#they r like baby sensory videos to me or something

[mukuberry]

I know we all hate indie horror games and for understandable reasons but they r so addictive.... Oh there's another mascot horror that's chapter based and very clearly made to make money ???? I have to watch 5 different playthroughs and endless essays on how its worst/best game ever made RIGHT NOW

#chernikocore #they r like baby sensory videos to me or something #most of em are made to sell merch to kids anyway so ig target audience achieved?

[universalitgirlsblog2]

🦄💗PARADIGM SHIFT🦄💗

💗This post is inspired by Bob Proctor videos on PARADIGM SHIFT and how loa works . He was more into law of attraction.I really felt that his teachings were very amazing & it resonated with me . However, if this post doesn't resonate with you , you can ignore it. Since you are the creator of your reality so you create your own rules.

🦄Just like gravity , the law of assumption / attraction is always working. Our body is a molecular structure, if you look at your body through a microscope, you 'd see that energy dancing right before your eyes. It's how you use your mind which will dictate the vibration you are in.

💗When you were a little baby , your subconscious mind was wide open , everything that was going on , it went in there all the energy that went in there formed something called paradigm . Paradigm is information , it's multitude of habits. ( see the diagram 1 below) . Paradigm is a mental program that has almost exclusive control over our habitual behavior.

(Sorry I misspelled subconscious)

🦄You are the product of your environment, prior to that , you are the product of genetic string that goes back to generations. On a conscious level, you have the power to think, you can think anything you want to. As you think , you build ideas.

💗Imagine a imaginary line which separates the conscious mind & the subconscious mind. Your subconscious mind has been reprogrammed. Let's say the paradigm is X type energy, you will think X type thoughts so you will get X type results. The thoughts that you are thinking that control the vibration you are in, but it also dictates what you attract . Here vibration is nothing but an idea ! You attract energy and people that are in a harmony with you. You got to change the paradigm to change your results. It

Let's see this diagram , it will help us to understand this in more depth.

🦄This diagram 2 may seem complicated , but you will understand it as you read this post. As you can see that there is an imaginary line separating your conscious and subconscious mind. As I mentioned earlier , if paradigm has X type energy , you will get X type results.

💗What we want to do is program in postive information & eliminate the negative.

🦄" Do just once what others say you can't do , and you will never pay attention to their limitations again " - James R . Cook . We are in charge of how we feel but we let other people upset us , but we don't have to . We can listen to what they are saying & then say, " Well you are entitled to your opinion, but that's just not how I am like ". We can hold our own idea of ourself

💗The sensory factors ( see the diagram 2 ) are hooked up to the conscious mind.The conscious mind has the ability to choose thoughts and originate ideas. It can accept or reject ideas. If somebody tells you a bad story , you have the ability to reject it. Those thoughts turn into pictures. We turn the pictures over to the subconscious mind & then the subconscious mind expresses the action. The subconscious mind has no ability to reject . It cannot determine the difference between what is real & what is imagined.

🦄We think thoughts that are in harmony with the paradigm. The paradigm controls our behaviors. Consciously , you can think of one thing. For example , we read self help books or watch self help videos and say to ourselves " yeah I can do that , it makes sense " but then we can't do it . Why? We believe something on a conscious level but the subconscious believes something else.

💗Paradigm was formed through REPETITION. The ideas being planted in your subconscious mind. Your paradigm dictates your logic, how you utilize your time , perception of situations , your effectiveness , productivity, creativity and the amount of money you make. In order to change your life , you must change your paradigm.

🦄Praxis is the integration of belief with behavior. We have got to take the beliefs that we have consciously that we determine by thinking & plant them in the place of the old belief.

💗Paradigm is formed through REPETITION OF INFORMATION & it can be changed through REPETITION OF INFORMATION. Suppose you are having a difficult time with money, you have got to change your concept about money. How to do that? REPETITION of an idea. That's where affirmations comes in.

🦄Videos you should watch to understand it better- video 1 , 2 , 3

#self concept #affirmations #law of assumption #neville goddard #loa #it girl #master manifestor #self concept affirmations #affirm and persist #assume and persist #mindset shift #paradigm shift #persisting #loa tumblr #manifesting tips #how to manifest #law of attraction #law of manifestation #sammy ingram #bob proctor #kim velez #edward art #law of universe #4d reality #3d reality #subconscious reprogramming #subconciousmind #subconscious mind #living in the end #live in the end

[gay-and-n3on]

heyy uh idk if this is a little tmi but anyway LIke 2 years ago i was tested for autism, it was supposed to be two parts and part one was like describing people in photos, what they were doing, what there expressions ment, ect then i was read to and had to recite sentences. but uh, the lady testing me couldn't get the second part of the test because someone lost the key to the room it was in, so i only ever did that first half? and i was supposed to have a full meeting w/ her and my dad to go over the results but we just, didn't? and all that was sent was an email that said that i was totally normal and theres nothing to worry about dont worry about it ur totes fine (btw i live in Australia if that matters)

Two years later and ive been hesitant to really say much about it for fear of being labeled as like “o em g i have autism and its so cutesy fun and i also have 20 other mental illnesses” but more than once ive had multiple friends be like “huh r u sure your not autistic? and googling symptoms it seems like i have more than a couple symptoms, im also afab, um could someone point me in the directions of some resources i could perhaps take a look at? im not really sure what to do, ive made an appointment with a doctor for next week, but im just not sure what to do with myself in the mean time? am i over reacting with the test thing? whenever i bring it up with my parents they sort of glaze over it and say that im fine, im not sure i have austisim as i really really dont want to self diagnose, and ive also had friends tell me that I might have ocd? I am constantly suffer from executive dysfunction to a point were im failing my classes, i also get sensory overload frequently and extreme audio sensitivity. I also have compulsions to say words, like saying things i see and repeating words (eg, saying worm every time i see a worm, or repeatedly saying the word worm aloud after seeing one) and also feeling the need to touch things to specific parts of my body, usually something smooth/ oddly textured to the center of my hand. i also have a poor social filter, i will say things that i ment kindly as compliments of neutral statements but will then make people upset and i normally wont understand why until the tell me (Eg, saying I love your eyebags, or you smell like a stick insect! or your nails are so pretty and long, they would be perfect for picking up baby snails  ((these unfortunately are things ive actually said to randoms at school and i will never live down)) and also,,,,,,,, god im rambling thanks for still reading, i also tic and stim, i frequently experience premoitory urges to touch parts of my skin, crack or move my neck and flinch. i frequently flap my hands. oh and i also have lots of urges to eat things that are not edible eg, paper, rubbers, wood, metal wires, dirt, rocks, plastic, ect ect. ALSO i regularly end up making rules for myself in my head, like “you cant eat the chocolate until you have finished this video” or “you cant go to the bathroom until you find and watch and like a yt short” and i also tend to think to do things in a specific order, like i will chop the vegetables then clean the pot im going to put them in, then ill get nervous and upset when someone cleans the pot for me before i chop all the vegetables. ok um this got off track fast, uh anyways if anyone can link some stuff i would like that please and thank you

#autisim #mental illness #undiagnosed mental illness

[sstrawberrywaferss]

Little!Wilbur Headcannons!

[A/N sorry for not gettin this out! was regssing! (Half regressed at the time of writing this!) Also thank ash (mcytagere) for accidently converting me to an r!wilbur truther]

He's a quiet little, doesn't really throw a fuss

When he does throw a fuss though, its not a little angy baby not he throws a temper-tantrum

main reason he will do this: He cant watch his shows, cant have the food he wants (or cant have it in the plate he wants), looses his stuffie, or others are upset

If he looses his stuffie his cg will be stuck looking for it because he wont stop complaining abt it.

Textures! There weird when he's small, and some textures make him feel icky.

Very polite, kind little boy!

regress to ages 5-8!

Big brother to r!tommy!

if others are upset he will do anything to cheer them up!

He go nom. (from this)

-Emotionally sensitive, if he even thinks he did something bad he wont take anything his cg's or babysitters give to him. (take baby arcade for instance) [this is also projection. i am like this. I cant help it!]

-Sensory objects make him happy! Our boy wont sleep without one!

-blankies, blankies with teethers. Nommy blankies. <33

-If he does regress to babyspace, he's verryyyy sleepppyyy. but. he doesn't want to sleep, not without compromise (ussually getting a special treat when he wakes up)

And to end this off; I had a dream where Wilbur and Tommy actually did the "stream where we got to regress" as Wilbur said and ngidf <33 the whole video was just them being kids, not super small, more big kids like 7-10 I'd say but bnfgui <33 arcades and theme parks and shopping and not wanting to but stuffies cause "there too old for it" and Phil buying them regardless because "They were eyeing the dino plushies like they do whenever they want something" vnfgui <33

Suddenly i want to write a r!wilbur story.

#r!wilbur #mcyt agere #baby mcyt #regressor!cc!wilbur #i am 100% an rwilbur and age dreamer! wilbur truther #CC!Regressor and/or CG! Cool!

[koi-fish96]

🍼EraserMic Baby Headcanons🍼

Looks like my brain wont let me sleep tonight so, ask and you shall receive @psssh-its-pastel

{Obviously unedited 😅 its like 2am I'm not bothering with that mess}

*Not getting into technicalities, the baby is biologically both their daughter, maybe they found something with a quirk that can do that, moving on!

*Knowing that Hizashi was born with his quirk and managed to break the windows and bursted his parents eardrums did worry you a bit but Aizawa makes sure to remind you hes right there if the baby is born with Hizashi’s quirk, lucky she wasn’t

*The nurse lays her on your chest and you finally get to see her, bright red eyes {Manga Hizashi} and black peach fuzz on her little head, you carried her for 9 months and she had the nerve to come out looking like her daddies

* Aizawa had little twinkles in his eyes and Hizashi is full out balling his eyes out as you three finally get to meet your baby

* "Just as cute as her mom." “She’s perfect!” 

*They are gonna feel bad for having to leave you alone to deal with the baby a lot {5 jobs takes up a lot of their time} but they always try and deal with the baby in the morning for you, come home for lunch, between patrols, and after work anything to give you a break even if its only a few minutes

*Neither really mind diaper duty, Aizawa is kinda bad at it though, he’ll get it he just needs a bit more practice and both are fine with feeding, burping, extra

*Aizawa got nap/sleep time, him and his daughter are one in the same always fighting their sleep and being cranky but they can nap just about anywhere. You might wake up one morning and find Aizawa in the crib with her

*You guys definitely put a radio in the nursery so she can hear her papa’s voice when he does his radio show

*She loves her mom’s cuddles and kisses and hates when Aizawa or Mic try and butt in on her love, once Mic tried to steal as kiss while you were giving her kisses and he got baby slapped she might have been blabbering but you're sure she told Mic to wait his turn

*Mic’s quirk lets him mimic voices and hes gotten great at doing you and Aizawa and he’ll learn all the voices of her favorite cartoon characters because lets be real who doesn’t want their fav character to sing them a lullaby

*Hes the best a bedtime stories since he can do such good voices for each character and being a dj/radio host/announcer/performer he can really bring the story to life

*Shes an attention hog when it comes to Hizashi, she’ll scream her little lungs off till he does the voices or a little dance, gives her raspberries, or funny faces

*She likes to yank Mic’s mustache as much as she does Aizawa’s hair, pro guys

*Present Mic themed onesies, yes plural Hizashi bought one of each one available and probably has a pacifier with his mustache printed on it 

*Hizashi got a custom Eraserhead onesie made so Aizawa wouldn’t be left out

*Cat themed nursery

*If you think Mic wont bring her to the radio show your wrong,

* “Hello listeners we have a very special guest today! Say hello!” *Happy baby gibberish* 

*Aizawa will use his capture scarf as a baby carrier

*Baby sensory videos dont really catch her attention, Present Mic videos do though hes bright and colorful zooming around and making weird noises so your guessing thats why or maybe she just misses her papa

*You three were sitting on the couch as she was doing tummy time on a mat on the floor after a bit you heard Mic gasped and turned to see her making her little way over to the three of you on her hands and knees 

*You were sitting in the kitchen feeding her when she started looking around “Da... Da-da?” “Oh! Shota! Hizashi!” The come running in and are next to you within second, the second she sees Aizawa she starts bouncing “Da-da! Da-da!” 

*You three were laying in bed when the baby monitor crackled to life with her cries “Y/n-” “Nope thats your child after midnight-” “Ma-ma!” Aizawa chuckles “She says otherwise.” 

