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druidgroves · 1 year

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cassandra lore under the cut

29 years old

she grew up in quincy with just her mom, delilah, & her grandmother, mama murphy.

mama murphy had a short affair with a “handsome young boy” mentioned in her wiki who had at one point convinced her to stop taking chems because he believed they made her a “slave to something evil.”” however, they got into a situation where they needed her use of the sight the most but did not have it & faced the consequences. her dialogue says “now the boy’s gone & the girl’s old” but doesn’t specify what happened to him. my theory is that they were in a life or death situation, & because mama murphy couldn’t use the sight, he died because of it. that man would be delilah’s father.

delilah hated the idea of “the sight” (always said with heavy finger quotes). she thought her mother was just batty. they have a strained relationship but it’s kinda one-sided; delilah was constantly exasperated & stressed out by her mother, while mama murphy still held great affection for her. with cass in the middle, most days it was just her mom saying “your grandmother is crazy, don’t listen to her” & her grandmother saying “it’s alright kid, she’ll come around one of these days”

cass however, came into the picture when delilah was around seventeen. cass’ father was some trader from the capital wasteland but that was all she really knew/cared to know about him. delilah rarely spoke of him but when she did, it was always bitterly.

cass & delilah also have a strained relationship due to delilah’s attempts to keep her from being influenced by her grandmother. cass loved listened to mama murphy’s wild stories from her youth & was fascinated with the concept of the sight. despite her mother’s best wishes, cass took after her grandmother in more ways than one.

in case you couldn’t tell, the vibe is strained, vaguely traumatizing mother daughter relationships.

for the longest time though, delilah did her damnedest to make sure cass never touched a chem. she’d go through her room sometimes just to make sure she wasn’t hiding anything.

but because cass was a shit, when she was a teen she’d steal some of her grandmother’s jet & go get high in the red rocket station outside of town. it was during one of these illicit moments that she had a vision, though it hadn’t been her first time taking jet. her vision involved marcy long finding out she was pregnant with her future son kyle. cass kept it to herself, but when word around town was that marcy & jun were expecting, cass began to freak out a little. she talked to mama murphy about it, who understandably was pretty happy that someone in their family inherited the sight. turns out, a lot of delilah’s negativity towards the whole concept was because it never worked for her, no matter what chems she did. so they kept it a secret between themselves.

cass’ visions don’t happen every time she does chems, but when they do they always surprise her. she doesn’t have it down to a science yet, but they usually come if she’s used jet or mentats within a certain period of time of each other.

as an adult, cass helped sturges with handy work & the like. hanging around the red rocket by herself gave her plenty of time to familiarize herself with tools & he was happy to have someone to mentor :)

she had moved out to the red rocket station & made it her own when she was older, but she’d reached a breaking point with her mother & left quincy for good. refused to be in the same room as her let alone the same town. lots of building disagreements & arguments that devolved into a big yelling screaming match. so she left quincy & hitched a ride to diamond city. stayed there for a while, but ended up in goodneighbor after a year or two because it started to suck & also mcdonough was probably raising those taxes like craaaazy to make up for the drop in diamond city economy after he kicked out all the ghouls.

found herself in goodneighbor after that & made it there as a server in the third rail. she’d go up to whitechapel charlie with a list of drinks & then go serve ‘em to people too lazy to go up to the bar themselves. made decent caps most nights, & when she didn’t, she’d just make sure she did :) watch your pockets while she’s around <3

anyways. she’s still there today. keeps her visions on the downlow. also here’s a sim i made of her. just imagine her with dark roots & a chemical cut bc she doesn’t know how to bleach her hair properly.

#ch: cassandra murphy #this got long oh no #anyways if u wanna know what she looks like i made a sim of her that's at the v bottom.#this is all so niche i feel embarrassed 2 post this so im going to bed a;sldfkj #rae.txt

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oldmemoria · 7 months

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caught up with cringetober because I literally forgot to do it, individuals and explanations under cut

Day 1: Heterochromia I’ve come to the revaluation that my sona is already cringe as hell considering not only can his entire body change color but he also has differently colored eyes as a staple of his design. They’re usually yellow and blue but this time I color picked the blue from the trans flag and the mint from the Vincian flag for this color palette, it turned out really pretty :)

Day 2: Self Insert Now she isn’t my self insert anymore, but back in the day when I was at “peak cringe” she definitely was. This is my warriors OC Icypelt and I have a post going over part of her story on my profile somewhere. She’s been through a lot and I think her modern design is very pretty :)

Day 3: Unnecessarily complex fit/design Spider scene is kinda infamous in my brain for having wayyy too much detail but I love them and I think this might be my favorite one out of this batch, super cute, the pose is really cute and the colors are nice and fits her really well :D

day 4: Angel x Devil inevitable MCR reference ik, Helena and Revenge, love them dearly. Poor revenge man this one is cute and looks like a sticker!!

Day 6 (I skipped day 5 because I didn’t want to open up ms paint today): neko i kinda hate this one but cat Gerard yay

Day 7: Pinterest base at first I wanted to draw hobie in place of Gwen but I remembered that I haven’t really drawn Mikey with her even though they’re supposed to be friends so I drew her instead. Idk. The height difference is not accurate because of that but Jumping Spider is small because he’s based on a jumping spider and those are tiny who would have thought

Day 8: tumblr sexyman i have never played undertale a day in my life i just know a lot of people wanted to jump sans’ bones

day 9: Crossover ship/rarepair OH BOY THIS ONE GOES KIND OF HARD AND IM EMBARRASSED ABOUT IT BECAUSE THEY KIND OF WORK FOR EACH OTHER UM MIGUEL OHARA X CLOTTED CREAM COOKIE IM INSANE OMG-

day 10: fursona i already have a fursona I already drew and yes I colorpicked from the lesbian flag how could you tell /j

