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dyonoi · 1 year

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I'm not sure if you even look at this blog anymore, but I just wanted to say I MISS YOU!! I still look through your old meta posts and art every few months and while I know you prob won't come back to the fandom, a part of me still hopes it! I guess I was curious to know how you're doing, and whether you've gotten into any other fandoms and ships? You were really fun and if there's something else you're into and writing for I would love to follow you into it!! <3

god this feels like the worst anime timeskip episode. hey there, its been a while. surprised theres people still around who remember. in the past 4??? years i guess ive done some shit, yeah. cliffnotes: finally closed the long distance and moved in with my SO, became a stoner, found the perfect physical art medium for me and have been busy becoming IG famous 💅 and actually making a living off it, and most importantly i have a cat now. he's a manx cat with a little bunny tail and he is so unlike any other cat ive interacted with. he has absolutely no style, no grace. he constantly trips over nothing. cannot jump higher than 2 feet, will gently catch bugs and then lets them fly away, is literally incapable of feeling anger (the sole exception is if you blow air on his feet. this makes him so angry so fast for whatever reason and its hilarious to witness) ive only heard him hiss twice in the past 4 years. anyway things could always be better but lifes pretty good.

as for other media ive gotten into? uh, the truth is i have a VERY muted relationship with media at this point. i dont run any secret fandom blogs. to be honest, i probably will never allow myself to become even nearly as entangled with a fandom ever again as much as i did with homestuck. for all the fun i had, i was WAY too active in it to the point where it was frankly unhealthy and being candid, it played a big role in me stagnating as a human being for a good year or two. the amount of opinionated bullshit i was spewing 24/7 for years predictably made me a target for people who disagreed and wanted to bring me down a peg, warranted or not, and as thick skinned as i am it did eventually start stressing me out and making me act like a loon. thankfully most of this was in private but it still happened, if you know you know. ive alluded to the reason why i got like that, but putting that much energy and faith into a single author to the extent i did is a recipe for ruin on multiple fronts.

hs was a painful lesson in that most shit just…sucks, and even if something starts out great, the chances that the author will stop giving a shit, fuck it up for the ending or even just straight up die is decently high lol and its something you should always have in the back of your mind. (guess which dumbass started reading berserk in late 2020) this was made way worse by hussie just… being an unrepentant fucking asshole. in hindsight this wasnt a shocking reveal but the hopium that theyd make it right in the end was too strong for all of us. i could have forgiven them losing interest as an artist due to general life hardships, but in the end they ditched it after pissing on it and then setting it on fire. so much of hs's success was on the back of fan media and when your finale in return is to salt the earth to the point where no one gives a fuck about it anymore, even the people who liked the tail end petered out pretty quickly too on that. just….eugh. i have permanent media trust issues.

even in the rare instances where something good ends up canon, even if the premise and buildup is great, the fandom surrounding it will pontificate a combined million hours and 9 times out of 10 will write them better than the author ever will. its sad in a way, but its the truth.

i still think davekat is great, once in a while ill look over my folder of it and my art and smile like an old lady looking over a dusty family photo album. the dynamic is rock solid, and if you agree my advice is to steal them. just steal them. call them doug and kevin and export them into your original story. they deserved better, and you will probably do a better job anyway.

media i AM interacting with (lightly) is one piece again. NONE of you bitches that read the entirety of homestuck have any room to complain about how long it is. i have a lot of problems with it (read: sanji) but in general its pretty fun and enough to sink your teeth into. sidenote i have been shipping luffy/zoro since two thousand fucking six and its a testament to my unending great taste that it was and still is an excellent ship. though i have a curse of somehow always ending up in fandom c-tier ships in terms of popularity like that LOL i got memed into watching bnha (DONT LAUGH) and my ship of choice, todobaku? an absolutely hilarious dynamic and a total banger. but yet another c-tier. after being spoiled with davekat content domination for years this sucks haha

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terraliensvent · 1 month

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multiple ppl close to kinah were able to verify that they were in the hospital recovering when the attempt happened. all of those ppl could not collab and lie so one person could get “extra attention” in ur words. Im frustrated with terra staff aswell but that doesn’t mean its ok now to call someones suicide attempt fake so ur feelings seem more valid. I find that extremely sickening. U have zero evidence or good reason for doubt or else u would have vented about it already. all u have is ur feefees. u do need therapy. And mod pls stop validating baseless speculation on smth so serious. what happened 2 people needing proof for claims like this

alright yeah im deleting kinah asks now

first off i dont think that people should just believe whatever they read on the internet, because you dont know who these people are irl. again, thats not to say that you shouldnt give support where you can or that you should make public callouts saying that it was all fake when you dont know for sure, BUT at the same time theres a level of speculation regardless because its the fucking internet. people are wild, people are strangers, and there is a non zero chance that people could have lied. just because people have a level of speculation on something they read online, that doesnt mean they need therapy and it doesnt mean theyre a bad person, it means they have a brain. if YOU want to believe it without a shadow of a doubt then thats fine, and if other people have some doubt thats also fine, just dont go out of your way to fucking bother people because thats just unnecessary.

second off, i need proof for accusations like “so and so is posting feral” or “so and so is an abuser,” saying things like “the way that kinah bounced back into cs makes me speculate” isnt an accusation.

the views of the anons i post here arent reflective of my own views, and if something is a problem i give my own input on it in my response. when i created this blog i didnt want to delete asks because i feel like that controls a narrative and makes me an unreliable narrator when it comes to these discussions. if people want to talk about things like this, i didnt want to force silence because thats not how you hold a discussion.

as an additional note: anons have been becoming increasingly aggressive in my inbox, whether its towards one another or towards myself. i implore all of you to stop being so aggressive, stop making assumptions, and stop playing this holier than thou card. so much of the art and cs community is made up of people who will virtue signal and place themselves on a moral pedestal and my inbox is the last place for that. if you want to rant and complain, go ahead, but stop acting like youre better than each other because you have the Correct Opinion on everything and believe everything you read on the internet.

my final thoughts on this are as follows: there is a non zero chance that everyone is lying. is it a small chance? sure. does this mean we should spread the narrative that it was all fake? no. are you a horrible person who should die in a fire because you dont 100 percent believe that the attempts were real? no, but also dont go out of your way to be an asshole because of that belief. i think we should all publicly operate under the assumption that the attempts were real. if you want to privately speculate, go fucking wild. could kinah going back into cs and making stuff for terras possibly be bad for their mental health? maybe. but also, its none of our business. and thats what im ending this topic with, a lot of this shit really is just none of our business and i think you all give way too much of a fuck about someone who you will never know irl.

i dont dislike kinah, in fact i actually really liked them when they were on staff for terras. but at some point we all gotta throw our arms up and say why is this taking up so much of my brain power when this person is just someone i follow on fucking toyhouse.

we are done with asks about kinahs attempt now, unless anyone has important info or something new to say im deleting them.

#closed species vent #terralien #closed species #terraliens #vent #mod rambles #kinah #yall are insufferable sometimes

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nyxitycatboy · 4 months

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1 3 7 17 22 questions :3

1: what are 3 things that shaped you into who you are today? this one is,,, kinda hard to answe r and theres alot of diffo things i cld mention but while being a "homeschooler" from middle school to highschool did alot i think blaming fallout equastria (the first time i specifically felt jelous of girls specifically i can rember was from a lesbian sex scene from this fanfic) homestuck (my first exposure to the concept of transgender peoplke as just like people came from following a homestuck kinnie's blog) and pokemon (bcuz the reason i furst talked to the ex who introduced me to the boy i've crushy w/ fur years [and also am nyow dating >:3 dating <3 <3 ] was bcuz that ex was playing pokemon on a laptop) wld be alot funnier actually

3: 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and never get tired of? ,,, im gonnya be honyest i don't really watch movies so i don't really have any answers fur this, sowwy vwv (though honestly idk if Any film wld be able to actually do that fur me, maybe like a full series of something but a film is at average like 2 hours and at most like 4ish i think which i think wld given long enough eventually get tiring to watch anyways,, nyot sure though >w>)

7: what scares you most and why? the idea of ceasing to be able to expiernce pleasure/enjoyment/happyness, which links up to death but is also seperately a proccable thing i guess? scawy concept ;w;

17: 3 things that make you happy? 1 talking to people i love 2 seeing people i love 3 making people i love happier :3 ignyoring that aspect though doing well in games that provide a satisfying challenge or doing creative stuff i think make me happy but i also like reading manga? i think im misunderstanding the question kinda at this point vwv

22: 3 things about someone i love 1. really cute adorable little puppy boy ^w^ <3<3<3 2. mine so nyour nyot allowed to hear about them >:c

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danifandxm · 4 months

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oh WOW i dont post a lot here anymore do I. oof

much to the relief or disappointment of anyone, I am alive. Depressed, anxious, but alive!

