#they do enjoy games like she does !

[solargeist]

your grian is literally so coraline coded

one of my favourite movies !!

#somewhat intentional ? ive compared the watchers to the other mother before. but i think just to friends phphp #i drew this from memory. thats the box with the buttons #they do enjoy games like she does ! #my art #ask #evo smp #grian #sketching #''you know i love you'' wonder how many times he hears that

[sysig]

Anyway, back to testing (Patreon)

#Doodles #Portal #GLaDOS #Chell #Curiosity Core #Space Core #Cave Johnson #So many GLaDOS'!! She needs all the <3 #And then also featuring some others lol ♪ Replaying 1 really made me want to fill out the cast a bit more! #I'm still the most used to drawing her Portal 2 design tho - which is a shame because her 1 design is so weird!! I like it :D #I still haven't given her a proper study but I do like how in the audio commentary they talk about how she has a feminine edge hehe #She does! They did a good job with her design ♪ And improved upon it in 2 I think :D I still haven't gotten to that audio commentary #I'm so curious as to what they'll say about her there hehe ♫ But I'm still just playing normally for now! I forgot how much longer it is :0 #I tore through it the first time so now taking my leisurely time feels funny haha ♪ I am enjoying myself tho :3 #Anyway!! Back to what I love about 1 <3 <3 Her tone switch literally Always has my heart ♥ Ughhh I love herrr #I also quite like Chell's design from both games :) I wonder if GLaDOS keeps making remarks on her appearance because of the changes :0 #She does have fuller cheeks in 2! She's not as gaunt - and she looks like....made-up? Make up made up? Y'know? :0 #Not that we get a particularly good look at her in-game but hm! The differences #As well as in her long-fall boots! The braces really were just stuck on her legs in 1 weren't they :0 No wonder the Curiosity Core was rude #I do really love the Curiosity Core tho haha ♪ Probably my favourite canon Core :D I think she'd get along well with Space Core lol #And then leaving off with that one little human-GLaDOS headcanon thing I posted about! Impatiently lol #I made these like The Day after posting that I couldn't help it I was too deep in the paint XP It was fun ♪ #I really do think she'd look so much more like Cave still! Especially after replaying the bit where he says to put Caroline in ''his'' place #Is that retrofitting? Was it designed with him in mind initially? Hmmmmm #I also figure if I'm going to give her a human design I might as well go the whole way and not just slap robot parts on her face lol #It's hard to imagine her with two eyes tho! Like I might even go so far as to say she can have three eyes but not two! Only one or three #Her third ''eye'' would be the mole next to her eye lol - how would her vision work in that case :0 #Would she have panoptic depth perception or like triple vision or what?? Or maybe just leave her with one functioning eye lol #Handplates!Gaster-core (Core lol); turtlenecked one-eyed evil scientist with labcoat lol #Y'know it's funny - when I first drew GLaDOS several years ago I compared her to Gaster at the time too. Huh. Sure that's nothing :)

[samarecharm]

Random question about the “they should make persona for people who like good games” post. Do people think the persona series is that bad? I know they aren’t perfect but I wouldn’t call them bad games.

I had a wholeass essay written out before i realized im too tired to make it sound coherent. AND my only experience is p 4 and 5, so my opinion on it means jack shit. All i can say is that the most recent titles suffer from bad writing. (And repetitive gameplay, but thats a different issue). Be it poorly written characters and dialogue, or poorly written interactions and plot, it is hard to take some of the stuff in the more recent games at face value. One could argue that that just means the game is subpar, not necessarily bad, but thats subjective; bad means different things to different people. And i say this as someone who thinks this game is Not the best but still found it incredibly engaging and entertaining.

