#this is about people who enter trans conversations to say stuff like 'the books always sucked anyway'

[avoidcrow]

I need people to understand that JK Rowling sucks because she is a TERF and not because she wrote a book you didn't like

The books themselves are not the point and you all need to get over that part because debating the quality of Harry Potter muddies the water

She is doing harm right now and you're wasting everyone's time arguing about whether the books were 'actually bad the whole time, you plebs just had bad taste' or 'actually great and everyone has to appreciate these parts' or whatever

#to clarify this is not about using quotes from the book to show her bigotry #this is about people who enter trans conversations to say stuff like 'the books always sucked anyway' #please grow up this is not a fandom war thing #mine

[the-lincyclopedia]

* adapted from @librajiminn on twitter

A fun game to celebrate 2020 ending! The rules are simple: recommend your favorite OMGCP fics so everyone can enjoy them, while trying to fill in enough slots to get a bingo!

This is going to get long, so I’ll put it under a cut. Also, I’m too orderly to try to shoehorn my favorite fics into these particular prompts, so I’m just going to go right to left, top to bottom, taking the prompts literally, until it’s bedtime. 

1. first fic you bookmarked: “Here Comes the Sun” by @doggernaut, 19k, G, no warnings, Zimbits

For the past month, the man with the baby and the sad blue eyes has been stopping in for a cup of coffee an hour before closing. He always sits in an overstuffed chair in the corner and drinks his coffee while his baby sleeps next to him in the stroller. Sometimes he pulls a book out from the diaper bag he carries with him; other times he just stares straight ahead as if in a daze. He never asks for a refill, always respectfully gathers his things and leaves ten minutes before the shop officially closes. Eric desperately wants to ask him what his story is. 

My notes: I read Check Please over the course of two days in June of 2019. On the second day, right after catching up, I looked at @peppermintfeminist‘s AO3 bookmarks and found a fic by @doggernaut. Then I read just about everything @doggernaut had ever posted. It was glorious. This fic in particular is so cute. 

2. most recent fic you bookmarked: “Flight Check” by @edgarallanrose, 15k, E, no warnings (though there is a creepy/handsy guy at a club to watch out for), primarily Zimbits with most of the other popular pairings in the background

Flight attendant Eric “Bitty” Bittle has been working his way up at Samwell Airlines for the past four years, and his new promotion has provided him the opportunity to work with a brand-new crew. Unfortunately for Bitty, that crew includes an incredibly handsome but equally grumpy pilot, Captain Jack Zimmermann, who seems to want nothing to do with Bitty. Even worse, Jack refuses to eat any of Bitty's baked goods. Will Bitty be able to win the captain over? Or is there another reason Jack has been avoiding Bitty?

My notes: There are a lot of great things about this fic--Jack’s character arc, Lardo’s dialogue, that scene in Seattle--but the reason I bookmarked it is the scene where Bitty’s basically slut-shaming himself and Jack gently but firmly tells Bitty not to do that and that it was the creep’s fault. 

3. a fic that made you cry actual tears: “a little bit more” by @ivecarvedawoodenheart, 14k, T, no warnings, Holsom

“I just wanted,” he says, “a perfect day. With you. Because it’s our last day together and our last day being here as undergrads and we’re kissing the ice tonight, and the weather’s supposed to be beautiful, and you’re moving tomorrow and Holtzy I just — I don’t want to be missing you already.” Holster wipes his eyes before he even realizes he’s crying. Behind him, Ransom sighs. “One more day where everything’s the same,” he says, feeling around blindly for Rans’ fingers. He feels Rans nod as he laces their fingers together. “Yeah. Yeah, Rans. I’d like that a lot.” __________________________

Holsom after graduation and throughout the subsequent six months after Holster signs to an expansion team in Oregon, and realizes his feelings for Ransom too late. Holster's POV :) kinda angsty, but there's a happy ending :)

Inspired by shitty-check-please-aus: "Holster moves to Oregon while Ransom stays on the east coast. The time difference makes it difficult to talk and one day they wake up and realize they aren’t best bros anymore."

My notes: I almost never cry at fics. I searched “tears” in my fandom email account and only a handful of my fic comments came up, but Syd is a literal master of Holsom angst, always. 

4. longest fic you’ve read: “Like Real People Do” by @xiaq, 153k, M, No Warnings, Kent Parson x OC

Parson gestures with his spoon toward Hawke. “So am I allowed to ask about the service dog or is that not PC?”

“My medical history is more of a 3rd date conversation," Eli says.

“Oh? Why’s that?”

“Because. No one sticks around afterward and I like to live in glorious denial for a short period beforehand.”

It comes out more self-deprecating than he intended.

Parson looks…thoughtful. “Well, does this count as one or two?

“Pardon?”

“This. Ice cream. I mean, technically it’s a second location, but still the same night. So is this one date or two?”

“One,” Eli says firmly. “If it’s happening within the same three-hour period.”

“You’re the expert,” Parson says, which, he’s really, really, not, but ok.

“So still two dates to go then?” Parson continues.

“I—what?”

“We’ve got a roadie coming up but then we’re home for almost two weeks. When does your semester start?”

“You want to do this again?” Eli asks.

Parson stops idly twirling his spoon.

“You don’t?”

He does, Eli realizes. He really does. Because apparently he actually likes Kent fucking Parson.

My notes: Okay, this fic has my whole entire heart. I’ve read it multiple times in its entirety, and it’s almost twice as long as the full-length novel I’m querying. Eli is one of my favorite OCs I’ve ever seen in a fic (probably tied with Damian Navarro and Ari Paxton, both brainchildren of @fozmeadows). Anyway, this is probably going to be the next thing @themeaningoflifeischeese and I read out loud to each other. 

5. a fic you almost didn’t read: “when all else fails (i’ll still be right here)” by @whoacanada, 6k, T, Creator Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings (and I don’t remember if I think there’s stuff to warn for, sorry), Zimbits

The National Hockey League is resurrecting the Quebec City Nordiques, and the expansion draft hits the Falconers much harder than expected.

My notes: Given that this was for @omgcpheartbreakfest, I was worried this would be all angst--all hurt and no comfort. Which made me sad, because I love @whoacanada‘s writing but I wasn’t up for reading unresolved angst. But @doggernaut reblogged the fic, so I asked if the ending was sad, and it’s NOT! There is quite a bit of angst but the ending isn’t sad. 

6. a fic that convinced you on a ship you didn’t ship before: “it drops with the gravity of rain” by @geniusorinsanity, 16k, T, Creator Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings (attempted sexual assault by an OC), Nurseydex

It happens like this:

“I don’t--this is a bad idea,” Dex says, his lips still tingling, his hands shaking on Nursey’s hips where he’s shoved him away. “This is a really bad idea, Nurse. I can’t--We can’t do this.”

And there’s hurt in Nursey’s eyes and his bottom lip is swollen from Dex’s teeth, but he says, “Okay.” And then, “It’s chill, Dex. Just friends, then.”

It happens like this:

“Actually,” Nursey says, talking more to his granola than to them, “I kind of have a date.”

It happens like this:

When Nursey calls, Dex almost doesn’t pick up the phone.

My notes: So I was really confused and a little disturbed when I first found out people shipped Nursey and Dex. Like, Dex just wasn’t someone I trusted. But then I was moving out of the house I’d been living in, and I needed stuff to listen to as I packed and cleaned, and @khashanakalashtar‘s podfics came in clutch. I gave this one a try even though I didn’t like Dex, and @geniusorinsanity blew. My. Mind.

7. a fic from an unusual POV: “Excuse Me While I Kiss This Guy” by @porcupine-girl, 8k, G, no warnings, Zimbits

Jesse Snowden knows all the best restaurants and gourmet food shops in Providence, so when Jack Zimmermann starts bringing in incredible baked goods, he's eager to find out where the new bakery is. When he meets the man behind the pies, he decides that there's no way Jack could really appreciate this guy's talent the way he does, even if they are friends. He starts hiring Jack's chef on the side, in the hopes that maybe once Bitty's done with college he'll come work for Jesse.

Good thing there is absolutely no way whatsoever that Jesse could possibly be misinterpreting this situation.

My notes: Oh my gosh this is so funny. The secondhand embarrassment factor is huge, but like, the hilarity. 

8. a comfort fic: “Don’t Need to Compromise” by @khashanakalashtar, 11k, E, no warnings, PB&J

“Hey,” said Kent, unknowingly setting off a chain of events that would change his entire life, “you said that like you know from experience. Have you done this before?”

Jack and Bitty have not done polyamory before, but they do know Ransom and Holster’s polycule, which contains March.

And March?

March is trans.

My notes: I’m in love with @khashanakalashtar‘s entire Directionverse series (and honestly a lot of their other writing), but “Don’t Need to Compromise,” which is the second fic in the series, just makes my heart swell especially much. The gender feels are so good, and all the characters are so good to each other, and when I listen to this on walks I have to actively try not to arm-flap. 

9. a fic you wish could be a movie: “Ice Crew Please!” by @petals42, 61k, T, no warnings, Zimbits

Jack Zimmermann was drafted first by the Providence Falconers when he was eighteen years old. He is good at hockey. Very good. His team won the Cup his second year and now, in his third year, they are looking good. Jack should be on top of the world. And some days, he manages to convince himself he is.

He’s not, of course.

Enter the Ice Crew.

AKA: The Ice Crew AU

My notes: This fic has its tender moments, but what I love most about it is the sheer goofiness. Ransom and Holster and Shitty are HILARIOUS in this one. I’d love to see their shenanigans in movie form. 

10. a WIP you read as it was updated: “Something Borrowed” by @fozmeadows, 48k, M, no warnings, Kent x OC

All things considered, Ari did his best to prepare himself for the advent of Kent Parson, Potentially Difficult Housemate and New Star Liney. The problem was that his best was an idiot.

My notes: So technically I didn’t start reading this until the first 19 chapters were posted. But there was still plenty of anticipation for the final few chapters. And like, @fozmeadows (as mentioned above) makes EXCELLENT OCs. And I love how their fics consistently convey that having bad things happen to you does not mark the end of your story. 

Okay, it’s bedtime, so have 10 excellent fics. I got bingo twice, because I went straight across on the top two rows.

#mine #omgcp #omgcheckplease #check please #fic recs

[rosequartzwriting]

With The Malfoys

Pairing: Draco Malfoy X Fem!Slytherin!Reader

Description: You had been staying with your boyfriend’s family, the Malfoys, before the summer break is over. You also go with them on a trip to Diagon Alley to get your school supplies for the new year. Draco comforts your insecurity. 

Warnings: Non

Word Count: 2.4k

A/N: Originally posted on Qutoev / TRANS LIVES MATTER / I really like this one, wrote it when I was on a Draco high a few years ago haha. Also more Draco cause he’s popular right now. (I’m not into Draco anymore but these exist)

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You began to stir in your sleep when someone started knocking on the guest bedroom door. The sun shining in your eyes from the large windows didn’t help at all. You heard the door open and small footsteps follow behind.

“Lady (Y/N)? You’ve requested for me to wake you up at this hour.”

The light voice of the small house elf fully woke you up. You sat up and rubbed the tiredness from your eyes. “Yes, thank you Sammi.”

“Also, Mrs. Malfoy has invited you for morning tea. And an owl came this morning for you.” The little house elf said as she began to flatten out the sheets on your large guest bed. She had handed you a letter closed with a familiar seal. You didn’t hesitate to rip it open read it.

Hope you’re doing well darling,

It does feel weird having you be gone from the house two weeks early, but I assume everything is fine over there. I received a letter from Lucius and he says he enjoys having you at the Manor, and that he has noticed how happy you make his son. He says he wants you back for your Christmas break, he invited me and your father as well. Let me know and we’ll hopefully see you for Christmas over there. I hope you are remembering your manners over there! Treat everyone well and don’t forget to go to Diagon Alley to get your stuff for school. And write me back if you can!

See you soon, I love you

Signed

-Your mother

You were staying at Malfoy Manor for the last two weeks of summer break. Despite them being controversial both at school and in wizarding world in general, you loved Draco’s family. They adored you and they insisted that you stay with them before the next school year started.

The letter from your mother made you happy, but also semi embarrassed you. You have often received positive things from both your and Draco’s parents that you were dating. It took a while for his father to warm up to you, but his mother loved you instantly. And your parents adored Draco. All four of them never let you forget how perfect they thought you were.

You got up and Sammi the house elf made your bed behind you. Over the past few days, she sort of became your personal house elf since she was assigned to you so much. You showed her nothing but kindness and compassion. It was nice to have someone like her with you all throughout your stay.

You got ready in the bathroom and dressed into a clean outfit. A simple black dress and some black heel boots. You found yourself dressing a bit more formal when with the Malfoys, you grew to like it (and you felt good wearing nice dresses).

You came back into your room to find Sammi tidying it up a bit. She worked really hard by what you have seen her do.

“I appreciate your company, Sammi.”

She turned to you and her huge eyes lit up. “No one has ever been as kind to me as you, Lady (Y/N)!” Her speech was not like other house elves, not referring to herself in third person.

“It’s nothing don’t worry.” You waved it off. “Also I told you that you don’t have to call me ‘lady’.”

“Are you sure? I’m too used to being so formal to our guests."

You nodded and she smiled. You walked over to your bedside table and picked up your wand to place in the belt of your dress.

“But I quite like the sound of ‘lady (Y/N)’!” Sammi beamed, dusting a nearby shelf.

“There’s no need, really.” You replied, picking up the glass of water next to where your wand was and taking a sip.

“But really…” She paused. “Maybe someday I’ll be calling you Mrs. Malfoy.”

You choked and water went down the wrong way.

“I honestly do hope you and Master Draco get married. Maybe it will happen once you both graduate from Hogwarts. Oh, a house elf can only dream.” And with that she left your room, leaving you a coughing and blushing mess.

~~~~

Descending the main staircase, you made your way towards the drawing room where Narcissa Malfoy often invited you to have tea in the morning. You knew where you were going now, the manor had become familiar dispute its size. The first few days you always found yourself lost in the giant mansion, there were too many rooms to explore and curiosity took over plenty of times.

“Good morning, darling.” Narcissa greeted you while using her wand to pour you tea.

“Morning, Narcissa.” She had insisted that you call her by her first name.

“Did you get your letter? Who was it from?”

You sat down in the chair across from hers, it was soft and large. Taking your tea, you curled up on the chair. “The letter was from my mother.”

She smiled into her tea cup. “Oh (your mother’s name), I do miss her. Maybe she and your father should join us for Christmas…oh has Lucius or Draco mentioned that to you yet?”

“They hadn’t told me, but mum mentioned it in her letter. She’d love to come I’m sure.”

“I hope they do.” Narcissa smiled. “I’m sure if you asked them you all could join us.”

“I can ask them. I should write them back.”

Narcissa was already on it, using her magic to hand you a piece of parchment and a quill with ink already. You thanked her and began a letter back to your mother, writing on top of a book on your lap. Neutral peaceful silence fell in the room, Narcissa now petting a cat while you wrote to your mother and drank your tea. While writing, the large doors to the room opened and you wondered who had entered.

"Morning, Princess."

It was Draco. You felt his presence over your shoulder so you scooted over in your chair for him to sit. He did so, plopping down and slinging his arm around you.

"Morning mother." He smiled innocently, she was eyeing him for not acknowledging her earlier along with you. He then glanced down at you , "Whats this?"

"Mum wrote me this morning, replying back." You answered, then raising your quill to tickle his face for a split second just to bug him.

“Oh Draco, what do you think about the (L/N)s joining us for Christmas this year?” His mother asked him, chiming in about the letter.

"That would be great." He answered but he sounded unsure, then he continued which explained it, "but...do we want them near the other people we usually invite to our Christmas parties?"

"What do you mean?" She raised an eyebrow.

He turned to you. “I’m sure you wouldn’t want to meet my aunt Bella, (Y/N).”

“Do not speak of your aunt like that Draco.” Narcissa scoffed. “But...it is true that my sister is a little…uh”

“Insane?” Draco suggested, raising an eyebrow.

“Peculiar.” She corrected while eyeing her son.

"I'm sure me and my parents will survive a party here." You laughed.

