#tbf its been 8 years since i read it

[sketchy--akechi]

I need to reread tsubasa. I read it in highschool and I could tell Shit Was Happening but I didn't Understand

it really do be like that, i don't think i could explain the ending to you if you held me at gunpoint

#tbf its been 8 years since i read it #but the urge to reread is strong... #txt #asks

[insanely-lovely-and-random]

Alrightyy saw Challengers for numero uno tonight and these are some thoughts/things that really got me the second time round!

*Thess are just my opinions the film can be read however anyone else wants

Okay so hear me out.. Tashi is such a dom, Art is such a sub and Patrick is such a switch and oooh it got me how at the beginning it felt like he was Arts dom, then he finds this girl he thinks is fantastic and maybe he thinks she could be the glue to bring him and Art and her all together BUT then it totally fricken backfires and instead he loses both. Art the little puppy he is starts wagging his tail in Zendayas direction and next thing ya know he's got a new owner and Patricks a thing of the past much to his palable distress. I mean christ boyos living in his car and starving, boys a mess since his lost his dom and sub poor boyo, so now various things I noticed some of which I feel back up my argument haha

Gosh theres so many little moments, Patricks thing for Art seems so obvious yet Art seems totally clueless.

1) Patrick is defos bi, not just because he just so is but also cause he matches with a guy on his dating app during his swiping.

2) The doubles match they play in the past? Gosh they're all over eachother! And Pats clearly in charge of that relationship and Art seems totally cool with that (for then anyways..)

3) When him and Art are watching Tashis game at the vert beginning Patrick grabs Arts leg in exhilaration. I mean he always seems to be touching or in the space of his boy for christs sake.

4) When Tashi mentions the fact Arts going to Stamford Patrick noticeably makes a face, you could say its because shes paying attention to Art instead of him or that hes upset because shes going to college instead of going profesh BUT I really didnt read it that way. To me it looked like he was upset Art was going to college, they've been together for years after all and now their splitting up, poor boyo.

5) When Zendaya asks if theres anything going on between then, Art laughs and says no BUT Patrick??? Science and he looks down, hell he wishes there was summat.

6) He taught Art to jerk off. Fucking hell.

7) There kiss man, all three of then and then just Art and Pat, just soo much chemistry.

8) When he reveals he slwpt with Zendaya to Art, and Arts smile drops. I think he's heartbroke at him sleeping with the girl he likes but I also see it as pain at being left out. These two people he's entwined with and now he's outside looking in. I also think If Patrick had seen that reaction he'd have seen a looot sooner that his relationship with Tashi might backfire greatly.

9) Patrick vsiting Stamford, first person he goes to see, his girlfriend maybe..? NOPE hes too busy chasing Art around the tennis court 😭

10) There's a ton of hot moments in this film. And the hottest? To me? That bloody stool grab with his foot. He wants Art close, he always bloody does! And the churros christ! And once again showing Art who's top so to speak, eating his churro, and telling him hes proud of his snakey behaviour. And that it makes his relationship with Zendaya hotter (I bloody bet it does) He never ever seems to show jealousy about Arts feelings for Zendaya, he points out thay he doesn't see him as competition to her not long after and I BET his doesn't. Cause I think he'd love it if Art was with him and Zendaya.

11) My God this bit gets be cause it gets echoed later. Him and Zendaya are making out and this girl who he's with and cares about is just talking bout his tennis game. And tbf what does he say?? "Weren't you gonna tell me bout Art" hells bells could you be more obvious?? And then the fight, he asks her if she's talking about tennis and her reply "I'm always talking about tennis" and I mention this cause it's gonna be relevant later.

12) The injury happens and everyone loses something. Zendaya has lost her career and ability to play tennis to her full potential. Art loses his best friend and Poor pathetic Patrick lost his bestfriend(and secret love) and his actual girlfriend all in one day!

From here on I cant guarantee my numbered points are in timeline order as the timline stated getting more out of sequence🤣

13) Zendaya and Art in the diner and after hearing Art and Pat dont talk no more saying she's a homewrecker after all. And what does Art say?? Zip. Nada. No denial just silence.

14) Okay lets talk that sauna scene. It was gloriously tragic. Patrick is clearly unaware why Art is THAT hostile towards him. I mean thinking of it from his point of view he'd have more reason to be angry considering the snakey girlfriend behaviour. But he never is angry at Art, not once no matter what he did. Of course we then discover Art is SO pissed cause he knows about Atlanta. Christ I bet pur stupid idiot boy Patrick thinks hes just being cleverly smug with that "when we were teenagers" line but idiot boyo your rubbing salt in the wounds 😭

15) still about the sauna, the naked trying to be top dog like old times but no no no, not anymore. Arts not his to be in charge of anymore. And the camera shows Art as higher while Patrick slouches nearby. Patrick asks him when he's so mad but doesn't get an answer. This scene was tragic to me, Patrick just seems hurt by Arts attitude. Art points out that they're no longer peers and I love this because thats the difference between the Zendaya/boys relationship and Arts and Pats. Pat may have been the dom so to speak with Art but he still saw them as peers. Zendaya doesn't. Thats the main difference in their relationships. Respect.

16) One of my fave damn parts of dialogue in the movie. (I really can't remember exact phrasing but this is how I rememeber it) Art is so sus of Pat, Pat asks him if he misses it, Art says he doesnt. And when Pat says he wasn't talking about tennis, Art says "Your always talking to me about tennis" and oof the punch to my gut that was. And it seemed to Patricks too! His face, this poor boy has twice been talking to the people he cares about, abou their relationship and they just say their talking about tennis, he cant catch a break😭

17) Pats reaction to Zendaya asking him to throw the game, is he offended for himself? Nopeee he's mad that she'd do that to Art. He says something along the lines of fucking him was one thing but to have Arts victory be a lie?? Gross, too far, too much of a betrayal.

18) For the third time, having just fucked Zendaya in the car and she just immediately brings up him throwing the match, like crimeny man this boy is probs sick of this game getting in the way of his relationships haha

19) Ooh that match point is glorious glorious cinema my friends. Patrick is so interesting in this whole match. Him deliberating on if he's gonna tell Art? So juicy and the way he did was fucking hilarious. That unspoken signal? Beauty.

20) Arts reaction? Wow oh wowww. The lad went through the five fricken stages of grief! The denial "fuck off!" the rage, throwing his racket, the bargaining, looking at Zendaya as if to say its not true (when she has no fucking clue what just happened). The depression, those sad sweaty tears 🥲 and then? That gorgeous smile, that acceptance. I think he felt catharsis, his marraige was clearly dysfunctional at this point and maybe knowing she cheated, knowing she'd threatened to leave if he lost, maybe that helped him let go of it. Ripped off the bandage, turned off life support, finally shake the pedestal he'd put his wife on( he compared her to jesus for christs sake). He made it through to the otherside and Patrick was there waiting for him with open arms ()iterally lol)

21) When Pat sees Arts smile? His own blossoms, clearly in relief and exaltation. I truly think he told him not to throw his game but to spur Art on. To finally unlock his potential. And to get the old Art he knew back and it bloody worked. That final back and forth, the pure energy, those sexual grunts all building up to a crescendo of a climax. Hooo boy

22) That goddamn brilliant leap in the air. Art is freed and flying, and Patrick doesn't hesitate he flings his racket to the floor because the thing that mattered to him most was never tennis. And he catches his boy with arms wide and then that embrace. They have finally come back together. It was beautiful. What does losing the match matter to Pat when he finally has his arms all over Art again just like he did in the beginning. We have come full circle.

Hahaha this is purely my own read into the movie and obvs mostly about the Patrick character and how I saw his actions. Now a few little bonus notes I noticed.

Nearly everything the boys eat/drink seems phallic, hotdogs, bananas, churros, even those drink bottles and cigarettes. Boyos are obsessed!

Zendaya on the rock at the beach was very little mermaid. Also in that scene when she said she wouldn't wanna get between em. Art said they didn't love together but Pat says "It's an open relationship" hecks you too obvious boy.

This movies so chock full of foreshadowing too, the story about Cat who got injured a week later. Patrick at Tashis party saying she'd have deals and a foundation which she does but via her relationship with Art instead just really cool script tbh

(Will probs add more when I remember em/see it for third time cause I am planning on that🤣🤣)

#challengers #challengers spoilers #challengers 2024 #challengers movie #movie list #zendaya #josh o'connor #mike faist #bisexual #the bi energy is strong #film #it's so long and such nonsense I just got a brain firing on cylinders for this film lmao

[quietbluejay]

Angel Exterminatus 8

this is funny to me perturabo who is the one abusing your sons perturabo look at me

typical fascism

you must be drowning in it

manifest destiny! take a shot! you know, the Americans said it was for their survival, too

this is actually a really interesting conversation

no, we're going to fight evil by doing more evil and creating the conditions in which evil flourishes

prayer, fasting, good works, etc have killed millions press x to doubt meanwhile you have killed billions by this point, probably, so even if we do want to evaluate it purely as a numbers game

I don't even think I need to provide the commentary here

BUT I WILL

and I'm gonna pull out the Solzhenitsyn too!

see the thing is prayer fasting etc are all primarily tools for fighting the evil within (insofar as they as used for fighting evil, they do have other purposes) the emperor is doing a classic "externalize the evil and paint a specific outsider group with the "evil" brush" the emperor just being like "we are the good guys thus by default everything we do in the pursuit of our goal is good, morally speaking"

“Gradually it was disclosed to me that the line separating good and evil passes not through states, nor between classes, nor between political parties either -- but right through every human heart -- and through all human hearts. This line shifts. Inside us, it oscillates with the years. And even within hearts overwhelmed by evil, one small bridgehead of good is retained. And even in the best of all hearts, there remains ... an unuprooted small corner of evil. Since then I have come to understand the truth of all the religions of the world: They struggle with the evil inside a human being (inside every human being). It is impossible to expel evil from the world in its entirety, but it is possible to constrict it within each person.”

There's the Solzhenitsyn for you.

I do actually have more but it really only makes sense in the context of the book as a whole so I'll save it to the end I could probably write an entire essay about this

when it comes to eye language, Perturabo is Jared, 19

it's…really weird there's this bit earlier where Perturabo thinks about Magnus in like a friendly fashion but then it's like "he didn't have friends or anyone he was close to, but Fulgrim was probably the closest thing" and then there's this here

ow i know i keep banging on and on about it but it's a repeated theme and motif in these books! that the entire thing was done with a consequentialist mindset but in the end all they had was means

And this did happen to Perturabo! He became the means he employed!

but also, this explains a lot about perturabo's progression through the great crusade i don't know if this is super well supported by the text, maybe I'm just going out on a limb but the feeling I'm getting is that a lot of why he was so bitter was because he did end up realizing that all they had was their means an endless array of them and that also plays a role in/contributes to him leaving all his designs unbuilt i don't think it's the only thing (behind his bitterness) but i definitely think it plays a role and honestly it feels much more important to him and fits in what i've seen of his character so far than being bitter due to being passed over for recognition, and being given the rough jobs which is what i see people say is the big reason for his bitterness like don't get me wrong i think that's playing a role, it's the cherry on top of the shit sundae but it's insult to injury rather than the injury itself okay tbf i haven't read any other perturabo books so maybe his characterization is different in the other ones?

"idealism and hope" we established at the beginning of the book that the iron warriors have been ground down by the constant war but yeah this is absolutely leading up to him ragequitting the siege of terra

perturabo makes an account on alternatehistory.com and manages in a record period of time to get banned oh boy Soulaka looking through the rescued third legion trying to help like ?????

RIP

also why is everyone weird about the four humours in like 3/4 of the books i've read

okay this is going to be an interesting exchange between fulgrim and perturabo popcorn.gif

#warhammer 40k #bluejay reads warhammer

[wander-wren]

i was trying to avoid spoilers under the assumption that i would Eventually getting around to reading tbc and asc, but im bored and i want to watch videos about them and i probably wont read them for a long time, so i went to the wiki to see whats up!

my official take on tbc is that the concepts seem very cool, but i cant say much about the execution or smaller details ofc. ashfur being the imposter feels like a really good choice, i dont know if thats controversial, i'm like 3 years late to all this lmao but i thought i saw some posts about him not making sense.

i mean, his connection to squilf and bramblestar alone...plus, yeah, he wasn't super into the code in life, but all of the events leading to his death WERE caused by codebreaking, and with leafpool especially going to starclan after inadvertently contributing to Ruining His Life, he might get mad about it? i kinda get it. also the whole concept of him possessing ashfur is so so horrifying and sad to me and has anyone written fic about this from squilf's pov???

also, ALSO, i skimmed a light in the mist plot summary bc i was still bored but it seemed cool. i dont remember if people were mad about that when i came out, just that it was Everywhere. kudos to the erins for actually carrying a plot through six books instead of splitting it in half for the first time since, like, tpb. po3 and oots dont count bc they didnt Have a plot.

but i was trying to think about why the new gen (arcs 6-8) arent as popular/getting much attention and why the fandom is slowly falling off post-oots. which, there are a lot of reasons, but this is one of the main ones i haven't seen anyone discuss yet (tbf, again, i was avoiding spoilers until literally today, so).

like, think about the new prophecy, power of three, and omen of the stars. they all happen VERY close together and are deeply intertwined. lionblaze and jayfeather even get to be pov characters for 2 arcs instead of one! and no pov characters die! except flametail but eh!

then we get to avos. we lose needletail, what, three books in? then violetshine literally becomes a mom to one of the broken code protags, and, again, only reading plot summaries, but she Never Came Up. neither did twigbranch. alderheart did some, mostly by virtue of being a medicine cat and therefore important to the plot.

and now, in the broken code, we've lost bristlefrost. i havent gotten to a starless clan yet, that's next, but i know flamepaw/nightheart is sparkpelt's kid, and sunbeam and frostpaw are the kids of random side characters (at least, they didnt stand out to me?). i'm not saying it's inherently bad that they're not connected to the previous protags (you could argue its a positive for sure), but it's contributing to this feeling of disconnection in the new books, i think.

