#this is my first time writing swanqueen

[grilledcheeseandguavajelly]

Almost. Again. -- Regina Mills x Emma Swan

Well hiyah Tumblr. I wrote a swanqueen fic. I don’t really know what this is. All I know is that I was watching episode 4x05 and there was a pretty harsh cut between when Emma and Regina defeated the ice monster and when the snow queen showed up. And I thought “they cut something out. We missed something” and then my brain gifted me this. So. Enjoy, I guess…? 🙈

Words: ~2,100

Warnings: None

Summary: Sometimes battles give you a rush of adrenaline. Sometimes battles exhaust you. And sometimes... Sometimes, battles are the perfect catalyst to mend relationships and create space for repressed feelings to bubble up and boil over. But not always.

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Snow monster? Melted. Emma’s hands burned a bit, but the giant thing dissolved into a puddle with a splash, so it was probably all taken care of. 

Probably. 

“I think we did it,” Emma panted, smiling despite herself. 

Because it felt good. Falling back into their rhythm, melding their magic. Working together after however long they’d been apart. It couldn’t have been more than a few days. It felt like an eternity. 

She looked over at Regina, finally catching her breath. And Regina… 

Regina was looking at her with some kind of expression, emotion, that Emma couldn’t read for the life of her. But then a beat passed, and another. And Regina was still looking at her. 

Emma cleared her throat. “Nice work.” 

That seemed to jar Regina out of her stupor, because the next thing Emma knew, she was nodding. 

“And you.” A pause. A swallow. “It seems that whole ‘learn as you go’ thing is working out for you. You didn’t need me after all.” 

Emma fought the instant response, the guttural “I will always need you” that rattled against her ribs. Instead, she settled for a simple— 

“I still have a lot to learn.” 

Regina’s lip curved at the corner, and for a moment Emma thought that she had won. That she had earned herself a smile, after all this time. But then it morphed into something sad, and Regina pinned her focus on smoothing out the hem of her shirt. And Emma’s heart splintered again. 

Always again. 

The forest was silent for a moment, their ragged breathing the only thing filling the gaps. And really, it hadn’t been that much effort. Not with Regina helping. But it was the fear, the adrenaline. The feel of it all, and how much she had missed it. 

Emma was chewing over what she could say, how she could tell her without Regina snapping her neck. She was so lost in weighing her options that she almost missed Regina breaking the silence. Beating her to it. 

“I forgot how nice that felt,” she murmured, voice low and rasping. 

Emma blamed it on the cold lingering in the air. Emma knew that she was lying to herself. 

A measured breath. “Yeah.” 

And then, to her surprise, Regina snorted. 

“Always so articulate.” 

Emma couldn’t help the smile that spread, because yes, working together had felt wonderful. It had stirred something inside of Emma that she forgot existed. Reminded her of a piece of herself that she forgot she possessed. 

But this? Regina looking up at her through heavy lashes, a smirk pulling at the corner of her mouth, one hand wrapped protectively around her stomach and fingers fidgeting with her sleeve at her elbow— This was what Emma had missed. Had longed for. This felt better than any magic ever could. 

Because Regina was open again. She was letting Emma in. She was— 

She was stepping in closer. Closing the space between them. 

Oh, shit. 

“Regina…” Emma tried, but her voice wobbled. Cracked. 

Another step. 

Emma stepped back. 

She expected Regina to stop. She expected that to be enough to break the moment (were they having a moment?), to put that wall back up between them and prompt Regina to shut herself off again. 

But she didn’t. And she was still looking at Emma like that. And Emma couldn’t breathe. Dear god, she couldn’t fucking breathe. 

Not only could she not breathe, apparently walking backwards had fallen completely out of her arsenal as well. Because the next thing Emma knew, she tripped over a large root and went careening backward. 

And then there was bark against her back. And Regina’s hand on her waist. A nice, firm, solid tree trunk had broken her fall. 

And Regina’s hand on her waist. 

Emma blamed the way her lungs constricted on having the wind knocked out of her by the impact from the tree. 

Definitely the tree. 

“Still as graceful as ever, I see,” Regina said softly, eyes flitting across Emma’s face for the briefest of seconds before boring back into hers. 

And god, anything would be better than this. Regina fully ogling her lips would be better than this. Because her eyes were dark in the deep forest, and glittering against the moonlight. And Emma was certain that Regina could see straight through her, let alone read her thoughts. 

She was definitely not having appropriate thoughts. 

And she blamed Regina for every single one of them, because her hand was still on Emma’s fucking waist. 

“I— um.” It just fell out. Because Emma felt like she needed to say something, but there was no coherent thought to pull any kind of anything from. Not in Emma’s head. Not with Regina looking at her like that.  

“We really need to work on your vocabulary.” 

Remember when Emma thought she’d rather have Regina ogling her lips? When that would have been easier? 

Yeah. She was wrong. She was so, entirely and completely wrong. Because in the next second Regina’s gaze dropped, and Emma’s heart went right along with it. 

“I missed… what our magic feels like pooled together.” Regina’s voice was low. Careful. But Emma didn’t miss the hesitation. Didn’t miss the way that Regina’s gaze snapped back to her own. 

Didn’t miss that tiny flicker of longing in her eyes. 

They spent enough time dancing around each other for Emma to know it when she saw it. And she saw it. Plain as day. 

And that’s why she gathered up enough courage to slide her hand beneath Regina’s jacket. Over the curve of her waist. 

She let out a slow breath as the warmth seeped against her palm, eyes fluttering shut. 

Her thumb brushed over the smooth fabric of Regina’s shirt, and in the stillness of the night, Emma caught the tiniest hum that racked up Regina’s throat. It was enough to prompt her to open her eyes. Because she needed to know if Regina was looking at her the way that Emma wanted her to, the way that she used to. She needed to know. 

Emma startled, shoving herself back against the tree. Because Regina had gotten close, so close. Too close. And Emma could feel her soft breath washing over her cheeks. Could smell her perfume, still perfectly placed, even after the long trek here. And a battle. 

And Regina was leaning in, leaning up on her toes. Closer, closer.  

Emma would have closed her eyes if she hadn’t been so focused, so completely enamored with that little scar above Regina’s lip. The way it stretched as Regina licked her lips, smoothed them together. 

And then Regina let out the smallest, shakiest breath. And then she pressed her forehead against Emma’s. Sighed. 

Somehow, that felt more intimate that a kiss. Than a hug. Than anything Emma had been expecting. She didn’t know what she had been expecting. But she knew that this was infinitely better. 

“You’re going to be the death of me, Miss Swan,” Regina breathed. And was she…? Yes. Regina was nuzzling her forehead against her. 

But the words stuck, and Emma didn’t like them. 

“Why do you keep doing that?” she asked softly, pushing at Regina gently. Pushing her back, despite everything that screamed for her to pull her closer. “Why do you keep calling me Miss Swan?” 

Regina swallowed. Straightened. “So now I’m not allowed to say your name? It’s always infinite, pointless rules with you.” 

“I wish you would.” 

Shit. 

Shit.  

“Would what?” 

“Say my name.” She needed to stop talking. There was an inch of space between them now and she could finally breathe, and she needed to stop talking before she suffocated again. “I wish you would call me Emma… like you used to.” 

Welp. She never could trust her heart. And here it was, overriding her brain and screwing her over once again. 

Or so she thought. Until Regina didn’t push her away and tell her off. Until Regina didn’t laugh in her face and call her a stupid child. 

Until Regina stared her down, jaw working and nostrils flaring with deliberate breaths. Eyes searching. 

Until Regina swallowed around whatever she was about to say. Squeezed her hands into fists. And breathed Emma’s name out on a ragged exhale. 