~~~~

“Why is it that whenever I set foot in Diagon Alley, I instantly smell mudbloods?”

You slapped him on the shoulder. “Draco!”

“What? It’s kinda true.” This told you that he was trying to make a joke, but you just rolled your eyes.

You, Draco, Lucius and Narcissa were now walking down the street in Diagon Alley to get the things on your list for your next year at Hogwarts.

Once you got to a populated area, you felt eyes staring at you and the Malfoys. You instantly grew self conscious. You wrapped your arms around yourself and suddenly became aware of how heavy your footsteps sounded with the heels. Did you look like a snob to them? Too dramatic or over the top? Actually...do people think that you’re a Death Eater?

Draco noticed that you had become fidgety and nervous. He put it together and saw that you didn’t like the stares. He reached out and gently grabbed your hand to hold it.

“It’s okay, darling.” He whispered, pulling you closer to him protectively. “Keep that head held high. They’re just jealous that you’re so beautiful.”

You blushed and chuckled under your breath. Soon you found a small push of confidence, head up and smiling.

Yeah that’s right, I’m with the Malfoys! I probably look really good right now.

One of the first stops was Flourish and Blotts, where you needed to get the new textbooks for your classes. Draco’s parents had wandered to speak with another pure blood family that was on the other side of the shop, while you and Draco looked for textbooks. You scanned the shelves for a copy of Advanced Potion-making, and you felt Draco looming over your shoulder as he helped you look.

Then something caught your attention and you listened carefully. There was a group talking somewhere, and you swear you heard them mutter Malfoy and (L/N). Draco was busy mumbling to himself the book titles as he browsed the shelves, while you listened. It clicked in your head and the voices were suddenly recognizable.

You didn’t look in their direction and tried to act casual. Draco hadn’t noticed yet, so you slapped him lightly to get his attention.

“Draco.” You whispered.

He kept talking to himself, “Scamander? What an unfortunate surname to have...”

You rolled your eyes, “Draco!”

“What?”

“Shh! Listen.”

He did, then he understood what you meant. The two of you listened into the conversation while still trying to look like you were busy.

“Also why do they always dress like that? Are they going to a party?”

“Those heels (L/N) is wearing look really uncomfortable.”

“I’m surprised they’re still together. How long has it been?”

“A few years now.”

“Longer than most people at Hogwarts.”

“I don’t care, it’s still disgusting.”

“Is she with him just because he’s rich?”

“Maybe.”

"Maybe they've been arranged, like an arranged marriage."

"I wouldn't be surprised, not many pure blood families to keep the Malfoy family completely pure."

“They look like they’re plotting something…”

“Just by looking at books?”

“They always look like they’re up to no good.”

“Probably been bowing to You-Know-Who all summer.”

Draco had enough and he spoke up, “You’re really bad at being quiet, Potter.”

Harry Potter, Ronald Weasley and Hermione Granger all stopped talking, and turned to you and Draco with shocked faces. A smirk pulled at your lips, and you assumed your boyfriend was doing the same, the menacing smiles of a perfect Slytherin duo and couple.

You followed Draco as he approached the trio, knowing that all hell was about to break loose. But you were here for it. You stood there, arms crossed over your chest as you watched Draco and Harry have a standoff.

While the boys were nagging at each other, you watched with amusement. You quickly glanced to the side and looked at the bookshelf. “Oh look, here they are!” You took two copies of Advanced Potion-making off the shelf, which was right beside Granger. Somehow this irritated her.

“Oh by the way.” You started. “I’m not with him just because he’s rich,” You did your best intentionally annoying Hermione Granger impression. “and we weren't arranged. Pfff. Shame on you, mudblood.”

Alright maybe that was a little low for you to stoop down to, but what she said really got on your nerves so you said the first insult you thought of to call her.

The tension created by the mutual hatred on both sides caused a few other shoppers to stop and watch for at least one second. Draco was in the process of defending his last name from association with the dark arts, and it was amusing to you that he could piss off Harry just by barely opening his mouth.

“And I’d like to see you walk in these.” You showed off your heeled shoes to Granger which you noticed bugged her. “You’d probably trip and break your ankle in one step.”

Then you both went off, mirroring Draco and Harry. It could have gone on for much longer, but a large figure that appeared made the three Gryffindors tense and freeze.

“I really hope these blood traitors aren't giving you two any trouble.” Lucius’ voice rang out, him now standing behind you both with his wife.

“They were speaking negatively about us.” You stated with irritation, but with a hint of a smug smile.

Narcissa put her hands on her son’s shoulders protectively. "Forget them, dears. They are not worth your time."

"You're right mother, they're not at all." Draco held his nose in the air and began to walk off with Narcissa.

Lucius glared at the three, “Do not ever disrespect my future daughter-in-law. Come along, (Y/N).” The man lead you away from them, you still holding the textbooks you and Draco needed.