Day 11: Yandere LYLA is technically canonically a yandere because spoiler alert she tried to kill Miguel’s fiancé via overheating her in the shower (essentially literally boiling her like a lobster) because she was “in love” with him (she said if she did have autonomy and had feelings the would be in love with him but she doesn’t but idk who knows I don’t).

day 12: niche interest ik MCR isn’t exactly “niche” but the black parades story in particular has always caught my interest and I have my own interpretation of it and a whole kind of story I’m still developing and character arcs and headcanons and interactions and yeah you get it, death in particular has evolved into god knows an OC on his own I just keep him attached to MCR because… it makes more sense that way, ig-

day 13: creepypasta does this count- whatever grimdark is just the same thing as a creepypasta- I’m not really in the MLP fandom anymore but it was my first ever “fandom” I was actually apart of. My first hyperfixation if you will. I wasn’t in the grimdark part of the fandom because I was too young for it but I was actually watching the izzzyzzz grimdark video and I was like “oh” and drew a rainbow factory Rainbowdash. Honestly I should draw ponies more they’re fun to draw

Day 14: candygore (?) im not good at drawing candygore and since I was rushing this o didn’t do it as well as I thought I can, but it still turned out pretty cool

Day 15: song lyrics aaaa inevitable hesitant alien drawing this one turned out so cute!! The colors and the sparkle eek so cute aaa action cat lyrics I’m breaking down right in front of you I’m sorry

planning on doing the rest of the month now, maybe not exactly on time since I’m still in school but I’ll try to get 31 drawings out by Halloween. Love the idea of cringetober because I just love all things cringe. Ack this is so good

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pezpenser205 · 2 months

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kind of a traumadump diary entry on bullying bc i felt scared leaving all those tags on someone elses post about bullying and it wouldnt fit anyway so. my post now :3

good lord. people do not take bullying seriously At All. nobody really knows what bullying is and its just seen as a hypothetical. hell sometimes even a joke. i missed so much school and was in & out of residential treatment for an ed, then a year or 2 later in & out of hospital for suicide stuff and all that wasnt even the start of it. it was way after it got bad and wasnt the worst of it.

i dont really even remember exactly what went wrong other than ''people hated me for being disabled and ugly.'' i think it went wrong from the start bc i was undiagnosed autistic/adhd and homeschooled and then got thrown into public school in the middle of the 6th grade school year (first year of middle school) because the person who was 'homeschooling' me lost custody of me (my home life there wasnt good either though).

my peers at school didnt hate me in the same way people who go to dogfights dont hate the dogs theyre watching get torn apart. i know i wasnt pretty to them At All and i was smart on really niche shit and could read well and my grades were all i had really. the teachers loved me but i think thats another reason the kids hated me. i was super bad at math though i didnt get homeschooled for math.

i was a tall hypermasculine smelly fat girl with crooked teeth- greasy tangled hair in a ponytail & a unibrow#& acne so thick there wasnt any skin on my face without it. i know i look different than i did back then. but the way people treated me sticks to me still even though i dont remember most of it. i still always feel like someones laughing at me if someone laughs around me and like everyone is pointing at me. i know im just. some person. and at worst im slightly below average. but i still feel inside like im the ugliest little girl in the world.

i hate how people who havent had to go through any of that expect me to just get over what happened to me in school. its not just ''ohhh they made fun of you a bit in school haha.'' no buddy its the constant and subtle different-ness in how your peers treat you in comparison to everyone else that you experience every day for years on end and not understanding that theyre taking advantage of you because youre autistic and havent learned that people are not inherently kind. its the the condescending way in which they treat you like youre dumb but theyre just nice enough so that you dont catch on and they can use you. its the nightmarish realization that everybody around you is always implying with their eyes that they think you are less than dirt in a way that nobody would believe or would know how to address if you told them (even if you had anyone to tell at all). having people who you thought were your friends leave you places because theyre embarrassed to be seen with you. spending months alone during breaks because nobody ever wanted to talk to you. its not being able to go outside normally anymore without feeling eyes on you or only being able to go outside when youre literally delusional during a narc high.

sometimes im talking to people and i wonder if they would have treated me that way too. a lot of people think they would be kind to people who get bullied, but i dont think thats true. i still think objectively nice people would have treated me poorly. is the only thing keeping me safe the fact that im not that little girl anymore? if i didnt look how i did would people have loved me? would they still have left me? did the world actually get kinder or did i just break into what they treat kindly? would everyone i love now leave me too if i suddenly looked and acted like her again?

#op

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deadass-pool · 1 year

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january 8, 2023 - new year; new problems

soooooo,,,,, past blog entry did not AGE well... here’s the thing, i’m writing this as i am currently experiencing a pregnancy scare. NOW, now, NOWWW..... i get what you’re thinking, “yo, what the fuck?”, look i can explain. alot has happened the past 2 months that i was QUIET on here, and i did not tell my friends neither have i told YOU anything... so here’s what happend:

november: - i lost my idgaf war, i was hung up on the same guy that i was talking about from my past blog

- i was soooooo hung up and i wanted to move past this attachment that i reinstalled the same dating app where i met him. have i told yall that i’m still in contact with him the entire time? except he was so full of bullshit and i was tolerating that because,,, well... i’M DUMB!

