#the pills people together

[phatcatphergus]

Molly: you bring people together Toby

#okay what if I cry #he’s the glue #the pills people together #oughhhhh #tubbo #molly melinks #tubathon day 31 #tubathon #tubbo liveblogging

[thejasontoddarchives]

Brothers in Blood will trick you into thinking it’s just a silly crack scenario brought to life and Jason just concocted this plan for shits and giggles. Then you get a single page like this:

Nightwing (1996-) #121

that reveals he wanted/desperately needed shreds of acceptance even if it was coated in layers of resentment irritation and doubt after going through this:

Batman (1940-) #650

And it had to be from someone who isn’t Bruce

#jason todd #dick grayson #dc #brothers in blood #look sometimes people need to find the least vulnerable way to be vulnerable and this was that #because the fact is he is vulnerable but the last time he revealed that without undercutting the moment with jokes and giggles #it turned out fabulously wrong for him #if he distracts Dick as much as possible so he'll never find out how much of a mess he is right now or what he actually wants #he can still get that confirmation that Dick cares about him without risking something happening that would be his second final straw #even the telegram where he finally sort of reveals what this was about by thanking Dick for still having his back he has to make it wacky #the ww3 comic that preludes this is even more fascinating #because I do think the cover art is ... impactful? #Jason's holding the Nightwing suit in one hand and the red hood helmet in the other and looking solemnly at his Robin suit glass case #granted it is the pill helmet but still. anyway #he’s doing this not long after Bruce slit his throat and prior to that told Alfred to keep the glass case as in the cave in uth #because meeting Jason again changed nothing and he might as well still be dead to him so that uber-tombstone stays #ofc Jason never heard that convo but it's clear he put the pieces together by himself now while looking at the case #and he’s stranded as to what he should do + silently devastated #because he knows now that he doesn’t matter (in the only way that does matter) to the one person who was the most important in his life #after his parents were gone #so then he decides to come to Dick with this because he really is the only other person who was in his life if only very briefly #anyway that was just my interpretation of that cover but how Jason is actually written in the story is just … off in many ways #but yea #this page and that ww3 cover did kinda solidify what his motivation was for the brothers in blood arc #it was good #if only the execution of everything else was better … The premise/foundation was there

[binghe-malewife-goals]

Jayce: It's so complicated, you know? I miss him so much but he's literally a murderer... did I even really know the real him?

Sqq: [married to a man who supposedly killed countless innocent people just to keep sqq's dead body from decaying for 5 years and insert other highly questionable things] Skill issue

#bingqiu #svsss #vikjayce #jayvik #i need to stop putting my fandoms together bc literally only 2 ppl in the world get anything im saying rn #also yes sqq does care that binghe u know. murdered people but also hes extremely binghe-pilled and has- #a million mental gymnastics and emotional detachment going on in his brain 24/7

[collgeruledzebra]

oh when the bachelor gets back to the capital or wherever he ends up now that thanatica is gone and cleans out that bag of his you KNOW the grit in the bottom is going to be capable of starting an entirely new epidemic

#even before that like he tries to dump it out on the desk and theres like. 20something assorted bullets. dirty bandages. a cracker. #however many letters crumpled to unreadability. a dozen assorted sharp objects he never got to trade to random street children. #one (1) flower. dented can of vegetables. bottle. bottle. bottle. bottle. bottle. #and then the very last he has to shake it and a fist sized pile of loose pills gunked together with unidentified blood from a broken vial #splodges out on top of all the rest #and he has to pay the cleaning fee for the hotel room #i just finished watching a playthrough of the route and this is all i can think about sorry #pathologic #danill dankovsky #original #side note how do people tend to refer to him it seems like every option i can think of is too formal or too familiar #like ive spent *mumbles* hours looking over this guys shoulder using his title seems a but much but also no WAY am i on first name terms #whatever. maybe ill make a separate post to ask people about that idk though

[adustoflove]