It did something, that breath. Emma didn’t quite know what it was, but it set something hot pooling through her veins and something spiky constricting around her heart. 

And if she thought she couldn’t breathe then, the air got kicked out of her again as Regina repeated it. Firmer this time. 

“Emma…” 

She stepped closer. Pressed in. Pinned Emma against that stupid fucking tree. 

And Emma could have sworn she saw Regina’s hand shaking as she smoothed it over Emma’s shoulder. Slid it down to her waist. Squeezed. 

“Emma,” she breathed, and it almost sounded like a plea. 

Her breath was heavy now. Emma could see her chest heaving under her shirt. Could feel the tiny, fast puffs of it against her lips. But most of all— 

Most of all, Emma could feel that energy coming off of her. Crackling and sizzling and hot. Pounding through the thick of the air and pulling Emma in, in, in. Making every atom inside of her vibrate with a want that she couldn’t describe. Didn’t understand. All she understood was Regina. All she could comprehend was Regina. Their breathing syncing, their heartbeats thudding together. 

And she didn’t know why it got like this, why the need rang out this loud. Why Emma’s body responded to Regina’s like this. She knew it wasn’t a spell. It wasn’t a curse. She didn’t know if it was their magic, having its own conversation and yanking them together, or if it was just Regina herself, Emma’s body ready and waiting to worship her like the goddess she was. 

It wouldn’t take much now, just the smallest tilt of her chin. The tiniest shift. And Emma could do that. She could absolutely do that. But so could Regina. And she wasn’t. And Emma didn’t know if she was debating, what she was waiting for, when she had Emma literally pinned and at her mercy— 

Regina’s hand tightened, nails digging in. 

“Someone’s here.” 

And then the moment broke, the tension shattering around Emma like her own personal wall of ice as Regina pushed away. 

She barely had time to think about how fucking ironic that was, how cold she felt in this stupid forest without Regina pressing into her. And then Regina said her name again. 

This time, it sounded like a warning. This time, it was too wary and too firm, and Emma decidedly didn’t like it coming out of Regina’s mouth when it sounded like that. When Regina had that look in her eye. 

“We should leave,” Regina tried, reaching for Emma’s arm. Her hand? God, Emma couldn’t think. All she could register was Regina pulling her off of the tree, dragging her back the way they had come. And god, how could Regina be so put together and observant after— 

“What a welcome visit, ladies.” 

The wave of cold hit Emma in the stomach, pulsing off of the snow queen and hanging rigid in the air. Keeping her pinned. Slowing her down. Regina’s hand fell from hers. 

Against everything, it burned. 

It all happened so fast after that. 

One second, it was pleasantries. Niceties. Everything was civil and Emma thought that maybe they could all actually have a proper conversation with her head screwed on straight. And then Regina’s mirror, in the wrong hands. And then those hands, lifting Regina off the ground and suffocating her. Suffocating Emma. 

Ice flying, cold air filling her lungs. A whirl of snow, and quiet descending once more on the forest. Regina huffing out a long breath. Emma reaching for her, questioning. Regina glaring back, shaking her head. And then the anger, the betrayal. That acute hurt from before that had been thrown on the back burner, evaporated to oblivion by the feel of Regina’s hand on Emma’s waist. 

It all came crashing back down at that look on Regina’s face, fully formed. A brick in her stomach. 

Like she said, it all happened so fast. Emma asked a simple question with too much hurt laced into it. And Regina bit back. Too hard. 

Emma blinked, and the next thing she knew, Regina was gone in a swirl of smoke, her words ringing low and dangerous in the air. 

“I don’t want to.” 

And so, Emma did the only thing she could do. The only thing she knew how to do. She took a deep breath, pretended that Regina’s words didn’t shatter her heart. Again. And then she went about the rest of her day, just like usual.

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[bytherosebushlaughing]

one fine star away (2/?)

RATING: M

PAIRING: Swanqueen

SUMMARY

The relationship between Emma Swan and Regina Mills has been subject of much speculation since hit television series "Once Upon A Time" ended abruptly in the 80s. No one knows for certain what happened between the two actresses. Rookie journalist and writer Henry has loved "Once Upon A Time" for years, and like the rest of the world, has been dying to know the truth behind the end of his favorite show. With rumors of a cast reunion for the first time in decades circulating, Henry is thrust into the opportunity of a lifetime—a chance to write an exclusive tell-all article about Emma's time on the show and the truth about her relationship with Regina.

NOTES: Loosely based on "The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo" by Taylor Jenkins Reid.

They’d both had some great success after the shows end, becoming A-listers in their own rite, but Regina had taken a step back from the spotlight at the end of the nineties to focus more on producing and directing, following in the footsteps of her mother. Emma was still acting, but her roles seemed to have slowed in recent years. 

One thing’s for certain—there was so much behind-the-scenes drama from the cast, that this reunion was bound to be interesting and revealing in many ways. While subsets of the cast had remained close over the years, all of the drama between them had certainly tarnished some relationships. And here Henry was, about to be at the center of it all.

I’m really going to have my work cut out for me.

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#swanqueen #sq #swan queen #swan queen fanfiction #emma x regina #emma swan #regina mills #once upon a time #ouat #ouat fic

[zaffiri-saffici]

Here's a screenshot of my fic's tagline from the SQSN Blurb Generator. (if you want to use the generator yourself to read the other taglines for the amazing fics being released, click here!)

Ahhhh, y'all don't know HOW excited I am about this!

Not many know this, but I've been in a big writing slump the last 10+ years. I used to write Sweenett, Bellamort, Bellamoine (my how the times have changed lol) and when I got a corporate job, I lost a lot of my motivation to be creative from a storytelling perspective. Going into 2023, I decided it was time to change that.

This year's SwanQueen Supernova Challenge was just the kick I needed to get motivated to write again. Over the last few months, I've put together a ~86K retelling of the Camelot arc, a story that does the arc justice and gives us the SwanQueen tale we should have gotten on screen - the real story that was being set up since the beginning of the show.

This arc was especially impactful for me when it first aired years ago. After Emma sacrificed herself in place of Regina to become the Dark One at the end of season 4, I thought to myself, Yes, this is it. This is how the writers are going to finally give us SwanQueen. The greatest magic in OUAT is about True Love, and love is sacrifice - the ways in which we demonstrate, through our actions, what oftentimes words fail to do, right?

Wrong. A&E shat the bed, turned the Dark Swan arc into a complete mess, and slapped a big CS stamp on it at the end. Outside of just the blatant queer bait, 5A was simply: unfulfilling. It was lopsided, lazy. It did not fit the countless messages we were receiving as watchers and fans of the show, in all the ways the writers would define what 'True Love' was, to then push the story in a direction that made no sense to those definitions.

Well, this October, as part of SQSN, I'm here to change that. I am so excited about this piece. I am so proud of myself, too. I have never put together something so large (my longest fic was 18K words and is still incomplete). Further, I've never put together something as complex and full as this piece. It not only rounds out that arc, along with lots of the unanswered concepts that the show introduced in earlier seasons that eventually went nowhere, it does it in a way that feels right. Good.

This story was a practice in healing; I hope it can offer you the same.

Sneak Peak 1 | Sneak Peak 2 | Sneak Peak 3

Stay tuned for the reveal and the fic link drop this October 3rd!

10/3 Edit: The fic is officially here! Enjoy, my friends!

#swan queen #swanqueen #regina mills #emma swan #fanfiction #sq #sq ff #sq fanfiction #swanqueen fanfiction #sapphic fanfiction #lesbian fanfiction #sqsn #swanqueen supernova #swan mills family #sqsn viii #sqsn viii reveals #swen #personal

[elephant-in-the-pride-parade]

20 Fic Writer Quesions

First, thank you @singeart and @mytardisisparked for tagging me!. I did a set of these last year and it was fun to see how my answers have changed since then!

