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flwrkisses · 6 months

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boyfriend! sunghoon.

been a while hasn't it? recently got very inspired to write for the enhypen boys so here we are!— hope you guys enjoy!

genre: fluff, established relationship.

warnings: slight mentions of arguments, skinship & kissing.

❀˖° heeseung, jay, jake, sunghoon, sunoo, jungwon, niki.

- your first date was 100% to an ice rink. it's sunghoon's one and only big move when he likes someone, he wants to impress them and show off his crazy figure skating skills... even if you've never ice skated in your life and fall on your ass trying to keep up with him.

- the ice rink was also an excuse to hold your hands to make sure you wouldn't fall and get hurt.

- he'd probably take you out on 5-7 dates before he feels comfortable enough to ask you to be his partner.

- as your boyfriend sunghoon loves to tease you, especially if you're younger than him. he shows affection by poking fun at and teasing people close to him.

- "hey loser :)" texts all the time, out of love tho.

- he loves it when you tease him back. he absolutely loves it when you can keep up with him with jokes and build that playful tension. its probably why he fell for you in the first place.

- your first kiss with him was probably very quick, a nervous peck after one of the dates. his cheeks probably got red once he pulled away. he honestly thought he was terrible.

- now the kisses you guys share are so sweet. often times they're a quick peck in passing but when the time is right, sunghoon loves to give you sweet breath taking passionate kisses.

- sunghoon is the type to tell you it's cold, to hint at the fact you need a jacket. because he's not going to straight up tell you that he's worried you'll get cold. so when you don't get his hint, he'll bring one of his own extra jackets to give to you.

- "you don't bring a jacket because you don't wanna carry it later on, but— you get cold and take my jacket which then leaves me freezing... and what kind of boyfriend would i be if i let you freeze? so, yes! i'm bringing you a jacket so we both can be warm and be comfortable. good? great."

- he's also the type to see you struggling with opening something and would wordlessly reach over and do it for you.

- for example you're struggling to open a water bottle and he watches you struggle for a little before taking it from your hands, opening it, and handing it to you while looking away.

- you will never catch him, but he looks at you fondly all the time. even in public, he can't help it.

- he's definitely not a pda guy, he says it makes things much more intimate to kiss and hug in private. he also doesn't want the rest of the enhypen boys to tease him for being so sickly sweet to you.

- one thing he loves however, is holding your hand. in all ways he loves holding your hand even if you're sitting next to each other.

- something you notice when he's around his either sit close enough to you so your arms are brushing against each other or stand close enough for some type of physical contact, but thats about it when it comes to pda.

- he just isn't someone who feels the need to be all over you all the time. he has nothing to prove to anyone, nor does he ever feel threatened by other people. in fact he makes fun of couples that are weirdly all over each other in public.

- he doesn't get jealous often, however he is very protective of you and would rather people mind your personal space.

- if someone goes to touch your hand, or stands too close sunghoon would instinctively put himself between you and this person or move you out of the way.

- he is slightly possessive however, he would never admit it. however something in him lights up when you tell him you're his.

- he's a good guy to your friends too, he sees they're important to you so he takes them into account before doing things as well.

- like one night you and your friends decided to go out and sunghoon tagged along. he noticed that some random guy was bothering a friend of yours and making them uncomfy so without much thought he would go over to pull your friend back to the group and stare down the guy enough to hope he wouldn't come around your group again.

- he pretends not to remember or know important dates like your anniversary or birthday, but somehow you always wake up on that special day with a present at the foot of your bed from him.

- if you get sick he'll tease you about it at first but eventually will take care of you. he'd chuckle about how your voice sounds when you're congested and say "ewww" when you blow your nose.

- he would probably wait for you to tell him you love him first regardless of if he feels it first or not. sunghoon would hate to say that he loves you first and you not reciprocate, so he would wait for you to say it first for him to confirm he feels the same.

- saying "i love you" makes him shy, especially with how easily you are able to say it. he blushes a little each time he hears it.

- he probably mumbles his "i love you"s or sometimes just responds with "me too" because he's just too shy to actually vocalize it.

- sunghoon secretly likes praise, so tell him he's handsome and that he looks nice.

- although he's not a cuddler, if you sat on his lap while he played games his whole body would melt.

- texting would be pretty big with him actually. i see him leaving his members on read while responding to your messages fairly quickly.

- while he's on tour, he'd call you on facetime while he's in bed to mumble about how much he misses you and wants to be with you.

- in an argument regardless who's at fault, he would probably sit in silence and listen to everything you have to say. he's not really someone to fight with you, he simply wouldn't put energy into it which could be pretty annoying. he doesn't articulate his thoughts extremely well so sometimes it might seem like he doesn't care or is blocking you out.

- however fights are pretty rare considering how much you guys actually talk things out and how long he thinks about things.

- he honestly is so happy staying home and watching movies with you, ordering take out and staying in.

- doesn't mind going out for dates too. probably takes you on shopping dates, walks in the park, spa dates, trying restaurants, and ice skating of course.

- he has you make decisions for him since he's so indecisive. if he doesnt know what shirt to buy he asks you and goes with what you tell him. if you want to eat something he goes along with it and begs you to never make him choose anything ever.

- sunghoon has a folder on his phone of just candid pictures of you. he thinks it's cute, plus he's kinda become an expert in sneaking cute photos of you on dates.

- believe it or not, he spoils you quietly. things he notices you're running out of or need he'd buy you and quietly put them in their spots. it would take you a while to even notice he was doing that.

- you know he would never admit it, but his favorite part of his days are the days where he's able to come home to you and sleep with you in his arms.

hope you enjoyed! — yes i am writing for enhypen now...

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figgrrr0 · 1 year

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Hey hey Im back again!! I hope youre still open for accepting headcanon requests <33 this time i wanna req What is it like for Heizou, Xiao and venti (seperate) to date a fem!reader who is taller than them? (Nsfw or sfw is fine!)

Their girlfriend is taller than them

Characters: Heizou, Xiao, Venti // Reader: Female

Genre: Smut, only fluff for Xiao // CWs next to the corresponding character

Heizou

Cw: Body worship, height difference, mentioned high heels

• Would forget how tall you are until he walks up to you and is eye level with your chest. This would happen almost every single time. It doesn't even matter if you've got any skin showing, just the realisation of how tall you are compared to him will make him temporarily short-circuit. Heizou would lose all the confidence he'd strode up with, mentally criticising himself for forgetting, when, one: you're literally his girlfriend; he sees you every day! How could he forget? And two: it's his job to file away information about people and be able to recall it all in a moment's notice! The only way to stop him from kicking himself for this, is to bring his attention back to you. Now, this could very easily be done just by laughing a little at the annoyed expression on his face, but some good old physical touch will do the job even better. Though, this will also restore his boldness, so watch out, cause Heizou has a full arsenal of tactics to turn the nervousness back onto you.

• Because of how easy to reach they are, Heizou would be worshipping your breasts daily. I mean, they're the perfect height for him to just smush his face into. Not only that, I think he'd have a thing for just your overall height. Some of your limbs are obviously going to be longer than his own (arms, legs, torso, etc.), and the difference is going to be so interesting to him, plus its extra space for him to kiss and explore. Bonus points if you ever wear high heels. I really can't figure out why but I just think that Heizou would have a thing for height differences to his own disadvantage, but at the same time that'd just make him want to try and keep the control even more. It'd give him a pleasurable power trip.

Xiao

Cw: Slight strength kink? Maybe a little, apart from that it's just fluff. Cuddling, clothes stealing.

• Your height would be oddly comforting to Xiao. He'd feel safer in your presence than most others, but he loves how easy it is for you to completely wrap yourself around his body when you're cuddling up together (I am a firm believer that Xiao is a little spoon. Fight me). Your arms and legs would be able to trap him, and though he isn't used to the touch, even just the thought of leaving to go and fulfill his duties isn't as appealing as feeling your body caging him in. But, what's even better, is that, despite how strong he is thanks to his powers as a yaksha, there's a possibility that if you were to lock your arms and legs together around him, he might find it harder to escape than expected... he's almost tempted to try it out one of these days.

• Oh, your clothes are big enough to fit him? Too big? Yeah, you're coming home to Xiao absolutely drowning in your sweaters. They're comfy, warm, and they remind him of you. Could he possibly get any cuter?! Probably, but he's feeling a little too shy at being caught stealing your clothes. He'd try making up an excuse, and a very poor one at that, but please don't let him take it off. After that first day, you likely won't see him wearing your clothes for about a month after that; but gradually, it just becomes something that you come home to more often than not, to the point that if he's not wearing some article of your clothing, you'll start to get worried that he's upset with you, as rare as that would be.

Venti

Cw: Groping, role reversal, implied cross-dressing

• We all know that Venti would use any and all excuses that he could find to slip his hands under your clothes, shamelessly groping whatever skin his fingers can touch; usually your thighs or boobs, but even just feeling the heat from your stomach is fine (except for the fact that he always does it when his hands are extremely cold...). Unfortunately for you, this is usually just a ploy for him to be able to tickle you once you let your guard down. Being taller than him just gives him easier access, how is he supposed to resist?! And, he won't even need to use as strong of a gust of wind to see up your skirt... your height is doing half of the work already!

• He would be an absolute menace. Suddenly, every single item that he needs is too high up for him to reach... I wonder how that happened? Oh well, who cares? Cause now he needs your help to get it down! He likes playing up how much stronger your stature would imply that you are compared to him (even though he is a literal archon...). He's not-so-secretly turned on by the role reversal, since the guy in a relationship is most commonly the taller. But, you being taller than him and being able to help him with everything so easily is a one way ticket to unlocking his brattiness and laziness all mixed together. And, if you go along with his little games long enough? Well. I think it could potentially escalate to Venti trying on some skirts for you and making the role reversal even more prominent...

Want to send a request/brainrot with me? Check my rules!

Thank you for reading! 🩷

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queen-of-scissors · 1 year

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Hey sorry to disturb you but can you write about reader trying to delete genshin because they couldn't download the update but for some reason they couldn't? The self awares are desperately trying to stop that. I wanna see the chaos and angst 😈

HEY GUYS LOOK

🎉MY FİRST ASK!!!🎉

İ feel even happier than a certain bard in wine festival--

İ was gonna send it earlier but i felt lasy to open my computer and draw ;;

Also im sorry if somethings don't make sense i used translator for some parts cus english isn't my main

More under the cut!

Reader deleting genshin

You took a frustrated sigh, another error, you wondered how many you've gotten in the past hour.

For some reason, your favorite games update is taking a bit long, crashing midway or giving an error that causes the download to restart again.

İnternet isn't giving much answers to you either. You tried almost everything you could try, to opening more storage space to deleting your game photo file, and at this point, you were growing desperate.

İnside the game, your characters were worried. You certainly took your time, they knew it was profably not too much of an issue and you were just busy. But for those who grow anxious EVERYTİME that you grow late, like Zhongli, Jean and Ninguang, it was a diffrent story...

Why are you late? İs everything alright in your world? Are you abandoning them? Did they do something not to your liking? Were their damage low? Will you log in faster if they do better?

Not knowing what you think or what happens in your world is killing them, they need to see you, HEAR you, so then maybe... Maybe you'll see them as well.

What took you so long? They need you...

When Buer was born, the first thing she could feel is how grass felt on her knees as she sat down, how flowers smelled like a dream and how vibrant everything was! She seemed to know everything, remember everyone and understand everything at that moment. While knowing nothing at the same time! How curious she was at everything she saw and felt!

But at the base of it all, she knew where all of this was created, she knew you.

She could only feel gratefull to you for creating such a wonderfull world, the world where countless travelers and artists fell in love. After all of the feelings she felt about you and your world, how could she say no when the Archons asked her about what they can do to meet you.

She wants to show people how perfect you are!

"Might as well delete it. Maybe that will fix all my problems?"

This was the first thing they heard you say. All of the Archons froze in their places.

Delete? What do you mean? Why would you.. no.. how could you?!

First person to finaly stop the dead silence in the area was the god of freedom, Barbatos.

"Delete it? Are they talking about... No that can't be! They love us! They said so themselves!"

"Barbatos-"

"They won't do it! İ KNOW they won't! They're talking about another world! Or, or..."

"what is.... İs that... Paimon? The travelers friend?" Buer looked at the big canvas (Or perhaps a window to another world). What is the meaning of this?

"Barbatos are you seeing what im seeing..?" Spoke up the god of contracts. Pointing out a big picture with some words on it, and on the picture there was...

God of justice looked around, and saw a triangle looking white thing fly across the artwork that is displayed infront of them.

Their thoughts were cut short by the sudden feeling of emptiness and screams they can feel from their followers.

Buer fell to her knees with a scream, it sting, it hurt to breath, the very feeling of the things she hold near being tore apart broke her heart and her core.

She felt the trees get reduce to nothing, something big and dark swallowed everything,

She saw her people, her first followers, trying to protect their nations with everything they got,

General Mahamatra moving people away from the empty, dark spaces to 'safety', Dancer Nilou helped him with controlling a huge crowd,

Forest ranger Tighnari's situation was worse, he tried to stop the hatred from spreading even from plants,

the academia has just Heard of all of this but the unforgiving wrath of the creator was too fast, Buer felt their followers' bones get crushed with force and skins get stretched in impossible ways. She died with her followers, countless times, but all she could do was watch as you took away the world she fell in love with..

"why are you angry? Why are we the ones that are suffering from it? Do you hate us that much...." Was all of the questions that she wont have the time to get them answered.

The second to grow affected was morax, before reaching out to help his friend he instead fell to the ground, he was... Crying.. he could hear and feel his peoples painfull cries and prayers for him. And yet he couldnt move, couldnt breath, what is this power? İs this what it feels like to suffer from his gods wrath?

He worshiped you the longest, she knew about your presence the longest so... Why?

He saw xiao, trying to keep the void from reaching wangshu Inn, by nearby monsters, weapons, ANYTHİNG to stop it from reaching the öne place he could call home. Some of The things he threw didnt got deleted and stayed in that position, but some were stuck mid air.