*Hizashi cant wait for her to start calling him too, he was feeding her some baby food when she pointed to him “nana!” “nana?” He hears you go to laughing behind him and turns “What?” “Your hair Hizashi, she means banana." "No!"

*She’ll eventually call him pa-pa but its banana for at least a month

*Aizawa comes home from an after school meeting to see her sitting on the floor playing with her Present Mic plushy “Hi kitty cat.” She turns “Hi da-da!” She pushes herself up and waddles over to him on wobbly legs, he scooped her up and books it to find and show you and Mic

*She'll walk into your room and wake Hizashi to put her on the bed she'll then crawl over him and you to lay on Aizawa's chest

*If she sleeps on you, who sleeps in the middle, she'll push her dads away these are her cuddles

*If its Hizashi she chooses their both spread out hogging the bed x2

*I can see her liking FatGum in her younger years because he sorta reminds her of Mic

---

Quirk bonus:

*She was sitting on Aizawa’s lap watching some tv when you decided to tease her a bit, you sat and wrapped your arms around Aizawa’s arm “Mine.” She shook her head standing to wrap her arms around his neck “Mine, you can have papa for now, I need him back for bedtime though.” You and Aizawa laughed a bit harder “But I want Aizawa right now.” She pouted “MINE!” You were knocked off the couch before Aizawa could activate his quirk

*Mic comes booking it out the kitchen “Yes!” He picks her up and spin her around in the air “You got papa’s quirk!” She laughs as he peppers her face with kisses. 

*They dont care who’s quirk shes has if she had Aizawa’s or yours Mic still would have been excited that it manifested

*Your happy the house and windows are Mic proofed already so no harm came to anything other then poor you who hit the floor

---

Crack bonus:

*Mic picked her up from school and brought her home. You, her, and Mic sat at the table as she ate her snack you made her as Mic is checking her folder “How was your day my little songbird?”

*She starts telling you guys about what she learned at school, “And at recess I was a princess and r/n was a prince and he saved me from the dragon so hes my boyfriend now.”

*”Boyfriend!?” She nods at Mic “You can't have a boyfriend.”

*She pouts “Why not!? You have one, dad has one, and mom has two!” She turns to you with a pout and you looked to Mic “Yeah Zashi.” “Dont encourage her.” You laughed patting him on the head as you stood to pick her plate up “Their six babe, calm down. Trust me they'll forget all about it in two days tops.” 

*Later Aizawa came home from patrol and she ran over to him letting him scoop her up as she starts telling him about her day, and like Mic the word boyfriend is loud and clear in Aizawa's ears “Boys have cooties.” “Whats cooties?” “A bug you catch if you touch a boy.” “But I always touch you and papa, were touching right now.” “We dont count, only boys not related to you.” “Oh... so did you give mom cooties?” “Nah, papa did.” “Hey! Mean yo!” 

*You shook your head with a laugh, her poor future actual boyfriend

#my little ketchup packet #my hero acadamy #boku no hero academia #boku no hero headcanons #erasermic x reader #erasermic family #present mic #eraserhead

[ff-imagines]

Oh snap you're opened. Welcome back! Can you please do the nsfw alphabet for peking duck? I really like your writing!

Peking duck: nsfw alphabet

Minors dni xoxo

A - aftercare

The best at it, honestly. Might seriously cry a little afterwards lmao. You don’t have to ask for anything because he’s already thought ahead and is shoving everything you could need your way. It might get a little ridiculous with how careful he is with you, he doesn’t mean to baby you, he’s just terrified of hurting you. If you’re sore at all he feels incredibly guilty, even if there is a tiny part of him that twinges in pride when you remind him you’d asked for a rough treatment and, well, he’ll be damned if he doesn’t give you exactly what you asked so nicely for.

B - body part

Of yours, it’s more a question of what he doesn't like. If he had to make a choice, he’d say your stomach. It’s good to lay his head on it, and it’s one of the softest parts of your body so it’s nice and warm. He’d die before he admitted it but some nights he goes a bit harsher than usual, splaying his hand across your stomach and feeling how deep his cock is inside you as he thrusts- it drives him insane really.

He also loves your hands, always wants to be holding you hand, especaily during sex. Will pin you down in a loving way by lacing his fingers with yours above your head.

On himself? Definitely his hair. Playing with his hair and giving him a scalp massage makes him feel some type of way. Sit in his lap while you run your nails across his scalp and he’ll bury his nose in the crook of your neck and moan for you, whatever happens next is up to you babes xoxo

C - cum

It’s not a crazy amount but it’s pretty thick. You can’t tell me he doesn’t have a big ass breeding kink. What can he say, Peking Dad is a family man! Just the thought of cumming deep inside you has him thrusting all that harder. Beg him to cum inside you, I dare you. You’ll see a side to him that’s much more feral than you’ve ever seen this sweet man. Would 100% cum inside and buck into you just a bit longer to fuck any cum that’s slipped past his cock back inside you.

D - dirty secret

He wants to take pictures of you while in your blissed out state. He loves you so stupidly much, he’s already got tons and tons of pictures of you going about your daily life. He’s the type to see a cat asleep and go “what a rare moment I must capture it forever” and that stays true with his beloved. If you’d let him, he’d love to make some… home videos with you, ones he’d definitely come back to rewatch to the point where your whines are committed to memory like the lyrics to his favourite song.

E - experience

I’d say he’s not a green bean with sex. I don’t think he’s been around the block either. He’s probably opened up such intimacy with a few others before just to test the waters, but hasn’t really felt passionate about opening that part of himself back up for quite some time. He’d most likely fumble a bit to begin with as he recalls the motions.

F - favorite position

Whatever yours is! He’s the definition of a true switch, let him soft dom you or treat him how you like, it’s up to you!

If he had to pick, he’s most likely a sucker for when you’re on his lap. No matter if he’s in charge or not, he just loves to look up and see the way your face scrunches when he bucks and hits that one spot inside you that makes your mind vacate.

G - goofy

Not…. Really? He’s accidentally goofy by saying something super out of place during intimate moments or by fretting over something you wouldn’t even think to be worried over. You could have his cock buried so deep in your insides will feel like they’ve molded to the shape of his dick and he’d stop and ask if you remembered to turn the oven off lmao

H- hair

On himself he mostly trims to keep it simple but like, that’s it. He’s got a light happy trail that he doesn’t really trim since it’s not that thick, it doesn’t really bother him.

On you, he literally doesn’t care. Shave or don’t, he’s your personal cheerleader either way.

I- intimacy

It’s his expertise, your honour! He lives to be closer to you, learn more about your desires, what makes you happiest, please let him treat you good, he adores you so much, and precious things get treated like royalty in his hands. He commits your body and reactions to memory, almost like he’s taken a photograph of every single touch- and like I said….. if you let him…. he would take pictures ;)

J- jerk off

You’d think he’d only do it occasionally but he actually does it quite a lot. He thinks it’s healthy to release regularly, it’s better to cum now than have a weird spike of horniness in public. He’s probably considered the chance that you walk in on him, and he’s surprised by how much he wants that to happen. For him to be desperately close to the edge and for you to walk in and take over, him a deer in the headlights as you take control, he’s could probably cum to that fantasy alone, honestly.

K- Kinks

Well, obv a big ole breeding kink. The thought of cumming in your deepest parts has him frenzied beyond belief.

Idk if the taking pics thing is a kink but also… that ofc.

I think he’s also into sensory deprivation. Allow him to blindfold you, tie your hands behind you, let him take care of you. He’ll handle everything from here, sweet thing, all you have to do is keep moaning for him in such a pretty way.

He’s also, surprisingly, into masochism. He doesn’t care for sadism at all, he’d die before he left a mark on your perfect skin, however….. if you decided to roughly pull his head back by his hair and bite just a little too hard, you might find him bucking into you a little faster.

He’s probably thought a bit about cock warming, but surprisingly he doesn’t really want it to be…. “sexual” as much as he desires to be closer to you. You sitting in his lap, feeling you exhale against his neck with your arms wrapped around him, all the while is cock is buried deep inside you, it just sounds so intimate, and he finds himself craving to be that close to you often.

The biggest of all? Praise praise praise. Body worship as well. He’s literally always babbling about how gorgeous you are, how good you feel, how amazing you make him feel. Always encouraging and always admiring you, just like he does every single day in non sexual contexts, always sneaking in ways to remind you how much he adores you. Tell him about a certain part of your body you don’t feel confident in, he’s paying extra attention to making it known how perfect everything about you is. Everything you have, own, are, all of it. Peking is your number one fan, sit back let him remind you just why he finds you so lovely, you won’t regret it.

L- location

He prefers to be in a secluded area, he knows he’s loud and he’d be really embarrassed if anyone but you brought up the….. volume of his whines.

However, he’s very weak when it comes to your begging. If you're in a less than private location, he’ll most likely let you lead and just try to bite his knuckle to keep from crying out. It'd be soOoOo awful if you made a game out of trying to get him to break and whine out for you unmuffled as you play with him, oOoOoHhHh the horror >:)

M- motivation

He’s an old dad with an enormous you-shaped hole in his chest, just ask him and he’ll give everything he has to his name to you. You don’t need to wear that certain perfume he loves so much, you don’t need to breathe across his neck like that, you don’t need to run a finger down his spine so slowly, he’ll give you anything you ask for, please don’t tease him so much.

If you straight up ask him for sex, he’ll mostly lean towards soft service domming, if you choose to purposely rile him up, he’ll be in a much subby-er mood.

N- no

Like I’ve said, there really isn’t a sadistic bone in his body. He also doesn’t have literally any desire for humiliation kinks. He just doesn’t like it, giving or receiving. He’s a big ole simp with a big heart and it’s in the palm of your hands, please treat it nicely :’(

O- oral

P l s let him give you oral. He might not be an expert but he lives to make you feel good.

Afab readers…. He’ll most likely try to make you sit on his face at least once, please please he wants to feel your thighs against his head while he works his tongue on you.

Amab readers, he fuckin loves to rub his thumbs on your hips to keep you from bucking as he swallows your cock, he’ll open his mouth for you after you cum, swallow, and open his mouth again to prove he didn’t let a single drop go to waste.

As for receiving, phew boy does he love receiving. He cannot for the life of him figure out where to put his hands so it’s a frenzy of him grasping the sheets to biting down on his knuckle to placing a hand on your head. If you made him look down at you and lock eyes while his cock is in your mouth his soul would leave his body lmao

P- pace

Not very fast at all, he prefers to thrust deeper than should be possible. He really likes when you beg him to go faster, and as soft as his heart is, this is the only time he might withhold himself from giving into your begging for a bit, he just loves pulling out so slowly and watch you almost cry out for him to thrust back, deeper harder, faster, please, he’ll give into you eventually, just let him savour the feeling of you needing him badly enough to cry for a few more minutes.

Q- quickies

He prefers long, drawn out rounds, but if you really need some relief quickly, he’s not one to deny you. He will most likely give in, and later on in the night when you're back home and out of the public eye, suggest you two have a much more... thorough round as quick rounds just don’t satisfy him enough.

R- risk

Surprisingly…… he kinda likes the idea. The thought of someone, maybe even someone who’s been pining for you, to catch him in the act of making you beg and cry for him. Alternatively, making them watch you as you give your full attention to him, pleasure him, make them watch you love him instead of them. It riles him up in a way even he’s not used to.

S- stamina

He’s an old man, his refractory time is kinda long lmao. He prefers one really long round rather than multiple. He doesn’t mind or judge if you need a little more, and doesn’t mind giving you a few more orgasms with his tongue or hands.

T- toys

He doesn’t have any, but he’s open to the idea! Admittedly, he likes the idea on himself, like, really likes the idea. Give him a cock ring and watch him cry out as he begs for a break that he doesn’t actually want to take because the bliss you’re giving him is making him feel like jelly.

U- unfair

He's tried to edge and tease you before but he gave in so damn quick it was almost embarrassing for him. He just adores you, he lives to please you, even if you beg him not to give in and try to tease you he just can’t, his heart is so so squishy and he loves you very much dear, please let him treat you exactly how you beg to be treated.

Overstimming however….. he does it accidentally a lot, he just loves prolonging your pleasure, watching you squirm a bit as he forces a second orgasm out of your poor spent body.

V- volume

He’s very loud honestly. If you decide to dom him he talks a lot. He's got a bad babbling habit, words of adoration bleeding from his lips that get more and more incoherent the longer you toy with him. Play with him long enough and he’ll forget how to form words, letting out loud whines and he squirms under you. You might catch him attempting to cry out your name but the poor thing just can’t seem to form the right words.