#chattin #i am the kind of person to write video essay length posts on games that disappointed me LOL #so i am the wrong person to ask #remember that when thinking about the quality of a game; you should ask urself #who is the target audience? is it accessible to this audience? do i need an outside source to keep up with this game ? (like a guide) #if its in a series; what does it do to separate itself from the others? #is the writing okay? characters? interactions( #? #insensitive content ? #how is it handled? the game may me okay for me but can I have my fat friends enjoy this game??? #can i have my trans friends and gay male friends enjoy this game??? #who can i recommend it to? my sister is unable to process all of the social links and requirements for these social links #so she just. doesnt do it. she IS the target audience bc she likes rpgs #and she likes the story and characters. but its too overwhelming #and the social links would be overwhelming regardless of the difficulty #are u meant to enjoy the game in one playthrough or across multiple runs?? #is it WORTH it to do those runs? for a game that has ‘choices’ it is painfully linear #and it confuses people who are trying to follow the rules (do things in my free time to build confidants) #when theyre unable to actually hang out w confidants bc of a rush of mandatory scenes #velvet room fusions are a pain and overly complex #and the game stops being about making a good build #and it starts to become ‘make a shadow null to everything bc the game will keep instakilling you’ #forcing a game over when ur main character dies is ALWAYS bad to me i will swear by this #u make more interesting builds when u arent scared of a gameover #weh. rambling #the game is as bad or good as u want it to br #people clearly love it; we talk about our faves all the time. but how many of us are replaying a game meant to be replayed. not many.

[eggbagelz]

actually for a game with a plot revolving around "we're going to be gruesomely turned into mind controlling squidfolk if we dont find a cure" and aspects like "i got an engine forcibly put into my chest / my body was physically turned into that of a demon's against my will / my heart is an actual bomb and it will kill me as punishment / i was a slave who endured horrific physical abuse and my body was used for the benefit of the man who controls me" [actually all of these involve some manner of control and "discipline" now that i think abt it] there isnt NEARLY enough focus put on the actual concept of body horror and body autonomy its kind of like. just There. and it doesnt even all tie togther outside of like random convos between the characters and like i mean even thorm's whole fucking introduction involves the fact his body is unkillable like bg3 come ON man. you could be tying these themes togther so neatly so sweetly but [insert more rambling abt the issues with plot structure here]

#i dont mean the focus on these things if you romance the characters btw i mean as a whole #chattering #baldur's gate 3 #paydja does ''criticism'' #i dont wanna use the tag ppl use to complain abt the game bc i really do enjoy it #and it frustrates me that its permeated by racism and weird structure issues and and and and #bc i know it could be so much fucking better #and it gets SO close! soso close!!! #but then it hits you with the lazily done fantasy racism meant to "prove a point'' and the cultural appropriation #and like i mentioned above the issues with writing and the general unlived in feeling #of the world and bad decisons like #wyll [a black man] being under contract of a demon and forced to do whatever she says and like #if it were a better game. and really followed the potential it DOES have #there would have been purpose. deconstruction. discussion. #but instead its just. not. its just a glorified dating sim with fantastic writing overshadowed by the weight of its issues #and that is WITHOUT the glitches

[slice-of-light]

anyone else feel like Xur and Eris Morn would be spooky drinking buddies

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 fanart #eris morn #xur #destiny xur #like they've gotta be friends #they're too weird to not know each other #they wouldn't even talk that much #they'd just chill in silence and enjoy a couple drinks when Xur's at the tower #probably at the end of the weekend after the poor guy's been getting fucking yelled at about his exotics for days and needs a break lmao #do agents of the nine get a union-mandated break #anyway he'd probably be awkward as hell but appreciate someone genuinely speaking with him outside of a transaction #and I'm sure eris would enjoy having a friend who wouldn't bat an eye at her everything or act like she's fucking crazy #if anything eris is the one to be caught off guard #xur runs a game show with a fucking space horse #like how does THAT conversation go

[dmitriyuriev]

Danzou based on a scene from a fanfic I love. (link here- It's only in Japanese)

I highly recommend it if you're able to read it, it does a wonderful job exploring the relationship between Limbo and Danzou and has a lot of good imagery. This scene is after Limbo places the self-destruction device in her womb... which he gouged out of a living girl along with other parts. Danzou wakes up draped in a kosode decorated with the auspicious symbol of flower-eating birds, in contrast to the curses in her body.