i DONT think we should keep doing firekin as protags. i am perfectly happy putting that line to rest. but we introduced twig and violet and needletail, those are brand new bloodlines and focusing on them instead would be really really cool.

what you did the first time worked, erins! do that again! like. they had the opportunity to decimate the clans in oots and essentially start with a clean slate for avos/tbc/asc, but they chickened out. changes to the code shouldve been FIRST. new mains unrelated to firestar shouldve been FIRST.

actually, avos did have that potential. that was Good and Correct except for the part where there were no significant culture changes and too many tnp-era cats are still around. but like, okay, firekin! we like firekin! alderheart is my BOY. he is familiar, or related to familiarity. GOOD. he brings in needletail, twigbranch, and violetshine, so they feel connected to familiarity too, rather than just "heres some kids of cats you've never heard of. care about them."

and then they just. gave us bristlefrost and shadowsight. more firekin, woo. forget about twig and violet, oh and needletail is dead btw. i'm sure everyone has talked and talked about the tragedy of finally getting a she-cat who doesnt want kits but it's TWIGBRANCH. ugh.

anyway, yeah. all the protagonists for the first four arcs were interconnected and important to each other and i'm not getting that at all with the new arcs and i think thats why its hard for me and other fans to like, care.

plus also firestar and other fan favorites died and the prequels immediately came out and stalled the continuity for a while at just the right moment when a lot of fans were poised to lose interest. and then they did. and here we are.

this isn't what i meant to make a post on but i did! woo

#warrior cats #wren wrambles #avos #tbc #i was windering if i wanted to try to incorporate tbc into my rewrite #since i already know i want to do a version of avos #but haha no #avos is already hard bc of how i'm changing oots. tbc requires a specific version of the clans that just wont exist by the time i get there #which is cool. less work for me #i do appreciate the erins doing cool stuff we havent seen before tho re ghost fights and all that. its interesting #but a lot of the characters im just like. okay. and whyyy should i careee who you are #even bristlefrost is the kid of like #one of my all time faves. and yet. shes not really written like ivypool's kid that i can see? shes just kinda. bristlefrost. idk i didnt #read the books lmao #sighhhhhh

[rrxnjun]

OH MAN THATS JUST... but the fact that taking the the bus is slower AND u had to pay for it just smh i hope at least the company was good!!:o

U ARE JUST TOO NICE FOR SAYING THAT;-;💕💞wahhh i hope u get used to again!!!!!!💕💖

I WILL POSSIBLY LEAVE A REVIEW TOMORROW CUZ I HOPE I WILL FINALLY HAVE TIME TO READ IT!! SO EXCITED FOR IT!!! ahhh their songs are amazing so i'm not surprised u are inspired from them (and also like amazing songs inspiring amazing fics is just🤌🤌) THE YANGYANG BAND FIC WAS I THINK WHAT I READ FROM U AFTER FINDING LIEBESTRAUM AND WHEN I TELL U U BROUGHT BACK MY PARAMORE OBSESSION JUST CUZ OF THE TITLE!! ALSO VERY MUCH LOVED THAT FIC!! LIKE I STILL THINK OF IT A LOT AND I READ IT LIKE TWICE ALREADY🫣

and idk if u mean like genres or artists but other than k-pop i tend to listen to what's popular tbh💀(more so indie pop and hyper pop! but i'm just not very picky with the music i listen to tbh😟) and if u meant artist, rn i listen to a lot of lovejoy (WHICH I KNOW U LISTEN TO! UR KNEE DEEP AT ATP FIC WAS🤌🤌🤌and i was so surprised u know them tbh and also knowing wilbur soot in general i never expected seeing them in like "k-pop grounds" xd) beabadoobee, gracie abrams, aespa, the boyz, ericdoa and some hungarian artists!!! and i also feel like this is the time to mention the just saying fic as well cuz 5sos is🤌🤌🤌🤌🤌 like ur music taste just slaps tbh it's just sooooo good!!! and if u have any artist recommendations i would gladly accept them🫡(liebestraum anon💕)

THATS THE THING THE COMPANY WASNT EVEN GOOD BC MY CLASSMATES SUCK AT KEEPING UP W CONVERSATIONS EVEN MORE THAN ME IT WAS LEGIT A COMPLETELY SILENT JOURNEY TO UNI. I COULDVE WALKED AND LISTENED TO MY MUSIC INSTEAD THAT WOULDVE BEEN SO MUCH MORE ENJOYABLE

AAA definitely do leave a review even tho theres no pressure !!!! hope u like the fic 🤭💕💕

i love getting inspired by songs!!! thats why i usually have a playlist for each fic i write hhh its a part of my creative process at all times 🥰 AAA THE YANGYANG FIC IS ONE OF MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITES BECAUSE OF THE SONGS THAT INSPIRED IT. i fucking loooove paramore i grew up to their music 💕 but the fact that the whole fic was inspired by awsten and the fact that he used to be a guitar teacher is so funny to me sometimes i cant 😭

NO WAY U LIKE LOVEJOY WHAT ((the second to last scene in the yy fic was literally inspired by perfume and the "its 3:45 the taxi's not arrived i dont think that he's coming" line 😭😭) MY BIO IS LITERALLY A PERFUME LYRIC i love that song sm i dont think im ever changing it. tbf i was never into mc youtube and i just found a random wilbur edit on tiktok one day which led me to watching some of his and tommy's vlogs which led me to lovejoy AHAHA.

i do love aespa too🤭 i think nct and aespa are the only kpop artists i actively stan rn HAHA but i always wanted to check out beabadobee so maybe this is my sign 👀

U LIKE 5SOS TOO IM IN LOVE W YOU 😻 ive been a 5sos stan for like 8 years now and i wanted to write a fic inspired by just saying since like 2015 so im glad i finally got to it last year 😭😭 thank u for complimenting my music taste i take big pride in it actually😭😭😭😭 i dont really have many recs since u like most of my fav artists,, but i also really enjoy wallows, chase atlantic and the driver era too! i am also currently fighting with hyuck for the position of baekhyun's biggest fan but im severely losing 😔

also hungarian artists hm....ive never listened to any hungarian songs,, do u have any recs? 👀 also does that by any chance mean u are from hungary...?(its ok if u dont wanna tell me!! its just that if u are we might be neighbors LMAO)

#💌ask #liebestraum anon

[joshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]

Season in Review - Spring 2021

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Pretty Boy Detective Club

When this got announced I laughed at the title then I saw Nisioisin for original creator and Akiyuki Shinbo on direction and it went from being a total joke to like, one of my most anticipated shows of the season.

And yeah no it totally lived up to my unexpected hype. I don’t think I had any specific expectations other than hoping the dialogue was fun and it was visually interesting. It was both of those things to the max.

There’s just a lot of entertaining wit to all of the dialogue, especially since Mayumi Doujima – our perspective character – is a bit of a sassy fucking asshole, she’s a real treat to listen to. Strong vocal performance helps her too. Trust me to latch the most onto the one girl character in a show called Pretty Boy Detective Club, huh. Note that the boys are all pretty great too.

And then as for visuals, I really cannot even fucking begin to describe how amazing this show looks. It’s probably the most visually interesting and exciting anime I’ve ever seen? It depends on your tastes to a large extent – certainly the show is more impressive for art than animation even if that animation is still pretty great – but if you’re into shows that are as fucky and experimental and crazy as they can possibly be, finding new art styles every episode and with direction that’s constantly keeping you visually engaged, yeah this show’s for you.

And just to top that all off, the music is also absolutely amazing. There are so many memorable and fun tracks for every occasion and hearing these compositions is the absolute cherry on top of the rest of its strengths.

I don’t even feel like I have too much else to say tbf. The themes are fairly spelled out for us but they’re far from what I was enjoying the show for even if they’re still nice, the plots are generally always really creative and enjoyable even if I didn’t feel like they were worth that much as mysteries, and the last episode functioning as a soft recap was kinda disappointing – but again you fall in love with this show because it’s an audiovisual masterpiece and the rest if just cute bonus fluff for the hell of it.

Funimation’s subs for this show were abysmal so looking forward to rewatching whenever a good group picks it up.

Zombie Land Saga Revenge

Season fucking 2 baby!!!! It’s only been 3 years.

I haven’t read my original review of ZLS in ages and have no idea how it holds up at all, so while most of what I’m gonna say will probs be in relation to how this holds up against season 1 I have no idea if my season 1 thoughts are particularly well documented.

But anyway season 2 is both better and worse than season 1, wildin. Obviously looks a lot better, especially the CGI has had a great glowup, and a good amount of the songs are probably better than season 1 as well, idk I’m so exposed to s1’s music that it’s hard to say atm. Plus we have a clearer focus this season in theory, and particularly the last few episodes work really well compared to how season 1 approached its ending.

Guess the problem though is this season has quite a lot of fairly mid episodes? Episode 1 was a nice return to form but some moments down the line make it odd in retrospect; episode 2 was just kinda eh that didn’t do loads for anyone’s character, particularly its “focus” character Saki almost feels untouched in it; episode 3 is an okay setup episode but still eh; episode 5 doesn’t do a lot for Lily’s character despite being the focus; 8 and 9 are a Yuugiri “focus” arc that spends more time on some forgettable fucko than it does Yuugiri and what happened in them only needed an episode; and episode 10 is almost a recap out of nowhere? Like it’s not a recap but it almost just retells episode 1 from a very drawn out perspective that’s not in service of anything ig. Idk.

Most of those episodes were still at least good tbf tho and the season still has a lot of real banger episodes – 4 cemented Junko as my absolute favourite and had the best actual live show in the series; 6 was just hilarious and endearing as all fucking hell; 7 was probably the funniest episode of anime I’ve ever seen and did an excellent job introducing us to a brand new character, completely endearing us to her, and giving her a great sendoff that’s in service of the main cast as well; and then 11 and 12 are a really great end to the season that do well by every character.

Season 2 does a lot of work in service of making Saga itself feel like a very living place. Lots of season 1 minor characters return in different situations having had nice off-screen arcs and there are plenty of new faces that are instantly endearing as well – what Saga means to the people living there is actually explored which feels fucking great and I really appreciated being actually invested in their specific goal.

The whole “Revenge” part of the title was… meh. I like what they’re going for – give a clear narrative and thematic goal for the sake of the sequel season – though despite mentioning their EFS failure a bunch and how much they want their revenge, it feels kind of undercooked. Like, it’s mentioned but that’s it, it doesn’t really feel like it informs their actions much though. Not really bothered by it but it did feel a bit wasted.

Iffy on how indulgent in the supernatural this is getting. “Ever seen a zombie movie?” was enough for me – immortal old bartenders bringing back the dead and predicting disasters such as alien attacks is like… it’s not like I can’t suspend my disbelief or anything, guess I’m just too idolpilled? There was a s3 hook and I imagine it sold well so maybe I’d end up enjoying where it goes and eat my words here.

Guess a TL;DR really is just what I said near the start of both better and worse than season 1. Kinda disappointing since you obviously want a sequel to be even better, but happy to be able to say it’s not just straight up worse.

Junko best girl.

Odd Taxi

Pretty quick and easy show to sum up the appeal of. Odd Taxi sits within the ranks of such shows as Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood for being a narrative consisting of basically a massive interconnected web of different characters with different personalities and different motives interacting with one another and shaking up that entire web with every exchange and decision they make.

I actually don’t even feel like I have loads more to say than that. That description of what the show fundamentally is kind of just is the key appeal for me. Every single character is engaging to watch and they all have very realistic behaviours and reactions to everything that goes on. We get a pretty thorough understanding of who every individual in the show is and how they operate and how they influence one another even though half of them don’t even know each other.

It’s also very good as a mystery anime, obviously has loads of moving pieces to begin with and seeing and hearing people theorise throughout was satisfying. Probs will rewatch – potentially more than once – just to catch it all.

Episode about gacha guy was one of the best written things I’ve seen in anime. This show has pretty fucking godly dialogue but this episode especially, god damn.

When I saw Odokawa’s design I had no idea how Natsuki fucking Hanae would do such a character. Feel bad underestimating the dude – he killed it.

OP was cummable.

Ending is sorta eh? It’s a good end point for sort of the main plot and I think it does its big reveal moment well. But for lots of the characters it’s basically just “they have a happy ending now” even if it doesn’t feel like their arc reached that point. I still enjoyed it but I guess it was kind of underwhelming compared to the rest of the show.

Slime Taoshite 300-nen, Shiranai Uchi ni Level Max ni Nattemashita

Hence just Killing Slimes.­­­

I watched Spider Isekai for Aoi Yuuki. It was shit and disappointing and she wasn’t in it enough. This was looking to be my Aoi Yuuki fix to fill that void. It did so much more than that.

In terms of Aoi Yuuki I’ve got loads of her in here. She sings the OP and it’s great fun - I could never get enough of it. And beyond that she’s the protagonist – Azusa is a super endearing character with a mad respectable approach to life, she encourages everyone to commit as hard as possible to a good work-life balance, overexerting yourself is not a fucking option. Based. And of course she’s a treat to listen to. Not quite as chaotic or loud as I tend to favour from Aoi Yuuki but tbf this performance fits the show like a glove.

On that note this show is basically just Yuri Harem Family Iyashikei: The Animation. There are only girls, all the adults are very in love with each other, all the kids are just the most innocent adorable fuckers ever, it’s got a huge constantly expanding cast and I felt like I had a brand new favourite character every episode, it was fucking brilliant.

Tbh right, art style isn’t quite the cutest in the world. But the show’s overall tone and presentation and concept and vibe is so fucking adorable and happy and comfy and fun that the show feels cuter than it actually is? I’ve seen shows with cuter artwork than this that feel less cute anyway because they just don’t hit that vibe as well. It’s wild.