If you let him top you he’s still throwing out every compliment he can think of and he still whines a lot, he likes to bury his face in your neck to muffle himself and listen to your moans. He lives to hear you come undone, but he can’t help being so loud, you’re just so warm and you feel so good :(

W- wild card

I think jealous sex will be more common than you actually think, Peking is just very quiet about the reason he’s suddenly a bit more handsy. He knows it’s not rational to worry about his place in your heart, but it just eats at him sometimes when he sees the way you blend in with others so easily while he just… doesn’t. If a stranger/friend is more overt about their flirting he will probably be more obvious about the jealousy burning through his veins. Even if he wasn’t prompted through jealously, pillow talk sometimes leans towards him venting his fears to you. Please praise him, tell him how much you love him, he needs it :’((((

X- X Ray

A lot bigger than average and a bit curved. He never considered himself to be out of the norm, or never really considered his cock to anything else than, just, “well, its there” I suppose. He does appreciate the curve a lot more now because it makes it easier to hit your weak point. He feels a bit of pride nestling into his chest if you cry about him being too big.

Y- yearning

Fairly often, but he doesn’t mind not acting on it. He can still function and do his work if he’s only surface level horny. Literally anytime you ask he’ll deliver with very slim exceptions. He’d like it to be a regular thing, since he really enjoys the intimacy, so maybe 3-4 times a week, 1-2 if you prefer it to be.

Z- zzz

Oh man he loves cuddling with you after sex. He also loves cuddling with you period but god he loves to the pillow talk with you in his arms, listening to your sleepy voice as your grip on him slowly loosens -but never lets go, as you succumb to sleep. He isn’t overly sleepy himself, instead choosing to close his eyes and comb through your hair, or run a thumb across your cheek if your hair isn’t a texture that can be combed through. Sleep will come to him eventually, he just likes savouring the warmth you bring him.

#food fantasy #food fantasy x reader #ff peking duck #peking duck #ff peking duck x reader #peking duck x reader

[circethegoblin]

STAYING ALIVE MASTERPOST, FROM A BROKE TEEN WITH ADHD

here you go. some down to earth tips on how to not die metally nor physically.

tired of those "drink three liters of water everyday uwu" and "wake up at 5 am" and "buy a bath bomb and a fec mask and some other things you don't have the money for" shit? i'm here for ya.

1. NOT DYING

eat at least three meals a day, one of which m u s t be warm and above 300 kcal (it can be istant ramen with an egg added if you have to)

you technically should shower everyday, but we know how it is. A change of clothes is sometimes enough.

DRY SHAMPOO AND BABY WIPES!!!

keep bottles with water everywhere. On your desk, near that spot on the floor you always end up sitting on, near your bed, basically whenever you know you spend a lot of time. No need to get up and go to the kitchen will help. Obviously change the water in the bottles as often as you can.

Get some form of physical activity. It doesn't have to be much, you can for example replace scrolling on tiktok by walking around your room and scrolling on tiktok! Brilliant, isn't it? Obviously, running or doing those 10 minutes workouts from youtube is better, but you are still getting like an hour of walking.

Buy blankets. Steal blankets. Summon blankets from other dimensions. Just make sure you have a lot of warm, soft blankets in your house. You will thank me when you won't have the anergy to wash your sheets (just take them off and throw some blankets on your bed), or when the power goes out.

If you have pets, ALWAYS keep spare food that'll last for a week for them.

things to always have in the kitchen: milk, eggs, flour, rice, pasta, yeast, cheese, oil, a leafy vegetable, onions, tomatoes, apples, patatoes, some flavourful sauce, sugar, salt, spices and an emergency chocolate bar. You can make a lot of food with those. Just make sure you won't eat the chocolate too fast.

Have a lot of spare batteries. A lot.

Get urself a flashlight, a lighter, and a pocket knife.

Remember the apples? eat one a day. if you don't like apples or you can't eat them for any other reason, you can take a kiwi, banana, orange, basically something that will give you vitamins and non processed sugar.

do the dishes before your sink starts developing it's own ecosystem

drugs from that one guy around the corner = very bad time

2. NOT DYING INSIDE

Open the damn window.

Don't watch so many commentary videos. You are probably not even checking the sources, so you can easily make unjust judgement, and like. did you even hear of half of those people before?

make a discord server just for yourself. get into the habit of writing little things that happened to you there. rant about the fanfics you read. or the movies. vent there if you don't have anyone you can vent to. write your ideas there, write e v e r y t h i n g. make a section for passwords, for quick ideas, for your to do lists. you won't lose it as you do with sticky notes or notebooks. there is no risk anyone will see it. oh, and when you'll have a strong impulse to tell emily that you hate her? write that message in your private server and list all ur arguments. look at tat the next day and decide if you really mean that.

life sucks. come to peace with it.

cuddle ur pets if you have them

1 hour a day without a lot of sensory input. if you have to, reduce to half an hour.

if you find yourself scrolling endlessly through social media, make sure it's pintrest (just don't compare urself to the people here; if you have issues with that, tumblr may be better)

delete. twitter. from. your. phone.

influencers are lying to you; maybe not even intentionally. remember when you were watching that cute-aesthetic-productive morning routine, and you were wondering why your life isn't that pretty? why your room is a mess? why you cannot for the life of god be aesthetic 24/7? its the filter. don't worry about it, their lifes arent that nice either.

realize there's actually nothing stopping you from screaming as loud as you can right now. like there is no physical barrier. think about it. realize there's no actual physical barierr to many other things.

your body is your body. you can decide how it looks like; just remember it's in your greatest interest to keep it healthy.

3. BEING A LITTLE BETTER THAN JUST ALIVE

If you wear make up, take it off before you go to sleep.

moisturize your body; everything is better when your skin doesn't feel dry

have a one brand of cosmetics that you love and buy things mainly from it. they often have sets of products that complete each other. i like ziaja. it's a polish brand, it's surprisingly cheap and has nice quality

cleanser, moisturizer, face mist

of you can, change your sheets once every two weeks

do the dishes before your sink starts developing it's own ecosystem

do a deep house clean once a month (don't beat yourself up when you don't tho)

keep your workspace organized (it doesn't have to look organized to other people, remember)

sunscreen

cook your own food

keep a calendar

no money for scented candles? got ya. make a simmer pot: throw some apple peel, a couple of cinnamon sticks and whatever spices that smell good you have into a pot, add some water and simmer. boom. your house smells good, and you haven't spend 20 dollars.

If you really like candles, buy scented wax melts. it's cheaper.

Buy urself scented mists. they're pretty cheap and will make you feel A LOT better.

keep your clothes clean. if you aren't sure if that shirt thats on your chair is dirty or not, throw it in the washing mashine anyway. better be sure.

if you can, make your bed right when you get up

wear clothes that make you feel good. put some effort into your outfits. really.

4. OTHER PEOPLE

be nice to essential workers.

if you have money, give tips.

remember, you do not owe anyone love; it is not something you can force. even if they saved your life. even when they helped you in your darkest time. if you don't love them, you don't.

you don't have to be in a romantic relationship to be happy.

if you want to, date! date everyone! date girls, date boys, date nonbinary people! date people completly different than you, date people from different countries, date them!!! just make sure they're kind and won't kill you. even if you don't end up in a relationship, you can learn a lot.

don't be afraid to piss off people that deserve it

smile to strangers :)

5. NOT FAILING SCHOOL

heard of dark academia? check it out

romanticize the heck out of studying

do not let your studying be just reading the same partagraph over and over again. it won't work. believe me.

seterra for geography, quizlet for everything else

try to make yourself intrestet in whatever you are studying (watch veritasium, listen to podcasts about weird history facts)

notes are for you and you only; don't worry about them looking pretty. doodle on margins, make weird metaphors, squeeze in as much info as you can.

when you're studying, listen to music without words/in a language you don't understand.

chew gum while you study

get the forest app, get attached to the trees, focus.

don't feel guilty for taking breaks

grades aren't everything, but they are important.

eat something in school

don't just use the cheapest pens. invest a couple dollars in something that will make writing enjoyable and smooth

those study with me videos? they're great

if you like to argue with the teachers, take care of your grades becouse. they may not like you afterwards.

be nice to your classmates and help them with homework. if you don't do your homework they'll help you

executive dysfunction won't let you study? been there. sometimes it's better to wake up ealier tommorow and do that homework then.

don't feel guilty for failing a test

go to the goddamn class

don't pull all nighters oh my god don't especially on weekdays

6. OTHER LIFEHACKS

don't get involved in the crime, and if you do always have a believable explanation why you were doing it

have different alarm sounds for every day of the week

set a daily limit of money that you spend

great hobbies that don't require a lot of money; urban exploration, writing, hiking and learning other languages

thrift stores

don't eat grapefruits while on meds

nail polish removers dissolve most strong glues.

if you have a cut on your skin, desinfect it. do it. please just do it.

always have pads with you. even if you don't get periods, at least one of your friends probably does

sign up in your local library. its free

#life hacks #life #not dying #staying alive #no one will see this #who cares though

[thevirgodoll]

hi! i was wondering if you have any tips to stay organized and stay on task? i’ve been doing a short online course this year and have really struggled to ACTUALLY bring myself to do the work, as assignments and lessons are not under any time constraints i just don’t do it. i also have adhd so get bored or distracted easily. do you have any tips for me?

This is really close to me because I also have ADHD. I have both inattentive and hyperactive type. *As a result, this academic tip guide will be a guide for people with ADHD and not neurotypical people, without disability. There is a difference.*

I am doing online as well this semester.

1. I create a schedule. If I do not create a schedule, I will be unproductive the entire day. So, what will help you is to do things in orderly fashion.

For example, at 12p - I will do this assignment/watch this lecture. You have to dictate what time you’re doing everything. Then, you also have to block out technology distractions while you are working. 

-> Even if you’ve gotten halfway through the day with no schedule, write down or block off times on your digital calendar for what you are going to do at each time. ADHD is easier to tackle if you break things down into smaller tasks.

*Pro tip that I almost forgot: before you do anything, wear your day clothes. Don’t wear pajamas. Actually getting dressed or even doing hair/makeup changes things.

2. Download the Forest app after you have created your schedule. I consistently recommend this because it works in increasing productivity. It allows you to set it for however long you’re doing this task, say 30 minutes.

-> Why?: It will block all apps on your phone for (insert time here) to plant a tree, and if you leave the app your “tree” will die. Eventually, the more sessions you do, the more points you will gain to plant different plants, and eventually plant real trees around the world.

3. Have a list (& a planner) as well. Not only is the schedule creating structure, but the list creates even more structure so you know what you need to get done for the day. It also helps you not fall victim to the classic symptom of forgetting. Each day, you should write down what you WANT to get done and create your own times to look at lecture and assignments. Have goals for the day.

For example: complete assignment 2.

If you do not have expectations with yourself before the day begins, your ADHD will kind of take over and do something else. I have structure to my day. I set a timer to wake up at the same time. I take my ADHD medicine 90 minutes before my final wake up time, and I do my morning routine once it kicks in. Having the same routine helps.

-> Focus on your goals. Don’t be super harsh about the times.

-> Don’t overwhelm with how many things on to do list. Again, break it up into small tasks. For example, one part being: Wash dishes or fold laundry. It makes it less overwhelming to your brain and gives you a choice of which task. Typical non ADHD people just tell you to prioritize tasks but that doesn’t work for us. Do it in a random order and it gets the job done.

4. TAKE BREAKS! The other side to this is making sure that you give yourself adequate breaks.

*For hyperfocus, wait til your hyperfocus has started to wear off. Use it to your advantage for peak productivity. It is no joke.*

-> The misconception is that some people with ADHD are lazy and as a result, some ADHDers won’t take breaks. You can take a break. Healthy, long breaks do more for you long term.

-> Have a timer set. For example, after a 45 minute session or an hour session, I will take a break to do another task that has nothing to do with studying, like laundry, eating a snack, or stretching. Then after that task is done, I will go back to studying.

5. Have a workspace. Only do work at this space. I do schoolwork at my living room table and it is perfect. I do not study in my room because that is my sanctuary for relaxation and rest, not productivity. Make an effort to make the workspace clean, with your supplies - laptop, notebooks, pens, etc - readily available.

-> Once I get to my workspace, everything for the morning is already done. I’ve done my morning routine, so all there is left to do is hydrate while I study.

