#they are wonderful and horrible

[chilpilled]

his smile and optimism…….gone………

#halflings being treated so horribly and being used as bait and him making a union so others dont get treated as badly as he did. ourgh #no wonder hes defensive and doesnt trust people. it makes me tear my hair out #my silly little rabbit………… #chilchuck tims #dunmeshi

[kotaki]

Wonderful Precure starts February 4th!

#precure #wonderful precure #cure wonderful #inukai komugi #mygifs #i'm so excited for this it makes me stupid omg look at her she's so cute 😭😭😭😭😭 #blessed that we're getting fairies/mascots again because the silence in hirogaru is horrible for me personally lol

[sisaloofafump]

Bruce you don't even want to KNOW the types of visions Clark could be having about you.

#but then again #Bruce's own visions of self are either like #zur-en-arrh (horrible) or a little demon child #so #not the best association #dc comics #batman #bruce wayne #superman #clark kent #wonder woman #Trinity #Superbat

[ex0toxin]

road trip 🚗💨

jsys week'24, day 4

#the boys discover the wonderful north american tradition of driving 6 hours to see a shitty museum and dinosaur statues #and all the horrible emotions that come with <3 #josuke like we missed a turn THREE HOURS AGO!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!! #also oku has no regard for road safety. no seatbelt hes going to go straight thru the windshield on those shitass unmaintained roads. KING! #josuyasu #josuyasu week #josuyasu week 2024 #josuke higashikata #okuyasu nijimura #jojo #jojo's bizarre adventure #jjba #my art

[the-gotheltic-rowan]

so me and the bestie have been binge-playing re2/re4

#also known as Leon S Kennedy and the terrible horrible no good very bad day #y’all this man had seen so many man-made horrors beyond comprehension #playing this backwards going thru re4 like man this guy just isn’t phased and then playing re2 like what the DEVIL IS HAPPENING #NO WONDER HE’S JUST PISSED INSTEAD OF FREAKED OUT #racoon city got him MESSED UP #that’s why his muscles so big they full of TRAUMA #resident evil 4 remake #resident evil 2 remake #leon kennedy #leon s kennedy #leon scott kennedy

[litta-jpg]

pride month is over!

#AND they both have blue eyes in canon iirc. horrible #cissiecassie #cissie king jones #cassie sandsmark #wonder girl #arrowette #young justice #dc #comics #art tag

[bluastro-yellow]

Kurvitz stresses that Kim doesn't actually have a character sheet hidden in Disco Elysium's code. Imagining that Lieutenant Kitsuragi has only one natural attribute point in Motorics helps the ZA/UM team to understand the depth of his character beyond what's referenced in the game's dialogue. "We just came up with this stuff for coherency," says Kurvitz. "And because we're nerds."

"I like to think Kim has a Thought Cabinet project called Revolutionary Aerostatic Brigades that he's worked on since he was a teenager," Kurvitz says. "This raises the learning caps for his Reaction Speed and Interfacing."

Kim's high Volition skill makes him impervious to prying, Kurvitz says, as the detective can find out on occasions being met with Kim's brick-wall resolve. Kim often chastises these whims of the detective's, but will occasionally play along. The Lieutenant finds his new partner funny, says Kurvitz.

Kim is naturally shit at Motorics and thinks Harry is funny source

#THE GUY WHO SO MANY THOUGHT WAS THE MISSING MOTORICS BUILD IS BAD AT THEM #and thinks cop types are stupid <3 #the bajillion points in authority make even more sense. he probably has a lot of natural points in the purple skills? #(addition: so empathy too T_T !!!) #so this means he had to put a lot of points in composture on purpose. and had to learn how to sew and repair motorcarriages the hard way? #the interfacing learning cap is higher but he still had to put points in it to have more than 1 #his perception is abysmal and it stayed so #his hand/eye coordination is also bad. his shooting posture is horrible. I wonder how he got to 7/10 #I want to poke this nerd with a stick #disco elysium #release the kim character sheet now. what the hell is volta do mar I need to know #he must have volta do mar. h/e coordination. kinetic dressage #(and something related to authority) #first and last are red but it's a different shade than harry's red-pink physical skills #so they must have a different name. but h/e is yellow #maybe everyone has the 4 colors psy/phis/mot/int categories but they have different shades and names #<-all of this is from the official jacket they sell. it's in the description #ok no the color shades are just the website's fault. sad noise