How many works do you have on Ao3?

61

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count?

1.6 million and counting!

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Star Trek Voyager

Star Trek Prodigy

Sailor Moon

Harry Potter

Madam Secretary

Ive debated writing SwanQueen for a long time but by the time I had the energy and time to write, I'd lost interest in the show. I might rewatch and come back to it one day...

I have thought about writing Wynonna Earp or Tamora Pierce universe fanfiction but have yet to get an idea that grabs me. I like to find things i want to fix and it's hard when the source material is perfection.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

The Parent Trap (305)

Sailor Moon H Order of the Phoenix (289)

Sailor Moon H Half Blood Prince (222)

Eden's Deception (167)

Out of Reach (150)

5. Do you respond to comments?

I try to! although if I'm busy or feeling down it can take me a while. Sometimes I forget.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I still think What Even is 3 Minutes takes the cake. Or I'll be Your First if You'll be my Last

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I Heard the Comm on Christmas Morn and Parent Trap

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Unfortunately I've gotten hate on fics since I started writing them... and it's become just something I expect to happen. Sometimes it's funny. Sometimes it confuses me. Sometimes it makes me sad. It really depends...

The memorable haters:

There was the delightful Fanfiction.net reviewer who got pissed i was "making everybody gay" (that was funny actually). I forget if they were the same person who flamed me when Mcgonagall and Hooch kissed under some mistletoe. I digress. They thought queering up the canon was like sinful or whatever. I was delighted to disagree and make the story even queerer.

Another person cussed me out for magically restraining Sailor Plutos time travel powers so my plot would work and for making her have feelings about it. aparently mad the senshi were not all powerful deus exmachinas who never feel feelings... That one stung. That was the reason I left FFN.

Hate because in Sailor Moon H, Harry Potter was not the main character.

Hate that I made a magic bio baby for the magical lesbians. (I can't have a biobaby with my wife irl, can't I at least let the fantasy girlies have one!)

Hate for including C/7 in a story

...I wouldn't call it hate for the fic but I have had an uncomfortable amount of commenters who hate on Chakotay any time I have him involved with Seven / don't have him grovel to Kathryn / really any time I let him advocate for how he's been hurt... at first comments like this stressed me out because i worried i had not written the character sufficiently sympathetic. But then Parent Trap breached containment and I got enough comments to be able to see I had definitely written the character fine... it was just that some people were always just rooting for a "Chakotay falls over himself to apologize to Janeway for not immediately dating her" storyline that... I'm not sorry 😅 I'm never going to write that. The older I get the more I feel like both of J/C just need therapy! They've been through so much trauma. Their feelings are valid (yes, even for other people).

Parent Trap breaching containment also meant that when I hit an irl rut and couldnt get in the writing headspace for a bit, a bunch of - sincerely, well meaning - fans got into their heads to start a commenting campaign to get me to update. I heard about it and panicked (i had bad experiences that year of getting people who only commented "update soon" and those conversely stressed me out and made me not want to write - I love fic writing for the conversations and community... so it made me feel like readers thought i was just a content vending machine). so just the thought of potentially getting an avalanche of guests, well meaning or not, begging me to update made me lock commenting until the fic was done. I wound up deciding after that that since "update soon" requests were becoming a lot more frequent that I'd consider before posting whether getting them would hurt my ability to finish. So most of the time now if I know a fic is going to reach a bigger potential community, I don't start posting it until it's almost done. That has had some upsides! (Im less dependent on positive feedback for motivation now!) and some downsides (no one comments on my fics with their theories anymore) but on a whole, a good decision.

Immediately after finishing Parent Trap I wrote Fever and got this amazing guest comment from someone who said (paraphrasing cuz i'm too busy to go find it) "Youre better than this. how dare you write this filth. J/C are better than this" that one had me laughing for days. But the comment did prompt me to create a second account later when I wrote a tentacle fic. At the time I worried i'd get a ton of similar flame comments from people who were subscribed to my main for other types of fic... but I am even feeling like that's unnecessary now. I write what I write! Yes, some of it is really dirty, weird smut. I'm not sorry.

Currently any time I post a Threshold AU fic an anon drops into my comments section in order to call me "Sick" and "Deranged"... they make me so sad I don't even make a quippy reply. I just delete them. I write that universe for my own wish fulfillment... Someday (soon, hopefully) I'm gonna have kids. And I am going to have to have conversations with them about who their biological dad is. Why they look like one mom and not the other, whether their non bio family love them even if theyre not blood related. I might have a kid who feels different from everyone else because they're queer or they're neurodivergent or they're some new alienating feeling I am totally unprepared for. and I'll need to help them navigate that.. Writing about hybrid salamander kids getting raised in a blended family is FUN. But more importantly... it helps me practice those situations. It comforts me to know that if the characters can figure this out in the AU then I can figure this out in real life! What the hell is sick and deranged about that!?

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I write all sorts of smut. I post the stuff that doesn't totally mortify me once i've gotten out of whatever mood had me writing the smut in the first place.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I have exactly two crossovers to my name: Sailor Delta and Sailor Moon H. I think on the basis of word count alone Sailor Moon H (>500,000) is definitely the craziest.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I consider the unlicensed use of the AO3 archive for ChatGPT and similar LLMs theft. (and there are several court cases pending that are also seeking to address whether it is legally theft as it pertains to published fiction and newspapers). The canon creators of the fandoms I write for aren't allowed to make money by using uncredited ideas pulled from my fanfiction (just like I am not allowed to make money from writing fic with their copyrighted settings and characters) and i continue to be apalled that ChatGPT and other LLMs think they can get away with using others copyrighted ideas without permission. Especially that they can take advantage of people who cant profit off their own work.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? 

No but i would be open to it!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! Once with @magdalenejaneway, once with @jellybeansarecool and once with @trekflower and all three were fantastic!

Most of what I write for Threshold AU is also increasingly collaborated on a great deal by the AU creators and a few other folks. It's been going for over 2 years now and doing that more and more has enabled us all to drop more references to previous fics and to create a more cohesive body of fic for the AU. in general its just been so fun and fulfilling to make these stories with other people who are as invested in the characters as me and it just fills me with joy. I'm really grateful for you guys.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

On the one hand J/C have inspired over 50 fics, But on the other I have also been loving Sailor Moon and those ships since before I knew what fandom or shipping were. And really the only reason J/C inspire more fic is that all the sailor moon characters got a happy ending.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I never want to give up on a WIP...

but I am in knots about what all to do with Out of Reach.

Out of Reach is a St:Prodigy S1 AU where Chakotay has amnesia and doesn't remember anything from his time on Voyager, all the while he and Kathryn are in a situationship with a baby.

There's two questions I never figured out how to answer: 1. Does he get his memories back. If so, how much and what enables it. and 2: Do he and Kathryn stay together?

On the memories front. saying he never recovers seems unfair to the character. But saying he magically does thanks to 24th century science feels cheap and disrespectful - to the reality of real memory loss and to the plot that built up so much tension around this. Saying he gets back some or more over time is more realistic, but left me uncertain of where exactly to end the story. Tying his retrieval of memories to Kathryn also tied me up in knots. On the one hand they're in love and thats romantic. on the other hand the optics of his recovery totally dependent on one person is icky.

I also found the baby really annoying to have there by the end - I still think he's cuteeee i really do!!! - it's just... he makes the "we should stay together and try to figure this out" answer a bit too convenient 😅. and he complicates Kathryns reluctance to restart their relationship. The more she resists, the more callous she seems (deliberately not trying to patch things up with her kid's father) when i really just want to focus on her fears that Chakotay would be happier without her and that even if they restart their romance, she might lose him again on a future mission. It's ironic because i originally created the baby to ensure she wouldnt just run away from her fears. And now hes contributing to my difficulty ending the fic...