That comment made you blush, but it put a smile on your face once you saw the trio’s expressions; in some state of disbelief and jaws slightly slack. So you followed Lucius with your head held high.

~~~~

It was now September first, and the Hogwarts Express was scheduled to leave any minute now, but Narcissa’s bone crushing hug was preventing you from getting on the train.

“Mum, let her go.” Draco rolled his eyes and tried to pry his mother’s arms off of you.

She eventually did, but took your shoulders to look at you, "You watch over him, alright?"

"I will." You laughed.

Draco grabbed you hand and you both jumped onto the train just as it was leaving. You looked back and waved to his parents.

“We love you! Stay out of trouble!” His mother called one last time before they were out of sight.

"Why does mum have to be so embarrassing sometimes..." Draco mumbled under his breath as he pulled you along the hall to find an empty car.

"Because it's her job to embarrass you." You giggled, and he shook his head.

Once you found an empty car and settled in, you both sat down for the long train ride. You leaned your head on Draco's shoulder, and he let out a breath of amusement. You knew he was smirking, with content.

"You can take a nap if you want, darling." Draco chuckled, seeing how comfortable you have become now cuddling up to him.

"I could~" You sighed, now wrapping your arms around his torso, "wake me up when we get there..."

Draco smiled, placing one hand around your waist and the other on top of one of yours. He kissed your temple, and made a mental note that if Crabbe and Goyle wanted to share a car with you both, he wouldn't let them wake you.

#draco malfoy #draco malfoy x reader #slytherin #slytherin reader #draco malfoy x you #malfoy x reader #harry potter fanfiction #harry potter reader insert #tom felton #draco #harry potter

[humboldtfog]

Years of depression has prepared me very well for the current state of affairs which is weird but whatever here’s a list of my faves on netflix, if I’m missing something let me know cause now’s the time, right?

I'm kinda embarrassed by how long this list is but also kinda like fuck that, there have been very long periods of time where it was either sit and watch shows all day or lie down and stare at the wall in silence all day so I chose the former and it adds up and there's nothing wrong with that.

Glow (Badass ladies learn to wrestle, great 80s aesthetics and grrrrl power.)

Our Planet (Netflix version of Planet Earth, beautiful, cute, terrifying that we aren’t doing more to save us all.)

Bojack Horseman (Hilarious and “deep” critique of LA and celebrity culture for people who don’t care about LA or celebrity culture. Also very funny visual jokes about how if animals were also kinda humans, and lots of great jokes about cliches and tropes, puns, and weirdly rhyming and alliteration? I don’t know how to explain it just watch it.)

Father Brown (BBC, based on mystery novels about a priest who always meddles in police business and solves murders in his small English countryside town.)

Pose (The Ball scene in NY in the 80s, poc queer and trans writers and actors bringing their people’s stories to life. So much joy, so much beauty, but also NYC in the 80s so you will cry.)

Paris is Burning (Documentary made during the Ball scene Pose is based on.)

Sex Education (Such empowering representations of all walks of gender and sexuality, and actually very educational, like I would straight up show this in schools because everyone would be very entertained and would learn a lot more than they teach in a lot of schools.)

What Happened Miss Simone (Documentary about Nina Simone’s life, music and the activism the establishment/ government worked to suppress and used to blacklist her.)

Night on Earth (Low light camera technology has gotten hella good and they’re starting to learn stuff about animals’ behaviors at night that they’ve never been able to study before.)

Call the Midwife (Follows stories from the midwives that worked in the East End of London after the war, based on memoirs. Interesting look at the kind of life of poverty people led before there were many large hospitals or birth control, right as the British were implementing their universal healthcare program.)

The Great British Baking Show (Everyone’s so nice and everything looks so good!)

Atypical (Dramady about a high schooler with autism and his family, very funny and great representations of autism and how to be a good dude.)

Parks and Recreation (Just very funny and everyone knows it. Amazing ensemble cast, and they still keeps in touch through a group chat awww doesn’t that say something!)

Kim’s Convenience (Canadian comedy about family of first and second gen Korean immigrants that’s just a really solid funny modern day sitcom.)

Queer Eye (I feel like if everyone in this world could get a life makeover from these guys we just wouldn’t be here right now.)

Obvious Child (Jenny Slate accidentally gets pregnant and gets an abortion. It’s funny and it’s realistic, we’re not all Juno.)

Maria Bamford: the Special Special Special (Rad lady comedian not afraid to talk about her mental health and lack thereof and very vocal about the stigma surrounding mental health problems and I very much relate to. My favorite standup probably ever. I could make a list just for standup so message me if you’d like more suggestions.)

Monty Python (Flying Circus, movies, doc, ect. “The Beatles of comedy” is the cliche but it's true.)

Easy (Very unconventional non-narrative structure and editing, following random people in Chicago in a very real life feeling way. Different story each episode, but sometimes characters show up briefly in each other’s lives or return for a second episode.)

Everything Sucks! (High school nerds and lesbians and theater geeks in the 90s! I’m so sad this only got one season I rewatched it recently and it’s just so solid.)

She’s Gotta Have It (Revival of Spike Lee’s first movie, black girl magic, art world, gentrified New York, lots of sex.)

The Office (Classic, holds up very well, totally solid throughout, worth a rewatch. Also if you're a fan Jenna Ficher and Angela Davis are doing a rewatch podcast jsyk.)

Billy on the Street (Mindless game show for laughs, amazing gay comedian runs around New York yelling questions at them. I watch this with my dad and he can’t help but snort even when it’s “inappropriate” or “juvenile” so you know it’s good.)

Good Girls (Some lower middle class family ladies that are all about to be broke decide to rob the grocery store one of them works at, but they accidentally cross a gang that stored their cash there, so they gotta pay it back, and of course can’t help but get deeper and deeper into it. Very suspenseful like your heart rate will go up and stay up. )

Arrested Development (It’s just funny, as you've probably heard, but I'm telling you it just really is.)

The Laundromat (Tells the stories of a few of the people involved in the panama papers in different ways, explains in an entertaining way how money laundering works in a way that made it mostly make sense even to me. The rich get richer, and Meryl Streep is here to tell them to fuck off and pay their taxes.)

Russian Doll (She keeps dying and coming back to the same moment over and over and can’t figure out how to stop the cycle or why so kinda sci fi, very suspenseful, big cliff hanger ending, or rather no ending, and just found out season two filming is delayed because virus which is very annoying!!)

Dear White People (Show picking up where the movie left off, after a frat hosts a black face party and the ivy league college is forced to deal with racism.)

Dolly Parton’s Heartstrings (Stories based on Dolly songs. Very Hallmark channel, you will cry.)

Episodes (Show about two British writers making a version of their BBC show for American tv. Kind of meta, very funny, Matt LaBlanc plays himself and it's great.)

Dumplin’ (Fat girl grows up with a beauty pageant winning mom and enters one herself with the help of her late aunt’s Dolly Parton drag queen friends.)

Lunatics (Chris Lilley is the best character actor ever, all his shows are just him playing different parts and you seriously forget it’s all one actor, even when he’s playing teenage girls.)

Jane the Virgin (Prime time soap opera about a girl who is engaged and waiting until marrige and is accidentally inseminated with the only sperm sample of a man who’s had cancer so decides to keep the baby, very heavy on the soap opera cliches in a meta way but also that’s what it is. So good at first but after the first three or so seasons it gets too much tbh though.)

Zumbo’s Just Desserts (Australian Bake show but with just sweet stuff and pressure to be avant garde.)

Comedians in Cars Getting Coffee (Jerry Sienfeld goes out with funny people to coffee and lunch in fancy cars and they have funny conversations.)

One Day at a Time (Very very cheesy laugh track sitcom, like the kind of thing my grandma would watch, but it makes me so happy it’s doing a great job eplaining really woke concepts like queer pronouns and ptsd and addiction and white privilege to people like my grandma!)

Orange is the New Black (Good stories about very diverse characters, I’d say by starting it off about a upper middle class white girl it tricks privileged white people into watching and then encountering the more realistic stories of women who go to prison and how the system treats prisoners. Ending of season two is super solid and you can stop it there, season three is a really great critique of the privatization of prisons. I admit it goes on and on to the point that it’s stressful and after watching it spread out over years I can’t remember/ keep up with all the different story lines, though they’re all good stories to tell.)

Space Jam (Just saw while scrolling for more ideas this was added! One of the greatest sports movies of all time obviously.)

Bonus amazon prime shows, I try to avoid Amazon in general but these are just too good if you know a prime member who you can't convince not to give their money to amazon so they might as well give you their login (like yer dad).

The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel (A 1950s New York upper class Jewish house wife gets dumped and starts doing stand up, so funny, great actors, and they seriously transform NY back into another era.)

Good Omens (Mini series based off Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman’s satirical novel about the biblical apocalypse, very funny, very smart, very British, does the book pretty solid justice.)

There are other decent things that aren’t included, I’d say these are solid recs for a general list of genres all over the map without letting it get to a ridiculously unhelpful length. I feel like I’d be good at the “if you like this then you’ll also like…” so let me know if some of these are your favorites too and want personal recs for what to watch next based on a brain instead of an algorithm.

If you want to have a remote date and watch things together on video chat or one of those watch party sites or just tell me what to watch next here’s some stuff on my list I’ve been curious about or not sure about or don’t want to watch alone or have been putting off, and now’s the time right?: Strangers Things, I Am Not Okay With This, Black Panther, The Betty White doc, John Mulaney Snack Lunch Bunch, Dead to Me, The Ballad of Buster Scruggs, A Wrinkle in Time, The Little Prince, Maniac, Wet Hot American Summer reboots, and a bunch of different standup specials from comedians I like.

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[scapingfromchoices]

We are together, my love [Aisha x M Trans! Oc ; Evan] PT. 1/2

I just entered the college. I'm not good enough to be here, to be honest, but my father told me I'm a strong girl. I don't want to be called "girl" but it was my parents desire.

I'm in front of the building, watching how people come and go. I'm feeling so out of the scene. Everyone seems to have something to do. I sigh. I don't know why I'm here. Are my drawings that good? I start to walk, reading my schedule.

—Okay... Now... I need some--

I feel how everything in my bag falls. My books, notebooks, drawings...

—Shit, this can't be worse.

I stop, leaning to take my things.

"Well done, Kate, well done". I murmur while everyone ignores my presence there. Finally, all my belongings are in my bag again and I walk to my class.

Looking like a criminal, I sit behind everyone. I don't like to be the center of attention.

The professor enters in the room and smiles.

At least he's not bad looking.

—Good morning, class. I'm Aiden Bhatt. I'm your new teacher this year.

People start to murmur. I can overhear how some boys says he's gay or how some girls comment he's so handsome, but too feminine to be a man. Assholes.

He smiles to the people in the room and starts talking about the rules in his hours of classes. After that, he starts to say our names to see if we are punctual or in the classroom.

—Frederick?

—Yes, sir.

—Hellen?

—Here.

—Kate?

I raise my voice nervously and I scream like those anime characters.

—HERE.

Everyone stares at me and I blush, looking away.

—Kate, you don't need to yell. I see you.

He laughs sweetly. I don't know what I felt, but hearing him doing it, gave me so many years of life. Could someone be so cute?

—I'm... Sorry.

I see him smiling to me. Oh shit, here we go again, my fucking ass falling for someone older than me.

—Don't worry. You're nervous. I get it. I was in the same situation in my first day as a teacher. Then other people showed me how to be confident and well, I'm here, right?

He smiles again. Oh come on, just stop. I can't get over smiles. They are my weakness.

After some hour in class, the break finally came. I was exhausted trying to not look at Aiden. Why nobody told me professors in colleges are so gorgeous?

I sit alone in a bench, reading some people talking about their gender identity. Everytime I feel like I don't want this body. I look at the mirror and when I see my chest, my head really tell me that I'm horrible. When I hear my voice... Shit, what the hell? What am I? I need to talk with someone or I'll become crazy. But then again, why am I afraid? Is it a crime want to be happy? I sigh, trying not to cry, then, I feel a hand in my shoulder.

—No, I'm not selling some stupid stuff--

—Oh, what a shame, I wanted to buy you some time to talk.

I look behind me, seeing my teacher smiling to me. God? Is that you? Why is he talking to me? Alone? In this bench? Is he going to tell me I'm already out of his class? Okay, Kate, relax.

—Aiden... I didn't want to say--

He just laughs and sits along my side. Was his smile always that beautiful? I mean, look at him...

—Don't worry. Why are you here? Don't you have friends? Or someone to talk?

Is he worried about me? Oh my God, he is!

—I just got here. My parents told me I needed to go Hartfeld to study... Since is the most prestigious college.

—I see.

—But I don't want to be here! I wanted to go to--

—You don't want to be here? So you don't want to see me?

I stare at him confused. Is he trying to flirt? Because it's working.

I blush deeply.

—I-- No. I mean, I want to see you. You're so gorgeous and you smile-- I... I mean... Yes, I want to see you.

He laughs again. Damnit, stop. You're going to kill me...

—Relax, relax. It was a joke. I guess.

I sigh. I need to talk to him. I don't know why, but he is the first person who cares about me.

—Aiden... Did you ever... have some doubts about yourself? I mean, your identity?

He looks at me surprised.

—Yes...

—And how do you feel about that?

—Not so good.

—I... I'm sorry. I didn't have to ask you that.

I stand and I star running. Ugh, I'm so stupid. Why did I ask him that?

...

Few weeks later, I keep sitting alone in a bench, keeping in touch with gender identity. Chella Man... That man really has some guts. I think I know what is this. I'm transgender. And I need to tell it to my parents.

Today's Sunday. They're not working so I'm sure they're at home. I call them. I wait to hear my mother's voice and when she is in the phone, I start taking.

—Good morning, mother.

—Good morning, Kate. Having problems?

—Oh no, I just called to check on you...

—Right...

I sigh.

—Okay... Do you remember when I was just a kid? My clothes were always so boyish.

—Of course I remember. Your father always told me it was a problem.

—Well, I was searching for some information about that. I mean, I always wanted to be like a boy.

—Yes...

—Well, I think I'm transgender.

Silent falls. I can hear my mother breathing.

—I already knew that.

Wait, what? She knew? What? Since when? I'm shocked.

—You... knew?

—Of course, dummy. I'm your mother.

—I... Aren't you disappointed?

—Why? You're my blood. My little boy now, I love you no matter what. Your father will be hard to tell, but I'm sure he will love you.

—Thanks...

...

Aiden visits me in the break. We talk about some stupid stuff and sometimes I think we really connected. I don't know if he has forgot that conversation the other day. I don't care if some people say he's gay. It has been a while since we first met. I really think I have fell in love with him. I feel so right with him. He makes me laugh. He can protect me and he always helps me. Sometimes I feel that Aiden might be in love with me, but those feelings are always a mistake. He's my teacher. It's so cliche, I know. I saw those stupid romantic stories about the forbidden love because they were just a professor and his student. I always thought those films were trash, but it's happening to me. I have fallen in love with my teacher...

I'm not complaining. He's the real catch. Smart, funny, sweet, good looking... God, I'm so lucky.

—So tell me, Kate. The other day you told me something about your gender identity.

Oh shit. Did he needed to talk about that?

—Yes. I remember. Why?

—Did you talk with your parents?

I sigh loudly. I did, but just with my mother...

—Yes. My mother said she loves me.

He smiles. I will never be tired of it. Hell, I love his smile... I love him.

—That's really reassuring. It will be a shame. You're the sweetest person ever.

I blush.

—Aiden, I need to tell you something.

—Go ahead.

—I will start my transition tomorrow...

—Oh! That's fantastic. What's your name, then?

I laugh. He's really a good man.

—You can call me Evan.

—Okay, Evan.

—That's not everything. I will go to an art school. My mother convinced my father to let me go. The next week I will be attending it.

He looks at me sadly. It's the first time I see him not smiling while he watches me.

—You... are leaving?

—Yes. I'm sorry Aiden. This is not my place.

He sighs.

—It's good to know you will be happy now.

—I... Need to tell you something really important, again.

—Go ahead.

—I...

The moment I want to talk, my head blocks me. I'm nervous. I don't want to say it. I don't want to leave this knowing he is hating me.

—I will miss you.

I finally say that. He looks disappointed. Was he waiting for another thing?

—I will miss you, too.

...

—Evan! You're late again!

—I'm going!

I was dreaming about that again. About my first encounter with that man. I fell in love with him and I'm still in love with him. The only thing thaf mattered to me in that college was him. I really miss him. This art school is the best, but without him, nothing can make me forgot him. Shit, why I have to fell in love with my fucking teacher?

—Are you coming?

—Wait! I'm searching for my other shoe.

—We are late to the party! Aisha's gonna be mad at me!

—Aisha can wait, Ken!

I sigh deeply. I don't know who that Aisha is, but my friend a.k.a my stupid roommate didn't stop talking about her. I know he has boyfriend, but sometimes I feel he is falling for her. I laugh at that. It's impossible, he's so gay to do that.

Finally, I put my shoe and I run to the door. Ken is waiting for me, talking with his boyfriend.

—I didn't know he was coming.

—Oh, don't worry, mate, he's just driving us to the party.

I look at them, amusingly.

—But nothing about kisses, okay?

They laugh.

—We can't make any promises.

After a short ride, we are in front of a big building. How that girl can have this? It's huge...

We enter, admiring the walls, the floor, basically, everything. Suddenly, a female voice comes from the stairs.

—Ken! Viktor! You are here! And you brought some company.

I look at her. Did I see her before. She's so familiar to me... Anyway. She is beautiful. That short died hair, her smile... Her muscles... God, those arms. Damnit.

She walks approaching to me. She stares at me during some long seconds and she takes my hand.

—Nice to meet you! I'm Aisha and you are...?

I'm nervous. Why am I nervous? Ugh, my bisexual ass is fucking showing.

—I... I'm Evan.

Suddenly, she open her eyes surprised. What's happening? Did I say something wrong?

—Aisha? Are you okay?

She blinks repeatedly.

—Ah, yes. I'm... okay.

She keeps staring at me, until Ken breaks the moment.

—Okay, Aisha, while you talk with Evan, I'm gonna check the drinks.

—Right, check.

Aisha and I talk at the same time.

—You really know Ken, don't you?

She asks me sweetly. I nod and laugh.

—Four years with him. Enough time to get to know someone.

—Since you are the new guy here, I'll show you the house. Stay with me or you'll get lost.