Btw don’t take what I just said as a slight against the visuals at all – this show actually has more than one choreographed fight scene with like, pretty fucking good animation. Again not the most impressive in the world but directed so well as to really feel the action and excitement – Azusa taking on like a dozen dragons actually gets to look fucking badass, it’s great.

I mean if feelgood yuri harem/family sounds appealing to you you’ve already seen and loved this show. If that’s not for you, get the fuck out my life.

Godzilla: S.P.

Despite enjoying all like, 2 other kaiju anime I’ve seen, I’m not really a kaiju guy at all. And I was initially gonna pass on this for that reason. Like, I don’t care about Godzilla lol.

However, the combination of a Bones and Orange production alongside primarily me seeing a visual with all the character designs persuaded me to give it a chance. Do not regret it whatsoever.

To get the execution of what drew me in out of the way – this show looks absolutely fucking fantastic. The art style is deceptively distinctive and extremely easy on the eyes + animates really well on the 2D front; and the 3D is as high quality as you’d expect from Orange – high quality models with really clean and natural animations that still befit the kaiju we’re seeing. I do think when you see the 2D and 3D in the same shot they don’t feel completely in the same environment – but the execution is still better than a lot of other shows and hey tbf you can blame it on the kaiju being otherworldly anyway lol. Also the character designs are just absolutely fucking amazing. Every single recurring character of which there are many has a very distinct design – sameface doesn’t exist – and so much is communicated about everyone via their design, they’re all hella aesthetically pleasing, just makes it a very lovely show to look at.

Then in terms of narrative and pretty much the remainder of the show feel since this is a very dialogue driven experience – the main thing I can say is the same comparison I use all the time. Have you ever found yourself reading wiki pages for stuff you know nothing about, or watching several YouTube videos for a topic you otherwise had no interest in? Going down a suggested videos rabbit hole and learning a whole bunch of shit you’d never learn otherwise but just these videos are so good in their presentation that you become engaged anyway? Yeah you forget or can’t even truly process the info because of how complicated it is, but you really enjoyed the ride anyway? That’s what watching this anime is like. The dialogue is so informed by a bunch of scientific – particularly theoretical physics – jargon that I never actually felt like I totally knew what was going on. And yet I loved every single second of everything I was watching regardless. You may not understand anything about this wild ride but it’s so fucking fun that who gives a shit? That’s what watching this show is like.

I genuinely don’t have much else to add lol. I watched this with Moyai fansubs and they were really high effort – since I know them from Mewkledreamy anyway I was excited to see how they’d manage this and they did swell.

Mei best girl.

I even found the kaiju shit genuinely cool, particularly when the titular big guy himself appears there are lots of really striking and memorable action shots. Cool time.

SSSS.Dynazenon

Hey our second kaiju show of the day! And some sort of loosely related Gridman follow-up too – that show was a completely unexpected treat for me so I was really looking forward to seeing what Dynazenon would have in store.

Right off the bat I want to clarify that I’ve not seen Gridman since it aired and didn’t rewatch at all so I can’t deny my memory being a little fuzzy, and everything I say in relation to it should be taken with a grain of salt.

So for our first Gridman comparison I’m not fully confident in – I think Dynazenon is probably better on average. I think Gridman reaches higher highs overall – particularly with regards to how Akane’s written – but it didn’t always use its time amazingly and could get pretty repetitive, alongside Yuta not being much of a character. Dynazenon opts for a more consistent tone and story structure; and with gradual status quo shifts and character development as well it puts great work into feeling as good on the last episode as it did the first.

Kind of the key area in which it’s beating Gridman for me as well as being a really strong show in general is in its character writing – Dynazenon has perhaps some of the most down to earth, relatable and human characters I’ve seen in anime. Every single recurring character (sans poor old Chise) is very thoroughly explored and extensive depth is given to their characterisation. We know exactly what makes everyone tick and what pushes them forward or holds them back. They’re all pretty damn flawed individuals but not even all of them want to improve – it’s really grounded despite the odd denpa atmosphere and uh, giant monster shit going on.

Helping said cast is what I’m just gonna describe as the best all around cast performance I have ever heard in a show. Every single word delivered by all these VAs for even the most minor characters is so specifically and carefully delivered and just feels so, intimate and human? Like you can fully feel everything going on in a character’s mind at the same time as whatever front they’re projecting just based on the strength of the deliveries alone. And it’s a genuinely constant feeling of this – it’s not a show with voice acting normal enough to not notice until the big explosive moments where you’re like “wow that was great” – it is literally 12 straight episodes of a show where you hold on to the sound of every single delivery because of how masterfully delivered they all are. I really can’t overstate how fucking fantastic these vocal performances are – it’s a really huge part as to what makes this show’s characters so fucking impressive. It’s gonna take a lot to surpass this for me.

I do think there are some areas in which Dynazenon needed improvement though – it kind of ends too quickly with some resolutions feeling sped up in a sense – particularly Chise’s arc basically just stops early on and then she’s given an ending anyway. And it’s a weird issue since like, the show could remedy it if it didn’t spend so much time just kinda doing repetitive mecha stuff. But I actually adore the repetitive mecha stuff – it’s a show for which the deliberate and slow pacing builds atmosphere really well. And yet it’s also at the expense of some arcs. I don’t want the show to change the pacing for those arcs but I don’t want those arcs to stop. Guess I just wanted a few more episodes, maybe?

I pretty much liked everything else, lots of “holy shit giant robots are cool” moments which are quite difficult to get out of me, music was really great, show as a whole has a real great style and episode 11 especially is beautiful, some other praises. Watch Dynazenon.

Super Cub

I kinda meme got excited for Super Cub in a server based off of nothing specific, though the very washed out colours of the PV had me curious about what sort of show Super Cub was going to be. I think I just expected “cute girls doing cute things but on motorbikes”. What I got was something so much more unique than that.

Super Cub is a very specific breed of iyashikei. The classical piano soundtrack is grand yet simple, the colours muted, dialogue exceptionally minimal. It’s lonely. Minimalistic. Devoid of gags. For much of its runtime Super Cub genuinely is just getting simple satisfaction from seeing a lonely girl find a small bit of happiness with her brand new Honda Super Cub.

It shouldn’t need to be said just based on the type of person I am, but yeah I was absolutely in love with this.  Super Cub is a show that finds so much comfort in solitude and to that end it’s an absolutely perfect show to just put on when you’re just vibing by yourself. You know, the shit I live for.

Super Cub also benefits from being a show where the gimmick of “colour coming back into my dull world” trope thing isn’t done horribly. Every show I’ve seen do that tries to always be the most beautiful colourful show ever and only shows the washed out stuff as like POV for its MC only whenever it’s relevant. Super Cub meanwhile is near permanently washed out and only gains more vibrant colours whenever Koguma is happy – sometimes it’s only just for a few seconds. Lots of thought and care goes into the direction and the vibe the show wants to convey, it’s really great.

Helping Super Cub further is that it’s not just Koguma the Adorable going on bike trips or whatever. Like it’s predominantly that but it works in service of giving her genuine character arcs – like the show actually has some 3 episode arc structures and I’d say for a good majority of the show those arcs are actually fantastic.

Where Super Cub starts to go a bit more wrong for me though unfortunately is with the introduction of Reiko. She’s kind of the opposite of what I loved about the show. She’s loud. Bombastic. Constantly quipping. Good for Koguma getting friends ig but it feels like the first 3 episodes were the start of the show being a 10/10 for me and Reiko being the start of that score going down. Despite this, the next 3 episodes are still really solid.

Where it goes even more wrong for me is with the introduction of girl 3 – Shii. Shii basically exists to shill some weird westaboo foodie café jokes and have someone simp for Koguma for no real reason. She’s genuinely annoying and since this is also the part of the show where Koguma turns into a bit of an asshole (which I don’t not like but she was better before so) by this point I’d felt like the Super Cub I fell in love with was being replaced with some kinda boring iyashikei full of café scenes. Shii also gives us the one straight up bad episode with episode 11 – which is melodramatic unrealistic tasteless garbage.

For all that though I do want to say that the majority of the show is just lovely OST, minimal dialogue, beautiful background art cute girls with great expressions and a really distinctive yet cute and appealing art style being iyashikei. What made Super Cub so special is lost tragically quickly, but most of why it’s still very good is retained for the bulk of its runtime. I wish it had been more consistent, but I’m very glad to say I’m still not disappointed by how Super Cub turned out.

Mini Dragon

Mini Dragon isn’t a thing that lends itself to too much discussion. Pretty much 60-ish second episodes of Maid Dragon – a show with kind of a skit structure anyway, so this doesn’t feel like too little time or anything.

What actually else do I say about this lol. I love Maid Dragon. This is Maid Dragon. It’s fantastic.

Shadows House

I’m not gonna lie – of everything that survived the great dropping of this season, this seemed to be the show that was hanging on by the thinnest thread. I found parts of the first 4 or 5 episodes interesting, and I like the vibe of the show – good visuals and music at all times with nice character designs too. But I was also pretty bored a lot of the time, and found myself only holding on because of faint hopes that it’d turn into some cool show about uncovering and dismantling a big corrupt system thing. I do like that type of thing so.

Fortunately from like episode 5 or 6 onwards – basically whenever the debut started and characters began taking direct action and actually being thrust directly into its systems, I started having fun. Cool mystery, cool character dynamics, cool reveals, the systems being propagated are realistic and not cartoonishly evil within the confines of the world and the young revolutionaries rising against it feel just in doing so as well.

I don’t actually have too much else to say about this show – it got off to a slow start hinting at greater potential, and then just worked to realise that potential in a fine way. It’s not the most impressive show in the world – like I’ve got it at 7/10 for a reason – but it sure was fun enough to convince me to keep watching in a season where I dropped the overwhelming majority of what I was watching. I’d say that’s pretty worthy of respect. I wouldn’t go out of my way to recommend it but if somebody asked if it’s worth watching I’d be very happy to tell them “yes”.

Emilico is cute.

Yakunara Mug Cup mo

I also got meme excited for this – except unlike Super Cub this show stayed a meme for its entire runtime.

Mug is bad in a really specific and fascinating way. It appears to be a cute girls doing cute things show – its gimmick being pottery to shill its town. But that couldn’t be farther from the truth. Mug is a sports slice of life drama and character study, - about a girl who gets into a hobby where everyone outclasses her and she’s constantly failing to live up to the expectations placed on her due to her prodigal mother, who’s long passed away. The person she most wants support from is her dad but he struggles to give it to her for the simple fact that she’s just not great at pottery. The support from her friends doesn’t do anything from her because she can see with her own eyes the skill difference between herself and them. It’s honestly a deeply tragic narrative. Other than the part where it’s uh, so fucking hard to care about lol.

Mug is boring beyond description, like other than the occasional really good shot and also that one episode where they dream some funky fantastical Japanese mythos shit, it’s basically only appealing in so far as viewing it as what I described above, that sports tragedy thing. But it still kinda wants to be a cute girls doing cute things show first? But the other girls are so forgettable and barely even have character traits. They just… exist.

I do think a combination of my meme hype for this show and the tragedy angle are what keep it as high as a 4 for me, but yeah no I wouldn’t recommend this unless you very specifically want to see something exactly like this.

Season 2 got announced the instant the show ended and you already know it’s in my Fall ptw lol.

Yuuki Yuuna wa Yuusha de Aru: Churutto

It’s Yuki Yuna chibi shorts.

80 second episodes.

Characters from across all the various Yuusha de Aru series – suffice to say as an anime only I did not know who anyone was.

Some VAs I really liked.

Jokes were actually okay sometimes, and hey episodes didn’t drag that much.

Still not really for me lol.

Mewkledreamy Mix

Man…

“oh yeah I loved season 1 I’d totally watch another year of this” I managed 6 episodes.

Mix is just boring. It’s not funny, it dials up the stock animation by tenfold, it also has a lower target age range by about a tenfold as well, Akki’s fucking annoying, my darling Yuni-sama was barely in it, I just found extremely little to appreciate here.

Fumetsu no Anata e

Yeah so I and lots of others were really looking forward to this because it’s by the Koe no Katachi manga originally and has a damn appealing sounding premise. Think I expected it to be a traveller show at some point but I did have the fact that it’s more arc-driven told to me in advance, so it’s not like I went in with the wrong expectations, but… it was just real fucking boring lol.

Made it 3 episodes in? I thought the first one was about the best possible execution of what a fairly standard first episode it was, but it was still kinda eh for me. Technically flawless but didn’t exactly grip me.

Next 2 episodes just kept that feeling up but with like 3 minutes of recap at the start of each episode, and being even less engaging than that already meh first episode was. I really was in “fuck anything that bores you” mood this season so just stopped wanting to put up with this.

Ijirinaide, Nagatoro-san

Tbh the one episode of this I watched was like, decently fun. I guess I’m the type of person that can enjoy seeing a kinky simp get bullied to shit by some asshole girl. Except I don’t think I’m enough of that to want to watch 12 episodes of said content.

People will move on from this show very quickly so fuck the culture currently surrounding it lol.

Hige wo Soru. Soshite Joshikousei wo Hirou.

I actually greatly enjoyed the 5 episodes of this I watched. It’s a refreshingly optimistic show that preaches self-love, self-respect, and recovery above all else, which are principles I can hardcore get behind, so I appreciated that a lot. Also main dude’s insistent on the fact that he’s not a good person and Sayu’s just had her standards warped by lots of bad people, and yeah I respect that humble normalcy of his as well.

Thing is I kinda think I got all the good I was going to get out of the show at that point – everything I liked was already happening and how thy were going about that didn’t seem to be changing. But they set up a love triangle! And I fucking hate those. So basically just dropped because yeah, don’t need to see more of the good, don’t enjoy what I’m already expecting to be bad.

86

God tryna remember how I felt about this show even.

I finished episode 1 and basically decided that nothing that it was setting up or doing interested me even remotely, I guess?

Also they tried to make MC moe and have her uwu anime girl uwu moments which felt real tonally jarring from what seemed to want to be a serious military drama with some real basic allegories huh.

