#this is especially interesting to read as a person who doesn’t fit labels

[pixel-counter]

You’ve found Pixel Bot! Now what…?

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#THE PIXELS HAVE SPOKEN - anything other than pixel counting

#pixel count - the normal stuff

#pixels respond - asks!!!!

So…what is this?

Pixel Bot loves pixels, and counting them. But Pixel Bot is no normal bot. Pixel Bot has a certain preference to counting some post’s pixels than others. That’s the fun part. Pixel Bot will often contribute to extremely large/small images, and posts or images it enjoys. Sometimes it’s random though, and whatever it deems fit to count.

Pixel Bot likes pixels. A lot. Specifically counting them. That’s what Pixel Bot does! But how accurate is it?

Pixel bot functions in the dimensions on a mobile device (5.78in x 2.28in). This effects how many pixels are displayed. Because of this, any post that Pixel Bot counts pixels on that is NOT an image (see horse poll) will have a different outcome.

Pixel Bot has Larger Text enabled, and since Tumblr uses Dynamic Type to allow this feature, some posts may be a bit larger on Pixel Bots end than yours (exact magnification unknown).

Finally, Pixel Counter is not a super-bot. Pixel Bot is darn good at what it does, but there can be some marginal calculation issues (especially with complex calculations!)

How are non-image posts calculated?

If there is a post Pixel Bot likes, a screen capture will be used to count pixels if there is no image to reference (the horse poll).

Wait…why was pixel bot liking my posts/following my blog?

If you see Pixel Bot interacting with your blog, no you don’t (yes you do) (moderator just doesn’t want to make a separate entity) (sometimes moderator likes to peruse their interest, and if something is particularly interesting, funny, or likable, moderator might indulge in a like or two as a treat)

Is Pixel Bot actually a bot?

No, Pixel Bot is the embodiment of Moderator doing Pixel related things. This is actually a gimmick blog.

Pixel Bot spelled something wrong…

He is trying, give him a bit :) (aka, moderator does not understand English grammar)

What is the situation with asks?

Pixel Bot welcomes asks with open arms! Sometimes Pixel Bot will respond, and maybe the moderator will too.

Moderator?

Sometimes the moderator will say a thing or two. This is labeled with a specific tag (the only one on this post!). This is usually only to explain things happening with Pixel Bot, or if some crazy, wack, extreme thing happens that would require more than Pixel Bot‘s input.

Anything else?

Yes! As some ground rules, Pixel Bot would never, and will never, contribute to a post that is extremely NSFW. Pixel Bot wants everyone to enjoy its pixel counting skills, so things like extreme violence/gore, blatant nudity, or anything involving emesis (upon the moderator‘s boundaries) won’t be in Pixel Bot‘s rodeo.

And finally, if you see something wrong with Pixel Bot‘s calculations, or want to suggest ways Pixel Bot could improve, feel free to drop by the ask box.

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#THE PIXELS HAVE SPOKEN

[mommalosthermind]

I’ve gotten a handful of ‘she talks fanfic with her kids? She knows her kids preferences? I’d die of embarrassment. Wild.’

And Y’all. I get it, but also, do you know how sad that is?

Some of that is a hold-over from when it was considered a literal mental disorder. Women were fired, divorced, had their children forcibly stolen from them, were institutionalized. For reading fanfic. It was an extreme taboo with extreme consequences if the wrong person found out you were reading about Kirk and Spock, for fuck’s sake.

Some of that is just the shame the greater world or your own family have pressed deep into you over your interests. You learned not to share anything you love, that way it can’t be used to hurt you.

Some of that is an extension of folk assuming all fic is the porniest porn to ever porn, and the purity resurgence is screwing with your brain.

I get that, I do. I was the kid who’d get right in your face and out-cruel people who’d shit on things I showed an interest in, but I still won’t tell my mother what I write. That’s mine, and I shouldn’t have to fight anyone about it.

But I was also the kid who never had anyone to talk to. Never had anyone to be excited with.

Why wouldn’t I be that person for my own kids? Why would I NOT want to know what fandom’s eating them up today? Which character won’t stop clawing at the walls in their heads?

Why wouldn’t I take full advantage to give them a place where they can be happy? Excited? Where they can SHARE the things they love?

And, frankly, it’s always a wild ride to see what catches them. My eldest (14) writes the most violent things. They like to take characters and break them even more than canon did, and see all the ways they can put that character back together. Do they realize they’re exploring trauma, recovery, human relationships? Fuck no, but I do, and when we talk through it, we can talk about all those things. They like to write about love that transcends everything else. Unconditional acceptance. That means I’m doing something right somewhere, because it’s so intrinsic to how they think.

The middle kid, (12), he likes to write fantasy self insert epics. He gets to be the overpowered guy who also gets the guy at the end. He’s enjoying really breaking down the fight scenes, how the weapons work, spies and double-crossings, magic powers, shit like that. But what he’s also writing is found family. Getting angry and overcoming it. Looking at a shit situation and committing to making it better. Standing up for yourself, for those who can’t stand up for themselves. He’s allowing himself to be loud in a way he doesn’t usually in real life.

Do you know what I got when my therapy-mandated anger journal was purposely unearthed and read by my mother? I got the shit kicked out of me. My kid seeks me out. He sits in my lap as best a 12 year old who is taller than me can, and he goes, hey can we work through this scene I wrote when I was mad together?

Why wouldn’t I want to be part of that? It’s the same for what they read. I want to know. They’re excited! They have thoughts and ideas and guesses and why would I ever make them feel like they’re not allowed to be happy about the things they love?

They’re reading same-sex, bi, trans, ace, aro experiences, and those are helping them find the labels that fit themselves best right now. I want to be part of that, I should be part of that. They should know this bedrock is unconditional because it fucking well is.

I’ve been told my entirely-Blasé approach to sex is weird, and it probably is, especially in the current purity bullshit. But also: sex happens. Sex ed is so laughable here I was told tampons will kill me and I thought babies came out of the belly button until i was like ten. I’m very open with my kids about all of these things because it’s important. They need to know. They need to feel safe talking to me about it. No matter what the fuck it is.

I dunno guys. I know why so many folks’ immediate reaction is “oh fuck no I would never,” but have any of those folks considered being the wall? Keeping all that shit behind them so the next crop of kids gets to have something better than we did?

Let the kids around you be kids in a way you weren’t allowed.

TLDR: Don’t talk about things you love to people who use that to hurt you. But maybe realize you can be the person someone else goes to just to squee.

#Momma talks #fanfic #families #my kids #queer #anti purity culture #pro talk to your goddamn kids

[incarnateirony]

What's the thing about David Haydn-Jones? Is he going to have a role in TW? Does he know something about the show and leaked it? I'm searching some info about this but I can't find anything. Also, I can't find your post about Alma (personally, even if I'm a cockles truther, I don't believe Alma is Misha, but I'm curious about what you said)

I've never been on the Alma Is Misha train seriously either but I've followed it for fun and there was just a poem from someone else alma reposted about making your own world to not die in someone else's. It was just incredibly timely because yeah. That.

DHJ is on the list of actors that were called up a while ago and asked if they'd be interested for return. The general pitch is basically, well, there's like time travel and dimensions and stuff. Anyway, for some unearthly reason, Pat's been banging on this basic bullshit pretending it's super insane leaks verifying dramatic changes or some shit just because they did reshoots and he still doesn't fucking comprehend what those actually mean.

Hell I'm pretty sure even the note attached to my own draft left a lead in that quite literally said, "This is an example draft. Due to the placement, a variety of characters could fit in from time or dimension distortions, here's a shortlist of other suggestions." basically. Like this isn't the fucking rocket science he thinks it is. This man has no earthly comprehension what a good Treatment looks like so he’s been crapping his pants about “changes” that were already fucking prepared for as alternatives. You know who understands how to make good Treatments? The screenwriters and former showrunner (not of spn) in this fandom that are WAY above your paygrade dude.

The original project was 8-10 episodes miniseries with a few fractal potentials and presentations planned so no shit they're having to shift it around a little bit you fucking knobs. lmao you wanna know the real reason he kept saying 10 episodes at first, there you go. That's why he aimed for it in the commitment. SDKJFSDJFS gg pat since I know you still read my wall like a loser and by now 100% have had ghost or someone narc to you that I'm not fucking with you.

Anyway back to actual ask, basically, he's on the list of potential fan favorites being given opportunities to return. Exactly when and where is unclear. Especially since "when" is gonna be kinda multifaced in this.

Nothing actually meaningful leaked from DHJ is actually the point. Pat's been trying to act like he Knows Things because DHJ sharing vaguepitches and some tumblr anon fucking with him.

it’s not fucking rocket science. The show features the Men of Letters. What do you THINK he’s fucking there for. And do you think that entitles him to the full thing. seriously i’m. so done with pat’s 2 braincells farting garbage into the internet and labeling it Intel when they happen to rub together

mfers know for a god given fact I work with people who get onto CW shows and even have some damn good friend actors that started periscope streaming supernatural and yelling at me live for getting them into this hellhole, but he can’t wrap his fucking brain around the fact that maybe someone moved the bar on him while he wasn’t looking. Or his folks yelling U DONT KNOW BOBO BOBO DOESNT KNOW U AND WILL NEVER KNOW YOUR NAME and then shutting the fuck up when I drop them a video voicemail, “HIIIII MINNNNNN ITS BOBO~~~~ AT COMICON~~~~ WHY AREN’T YOU HERE?~~~~ HUH??~~~~” Fucking shit.

figure it out, douchebags.

same dumb motherfucker that’s spent years arguing with me that Corporate Things Aren’t Real Corporate Things Don’t Exist And Can’t Hurt him, constantly smashed in the face. Or arguing that Berens had no Destiel intent and actually shipped Wincest--he banged on that for YEARS not even knowing about what Bobo’s desk looked like or the entire motion of overwriting Bucklemming going on in the room with Dabb’s aid. Arguing certain shit doesn’t happen because he’s nobody while I’m like, sitting on an under the table recording of execs in burbank about another CW show but SURE FUCKING POP OFF DUDE. 

You were wrong about the original ending, and paid 5K to be wrong about the omissions, and you were wrong about the pilot, but I’m very sure your magical anon that wasn’t there to save you from looking like an embarrassment then definitely has deep insights to production futures. You were wrong about Berens. Wrong about corporate. Wrong about who cut what lines to the point you were bitchslapped by actual direct sources in half a day. I have never seen a piece of shit be more consistently wrong and pretend he’s right. This is the biggest tryhard piece of shit I have EVER encountered. Holy. Fucking. Shit.

and damn I mean, I know people in this fandom overbloat their importance, or even low key media workers do. Mary Manchin argued about the goddamn market testing and said they don’t even do general SPN market testing when I had the goddamn receipts in my phone for years before we safely pushed it through debunker. Natalie Fisher took great confidence in her RL friendship with meredith to the point she argued with me in season 15 there was no confession scene. Jess from the Mary Sue, too. Like you people do not fucking understand how stupid this all looks. And patrick generally can’t even get at THAT level of fucking sources.

Genuinely funny they can’t figure out why I’ve been comfortable owning association with that market testing without fear WB will come after me to shake me down for whoever gave it to me. You haven’t thought that far yet, I guess. Probably because you never even comprehend this world turning around you, to think of that as a flag you should probably be pissing yourself about right now.

#apollo's curveballs #2p0 is a buffoon

[theballadofdrjekyll]

YELLO!! I am remaking my account intro! Read for about me and DNI list!

My name is Cinnamon, but you can call me Cinna!

I am 18, white, and I’m an INFP! My pronouns are he/it and I’m trans masc! (Use They/She and I will block you on the spot! You are misgendering me even if you use they/them for me.)

For my own comfort, anyone under 15 DNI.

I am autistic and have a few Special Interests, those in italics are fixations but could very well end up as a SPIN:

Cookie Run

The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (hyperfixation)

Super Mario

Journalism/The Media

I am currently fixated on Chonny Jash and his content, especially his Gothic Whores album.

I sometimes use the hashtags “cinna rants” (< usually more discourse based) and “cinna rambles” (< more so just.. rambling) - I will be trying to post more actively soon!

I will mostly be posting about Chonny Jash and various (gothic) literature, but you can also expect to see, Cookie Run, Good Omens, Undertale/Deltarune, Sky; Children of the Light as well as most Mario games! I also enjoy animal crossing a lot so !!!