[inkskinned]

you wanted to be a good friend, because you loved your friends, but the truth was that everyone else somehow had a pamphlet on being normal that you never received. most of the time you learn by trial-and-error. you are terrified of the next big mistake you make, because it seems like the rules are completely arbitrary.

you've learned to keep the prickly parts of your personality in a stormcloud under your bed - as if they're a second version of you; one that will make your friends hate you. it feels feral, burning, ugly.

instead, you have assembled habits based on the statistical likelihood of pleasing others. you're a good listener, which is to say - if you do speak up, you might end up saying the wrong thing and scaring off someone, but people tend to like someone-who-listens. or you've got no true desires or goals, because people like it when you're passive, mutable. you're "not easy to fluster" which is to say - your emotions are fundamentally uninteresting to others around you; so you've learned to control them to a degree that you can no longer really feel them happening.

you have long suspected something is wrong with you, but most of the time, googling doesn't help. you are so-used to helping-yourself, alone and with no handbook. the reek of your real self feels more like a horrible joke - you wake up, and, despite all your preparations, suddenly the whole house is full of smoke. the real you is someone waiting to ruin your other-life, the one where you're normal and happy. the real-self is unpredictable, angry.

your real self snarls when people infantilize the whole situation. because if you were really suffering, everyone seems to think you'd be completely unable to cope. but you already learned the rules, so you do know how to cope, and you have fucking been coping. it's not black-and-white. it's not that you are healed during the other times - it's just that you're able to fucking try. and honestly, whenever you show symptoms, it's a really fucking bad sign.

because the symptoms you have are ugly and unmanageable for others. your symptoms aren't waifish white girl things. they're annoying and complicated. they will be the subject of so many pretentious instagram reels. if they cared about you, they'd just show up on time. you care, a lot, so deeply it burns you. you like to picture a world where the comments read if they loved you, they'd never need glasses to see. but since that's a rule you've seen repeated - "one must never be late or you are a bad friend" - you constantly worry about being late and leave agonizingly early. there are no words for how you feel when you're still late; no matter how hard you were trying.

so you have to make up for it. you have to make up for that little horrible real you that you keep locked in a cabinet. you are bad at answering emails so every project you make has to be perfect. you are weird and sensitive so you have to learn to be funny and interesting. you are an inconvenience to others, so you become as smooth as possible, buffing out all the rough parts.

all this. all this. so people can pass their hands over you and just tell you just the once -how good you are. you're a good friend. you're loveable.