Found it dumb that MC was the one and only not racist person in this city wow.

Everyone having white hair got me a bit excited though.

Vivy: Fluorite Eye’s Song

Yeah I made it 5 episodes into this?

It was doing a setup episode -> payoff episode structure I got bored of real fucking quickly. I forgot details from setup episodes and then had zero interest in any of the happenings in payoff episodes so, really was nothing for me there.

Also found Vivy and her teddy’s dynamic unbearable, they have zero chemistry or banter, she hardly feels like she’s even talking to him, there’s some timeskip real early on that glosses over some interesting things this show could be doing, and apparently a recent thing happened that basically cancelled out everything the show already did so by god am I glad I dropped lol.

Dialogue wasn’t very good but I’m glad the bear spoke quick enough to not test my patience that much.

The animation is pretty great and the pretty shots are real pretty, but tbh the pretty shots worked against the show because they’re just so high detail compared to the normal look of the show that it becomes fucking jarring.

I don’t remember anything else worth saying.

Osananajimi ga Zettai ni Makenai Love Comedy

Made it 5 minutes into this. It was painfully bland and uninspired. I hated it.

Mars Red

Yeah so episode 1 of this show, right. Was fucking brilliant. Just a masterfully directed tonally excellent visually distinctive and appealing piece with fantastic voice acting and a really top tier execution on a seemingly standard premise. Other than that one vampire boy being real generic and dull I had zero problems with this episode and was thoroughly impressed. If it was just that it’d have been like an 8 or even a 9 out of 10. Realise that was just a bunch of positive adjectives in a row but like, man I enjoyed that first episode a lot.

Episode 2 was probably the hardest episode to finish of anything this season. I wasn’t even tired when I started watching it yet it nearly put me to sleep several times, like I was fucking fighting to stay awake during it. It was nightmarishly boring and a gigantic disappointment after how much I loved the first episode. Pretty easy drop then.

Jouran: The Princess of Snow and Blood

Dropped after 2 episodes.

Tbh was really looking forward to this because it looks cool as fuck and also all the Raise A Suilen involvement, but me oh my this show was hard to watch.

Tbh it kinda felt like starting a 24 episode show from episode 13. The show acts as though everything’s already been established and we already know what’s going on, so we should appropriately be surprised at all these twists and turns and double agents and whatnot. But we just don’t.

There are a lot of shows that are very much fully indulgent in their own world, and it can work out for the better. This was not such a case.

Sayounara Watashi no Cramer

Well documented fact about me is that I fucking hate Your lie in April with a passion and it is uncontested in its position as the worst anime I’ve ever seen. Cramer comes close!

So yeah naturally hating YliA so much I tried to hatewatch Cramer as well – I mean hey it has my literal first and second favourite seiyuu as its lead characters, that’s at least something?

I think in the 2 episodes of Cramer I watched it managed to do literally zero things well and literally everything else at just about the worst level imaginable, holy shit. It’s transcendentally bad at everything to a degree to where I’m at a loss for words in even describing it.

TL;DR one of the worst things I’ve ever had the misfortune of watching and not even funny bad enough to get beyond episode 2.

Blue Reflection Ray

I was excited for this because of magical girls but it was boring and ugly :(

Half-respect this show anyway, primarily because I have a friend who likes it but I also feel like it definitely feels like something from a different era without necessarily feeling dated? Like there was risk in letting this show happen but staff wanted to make it happen anyway.

Didn’t pay off because nobody in the west cares and nobody in Japan cares and the BD’s production has been cancelled which isn’t something you hear every day.

Tbh I could hypothetically see me picking this up again, if only for that one friend, but yeah nothing about it compelled me to enjoy it.

Anyway yeah that’s anime so

Anime of the Season - Pretty Boy Detective Club

Feel like I said just about everything I love about this show so, yeah.

Girl of the Season - Mayumi Doujima

Actually kinda tough choosing between her and Koguma but Mayumi’s a lot more likeable for a lot more of the show so.

Boy of the Season - Hiroshi Odokawa

Tbh I like him for similar reasons as I do Mayumi - it’s the wit, the demeanour, though in his case he’s like 40 and jaded and cynical. Both are fun all the same.

Anyway that’s it! My Season in Review for Spring! Took longer to make than any other oops, not for any specific reason other than just me taking my sweet time lol. Hope y’all enjoy the read uwu.

#season in review #pretty boy detective club #zombieland saga #odd taxi #killing slimes #godzilla #gridman #super cub #maid dragon #shadows house #mug cup #yuki yuna #mewkledreamy #86 #blue reflection #cramer #fumetsu no anata e #jouran #mars red #nagatoro-san #osamake #vivy #21.8.21

[prosopopeya]

Fic Writer Questions

from @clarrisani !!!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

on ao3 i have 28. tbf though i never transferred over a bunch of my stuff from lj back in the day.

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

176,571

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

11 listed on ao3. shout out though to house, which i wrote a bunch for but it never made it to ao3, and likely never will, and also to sherlock holmes which i wrote some fic for but more significantly, spend 2 years roleplaying. also if we want to get real nostalgic, the hits from my ffn days included such fandoms as lizzie mcguire, buffy, star trek voyager, monk, and of course, labyrinth.

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Inevitable Homoeroticism in Spanish Romantic Heroes: my dean is a hispanist, grad school au. written bc at the time i was reading so many college aus and going you know what. you know what this fandom needs. and also i need therapy and instead i will write this fic.

i’m so glad it was and still is well received, and until this year’s dcbb, i thought i’d never write something as personally significant as this ever again. i’m happy to be adding something else to that list shortly (and hope it’s as well liked!).

as a sidenote, this fic was requested by and heavily cheerleaded by a friend of mine who has since passed away, and i will always think of jaymee when i think of this fic.

Like Real People Do: my impulse-written, kneejerk reaction to cas’s confession in 15x18. i wanted cas to have a chance to process his feelings separate from dean and also i wanted to push back on the notion that he was happy just saying it bc maybe after all he wants dean to love him back. it’s fitting that it comes after the grad school au in this list bc it was my return to fandom. also a rare example of me writing cas pov. (soon to not be so rare.)

Flying in Circles Inside a Jar: a s5 era fic where dean and cas get together in a roundabout way. god this was written so long ago and there are parts of it i want to change, but overall i’m still proud of a lot of moments in this fic. some good dialogue in here.

Command Me to Be Well: my angstier entry into my s15 fix-its. dean decides that he will let him and cas have sex but they can’t have feelings about it. this got way more popular than i thought it would, and it took me forever to write it, but it was definitely proof to me that i could come back to writing bc i had to edit this fic a bunch, and i was always horrible at editing. but i have better meds now yay!

fourth place is technically the codas to the grad school au, which also have some good moments but also the last coda i wrote makes me cry when i think about it still. but bc it’s part of the same universe i’m going to add:

Some Boys are Sleeping Alone: another early days fic ft. dean coming to terms with his sexuality and how it was affected by his father among other things throughout his life. this has essentially become the backbone to my conception of dean’s sexuality in canon. it ends sad! plot twist for me these days.

what i love about this list, looking at it now, is that it’s a healthy mix of my old stuff and my new stuff, and overall represents well my themes of dean’s bisexual journey and several examples of cas standing up for himself, though s4/s5 cas was just like that.

5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

i didn’t back in the day so much bc, you know, grad school, i was busy. i’ve been trying to since i got back into writing but have been staring at my inbox of things i need to reply to for like three months. i will do it at some point!

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

god i don’t know. i wrote so much angstier stuff back in the day. i don’t really want to re-peruse all the random stuff on my ao3 but here’s one that sticks out to me even still: the au that has quinn fabray from glee in a sham marriage with jason mcconnell from bare: a pop opera and no one is happy. no one asked for this fic but i had many feelings about it.

7) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

these days most of my fics end happy, but the one that still has me tear up at the end is the fluff entry i wrote for dean’s birthday: through autumn’s advancing. it’s jody that always gets me. jody hugging and murmuring a goodbye to dean, and then dean watching as she hugs and whispers something to cas. i don’t know what she’s saying but her embracing cas just gets me every time.

8) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

oh boy. back in the day, i would write just about anything anyone asked of me, and i prided myself on selling the wildest concepts imaginable. my lj contains a multitude of shames, but on ao3 probably the wildest is supernatural/my little pony: friendship is magic. here’s another example of me writing cas as he bonds with fluttershy.

9) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

i don’t... think so?

10) Do you write smut? If so what kind?

boy do i! uh the naked kind?? idk my approach to sex scenes is to try to capture realism but in the emotional sense. usually there’s a fun amount of dialogue. some amount of significance beyond just the act itself. i think my big thing is still representing the characters as themselves, in character.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i’m aware of.

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

i don’t think so?!

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

this dcbb is essentially being like executive produced by @marbleflan. but there may be a more explicitly co-written fic coming up. :) :) :)

14) What’s your all time favorite ship?

dean/cas, hands down. nothing will ever compare to the absolute insanity of the way they happened in this television show.

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

i started a dean/benny/cas purgatory fic that i want to get back to one day... also my fic with ghost!kevin teaming up with human blood!crowley and human!cas.

16) What are your writing strengths?

i’d like to think it’s capturing the feel of the character and staying ic. that’s my #1 goal always and the best comment i could ever receive. i like my dialogue too.

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

plot. i can’t plot to save my life. also editing. also inventing any original character is an absolute blindspot of mine.

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

well i mean. i have. done that. my bilingual experience involves some weaving in and out of a language in conversation, usually mid-sentence or once you hit a word you either can’t think of in one language or feels better in another. or filler words/phrases like well, or let’s go.

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

gosh. probably lizzie mcguire.

20) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

the grad school au will always hold a special place in my heart. but i also really love this one i wrote that was a love letter to the virginia state fair, which i went to like every year when i was a kid and still hold a lot of nostalgia and love for in my heart. i really want to retool that one. there are some things i want to change about it, you know, almost ten years later.

@ anyone who wants to do this thing!!!!!!!

[thatiranianphantom]

I've read your take on the new season. I do believe that Betty and Jughead will eventually be back together, but it seems it will take a while. B*rchie will be explored and Jughead will apparently date Tabitha. Do you think the writers could wait until the end of the season to reunite Bughead?

Thank you for sending me this! I purposely left it till the end because this may get long. 

I made that post awhile ago, and I am still basically sticking to it, but some small things have changed. First of all, when did we hear that Jughead will date Tabitha? You may be right but I’d also be skeptical. Jughead’s romantic plate is a bit full. Actually, his plate, in general, is quite full with the season’s mystery and both Betty and Jessica. We know Riverdale doesn’t delegate well, and it doesn’t stop to take a breath in between plotlines. This has been accused of being the Jughead Jones show, but the reality is we can’t spend the entire time on Jughead and he's already quite busy. 

As to where the season will go, my guess is the following, accompanied by gifs from Dr. Horrible:

☞ The first episode, it has been said, is not bughead-heavy. The bed scene isn’t in this episode and it features very little prom. Likely, what happens here is Veronica sings Archie’s song and she finds out about the kiss. 

☞ In 5x02 and 5x03, they reveal the (*deep sigh*) auteur. It’s likely Charles and/or Chic, because Wyatt Nash’s last filmed episodes were these two. Likely, Jughead finds out here, and it is where the bed scene occurs. This is also when Bret comes back and I am hype. I literally cannot wait to see him stare longingly at Jughead again. I want to see the shrine to Jughead we all know Bret has, or the lock of Jughead’s hair that Bret strokes lovingly every night. Sean Depner, the love of my life, would agree with this. FP leaves in this episode, and what I’m getting is that he has carte blanche to come back, and he and Alice will probably not break up. Best for everyone. Can’t imagine Skeet’s phone is ringing off the hook. My money, frankly, is on Varchie breaking up here, but Bughead staying together. They will time jump at the end after graduation, so you’ll likely see a few minutes at the end of 5x03 that take place after the time jump. Long-ponytail Betty is likely from here, and we will see Jughead with someone who is *gasp* not Betty. 

☞ I would guess that 5x04 is all setup. They will introduce us to where the Core 4 are seven years later. Jughead’s (ex?) girlfriend, Veronica’s husband, Archie in the army, Betty working for the FBI. Exposition all over the place. TBF, I am oddly excited for this episode. I want to see adult Core 4. I think, despite how fast Riverdale moves through things, setup is needed here. They’re putting the show in a completely different place. That needs some time. Jughead is apparently an alcoholic now? Awesome. I am sure they’ll handle that with all the sensitivity they do everything with. 

They’d be called back to Riverdale (maybe Jughead and Toni are still there?) at the end of this episode. I swear to god Riverdale, if you tell me that any of these kids didn’t graduate, I will finally take this shitshow out of your hands. We may see the Core 4 reunite at the end of this episode. We’ll also see that Toni is pregnant now. My bet’s on surrogacy. You guys ever watched Hamilton? Remember “...and Peggy?” Well, “...and Kevin!” 

☞ Actual reunions start in 5x05. It’ll likely be super awkward. I’ve said it before, I hope there’s not actual anger. It’s been seven years. I get being hurt, I get it being awkward, but it’s been nigh on a decade, so I hope there’s not active anger, since that’s childish as hell. If speculation is right, though, Betty will spend time with both Jughead (case) and Archie (we’ll get there.) We can expect pining. I love pining. Longing looks? Bring it on. We got so few scenes before Bughead got together, and I thrive off the auto shop scene in 5x06. It’s so angsty. I die. Anyway, this is when we introduce the new Biggie Baddie. Mothmen, apparently. This is our first villain that is not an organic Riverdale villain. I miss villains like Buffy wrote them, but god, I sat through some S2 Evil-Hiram plotline and it made me long for stupid shit like mothmen because that plot was boring. 