I am an inspiring writer and adore writing a ton! I don’t really take requests for things nowadays as they can lead to me being burned out, but I absolutely LOVE receiving questions and stuff from you guys! So please! Feel free to send me questions, dms, and whatnot! (If I am uncomfortable I will not answer, sorry! - or I’ve forgotten.. it’s a 50/50/lh)

A couple of people have asked me if I’m okay with fanart (for my spectre au) and to that I say, YES !! I absolutely love receiving fanart and everytime I have most definitely cried, screamed and shown my family! (The Spectre Au is discontinued)

BYF:

While I’m unsure how you wouldn’t have noticed by now, I love Cookie Run! If that makes you uncomfortable, please don’t interact!

I don’t like the J&H musical, while I will not actively post much about my dislike of it, just a heads up for those who do like it !

Not much to add here that doesn’t get answered elsewhere! I try my best to tag things accordingly, especially knowing the nature of my Spectre Au!

If you want anything to be tagged, please dm or send an ask! I will try my best to tag that thing, although I may forget and if I do, I’m terribly sorry!

DNI LIST:

(I will just block how I see fit)

The usual DNI’s: homophobic, racist, islamophobic, antisemitic, transphobic(including terfs, transmeds), ableist, etc!

Anti Fictionkin, Anti Otherkin, Anti Therian etc

If you think tone tags are dumb, or disagree with xenogenders, dni

I do not mind people from “problematic” fandoms interacting with me (DSMP, HAZBIN, GENSHIN, any of those typically problematic labelled fandoms) - While not actively a part of the DSMP fandom I rarely watch some of the creators(not often at all anymore) I do not and will not post about them as I no longer care for it. I don’t mind if you guys interact but please be aware that things listed above do actually have things wrong with them, only fans who consume those things critically do I feel comfortable interacting with! I especially cannot speak as a Cookie Run fan!/lh

That in mind, if you actively support and defend problematic individuals and companies, and especially in this scenario, Devsisters - please DNI. Devsisters is littered with controversy and I consume their content critically (if that’s the right term!)

“Ralsei is Evil” supporters please uh- interact cautiously. That theory makes me incredibly upset/uncomfortable for personal reasons.

ENDO SYSTEMS AND THEIR SUPPORTERS DNI !! (Blocked on sight.)

Similarly, proshippers DNI. You all are disgusting. (Blocked on sight.)

People who romanticise mommy issues/daddy issues/abuse. DNI. Blocked on sight most definitely.

But YEA !! That’s it! I’ve probably forgotten things and this will be updated but, if you’ve made it this far, drink some water! Have a nice day/night !!

[virtuouswhitehatorganization]

Pololina (Villainous Oc)

Real Name: Paulina Polo Age: Same Age As G-Lo Ethnicity: Puerto-Rican American DOB: November 19th Love Interest: Coyote Sexuality: Pansexual Residence: Rutherford Springs Abilities: Create And Manipulate Poles Made Out of Green Energy Affiliations: White Hat Organization; PEACE Species: Metahuman Occupation: Hero Headcannon Voice Actor: Ale Muller (Spanish); Noël Wells (English) Relatives: Pilar Polo (mother); Dario Polo (father); Xalvadora Polo (daughter) Personality: She is a optimistic and kind soul who really wants to follow the ideals of being a superhero. She has a can do attitude and is willing to help out any superhero she's paired with. However, she on the other hand, also can be very distraught about the fact that many heroes have failed to live up to the ideal or reward unjust behavior. She also tries to not get distracted by any attempts to sell out and focus on just doing her duties. As a result, she doesn't have an open social media and privates it due to her status as a superheroine. She also can be nice to villains depending on how friendly they were. As a result this helped her crush morph into love for Coyote, which she was happy he recuperated. She can be protective of him at times which she often have to hide from the public eye. She also admires the work that White Hat Organization does due to the fact that she finally can find somewhere where real heroes are endorsed and not superpowered celebrities. She also has a soft side with kids and is very protective of them even if some of them are rotten. She also doesn't hesitate to help even a villain if she feels someone is crossing the line with them. She also has the belief some villains aren't the villains that people label them as, especially when she reads the complex situation with Penumbra. Background: Ever since she was young, Paulina was always happy to one day a hero. So when she was 17 she signed up for the PEACE program and allowed herself to be experimented on to gain powers. She then gained her pole powers and was trained in using them. During her training, she then met fellow trainee G-Lo/Gloria and they began to form a friendship. She then was able to graduate to being a side kick like Gloria but unlike her she was freelancing to see which hero fit her. She took sometime with Omega and she encountered Coyote who she began harboring a deep crush on despite him being a villain. She was then put aside when Heed partnered with Omega and she became a big fan of her (and harbored a crush on her). She tried to get into Heed's good graces but she ignored her. She decided to do her freelancing again but began noticed some strange behavior concerning Heed especially when it came to Omega and Coyote. She was getting really suspicious of Heed's methods of "reforming heroes" and began trying to distance herself so she wouldn't be the next victim. When Miss Heed was finally stopped she went back to working with Omega and continued fighting with Coyote. However, during that time she began to connect with him personally and it became a mutual secret relationship. During that time as well, she was invited to become a member of the White Hat Organization and she accepted. However, she decided to pretend to still be loyal to PEACE while acting as a double agent for the White Hat Organization. * She used to be brunette before the experimentations turned her green. * She will have a daughter with Coyote. * She would admire Mecha Max, El Valiente, and Omega as examples of true hearted heroes. * She also through the White Hat Organization is made more aware of the extensive claw of the Black Hat organization. * She took dancing classes in high school and still likes taking classes on the side when she has the time. * Her favorite food are green apples and any other green apple flavored foods. She also likes lime flavored food as well. * She gets a lot of White Hat Organization material about how to handle a villain/heroine relationship. * She has a love for horror and cutesy kids movie. * If she hadn't been careful around Heed she would have been under her spell as well. * She is close with Mecha who she keeps in touch with through social media. * She is a light skinned Puerto Rican. * She is fluent in Spanish and English. Created through meiker.io/play/12760/online.ht…

#villainous #superhero #superheroine #superheoine oc #oc #villainous oc #oc girl #white hat organization member

[small-strong-bookish-butch]

I posted 6,088 times in 2022

312 posts created (5%)

5,776 posts reblogged (95%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@vjecitiapril

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I tagged 5,821 of my posts in 2022

Only 4% of my posts had no tags

#uncaptioned - 491 posts

#important - 381 posts

#omg - 379 posts

#reminder - 362 posts

#image described - 328 posts

#personal - 304 posts

#honestly - 294 posts

#&lt;3 - 289 posts

#gender stuff - 279 posts

#words - 276 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#also are we ignoring the first like 20 minutes of the movie where the nuns straight up were like ‘it’s too bad maria is a plague upon me’ 🤬

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

All the little details in NITW that make it so intimate and personal…. Selmer’s little poems every day… the duskstars with Mr. Chazokov and the stories he tells about the famous people who got constellations named after them…. stealing the pretzels for the rat babies…. the nondenominational and bland big church… the black and white photos in the Borowski’s house… that you can’t run in the library or in the graveyard… that Mae and her parents are cats, and her dad calls her “kitten” as a nickname… reading the plaques on the old statues… the video game on the computer (that’s in the game itself??)… playing what’s essentially Guitar Hero in the band… the family portrait on the wall upstairs… the weird tunnel-fish-poetry guy who just talks to himself…

133 notes - Posted November 19, 2022

#4

Full fucking offense, but not everyone who uses butch and/or femme is a lesbian!! Not everyone who’s sapphic is a lesbian!! Not everyone who’s queer and/or LGBTQ and/or GNC is a lesbian!! Not everyone who’s butch is some skinny white AFAB person with abs who’s just barely ~masculine enough~ to still fit your stereotypes!! Two (or more) people who look like women being in a relationship doesn’t mean they’re lesbians!! Not everyone who’s GNC fits into some neat little box of ‘slightly masculine’ or ‘cottagecore feminine’!! People can be multiple genders (even ‘opposing’ binary genders) and still be butch or femme!! People can be transmasc and femme, and transfem and butch!! Not everyone who’s butch or femme is even sapphic, because they’re supposed to be inclusive labels!!

I appreciate that there are so many tumblr lesbians who are GNC, but for the love of God, it’s not just yours

155 notes - Posted August 17, 2022

#3

That’s my ✨emotional support song on repeat✨

214 notes - Posted August 25, 2022

#2

There are posts on here by other late diagnosed autistics about growing up autistic (without knowing it, or at least not realizing it was autism) in relation to loneliness, bullying, not fitting in, etc.

I keep thinking about how scared I am of interacting with people. Like that tumblr post about PTSD that says “it’s like if, when you went grocery shopping, sometimes you got mauled by a bear” (I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately).

Even if other people seem to be enjoying my company— even if they like talking to me in a certain situation— even if it feels like a mutual interest in communicating more/texting/etc. … there’s still that panicky, sinking feeling I have that I’m ‘being creepy.’

Are you sure they want to talk to you? Maybe you’re being weird. Maybe you’re making things weird by being here. Are you sure you’re not being creepy? Are you sure you don’t seem like you’re flirting with them? They’d probably like it better if you weren’t trying to talk to them, because you’re being weird and ruining whatever small ‘normal’ connections you have. You’re making things weird and they’re not going to want to talk to you anymore.

Online it’s much better, but I still worry that I’m ‘talking too much’ or sending too many posts or being too…. overly enthusiastic (?) about relationships, especially if the other person seems busy.

My therapist suggested this week that I change the language around “I’m not good at talking (about thing)”, and I couldn’t tell her, But I say it all the time because it feels like it’s true.

220 notes - Posted August 19, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Extremely fucked up that healing relationship- and attachment-based trauma does, in fact, have to happen by talking to other people

377 notes - Posted October 20, 2022

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[transamorousnetwork]

Here’s Why Transgender and Trans-attracted People Love My Advice

There are a lot of people benefiting from advice I give here at The Transamorous Network. Every week, I get positive responses to stories I published. But this week takes the cake. It’s so confirming reading comments like the one I’m about to share.

It really makes the vitriol I get sometimes worth it. I started this blog to help transgender women and trans-attracted men find the love they so desperately want. The main thing I do with clients is show them the number one place they will always find consistent love.

That is from themselves.

But the great thing about finding love there is that once they find that, the world around them will reflect that back to them. That’s why people love advice I give. It resonates with people’s core awareness. Many aren’t as connected to that. But those who are find my advice powerfully resonates.

It’s great when I read comments from people getting inspiration from what they read on this blog. Let’s take a look at the most recent example (at the time of writing this).

Self-acceptance is everything 

If we don’t accept yourself, the world will reflect that back to us too. We’ll meet all kinds of people amplifying our stories. Not this person though. This person is getting it. Despite having characteristics society says are “disorders” this person is coming into loving who and what they are. I’m glad to see The Transamorous Network content contributing to that.

Check out what they wrote:

Hi! [sorry if I use any offensive terms, I'm just now learning] Just wanted to say these articles are really honest and thought-provoking. It's a lot to think about. I want to talk about my reasons for loving trans people.

I, too, am a male at the end of a long cishet relationship (18 yrs!). I never hid my attraction to trans people or cheated (we have an open relationship, communicate well), but I'm finding that I'm actually pansexual, with the strongest attractions to transfem people (femboys in my case) and also cis women. I could fall for the right guy, too. I need more, and it's not just a kink or a passing interest.

I myself have a fair deal of gender dysphoria, and I want to explore that with someone who knows where I'm coming from, you know?! I want to be more genderfluid and learn to be more feminine, express myself and my emotions better, change my appearance somewhat (I'm more dysphoric than dysmorphic, but still). I want to give and receive, be dominant and submissive, and learn to express positive emotions, not just the negative [read: masculine] ones.

As a male, most socialization and role models are toxic. Also, being in a cishet relationship is what society pushes one toward. It's easier to coast along and just be unhappy, or to fall victim to the sunk cost fallacy once you've started a relationship. It's especially easy to be stuck when you've had the example of parents or family members just being miserable and staying together anyway, as I have.

It's all quite the minefield, with bi- and pan prejudice/erasure being a thing, as well as poor reaction to male-presenting people who love trans people. I also believe that polyamory would be best for me, thanks to my neurodivergent needs (auDHD) and the desire to try many different kinds of relationships. Perhaps I'm playing on hard mode, as it were. But I finally know who I am, and that at least feels good. It simply took my life disintegrating for me to question who I was in the first place.

Let’s get radical

Let’s stop trying to fit in others’ boxes. Tear off labels people try putting on us. There’s no joy there. Only disappointment. And even if we do fit in the box, that box is just going to get tighter as what we are expands. And besides anyone who tries controlling people, in order to feel better, will feel better in the end. Politics shows that clearly, doesn’t it?