I love watching bpd gals on tik tok but it feels so unrelatable. Like you have enough money and resources to just constantly be in and out of mental hospitals then travel to 100 different countries and come home to your mansion 😭 why does EVERYTHING on tik tok feel unrelatable. Like how are you eating like this everyday? I only work 2 days a week but when I do work I am not attempting to make full planned healthy meals. If it fits in my mouth it goes in it

#personal #I need a high functioning bpd gal to watch or something #where are the gals who have never been to a mental hospital but are constantly going insane and wishing they were #but holding it all together with a paperclip because being percieved in a negative light makes their skin crawl #like if I could cut myself I'd have probably done it a few times but I live in fl with my grandma #I'd rather fucking DIE then have to explain myself about it. like actually . I don't have time to be a fuck up #but I wanna be a fuck up 😭 I wanna do drugs and slit my wrists and down a whole bottle of pills #I flirt with the idea of going absolutely bat shit insane. then I realize I will be percieved about it and die again on the inside #I don't see enough bpd rep where there's people genuinely barely holding it together behind the scenes while everyone thinks they're doing #great #I CONSTANTLY fool everyone #I told my friend the cuts on my arm were cat scratches and she was like yeah I figured you're not the kinda person who does that #yeah Youre so right 🩷

[shieldsurf]

out of the big 4 het/canon fairy tail pairings jerza is by Far the worst imo like. he needs to leave her alone i'm so serious and the fact that mashima wrote in a 7 year age gap for no reason is Not helping... erzas ass is NINETEEN the first time jellal makes an open pass at her i don't care that they used to be the same age it is fucking weird. gruvia is a close second though because while yes we objectify men here sir and i live to serve women juvia's creepiness is really just too much like at a certain point it starts to feel really gross and the fact that gray seems to fall for her by the end of the anime/manga just reeks of coercion. not even bringing up how genuinely awful juvia's character writing is she gets like 5 minutes of being interesting before getting instantly reduced to a creepy stan who completely revolves around gray and has less depth than the average bossfight of the week. i guess its equality that erza and mirajane are some of the best characters in this story (which is admittedly a low bar considering half of their personality is being subjected to the most voyeuristic shots possible) so mashima had to balance it out by making juvia one of the worst

#the other two pairings nalu and gajevy are honestly fine. i'm more pilled on gratsu and lucana or luli but gajevy is actually a decently #sweet redemption relationship if you forget that gajeel was genuinely the worst person alive in his villain arc before mashima decided to #fast track him to the most likable character in the show. #on top of that while gajeel and levy become a Unit pretty fast after tenrou island they do still have like #unique personalities and things about them that help them stand apart from the other. unlike juvia with gray. #nalu might not be my pairing of choice for either natsu or lucy or even my favorite big 4 pairing but it is pretty good. i really don't hav #any notes they have their own personalities and have chemistry. i think they're sweet together. they work fine. #the moral of the story is don't read or watch fairy tail it's just shittier one piece #tender age of 11 and it gave me incurable brain fungus and now i live in my wonderful little made up world where everyone in fairy tail is #gay and trans and the women aren't treated like meat half the time. this is my trash of choice and my defining character sin dont be like m #but if you're that curious read the manga the anime is insanely drawn out #and the animation is aaaawful #the only reason im watching it is as background noise for when i work #im gonna tag this as #fairy tail #for people who want to blacklist #in the future

[slocumjoe]

augustijn uses lots of Dutch terms as endearment for danse but his favorite one to use is spekkoek, which is a layered cake that originated from India, because "danse has layers but calling him ui (onion) would be weird," but doesn't think twice about calling his husband pork belly

#spekkoek literally means pork belly/bacon cake #gus also calls him snoepje #snoepje means candy/sweet in the noun form #but its also slang for ecstacy or any other pill-based drug. #im sure you can imagine why gus would use that in particular. comparing danse —someone he does a lot of dumb/questionable things for— #to a hallucinogenic. #yeah their relationship starts off really uuuhhhh codependent. but once theyre actually together theyve worked through their own shit #and are. actually stable people #ss; alter