—Then I'll be in your side. My sense of direction is not really good.

We walk through the house, talking about the rooms, sometimes about our classes. She's a girl from second year. I never saw her, but well, I guess we haven't got the chance to meet before.

—So, do you like it?

I nod. The building is really beautiful, not to mention the girl with me. Shit, I wanted to be loyal to Aiden, but I can't. This girl really has something. Damnit Kim! Why are you so stupid.

—Of course. It's like a castle. But how did you get it. I mean, art school students are known to be "not so rich".

She laughs loudly. Oh God... She sounds like Aiden. Wait, did I become crazy or I'm obsessed with him. Whatever, I can't say no to a gorgeous girl.

—My parents are some famous people. They are known as the greatest-- Well, they're famous.

—Oh, sorry. I didn't want to...

—Don't worry.

She smiles at me. Wait, wait. That smile... Aiden! What did you do to me? I see you in every place I visit.

—I... Aisha...

—Yes?

—Do you like men? I mean, you know, to date them.

Wait, Evan. What the hell? Why did you ask that to her? Are you insane? Evan, you're stupid, stupid, stupid--

—Not really. I don't find them attractive, except you.

Wait, what? She finds me attractive?

—You do?

—Of course, Evan. I always found you attractive.

Always? What is she talking about? Right! You dumbass, she's the person you were thinking of all this time. She's the person who talked with you in the breaks. The person who made you feel special. She's the person. She is. You were in love and you still are, with her. With Aisha. No, wait, not with Aisha, just with the person. You don't care about it. You just love them. How I did not recognize her?

—You... You... I... Missed you!

I hug her, sobbing like a little boy. Oh my God. That person... Is here...

—Aisha... Aisha, I love you. I have not told you that because I was afraid of your answer. I thought you were going to ditch me or something...

She laughs, taking my hand.

—I could never do that. I fell in love with you. Just with you. Not with a man, not with a woman, just you. Just the person you are, Evan.

I can feel how I want to yell, scream. I'm so happy. Did I really find the love of my life? She's right there. She's smiling to me, saying she loves me...

—Aisha... Do you want to go out with me? I mean, we can try to be a couple--

—Don't worry, Evan. I want to be your girlfriend.

She just kisses me. Sweet and tenderly, feeling her heart pounding. Feeling her smile taking my lips. I can really say that now, I'm really happy.

Okay, now so many people will come to hate this fic. Well, hear me, they fell in love with each other before starting their transition. But not with their gender, just fell in love with them. So that's why when they met again, they don't care about their gender, they just love each other. And don't say that's impossible because I was witness of it. A lesbian couple where one of them was a trans man. The other girl didn't ditch him cos she loved him. You know, I say it in that form just because I need you to understand So, i hope you can see what this fic means. Good night.

By the way, if you see some typos, I'm so sorry. My mother language is not English so maybe you'll see some of them. Lol.

tagging @pen-bandit and @lilyofchoices because they're the sweetest two persons I have ever met.

and @griffinshoodie because he is my trans buddy.

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[revwinchester]

They/Them

Summary: Gabriel finds themself the victim of discrimination while at Pride but a man he doesn’t know stands up for them and calls out his friend’s toxic behavior.  Turns out that’s the just start of it all.

Pairing: Sabriel (cisgender Sam x nonbinary Gabriel)

Rating: teen and up

Warnings: blatant transphobia/nonbinaryphobia and discrimination, some curse words, hurt/comfort, angsty start with a happy middle and ending, explicit mentions of sex but no mentions/depictions of explicit sex (if you don’t want to read that, stop before the time jump)

Word Count: 1239

A/N: This is my entry for the June @gabriel-monthly-challenge.  I loosely used both aesthetic prompts for inspiration.  I also didn’t go straight for one of the Pride story prompts but took inspiration from the spirit of them, writing a fic set at Pride.  I was also inspired by two short text posts I saw floating around on tumblr - a couple people reblogged them - that I could just hear Gabriel saying as I read them.  I was supposed to be packing for a trip and, instead, I wrote this.  Gabriel agrees that packing is terrible.

One final note: I am not trans or nonbinary however I based a lot of Gabriel’s story on the real story of a friend of mine who is (with their permission).

They/Them - 

Gabriel put their head down and kept walking.  Growing up knowing they were different in a small town in the deep south meant that they had heard every slur in the book - and even some that weren’t in there - hurled at them.  They had a thick skin by now but this time it hurt worse.  This time, the abuse was coming from within the walls, or fences really, of Pride.  Gabriel had moved to the city almost a year ago, leaving their small minded town behind.  They had found a great group of friends and had assumed the positivity and support they had experienced would extend to the rest of the revelers they would meet during Pride but that was, apparently, not the case.

“Stop being such a snowflake,” one of the men shouted at Gabriel, “your kind is causing too much trouble for the rest of us.”

The man’s words made Gabriel regret the outfit they had chosen for the day.  But it was the last day of Pride and skirts were freaking comfortable, damnit.  Not to mention the tank top - one of their favorites, though it didn’t make it out of the closet often - black with the word “enby” printed across the chest in the colors of the pansexual flag.  They picked up their pace, wanting to pass the group of men as quickly as possible.  “Association of Gay Lawyers” the banner a few of them held read.  Well, Gabriel wouldn’t be going to any of them if they ever needed legal assistance.

The man was still shouting terrible things as Gabriel drew closer.  When a second man joined him, they were nearly in tears.  Even so, Gabriel couldn’t help but notice that this guy was the sexiest man they had ever seen in their life.  He was tall and muscular, filling out his v-neck and plaid over-shirt so well that it was practically criminal, and he had shaggy, chocolate brown hair that Gabriel just wanted to run their hands through.  Instead, though, they braced themselves for the taunts to double.

Much to their surprise, though, that wasn’t the case when the man opened his mouth.

At first, Gabriel assumed that the words were directed at them but when they chanced a glance up, the man was glaring at his friend.  

“Pride is all about loving ourselves for who we are when the world tells us we’re unlovable.  Trans and non binary people don’t threaten your fun or your existence as a gay man, Brady,” the tall guy continued before the first man could speak up.  “So you and your transphobic bullshit and bigotry can fuck off.”

Gabriel stood and stared, transfixed by what was happening.  They didn’t know this guy; why was he standing up for them?

“What are you looking at bitch boy?” the first man - Brady, apparently - shouted.  He was probably lashing out, Gabriel knew, but the words still cut deep.  They turned on their heel and stalked away, their fists balled at their side, seeking the relative safety of the Genderfluid Coalition tent.  Though, if Gabriel was being honest with themself, they weren’t sure if anywhere would actually be safe from assholes like Brady.

Gabriel was so wrapped up in their head that they nearly missed the sound of feet pounding on the pavement as someone followed them, running to catch up.

“Hey!” the handsome man called out, causing Gabriel to stop despite their better judgement.  “I’m sorry you had to listen to Brady say that crap back there.  He’s an asshole but the guys tend to let him get away with it because his dad’s a high powered attorney.  But…”

“But you don’t?” Gabriel spat, their voice hard.

The man took it in stride, though.  “Nope.  I don’t care who you know, doesn’t give you the right to treat another human being like shit.  He and I were in college and then law school together.  Somewhere in our sophomore year, the guy just changed.  I guess I stick around because someone’s gotta keep him in check.”  

He smiled down at Gabriel and, gods, his dimples…

“I’m just sorry I couldn’t do more but I really can’t handle another assault on my record.”

And now the man was blushing and Gabriel knew they were a goner.  “Another?” they asked, clearing their throat.

“Uh, yeah,” the handsome man replied, rubbing at the back of his neck nervously.  “I mean, it was a while ago, back in law school… A professor trying to prey on me and some of the other queer students.  He didn’t get very far and even the police agreed that it was justified but… another assault would probably get me disbarred.”

They stood in silence for a moment, neither of them sure how to continue their conversation, though Gabriel definitely wanted to.

“Look,” the man finally said, “I know you probably didn’t need some white knight to ride in and save you but I just… You looked like you could use a friend back there.”  He paused and held out a hand.  “I’m Sam, by the way.”

Gabriel shook Sam’s hand and introduced themself.  “Gabriel.  They/them.  And thanks, sometimes a knight in shining armor is nice.”

A second awkward silence fell between the pair and Gabriel knew they were blushing.  This time, Gabriel was the one to break the silence.  

“So… I’m always a slut for kindness and basic human decency,” they said, their tone light.  “Let’s go camping and have tent sex.”  It was a joke (mostly), the kind of thing that just fell out of Gabriel’s mouth when they were nervous, and they were surprised to see that Sam seemed to be considering their offer.

“Honestly, I think I’d like that,” Sam replied, “but I’d like to get to know you better first.  Where were you headed?  I’ll walk with you if that’s alright.”

Gabriel just nodded dumbly and pointed in the direction they had been heading.  Shit like this didn’t happen, especially not to them.  They walked off, Sam grabbing their hand as they moved together.

“Is this ok?” Sam asked.

“Yeah,” Gabriel replied as they realized that it really was.

-----

Three months later

-----

“Gabriel!  Come on!”  Sam shouted.

He had gotten to Gabriel’s apartment right on time, only to find them still not ready.  Sam had done all the preparation work - including packing a costume or two for him and Gabriel to play with (Gabe was going to look ridiculous and adorable in the camp counselor get up) - and all his partner had to do was pack for themselves.  But of course, Gabriel had waited until the last minute.

“Just put your stuff in a bag, babe,” Sam insisted as he entered Gabriel’s bedroom.  “I’ve got everything else covered.  I’ve been planning for and looking forward to this trip since we met.”

Gabriel looked up at him with a quizzical look on their face.

“You promised me tent sex,” Sam reminded them.  “Not to mention that our campsite is pretty secluded so I’m hoping for some hammock sex, some post s’mores sex next to the fire, and maybe even some naked kayaking if the weather holds up…” Sam was smirking at Gabriel by the time he finished speaking.

Gabriel’s pupils were expanding with lust at Sam’s words.  “If we’re going to be fucking the whole time, why do I even need clothes?” they asked, grabbing their leather jacket and throwing it on.  “Let’s just get going!”

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[snarktheater]

Ready Player One — Level Two (Chapters 17-18)

“I’m not crazy about reality, but it’s still the only place to get a decent meal. —Groucho Marx”

Hey, at least the book isn’t quoting a fictional text that only exists in its own universe this time. That said, you know, when the quotes you give the biggest highlight to all have to do with how much the world sucks, it’s kind of killing my buzz about the whole “being alive” thing. Oh, and I guess it makes it look like you’re trying too hard to be edgy.

But I guess these are all shallow, surface problems. Let’s dig deeper as we enter Level Two and find out how much worse the infodumping gets. Because yes, it’s back in full force.

See, the book actually does justify splitting itself in multiple parts. At least for now. Specifically, it does so by way of a time skip. Well…sort of. More of a compressed time frame of a few months, which is mostly summarized to us through Wade and Artemis’s chatlogs.

Because, yeah, they’ve been chatting. Or, I should say, Wade has been harassing Artemis until she caved in and agreed to talk to him.

Parzival: Yes! Hey! I can’t believe you finally responded to one of my chat requests. Art3mis: Only to ask you to cut it out.

I will skip over the ensuing banter, because yes, of course they start bantering in spite of Artemis making it very clear she does not want to talk to him. Banter which pretty quickly takes a deep, hard dive into…questionable territory.

Parzival: So you’re telling me, definitively, that you are a female? IRL? […] After analyzing the available data, I’ve concluded that you must be a female. […] Because I don’t want to find out that I’ve got a crush on some 300 lb. dude named Chuck who lives in his mother’s basement in suburban Detroit.

I think there should be a ban on men using the word “female” as a noun. Preferably until the end of time. The correlation between that and misogyny is too high. Although, I don’t know, maybe it’s a useful alarm bell.

Artemis challenges that, and expresses suspicion that he wouldn’t care about her personality, and not “the package it comes in”. Parzival claims that he totally does, and…put a pin in that, we’ll get back to it in a short moment. But first, Artemis flat-out rejects the idea of engaging in romance with Wade, mostly on the grounds that he doesn’t really know her, only the side of her she lets him see. Which is fair, although I’m not sure if you can really act like that’s only true online (or even more true online, in their world at least).

But if you think rejection is going to deter Wade “I have stalked this girl for years on her blog” Watts, well…I mean, refusing to take no for an answer is how this chapter started, so you know that’s not happening.

So he insists. And insists. And insists some more. Oh, and did you know the Sixers tried to blow up Wade’s trailer?

Art3mis: You shouldn’t reveal stuff like that! I could be a Sixer spy trying to profile you. Parzival: The Sixers already profiled me, remember? They blew up my house. Well, it was a trailer. But they blew it up. Art3mis: I know. I’m still freaked out about that. I can only imagine how you feel. Parzival: Revenge is a dish best served cold.

You sure sound torn up about it, Wade.

Yeah, the book is basically going to flat-out ignore the ramifications of Wade’s house blowing up and him being forced to move to a new location and forge himself a new identity. No consequences—not practical ones nor emotional ones. It’s especially weird, because…moving to Columbus on the money he earns through his endorsement deals was already his plan to begin with. If the only purpose was to get Wade from point A to point B, the setup was already there. But since there’s no other consequences to IOI blowing up his home…what was the point of IOI blowing up his home? From a pure storytelling perspective, I mean? I’m just puzzled at this point.

Somehow, Artemis is still talking to Wade, so they start playing a game of one question each. We do learn that Artemis is 19 years old, studying poetry and creative writing in college. Not very important information, but it’s something. Assuming she’s telling the truth, but I’m sure she is.

And now, we get back to that “Wade doesn’t care about the package Artemis comes in, only her personality”. With bonus transphobia!

Parzival: […] Now, spill it. Are you a woman? And by that I mean are you a human female who has never had a sex-change operation? Art3mis: That’s pretty specific. Parzival: Answer the question, Claire. Art3mis: I am, and always have been, a human female.

I…hopefully don’t need to explain the problem with this, right? It’s basically transphobia 101: he states that trans women aren’t women, or at least not “really” women; he overfocuses on their body and specifically genitals (using some outdated and offensive terminology even by 2011 standards, I’m fairly certain); and they both equate genitals with gender, since Wade acts like you can only even be a woman post-transition, and Artemis’s response implies that pre-transition trans women aren’t women.

But it’s even worse in the light of that thing I told you to put a pin on. Because if Wade doesn’t care about her body, only her personality…shouldn’t it not matter that she’s trans? Hell, shouldn’t it not matter that she’s trans and pre-transition? And if he does care about her genitals, shouldn’t it still not matter that she’s trans if she’s post-transition?

I’ll stop this discussion here before I myself get too close to talking about trans people’s genitals. All I’ll say is this: if you think the transphobia is an isolated issue, you’re not thinking hard enough. With this statement, Wade doesn’t just prove he doesn’t consider trans women as real women, he also establishes that he does care about Artemis’s body.

It’s easy to make a grand statement about how you love women no matter how they look. It’s much harder to maintain that stance in how you actually talk to and about women. It’s a similar problem that plagued the Nerd Porn Auteur poem: it’s one thing to say you want all women and all body types to be viewed as attractive, but when the rest of your poem clearly establishes that you just want to enforce your own standard, it belies your thesis statement.

For the record, I knew this quote was coming, but it’s still awful to read, especially in the context of this guy harassing her into talking to him in the first place, and repeatedly making advances at her in spite of her constant rejection.

You’d think there would be some lull in the misogyny in this book, but apparently that’s a tall order.

Finally, Artemis says she has to go, and says they shouldn’t talk again until one of them finds the egg. Wade’s reaction?

Parzival: Can I at least keep e-mailing you? […] You can’t stop me from e-mailing you. Art3mis: Actually, I can. I can block you on my contact list. Parzival: You wouldn’t do that, though. Would you? Art3mis: Not if you don’t force me to. Parzival: Harsh. Unnecessarily harsh.

You’re literally saying you’ll harass her more, so…no, clearly it’s not “unnecessarily harsh”, it’s exactly the right response.

So of course, after a scene break…

I started e-mailing her.

Yup. He starts emailing her weekly, and Artemis, for some reason that’s totally unrelated to being written by a man who’s likely never experienced that kind of harassment and also has no empathy for the people who do, replies to him. Well, not just replies to him; she starts going back and forth and goes all the way to meeting him in private chatrooms.

We played vintage board games, watched movies, and listened to music. We talked for hours. Long, rambling conversations about everything under the sun. Spending time with her was intoxicating. We seemed to have everything in common. We shared the same interests. We were driven by the same goal. She got all of my jokes. She made me laugh. She made me think. She changed the way I saw the world. I’d never had such a powerful, immediate connection with another human being before. Not even with Aech.

For the record, while this is still pretty shallow character and relationship development, I feel like this might be the closest we’ll get to fleshing things out in this book. This is as good as it gets. Or…as good as it’s gotten so far, I should probably say. I have my expectations for what comes next, but it’s wrong to assume, kids.

Speaking of rushed relationship development, we’re now in full skimming mode, to the point where Wade and Artemis now share their research regarding the Hunt, even though that’s basically antithetical to both their established characters. Is this what love is for straight people, becoming the opposite of who you were before? No wonder they have so many hang-ups about marriage.

Wade also tells us about how he missed his graduation and got his diploma by email, and…you gotta wonder at which point the Sixers will catch on to him still being alive, you know. I mean, the endorsement ads with Parzival, I can get that these could go on with Wade dead. But school? Did nobody even bother to identify the corpses in the stack?

If you think I’m asking this for something utterly trivial, don’t worry, we’ll get back to that too. But enough about the plot; I guess we’re giving up on it now.

When I finished school, I’d intended to devote all of my time to the Hunt. But all I really wanted to do was spend time with Art3mis.

Yeah. The girl’s what distracted you from the Hunt. Not the attempt against your life, though. That barely registered as a blip on the radar.