6. Recognize if you have adequate energy to do the task. Sometimes, with ADHD you may neglect your needs. If you are not getting enough rest, here are some tips:

•Bed should be for rest only.

•Blackout curtains

•Lavender essential oil, I have a diffuser but you can also put it on your pillow

•Background noise: pick what you want, lo fi music, rain sounds, binaural beats, singing bowls

•If all else fails, ADHD is often comorbid with other illnesses, meaning you could have a form of depression causing insomnia for example. This should be considered if you are having long term issues and symptoms.

7. Don’t overdo it. We are not neurotypical. Executive dysfunction is real - meaning our brains actually shut down when it perceives a task to be mundane.

-> You do not have to fit everything into one schedule for the sake of being “productive”. Each day should be what you know you can do, and there are different days to tackle different goals.

-> When you feel like you cannot continue, which is literally a symptom of ADHD, sit still for a few minutes.

8. Have a “What I Did Today” List. Because of how ADHD actually makes us feel, we don’t realize how much work we have put in. ADHD actually can be explained easily, we have about 2 dopamine workers showing up to work while most people are at maximum capacity. We are working overtime to do our best, even on medicine. So, acknowledging what we did today is good and encouraging, or at least reflecting in a journal.

9. Play music. It’s recommended to play study music without words because with ADHD we will submerge ourselves into the playlist of nostalgic 90s R&B. I recommend lo fi hip hop on YouTube, video game instrumentals, classical music, or jazz instrumentals. Whatever gets you going just do it!

General ADHD tips:

•Rewrite lecture notes and type the lecture notes.

•Color code with bright colors and pretty drawings or calligraphy

•Instead of telling yourself “I need to take notes” which usually leads to procrastination say “Rewrite lecture notes and emphasize main points” ... this is useful in your to do list but in everyday goals

•Generally try to get your assignments done ahead of time if there is structure to certain courses, if not, again, stick to the schedule. If you slip one day off your schedule then don’t beat yourself up. Breathe!!!

•Side effect of most ADHD meds is that you’re not hungry so buy easy things to eat like muscle milk or yogurt and granola or smoothies so you can sustain yourself

•Get a dry erase board to show what you need to do for the day and put it on the fridge with command strips

•To avoid forgetting things, put them at a table near the door where you leave your apartment/dorm/house.

•Don’t overthink the time it takes to get ready, often that’s why ADHDers are late. Better to be super early than late though - have a routine set so you know how long each task takes - for example “I know a shower takes me 15 mins, washing my face takes 60 seconds and a few more including sunscreen/moisturizer, etc...”

•In that same grain, set timers for going to the bathroom, showering, etc just in case you one day hyperfocus and push yourself too far

•Open the blinds!!!!

•Clean your room and tidy up your space. A cluttered space impacts your mental health in a really negative way. Your space reflects your mental state at times as well, so check in with yourself. Have a specific day where you know you’re going to clean, but ADHD sometimes gives us bursts of cleaning so take advantage of that as well.

•Anytime your water bottle empties refill it. Have your water bottle or mason jar next to your workspace, and drink 5-10 gulps. Seriously. ADHD depends a lot on hydration, especially if you are on medicine which naturally dehydrates you. If you do not stay hydrated, you’ll get that massive headache mid day and crash sooner. A lot of times, lack of productivity can be due to not drinking enough water.

•If you don’t take medication, then sometimes you may notice you love coffee, and that’s because it’s a stimulant. Too much of anything is not good, but balance it with water. If you’re going to use coffee to kinda “medicate” then do it close to when you’re going to be productive.

•Setting yourself up to do a task rather than envisioning the overwhelming act of doing the entire action. “Okay, lets just get up and get the first step down, such as opening the laptop or wetting the toothbrush.” Baby steps.

•Take advantage of accommodations! Your college more than likely has an Office of Disability Services. Also, email your professors...they’re actually just as stressed as you about classes being online.

•Remember that you’re already trying as hard as you can, so don’t listen to the narrative of “try harder”, “you’re *r word*”, “you’re cheating by using medication”, “just do it,” “it’s easy,” “what’s so hard about it?” or “you’re lazy”. Anyone telling you that, even yourself, is wrong. And DO NOT allow anyone to be ableist, even yourself.

•Validate yourself. Don’t let anyone to do the “I experience that too”/“I know what you mean”/“we ALL have trouble with this!” and they don’t have ADHD. No. It’s our experience, it’s valid, and unlike anything on the planet. If you’re reading this and you don’t have ADHD - no, you do not experience any of the things in my next bullet point.

•Don’t be hard on yourself if you stumble along the way getting this right. ADHD completely changes your executive functioning.

We see the task, but our brain blocks it.

We have something marked down as “important” but our brain tosses it out in the “trash”.

We watch an entire episode of a show, but our brain ignored the entire thing. Our brain picks and chooses what is stimulating, our brain changes our interests.

We have sensory overload, we have no dopamine, we have bursts of curiosity that cannot be contained (often inconvenient) and if interrupted, our brains cannot take it.

People often discount how many things ADHD actually changes because it’s widely misunderstood. I want to take the time to acknowledge that ADHD, formerly known as simply ADD, has different types: primarily inattentive, primarily hyperactive-impulsive, or combined which is what I have. So it’s not “hyper” and “relatable”. It is also not a buzzword to use to describe things. I must put stereotypes and misrepresentations of ADHD to rest.

It impacts us emotionally as well, which most people don’t know... such as rejection dysphoria — extreme sensitivity to being criticized to where our brains self destruct. Our brains don’t regulate emotions well.

ADHDers - do not fall victim to how everyone else operates and call yourself a failure. We have to work twice as hard and the results actually come out brilliant especially with our determination and imaginative ideas that are also seen in autistic individuals, honorable mention!

There’s good days and bad days. There’s literal changes in thinking that other people do not experience. We all collectively know wouldn’t be who we are without ADHD, but we all recognize the challenges. However, it makes me happy to see messages like this so that I can make a difference and hopefully help one person with ADHD, especially of color, at a time stop being so hard on themselves. 💗

#answered #mental health #adhd #actuallyadhd #studyblr #save

[sunnydaleherald]

The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Wednesday, March 16 – Thursday, March 17

Tara: You still need an elective. (glances down at booklet) How about . . Sophomore Level Psychology? Willow: Oh. Kinda psyched out since Professor Walsh. Maybe something fun like drama. I could be dramatic. Willow picks the kitten up again in front of her face. Willow: (dramatic voice) You cannot have more catnip! You have a catnip problem! Tara: (laughing) Definitely drama.

~~The Yoko Factor~~

The Sunnydale Herald is still looking for at least one new editor. Contributing to the Herald is a great way to get your Buffy on! Find out more here.

[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

Four Broken Hearts (Willow, Xander, Cordelia, Oz, PG) by badly_knitted

The Best (Xander/Cordelia, PG-13/T) by Apache Firecat

Snake Wreath Rebellion (Tara, Willow, Buffy, G) by DarayFlair

A messy date (Willow/Tara, Angel/Cordelia, Spike/Buffy, Wesley/Lilah, T) by Aragorn_II_Elessar

Less Not Normal (Angel/Buffy, G) by KairosImprimatur

Reunion (Tara/Willow, T) by Aragorn_II_Elessar

Glory, or His Version of a Kingdom (Giles/Buffy, T) by refusetoshine

Sensory (Giles/Buffy, M) by froxyn

A Broken Soul (Angel/Buffy, T) by angelus2hot

Everything I Never Said (Jenny/Giles, G) by Jess_Ann_Perreault

Skate Surprise (Faith/Buffy, not rated) by malkmcjorma

Just Another Day in the Life of a Rogue Demon Hunter (Wesley, Spike, Angel, G) by idabbleincrazy

[Chaptered Fiction]

Slayer's Mad Whelp: To Build a Home (Yakuza AU, Xander, Teen) by madimpossibledreamer

family matters, Chapter 1-4 (Jenny & OC, G) by The_Eclectic_Bookworm. COMPLETE!

Ache, Chapter 1-2 (Spike/Buffy, T) by EllieRose101. COMPLETE!

The Dark Chronicles Of Willow and Tara - How Love Saved the World, Chapter 1-3 (Tara/Willow, M) by Bellalocke

Coming Home, Chapter 1-2 (Tara/Willow, E) by Bellalocke. COMPLETE!

Come Back to Me, Chapter 23 (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by honeygirl51885

Bait & Switch, Chapter 3 (Spike/Buffy, R) by JaneRemmington

Closer and Closer, Chapter 19 (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by Grief Counseling

Deadly Denial, Chapter 2 (Spike/Buffy, Adult Only) by Jws1993

Encore, Chapter 14 (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by sweetprincipale

Le chemin de la destinée, du courage, et la force de ses convictions, les chemins de son cœur.... Le commencement, Chapter 51 (Spike/Buffy, Adult Only, in French) by Violette-Milka

Love, and Other Confessions, Chapter 1 (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by B_Red

Milkshakes & Motorcycles, Chapter 22-23 (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by Grief Counseling

Mortal Allies Series, Episode 5: War and Roses, Chapter 5 (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by Passion4Spike

Seven, Chapter 16 (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by Holly

Use It or Lose It, Chapter 15 (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by Dynamite

Rebirth of the Gods, Chapter 1 (crossover with Xena-Hercules, Xander, FR18) by Sithicus

Invasion USA, Chapter 13 (crossover with "Harry Potter", Scoobies, FR7) by Buffyworldbuilder

Scattered Echoes: Second Generation, Chapter 6 (Spike/Buffy, M) by Myrabeth

[Images, Audio & Video]

Artwork: Angel (worksafe) by drawingwithdave

Artwork: Buffy (worksafe) by drawingwithdave

Gifset: Edgar Allan Poe – For Annie (William/Cecily, Spike/Drusilla, worksafe) by tell-tale-hearts

Gifset: We're a crooked love... (Buffy/Faith, worksafe) by marissa-cooper

Artwork: Spike (worksafe) by pintsofguinnesmakeyoustrong

Artwork: All this time how could you not know, baby? (Buffy/Cordelia, worksafe) by chasingfictions

Artwork: “I’d rather be dead… again.” (Buffy, worksafe) by witchcracked

Artwork: My Illustration on my own Buffy The Vampire Slayer Reboot (Buffy, worksafe) by Brendan

Artwork: 25th Anniversary challenge fanart (Buffy, Buffy/Spike, worksafe) by Priceless

[Reviews & Recaps]

Favorite Moment: The Animal Cracker Scene - What’s My Line? Part Two by frankierose

Favorite S7 Episode: Him by frankierose

Rewatch notes for BtVS 1.05 "Never Kill a Boy on the First Date" by vamperbuffy

Rewatch notes for BtVS 1.07 "Angel" by vamperbuffy

Saddest Moment: Buffy and Tara - Dead Things by frankierose

Angel Season One: Overview by buffster

AtS 4.22 "Home" by burrunjor

Best awkward/confessional moment? by Opening_Knowledge868

Rewatching "Surprise" & "Innocence" and Feeling....Old by NikkolasKing

Very unpopular opinion - Connor is actually well written and acted. by Window-Entire

PODCAST: Buffy Boys 146 - Ranking the Vampire Slayer [123 -103]

PODCAST: If the Apocalypse Comes, Beep Me 6.11 - "Gone"

PODCAST: Pop Culture Role Call: Not a Great Take - Angel S02E03 - First Impressions

[Recs / In Search Of]

Question: Does anyone know which song is playing from the car radio at 39:40 in the Buffy movie? by elmstreets

Recs: What is your favorite BtVS season rewrite or post-series fanfic? by Channon-Yarrow and others

[Community Announcements]

Welcoming New Mods & Rules Clarification at Elysian Fields

Poll: 25th Anniversary top 20 [episodes for a rewatch]: season 1 and 2 by BPD-and-Lipstick

[Fandom Discussions]

Drusilla is basically Lucy Westenra by scaryscarier

the reason buffy/angel doesn’t work by federalnecromancer

[The "escape clause" of Angel's curse & there are very rarely prices on magic in this show] by ex-vengeancedemon, girl4music, confusedguytoo

Favorite Supporting Character: Cordelia Chase by hell-of-a-woman

It’s so frustrating when you love a certain scene [in “Touched”] but the circumstances that lead up to that scene are completely ridiculous by hell-of-a-woman, girl4music

Unexplored aspects of magic by maclayrightswarrior, girl4music

The scene of Sam’s interaction with Willow showed me just how awesome of a character she was by girl4music

I really hate it when Whedon uses his characters as mouthpieces for his shitty racist, misogynistic, and homophobic brand of humour by legendofnora, nevergonnabemuchmorethanweather

Re: the vibe that Joss Whedon just does not like Spike very much and was mad that people liked him by spuffybot, girl4music

I also love Dawn Summers. I feel like she’s underrated. by legendofnora, nevergonnabemuchmorethanweather

Zendaya as Buffy Reboot Lead?! by

What is your second favorite pairing for each person in your favorite ship/couple? Why? by crazy chicklet

Giles and after killing Ben by crazy chicklet, Ethan Reigns

Immortality - a curse or a gift? by Stoney

Re: Sarah Michelle Gellar on Those Buffy Feud Rumors by bespangeled and others

Character Quick-Takes from a New Fan by SemperMiror

“SweetLorne” aka I think Lorne was criminally underused so I gave him a post-s3 buddy comedy spinoff with Sweet in Vegas by WriteImagination

Which characters would you have liked to see more interaction between? by sibshallward

Cain skinning werewolves by Tuxedo_Mark

Another appreciation post for SMG! by Excellent-Durian-509

Angel Didn't Die in Becoming by rednax2009

If Buffy was remade exactly the same, but had today’s music, what songs do you think would play? by tabularasa1996

Buffy and Faith's conversation in Bad Girls (S3) comes back in Buffy's speech to the Council in Checkpoint (S5)... by batapult

Which character do you see yourself in the most? by 90sgalore

What always annoys me about Ben by Lizcatherine

The Darker Side of Giles crossposted by avidrosette

[Articles, Interviews, and Other News]

Two articles summarizing takeaways from Evan Ross Katz’s new Buffy book re: tension with SMG, Joss and other cast members via Excellent-Durian-509, ImEllenRipleysCatAMA

Submit a link to be included in the newsletter!

#btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #angel the series

[kpoppwriter]

Dating SoonHoon~

Anon asked: could you please do dating soonyoung and jihoon headcanons?

A/N: I’ve been really in horny Hoshi hours for like 3 days I love that man uGH I have so many NSFW feelings about this ship but also soft feelings ~

☆ omg Bring It get me h o r n y

☆ so this relationship can go two ways

☆ you and Hoon being absolutely done with loud boy 

☆ or you and Soon being annoying to Hoon

☆ despite someone being annoyed 

☆ there’s a shit ton of love

☆ if you’re a cuddler,

☆ you’re gonna get all of the cuddles from Soon

☆ which Hoon greatly appreciates sometimes

☆ Hoon will bring you to the studio with him just for this reason

☆ if Soon is gonna be there with him, that is

☆ well, even if Soon isn’t there, he invites you to the studio 

☆ he just really likes you there so Soon will be entertained while he’s working

☆ this really sounds like a dad taking his son to work lmaooo

☆ Soon loves to cuddle

☆ LOVES TO CUDDLE

☆ loves to hold you and Hoon and cover you in kisses

☆ Hoon says he’s hates it but he secretly loves it

☆ Soon randomly comes up to you and Hoon and requests kisses

☆ whether it be a peck on the cheek or a proper kiss

☆ or in Hoon’s case, just blowing him a kiss sometimes

☆ Soon will not leave you alone until you give him a kiss of some sort

☆ when they go on tour

☆ Soon keeps you updated on how they’re doing

☆ video chats with you when he can

☆ Hoon texts and calls you usually before concerts while getting ready

☆ during that downtime

☆ it calms him to hear your voice before getting on stage

☆ Soon made a little hand gesture that he and Hoon does on stage

☆ it’s meant for you and only the three of you know about it

☆ I mean so do the rest of the boys but no one else

☆ they tease them about it lol

☆ Hoon has a soft spot for you and Soon

☆ like a really soft spot

☆ he’s so whipped for you two 

☆ overall,

☆ Soon is energetic babie

☆ and Hoon is tired dad

☆ jk he’s mature babie 

☆ thank you

☆ MY HARD HOSHI HOURS ARE ABOUT TO COME OUT NOW~

☆ so

☆ Hoon is a switch very much leaning towards dom

☆ Soon is a true switch

☆ I’ve read so many Soon hcs recently and my faves are gonna come out now

☆ some kinks these two have are:

☆ breeding, marking, voyeurism/exhibitionism, masturbation, bondage

☆ sensory deprivation, temperature play, choking, hair pulling

☆ I just think that these two are really kinky

☆ Hoon has such a big kink for breeding/cuming in someone

☆ he loves the idea of his cum deep in someone (you and/or Soon)

☆ SEX IN THE STUDIO

☆ SEX IN THE PRACTICE ROOM

☆ SEX WITH BOTH OF THEM IN THESE PLACES

☆ Soon has a thing for marking you and Hoon

☆ but also into getting choked and having his hair pulled

☆ blindfold Soon please he loves it

☆ if you blindfold Hoon though

☆ and you and Soon tease him,

☆ y’all will really be in for it 

☆ if you’re gonna do that, you have to bind him up too

☆ handcuffs or something

☆ because he will get really rough if you tease him too much 

☆ I seriously could talk about these two for a while

☆ I might write a smut just of the two of them

#kpop #kpop blog #kpop writing blog #seventeen #seventeen headcanon #seventeen headcanons #seventeen reactions #seventeen reaction #seventeen scenarios #seventeen scenario #seventeen imagines #seventeen x reader #seventeen x you #seventeen fluff #seventeen smut #seventeen soonyoung #seventeen hoshi #seventeen jihoon #seventeen woozi #poly!kpop #poly!seventeen #soonhoon #poly!soonhoon

[generalskales]

Adhd/Autistic Lloyd and Jay hcs if you're willing?

I already shared Jaydhd (but I have plenty to share) and my friend finally got coherent enough to help me with the autistic lloyd hcs (Jack if you're reading this go back to bed 🔪)

I have more for Jay bc I see blue bird brain go hehhe projecting time :)

Also my friend was sleepy and I didn't want to keep him awake

Lloyd

🐉 Stims in a myriad of different ways, but most commonly stims by:

🐲 Waving his hands (aka Flappy Hands)

🐲 Chewing on things

🐲 Various stims toys he either bought (his necklace) or were built by Jay (the spinners)

🐲 Humming or making small conversation with himself quietly

🐉 Lloyd's special interests are sci-fi comics and the history of ninjago (before the ninja were formed)

🐲 Usually infodumps to Zane, who is all for hearing Lloyd get excited about something and also learn about what Lloyd has to teach him about comic book lore

🐉 Chews on his necklace during fights if he can do it without choking himself again (I can attest that it is much harder than it looks when you add talking to that list)

🐉 Is public about it and won't take shit, if it gives people hope he is all for it

🐲 Once fought a random dude in parking lot after a few unsavoury words were thrown (If anything it kept the dude from dealing with a less merciful Kai)

🐲 He gets a lot of love from kids who are just like him and it just warms his heart

Jay

🌩 Mega frustrated that he can't exactly find information pertaining to adhd in adults and (outside of the meds for health reasons) had to go through trial and error

🌩 Regularly forgets to eat at meal times but has counteracted this problem by keeping snacks in his rooms

🌩 Is more than happy to show Lloyd the memes Nya sent him about a shared interest between the three of them (usually it's something space or spaceship related)

⚡ Also will happily indulge Lloyd's special interests

🌩 Likes the weight of another person on top of him while he sleeps

⚡ Before Nya shared a bed with him, the person would usually be Zane

⚡ Days when its not possible or not wise to have someone on top of him he either uses a weighted blanket (courtesy of his parents) or he simply does not sleep

🌩 "No Wu I can't meditate I have to m o v e and g r o o v e"

🌩 Video Games are sensory heaven, even if it gets too much nothing stopping him from, well, stopping

🌩 Was a big help with Baby Wu simply because the tyke enjoyed the Leg Bounce™

#ninjago #ninjago hc #ninjago headcanons #jay ninjago #ninjago jay #jay walker #lloyd garmadon #lloyd ninjago #ninjago lloyd #adhd headcanon #autism headcanon

[brideofedoras]

Soulbound: Almost Human

Disclaimer:  the usual, I only own my OCs

Word Count: 1700+

Rating: 18+

Warnings: Thoughts of cutting, onset of anxiety and asthma attacks

Chapter Two (link to Chapter One is on here as well)

**It is not stated what the length of time was between John waking from the coma to returning to work.  Maldonado mentions a month when she video calls him, but with physical rehabilitation to get his body back in shape and to get acclimated to the leg, not to mention all the psychological evals he’s gone through would take more than a month.  Being based in the future let’s say with medical and scientific advancements he was cleared to return to duty within a month but mentally he wasn’t ready to return.  I set his return as two months after waking up.**

Chapter Three

 Two months later…

Emily carefully stored her datapad in a side pocket of her toolkit, wishing Rudy would go to the precinct instead.  

Normally she didn’t mind going to the MX bay and running diagnostics or performing quick repairs or upgrades.  She kept to herself and nobody bothered her.  A couple of the detectives would wave to her or acknowledge her in some way (usually it was Valerie Stahl, she was super sweet), and sometimes Sandy would page her up to her office just for a quick chat and make plans for a drink after work.

But today…  Today was different.

Today Detective John Kennex might possibly be returning to work.  He had been putting it off, but Emily knew Sandy would push him into coming back.  The department needed him.

And Rudy had tasked her with getting an MX ready to work with the man, on top of working on a few other androids while she was at the precinct.

Her hands shook as she unzipped the main compartment of the black duffel, double-checking that she had all the tools she needed for quick repairs and upgrades.  

“Emily, your inhaler?”

She turned at Rudy’s concerned voice to find him standing next to her with one of her inhalers held out to her.  Her brow furrowed as she took it from him, meeting his worried eyes.  

“You’re wheezing,” he simply stated.  

Emily felt it then, the rattle deep in her lungs.  She quickly dosed herself before pocketing the device.  “Thank you,” she whispered hoarsely.

“Is everything all right?”  Her boss patted her shoulder in an awkward attempt at comfort.  “You’ve been to the precinct several times before.”

She nodded.  “Yeah, but…  This is the first time I’ll be there when he might be there.”  She turned back to her duffel.

“Oh.”  He patted her shoulder again.  “I’ve read several studies on comatose patients.  Seventy-six percent have retained a high level of sensory awareness and can recall conversations, odors, touch.  He will remember you.”  

 Pulling into the first available spot she could find near the precinct, Emily parked her car but sat there, hands gripping the wheel as she struggled to tamp down the growing anxiety.  A horn honked not too far behind her and she startled, a ragged wheeze ripping out of her throat.  

It took her a moment to remember how to unwrap her fingers from the steering wheel, the knuckles locked from how tight her grip was.  Another wheeze, sharper this time, spurred her into moving faster to get her inhaler and dosed herself with the albuterol.

“Focus, Emily.  This is just routine.  You’ve done this a hundred times, you can do this with your eyes closed.  Go in there, do your job, get back to the lab.”

Thirty minutes later she had completed running diagnostics and upgrading 785, the MX assigned to work with Detective Kennex.

“There, you’re ready for duty once your partner arrives,” she murmured.  “Your charge is low, why don’t you return to your charging station while I see to the rest of the MXes on my work order?”

She immersed herself in more diagnostics, quick repairs and upgrades.  By the time she finished and logged her notes on her datapad, signed off that the requests were completed and transferred them to the original work request, the MX was fully charged and ready to deploy.

“I’ll walk with you,” Emily shouldered her duffel and picked up her datapad.  

Her breath rattled in her lungs on the elevator.  Emily shifted her tablet to her other hand and slipped her inhaler out of her pocket, ready to use if needed.  She heard 785 shift next to her.

“Your vitals are increasing, Ms. Williams--”

She wheezed.  “I am aware,” she lifted the inhaler to her mouth.  She waited a moment as the medicine spread through her lungs before she spoke again.  “I have anxiety-induced asthma,” she held up her hand when the MX fully turned toward her.  “I do not require medical assistance.”

“Your vitals state otherwise, Ms. Williams.”

“If I feel worse, I will call my doctor,” she sighed, stepping off the elevator when the doors slid open.  

She looked around the bullpen, taking in the activity.  Detective Stahl stood with two other detectives, their attention focused on something across the room from them.  She followed their gazes and froze.

John Kennex stood at a desk, speaking with the officer seated behind it.