He saw liyue, as ninguang tried to stop the void by sacraficing the jade Chamber again, it got deleted and everything was destroyer before even reaching to the ground, including people.

"How could you do such a thing? Were we not enough? Even so, we didnt deserve it, no, They... They didnt deserve it. Please hear our prayers, they dont deserve to die your Grace, not like this... Please not like this"

Beelzebub tried to run away, to her own people, but was stoped by the god of natlan, what is the point? İt is in ruins now, it cannot be saved.

Her knees gave up as the harsh truth hit her, she promised her people a dream, a dream that their nation will reach eternity, live longer than gods and all the nations combined.

She saw yae just sitting near the shrine and enjoying tea, perhaps she didnt knew, but she doubted that she would do anything if she even did.

Kujou sara and sangonomia kokomi joined their powers to make sure the losses were minimum, but before they could even begin the plan...

She lost everything once again, what did morax say about you? How kind and forgiving you are? İf it were the case, why would you take everything from her for the 5th time?

"....i have failed.... Them..."

Before all of the gods got to the ground with a burning feeling accross their chest and their body, the god of justice turned to the painting of you and put her head on the ground,

"Your highness please, please forgive us and our followers for our sins, if the fault is ours we will pay it with our blood, but please... Don't take your anger from us, your followers, please dont destroy the world please PLEASE WE BEG OF YOU-"

"İt is futile...." Buer managed to speak, pain worsening by the second "they... c- cant hear us without.... Without the aid of our own world..."

"They're praying to us.. to THEM! We have t-to do something!!" Barbatos screamed, he was always there for his nation when they realy need it, he won't let it be the first time he wasn't!

He can feel the Tevat strugling to breath as all plantlife and elements are being corrupted.

He looked up from where he is, at your painting, you helped his people once, made them live another day, he was eternaly gratefull to you for it.

But why? Why are you taking back what you once gave without even thinking? İs this all a game to you? Do they even matter to you?

He listened to his followers last thoughts, they too were asking the same.

"All of them gave up their freedom for you, for you to explore this world to your hearts content. What made you so cruel to them?" Jean asked while trying to protect the last citizen of Mondstadt, despite her invisible limbs she kept on fighting nothingness, even if that meant angering you further.

They screamed untill their throaths bled, trying to get your attention in anyway possible, but you weren't paying them any mind. You were busy looking at another painting.

Untill they.. stoped.

As the deletion bar almost filled up, all of their pain seemed to vanish. Asking themselves;

Why... Why were they here?

They wanted to protect someone? Some... People? But how?

As far as they can remember, its always been them alone.

They were sad and angry but why? They cant even remember anymore.

As the last archon stood there to look at you, they could only say nonsense that theyre not even sure what it means;

"i hate you, creator"

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Quick scetch of the currently known archons being traumatised BC of us ;; (i always delete my game and re install BC of the update oop-)

Mfs trying to confort you about it but was too stuned to speak

#genshin sagau #i honestly feel bad for my characters now #sagau #sagau brainrot #sagau x reader #self aware genshin #genshin x you #genshin isekai #genshin impact sagau #sagau cult au #genshin x reader #genshin impact venti #genshin ei #genshin nahida #genshin zhongli

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i-cant-sing · 2 years

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Out of all the haikyuu teams, I think platonic yandere shiratorizawa would be scariest, followed very closely by nekoma. Shiratorizawa has a brick wall for a captain, an insane coach, and tendou. Tendou would be such an effective manipulator without even batting an eye. Nekoma has Kuroo, very intimidating and smart, although I think kenma would be the bigger threat. He likely has extensive knowledge of how to move through online spaces without being detected and making their darling disappear completely.

Sorry for the ramble haha, I love your work!

"Shiratorizawa has a brick wall for a captain-" You did not just call my baby Ushijima that😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

But I agree because you really can't predict what kind of mood Shiratorizawa is in, especially Ushijima. Like he's already so intimidating with his looks, and so when he's quite, you really don't know how he'd react if you asked him to let you go home early for once instead of watching them play. Sure, Ushijima sees you as a small frail kitten that he could never hurt, but he wont tell you that. You see, sometimes you ask for things that are too dangerous for you, like going out with some friends or leaving your dorms alone to get something from the convenience store. And so it's easier for Ushijima to just give you his intense stare, telepathically communicate that he disapproves and that you're only safe as long as you're with him or the team.

Then again, sometimes you do miss the hint. Not miss per say, but you actively choose to ignore it by pretending to play dumb when he remains silent. Its time like these that you really test your luck and tell him you're going out and zoom before Ushijima could give you the "The Look". However, Ushijima catches your hand before you could be two feet away and gives it a firm squeeze until you look at him, before saying in a deep voice "No." to really drive home the point. Then you're being dragged back to the bench, pushed down and he drops his lunch box in your lap, telling you to finish it before he finishes practice.

As for Tendou, lying comes very easy to him. He's a master manipulator, not just to you, but to everyone around him. Basically, he not only manipulates you into staying with the team longer, but he also manipulates the team into becoming more yanderes for you. In the shower room, he'd think out loud as he says that he heard that there's a murderer on the loose that preys upon young girls like you, or maybe he'd say that he heard from a girl that you feel so lost and stupid and scared when you're not the team but you're just to prideful to admit it. Surely, Tendou won't lie when it comes to you, right?

Washijo, the crazy coach you mentioned? Yeah, he's in on the whole thing. He's seen how terribly the team performs when you're not watching them, and when he mentioned it, they said they're all worried about you. So, he allows Semi to go and fetch you. Washijo thought that you were some sort of crush they wanted to impress, but it was crystal clear that the team viewed you as a little sibling with the way they treated you. So, he felt at ease knowing nothing perverted was happening to you and thus, he allowed them to bring you to practice and plays. The worst of all is that this old hag actually tells the team that you're trying to sneak out instead of keeping quiet and helping you. Not only that, he makes you sit and asks you volleyball questions and tsks in disappointment when you get them wrong, before agreeing that "fine. I'll tell you everything there is to know about volleyball" and you're just stick there like "???? I- I DONT WANNA KNOW-" shutup, Y/n, you a quiz tomorrow and you better be prepared or get ready for another disappointment speech by Washijo. Good thing you have the whole team to help you study🥰🥰🥰

The reason why Shiratorizawa is so scary is because they're one of the top teams, right? So, the school actually condones their behaviour. I mean, the coach explicitly told them to turn a blind eye because the team isn't hurting you, they're just protecting you. Washijo told them that if they interfered, the team wouldn't perform as well because they'd be distracted by your absence, and if Shiratorizawa let you change schools, then the team would pull out of the games altogether. Thus, the school is forced to look the other way when you're hounded by the team and pushed to the gymnasium. They turn deaf to all your complaints of them bullying you into staying at practice instead of letting you go home. They all ignore it, some teachers even going as far to say that you should be lucky that you have your seniors looking out for you.

#yandere Shiratorizawa #yandere ushijima x reader #yandere ushijima #yandere ushijima wakatoshi #yandere tendou #yandere haikyuu #ushijima wakatoshi #ushijima x reader #haikyuu ushijima #ushijima drabble #tendou x reader #tendou fluff

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justice-scenarios · 5 months

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Hello I hope you are have good day and if alright

I saw in your villain blog about a child who have a Batman backstory

And it gutted me 🥲 so much and I was wondering how the other hero’s reaction to tha, any hero will do

The heroes end up Adopt the Traumatized child

And now the child have fear of guns

Maybe a little bit of salt to wounds , how about the child looking exactly like child version Bruce , as in a spitting image of him ,

Damn you just wanna get hurt. Okay lol. I'm tempted to just do Batfamily but I'll try doing it with other heroes, too. Also, I'm not sure about adopting the kid, but they will have a close relationship.

Batman

Oh, so you wanna for him to relive his trauma?

The moment he sees it memories hit him and he freezes. It's like he sees the moment from Gordon's eyes.

But he gets himself together when he sees the kid. He needs to make sure they're okay.

Slowly hushes them and takes them away from the scene as he brings them to Gotdon.

Will visit them as Bruce for a talk so the kid knows he's not alone. Him adopting another traumatized kid doesn't suprises anyone, especially since the scene was too similar to his own.

Holds their hand when they're scared of gun in the movie. He understands them. Doesn't pushes until they want to get help with it.

Alfred

It's like a punch.

He only saw Bruce when he was at police station, so seeing how the crime scene looked before police got there was heart-wrenching.

And the kid. It's like seeing young Bruce again. He needs to get them out or he's gonna have heart attack.

Has hard time letting kid go at police station. He doesn't want them to be afraid. And doesn't want to ask Bruce to check on them, worried it'll open old wounds.

Once Bruce finds out, however, he wants to talk to the kid. He sees how Alfred takes care of them like he did with him. So he proposed to Alfred that he should adopt them since he's so worried.

Thinks he's too old but he does it eventually. Now he has little helper around the house.

Already hide his gun from Bruce so does the same for kid.

Flash

Just stops in his tracks.

He heard the cries and immediately runs towards just for it to shock him.

He want to take a kid away away but he knows it would just give them a shock, so he slowly comes closer.

Calmy talks to them, saying he will take them in a safe space.

Get kid to the nearest police station, telling officers what happened.

Changes his costume and goes to crime scene to do his job. Can't forget about the kid so he goes to meet them afterwards.

Superman

Kid doesn't want to talk so he tells them about how he found his mother and it seems to earn kid trust.

Sees how they turn eyes away from police guns so just tells them to not walk around kid with them.

Kid and him become pen pals, making them little less lonely.

He blames himself. How could he just hear it now? Why didn't he hear the man threatening them?

At the moment all he cares is to take care of a kid.

He hugs them taking them away. Kid doesn't want to be left so he doesn't argue.

Just talks to police to go to crime scene. Once therapist comes to talk to the kid they sit on his lap as he assures them.

When the kid almost cries when talking about gun he tells them not to worry. He can stop the bullet.

He visits the kid sometimes just to talk and check how they're doing.

#pati writes #batman x platonic!reader #bruce wayne x platonic!reader #alfred pennyworth x platonic!reader #flash x platonic!reader #barry allen x platonic!reader #superman x platonic!reader #clark kent x platonic!reader

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nikethestatue · 2 years

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Hi, Nike. How are you? :)

I had an argument with a gwynriel the other day (in real life, not online) and she was basically trying to convince me that Elriel is weird, uncomfortable, disgusting and wrong.

She couldn't give a reason as to why she thought that was besides the "they're like siblings" argument, which is not an argument at all in my opinion.

I didn't continue further the conversation because I didn't have the energy honestly and I try to keep my real life separate from my fandom/online presence, but I can't stop thinking how she could not see that gwynriel is all those things?(except disgusting, I don't like the ship, but I think that's going too far, idk) I mean Gwyn was being assaulted when Az rescued her. How can she and other gwynriels think that that's something that is normal and not weird or uncomfortable at all?

To me it would be the most icky and wrong relationship SJM could ever write.

Sorry for the rant. I just needed someone to vent my thoughts to.

Gwynriels needs to make up their minds:

Elriel has no build up

(yet they are 'weird, uncomfortable, disgusting and wrong') If there is no build up, then how can they be all those things?

They are like siblings!

(what siblings-like things did they ever do? Virtually every interaction that Elriel have are romantically-coded. From 'let me show you the garden' to 'why not make them mates?' to 'I am getting her back' to 'then you will die! I am getting her back' to carrying uninjured Elain while his wings are dripping blood, to 'he just moved' to potatoes, to 'I've never heard a sound so joyful' when he got his gift from Elain, to him WANTING TO EAT HER OUT)

Now, Cassian and Feyre ARE like siblings. They say stupid shit to each other all the time. Tease one another. She tells him she spat in his chicken. They get wasted together and drunk decorate the house. He trains her, she helps him out with Nesta and his romantic issues, but the relationship is never even remotely romantic and is definitely a friendship/sibling relationship.

Elain and Azriel are nowhere near like Feyre and Cassian together.

He only want Elain for sex!

If you wanna get laid, you don't usually wait a YEAR to get laid (longer, but let's go with a year). You don't AVOID the object of your affections. You don't respectfully give them space, so not to mess with their bond to another male. You don't gag at the scent of said bond. You don't lovingly stare at their gift. You don't worry about them and immediately ask 'what happened to Elain?" the moment she is mentioned.

And let's say we take away the Bonus chapter.

What is so weird, uncomfortable, disgusting and wrong about that relationship? What has he or she done with other another to say that their relationship is somehow unacceptable? Has he raped her? Lied to her? Used her for sex? Did she? Has she been caught sucking dick under the table? In ACOSF, a book that is filled with endless sex, people have the audacity to complain about ELRIEL??? The most chaste and respectful relationships of all? The extent of their 'disgusting' sexual deeds is him stroking her neck. That's it.

Also, you can't be in both camps: sibling and 'gross sexual perversions'.

They need to pick a hill to die on.

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scarfwrites · 2 years

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Making Your Big Debut Karasuno & Seijoh

❅Genre : Fluff, Crack

❅Pairings: Seijoh x FemReader (PLATONIC)

Karasuno x FemReader (PLATONIC)

❅Warnings: dark comedy becuz it's heathers, also not proofread

❅A/N : I have an unhealthy obsession with theatre and an unrealistic dream of being on stage. This is also insanely long but I enjoyed making it

REPOST FROM MY OLD BLOG

SPOILERS FOR HEATHERS AND SIX THE MUSICAL YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

Karasuno

You were in your room with Hinata and Yamaguchi. You recently just auditioned for the musical Heathers for the Japan cast. You got callbacks thrice and are now in the final callback. Currently you were having a mini heart attack whilst Yamaguchi and Hinata were trying to distract you.

“Hmm which role do you think they’ll give you” Hinata asks

“I don’t know, I auditioned for literally any role but like what if I don't get it?” you replied shaking

“I’m sure you’ll get one! But if they don’t give you one they’re missing out on a lot” Hinata said trying to cheer you up

“Well which role do you want it to be?” Yamaguchi asked

“I don’t know, I guess the lead? But I’ll be happy with any role” you replied

“I think you’ll be the yellow one! Or the blue one! They’re both sweet! The red one doesn’t fit you nor does the green one, they're too mean and bossy” Hinata said while you chuckle at his description of the characters.