☞  Look, I ain’t going to lie to you. I have no idea how they’ll tie in the mothmen plotline since like, mothmen don’t murder? But we all know that’s just secondary to the romantic stuff. I’m going to reiterate that regardless of how this shakes out, I could not be less interested in a full season of drama. However, in 5x06/5x07, we’ll likely see some Barchie. If there is sad!Dating, it’ll likely happen here, paired with some Bughead angst. Spoilers also tell us that Chad comes to Riverdale and is jealous of Varchie’s “friendship?” That requires at least a few scenes of them together, so we’ll likely see Varchie pining too. 

☞ I’m going to go out on a limb and say they’d probably currently be filming episodes 8 and 9. Chad is already there, as is Tabitha. The recent casting spoilers that came out will probably be in this episode, up to episode 10. I am going to say it’s likely that this’ll be about mid-season, which means the explosive action for the couples will probably happen here. Most indications of people I’ve spoken to say the couples will likely be back by mid-season(ish). So by the time the casting spoilers role is in the show, Barchie will be on its way out. This seems very mid-seasony to me. It’s usually right before a break and it entices people to come back for the back 9. So around episodes 8-10, expect rising action. 

☞ I very much doubt that Barchie will last past episode 12. The back 9 of the season will be pretty standard Riverdale fare - mystery and couple drama, but likely nothing as dramatic as the end of S4 or beginning of S5. As I said, Riverdale doesn’t delegate well. They do not breathe between plotlines. They grab the bit between their teeth and run. 

☞ Few stray observations: Veronica is married, and still tied to her family. That’s not as easy to leave behind as a short-term relationship. I would say I wonder how they’re going to get her out of that, but like, it’s Riverdale. Do also wonder if they’re going to forget about the alcoholism plotline. I would like to link the writer’s to the TVTropes page on Chekhov’s Gun. If it’s not essential, Riverdale, don’t include it. Also a bit curious to see how Choni reunite, since they inevitably will. And how they’ll write the baby out. 

(this is a wonderful interpretation of my relationship with this show. The show is Captain Hammer. I am Dr. Horrible.) 

#Answered #Riverdale #Anonymous #Varchie #Choni #This is LONG #And did I even answer the question? #I have my doubts #WHY WON'T THIS GO IN THE TAG #BUGHEAD #The tags hate me I am gonna fling myself off a cliff

[clownkiwi]

my lengthy-ass post on game development and game release

yeaaaaa, ive been thinking about this for the past hour or so, and especially thinking about what my friends and other young people have talked about, i just decided to type out my feelings and thoughts about game development and game releases in terms of hyped up indie games (like silksong & deltarune chapter 2 + beyond)

but since this will be a huge post, im just gonna put it under a “read more” thing. if you wanna hear my thoughts on this, you can click the link below (this is basically comparable to a video essay ig)

but if you want a tldr, what my thoughts are is that dont give your hopes up on silksong, deltarune, & any other games releasing like very soon since you gotta take content implementation, bug testing/polishing, translations, porting, marketing, & announcements into consideration

with all that said, lets begin

so i remember talking to my friends a while ago about some of the most hyped up games release dates. you know, stuff like hollow knight: silksong or deltarune chapter 2+. especially after the updates given out by each developer/team recently, people are getting very excited to try out these games very soon this very year.

and by very soon, i mean like silksong (the full entire game) coming out THIS MONTH, and the entirety of deltarune (chapter 2 & however many chapters toby fox has planned) for THIS SUMMER IN ONE PACKAGE!!!

which, when i heard these, i thought they were all too good to be true! in fact, they’re all too good to be true. silksong DEFINITELY won’t come out this month, and i know for a Fact deltarune, the full package, won’t be out by this summer. and of course, that’s because of one thing that alot of us took for granted in terms of game development: the finalized touches.

before i go on, i just want to make this very clear: i am not a game design major. im not even in the industry. if anything, im an illustration major (currently), and all of what im gonna say is what i picked up from what other game devs have talked about and from other creative media industries (movie & tv show industry precisely). this is also really just speculation and opinionated, really the main point of this whole post is that you shouldn’t bet on silksong & deltarune coming out so soon from very easy theories and crazy misunderstandings on video game development, i am just giving out my own thoughts on when the game could possibly release (but tbf, i could be very wrong and we could get silksong out this month & the entirety of deltarune this summer. i don’t feel like we will, but it could be very possible and this whole post would be absolutely worthless)

now, i know tons of young people going into game development majors or want to be in the industry have tons of respect for the game development process. and thats good!!! im glad they have respect for the people actually making the content for the game and developing the full package. however, people usually take the finalized touches, imo, for granted more than the actual content development.

because how did people come to the conclusion about silksongs & deltarunes release date so soon???

from what i’ve heard from my friends and other people, silksong should come out this month to coincide with the anniversary of hollow knight, and because “team cherry is bad at marketing and releasing a game”

and with deltarune’s (the full package) release date, that was taking the whole game into consideration, and people’s speculation that deltarune would just be 4 chapters and that the whole thing will be released as one big package instead of episodic, despite the marketing of deltarune “chapter 1″

now, these sound a little bit reasonable. i mean, its been a while since we heard of them back in 2019 and 2018 respectively, and it makes perfect sense to release silksong on hollow knight’s anniversary and deltarune as a full game This Summer.

however, i still think that’s way too good to be true, and that’s because i took a few things into consideration: content implementation, bug fixing/polishing, translation, porting, and actually releasing the game (marketing/having the game up to a releasable state, and actually releasing the game). and to put this into my perspective, i thought about mario odyssey back in 2017

if you’re a nintendo fan like me and were hyped about the nintendo switch back in 2017, then you may remember mario odyssey and the hype around that game alone. when they revealed it back in 2017, they didn’t give a release date. a day after the reveal, mario odyssey devs came out straight and said they finished the game. the game was fully completed. however, they still didn’t give a release date, they just said that they’d spend this time polishing up the game.

and, i know it’s totally unfair to compare the polishing process between nintendo games & indie games since nintendo games are very well known for their polish, so they take more time to polish a game rather than. the next call of duty game.

however, this has given me a perspective as to how long developers spent on polishing the game. if we are to take nintendo at their word back then from when they announced they finished the game to release (which was late october 2017) then that means they spent 8-9 months alone on polish and bug fixing and maybe even translation. yes, you could have a finished game with all of the content in there, and you could feasibly release it as a switch launch title in march around the same time as breath of the wild; however, the developers didn’t feel mario odyssey was ready for release.

it wasn’t until e3 2017 when they felt proud to announce the release date for mario odyssey. this is important because that means that not only were the close to finishing the polishing & bug fixing state of the game, but that means they were done with translations and ready for marketing the game out to potential consumers. they spent who knows how long on polishing (probably anywhere between 6-9 months on polishing & bug testing alone) and they probably spent around the same amount of time on marketing the game.

now, like i said, its totally unfair to compare these two different design philosophies, as one is from a huge video game conglomerate that had years of game design vs small indie studios that only released their first game in the past decade, but let’s try to put this into perspective of silksong and deltarune

with silksong, team cherry had said they had gained new experience from hollow knight, both in terms of developing the actual games themselves and releasing them. this includes developing the game, implementing the content, and finalizing everything (from bug fixing and polishing, to marketing and releasing). and in terms of how they handled hollow knight’s original release, remember. that was their first game, they were very unsure as to how to market and release a game.

after hollow knight’s success, especially on switch, however, team cherry has gained experience as to how to finalize, market and release a game at a playable, releasable state. 

in my personal opinion, especially with what team cherrys marketing manager had said recently, the content is done. they’ve finished all the content for silksong (the base game) and are in the finalized state of implementing everything into the game. however, that doesn’t mean for sure the game will come out on february 24th, 2021 for steam, switch & ps4 & xbox one (maybe even ps5 & series x)

they still gotta add any finishing polish to the game, they still gotta find and fix any bugs in the game, and even when they’re confident on that regard, you still gotta take marketing into account and when’s the right time to release the game. and in that point of view, you can probably imagine it won’t be until another few months until we hear anything substantial about silksong

and especially seeing as how silksong is gonna be a switch exclusive at first, silksong could be as easily released as hollow knight’s switch port was released; as an announcement in a big event, and on that same day. which would mean we could get silksong out for the nintendo switch during e3 2021. however, i was only being easy, fair, and reasonably realistic with silksong. it could come out sooner than i thought, or even later than i thought.

now, with deltarune, i am definitely very unsure about how far that game is in development and when that game will release, especially since all we have to go off of is undertale, the demo (deltarune chapter 1), and what toby fox officially said for undertale’s 5th anniversary on famitsu & on his website.

first, let’s go off of the claims i’ve heard people say about how long this game will be. “deltarune will be 4 chapters long, because there are 4 seasons in a year like undertale and because delta is the greek number for 4.” while that sounds reasonable, why hasn’t toby fox given us a sure amount of chapters he has planned for the game?

especially considering that in his official update on his website he kept emphasizing “chapters” and “multiple chapters” and “chapters 3+”, and the fact he separated chapter 2 from chapter 3+. from his words alone, it sounds like chapter 2 will be released separately from the entire rest of the game??? but that could just be me, and people are most excited about chapter 2 more than anything, so really he could just be talking about the state of the whole game by including chapter 2 separately, especially considering the entirety of deltarune will be built off of chapter 2.

but besides my speculation on chapter 2, the fact he didn’t give a sure amount of chapter numbers, and he even specifically said on release readiness he put “0%”, that just doesn’t translate to “this game should be ready for release in the summer of 2021″, despite the fact that he said development on the game is going smoothly, even taking his physical state that hes in right now.

i personally think the game could be around 4-7 chapters long if he’s planning on implementing multiple chapters in the game, even though the first draft of the games story and dialogue has already been finished in september 2020. and even if we were to go off of deltarune being 4 chapters long, it still doesn’t feel right to say this game will be out this summer??

i personally think if the full game will be 4 chapters, i feel more confident in saying the full 4 chapter game will be out by this upcoming holiday season at the earliest, and if not then, the latest would be somewhere in the first half of 2022. and if it won’t be 4 chapters long like im guessing it would, then it could be released even later than expected. again, i’m basing this off of words taken straight from toby fox’s mouth in september 2020, things couldve obviously changed since then and i could be very wrong about when this game will come out.

but i know for a fact deltarune wont fully be released this summer, they still gotta develop the later chapters and put this game into a full package or release it episodically (even though people are confident that the game will be released in one package, i haven’t heard toby fox officially say anything about how the game will be released, just how the game has been developed so far), which of course is taking polishing/bug fixes into account, and marketing as well

i know for a fact polishing & bug fixes & even marketing wont take as long as nintendo games, but i do know they won’t be done very easily or quickly, and we still shouldn’t be too sure about when these games or any future game will come out

i guess that’s actually just the point of this whole post. unless its people with refuteable sources that have been spot on with predictions or it’s officially said from the mouths of these developers, then don’t bet on silksong or deltarune coming out so soon because of rumors or speculation

i could even be wrong about everythign that i’ve just said. im not a game major, like i said, so silksong could probably come out on february 24th, 2021, and maybe deltarune will come out this summer. i’m very sure it isn’t, but i could be wrong and know nothing about the game development process, and really toby fox’s team & team cherry are game development gods, and i’m surprised nintendo hasn’t bought them out by now so they could release splatoon 3, mario odyssey 2, mario galaxy 3, the diamond and pearl remakes, and metroid prime 4 right now /s

but yea, like i said, don’t count on silksong & deltarune coming out so soon, and maybe take the final stages of development and marketing and releasing more realistically rather than overlooking them and making unsubstantiated claims based off of speculation

#ruby says clown shit #ok thats all i wanted to say #ik at this point this is really just me rambling but i do hope you understand what i mean #again the main thing is that you shouldnt give your hopes too high on silksong & deltarune releasing so soon #and ig u could use this for any other game you're very excited about coming out #if you read the whole post however. thank you so much i didn't make any sense at all but thank you anyways #really this is all just speculation. i could be right or i could be wrong #but again just dont give your hopes up on silksong or deltarune getting released soon #and ik for a fact i left some stuff out bc i spent alot of time writing my main points #so uh. yea. thats it. idk what else to say #im just gonna post this now #if it bombs whatever. this was pointless. but if you did listen to what i had to say thank you!!!

[stvlti]

Fic Writer Interview

I piped up when @kiseiakhun did theirs so now I gotta pay for my hubris (but also, it's fun! Thanks for going out of your way to re-tag me!)

Name(s): stvlti (tumblr), stultiloquent (ao3)

Fandoms:

Actively writing for: DCU - comics and also related media, by which I mean of course Young Justice the cartoon and somehow also the Titans TV show. I never expected I'd write for a live action TV show series but hey, 2003 Teen Titans were my roots and Titans is a close relative. (Funnily enough I haven't actually seriously written for TT, but it's all about NTT and its derivative works)

Older fandoms on my AO3: Black Mirror: Bandersnatch, Noragami, Death Note

Where you post: AO3 is where I literally archive all my fics that see the light of day, drabbles and crackfics alike, but sometimes they get posted on Tumblr first (especially if it's to fill a prompt) and then make their way over to AO3 for reposting

Most popular one shot (by kudos):

Overall: "the hands that worship you", which is a pwp because I guess y'all love the porn on AO3!