この小説がとてもおすすめ！小説にある人形修復のエロティシズムも美しくて恐ろしいイメージもリンボと段蔵の関係も何もかもが大好き。ぜひ、読んでみてください！

#fgo #fate grand order #Katou Danzou #It does a great job at showing Danzou's slowly developing will #Like she's almost creepily obedient while also doing things like dwelling on that girl #and thinking how Limbo surely doesn't think of her as anything more than that dead cat he was using as a messenger #and it also captures how Weird Limbo is about her- not love not hate but a fixation centered around harming her #and putting in a lot of effort to do that. The end section takes place after she's in Chaldea and he haunts her in a dream of sorts #and there's this contrast of how she initially was vs now #Anyway it nice to see someone who put so much care into exploring her character and her relationship with Limbo #its the most fascination relationship in the game to me and this fic is a delight- also DOLL REPAIR stuff so tasty #even if you can't read though enjoy how pretty Danzou looks draped in a kosode~

[undead-potatoes]

Not loving this increasingly weird behavior in fandom where they'll look at a female character behaving in certain ways and go "ooooh that's so hashtag girlboss, feminism wins uwu", but then you look deeper into it and she's actually just behaving out of fear or deep rooted trauma

#Sunny Life #cw: controversial takes in the tags I guess #spraying the BG/3 fandom with water for doing this to Lae and Shart #like does Lae hate the idea of having children or does she hate the idea of being FORCED to become pregnant against her will #just because her fascist queen demands it of her #not only is she one of the only companions who can end up with a child but she actively enjoys that role of caretaker #bc it was a choice she made and not one forced upon her #I want kids myself but I'd be terrified at the prospect of some sort of state mandated pregnancy that would be impossible to refuse #or thinking it's sooo feminist that Shart doesn't wanna be tied down to a relationship when that's so very obviously #bc she's in a doom cult that frowns upon any personal relationships like do you think those two are completely unrelated??? #don't worry about how the context changes as you go through their personal journeys just take all the early game stuff at face value #there's nothing inherently wrong with either of these things btw I just think context is important here #instead of just boiling it down to ''wow such feminism uwu'' bc it goes against whatever gender norms exists in our own world #if you read all of this hello welcome to my twisted mind #I feel like this is the kinda post that would get me hate mail if I had a big account lmao

[hiraganasakura]

Man I rly genuinely wish I could play CotC. The soundtrack is filled with absolute bangers amd the story seems genuinely interesting. But alas. It is a mobile gatcha game. And my brain cannot focus on mobile gatcha games to save my life even if the subject is my literal hyperfixation apparently? Like I've tried and it doesn't work lol

#original post #i feel like it's about the fact that i have no personal connection to my protagonist tbh #like in octopath 1 and 2 i developed strong empathy towards my protagonists #i wanted to see h'aanit find z'aanta #i wanted to see osvald avenge his family #i genuinely cared about these characters and knew that i as the player could help them achieve their goals and complete their stories #i wanted to see them succeed! #but what does my protagomist in cotc (lynette) have to make me care about her? #*protagonist #ik she has her character story but i didn't get that far #as of rn she just exists in the game to be a stand-in for me as the player and that's kinda it #she doesn't have a real reason to be going after auguste and tytos and herminia or to continue after that #and ig bcus of that lack of connection i can't rly keep my attention on the game #if my protagonist doesn't have a reason to be on this journey what reason do *i* have yk? #...or maybe i'm just immune to the addictive power of mobile gatcha games idk lol #all of this being said i do still rly wanna read about the story and listen to the soundtrack #bcus THAT seems cool :D #i'm just a little sad that i can't seem to enjoy it in-game like so many others #octopath traveler #octopath cotc

[genshin-hater]

[link]

honestly this lil dance that the Eremite Clearwater does makes me never want to fight them, i still don’t understand why these guys are enemies 😭

like. it makes sense that treasure hoarders or the fatui would want to beat your ass on sight (treasure hoarders because they wanna rob you, fatui because. well.) but WHY DO THE EREMITE WANNA FIGHT YOU?? they’re just mercenaries, they only fight people they’re paid to fight, what is the reason for them being the enemies for this region!!!!

(it also never sits right with me, as a poc, that the eremites are some of the only few brown ppl in this game and most of them are trying to kill you… that was. certainly a choice.)