New year! 2024! We made it! Lets recap my 2023 for those who still follow this blog. for some reason. AHEM.

1. Had an entire fallout with 3 people I THOUGHT were my friends for the past 7-8 ish years, bc god forbid I have interests and yknow. talk about my fears.

btw this lasted from late april (when they told me to take a "break") to LATE AUGUST (when they finally decided to drop me bc god FORBID i want to try and talk and mend things. fuck you all btw). so yeah. shitty start.

2. We had two family pets pass away! One passed away around june/july-ish (big dog, great dane), and then another one in september. the second one was one i took care of personally (she was a bearded dragon), so theres a lot of guilt on my end. (im. still recovering).

this fucked me up so bad that i had to INCREASE my medication dosage. so yeah. not sugar pills. (you know who you are.)

There was other small stuff but those where the two big things that made 50% of a horrendous year. And bc of some of that, im guarded and less forgiving. I feel like i've gone like,,, ten steps back.

But, On the brighter side:

- I turned 21! (still figuring out my tastes lol)

- Got to see a few musicals throughout the year! Wicked (for the 3rd or 4th time), Jagged Little Pill, and Beetlejuice (FINALLY)

- Saw lovejoy live in my state! (10/10 would go again)

- Started playing Genshin Impact and Honkai Star Rail, and I'm v much enjoying it!

- Trigun. That's it. thats the bullet point

and much more

so yeah. pretty 50/50. but the negative really,,, impacted me in the worst way. I'm just hoping 2024 is better to me.

I already have one silver lining going for me this year, but I'm not gonna say so I wont jinx it.

happy 2024. may we survive the storm together

#sorry this post is so... chaotic #literally typing my thought process as i go lol #dani sthu #happy new year #new year 2024 #2024 #2023 #life stuff #dani rambles #dani vents

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dsi-os · 8 months

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Meanwhile, in another project: A small 4 part stupid answer about where they go once inactive.

Hello!! I'm DSi.OS (also known as my very very very outdated name, sayah66.) I'm an artist who is "known" for MANY projects. "BUT DSI!!" you say, "WHERE ARE THOSE PROJECTS!! I DONT SEE THEM!!! ARE THE PROJECTS IN THE ROOM WITH US???" and to that i say.

yes AND no.

and heres what i mean! if you care to read, of course. tldr is available at the finish too! (WARNING: I'm making this as one big oneshot "essay" at 5 AM with no sleep. This may not make any sense, but. ENJOY!)

Part 1: The ITCH to create.

Personally, we're an artist of MANY, MANY, MANY, MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY stories and characters. including fun little aus of course. ...But. on the internet, it could be very difficult for an artist like me, because I THRIVE off of attention and interaction, just as my projects do. Most, if not ALL of my projects require some sort of interaction point. And on that note... Heres something of me and my creations, the little thing I call "The Graveyard"

All of these are blogs we've created throughout the years, excluding tests and throwaways. And. all of these would sadly be counted as "DEAD". (hence the graveyard bit. haha - get it?) Though, in reality. We wouldn't count this as dead... more like-

PART 2: THE SLEEPING UNDEAD

ALL of these blogs aren't really dead... just... sleeping! very, very heavily. "BUT WHY IS THAT?" you may ask, and thats because:

LACK OF INTERACTION

They are FAR FAR from dead, they just aren't getting any interaction or traction, and hence, they slow down to a stop. When a story REQUIRES interaction to move forward, you can't just leave it hungry! But sadly, in turn, this does even more harm to the project, because due to the lack of posting (from the lack of interaction) all traction stops! And so, its almost like a painting or a vintage piece left in an attic. It gets covered in dust and left to be found later. Or! You could compare it to a train! The interactions are coal to fuel it...

PART 3: WHAT DO I THINK?

Personally, I just wait until they get interaction again, and. While that most likely won't happen, I remain hopeful. Of course, even I drift away from it slowly, and it becomes a beautifully archived piece of media for myself, and maybe somebody else, to enjoy! Its a big cycle of throwing stories to the internet and making something new, and, while it can hurt, its also a great experience! Without the graveyard growing, I wouldve never moved on from story-writing mistakes, among many other things. Its a real big experience!! Its fun for it to happen while it can.

PART 3.5: .....AND?

okay fine youve caught me. Besides just waiting for interaction, sometimes I update my old works slowly, in a way that lets new interactions come in. and, especially for the OSHAVERSE blogs, there are BIG BIG ideas I still have for it! As said before, not dead, just resting! Inching like a slug. I'm also planning to completely reboot some blogs, or start new events on others! I'm no professional, but I'd say it helps quite a bit. And it can be fun* to meet back up with old friends from those eras! (hiii osha people!!!) *not a promise

PART 4: WHAT CAN YOU DO?

YOU can help a lot! This is information EVERY artist says, but. well. its the truth! What you can do is share, interact, and enjoy the content! See a cool art? Reblog that. See a neat creator? Follow them! Cool story? Share it to others! Needs asks? Send asks!! Sitting on the sidelines sadly won't do much, and, believe me, I know that it can be difficult to get out of that sometimes, but you will not BELIEVE how much it helps. All your love, all your sharing, all your enjoying, makes all the stories you know and love go round. infact, it makes the internet go round! SHARE YOUR WORK, AND SHARE OTHERS WORK TOO!!! HAVE FUN!!! as long as no ones getting hurt, and theres no harmful content, this is always the way to go!!!

RE:INTRO

Hello!! I'm DSi.OS, I'm a mentally ill, currently homeless artist, and I need your help, not just for my situation, but for my work too! Sharing artist's work can help get them commissions, which. help an UNBELIEVABLE amount!! and hell, if you see a cool artist out there, maybe try to save up to buy a comm for them! If you can't, you can always support them in MANY different other ways! from donations to gifts, to even interaction! share the artists you love, share your love to the artists! I'm DSi.OS, Creator of very, very small, but cared for projects. Many of them, maybe too many! But all your love keeps them going, even if it goes a bit slow!!! :D

TL;DR:

THE ANSWER TO THE INTRO: my projects are on permanent "freeze", or sleep-mode! no interaction = no going forward in the story. THE BIG MESSAGE OF THIS: support artists, keep stories alive, share the work you enjoy! with YOUR interactions and love, you can keep many blogs, stories, projects, and other things going!! MY SAY: i know this is a super stereotypical artist message, but not only is it correct, its the answer to where they've gone. not dead, just resting.

now! i cant wait to read this later. its now 5:30 am and i have no clue what ive typed. maybe its something super meaningful, maybe its silly. who knows! itll be a surprise for future me.

you guys promise to tell me if this sounds stupid right? okay. good. love you guys goodnight /HJ

#essay #blog #about #update #answer #idk what to tag this #you guys can put whatever tags you want :]#tumblr

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papirouge · 1 year

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Umh, i think i never got caught because id say that i was born in italy but relocated in america quite young, thus most of my italian came from my family teaching me and not being in an italian environment. Also i was accussed of being a fake like twice but I just ignored it lol. Like they were just haters or jelly.

and yeah, some of these tradfem blogs are for real, which is really pathethic. Lets not forget either the weirdos into BDSM who larp as trads (or since its so common, i guess you could say the non-bdsm ones are larping 🥴)

I think its interesting because i know housewives (my sister included) but none of them identify as trad or are trying to follow an aesthetic or fit into a mold. They just decided to stay home for one reason or another, some want to return to work once the kid(s) are grown, others wish to stay home, and a few others don't really plan for the future and leave in the moment. Also, they don't care much about feminity, much less the superficial part: they do housework and errands dressed in sweatpants/jeans, sneakers and their hair in a bun/ponytail.