This year: "if you can't summon your own tentacles, store-bought is fine", which is also a pwp because you horny mofos will always pick porn over anything else welp (thanks for leaving kudos though 🤣 and tbf, this one does have the unfair advantage of being literally the second oldest piece posted this year so it's had more time to amass more kudos than my gen / PG rated fics. proportionately though it's definitely not the one I've gotten the highest kudos to hits ratio on)

Most popular multi-chap (by kudos):

Discounting "if you can't summon your own tentacles" (which is more a two-parter that was written as a one-shot), I don't have an answer for either "Overall" or "This year" for this one because I have in fact only ever written one (1) multichap fic since moving to AO3 (we don't talk about the dark days on Deviantart) and said multichap fic isn't even close to within the top 10 most kudos'd fic on my account. That plus it's an RPF from my teenaged years that I really don't wanna plug on main because I don't want y'all to read that shit (it's RPF, come on)

Favourite story you’ve written so far:

I can't answer for "Overall" (cause I feel like I'd be forgetting and therefore neglecting a portion of the stories I've got in my portfolio over the last 8 years), but for "This year" it is in fact my latest entry, "Transference"! I was quite proud of the comfort zones I tested with that one, I pushed myself to write more than 2 character povs for a single piece (my record had always been 2 but in that fic I was juggling 3 - almost 4 character perspectives), plus it gave me an excuse to play around with narrative structure which is always a Thing I'm nerdy about

Fic you were nervous to post:

Cool cool cool so I'm just gonna expose myself with this one, but it was actually the priest kink fic, "When I'm down on my knees you're how I pray". I wanted to contextualise Dick Grayson's guilt issues in a Catholic context as like a what-if, but I've also never been Catholic, wasn't raised Catholic, and it was somehow important to me that I didn't misrepresent the customs and rituals of Catholicism? Even though just writing the fic itself was already fundamentally disrespectful? Idk my brain works on weird logic.

btw if any of you wanna cancel me for this just block me and move on.

How do you choose your titles?:

The title is either based on the central theme / moral of the story, which will come to me as I write and is usually the case for fics I take more seriously, OR, if it's a ficlet I didn't put as much effort into and/or don't intend to show off, I'll usually pull from lyrics for a one liner that hits the emotional notes I'm going for in the story.

Do you outline?:

Almost always. The only fics I haven't outlined are spur of the moment things, stuff that's very focused on a single instance or thought without much plot or coordination needed.

Complete: 26 25 in total

not counting the ones I deleted or orphaned this year (again this number does not include my Deviantart stash shhhh those didn't happen)

In-progress: uh....3 4?

I'm kinda in between the research and planning stage for 3 different fics atm so idk if it's really in-progress in-progress... Those 3 fics aren't even set in stone, I might abandon them again like I did with one of these 3 (the dark academia au) 5 months ago (that I recently picked back up on the research front)

Yeah I forgot my Sladick fic is a 2-parter that I should probably work on and finish at some point 😬

Coming soon/not yet started: I think it's somewhere between 8 and 11

I just added 2 more to the list after Romin Week prompts dropped /sigh. But I really wanna test my comfort zone again and try writing the wilder stories for a change (it'll be fun though if I get around to it! Hopefully something BOP movieverse shaped if I'm lucky)

Prompts:

Sure, send them my way! I accept prompts, just can't guarantee I'll be able to respond speedily though cause I can't chain my muse to me and also real life happens, a lot

Upcoming work you’re most excited about:

Ooof idk if excited is the right word, try trepidation...I'm scared to mischaracterise our faves...but a BOP movieverse fic is probably going to be real fun! Just hope I can finish the research and writing in time for the event though

No-pressure tags:

See this is the real point of me asking to be tagged and filling this tag, cause I wanna pass it on to my writing mutuals in other fandoms. So @trans-l-lawliet @fantomn @mellonearyou @3dnygma , if you're listening,,,,

Also any other writerly friends or followers reading this and curious to try, please go ahead! Have fun with this!

#tag meme #long post #writerly tag

[junetuesday]

sweetener - [three]

The One At The Library

Pairing: Tom Holland x Female Reader - uni AU

Word Count: 5170 ish

Warnings: swearing, alcohol, fluff, caffeine

A/N: sorry for the delay on this i am *jean ralphio voice* The Worst. I thiiiink this chapter should make up for it tho heheheh lemme know what you think!

Updates Fridays at 11pm BST

Tonight was one of those nights where it just wasn't your night. You stood in the SU toilets waiting for Liv, amid girls taking selfies in the mirrors and attempting to stick false eyelashes back on each other though they could hardly see. Another night, you might have been one of them, gleefully exclaiming "thanks, it's Missguided!" in response to compliments on your dress. Not tonight though.

There wasn't anything wrong per se - Madison was away visiting her boyfriend so it was just you and Liv with some of her friends from her course. They were nice, of course, and you liked them, but they weren't your friends so you didn't feel quite as at ease as you might have. Your pre-night out disco-nap had run on a bit longer than you had intended so you didn't have a lot of time to get ready, plus you thought you had alcohol in when you didn't, so all you had was a glass of warm, somewhat vinegary white wine while you got ready. You managed to pilfer another glass off someone at predrinks, and you'd bought a double when you arrived at the union, but all in all you were relatively sober compared to everyone else, and you weren't feeling particularly confident in your appearance, and honestly, you were bored.

You tapped through Instagram stories as you waited for Liv, neither drunken selfies nor dog photos nor influencers unboxing PR packages holding your attention for long. Your thumb hit the right hand side of the screen almost as soon as each new image came up, switching to the next one well before the full 15 seconds was up. Until this one.

A few nights prior, you, Liv, and Mads had gone on a social media binge after Liv had discovered that you and Harrison followed each other on Instagram and you hadn't told her (?!) - which had lead you to Tom's account. Madison had pressed follow for you in the end, and within ten minutes he'd followed you back. You still hadn't had the confidence to interact with him in any way, or text him for that matter, but it was a start. He'd posted a couple of stories since then, and to say you were glad that Instagram didn't show how many times someone has viewed your story would be an understatement. If it did...yikes. They weren't even all that interesting, but seeing little snippets of his life was nice, it almost made you feel like you knew him a little more. You didn't, of course, all you actually knew was that he went to the gym after work yesterday (from the picture of a protein shake with an 8:49pm timestamp with the caption "post-work gym sesh ☑") and that he'd been working on an essay this afternoon (from the screenshot of a Spotify playlist called Chill Lofi Study Beats with the caption "essay soundtrack 👌" and a location tag that placed him in the library).

And according to this post, he was still there - his laptop open with a notepad next to it, a couple of books and pens scattered across the desk, posted five minutes ago. You tapped through to the next picture, and all you could think was 'oh no'. This one was a selfie, his grumpy expression half covered by his fingers and his chin resting on his palm. His hair was a fluffy mess atop his head, white earphones in both ears and the collar of a black pullover hoodie just visible in the bottom of the frame. You didn't even realise you'd been looking at it that long until the screen skipped to the next story, and you didn't think you'd ever tapped the left side of your screen so fast. Pressing and holding on the screen to stop it timing out, you managed to actually read the caption this time - "send help and coffee 😧" - and maybe those three drinks had had more of an effect on you than you thought, because you were actually kind of considering replying, your thumb swiping up and down on the screen to bring up and hide the 'reply to story' options over and over. No, that's a stupid idea -- what would you even say?

Looking up as though one of the inhabitants of the girl's bathroom would have the answer, you spotted Liv coming out of a cubicle. She had definitely caught up with her friends at predrinks more than you had, and was bopping along to the music echoing in from the adjacent dancefloor as she washed her hands. She'd be badgering you to go get another drink, you knew, or go and dance, or something of that nature that didn't involve you sitting down and pondering potential social media interactions. You looked from her to your phone and back again, before deciding to throw caution to the wind and just say fuck it.

Vanilla latte sound good?

Closing the app and locking your phone as soon as you hit reply, you shoved your phone into your bag, as though if you didn't look at it then it wouldn't matter if Tom replied or not. Oh God, what if he doesn't reply? -- what if he does reply? What if--

"Let's get SHOTS!"

With a groan and a playful roll of your eyes you let Liv pull you back out to the bar, rejoining her friends. You ordered a shot of apple Sourz - which, yes, is a cop out shot, but you didn't particularly care to go for the sambuca shots that were lining up on the counter at Liv's request. Even if you weren't having one, though, it still made for a fun Instagram story - because even if you're not having fun it's important to make sure it looks like you are online, right? That was the only reason you took your phone back out of your bag, no other reason. You didn't even look at your notifications, not even a glance at that little red (1) in the top right hand corner, and you definitely didn't open it immediately after posting your story. No, you waited at least ten seconds while everyone took their shots, then you opened it.

That would be ideal🙏🏻

Hm. Liv tugged on your wrist again, pulling you towards a clubroom. Reluctantly, you followed, your group huddled loosely in a circle on the dancefloor. You moved your body to the beat, but your mind was less on the music and more on your phone, clutched tightly in your hand.

You knew he meant coffee, you knew it was a joke, but...Tom had been calling you Vanilla Latte until recently... But no. That's stupid, it's gone midnight and he's still studying, he definitely was just talking about coffee, he didn't mean, well, you. But still...

You glanced down at your phone, trying to be as inconspicuous as possible (though no one was watching, and if they were they wouldn't care, like, at all), and let out an involuntary squeak at the notification on the screen.

tomholland1996 replied to your story:

or a couple of those haha 😂

Not to read too much into things but... double message? You bit the corner of your lip to try and stop yourself from smiling as you unlocked your phone and tapped out a reply.

I bet haha

Your thumb hovered over the 'send' button, hesitating. What a shit reply - but what else do you say?

Tom is typing...

Oh shit. You deleted your message, but as soon as you did so he stopped typing too. Ugh. You waited a moment, and sure enough:

Tom is typing...

Anyway enjoy your night x

You almost scoffed, looking up and taking stock of your surroundings, that weird out of place feeling you get when you're the only sober(ish) one in a room of drunk people creeping over you. The music was too loud and too bassy, the lights were too flashy, everyone was bumping into you, plus your feet hurt and you were tired and you felt about fifty years older than your nineteen years.

🤷 su's actually shit tonight tbf

You tried to ignore the fact that 'seen' popped up under your message instantly.

Really? Sure its better than the library

Hm. Another elbow collided with your spine, and you decided then you were done with tonight.

Debatable

You know when youre just not feelin it?

You were barely even pretending to move to the music now, just nodding your head as your attention remained on your phone. It seemed to be getting more and more crowded anyway, so you hardly had any room to move even if you wanted to.

Fair

Think i'd just rather be doing anything other than writing this essay

Idk if id go so far as to say id rather be writing an essay but it'd defo rather be in bed 😴👵

Oh yeah thatd be my preferred choice too but i guess i'll just have to make do with coffee instead of sleep

Why dont you just go home tho?

That was a good point, you could go home. You didn't think Liv would mind, she was having fun and her friends lived close enough that sharing a cab home with them wouldn't be an issue. The only problem was, you didn't really want to go home - what you wanted to do was go and hang out with Tom. Not while he was working, or for five minutes when you bumped into him in the kitchen, but just...because. You nibbled at your bottom lip as you considered your options, flashing a smile-and-nod at Liv when she looked over at you and you lipread her shouting 'you okay?' at you. The library was just across the car park in the center of the campus, you could just pop in and say hello... and the coffee from the Lavazza branded machine downstairs in the SU was better than the weird generic one in the library.

I actually might you know

You typed out the next message really fast, taking a deep breath in before pressing send.

Could bring you a coffee on my way past?

Eyes trained on the screen, you held your breath as Tom is typing... popped up, disappeared, reappeared, then disappeared again.

You would be saving my life

Aaaand exhale.

Only seems fair

You'd almost forgotten where you were, if it weren't for the people jostling you around and the balls of your feet screaming in pain from your heels.

Haha yeah i think you probably owe me a latte or 7

Your heart was beating in your chest, and this was definitely how you saw your night going when you gulped down that glass of tepid chardonnay, but you couldn't say you were mad about it.

Exactly

So a latte then yeah?

Wait youre actually gonna ditch a night out and bring me a coffee?

Yep, that's exactly what you're doing.

Apparently so

Then yes a latte pls

Coming right up (that's what baristas say right?)

God how fucking cringe --

I think so idk im not a very good one

Youre ok

cheers

Weaving your way away from the group, you mimed taking a drink at Liv when she grabbed your arm as you passed her. You weren't really lying, you were going to get a drink, it was just going to be a caffeinated one instead of an alcoholic one. You couldn't be bothered explaining that to her right now, though, and she was already turning back to her friends and taking one of their faces in her hands to yell lyrics at them, so you didn't feel too bad about leaving her.

Your feet hurt a little less (only a little though) as you made your way down the stairs, and you only got a few weird looks as you got two lattes from the coffee machine. You got rather more weird looks, however, when you walked into the library. There was hardly anyone there at this time, just a handful of zombie-like students dotted around and a couple of security staff at the door keeping an eye on things, but every single one of them looked at you at least once as you meandered over to where Tom had told you he'd be. You couldn't really blame them though, it was gone midnight and there you were, clip-clopping through the university library in absurd heels and a dress that showed rather more of your skin than you would normally have exposed in that setting. You felt a little self-conscious, but with a cup of coffee in each hand you couldn't pull it down, so you had to make do with taking short, shuffling steps to try and minimise how far up your thighs the fabric would ride as you walked.

Just as he'd said, you found Tom at a table in the group study area. Books, balled up sheets of paper, pens and empty drinks cans littered the desk, looking rather more disorderly than his Instagram story had depicted. He hadn't seen you yet, and he looked to be deep in thought. Hunched over his laptop, the glow of the screen reflected in his glasses, his fingers were spread out across the keyboard as though he was about to start typing. In the time it took you to walk over, however, he didn't press a single key, and when you set one of the cups down beside him he jumped slightly, taking a sharp breath in like you'd startled him. Less 'deep in thought' and more 'in a deep trance', perhaps.

Tom groaned when you giggled, pulling his earphones from his ears and blinking rapidly to try and reawaken his eyes.

"You're a lifesaver, thank you."

He gave you a small smile as he reached for his coffee, his face tired but eyes still bright as he looked up at you. You could feel his gaze scanning over your body, making you feel a different kind of self-conscious - the kind that made you smooth out your dress to sit nicely across your thighs now that you had a free hand, rather than tugging it down as far as it would go like you wanted to when you walked in.

"No worries."

Hovering awkwardly beside the desk, it only then occurred to you that Tom probably wanted you to leave so he could get on with his essay and get out of the library as quickly as possible. He seemed to sense this train of thought from you, because he hummed something incoherent through a mouthful of coffee and scrambled to move some of his crap aside so there was space for you to sit at the table.