Her heart ached fiercely as she watched him sign something and turn toward the direction she needed to go.  His stride had a bit of an odd gait to it, barely noticeable.  But he was awake, he was walking.

He looked so handsome.

“Your… your partner, Detective Kennex, is headed to Captain Maldonado’s office,” she turned to the MX.  “Why don’t you go meet him?”

 Detective John Kennex turned away from the desk to head to the captain’s office.  Movement out of the corner of his eye caught his attention, and he turned.  His eyes fell on a petite brunette wearing skinny jeans, combat style boots, and a snug cranberry colored long sleeved henley waiting for an elevator, a duffel bag slung over her shoulder.  When she turned to glance over her shoulder and their eyes met, he frowned slightly as something tugged at the back of his mind.  A memory?  A conversation?  Do I know her?

It was gone before he could even grasp it.

“Detective Kennex, I’m 785,” an MX approached him, drawing his attention from the baby blue eyes he’d seen and the sadness within them.  The android kept pace with the detective as he turned back toward the office.  “I’ve been assigned to you.  I am aware this is your first day back.  I only want to make your acclimation to active duty as smooth as possible for you.  I’m here to attend to all your n--”

John stepped into Sandra’s office, shutting the MX out.  “I’m not driving with one of those things,” he griped at the captain.  “A human partner was good enough for my father, it’s good enough for me.”

Sandra had been expecting that argument from her friend.  “Since you were last here, MX partners have become mandatory.  I’m not going to fight you on some kind of regulation thing, okay?”  She leveled as stern a look as she could on him.  

He held his ground.  “I’m not doing it.”

“Like hell you’re not,” Maldonado shot back.  “Have you read Tilden’s profile of you?  And, by the way, he is a very capable psychiatrist,” she was quick to state.  She knew John better than she knew herself.  The man hated shrinks more than he hated MXes.  “‘Kennex should return to service, never’,” she quoted from the file.   

“Never?  Wow, that’s… that’s a long time,” he snorted.

Sandra continued as if John hadn’t interrupted.  “‘Kennex is suffering from depression, mental atrophy, trauma-onset OCD, PTSD, and psychological rejection of his synthetic body parts’.”

“Well, that last part is true,” Kennex agreed.  

It was bad enough he’d lost his best friend in that ambush.  He lost a good chunk of his memory, his mentor, his leg, seventeen months of his life, and his girlfriend disappeared.  Learning all of this when he’d woken up craving, of all things, vanilla cupcakes (he was a donut guy) had unsettled him.  Discovering that what was left of his right leg had been modified for a synthetic prosthesis had sent him over the edge.

“Listen,” Sandra drew his attention back to her.  “You’re the only person more desperate than I am to find out how inSyndicate learned about that raid.  If we work together, we can do it.”  She pulled up a video for him to watch from the incident she had called him in for.  “This happened a few hours ago.  Robbery target was an armored truck, carrying bio research.  If this is an inSyndicate operation, it might help us to learn more about them.”

John studied the video as she spoke.  “What’s the connection?”

“Parabolic pulse charge was used to stop the vehicle,” she answered.  “I haven’t seen that since the ambush.”

He hid his flinch at the mention of the very thing that took his leg.  “Well, sure looks like inSyndicate,” he affirmed.  “Inventory report?”

“That’s not in yet,” she shook her head.  “Whatever they wanted, they killed four security guards to get it.  One of the thieves was shot.  He’s being treated at County.  John?  Keep the inSyndicate connection between us, okay?”

“You think someone in the department’s working with them?”  He asked.

“You’re the only guy I trust here,” Sandra admitted.  

John mentally shoved back the sick feeling in the pit of his stomach.  “Okay.  I’ll check it out,” he agreed.

“One more thing,” Maldonado stopped him when he reached the door.  “Go easy on your partner.”

Yeah, right, Kennex opened the door.  He barely even looked at the MX.  “Come.”

 Emily felt the back of her neck tingle, as if she were being watched.  She knew her anxiety was getting the better of her and tried to ignore it, yet she still looked over her shoulder.

Her eyes locked with a pair of hazels.  John Kennex was looking at her.  

The elevator arrived just as 785 greeted Kennex, breaking the connection.  She thought she caught a flicker of agitation on the detective’s face before he turned toward Sandy’s office.  She turned to step onto the elevator, her chest growing tight.  She watched as Kennex stepped into her godmother’s office and shut the door on the MX as the elevator doors slid shut.

Her eyes burned as she realized just how desperately she had missed the detective.  For seventeen months he had been her one constant.  For seventeen months she’d had a purpose, a reason.  She’d been happy.

But these past two months?  Her world had been turned upside down.  

She’d gone from seventeen months of living to two months of existing.

Emily blinked away the tears before the elevator came to a stop on the first floor.  As she made her way out of the building she felt a familiar and very unwelcome itch, her new constant.  No, don’t… you can do this.  You don’t need to cut.  You’re stronger than this.

“I don’t think I am,” she whispered to herself when she reached her car.

#almost human #john kennex #john kennex/ofc #anxiety #soulmates

[brightjin]

tag thingie

tagged by @54930852309430 i lov u gabey

1. Nickname(s): seb, sebbie, sebbington, lord sebastian

2. Bias: cant pick one bc im indecisive so jin, momo, mingi, seonghwa

3. Blood type: idk

4. Favorite food: this is v difficult but i’d have to say raggmunkar (potato pancakes) w lingonberry jam and fried thick bacon (not british)... nom

5. Birthday: 7th of february #soon

6. Zodiac sign: aquarius + cursed rest of chart

7. Pronouns: he/him

8. Hair length: short

9. Height: 168 cm tall

10. A crush: gabey... i wub u...

11. What do you like about yourself: i’m a quick learner, i’m ambitious, i have a cool sense of fashion, i’m compassionate

12. Right or left handed: right

13. List of three favourite colors: anything purple, the blue colour the sky gets before it gets dark, emerald green

14. (Right now) eating: risotto from aldi fdjsklfds

15. (Right now) drinking: wourder

16. I’m about to: study while playing a video game. not smart of me.

17. Listening to: the magnus archives baby!!! we hyperfixating

18. Kids: not sure, i really can’t deal w infants cause sensory overload but at the same time i love the bond i have w my parents and would love to have that w my kid

19. Get married: it’d be fun i love the drama of dressing up

20. Recent phone call: uhhhh my mom i’m pretty sure, but i never call ppl on the phone

21. (Have you ever) Dated someone twice: yes

22. Been cheated on: no

23. Kissed someone and regretted it: no

24. Lost someone special: yes

25. Been depressed: yea lmao

26. Been drunk and thrown up: yes

27. Had glasses or contacts: yes im glasses boi

28. Had sex on the first date: no

29. Broken someone’s heart: yes

30. Turned someone down: yes

31. Cried when someone died: yes

32. Fallen for a friend: yup thats just the way it is

33. (In the last year have you) made a new friend: yes

34. Laughed until you cried: yes

35. Met someone who changed you: yes

36. Found out who your true friends were: yes

37. Found out someone was talking about you: yes

38. Lips or eyes: tbh both but i guess eyes?

39. Hugs or kisses: hugs

40. Shorter or taller: dont really care but taller

41. Romantic or spontaneous: are these opposites?? why is this an “or” question. u can be romantic and spontaneous. this is a poorly phrased question and i wont dignify it w an answer.

42. Sensitive or loud: uhhh sensitive

43. Hookup or relationship: relationship

44. First best friend: hampus, hes basically my brother lmao we’ve known each other since birth

45. Surgery: removed a cyst from my throat when i was 9

46. Sports I joined: i’ve tried golf, swimming (even came 2nd in a local competition!! go me), tennis and dancing

47. Do you believe in yourself: it’s difficult sometimes but yes

48. Miracles: idk maybe

49. Love at first sight: no

50. Heaven: i want to

51. Do you have any pets: chubby cat called sansa

52. Do you want to change your name: yes lmao

53. What did you do for your last birthday: had dinner w my ex friend and another person, spent the night being ignored by both

54. What time did you wake up today: woke up at 8.30 the first time and immediately texted gabey about a dream i had fdjslkfdsk

55. What were you doing last night at midnight: playin vidya game...

56. Something you can’t wait for: to graduate im SO tired of the uk

57. Last time you saw your mom: 2 weeks ago

58. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish i could stop procrastinating OR that i had a body i was comfortable with, depending if u can fix physical aspects or not

59. What’s getting on your nerves: why do i keep drinking venti coffees in 15 minutes and then act surprised when i feel sick for several hours

dont feel obligated to do this since its long af but im tagging @akterskeppet @agu5td @notfine-mp3 in case y’all r bored!

#personal stuff #tagged #this was fun i lov procrastinating this lame-ass course esp when im caffeine-sick

[flwrs4aust]

Tagged by the amazing @funeraloracle !!! I tag @snowingemotions @squid-star @aphroditiansarah @pajamajedi @hobiswitch @thelovedpriestess @the-faeryqueen @intuitivecherry @keep-hauntingme @sereialsey and @heavenly-serpent !!!

1. name: my current name is Camille but I’m thinking of going by something else on here... I still want it to start with a c to make it easier for you guys, but I’m thinking of something a bit cuter... idk. I’ll make sure to make a post about it when I come up with a name!

2. nicknames: OHMYGOD!!! I have so many!!! I’ve been called Cham, Bean, Chammie, Chameleon, Camel, Chamellionaire (lmao ikr) uhhh idk what else...

3. zodiac sign(s): Gemini sun, Taurus moon, and Taurus rising !!! (I’m Taurus dominant hehehe 😈)

4. height: last time I checked I was 5’4, but I think I’ve grown (???) bc I did not expect my friend who is 5’10/5’11 to be THAT short... I thought they would be taller??? Idk maybe my expectations of heights are wrong 😂

5. languages: ok so I know a good chunk of Spanish (but fail my tests??? Why???) and I can read most of the Korean alphabet and like understand a very little amount of words... I also know a few words in French but by a few words I mean fish and bread 😭😂

6. nationality: American, but I have a bunch of French-Canadian and some Italian + Irish !!!

7. favorite season: S P R I N G. SPRINGGGGGG!!!!! SSSSSPPPPPRRRIIINNNGGGGGG!!!! All of the birds come out and sing their pretty songs, it’s warmmmmm and I get to open my windowsss and sometimes I’ll get lil moth visitors on my window screens !!! They r very fuzzy and very nice. Flowers are also my EVERYTHING so I love to see my lil babies grow 🥺. Also FRESH. AIR. More about that later.

8. favorite flower: ooooo ok so I have 2. One is a sunflower bc they make me really happy (!!!) and they remind me of someone I care about a lot, and then I love hydrangeas !!! Their colors are so pretty and the flower is pretty and I even have some in my yard !!! They’re purple/blue !!!

9. favorite scent: remember when I mentioned fresh air? Well HERE WE ARE. I’m telling y’all that shit + my lungs = ASCENSION. It is my favorite thing in the world especially since I have sensory issues (anxiety, ptsd) and WOW it rocks my whole world 🤩🤩🤩 fresh air papí GET INTO THESE LUNGS. also I really love wood fires ??? Like during the fall and wintertime??? That shit is IMMACULATE. also amazing for my sensory issues bc fire = warmth = hug/touch stimulation = muy bien for me.

10. favorite color: YELLOW!!!!!!!!! It’s the color of sunflowers, my phone case, and a pair of fuzzy crocs that I have 🥺. I really love the color yellow.

11. favorite animal: S H E E P. Ok so every year I go to my state’s fair and one of the things I absolutely have to do is to go pet the sheep. My fair experience is literally never complete without me going to go pet the sheep. Even my friend that’s been going with me for the past 2 years now (this year will be the 3rd!!!) knows that. Also somehow the sheep help me stim??? I even take like 5 minute videos of me petting them just so I can go back and watch them later.

12. favorite fictional character: hmmm... I’d say tinker bell, the genie, flounder, mike wazowski (I always found him to be absolutely fucking HILARIOUS), molang (shhh don’t tell anybody but I love watching the show on Netflix), any of my favorite Pokémon, any of my favorite animal crossing villagers, and sally from line !!! I even got a little charm of her to put on one of my crocs but I lost her :( I’ll get a new one again !!!

13. coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: a solid, and I mean solid tie between coffee and hot chocolate.

14. average hours of sleep: ehhh it really depends bc of school but usually it’s 8.5/8 hours? Sometimes it’s less.