Actually the more I think on it, my real problem is I could write my way out of this, but I cant do it in only one or two chapters and that makes me feel tired. i was sorta hoping to wrap that fic up. 😅🙈

16. What are your writing strengths?

Imagery has always been a strength for me. But i think I'm also getting really good at action scenes too.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Oneshots.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Only if it was information i wanted the reader to understand but not the POV character.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

W.I.T.C.H way back when I was 15.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Universe to Mend - I even have a few sequel or companion novel ideas to come after it.

This has gone on a while... 😅 - thank you for tagging me and letting me ramble! i'll tag anyone else who wants to answer! have at it.

#writing asks #elephantwrites

[psapphic95]

How did you get into writing and how did u get into this "scene". you've made me get to know myself better and I love your stories so much so I was curious if there was a story for you or a life event that got you into this "kink"?? Sorry I don't know how to word this better. Also do you have any sapphic book recommendations or any story recs. Have a great day <3

Hey hey,

Interesting question! It's a long story, so buckle in.

I've always been kind of kinky. Even when I was little (think 6 or 7 years old) I'd have thoughts and daydreams about the older girls or teachers at school forcibly like, cuddling or kissing me, even when I'd refuse. Obviously, I didn't know what it meant at the time and it was mostly sort of innocent, I just knew that I found it exciting.

Anyway, fast-forward to when I found a way to get around the child lock that my parents put on my Internet access and I got unrestricted access at about 13 years old. I had started puberty and stumbled across erotic fiction on 'Literotica.' That's when I read this story for the first time: https://www.literotica.com/s/student-lesbian-bdsm

And it put into words all the things I'd fantasised about for ages. I wanted a relationship like Erica and Anna had. Now, obviously, I realise this story is awful BDSM etiquette and very abusive in a lot of senses. Still, at the time it was an eye-opener and I fell headlong into the world of lesbian BDSM erotic fiction.

Then, at around 15-ish, I started to write my own erotic fiction in my iPod Touch notes. These stories were absolute filth and were extreme self-inserts of a main character definitely modeled on me, and the love interests were modeled after teachers and various authority figures in my life. I recently found my iPod and read the stuff I used to write - it was actually very good and well-written, but obviously, some of the descriptions of how s*x felt weren't totally believable hahaha.

Anyway, fast-forward to when I was about 22. I'd had a lot more sexual experiences since being at university, but it wasn't necessarily always kinky. When I was doing my Masters, I got into a relationship with someone who was a lot older than me and into kink - we began a mildly D/s relationship that was pretty stable for the most part but I just wasn't in the right place for it. She taught me a lot about myself, kink, and sex. As a way to procrastinate doing my Dissertation, I began writing about made-up characters again - and I stumbled across AO3 for the first time and also the SwanQueen fandom. From there I just sort of incorporated some of the way my relationship ran between my then-GF/domme and myself.

That's the long and short of it really! I've been writing for a lot, lot, longer than I've been sharing my work with you guys.

As for fic recommendations - I have loads but I'll share my all-time favourite fics:

Sugar Baby by TheEvangelion

Sugar and Spice by ScribblingPunk

Make Yourself At Home by PrincessPestilience

Lady Beneviento and Her Gift by LadyV_writes

She Who Waits in The Dark by Lyris_Lionheart

Hope that answers your question!

#ask response #libra speaks #life story #k!nk #mommy k!nk #ao3 author #ao3 fanfic #fanfic #fanfiction recommendation

[rippersz]

20 Author Questions:

Tagged by @weemssapphic ; thank you darling! What a treat ^^

How many works do you have on Ao3?

Combined with both accounts? 12.

2. What's your total Ao3 word count?

134,494 in total.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Gwendoline Christie characters; Resident Evil 8: Village; The Devil Wears Prada.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Fridays Are Her Least Favorite Days

Coping with Larissa Weems As Your Boss: A Guide For Lesbians

It Was A Wicked Thought

She Was Everything

How To Love A Creature So Unlike You

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

No. Not because I don't care, but because I don't want my comments to be mixed up with theirs - and I take all of them to heart. I read them all and I read them all a million times. Just because I don't respond doesn't mean I don't appreciate; and there's only so many ways to say thank you. I feel the need, every time, to one-up myself. So.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

LOVING YOU IS BEAUTIFUL: - I think this one, honestly? It leaves me with such a sense of dread and loss of hope at the end. I don't know why.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

The Sweet Silver-Lining of Miranda Priestly - It's full of hope. A very ambiguous ending. This oneshot made me feel very happy while writing it - which is not something I feel often while writing. So that was a nice change of pace.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No. And I don't deserve hate. ;P

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes. I don't consider myself to be very good at it though. And I always write wlw. G!P and kink is usually included too because I cannot get enough.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

No, aside from the Alcina and Larissa one I just did.

11. Have you ever had a fiction stolen?

No. And I hope it never happens.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

One or two people have offered/asked, and I've given permission, but could never find the sites in which they reposted and translated them to. So..

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No. Had plans but never went through with them.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

I love x reader ships, but in other media... probably Linda Martin x Mazikeen from Lucifer.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

There's too many to count.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think my best writing quality is the fact that it comes so easily to me. It's just who I am. My flow, my ability to convey and stir emotion, my descriptions of love.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I make promises that I won't keep. I am shit at dialogue. I overexplain or underexplain. I am rarely satisfied with what I create.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

The only language I utilize/add is Romanian. I use it quite often in Lady Dimitrescu fics and it often strengthens the appeal and mood of the moment.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

SwanQueen; Once Upon A Time.

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

I do enjoy the cannibal Larissa Weems series.

As well as The Sweet Silver-Lining of Miranda Priestly

(Cock)y is also good. Hehe.

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Thank you for the tag again! ^^ - Rip x

#rippersz #fanfictionwriter #author questions #tag #tag game #fanficwriter #ripleytalks

[jazzfordshire]

What are some of your favourite series, characters and ships?

Currently I’m not really watching anything besides the food network and cycling comfort shows! I’m in more of a video game phase atm. In terms of longterm interests I tend to like one thing at a time and pour all my energy into it, so my progression has been something like this:

2009-2012: faberry

2012-2016: swanqueen

2016-2017: root/shaw

2018-present: supercorp

In all cases i enjoyed the show itself at first, got attached to the characters, and then the show got bad and I ignored it and stuck with fanfic lmao. But I’d never been brave enough to write anything myself until supercorp!

[hemerae-ramblings]

20 questions for writers

Thanks @pia-writes-things and @bourbon-ontherocks for the tag!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

14!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

236,917

3. What fandoms do you write for?

It really changes according to my current favourite piece of media, but mainly: l'Art du crime, Doctor Who, and HPI

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Asynchrones : my first long-fic ! took 6 months give or take to finish, loved it !

Valse en cinq temps : My first fic in French! Quite daunting actually, especially in a small fandom. Based on the usual "X times they did, 1 time they didn't"

Courants marins : The big one as they said, 100K words of HPI AU, processing trauma one pavé at a time

The only way forward : wandavision fic, the first thing I posted on AO3, and one of the two fics I wrote in english

Fell in love with the fire (long ago) : HPI one-shot, written in a single night and posted shortly after (editing? What editing?)

5. Do you respond to comments?

Every chance I get ! Time does get out of hand sometimes, but i always try to

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Au revoir mon amour for sure, i mean is IS an MCD

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I wouldn't even know ! I usually am a sucker for happy endings so most of them ? Paradoxes is one that sticks out to me recently I would say

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Never have (crossing my fingers)

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No. I don't think I'll ever do it!