“Even if they don’t fit Y/N’s personality it’s just acting so if she gets casted as those characters it just means she’s a great actor!” Yamaguchi said smiling at you

“Thanks both of you I feel a lot better” you said giving them a soft smile

The next day you were watching them practice as they usually do. You even decided to help out Yachi and Kiyoko.

“How’s your audition been going?” Kiyoko asked

“Good I guess but I still haven't heard from them” you sighed

“I’m sure you’ll get a role! You’re really good at singing and dancing” Yachi praised

“Thanks but I don’t wanna get my hopes too high” you said giving them a sad smile

“Are you still mopping over the stupid callback” Tsukishima said annoyed

“HEY! DON’T SAY THOSE STUFF ABOUT HER YOU’LL MAKE HER MORE DEPRESSED” Tanaka yelled

“HE’S RIGHT SHE DOESN’T EVEN HAVE TO BE SAD CUZ SHE’LL DEFINITELY GET IT” Nishinoya chimed in the yelling

“That’s enough of both of you” Daichi said annoyed

“No need to worry about it Y/N we’re all here for you” Suga smiled

“Thanks you guys” brightly smile at all of them

You hear a ringing sound in your pocket.

“I think it's the directors!” You whisper scream

“PICK IT UP” they whisper back

“Hello?” you said as they gave you a questioning look

“It is them!” you whisper

You went to the storage room as they all left quickly to give you space to talk to the directors

Whilst they were waiting outside the storage room inside the gym they couldn’t contain their nervousness for you.

“Bro what if she doesn’t get it” Noya said biting his fingernails

“WHAT ARE YOU SAYING OF COURSE SHE WILL” Tanaka yelled slapping sense to him

“THANKS BRO I NEEDED THAT” he yelled back

“Shhhhh what if they hear you! You're gonna ruin her interview” Suga whispered

“Oh right sorry” Noya and Tanaka said in unison

“They’d be really missing out if they don’t cast her” Tsukishima said nonchalantly

“I thought you said she was mid” Kageyama said narrowing his eyes

“Shut up king I didn’t say that” Tsukishima scowled

“WHY YO—” Kageyama was quickly interrupted by you slamming the door open with the mix look of distraught and confusion on your face

“So did you get it?” Hinata asked nervously as the room went silent

You started crying which made everyone panic

“I SWEAR THEY WILL SEE OUR WRATH” Suga yelled pulling you in a tight hug

“WHERE ARE THEY IM GONNA KILL THEM” Noya and Tanaka said in unison

“Everyone calm down” Asahi said nervously but was quickly ignored

“Guys I’m not crying cuz I didn’t get the part” you said wiping your tears

They all looked at you with confusion

“I didn’t even say if I got it or not” you continue

“Will you stop beating around the bush and tell us” Tsukishima said annoyed as Suga elbowed him

“Sorry I was so happy I got the part that I cried” you nervously laugh

“YAY YOU GOT IT” Hinata cheered as he hugged you

“You not getting a role would’ve been more surprising” Kagayema chuckled

“SEE WE TOLD YOU” Tanaka and Noya jumped in joy

“Which role did you get” Kiyoko asked

“Oh right! They told me I got Heather McNamara the yellow one” you explained

“See! I told you the yellow one was the one for you!” Hinata said cheerfully

“I mean I can’t really imagine Y/N being the red one” Asahi chuckled

“It would’ve been fun seeing the red one telling Y/N to shut up though” Tsukishima grinned at you

“Why don’t you shut up” you scowled

“Alright settle down” Daichi said, getting in between both of you and Tsukishima. “I think this calls for a celebration. Why don’t we go take a bite somewhere?” Daichi continued

“YEAH!” You all say excitingly

After practice you all went to a restaurant for a “victory feast”. The next couple of months were spent rehearsing for the musical. Rehearsals weren’t open to watch no matter how much they begged or when you asked for consideration the team couldn’t watch which bummed them a lot. Though that didn’t stop them from asking you to sing the songs you sang or steal the script of the lines you were supposed to act.

“You guys I need the script to rehearse tomorrow I almost forgot it earlier” you scold

“Sorry we just really wanted to see” Hinata said sadly looking very adorable in the process

You swear he’s doing this on purpose

“Please don’t make that face” you said trying not to get persuaded by him

“Just one song please” he begged getting on his knees

“We’ll get on our knees too” Noya said pulling Tanaka with him

“You guys if she doesn’t want to do it then she doesn’t have to” Suga scolded lightly as they all look down in sadness

“Thanks Suga” you smile

“Though I wouldn’t mind if you did show us lines or songs” he smiled innocently as you sigh

“It’s just one song are you that afraid of sounding that bad in front of us” Tsukishima looked at you condescendingly

“Fine challenge accepted” you smirked at him

You then sang your own rendition of Lifeboat which was your main solo in the musical. You also did the lines before your solo. Short but had a lot of emotions accompanied by your soothing voice. As you finish you look at them and see them tearing up and Tsukishima looking like they’re about to cry.

“Woah you guys that’s not even me giving my all” you chuckled

“WHAT?!? YOU PUT SO MUCH EMOTION IT MADE ME CRY” Noya yelled

“I guess it’s cuz she’s a really great actor” Yamaguchi smiled

“She’s also got a great voice” Kageyama chimed in

“It even made Tsukishima cry” Hinata pointed out

“What the hell are you saying? I’m not crying” Tsukishima said looking away to hide his tears

“Doesn’t matter you did great” Daichi said patting your back

“Aww thanks you guys” you smiled brightly

A few months of rehearsals later it was time to make your big debut which thankfully was on the weekends so the whole team could come. You were currently in your dressing room getting ready as the show was in an hour. Saying that they were excited was an understatement. It was as if Hinata multiplied or shared his energy with everyone

“I'M SO EXCITED BRO ARE YOU” Tanaka exclaimed

“YES WE FINALLY GET TO SEE Y/N ON STAGE PERFORMING” Nishinoya said nodding in agreement

“You guys already saw me perform on stage before though” you sighed

“Yeah but not this musical!” Hinata cheered

“C'mon guys we need to go to the seats after all shows about to start in ten minutes” Daichi said pulling them aside

“Don't forget to break a leg” Suga smiled

“Thanks I'm still pretty nervous” you said sheepishly

“You'll do great stop worrying or you’re gonna do awfully” Tsukishima said annoyed getting elbowed by Suga in the process

“The show's about to begin everyone get ready” you hear the intercom say

“That's our cue to leave” Daichi stated

“See you later Good luck Y/N!” Tadashi yelled getting outside

“Goodluck!” The rest of the team say in unison whilst getting outside you smiled at their sweetness

The show started with the opening number Beautiful. The team was waiting for when you'd show up luckily as they thought that you showed up during the heathers introduction part in beautiful

| Heather McNamara head cheerleader her dad is LOADED! He sells engagement rings |

They cheered very loudly to the point where you couldn't hide your huge smile. The support they gave you almost made you cry. After the song ended it's time for Candy Store which was the main song of the Heathers

| Course if you don't care, fine! Go braid her hair maybe Sesame Street is on |

They were amazed by your harmonies, your dancing and acting. Sure they've seen you dance, act and sing but despite the first show they saw how you really gave your everything.

A moment they never forgot was Never Shut Up Again because your character was moving around very meekly. They couldn't help but smile at your adorableness. Especially when Heather Duke slammed the locker on your face

| We can't just swap her like a light bulb you awkwardly laugh shut up heather you said nervously |

| NO HEATHER YOU SHUT UP |

There were the next songs where it mostly was the other characters' parts. But then came the part where you really shined lifeboat

| And I'm like Jesus I'm on the freaking bus again cuz all my rides to school are dead |

It was supposed to be kinda sad but the way you acted was too funny to them. The laugh ended quickly when you started your solo

| Everyone's pushing everyone's fighting |

| Storms are approaching there's nowhere to hide |

| If I say the wrong thing or wear the wrong outfit |

| They'll throw me right over the side |

| I'm hugging my knees |

| And the captain is pointing |

| Well who made HER captain |

| Still the weakest must go |

The performance was so much more different compared to the sample you gave. They felt chills and heard the sadness in your voice and acting.

They noticed your character changed from being one of the mean girls to a meek girl who desperately wanted to stay afloat or in other words a cinnamon roll. You didn't have any major parts in the rest of the play apart from the cheerleading.

| Hey yo Westerberg tell me what's that sound? |

| Here comes Westerberg comin' to put you on the ground |

“Dude she's in a cheerleading outfit” Tanaka said staring at you

“I know right dude” Nishinoya said also eyeing you

“Calm your horniness down” Daichi said smacking them

The last song Seventeen reprise made them cry. It was basically a happy ending for everyone. Suffice to say the time where you bowed you heard them cheer loud to the point where you were concerned that the ushers would get mad.

Then came stage dooring which was basically when the actors do like a meet and greet. You got a lot of support from the people who were watching which made your heart flutter. But boy did it not compare to the support the team gave you

“WOOOO YOU WERE SO GREAT” Hinata cheered as you quickly shush him

“Guys not so loud we might get in trouble” you scold

“Pfft they can try to stop us” Tanaka said cracking his knuckles

“Well we also don't want her to get scolded” Asahi said worriedly

“Oh right” Tanaka said

“Anyways you were amazing” Suga said smiling at you

“Yeah it even made Tsuki cry earlier” Yamaguchi said excitedly but got elbowed by Tsukishima in the process

“Shut up” Tsukishima scowled

“Well this time I would actually agree with him for once” Kageyama smiled at you

“Aww thanks” you blush as you scratched the back of your neck

“How bout we go have a feast on me” you continued

“YEAH! FOR Y/N!” they all yelled

“Will you keep it down” the usher scolded

“Sorry” you said nervously as you pushed them out of the building.

They may be rough or hard headed but you still thought of them as family.

Seijoh

You were currently in your room with the third years practising for your audition for Six which recently started opening auditions. They were helping you to find songs to sing for your audition.

“Which role are you even gonna choose anyways?” Matsun asked

“I don’t know any role is honestly fine with me” you replied

“It’d be much easier if you could pick a role and have a song that corresponds to that role” Iwaizumi stated

“Yeah I guess you’re right you sighed thinking of which role” you wanted

You loved all the roles and wouldn’t mind getting any but if you had to be specific.

“I guess Seymour, Howard or Parr?” You said thinking out loud

“Cool choices if I knew who those were” Maki deadpanned

“The grey one, the pink one or the blue one” you scoff

“Aren’t those the ones with the most depressing songs” Matsun said

“I wouldn’t call it depressing per se it’s more of emotional” you explain

“Then we gotta pick like an angsty song” Oikawa said looking through your options

“How about this one” Iwaizumi said holding the song

Oh that's a good one! you said excitedly

We'll just need to find one more! you continued

Alright let's get to it Oikawa said

After the audition you got a callback. So you needed to practise for the next callbacks which were for singing, dancing and a bit of acting with the actual script. Though it was hard to take it seriously when Oikawa was being very over dramatic reading the script whilst the other third years making comments on how bad he's doing.

“Stop taking Y/N script it’s her audition not yours” Maki said annoyed

“I’m helping her audition” Oikawa scowled

“Your not helping her you’re being so fucking overdramatic” Iwaizumi complained

“Yeah I’m glad she’s the one auditioning and not you” Matsun sighed in relief

“YOU ALL ARE SO MEAN” Oikawa said annoyed

“Alright settle down you guys I still have to practice just so you know” you sighed

“Alright continue” Maki said

You continued trying out the other songs for your auditions and the others tried helping you with criticism on your acting. Of course they weren’t experts but their support and criticism was greatly appreciated. You then sang their respective solos using the music the directors gave you.

“Wow Y/N-chan I'm in tears” Oikawa said dramatically

“Oh shut up you're literally ruining the moment” Maki scowled

“I mean he's right about how great your acting was though” Matsun chimed in as Oikawa smirked

“Thanks you guys but I'll need more practice to make it my own role” you smile

“Good luck” then Iwaizumi smiled patting your head

After a few more auditions you received callbacks for Seymour and Howard so you opted to practice on their songs and how you'd play the character.

“See Y/N-chan I knew you could do it! You got three callbacks already” Oikawa exclaimed

“They just realized how great you are” Maki smiled smugly

“Thanks but I don't wanna sound overconfident after all there's multiple other locations to audition” you said worriedly

“If they won't let you get the part we'll send Iwaizumi” Matsun chuckled

“I'll do it only for her because she deserves it” Iwaizumi scoffed as the others smiled at him teasingly only for them to be chased around the room the rest of the day.

The next day you went to the gym to help out with the team. A thank you for the help they gave you with the auditions.

“Oh Y/N! How's the last callback been going?” Yahaba asked

“It went really well! I think it's one more final callback?” you smiled

“Goodluck to you then, hope you get it” Kunimi nonchalantly said giving you a thumbs up

“You must be nervous it's a pretty big show and you're at the finals” Kindaichi said giving you a soft smile

“I'd be lying if I wasn't really nervous” you chuckled

“Cmon Y/N-chan believe in yourself and you can accomplish anything” Oikawa winked

“Does anyone have a barf bag” Maki scowled

“Go to the cafeteria and get a paper bag” Matsun chuckled

“You all really have to ruin the moment” Oikawa deadpanned

“You ruined the moment when you interrupted her while she was singing” Iwaizumi scoffed

“I was proud of her so I clapped!” Oikawa gasped

“Hey stop this senseless banter you all still need to practice you know” you reprimanded as they all sigh

“Alright Captain Y/N” they said in unison but before they were about to practice interrupted by your phone ringing

“Hello?” You answered

Everyone was looking at you worriedly until your call finished

“I'm in the finals” you said quietly you didn't know what to think or how to feel

“WHAT REALLY? THIS MEANS YOU'RE GONNA GET IT” Oikawa yelled excitedly only to get smacked by Iwaizumi

“No dumbass she still needs one more audition” Iwaizumi scowled

“Well at least if she doesn't get it she made into the finals” Matsun chimed in

“They'd be missing out though if they didn't cast her” Maki said

“Did they tell you which role they really want you to play” Kunimi asked

“Oh yeah they said Howard no go and they really want me to be Seymour” you smiled

“Well good luck with that” Kyotani muttered as everyone looked at him in surprised

“Oh uh thank you?” you blush

“Wha– did he just- I-” Oikawa said trying to process everything

“I NEED TO PRACTICE SOME MORE” you said running out of the gym

“Wait! Y/N you still have school” Yahaba sighed

“Oh right” you laugh

The next few days were working your ass off to win the audition. You practiced being her character and her solo as much as possible though you did take breaks as you didn't want to lose your voice or get too tired to audition.

