to what extent. when Kazuma told Shigure he planned to reveal Kyo's true form and Shigure said he was going too far - whose sake was it for? was Shigure trying to protect Kyo, who would be hideously traumatized/emotionally scarred by such a cruel betrayal? was he trying to protect Kyo and Tohru's relationship, which was still formulating and might, under such severe testing, ultimately end up damaged beyond repair? was he only trying to protect Tohru, who wasn't ready to be burdened by such a horrible aspect of the curse so soon, or perhaps simply didn't deserve it? or was it all for the sake of himself, trying to protect his still-forming plans of using Tohru's positive effect on the Sohmas to break the curse?

Shigure cares about Kyo, but they're not close and Kyo clearly isn't a priority. he treats Kyo like a person - offering him genuine advice, teasing him like he teases anyone else, even speaking up on his behalf once or twice - and yet he's too entrenched in the long game to spare much active interest in Kyo. for a very long time, he doesn't care about Kyo the way he cares about Yuki or Tohru, and it's never made clear when exactly that changed. and the thing that gets me about this whole situation is that right from the start, Shigure is in a position where he can meet Kyo at his level - as equals, just one human being to another - but he doesn't, because Shigure is a chessmaster, Shigure is someone who observes and calculates, Shigure never steps in unless one of his chess pieces makes a wrong move and he absolutely has to.

it drives me crazy. Shigure drives me crazy. this series drives me so so crazy.

#i think my point here was “shigure sees kyo as an actual human being but still treats him badly” #which is kind of the point of shigure - it's why he's such a gray character #he plays with people's lives like they're toys #but this post actually originated from the realization that shigure doesn't hate kyo in the slightest #(honestly i don't think the majority of the zodiac actually *dislikes* kyo. i think they're just too used to dehumanizing him) #and i was like “okay. so how *does* shigure view kyo?” #and then i thought about it more and went progressively more insane #tbf i think shigure knew he was being immoral in the way he treated kyo #he's incredibly self-aware and knows exactly what he's doing #he just chooses to do it anyway. that's why he calls himself “despicable” #i think the fact that kyo clearly suspects shigure has something more going on under the surface probably didn't help either #it's a very interesting sort of complex #anyway. them #fruits basket #shigure sohma #kyo sohma #analysis #edited for your convenience #(<-capitalized all the names bc it was driving me up the wall)

[tj-crochets]

My next quilting project! Technically it kinda fulfills the rainbow option from my last “what quilt to make next” poll? It’s my mom’s birthday present. Her request was for a pillowcase for the pillow on her couch, and she asked for “as colorful as possible”

This thing is going to be ridiculous and she’s going to love it lol

#sewing wip #scrap management #this is 12 out of 16 blocks in progress #I’m crumb quilting 5.5 inch square blocks in a vaguely log cabin way #to make a 20 inch square panel for the front of the pillowcase #the back will probably be envelope style (I think that’s what it’s called?) #and probably made of rainbow fabric but possibly sunflowers because my mom loves them #and I might quilt it with hearts? #I’ll see how it goes

[fromtheseventhhell]

I ignore about 95% of the conversations surrounding Arya having killed people because, outside of Arya stans, people refuse to include the context of the very violent circumstances she experiences + her trauma which influences her actions. She wasn't destined to be a killer and her being forced on the run, having to survive during a war (at times on her own), having to witness countless people being tortured and murdered, being enslaved as a prisoner of war, having to witness the deaths of her family, etc. are all hugely important factors. Not to mention the times when her life is literally on the line and she has to make tough decisions to ensure her survival. The only time her trauma is acknowledged is when people are using it to prove she's "too far gone", otherwise it's essays on how she hasn't suffered that much. It's so boring how people ignore well-developed characters just to reduce them to one or two aspects of their story. And this treatment is only for certain characters; let someone mention Sansa being part of the plot to poison Sweetrobin and all of a sudden, people can understand being forced to make questionable decisions under difficult circumstances.

#arya stark #asoiaf #fandom nonsense #I'm just so uninterested in the same boring repetitive conversations where people debate fanon characterizations...boring! yawning! sloppy! #Sorry?? I guess that she hasn't had the benefit of being in a castle the whole story with relative safety #but people trying to demonize a child who has one of the most harrowing and violent journeys for the decisions she's been forced to make #is ridiculous cause why are you more worried about how Arya reacted then to the actual situation she's in?? #If they're feeling especially faux-progressive they'll pretend to care about Daeron and cry about how innocent he was #but of course this never leads to criticism of Ned or Westerosi society...nope just calling Arya a psychopath and nothing else #At this point it's just jealousy because they know their fave never would've survived what she did and not only did she survive #but she showed off incredible skills and intelligence + has only learned and grown more + constantly gets her importance reinforced #yeah I'd be mad if she wasn't my fave either 🤭 #the disconnect between Arya antis and George is so funny cause they twist themselves in knots over how /evil/ she is and then there's #George calling her a character everyone will love ooooh shouldn't have picked one of the author's faves to hate on 🤷🏾‍♀️

[snipsper]

ULTRAKIIIIIILL DAYCARE ATTENDAAAANT

Close-ups!!