#spilled ink #woke up at 530 to write this lmafo #me in a cold sweat: #how do i be normal #edit in the tags: #hey so i've seen y'all talk about like ... wondering if ur ''allowed'' to relate #like if this is about X specific diagnosis #and when i first posted it i really almost labelled it ''please don't assume this is about a specific condition'' #because as an artist i am often walking this line of discussing a symptom or discussing my conditions etc #and sometimes yes ! i do want to talk about an experience that is specific to who i am and my condition #but sometimes the effort of the post is about the EXPERIENCE rather than the diagnosis #because yes i am not neurotypical and as a result that influences my work but it is ALSO true that there are many reasons #why someone might experience this particular vague horrible feeling that you are... almost being CHASED by what you ''really'' are. #that you're outrunning your symptoms... that you're not really normal you're just sort of a mockery of a person #.... that's a really isolating and horrible way to feel no matter why you are feeling it. and the nature of this PARTICULAR post is that #it is inherently talking ABOUT that sense of isolation & of feeling not-deserving & of minimizing your own experiences to make urself #palatable for society in a way that others find easy-to-deal-with.... #this post is about a certain experience such that my impression is there's a higher likelihood that those who relate #would have more difficulty thinking they ''deserve'' to relate - that it doesn't REALLY belong to them #bc often we are the kind of people who are SO used to being alienated and set aside and ''different'' that we AUTOMATICALLY assume #that things are not ''for'' us... they never have been why would it start now #we are the kinds of people to be ... ''too normal for X diagnosis but too symptomatic to be normal'' #[or as this post points out... so good at ''coping''/masking/hiding it that we essentially conform to whatever shape we're poured into] #but i have witnessed others already say in the tags ''thought this was about me but it's about X so it can't be'' #and im like ... of course it was about you. #art is not a resource that is diminished by greater appreciation . #you reflect in whatever mirror fits your frame. not just the ones in your bedroom. not just the ones i specifically give you. #there will be - and often are - times that i will talk about my specific conditions... but if you're reading this #regardless of why you're here... we are here together. holding hands through space and time. and i love you for carrying it #and i know you're exhausted. i am too. but i understand. and i see you.

[koipiu]

thar cup.sure is ace

#isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #attempt tto post number two!! #hhh im. very happy with this and i keep getting Horribly like. #excited and fluffy when ppl are nice abt it im so glad its nice #pLease do ignore the lacklustre border tho the wonderful premade one doesnt fit my work T nT #ALSO accidentally made isa n sif v matchin pfps coded v cute they would

[gatorgrumbles]

If I'm not drawing him serving cunt I'm not alive.

#wondering when toei will yell at me to stop #but he's so cunty I can't #he's serving #he's so extra #with his ridiculous spikey wine glass #like when I first saw that glass I died #my babygirl #my horrible rotten man #my queen #ok tags now #lord frieza #frieza dbz #dbz #dragon ball z #dragon ball fanart #my art #drawing #art #digital art

[numum]

very self indulgent doodle of an old fav 💜

#tmnt #tmnt 2012 #donatello #hamato donatello #teenage mutant ninja turtles #my art #myart #i wonder if anyone from my tmnt days still follows me and is still active on here… #from literally 8-10 years ago adkfndjjs #the 2012 show was terribly flawed but it holds a special place in my heart #i was soooo obsessed with donnie #and um. #apritello #please forgive me i know it was written horribly i was 13!!! #the version of them that exists in my head is absolutely perfect though >:] #slow burn angst fest apritello is real to me‼️ #squishy purple turd #was my old tag for him :’) #i know nobody gaf abt him anymore but drawing him made me so happy #mytmntart

[tyrianlynch]

Ronan and Hennessy and “I’ve been alone a long time” and “please don’t let me be the only one” and “why do you even care?” “I don’t know I just do” and “don’t let me fall too hard lynch” and “she’s a dreamer, like me” and “no one else gets it, this is what we live with” and “he’ll be drawn to you more than to me” and “I’m not a doll Ronan lynch” and “Hennessy. He had forgotten he could know people. And how he knew her!” and “they didn’t say sorry they didn’t have to” and “if I told you I was going to help you get out of this, would you believe me?” “you’re one of the very few people I would” and “now they were just two ex dreamers made fearless by life” and “don’t be only human just now Ronan lynch”

#and they wouldn’t be friends in any other circumstances like if they met in high school they would’ve killed each other #but they have this one horrible wonderful thing in common that no one else will never understand #so they’re forced to cling to each other for fear life #honan #hennessy #jordan hennessy #Ronan #ronan lynch #tdt #the dreamer trilogy #call down the hawk #cdth #mister impossible #greywaren

[fantasyfr3ak]

Not me crying alone in my bedroom, huddled over a phone i can barely see, because 2 people who Do Not exist love each other (for the 1000th time)

#god dammit #rumbelle #sesskag #dramione #megarox #steddie #the list goes on #dedicated to all the horrible wonderful authors out there

[antiqua-lugar]

also as a quick note, "Who is James Somerton trying to fool"...exactly who he was trying to fool before, impressionable young queer people and anyone who watched his content without paying too much attention.