You were now at the audition room looking around to see the other people who wanted to be there. You felt very intimidated. You sadly look down and think, Will I really get it? These girls seem much more talented than me. Plus the other locations you looked like you were about to cry but you remembered that the others though maybe silly they worked hard to help you get to this point so you continued on for them.

“So how was the final audition” Matsun asked

“It went well I think? They were really moved by the song” you softly smile

“Of course! You weren't at your full potential when you first sang the song yet it still made me cry” Oikawa cheered

“Thanks you guys but still one more call before I get into the show if I even get it” you sadly look down

“Cmon don't be such a Debbie Downer we know you can do it” Maki gave a reassuring smile

“Yeah I can't imagine anyone playing the role other than you” Iwaizumi smiled as you blush

“I think this calls for a group hug” Oikawa said happily as everyone except him were in a group hug

“HEY WHAT ABOUT ME!?” Oikawa yelled

“Fine come here you dork” you smiled

“I'm not a dork but fine” Oikawa scoffed

You all heard ringing from your phone

“Isn't that your phone” Matsun said

“Yeah… it's the directors” you silently panic

“Pick it up and whatever happens we'll be there for you” Iwaizumi smiled

“Wow what a softy” Maki teased receiving a glare from Iwaizumi

“Alright” you said picking up the phone

A few minutes later after they left your room

“God what is taking so long” Oikawa complained

“Not as long as you take in the shower” Iwaizumi scowled as the other two laughed

“GUYS I GOT IT! I GOT IT!” you yelled at the top of your lungs

“CONGRATS!” they all yell in unison then they all pull you into a tight hug

“Thanks you guys for everything” you smiled as you cried

“No prob save those tears when you're in the show” Matsun said wiping your tears

“Yeah you're gonna be doing that a whole lot” Maki chuckled

“Let's go for lunch on me tomorrow” you smiled

“Alright!” they said in unison

The day after you took them for lunch. The others in the team congratulated you even the angry dog which made you smile brightly. The next few months were rehearsals where you acted and sung with your co-workers which was very fun. The third years besides Iwaizumi tried sneaking in to watch but quickly got caught and got reprimanded by both the security and Iwaizumi. You laughed your ass off when they told you about it.

It was now opening night which made you very nervous as it was your first time performing in this show. You were currently getting your makeup done after fitting your costume.

“Woah you look so good in that costume” Kindaichi praised

“Aww thanks the costume itself is really beautiful” you smiled

“And fitting!” Oikawa smiled

“You still would’ve looked good in the other costumes though” Matsun said

“This costume fits her the best though” Maki said as Matsun nodded in agreement

“Everyone get ready we’re gonna start in six minutes the intercom” stated

“Well guess we have to go to our seats now” Matsun sighed

“Goodluck Y/N-chan! Break a leg!” Oikawa smiled

“Yeah good luck!” they all said before leaving

The show started with the opening Ex-Wives which was where they described each wife of Henry the 8th. You were the third wife Jane. During your parts you heard very loud cheering from the team which made you smile.

| Jane Seymour the only one he truly loved |

| Rude! |

| When my son was newly born, I died |

| But I’m not what I seem or am I? |

| Stick around and you’ll suddenly see more |

The mom jokes and puns that your character made were hilarious and made them laugh their ass off. You smiled brightly on the inside on how they were enjoying the show. The next songs were mainly the other queens solos so it was mostly you dancing but it still amazed them on how great you were. Then it came to your solo Heart of Stone which was Jane's message to Henry about her unconditional love no matter how bad he was to the other queens. Though it was the song you sang the most, you tried hiding your full potential from them so this would be the first time they’d see you give your everything.

| You can build me up |

| You can tear me down |

| You can try but I’m unbreakable |

| You can do your best |

| But I’ll stand the test |

| You’ll find that I’m unshakable |

The last part where you belt your heart out had them in tears. It was emotional and your soothing voice did not help them from pouring their eyes out. You got a very loud standing ovation from the audience after the song which made you much more confident and less nervous.

| Cuz what hurts more than a broken heart? |

| A severed head |

They laughed a lot from that joke. The next few songs were you dancing apart from Haus of Holbein until you got to the lines during the prologue before All You Wanna Do.

| When my ONE and ONLY child had a raging fever Henry wouldn’t let me her MOTHER se– |

| OH BOOHOO! Maybe Mary had the chickenpox and you weren’t there to hold her hand well, it's funny because when I wanted to hold my NEWBORN SON I DIED! |

| And Jane, dying of natural causes |

| WHEN WILL JUSTICE BE SERVED! |

They laughed their asses off at that part as your acting was top notch hilarious. You had some more hilarious lines after All You Wanna Do which was a weird shift from how sad and emotional the song was.

| So true when you died your son did have to grow up without a mother– |

| OH WAIT! That was me and no one cared when you died! |

Then came the prologue of I don’t need your love which was when Parr confronts everyone about how comparing their lives was very messed up.

| Well we’re here in front of all these people going like OOH let see what gets the biggest cheer trauma or abuse WOOO! Should we really be doing this? |

| I mean we’ve literally been doing that for the last hour so you said nonchalantly |

Then came I don't need your love the remix when you all sing together. Then after came six which was all of you retelling your lives in a happy ending. Of course your character with the jokes and puns.

| We’re one of a kind no category

Too many years lost in history

We’re free to take our crowning glory

For five more minutes

WE’RE SIX |

Then it finally came to an end with the MegaSix which was a song they were able to record. Which was hilarious as Oikawa tried filming the show earlier but an usher came in and stopped him as he was literally at front row.

| You can -LOL |

| You can -SAY OH WELL |

| You can try but I’m unbreakable |

| All you wanna– Do your best |

| But I’ll stand the test |

| You’ll find that I’ve |

| Got a Heart of Stone |

Then the show ended and all you bowed as you all got a massive standing ovation. You then went out to stagedoor greeting all the fans and getting their unconditional support but you smiled brightly seeing the team waiting for you.

“So what did you all think” you smiled

“I don’t know how fantastic you were!” Oikawa cheered

“Yeah you made everyone cry during your solo” Yahaba chuckled

“Even the mad dog and Iwaizumi were moved” Maki smirked

“Shut up” Iwaizumi and Kyotani said in unison

“Aww thanks I’m flattered” you chuckled as you blush

“Oikawa tried filming earlier didja see that” Matsun laughed

“Yeah it was very clear and I got scolded after the show for it” you glared at Oikawa

“Oops” Oikawa nervously laughed

“I’ll kill him for you” Iwaizumi said cracking his knuckles as Oikawa looked at him mortified

“Maybe later let’s just go out to eat, I'm starving!” you said holding your stomach. You were glad you had such a big family who would always support you no matter what.

MASTERLIST

Here are the main songs that Y/N sung ironically also my favorites from their respective musical

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saltysandycandy · 1 year

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Happy Valentines Day to my dearest Zen !

He means so much to me, I've said this before but he's always there for me, playing his route always makes my week and his calls seem to solve all my problems. Heck, sometimes I'll listen to his calls just for good luck because they always seem to work! It might totally just be crazy coincidences but I choose to believe that it's his presence in my life that makes it so much better.

It's been a little bit over a year since I found him and my love for him is stronger than ever. There's a few things about Zen that makes me like him so much, I think the first is just that he's relatable. His passion towards his career is something that deeply comforts me and his dedication and hardwork for something he loves is something that I think we both share. I absolutely love the fact that he had a dream since he was a child and worked his butt off to achieve it and prove himself. He deserves to be so proud of himself. He has absolutely earned his "narcissisism", if you can even call it that.

Secondly, I love how energetic and extroverted he is. As an introvert, most people might think that hanging out around extroverts is really tiring because they tend to drain your social battery. I think it actually has more to do with compatibility, some of my bestest friends are extroverts and I love being around them, I also find it easy because they're the ones who find things to talk about and I don't have to stress out about not being social enough. I think the same goes with Zen, I adore his enthusiasm, I love his extroverted tendencies because I know that its something that'll make the relationship easier.

I also know for a fact that Zen is someone who takes boundaries very seriously.

"...But I don't like people touching me or taking pictures of me"

"Why do they keep trying to touch me if I'm pretty? Why do they bother me?"

Since he was a child and even now as a public figure, he knows how important it is to respect boundaries, his and also of other people. He knows how uncomfortable it is when boundaries are not respected and if you're someone he loves, he's the type of person to do anything in his power to make you feel safe and comfortable.

Even if you need space, I know he'll understand that.

Third, this is kind of common sense but I just wanted to mention it still, He is THE sweetest. He's such a caring and kind person. Not just in his route, but in most of them, he is super protective, mostly towards MC but also towards the other RFA members. I think his friendship with Jaehee, Seven, his "younger brother" relationship with Yoosung, and his "older sister" behaviour towards MC is more than enough evidence for his empathy. His relationship with Jumin is a whole another thing though lol but still, in his route, after he understands where Jumin is coming from and learns to accept help and support from his Family, the RFA, he makes efforts to fix their relationship. And even otherwise, there are times when you can find him worrying for the others, including Jumin. What a darling.

Lastly, this guy is like INSANELY TALENTED (and super pretty like look at him omg)??? He can sing, dance, act, play the piano and take over my heart... Ahhh I love him so much.

Honestly I could go on forever, this is the shortest I could do... If you actually read this far, wow... uhh thank you? This was mostly sort of a valentine's day rant about how much I love Zen lol. I do really appreciate you reaching this far down my post, so I wanna give you a thank you gift.

This is a thing I made for myself, I wasn't really planning to put it anywhere but here I am lol.

(A picture of my beloved Zenny being a dork)

#mystic messenger #otome game #saeranmysticmessenger #707mysticmessenger #mystic messenger zen #mystic messenger yoosung #zen mystic messenger #hyun ryu #mysme #mysme zen #valentine's 2023 #valentine's day #the loml

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irastayshome · 5 months

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Change requires courage, but not changing doesn't signify the lack of it. There are reasons beyond what my own thoughts can rationalise as to why I can't bring myself to hire a maid.. or continue in this job.. or move in with my parents.. or finally admit I am now single and behave like it.

A book I've been trying to read - keyword 'trying' because my mind can't seem to focus on anything cognitive for long these days - had a profound perspective. The unconscious mind has wisdom far beyond what the conscious mind dictates. If I were to give voice to some of these wisdom, it would sound so odd and misplaced, maybe even stupid. Like if I were to say that I do not wish to hire a maid to solve the daily struggle I have in getting enough sleep before going to work the next day because I was up doing dishes and laundry.. and justify it by my assertion that this space, confined by the walls that witnessed his decline and his demise and our arguments and our reconciliations and all the quiet moments that could easily be lost and swept away in memory.. it is sacred.

I know we do not bring anything or anyone to the ground with us when it is our time. To Him we belong and to Him we return. But allowing a stranger to step in, clean the mess and carnage left behind, someone who has no idea the significance of every receipt or broken household item or anything else one might sensibly decide to throw away without question.. it is too risky. We are still in a bubble.. where the slightest curve in the breeze makes us all unhinged and anxious about when it will all pop. When he will fully be gone from our lives.. when we will finally be forced to move on, even if we aren't ready to let go. How else would I explain all that sensibly, other than how I just did? It sounds like big allegories that may seem empty, but it really isn't.. not for me. Its even more concrete and real to me than a simple "a maid would solve all your sleep and caregiving struggles". The unconscious mind has a far more powerful effect on the will than the conscious mind. Its wisdom commands more respect than most of us are willing to give.

The job.. it's just a job honestly. Its for bills, and for escape, and for some semblance of achievement to keep me from spiraling into despair. But if I'm being truly honest, it's also to fight the loneliness I feel deep in my core. Not the kinda loneliness that makes me wake up heart racing after dreaming about being kissed so passionately and embraced so intensely that it broke my heart a little when I literally woke to reality - though this kind of loneliness I must admit is getting a little too much for comfort. The loneliness I feel deep down is not having anyone to hear what I feel about the genocide in Palestine, or about the political satire in PAP lately, or about my worries for AI taking over, or what I honestly feel about my 6 Yr old falling "in love" with his classmate. Its having a mate.. to laugh with, to muse with, to watch things you don't wanna watch alone with. Someone who just gets you, and accepts you wholly, and calls you out when necessary because they want you to win.. while they're right beside you.

So, in that manner, no. This job does not fight off this loneliness. It drains my bank accounts even more because my impaired mind keeps making lots of financial and ethical blunders, costing us so much more than if I were just unemployed. In terms of achievement and helping the less fortunate, nothing feels satisfying when your own house is on fire and you're not able to save your own family first. That's just how it is for me. Those boys are more important than anything else in the world now, and I'm completely replaceable at work, but not at home.

Sigh. Who are these musings even for. Are you reading this yang, somehow? You've always hated long texts from me.. why would you start liking it now right.. I really do feel like I'm going crazy sometimes.

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stitchthesewords · 2 years

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Have I already screamed at you on discord? Yes, yes I have. Will that stop me from screaming here, too? No, no it shall not. Anyway. AAAAAAAAAAA??? YOU UPDATED TWO CHAPTERS WHILE I WAS AT WORK AND NOW I GOT TO READ THEM <3

Grian's guilt about killing someone. Haha moral dilemma <3

Grian looking at the sun, rookie mistake honey. It's okay, tho, we all do it once <3 ALSO SHOPPING TRIP SHOPPING TRIP YESSSS "you look terrible in Mumbo's clothes" FAMOUS LAST WORDS OF A FOOL. A FOOL. Also just. Grian running into Scar multiple times. Why do I get the feeling it's a good thing Mumbo wasn't there LMAO

The skirt. <3 That is all.