15. cat or dog person: both 🥺 I love animals a LOT so I will pet and give my love to pretty much anything except for spiders (ewwww gross)

16. number of blankets you sleep with: 4 (with one of them being a weighted blanket) as you may remember, I like need warmth and some sort of hug-like stimulation for sensory purposes, so I asked my mom for a weighted blanket this past Christmas and oh GOD do I love it. Best thing ever. 11/10.

17. dream trip: NEW YORK CITY!!!! It is literally my favorite place in the world, I’ve gone there once and I can’t get enough of it. There’s so much to do and everything is just so alive and beautiful and it really makes me wanna live life :,) it’s such an inspirational place ahhhh

18. blog established: I’m gonna say 2015/16? I honestly don’t remember but this blog has gone through MANY makeovers.

19. number of followers: 577 !!!

20. random fact: I can play multiple instruments !!! The recorder (if you even want to count it), the ukulele, the lyre, flute (my main b), some piano, and the piccolo!!!

#omg this took me so long im sorry #this is literally me in a nutshell #me #mine

[kittywolves]

1-200 if you want lmao If not then just your favourites

200: My crush’s name is: don’t have one tbh, not romantically anyway

199: I was born in: west virginia, 2000

198: I am really: dumb

197: My cellphone company is: idk man

196: My eye color is: blue w/yellow bursts but they just appear green if you’re not super close

195: My shoe size is: 7+1/2-8

194: My ring size is: 7+1/2-8

193: My height is: 5′5″

192: I am allergic to: sesame :T

191: My 1st car was: N/A

190: My 1st job was: N/A

189: Last book you read: uh, Percy Jackson? i think

188: My bed is: warm, cozy, full of plushies & cat fur

187: My pet: CALCIFER!!! 

186: My best friend: uh,, i don’t have one?

185: My favorite shampoo is: idk fruity scents that aren’t watermelon

184: Xbox or ps3: PS3

183: Piggy banks are: cute or terrifying, no in-between

182: In my pockets: my phone

181: On my calendar: birthdays

180: Marriage is: cute 

179: Spongebob can: CAN SPONGEBOB FINALLY END PLEASE

178: My mom: can go die 

177: The last three songs I bought were? uhh, i haven’t bought any songs,,

176: Last YouTube video watched: DrawingWiffWaffles newest video

175: How many cousins do you have? 1

174: Do you have any siblings? yes, 2 alive 1 dead

173: Are your parents divorced? no,,

172: Are you taller than your mom? around the same height

171: Do you play an instrument? no, but i wish i could play the harp tbh

170: What did you do yesterday? uh, i went shopping with my mother and then watched Futurama 

[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: ? i dunno anymore

168: Luck: i guess so, yea

167: Fate: yea

166: Yourself: no

165: Aliens: YES

164: Heaven: yea

163: Hell: yea

162: God: ? yea?

161: Horoscopes: not really

160: Soul mates: YESSSSS

159: Ghosts: yep!!

158: Gay Marriage: %100

157: War: no >:(

156: Orbs: what

155: Magic: yep!!

[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs pls

153: Drunk or High: never been either, both sound fun

152: Phone or Online: usually use my phone tbh

151: Red heads or Black haired: all are adorable!!

150: Blondes or Brunettes:  a d o r a b l e ! !

149: Hot or cold: uhm, comfortable warm,,

148: Summer or winter: SUMMER

147: Autumn or Spring: HALLOWEEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

146: Chocolate or vanilla: CHOCOLATE 

145: Night or Day: NIGHTTIME

144: Oranges or Apples: apples 

143: Curly or Straight hair: both are great!! i have slightly wavy hair uwu

142: McDonalds or Burger King: neither >:(

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: MILK PLS

140: Mac or PC: um, idc

139: Flip flops or high heels:  F L I P F L O P S

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: SWEET AND POOR PLS GIVE ME A KIND BAB TO LOVE @ UNIVERSE

137: Coke or Pepsi: coke !!

136: Hillary or Obama: obama!!

135: Buried or cremated: cremated so i can’t come back :’)

134: Singing or Dancing: i can’t do either :(

133: Coach or Chanel: ugh, coach ig

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who or who

131: Small town or Big city: i live in a city, but a town sounds nice tbh

130: Wal-Mart or Target: TARGET

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: what

128: Manicure or Pedicure: PEDICURE PEDICURE PEDICURE

127: East Coast or West Coast: i live on the west, so west

126: Your Birthday or Christmas: MY BIRTHDAY BC I GET TO PICK THE THEME !!!

125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers die and give off the aesthetic but chocolates are delicious so both

124: Disney or Six Flags: i love disneyland it’s just SO EXPENSIVE and six flags is gr8 for the thrills, plus i currently have a pass so

123: Yankees or Red Sox: who? which sport is this[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: blehhhh no

121: George Bush: idk american presidents lmao

120: Gay Marriage: YES YES YES YES YES YES

119: The presidential election: ew

118: Abortion: i’ll allow it lmao, i don’t think it’s great, but ik people will still get it whether it’s legal or not so might as well legalize it. also some cases actually need it so like,, yea!! let it happen!! pro-choice!!

117: MySpace: never used it lmao

116: Reality TV: ew ew ew ew EXCEPT FOR COOKING SHOWS

115: Parents: mine or just in general? bc eh

114: Back stabbers: M U R D E R  T H E M 113: Ebay: lmao shipping expenses 

112: Facebook: haven’t used it in years, do use messenger tho

111: Work: i like wedding coordinating with my aunt!! that’s about all the work i’ve done, oh and i’ve babysat

110: My Neighbors: don’t know em, they probably think we’re crazy tho, always yelling

109: Gas Prices: too!! high!!

108: Designer Clothes: eh, clothes are clothes, and some clothes are ugly (a lot of times it’s designer clothes blehh)

107: College: i mean i guess

106: Sports: go team! hit the ball! score the points! woo

105: My family: dysfunctional,,

104: The future: nooooooooooooooooooo

[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: uhhhhh....

102: Last time you ate: uhm, around 4?? maybe?? it’s 7 now

101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: uh?? i never see anyone OH i guess on wednesday last week,,

100: Cried in front of someone: ???? idk??? i cry while everyone’s asleep usually

99: Went to a movie theater: last week !! um, thursday?

98: Took a vacation: uhh, february, early march? i went to ohio

97: Swam in a pool: uh, last monday 

96: Changed a diaper: um, not this year lmao, maybe last year tho idk

95: Got my nails done: ???? i dunno

94: Went to a wedding: last november?? or wait no,, uhm i dunno sometime recently lmao

93: Broke a bone: never! did drop one in water tho :/

92: Got a piercing: december!

91: Broke the law: ?? i don’t wear seatbelts when i sit in the back seat lmao

90: Texted: around two hours ago[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: um,, my friends

88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: MY KITTY BABY

87: The last movie I saw: missing link! the stop motion- i’m a wh*re for animation lmao

86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: changing my name, moving out, getting married & having a stable life :’)

85: The thing im not looking forward to: being stuck here forever and eventually kmsing due to stress and depression :’)

84: People call me: Kitty!! Kiki!! (birth name) karebear!! 

83: The most difficult thing to do is: exist within the same room as my mother without bursting into tears or storming off 

82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope

81: My zodiac sign is: Virgo! Viriborn for all you homestucks! and dragon in the animal one!

80: The first person i talked to today was: my dad :’) and then i messaged @deanilise even tho she was asleep 

79: First time you had a crush: uh, as far back as i can remember i had a “crush” on Daphne Blake :D but i was like a small child and didn’t know what love was so anytime i saw anyone who i thought was cool or pretty or i wanted to befriend i had a supposed “crush” on them :/

78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: i try to be pretty open, but sometimes i just wanna close off 

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: yikes idk

76: Right now I am talking to: like talking to or talking to? for the first, just some group chats for the second, no one

75: What are you going to do when you grow up: i wanna be an artist! i would love to be a youtube artist, but i fear i’m not creative enough for such things.. i would also like to be able to tell my stories!

74: I have/will get a job: i dunno,,

73: Tomorrow: church

72: Today: overslept, did some chores, been online

71: Next Summer: hopefully i can go back to colorado to visit my brother !

70: Next Weekend: ugh, church activities & then actual church, as well as other easter festivities

69: I have these pets: baby kitty, and some dogs.... 

68: The worst sound in the world: FORK SCRAPING ON BOWL, ERASER SCRAPING ON PAPER, DOG’S SNORING, MY MOTHER’S VOICE WHEN I’M HAVING SENSORY OVERLOAD

67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my mother, she’s like the only person that makes me cry unless someone says they’re attempting and i can’t get through to them

66: People that make you happy: @onedirtysock @aliaitee @deku-is-tired @deanilise @awkward-scarfy-boi @fourth-best-jeanist @bnhaworld @bnhya @helloiliketits @trashyfxndoms

65: Last time I cried: last night oops

64: My friends are: (see 66) they’re all very nice & supportive which is amazing & i love them all dearly

63: My computer is: a MacBook air with a galaxy cover

62: My School: not in one but the one i’m gonna go to in the fall is just a community college

61: My Car: N/A

60: I lose all respect for people who: hate on anyone, racists, homophobes, transphobes, pedos, terfs, ableists, etc

59: The movie I cried at was: uh, i dunno, but i was crying abt futurama the other night

58: Your hair color is: orange-y with dark brown roots, supposed to be dyeing it soon :)

57: TV shows you watch: BNHA, HIMYM, Bob’s Burgers, TUA w/ @deanilise Futurama, The Simpsons, Fairytail, Runaway’s, Adventure Time, SVTFOE, etc

56: Favorite web site: Tumblr!

55: Your dream vacation: Ireland,, ofc i always dreamed of going to paris when i was younger, and Britain sounds cool too, & i’ve heard belgium is pretty && japan sounds fun && new york city sounds super cool as well so idk any of those places ig

54: The worst pain I was ever in was: uh, probably when i broke my arm, although i can’t remember it, i did used to get growing pains in my legs when i was younger & could hardly sleep so there’s that option as well

53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium or medium-well

52: My room is: messy, but it’s home & also warm

51: My favorite celebrity is: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dunno

50: Where would you like to be: idk, in my bed ig

49: Do you want children: yea! i wanna adopt!

48: Ever been in love: uh, i thought i was, but it was just an intense crush on this girl lmao

47: Who’s your best friend: already answered this lmao

46: More guy friends or girl friends: girls,,

45: One thing that makes you feel great is: laughing, music, & seeing my friends

44: One person that you wish you could see right now: any of y’all would be great tbh

43: Do you have a 5 year plan: survive 

42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: lmao no, 

41: Have you pre-named your children: uh, i have names picked out that i like, but idk depends how young my kid is when i adopt them, and even then idk if i could bring myself to change their name uwu

40: Last person I got mad at: my mother,,

39: I would like to move to: IRELAND OR SOMETHING I DUNNO I WANT OUT OF THIS GODFORSAKEN COUNTRY

38: I wish I was a professional: artist!! youtube maybe!![ My Favorites ]37: Candy: hmm, i like smarties, m&ms, gummy bears, & sweetarts

36: Vehicle: uhh, vw beetles? WAIT NO JEEP WRANGLERS I THINK

35: President: uh idk

34: State visited: the one i live in lmao, California :)

33: Cellphone provider: idk a lot about them

32: Athlete: N/A

31: Actor: eeeeeeee

30: Actress: eeeeeeee

29: Singer: Case! Patrick Stump!

28: Band: FALL OUT BOYYYYYYYYYYY

27: Clothing store: Hottopic

26: Grocery store: N/A

25: TV show: Arrow! Adventure Time! (ripip) i haven’t seen Arrow in a long time tho so idk if it’s still any good...

24: Movie: Heathers!!

23: Website: Tumblr,,

22: Animal: CATS

21: Theme park: DisneyLand! it’s just sooooooooo expensive ;-;

20: Holiday: HALLOWEEN

19: Sport to watch: Soccer!!

18: Sport to play: none

17: Magazine: i don’t read them

16: Book: The Hunger Games 

15: Day of the week: probably friday or saturday

14: Beach: uh, maybe seal? or hermosa?

13: Concert attended: i’ve been to exactly one (1) and i didn’t enjoy it bc it was for Ariana Grande

12: Thing to cook: well you don’t cook them but, COOKIES!!

11: Food: Ice Cream!! Burgers!! Mashed Potatoes !!

10: Restaurant: In-N-Out probably

9: Radio station: 98.7 alt radio 

8: Yankee candle scent: uh i dunno

7: Perfume: Vanilla Bean Noelle from bbw

6: Flower: daffodils 

5: Color: pink! purple! green!