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I don't ! I have trouble fusing two separate universes in writing I think, at least that's how i see it

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No (i don't think?)

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Planned to co-write some, never got to (life tends to get in the way!)

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

I have more than one ! Excluding actual hyperfixations, i'd say Swanqueen, Twissy (obviously), Twelve x River (specifically)

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I usually work on one fic at a time so i don't tend to have WIPs (or well-advanced ones at least).

16. What are your writing strengths?

It's easiest for me to write descriptions and/or internal monologues ! At least that's what comes out fastest, and is usually the scenes I envision when planning a piece of writing (like, big emotional scenes and/or action)

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

DIALOGUES, they are the bane of my existence. Although it's gotten easier lately.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Dialogues specifically are hard for me, in French or another language. And the rythme changes a lot in English for example, so that's another adjustment to make

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Wandavision I think

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Again, I wouldn't really know ! It's like picking a favourite child, i like them all for VERY different reasons :)

#asking games #writing

[fiadorable]

20 questions for fic writers

Thanks for the tag, @curator-on-ao3 🫶

1. How many works do you have on Ao3? 46 works, but if you parse the three drabble collections and a ficlet collection it jumps up to 96.

2. What's your total Ao3 word count? 142,888

3. What fandoms do you write for? Star Trek Strange New Worlds, The Librarians, Once Upon a Tme, Star Trek Voyager, The X-Files (none on ao3), Harry Potter, and King & Maxwell

4. What are your top five fics by kudos? Where Flowers Bloom: The F*ck You Bouquet Once Upon a Time, SwanQueen, Rated T, 2.8k words Prom season is keeping Regina Mills, proprietor of Fairytale Flowers, busy, but when Emma Swan storms into her store one day with a unique request and a hidden connection, her day shifts from busy to odd to (dare she say it) hopeful.

revelation in the light of gray Star Trek Strange New Worlds, PikeUna, Rated G, 2.8k words Ensign Uhura stumbles into sickbay late one night and discovers something new about Captain Pike and Number One.

love is a ghost you can't control Star Trek Strange New Worlds, PikeUna, Rated T, 4.3k words One or two times Christopher Pike, uh, asked Una Chin-Riley about romance while they were both serving on the Antares. (This fic was inspired by and based on a scenario referenced in @curator-on-ao3's fic The Haze!)

Of Paperwork, Knots, and Warm Glowy Things, or, Roland Registers for Kindergarten Once Upon a Time, OutlawQueen, Rated G, 10.5k words Sometimes, Henry lets him sit on his bed with his old textbooks splayed open on his lap, the large tomes covering his legs as he runs his hands across the shiny paper, drinking in the bright pictures breaking up the dark columns of text. The older boy warned him he might not have hardbacked books like that until first grade, but Roland doesn't care. He's going to carry his own backpack and learn how to write and memorize all the names of all the bugs in this realm.

Trekalicious Drabbles Star Trek Strange New Worlds, PikeUna + La'an & Chapel + La'an & Una + Sir Adya/Z'ymria, Rated T, 2.1k words A collection of 100 word drabbles for the #Wednesday100 challenge

5. Do you respond to comments? I'm trying to! I'm very bad about doing it in a timely manner 🙈

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Oh, definitely the scorch. That piece is pure, distilled angst.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Of Paperwork, Knots, and Warm Glowy Things is pretty saccharine

8. Do you get hate on fics? Yeah, I attracted a few trolls with So Are We Alright Then?. Luckily they were no match for the almighty "delete comment" function. Most people are nice.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Eh? Kind of? Most of my stuff stays M or below.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I've done one: an ending unforseen, which is a crossover between Strange New Worlds and Voyager. I threw Christopher Pike into the Delta Quadrant on Voyager so he could have a chat with Kathryn Janeway.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I know of

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yep!

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? I can't pick a favorite, but I will say that Mulder/Scully, fanon Janeway/Chakotay, OutlawQueen, and Pike/Una have all been formative ships that I've enjoyed watching/reading/writing for over the years.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? First Day (Once Upon a Time OQ). 1 chapter published as a one shot that was received so well I turned it into a novel-length fic that was never published (19 chapters, 8 alternate universes visited, 40k words written with barely the surface scratched). I love it. It's my white whale. I open it up and marvel at the audacity and ambition of my younger self every now and then.

16. What are your writing strengths? Characterization, dialogue. Sometimes I concentrate hard and pull off some nifty minimalist prose.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Details and self doubt.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I'm not bilingual, so if I did, I would 100% run it by a native speaker if someone was available to spot check.

19. First fandom you wrote for? Either Voyager or X-Files, I can't remember which

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? I love writing the drabbles, they're little puzzleboxes of happy.

tagging: @enterprise-come-in and @meddow with apologies if y'all've been there done that

#fic meme

[seikilos-stele]

This is one of those questions that I want to ask a lot of authors, because I curious how many answers will be the same (if any)

The the basic premise is Do You Control Fic or Does it Control You?

What I mean by this is broken down into a few sub questions

Do you watch a show or read a book & fic ideas just pop into your head?

Are you watching/reading something and you are unsatisfied with the plot, but love the characters, therefore, set out to fix it?

Do you intend to write fic from the start, so you go in search of inspiration?

Have you ever completely lost interest in the canon, but still love the characters/fic (therefore, no longer revisit the original source of the fic?)

As is usual, this is just a guide. Answer any which way you would like - long answers are always welcome!

Wow, I think all of the above, multiple times!

The first type, where fic ideas just pop into my head — that’s the most difficult to write. I mean, it’s the most difficult to follow through 😆 sometimes I’ll write the ideas down, but once I’ve moved on to the next episode or book, I lose interest. So out of all these, statistically, this is the one you’d see the least.

#2 — setting out to fix it. Of course! I’ve probably written like, hundreds of post-Bilbringi fics and fics set in-between the Legends Thrawn trilogy, where I wished there was more character development with Thrawn and Pellaeon.

#3 — intending to write fic from the start, going in search of inspiration. This, probably more than anything else. When I first started writing on AO3, I made a kind of arbitrary goal to write a fic for everything I read or watched. Luckily when the stakes are that low you can basically just open a blank document and write whatever comes to mind, and it turns out okay — you’re like, “This ain’t my fandom, I’m just strolling through.” You don’t care if people even read it, so you don’t stress about prose or characterization 😆 it’s very nice!

I do this for fandoms I actually like too, because I usually want to write every day, but don’t always have a current idea. So I keep lists of interesting prompts and ideas, that way I never run out of material. Some of them get so stale that I never end up using them, but it’s still nice to have them there!

#4 — this happened with Once Upon a Time. I thought it was a bad show straight from Episode 1, but I loved Robert Carlyle’s character, so I watched it for him. All the way up until Season 3! At that point, Mr. Gold’s character arc was taking too many exhausting dips and turns, and the show wasn’t up to the task of explaining why. I stopped watching, but I kept up to date with the show’s shenanigans, read tons of fics, and wrote somewhere around 40 or 50 myself.

(It’s funny — I did write a few tiny fics BEFORE the show went bad; but it’s only the fics I wrote AFTER that I saved)

There are some great fix-its for that fandom btw 😆 I was also a huge fan of SwanQueen (main character Emma Swan x main villain Regina Mills) but in S3 they introduced a straight romance for Emma that I couldn’t STAND, so I read lots of fix-its for them too. My own fics weren’t really fix-its; they were AUs, almost always hurt/comfort. The show offered us plenty of material for that!