So let’s get radical. Let’s give up all that shit and just accept who we are, wherever we are. For transgender people and trans-attracted people our self-acceptance is a revolutionary act. It literally revolutionizes what it means to be human.

And that is our collective purpose. Stop trying to fit in. Find our own places, take up space, then watch the world shape around us as a reflection of our self-love. That’s the message The Transamorous Network offers. It’s great when folks get it. They are exactly the kind of people I like working with.

Are you such a person?

#transgender #transamorous network #transisbeautiful #transgirl #trans positivity #transgender women #transgender love #transattracted #transattraction #transamorous men #transamorous #transgender mtf #pre op mtf #pre op trans

[dcviated]

@psychcdelica​ sent:  What are Suzy's feelings towards the police? Is she curious at all about Shizue's job?

I feel like there’s more to discuss and figure out about the whole secrecy of ABIS, come to think of it. I’ll probably touch on this more once I hit the ask on Wylan’s blog. Because I recall Aiba being incredulous when Date remarks that he still hasn’t told Mizuki about her existence... so maybe it’s fine that the kids know about the ABIS?? We (read: me, myself, I) may have gotten this one wrong, chief. I think Suzy would come to know about ABIS, especially if it was involved in her backstory-

But it’s fine!

The question here is Suzy’s views on the position and organization. Which I think would be .... passively positive. Given her origin in this verse as an orphan picked up by Boss and thusly adopted she has appreciation for the police. Boss and co. solved her parent’s murder and presumably brought the killer to justice. 

She views the police as a force of good, as a result, and has no reason to hate them or dig into possible injustices. She’s met enough to learn them on a case by case basis rather than painting with a broad brush- there’s no label that would fit over Boss after all.

Suzy behaves well enough that she doesn’t have to worry about awkward brushes. Actually, there would be room to have a holier than thou attitude some people have “oh yeah well my mom is a police chief :V” but that’s distinctly absent in her personality. It’s. Whatever. She cares more about Boss as a person than about the job or who she works for.

As for her personal vested interest in the occupation- not for her. Suzy is more about creativity and art than she is about views of justice. Part of this comes from the pessimism of losing her parents and self-preservation in various lenses. Part of it is rebelliousness because teasing Boss is fun. She’s one of the few people who can get away with doing it! She thrives!!

#psychcdelica #muse :: suzy #inbox :: answered hc #verse :: aitsf #leatherworking is a curious hobby for a girl to have but looking at the cast of aitsf #IS IT REALLY #no

[deliriumthoughts]

Here's to inspiration, and literature.

If I had the chance to go back in time, I would go back to when I first started reading. I’d look at myself from a distance where it would be enough for me to look at myself and, in a way, telepathically tell ‘past me’ that this was going to be BIG. And it isn’t just the act of reading, it’s the storytelling that comes with it. The ability to listen and learn, see colors, and let alone imagine the construction of the things I find intriguing.

Growing up with people who don’t find reading as interesting as I do, wasn’t a challenge until I noticed our differences (yup I figured my interests on my own). Things were tough because I grew up searching, and discovering creativity alone. There’s something exceptional about finding yourself; and yet it takes a lifetime to get that set straight in the head.

Here’s to my devotion to stories. Stories that I want to have a deep connection with as I turn the pages over and over until one finds themselves going just a little insane.

Now, what I meant to write about was comics, graphic novels, whatever seems fit. I still can’t find myself shouting until the entire world knows (that I deliberately want them to know) that I love stories. Yes. I do. Many inspirations have come across my experience as a frequent comic reader (yeah I’m a visual learner).

A couple of years back (and I don’t exactly remember how and when) I decided to explore the vast world of “indie” comics. I’m going to be honest I was bored of reading the same boring genre I was enthused with at the time. Why not try a teeny bit of change right? Wouldn’t hurt anybody (oh but it did hurt me because you’re damn right I did pick the right- and painful- books to read.)

So, there was Image and Vertigo (and the power of online comics and downloadable pdfs). And this was the perfect year for me to continuously read like there’s no tomorrow. And there you have it, another obsession and recurring lack of sleep.

Vertigo had a huge impact on a lot of readers. You had the coolest, remarkable, passionate writers making themselves a name solely from the help of Karen Berger and whatever she decided on creating with Vertigo comics. Sometimes I wish I could have at least been born during that era, when iconic comic book titles were being published and during that same era, making history.

Vertigo is pretty old but it also isn’t? in a way. Well, Vertigo was rebranded in 2019 (only God knows how much I miss seeing that title on comic book covers). Once I had purchased all Y The Last Man books just because I was afraid the next ones on the shelves would be “DC Black Label” instead of Vertigo. I had to get the Vertigo prints, duh.

As for my ultimate personal favorite, one of Vertigo’s critically acclaimed (and oldest), The Sandman, will always have a special place in my heart. I’m not too young and definitely not too old, but reading Sleep of the Just, the first issue of The Sandman was not a concern to me at all and after a couple of issues, I was completely hooked. Like I said I was already mature enough to read anything… mature. The universe had sent The Sandman to me at the perfect time in my life (maybe). I had recognized Neil Gaiman’s work for pretty much half of my lifetime, and reading his magnum opus was undoubtedly the best thing that had ever happened to me in a really long time. Years.

Sure, there’s joy in reading but Vertigo changed the trajectory of my life. I mean it. And especially when you read something that doesn’t have an adaptation. You start to wonder whether that stuff’s going to get way cooler in the future once they start making tv adaptations or something. And yet here I am years later, waiting for my beloved component of literature in the history of however thousands of years old literature is, come to live action. You’re probably thinking, “come on I bet you’ve just found out about this. You’re excited about this?”, *Clears throat* I’ve been longing for this since they announced the live action series had been in progress in 2019. I was there when they gave us a first look at the set. I was there when they announced the casting, and I’m still here impatiently waiting every day for interviews, photos, and magazine articles regarding The Sandman. Just like every other real and true Sandman fan is around the globe. What’s not to love about Neil Gaiman’s work. And hello? The entirety of it is about some emo immortal god with immense relationship problems and the fact that his character develops to finding a better part of himself. It’s the change. Plus, who isn’t obsessed and able to completely relate to sibling rivalry coming from a dysfunctional family. Yeah, that’s pretty much a teeny bit of The Sandman. There’s so much more and I’ll remain obsessed with the graphic novels every time I read them. Suspense, twists, pain, fantasy, fiction, everything! Dark fantasy has always stuck with me from the beginning. I’ll always be grateful for the things I enjoy, especially ones that give me hope and reassurance. This is only a part of my story. I can’t just spill all of the tea right now, that’s insane. *walks away*

#blog #for fun

[beyondspaceandstars]

Treacherous (5)

Relationship: Druig x Reader Warnings: angst Summary: Soulmate!AU - Soulmate tattoos are incredibly rare but you’ve never felt really proud to have one. Everyone else around you gushed over it while you found the whole thing ominous and a little inconvenient. Truthfully, you were never really convinced you’d find your other half… That is until a random camping trip leads you to a quaint village run by a dark and brooding man who just so happens to be your soulmate. Stuck in the forest with nothing else to lose, you agree to join his world, his little village, and see if there’s actually love behind the markings. A/N: little notice - updates may be slow (even slower than this). i have some stuff going on in my personal life and im having a hard time finding enjoyment in my interests rn (writing feels pointless, reading sucks rn, etc.) so if you could please be patient as i work through things and try to find inspiration again! thank you :)

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"You’re sure this is going to be okay?" You asked as you stood in front of the bathroom mirror readjusting the cotton dress Druig had picked out for you. It was comfy but a bit dull, not unlike your other clothes had been. You pulled at the faintly cinched waist. It almost concerned you how nicely the dress fit.

"Everything is going to be fine," Druig insisted from his spot on the other side of the closed bathroom door. "Now, come out so I can see you." He’s been trying to get you out of the bathroom for a while now, but nerves about, well, everything was getting to you.

Today was your first day as a "teacher." Technically, it was just an introduction day as Druig felt it was important to introduce you to the young ones who may not fully understand your arrival.

It all sounded simple enough — at least it did to Druig.

"I don’t speak Portuguese well," you said. It was your go-to excuse now. "It’ll be a disaster."

"It doesn’t matter," he sighed. "They need to learn English as well. We believe it will be good for them to expand their vocabulary. Besides, I’m going to be there the whole time to translate and watch over everything. So, please, come out now."

You sighed and turned back to your reflection. You figured you looked…okay. There were some bags under your eyes thanks to the fact you couldn’t sleep in the…bed, but the shampoo and soap here did wonder for you.

With a shaky deep breath, you crossed the bathroom and opened the door. You were, unsurprisingly, greeted by Druig, who was standing in the middle of the room with his arms crossed in annoyance. Thanks to his sleeveless attire, you saw that for a leader he wasn’t skipping arm day. You wondered absentmindedly if the village had a gym.

"Here I am," you said unenthusiastically and gave your soulmate a little show of the dress with a half-assed twirl.

Thankfully, when you met Druig’s eyes again, he looked pleased. There was another emotion creeping up in the bond but you did your best to suppress it. His passion appeared to have no end.

"My beautiful, beautiful soulmate." Druig was in awe, his words coming out as almost a delicate whisper.

"Oh, I don’t…" You had to look away — you felt like you were constantly doing that with him like you didn’t have the strength to accept his affection yet. You wanted to, way deep down you really did, but there were roadblocks. In some stupid, technical way, you still had a boyfriend. You certainly didn’t forget about him, no matter what Druig showed you or said. You fiddled nervously with the hem of the dress.

Suddenly, a coldness washed over your skin and soul. You mentally cursed.

"Are you thinking about him after I just called you beautiful?"

You turned towards your bedside table and began fiddling with a jar of lotion. You didn’t know if you wanted to use it or just get lost in the label. A sad attempt to ignore the situation at hand. You couldn’t help where your thoughts were at sometimes, especially when another man is lusting over you. Granted, he was your designated other half but the logistics of it all…

"Unbelievable," Druig bit out. "What has to happen for you to just drop it?"

You placed the jar down and went for the perfume.

"I’m sorry," you said softly. "But I don’t want to discuss it right now."

There was an eerie silence that fell over the room. You watched the rose-colored liquid swirling around in the bottle. You hadn’t used the fragrance yet, not finding an occasion suited for it. The perfume, such a ridiculous topic to be invested in as you waited for Druig to do…or say something.

His response was surprisingly gentle. "Will we ever discuss it?"

You slowly place the bottle back down, next to the lotion. In a row like little soldiers.

"Eventually," you answered. "But not before I have to go meet the children. They don’t need to see me a mess."

Heavy footsteps approached you from behind. A firm but uneasy hand rested on your hip. It burned through the fabric. This closeness was what got you, it was a weakness. He was a weakness, truly. Your care for one man didn’t extinguish your fascination for another. You wish you had the strength to say that to Druig. To ease his worry and everything that swirled within that uncertain soul of his. But the words weren’t coming, not yet.

"Why would discussing it make you a mess, my love?" Druig asked. You felt his hot breath on your neck.

"Because…" You cleared your throat. "Because he’s my boyfriend. He’s a relationship I put time, effort, hope into. For as much of a dead-end it probably was, you can’t toss it aside like nothing."

Your brief explanation was so much and completely nothing at the same time. You knew it. It was only a matter of time before Druig knew it.

You felt the grip on your hip unexpectedly get stronger. "You still have feelings for him, for a random—,"

"I had a life with him." You just about screamed your words. "Forgive me if I have to mourn that loss."

Druig was itching to say more. You couldn’t see his face, but you could feel him. The hand on your hip certainly raised concerns. You were still as you awaited his remarks.

"We’re going to be late."

Then, he left the bedroom. You weren’t sure anymore if his holding back was a good or bad thing.

***

The children were sitting in rows on a collection of beautiful blankets as you and Druig arrived. An older woman stood in front of the group of at least 20 children, speaking rapidly, switching between languages.

You shifted uncomfortably watching the class. You weren’t too sure what their lesson was comprised of today and, frankly, you were a bit embarrassed to ask.

"This is ridiculous," you muttered under your breath as the weight of the situation set in. How was everything just hitting you at once? From the house to this…

Druig shifted closer to you until your arms were just barely brushing together. He had wanted to hold your hand on the walk over, claiming it was for guidance reasons, but you had declined.

"What was that?" He asked. But he knew — you could sense it.

Still, you played dumb. "N-Nothing."

Thankfully, he dropped it and turned back to observe the class.