This is also why its so weird to me when some act like being a housewife is an oppressed group or whatever. Like no one is stoping you. And yeah, some people do have their hangups about women wanting to be housewives, but many times its because they're worried about them. Like radfems can be pretty smug when talking to them, but theres a reason why they warn about the potencial issues they can run into.

For example, when i wanted to be an actress, people would always tell me to really think about it, even discouraging me, due to many reasons but mainly because its difficult to find work in the acting world here in my country unless you have connections. People werent being mean or evil, as annoying as it was to me at the time, they were just being honest and worrying about my future.

Giiiiirl, you need to stop lying like that😭😂 just bc you never got caught means it's ok. I don't want you to get caught into unecessary drama😭

I remember catching so much flack from tradfem when I told them that TRADITIONALLY speaking, make up and jewelry was the prerogative of PROSTITUTES 💀

And even for the Christian ones, when I told them that make up was ALWAYS depicted negatively in the Bible (Jezebel), they deflected and acted like the Bible stating that God didn't care about the appearances.... As if it was a pass to go against His word (loathing make up). Also it's important to note that when the Bible talks about God not caring about people's appearance, it's about stuff they had no control over (David and his age, Moses and his speech impeachment, or even Jesus looking very normal for being thee Son of God, etc.) NOT YOU AND YOUR NEED TO LOOK HOT BECAUSE OF YOUR PRIDEFUL NEED TO "LOOK GOOD".

In the pro vs anti tradfem discourse, I think both tradfem and radfem have some valid points. Radfem are right to point out how this "scene" is prone to attract abusive men, but they don't need to be unecessary smug with women wanting to be housewife, and acting like they FOR SURE were going to be raped and abused (and mocking them when they do). They really messed up when they clowned that tradfem who got financially abused by her husband, being like "that's what happens when you stop working for a man 😏"......when it turned out she never stopped working 💀 and let's not forget how ridiculous it is to act like you had to not work to be financially abused by your spouse...

That being said, some tradfem are very dumb and special cases of "not like other girls" pickmeism. I also hate when some tradfem who've been married for less than 2 years, without child or significant experience as a married couple, are lecturing radfem about hoooow great their life is and how perfeeeect their husband is. Young married couple in their honeymoon phase should be humble and stop lecturing others about marriage when they themselves have to face the trial of a long lasting marriage.

If anything, you should always seek for advice for people much older than you. 23 y.o tradfem giving marriage/relationship advice ain't shit - sorry not sorry. Instead, look out for 45 y.o housewives. Interestingly, those aren't the ones out there acting so smug under radfem posts 👀

The acting industry is EXTREMELY selective in any country. It's a very toxic scene and I wouldn't recommend any to try to make it into it if they want to keep their soul intact.

#answered #tradfem

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bluewinnerangel · 2 years

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#i do believe that tracklist and the anons info earlier in ginas and daisies inboxes are real/true #not that my 2 cents are even worth 2 cents but eh my blog my ramble #this isnt at anyone or a dig at anon or anyone posting and reblogging its just .. im just explainingi how im approaching this ig #like i understand the need to warn your fellow fandom babes i totally would myself if i was sitting on this intel again not a dig #im just not really into the brace yourselves prepare for the worst aspect here thats based on one persons interpretation of lyrics #and then anyone following is just getting lost in the (worm)woods (see what i did there harry) of multiple layers of censoring not to spoil #between the song -> anon and anon -> inbox and inbox -> posting its just.. anyone reading along is seeing a telephone game like #like even if theres no way around a blatant interpretation in anons eyes im still like.. there probably is this is harry theres no way hes #gonna have a song with one meaning. i mean two ghosts heavily alludes to being about taylor and were all chill with that one #you might say no no way now but before the album was out #with a few people hearing it and coming to the internet to spill their findings i very much believe that couldve been the same #(i wasnt there and this didnt happen afaik im just trying to put my point into perspective? does that make sense?)#were talking about passive aggressive satire self-mocking showing the irony of a situation harry absolutely no god damn way hes not shat on #whatever the on the nose interpretation is of something in some way around it #within it. through it. somehow.#or its not even the meaning to him he just doesnt even care it fits that narrative too and hes got his own meaning of it #im saying this because #i riled myself up before As It Was because some UA who will not be named but like we all know which one klsjlkjs was making clear they knew #and i felt like they were trying to warn us for the _stunt lyrics_ and then they happened and i was like.. eh is that all u got why #was it really necessary to prepare the larrie for this i dont think it was unless youre just jumping to conclusions here #about what these lyrics must be about becasue they dont not fit #anyway cant wait for more songs that ppl will make about his personal life while its another movie plot #matrix and psychic kids in sad home situations and whatever else he watched in quarantine #also at least 7 songs about love an sounding bs free hello ?#yeah so basically any warning im just taking as youre just warning me for your interpretation #which is valid. but not something that changes my anticipation for this album or however youd say that .. if that makes sense

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writingwithcolor · 3 years

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What Does Our "Motivations” PSA Mean?

@luminalalumini said:

I've been on your blog a lot and it has a lot of really insightful information, but I notice a theme with some of your answers where you ask the writer reaching out what their 'motivation for making a character a certain [race/religion/ethnicity/nationality] is' and it's discouraging to see, because it seems like you're automatically assigning the writer some sort of ulterior motive that must be sniffed out and identified before the writer can get any tips or guidance for their question. Can't the 'motive' simply be having/wanting to have diversity in one's work? Must there be an 'ulterior motive'? I can understand that there's a lot of stigma and stereotypes and bad influence that might lead to someone trynna add marginalized groups into their stories for wrong reasons, but people that have those bad intentions certainly won't be asking for advice on how to write good representation in the first place. Idk its just been something that seemed really discouraging to me to reach out myself, knowing i'll automatically be assigned ulterior motives that i don't have and will probably have to justify why i want to add diversity to my story as if i'm comitting some sort of crime. I don't expect you guys to change your blog or respond to this or even care all that much, I'm probably just ranting into a void. I'm just curious if theres any reason to this that I haven't realized exists I suppose. I don't want y'all to take this the wrong way because I do actually love and enjoy your blog's advice in spite of my dumb griping. Cheers :))

We assume this is in reference to the following PSA:

PSA to all of our users - Motivation Matters: This lack of clarity w/r to intent has been a general issue with many recent questions. Please remember that if you don’t explain your motivations and what you intend to communicate to your audience with your plot choices, character attributes, world-building etc., we cannot effectively advise you beyond the information you provide. We Are Not Mind Readers. If, when drafting these questions, you realize you can’t explain your motivations, that is likely a hint that you need to think more on the rationales for your narrative decisions. My recommendation is to read our archives and articles on similar topics for inspiration while you think. I will be attaching this PSA to all asks with similar issues until the volume of such questions declines.

We have answered this in three parts.

1. Of Paved Roads and Good Intentions

Allow me to give you a personal story, in solidarity towards your feelings:

When I began writing in South Asia as an outsider, specifically in the Kashmir and Lahore areas, I was doing it out of respect for the cultures I had grown up around. I did kathak dance, I grew up on immigrant-cooked North Indian food, my babysitters were Indian. I loved Mughal society, and every detail of learning about it just made me want more. The minute you told me fantasy could be outside of Europe, I hopped into the Mughal world with two feet. I was 13. I am now 28.

And had you asked me, as a teenager, what my motives were in giving my characters’ love interests blue or green eyes, one of them blond hair, my MC having red-tinted brown hair that was very emphasized, and a whole bunch of paler skinned people, I would have told you my motives were “to represent the diversity of the region.”

I’m sure readers of the blog will spot the really, really toxic and colourist tropes present in my choices. If you’re new here, then the summary is: giving brown people “unique” coloured eyes and hair that lines up with Eurocentric beauty standards is an orientalist trope that needs to be interrogated in your writing. And favouring pale skinned people is colourist, full stop.

Did that make me a bad person with super sneaky ulterior motives who wanted to write bad representation? No.