[urmomsfavelesbian]

thoughts on them 💭

sorry this is the single cutest picture i’ve ever seen in my life maybe why do they look so HAPPY why do they look like angels why are they the prettiest girls in the world hmmm thoughts……willow’s so tiny 🥺 and they emcee their little show together because they have so much chemistry and they entertain a crowd so well and. looks at willow’s chest freckles looks at daya’s tooth gem sorry these aren’t thoughts i’ve been struck down by the prettiest girls in the world smiling at me like there’s nothing outside of their joy all my thoughts have been liquified

#my most beloveds in the whole world i adore them so terribly #not to say the combination of these two girls s*ved my l*fe or anything but #it’s not Not true 😅 #im gonna handcuff them together so they can’t be apart again #❤️people who send me willow asks❤️ #asks #daya’s little chill pill #ugh the #THEM

[girl-bateman]

I have been informed that House md “isn’t good for me” after being caught ugly crying to a House/Wilson mitski edit and my official recommendation is that I should watch family guy instead in order to preserve my mental health. 

#i wont watch family guy but i cant tell if its beacuse i hate or love myself too much #i simply know it is not in my character #but once i finish house it will definitely be because i hate myself and think i deserve watching wilson (redacted) #so yeah anyways :) #its so funny u can really tell when my meds arent in my system anymore #bc i was crying at something house related this morning (before i took my pills) #and now i was crying again when its midnight and my poorly regulated emotions decide to make an appearance #(bc the meds are out of my system again) #but to be fair the mitski edit was really fucking sad #'i bet on loosing dogs' oh really? oh really now? wilson is a loosing dog bc he dies?? and house cant help but bet on him #bc if not wilson who? #????? #what sadistic little gay prick (actually so close to saying a slur right here but i wont bc its not in my character) #would think of something so cruel??? #house and wilson??? tragedy?? death? mitski??? me dying in a fucking ditch??? #who would have the guts... the sadistic streak... the fucking audacity... to sit and edit that together #youd have to force yourself to listen to that fucking song over and over again while perfecting the cuts between different scenes #of miserable middle aged repressed dying gay people #and they say im mentally ill.. buddy whoever made that edit needs therapy more than i do #(but like yeah it was a good edit thanks for your service or whatever) #house md

[thesadboisguidetolife]

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#please ignore this as its just me needing to vent it out somewhere where it feels like i can be forgotten but #looking for a support group for people who've been in abusive relationships is fucking hard when you ID as a guy most of the time #i found a pretty big number of groups for women but very few options for men #and im not saying that its unfair or anything like that. this isnt one of those rants #but it would be nice to have a group of just Queer people who can come together and be there in group #so that at least it feels safe to vent and just......be. you know? #and what's more frustrating AF about it is that sooooo many of the incredible people (primarily women) who were kind enough #to teach me about feminism. would bring it to my attention that its not fair and that we should have a safe space #and they were infinitely more helpful than a single Red Pill misogynistic asshole bro or whatever tf they call themselves #idk. now im just rambling incoherently #i just.......want to vent the bullshit trauma so it stops bothering me so much in a safe space with people who understand #thats all i ask for and it sometimes feels impossible. 😕

[neko-chan-13]

Can we like, stop demonizing medication and saying it brings attention to your sickness??

Oh! I’m sorry if I need to take medicines with a meal and you know very well I don’t eat much, so now I feel terrible for a whole week! :^)

#I am so mad #It might just be me but someone taking pills in front of me is NOT an invitation to talk about their illness #you have pills to take while we eat together? cool. Hope they taste good and that you don’t choke on them! :) #People should mind their goddamned business #shut your word hole and let people who needs pills take them. #aled ;-;

[mechaseraph]

Okay I know Takao Noel for just 1 ep but already obsessed yes shocking guy who's recent sentai seasons favs are Zox and Jeramie

#let's take sfx pill together #4th team guy for both teams they not only forced to share but it's also against their will #if to judge from next ep pv nobody wants him and that's hilarious #french people be like that

[vse-kar-vem]

hihi vent post incoming (tldr im pretty sure everyone hates me and also im gonna fail all my exams)