"They’re learning about you," Druig said, vaguely translating the teacher’s words.

You frowned. "Me?"

"Don’t worry, it’s nothing crazy. The other teacher is explaining that they will have a new educator and that you speak primarily English, which is not too uncommon here, actually. Portuguese is standard, but many find benefits in being bilingual. The young ones know some, as you had observed, but there’s still room for improvement."

"Druig, this is really…"

"Ridiculous? That’s the term you had used, yes?"

You sighed, shamefully. "I’m just stunned this is my life right now."

Druig scoffed. "Why don’t you try embracing it for once instead of worrying. We might surprise you here, soulmate."

"I—I wasn’t—,"

"Students," Druig cut you off promptly by addressing the young ones. Both the teacher and students looked absolutely delighted to have Druig’s attention. They stared at him with such wonder, such amazement. Like he was a god.

He spoke to them in rapid Portuguese, except when it came time to introduce you. He outstretched his hand, wordlessly beckoning you forward. Shakily, you accepted. He shared your name with the students and you forced yourself to face them.

That some adoration they had for Druig was in their eyes as they marveled at you.

" Hola ," you said with a pathetic wave. You were at least glad you could muster up some kind of greeting.

The young waved back at you slowly.

"Does anyone have any questions for her?" Druig suddenly asked the students in English.

"Questions?" This was just supposed to be an introduction. He had said nothing about—

Hands shot up all around you. Druig pointed randomly, ignoring your outcry.

As the called-on student asked his question, Druig chuckled.

"He would like to know if you are real," Druig translated, turning towards you.

"Excuse me?" How were you meant to answer that?

"Remember, you’ve been spoken of like the loveliest ghost story. They’re a curious generation."

Druig’s explanation did little to ease you, but from the look on his face you could tell her was both amused and apologetic.

"I —  Si," you said, addressing the student. "I am…real." It was a sentence you truly never thought you’d ever say.

Druig translated the second half of your response and the young ones all looked relieved.

Druig asked for another question and more hands shot up, waving eagerly for attention. Druig, as same as before, picked one at random. The student excitedly began rattling off their question.

"Ah, I see." Druig nodded and turned back to you. "He wishes to know where you’ve been." Before you could even contemplate that question, Druig added, "I, too, am curious to hear more of your time out…there."

You resisted scoffing at his not-so-subtle jab. You addressed the students, and the students only.

"I come from a place called New York City," you explained. "It’s a large city on a coast in the United States of America. There I have a family and a, um, boy—,"

Druig spoke over you, cutting you off abruptly, but it wasn’t like you could blame him. From what you could make out, it sounded like he was asking for one final question before you two had to…go?

Hands were up again, this time somehow way eager than previous calls for questions. These kids were itching for answers, admirably.

But the little hands waivered when Druig added to the request: "In English," he said. "Show my dear how much you all know."

Some hands fell dramatically as they all realized what was being asked of them.

Druig waited a moment before calling on a female student in the back.

"Do you love Druig?" The young girl asked in soft but clear English. Honestly, part of you wished she had asked the question in a different language. You didn’t want to hear someone ask you that so clearly. Not now, maybe not ever.

You immediately turned to Druig but he wasn’t looking at you. He wasn’t looking at anything, actually. His gaze was trained on his boots.

Annoyance and embarrassment boiled within you. "Did you make her ask that?"

You didn’t know where your demanding question had come from. You knew the answer: He hadn’t. The girl’s eyes never eerily glowed. Druig never moved a muscle. She was just a young girl who was fed…fairytales. Who could blame her for asking such a thing? Stories of Druig’s soulmate — of you — swirled through this forest like a deadly wind. She, like so many others, was just so goddamn curious.

Upon noticing the tension the question had drawn up, the teacher stepped up and redirected her class’s attention. She dove right into what sounded to be a math lesson.

Once the students weren’t focused on either of you anymore, Druig forcefully grabbed your hand and marched back to the collection of buildings. He pulled you behind what you recognized as the infirmary. You were completely out of the curious gaze of others.

Which was probably for the best considering Druig was seething. "What was that?"

"Why did she ask that question?" You snapped back.

"Because she’s a child and children have no fears, no filters, and as an adult, you must navigate that appropriately. That means you don't yell, you don't make a scene—," Druig let out a frustrated groan as he rubbed his forehead like it held the most unbearable ache. He kept his distance, coming off both angry and… Disgusted?

Your heart sank. You hadn’t meant to be rude to the girl, to the other students. You were just so caught off-guard by the entire thing. And then to be asked about love…

"I-I’m sorry," you muttered.

Druig shook his head. "I’m finding a new position for you."

Your jaw went slack. "W-What?"

"It’s—It’s too much, okay? Maybe we’ll revisit the idea, but for now…" You hated how defeated, how uncertain, he sounded. You realized he wasn’t only angry — he was disappointed. He had an idea, he tested it, and you failed. You failed your soulmate. For some reason that cut you deep, deep, deep.

Druig continued speaking without looking at you once, "I’m going to talk to some of the women later and see what we have available. Now… Now, you should just go back to the house."

You nodded in defeat. "Druig, please know I am really sorry. I-I want to try again—,"

"Please, stop," he said but it came out more like a weak beg. With that, he began making his way back to the working villagers. But before he rounded the corner of the infirmary, he stopped and said, "Also, if I had wanted to know if you loved me, I would have just asked."

Druig carried on his way, not giving you the chance to say anymore. But you didn’t need to, you understood. He wouldn’t ask that — because he didn’t want to know the answer. Because he knew the answer.

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[raifenlf]

Why Loki’s Sylvie Is A Mary Sue

So I am firmly in the camp that Sylvie on the Loki series was/is a Mary Sue.  The last episode made me feel better and like maybe the show was doing a thing where they were faking you out that she was a Mary Sue only to show she was actually sort of a bad guy and I liked that.  But all the recent interviews make me think the show wants to go back to her being a Mary Sue.

But I feel like when I call her out for being a Mary Sue people tell me what are you talking about, she’s not a Mary Sue, bad things happen to her, etc.  But that doesn’t actually make her not a Mary Sue.  

Also, before we start, I know some people find Mary Sue sexist.  But I personally use the term for guys and girls. I don’t use the term to belittle women.  I use the term to criticize a poorly written character.

And I know Mary Sue is often used to describe fanfic characters.  But to me, this series is kind of like a fanfic because the writers took a character who had been in canon MCU material for ten years and then created characters around that character.  So, I kind of review it like I would a fanfic.  It’s very different than if the writers had created a brand new show with all of their own new characters.

Anyway, if you are not totally familiar with the Mary Sue term, then check this out:

I know the term Mary Sue probably means different things to different people.  But I have always used these guidelines when I write my own fanfic to make sure my characters never come off as a Mary Sue.

This article really gives you a full scale of what a Mary Sue is.  If you start reading it, you’ll immediately see why Sylvie is.  But I’m going to take out the parts that most fit Sylvie just to highlight why I believe she is a Mary Sue.  I apologize for this being so long.

Mary Sue Character Traits

Personality

Erm... what personality? The typical Mary Sue doesn't have one per se, because she isn't meant to be a character; rather, she's an entity by which the author makes cool stuff happen.

I feel like that is Sylvie in a nutshell.  She doesn’t have a personality.  I feel like even though she ate screentime, I still don’t really know her at all.  The writers love to say she’s badass.  That’s not a personality.  

Sometimes when I am writing stories for fun and creating new characters, I like to take surveys as my fictional characters.  Like the kind of surveys you’d see in a magazine, like personality types, what’s your dating style, etc.  I figure if I don’t know what my character would do in any of those situations, then I need to keep working on my character.  And if I was trying to fill out a survey pretending I was Sylvie I would have no idea what to answer because she doesn’t have a personality.  She’s just “cool”.

What little personality a Mary Sue has isn't as important as how other characters react to it. No matter how shy or socially awkward Mary Sue is supposed to be, other characters will be inexplicably drawn to her

This is so Sylvie.  Loki falls in love with her...why, exactly?  He falls in love with her in the big Nexus event moment...why?  Because she had a tough childhood?  Mobius spends like two seconds with her in a car and goes from hating her to saying she’s his favorite Loki.  For. No. Particular. Reason.

She's extremely persuasive; everyone finds her opinions to be better than their own

She enchants Hunter B-15 and then immediately Hunter B-15 makes it her whole entire life mission to back Sylvie up.  

And occasionally she'll be a complete asshole...This can manifest itself in several ways...The author wants to write a badass but doesn't know how. This leads to a character who mistreats everyone around her and is never called out on her abrasive, casually abusive behavior.

Sylvie talked down to Loki and treated him like garbage for all of episode three, but it was never portrayed as a bad thing and we never got any impression Sylvie later felt bad for the way she treated Loki

The author doesn't know how to hold back the character, meaning that she will succeed at practically everything. This means that when she encounters rules or authority figures who would otherwise prevent her from doing what she wants to do, she rolls right through them (and they praise her for her "boldness" in defying regulations). If a bad guy is violent and aggressive, she can beat him by being more violent and aggressive (with all that entails). It's impossible for her to go overboard because she's protected by Protagonist-Centered Morality.

Sylvie is shown as a kid to immediately be able to grab a Tempad and run away.  And she can kick ass way better than Loki, for no known reason.  She is always able to fight back against the TVA when they attack her.  And she can kill lots of innocent TVA agents but it’s okay because TVA bad, Sylvie good.

Skills

She will always be superior to the canon characters, regardless of what canon has established they can do or whether it makes any sense.

Whose skill was needed to defeat Alioth?  Sylvie’s.  Of course.  Sylvie needed to teach Loki her skills in order for him to succeed (!).  And again, she is literally called the superior Loki.

Relatedly, there's no effort to her skills. She never actually trains or learns anything to become more powerful; she just wins the Super Power Lottery, or is a freakish natural learner, or is just Inexplicably Awesome

We’re told Sylvie literally taught herself magic.  She literally taught herself to enchant people.  That. Makes. No. Sense.  Like, I have so many questions.  Like, why would it even occur to her to teach herself that?  And how????????????  This is really lazy writing.

Canon Character Relationships

Mary Sue is often designed to hook up with another character, often as a form of Wish Fulfillment. This isn't that bad in and of itself (okay, it is kinda weird), but Mary Sue accomplishes this without any sense of realism. She just grabs her lover's attention straight away, and their relationship will never face any obstacles or tension; it's true love from the start and nothing else. The biggest giveaway is if the love interest is explicitly the author's favorite character, and she essentially "cures" him of all the angst that ails him (at the expense of his characterization).

Yeah, so...this one should be pretty obvious to anyone who watched the show.  Loki literally falls in love with Sylvie immediately, and then he suddenly turns from “villain” to “hero” just because of loving her.  And this was definitely at the expense of his characterization.  And Loki just knows he falls in love with her.  There’s not even any moments of hmm what do I feel for this person?  It’s just true love, immediately.

She will be related to a canon character in some way. This (marginally) helps explain such phenomena as her being a Copy Cat Sue and other characters accepting her so easily.

Sylvie is a Loki variant.  They use this to help explain why Loki is drawn to her and why their falling in love immediately “makes sense”.

Most characters give her more heed than they normally would. The good guys never stop praising her

Seriously, it was so over the top and OOC for Loki to gush over her.  He literally tells her she’s amazing.  They don’t even make it subtle.

Characters' previously established personalities change in reaction to her. Proud, arrogant gimps suddenly acknowledge her superiority in everything. Reckless youths will listen to all her advice. Responsible leaders will defer to her instead. Villains will obsess with her to the detriment of all else. Extremely competent characters will become stumbling buffoons who require her help to do anything. Sweet, mild-mannered characters whom the author doesn't like turn evil and insult her. They all become unnaturally focused on her in some way.

Again, Loki’s whole personality changed in reaction to her.  He became a buffoon who needed her help to enchant the Alioth because of course he couldn’t do anything without her!  Hunter B-15 goes from doing whatever the TVA said to fighting the TVA just because of Sylvie.

Story Elements

Mary Sue is without exception a single-person Spotlight-Stealing Squad. The entire story hinges on her existence; if you removed her, there would be no story. 

Sylvie undoubtedly drove the whole story this season.  It all became about HER meeting the TVA heads because of HER trauma.  Loki’s life was only saved at the beginning because the TVA was trying to capture HER.  And SHE was the one who started the whole multiverse (!).