It made me an ignorant kid from the mostly-white suburbs who grew up with media that said brown people had to “look unique” (read: look as European as possible) to be considered valuable.

And this is where it is important to remember that motives can be pure as you want, but you were still taught all of the terrible stuff that is present in society. Which means you’re going to perpetuate it unless you stop and actually question what is under your conscious motive, and work to unlearn it. Work that will never be complete.

I know it sounds scary and judgemental (and it’s one of the reasons we allow people to ask to be anonymous, for people who are afraid). Honestly, I would’ve reacted much the same as a younger writer, had you told me I was perpetuating bad things. I was trying to do good and my motives were pure, after all! But after a few years, I realized that I had fallen short, and I had a lot more to learn in order for my motives to match my impact. Part of our job at WWC is to attempt to close that gap.

We aren’t giving judgement, when we ask questions about why you want to do certain things. We are asking you to look at the structural underpinnings of your mind and question why those traits felt natural together, and, more specifically, why those traits felt natural to give to a protagonist or other major character.

I still have blond, blue-eyed characters with sandy coloured skin. I still have green-eyed characters. Because teenage me was right, that is part of the region. But by interrogating my motive, I was able to devalue those traits within the narrative, and I stopped making those traits shorthand for “this is the person you should root for.”

It opened up room for me to be messier with my characters of colour, even the ones who my teenage self would have deemed “extra special.” Because the European-associated traits (pale hair, not-brown-eyes) stopped being special. After years of questioning, they started lining up with my motive of just being part of the diversity of the region.

Motive is important, both in the conscious and the subconscious. It’s not a judgement and it’s not assumed to be evil. It’s simply assumed to be unquestioned, so we ask that you question it and really examine your own biases.

~Mod Lesya

2. Motivations Aren't Always "Ulterior"

You can have a positive motivation or a neutral one or a negative one. Just wanting to have diversity only means your characters aren't all white and straight and cis and able-bodied -- it doesn't explain why you decided to make this specific character specifically bi and specifically Jewish (it me). Yes, sometimes it might be completely random! But it also might be "well, my crush is Costa Rican, so I gave the love interest the same background", or "I set it in X City where the predominant marginalized ethnicity is Y, so they are Y". Neither of these count as ulterior motives. But let's say for a second that you did accidentally catch yourself doing an "ulterior." Isn't that the point of the blog, to help you find those spots and clean them up?

Try thinking of it as “finding things that need adjusting” rather than “things that are bad” and it might get less scary to realize that we all do them, subconsciously. Representation that could use some work is often the product of subconscious bias, not deliberate misrepresentation, so there's every possibility that someone who wants to improve and do better didn't do it perfectly the first time.

--Shira

3. Dress-Making as a Metaphor

I want to echo Lesya’s sentiments here but also provide a more logistical perspective. If you check the rubber stamp guide here and the “Motivation matters” PSA above, you’ll notice that concerns with respect to asker motivation are for the purposes of providing the most relevant answer possible.

It is a lot like if someone walks into a dressmaker’s shop and asks for a blue dress/ suit (Back when getting custom-made clothes was more of a thing) . The seamstress/ tailor is likely to ask a wide variety of questions:

What material do you want the outfit to be made of?

Where do you plan to wear it?

What do you want to highlight?

How do you want to feel when you wear it?

Let’s say our theoretical customer is in England during the 1920s. A tartan walking dress/ flannel suit for the winter is not the same as a periwinkle, beaded, organza ensemble/ navy pinstripe for formal dress in the summer. When we ask for motivations, we are often asking for exactly that: the specific reasons for your inquiry so we may pinpoint the most pertinent information.

The consistent problem for many of the askers who receive the PSA is they haven’t even done the level of research necessary to know what they want to ask of us. It would be like if our English customer in the 1920s responded, “IDK, some kind of blue thing.” Even worse, WWC doesn’t have the luxury of the back-and-forth between a dressmaker and their clientele. If our asker doesn’t communicate all the information they need in mind at the time of submission, we can only say, “Well, I’m not sure if this is right, but here’s something. I hope it works, but if you had told us more, we could have done a more thorough job.”

Answering questions without context is hard, and asking for motivations, by which I mean the narratives, themes, character arcs and other literary devices that you are looking to incorporate, is the best way for us to help you, while also helping you to determine if your understanding of the problem will benefit from outside input. Because these asks are published with the goal of helping individuals with similar questions, the PSA also serves to prompt other users.

I note that asking questions is a skill, and we all start by asking the most basic questions (Not stupid questions, because to quote a dear professor, “There are no stupid questions.”). Unfortunately, WWC is not suited for the most basic questions. To this effect, we have a very helpful FAQ and archive as a starting point. Once you have used our website to answer the more basic questions, you are more ready to approach writing with diversity and decide when we can actually be of service. This is why we are so adamant that people read the FAQ. Yes, it helps us, but it also is there to save you time and spare you the ambiguity of not even knowing where to start.

The anxiety in your ask conveys to me a fear of being judged for asking questions. That fear is not something we can help you with, other than to wholeheartedly reassure you that we do not spend our unpaid, free time answering these questions in order to assume motives we can’t confirm or sit in judgment of our users who, as you say, are just trying to do better.

Yes, I am often frustrated when an asker’s question makes it clear they haven’t read the FAQ or archives. I’ve also been upset when uncivil commenters have indicated that my efforts and contributions are not worth their consideration. However, even the most tactless question has never made me think, “Ooh this person is such a naughty racist. Let me laugh at them for being a naughty racist. Let me shame them for being a naughty racist. Mwahaha.”

What kind of sad person has time for that?*

Racism is structural. It takes time to unlearn, especially if you’re in an environment that doesn’t facilitate that process to begin with. Our first priority is to help while also preserving our own boundaries and well-being. Though I am well aware of the levels of toxic gas-lighting and virtue signaling that can be found in various corners of online writing communities in the name of “progressivism*”, WWC is not that kind of space. This space is for discussions held in good faith: for us to understand each other better, rather than for one of us to “win” and another to “lose.”

Just as we have good faith that you are doing your best, we ask that you have faith that we are trying to do our best by you and the BIPOC communities we represent.

- Marika.

*If you are in any writing or social media circles that feed these anxieties or demonstrate these behaviors, I advise you to curtail your time with them and focus on your own growth. You will find, over time, that it is easier to think clearly when you are worrying less about trying to appease people who set the bar of approval so high just for the enjoyment of watching you jump. “Internet hygiene”, as I like to call it, begins with you and the boundaries you set with those you interact with online.

#PSAs #asker concerns #diversity #motivations in writing #writing with diversity #blog housekeeping #internet hygeine #asks #WWC

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shadeswift99 · 3 years

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I've been seeing a lot of new people around Hermitblr lately (and on this blog specifically), and it just occurred to me that some of you might not know just how many brilliant and talented Hermitcraft fans there are to follow! So, I've created this not-at-all-exhaustive list of blogs run by people who I respect and admire SO much for their creations and their good vibes. If you haven't already, go follow them! They are amazing, you won't regret it. (Also, feel free to reblog and add on to the list!)

@mleemwyvern - Fantastic AUs, fics, and art, especially centered around Team ZIT and special powers/weird game mechanics

@sleepyrinas - Creator of the False and Grian detective AU!! Amazing art and writing for that, go check it out you won't regret it

@betweenlands - Legendary. Co-author of the expansive and multiple-year-long 77-2 project, among other great fics and AUs. Occasional art, constant vaguely unsettling chaos! (In the BEST way possible)

@slimetek - Hermitcraft stimboards, all-around fun, and a writing production quality and sheer volume of words that will blow your mind. Check out any one of their fics, they are AMAZING.

@theres-an-impulstor-among-us - Perfectly selected clips, and more than enough expertly-crafted minifics to have you reading all the way into the morning

@impulstor - Amazing art for Hermitcraft and 3rd Life, and high-quality hilarious Hermit Among Us night liveblogging!

@hermette-historian - An absolute must-follow for any new Hermitcraft fan, especially ones who are interested in learning about the server's journey to the place where it is now. Witty and extremely dedicated commentary on Hermitcraft history, written so there's not a boring moment to be found!

@bat-connoisseur - Art that pops with colour in the best ways, and fics that do exactly the same!