"Sorry--"

"Oh, um-"

You did a sort of half-laugh, stepping back out of the way to let him push papers and books aside. There were about six chairs dotted around the table, but as he'd cleared a space at the one closest to him, just around the corner of the square table, you picked that one.

"How's it going?" You took a sip of your own coffee, nodding towards the laptop between you. "-or should I not ask?"

"Ugh, don't ask." Tom groaned, leaning back and bringing his leg up so his foot rested on his chair, bent knee exposed by the rips in his faded black jeans. "S'not even due 'til next week but I thought I'd just get it done and out of the way 'cause I've got work and shit to do but..."

He trailed off, shrugging.

"Not happening?"

"Not happening."

You hummed, clicking your tongue against the roof of your mouth. You knew the feeling, no stranger to complete lack of motivation yourself. Looking around at the books scattered across the table, you realised you didn't actually know what Tom studied, but it seemed like he didn't really want to talk about uni work, so instead of asking about his degree, you said:

"I didn't know you wore glasses."

Nice nonsequiteur, good one.

"Hm? Oh, yeah," Tom took the frames off and set them down on his laptop keyboard, rubbing the inner corners of his eyes with his knuckles. "Just for computer stuff, you know?"

"Oh, cool." You looked down at your cup as you brought it up to your lips. "I like them. On - on you."

Your eyes flicked over to him as you took a sip, darting back to your cup before he could catch your eye.

"Thanks."

You just smiled, hoping the general feeling of '!!!!!!!' in your head wasn't evident on your face.

"So, SU not living up to your expectations tonight?"

Shaking your head, you set your cup down before launching into an explanation of everything that had contributed to your less-than-satisfactory night. You didn't mean to go off on one, but Tom was laughing at how exasperated you were getting about tiny inconveniences, and before you knew it, you'd been rambling for God knows how long, which lead to Tom ranting about all the annoying things he'd witnessed people doing in the library that afternoon, and before long an hour had passed and the conversation had turned, as it often does with millenials, to memes.

"Wait you haven't seen that one? It's fucking hilarious, I've got it saved on my phone so I can look at it, like, daily."

You opened your bag to take out your phone, your smile freezing on your lips as a thought crossed your mind. Unzipping the inside pocket, your fingers skipped over the contents one by one - lipgloss, lash glue, gum, tampon - until your suspicions were confirmed.

"Oh fuck."

Tom hummed a question mark in response, eyebrows raised at your sudden shift in temperament.

"I haven't got my house keys," you frowned, trying to remember the last time you saw them.

"Shit - d'you reckon you dropped them in the union?"

"Nah," You shook your head as it came back to you - you were in a rush to shove your stuff into your bag before leaving for predrinks, and you distinctly remembered thinking 'I need to grab my keys from my backpack', but then Liv asked to borrow a lipstick and you immediately forgot about your keys.

"I know where they are, they're at home. It's cool I'll just text Liv and see if she's still out or what, maybe get a cab home with her."

After tapping out a quick text to Liv, you looked back to Tom, setting your phone facedown on the table. He was looking at you questioningly, glancing between you and your phone. You blinked at him uselessly, mind drawing a blank when you attempted to remember why exactly you opened your bag in the first place.

"Uh, you were gonna show me..." he trailed off, gesturing to your phone.

Uhhh duhhhhhhhh. Jesus girl, get it together.

Re-engaging your brain, you pulled up the screenshot, hoping he couldn't feel the heat radiating off your cheeks or notice the way your fingers were trembling ever so slightly as they gripped your phone. Either he didn't or he declined to comment on it, showing you a vine compilation video on his laptop instead. You ended up burrowing deeper and deeper into a meme-rabbit-hole, shifting closer to the edge of your seat with each embarrassingly loud laugh, and for a little while you forgot about your key dilemma.

"I think-" you began, interrupted by your fifth yawn in as many minutes. "I think I need to go to bed."

"Same - hey did Liv text you back?"

"Shit. Uhh-"

You checked your notifications, and sure enough there was one from Liv, received twenty-five minutes ago.

No lmao debrief tomo xxxxxx

You didn't realise Tom was reading over your shoulder until you heard a soft 'ah' in your ear. Your eyes scanned the rest of the screen in a panic, but thankfully found no incriminating evidence of your growing interest in the boy beside you, or of Liv's in his best friend. Making a slightly strangled 'hmm' sound, you tapped the phone icon at the top of the screen.

"I'll call her and see what-"

You'd barely brought the phone to your ear before a cool voice welcomed you to O2 voice mail. You knew it all too well - Liv was notorious for letting her battery die, preferring to use that last 2% on Snapchat than saving it in case one of her housemates gets locked out.

"Bollocks."

"She alright?" Tom leaned back in his seat, concern ghosting over his tired features.

"Yeah yeah, she was with a load of her friends so they've probably gone back to one of theirs to smoke or something. She'll be fine. I'm kinda fucked, though."

A beat of silence passed while you tried to come up with a solution that didn't involve you sleeping in the library, but with Madison miles away and Liv MIA, you were coming up blank.

"You can stay at mine?"

Sorry, what? You blinked at Tom, certain you had misheard him.

"If-if you want. I could sleep on the sofa or something and you could have my room."

Yep, no, that's what he said.

"Oh, I-"

"Just, um, you know, if you can't go home-"

"Would, uh, is that okay?"

"Yeah," He nodded, a soft smile in his voice. " 'course."

You bit down gently on your bottom lip, your own smile threatening to spread across your face.

"Thanks."

Your voice came out as barely more than a whisper, a squeak really. He was still so close, your shoulders almost touching where you'd been looking down at your phone together. This felt much closer though, face to face, your eyes able to count the freckles smattered across his nose and cheeks, see the indent of a chickenpox scar near his right eyebrow, another one on the left side of his nose. You didn't dare let your vision travel any further south than the bridge of his nose, not sure of what you'd do if you looked down and saw that easy smile that he wore so well.

But then again, maybe you could just sneak a glance...

Tom cleared his throat, the sound making both of you jolt back ever so slightly into your seats.

"Um, should we-"

"Yeah, yeah-"

Silence settled over you as you gathered up Tom's stuff off the table, stopping to shove your coffee cups and all his other rubbish into a bin on the way out. By the time you got to Tom's car though, conversation had started to flow again, and he gave you free rein over the music, so the short drive passed with only mild awkwardness between you.

Tom's bedroom turned out to be behind the locked door you'd seen that first night at predrinks, the mystery room on the ground floor at the front of the house. Unsure of the social protocol in situations like this, you hovered by the door as Tom turned on the lamp on his bedside table, dumping his stuff on the floor by his desk. The lamp didn't provide too much light, most of the room still shrouded in darkness, so you focused your attention on the carpet by your feet, fibres frayed where they met the skirting board.

"Do you want Super Noodles?"

Your head jerked up, a laugh spluttering past your lips because what? But then, also, yes, yes you did want Super Noodles.

"Yeah, actually."

"D'you wanna put something on TV and I'll..." he trailed off, pointing in the general direction of the kitchen.

"Sure."

You perched on the end of Tom's bed while he fiddled with his TV and PS4 that sat atop a chest of drawers opposite you, bringing up Netflix and passing you the controller.

"D'you know how to..."

"Mmhmm."

"Cool."

You flicked the edges of the shoulder buttons with your fingers, the soft clicks the only sound beyond the hum of the TV as you looked up at Tom from the edge of his bed, nodding his head slowly as he shoved his hands into the pockets of his jeans. He cleared his throat again, taking a jerky step away from you.

"Okay, uh, I'll just- yeah."

Letting out a deep breath once he'd left the room, you started to flick through the options on the screen. You eventually settled on Friends - everyone likes Friends, plus then it wasn't a whole movie or hour long episode you'd have to sit through if it got awkward. You hoped it wouldn't be awkward, things had been getting progressively less awkward between you, but this was different. You were in his room at two in the morning, sat on his bed in a rather revealing dress, more of your bare thigh in contact with the soft cotton of his sheets than you had expected when you left the house earlier that evening. That reminded you - were you going to sleep in your dress? It wasn't very comfortable so you'd really rather not, but were you going to ask him for something to wear? Were you bollocks. So, you'd resigned yourself to being uncomfortable and hoping that nothing popped out in the night when Tom returned from the kitchen, backing into the room with a bowl of noodles in each hand.

"Thanks," you gave him a shy smile as you took one of the bowls from him, the heat of the ceramic almost as hot as the flush that crept up the back of your neck when he smiled back.

"Do you want something else to wear?" Tom's eyes widened as soon as the words left his mouth, realising how they sounded. "Not that you don't look- it's just it doesn't look that comfortable, and-"

"Yes, please."

"Okay," he breathed when you cut him off, nodding. "Um..."

Setting his bowl on top of his chest of drawers, he rummaged through for something to give you. His figure was obscured by the light of the TV screen, the bright white of the Netflix logo blurring the edges of your vision. You had to blink a few times after he turned around before you could see properly again, as though you'd just looked directly into the sun.

Stop blinking so much, he's going to think you've got a twitch, or an eye infection or something.

Trying to keep your eyes open as long as possible (without looking shocked), you swapped your bowl for the t shirt and pair of blue checked pyjama bottoms he handed you.

"I'll just go, uh, get changed then."

Shutting Tom's door behind you, you darted upstairs to the bathroom. You had no idea if Harrison was in or not, but you would really rather not bump into him just then, knowing he'd be insufferable. After changing into Tom's clothes (definitely not noticing how they smelt innately comforting, fresh but still warm) you peeled off your false eyelashes, popping them into your handbag. That was about all you could do in terms of make up removal, so you just had to hope you had remembered to put on setting spray earlier and that you wouldn't wake up with panda eyes and a stained pillow case.

Tom had turned the light off and changed into a pair of joggers when you got back to his room, settled at the head of the bed atop the covers with just the glow of the TV lighting the room and reflecting off his glasses. Placing your bag and folded dress beside your heels on the floor by the door, you sat cross-legged beside him, taking the bowl he handed you with a quiet thanks. You munched your way through your noodles as the first episode played, sneaking glances at the boy beside you every now and then.

By the time the second episode started, two empty bowls were stacked on the bedside table, and you were getting sleepier and sleepier, pulling the covers up over your legs. You slipped further and further down the bed as the episode went on, your eyes growing heavier and heavier until you were almost asleep.

"I'm just gonna..." you sighed, rolling into your side and curling your legs up closer to your chest.

"I'll uh- I'll go."

The mattress dipped as Tom pushed himself up, moving to get up, but you shook your head, eyes still closed.

"Mmmno."

Tom froze, a nervous laugh stuttering from the back of his throat.

"What?"

Half-asleep, you looked up at him, sliding your hand across the mattress and under your cheek beneath the pillow.

"Stay."

You thought you heard him make a sound, but your eyes were already closing again, your mind too sleepy to comprehend anything beyond the fact that his body was warm beside yours and you didn't want him to leave. The whys and hows weren't too important just then.

The bed shifted a few more times as Tom reached for the remote to turn off the TV and set his glasses aside, letting out a low, deep breath as he lay down next to you. You were all but asleep, so you weren't sure if you imagined it, but you thought you felt his hand brush against yours as he mirrored your position, lying on his side with an arm curled up under his pillow.

Hm.

You stuck out your little finger to test, just to see - and sure enough, it bumped against his. Still half-asleep (or at least, that would be your excuse if he moved away), you lifted your finger up to lay it over his, feeling his digit flex as he hooked it around yours. That, you were pretty sure, you didn't imagine.

You really were tired, honestly so so close to being asleep, but now all you could hear was your breathing, and Tom's breathing, and the hammering of your heart in your chest, and it was all a bit much.

You opened one eye, and from the slither of light coming in around the curtains from the streetlamp outside you could just about make out one side of Tom's face - enough to know he was looking at you.

"Hi," he breathed.

"Hey."

Your eyes closed when he'd repositioned, you hadn't realised quite how close your faces were, only the width of your hands between you. Nibbling on your bottom lip, you glanced between his eyes, fixed on yours, and his lips, slightly parted.

Is he getting closer??

You tried to regulate your breathing, but he was definitely getting closer, and you could feel the warmth of his breath on your lips as you swallowed harshly.

"S-sorry you didn't get to finish your essay."

Tom chuckled softly, and your noses were almost touching, and suddenly his hand was gone from beside yours under the pillow, a finger hooked under your chin instead.

"It's fine."

Nudging the side of your nose with his, he tilted your face up and away from the pillow, the quiet 'oh' dying on your lips as he captured them between his own.

Oh, indeed.

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10 questions !!

Rules: Answer ten questions, write your own and tag ten people i was tagged by @131-vibe ty for tagging me <3 ! and sorry for taking so long hhhh What’s your favorite fairy tale/myth? hmmmm id probably say the little mermaid just bc i was OBSESSED with ariel when i was little, im awful at picking favourites but sentimentality helps lol What’s your favorite movie genre? ooo i love horror movies ! i also really like historical movies and anything thats mainly character driven Describe your go to outfit jeans, belt and a crop top w white sneakers and a bunch of necklaces and probably mismatched earrings asdfg  What’s your comfort movie? oooo thats kind of difficult, i dont tend to rewatch movies much so instead ill give a comfort show. i rewatch the nana anime a lot when i need something familiar, it was one of the first anime i watched bc i found the full series in eng dub on youtube lmaoo and even tho i prefer subs now i always watch nana dubbed for the nostalgia Favorite odd fact you know ill give a personal fact bc why not, my family is from a small village in ukraine and my baba was the first woman in the village to wear pants/shorts, queen <3 asdfgh (she was also the first to bleach her hair and get multiple ear piercings, we love a rebel)

What’s your take on mint chocolate things? i LOVE it !!!! mint chocolate ice cream, candy, cookies whatever ill take it ! Do you have a favorite Ghibli movie, and if so which one? howl ! im a sucker for a good romance and i just love the aesthetics of it. spirited away is also a fav just bc it was the first one i ever saw (and bc its amazing obv) Go to hype song this changes a lot for me but recently ive been listening to a lot of mcr so id say thank you for the venom or boy division rn Corner bed or not? yessss 100% !! What would you do if you were able to do absolutely anything, no limitations? this is boring but honestly probably just get a nice house in toronto in like kensington or smthing and just like ,,, live my life w/o having to worry about money and shit asdfg its mundane but honestly i dont really want a lot ? (tbf asking for a HOUSE in toronto is already asking for a lot sooo lmao) finding a job i dont hate would be nice too since im kind of lost in that department

MY questions !