Plus an extra practice Sun in the margins of my bio nb

I’m not sure where I’m gonna take this lads, I just wanted to practice drawing V1 and then it became Sun and Moon as the prototype V models from Ultrakill. Now I’ve got two (maybe three) killer robots fueled only by the power of fresh blood. These designs may change over time if I ever polish them up and make new additions!! But this was a lotta fun!! They’re rlly getting me outta my comfort zone with new things (I couldn’t even fcking draw anything like this before like whuh)

,,and maybe I’m contemplating on adding a reader kind of thing where you’re either a resident of Hell or an archangel kinda like Gabriel, but it’s more a rivalry-turned-relationship (enemies to friends(to lovers)) that comes from power death-matches you all participate in and it blossoms from the respect on one another’s skills as you best each other in every fight. Which, I still need to concept because, I’m tired and my wrist hurts

Me thinks I have a weird thing for love in strange places and among unlikely circumstances,, staring at my other wips (that’s yet to come to light cause I wanna work on em properly,,)

So yeah! Bye! See you soon!

#fnaf #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf dca #fnaf dca au #daycare attendent #ultrakill sun #ultrakill moon #five nights at freddy's #fnaf security breach #idk what to call this potential au just yet #i’ll workshop it as i progress my marinating process ig #digital art #traditional art

[wellthatschaotic]

whenever i see someone who is like "yes but [x] isnt as oppressed as [y]!!" or "[x] is widely accepted now!!" as a way to like. disregard queer people's experiences. i'm just like. have you been outside? have you been in the real world?

#im just. #infighting is so dumb #'you're tme so you can't talk about-' first of all. we're not tme. transmasc =/= tme. honestly tme is a dumbass label anyway and has just #become a 'progressive' way to ask for agab #what do you think a boy/masc person in a dress reads as to transphobes. you think theyre gonna apologize if i say #'actually im transmasc not transfemme' #thats not how that works- #every time we try to correct our pronouns we get stopped because it's 'inappropriate' and 'uncomfortable' #same with every time we try to explain our gender #and yet there are still people online trying to judge if a complete stranger is 'queer enough' to count #(and if they're 'not' the reaction is like. death threats for some reason??) #and im always like. GO OUTSIDE. PLEASE. #the queerphobe on the bus does not ask for your labels before calling you slurs. the bully harassing you will not stop and apologize if you #try to say 'i'm not [x] actually im [y]' #they do not care. they are full of hate and they have already decided on a target. #also? you have no right to a stranger's labels and life experiences #trying to demand that is already creepy. especially since your goal is to see if they're worthy of respect #ok rant over i think. just. ahhghh

[flowery-king]

HES IN MY BRAINN GAH

bonus furry form ideas for him and his brubber:

That Soleb drawing pokin out on the right was drawn by this bitch @wackulart mwah

#i feel oh so powerful rn yall cant even look at me with judgeful ehes #ill shoot you down bAM #anyway #monster hunter AU #compiled all of them #might as well #fgarart #he calls me cat and speaks to me in spanish i aM DEAD #hm whats that? do we have a ship name? you're insane #... #it's a work in progress #edit: new tag #werewife tag

[britneyshakespeare]

wait james somerton sounds a lot like some people on tumblr when they start spouting off about queer history or supposed controversies within it. is that where you guys are getting your stuff? is it james somerton brain poisoning?

#i had never watched or heard of his channel before hbomb and todd's videos #im still watching todds video i just got past that stupid nambla part #tales from diana #i suppose there's a lot to say about people making as nick called 'observational' statements but what todd more aptly calls #pulling shit out of one's ass. #it's the same thing as somerton talking about straight women or white women or straight white women being offended at gay sex scenes #yet supposedly seeking out queer media that would have gay sex scenes? #or slighting more chaste/fluffy queer media ie heartstopper? #ppl who have these sorts of biases against certain types of gay people or their media if it's not what they see as #the most radical progressive form of queer visibility and acceptance. #creating strawmen enemies that they stand in defiance of #yeah this stuff is really getting my mind rolling #i swear ive seen a lot of these points james somerton has made being later used elsewhere on social media #was it ppl watching him who were inspired to go on these rants? #bc ive always seen these sorts of citationless rants and ravings in queer-friendly spaces and been like 'what are you talking about' #maybe someone with a scarf and a video essay voice told them smugly that these things were true #crazy. crazy #but also then again how much of this baseless speculation on social media just fueled/inspired the writing of these video essays... #idk. misinformation is a self-perpetuating cycle.