@fluffy-papaya - A steady stream of expressive and fun sketches and comics, especially of Team ZIT!

@eexer-watches-hermitcraft - Really interesting and observant comments, quotes, and ideas about Hermitcraft in general, plus a good amount of Etho (no such thing as too much Etho!)

@12u3ie - The #1 place to experience the Joe Hills Difference is a Joe Hills stream. The #2 place to experience the Joe Hills Difference is Twelve's blog! Resident Joe expert, owner of some excellent and extensive OC lore, and overall certified nice person to be around.

@/joehills - Joe Hills

@netherite-sword - Hermitblr royalty as far as I'm concerned! The nicest tags and answers to asks this side of just about anywhere, and art and writing that are way way better than she'd ever admit. (Ooooo you want to follow Dawn Netheritesword so bad go go go -)

@plcklesontheseafloor - AMAZING Hermitcraft art, and also creates MC content of his own on YouTube! The style of both is just so soothing and amazing, you won't regret checking it out

@chaggle - THE ART. THE ART. I have no way of accurately describing just how good this Hermitcraft art is, you'll just have to go see for yourself, but I promise you it is GLORIOUS

@thatreallyminecraftsmygender - Zaph, another Hermitblr must-follow! Activity varies, but extremely cool analysis and general chill vibes can always been found here.

@stormjay0 - Very good and often hilarious Hermitcraft art, as well as a thriving MC YouTube channel! A very cool creator and person overall! (And also someone who still draws for season 6 and 7, if you're like me and not done thinking about that yet At All)

@redwinterrises - Amazing fic and regular (very good!!) text posts! A steady stream of 3rd Life and Hermitcraft content. I know almost everyone on this list is a must-follow in my books but...really, must-follow!

@ambered-glazed-sheep - Author of some of my favorite Hermitcraft fics, and owner of an art style I continue to be VERY jealous of. Plenty of Xisuma content! (Edit: HOW COULD I FORGET AMBER'S YOUTUBE she's an amazing Minecraft content creator too please go check her out!)

(I am certainly going to think of more that I've forgotten later, so I am 100% going to reblog at some point to add on to this!)

Yes, I just realized that almost all of these entries has at least one exclamation point...but hey, they really deserve it! Please go check them out, you won't regret it.

#I ALMOST DIRECTLY TAGGED MR JOSEPH BENEDICT HILLS IN THIS POST HOLY CRAP -#that took me so long to realize and fix it hElp #right. right. this is fine. i am calm. no heart attacks here.#(also sorry everyone else for the tag but you are all very cool and make good content)#i put joe in there mostly just for the 'HUH??' factor but yes. in case anyone was wondering. that is the actual joe hills #anyway! i may or may not have hit a spooky number recently followers-wise #so what i really want to say is 'go follow these people instead of me' lol #there are so many people out there who have been creating for way longer than me and make ABSOLUTELY QUALITY stuff #and are just generally amazing people #who for some reason get less credit than they really should even though their whole deal is spectacular #I'm just kinda sitting here doing things that make me happy and for some reason people keep showing up #and it would be an absolute shame not to point those people at some amazing creative minds who deserve so much appreciation #unfollow me! go follow them! /hj #this post is also VERY rebloggable if you so choose :D #have a great day everyone!#(okay on a re-read of those tags i should probably clarify that I'm not self-depricating here at all)#(I'm having a great time and loving what I make but I'm also just a person enjoying a thing i like y'know?)#(all of us are i think)#(and some people enjoy a thing they like by making absolutely stunning stuff in response to it and you deserve to know #about those people!!)#that's it that's all go forth and enjoy things :)#OH ALSO i keep making edits to this but! if you feel like you should be on this post and you're not it's because YOU SHOULD BE #I'm a derp and i forget things so i am going to reblog this later with more but! feel free to relentlessly self promote in reblogs #chances are I'll see your reblog and go OH THAT PERSON YEAH and remember i meant to add you anyway!

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nonbinarykai · 3 years

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Okay you know what, I’ve held this back far enough

Why I hate canon Kailor sm

Tw:// misogyny ment, incest ment

Im not gonna tag Kailor on this for obvious reasons plus this is kinda a long post, I don’t mind fanon Kailor mostly because tbh I don’t think it’s really a big thing and most I have seen of it is fine. Don’t read this if you like Kailor and don’t want to hear it bashed

Okay listen, s4 is my favorite season out of all ninjago, but if theres one thing I hate about it the most is Kailor. This ship has always been really annoying to me throughout the show, and I’ve hinted towards that in my blog. But why?

1. It’s basically jaya redone

Kailor brings nothing new or interesting to the table because honestly? It’s literally just the same dynamic as jaya. Socially awkward guy simps for usually unimpressed girl until she eventually caves in and they start dating.

Not only has this already been done before with jaya, but is also completely out of character for Kai to do.

While I admit seeing Kai as a flustered dork is kinda funny, once you realize the context of the situation that they’re in it’s pretty clear that Kai would never actually do this.

Reminder: Kai JUST found out his dead friend is alive and is forced to recognsizle with friends in order to get him back

Usually when Kai is presented in a situation like this, what he normally does is set himself dead first on the task at hand and usually ignores any distractions. He’s mostly distance and seemingly uncaring

((note this is after Zane died and Kai ran away from the ninja because of cole and jays bickering, knowing him he wouldn’t be the most excited to be back. His arc should have revolved around coming to terms with lost friendships due to death or distance but that never happens)).

What Kai DOESNT do is immediately fall head over heels for a girl he JUST meet to the point where even when he sees his DEAD FRIEND ALIVE AND WELL he completely ignores that for a girl he meet less then a week ago

This is something JAY would do, not KAI, Kai is a loyal friend who do anything to save his friends, he cherishes them and would fight god to help them with anything they need, he doesn’t forget them for someone new

It also does skylor unjustice as well, but we’ll get there when we get there

2. It adds nothing to the characters and is otherwise never mention again

You know how bad you fuck up a relationship if the best aspect of it is how it’s rarely on screen

Even considering the fact Kailor is just jayas dynamic, the connection between skylor and Kai feels completely non existent or one sided

Most of Kailor revolves around Kai simping for skylor

They have no common interests, common goals, they rarely actually talk outside of lloyds plan to overthrow chen

The whole relationship feels forced every time it’s brought up because of how disconnected they both are to eachother, Kai only likes skylor because she’s hot and that’s it, nothing else about her is actually interesting to Kai in anyway ((again sort out of character for him in this situation))

Skylor and Kai don’t form any genuine bond with eachother, it feels hallow and empty

Let’s compare this to lava, wait no that would be to easy, let’s compare this to pixane

Pixal and Zane both genuinely like and respect eachother, they both share bonds outside of being robots, they both care about eachother enough to know when they’re uncomfortable or need help

Kailor is barely mentioned past s4 and most of it in s4 is Kai being a creep

Oh yeah let’s get to that

3. It’s really really creepy

Im sorry I don’t find incest jokes funny ninjago, it’s just really uncomfortable and creepy

Hopefully this goes without saying but Kai thinking skylor is hot, figuring out they might be related and no longer finding her hot, and then finding out they aren’t and thinking she’s hot is really weird and creepy

Not to mention scenes like, Kai looking into her room without her knowledge or consent

Or Kai fighting people for her when it’s not necessary

Or him trying to impress her everytime he sees her

This isn’t cute or funny, it’s gross, privacy invading, and overall just very creepy and uncomfortable and most definitely not healthy

Again, this is REALLY out of character for Kai, Kai knows when to back off and respect people’s privacy

Literally the season before this he didn’t get involved in the love triangle probably because he knew that would make Nya’s situation worse

So for him to suddenly become this privacy evading perv is so grossly out of character for him and makes the whole relationship feel off and unhealthy

And finally

4. The whole thing is misogynistic

During this entire thing skylor doesn’t get a choice in the show once, she follows the commands of her dad before Kai tells her not to like her dad and follows his lead.