#genshin impact #eremites #like!!! that just absolutely does not feel good to me!! #and dont get me wrong i still enjoy this game i play it every day but this game is HEAVILY colorist #and quite frankly mihoyo needs to do better!!! #THIS GIRLY SHOULD BE YOUR FRIEND SHE IS VERY CUTE AND WHIMSICAL

[solargeist]

grian we will keep u AWAY from flora after that 😭

Right 💥💥💥 she is not able to gauge how weak or strong players are, she’s very much like, I can do it, why can’t you do it ? 🤔🤔🤔

not a good mindset to have..

she comes from a twilight forest server, shes survived on her own for a long time as a player, but grian comes from a community of friends, so there’s an obvious difference in their abilities.

she’s not gonna kill him or cause ~severe physical harm, but they don’t get along, u can see Why 😭

#Ask #she thinks he’s too soft for a Watcher and it annoys her. #which just stems from her own issues she’s projecting on him #he’s literally 5 whole apples tall this is cruel and unnecessary #but there’s gotta be reasons he runs away 🤔 #Aether doesn’t teach him fighting bc she doesn’t want to hurt him so she sticks to like. The education side #despite Aether literally being the warrior one of the duo. Aether routinely played death games and enjoyed them #a mum with a very dark bloody past but she’s quite soft now. She cuts his fruit into shapes idk how she does it #All I do is ramble around here 😭💥

[void-botanist]

Incorrect Quotes: AOM edition

I had the great fortune to be tagged twice for incorrect quotes, so I'm going to do two posts because I love this stuff. This one is for the earlier tag from @sunset-a-story (and if you want a mini intro to these characters from Another Ocean's Moon, check out this blorbo blursday and this Avis & Sorian meme).

I'll pass the tag on to @vacantgodling, @sarahlizziewrites, and @outpost51, plus anyone who wants to join in.

Rules: use this generator to make some incorrect quotes.

Leon: You know, when I first met you I thought you were a real bitch. Avis: What changed your mind? Leon: Oh, I still think you're a bitch. I've just grown to like that about you.

Edith: I will find us a covered wagon and horses. Edith: If you two can manage to not kill each other while I'm gone. Avis: Oh, please. We're not children. *Edith leaves* Avis, casually: …Eat shit and die. Leon, also casually: Yes, fuck you.

Leon: Where's Sorian? Edith: Don't worry, I'll find him. Edith, shouting: Avis sucks! Sorian, distantly: Avis is the best person ever! Fuck you! Edith: Found him.

Sorian: You know me, Avis, I don’t take any shit. You know what I say to my haters? Avis: What? Sorian: I say: “Please don’t hate me, I’m really nice.”

Avis: Yo dumbass, get over here. Sorian: Okay- Leon: *gleefully runs past* I’m coming! Sorian, sadly: I thought… I was dumbass…

Sid: The first time I ever got upset in front of Avis, she put her arms around me and it was so awkward that I had to ask her if she was hugging me or reaching for something on the shelf behind me. Avis: I was doing both, for your information. Horatio: The first time Avis hugged me, it was such a disaster we didn’t make eye contact for, like, a week after.

Allison: Sometimes I drink milk straight from the container. Sid: The cow?? Allison: What? Celia: Sid, W H Y?

Police: You’re under arrest for trying to carry three people on a single motorcycle. Celia, with Sid and Allison behind her: Wait, what do you mean THREE?! Police: Yes…three. Celia: Oh, my God— What the fuck!? Police: Wha- Celia: Horatio FUCKING FELL OFF!

#do character development normally? no. do character development with incorrect quotes vibes? yes #I enjoy changing the names until I get the most chef's kiss version #Avis & Leon are like frenemies and I'm so here for it #just imagining Sid fresh off a ship from an agrarian settlement genuinely confused about milk containers for a sec #does Celia have a motorcycle? no. would she say the punchline? yes absolutely #incorrect quotes tag #tag games #wip: aom #c: Horatio #c: Celia #c: Leon #c: Edith #c: Avis #c: Sorian #c: Sid #c: Allison

[wriochilde]

ok.