- ENTER the guy who i knew from twitter. he is very funny and im a fan of him and we matched on the app, anyways it was a short encounter. i was intimidated by him because i felt like i didnt pass his vibe check. i wanted to be his friend because he is very funny and cool so like, i was very devastated when the last message in our conversation was me and he just liked my text. (mind you, we had a long conversation, i’m just anxious because hes very cool so i just straight up dipped out of slightly “out of vibes” reaction which is liking the message)

- friend saw me on the dating app and announced it while we were drinking, i was embarrassed so i deleted the app

- guy from twitter had a hit tweet, i replied as a joke, i thought he wouldnt recognize me anyways he dmed me and asked me why i left the app SO I WAS SURPRISED BECAUSE HE NOTICED !!! my ego skyrocketed like crazy. i forgot to let you know guy on twitter is well known, basically a micro internet niche celebrity idk

- i am now talking to 2 men at once: guy from my elementary school & guy from twitter. anyways, fast forward to whatever the fuck was going on, guy from elementary was slowly losing interest or whatever, we were still sexual but our conversation started limiting to just sex and it was starting to get tiring but im still hooked up for his attention and everything and im so so so stupid compared to guy from twitter whos very decent to talk to

- i ended up planning to see guy from twitter AND guy from elementary. except the latter never went with his words and boy oh boy the former did

SOOOOOO...............

december:

- im still HUNG UP ON HIM HE ENDED THINGS ON MY BIRTHDAY I WAS SO FUCKING BGSHHGBSHDGBSHFBSHDF SO SO SO 1!!!!! upset and sad and yea wtf was that he never let me speak about it he just apologized and said happy birthday and IM SO FUCKING SAD AND BROKENHEAWRTED I WAS DRUNK ON MY BDAY

- anyways still hung up on him i lost my virginity to guy from twitter and that was the biggest plot twist because out of everyone i didnt think i would be hooking up with him especially when i used to just see him have hit posts all the time on the tl (if u want tmi he is very good in bed i orgasmed lots)

- still in contact with guy from twitter hes ok we r friends hes cool hes nice i do not feel any attachment towards him idk where that attached virgin stereotype came from

- found out guy from elementary went back to his ex before december ended and i was so annoyed and pissed because he couldve just told me instead of leaving me hanging and not letting me speak jfc

anyways i think i left a few details here and there and now, i am typing this, days before my supposed period, it’s the 21st day of my cycle and i am INCREDIBLY ANXIOUS because i just realized i had sex BEFORE MY OVULATION and now i could not stop hitting myself with my pillow and praying to the lord BECAUSE I HAVE SO SO SO MANY PLANS AND SO MUCH DREAMS THAT I NEED TO REACH!!!!!! like it’s so embarrassing already to just lose your virginity at 23 WHAT’S MORE EMBARRASSING IS GETTING PREGNANT AT THE FIRST TIME!!!! i do not want that neither do i want to mother a child that’s goinna turn out of a mess just like i am!!! on god please for the love oF GOD GIVE ME MY PERIOD I AM SO STRESSED I CANT HANDLE THIS ANYMORE I HAVE A CAREER THAT I’VE BEEN FOCUSING ON LATELY

ok that’s it

sincerely,

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bringmoreknives · 3 years

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tagged by @awsugar and @iero to do this!! i’ve never done this one so ty :’)

1. Why did you chose your url

when i REALLY got into mcr in like january 2020 (i’d been a fan before but pretty much only listened to about half of revenge and then tbp and dd) sorrows was one of the very first songs of bullets i got into specifically the knives/sorrow demo on mdnsy. i was checking for canon mcr urls and i saw that this one was taken and i was DESPERATE to have it (also because it’s a bit more ~niche~ reference to our lady) so on the off chance i dm’ed the blog and its owner just happened to check tumblr for the first time in years a few days later and let me have it :) akdjfhksdjhf that was so long

2. Any sideblogs?

technically THIS is a sideblog because @wakemeupbeforeyouvangogh is my main (i didn’t understand how accounts work when i made this blog) but i also run @seaborns (tv, mostly criminal minds and the west wing), @njolras (les mis), i used to run @vsuvia (the arcana) but it’s inactive now, and i also make gifs and content for @daily-cm

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

it was my ninth anniversary on my birthday ;____;

4. Do you have a queue tag?

yeah, it used to be #still into queue but now i don’t wanna use that bc ch*d so it’s #drain the fantasy of queue which is from pool by paramore aka THEEEEE song. i try to keep a pretty active queue but i forget a lot

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

my friend sarah had a blog in sixth grade and it was all about superwholock (of course) i can still so clearly picture the photo of the eleventh doctor she had in her sidebar. but my parents were super strict on the internet (and also i had just recently had someone creep on me on instagram) so they didn’t let me get a blog until i was 13 and it had to be about something educational (hence the van gogh theme for my main). until then i checked a few blogs like the morning paper. and i made this blog because my dad didn’t know how tumblr worked and i was getting into bandom and bored of not posting about it

6. Why did you chose your icon/pfp?

love of my life

7. Why did you choose your header?

it’s not the best picture of it but i really love the brand new eyes stage setup with the picture frames and it goes with my icon

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

it’s this hayley edit with almost 40k which is so embarrassing because i didn’t properly source either of the pictures and i think the second one is actually someone else’s edited pic that i just slapped a sepia filter over...... i was 14 i didn’t know better

9. How many mutuals do you have?

it’s really hard to tell bc mutual checker doesn’t work since this is my sideblog

10. How many followers do yo have?

3,160 <333

11. How many people do you follow?

okay please don’t lose your minds but 2,308..... a ton of them are inactive it’s just genuinely too many to unfollow with inactivity checker

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

yeah lasjfhlaskdjfhh a ton i think my best shitpost is the compilation of star wars actors trashing kylo ren

13. How often do yo use tumblr a day?

it really depends and it’s kind of less rn because i work a lot but i’m assuming i’ll be more active when im home in a few days with nothing to do but i tend to try to at least queue some stuff before i go to bed

14. Have you ever had an argument/fight with another blog?

yeah jdfhdkjfh multiple times. when i was younger it was dramatic but now it just tends to be arguing with reposters