She doesn’t come to disliking her dad by her own thought, she was told to by Kai

She doesn’t get to do anything that SHE actually wants to do until LITERALLY the VERY END

She’s told by guys around her what she should do constantly, even without her being a love interest that’s just screams misogynistic to me ((Afab speaking anyways))

Everything about her character, down to the way she talks, who she’s allied with, and even sometimes how she looks is determined by male characters

Conclusion

If canon ships were shrek movies then kailor is easily shrek the third, a constant tired unfunny mess that caused everyone to think that these ships were shit ((to be fair Jaya is kinda bad to but at least it tired to get better))

There’s nothing redeeming about it to me, every time it’s viewed in a romantic setting it makes me groan or upset

What’s even more frustrating is how people constantly say lava can’t be canon because of it

Im going to go on a side tangent so you can just skip this part as it doesn’t add any actual substance to my argument

But it’s so frustrating to see people say that

Cole and Kai have had a much healthier relationship and would be a lot better for there characters

But no, this stupid misogynistic creepy ship where one side isn’t even consententing to it half the time is the one that has to stay canon because “it’s what the creators intended”

Lava isn’t the superior possibly canon relationship because it’s gay, it’s superior because it’s closer to a healthy working relationship in show then kailor has been ((fanon lava and kailor doesn’t count here because they’re isn’t any better fanon ship, Im just talking about in show))

But no it can’t be canon and it’s unfair for people to want it to be canon because tommy created this rlly shitty straight relationship for Kai instead

TLDR; fuck kailor

#ninjago #kai smith #ninjago kai #long post

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leafcabbage · 2 years

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💗 - mare nightmare-rivulets (hello btw hope ur doing good :D )

send a heart for unfiltered thoughts

nightmare rivulets!! for some reason i really vividly remember you sending an ask from your main blog and clarifying that it was you (or maybe the other way around??? i cant remember, i just remember that i didnt know that nightmare-rivulets was also ides of violets) and i had a "beyonce???" meme moments where i was like "ayo wait YOURE both people????" im not the smartest but i still read your username in the same inflection as the beyonce meme so theres a fun fact

anyway! youre just one of those people who i see on my dash and go "aw shit i hope they're doing well!!" like, im rooting for you, you deserve good things and all that. i think i have an inherent like, want to support anyone still in high school/in their teens because those years were very rough on me and i would not redo them for all of the money in ranboo's bank account and so im always like "ayo youve got this!! good on you for staying positive!!" which is the other thing, your positivity is always nice to see!! i dont know if you consider yourself an optimist but i DO consider myself one, and its nice to see other people out there being positive/optimistic because sometimes it feels like theres not a lot of that out there!! its very impressive to me that you are able to keep moving forward and see the best in things!!

also i gotta add you said somethin about hypomania earlier and as someone who has bipolar 2, i am, once again, rooting for you and hope youre doing alright!! sending you good brain vibes and all that. i also feel like youre the kind of person who likes tea which might be wrong but if you are i have this really good mango tea that i could recommend. this really do be just unfiltered thoughts i know thats the point but its weird being like oh yeah im just gonna post this

ANYWAY again. a lot of anyways. i just appreciate you! we dont talk but i love seeing your comments in my inbox it makes me very happy and you are a treasured mutual who i enjoy seeing on my dash!! i have no idea why i didnt follow you back earlier??? i genuinely thought i had at one point but apparently brain died disease.

yeah this feels really long so i am going to stop now but youre very cool!!! keep [whatever gender or nongendered term you are comfortable with]bossing!! high five and all that!!

#ask game #nightmare-rivulets #not fic #cabbage answers #i hope ANY of this makes sense

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what's the biggest life decision (you feel comfortable saying) that you've ever made? do you ever think about what would've happened if you hadn't made a certain choice/how it would've affected your life?

canofworms0 downloading tumblr. i know that sounds stupid but honestly its real. im not allowed to have anything else in regards to social media. not instagram, not twitter, not snapchat, not tik tok, nothing. my mother knows i have tumblr so i dont know why she doesnt make me delete it (but it might have to do with the fact she thinks its like deviant art or smth) but im so glad she doesnt. as social-media-addicted-teenager as this sounds without tumblr my life would fucking suk right now. i wouldnt have the things i do and i wouldnt be as happy. and i can give you examples.

lets go in order of events shall we :)

1. i downloaded tumblr some time last year (around may i think) and i immediately found a blog i liked! they were a 13yo like me they shared some of my interests and they seemed really cool! so i followed them. i dont know this blogs current @ but im so lucky i ever found them. a month or so later they posted about a server! it was a community server that they and some friends were in. i joined. thats where i met @starry-baby-katie and @gayishgothamite. and i love those dorks (affectionate)! we might not talk very offten but i think of them as people who are SO important to me. i love them with my whole soul and i dont know if my life would be as bright without them.

2. around 11/5 of last year i was scrolling through tumblr like usual. i saw an add for a server. at that point i was in maybe three servers on discord and didnt have many friends so i thought you know why not! its a mental health server and i wasnt in the best place maybe could benefit from it a bit. i joined and there were maybe 14 members including the mods. we didnt really think the server would go much of anywhere for a while and i honestly didnt interact much for a while but you know what. now that server is such a huge part of my life i dont think i would be here without it. i mean i love every last person there so much. literally all of them. @the-final-braincell bun bun is honestly one of the best people ive ever met. they’re funny and joyful and just the best to be around. talking to them always cheers me up and she always manages to make me laugh. were on the mod team together and she is such an important part of the team that we wouldnt run as smoothly as we do without her. i love them so so much and if i hadnt gotten tumblr? would never have met them. then theres @sir-tigerr. tiger. just. tiger. hes so amazing and i honestly would die for him. i love him so much and just talking to him can make my day. i wouldnt be as happy and the sever wouldnt be as fun without him. and @reallyradrat server owner :) sammy im so grateful for sammys existence just.. overall. they made the sever. they wrote the add post. and they’re such a good friend. i cant imagine not having them in my life they’ve made such a difference. so just... thank you <3 and @tiredconfusedandgay!! cub!! i love them!! theyre such a joy to be around and them being in the server is such a lucky thing! it wouldnt be as fun and bright of a place without them and they bring so much every time and i love seeing them in chat everyday. and with leo comes @canofworms0 baby child. anni is so amazing. just overall. so happy and funny and just an amazing person to be around and im so happy to have them in the server. @lentil-darling !!! kittycat!!! i love them!! they're so amazing and have helped me through things on more than one occasion and I'm so grateful for that and for them. they're such a good friend and i always have such a good time whenever we vc! its honestly something i look forward to! and speaking of VCs @gayest-unicorn is amazing. VCing with them is so fun and i hope we can do it more often. and on top of that just messaging them is great! and they're puns (ouns ;)/ij)? FANTASTIC! i hate puns by most means but whenever they crack a joke it makes my day 4000 times better. he's just amazing and i think he deserves the world. cant say enough praise to him :) so i low key have to speedrun this bc im running out of time to type this but all of these people also deserve the world and i wouldnt know them if it wasnt for tumblr @smoll-lightning-bug @totally-tater-tot @savemycrustysoul @a-broken-laptop @nantuckets-weaver @undead-mutt @hufflepuff-pide-honey-badger @human331279 and just so so many more whos @s i didnt get or couldnt find. i am so grateful to have in my life because of this server and that post. that post literally changed my life forever and i cant imagine my life without it and without these people

3. a few months went by and i made some mutuals and friends and whatnot. my at the time friend irl then made an account. i was really excited! why wouldnt i be! friend made account! awesome! but another thing about that? i had a crush on them.. and they could now see my account. but fuck it it was a great trade off. we spent a lot of time sending each other asks and messaging while in quarantine and it was just great. then i saw an ask game and i rebloged it. i realized this ask game said “♻ are we a qpp or what?” as one of the asks. now im a coward and i could NEVER have done this outside tumblr in anyway but i took the chance. i sent them the post and said “you should rb this! you have followers that would interact im sure” and so.. they did. i sent the ask and they said yes :) five months later and we’re still dating. whos this amazing person? that my friend would be @mossofthecosmos the most amazing person ive ever met. theyre the light of my life and if it werent for tumblr i would still be a blushy, semi-verbal, embarrassed, mess around them. and we wouldnt be dating. i cant even imagine what that would be like. i love them so much and they make every day wroth living for me and if it werent for tumblr, i wouldnt have that.