#wjatevr. i dont care #no actually i do care. its about morishige how can i not care #i saw a very interesting take on why morishige chases yuka (not the tutorial idea. thats also interesting though) #something about how he was protecting her and he was never going to harm her #and i was like huh. maybe i misunderstood because i played the game when i was 11 #and then i realized i literally played it last week #i cant help but disagree? yeah he wasnt planning on hurting her. it makes the whole chase scene very funny especially if you get caught #he keeps repeating the same thing and me and my sister joke about it all the time lol #but anyways. i think that even in the manga he wouldnt have hurt her even though he hints at his intent being more malicious than in game #i love this scene because i love hearing people talk about why the fuck he did this #let me talk about the manga instead for a moment actually i think this scene is much funner there #he stops for a moment when yuka stops crying before he breaks into this very obviously malicious grin #like he was EXCITED. the darkening had already startrd to show and its very clear while hes chasing her #the whole time he was just messing with her. he wasnt planning to harm her in the manga either #because he literally catches up to her. and he could've caught up to her multiple times had he not been taking pictures as she ran #all he did when he caught up to her was whisper in her ear. so #yeah. he wasnt going to kill her or injure her like in the anime. but does that mean he had any good intentions? #im not sure how this could be described as him simply helping her #and i could be remembering wrong but doesnt he somewhat explain himself in book of shadows? #i remember him saying something about him just having fun and enjoying how scared she was #so ive always just seen it as him enjoying the rush he got from chasing someone weaker than him #because it was partially the darkening right? #im not one to say that morishige is inherently evil or always had a huge interest in gore or anything. becausw its not true #but i dont want to deface his character by warping his intentions to seem less malicious #i need to get a fucking journal this is getting out of hand #finn.txt

[mantisgodsdomain]

7 vi but instead of food (i get the vibes your vi just straight up doesn't refuse food) crimes or drugs whichever you prefer

(for this ask game)

7. Lots of people don’t have a favorite food drug or crime when put on the spot, but what’s a food or drink drug or crime that your OC would never turn down if someone offered it to them?

...listen the conditions under which our Vi would refuse food are extremely specific but they do exist. Depending on the variant, you might hit that faster or slower, though it varies on the person offering it to her and the circumstances surrounding it. Wereweevil Vi, specifically, will absolutely fucking not refuse food under any circumstances, but she is an outlier and most other Vis actually have a point where they'll say no.

In terms of crimes and drugs... listen, Vi has a sense of self-preservation, and people absolutely don't just hand out drugs either For Free or For No Reason. Getting her to accept doing it is the hard part, if you're not already someone she trusts - what are you, a cop? Gonna tattle on her if she takes your offer? She does, actually, have a fair amount of trust in most of the Underground Tavern regulars, and would probably take up an offer for Illegal Actions if offered, because she trusts they won't try to fuck her over and will probably be willing to back her up if worst comes to worst.

If she's being, like, offered something to try and do, and it's someone she knows, then she has pretty decent assurance that her friends won't deliberately try and kill her, but she might still want to question if it's safe for her species, whether in a "this open job offer might not actually be open to a bug where almost everyone seeing her will immediately assume she's associated with the Bee Kingdom and might report them back to the queen" way or a or "whoever made this drug has never accounted for her species in test runs and there's a solid chance of her experiencing adverse side effects from it" way.

She's not entirely naive - she knows what she's doing, she knows it might be dangerous, and she's only really willing to assume the Tavern bugs have her best interests in mind because of experience. Unless she's being paid for it, she won't take up an offer from just anyone, and she has decent confidence in not getting fucked for taking the offer.

That said... in terms of drugs, the one (1) thing that she might consider getting from Random Unlicenced Sellers She Doesn't Know would be Daydream. Chronic pain reasons, as per usual. If it's getting to autumn and times she Knows that she's gonna run into more Bad Pain Days and her usual dealer's not got enough she might go hunting for another supplier, and in that case - yeah, she'll take random handouts and shady offers, and yeah, she'll probably get fucked over for it. Probably better than lying on the floor unable to do anything due to her body swinging a fire axe into her spinal cord that makes it feel like there's a white-hot rod of metal permanently impaled into her chitin and through half of her vital organs. She might reconsider if it's particularly shady and she's with Team Snakemouth, but being in horrible pain has a way of making you abandon your previous convictions in favor of not having to endure part of your body trying to violently kill you to death by making your entire nervous system fry itself with chronic pain.

With crime if you pay her enough then she'll do basically anything but for profit-free mischief, uhh. Listen if you walk up to her in a bar and say "hey, wanna vandalize something" then she'll probably agree before asking any further questions. Some day this will bite her in the dick but she will probably only learn "plan more when vandalizing things" from it.