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

if it’s like political or about something going on in the world then i’ll probably reblog it, if it’s one of those old-fashioned “LISTEN HERE FUCKERS LET ME EXPLAIN U A THING” then i will ignore it. unfortunately reblog bait (i.e. reblog this for good luck or you’ll have the worst day of your life) gets me because i have ocd

16. Do you like tag games?

yeah i love them i’m just so bad at remembering to do them

17. Do you like ask games?

YES i absolutely adore them but for some reason like EVERY time i post one i have to go do something else but i want to do more

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

i honestly have no idea. mack and kay both have a lot of followers but idk if that counts as tumblr famous... is tumblr famous even a thing anymore

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

i am in a healthy loving relationship with my polycule the bandom creators server <3

20. Tags

hm i tag: @dangersday @smileandasong @raytorosaurus @lolalovesu @girlfriend-frank @adamlazzara and @mikeywayinc! sorry if any of you have been tagged before i cannot read <3

#tags etc.#about me #.txt

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ispybluesky · 3 years

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All numbers for iro!! also dotty if you’re feeling up to it 🥺

IRO

1. How would you (or they) describe their gender, without using standard binary terms?: iro’s gender is stubbornness 2. Are they religious?: i think that she’s religious in that she feels reverence for the gods, but she also doesn’t.....like them. i think in her own way she worships maetra truly though 3. What social media platforms would they use (if in a world where those existed) and what would they use them for? Bonus: What would they get cancelled for?: she and thrip both have tiktok i think 4. Do they have any weird scars, and how did they get them?: she’s got a bunch of little sharp-grass scars on her legs and arms from spending part of her childhood in the desert rising plains 5. What crime are they most likely to be arrested for?: accessory to murder U__U 6. Ok, what crime are they most likely to have actually committed?: accessory to murder U__U 7. If the one prison phone call thing was real, who would they call?: her mom i think ;__; 8. Do they collect anything? What do they collect?: iro isn’t really much for collecting things i think....the most she does in the way of collections is that she has like one very sturdy and good version of each thing she needs 9. Who would they platonically marry for tax benefits?: fog but she’d feel weird about it (because of it being fog, not because of it being ““tax fraud”“) 10. What superstition/paranormal entity/conspiracy theory do they believe is 100% real, whether or not they admit it?: she believes that melibe is still with her somehow, even though he died a really long time ago 11. What’s something embarrassing they did as a child/teenager?: saw of picture of maetra as a child before she was brought in on the silk fort plan and announced that when she grew up she was going to marry that pretty lady 12. What’s something embarrassing they probably did yesterday?: responded “yeah?” without thinking when thrip accidentally called her “mom” 13. What hobby did they try once and give up on? Why?: knitting....she doesnt have the patience for it at all but she wanted to pick it up because it’s so cold in the mountains 14. What niche topic do they get incredibly pedantic about?: freely/entaugh/vain history.... :( 15. What’s their favorite food to make?: she loves a good soup!! a broth with some vegetables in it is her favorite because it’s relatively easy to make 16. What do you think this character’s worst decision was? What does this character think their worst decision was?: from a meta point of view i know that probably her worst decision was to leave the silk fort without resting sufficiently. she thinks her worst decision was bringing thrip and fog along with her for the second half of the journey 17. Is there anything you wish the writers had done differently with this character? Why?: SURE WOULD HAVE BEEN COOL IF THE WRITER HAD FINISHED THE BOOK SHE’S IN, 18. What character from another work do you think they’d get along really well with?: SHE WOULD GET ALONG REALLY WELL WITH NOV FROM CD ACTUALLY I THINK........MUCH TO THINK ABOUT. 19. What character from another work would be their mortal enemy?: despite or maybe because of their similarities i think chine and iro would NOT get along. also i think she would probably hate noonday sdjgkslfj she would also probably dislike emery for similar reasons 20. What’s a headcanon you’ve always wanted to share but none of these ask memes ever ask you about it?: iro almost never remembers her dreams

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DOTTY

1. How would you (or they) describe their gender, without using standard binary terms?: the gender feelings you get from looking at pictures of joan of arc 2. Are they religious?: only in like a practical way sdjgklsfj 3. What social media platforms would they use (if in a world where those existed) and what would they use them for? Bonus: What would they get cancelled for?: MOST LIKELY TO HAVE A TUMBLR I THINK..... 4. Do they have any weird scars, and how did they get them?: she has a scar on her throat from when huma tries to kill her post-novel :) 5. What crime are they most likely to be arrested for?: blasphemy :( 6. Ok, what crime are they most likely to have actually committed?: trespassing and destruction of property 7. If the one prison phone call thing was real, who would they call?: olive (matty is in prison with her) 8. Do they collect anything? What do they collect?: i think she collects little things that her friends might like 9. Who would they platonically marry for tax benefits?: MATTY, NO QUESTION 10. What superstition/paranormal entity/conspiracy theory do they believe is 100% real, whether or not they admit it?: she believes that flickerfish send messages to the gods’ realm 11. What’s something embarrassing they did as a child/teenager?: joined what now that im thinking about it might have been like a military school???? 12. What’s something embarrassing they probably did yesterday?: lost to mateo in a contest of how many marshmallows they could stuff into their mouths at once 13. What hobby did they try once and give up on? Why?: cooking sdgslkfj she sucks at it 14. What niche topic do they get incredibly pedantic about?: GHOSTS, she chats with the ghosts of her family members a lot so she knows a lot about what their ‘lives’ are like and how to talk to them, etc 15. What’s their favorite food to make?: can’t go wrong with cinnamon-sugar toast 16. What do you think this character’s worst decision was? What does this character think their worst decision was?: i don’t think she regrets any of her decisions, except maybe not keeping olive closer 17. Is there anything you wish the writers had done differently with this character? Why?: lamsm rewrite when..........honestly lamsm was kind of like the cornerstone of the elise fantasy universe reboot so a LOT of my current lore is based on it and i dont know how much i would necessarily do DIFFERENT 18. What character from another work do you think they’d get along really well with?: loving to think about her interacting with paz (similar enough to matty that she feels kind of at home around her). also aaa........noe.......i’d love to see them hang out 19. What character from another work would be their mortal enemy?: if she ever sees any of the silk fort family members its on sight. THE GOD/MORTAL PLAN BOUNDARY HAS ENOUGH TROUBLE 20. What’s a headcanon you’ve always wanted to share but none of these ask memes ever ask you about it?: she/they icon.....