We also get a brief recap of Wade leveling up to 99, the maximum level in the OASIS. This includes a description of a quest where he and Artemis play as characters from the Goonies. And you might be wondering: wait, weren’t the flicksyncs supposed to be this revolutionary new feature? Well, apparently all the quests in the OASIS (or most of them, anyway) are also based on just…replaying the story of existing properties. In fact, it’s starting to look like the OASIS has two types of planets: the ones built by players, like IOI’s planets, and the ones that are built to match existing properties. Which begs the question: what was the OASIS’s launch content, when it had neither of these? Just the starting planet and Ludus?

Anyway, the book suddenly remembers about the Easter Egg, in the most random of fashions imaginable: by having Wade go on a rant about how there are no longer toys in cereal boxes.

It was a tragedy, in my opinion. Another sign that civilization was going straight down the tubes.

Yeah. Toys in cereals, the true canary in the civilization coal mine. Good job there.

But anyway. From this, Wade remembers a hacker from the ’70s (and…yeah, the 70s are fair game all of a sudden) who took on the moniker Captain Crunch, who used the toy whistle from the eponymous cereal to hack into analog phones. From this, wade decides that “the captain” and “the whistle” in the Quatrain are references to…the cereal. Not the hacker. Sure sounds to me like you’re stretching the guess a little far there, book.

I mean, even if he’d stuck to just making the connection, this is still just the character getting divine inspiration to solve the puzzle. Nothing of actual import causes this reveal. This passage is literally introduced as “Then, one morning” and him thinking of the connection. Because, you know, it’s not like giving your readers a riddle they’re able to solve along with the characters would keep them engaged or anything.

And with that random epiphany out of the way, we’re back to a whole lot of nothing, since Eureka moments are apparently the only way Wade solves any of the riddles. And by “nothing” I mean more obsessing over Artemis, and how he wants to meet her face to face, even though earlier this chapter he wouldn’t even send her a picture of himself.

I was certain she had strong feelings for me, but she also kept me at a distance. No matter how much I revealed about myself to her—and I wound up revealing just about everything, including my real name—she always adamantly refused to reveal any details about her own life. All I knew was that she was nineteen and that she lived somewhere in the Pacific Northwest. That was all she would tell me.

You know, the impression I’m getting from this is that you misread her completely and she’s not interested. I mean, she keeps rejecting your attempts at communication unless you pressure her so much that it’s easier to just talk to you, and she won’t give any personal detail. That does not strike me as someone who’s into you.

Wade also grows distant from Aech in this time, because fuck friendship now that he has a woman to stalk, I guess. I mean, of course, they barely qualified as friends in the first place, so…no big loss there.

Somehow, without my realizing it, my obsession with finding Halliday’s Easter egg was gradually being supplanted by my obsession with Art3mis.

I was informed that I used the “Big red flags” gif too soon last time, and…yeah, I’m seeing why now. This is just the worst case scenario. You’re romanticizing some really unhealthy behavior there, book.

And it keeps going. They go on dates now! In the OASIS of course. And they do so in spite of Artemis protesting that it’s not safe for Wade to make public appearances, since, again, IOI wants him dead. Plus, they’re afraid of tabloids.

But there was one exception. One night, she took me to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show in a huge stadium-sized movie theater on the planet Transsexual, where they held the most highly attended and longest-running weekly screening of the movie in the OASIS.

Oh dear. Let’s…let’s move on. I’m not touching the fact that the book dropped Rocky Horror in the same chapter as it featured an incredibly transphobic statement. Someone more qualified will have to take that one.

That night was easily the most fun I’d ever had in my life up to that point. I told Art3mis so afterward, and that was when she leaned over and kissed me for the first time. I couldn’t feel it, of course. But it still set my heart racing.

Yes, yes. I know. Obviously the book means for her to be into him and all my earlier ranting about her not being interested was wrong. Ha, ha. Except, you know, not. Of course she’ll fall for him—she’s designed to, as the love interest. The issue is with what the book chose to portray as her being interested. That is to say, her showing every sign of disinterest. Which is rape culture. No, I’m not mincing words—it is. Equating a woman’s constant rejection to her being into you is exactly what rape culture is about. If you look at what rapists say when on trial, the defense is almost always a variation on “I thought she wanted it”. So this book, providing a fantasy where she really is into it, deep down…yeah, it’s rape culture. And if that phrase sets off your triggers and you have a problem with that, big whoop, just re-read the paragraph and skip them this time. The message still stands.

Thankfully, we don’t have to deal with them being together for too long.

And then one night, like a complete idiot, I told her how I felt.

Well, mostly because the book probably couldn’t handle writing a romance where the characters actually are together for very long, what with its inability to write emotions. But sure, let’s go with “telling someone how you feel about them is an idiot move”. There’s no way that could feed into toxic masculinity or some bad relationship advice.

So, after this line, we get a chapter break, which I guess is supposed to act as a cliffhanger of sorts, since after that the book backtracks a little to set the stage. I’ll go over this quickly: remember Ogden Morrow, Halliday’s best friend? He hosts his birthday party in the OASIS every year, and it’s a big exclusive event, and of course the High Five are invited. Aech is busy, Daito and Shoto never enter a PvP area unless necessary, which leaves Artemis and Wade. Artemis wants to go, and Wade decides to as well to impress her or something.

She said she couldn’t pass up an invitation from Og himself, despite the obvious risks. So, naturally, I told her I would meet her there at the club. It was the only way I could avoid looking like a total wuss.

Wow. You big strong manly man. I’m sure she’ll swoon right into your arms and—oh wait, you ended the previous chapter by telling us you were gonna confess your feelings and it’d end badly. You kinda blew your load early there to be trying to milk some tension out of this there, buddy.

And I hear you. Back up, you say, a PvP zone? Yes! Ogden Morrow has his party in “the Distracted Globe, shortened to ”the Globe". No Shakespeare involved here, since he’s not from the 80s; instead, it’s a zero-gravity dance club. Except you can swim and dance in zero gravity, because this book for nerds didn’t think to research its physics properly. I mean, what are the odds that a bunch of nerds would criticize the science of your science fiction book, right?

And it’s also a PvP zone. I guess Ogden’s party runs on the honor system and hopes that no one is going to attack anyone here.

The book spends a massive paragraph describing Wade’s car to us. It’s a modified DeLorean crammed with references to other sci-fi movies, because apparently, the book doesn’t understand class. And yes, I’m forced to point out that Cline has a very real version of this car:

Which…okay, not the worst thing ever, I guess, but don’t you think it’s a little on the nose?

After this (and another paragraph telling us how everyone will want to steal his car, but it doesn’t matter, because he has a miniaturizing spell and keeps the car on his person, because MMORPGs letting you put your mounts in your inventory is not a concept that the author has heard of), it’s on to the party. In which Artemis and Wade name-drop a bunch of songs, and…dance. Kind of.

Her avatar lost its human form and dissolved into a pulsing amorphous blob that changed its size and color in synch with the music. I selected the mirror partner option on my dance software and began to do the same. My avatar’s limbs and torso began to flow and spin like taffy, encircling Art3mis, while strange color patterns flowed and shifted across my skin.

Is this someone’s kink? I’m extremely confused that this is the imagery you chose to go for, especially when the book tells us everyone else on the (spherical, zero-gravity) dance floor starts following suit and dancing as colored blobs.

After this, it’s time for the cliché slow dance, and Wade tells Artemis he’s in love with her.

“You aren’t in love with me, Z,” she said. “You don’t even know me.” […] “You only see what I want you to see.” She placed a hand on her chest. “This isn’t my real body, Wade. Or my real face.” “I don’t care! I’m in love with your mind—with the person you are. I couldn’t care less about the packaging.” “You’re just saying that,” she said. There was an unsteadiness in her voice. “Trust me. If I ever let you see me in person, you would be repulsed.”

Such foreshadowing. As for his statement…see my earlier rant about his transphobic statement.

Once again, Artemis keeps telling him no, Wade keeps insisting, and she decides they have to stop hanging out.

“Are you breaking up with me?” “No, Z,” she said firmly. “I am not breaking up with you. That would be impossible, because we are not together.” There was suddenly venom in her voice. “We’ve never even met!”

She’s right, of course. But before the book can linger on that detail for too long, let’s have the Sixers randomly attack the club! Which they do by sending troops inside, even though we established the game has nukes already and they could just make the whole place explode without wasting any avatars. Whatever. Fight scene time.

Then I realized that most of the Sixers’ incoming fire seemed to be directed at me and Art3mis. They were here to kill the two of us. […] I knew my own recklessness had brought them down on us. I cursed myself for being so foolish.

…Are you implying Artemis wouldn’t have been a valuable enough target? No, of course it’s all about you. Dick.

This scene, by the way, goes nowhere. It’s devoid of tension. Mostly because, before anything really major can happen, Ogden reveals that he apparently has god mode turned on, and fries all the Sixers in the club. Thus also making the attack entirely pointless. Well, unless Ogden does turn out to be the main villain and this is a showcase of the threat he is. Which I’m still somewhat convinced he might be. Or should be.

But anyway, when the dust settles, Artemis is gone, and Wade is sad, I guess. Boo hoo. Whatever shall he do, the object of his obsession is gone.

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Today I am disclosing to you something I don’t talk about every day.  When I see any living thing, people, trees, pets etc - I see a black light/blue/purple hue around them.  Without question it is the energy of all that is and that life force connection to God stuff which, at the end of the day, is all Love!  I feel it, I see it, and I laugh about it - not at it, but with it like a giddy little kid.  Now there’s times when the human side of us has to be serious and get things done as we go through this life, but even then, on the inside mostly I am laughing because I can see the bigger spirit picture.  My sweet momma used to say, “What does it really matter anyway?” And when facing a challenge, I always say will this matter 5 or 10 years from now?  Most times the answer is no.  So embrace Love, all that is, and if you had a rough time or are going through one now, know that when you exude love to yourself and others it can change any and everything. 

TGIWednesday Download

~  A DOWNLOAD FOR INTIMACY ~ It is safe and comfortable to exude, feel, and experience intimacy. I believe, think, know and feel that intimacy is safe, comfortable, possible and easy, breezy fun.  I know, when, where, how and why the moment is right. I am ready, willing, and able to enjoy intimacy here, now, and in the future and I am asking in all languages and throughout all time lines and so it is.

 Love & Romance Monthly Specials

Turning on Your Love and Romance Switches Replay Available Now

I can't stress enough how coming together in this group energy is so important for all of us to gather with a strong intent to delete out the negative and download the more positive aspects to all of this - it really was palpable.  I think you'll love this call and it will help a lot of folks and know that things WILL change for you.  Click on this link to read the list of topics covered. 

Get the Replay Here!

"The call was awesome, thank you soooo much and for your time and effort required before and after the call to make the changes happen for all of us in your Liquid Fish community! Yah better brace yourself, yah gonna get hit with a lot of LOVE back from all of us!" - Susie "So last night this was the best Clearwater dreams I have had in years. I just wanted you all to know. I loved the turning on your love. Just listened to the replay in the car. I guess I released a lot. Very tired lots of yawns today. Beyond words. Thank you." - Scott

February is the month of LOVE an

d don't we all want and need as much of that in our lives as we can get, right? Well, we've got something in the shop that is sure to help and we're putting it on special pricing for the month of February - MyBeliefWorks for Having Ideal Love & Creating Dynamic Relationships was $57 / now $44.

Download Now for $44

LIVE Appearances - Free Healing

TODAY February 19th at 5pm EST  Conversations to Empower and Inspire with my friend and host Lauren Ellis Galey ....and this time I'll be "camera ready" because it will be shown on her popular QCTV Livestream video - and it's all FREE! - Register Here Thurs. March 12th Wisdom of the Ancients with Ian Shelley - Register Here

Mon. March 19th You Wealth Revolution with Darius Barazandeh - Register Here Thurs. April 9th Soul Talk with Patty Malek - Register Here Wed. May 13th The Alara Canfield Show with Alara Canfield - Register Here

Fish Food 

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

Tell The Fish: 365 Daily Inspirations & Affirmations

FEBRUARY 19th "Today I will cry out for God's help even if it is quietly in my own mind.  I will ask for what I want and need, and anticipate the expectation that what I want will be brought to me in a mysterious and mystical way.   I will give true thanks for my health and well-being and no matter what state I am in, I will give thanks for those positive people, places and things."

The Jimmy Mack Healing Radio Show

EVERY TUESDAY at 9pm EST / 6pm PST CALL [phone] https://www.freeconferencecall.com/wall/goldylocksproductions

Click Here for Previous Weeks' Show and a full archive of past guests & replays.

UPCOMING GUESTS FOR FEBRUARY:

Yesterday's Show -  Special Guest Angela Schneider Natural healer, reader https://tiffanypowershealing.com/product/services-with-angela-marie/#reviews   Feb 25th Special Guest Rev Debbie Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page March 3rd - Special Guest Psychic Joanne Leo, Numerology and Astrology http://psychicjoanneleo.com

The Jimmy Mack Healing Show is LIVE on Tuesday Nights at 9pm EST  If you want to Listen in only, go to this website: https://www.freeconferencecall.com/wall/goldylocksproductions OR If you want to call in & ask a question CALL [phone] No need to press #1, just dial in and you'll be in the queue. If the Call in Number above doesn’t seem to work, please use this back up Call in Number: [phone] when prompted, enter 206.806.9965 followed by #  International Callers, click the link below for the International call in list for your country.  If you're using the Free Conference Call App, it automatically re-routes the best call In number for you.  Please unblock your phone number if you wish to speak with Jimmy and or his guest host. Blocked, Restricted and Private Callers are not brought on air.

Sessions at the Tampa Office 

EVERY FRIDAY AT KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS TAMPA

I'm scheduling 15 and 30 minute appointments at Kodawari Yoga Studios from 10am-2pm EVERY FRIDAY. *IMPT! You must call Kodawari directly to schedule times and dates with them AND pay them directly at the front desk prior to your appointment UPCOMING DATES 

February 21st February 28th March 6th  March 13th March 20th  March 27th Call Kodawari's front desk directly to schedule [phone] and pay at the concierge desk PRIOR  to your appointment - 15 minutes 38$ or 30 minutes 68$. 3965 Henderson Blvd Suite C Tampa [phone] http://www.kodawariyoga.com/

From the Fish Box

Q) "I just wanted to let you know that my daughter was able to finish her service on the jury without any more anxiety symptoms!  She was even elected to be the foreman!  In fact, she told me the next morning that about 3:30am she just felt better.  Headache gone, queasy stomach gone and she just fell into a deep and comforting sleep.  (Isn't it early morning when you do whatever it is you do with the prayer service?)" - L.J. / Virginia A) "Yep, 3am to 4am Eastern is when I do it. Yes, you're right and she was picking up on it for sure. Thanks, honey for the feedback."  - Jimmy

Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy

You will send me a list of the members of your immediate household, and yes even pets, and I will add them to my daily prayers. I will arise daily before you are even awake to start my prayers and also run my intelligent computer software 24/7 deleting the negative and increasing the strength of the positive creating a higher probability of outcomes for you and the family.  Each comes with a one-time email analysis print out via the intelligent healing software that I use on your behalf.  Most clients have had amazing results and outcomes and I get emails of thanks each and every week!

I will dial into you daily in the wee hours and make certain that you are a CLEAR YES, UNCLEAR to NO and RUNNING FORWARD before you start your day.

                     Choose 7 days @ $33                       Choose 14 days @ $66               Choose 30 days @ $99

**Can't See The Full Email? Click Here to View Online**

Go deep sea "fishing" with Jimmy!

Level 1 is open to ANYONE at anytime! All Mastery Students:  Check your email & Login to view all the newly upgraded content including new books and audios!    

"Jimmy's My Liquid Fish Change Made Simple program is AMAZING!!! He gives you not only videos so you can see the changes within people, but also the books he's written as well! On top of that he's provided all the links and visuals you need so ANY type of learner can do it!!  I appreciated having it to download in a PDF so I can go back to it any time, plus the books and ACTUAL healing sessions so you see, know and understand the whole process even better!!Highly recommend to ANYONE looking to change and make not only their life... but everyone's around them better as well!!" - E.J. / Florida

The Certificate of Mastery Program includes 2 best-selling ebooks and 2 clearing audios plus written & video instructions, AND one-on-one time with Jimmy ALL for about the cost of a single 1-hr session! This online course is for anyone who is familiar with OR new to "fishing" and is ready to dive into the deep end & get results that are beyond the ordinary! It includes The Tackle Box & The Dowser's Handbook ebooks PLUS 2 MP3s "Clearing Dark Energies" & "Increasing Your Intuition" to help clear, strengthen and prepare your energy field for optimal “fishing” results. This is a work-at-your-own-pace curriculum that will TEACH & CLEAR you at the same time! In under 2wks you will be finished with the program and ready to fish on your own with greater results! Level II offers Practitioner Certification for those who qualify.

LEARN MORE HERE

For those who aren't familiar, here's the list of the MyBeliefWorks™ audio library. 

Find a topic that addresses your issue(s), click on the link to read more. We had a lot of help downloading & channeling these over the years & they keep getting better. Don't forget... you can share these with you immediate friends and family.

Abundance Abuse Addiction Body Scan: Head to Toe Daily GPS Reset Dark Energies/Fears Decision Making Diet & Exercise Education & Learning Family & Relatives The Gold Coin Healing Physical Body Healing Mental Stress Holiday Stress

Increasing Intuition IRS & Tax Time Love & Romance Money Mindset Moving Forward Pain Relief Pet Healing Sales & Success Improving Sex Improving Sleep Traveling w/Ease Work & Career Weight Loss Youth & Vitality

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Jimmy Mack | Appointments Skype: Jimmy.Mack55 Clearwater Florida USA Book a 15 minute session Book a 30 minute session Book a 60 minute session ​ ​​Transformational Healing of Body, Mind​ & Spirit, People, Places, Pets & Situations!​ ​ Download the My Liquid Fish® Starter Kit (*Updated May 2019) Audio MP3 Downloads​ and books​ to improve your life! Get Certified in ​My Liquid Fish® Change Made Simple® Watch Free Videos on YouTube Weekly Radio Show Archives Shop for ​Supplements ​ http://www.jimmymackhealingshop.com www.jimmymackhealing.com Copyright ©1998-2020 All Rights Reserved  