#asks #ask games #headcanons #we have one specific fic in which she winds up with one food she absolutely fucking will not eat unless she actively HAS to #as in. “would rather starve for days on the hope of Food That Is Not That than eat it” levels #with the beemerang shes less upset about “it was stolen” and more upset about “it was stolen and shades didnt tell me from who” #but being a bee means she has slightly more leeway on it than. say. a mosquito who shouldnt have been in the hive in the first place #plus depending on how he got it he might just Not Know that it was originally bee tech. equal odds of bee or termite and such #its not necessarily guaranteed and since shes not a part of the hive anymore that chance is SIGNIFICANTLY decreased #and YES shes likely to be in contact with the people that it was stolen from who thus may recognize it and get her in trouble #also necessary context for daydream it is a painkiller that is also occasionally sold as a street drug under the name daydream #known as morpatamine in like. generic medical brand form. though vi might take a few seconds to recognize it under that name #it may be a prescription drug but she has never taken out a prescription in her life and shes not about to start now #it is. VERY strong. produces a “floaty” high. vi takes it for chronic pain reasons because she enjoys not being in pain and is Used To It #we have it as a. semi-consistent vi feature? takes it pre-tsm for pain reasons and then goes cold turkey when she gets hired as an explorer #shes functional under it and could probably actually get More done under it for pain reasons but she still. no longer takes it #this Is Not Good for her. she is in pain that she absolutely does not have to be in for Not Taking Drugs Points awarded by no one. #unfortunately she also thinks that if she tells her teammates about the fact that she has done A Drug and might want to do them again #they will drop her like a hot potato and/or tell her entire family that she is a druggie #because she was still raised in the hive and still retains some of their views on drugs for Herself Specifically #because though obviously her friends are cool & doing a drug is neutral for them it is a sign of deep moral corruption for Vi Specifically #anyways this means that she will go out on a mission while being like an 8-9 on the pain scale and do like. maybe 1 ibuprofen about it #this specific dynamic means that though she trusts kabbu and leif SIGNIFICANTLY more than shades in p much every way #she would never ask one of them to help supervise her use whereas she might ask shades to keep an eye on her #generally this is a bad decision. he will absolutely fuck with her for fun. they both know this wont stop her from asking him again tho #she could probably ask doppel if she didnt want to be told that shes been given forever weed #but doppel has a job to do and she doesnt want to interrupt and plus if he knows shes been Doing A Drug he might be disappointed in her #realistically he already knows and just doesnt care but vis already a bit high strung on it with anyone whose opinion she cares about #we will retag this to put it in the main bf tag in a bit maybe. we are not sure how the fandom proper would respond to this flavor of post #chronic pain hcs tend to be localized to kabbu and undetailed on management. we deal with heavy duty painkillers

[uselessgaywhovian]

Breaking my paladin oath in BG3 turned out very sexy, i like what they did with that. Badass oathbreaker knight shows up and is like “Oh, you’re a paladin who wants to make choices for yourself huh? let’s talk. you can take up your oath again, but you also have options now. sometimes you can do more good by embracing the shadows now and then.” i am enjoying myself immensely.

#i am also enjoying my newly oath broken paladin in my dnd game even more now #because she pulled a similar move of being like #‘i’m going to do something kind of sketchy in this moment as part of a long game’ #but the paladin oath does not care about my long game 😂😂😂

[toastsnaffler]