#first off i did NOT end up studying! probable executive dysfunction went and got me again! i only managed to study a tiny but before and #now im procrastinating. again. killing myself ! 😁 im actually gonna fail rs tomorrow like who CARES about rs ofuhrkdkfkf it's bad. it's so #bad im in the trenches rn ..... #i can physically feeling my brain shriveling the longer i spend online maybe if i finish typing i can get it together and start fucking stu #dying!!!!!! #second this whole i keep posting things then immediately getting second thoughts and deleting 😭😭😭 like its so embarrassing on twitter #discord tumblr everything????? can i not talk to people in a calm and measured fashion???? WHY do i keep typos ???? i am so socially inept #it's not even funny. im sooo fucked #maybe i am a teen going through and it's the hormones making me overthjnk everything buttt #i want normal pills!!!! i dont wanna get diagnosed for anything i just wanna try some medication and see if it fixes me !!! please!!!!!!!! #i.actually need to study or im fucked #so #uh #yeah #id much rather fail rs than history cuz i like history so i have to be normal by tomorrow wish me liuck!!!!!!! #ok so maybe this ventpost is not sad and upset more overwhelmed and angy at myself. whatever! I SHOULDNT HAVE WASTED ALL OF LAST NIGHT #DRAWING FUKDHFKDKFK #wish i could just undo today cant lie 😭 taken a WALK at least instead of languishing but now its 10 pm and im running out of time #im continueing to waste time on tumblr ok no. i AM going to study #vee rambles #proofread this .... also typo ridden! im stupid and i cant speak english someone pulverize me ！ #also my bried venture onto twitter .... disastrous . i think i've turned many people from neutral or even positive about me to firmly #irritated. great! classic me fikejfldlflslmglslf < keysmash of anger

[massive-isopod]

sitting on all the art I've been drawing lately... I'm scared to post anything that isn't little joke doodles, it's been two years since I've posted anything but that. I want to share my art but I don't want to but I want to, get it?

#art #im sooo blue period Yatora Yaguchi 'I'm actually scared of drawing' pilled #I stopped posting due to AI but. It actually just caused me to stop drawing all together :( I've been in a long slump. #I've got a colouring ginger hair tips lined up but honestly I'm terrified of any potential flak for it kgjhdd #and I have ace attorney pieces to give to the good people but..... scary.... #spookfishposts

[drill-teeth-art]

Wow! Here’s something incredibly personal.

This is Good Bi Gender. A comic I made to express some feelings I have about my gender. I don’t really have that much else to say about it. Here it is.

[Image Description: A digital comic made with sharp, angular abstract lines and only the colors white, blue, pink, and black. The featured character is all white, except for facial features and hair colors, which changes from panel to panel. The comic reads: Cover Panel: The text "Good Bi Gender", the words colored with the trans flag. It shows a glitchy person's face, half pink and half blue. Panel 1: White text reads: "Hello. My name is apparently irrelevant. And my pronouns are he/him and she/her. But you can't call me she/her. And here's why." Someone with a half-pink and half-blue shirt looks to the side. One eye is covered with hair, and the other eye is pink while the iris is blue.

Panel 2: The character sits happily, imagining facial hair and a masculine voice. "I don't want top surgery. I love my chest. And I dream about being on testosterone someday soon." The character looks at a phone, frowning. The phone shows the male symbol with an "X" through it. Text next to it reads: “People don't seem to think that the features I dream of are very pretty though... Or they think even worse of them than that…”

Panel 3: The character’s features are all pink, and sits in a blank frame. The character reaches over to a blue frame, frowning. “I don't like the animosity. I really despise it.” A photo of the character shows an all-blue frame and blue hair, with pink outlines and facial features. “To be a boy... I aspire to be one. I aspire to be masculine in all its handsomeness. All its prettiness.” Panel 4: The character sits in an all blue panel, but reaches back out to the pink panel. “And I'm still a girl too. I was so excited to have both. To love both. To have handsome femininity. Beautiful masculinity.” The frames break and connect, and pink and blue swirl together. The character smiles in between the frames, with one pink eye and one blue eye. “So excited. And yet I get asked…”