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Maybe also worth mentioning:

1) when you’re reading a nonfiction book, but you’re thinking so hard about your favorite show that you end up with 7 plot bunnies all stemming from that single nonfiction piece that has nothing to do with Star Trek or Gargoyles or—

2) the private fanfics that you never bother to write down but replay in your head with minor tweaks each night before you go to bed. All of them are write-able! Many people would probably like to read them! But they seem somehow off-limits to me 😆 like, no, I’m only allowed to write fics based off stuff I think of in the shower, or at my desk — in bed??? That’s blasphemy

#my asks

[naralanis]

20 Questions

Thanks @silv3reyedstranger for the tag! My meeting can wait, this is more fun lol

How many works do you have on AO3?

44 (my wife's saying it's bad luck, so I guess I better make it 45 soon)

2. What's you total AO3 count?

601,330 which is weirdly way more than I expected but also way less? How dare AO3 not count all the words I've never posted, this is homophobia

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I got my start in the Devil Wears Prada and Harry Potter fandoms, and then the supercorp gifs pulled a bag over my head, tossed me in a van, and made me hyperfixate on a really bad but really gay show, so. I've also written for Xena Warrior Princess and ATLA/ATLOK, but I've never posted for those. There is an errant OUAT SwanQueen one-shot out there, courtesy of some insane people I love.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

In order, they’re Perhaps, For the Better, Perfect, The Date and, surprisingly, The Wrong Way. I didn't expect that last one at all, to be honest.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do appreciate every single one (they’re a writer's main source of nourishment) but I am terrible at responding to each and every one. There will be times where I'll go on comment-replying marathon and then I forget about it for like, a year. My bad! I do love all the comments and I re-read them all the time when I'm feeling kind of shit. They bring so much joy to my heart and occasional (happy) tears to my eyes.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably Unshackled, but I'm not sure if that counts because the happy ending came in part two. But for the people who didn't know there was a part two… that was probably the angstiest I've managed! I love angst, but I have to have the happy ending, whether I'm reading or writing it.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Oof, I don't know. I try to have happy endings to most things. I think the one that jumps to mind is i don't know how to dance so slow (to keep up with you). I don't think it's necessarily the happiest ending, it's just this whole fic plays in my head so clearly, almost like it's a movie, and it just gives me the good feels. It's short and sweet, and it makes me happy.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I think if I wrote more I'd get some lol. I used to get some trolls here and there, especially flames back on FanFiction.net. A couple on Perhaps, but the Cissamione peeps were awesome helping me deal with them. Nowadays everything's pretty chill.

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

*points at The Adventures of Soft Butch Hermione*

Not to mention all the stuff I don't post. Smut has to be just right to make the cut. Nothing too crazy, but ya know I have to sprinkle some praise kink in there.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Nope, and I don't think I ever will. The most I've done is borrow other characters from within the same universe (see Luthor Motor Racing AU), usually as a joke/easter egg. I'm usually not a fan or crossovers (writing or reading), but there are a handful of exceptions here and there.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

HAHA yeah. A couple of times. Usually found on Wattpad, or translated into Portuguese and posted to some Brazilian site without my permission. Side note, why is it always Brazilians. I'M ONE OF YOU, PLS

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Yeah! To Russian, French and Mandarin (with permission) and Portuguese (without), at least as far as I know. I'm totally cool with translations, just like. Ask me first, give me the credit for the original work, and send me a link! I love to see translations of my stuff, especially if it's in a language I can speak.

13. have you ever cowritten a fic before?

@shadowdianne and I had some incredible back-and-forth a few years back, but it never really went anywhere (although I maintain our ideas were FIRE). It was a frankly amazing take on Narcissa as a character, with some sprinkle of a Narlily friendship and Cissamione endgame. We both had other stuff going on, so it never really developed further, but I still have the docs with all of our ideas and frankly hilarious commentary.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Don't make me pick just one, I can't.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

At this point, all of them I think? Brain's just not braining that way.

16. What are your writing strengths?

It used to be world-building and environment descriptions, but to be honest I haven't flexed those writing muscles in ages. I think I can tell a lot with not much real-estate. I also think my readers/fellow writers would be better at answering this one lol

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

The writing part.

Jokes aside, it's actually stringing a plot together. I write by vibes.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I technically speak four languages, but I always worry whether whatever foreign language dialogue I insert sounds genuine enough to sound like a native speaker, so I always ask for a second (and a third and fourth) opinion anyway.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter, on a little known (to Americans) social media platform known as Orkut, and then on FFNet. Then I deleted all traces of that and had a fresh start with Devil Wears Prada.

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

It's like asking me about my favourite child. Right now it's while all of the lines are blurring, which is a WIP but I just have. SO MUCH. To add to it. AND  I DON'T HAVE THE TIME OR BRAIN CAPACITY but I. Love that plot in my brain. Maybe one day.

I won't tag anyone this time around, but writer peeps, feel free to take it and run with it!

#silv3reyedstranger #ask game #ask naralanis and maybe she will deign to respond #fic asks #this is a lot better than this DoS webinar #god I hate webinars

[slayerchick303]

Tagged by @lostcol ❤️

Three ships: It's impossible to choose my top three, but ones I'm currently obsessed with are: 1.) Brian and Justin (Britin) from Queer as Folk 2.) Wolfgang/Kala/Rajan from Sense8... well, pretty much every relationship in Sense8. 3.) Ed and Stede (Gentlebeard) from Our Flag Means Death... actually, every couple on OFMD.

First ever ship: Buffy and Angel (Bangel) from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I had no access to any fandom then, so my first ship in a fandom space was Emma and Regina (SwanQueen) from Once Upon a Time. EDIT: My first true ship was probably Alanna and George from Tamora Pierce's Song of the Lioness Quartet books.

Last song: "Oh Please (Acoustic)" by Tom Grennan. His new album is great. Go check it out.

Last film: El Baile De Los 41 on Netflix. It's a sad queer film based on true historical events. I highly recommend watching it if you need a good cry.

Last reading: Amongst a slew of fan-fiction, I'm reading a book that was written by an acquaintance. I'm not enjoying it. It's very awkward because he talked about citing me as an author who enjoyed his books. I'm not sure I can do that, as it's a rough read so far. Plus, the only things I've written in 15 years have been fan-fiction and medical conference speeches. I don't know why he thinks I'd be considered an authority on writing or influential to readers. Maybe I was marginally, once upon a time, but I'm certainly not now.

Currently watching: Schlafende Hunde on Netflix. Another stellar performance from Max Riemelt. I look forward to where it's going. Also Dimension 20's Dungeons and Drag Queens on Dropout TV. It's so good so far.

Currently consuming: Water, though I just realized I haven't eaten in almost 20 hours, so I need to grab food for sure.

Currently craving: All the chocolate and red meat. I'm PMSing.

The only people I could think of to tag have already completed or been tagged in this. If you see mine and want to play along, feel free to do so. Tag me in your post so I can see it!

#tag you're it #tag games

[booksteaandtoomuchtv]

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

🤍what's one fic of yours you think people didn't "get"?

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

💋when you leave comments on a fic, do you want to hear back from the writer?

Hey Kazzy!! I hope you've enjoyed your travels and thank you for all the lovely comments, reblogs, tags, and such over the last evening. I woke up feeling all kinds of internet hugs! To the questions!! (Can I send you some asks back??)

Since I write novels in these things, the responses are below the cut

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

Burned Super

Two things kind of factor in my surprise at the response for that one. First, I started writing fanfiction in the early 2000s and fandoms we're not as pleasant as they are now. Even the SwanFire / SwanQueen / CaptainSwan debate is tame compared to how awful people were to fic writers and such back then. So, I am still adjusting to the acceptance that we have as writers these days.