Scar making the way to his personal spaces the most difficult to reach place as possible, hjfglksdghjkfdkl magic and wings will come in handy lmao-

Mumbo popping in just to find Grian asleep LMAO he doesn't trust the birb </3 yet. Hmm hmmmm-

May I just reiterate that I LOVE that you gave Scar a tree house. A literal tree house. I love it <3 Season 9 references my beloved <3 AND THE VAULT. MUMBO IS BUILDING THE VAULT. HE'S GONNA MOVE INTO THE VAULT AND THEY'RE BOTH GONNA FEEL BETTER BECAUSE HE'LL BE SAFE AND STILL HAVE ACCESS TO SCAR"S TREE I'M-

Ren my beloved. That is all. <3

Hmhmm "hasn't done anything because it hasn't hurt him yet" I wonder if that's foRESHADOWING HUH. Also I didn't mention this before but I love the reference to the king's claims LMAO-

HJFDLKKJFSDJKFSJK the feeding scene, I still LOVE the imagery of that anjflkdsfghjds boYS YOU'RE IN LOVE "too intimate and enticing" Mumbo you are literally two fangs away from kissing Scar's palm you are knEELING in front of him hOLDING HIS HAND and I'm so, they're so hhh <3 and the fact they've done this SO MANY TIMES I'M SO I'm so normal about this I am just. So normal <3 Mildly wrecked but so normal <3

LMAO Mumbo is so worried I love them- I s2g I'm just so hjfjkdjkdf and I FORGOT TO MENTION HOW Scar just changed his desk into a chair for Mumbo and Mumbo didn't even BLINK I am. Hhhh OOOO SCAR rejuvenating his magic I see I see 👀👀

Anyway of course amazing way to end my night thank you so much for writing <3 AND GOOD LUCK ON THE FRIENDS' GIFTSSSS

ASDFGHJK Discord is discord and the tumblr Askbox is in another dimENSION-

I WROTE 5K TODAY I AM - Hnngh its a good thing im taking a break EVEN IF i wanna keep writing

Cant wait to get Grian alone with his thoughts and feelings when he isnt exhausted TBFH that man is going THROUGH IT you dont even KNOW

I want you to know the E N T I R E time I was writing that I kept thinking about Grian getting ditracted by fairy lights in midnight like 'well what is the sun if not a giant, eye damaging fairy light' AND SHOPPING TRIP YES I mightve. maybe. made myself fall in love w my shopping district im. WHERE IS MY HAND TAILORED CLOTHING. Also like. Scar you FOOL! YOU NUMSKULL!!! I AM GOING TO MAKE YOU RUE THE DAY YOU LITTLE ELVEN MAN its fine im fine we're fine asdfghj Also YES bc what is bumping into someone if not an excuse to try to pickpocket them if you're. ya know. a paranoid weirdo like Mumbo.

THE SKIRT MY BELOVED i want that skirt. Academia vibes

Scar accidentally forgetting that hes fucking disabled and just being like "HA WOOOO give me a sec i think im dying *wheezes at the top of the stairs* im so cool and intimidating are you intimidated grian" and Grian is half bent over with just like a thumbs up lmaooooooo

Scar: Okay fine you can show up and check in if it'll make you feel better Mumbo: i will and it can. I didn't need your permission anyway

ASDFGHJK I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE VAULT I NEED TO WATCH MUMBOS VIDEOS SO I CAN FIGURE OUT WTF HE'S ACTUALLY DOING WITH IT AND MORPH IT TO MY NEEDS AND WHIMS And also yeeees the tree is my beloved leave it to scar to build a mega base for a starter and then run off to build disneyland of COURSE i had to sneak it in

Ren <3

HM. HM HM HM. HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM Also yes I was trying to figure out "how do i put ren's head on this building bc he cant just detach it for funsies rn"

I am so very normal about how Mumbo feeds. I love how Mumbo is like both a Cartoon vampire [cant see his feet because it blends into shadow, he melts away into the night] and like a sexy vampire [literally staring into the eyes of the man he loves while he drinks his blood in a way that's like one step off from me having to mark the story as fucking explicit lmao] and Scar is also just sitting there like "I am Totally Normal About This and have No Feelings Whatsoever" WERE ARE AND WILL BE GAY!!!!! PLEASE!!!! I KNOW I DID THIS TO MYSELF BUT JUST KISS HIM and pull his hair a lil

IMAGINE IF YOU WILL FOR A MOMENT YOU ARE MUMBO! Yesterday you found a strange man inside your completely sealed off vault of important records and documents which, i should mention, includes BOTH of your and scar's equivalent to BIRTH CERTIFICATES AND SOCIAL SECURITY CARDS [we'll get there] and Scar is just like "Seems legit, love a good mystery, im keeping him." And you just have to sit there because hes your BOSS and he BAAAAAAAAAARELY has any power over you but theres JUST THAT SMIDGEN. JUST THE SMIDGEN RIGHT THERE - ALSO YES!!!!!!!!!! SCAR JUST!!!! MOVING HIS HOUSE AROUND! REDECORATING so your vampire can sit down I am already deeply in love w scar's magic and i havent even really DONE anything with it I am so-

<3 <3 <# THANKS MY HANDS ARE GONNA FALL OFF

#Mumscarian #Mumscarian Rift AU #hermitshipping #Ask #Rift Asks

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literaryobsession · 2 years

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back up || bakugo x reader

summary: you start questioning yourself.

warning: slight implications of depression and anxiety

first part: home

It has been a few days ever since you let Bakugo back in your life. The ProHero took the role seriously, although you can see he was trying hard not to coddle you too hard.

You've also recently let your friends back in your life and somehow, you knew Bakugo warned them beforehand about how you are and how to approach you. Many of them would send you messages, informing you that they're there for you if you want to rant, vent, or maybe even to hang out. You appreciated their offers, replying to them that you were thankful to have them back and you would try and meet up with them soon.

For now, you wanted to settle in your life and find something to do other than sleep the entire day off.

But it was difficult, there were days when you didn't feel the need to get up, you didn't even bother eating in some meal times, and you would also shut off for a few hours when the attention from your friends seem too overwhelming.

You wanted to be thankful that even after years of severing ties with them, they still accept you as you are but they were not the problem. The problem was you feeling sorry for yourself, to the point where their achievements seem to demean the efforts you were giving. You were a ProHero too, why weren't you as popular? As successful as they are?

You are happy for your friends. That was something you can honestly say, but at the same time, you were looking down at yourself for not reaching the same goals that was set out for you as ProHeroes.

And sometimes you wonder if it was valid.

"You in here?" You heard the door to your apartment open, and you immediately sat up from your bed realizing it was Bakugo. "Oy Y/N, where are you?"

He was quick to find you, knowing about your times of shrinking back to your safe space. Bakugo knocked on your bedroom door, softly unlike the loud question he had for you earlier. "You okay?"

"I'm okay. Don't worry." You managed to say. You didn't want to worry him by your petty troubles. He had so many things to worry about, so many more important issues.

"Can I sit with you?" He asked after a few minutes of silence. When you didn't reply, he took that as a yes. Bakugo opened your door cautiously, approaching you carefully as though he didn't want you to recoil from him. You've never turned him away in his attempts to be there for you, and you know he'd never really insist if you said you wanted to be alone.

Bakugo brought with him the usual lunchbox of his cooking, food he prepared for you because he doesn't trust the nutrition in fast food and he says he makes better tasting food than famous restaurants.

He sat across you, before unpacking the lunchbox. "Wanna eat? I made-,"

"No appetite."

You could see the crease between his eyebrows but he simply asked, "If I eat, would you eat with me?" Receiving no answer, he started eating small bits and pieces of the food he made, alternating between feeding you large bites and giving himself smaller portions. He was quiet, not wanting to tread into places you would not give him permission to visit.

You saw how patient he was, how he was so consistent about being there for you, that you wanted to help him understand. You wanted to let him in, to let him help you so you finally told him, "I know this can get petty. I'm sorry for even unloading everything to you, for bothering you."

He frowned deeply but was listening.

"I just realized how far you guys have gone, how you guys reached your dreams." You can feel your tears prickling your already sore eyes, "Sometimes I wish I could also be as amazing and as great as everyone else. That all the milestones you guys have reached, I could reach too. You're all beloved ProHeroes now and where am I? Stuck in the same place." You tried to finish your words, even as your voice cracked several times because you wanted to cry.

You knew you have to heal on your own, but you honestly don't know where to start.

"I happen to think you're doing pretty well, Y/N." He answered, putting the food down. Bakugo moved closer, cupping your face and wiping your tears with his thumb. "I feel that way with Deku too, so I can tell you that whatever it is that you're feeling, that is natural. It is natural to see and wonder if we could achieve what other people achieved, especially those of our own age."

You nodded, finally buckling in the pressure building inside of you. You've been holding this in for years and you finally found a person to tell.

The entire thought was always heavy on your shoulders, dragging you down the abyss that you've already found yourself in.

"But we are not in competition with other people, really." Bakugo's lips twisted into a small smile. It took him years to accept this fact, that Deku or Todoroki weren't competing with him. They never were. "My only competition is with myself. Am I better than who I was yesterday? That's the only goal. And hell, you are doing so much better than when we first saw each other."

"I did gain weight because of your food." You gave him a teary chuckle and he grinned.

"That's true. Plus the damn fact that you let us in, that's great." Bakugo pressed his lips on your forehead, "Celebrate your wins for the day, nothing is too little." He kissed the tip of your red nose, "You got up. You ate dinner. You smiled. You told me what was bothering you. Those are steps you're taking to be a better version of yourself." Then he gave you a quick but sweet kiss on the lips, giving your arms goosebumps.

It felt lighter now.

You didn't know why but it did.

"And you're not bothering me. Never bothering me." Bakugo pulled you to his strong form, enveloping you with the warmth he was always known for. "Tell me, okay? I got you."

"Is it a weakness?"

"What?"

"To ask for help?"

His grip tightened around you, "The strongest heroes know when to ask for back up."

#boku no hero academia #my hero academia #bnha bakugo katsuki #katsuki bakugo x reader #boku no hero fanfic #katsuki bakugō

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yanderes-galore · 2 years

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could i request some more content from that short monty scenario you did? i uh, forgot what you titled it but its the most recent one you did (if that helps-) i really wanna know what happens next! also im a sucker for monty 🥴

Ah, Birthday Treasure? Sure! Animatronic or android, does not matter. The ending is vague as I didn't know if I wanted a good or bad ending.

(S/N) means sibling name, not sister name in this. (Unless...they are a sister, then have fun?)

Birthday Treasure

Yandere! Montgomery Gator Scenario (Part 2)

Pairing: Romantic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Possessive behavior, Kidnapping, Manipulation, Sadism, Mentioned violence, Mentioned thoughts of murder, Robot gaining sentience, Swearing, Threats.

Birthday party gone wrong... that's what this was. A simple birthday party with your sibling quickly turned into you fighting for your life.

You shouldn't have trusted the gator bot in the first place. It was clear he had malicious intentions from the start.

Why else would he be so close to you and only you?

"You're spacing out, rockstar~ Don't you wish to hear the rules? I could always not tell them to you."

You snap out of your paranoid thoughts, the bot now standing in your personal space. You go to back up only for his claws to keep you still.

"Nah, now that you're this close I'll keep you here until our game begins. Now listen..."

His glasses are now fully taken off so his gaze is on you.

"How about this, I'll give you a chance to find your sibling while we play. Your goal will be to look around for them. My goal, heh, I feel is real obvious."

Claws graze your skin, you wonder why they are so sharp. Did a robot need knives on their hands if they worked with children?

"I get to hunt you down and catch you. It'll be fun to know how well you can endure me!"

A roaring laughter comes from the bot before he distances himself from you.

"But I'll try not to be unfair! You'll get a head start. I'll give you 30 minutes before I begin. It'll be best if you start running now, rockstar!"

Not giving him any other chances to talk, you begin your journey to find your sibling.

"I just hope your safe...."

----

"(S/N)? (S/N)!" Your quiet calls ring softly through the Pizzaplex. Unfortunately you're forced to be quieter than you'd like to be due to the gator hunting you down.

If you were to trust the bot, which was admittedly hard to do, your sibling was somewhere in this labyrinth of a building. It was your task to find them.

You just hoped if you succeeded you could go home, sibling in hand.

Yet it didn't look to be that easy.

Who knew if he was telling the truth?

"I can hear you...."

Monty sounded close, cautiously you keep to the shadows before continuing your search.

Attraction after attraction is looked over by you. You barely can find any signs of your sibling. Worry pools into your stomach while you jog up an escalator that was shut off.

"(Y/N)...?"

You pause, looking around.

"(S/N)? Damn it...where are you?"

Maybe that's why you couldn't find them. They got concerned that Monty wasn't looking for them and started moving around. Now you might have a chance.

"Stay there...! I'll find you!"

They make a noise of confirmation before you continue in the direction you heard them in.

Only to jump back when you see Monty shoot up an escalator with incredible speed, claws out.

"There you are!"

His laughter is mocking while you stay away. You were so close...they're definitely here!

"Haven't found them yet? Poor (Y/N).... You're going to lose the game at this rate!"

You shake your head, keeping distance.

"See that? I love when you make that expression...! So vulnerable and scared. That look should only ever be for me...."

The gator begins to close in on you, mouth gaping in a sadistic grin.

"Scratch that... I want everything of yours! You'll be mine once I catch you! That little tyke is helping me way more than they think... how naive! Wonder how they'll feel about the fact they're lending a hand in your downfall!"

"(S/N)! Go hide, I'll be a bit!"

Monty glares at you through his glasses.

"Rockstar...I think our game is over. You're mine now. A few more steps and I'll corner you. Don't worry, I'll keep them here too. If that'll keep you 'docile'."