-------------------------------------------------- TGIW newsletter managed by: Sandy Bidinger Digital Marketing Specialist at SMBeConnected Solutions www.smbeconnected.com  

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  Our mailing address is: Clearwater Florida 33756 USA

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TGIWednesday and sharing something I rarely talk about...

TGIWednesday News

Today I am disclosing to you something I don’t talk about every day.  When I see any living thing, people, trees, pets etc - I see a black light/blue/purple hue around them.  Without question it is the energy of all that is and that life force connection to God stuff which, at the end of the day, is all Love!  I feel it, I see it, and I laugh about it - not at it, but with it like a giddy little kid.  Now there’s times when the human side of us has to be serious and get things done as we go through this life, but even then, on the inside mostly I am laughing because I can see the bigger spirit picture.  My sweet momma used to say, “What does it really matter anyway?” And when facing a challenge, I always say will this matter 5 or 10 years from now?  Most times the answer is no.  So embrace Love, all that is, and if you had a rough time or are going through one now, know that when you exude love to yourself and others it can change any and everything. 

TGIWednesday Download

~  A DOWNLOAD FOR INTIMACY ~ It is safe and comfortable to exude, feel, and experience intimacy. I believe, think, know and feel that intimacy is safe, comfortable, possible and easy, breezy fun.  I know, when, where, how and why the moment is right. I am ready, willing, and able to enjoy intimacy here, now, and in the future and I am asking in all languages and throughout all time lines and so it is.

 Love & Romance Monthly Specials

Turning on Your Love and Romance Switches Replay Available Now

I can't stress enough how coming together in this group energy is so important for all of us to gather with a strong intent to delete out the negative and download the more positive aspects to all of this - it really was palpable.  I think you'll love this call and it will help a lot of folks and know that things WILL change for you.  Click on this link to read the list of topics covered. 

Get the Replay Here!

"The call was awesome, thank you soooo much and for your time and effort required before and after the call to make the changes happen for all of us in your Liquid Fish community! Yah better brace yourself, yah gonna get hit with a lot of LOVE back from all of us!" - Susie "So last night this was the best Clearwater dreams I have had in years. I just wanted you all to know. I loved the turning on your love. Just listened to the replay in the car. I guess I released a lot. Very tired lots of yawns today. Beyond words. Thank you." - Scott

February is the month of LOVE an

d don't we all want and need as much of that in our lives as we can get, right? Well, we've got something in the shop that is sure to help and we're putting it on special pricing for the month of February - MyBeliefWorks for Having Ideal Love & Creating Dynamic Relationships was $57 / now $44.

Download Now for $44

LIVE Appearances - Free Healing

TODAY February 19th at 5pm EST  Conversations to Empower and Inspire with my friend and host Lauren Ellis Galey ....and this time I'll be "camera ready" because it will be shown on her popular QCTV Livestream video - and it's all FREE! - Register Here Thurs. March 12th Wisdom of the Ancients with Ian Shelley - Register Here

Mon. March 19th You Wealth Revolution with Darius Barazandeh - Register Here Thurs. April 9th Soul Talk with Patty Malek - Register Here Wed. May 13th The Alara Canfield Show with Alara Canfield - Register Here

Fish Food 

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

Tell The Fish: 365 Daily Inspirations & Affirmations

FEBRUARY 19th "Today I will cry out for God's help even if it is quietly in my own mind.  I will ask for what I want and need, and anticipate the expectation that what I want will be brought to me in a mysterious and mystical way.   I will give true thanks for my health and well-being and no matter what state I am in, I will give thanks for those positive people, places and things."

The Jimmy Mack Healing Radio Show

EVERY TUESDAY at 9pm EST / 6pm PST CALL [phone] https://www.freeconferencecall.com/wall/goldylocksproductions

Click Here for Previous Weeks' Show and a full archive of past guests & replays.

UPCOMING GUESTS FOR FEBRUARY:

Yesterday's Show -  Special Guest Angela Schneider Natural healer, reader https://tiffanypowershealing.com/product/services-with-angela-marie/#reviews   Feb 25th Special Guest Rev Debbie Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page March 3rd - Special Guest Psychic Joanne Leo, Numerology and Astrology http://psychicjoanneleo.com

The Jimmy Mack Healing Show is LIVE on Tuesday Nights at 9pm EST  If you want to Listen in only, go to this website: https://www.freeconferencecall.com/wall/goldylocksproductions OR If you want to call in & ask a question CALL [phone] No need to press #1, just dial in and you'll be in the queue. If the Call in Number above doesn’t seem to work, please use this back up Call in Number: [phone] when prompted, enter 206.806.9965 followed by #  International Callers, click the link below for the International call in list for your country.  If you're using the Free Conference Call App, it automatically re-routes the best call In number for you.  Please unblock your phone number if you wish to speak with Jimmy and or his guest host. Blocked, Restricted and Private Callers are not brought on air.

Sessions at the Tampa Office 

EVERY FRIDAY AT KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS TAMPA

I'm scheduling 15 and 30 minute appointments at Kodawari Yoga Studios from 10am-2pm EVERY FRIDAY. *IMPT! You must call Kodawari directly to schedule times and dates with them AND pay them directly at the front desk prior to your appointment UPCOMING DATES 

February 21st February 28th March 6th  March 13th March 20th  March 27th Call Kodawari's front desk directly to schedule [phone] and pay at the concierge desk PRIOR  to your appointment - 15 minutes 38$ or 30 minutes 68$. 3965 Henderson Blvd Suite C Tampa [phone] http://www.kodawariyoga.com/

From the Fish Box

Q) "I just wanted to let you know that my daughter was able to finish her service on the jury without any more anxiety symptoms!  She was even elected to be the foreman!  In fact, she told me the next morning that about 3:30am she just felt better.  Headache gone, queasy stomach gone and she just fell into a deep and comforting sleep.  (Isn't it early morning when you do whatever it is you do with the prayer service?)" - L.J. / Virginia A) "Yep, 3am to 4am Eastern is when I do it. Yes, you're right and she was picking up on it for sure. Thanks, honey for the feedback."  - Jimmy

Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy

You will send me a list of the members of your immediate household, and yes even pets, and I will add them to my daily prayers. I will arise daily before you are even awake to start my prayers and also run my intelligent computer software 24/7 deleting the negative and increasing the strength of the positive creating a higher probability of outcomes for you and the family.  Each comes with a one-time email analysis print out via the intelligent healing software that I use on your behalf.  Most clients have had amazing results and outcomes and I get emails of thanks each and every week!

I will dial into you daily in the wee hours and make certain that you are a CLEAR YES, UNCLEAR to NO and RUNNING FORWARD before you start your day.

                     Choose 7 days @ $33                       Choose 14 days @ $66               Choose 30 days @ $99

**Can't See The Full Email? Click Here to View Online**

Go deep sea "fishing" with Jimmy!

Level 1 is open to ANYONE at anytime! All Mastery Students:  Check your email & Login to view all the newly upgraded content including new books and audios!    

"Jimmy's My Liquid Fish Change Made Simple program is AMAZING!!! He gives you not only videos so you can see the changes within people, but also the books he's written as well! On top of that he's provided all the links and visuals you need so ANY type of learner can do it!!  I appreciated having it to download in a PDF so I can go back to it any time, plus the books and ACTUAL healing sessions so you see, know and understand the whole process even better!!Highly recommend to ANYONE looking to change and make not only their life... but everyone's around them better as well!!" - E.J. / Florida

The Certificate of Mastery Program includes 2 best-selling ebooks and 2 clearing audios plus written & video instructions, AND one-on-one time with Jimmy ALL for about the cost of a single 1-hr session! This online course is for anyone who is familiar with OR new to "fishing" and is ready to dive into the deep end & get results that are beyond the ordinary! It includes The Tackle Box & The Dowser's Handbook ebooks PLUS 2 MP3s "Clearing Dark Energies" & "Increasing Your Intuition" to help clear, strengthen and prepare your energy field for optimal “fishing” results. This is a work-at-your-own-pace curriculum that will TEACH & CLEAR you at the same time! In under 2wks you will be finished with the program and ready to fish on your own with greater results! Level II offers Practitioner Certification for those who qualify.

LEARN MORE HERE

For those who aren't familiar, here's the list of the MyBeliefWorks™ audio library. 

Find a topic that addresses your issue(s), click on the link to read more. We had a lot of help downloading & channeling these over the years & they keep getting better. Don't forget... you can share these with you immediate friends and family.

Abundance Abuse Addiction Body Scan: Head to Toe Daily GPS Reset Dark Energies/Fears Decision Making Diet & Exercise Education & Learning Family & Relatives The Gold Coin Healing Physical Body Healing Mental Stress Holiday Stress

Increasing Intuition IRS & Tax Time Love & Romance Money Mindset Moving Forward Pain Relief Pet Healing Sales & Success Improving Sex Improving Sleep Traveling w/Ease Work & Career Weight Loss Youth & Vitality

TGIFunny

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Jimmy Mack | Appointments Skype: Jimmy.Mack55 Clearwater Florida USA Book a 15 minute session Book a 30 minute session Book a 60 minute session ​ ​​Transformational Healing of Body, Mind​ & Spirit, People, Places, Pets & Situations!​ ​ Download the My Liquid Fish® Starter Kit (*Updated May 2019) Audio MP3 Downloads​ and books​ to improve your life! Get Certified in ​My Liquid Fish® Change Made Simple® Watch Free Videos on YouTube Weekly Radio Show Archives Shop for ​Supplements ​ http://www.jimmymackhealingshop.com www.jimmymackhealing.com Copyright ©1998-2020 All Rights Reserved  

-------------------------------------------------- TGIW newsletter managed by: Sandy Bidinger Digital Marketing Specialist at SMBeConnected Solutions www.smbeconnected.com  

Stay connected!

  Our mailing address is: Clearwater Florida 33756 USA

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TGIWednesday and sharing something I rarely talk about...

TGIWednesday News

Today I am disclosing to you something I don’t talk about every day.  When I see any living thing, people, trees, pets etc - I see a black light/blue/purple hue around them.  Without question it is the energy of all that is and that life force connection to God stuff which, at the end of the day, is all Love!  I feel it, I see it, and I laugh about it - not at it, but with it like a giddy little kid.  Now there’s times when the human side of us has to be serious and get things done as we go through this life, but even then, on the inside mostly I am laughing because I can see the bigger spirit picture.  My sweet momma used to say, “What does it really matter anyway?” And when facing a challenge, I always say will this matter 5 or 10 years from now?  Most times the answer is no.  So embrace Love, all that is, and if you had a rough time or are going through one now, know that when you exude love to yourself and others it can change any and everything. 

TGIWednesday Download

~  A DOWNLOAD FOR INTIMACY ~ It is safe and comfortable to exude, feel, and experience intimacy. I believe, think, know and feel that intimacy is safe, comfortable, possible and easy, breezy fun.  I know, when, where, how and why the moment is right. I am ready, willing, and able to enjoy intimacy here, now, and in the future and I am asking in all languages and throughout all time lines and so it is.

 Love & Romance Monthly Specials

Turning on Your Love and Romance Switches Replay Available Now

I can't stress enough how coming together in this group energy is so important for all of us to gather with a strong intent to delete out the negative and download the more positive aspects to all of this - it really was palpable.  I think you'll love this call and it will help a lot of folks and know that things WILL change for you.  Click on this link to read the list of topics covered. 

Get the Replay Here!

"The call was awesome, thank you soooo much and for your time and effort required before and after the call to make the changes happen for all of us in your Liquid Fish community! Yah better brace yourself, yah gonna get hit with a lot of LOVE back from all of us!" - Susie "So last night this was the best Clearwater dreams I have had in years. I just wanted you all to know. I loved the turning on your love. Just listened to the replay in the car. I guess I released a lot. Very tired lots of yawns today. Beyond words. Thank you." - Scott

February is the month of LOVE an

d don't we all want and need as much of that in our lives as we can get, right? Well, we've got something in the shop that is sure to help and we're putting it on special pricing for the month of February - MyBeliefWorks for Having Ideal Love & Creating Dynamic Relationships was $57 / now $44.

Download Now for $44

LIVE Appearances - Free Healing

TODAY February 19th at 5pm EST  Conversations to Empower and Inspire with my friend and host Lauren Ellis Galey ....and this time I'll be "camera ready" because it will be shown on her popular QCTV Livestream video - and it's all FREE! - Register Here Thurs. March 12th Wisdom of the Ancients with Ian Shelley - Register Here

Mon. March 19th You Wealth Revolution with Darius Barazandeh - Register Here Thurs. April 9th Soul Talk with Patty Malek - Register Here Wed. May 13th The Alara Canfield Show with Alara Canfield - Register Here

Fish Food 

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

Tell The Fish: 365 Daily Inspirations & Affirmations

FEBRUARY 19th "Today I will cry out for God's help even if it is quietly in my own mind.  I will ask for what I want and need, and anticipate the expectation that what I want will be brought to me in a mysterious and mystical way.   I will give true thanks for my health and well-being and no matter what state I am in, I will give thanks for those positive people, places and things."

The Jimmy Mack Healing Radio Show

EVERY TUESDAY at 9pm EST / 6pm PST CALL [phone] https://www.freeconferencecall.com/wall/goldylocksproductions

Click Here for Previous Weeks' Show and a full archive of past guests & replays.

UPCOMING GUESTS FOR FEBRUARY:

Yesterday's Show -  Special Guest Angela Schneider Natural healer, reader https://tiffanypowershealing.com/product/services-with-angela-marie/#reviews   Feb 25th Special Guest Rev Debbie Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page March 3rd - Special Guest Psychic Joanne Leo, Numerology and Astrology http://psychicjoanneleo.com

The Jimmy Mack Healing Show is LIVE on Tuesday Nights at 9pm EST  If you want to Listen in only, go to this website: https://www.freeconferencecall.com/wall/goldylocksproductions OR If you want to call in & ask a question CALL [phone] No need to press #1, just dial in and you'll be in the queue. If the Call in Number above doesn’t seem to work, please use this back up Call in Number: [phone] when prompted, enter 206.806.9965 followed by #  International Callers, click the link below for the International call in list for your country.  If you're using the Free Conference Call App, it automatically re-routes the best call In number for you.  Please unblock your phone number if you wish to speak with Jimmy and or his guest host. Blocked, Restricted and Private Callers are not brought on air.

Sessions at the Tampa Office 

EVERY FRIDAY AT KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS TAMPA

I'm scheduling 15 and 30 minute appointments at Kodawari Yoga Studios from 10am-2pm EVERY FRIDAY. *IMPT! You must call Kodawari directly to schedule times and dates with them AND pay them directly at the front desk prior to your appointment UPCOMING DATES 

February 21st February 28th March 6th  March 13th March 20th  March 27th Call Kodawari's front desk directly to schedule [phone] and pay at the concierge desk PRIOR  to your appointment - 15 minutes 38$ or 30 minutes 68$. 3965 Henderson Blvd Suite C Tampa [phone] http://www.kodawariyoga.com/

From the Fish Box

Q) "I just wanted to let you know that my daughter was able to finish her service on the jury without any more anxiety symptoms!  She was even elected to be the foreman!  In fact, she told me the next morning that about 3:30am she just felt better.  Headache gone, queasy stomach gone and she just fell into a deep and comforting sleep.  (Isn't it early morning when you do whatever it is you do with the prayer service?)" - L.J. / Virginia A) "Yep, 3am to 4am Eastern is when I do it. Yes, you're right and she was picking up on it for sure. Thanks, honey for the feedback."  - Jimmy

Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy

You will send me a list of the members of your immediate household, and yes even pets, and I will add them to my daily prayers. I will arise daily before you are even awake to start my prayers and also run my intelligent computer software 24/7 deleting the negative and increasing the strength of the positive creating a higher probability of outcomes for you and the family.  Each comes with a one-time email analysis print out via the intelligent healing software that I use on your behalf.  Most clients have had amazing results and outcomes and I get emails of thanks each and every week!

I will dial into you daily in the wee hours and make certain that you are a CLEAR YES, UNCLEAR to NO and RUNNING FORWARD before you start your day.

                     Choose 7 days @ $33                       Choose 14 days @ $66               Choose 30 days @ $99

**Can't See The Full Email? Click Here to View Online**

Go deep sea "fishing" with Jimmy!

Level 1 is open to ANYONE at anytime! All Mastery Students:  Check your email & Login to view all the newly upgraded content including new books and audios!    

"Jimmy's My Liquid Fish Change Made Simple program is AMAZING!!! He gives you not only videos so you can see the changes within people, but also the books he's written as well! On top of that he's provided all the links and visuals you need so ANY type of learner can do it!!  I appreciated having it to download in a PDF so I can go back to it any time, plus the books and ACTUAL healing sessions so you see, know and understand the whole process even better!!Highly recommend to ANYONE looking to change and make not only their life... but everyone's around them better as well!!" - E.J. / Florida

The Certificate of Mastery Program includes 2 best-selling ebooks and 2 clearing audios plus written & video instructions, AND one-on-one time with Jimmy ALL for about the cost of a single 1-hr session! This online course is for anyone who is familiar with OR new to "fishing" and is ready to dive into the deep end & get results that are beyond the ordinary! It includes The Tackle Box & The Dowser's Handbook ebooks PLUS 2 MP3s "Clearing Dark Energies" & "Increasing Your Intuition" to help clear, strengthen and prepare your energy field for optimal “fishing” results. This is a work-at-your-own-pace curriculum that will TEACH & CLEAR you at the same time! In under 2wks you will be finished with the program and ready to fish on your own with greater results! Level II offers Practitioner Certification for those who qualify.

LEARN MORE HERE

For those who aren't familiar, here's the list of the MyBeliefWorks™ audio library. 

Find a topic that addresses your issue(s), click on the link to read more. We had a lot of help downloading & channeling these over the years & they keep getting better. Don't forget... you can share these with you immediate friends and family.

Abundance Abuse Addiction Body Scan: Head to Toe Daily GPS Reset Dark Energies/Fears Decision Making Diet & Exercise Education & Learning Family & Relatives The Gold Coin Healing Physical Body Healing Mental Stress Holiday Stress

Increasing Intuition IRS & Tax Time Love & Romance Money Mindset Moving Forward Pain Relief Pet Healing Sales & Success Improving Sex Improving Sleep Traveling w/Ease Work & Career Weight Loss Youth & Vitality