#long post #ask #ask meme #cospinol #GOOD TASTE......I LOVE UUUUUUU #long limb ellipse tag #look at me star man #i love my girls...........

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jclie · 4 years

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— && guests may mistake me as ( elizabeth olsen ), but really i am ( jolie madison + cis female + she/her ) and my DOB is ( 7/29/1992 ). i am a ( musician ) and would like to stay in suite ( 314 ). i won’t be much of a bother because i am ( driven, audacious, & charismatic ), but i can also be ( perfectionistic, reticent & self-sabotaging ) at times. personally, i like to ( paint, hike, try new recipes & sing karaoke ) when i have the time to relax, and my favorite snack is ( chai sugar cookies ) to have in my suite.

hi everyone! i’m red, and the only excuse i have for this dropping so late is that Work Sucks and has held me up, but i am here and ready to love u all! rlly, what better to do with the remaining bits of summer ( and being awake, tbh ) than join this super cute group and put my intro post together? so yes, here is the 411 on jolie, with a more *~cohesive~* bio and stats page on their way — i am so excited to get to know all of your muses and begin interacting! i promise i do not bite so if you’re feeling brave, pop over in the ims, or, just wait me out, because i’m sure i’ll be appearing in them soon enough :~)

general info

full name: jolie drew madison

nicknames: j, jo, jojo (calling her this is a bit of a death sentence unless you have explicit permission), mads

date of birth: july twenty-ninth, 1992 (27)

zodiac: leo

sexual orientation: bisexual

birthplace: chicago, illinois

occupation: musician

hogwarts house: slytherin

mbti: enfj

suite #: 314

tw: drug use

past

born on a wednesday in chicago, illinois to a set of parents who had a very “informal” relationship to say the least — to make a complicated situation as cut and dry as possible, jolie’s parents were best friends with benefits. her mom wound up pregnant and decided to keep the baby. instead of jumping to some rash decision like getting married solely for the sake of their child, they decided to simply remain friends and split custody in the best way they knew how that didn’t require a mediator in the form of a family court judge. her parents remained close friends (and still are) once jolie was born; custody was weirdly split with jolie spending the majority of her time with her mom. they were an unconventional sort of family but a family nonetheless. dad does something with numbers (yes, think chandler bing), and mom is a local business owner.

as a kid, jolie never knew a stranger, and therefore had no trouble making friends once she hit school age. she was the kid who never found her niche group or “clique” because her feet were wet in several of them. school was not a miserable time for her. she had her friends, was a solid a/b student. jolie was a big perfectionist though, it not uncommon for her to beat herself up over something incredibly minute and self-sabotaging herself as punishment or because she didn’t know how to adequately process her feelings of anxiousness — she’d procrastinate, cut people off or drive them away, things of that nature.

music was always in her life, but it was a very casual thing in her world, situated on a backburner. it was something that she was able to bond over with her dad more so than her mom; her dad was a massive music junkie, loved sharing his favorite songs with her, bought her her first vinyl player when she was twelve and supplied her with every album under the sun, whether it was one she wanted or one of his favorites or just one he thought she might enjoy. she was in dance classes as a preschooler (this was an epic fail, because not even her rhythm could save her from the generally awkward disaster she is whenever she dances) and took piano lessons in elementary school, but she didn’t love either? she felt very restricted when it came to formal lessons, and almost needed the freedom to explore and learn it on her own terms — she ended up teaching herself guitar on her dad’s guitar on the weekends she spent at his place. there was also the 6 month stint her junior year of high school when she and some friends started a garage band (which jolie represses to a certain degree because the embarrassment it invokes is on another level) but it was mostly just an idea formulated from boredom and was something to pass the time, nothing really serious.

jolie found herself at a bit of a crossroads after her graduation. most of her friends were off to college but college did not seem like the kind of environment for her. she didn’t know what she wanted to do with herself or her life, but she knew she had to do something. so she pretty much copied and pasted what one of her close friends was doing at the time, decided to go to northwestern and share an apartment with her and pray that something would speak to her along the way. spoiler alert: nothing did. her first year quickly fizzled and faded for her and most of her time was spent going to parties, embracing the social scene, the like. nothing of real educational value.

she was still fucking around when it came to music; she’d met some people in one of her creative writing classes (the only class that she legitimately finished and enjoyed) and would go to open mic nights or other gigs around town. never meeting a stranger meant jolie was good at networking, making friends with other musicians — the more she spent time immersed in the world, the more she felt compelled towards music. she began writing songs that weren’t just the product of teenage angst (see: that awful high school band), even took a few music classes at northwestern.

by the time she hit her junior year, she was over classes and was pretty much only taking filler classes still, wasting her money while she bar tended at one of the bars close by. but she’d never felt more creatively charged; she was putting her nose to the grindstone in writing songs, recording songs in her bedroom so she wouldn’t wake up her roommates, playing gigs on her nights off work literally anywhere that would take her, and using those new-er friendships to her advantage. she had gained some local traction but things really didn’t explode until she started posting original songs online and got contacted by a few record labels. jolie was hesitant to sign with anyone but she got one of her friends in pre-law to help her look over contracts and pretend to be her manager and eventually signed. subsequently, she dropped out of college and went to work on the music thing full time.