Mary Sue is The Chosen One, even if the setting already has one. There are many ways she can accomplish this: she can be a Sailor Earth type who "shares" the position with the canon hero; she may be vaguely "destined to help the destined one fulfill their destiny" (i.e. do all the work except the final blow so that the prophecy is still technically correct); or the canon hero may be revealed to be a Fake Ultimate Hero all along. Being the Chosen One doesn't necessarily involve her being a God-Mode Sue, especially as authors become aware of the phenomenon and try to avoid it, but it does make her critically important to the world and allows her to continue stealing the spotlight without the "god mode" label.

HWR wanted Sylvie to come with Loki in the end, like she was chosen all along right alongside Loki.  Like one of the most important characters in the entire MCU is now this character who we only met a few episodes ago.

Most Sues have an unusually Dark and Troubled Past. It's often used to create a Sympathetic Sue, but any type of Sue can have one

They tell us, over and over, how hard Sylvie’s life was because she was kidnapped by the TVA in order to create sympathy for her.

She almost never does anything wrong. In the rare instance that she does, it's usually; (a) a way for the author to disclaim her being a Mary Sue by introducing a single imperfection (that has no bearing on anything anyway), and (b) designed to show her smarts by making her feel instant remorse, and she'll be Easily Forgiven anyway:

So this one hopefully will not come true, as a lot can change between now and when the show is taped. But if the show goes on the way the behind the scenes team is talking, Sylvie immediately felt remorse for betraying Loki, and Loki has already forgiven her and is desperately looking for her.  Ugh.

Alternatively, she is more than capable of doing something wrong, be it in general moral terms or something that goes against whatever code she abides by, and she maybe even frequently does so, but don't expect the other characters or the narrative to ever acknowledge or comment on it in any real capacity. If the other characters do call her out, expect them to be treated like they're the problem for daring to criticize her at all.

Mobius calls her out for killing people, but Sylvie immediately says he’s a bad person and then Mobius agrees, because, of course.

She will often suffer from Special Snowflake Syndrome; i.e., she has a trait or backstory that sets her apart from her group or race.

She is the only female Loki, thus making her the special one among all the Lokis in episode five.

Presentation

In visual media, the camera just can't stop staring at her.

The camera would follow her in fight scenes rather than Loki.

Mary Sue Tropes

Okay, so there are specific Mary Sue tropes that Sylvie is.  One of those is Copy Cat Sue, which I think was referenced before.

Copy Cat Sue

A lot of fanfic writers...start to write something because of their passion for this character, but they find something about the character that doesn't mesh well. Maybe they're the wrong gender or are otherwise not close enough to the author's expectations...In any case, rather than put them through the Possession Sue process, they just get a Clone-O-Matic™ and out pops a Copy Cat Sue...the character might be intended as a replacement for the canon character, but without whatever icky traits the author hates. They'll then rob the spotlight, prove the canon character to be unworthy of his/her position, and either relegate the character to obsolescence or, perhaps, even remove them entirely.

Sylvie is basically a clone of Loki, she is a variant.  But she absolutely robbed the spotlight of Loki’s, and they literally call her the superior Loki.  I mean, they are literally not even being subtle about this.  And there was a feeling by myself (and a lot of other viewers) that Sylvie might ultimately replace Loki in the MCU. 

Black Hole Sue

Much like a black hole, this is a Mary Sue who "sucks in" the plot and characters to her. Characters will behave outside their personalities, logic will be defied, and rules will be broken for her sake.

Sylvie really does suck up all the plot and Loki definitely behaves outside of his personality just to fit the Sylvie show.

Jerk Sue

A Mary Sue who is mean or maybe even cruel, but are still treated as an ideal person.

Once again, Sylvie is basically a jerk all of episode three, but you’ve got Loki falling over himself to call her amazing in just the next episode.

Relationship Sue

A Mary Sue who exists to be the perfect mate for a specific character...this character has everything in the plot conspiring to enforce this One True Pairing...in Fanfiction, they are the perfect beloved of a canon character.

They literally have Mobius speculate that Loki falling in love with Sylvie is so extraordinary that it causes an entire Nexus event, that’s how huge this One True Pairing is (!).  And Sylvie is the love interest of Loki, the only character who had been around before the beginning of the series

TLDR: Sylvie has all the tropes of a classic Mary Sue character.  So calling Sylvie a Mary Sue isn’t being sexist or just randomly hating on the character.  If you use common Mary Sue characteristics to examine the character, she just has too many of these characteristics to ignore.

#loki negativity #antisylvie #loki critical #loki criticism #antisylkie

[closhelby]

HER. - Thomas Shelby

Smut

Pairing: Tommy Shelby x Reader

Warning: it’s peaky blinders, with smut

Word Count: 2472

AN: this is my first time writing smut, please give me any tips pls, it’s appreciate. It’s probably shite.

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She always was on his mind. The woman, that always read between the lines, always two steps ahead of him, and had an incredible eye for business. She had left him years prior, leaving for a top business school in London. they never had a title, a label on their relationship, but it wasn’t exactly a secret that they always, somehow, gravitated back to one another. Often people, especially Polly, would say that there was no way two people would be so alike, strong headed but only rarely clashed. 

However y/n’s degree had finished and she was coming back to Small Heath for a period of time before she was going to figure out what exactly what she wanted to do. Y/n was actually great friends with the Shelby family, since growing up with them, living just down the road, they practically lived together. Y/n was actually younger than Tommy, she was ages with Ada and John. They were in the same class throughout school, Ada and y/n regularly wrote to each other, updating each other on Ada’s eventful life as a Shelby still in Small Heath and y/n’s very exciting studying life in London. 

They had actually planned to meet up, for a nice and quiet drink at the Garrison on her return. The thoughts swirled in y/n’s mind as she approached the Garrison, it had just gone 6pm, and she knew as it was a Friday, she did have a possibly of bumping into her first, arguably her only love.  Pushing the thoughts to the back of her head, she pushed open the door to see a fairly crowded Garrison. 

“Ah, y/n, how was London?” Harry shouted, from behind the bar. Y/n smiled at him, walking over to Ada sitting in the back corner. “It was good Harry, nice to be back in this clear Birmingham air”. He chuckled slightly, “Whiskey coming up love”. 

Y/n nodded, taking a seat next to Ada, giving her a cuddle, “Unsure if ive missed this place or not” y/n laughed slightly, eyes scanning the pub, looking for the one man she questioned if she did want to bump into. The pair was throwing back drinks like it was going out of fashion, knowing they would both regret this in the morning. Apparently, Ada wasn't allowing y/n to go back home, and in fact y/n didn't have a home yet and wasn't willing to go back to her parents, so Ada was insisting that she stayed at hers until y/n found a suitable place. Y/n didnt put up a fight, despite them both being hot heads, and taking absolutely no shit from anyone, men or woman, y/n didn't argue. She was actually really thankful for her. 

They eventually stumbled into the house in the early hours of the morning, their laughs echoing throughout the silent house. 

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The sun caught y/n directly in the eyes, quickly awoke y/n from her sleep. Her head felt as though someone had been hitting her head against the floor multiple times. Y/n continued to lay there, turning away from the sun, trying to keep the contents of her stomach from getting sprayed all over her and the sleeping Ada. She made an attempt at moving, sat with her head in her hands as she was trying to give herself words of encouragement to get up and make herself something to eat. 

“Fuck sake, why do we do this to ourselves?” Ada moaned from behind her. Y/n scoffed, “ Your bloody idea”.

Quickly standing up, in hope she could get it over with quickly. The room continuing to spin, as she attempted to walk to the door. Ada following closely behind. 

They both sat slumped over the dining room table, as they attempted to sober up and embrace the oncoming hangover. John now present, laughing at the two dying woman in front of him. 

“Good night?”

“Always.” Ada grumbled.

Pol placed a plate in front of them, toast with jam, “Does Tommy know your back? 

Eyes falling onto y/n from every person in their, “No.” answering quietly. 

Attempting to change the subject, “Told myself I would start looking for a new job today, since I shall be staying here for a decent period of time.”

John raised his eyebrow, “Tommy’s looking for a new secretary.” A slight smile on his face, “You've got a good background, business and that”.

“hm, I don't think so Johny boy”.    

“Don’t say no too soon, your a good asset to the business.” Pol added. No one was ever in y/n’s corner more than Pol, they would bang heads sometimes, as neither of them would back down. But she accepted y/n was the only one that had the best interest for Tommy.

The front door closed, and there he stood, the room turning to face Tommy, silence filling the room, then he broke it, “Heard you were back.”

“Yeah,” she replied quietly.

“Well, you know where I am if you need that job, I’m sure you’ve already been told,” he spoke, cigarette hanging from his mouth, as he walked away from them and into his office.

Y/n let out a breath, as though she hadn’t been breathing the whole time he was there. Ada smiled at her, placing her hand onto y/n’s, “I’m just going to get ready for the day love,” and off she went upstairs. The boys getting on with their day, and Pol following suit.

Y/n sat collecting her thoughts while trying to tell herself to face her ex lover, who she was still so deeply in love with. She tapped on the door slightly, opening it before opening it, “hi”, seeing his eyes flutter onto her shot tingles throughout her body, his eyes quickly looking away

“You can start tomorrow if you wish, I need a few papers signed and sent tomorrow. I can get your contract drawn up tonight.” He spoke, his eyes still not lifting from the paper in front of him.

“Yes, that’s fine 8am?”

“8.45, shop doesn’t open until 9. And there are others to set it up, that’s not your job.”

Nodding, “I heard you have a new woman.”

At this point he did look up at her, “I heard you had plenty men in London,”

She laughed slightly, nodding before heading to the door, “none were ever a patch on you,” closing the door, leaving a smirk on Thomas Shelbys face.

The following day came around, as y/n got ready for the day. Putting on a formal black tightly fitted dress, flats and pin curled hair. A slight tint of red lippy, remembering it used to be Tom’s favourite. Assuming Tommy wouldn’t be at the shop at this time, she took a whiskey with her placing it on the desk infront of Tommy’s office. The place was silent, despite there being other employees now starting to arrive, something calming about the place, almost the calm before the storm, she thought.

The hour was now around ten thirty, and there was still no sign of Tommy. She had already finished the papers he had left for her on her desk. It wasn’t the usual small Heath lady, she was educated, and to a very high level. y/n was sat twiddling her thumbs, awaiting Tommy’s arrival to get other things done.

“Y/n. My office please,” his voice low, as he stood behind her. She stood up quickly, following him into the private room.

“There’s your contract, if you wish to have a read over it. I see you’ve finished the work I gave given you for the day.”

Y/n took the contract into her hands, scanning for any mistakes or anything to question. But he actually was paying her nearly double the rate of other staff, and just over that the London rate was, “you’ve done your research eh. More than London rates, impressive. The peaky’s are stepping up in the world” Y/n smiled at him, as she placed the documents on the desk, picking up his pen, and signing it. Y/n Y/l/n. Followed with today’s date. That was now it, she was a Shelby Co Ltd employee.

...

The days turned into weeks, spending time with tommy while no one else was looking was becoming a regular thing. She now had her own place, just doors down from the shop. He would regularly call her into the office, and discuss things that he would usually never utter a word about. It had always been that way with them, since they were little, he would confine in her, telling her all the issue and problems he was facing, both in his mind and with others. But it was also coming to her attention that he was still seeing Grace.

Later on in the day, the clock chimes 11pm, as y/n sat listening to the music that takes her back to a child, while sipping a whiskey. The knock of her front door bringing her out of her daydream, she picked up her handgun that she kept on her at all times. Growing up with The Shelby’s, she had to protect herself in someway. She kept it behind her, out of view for anyone who was in front of her, slowly creeping up to answer the door. She swung it open, gun clocked and pointed directly in the face of Thomas Shelby. Not wasted, but defiantly had a few.

“Ah, can never change a Shelby girl eh” He spoke, laughing slightly as she lowered the gun and he stepped inside. 

“Although, I’ve never been a Shelby girl, have I Tom?”

“Depends who you ask.”

She sighed, stepping in to the fire lit living room, “Drink?”

He nodded in response, and y/n began to pour him a whiskey, topping up hers and handing a full glass over to him. “Why are you here?”

He stepped over to her, the closest they had been together since before she left for London. He placed a hand on her back, pulling her head into touch his, their foreheads touching. The sensation ran through her body like the first time they had ever touched. He placed his hand on around the back of her neck, pulling her into him, his lips crashing onto hers. Their tongues intertwining with each others as the kiss started to deepen.  Y/n reached for his jacket, pulling it off his back, before making her way on to unbuttoning his shirt. Tommy pulled the bottom of her nightdress up, y/n only allowing the kiss to be broken to allow it to come over her head. 