Panel 5: Two hands hold out two different pills to the character, one blue and one pink. They ask “Male? or Female?” using the male and female symbols.The character, facial features an array of pink and blue, looks between the two hands, distressed. “It's both! I'm both! They're not opposites. Not narrow boxes. I say I'm both despite the insistence that I can't be. And I know what I look like. I know I look like a girl to most. I know that if I say people can call me she, that's all I will get from most. Because it's "easier". It "makes more sense". To have my masculinity, I am often forced to be unflinching in it and it alone. To never use she. Because if I don't, I will never get to have he.” [The words "she" and "he" are italicized.] Panel 6: Text reads: “I'm still very happy to be so comfortable in my identity. To know, despite all that, that I am indeed a boy and a girl and both. But you know. Telling people to only use he/him for me. Guarding my masculinity all just to have it. All at the expense of the part of me who is happily and unashamedly a girl.” The character cries from one pink eye, the other hidden. The character holds a pink girl in a sea of blue, the girl crying out. In the midst of the blue, text reads: “Well, it fucking breaks her heart.” End ID]

Edit: @starberry-skies wrote an ID for the comic, so I added it to the og post with its permission!

#transgender #trans artwork #original art #digital art #comic

[nimomo-mo]

vent

#i was hungry today so i think my appetite is coming back despite the pills #and im not sure if thats a good thing #i still cant focus so i mean. lol. lmao even #at least i cant make myself start tasks and my executive dysfunction is as bad as ever #now i have the issue of if i keep getting hungry like before im gonna gain weight again and i dont wanna #look theres nothing wrong with being fat or chubby and god knows im not aiming to be a stick figure but oh my god i dont want to gain weigh #i should work out and get fit like a normal human and that means i should eat right. but i still have that nagging feeling #i love myself. i do. i have the dissociation thing where i cant recognize myself in the mirror tho. and its not good this time. #usually i dont really mind since its like. you know like its not me anyway so what does it matter if that girl is fat or not #but im really self conscious and feel gross and i dont know why it all started back up again #i want to measure it. want to weigh myself. want to count calories and check with measuring tape #but i really shouldnt and i know that if i do i will trigger such a bad episode i might end up in the fucking hospital #i need to hold out until this episode goes away. i need to stand it all until i get my head back together. #i dont wanna get malnutrition or lose weight so fast my skin gets flappy #but every little thing i eat ends up nagging at the back of my head about how if i eat more ill get fat and noone will like me then #its not true. i know its not true. and i know fat people are gorgeous and i am already chubby so what does it matter #but i feel horrible. i dont want to look like this or feel like this or be like this #i want to be the best i can be. i want to reach my full potential. but its not exactly working. i swear to god i wanna love myself #i want to be loved. i want to be adored. i want to be the one someone picks even if the room is full of gorgeous and competent women #i want to be the first choice and for the person to see me as the most beautiful person in the world #to be the first choice and to be everything someone wants and needs. to be the ideal. to be the perfect one even with my flaws #i want someone to look at all the ugly sides of me and look at my fat and my emotional fuckery and my ugly crying and still love me #i want someone to love me so wholeheartedly i wont ever feel like theyd like someone else. that theyd pick someone else. that im not no.1 #i want to be that person you do a double take of. to be the one that people get jealous of. to be the spotlight. to be the prettiest one. #its egoistical and selfish and childish and mean and dumb and naive and self absorbed i know. i know that it is #but its still there and its embarrassing . but im not gonna pretend like i dont have these thoughts and feelings. #im not smart or pretty enough to stand out. i dont know what could make me special. i dont know what i do that makes me unique. #what am i? who am i? how do i get better? i want to be better. i want to be better i want to be better i want to be better #i want to reach a new level i want to reach their level i want to be at the top i want to be special i want to be better i want to be proud #i want to be genuinely proud and special and outstanding enough to not feel insecure or inferior anymore