One of the most astounding things about Somertom is how blatant his lies were if you knew anything about the subject and how obvious his misoginy, queerphobia and racism were. He was also very open about how he DEFINITELY was the only queer voice worth listening to, to the point that he accused Nebula of being unable to accept a visionary like him.

He still got caught but he kept getting away with it using the same tactics. It was everyone's fault but his, the haters were out to get him for no reason, he was getting death threats and that's obviously more important than whatever controversy he was on...

And now he released an apology video where he actually did nothing bad, but if he did it's because he just cared so much about the queer community and because he is neurodivergent and has epilepsy and memory issues and also he is poor and his mother died and doesn't everyone deserve a second chance?

He seems also to be carefully deleting any comment that points out everything else he did not address and liking comments that think he should get a second chance.

If he manages to pull through he is probably gonna start a narrative where everyone deserves a second chance and everyone who brings up his past behaviour is just a bully who is not letting him grow or a desparate hater and "he apologized to everyone involved so what else do these people want from him :(".

hbomberguy and Todd In The Shadows' videos were amazing, but the world moves on and people have a tendency to forget. That's who he is trying to fool.

#like despite everything that happened in the beauty community shane dawson and jeffree star still make a living #someone who made a living fooling vulnerable people can do it too #james somerton #like he was absolutely horrible to jessie gender and now she is the only person she actually openly apologizes to #but he is NOT apologizing to the author of love simon. i wonder why.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

some hasty Laughingstock ft. butterfly!Howdy for your mild enjoyment...

#i have this... scene in my head #where howdy is having a bit of a breakdown over his Yassification™️ #he just destroyed half his store w/ his wings and etc etc barnaby finds him curled up in the Back #howdy's all like 'i was such a handsome green.... now im this horrible blue w/ ugly black forearms blah blah blah' #and barnabys all '??? the fuck are you talking about youre literally stunning??? shut up lmfao ill make out w you' #and then i also thought Oh so butterfly howdy cant really fly #but what if he like.... does this cute lil flutter when he kisses barnaby #and it generates enough Lift that it makes him way lighter and lets him aaaalmost hover #because i think it'd be ADORABLE and im RIGHT- #anyway those are my thoughts behind these silly scribbles #scribble salad #laughingstock #yassified howdy <3 #i have soooooo much affection for laughingstock + butterfly howdy #barnaby and his girlboss gaslight gatekeep gorgeous husband <3 #he's ken & howdy's barbie #and he is Kenough <3 #and howdy is. uh. Barbalicious <3 #do i sometimes wonder why i lean towards viewing howdy more Feminine than the others? yeah #and then i immediately go 'bc its rad as hell and objectively Correct' (delusional) #and then i high five myself and move on with my day

[lazycranberrydoodles]

BEEF EEF!!!!!

follow to put more gods into cute outfits 🌸

#yeah i own the outfit he xuan is wearing. harbringer of doom gf ass #winter is coming and im about to go full emo #this has been in my drafts for MONTHS because of a small mistake but i finally fixed it #i needed to draw some women you know how it is #i like to imagine shi qingxuan yelling speed drive by charlie xcx at the top of their lungs in the car #he xuan says they hate this song. notably they have not put in earbuds. and they know the lyrics well enough to correct sqx on it. hmm #finally one of 3 beefleaf drafts gets released into the wild idk why i keep drawing them and not posting #me and my terrible horrible boyfriend that i love so dearly #this is canon to the mcdonalds au. btw. if anyone was wondering #tgcf #art #my art #tian guan ci fu #beefleaf #he xuan #shi qingxuan #ming yi #hob #heaven official's blessing #天官赐福 #🥩🍃