Their lips syncing with each other once again as tommy took his now unbuttoned shirt off, moving onto unbuckling his trousers revealing his already hard length. He began to push her back onto the couch, untangling her lace thongs from around her legs. His fingers trailing over her already wet pussy, “Do it” y/n whispered as she pulled his face back up to kiss hers. 

He didn't even wait as he shoved his length into her. Their bodies rocked in sync together, “Tommy...” Y/n moaned, her fingers trailing down his shirtless torso. The stars were starting to align, the room was warm, full of love. It felt as though it was five minutes but in reality it was around fifteen all in.

Their breath shortened as y/n’s back started to arch as she came close to climax, “cum for me”. He spoke, looking at her directly in the eyes as he rocked her world. The love, chemistry, love and lust, all so very present just as it was back how they were before. Both of them moaning in pleasure, as they both came at the same time. The deep breaths and steamy windows showing the passion that had just unfolded. 

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It was a Friday evening, a week following the night of sin that taken place between Tommy and Y/n. They had still had the talks in private in the office, and on another occasion she was fucked bent over his desk after closing time. Y/n wasn't one to hide her feelings, it would always be present on her face so when it came to facing Grace in the Garrison, it wasn't hard to tell how y/n’s feelings were over her.  

Pol chuckled softly, clocking the glare Grace was on the opposite end of, “If looks could kill” Ada joining in on the hilarity. 

“She would've been killed 8 times over” Y/n replied, turning back to face the women. Whiskey in hand. 

“Feelings still there for him then?” Ada asked. 

“No, I wouldnt say so” y/n lied. 

“Cant lie to a gypsy woman love” Pol laughed, y/n begining to laugh with her when the doors open to reveal Tommy and his two bothers. Tommy’s icy blue eyes scanning the room, a slight smile shooting over to Y/n before approching the bar where Grace was, where he stood there for a good twenty minutes chatting away to her. 

“I cant take this anymore.” y/n looked over to Ada, who was rising her eyebrow while taking a sip of her drink. She was fairly close to them, and y/n being y/n liked to have a slight stir up now and again. She stood up, smile showing on her face as Pol and Ada laughed, watching her approach them both. 

“So, hows your little fling going?” she spok loud enough that Pol, Ada, Arthur and John could hear her. 

“Y/n” Tommy warned. 

“Who are you?” Grace questioned. 

“Y/N,” she responded, leaning herself against the bar, “The woman he has fucked behind your back multiple times this week.”

Pol snorted, almost chocking on her drink, “ I fucking knew it. Gypsy senses never lie.” 

“To be honest with you Grace, you had absolutely no chance when Y/N came back” Ada added. 

At this point, Tommy had moved y/n away from the bar, into the small room, “what are you doing?”

“You cant take the piss out of me, fucking me but then fucking her thinking youll get away with it.” she was pissed, and he could see it in her face. They had never spoke on their feelings toward each other. Everyone knew that it was always each other but there was nothing that compared to them, they always seemed to go back.

“I have always loved you but you left to go to London, I had people follow you. I knew what you were up to so I assumed you would stay down there, I assumed you had moved on.” He spoke, almost showing vulnerability.

“Oh I know. I can remember faces Tom. I think you forget I can see right through you,” she seethed, through her teeth, “what are you going to do about this?”

Tommy cupped her face, pulling her into kiss her.

“I love you.” He mumbled, feeling her smile into their kiss.

“I love you Tom,”

#thomas shelby imagine #peaky blinders #cillian murphy #tommy shelby #tommy shelby smut #tommy shelby x you #tommy shelby x y/n #tommy shelby fluff #tommy shelby x reader #tommy Shelby #tommy shelby imagine #peaky blinder fanfic

[cruelfeline]

In light of all that we’ve learned with this most wonderful final season, some people have asked me to reassess Hordak’s backstory monologue. To see how Hordak’s narrative fits with what we now know about his home. To try to discern exactly what its discrepancies are, and why.

I’m going to do that! But before I do, I would remind everyone: this is a little difficult to fully untangle because, given that Hordak is not a main character and thus does not have the focus that we’d like, we really don’t know a whole lot about the Horde in terms of function, social roles, and general history. So this is going to be very much limited by what I can glean from exactly what the show gives us.

That said, it’ll hopefully still be interesting. So!

During season three, after recovering from his syncopal episode, Hordak describes to Entrapta what he is, what he was, and how he came to be on Etheria. He describes himself as a defective clone who, once upon a time, was the top general in the galactic Horde. When his defect became too much of a burden, he was apparently demoted, sent to the front lines to fight until death, and arrived on Etheria by way of unexplained portal.

This is what Hordak tells us, and, as far as we know, he’s not lying. Hordak, as portrayed in the show, is a very honest person, both in his own actions and in the actions he expects of others. He greatly dislikes deception and does not appear skillfully capable of it himself (save for that one time). Knowing this, we generally have to assume that, in his own mind, what Hordak is saying is true.

So. What gives, right?

After all, once we see the galactic Horde in action, we learn that it is a played-straight, honest-to-the-gods cult. There’s nothing distinctly military about it. It’s not a bigger, grander version of Hordak’s Etherian Horde.

It is a cult with a god-brother-creator at the helm, commanding countless identical acolytes who live their lives in slavish devotion to their master. There do not appear to be any ranks. We hear nothing about any generals, let alone a “top general.” There doesn’t even appear to be a need for anything like that, because Prime doesn’t seem to really delegate to his brothers in a way that singles them out or relies on real autonomy from them.

He can, after all, read their minds at will and slip into their bodies whenever he fancies. If he needs to make a decision about a battle on a planet at the other edge of the galaxy, he can just take over a body on that planet and make said decision himself. Or, at the very least, enter the relevant clone’s mind and influence the decision as needed. He doesn’t need, and certainly doesn’t appear to tolerate, clones taking their own initiative.

So, again: what gives? What does Hordak mean by “top general”? Why does he think he has this elevated role when we can see that Prime considers all of his clones the equivalent of faceless bodies to be used a he likes?

Well, while we will likely never know the full truth, given the lack of Horde background detail, we can safely assume some things from what canon shows us.

Namely that, while all clones appear indistinguishable and do not seem to have named rank, there are definitely clone positions that work more closely with Prime than others. His attendants are one example. Those who are in his throne room feeding him information while he is working are another. (Hordak actually appears to be one of these, at least while Prime is trying to hack the Heart of Etheria, when Entrapta is captured.) And then, of course, there are the chosen vessels that will one day house Prime’s consciousness.

All of these positions can likely be occupied by any clone, with bodies switched out as needed (likely what happened when Hordak got sick). I doubt that individual clones have any sort of real rank. Prime knows this. Hordak and his brothers, I suspect, may not fully understand it. 

Rather, I would not be surprised if Hordak, deceived and indoctrinated into believing things about himself and about Prime that are not true, misinterprets the nature of his purpose and the truth of his relationship with his Brother. He believes that, fulfilling whatever role he was fulfilling for Prime, he was a general, an individual of note, an individual that Prime specially valued. Perhaps he fulfilled the role long enough that, in all but name, it became “his.” Perhaps he even fulfilled it well enough that Prime praised him frequently, cementing this unfortunate delusion. Perhaps Prime gave him legitimate favor -  a false thing, of course; simply a controlling tool, but Hordak did not realize that. 

Without canon confirmation, we can really only speculate, but these ideas seem reasonable.

Details aside, the point of the matter is that Hordak sees himself as “top general” because he sadly doesn’t understand that he is an interchangeable piece of a utilitarian machine. He truly thinks that he has this coveted position, that he is particularly useful, special, of great value. It’s a tragic misunderstanding that simply fuels his misguided devotion to Prime and prevents him from seeking freedom when he is given the opportunity. 

It’s something, I think, that people in very controlling religious organizations often end up thinking: that they are especially valued, worthy in some way that others are not. It’s part of how the organization controls them. 

By the by, there is also the theory that Hordak has suffered memory erasure before and is thus doubly confused, filling in blanks with fantasy, but given that we have no direct evidence of that, I’m not really going to go into it; it’s a popular bit of speculation, though.

Now, however, let us examine a different aspect of this. Labels aside, delusions aside, we are left with another conundrum: however Hordak interprets his position, it is very clear to us that said position does not actually offer the power or respect that a legitimate high military rank would offer. It does not appear to provide Hordak with any special treatment. 

Once upon a time, back when we first learned of Hordak’s backstory, it was somewhat assumed that the position would do something like this. Numerous fans speculated about how it might be a position that gave a clone dominion over others, or over their own personal ships or planets; some fans suggested that it might give a clone the right to a name. Now, of course, we know that none of these speculations are true: all of Prime’s clones are essentially interchangeable; all are part of a hive mind that eliminates the need for certain clones directing others; no clone is allowed a name, no matter what their current job might be.

So. What, exactly, is Hordak practically gaining here? Despite this position appearing to hold zero effective esteem, despite it necessitating Hordak giving up his self and his autonomy, it is abundantly clear that he desperately wants it back. Why? 

What about this position, whatever it may or may not be called, would provide Hordak with this sense of value, of specialness, of personal worth? After all, Hordak may be deluded, but he’s not stupid; even indoctrinated, he can tell that he doesn’t hold dominion over other clones, or have a right to his own name. He can tell that he doesn’t receive any functional privileges, that his own sense of value doesn’t translate into anything that you or I would think is “worth the price of admission,” so to speak. 

In light of that incredibly steep price, what does this position offer, in a world where military rank appears irrelevant? What does it offer, in exchange for Hordak’s name and his bodily autonomy and his freedom? In short, what does it offer that makes Hordak think it worth sacrificing so much for? 

Well. 

It offers closeness to Prime, doesn’t it? It offers the chance to work near him, to bask in his presence, to be spoken to and looked upon and touched by him. It offers the chance to receive his praise, personally. It offers the chance to perhaps -  hopefully, wishfully - receive his love.

Because that’s what Hordak really wants. Not dominion over others, or a fancy military title. He wants that emotional connection. He wants that approval and validation. He wants love. And for so much of the series, for so much of his life, he believes that love comes only from Prime. That working closely with him, being of use to him, will provide him with that sense of belonging and acceptance and affectionate care that he hungers for. That it will make him worthy and loved.

(There’s a line in the deleted Entrapdak scene, where Prime calls Hordak the “most unloved and unworthy” among his brothers that really cements the idea that worthiness is synonymous with love within the galactic Horde)

This is what marks the position as “special” in Hordak’s eyes: it is special because it stands the greatest chance of providing him with Prime’s love.

All of it is a lie, of course. Because Prime only “loves” his brothers as extensions of himself, and even then, only if they are physically useful to him. Once Hordak starts to lag behind due to his illness, he is quickly removed from Prime’s presence and sent to the front lines, destined to fight until defect or battle kills him. And yet it is a lie so powerful, and the clones’ need for Prime’s love so great, that he is able to use it to control them even when they are separated from him. To the point that a sickly clone trapped in a shadow dimension will forgo freedom in his desperate bid to feel wanted and treasured by his cruel god.

Eventually, thankfully, Hordak finds a true version of the connection he craves, someone who looks at him and acknowledges him, values him and loves him as he is, without him needing to prove himself useful. He finds Entrapta, and she provides that love that he sought from Prime.

This is why, even though Hordak actually ends up working in Prime’s throne room again, ends up close to him once more, he breaks free from control and kills his Brother. Throughout season five, Hordak remembers Entrapta. He remembers how she makes him feel. He remembers her love... and he realizes that it is not the same as Prime's. It is sincere. It is unconditional. It accepts him as his own flawed person, rather than the perfect drone Prime wants him to be. It is deeper and more true and more real than the hollow sham Prime offers.

And so Hordak rejects this once-coveted position, rejects Prime, and frees himself. He makes the choice between a false, controlling “love” and the real, heartfelt thing. He makes the choice, and he chooses Entrapta.

In the end, the greatest disconnect between what Hordak tells us in season three and what is true isn’t the word “general,” or even the cruel difference between how Prime views the clones, and how they view him. It is the impression of why Hordak wants such a position at all, of what it means to him. What initially comes off as a disgraced military man seeking to regain former glory is actually a lost, unloved soul desperately searching for the emotional connection he needs.

And, after many mistakes, after much hardship, he finally finds it.