4. and ive made friends. so many of them. and i love them all so much! i dont talk to a few anymore but for the while we did they made my days and made me so happy. without tumblr i wouldnt have met @mimekyo or @books-andbiscuits who are both people that have made my life a brighter place!

okay so i cried writing this and i cried HARD

bottom line nonie? this question is so loaded it took me three hours to write an answer and a stupid amount of words that no one will read all the way through

i cant put it into words but this website is one of the best things that ever happened to me and i cant imagine life without it

#this was for the honesty hour and i dont think nonie wanted this much honesty akjfsdhasd #asks #anon #important #wholesome

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criptochecca · 2 years

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(wrt antifa/facist suicide post) I have really conflicting feelings on it that make me feel like I'm being pulled back and forth between literally wanting all fascists to fucking die but also feeling weird when anyone kills themselves 😕

like when it happens, I'm glad that they're gone and can't harm anyone else, but just kinda melancholy about suicide in general. i get a similar feeling anytime i hear about suicide that just feels kinda hollow (and honestly probably mostly stems from my personal history) it's an uncomfortable cognitive dissonance that I'm still trying to work through idk, but i have a wonderful therapist and, since I'm only 22, plenty of time to make impactful change in my way of thinking

also feel free not to respond to this or to delete it, I'm not trying to say your post didnt have a point because of my experience (part of why this is an ask and not a reply), i just thought about it again when I saw your post and felt like I needed to say it to someone so i could keep it from bouncing around my head (plus i find the whole conversation kinda interesting 🤗)

thanks for having anon on lol and the balls to call people out on their bullshit, following you (and other people/things obviously lmao) for the past few years has (subconsciously i think) helped me get into the habit of some casual forms of self reflection that I think have helped me a lot just in general

sorry this got kinda weird and sappy towards the end, but i do mean it so i felt like i should just go ahead and say it while i have the confidence to send an ask at all 🙃

i hope the rest of your day goes well!

hello anon :)

I'm gonna reply mostly because I wanna elaborate a little on what bothered me so much about this whole ordeal (putting this the disclaimer that i am very cynical and i dont think this guy actually killed himself but lets pretend he actually did)

I do think, despite everything, that everybody can change. Especially if they are still young. That said, when I think about fascists who made a 180 and became antifascists or even full out communists 98% of the examples that come to mind are people who grew up during fascist Italy and later joined the resistance or had something happen during their lives that changed the way they see the world (one example that comes to mind is Giulio Salierno, born in 36, who was a fascist during his teenae years, was jailed when he was 18 and in jail he read Marx with other inmates and became a communist).

But then, there is a HUGE difference between someone growing up in a fascist society, in a fascist school, later in life realizing fascism is bad and a 20 years old in the 2020s making an entire twitter blog on how Mussolini was actually a good guy and signing his *suicide letter* with "fascism will always live on*

But again, apart from that, what bothered me was how liberals were immediately jumping on the bandwagon of 1) deciding, completely arbitrarily, that this guy was just a naive teenager (again, 20/21 is obviously young but NOT *that* young) who was 100% groomed into becoming a fascist (how do you know that? how do you know that?) and 2) deciding that death is bad, always bad, doesn't matter who it happened to. And that to rejoice for the death of a fascist, a nazi, a racist, was actually even worse than being a fascist, a nazi a racist (there are also probably the same people who post daily the same meme of putin shooting himself but whatever)

Ok so, theres a young fascist and this young fascist decides to take his life, allegedly. Okay. Whatever. A part of me thinks that change is possible for anyone but also a part of me sees a guy talk good of the actions of Mussolini in Eritrea in 2022 and really does not care of what happens to them.

But it's this rethoric of "doesnt matter your belief, I will always support a fascist/a nazi/a racist because thats what good people do" abhorrent. This new generation "I will die to let you express your opinion" or whatever. I do not care about it, I do not care about the "right" of fascists to express their opinions. Like

this is not *twitter politics* this is a guy making an account just to revalue the life of Benito Mussolini. Idc.

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whatisgoingonpaul · 3 years

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My ideas of past David -

A ramble headcannon sort of thing , and images

So to anyone who knows me or follows this blog knows how much I talk about pre vampirism boys and the never to be prequel. How I made designs , redid designs for how I think they’d look and I have the revision au fic where I write them more as they were when human. I made a post on this a little bit how my past/human David would straight up be keifers charecter in young guns, that was purely from a appearance standpoint but now that I’ve seen the film... holy shit it’s just past David. Let me explain

Prequel-

So the prequel is 1906 San Francisco/ Santa Carla blah blah I talked about this way to much the script is flawed but I love the film(if you want the link I got it-). I think the scitpt is also very young guns inspired and was said to be as its a buncha young boys speaking in the “I don’t know nothin’” speak and stealing etc. Doc is David If he could actually shoot his fucking gun

Shoutout to David being the only one of them to have a weapon and he can’t shoot to LITERALLY save his life, the one time he can shoots it’s god damn Dracula and everyone dies because of it. Thanks David.

He’s a lot more gentle in the prequel and also a extreme softie to the point he falls in love so hard within 2-3 days he asks the lady to be his girl.

My idea on past David and how it kinda lines up -

I swear I never once knew of this film before I discovered it via mutrals a few days ago but I swear, appearance wise it’s how I see David. His hair is longer, naturally darker and it’s not like he has a place to shave so that too. Always a liking to leather and dramatic overcoats. These soft eyes that are somewhere between I’m sorry and I love you.

Human David I see as a lot more open to emotion, he has his boys and nothing else. He doesn’t want to live like he does but he has to , he’s sorry but hey what can you do? Them or us. There’s not really a choice in anything no matter how much he wants to push for it, he’s thinking for the other boys, constantly.. how they get out, how they keep more money then they have to steal etc. At the same time there’s a part of him who just wants to leave, somewhere, anywhere. He doesn’t have to kill anyone , thank god, so at least that part of his morals is not constantly put into question. Yet.

David and love had never been a simple thing, he is the kind of guy to tell you “ I love you” even if not in those words, from the moment uou first meet and he means it. He is one of those at first sight kind of people, give him a kind young woman or a cowboy and he is GONE. He’s had relationships and they all end horrifically for some reason or another and half the Time it’s not his fault like she’ll say I Love you but a earthquake happens that god damn moment levels of bad luck. They theres Micheal ... who fucking kills him so no luck for love even undead.

He is gentle yes, but he’s not so soft to the point he doesn’t have a brain. Like I said he’s always thinking and planning and worrying , for threats such as jail and gangs. He’s not above attitude, he’s sarcastic and petty and blunt, if he doesn’t like you... you will know.

Again it scares me how much Doc looks and acts like my idea of past David. So looks 100% gonna model... soft pretty boy smh. If I didn’t follow the 1906 idea I would still see David having been turned around the same time, maybe make him a little older and it having been in 1880s- 1890s? Who knows

should i do a ramble thing like this for the other boys?? Just headcannons and rambles about they were?