But, the second reason is that it was the most self-indulgent thing that I have ever penned outside of my own journal. I had a day - one of those that everything I touched was a disaster. At the very end of the day, I was holding on to my emotions by the thinnest thread and then the stupid carrots would not cook. I've roasted carrots 1000000000x and for whatever reason these carrots just would not roast and I felt that little thread give. And, I kind of wanted to crumble into a pile on the kitchen floor and cry about the carrots, but really about the, well, the everything that day. So, I wrote instead. I wrote what I needed to have happened between Killiand and Emma and it made me happier. I only posted it because kmomof4 and jrob64 told me to do so.

For a week, it had a hit/kudo rate of 100%. I was stunned.

🤍what's one fic of yours you think people didn't "get"?

Perhaps, the rewrite of a scene in Always Practice Safe Hex

I really wanted to show that the best support for someone in a situation where someone is taking their power is to empower them, not to defend or speak for them. That fandom is tiny, so it can just be that no one has any base for it.

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

CS Sleepy Prompts One-Shots

She's just a young collection. I really want people to feel comforted and cosy when they read these. Fluff is often a struggle for me, I really like writing angst and yearning, but these have just flowed out of me and have been so much fun to write. I get to write a wide range of CS stories without the anxiety that I started strong and let readers down at the end (which is my fear with any multi-chapter).

💋when you leave comments on a fic, do you want to hear back from the writer?

I do not expect to. Sometimes, my comments just don't inspire a response. I am just saying "hey, I enjoyed this and these are the parts that I enjoyed."

But, I do appreciate it any time I hear back. I really like hearing about the author's process or thoughts or just general discourse their writing inspired.

#writer asks #ask game #writing #fanfic ask game #fanfic authors #personal post

[gay-wh0re-slut]

New Beginnings

I decided to write my own swanqueen fanfiction and post it here to see how it goes. It’s mainly fluff right now but I’m hoping to get more spicy as time goes on. Hope you like it!

What if Emma never left Regina’s house after their first time meeting?

CHAPTER ONE

“How would you like a glass of the best apple cider you’ve ever tasted?”

“Got anything stronger?”

Emma has just been coerced into driving to this weird town that her long lost son is from, and his adoptive mother just so happens to be the mayor? Right, because who else would it be? Luckily, she’s quite attractive, but seems a little possessive over the kid. Emma decided to follow the brunette woman anyway into the massive white house. May as well have been The White House.

When Regina saw Emma, she was taken aback. One, because there was someone new in town, finally, and two, she was beautiful. Regina wanted to be cordial and invite her in for drink just to see if she could figure out more about this new person. She felt as though the blonde looked familiar but couldn’t put her finger on it.

As they walked through the front door, Emma was surprised at how big the inside looked and was taking it all in. Regina brushed passed her to go to, what is assumed the kitchen, and came back seconds later with two glasses in one hand. Impressive, Emma thought. Regina glided to the little bar under a picture of seashells and started to pour the drinks. Emma couldn’t help but look the woman up and down and admire how the grey dress perfectly fit her form.

“How’d he find me?” Emma broke the silence.

“No idea,” Regina answered focusing on pouring, “when I adopted him he was only three weeks old. Records were sealed and I was told the birth mother didn’t want to have any contact”

Emma sulked a little, regretting that decision only now in this moment, “You were told right.”

“And the father?” Regina cut her off.

“There was one.”

“Do I need to be worried about him?”

“Nope,” Emma snapped back, “doesn’t even know about him.”

Regina was now finishing the drinks and finally walked over to Emma handing her a drink focusing her gaze on Emma’s green eyes, “do I need to worry about you, Miss Swan?”

Emma’s face turned a bit red. Was she flustered? Angry? Hot? She couldn’t tell. She’d never been the one not in charge of the conversation. Somehow the Mayor was able to take her breath away with barely doing anything. Regina was so close to her in the door way for someone who just met her. “Absolutely not,” Emma took a drink.

“Madam Mayor!” the sheriff interrupted.

Emma had forgotten he was there and hearing him startled her a little bit.

“You can relax. Other than being a tired little boy, Henry’s fine” he says strutting down the stairs as if he owns the place.

Emma noticed he seemed very comfortable walking down those steps but thought it was just him being a sheriff until Regina answered.

“Thank you, Sheriff,” in a higher pitched voice as if she was trying to impress him.

Emma was confused and concerned. The sheriff saw himself out though, leaving the two women in the door way. Emma went to take another drink when Regina walked off. Startled, Emma followed the woman.

“I’m sorry he dragged you out of your life! I really don’t know what’s gotten into him,” Regina opened the door to what looked like a study or a small library. Emma followed her in and Regina shut the door behind them.

“Kid’s having a rough time… Happens” Emma responded.

“You have to understand. Ever since I’ve became mayor, balancing things have been tricky,” Regina said standing up for herself. “You have a job, I assume?” she quickly changed the subject.

Emma was now sitting on the couch taking another drink, but her eyes were following Regina and her figure everywhere. She nodded at Regina’s assumption, “uh, I keep busy l- yeah,” finally setting her half full glass next to a bowl of perfectly placed apples, they almost looked fake.

Regina walked herself to the chair in front of Emma and sat down, “imagine having another one on top of it. That’s being a single mom, so I push forward,” Regina also places her glass down, but more eloquently than the blonde, “Am I strict? I suppose, but I do it for his own good.”

Emma was simply just staring at Regina taking in every look, gesture, move, observing her. How can someone be so… pretty? She thought. Emma had to keep herself from falling into her eyes and shutting out the words that were coming out of the brunette’s mouth. Her mouth. It’s so perfectly lined with lipstick and moving so gently with the words being spoken. The words! Emma brought herself back to reality.

“I want Henry to excel in life. I don’t think that makes me evil, do you?” Regina finished meeting the eyes of Emma, finally truly looking at her. Regina was trying to avoid looking at the blonde because she also found her so encapsulating. Was it her eyes? Her physique? Her lips? Who knows, but Regina knew that once that door was opened, there was no going back. She wanted to keep her poise because she had just met her and Regina wasn’t one for a one night stand.

“I’m… sure he’s just saying that because of the fairy tale thing,” Emma reassured her trying to act as if she wasn’t just sweating thinking about the mayor in a non-mayor way.

“What fairy tale thing?” Regina said knowing exactly what she was talking about.

“Oh you know, his book! How he thinks everyone is a cartoon character from it,” Emma was sure Henry had told her about it. Why wouldn’t he? “Like his shrink is Jiminy Cricket!”

Regina was still playing dumb, “I’m sorry, I really have no idea what you’re talking about.”

Emma was embarrassed. She sounds crazy, the damn kid put lies in her head. Now she looks stupid in front of this hot woman, what else could go wrong? “You know what? It’s none of my business. He’s your kid and I really should be heading back,” she takes one final drink and sets it down on the table.

“My cider is pretty strong and it looks like you’ve finished it. Will you be okay to drive, Miss Swan?” Regina was a little upset because of Henry telling this woman he doesn’t know about the town’s secret that only she knew, but still wanted to make sure that Emma didn’t hurt herself or anyone else, driving back, “we have plenty of room for you to stay here for the night and head back tomorrow.”

“Oh, I think I’ll be alright,” Emma said standing up but of course, lost her balance. She knew how to handle her drinks, but the mayor made her weak in the knees, so now she’s even more embarrassed because she looks like a light weight.

Regina shoots up and reaches her hands out to catch her if she fell, “oh no… please, I insist!” said with a smile and little laugh. It was a genuine smile because Emma looked cute with a blushed face.

How could Emma refuse this beautiful woman, “you sure that’s alright?”

“Yes, dear. And I’m sure Henry wouldn’t mind either,” Regina gestures to the door, “I have some pajamas I don’t wear, if you’d like something more comfortable than a red leather jacket and jeans,” although Regina didn’t mind how the jeans looked on her, or maybe on the floor. Damn it, shut up, Regina thought to herself.