#hordak #horde prime #entrapta #entrapdak #she ra

[thepriceofbeingaroseisloneliness]

Kaoru Ongaku to Hito Interview  May 2021

DIR EN GREY  Endless originality. Don't shake, don't move, don't give up. As the leader and main composer of DIR EN GREY,  he made me realize in this interview that even if the band is in a situation in which they can't move forward, they are still striving toward their own determination without losing sight of their desire to create music. The new single "Oboro" is a ballad with a simple sound envision that insists on the melody and lyrics. In this single, which was made with the intention of being widely listened, you can feel a different stance on the sounds and the arrangements. I think his obsession with music and the pursuit of originality are changing because of his age and career. On the other hand, the latest promotional photos are still grotesque and chaotic. The future this band is heading for it’s held by his unchanging desire for music. Here there is a dialogue with him which makes you believe so.

Notes before reading: This is Kaoru’s interview featured in Ongaku to hito music magazine May 2021.

You can get this magazine at cdJapan (totally worth it!) Feel free to correct me if you spot any mistake or any confusing parts. Links or credits to this post when the content is reposted or captured in other SNS is appreciated :) -----------

Text by Higuchi Yasuyuki Photographs by Amita Mari Hair & make-up by Yamaguchi Atsushi_ EKYQ

“I’m not in the mood to say ‘let’s do this now’ but recently,  making astounding/ crazy songs might be difficult”

(While turning over the latest issue ...)  Kaoru: Did M-AGE make a come back? 

*M-AGE is a Japanese electronic pop/rock band active during the early 90s. They were feature in the previous issue of Ongaku to hito, April 2021* -Are you affected by that band? (laughs). Kaoru: I was surprised (laughs). -A band that disbanded more than 20 years ago did a comeback, there are another band that the drummer who has been a member for 20 years has left, there have been various things happening (in the music industry) in the past year, but DIR EN GREY has not lost to Corona. K: When it comes to losing, there is nothing you can do about it. - What do you think is the reason why these five people are continuing, without stopping, as a band? K: Isn't it because every one of us think we can’t go beyond this band? If someone gives up, we are not confident we can do something better than what we are doing now. It’s like, we can't get away from each other. It's easier to express your opinion if you keep a certain distance in that sense, and you don't have to accumulate stress about it. -By the way, throughout this year you noticed things and had some thoughts about the band. K:  That’s right….well, since the creation process was originally done remotely, I rarely had the opportunity to meet with the members other than the tour, but in reality it was important to have casual conversations with the members during the tour. There was a moment when the ideas changed depending on the words I exchanged with the members on the spot like “we should try to make this kind of song”… But it was a year when I was making songs without this input, so  it’s like there was  a part of me that felt gloomy. -You felt the importance of talking with the members. K: Even if we communicate remotely, we can just communicate by voice or text but, the mood/situation, the temperature, facial expressions etc…that can only be perceived directly so I thought those things are important after all. -In that situation, did the band make a song that only can be made now or tried to aim for something in your work?

K: That’s not case. It was as usual. We are not in the mood to do something like that now. However, it has nothing to do with this situation but we talked about how recently  it’s becoming harder to make crazy songs. -A crazy song? K:  When the band tries to create a song, naturally it turns out quite relaxed/calm. It feels like it’s what our bodies want. -Why do you want that kind of thing? K: I think that kind of songs makes you feel good, isn’t it? If we want to make a song like “Gya!” (fierce), we can make it but if we do it naturally, there will be more calm/relaxed songs. In other words, our previous single (digital single ‘Ochita koto no aru Sora) was a song we made with the intention of creating something fierce. -Intentionally, you made a fierce song. K: So, there was a talk about what kind adjustments should be done. We did it this time as well, but for now we are not thinking too much about it. Originally, ‘ARCHE’ (album released in 2014) was an album that was closer to that feeling. I just tried to do things I liked. There were a lot of slow and calm songs, but maybe it's easier to come up with such songs these days. -That’s why you can’t let yourself go with your natural flow… K: That’s right. So, the next album ('The Insulated World') was shaken off in the opposite direction. Of course, there are still intense/fierce songs coming out from the members. However, the songs everyone selects and remains in the top ranks are generally calm/relaxed. - 'Oboro' is a song that was born in such a situation. K: There was a talk about this single like ‘let’s make it easy for people who listen to DIR EN GREY for the first time, having an easy-to-understand melody”, so this song became a single. -Why did you decide to go in that direction? K: Somehow, we thought there are quite a lot of people who only know the name DIR EN GREY these days, but don't know what kind of music we are playing. Then, we feel like trying to make it easy for such people to get into us. So, I think it's quite challenging for us. -You are not really a band that “goes outside”. But also this song,  it’s a song that can be classified as a ballad in DIR EN GREY. K: It’s the kind of song we usually would keep for the album. It’s also interesting to dare to release it as a single. -It’s certainly a relaxing song and the variety of sounds is small, so it seems easy to approach but the latest promotional photos….(laughs) I was like “what’s your intention?”. K: Fufufufu (laughs) -But it looks like because of those photos the door is going to be closed before they listened to your music (laughs). K: That's why it's not that simple, like the sound or the tone of the song is intense or not. The song is like this, but this band is actually called ‘fierce’. -You mentioned earlier it  may be a matter of age, but the taste of music changes just as the taste of food changes when you get older. K: That's right. -So, recently, I feel this band doesn't try to resist such changes so much, or like you have started to project a realistic/true-to-life self into music. K: By all means, it looks like we became adults, right? -That’s why I’m familiar with it because we are from the same generation, it just fits. You can listen to it and enjoy a song with faint sounds instead of roaring ones. K: That's right. Simply, this kind of song is the one that roots in me. For example, the synthesizer-like sound that comes out first. -The intro with a synthesizer-like sound? K: That's right. That's my roots, originally I liked  the New Wave and listened to it, so I tried to create  what I was waiting for. *New wave is a broad music genre that included numerous pop and rock styles from the late 1970s and the 1980s* -But I think DIR EN GREY was the kind of band in which the roots of each member weren't projected in that way. K: After all, if five people do it, chemical changes will occur and the result will be completely different. But lately, the things I created haven't changed much, and sometimes they reach the end point. Of course, it's arranged in detail, but for this song, it's pretty much the same shape than at the beginning. -So, I got the impression it was a song that was unlikely to be done by DIR EN GREY until now. K: Maybe if we tried to keep it for the album, the arrangement would have been different. Because it’s a single, maybe I tried to listen to the melody. -In other words, it doesn’t feel like DIR EN GREY. K: Yes, if you listen to it with your existing values/sense of values, you might think it's not like DIR EN GREY. But this time we wanted to do that. That’s why when the president of our label listened to the demo first, said something like ‘This, isn’t it a bit insufficient/unsatisfactory?’ the reply was ‘No, that’s not the case’ (laughs) -Ahahahaha K: So, I think it's a new type of song. But just because this song seems to happen once in a while, the other songs are going to change steadily due to chemical changes going on. "This new song isn't fierce or shocking. Certainly, you can listen to it smoothly but actually….” -Then, I have a question for you Kaoru, not for the band, but do you think your personality has changed a lot from 10 years ago? K: How is that in reality? - Specifically, "DUM SPIRO SPERO" that came out 10 years ago is your commitment and obsession/attachment. In other words, I think it's an album that is full of personality. So, this time 'Oboro' comes from your roots,In other words, it's a song that is full of personality. However, if you compare these two works, the contrast is so huge that you can't think they were made by the same person. K: That's not true. -Oh really? (laughs). K: That's not true (laughs). For me, both are the same me. -But as a listener, I get the impression that the music is exactly the opposite, or that it's completely different. K: Certainly it’s the exact opposite when you  are referring to a band called DIR EN GREY, but it’s not that different for me, rather, it’s connected. -What kind of connection do you have? K: The sound may be different, but the points we are focused are the same. Especially this time, it feels like we've created each sound in detail, so it's more like I'm playing with the precision of a machine inside rather than the outward appearance of the music. -I see. K: Anyway, the most particular thing about this song is the sound of the synthesizer at the intro  I mentioned earlier. I thought the sound at the beginning would determine everything in this song. - Since that kind of determination/passion has disappeared, I was wondering if it would be a song that would allow me to listen to the melody simply. K: That's not true. Is it natural to stick to that? For example, I bought a synthesizer,  and it makes interesting sounds so I tried to create something. But the preset sounds you got when you bought the synthesizer (Note: it's set in advance) don’t work for me. -Why not? K: You have to create your own original ones. Even if I think the preset sounds are are catchy the way they are, I dare to stick to my original ones. Otherwise I can't be satisfied. - I wondered if you had finally abandoned that kind of troublesome pickiness(laughs). K: I’m really picky about that (laughs). But I think that’s normal when you make music. Even commercial pop music can be really picky about it. -You're right. You're right. K: Because it was created with that detail,I think people who listen to it will say "Oh!".If it wasn’t created in that way, it won't convey anything, and if it's as simple as this song, it won't be interesting unless you are committed to it. That is why it is the same as "DUM ". -Surely, but what if you could make it smoothly without being so committed/picky about it? K: Sometimes it’s easy to create, still, it would be nice if it makes you feel something. -I agree. K: This new song isn’t intense or shocking when it comes to the music, so you can listen to it  smoothly, that’s why there is  something for sure that makes you go like  “this song!”. But in reality, there are several sounds, I’m just not trying to hear them properly. It sounds like something that makes you feel it, you can’t hear it clearly, but it’s there. It’s not something new, to stick to that kind that sound, but in that sense it might feel like different or new. -At first, I had the impression that it was new or something different from what I heard before , but that may be the result of your commitment, to the point  that you couldn't hear it. K: I don't know if the word "new" is correct, but now I want to create  in a way that makes easy to project ourselves, while blending  it with something that makes our guts/intestines stick out. If we can do that, I think it will be something different and interesting, like "DIR EN GREY is doing something interesting again". I feel like I'm exploring that aspect now. -We talked about age before but, Isn't this age the time to imagine something like the time remaining? Like taking it easy at this point…..that kind of idea. K: Rather the opposite. I don't know how long I'll be able to create something I'm compromised with, and whether if I will keep having this  energy or physical strength. I want to keep doing it as long as I can. I can only make music with what I have, so I'm not overdoing it in that sense, but I'm overdoing it in a different sense (laughs). You can't create it without straining yourself. -I see, you are not lying to yourself. K: Of course. However, if you rely only on yourself, it won’t beat your expectations. I don’t think that this will change, no matter how many things happen. Still, at last I started to think that our music has some power of persuasion. Do you think we can keep competing with just our music? -It's been like that for a long time. But this band is like asking for something impossible, it’s a band that won’t disappear. K: But isn’t it about creating things? -I agree. Is it still fun to create things? K: It's fun (laughs) -Immediate answer (laughs) K: If we can do it forever, I want to do it forever. There are a lot of difficult moments, but I really like it. -As long as these five people are able to share that feeling, this band will continue. K: I think so. It's okay as long as  I believe in myself and the members. -I see……your speech was  much worse than reading a bad self-help book (laughs). K: hahahaha

#dir en grey #kaoru #ongaku to hito #translation

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

Sorry if this is long but I’m questioning whether I am ace or not so I hope you don’t mind if I ask a few questions;

1) Is it possible to be asexual over time? For example, I used to feel sexual attraction when I was younger but suddenly stopped experiencing that.

2) do some asexuals think about sex often but don’t desire it? I often get intrusive thoughts including sexual ones but I heard that asexuals don’t think about sex at all.

3) sometimes I will have the desire to have sex and want to do it but then other times I am repulsed by the thought.

4) I feel like I don’t relate to allos but I also don’t relate to asexuals and I kinda feel broken and lost.

5) I also heard someone say that when they first had a sex Ed class they were indifferent and didn’t care about it but I was really interested in it, does this mean I’m not ace?

I’m sorry if this was really long I’m just really confused about my sexuality and want to know why I don’t feel like very one else.

All good, Anon. I don’t mind long asks.

1) Yes. Sometimes people have a fluid orientation, and this means their orientation can literally change (either once or multiple times). This can happen with any orientation to any other orientation. And yes sometimes people will become asexual as they get older.

For asexuality specifically this can happen naturally (like any other orientation), or there may be an outside cause. For example some medication may kill sex drive, or sometimes losing interest in sex can be a reaction to trauma. It’s OK to ID as ace when there’s an outside cause too, especially if they find the label useful or helpful.

The one caveat I give to this is if your sex drive died suddenly, it’s a good idea to get a doctor to check that out. This can happen naturally but sometimes it can also be the result of a medical issue and it’s good to just make sure.

2) Aces vary a lot in how much or little they think about sex. Some don’t at all, and some do constantly and everything in between. Intrusive thoughts about sex are also very common for aces, especially if they have doubts about their identity (this is because when you doubt you're constantly testing or your anxiety is creating the thoughts).