Monty sounded degrading, much different from his persona in the day. Behind Monty you see your sibling. Squinting you can tell they're holding something.

A camera...how clever.

They point to it before gesturing to their face.

'Take off the glasses.'

You turn your eyes back towards Monty, who's at this point pressing you against the wall. A growl comes from him along with a smirk.

"That's right...I've won. I'll keep you all to myself~"

His claws hold your face up. Red eyes stare into you through his glasses, you maintain eye contact before 'playfully' stealing them. Monty pauses, shocked that you held them.

"Acting cute, huh? You're lucky I like you-"

There's a flash before the large bot roars and backs off, claws covering his eyes.

"Great job, (S/N)! Let's go...."

They smile at you with watery eyes, grabbing your hand and fleeing with you.

"I missed you...."

----

Just as your hope felt it was dwindling... you found them.

You found them and they saved you from near failure. Who knew what fate was held in those claws.

You still held the glasses you stole in your hand, the other holding the smaller hand of your sibling.

Now your plan was to not be separated. If you could survive together for a little longer then you were out of here.

In the distance you heard angered roaring. It felt as though Monty was throwing a tantrum. His rage was destructive, you were just happy you weren't too near him right now.

Finally you made it to the main entrance. Your sibling looks out the window in earnest.

"Will we get to go home?" They ask softly. You bite your lip, weighing your response.

"We...will, no worries."

You put a hand on the shutters, wondering if it would be possible to open them. Unfortunately your fingers trace along a lock and you sigh. Hopefully it was almost opening time.

"(Y/N)...I thought I heard you down here...."

You quickly grab your sibling's hand and pull them with you to get out the gator's sight.

"What a bold move. Siblings working together to fool the big ol' gator. Do you really think you're winning?"

His footsteps are heavy, voice growling in annoyance.

"Why can't you understand? I already said you lost! You're mine and you can't change that now! You and that tyke...at this point I wouldn't hesitate to hurt them for that! Now come out and I'll go easy on you!"

Your sibling starts to cry. You carefully hug them tight, taking the camera into your hands and aiming for the direction Monty was coming from.

"(Y/N)!"

Monty roars, ready to pounce.

"STAY BACK!"

Before you could click the camera's button, the gator twitches and stops.

It's almost as if the gator seized before slumping over, unmoving.

"Holy shit...you okay?"

You pull down the camera, your sibling hugging you tightly. A blonde woman appears from behind Monty with a device in hand. You look between the bot and her, fear evident.

"Thank you...."

The woman looks at you and your sibling before realization hits.

"You're the ones security couldn't find!"

You nod softly, your sibling turning to meet the woman.

"Why are you here!?"

"Feel free to ask your bot that...." You shiver, looking at the deactivated gator.

"Well, I can look at what's recorded in his memory... for now, come with me to the security office. Let's get you taken care of after I figure out why Monty went rogue."

"Right...again, thank you-"

"No problem...."

Slowly you step around Monty, following the woman. Your sibling follows you while you're led to the security office.

You can't wait to get home.

Your family must miss you-

#yandere x reader #yandere fnaf #yandere fnaf security breach #yandere montgomery gator

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harlowhockeystick · 2 years

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So I keep thinking about this ask:

(I also want to preface that this was me before I was an anon)

You were sitting behind the players bench, so Freddie could make eyes at you when he walked under the tunnel for intermission without making it super obvious. The entire game, the entire Canes organization (at least it felt like that to Freddie) was whispering little praises like "dude she's so hot" "how do I give her my number" "I wouldn't mind letting her take me home with her tonight."

And Freddie is determined to mark his territory with the pretty-girl-in-the-stands™️, so he's just a little more possessive when he sees you wearing his jersey, patiently waiting for him outside the locker room. He lets you engulf him in a hug, wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him to you, making up for lost space by placing a hand so dangerously close to your ass to pull your hips towards his.

"Hi handsome, how was the game?"

"It went really well, even better knowing you were there."

"You guys looked really good, and as mad as I am that you beat my hometown team, I'm so incredibly proud of you, Freddie."

He lets out a low chuckle and whispers very quietly, "can I be a dick right now?"

"It depends, what's the purpose?" And you don't realize it, but your fingers are twirling tiny locks of his red hair in between them while the other hand grazes his neck right under it.

"I just wanna mark my territory, baby, want all the guys who have been talking to intently about you to know who gets to be on top of you tonight, who's name you get to yell out."

By this point, all of the guys have noticed he's taking to The Girl™️ and are eyeing him, "Freddie, whatcha doing over there?"

He spins around, bringing you with him, causing you to let out a little yelp, "I'm talking to my girl, why do you need me?"

"Nah, man, just didn't know who the hands belonged to."

You spin around and look at the man talking, "Oh they're mine, sorry. Freddie didn't tell you I was coming?"

And Freddie snickers, wraps his arms around your waist, pulling you closer to him, and pressing kisses to your shoulder.

"No, no he did not." And all of the guys turn into conversation with one another because 'oh shit, we've been making sex jokes about our goalies girlfriend the entire game right infront of him."

"Don't worry about them, baby. I just didn't want them to make a big deal about you being here and bothering you. But you do have a fan club now." And when you turn around to give him a puzzled look, "they have not stopped talking about how hot you were all night."

And maybe you snicker and joke about, "So now you're all touchy grabby with me because you wanna mark your territory?"

"Yes, ma'am, and I'll be damned if I don't make it obvious." He looks above your head to see if the guys are watching, when he confirms they are, he grabs a handful of your ass with a hand flat on your back, and crashes your lips together.

-💍

I don't think I'm done with this, jury is still out on that one.

Part 2:

And you're laughing because he's never this possessive, trying not to smile and break the moment. When you do, your hands are still in his hair and on his face, and his are still placed intently around your ass, "well I could get used to that."

And he laughs and makes fun of you.

"Hey don't blame me, watching you get all jealous is hot."

"I am not jealous."

"If you weren't, you wouldn't be making out with me infront of your teammates. Just admit you're jealous, my love."

"I simply will not."

"Fredrick Anderson," You chuckle, "I am so in love with you."

And he resists the urge to yell out to all of his team mates what you just said, "Y/N L/N, I can't wait to take you home tonight."

And you smile up at him, taking in all of the details of his face, how he hair is messed up and wet from sweat, how his freckles fall on his face, the way his eyes glimmer when he smiles down at you. You don't respond, just pull him close to you, kissing him again, smiling against his lips.

The moment is ruined when one of his teammates shouts, "okay, Fred, we get it. You know we all think she's hot, you don't need to rub it in our faces!"

BESTIEEE AHHH SO GOOD!!!

#my asks #nhl blurb #nhl smut #18+#frederik andersen #💍 anon

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thedamageofherdays · 3 years

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This week's (16-08-2021 - 22-08-2021) reading log is here. This week's reading log is super duper long and filled with lots of good things (my apologies for the long post, I really could not find a good spot to do a read more). I discovered some new favourites and re-read some old favourites and while I had an intense week personally at least the fics I read were absolutely phenomenal. I do recommend checking out the warnings as some fics are a bit heavier/angstier and you might wanna be prepared. Most of these fics are Stucky but there are a couple of other ships in between.

If you are looking for more fun and/or good things make sure to check out the @marveldisabilitycelebration as well to see all the awesome art, fics, meta, etcetera people created! And while I am mentioning events I am a mod for let me also just quickly mention that sign-ups for the @stuckygiftexchange are still open until the end of the month <3

Favourites are marked with a 🌻 Fics that are only available to AO3 users are marked with a 🔒 and Tumblr fics are marked with a 🍀

🌻 The Bends by dreamsinthewitchouse @dreamsinthewitchouse [Danbeau, side Stucky, 2k words, Teen]

Memory is not a house you can just walk back into after finding the key you thought you’d lost. It’s a thing you wade into and out of, rewriting it as it rewrites you.

It’s not without its rewards, either - recovering a memory about Maria and Monica, about her life, feels better than socking a thousand bad guys in the face, better than all the photon blasts in the world.

Then again, realising there’s still memories she can’t access, even after all this time, feels like drowning in space.

Not the one out there - the one inside her.

🌻 Sweet & Salty by musette22 @musette22 [Stucky, 3k words, Teen]

Idiots in love. That's it. That's the fic.

When life gives you lemons by moonythejedi394 @moonythejedi394 [Stucky, 34k words, Explicit] (11/15 chapters)

Or 13 Terrible Things to Do With Lemons Other Than Making Lemonade

Steve Rogers is a home health nurse. He works for an agency, which assigned him to the aging Winifred Barnes, the one and only Silent Era Hollywood darling. As her needs increased, she requested the agency assign Steve to her full-time. She could pay for it, so she got it. Steve then moved in with her, becoming her caregiver; he cooked, he cleaned, he managed her medications, he made sure she was comfortable.

Winifred's children treated him less than ideally. He was the help, after all. And then Steve had the audacity to go and turn out to be eldest son James Barnes's soulmate. No one saw that coming.

🍀 SamRhodey Tumblr Fic by ipoiledi [SamRhodey, ? words, Teen?]

“Wilson, this is Rhodey; Rhodey, Wilson,” Tony Stark says, and suddenly some six foot tall sexy guy is shoved right in front of Sam, and they both stumble a little, bumping into each other. This is a crowded party. “You guys have things in common, right?” Stark asks. “Uh, Army stuff. Talk about that. I hate wallflowers; stop wallflowering and talk to each other.”

Shorteralls by moonythejedi394 [Stucky, 6k words, Explicit]

The first time Bucky ever saw Steve Rogers, he was struck by how Neanderthal-like his response was. It was immediately followed by a bout of mental scolding. The second time was just about the same. The third time, it was actually appropriate for Bucky to start a conversation with him, at which point he was determined to be the gentleman.

No such luck. Steve Rogers is, always has been and always will be, a relentless flirt. These days, Bucky's Neanderthal-ist feelings about Steve are consensual and highly appreciated. More so now that they're having a baby.

what the fuck are perfect places anyway by tigerlilycorinne [Stucky, 6k words, Teen]

Steve clears his throat and stands. “Well, I should head in. I might want to begin packing.”

Bucky stills. “You won’t,” he says, trying to sound commanding. It only comes out uncertain. “Don’t.”

Steve shakes his head. “Maybe not tonight,” he says, and Bucky knows they’ll be discussing this again soon.

“Then stay. Play… play cards with me or something.”

Steve’s eyebrows jump up, his mouth tugging up in another of his bemused smiles that do things to Bucky’s insides, but he drops his hand from the doorway and steps back into Bucky’s room. Somehow, Bucky feels as if he’s won—not the war, just the battle.

Steve won’t stay forever. But he’ll stay for cards.

Steve and Bucky, on the run after Civil War (with a few alterations to canon), are laying low in Wakanda. But they can’t stay there forever.

🌻 honestly thought i’d be dead by now, but what you can trust is that i need your touch by moonythejedi394 [Stucky, 105k words, Explicit]

Bucky is 37 years old; he’s unmarried, hasn’t had a Sub of his own, is definitely not ripped, comfortable at his job as an Advanced Practice RN at Brooklyn General ER, and just got his Five Years coin from AA.

Steve is 26 years old; he’s unmarried, his last and only Dom has Alzheimer's, he's worryingly muscular, uncomfortable in his job as the government’s poster Alpha for masculinity and strength, and worries more than he should about his BMI.

Unfortunately, Steve and Bucky meet initially in a not-cute moment. Bucky’s tired as shit thanks to the sudden alien invasion that shook New York and Steve is tired as shit because he hasn’t slept more than 20 minutes at a time in – well, since 1936, probably. Bucky’s Alpha instincts get irritated at the sudden presence of another "Alpha" into his territory and Steve’s suppressed submissive tendencies latch onto this grumpy bachelor Alpha and he only suppresses it further.

Bucky’s grumpiness and Steve’s duckling impressionism aside, both of them are a mess. But since both of them are a mess? Their messes seem to fit pretty well together.

Deep Sea Diving by Aida Ronan [Stucky, 5k words, Explicit]

Steve's wallowing in heat-related misery under a shade tree in Central Park when a man walks by in bright red booty shorts and a crop top. RIP Steve Rogers. It was nice knowing you.

honey, make this easy by steebadore [Stucky, 8k words, Explicit]

Bucky likes the way he looks. His silk button up with the tiny gold polka dots feels soft on his skin and is tailored perfectly; no pulling at his chest or belly. His hair falls in shiny dark waves and his skin is smooth and dewy. He looks expensive. He looks taken care of. He looks like Steve’s.

🌻 let's take it back to the start by howdoyousleep @howdoyousleep3 [Stucky, 6k words, Teen]

How it all began.

This sleepwalking through my life. by barthelme [Stucky, 1k words, Explicit]

The internet is an interesting place and when Bucky came home (or, when he came to live with Steve), Steve did a lot of research. Apparently, it’s not safe to wake a sleepwalker. He assumes that waking a sleepwalker with traumatic dreams and PTSD is beyond just being frowned upon.

And he tells himself--has told himself--that this is safer for Bucky. That if he were to stop him and wake him up, that Bucky would be mortified to be slurping on his best friend’s cock. That all of the improvements he’s made would be lost, would be repressed, would be just--

They’d be back at square one.

So he lets Bucky do it.

🌻 the way i've been craving by howdoyousleep [Stucky, 3k words, Explicit]

"Lunch break at 12:30. My office. Hope you’re hungry…"

It’s the ellipsis that sends Bucky’s insides swimming warmly, his heart beating twice as fast against his ribs where he sits in class. Senator Rogers is concise, direct, to the point. Without an ellipsis this is lunch, this is a meeting. With it though?

This is a booty call.

nasty but classy by howdoyousleep [Stucky, 4k words, Explicit]

“No, you don’t have to know the purpose, that doesn’t matter. Nat showed me this challenge where couples drink a lot of wine and get drunk together but they can’t touch each other. And whoever touches the other first has to...has to give the other head.”