TGIFunny

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Jimmy Mack | Appointments Skype: Jimmy.Mack55 Clearwater Florida USA Book a 15 minute session Book a 30 minute session Book a 60 minute session ​ ​​Transformational Healing of Body, Mind​ & Spirit, People, Places, Pets & Situations!​ ​ Download the My Liquid Fish® Starter Kit (*Updated May 2019) Audio MP3 Downloads​ and books​ to improve your life! Get Certified in ​My Liquid Fish® Change Made Simple® Watch Free Videos on YouTube Weekly Radio Show Archives Shop for ​Supplements ​ http://www.jimmymackhealingshop.com www.jimmymackhealing.com Copyright ©1998-2020 All Rights Reserved  

-------------------------------------------------- TGIW newsletter managed by: Sandy Bidinger Digital Marketing Specialist at SMBeConnected Solutions www.smbeconnected.com  

Stay connected!

  Our mailing address is: Clearwater Florida 33756 USA

[kurlykayaker]

“closed doors”

Re: LOOOONNNGGG everyone has closed doors. closed doors - to their closets,   to their bathrooms,   closed spaces for their underwear,      special jewelry, “emergency cash”, closed doors to their house. i used to be a VERY open person - trusting with the turn of a smile, and     a solid handshake. i am still rather open, but life had to weather and shape me. my oldest brother predicted that at age 30, “i would turn red” (re- politically)    which has still yet to be met, “you’ll see how much the federal government takes out of your    paycheck,” he often says. perhaps i am a faded blue, but what is moreover true, is my declining awareness    of my emotional journey. our society is built upon -- closed doors. chatting with my mother, on the phone today, she *finally* watched my trans slideshow /    the last one to watch it of my inner circle (re- sad). i tell her i want to share this on facebook - her voice changes tones, her words change to a slower pace, and she talks about herself,    “i mean Jordan, there are things about divorce /    that i went through / that i wouldn’t want everyone knowing about.” i try to avoid the black and white stripes -     where i know we disagree in our conversations - it’s a cat-and-mouse game   and someone’s tail gets eaten. the electrical conduction system in my heart, fueled by the Vagus,   has been ... rewired? my voice changes tones on her too (i like to do this a lot),   i speak at a faster pace, “so, let’s say i *don’t* share this;  what if 5 more trans kids take their own lives?... <<i don’t leave room for her to respond>> what if something like this kept dad alive?” she can’t respond to that. sometimes, i just want to replay the grief we kids went through. i don’t blame her for blocking it out; who wants to remember that shit? another closed door. hell, i don’t even remember everything before - and especially   after my dad died. (my own) closed doors. i try to take a breathe. Mom is in Atlanta for a conference,     and she sounds happy. i don’t want to dampen that. she proceeds, “just for your future profession...     <<i’m listening --->>, you can save that kind of stuff for certain people.” i explain the security features of facebook, but i also explain the realism of what-it-means-to-be-trans, “did you know i watched a ton of youtube videos of trans guys before i told you guys? /    and you guys weren’t completely supportive in the beginning-   i’m not angry, it’s complicated. / my video can help others.” a door opened? (still need to edit video more before posting) maybe, a door opened --> *questions self.* a bit more: “you know how long i’ve been meaning to make this, mom? being in grad school has kept me so busy.” i’m not sure how much she is listening to me. her voice changes tones again, she has somewhere to be -    i know her sooooo well. the falsetto kicks in, “well, i love you handsome.    good luck with studies.” an open-door kind-of kicked in by my mom. used to it? “Strong but Tender” by Eli Conley,    a trans man - in touch with his heart and spirit    opens my own - door (and heart). He’s playing at Oberlin College next month. Will I take time to go? I’m still not sure....I’d be going alone. the # of times i’ve listened to “Strong but Tender” since finding the song for my trans slideshow is innumerable.     it brings me hope, solidarity, MORE self-love,         a giddy-joy....i ran a mile today (ha),     peace. for me, it’s about finding someone who understands me. so many closed doors. so many closed doors in life,    inadvertently slammed in my face. even some of my closest friends struggle, “i didn’t realize the suicide rate was so high for trans folks,” i thought i communicated this??    nevertheless, they listen and my heart swells closed doors. what’s the point of all these closed doors? my father taking his own life 19 years ago,     is not a door i enter often. it used to be a door i had to walk through every G.D. forsaken’ day. therapy, therapy, more therapy,    writing, and so much outside time smoothen-ed a jagged fissure in my heart / you can only heal a     cracked heart so much. like an afferent stimulus for a reflex, everyone’s “closed door” has one. what is yours?    mine? what are mine?      a) failure - utter failure - especially academic.       i want to help others, and i’ve picked a career that will allow me to do       that. my father was a smart-smart man. he emphasized education, when         we were baby bears.             failure reminds me that my father struggled mentally, emotionally.             i have tried to widen my “tool-box” (such an overused phrase)                   and life-perspective to see and experience failure less often.     b) Episcopalian church - as my father was an Episcopalian priest     c) seeing a book of “Common Prayer” - my father loved this book,            and its literature is impressive     d) being outside - completely isolated from civilized world. a year or two         before my dad passed, he developed a love for hiking and being outside.           he made sure to include us on these mini-trips.         i also recall a Sermon he told where an older gentleman always went            fishing Sunday A.M. ; his neighbors didn’t understand why he didn’t go            to church, but the older gentleman explained he felt the presence of             God most on his boat  - early sunrise Sunday AM. The neighbors            didn’t know how to respond.                I was only 12 y/o when I heard that Sermon but I knew it was radical                for a fucking Mid-Western Episcopalian small church to hear.                ...and my father told the story so calmly and with such love.        e) a father giving his children affection in public.                 my dad was a big hand-holder, hugger, expressive...        f) a father running while his kid bikes along side.  this is something              my dad and i did often when i visited him every other weekend.        g) denial - abandonment - from a friend or potential partner;              yeah, the door can be opened by ugly shit.              parents are destined to do this inadvertently to children                 but it is a BIG ball-buster when it’s divorce and or death.                     intentional death.                     gut-reaction: “cloooose the dooor,”                     behavioral therapy: comfort the wound in your heart.                         yearssszzzz of self-love. the door is cracked.        h.) critique- (even if constructive) from a close loved one.                momentary feeling of denial -                  that i cannot be accepted based on him.                 lots of behavioral therapy to learn...it’s often NOT                     (always) reflective of you....         i.) a tomboy - aka a person born “xx” but dresses in more                 masculine clothes (maybe they are trans/maybe the’re not -                    it doesn’t matter) -- i was that child 100%.                  furthermore, parents that support the child in whatever                    gender-expression that best fits them.          j.) when within a short-time period, someone can pick up                  that i’m a sensitive mother fucker - is mindful -                   and attentive to that.                     >>the door stays cracked (”damnit, i can’t hide it around you.”)          k.) affirmation to my core - the true core i know about myself.                   not some made-up fluffy bull-shit.                      such as affirmation to my work ethic, my care for others,                     my mostly good attitude (haha), my writing...

      the door’s been closed           too damn long.       i would try to blame it on grad school,         but that’s not taking ownership.            my father is scowling from heaven. (in a good way, haha)       sometimes, you get small gusts of winds that crack it open.       and then other times, you get a fuckin’ DUSTBOWL         that touches the source of your pain-ed-closed door. the sad part, is that i usually need to be sleeping / studying. the door is opening...    i have pushed my heart down and behind that closed door           for some long ass time, protection. protection. protection. no need to experience 2000, again. solitude-loneliness arises between studying, hard work, naps    with relief/comfort found between exercise, a good conversation, writing (~sometimes), a dance, and some alcohol can truly touch. is my door re-opening? regrowing awareness.             

[oceanwaterheart]

In high school, a friend told me that what you’re doing when the clock goes from 11:59pm on New Year’s Eve to 12am on New Year’s Day sets the tone for the year ahead. I always new it was a bit of an old wives’ tale, but I’ve always had a bit of an affinity for a number of strange superstitions. This one always gave me comfort.

New Year’s Eve this year, I had a few friends over, made dinner for them, and we all played Cards Against Humanity. I had a conversation with one of those friends - who at the time was still pretty dear to me - about how he could repair a friendship he was damaging with a mutual friend of ours. That night it seemed things were going well.

That didn’t last. I haven’t spoken to him since February, and lately I hear he’s been spreading some rather vicious things behind my back about me and the friend he was trying to make amends with that night.

January this year in general was actually a pretty stellar start to this year. I’ve never really been one to bash an entire year, but I’ve also never really been one to say “man, this is my year!” I always enter each January relatively neutral, but with some hope ready to start fresh, like opening the first page of a brand new book. Everything always feels so full of promise.

This year, January, a mere three and a half months ago, I was in England. It was my first trans-continental trip ever, my first trip out of the country without my family, and the first time I’d stayed anywhere without family for more than just a few nights.

I was with my best friend though, my (platonic) other half, and so, it was t scary even a little bit. It was just an adventure, the start of something, a new chapter I’d never actually thought I’d get to in my life.

Actually, the house we stayed in (her grandparents’ house) while we were there, was at the top of a hill, and about halfway up said hill was a bench we’d pause at to rest with the dogs before dragging our ancient, 25-years-old bones up the rest of the hill. We talked about a lot of dreams I didn’t think I’d ever share with anyone, much less with actual hope they might happen.

We were there for a month, in Bradford-on-Avon, and I felt more at peace there then I’ve felt almost anywhere else (the only other place I’ve ever felt that calm and alright is St. John’s, Newfoundland, my favourite place in the whole world.) January 2020 was the absolute best month of my life. I thought it was a great time to set for the rest of the year, which we talked about at great length.

January feels like a lifetime ago now.

It’s funny to think that we joked around a bit about what the 20th decades have looked like in the last few centuries, and about plagues, and red Xs on doors, and just generally morbid things. We’re just generally morbid people sometimes. If only we could have seen what was just around the corner.

When #coronavirus first started cropping up on Twitter, we were still over there, with just a few days left in in our trip. Stuff like this, universal illness and threats of epidemics, always made me nervous, but my mom has been a nurse for 30+ years, so the night I saw the first hashtag, I did what I always did when a virus was starting to circle. I called my mom. She said it was nothing, everyone had it under control, that China was a tad bit of a mess, but all the hospitals there were getting it under control, and no one elsewhere was worried.

At the time, she really meant it, so we gave it no further thought.

I’m an essential worker, I answer emergency phones in a hospital, I alert doctors to incoming patients, I take patient calls, I help assemble teams of doctors and nurses to action when an emergency occurs.

I’m back and forth between whether I feel lucky for this or not right now. I have a stable job, I still get paid, I’m so incredibly lucky. But I still have to go out in all of this, and there’s no real winding down. I miss the movie theatres, the parks, the coffee shops. I miss seeing my parents outside of the hospital, and seeing my friends outside of a computer screen.

I’m glad none of us are sick yet, and that Canada seems to be succeeding in slowly flattening the curve. But every single plan, every single dream we thought up and laughed out on top of that hill in Bradford was brought to a halt and I’m having trouble looking forward when I don’t know where we’ll all land on the other side of this.

I’m an anxious person, I always have been, but I’m usually pretty good at talking myself down from most things. That’s not been so true lately.

I’m lucky. I’m lucky to be healthy, to be doing well, to be able to pay my bills and get out of the house some, even just for work. I’m lucky beyond any words I could ever string together to be quarantined with the only person in this world who understands me enough to keep me from spinning out during all of this.

But I’m still scared. I still want to cry, I still feel anxiety balled in my chest, I still worry about how long this will go on. I know normal will come back, no matter what the news says, no matter how altered things might be from their original course, normal will come back. But just as January and it’s dreams feel eons away, so does the future and normal.

And right now it’s all just all really difficult.

#covid-19 #m rambles #the covid diaries

[kladdagh]

Renew the `Tude

For a long time, I have had people tell me that I had a bad attitude. It was such a force in my life, that for a number of years I thought that I was inherently mistaken about everything. Nowadays, we call it gaslighting, and I have had to deal with it from my older brother (including a Thanksgiving where everything he said was prefaced by the phrase “Well, actually...”), by exes and roommates, and it just keeps going.

Part of the problem might be that I listen to other people too much. I got in trouble as a kid, and the way I avoided that was listening to those in charge, so that I did not step on their toes.

Is it any wonder that by my freshman year off college my girlfriend was cheating on me, my roommate was having sex on my bed whenever I went home for the weekend, and I had ulcers in my throat.

My roommate at the time told me that I didn’t have a positive enough attitude, and my girlfriend told me that I wasn’t manly enough. But it was not my attitude that was the problem, but the fact that I did not like being lied to and mistreated those ways.

Flash-forward about 10 years, and my life was not much better. I had spent a year in grad school in Honolulu: starving, sick, and for a time homeless. I came home and found a congregation to socialize at that could help me recover from my trauma, and for a long time, it helped. I made friends, stayed in touch with folks, even sought social time outside of services. For the record, I’m a Unitarian-Universalist. My views on trinitarian traditions are for another discussion.

By 2012, I started to recover from my PTSD and was doing okay. I found odd jobs and challenged myself to do better, but there was no help from anyone -except mom. I decided to go back to school to try my hand at things. When I studied for my undergrad, everyone told me that I had the wrong attitude about my disabilities. I saw my strengths, but I knew my weaknesses and wanted help for those. The university said that the only accommodations that they could provide were notetaking and wheelchair access. I was ambulatory and could take notes: I needed leeway on deadlines, better clarification on requirements for assignments, and a little extra time on quizzes or tests.

So in 2014, after I made up a wish list of accommodations consisting of those three things, I started attending the community college, and for the first time in my life I got straight As and earned Honors status. My family was really proud, because the first thing people know about me is that I am smart, but my work does not reflect that if I do not understand the assignment, or if I do not manage my time well. My first semester was a real gridiron, too, because it was all online courses. I had never used Blackboard, and the online courses required reading the textbook daily. On top of that, we had summer storms that kept knocking out the power, so my laptop battery stayed in when it was time to take online exams and such (many times with thunder and lightning bursting right outside; talk about sturm und drang).

Move ahead a couple of years, and by this time I am pretty confident in my ability to discern reality. I have never really had trouble with that, but people like to plant seeds of doubt in your head. I worked on a lot of things in that time, and went to occasional sessions with therapists, just or when I was feeling anxiety or tension that would not go away.

A few years ago some tension started to arise between me and my congregation. A woman who had never been friends with me had worked for years to destroy my reputation, and people believed her, because she ingratiated herself to them. She picked me out as an easy target and made things harder and harder for me, so that she could somehow benefit from this by comparison. Of course, I was pretty benign and supportive.

Around this time, we got a new minister, let’s call him Joe. Joe had been physically impaired as a kid, and had worked multiple jobs after high school, gone to the community college, and between Detroit and Chicago, Joe was living the Generation X life of the go-go Bush years. As a gay man, he was stigmatized, but not in Unitarian Universalist circles, and Chicagoland has some dynamite UUs. He was tapped by one of the church matriarchs to take on some responsibility there at the church, because she saw potential in him.

A while later he felt the call to serve more, and eventually to study as a minister. Today, he lives with his partner, recently married after it became legal across the USA. I tell you this so that you understand that for some reason, Joe thought that I was like he was back in 1990. He decided to make this connection, and that what was best for me was to be stirred awake. I was living with family, trying to get a career going, earning honors at college, and am considered a kind and giving person. But as far as Joe was concerned, I was a loser who was going nowhere. He would often say so without saying so. He felt that having me there dragged down the image of his congregation. (UU congregations rarely “belong” to a minister; normally it is vice-versa.)

Given, in recent years, I had become resentful of the standard questions you get from people who have already met you, but did not bother to remember anything. “How’s school?” How am I supposed to answer that? “What are you studying?” Do you mean classes, major, etc.? “What do you want to be when you’re done?” Are you noticing a theme, yet? The questions are supposed to have some clear and concise answer, but are too complicated to answer. They just want to hear “Fine, (major), (profession).”

Around this time, my mom got sick on a few occasions, and it had me worried, since I take care of her on a daily basis. She rarely needs serious attention, but it is better than when she was alone, and she takes care of me in return, because we’re all we really have. So if I shared with people that my mom was sick or in the hospital for something, the question came, and it was just as complicated to answer. When you are caring for someone who has recurrent problems and isolated/non-recurrent ones, her status is very relative.

Enter Joe, who decides that my mom is just enabling me to live in a second adolescence, a term he tried to borrow from trans-folx term ‘second puberty.’ It is offensive no matter how you slice it. Around this same time, I started participating in worships, as in writing and selecting stuff for services. Joe hated this and felt that I was the wrong person for this position. But rather than say so, he got the coordinator, Amy, to monkey-up the scheduling so that I got booked less, and only when there were guest speakers and guest worship-leaders. It even got to where someone else from the team would be called in without my knowledge, to do my tasks. If they did not want me on, then just had to say so. I did not participate in this for some egocentric reasoning, even if I was accused of such when I brought up the scheduling issue.