4: Talk show host: no

3: Comedian: Bo Burnham or John Mulaney

2: Dog breed: Retrievers !

1: Did you answer all these truthfully? yes!

here’s my baby for reference & for putting up with all that

#kitty answers #200 asks #deku-is-tired #calcifer

[caveatauditor]

Best albums of 2018

A marvelous year! Just because Drake albums are long and boring doesn’t mean the album is dead, you know.

1. Bali Baby, Baylor Swift

This 8-song EP, a fusion of SoundCloud rap, emo confessional, and glitzy synthpop, rocks harder and weirder than anything I heard all year. The spiky synthesizers, bent guitars, drum crunches, scratchy screeches, Bali’s garbled wails, and plastic bubblegum surface combine several modes of abrasion, as the Atlanta rapper hides a harrowing breakup saga beneath bucketloads of noise and the crackling electricity sets her bleeding heart ablaze. “Candy” and “Electrical” are neon new wave ballads distorted into fragility through harshness. Whenever she gets a handle on something, the beat goes squelch and sends her reeling. Oh, to be loud, obnoxious, and heartbroken. She’s been putting out fire with gasoline.

2. Ariana Grande, Sweetener

“Snuggle jams,” tweeted Austin Brown. We all needed snuggles this year! Although “Thank U, Next” and Thank U, Next have somewhat eclipsed the confectionary sugarbomb Instagram’s newly crowned Most Followed Woman released six months earlier, said sugarbomb continues to sparkle. Tired of flaunting her multioctave voice, Ariana leans into her breathy lower register and discovers her capacity for play. Tired of secondhand funk pastiche, Pharrell invents a sunny electrobouncy sound that abounds with pattering percussion, thwocks, squiggles, splashes of electronic color. Contextualized by the devastating, mournful grace of “Breathin” and “No Tears Left to Cry”, her joy feels urgent, beautiful, earned. Behold an album of exquisitely honeyed lightness. I love Sweetener because it’s the musical equivalent of booping someone on the nose.

3. BTS, Love Yourself: Tear

Because they both flatter and subvert even the most boring aspects of contemporary American pop, they broke through in America where countless Korean stars couldn’t, although that didn’t stop BoA and Girls Generation from trying. (I hope we haven’t forgotten BoA’s excellent self-titled English-language album, which includes the funniest Britney impersonations ever recorded.) Slow, moody, blank--these adjectives don’t quite describe BTS, thankfully, but they have reclaimed a rather empty pop style as a site for cognitively dissonant structural innovations, and thus offer hope that said pop style needn’t be so empty. Dense and streamlined simultaneously, stuffing all sorts of wacky noises into what Anglophone hitmakers have defined as a spare, echoey sonic template, these tracks are hard to wrap your ear around at first, but what noises! I could listen to the plinky little drumclicks in “Anpanman” forever.

4. Jonghyun, Poet Artist

“Take the Dive” and “Only One You Need” should play like standard romantic invitations and instead break a cold sweat in sheer terror. On “Hashtag” he’s content to whisper as long as the electric piano matches the beat in his head. “I’m So Curious” coaxes him into a sublimely cozy erotic space. The lightest and most delicate of pop-R&B exercises, shivering beneath an immaculately chilly surface, Jonghyun’s second and final album is beautiful and makes me sad. Rest in peace. 

5. J Balvin, Vibras

The year’s solidest and bounciest Latin trap album is more sweetly melodic than the genre’s norm, but also harsher, which is disorienting. These beats, assembling lumbering, mechanical tanks out of looped vocal samples, clinky xylophones, keyboard scramble, and Balvin’s dreamy drone, are impossible to play in the background; I’ve tried. Maybe those blessed souls who can multitask with music on would feel differently, but every time I play this album I get sucked in, paralyzed by the chopped-up airhorns in “Ambiente”, the guitar strummed through a wind tunnel in “Brillo” (a duet with Rosalia!), the drums beeping in “Ahora”, the angel of death moaning inarticulately throughout “Cuando Tu Quieras”. If I also don’t understand how the hell clubgoers can dance to this music, please understand my bewilderment as admiration.

6. Playboi Carti, Die Lit

The debut was sufficiently spare to retain a semblance of pop functionality; this one’s a shoegaze record, the sound of rap abstracted into a gorgeous blur. The average Carti song is a single giant, repeated, woozy keyboard hook, glitching and jittering around the edges, a transmission from the hazy corner of the subconscious where bliss keels over into numbness and the senses conflate. The rapping is minimal; he chooses his sounds phonetically, not semantically, and gladly disappears beneath the relentless aqueous whoosh. Lyrics, guest features, tempo changes, coherent thoughts--if these things exist, they get swept up too. After years of hearing people moan on the radio about washing pain away with stimulants and such, here’s what it means to be insensate. Although the album wanders a little toward the end, who cares when it’s all one hypnotic song?

7. US Girls, In a Poem Unlimited

The music on this remarkable art-pop document assembles a creepy rubberoid disco groove from shards of glass, sleek rhythm guitar, controlled blasts of distortion, sordid saxophone; Meghan Remy treats white funk as industrial noise. The lyrics compile situation after situation in which women are abused, including a song where St. Peter rapes the narrator before letting her into heaven. Is this what “dialectic” means?

8. Haru Nemuri, Harutosyura

So raucous in the way it arranges sugary keyboard splashes, so catchy in the way it explodes with carefully timed bursts of electric noise, Haru Nemuri’s debut confounds categories. The Japanese noise-pop eccentric crams all the sounds she loves--raw guitars, bubbly synthesizers, anguished screams, conspicuous digital edits--into a glitchy hall of mirrors. For fans of certain video game soundtracks and experimental classical compositions, this is the music you’ve been imagining your whole life; for ordinary pop fans it’s merely the wackiest of syntheses. Either way, Harutosyura is gloriously loud, burning with a fierce rock grandiosity that’s unexpected, hence awesome. When “Harutosyura” gets artificially sped up into a chipmunked vacuum, pauses a moment, and comes back rocking harder than ever, she spirals ever closer to infinite refraction.

9. Erin Lee, Love Song

This strange album comprises ten instrumental pieces for unaccompanied acoustic guitar, plucking out pastoral melodies with a vaguely Mediterranean flavor, like music that might appear in a historical romantic drama featuring sailors, grapes, wine, and such. One could reasonably dismiss this music, but I can’t stop playing it--as with film scores and Snail’s House albums, there are certain qualities that make an instrumental melody intrinsically sentimental, and I’d love to know what they are. In the calmly strummed “My Hometown Harbor”, the sun sets over the water, the boats dock, shouts ring out from the pub several blocks down, and there’s danger in the air. 

10. Ashley Monroe, Sparrow

“I’m good at leaving,” Ashley Monroe once sang, and these restless songs about departure and existential longing translate the impulse behind Joni Mitchell’s Hejira into country music, where it belongs. Country is the ideal genre for confessions of solitude and rootlessness because it’s supposed to imply rootedness, tradition, community; the juxtaposition conveys a sense of profound rupture. Monroe’s velvet moan and Dave Cobb’s theatrical string arrangements are exemplary bedmates. Hidden beneath a soft, warm glow lies the year’s loneliest album.

11. Gazelle Twin, Pastoral

When I first heard this crunchy slab of avant-dance music, the shrieks and chalkboard scratches and keyboards used as percussive elements jarred; it took several listens to notice that some of the scratches are digitally altered harpsichords, that flutes and sleigh bells adorn the otherwise turbulent tracks, and that Elizabeth Bernholz’s artificially growled lyrics repurpose quotes from Blake and English folk songs into angry social commentary. The segue between “Dance of the Peddlers” and “Hobby Horse” still terrifies me. If the idea of an ironic, politically-minded fusion of electronic dissonance, English folk, and classical music sounds mannered and absurd, you’re not wrong, but that idea’s musical realization is a whirlwind of rage and menace.

12. Amnesia Scanner, Another Life

This Finnish, Berlin-based pair of electronica producers have scored gallery openings and reportedly have many thoughts about technology and modern life, so I don’t doubt they have their avant-credentials in order. What I’m certain of is that these are the funniest EDM squelches I’ve heard in ages--distorted drops, vocoded shrieks, percussive jackhammers, digitally mediated farts and belches, not to mention outrageously catchy hooks. If the hyperactive musical splatter is intended to convey the sensory overload of our modern dystopian age, it also satisfies my own longing for music that bristles with noises, kitsch, stimulus.

13. Ski Mask the Slump God, Stokeley

In 2009, the Albuquerque emo-rap group Brokencyde combined maximalist crunk with bloodcurdling screamo choruses, and were widely panned as a record low point in pop music history. “Even if I caught Prince Harry and Gary Glitter adorned in Nazi regalia defecating through my grandmother’s letterbox I would still consider making them listen to this album too severe a punishment,” claimed one NME review. A decade later, the same exact music is now considered the surreal, groundbreaking, SoundCloud-warped future. Be careful who you mock, lest their ghost come back to haunt you.

14. Rosalia, El Mal Querer

Rosalia’s flamenco-R&B uses cool, exact technological control, sparse electrobeats and syncopated handclaps, to modulate a ferocious natural force, i.e. her singing. A modern adaptation of the anonymous 13th-century novel Flamenca, El Mal Querer is a wild exercise in vocal melodrama, especially because she’s always messing with her voice electronically. Layering her sighs over each other in the endless echo chamber that is “Pienso En Tu Mira”, looping a single note into an isolated stutter in “De Aqui No Sales”, showing off her melisma in “Reniego”, she understands how expression must be filtered through media and is inevitably distorted.

15. Noname, Room 25

The Chicago rapper’s fluttery jazz beats, wispy strings, woodwinds, and hushed rhymes are so calm and thoughtful the music sounds more like slam poetry with accompaniment than any conventional style of rap. By describing love, sadness, police violence, and the banality of daily life in the same cautiously awestruck tone, she depicts an internal resilience that comes into being through the act of aspiration. I love how slight this album is--her modest quietude is a splash of cold water in the face.

16. Sunmi, Warning

The former Wonder Girl refashions herself as a defiant siren-heroine, insisting “Get away out of my face” over electrobeats that crest and surge with military efficiency. Although the singles from this 7-song EP got the attention, her most exquisitely sheathed stiletto is “Curve”, whose bent jazz piano complements a chorus of staccato whispers that should sound inviting and instead exude menace. 

17. Hailu Mergia, Lala Belu

After several reissues of his ‘80s music by Awesome Tapes From Africa, here’s the Ethiopian jazz keyboardist’s first album in forever, looking back on a genre of retro-futurist cocktail music whose benevolent visions of a utopian clubland didn’t come to pass, for how could they, but are ready to be reclaimed. Over relaxed drum shuffles, friendly plinky piano, billowing organ, Mergia coaxes weird noises from skewed, accordionesque synthesizers and dreams about parties where such music could play.

18. Haruru Inu Love Dog Tenshi, Lost Lost Dust Dream

The next time you hear someone complain about SoundCloud rap, please direct them to this eerie, plaintive, whispered exercise in polished incongruence. “I’m Dreaming” captures the moment when you’re still asleep but trying to wake up, straining to clear the clouds from your brain.

19. Camp Cope, How to Socialise and Make Friends

With hundreds of lo-fi Bandcamp mixtapes bouncing around out there, I can’t explain why one guitar band moves me rather than another, but there’s an emotional rawness to this album that rivets. Partially it’s the rhythm guitar sound, which skips along with syncopated flatness and resilience. Partially it’s the sharpness of Georgia Maq’s voice, and the way she uses drawn-out vowels to focus and redirect her sustained roars. Partially it’s the songwriting, which finds an antidote to the world’s grossness in friendship, community, quiet moments of kindness. If you’re exhausted and fed up after a lifetime of taking shit, venting your feelings to the simple clunk of loud guitar music is a pleasure precisely because it’s simple and clunky. “Get it all out/put it in a song,” she insists, endorsing and providing a cathartic fury.

20. Bhad Bhabie, 15

Danielle Bregoli’s ebullient chirps are joyfully defiant only insofar as defiance is a front for insecurity. Aggressive trap beats turned covertly melancholy long ago, but in this context the sadness is unmistakable. Everyone is a public figure in the age of social media, so her anxiety over existing in the public sphere is at once quotidian and heightened. This album is scarier than anyone expected.

#favorite albums #best of 2018 #bali baby #ariana grande #bts