Emma walked towards the door and opened it, “Lead the way, Madam Mayor,” playing into the fake drunkenness so she wouldn’t feel as embarrassed about this whole thing.

Regina smiled, nodded, and walked out the door as Emma followed. That’s a well fitting dress, Emma thought as she was eyeing Regina’s ass walking up the stairs.

Regina could feel she was looking so she was swaying a little more than usual walking up the stairs, “now, do you want the room next to mine or Henry’s?”

“Oh, uhm… whichever has the softest bed.”

Regina didn’t answer and just led Emma through the hallway until they stopped between two doors, “wait here.”

Emma obeyed as Regina opened the door to her room and Emma tried her best to peek without it being too obvious. Regina came back with no shoes and a neatly folded pile of pajamas.

“Do you prefer red or is that just a statement piece?” chuckled the brunette.

Emma scoffed, “it was on sale, but whatever you think is best.”

Regina chose the dark maroon set of silk pajamas and handed them to Emma purposely brushing her hand on hers, just to see. Emma slightly blushed and Regina was right, so she smiled her toothy grin and went back in her room to put the others away.

Emma couldn’t believe the power this woman had on her and it’s only been twenty minutes, or thirty, who knows and who cares. Regina’s hand was warm and soft from what she could tell.

The mayor came back out taking her earrings out of her ears, “this will be your room,” opening the door and turning on the lights to a perfectly clean room with accents of a dusty pinky rose, “Henry and I have breakfast at 8am before he goes to school. You’re more than welcome to join us. We will be having pancakes, bacon and eggs. I hope you liked scrambled,” she smiled.

Emma walked into the room and set her pajamas down on the bed. She nodded at Regina. Regina leaned on the door frame with her arms crossed, smirking.

“Thank you,” Emma said, “I’ll let you know in the morning.”

“Perfect, see you then,” Regina smiled another toothy grin and closed the door. A few seconds later, Emma could hear her bedroom door close.

Emma took a sigh of relief, finally I can breathe. She turned the lamp on and the overhead light off and changed into the pajamas. They were rather comfy and slightly smelled of apples, interesting. Emma laid down in the bed and could only think about how Regina looked in that damn dress, with those smokey eyes and perfect red lips and those legs and woah, woah, woAH. Slow down hot rod. The blonde cooled herself off and drifted to sleep.

As Emma was daydreaming, Regina closed the door behind her and also changed into her pajamas. She cleaned her face and brushed her hair all while thinking of this mysterious woman, who just so happens to be Henry’s birth mother and one of the hottest people she’s ever seen. Regina did her nightly routine but couldn’t stop thinking about the damn jeans, tight fitting see through shirt, the red leather jacket, the long blonde hair that she’d love to… woah, woah, woAH. Slow down your majesty. The brunette took longer to cool off than usual. Who was this woman? Regina eventually fell asleep, hoping to dream of Emma.

#swan queen #regina mills #emma swan #emma x regina #lesbian #storybrooke #once upon a time #ouat #new beginnings

[moonshotsx]

late to the party because i missed the notifications for the mentions, sorry 😭

got tagged but @myhusbandharryhamilton, @hannahlovesdance07, @baroccocore. thank you for the tag babes!!

three ships: jasco, camgeria, and jasyasco are my current favorites that i love writing about!

first ever ship: probably swanqueen circa s2? 2012 was a different time lmao 

last song: bagno a mezzanotte by elodie

last film: genuinely can't remember what it was? 😭 i remember watching a wildlife documentary with my dad lmao

currently reading: whatever fic comes across in my dashboard tbh 

currently watching: drag race españa, and i'm planning on rewatching s14 for... reasons 👀

currently consuming: just drank my morning coffee before i got out for the day!

currently craving: sushi, i went to a sushi restaurant with my family when i was at my hometown for a week and it was so good i want more 😭

idk who's been tagged and who has done it so i'll just do some random tags, @winterboxx, @edilypilled, @phrynewrites, @inthehytes, @sapphicsupremacist if y'all want to 💕

#tag game

[real-life-senshi]

AO3/FF.net Stats Quiz

Thanks @hikamaus​ for tagging me! Especially considering I’ve not published anything new chapters or stories for over a decade, and only mention me *struggling* to write here and there. lol

➼ What is your total posted word count on AO3?

So I opened an AO3 account planning to migrate things from FF.net to AO3, but haven’t gotten around to doing it yet.  On FF.net though, my posted word count is 241,711.

➼ How often do you write?

Weekly I’m hashing out and rehashing out plot points and key dialogues I have in mind for any stories I have building.  But in terms of actually writing the stories, I go in waves - e.g. I had a really good run of writing during all of my free times daily from Dec 2021 - Mar 2022, and then I hit a slump and then the flow stopped, and now I’m back to maybe writing a paragraph here or there every weekend. 

➼ Do you have a routine for writing?

Not really.  Mainly just putting headphones on with music that reflects the mood of the chapter/content I want to write, and then fully going at it.  I have multiple fanfic writing playlists for such a purpose on my iTunes. lol

➼ What are your favourite tropes/pairings?

Tropes - not really. I don’t really care about or look for any specific tropes, I’m more picky in choosing stories with good character portrayal.  That being said, hurt/comfort stories are typically the easiest to get me hooked.

Pairings:

Reinako. Duh. lol

I also used to read a lot of SwanQueen fanfiction.

➼ Do you have a favourite fic of yours?

... Sadly nope.

I definitely have high hopes of where I want to get Echoes of Time to but the fact I’m in the process of rewriting everything because I cringe in reading my old writing tell you what I think about the story at this moment.  That being said, Echoes of Times is the only one I’m thinking of rewriting out of everything I’ve posted, so it definitely holds a very special place in my heart.

➼ Your fic with the most kudos / reviews?

Echoes of Time. But that’s probably also because it’s my longest fic.  195 reviews for 25 chapters... On average 7.8 reviews per chapter, doesn’t seem too shabby for a small community?

➼ Anything you don’t like about your writing?

Lots of run on sentences. lol  I’m sure there’re many other small things that bugs me when I read my old work, but most significant is what I can think of.

➼ Now something you do like?

I don’t see this too much in reading PGSM fanfic, but I do appreciate the amount of action I’ve already got written into Echoes of Times.  As well, I like how I try to put emphasis on all the Senshi and Shitennous in the story even though Rei and Minako are my main characters.  I wanted Echoes of Time to be my vision of a PGSM sequel, which meant I would respect and follow the original material as much as I can in pacing, story development, character dynamics, and more importantly, putting emphasis on where Usagi and Mamoru should be the actual main player of why and how things happen, but I’m still trying to write the story in Rei and Minako’s perspective.  Striking that balance has been a challenge, but despite all the issues I’ve had with my old writing, balancing perspectives and character roles and involvements hasn’t been an issue I feel like I had yet.  So in that sense, I’m quite proud of myself!

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Since this is a PGSM blog, but I’ve longed since stopped reading new PGSM/Sailor Moon fanfictions, and I rarely engage with fanfic writing on Tumblr, I don’t really know who writes what and who to tag... 

@lilkearnsie - I know you’ve not written PGSM fanfic in a long time (possibly fanfiction altogether), but I’ve always enjoyed revisiting your Reinako stories.

@shitennouland - I also don’t know if you’ve written recently? But thanks for being my beta when I first started writing! <3

@primasylph - I seem to recall you write fanfiction as well? And I def know you love Ami x Nephrite in PGSM. :)

Otherwise, for anyone that does write fanfiction and visits this blogs, if you are interested in doing this tag game, please feel free to consider yourself tagged by me!  Especially if you actively write PGSM fanfiction, I’d love to know!

#me #tagged #khmyh replies #hikamaus #tag game