i keep getting irrationally miffed at ppl 😐😐

#'impressed by how much u can talk abt this considering youve not played either game' #fuck off. as if im not just trying to show interest bc u + another friend are both into them + constantly talk abt them in our gc!! #i mean since u guys talk abt them all the time + theyre huge on tumblr like. it would be hard for me to not know anything abt them at all #literally what else can i talk to u guys abt anyway. i dont think there are any interests i personally have that they both gaf abt #if anything they actively dislike most of the things im hyperfixated on. or at least she does so like i cant bring that up can i. #all i did was share a post i saw on tumblr that i thought was funny. its not like i had some negative/controversial opinion #i just saw it and thought hey that makes me think of my friends bc they like those things maybe theyll find it funny too!! #dog sitting outside the door with rly big sad eyes offering them a stick i found in a puddle #i like listening to them talk and i will eventually play some of the games theyre into myself cuz they make them sound rly cool #and even if theyre not my kind of thing i like sharing interests with other ppl and sometimes thats enough for me to be able to enjoy it #i literally own some of them already but im just not in the mental space to start smth new right now. which i have SAID!!!! #why do u even care girl. as if u dont already have a ton of friends playing it that ur talking to abt it???? i wont have anything to add #and thats not gonna stop u from being able to talk to me abt it anyway????? like 2/3 of our conversations atm are abt bg3 #man. i know its not that deep but it makes me kinda sad for some reason. im just trying. i guess next time ill just let u guys talk- #to each other or at me and not comment or say anything so u can pretend im not here or whatever it is u want #ughh. she probably didnt even mean it like that and ill feel stupid for getting annoyed and delete this later but whatever. #might work out early today and then i can like draw or play a game or smth the rest of the day. alright lets go #.vent #listening to my silly little jfunk/jazz/soul playlist and i already feel over it. healing

[absensia-archived]

I've spoken briefly about this before and, again, it's usually something I leave in the little details of Charlotte's portrayal, but it's really been on my mind lately so I wanted to write out some of the prominent traits that continue to establish that, despite having gradually accumulated more experience, capital, and property over the years, Charlotte remains coded as working-class. It is crucial to both the narrative itself and her actual existence as a vessel for the primordial void, also known as Khaos. This means that she still has no ( legal ) credit cards and continues to thrift almost all her belongings, including her clothes, books, and furniture ( with the exception of shoes and appliances.) If you are someone who regularly meets up with Charlotte, you might begin to notice ( if you are perceptive ) that while she may be variably early, right on time, or show up in some unexpected state, she is rarely ever late and certainly never without a legitimate reason as to why. It is also not uncommon for Charlotte to juggle multiple jobs at the same time, and the only time she'll agree to a single job, at the exclusion of all other work is if she knows that that one job will be worth it. Related to this is the fact that Charlotte has a very hard time saying no to job offers; it's a habit ( read: stress response ) she is trying to unlearn, but it continues to be a struggle. Lastly, despite having successfully taken on leadership roles in the past, Charlotte expresses a strong dislike for being consigned to a "boss" role as she still much prefers to be hands on, in the action, at risk rather than sitting back and letting others do the work. She becomes restless if she finds herself "at the top" or in the position of too much obvious power; recall the adage about how it is lonely at the top, and how isolation is not something that the void's vessel can allow. She needs to be among people; she needs to be present to catalyze chaos. That being said, this doesn't mean that Charlotte simply allows herself to be treated or thrown away as a mere lackey or just another body, but that is still part of the struggle, isn't it?

#you'll also notice that char is very smart about the way she stores and maintains what belongings she DOES have #ie. her money her safe“houses” her work equipment #within the bounds of her control - char doesn't go out of her way to destroy or wreck her own stuff #if chaos happens then there's nothing she can do; and other people's stuff is fair game #but her own shit? she takes care of that shit best she can #it ties into the fact that she doesn't have a set or consistent sleep schedule #but for her work she will be up at the crack of dawn if needed; she will be out all night; she will be up and working days on end if needed #she also enjoys working in teams and if you've ever had to have char as a co-worker u'll know she's actually nice to work with #still untrustworthy still chaotic still annoying as fuck - but also nice #she prefers to work with equals rather than take any kind of control over others. control being the other side of the coin to chaos :') #she's also worked such a HUGE myriad of what society considers labour / “entry-level” / “unskilled” jobs... #...in order to learn from an inconspicuous position. #i could go on and on but like i said - i'll leave in the writing #i'm so proud of my chaos goblin #thinking about how at one point in her timeline she worked and played her way all the way to accidentally taking out a crime boss... #....then IMMEDIATELY did a 180 going “nope not for me” and vanished #too lonely at the top and that's no fun for this one :( #( smth smth the fact that she's just a vessel is too ingrained in her sense of self for her to actually stand out and be leader ) #( smth smth even pawn-turned-queens revert back to pawns at the end of the game ) #and as always - if you actually read through all this IM SO THANKFUL FOR U MWAH <3