#the lost boys #lost boys 1987 #lost boys #tlb #david the lost boys #lost boys the beginning #lost boys prequel #young guns #doc scurlock

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ok i got the aesvic out of my system now time to pick apart the letter n why i wont really be following aesops diary exactly here. literally no one asked but i wanted to get my thoughts down somewhere cos i have. a lot

just gonna put a quick rundown of aesops diary entry as a refresher (mostly for myself so i dont miss anything): he dreamt that he was helping jerry with what was probably a murder n was affirmed n he thinks its a sign congratulating him on carrying out his duty. over the years, he carries out his duties as an undertaker n comes to the manor looking for a “fresh start” aka what sounds like his first victim. according to aesop, said victim should be quiet, n potential victim number 1 is victor. something about badly needing him to become his “silent friend” n he mentions he’ll get to wick n the 2 other survivors in due time, but for now he’s very eager to start his “mission”.

im generally okay with the letter (i have seen so many fights over this aha) cos there is no surprise he wants to kill ppl (ppl who r fighting over this point. did u even read his deductions?? guy happily killed his mentor??). but i didnt quite like the fact that he still looks up to jerry (although. i guess thats valid i just. dont like it). i was also initially kind of confused about the real reason why he would want to kill ppl since as u progress through the letter it sounds less like he kills for duty (cos of the whole dream thing at the start) but more “because i want to :)”, which is an okayish edgy kinda take imo. like not that u cant characterize aesop as Kill Kill Murder Die, but i kinda find that. pretty boring in the long term.

im just gonna put what my original take on aesop was, like all of it. first off, he hates jerry. u cannot tell me a psychotic serial killer like that can raise a child without emotional trauma. like any child, this isnt even counting the extra damage done because hes autistic. (n i also hc that aesop has read his moms letter to him at some point, n he should have come to the conclusion that it was somewhat also jerrys fault, whether through logic or denial that his mom would want to leave him, so that just adds to it.) but as much as he hates him, his teachings are the only ones hes been exposed to, n its been so ingrained in him since young so even if he hates jerry he would still subscribe to whatever twisted ideology jerry was feeding him, which ill get to in a sec.

going through his accessories, he has that origami that he folds for each of his clients, n it shows that underneath it all, aesop is still kind. this isnt expected of him n its definitely not part of his job scope as an embalmer. he (still?) has the heart to wish the best for those that have departed n takes the time n effort to fold one for each n every client he sends off, which is probably a lot. so going off on that, my hc is that jerry, being the manipulative asshole that he is (who probably definitely manipulated his mom into indirect suicide) probably used his kindness against him to make him believe that by murdering ppl he is helping them, framing all of his serial kills as a sort of mercy kill (like his mom). so the thing that aesop takes away from all this is the very twisted logic that by killing ppl he is helping them, therefore being a good embalmer and a good person in general. n everyone wants to be a sort of good person, or at least for aesop that is part of his job description to be a good embalmer. n we all know aesop is very serious about his job.

i also hc that he has killed several ppl between killing jerry n coming to the manor, cos i follow the story that he took the invitation from that poor lady n thats how he ended up at the manor. surely the lady didnt come to him right after jerry died?? but anyway, the way i see it is that he thought he liked to kill. like he finally truly understood why jerry kills so much (which is interesting now that i think about it. guy really just went along with all those murders without truly believing huh), because it felt good to kill. at least thats what he thought, the revelation that killing felt good n is good, but i say its because he hated jerry, n offing someone u kinda hate should probably feel pretty gucci. n its also so much easier to pick clients off the streets than in the manor, so i would think that he has killed ppl like his mentor did, but each time he did the great feeling that came with ending ppls life just. wasnt as good as the first time round. it just became a sort of normal satisfaction of a successful embalming.

this can go two ways: 1. he keeps on killing to try to find that great feeling again, which is cool i guess (n probably what canon would want, except canon states that he hasnt killed since jerry), but id like to go with 2. he just stops because jerry isnt around to enforce it whenever he isnt feeling up to psychoing someone to their death (which is probably how jerry got his victims, n damn if that doesnt take a lot of mind games that i dont think aesop has the mental capacity for since half of it is fighting with his social anxiety n other issues. dealing with alive strangers?? no thanks?? i doubt he would have learnt properly how to lure in clients as efficiently as jerry because of this, mostly cos he was only needed for the murder afterparty aka embalming n funerals). n as much as he stays professional, there is no. professional way of gaslighting someone to their death.

(n also since ppl have pointed out that his twitter replies n other kinda informal stuff have shown that aesop does have reverent respect for life, which also adds to him not being so blindly bloodthirsty as implied in the letter. i dont really see the twitter replies as very canon, but it does make sense that he would come to revere life with his unique take and obsession over death, for one cannot exist without the other)

so this leads me to the motive that aesop brings to the manor, at least how i see it. he isnt exactly coming to the manor to kill per se (like from the very early story, he came to the manor to return the letter to a relative of the deceased lady, something about respecting her last wishes. something like that, its really been a while since i saw that exerpt), so like killing ppl isnt his main purpose of visit. its more of hes always on the lookout for weaker (or at least those that take less mind games to kill) people to mercy kill, n it just so happens that he knows the manor n his mentor almost died from there, so theres a pretty good chance he can find some ppl that fall into this category n so it just so happens that he also has a job to do there. its still counted as a Job for him since no ones gonna tell him that embalmers dont actually. murder.

so in my version, aesop only tries to sway ppl that he knows he can convince, n these ppl would typically be those very sickly ones like his mom (andrew im looking at u) or those with an actual death wish/ very weak will to live. but here aesop is choosing his “first victim”, and the criteria for that is... quiet? never mind “not evading him” and “not cranky” being on the list too, but that isnt quite what i was expecting from someone so dedicated to their duty of murder. sure he wants an easy first kill, but like. i dont think its consistent if his motive was really to continue jerrys bastard legacy. especially when the next paragraph is essentially him gushing over victor, that... sort of implies something else. or at least in the way i see it, since i believe that canon wants us to think that aesop just really loves to kill.

aesop likes victor. very much so. so much till he wants to kill him. which i guess makes sense cos he likes death, n now he likes victor. so he just. puts the two things he likes together. whats better than victor? dead victor. anyway the rest of the letter is more like “whatever, i technically should kill the others too but my priority is victor” so like. he confuses his (dare i say) yandere tendencies with his duty since the end goal for both is a body in a coffin.

having said that. i know i have aesvic brainrot but i also know this is one sided as hell (at least from the letter alone, not counting the letter shaped cookies in his birthday art that apparently belonged to victors birthday cake aha) n lowkey alarming since. the goal is to kill victor. i kinda want to interpret it as him genuinely wanting to be friends with victor (really wanting him to be a “silent friend”, maybe cos he doesnt actually know how to be friends with living ppl n is better with dead ones? therefore victor should be dead to be friends?) but not knowing how to n throwing in his obsession with death ends up with. this minor disaster waiting to happen. but i uh. dont know if this is valid. its valid to me at least, with my original interpretation of aesop. n again cos of his ingrained professionalism, he also kinda sees this as part of his job to send ppl off, so its another plus. not for victor, tho.

idk if ill add this yandere side in my aesop. i mean my boi has technically tried to kill victor multiple times in the past HAHAHAHA. maybe like sometimes he can be a bit obsessive. as a treat. but generally nah cos thats definitely gonna end up in a murder somewhere somehow n i cant. just kill victors here on the ask blog scene lashjflkjhdlfkjhas

so yeah that kinda takes care of the last part of the letter, as for the first part. as much as aesop hates jerry, i would also think hes pretty starved for affirmation (like i said jerry isnt going to be a good parent figure ever) n i guess it makes sense if the only times jerry has ever complimented him was aiding him in his kills n hiding the evidence, which might (?) add to his desire to kill (but that probably dies with jerry aha). so the way i see it as aesop is getting affirmation n takes it as a good sign instead of. remotely liking jerry. idk if im stretching it a little but i really dont like the take where hes okay with jerry. anyway we are ignoring that he hasnt killed before entering the manor cos that doesnt quite make sense to me (i wasnt dreaming about the letter from a lady stabbed in the face 36 times or so right???? right???????)

im also not like. trying to defend him, im just trying to make sense of his diary. boi has issues n is a little too far gone (not as far as canon tho), in my take very deluded in his way of showing kindness. literally cool motive still murder (or in canon, just murder?), please get therapy. but i just dont really like the direction that the letter was originally trying to imply, with him really just hell bent on murder without like. a clear motive (at least to me it isnt very clear since the last part really doesnt sound consistent with his supposed intentions). i mean i love being edgy with aesop every now n then but i dont think it would make for meaningful characterizations in the long run so. ill still be sticking with my original take on aesop with maybe a bit of yandere for victor cos thats always fun

#unconcerned ramblings #mun rambles #its me the mun #im so sorry i talk so much. i was like Okay i should stop talking on my blog now. n then i didnt #i dont even know if this makes sense im still sleep deprived n tired as hell but i literally cant sleep cos this was bothering me so much #also cos i see a lot of ppl like. just nope the letter n somehow began to hate aesop after loving him as a character for so long. which is #interesting. cos this letter isnt exactly out of the blue. we been knew #just a few minor things that i disagree with. but generally i think it was an okay letter

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