from 21-23, jolie was pretty much doing nothing but playing festivals and clocking in hours at studios. most of her time was spent on the road and she absolutely loved it — she loved the music festival atmosphere, loved the crowds, loved meeting other bands and fans. she was pretty much touring on the few songs she had released, covers, and unreleased tracks from a wip, but it worked for her and it worked for the fans. she released her first album, ultraviolet on her 23rd birthday, and hit the road again.

jolie missed her “college” life with the parties and socialization at her fingertips, so she started elbowing her way into that scene while she was on tour — at first, it wasn’t anything to bat an eye at, but jolie’s limits were very fluid. being on tour was draining and the perfectionist in her would always find something to berate herself about, and getting out of her head was the only way that she felt she could truly enjoy the whirlwind success that was happening to her. the drugs started as a one-time thing, just to try it, and then she was using regularly, and then it got to a point where she couldn’t go more than an hour without a line of coke. the drugs stripped away a lot of what made her jolie and left her with a more miserable, grouchier version of herself where her highs were almost normal and likable and the lows were hell to be around.

she came off of ultraviolet’s tour and essentially jumped right back into the studio (she was beginning to break through in mainstream music, with her last promotional single off ultraviolet hitting mainstream radio and doing fairly well) for album #2. it was finished and ready to go, but by that point, the drug use had gotten to an all-time high and the constant turning a blind eye to it from her team was no longer possible. she ended up od’ing and that was it — there was an intervention in the hospital room, and it was off to rehab for jolie. album got postponed and she basically fell off the radar.

she didn’t really make a “comeback” until she was knocking on 26′s doorstep, and by that point she’d been in rehab, getting sober, and then laying low for nearly two years. by the time she was releasing her first single for the new album cycle, she’d all but scrapped the record she’d made before rehab and had something else put together entirely. she released wonderland, which did very, very well. she toured for it and it was wildly different than anything she’d done prior — venues were bigger, more fans, just a whole different circus all around.

probably the one thing she was more proud of than the music was her sobriety, and going on two years of being sober, not much else was important to her. she knew had a pretty black and white view of was good for her and what wasn’t, so after the tour wrapped, she decided to come home. she never pegged herself for the type to get “homesick” because her spirit was very much the wandering type, but she knew she needed to get out of la and nyc. back to chicago it was — which is how we get to the malnati.

present

she’s in what she’d aptly describe as “professional limbo” — she’s not actively working on any one project, she’s just kind of floating until she can find something to tether herself to, whether it’s a single song or an album or something else that appears on her radar. she’s just taking things easy for the time being.

career wise, think marina, l*na — more of a cult favorite than a mainstream artist. not going to get mobbed when she goes out and about, able to fly under the radar for the most part. as far as her music goes, i don’t necessarily know if i’ll claim any one artist’s discography and adopt as her own; in my head, jolie’s alt pop. think somewhere along the lines of hayley williams, st. vincent, tove lo, splash of the 1975.

personality wise at this point in her life: will charm the pants off of just about anyone she comes into contact with. flirty. a little goofy, hella sarcastic. there’s method to her madness even if no one else gets it. is still a little guarded when it comes to talking about herself. doesn’t mind talking about what’s happened to her but when it comes to the feelings and emotions as to why those things happened, she shuts down. it’s why she’s a musician: why talk about your feelings when you could just write them into a song and pretend they don’t exist beyond that, lmao. is the passive aggressive type, bottles things up and simmers.

being in the kitchen and cooking has been a tactile sort of therapy for her, especially in her hiatus years. she loves trying new recipes, baking at random (all) hours, sometimes likes to pretend she’s on an episode of master chef. she’s a dork, your honor.

has a thing for polaroids. she has a blank moleskine notebook that she has put through a total ringer, gluing polaroids and other little mementos onto pages as a journal of sorts.

has a stick and poke tattoo (among other professional ones) on her ribcage that she gave herself when she was sixteen. it’s a tiny smiley face.

her middle name came from her dad’s middle name (andrew).

if you want someone to go out with you at night (or during the day, she’s not picky) and just aimlessly wander around the city, letting things find you, she’s your girl. she loves a good adventure.

i headcanon jolie as predominantly dirty blonde/brunette lizzie? but she is also the type who has ruined her hair over the years over all the impromptu dying so... welcome to close your eyes and pretend hour.

plot ideas

this is by no means a comprehensive list of plots, just stuff off the top of my head that i’d like to see? again, i promise i don’t bite, so pls hmu if one of these appeals to you or if you just wanna brainstorm, i live for that shit!!

jolie’s a chicago native, went to college here, so 👀

meredith to her cristina — basically her best friend (not gender specific, either) who tells it to jolie like it is, doesn’t mind if she laments about how the world sucks every now and again, the person she’s calling if she needs help with a body

physically and/or emotionally, somebody who checks in on jolie and that she checks in on as well. we love a solid support system

exes — jolie’s a little bit (a lot of bit) of a player?? so i’d love to see exes that maybe didn’t end too hot, ex fwb or ex flings that never made it official, people she ghosted, exes that don’t want to get back together but don’t like seeing each other with anyone else, anything under that sun

jolie also is a Lowkey (read: highkey) commitment-phobe, but i’d rlly love for her to maybe have an ex that she was so In Love with that she was willing to push through it bc she saw herself with them forever..... and then, for reasons tbd, it ended, and it absolutely crushed jolie

someone who, on the occasion of needing to scratch an itch, is very good about getting the job done. it’s casual sex. there are zero romantic feelings involved, there is no getting jealous when the other person finds a relationship, the two are just good friends who have seen (and will probably continue to see) each other naked #yeehaw