🌻 Put It on Repeat, It Stays the Same by giselleslash [Stucky, 20k words, Explicit]

Steve and Bucky have a one night stand that turns into a friends with benefits situation. A weekend snowed in at Bucky’s apartment brings to light how much that really doesn’t suit either one of them.

Greetings to the New Brunette by victoria_p (musesfool) [Stucky, 10k words, General]

"You said he should have a hobby. That it would help."

"I meant, like, knitting or coin collecting. Motocross, if he was feeling antsy. A baby's not a hobby. It's lifetime commitment."

🌻 Rogers & Barnes: Partners by triedunture [Stucky, 10k words, Teen]

Steve and Bucky have to pose as a couple for a mission. Nat insists it really is the only option. She's checked.

The complication: unbeknownst to even Natasha, Steve and Bucky's friendship has been rocky ever since Bucky confessed his tender feelings and Steve left him out in the cold. Can asexual, completely-in-love-with-his-angry-best-friend Steve complete the mission and win Bucky's heart?

(The answer is yes. Yay!)

this will be our year (took a long time to come) by biblionerd07 [Stucky, 4k words, General]

Bucky's therapist is worried he's using Steve as a crutch and wants him to try going on outings without Steve. It wouldn't be terrible, honestly, if Bucky could just manage to open his mouth and say something to Steve.

I'll hold my breath by Little_Lottie (tfwatson) [Stucky, 8k words, Mature]

Sometimes Bucky’s hands flex in Steve's direction. Neither of them knows exactly why, but at least one of them has a hunch.

Bucky touches everything but Steve, even though Steve is all he really wants to touch.

Start from the Beginning by Mumble_Bee [Stucky, 13k words, Explicit]

What about a sex pollen fic where the pollen-ed one doesn’t remember getting hit in the face with a sex flower, and wakes up midway through the depollenating?

Or: the one where Steve wakes up on his back with a stranger buried balls-deep in his ass.

Match by emphasisonem [Stucky, 4k words, Mature]

The situation’s actually kind of funny from the right perspective, Bucky thinks as he reads the message for what feels like the hundredth time. He’s finally matched with a hot, funny guy. Tall and broad and clean cut. An absolutely breathtaking smile. Bucky’s walking wet dream. And he’s good. They haven’t messaged on the app, but Bucky already knows him.

He knows him because Steve Rogers is an art history professor at his university. His art history professor.

Best friends and married since childhood by StuckySituation [Stucky, 1k words, General]

Inspired by @/peterssquill's post in tumblr: "bucky and steve got married on the playground when they were like eight and though neither of them would ever admit it to anyone, even each other, they still consider it official"

~♥~ ♥~ ♥~

“Natasha, stop trying to set me up with every woman you meet, I’m-”

“Too shy? Too scared?”

“No, I’m-”

“Too busy? You’re mostly retired these days, not a good excuse anymore.” Natasha smirks and then drawls: “Or just too gay?”

Steve flushes at that, even if isn’t true -- he’s bisexual, not gay. “Let it go, Nat, I’m not looking for anything. I’m already married, for fuck’s sake.”

Clearly not what she expected. “What.”

Steve grimaces. He didn’t mean to tell anyone that, ever.

“Sorry, can’t talk about it right now!” he says and jumps out of the plane.

Nobody Should Be Alone on a Holiday by emphasisonem [Stucky, 2k words, Teen]

“So, um-” Bucky begins speaking again, pulling Steve from his less-than-work-appropriate thoughts. The brunet has shoved his hands into the pockets of his dark slacks, and he’s shifting from one foot to the other as he smiles shyly. “I have a question for you.”

“Shoot,” Steve grins, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms over his broad chest. Bucky swallows deeply as one of his hands comes up to pull at the collar of his button-up, and Steve can’t help following the motion of his Adam’s apple.

“I was, uh-” Bucky continues- “That is, I heard you don’t have Thanksgiving plans?”

In which Bucky finds out that Steve's going to be alone on Thanksgiving and invites his coworker to spend the holiday with him.

🌻 It's Been A Long Season Through by thiccbuckybarnes @thiccbuckybarnesfic [Stucky, 49k words, Explicit]

Bucky Barnes is in desperate need of a change in scenery, which is why he makes the foolhardy decision to quit his job, leave his asshole of a fiance, pack up his life, and move to his grandfather’s old farm all within a single day.

He expects confusion, hardship, and maybe even failure. But love? He wasn’t expecting that.

Or, a Stucky Stardew Valley AU that nobody but me wanted and that’s ok.

oh, peach pit, where'd the hours go? by thiccbuckybarnes [Stucky, 10k words, Explicit]

Can't see the forest for the trees.

Or, Steve learns that just because he and Bucky got their happily ever after, it doesn’t mean the past won’t come back to bite them.

I'll find my way by rainbow_nerds [Stucky, 725 words, Teen]

Steve had watched Bucky fall, and nothing had been the same since.

AU-gust day 19: Daemons

special delivery by glim @glim [Stucky, 6k words, Teen]

It's not that Steve's bad at taking care of himself when he gets sick; he just wishes he didn't have to all the time.

At least he can order most of what he needs online. That's some small comfort, that he can have soup and ice cream and everything else brought to his door.

at first chance i'd take the bed warmed by the body by spacebuck @spacebuck [Stucky, 8k words, Explicit]

This close, Steve can see exactly how beautiful his hands are. He’s never really noticed before, or at least he’s never really had a reason to notice, but the man’s hands are large, tanned like he works outside all day. There’s an endearing callus on the heel of one of his palms, and Steve can’t quite work out when calluses became endearing.

Steve pauses the video. Swallows hard. Casts his eyes around for anything that’ll keep his mind off the hands on his screen, off the words inked into those hands, the delicate shape of a bird’s wing, the curling edge of a vine.

He looks down. The name of the channel is right there, blaring the man’s name right into Steve’s brain until it feels like he’s known it all along.

Bucky Barnes.

OR: the one where Bucky's a youtuber who solves puzzles on camera, and steve's smitten and horny

🌻 Rock On! by millesable @marvelousescapism [Clintasha, 700 words, General]

“Hey, Romanoff!”

He lifted his hand, index finger and pinky finger raised, thumb out, all other fingers tucked. Their secret sign; their confession for the world to see, safe in the knowledge that the world wasn’t listening.

“Rock on!”

🌻 You Like the Way I Look by dontcallmebree @iamthe-wo-manwhocan [Stucky, 2k words, Explicit]

Bucky sidles up to him, hand boldly coming to rest on his chest. “What about you, big guy? Care for a dance?” Steve watches Bucky’s eyes twinkle with satisfaction, somehow already knowing he’s got Steve on the hook.

A decade out of the ice, Steve Rogers returns to New York. Reeling from a battle against the Chitauri, a night with the troublesome Bucky Barnes might be just what he needs.

Join the Rebellion by rainbow_nerds [Stucky, 765 words, Teen]

Bucky knew he shouldn't be out after curfew, but he couldn't resist the urge. He didn’t know where he was going, but he knew it was where he wanted to be.

AU-gust day 20: Dystopia

🔒 Five Days in December by mywingsareonwheels @mywingsareonwheels [Evanstan, 4k words, Teen]

“Shit shit shit shit...” muttered Chris to himself, glad that the sound of piped Christmas carols was drowning out his swearing amid the picture books. Most of the store was heaving even though it was Sunday, he’d been recognised at least three times, finding presents for all of his nieces and nephews was proving far more of a headache than expected, and he’d just sent a pile of copies of "Strictly No Elephants" tumbling off the bookshelf.

He scrambled about trying to pick them all up, and then dropped them again as someone bumped right into his backside. He lost his balance, caught himself against a bookcase, and a landslide of "Carter Is a Painter’s Cat" joined "Strictly No Elephants" on the floor. He yelped.

“Ah fuck, I’m so sorry… Chris!”

* * * * * * * * * *

London, December 2021. Amid cats, books, and the cold English drizzle, Chris finds everything he was hoping for and thought he would never have.

* * * * * * * * * * * *

Reaching for Fire by dixons_mama @dixons-mama [Stucky, 7k words, Explicit]

Bucky has always felt a fire in his heart (and other body parts) when it came to his boss, Steve Rogers, but he's made sure to never feed those flames. When he finds out about Steve's second job, though, he's tempted to let that fire out.

i've been dreaming of a face like yours by thiccbuckybarnes [Stucky, 3k words, Explicit]

Bucky is about to busy himself with making a small dinner for himself when he stops in his tracks at the figure drinking a cup of coffee in the kitchen, leaning against the counter and smirking at him.

It’s Steve.

“Surprise, sweet boy,” he says before setting his cup down.

Or, PWP reunion sex

🌻 Somewhere, Under Your Skin by thiccbuckybarnes [Stucky, 16k words, Explicit]

Bucky Barnes treats himself to a one-night stand after having a very bad no good day.

The sex is good--great, even. Might be the best sex of his life.

But Bucky wouldn’t have slept with the guy if he had known that he was going to continuously run into him every day for the next fucking month.

Or, a Big Grump Bucky has a hot one night stand with a college kid who is popping up everywhere in his everyday life and he doesn’t know how to deal with it.

(Written for HYBB Bingo Square: Grumpy Bucky)

i've played heartstrings before but not in your key by thiccbuckybarnes [Stucky, 11k words, Explicit]

He glances down, seeing a folded couple of papers, before peering up at Bucky. The older man is biting his bottom lip, making it pretty and red. Steve wants to run his tongue across where his teeth are digging into his flesh.

"What's this?" Steve asks, setting his phone down, emails forgotten. Bucky shrugs and looks away.

"I dunno. You tell me, genius," he says, sounding bratty enough that it makes Steve's dick twitch in his pants. Jesus, there has to be something wrong with him.

Steve glances once more at Bucky, who now has his arms crossed against his chest and is pointedly not looking at Steve, before picking up the stack of folded papers. He opens them, seeing a collection of maybe five or six sheets of paper. His eyes immediately land on the list of familiar words with negative next to each one. -- Or, Steve Rogers is a jealous, possessive little shit that wants nothing more than to mark up his boyfriend and stake his claim. And Bucky knows it. (And he likes it.)

🌻 I'm Home (With You) by BonkyBornes @padfoot-and-the-marauders [Stucky, 2k words, General]

In any other circumstance, the apartment would've been perfect. But it was today, and the fact that he was here meant he wasn’t out searching. He knew they hadn’t had any leads for weeks and he knew Natasha was right; all three of them were exhausted and a break would do them good. It just felt wrong to Steve that he was comfortable while Bucky was still out there—somewhere. Probably cold. Probably hungry.

The knock came again. Sighing, Steve unwrapped his hand from the dog tags and remembered how to move. Cold wind and snow greeted him when he opened the door. The solitary figure was walking down the steps, collar popped against the chill.

“Did you need something?” he called.

The person stopped. They were still. And then they turned. *

Or, the Christmas Steve deserved after Winter Soldier.

The portrait by rainbow_nerds [Stucky, 915 words, General]

Steve Rogers has a Gift. He can help people find their soulmates, all he needs is some art supplies, a quiet place, and eye contact.

AU-gust day 21: soulmates

Maybe A Muse by buckybarnesdeservestobehappy [Stucky, 2k words, Mature]

When Bucky Barnes needs extra money, he’s appalled that his best friends think he should become a model for the art department on campus. Shy, nerdy, and socially awkward, he’s not sure that’s something he feels comfortable doing. Still, he needs money, and he likes the idea of becoming someone’s muse. The problem is he had no idea two things would happen. First, one of the students in the class is exactly his type; second, he has to model nude.

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footprints and doubts

this is the longest piece we’ve written so far and it drained the living crap out of us :,D but hope u guys enjoy !

pronouns: gender neutral

warnings: nothing really other than jealousy, angst, and crying, self thought cheating

a/n: r/n is region name btw

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honestly you found it hard to believe that little ol’ you from r/n could befriend let alone become someone important to ajax. the great tartaglia, 11th of the fatui harbingers, his name itself could strike fear into anyone. yet here you were, standing next to him with your hands intertwined with his at the lantern rite festival. you would give the world to him if you could, you loved him so much. he was so different from your last significant other who had been unfaithful towards you.

‘you’re just too boring.’ they had told you apathetically. you frown thinking about it.

you felt ajax gave your hand a small tug, "hey y/n why don't we go over there? looks like chef mao is cooking up something good." he spoke with a cheery grin on his face.

you snap back into reality as you felt his hand pull you out of your thoughts. you gave him a terse nod and the two of you made your way to wanmin restaurant.

after waiting a while in line, the two of you were next. chef mao looked up and practically shat himself at the sight of the male next to you.

“hello y/n! i hope you’ve been enjoying the festival, " chef mao spoke nervously, his eyes gliding to the male next to you, “y...you too sir childe.” he sputtered out. right, ajax was the one who tried to destroy liyue not too long ago after all. you shook your head, right now you were with ajax, not childe.

"woah woah woah. calm down chef, you know that’s history now. besides, i’m just here to enjoy the festival with y/n." ajax assured, sheepishly rubbing the back of his head.

you gave the chef a slight smile and spoke,"don’t worry chef. i’m sure he doesn’t have plans other than being with me tonight." you teased.

the chef sighed in poorly concealed relief and returned to his usual self as he took your order. ajax ordered the specialty for today, the crystal shrimp. after a small wait, the two of you waved chef mao goodbye after he gave you two your food. the warm dish let out puffs of steam and glistened under all the light of the lanterns due to it's crystal clear skin, there were 4 in total, the wrapping for each was folded into the shape of a flower. they were so pretty, you almost felt bad for eating them.

sitting down on a nearby bench, the two of you enjoyed the crystal shrimp while making small talk. the crystal shrimps were delicious themselves but it felt better to enjoy them with someone you loved.

after finishing the food, you and ajax had a great time. you guys played a few rounds of theatre mechanics, ruijin was pleased at how skilled the two of you were and rewarded both of you with hefty prizes. upon bumping into zhongli, the three of you decided to enjoy some tea with him. after bidding farewell to the funeral consultant, the two of you released some xiao lanterns and watched as they floated into the night sky.

feeling a bit tired, the two of you then decided to relax and take a walk instead of participating in games. as you and your boyfriend were strolling around the harbour, something, or someone caught his gaze. you look over to where his eyes were trailing to.

oh.

a beautiful young lady dressed in a white dress with a cecilia tucked into her golden blonde hair and a puffy companion floating by her side waved at ajax. her smile brighter than the sun and her movement as graceful as the moon. her honey glazed eyes shone with familiarity and glee at the sight of him.

of course you recognized this girl. she was none other than the otherworldly traveler, lumine. she fought alongside the liyue qixing and even the adepti to defeat the great osial. the people of liyue spoke about her often, everyone knew how she had also earned the title of honorary knight in mondstadt and defeated one of the four winds despite her young age.

you were once again brought back into reality when ajax spoke, "hey babe ill be right back okay? i wanna catch up with lumine real quick."

you felt his hand leave yours, the warmth dissipated with it. you felt an uncomfortable feeling bubble up as you watched your boyfriend run to someone else, leaving you alone by yourself to stand in the sea of lanterns and people.

it didn't feel right.

you stayed in place with a dejected look for a while waiting for ajax to return but he was taking a while so you decided to go check what was going on with him.