At the time, I was part-time teaching adult education for personal finance classes. I had more students than anyone else in the organization, and I had more consistent results on my test scores. My supervisor, Sandra would regularly curse at me and treat me like garbage just because she could, and if I complained, you can bet that it was put back on me.

The point is that for both Joe and Sandra, they thought I was getting off easy. Abusers tend to say that the victim could have things a lot worse. Ariel Castro did this in his trial: justifying that kidnapping and raping women was better than killing them. Think about that a moment.

Now a supportive person who really wants to nurture and foster you will try to think if there is something you or they can do together that will improve the situation. If you remember, Oskar Schindler said as he was fleeing with his protected Jews that if he had sold his car or his cufflinks or his party pin that it would have bought more lives to be saved. Sandra told me that I could have it a lot worse, and that I could find somewhere else to be, because I did not matter to her, and on more than one occasion tried to unfairly dismiss me. Joe played his games and probably thought that it could be worse for me. Heck, he probably thought it was better than I deserved. I remember that back in Honolulu, the keepers at the homeless mens shelter always seemed to think that treating us badly discouraged us from wanting to stay homeless and that mats loaded with blood-sucking vermin, and eating a carb-heavy meal with reggae music played loud to prevent conversation was all better than we deserved. They did not even stock soap or TP in the bathroom. When inspectors came by, a ping-pong table would be brought out. Wow!

And I remember that at the time I was living this way or after I was able to secure housing, some idiot told me that his buddy was able to walk into a store and basically demand a job, because he cleaned himself up and had the right attitude.

Enter Bailey Poland, one of the most brilliant contemporary writers I have ever read, someone whose personal story gives me cause for admiration, and who recently wrote a piece titled No, Our Attitudes Aren’t the Problem. I used to not have any real answer to the question “If you could meet someone living or dead, who would it be?” Now, my personal answer would be Bailey Poland. I genuinely enjoy her writing that much for its clarity and exposition of thoughts that I share.

Her piece is provocative, because it challenges the idea that while you can not always change the environment, you can (meaning “should”) always change your attitude. She points out that for minor issues, it is certainly advisable to laugh it off and be kind when offered the chance. Example: Earlier today I was at the library to return and borrow some things, and a mom with two adorable little ones was having them take charge of returning things. She apologized, but I said it was fine, because they were helping. I love kids (though I could never eat a whole one), so I love watching them do stuff like that. The younger one with a bald head looked at me after I spoke, and I flashed a big smile.

I could have gotten cross, or I could have admired the adorable children and bided my time, since I was in no hurry. That’s what we mean when we talk about changing your attitude. Attitude shifts like that are when you look out your window or look out your door and say “How about that? Another nice day!” It does not work when you suffer from depression, so you can not grin and bear it; and if you are being abused by others, then it is not up to you to tolerate the abuse and let your smile be your umbrella.

I got in trouble with Joe, Amy, and Sandra around the time that I had to put myself in for counseling. I had put up with worsening abuse for two years, with the worst coming in the previous six months. This was one year ago, this month. What got me into therapy was that I could not stop myself from thinking about suicide, and this was worse than normal. I wanted the pain to stop and I could not get it to stop as long as people in charge of these parts of my life kept hurting me. So after starting weekly sessions (that later went to monthly ones as I recovered) I decided that I needed to assert myself over my life and stop letting these abusers and bullies push me around like they had something on me.

I especially loved when Bailey talks about getting migraines from her old job, because I got them from my struggles, too, though not always as severely. My reaction was one of anxiety and upset, having meltdowns when I got home. Fast forward to May and as I am taking finals and Joe has church leaders write a letter to tell me to go away, my mom has massive internal bleeding in her esophagus and I am terrified.

Every other day when I went in to work, I was dreading the phone call that said she was gone, but the call never came. In a week or so, she was back home and feeling better, though not for lack of my tears and prayers. I remember that when I got the news that she was coming home, I let everyone in the office and my class know. One of the staff said to me that I was just a big baby for being so glad to have my mom be okay. (I chose the wording of my response carefully, because that was a really nasty line to cross. My words were assertive and devoid of foul language.)

Fast forward to August, and Sandra stood in front of my team, our partner-site supervisors, my mom, and a few notable folks, and while giving awards out, praising the people she liked, felt the need to roast me. This fifty-something year old woman stood there with braided hair extensions in a coral-color bodycon dress and matching gladiator pumps, looking like a black, fatter Cher circa variety-show days. She made fun of me in front of everyone, saying that I had opinions that did not matter, because she was the boss. To disclose what her opinions included that contradicted mine, she felt that grant money could be used for anything, even if the programs failed, and nobody would check; as well as feeling that her training sessions for us could include her army stories (despite complete irrelevance) and attempted stand-up routines, because she could have us sit there and do nothing for eight hours and it would be fine. If this paints enough of a picture for you, we can move on.

The general sentiment among Joe, Amy, and Sandra was one of self-exceptionalism. Like a lot of bullies when in authority, they felt that the rules did not apply to them, and that nobody supported them or was competent. They had gotten away with previous infractions, so why not bigger ones? Folks like these enjoy setting terms. So what they say is how it is, but how you say it is can only be what you perceive. Listening is only done to respond, and they have to feel that you respect their authoritah.

Oh, but of course, it keeps going from there, as we quickly enter into the realm of how these people abuse you, personally. And that is where we come back to the roasting I received from the coral nightmare. Because the fact was that I was on my way out the door from this job, so she did not have to say a word. She could have left me with a positive sense of things and managed to put forth a kind word in the very end. After all, my students’ test results were responsible for the awards we were getting: in the course of a year, I taught more students than anyone by a factor of twelve, and the test scores were consistently higher. She could not indict my ability to teach, although on several occasions she did, so she just vaguely degraded me by saying I was opinionated about things that did not matter. One final barb, the last word. I said nothing. I abstained from a rebuttal, because it would be making a scene, it would be letting her win. She had found a way to get hers in without me being able to come back. And in her mind, I could have had it worse.

Fast forward to Halloween of 2016, and the younger brother of a college friend who lived in the next town over (with my friend, his older brother) asked his family to take care of his dog before he shot himself. He had felt like he was garbage ever since college, despite the fact that he was getting his graduate degree in psychology. The poor job market had taken its toll by draining away his hopes and dreams as more avenues closed with every passing year. By Joe’s measures, this guy was a success: job, car, his own place, dog, prospects. (He was even a really talented musician in a band.) By my measures, he had a lot going for him and that I could wish for. But those milestones do not bring happiness.

Let me make something clear: our society’s obsession with constant happiness is more of a problem than anything else. If we focused on contentment sparked with moments of happiness, we would be better off. Life is not about being perfectly happy or contented all the time. Contentment is found, hope is found, and an attitude to drive you onward is forged in the heat of struggles to be tempered in the refreshment we find in those moments of contentment. That is why when we see poor people or prisoners who take a moment to relax and feel free, we need to take stock in it and value their strength.

There’s a misquote from Eleanor Roosevelt that “Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent,” but the real quote is far more rational.

The yellow journalism of the time tried to reform her statement into something more memorable or catchy, but the misquote is false, wrong, and stupid. People like to dust it off to talk about the other person’s attitude as a victim mentality. My older brother used to call it having a pity party, and before the term “special snowflake” was tossed around, he would call me the self-important little prince, because I did not like it when he said hurtful things that were out of line. In his mind, it was to toughen me up, because the real world was harsh. He had severe depression from some kids he thought were his friends ganging up on him after school one day when he was six or seven and throwing his shoes down in a chilly creek. As he didn’t come home, my parents worried and called the police; finding him down in the creek, bawling his eyes out, having found one shoe, and looking for the other.

I was an easy mark, because I trusted him and loved him. I tried to look up to him, because he was smart and could be funny. But he hurt me, and what he did was not toughening me up. Rather, it was teaching me that I was powerless to stop others from hurting me. That powerlessness has been what others have preyed upon my entire life: my trusting nature, my willingness to abide some hassle for a greater good, and my honesty.

-My girlfriend used that against me when she would tear into me, hit me, and use me sexually. Because wasn’t it better to have a girlfriend than nobody? -The woman at church used it to make me sound like a creep, because I was myself with people, which meant she could raise doubt in folks that there was another “side.” -Joe, Sandra, all of them used that same mentality -or attitude if you will- to say that they could do worse and I could have it worse, and not once seemed to think of if they could make it better without somehow penalizing me. -Private student lenders do this, too. Just yesterday, one of their drones -at a company that shall remain nameless- told me that people like me needed to step out of our comfort zones. Another person from them told me that I should try to butter up rich people to pay my student loans to them. And the wording they use always seems to suggest that I should go turn tricks or get a sugar mama/daddy to take care of things. And in all of it, they ignore the benefit of the doubt that maybe you have the right attitude and are doing your best. Maybe you are a good and worthwhile person. Maybe you give and are kind, and it is they who are ungrateful, because they do not recognize the opportunities and blessings they were granted. Bailey Poland writes about this in the same piece as earlier, noting that a speaker degraded boys from his neighborhood for not surviving high school, while he made it out & went on to obtain a PhD. It reminded me off another “winner” named Simon Sinek, who talked about Millennials in the Workplace. He certainly asserts a lot of generalizations about Millennials without benefit of the doubt. It reminded me of one scene from 12 Angry Men and then another. She goes on to say (and I have to directly quote her, because the incision of her words is surgical):

As I sat and listened to him harangue people for simply not working hard enough, not wanting it badly enough, I wondered about his dead friends. Did they not work hard enough to live? Did they not want it enough? Why does his luck – and it must be noted that a great deal of his success is due to luck – outweigh the impact of systems that mean children die? And further, why should we not acknowledge that it is unjust that he had to work as hard as he did to achieve a fraction of the success mediocre people born into other circumstances often enjoy? Why should we not acknowledge that the barriers he faced and that killed his friends should never have existed in the first place? Why should we not acknowledge that people who do beat the odds are often held up as reasons to avoid making any actual improvements? That is what chiding people about a positive attitude and a “victim mentality” does. It blames dead children for their own deaths. It keeps us so focused on trying to replicate the methods of a few successful people that we never take a step back and think about why so few people are able to have those breakthrough moments in the first place. It keeps us mired in a sense of personal failure rather than breaking down systems that hold us all back.Next time someone posts a meme or a tired adage about how it’s our attitudes that are the problem, be the one who takes that step back.

-Bailey Poland, No, Our Attitudes Aren’t the Problem (March 28, 2017)

Not since the quote from Eleanor Roosevelt that I offered you earlier have I felt so inspired and known that there are voices from people who -for lack of a better phrase- “get it.” Mrs. Roosevelt said that first the creeps who need to feel superior have to find in you or me someone who they can make to feel inferior. They have to find the button to push, the proverbial chink in the armor. There are a couple of ways to resolve this:

1. Don’t give them a reason, either by:   a. Being invulnerable and protecting others (which is impossible to maintain)   b. Being so vulnerable that people protect you (which is difficult to maintain)   c. Letting your vulnerabilities show and learn how to defend them

2. Spoil the fun of it for them   a. Stephen Fry suggests when being accosted to exclaim “Stop, you’ll give       me an erection.” I did a similar thing by moaning when my brother would pin     me down and twist my arm.   b. You could self-promote as long as you are humble and not a braggart.   c. Don’t even acknowledge the shade they throw. Don’t give it license.

It is often said that living well is the best revenge, and I would add that if someone seems so content as to push you out, then continue to do your best until the day that you turn around and drop them so that your absence is more stunning, your omission more glaring, and your silence more stirring than anything they can do or say to you. Because in the end, a lot of a positive attitude is about showing due or undue respect for others. Torah says to judge a person’s heart by the kindness they show to the innocents and those to whom they do not need to be kind.

As a UU, I am loathe to cite a biblical passage, but I was reading it last night when a TV preacher took half a line from line 34 way out of context. Around lines 29-37 there is a certain sentiment that I will close with (but by all means, read the whole chapter, as it is an interesting chapter). Jesus talks about the holy spirit as the right and magnanimous actions that he does which others in power should also be doing to set the world aright and bring about justice. The holy spirit or the will of god or howsoever you choose to believe: is an attitude within humanity of acting in the stead of god. It is not an egotistical idea of self-righteousness, but rather that if someone is struggling and asking for help, you help them. You do not shame them or tell them they have the wrong attitude. You do not label them as a bad person or try to penalize them as motivation to work better.

Joe liked to think that his hurtful words and actions were a wake-up call for me, as if I was asleep to certain realities and needed to pull myself out of things.

9 Going on from that place, he went into their synagogue, 10 and a man with a shriveled hand was there. Looking for a reason to bring charges against Jesus,they asked him, “Is it lawful to heal on the Sabbath?”

11 He said to them, “If any of you has a sheep and it falls into a pit on the Sabbath, will you not take hold of it and lift it out?12 How much more valuable is a person than a sheep! Therefore it is lawful to do good on the Sabbath.”

13 Then he said to the man, “Stretch out your hand.” So he stretched it out and it was completely restored, just as sound as the other. 14 But the Pharisees went out and plotted how they might kill Jesus.

I highlight that quote, because a minister is often called a shepherd of men, and if one of your flock is stuck in a rut, then you help it out. Most creatures I know try to get themselves out of ruts and pits. They do not need someone to comment on their attitudes. And when Joe’s actions and words were making me resign myself to death, where was the help? It took seeing a man -with a brighter future who was younger than I was- take his own life that made me resolve to keep trying; like Thorin Oakenshield in the diaspora.

Sometimes, instead of a splash of cold water to the face, we need a breath of fresh air.

Thanks to Bailey Poland for writing a great piece on attitude and resolve in the struggling individual. You’re one of the best.

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Today I am disclosing to you something I don’t talk about every day.  When I see any living thing, people, trees, pets etc - I see a black light/blue/purple hue around them.  Without question it is the energy of all that is and that life force connection to God stuff which, at the end of the day, is all Love!  I feel it, I see it, and I laugh about it - not at it, but with it like a giddy little kid.  Now there’s times when the human side of us has to be serious and get things done as we go through this life, but even then, on the inside mostly I am laughing because I can see the bigger spirit picture.  My sweet momma used to say, “What does it really matter anyway?” And when facing a challenge, I always say will this matter 5 or 10 years from now?  Most times the answer is no.  So embrace Love, all that is, and if you had a rough time or are going through one now, know that when you exude love to yourself and others it can change any and everything. 

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"The call was awesome, thank you soooo much and for your time and effort required before and after the call to make the changes happen for all of us in your Liquid Fish community! Yah better brace yourself, yah gonna get hit with a lot of LOVE back from all of us!" - Susie "So last night this was the best Clearwater dreams I have had in years. I just wanted you all to know. I loved the turning on your love. Just listened to the replay in the car. I guess I released a lot. Very tired lots of yawns today. Beyond words. Thank you." - Scott

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Q) "I just wanted to let you know that my daughter was able to finish her service on the jury without any more anxiety symptoms!  She was even elected to be the foreman!  In fact, she told me the next morning that about 3:30am she just felt better.  Headache gone, queasy stomach gone and she just fell into a deep and comforting sleep.  (Isn't it early morning when you do whatever it is you do with the prayer service?)" - L.J. / Virginia A) "Yep, 3am to 4am Eastern is when I do it. Yes, you're right and she was picking up on it for sure. Thanks, honey for the feedback."  - Jimmy

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Find a topic that addresses your issue(s), click on the link to read more. We had a lot of help downloading & channeling these over the years & they keep getting better. Don't forget... you can share these with you immediate friends and family.

Abundance Abuse Addiction Body Scan: Head to Toe Daily GPS Reset Dark Energies/Fears Decision Making Diet & Exercise Education & Learning Family & Relatives The Gold Coin Healing Physical Body Healing Mental Stress Holiday Stress

Increasing Intuition IRS & Tax Time Love & Romance Money Mindset Moving Forward Pain Relief Pet Healing Sales & Success Improving Sex Improving Sleep Traveling w/Ease Work & Career Weight Loss Youth & Vitality

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