maybe someone who was at one of jolie’s gigs when she was still playing bars that she bought a drink and kept in touch with or smth? or someone she met when she was still predominately playing small sets at festivals? idk i’m rambling someone stop me

a “muse”??? like, someone jolie is fascinated with / inspired by and she finds herself writing songs about / for

gimme someone who’s like an acquaintance at best, they’ve maybe got mutual friends and therefore they hang out a bit but they’re always arguing with one another for whatever reason (they both probably annoy each other) but they’ve got mad sexual tension going on? maybe they act on it, maybe they don’t, but either way, they lowkey enjoy the bantering and being at one another’s throats even if they act otherwise

jolie is a night owl, so... gimme someone who she can turn up at their room at some unholy hour (or that turns up at her room at said unholy hour) and watch a movie with or make a mess of the kitchen from fixing a premature breakfast

maybe someone who knew jolie when she was not in a good place?? and things are still v much tense / unresolved between them for whatever reason

and stuff for the event omg PLS *makes grabby hands*

#malnatiintro #malnatiooc #drugs tw #tw drugs #not sure what to tag so here's ALL the tags lmao

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I literally saw a post comparing rose to firelord ozai and im just like??? Have u been watching the same show. anyway people gut this show apart like its their college thesis and not a kids cartoon and I appreciate u still enjoying it and posting about it thank you, sorry for the rant im just annoyed lol

aw hey no problem! it’s rough cause for some reason or other people feel strangely obligated to go through SU with a fine fine FINE tooth comb just to find things just to complain about.

i used to get a lot angrier about that bullshit until i realized, like really thought about it and realized, that there’s no use in arguing with ‘su crit’ types ‘cause they’re just in it to be sour. like, i’ve never. EVER. seen a cartoon get it’s own sub-fandom specifically for people who 1) nitpick every single detail just so they have something to tear apart, so much so they actually invent things wrong with the show 2) refuse to let anyone else in the fandom enjoy anything and 3) have such SHIT COMPREHENSION AND ANALYSIS SKILLS TBH

it’s getting to the point where i really cant take most su crit seriously, not because it’s ALL wrong, but because it comes from a bitter place and is ultimately useless? so the show’s flawed.. so? who said it was capital P perfect? just because you used to really like it and you don’t anymore doesn’t mean you have to find Every Single Thing Wrong With The Thing so you don’t feel embarrassed over once being a fan

this happened a lot with homestuck too and idk why but it never seemed to get as much of a hold, and certainly not so much bile to it. and honestly i feel like it’s cause Steven Universe is just like. way too subtle for most people haha. not to say homestuck isn’t subtle or complicated, but like... it’s different. i guess it’s ‘cause, homestuck starts off Like That. It’s dense and weird. It’s niche as fuck. meanwhile, SU started off as one thing, which was straightforward and simple, but as it’s gone on people just don’t seem happy with the fact that it HAS DEPTH. it’s... so weird. and telling.

anyway, it just helps to keep in mind that no matter how many people choose to bitch about a show rather than enjoy it or leave it alone, their being Like That doesn’t make the show any less good. you don’t have to feel bad for watching it, ‘cause guess what! it’s a good show. maybe not The Absolute Best, but it’s good! it’s fine. it’s fine for you to like it.

also most su crit people are straight up some of the nastiest, rudest, most disrespectful ‘fans’ of a show i’ve ever seen so i have like absolutely no respect for them anyway haha, that helps to keep in mind. they’re not worth your time

#baneanswers #got a bit longer than i meant to w/ this reply but yeah #su spoilers #Anonymous

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PLEASE I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW (EITHER-OR!) NEW OR RONAH’S ANSWERS FOR THE WHOLE MEME YOU POSTED

NEW 1. How would you (or they) describe their gender, without using standard binary terms?: new would describe her gender as the color the sky gets right before the sunrise gets started in the summer

 2. Are they religious?: no…..sort of…….religion is hard one bc gods like Canonically Exist in this world and she Knows This And Believes In Them but she’s not particularly spiritual and doesn’t have one god she’s particularly devoted to AND because of the memory thing she only like vaguely knows that the gods exist at all so sjdflkjs 

3. What social media platforms would they use (if in a world where those existed) and what would they use them for? Bonus: What would they get cancelled for?: new would probably have an instagram but not use it very much, she’d maybe post pictures of stuff now and again and she likes to follow people who make cool things but i think she would mostly make an instagram account and then forget about it (bonus: paz and caramel are BIG on twitter)

 4. Do they have any weird scars, and how did they get them?: she has a bunch of regular accumulated life-living scars from like scratches and bug bites and falls and stuff, but nothing really weird except for that she doesn’t remember how she got a lot of them 

5. What crime are they most likely to be arrested for?: loitering U__U 

6. Ok, what crime are they most likely to have actually committed?: trespassing 

7. If the one prison phone call thing was real, who would they call?: paz w/o hesitation (paz is the richest and will probably show up with caramel and run anyway)

 8. Do they collect anything? What do they collect?: she collects little trinkets and things! usually small emotionally relevant items that are from or remind her of experiences she’s had (her haircutting knife, that portrait of run in her bag, the small bells off her dress, etc)

 9. Who would they platonically marry for tax benefits?: PAZ……. 

10. What superstition/paranormal entity/conspiracy theory do they believe is 100% real, whether or not they admit it?: i can’t think of anything like this for new im sorryyyyy i’ll come back to this one

 11. What’s something embarrassing they did as a child/teenager?: [REDACTED DUE TO MEMORY LOSS] 

12. What’s something embarrassing they probably did yesterday?: walked up to someone without looking directly at them, assumed they were run, started talking to them, and then realized that they were just a random stranger and not run 