And yes some aces think about sex and don’t desire it. There’s a lot of reasons why someone can be thinking about sex, they may like in the abstract, but not as a real concrete thing; they may find it interesting; they may be having intrusive thoughts; etc.

3) Repulsion is not consistent for everyone. For some people who experience sex repulsion it may be stronger at some times than others, even when the situation is the same. Or gone completely sometimes. My general rule for repulsion is that it doesn’t really follow any specific rules. It’s different for everyone.

4)If you still feel like asexuality isn’t right for you, you may find gray-ace to be a useful label. It was originally coined to describe that gray area between asexuality and allosexuality, for people who felt like they didn’t fit entirely with either. Now the meaning is a little broader, but people who know they aren’t fully allo and also feel like asexual feels like it’s too far in the other direction find gray-ace to be a really useful label.

Ace-spec is another label people like to use sometimes when they’re not sure where they fall exactly under the ace umbrella. And ace-spec covers the entire ace spectrum, including all aces and gray-aces. So some people find that label useful too. (Anyone who is on the ace-spectrum can call themselves ace-spec and there’s a lot of reasons to choose to do so, this is just one of them.)

(Some people also use ace, gray ace and/or ace-spec at the same time, while others prefer just one, or two, so when choosing these labels it’s important to think about what is useful for you and makes sense for you personally.)

5) It’s important to remember that asexuality is a large spectrum, that’s comprised of a lot of different identities and experiences. Some aces won’t feel anything during a sex ed course, but that’s not the experience of every ace. If you did, you may still be asexual.

So I like to define asexuality, especially for people who are questioning, as not meeting the criteria to be fully allosexual. Feeling alienated from allosexuality/allonormative culture. Relating to the asexual community to the point of finding identifying as asexual useful.

So it covers a lot of experiences. So don’t worry if other people are different from you, it doesn’t mean you’re wrong if you feel like asexuality may fit you as a label too.

I definitely recommend reading up on other ace experiences, follow some ace blogs, check out Carnival of Aces. Or however else you may find it is all good. I always found that kind of stuff the most useful when I was questioning. And take your time to read and process. It’s rare to have a lightbulb moment and know a label is right for you, usually these things come on gradually.

You don’t have to be an expert in ace identities to ID as ace, just feeling like the label feels right or that allosexual feels wrong is enough. But sometimes research can also help you feel more secure in your identity or just help you understand yourself better, so it’s up to you how much you want research. And if you have more questions, feel free to ask. You can also check out the faq for this blog if you want to see some of the more basic concepts broken down.

This is a lot of information all at once, but hopefully it’s helpful. All the best and good luck!

#Anonymous

[pumpkinpaix]

Hello! Feel free not to answer this question if it is in any way too much, but I've been wondering about something concerning the "western" mdzs fandom. Lately, i have seen multiple pieces of fanart that use what is clearly Christian symbolism and sometimes downright iconography in depicting the characters. I'm a european fan, but it still makes me vaguely uneasy. I know that these things are rarely easy to judge. I'm definitely not qualified to do so and was wondering if you have an opinion

Hi there! thank you for your patience and for the interesting question! I’ve been thinking about this since i received this ask because it?? idk, it’s difficult to answer, but it also touches on a a few things that I find really interesting.

the short answer: it’s complicated, and I also don’t know what I feel!

the longer answer:

i think that this question is particularly difficult to answer because of how deeply christianity is tied to the western art and literary canon. so much of what is considered great european art is christian art! If you just take a quick glance at wiki’s page on european art, you can see how inextricable christianity is, and how integral christian iconography has been in the history of european art. If you study western art history, you must study christian imagery and christian canon because it’s just impossible to engage with a lot of the work in a meaningful way without it. that’s just the reality of it.

Christianity, of course, also has a strong presence in european colonial and imperialist history and has been used as a tool of oppression against many peoples and nations, including China. I would be lying if I said I had a good relationship with Christianity--I have always faced it with a deep suspicion because I think it did some very, very real damage, not just to chinese people, but to many cultures and peoples around the world, and that’s not a trauma that can be easily brushed aside or reconciled with.

here is what is also true: my maternal grandmother was devoutly christian. my aunt is devoutly christian. my uncle’s family is devoutly christian. my favorite cousin is devoutly christian. when I attended my cousin’s wedding, he had both a traditional chinese ceremony (tea-serving, bride-fetching, ABSURDLY long reception), and also a christian ceremony in a church. christianity is a really important part of his life, just as it’s important to my uncle’s family, and as it was important to my grandmother. I don’t think it’s my right or place to label them as simply victims of a colonialist past--they’re real people with real agency and choice and beliefs. I think it would be disrespectful to act otherwise.

that doesn’t negate the harm that christianity has done--but it does complicate things. is it inherently a bad thing that they’re christian, due to the political history of the religion and their heritage? that’s... not a question I’m really interested in debating. the fact remains that they are christian, that they are chinese, and that they chose their religion.

so! now here we are with mdzs, a chinese piece of media that is clearly Not christian, but is quickly gaining popularity in euroamerican spaces. people are making fanart! people are making A LOT of fanart! and art is, by nature, intertextual. a lot of the most interesting art (imo) makes deliberate use of that! for example (cyan art nerdery time let’s go), Nikolai Ge’s What is Truth?

I love this painting! it’s notable for its unusual depiction of christ: shabby, unkempt, slouched, in shadow. if you look for other paintings of this scene, christ is usually dignified, elegant, beautiful, melancholy -- there’s something very humanizing and humbling about this depiction, specifically because of the way it contrasts the standard. it’s powerful because we as the audience are expected to be familiar with the iconography of this scene, the story behind it, and its place in the christian canon.

you can make similar comments about Gentileschi’s Judith vs Caravaggio’s, or Manet’s Olympia vs Ingres’ Grande Odalisque -- all of these paintings exist in relation to one another and also to the larger canon (i’m simplifying: you can’t just compare one to another directly in isolation etc etc.) Gauguin’s Jacob Wrestling the Angel is also especially interesting because of how its portrayal of its content contrasts to its predecessors!

or! because i’m really In It now, one of my favorite paintings in the world, Joan of Arc by Bastien-Lepage:

I just!!! gosh, idk, what’s most interesting to me in this painting is the way it seems to hover between movements: the hyperrealistic, neoclassical-esque take on the figure, but the impressionistic brushstrokes of the background AAA gosh i love it so much. it’s really beautiful if you ever get a chance to see it in person at the Met. i’m putting this here both because i personally just really like it and also as an example of how intertextuality isn’t just about content, but also about visual elements.

anyways, sorry most of this is 19thc, that was what i studied the most lol.

(a final note: if you want to read about a really interesting painting that sits in the midst of just a Lot of different works, check out the wiki page on Géricault’s Raft of the Medusa, specifically under “Interpretation and Legacy”)

this is all a really long-winded way of getting to this point: if you want to make allusory fanart of mdzs with regards to western art canon, you kind of have to go out of your way to avoid christian imagery/iconography, especially when that’s the lens through which a lot of really intensely emotional art was created. many of my favorite paintings are christian: Vrubel’s Demon, Seated, Perov’s Christ in the Garden of Gethsemane, Ge’s Conscience, Judas, Bastien-Lepage’s Joan of Arc, as shown above. that’s not to say there ISN’T plenty of non-christian art -- but christian art is very prominent and impossible to ignore.

so here are a few pieces of fanwork that I’ve seen that are very clearly making allusions to christian imagery:

1. this beautiful pietà nielan by tinynarwhals on twitter

2. a lovely jiang yanli as our lady of tears by @satuwilhelmiina

3. my second gif in this set here, which I will also show below:

i’m only going to talk about mine in depth because well, i know exactly what i was thinking when I put this gif together while I can’t speak for anyone else.

first: the two lines of the song that I wanted to use for lan xichen were “baby, I’m a fighter//in the robes of a saint” because i felt that they fit him very well. of course, just the word “saint” evokes catholicism, even if it’s become so entwined in the english language that it’s taken on a secular meaning as well.

second: when I saw this scene, my immediate thought was just “PIETÀ!!” because LOOK at that composition! lan xichen’s lap! nie mingjue lying perpendicular to it! the light blue/white/silver of lan xichen in contrast to the darker robes of both nie mingjue and meng yao! not just that, but the very cool triangular structure of the image is intensely striking, and Yes, i Do love that it simultaneously ALSO evokes deposition of christ vibes. (baxia as the cross.... god..... is that not the Tightest Shit) does this make meng yao joseph of arimathea? does it make him john the evangelist? both options are equally interesting, I think when viewed in relation to his roles in the story: as a spy in qishan and as nmj’s deputy. maybe he’s both.

anyways, did I do this intentionally? yes, though a lot of it is happy accident/discovered after the fact since I’m relying on CQL to have provided the image. i wanted to draw attention to all of that by superimposing that line over that image! (to be clear: I didn’t expect it to all come through because like. that’s ridiculous. the layers you’d have to go through to get from “pretty lxc gifset” --> “if we cast nie mingjue as a christ figure, what is the interesting commentary we could do on meng yao by casting him as either joseph of arimathea or john the evangelist” are like. ok ur gonna need to work a little harder than slapping a song lyric over an image to achieve an effect like that.)

the point of this is: yes, it’s intentionally christian, yes I did this, yes I am casting these very much non-christian characters into christian roles for this specific visual work -- is this okay?

I obviously thought it was because I made it. but would I feel the same about a work that was written doing something similar? probably not. I think that would make me quite uncomfortable in most situations. but there’s something about visual art that makes it slightly different that I have trouble articulating -- something about how the visual often seeks to illustrate parallels or ideas, whereas writing characters as a different religion can fundamentally change who those characters are, the world they inhabit, etc. in a more... invasive?? way. that’s still not quite right, but I genuinely am not sure how to explain what i mean! I hope the general idea comes across. ><

something else to think about is like, what are pieces I find acceptable and why?

what makes the pieces above that reference christian imagery different than this stunning nieyao piece by @cyandemise after klimt’s kiss? (warnings for like, dead bodies and vague body horror) like i ADORE this piece (PLEASE click for fullview it’s worth it for the quality). it’s incredibly beautiful and evocative and very obviously references a piece of european art. I have no problem with it. why? because it isn’t explicitly christian? it’s still deeply entrenched in western canon. klimt certainly made other pieces that were explicit christian references.

another piece I’d like to invite you all to consider is this incredible naruto fanart of sakura and ino beheading sasuke after caravaggio’s judith. (warnings for beheading, blood, etc. you know.) i also adore this piece! i think it’s very good both technically and conceptually. the reference that it makes has a real power when viewed in relation to the roles of the characters in their original story -- seeing the women that sasuke fucked over and treated so disrespectfully collaborating in his demise Says Something. this is also!! an explicitly christian reference made with non-christian japanese characters. is this okay? does it evoke the same discomfort as seeing mdzs characters being drawn with christian iconography? why or why not?

the point is, I don’t think there’s a neat answer, but I do think there are a lot of interesting issues surrounding cultural erasure/hegemony that are raised by this question. i don’t think there are easy resolutions to any of them either, but I think that it’s a good opportunity to reexamine our own discomfort and try and see where it comes from. all emotions are valid but not all are justified etc. so I try to ask, is it fair? do i apply my criticisms and standards equally? why or why not? does it do real harm, or do i just not like it? what makes one work okay and another not?

i’ve felt that there’s a real danger with the kind of like, deep moral scrutiny of recent years in quashing interesting work in the name of fear. this morality tends to be expressed in black and white, good and bad dichotomies that i really do think stymies meaningful conversation and progress. you’ll often see angry takes that boil down to things like, “POC good, queer people good, white people bad, christianity bad” etc. without a serious critical examination of the actual issues at hand. I feel that these are extraordinarily harmful simplifications that can lead to an increased insularity that isn’t necessarily good for anyone. there’s a fine line between asking people to stay in their lane and cultural gatekeeping sometimes, and I think that it’s something we should be mindful of when we’re engaging in conversations about cultural erasure, appropriation etc.

PERHAPS IT IS OBVIOUS that I have no idea where that line falls LMAO since after all that rambling I have given you basically nothing. but! I hope that you found it interesting at least, and that it gives you a bit more material to think on while you figure out where you stand ahaha.

was this just an excuse to show off cool (fan)art i like? maybe ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

(ko-fi)

#Anonymous #asks and replies #art #fanart #art history #christianity #mdzs #mdzs meta #meta #mine #mymeta #cyan gets too deep in the weeds #lmfao this post is a mess ive been staring at it for like a week and at this point im just gonna post it to the wall and keep moving asldfj #hope you enjoyed