"-but then teucer decided to do it anyway!” you hear ajax’s boyish voice ring out with amusement.

as the blond and the redhead laughed together. you couldn't help but think about the two looked enchanting with each other.

you shook your head and decided to make your presence known. "ajax-"

ajax perked up, "oh! babe sorry to keep you waiting let me introduce you. lumine this is my partner y/n!" ajax exclaimed with a cute grin.

you gave lumine a small wave and spoke with a polite smile, "it's a pleasure to meet you lumine."

"it’s nice to meet you too y/n.” lumine replied cheerfully.

now that you’ve got a better look at the blonde, she's so much more beautiful than you could have ever imagined.

her velvety blonde hair fell gracefully, her porcelain skin was practically glowing without a single visible blemish, her golden eyes shone with beauty that rivaled cor lapis. to wrap it up, her short stature was presented with grace and poise. all in all, everything about the blonde was nothing less than perfection.

everyone loved her and you could understand the reason behind it very well. gorgeous, kind, and righteous, the hero of every region everyone respected. you couldn’t help but wish you were like her instead of your boring self, without a vision, without any standing out achievements either…

you started to space out while the two started up a conversation again, thinking about the feelings you were currently having. why were you feeling like this?

"hey babe we should get going! it's getting late." the voice of your lover broke you out of your thinking.

you were overthinking a lot today huh. "oh. we probably should get going then."

"bye ajax! bye y/n! it was really nice meeting you." lumine said with a pearly smile gracing her features. she then walked off to find her floating companion who was near a food stall inhaling dish after dish of food.

wait.

ajax..? he wasn’t childe or tartaglia to her, but ajax. you didn't know how to feel upon hearing the real name of your boyfriend slip out of the blonde. you knew how secretive ajax could be when it came to his family and personal life so the fact that lumine knew his real name put a feeling of unease within you.

the way home was pretty quiet, you didn't want ajax to notice that you were feeling off. you felt so guilty for having these feelings about him and lumine but you couldn’t help it. your last relationship had practically trampled on your ability to trust others, you could never tell if someone was lying to you or being truthful. you contemplated telling him how you felt but you decided against it, you’ve never been great at expressing your feelings after all. however, after a while of him blabbing about random topics, you couldn’t curb your curiosity any longer and realized you wanted to know more about your lover's relationship between him and lumine.

after a while of peaceful silence, you let out a small breath, "hey ajax?"

“yes y/n?"

"who is lumine… to you?"

ajax perked up at the sound of the blonde's name, "lumine? she's a good friend and a formidable opponent of course. it's been a while since i’ve fought with someone who could keep up with me on the battlefield!" ajax spoke with enthusiasm.

you felt a twinge of pain shoot into your heart at the tone that your lover used when speaking about the blonde. did he speak like that when he was talking about you?

"oh… i see. she must be a very powerful person then." you replied with feigned glee.

ajax noticed that you were in low spirits, "why? is something wrong?" he questioned with slight worry.

"no! i'm alright. i was just curious because you two seemed… close." you lied. you weren't ok, but you didn't know how to tell him. probably because you didn't even know why you felt such-

envy

that was what you were feeling. not petty jealousy or sadness, you were envious. envious of lumine. her beauty, her strength, her personality, everything. the feeling consumed every inch of your body and dyed you green. your insecurities swallowed you up and spit you out, rendering you vulnerable against the little demons that poked at your thoughts.

when the two of you got home and freshened up, ajax practically passed out the second he lied in bed with you. on the other hand, you stayed wide awake, stuck thinking about the way lumine and ajax interacted. the smiles, the laughter, the fond looks they gave each other plagued your mind, rendering you unable to sleep. after a while of staring blankly at the ceiling, you groaned and carefully lifted the sheets to not wake your lover and got out of bed to make yourself a cup of tea. you used the tea leaves you bought from pops kai, the calming properties of the tea always helped you when you felt down.

"they're just friends, don't overthink it, just friends, just friends." you whispered to yourself, trying to give yourself a sense of reassurance. after finishing the tea you got back into bed, it was hard but you eventually fell asleep next to your lover.

next morning, you were woken by the sound of your boyfriend walking around in the living room doing something. it was only around 7am so you were wondering why up so early as he usually woke up at 8. you groggily walked out of the bedroom.

ajax noticed you and smiled fondly at the cute sight of you rubbing your eyes. "good morning babe, did i wake you up? sorry about that, i was just getting ready to go train."

"oh. by yourself?" somehow, you had a feeling of where this conversation was headed.

"no, with lumine, we made a deal yesterday to go to yaoguang shore today to fight some ruin guards and hunters for materials!" he chuckled.

lumine. lumine

the name echoed in your mind like a mantra. you were aware of his weekly spars with the blonde but today would be the second day he went out with her this week. a part of your heart told you to stop him, another part told you to let him go. in this internal battle, you chose the latter and let him go. after all, who were you to stop him? it's not like you could be the one to satisfy his thirst for battle, only someone like lumine could.

you were having a day off due to the lantern rite festival, but to be honest it's not like you needed the money. with the amount of money ajax had he could probably support you and your next 4 generations. with your spare day, you decided to clean up the house because it was a bit messy due to teucer playing around the day before.

while cleaning up you found a spare xiao lantern that teucer was supposed to release when he came over. since you had spare time you decided to set another lantern yourself, it would be a waste to not use it after all. as people say, during the lantern rites, put your wish into a lantern and set it into the sky for it to become true.

"i wish to stay with ajax, till death does us apart."

you only hoped he felt the same way about you.

you put the note in the xiao lantern and set it off into the sky, you watched with sentiment as it floated away towards the clear blue sky.

you had a hard time focusing on the task you were doing for the rest of your day so you decided to take your mind off things and go take a look around liyue harbour to see if there was anything worth checking out, or buying.

liyue harbour contained the usual, the fragrance of grilled tiger fish wafting from the stand next to where you would usually buy your groceries, the kids messing around near the boats, and you even met xiangling who tried to offer you her new recipe of jade parcels but you kindly refused.

after that you went to give the adorable little pharmacist, qiqi, a visit. she was under the cashier stand like usual, you gave her a little pat on the head and asked for the usual medicine you buy for ajax.

you then bumped into zhongli, who was also strolling around. the two of you chattered about the festival and other shenanigans before bidding each other farewell. the amount of history about liyue and its traditions the man was familiar with would never fail to surprise you.

there wasn’t really anything left for you to do in the harbour so you started to head back home. not far away from the liuli pavilion you saw a familiar redhead talking to the owner of mingxing jewelry with a shorter figure standing beside him.

upon closer inspection, you noticed it was ajax with someone else at a jewelry shop looking at the items. it was none other than lumine standing next to him. you watched as lumine picked out a piece of jewelry from the stand that would look so well on her. the gem glowed it’s colour under her smile and looked more fitting than ever. weren’t they supposed to be at yaoguang shore?

without second thought ajax bought the jewelry in lumines hand and put it in a gift bag with a look of tenderness. your heart dropped to the pits of your stomach, you felt as if the world was crashing down on you. your breathing quickened and your heart palpitated at alarming rates. every little insecurity that was planted in you had finally finished blooming. was this really going to happen to you a second time? was once not enough for the entertainment of the gods?

that was when he saw you, standing only a little bit away from him holding the items you purchased for him and the fresh groceries you were going to use to cook dinner for him.

ajax’s eyes widened in surprise upon seeing you, “y/n!? why are you he-” he was tense, you noticed, just like your ex-lover when they were caught.

you tried to regulate your breathing and spoke, “stop.” you managed to say, cutting off ajax before he could finish his sentence. he flinched at your dull tone.

“y/n! i know what you’re thinking but i promise we were just-” ajax hurriedly tries to explain.

“don’t. i think i've seen enough childe.” he frowned at the use of his moniker.

your lips trembled, water collecting at the bottom of your eyes. ‘don’t cry. don’t cry, don’t cry.’ you repeated in your head, you didn’t want to appear weak in front of the two. your ajax who you loved so much, who you cared for so much, who you were planning to spend the rest of your life with, is now buying jewelry for someone else after lying to you.

“i was foolish this entire time, of course. instead of someone like me, a visionless nobody you would choose her over me. you’re just like-” your voice cracked as you forced the words out of your tightened throat.

“y/n it’s not like that! please just let me explain!” ajax pleaded urgently. he hated that you were talking bad about yourself.

after gaining a smidge of composure you decided you couldn’t be near the two, “no need childe, i understand. now if you’ll excuse me, i'll be on my way.” you muttered and brushed past the two.

“wait y/n!-” he reached out to grab your arm before the blonde next to him stopped him.

lumine sighed and spoke up after staying silent, “let them go for now. leave them alone for a bit, they need some time to think. it’s understandable why someone would be upset if they saw their lover with someone else like this.” she comforted before patting him on the back.

“yeah. i guess you’re right...” ajax murmured with a crestfallen look. he regretted not communicating with you, otherwise this wouldn’t have happened. he should’ve cleared up any suspicions you had and reassured you. he knew about how you weren’t confident due to your last relationship. gods, he felt like he was worse than your dirtbag of an ex.

you walked towards your home slowly trying to process what just happened. your tears already ran dry and you didn’t think more were able to escape from your eyes. the fading sunset seemed so blurry yet peaceful. somehow, instead of walking home, you ended up near yaoguang shore which happened to be the spot you and ajax would go to often. his name brought bitter feelings back as you remember the events that just happened but you took a deep breath and sat on the sand across from the shore. you listened to the sound of the ocean, the waves dousing the sand it touched. you took notice of the starconches laying on the sand.

feelings of melancholy welled up inside you. these are ajax’s favourites. the blue shells reminded you of his eyes. his lovely eyes were the blue of the waves of the sea, they crashed into you and pulled you into them. you could spend all day swimming in the infinite hues until you drowned.

you buried your head onto your knees and let out a pained cry you’ve been holding in. here, where no one can find you, where no one can hear you. only the ocean will hear your troubles and worries, you hoped it could wash them away and you could forget about them forever. you sat there in peace by yourself for what felt like hours.

you sighed and decided that you should get going, but to where? you didn’t want to see ajax if he’s even going to be there at all. maybe you could crash at zhongli’s place…

just as you were about to leave you heard a familiar voice behind your back. “y/n!” it was the man you loved, ajax, sprinting to you with the same gift bag he was holding in his hands at mingxing jewelry.

you turned around to look at him. your hair was flowing in the wind with the sunset behind your back. to ajax it was the most beautiful sight he had ever seen in his life.

“i knew you’d be here.” ajax spoke with relief.

you looked away from him not knowing how to feel right now about your “lover” and stayed silent.

“y/n. i swear it wasn’t what it looked like, i would never do that to you. lumine and i really don’t have anything going on in between us, i chose you as my partner and i plan on keeping it that way for the rest of my life. in fact,” ajax murmured while opening up the gift bag he was holding. it was a bracelet with a fine piece of noctilucous jade in the middle with cor lapis fragments decorating the border of the blue gem. the jewelry wafted with fragrances, the morning dew smell from a qingxin, the classical smell of the harbour from a silk flower and lastly the everlasting aroma of violet grass.

“do you like it? lumine and i picked it out for you at mingxing jewelry for our upcoming anniversary. i just wanted her opinion on what to choose for you. this was one of the most beautiful pieces that they had. i heard it took a super long time to make, oh! the jade in the middle will also make the bracelet glow in the dark! pretty cool huh?” ajax smiled as he lifted your wrist to put it on you.

at a loss of words, you lifted your head up at the male and gave him a soft smile, “thank you ajax… i love it, it’s perfect in every way possible.”

“just like you.” the redhead spoke fondly with a grin on his face while softly stroking your hair.

“oh shut up you flirt.” you tried to hide your smile as you both giggled on the beach with the sunset dripping behind you two.

after a while of being engulfed in ajax’s arms you spoke, “ajax, i want to apologize for jumping to conclusions about you and lumine. i..you know about how i find it hard to trust people sometimes but it was unfair for me to do that to you, i know you would never cheat on me.” you spoke, hugging him tighter as if he would leave if you get go.

“y/n. don’t you dare think for a second that i’ll leave you for someone else ok? you’re the only one in this world that i want and it’s staying that way. i don’t care if you’re visionless, or if you don’t have any achievements whatsoever. i still love you so so much.” ajax exclaimed as he buried his head into the crook of your neck.

you felt a certain warmth as your face flushed. how did you end up with someone as perfect as ajax. you lifted his face with your hands and pressed your lips against his. he deepens the kiss and your heart melts.

“thank you ajax. i’ll always be by your side too, no matter what happens. my love for you has no ends.” you speak with pure affection as you nuzzled your face into ajax’s soft yet firm chest.

ajax feels his face heat up and he quickly speaks, “c’mon now, let’s go home, i can’t wait to taste your cooking after running around all day today.”

the two of you walked together on the beach, hand in hand, leaving footprints and doubts in the sand.

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