13. What hobby did they try once and give up on? Why?: jewelry-making! she wanted to make more fun earrings and stuff for herself and her friends but she doesn’t have access to many of the right tools for it and the stuff she managed to put together didn’t look how she wanted it to so she just stuck with weaving as a hobby

 14. What niche topic do they get incredibly pedantic about?: SJKDGLF THANKS TO HER LIKE WEEK OF RESEARCH AT THE PIPER TOWN LIBRARY THAT ONE TIME SHE KNOWS SO MUCH ABOUT OLD RICH FAMILIES ON PANSIA…..paz will make some offhand comment about a family the mahaleys work at and new will be like. eyes emoji 

15. What’s their favorite food to make?: she loves apple cinnamon oatmeal and loves to make it from scratch ;__; 

16. What do you think this character’s worst decision was? What does this character think their worst decision was?: New Has Done Nothing Wrong In Her LIFE (SHE thinks her worst decision was agreeing to abandon caramel and run & go with paz when paz left them, even though they ended up turning back pretty quickly)

 17. Is there anything you wish the writers had done differently with this character? Why?: I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO SEE THE WRITER GIVE HER SOME MORE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT IN THE SECOND HALF OF FMFY, I THINK THAT SHE AND ALL OF THE CHARACTERS COULD HAVE REALLY BENEFITTED FROM EXPLORING THOSE NEW WEIRD DYNAMICS BEFORE THE CLIMAX OF THE BOOK, 

18. What character from another work do you think they’d get along really well with?: within my own works (elise nano extended universe) i think that she would get along with maimou from ttsp (he’s that kind of friendly that would put her at ease and draw her out of her shyness somewhat i think), and outside of my own works i have this vague sense that she might get along with charlotte’s oc io?

 19. What character from another work would be their mortal enemy?: not mortal enemy but i think that she and turnadot from lamsm would be at odds because of the like difference in approach they have to everything that’s happening to them and the difference of experience… oh iro i think would get frustrated at her easily i think

 20. What’s a headcanon you’ve always wanted to share but none of these ask memes ever ask you about it?: I Am Constantly Sharing All My Headcanons And No One Can Stop Me

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RONAH 1. How would you (or they) describe their gender, without using standard binary terms?: you know when you light a fire in the snow at night and the light is orange and the shadows are this bright blue? that color 

2. Are they religious?: yes! they’re a big believer in the moon and the cycle (ironically….. :( )

 3. What social media platforms would they use (if in a world where those existed) and what would they use them for? Bonus: What would they get cancelled for?: gjsdlgjsf i really feel like the closest they have to a social media presence is like. a goodreads account. and then they show up in the background of thrip’s tiktoks sometimes and their brothers reference them in tweets and raiv’s instagram has a lot of selfies with them

 4. Do they have any weird scars, and how did they get them?: the only weird scar they have is one on their thigh where they accidentally cut themself mid-switch between elf and wolf forms and it took forever to heal and it’s BRIGHT red

 5. What crime are they most likely to be arrested for?: grim answer: being a wolf shifter

 6. Ok, what crime are they most likely to have actually committed?: accessory to murder U___U

 7. If the one prison phone call thing was real, who would they call?: they’d want to call raiv, but they would call laithe (they would consider calling bliss “walked barefoot across the country to get out of a witchcraft trial” parvo and then immediately decide against it)

 8. Do they collect anything? What do they collect?: they have a modest storybook/folktale book collection, just a small shelf of their favorites, but they aren’t really the collecting type

 9. Who would they platonically marry for tax benefits?: they would (queer)platonically marry bliss for tax benefits, although honestly bliss is getting the benefit because it means they never have to do taxes again because ronah will do them

 10. What superstition/paranormal entity/conspiracy theory do they believe is 100% real, whether or not they admit it?: probably one that they’re kind of embarrassed about but still believe deep down that lonaih and unaech (wolf shifter folk story cornerstones) are still alive and out there somewhere somehow

 11. What’s something embarrassing they did as a child/teenager?: they were VERY into performing songs and plays and stuff when they were younger, which is something that they feel kind of silly and embarrassed about now (but they still love to tell stories) 

12. What’s something embarrassing they probably did yesterday?: walked around the corner and saw themself in a mirror and scared themself 

13. What hobby did they try once and give up on? Why?: music, because it was impractical…. :( 

14. What niche topic do they get incredibly pedantic about?: LITERALLY EVERYTHING, THATS LIKE THEIR JOB, I LOVE THEM

 15. What’s their favorite food to make?: do you remember that braid of pesto bread iro was briefly eating in the beginning of lle? you might not because i suddenly can’t remember if you read the whole thing or just the kavi chapter, BUT ronah learned how to make that because it’s both iro and thrip’s favorite food

 16. What do you think this character’s worst decision was? What does this character think their worst decision was?: i personally think that the decision to actively assist their family in a scheme to murder a moon goddess for revenge isn’t the BEST idea they’ve ever had. ronah thinks their worst decision was leaving raiv behind 

17. Is there anything you wish the writers had done differently with this character? Why?: it would be cool if the writer had. written the last three to five chapters of the book they’re in. i think that would have been neat .

18. What character from another work do you think they’d get along really well with?: i think that they and kavi would bond over a love of family and stories!! w/i my own works i kind of like to think that they would get along with farfara from tayl. sonia from ttsp would also remind them of their family, and i think they’d like her for that

 19. What character from another work would be their mortal enemy?: this is niche but the bounty hunter from see me through would hate them

 20. What’s a headcanon you’ve always wanted to share but none of these ask memes ever ask you about it?: they used to dye their hair when they were younger!

#long post #CANT MAKE THE READMORE WORK!! RIP #ask #bardcharms #I LOVE UUUUUUU #find me find you tag #long limb ellipse tag #ask meme

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