1. you can have any hair colour but it has to be unnatural, what are you choosing ? 2. if you had to live for one year in a country other than the one you currently live/were born in where would you choose and why? 3. how do you usually keep your nails ? (like length? nail polish or no? if so what colour? etc) 4. what colour are the walls in your room and do you want to change them or no? 5. we’re going for a drive and i ask you to pick a song, what are you putting on ? 6. go to coffee/tea order ? (or other drink if you dont drink either) 7. describe your height w/o using feet/inches/the metric system/any official measurement (yes i stole this from that tweet shhh) 8. do you put things on your walls ? (ie posters, art, random shit idk) 9. last book you read and would you recommend it? 10. off vibes alone (not skills/talents !!!) what role would you have in a band (like vocals, bassist, rhythm guitar, or even like ,, leader, manager, etc idk have fun with it lol) im tagging @seritydoll @j7nhui @handshake @stonebutchpiss @jadethirwall @chainerayuta @cignateez @1yanan @my-enlightenment @kunmunist and anyone else that wants to !pls dont feel pressured to answer if ur not feeling it <3 !

#tag game #.thoughts #i dont usually do these but i was feeling bored and it was pretty fun !

[loriinae]

post got a little lengthy so im putting a cut! nothing serious just talking abt things i wanna do

im out of school for the semester on dec 7, and ive got a little over a month off. i really wanna make more art! i want to do some traditional stuff and i want to actually finish some projects and maybe take a few commissions...

i guess im inspired by one of my coworkers, she does pet portraits (acrylic paint on small ish canvasses) .. idk how she does it with work and school, but tbf one portrait only takes her an hour or two. shes taken art classes, so its unrealistic for me to think i could work at her pace... but i wish i could

i also have a couple cosplays i wanna do for ala in january, i have a lot of my materials already... actually for all art-related things ive gotten a lot of materials that i havent used/started on yet x_x some of my projects have been "in the works" for... mm.. 5 years (i have all the things to make satyr legs, started collecting materials in high school and never started to actually make em)

another thing i gotta do is organize my room and set up the spare room to be like a workshop area. i havent cleaned my room in forever and i really need to. theres just piles of trash in there honestly. it also makes it feel cramped and stuffy, and its hard to get around some furniture. not good for the psyche. the spare room is my sisters old room turned guest room turned hopefully workshop room. theres good natural lighting (unlike mine lol) and a lot of space. i think itd be good to try and confine my hobbies to that room, cus usually when i work on projects i take over the living room/kitchen lol

and i want to pick up the oboe again, im really afraid that ive forgotten how to play cus its been like 3 yrs. i really do like to play instruments but.... im really bad abt actually doing it. its kind of like school, i like reading and learning new things,but i have terrible self discipline so i rarely do it unless someones making me. (ie, class times/appointments)

theres also online stuff.. i wanna clean up my blog and rewrite some pages and go through and tag/untag things (if youve been following me you can probably tell im very meticulous w tagging. everythings gotta be filed in some category . i tag some content warning stuff but...its mostly for me.) i have side blogs that are sitting around that i wanna set up, or i wanna revamp other side blogs that ive been starting to use again. or i need to update the info. im on mobile most of the time, so im thinking when i get a new laptop ill be on there more often.

thats another thing too... getting a new laptop i need to transfer all my info and set up and install and make sure things are compatible ... its gonna be a whole ordeal bc i dont have anything backed up on my computer /: i also gotta find new install links for winrar and painttool sai, otherwise ill have to find new programs. then i have to buy a new tablet cus mines 8 yrs old and really worn out and kind of falling apart

ooohhhjghghgh... so many things to do and not enough time. i still have work! and school planning (even if im not in classes)! and theres stuff i gotta figure out sooner than later - health things and also getting my goddamn drivers license . i wanna get that before i go back to norcal at the very latest.

theres also. things happening this/next week. since the semesters ending, i have one more test (online, due tonight at midnight) and a couple writing assignments, then for finals i have 2 tests and 3 papers (3 pg, 6 pg, and 7pg) to write. SO!! i gotta work on those!! starting tomorrow if you catch me on here bust my ass! i get easily distracted and id greatly appreciate ur help by keeping me accountable

if you have me on discord/messenger/snapchat even lol (or dont yet but do want my contact info, pm me) i would love if you keep me accountable, make sure im Working... cus god knows. i WILL get distracted. doesnt help that i bought a switch aghgjgnfkhnjfjfg. so. i would really appreciate it 💗

[midnatt-heronweather]

1. What did you do in 2020 that you’d never done before? * An FCD convention (2258) * got quarantined due to a international pandemic. 

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don’t do them 

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? not sure of timing, but my cousin Jade i think, though by “close” i only mean by blood, we’ve not had dealings since she was in High School. 

4. Did anyone close to you die? a friend  (no names for the sake of honour) a friends father  (no names for the sake of honour) a cousins familiar (no names for the sake of honour)

 5. What countries did you visit? none.

6. What would you like to have in 2021 that you lacked in 2020?. Have some semblance of an actual life.  

7. What dates from 2020 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? the end of Feb 2020 - I finally me Jason Carter, and yes I will be going on about this repeatedly for years to come.  also in Feb I saw Counterfeit for what..i never believed would be the last time.  

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? not murdering someone count? 

9. What was your biggest failure? for a change i don’t have an answer to that.. not on I’m willing to post publicly anyway.

 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? no 

11. What was the best thing you bought? either my little black owl bag (codenam Morningstar) or one of the ghosts.  

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? Heather Louise Sharpe. takes a lot to survive what she has this year and not go to pieces.  

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? as always i could quote a number of politicians and people in and out of showbiz.  there have been a few fandom people and moments too. but personally speaking..  I was rather.. disgusted by someone I had thought actually possessed a brain (a hard thing to do where they come from) but as always I was proved wrong  

14. Where did most of your money go?} survival. and for me that means geekery 

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? MEETING - JASON - CARTER and some other stuff which consequently never happened and never likely will. 

16. What song will always remind you of 2020? COunterfeit - It gets better. both becaue it got me through a lot of the year and cos.. well. just cause

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

a) happier or sadder? meh.

b) thinner or fatter? meh.

c) richer or poorer? poorer

 18. What do you wish you’d done more of? anything. 

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? being stuck in the house. 

20. How did you spend Christmas? not happened yet but will likely be stuck in the house watching reruns. in my family unit its not classed as a ‘big’ thing, even less so this year

 21. What was your favourite month of 2020? Feb: Hu, Counterfeit, 2258

 22. Did you fall in love in 2020? & 23. How many one-night stands? I am a Sex repulsed Aromantic Asexual.. form your own answer

24. What was your favourite TV programme? Cursed/Roswell/Charmed 

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? several. one in particular 

26. What was the best book you read? Ben  Aaronovitch - False Values 

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? this year i’ve personally not made one, but Allys sent me 2 bands who i now love. re-discovery however is another story - Black Veil Bridges saved my soul when Counterfeit split. 

28. What did you want and get? the 13th doctors coat. AND IT ACTUALLY FITS not got it “yet” but I’ve finally ordered a Zat.

29. What did you want and not get? question is mute cos if i wanted it i’ll get it next year unless your talking events due to the pandemic in which case.. hindsight is 2020 aint it

 30. What was your favourite film of this year? Cant say I have on tbf 

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? its this week lik 4 days from now. i’ll be 36 and short of on of my breif trips to york i’m doing exactly fuck all.(december + pandemic) 

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? how long you got? * getting a holiday * seeing my friends for more than a few hours  * getting to a con  * one of the few decent bands left not fracturing * this country not being subjected to a bunch of silver spoon fed, tunnel visioned inbreeds and their leader the great hair fail. 

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2020? PJ dont last a year if you werar them 5/7 days

34. What kept you sane? thats been debatable since i was 6 lol/.  but this year.. whats kept me “anchored.” is: * My Pack  * Teen Wolf and other fandoms  * planing for 2021 even though I know my countries fked. 

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? see queston 22  

36. What political issue stirred you the most? I try to avoid politics, my family are all socialists and its like verbal torture in this house since i was old enough to realise it. 

37. Who did you miss? My Pack.  yes i got to see Adam, Heather and Ally for a few hours on and off throughout the yar, but thats like being stuck in solitary and only gettng to go outside once a month out of all 12 months.. not even that if i’m honest 

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. Happy! Happy! Happy! Happy! Happy! Happy!Choose your poison Poison! Choose your poison Poison! Choose your poison Poison!Everything is shutting down (Shutting down, shutting down) Everything is shutting down (Shutting down, shutting down) Everything is shutting down (Shutting down, shutting down)

 <Danny Elfman - Happy>

41. sum your __2020 up in pictures (IN NO ORDER) will be dong that in another post as always

#2020 review questionnaire #2020

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I would like to thank @leaalda for making these amazing banners.

This is an effort to spread the word about all fan fiction writers in our little fandom. If you would like to be featured or nominate a writer, please contact me. Please reblog this post if you can and check out some of @bettyluvsjuggie work!

1. First things first, if someone wanted to read your stories where can they find them.

http://archiveofourown.org/users/bettyluvsjuggie/works or my taglist on tumblr https://bettyluvsjuggie.tumblr.com/search/bljwrites

2. Tell us a little about yourself.

I’m 18 years old, and I live in England (I don’t have a posh accent and I don’t like tea- sorry for betraying the stereotypes). I’m a pretty artsy person, I love drama and especially dance- I’ve been dancing since I was like 3. You know that leg stretch thing Madelaine does as Cheryl, I can do that. I also love photography- I don’t have a great camera or anything yet, I just like taking pretty pictures.

3. What do you never leave home without?

My phone for sure.

4. Are you an early bird or a night owl?

Night owl definitely, my sleep pattern is so messed up.

5. If you could live in any fictional world which one would you choose and why?

Gosh, that’s a tough one. I’d love to visit Wonderland, as in ‘Alice in…’ because I’ve always loved that story, but I wouldn’t want to live there!

6. Who is the most famous person you’ve ever met.

I’ve met a couple of British Olympic and Paralympic medal winners but I don’t remember their names… clearly they weren’t that famous?

7. What are some of your favorite movies/TV?

I love classic 80s movies like The Breakfast Club, Ferris Bueller, St. Elmo’s Fire. I’m also a sucker for romantic movies like the first time, The Notebook, Me Before You.

TV shows? Obviously Riverdale, also Teen Wolf, Orphan Black, Brooklyn Nine Nine and Skins.

8. What are some of your favorite bands/musicians?

Varies so much across so many genres but some favourites currently are Oh Wonder, Ed Sheeran, Christine and the Queens, Halsey, All Time Low etc.

9. Favorite Books?

Anything sappy and romantic lol, and it’s a little clichéd tbf but the Fault in our Stars by John Green is one of my favourites I think, not that I’ve read it in ages, but I remember thinking it was really well written. A childhood favourite is Ballet Shoes by Noel Fielding.

10. Favorite Food?

Chicken, a broad category I know, but that’s what’s great about it! I also love spicy food.

11. Biggest pet peeve?

People who are assholes for no reason, it costs nothing to be kind.

12. What did you want to be when you were little? What do you want to be now?

I wanted to be a ballet dancer lol, how clichéd but like I said, I’m into dance. Now I want to work in psychology, probably working with children. Mostly I want to do something that makes me happy and might help make others a little happier too

13. What are your biggest fears? Do you have any strange fears?

I am f’ing terrified of needles- which sucks because I am desperate for a tattoo, but I have a panic attack when I have to get injections? Also, thunderstorms. I don’t understand how people love them because they terrify me!! I fully have to hide under a blanket and try and drown out the thunder and lightning

14. When you are on your deathbed what would be the one you’d regret not doing?

I hope that when I die, I can look back and see a full and happy life. I know that there will inevitably be ups and downs, but I hope that I will let the light outweigh the dark. So if anything, I would regret not allowing myself to be happy.

Okay… lets talk about your writing!

15. Which is your favorite of the fics you've written for the Bughead fandom?

A one-shot I wrote called Lovesick - Betty and Jughead are both sick after Jughead catches a cold from Betty. I really loved writing Jughead because he’s very over the top and whiny and it was just fun to do!

16. Which was the hardest to write, in terms of plot?

Currently my only multi-chapter is called He Was Gone - it’s set in two different timelines, sort of like flashbacks vs present time. I guess I don’t really struggle with the plot, but sometimes the words just won’t happen the way I want them to.

17. How do you come up with the ideas for you fic(s)? Do you people watch? Listen to music? Get inspired by TV/movies?

Sometimes for my one-shots I look at prompts but I never really follow it exactly, that’s why I never credit one. Does that make sense? Like I put my own spin on it. For example: if the prompt is Person A takes care of Person B while they’re sick. I say nah, make them both sick.

The rest of the time, it’ll be an idea that has manifested in my brain. Some fluffy situation that I can’t stop thinking about all day and have to put into words as soon as I can.

Sometimes I write while listening to music but it’s not essential.

18. Idea that you always wanted to write but could never make work?

I’m not good at smut but then again I haven’t really tried, maybe I will, maybe it won’t. I’m really enjoying writing fluff right now so it doesn’t bother me too much.

19. Least favorite plot point/chapter/moment you’ve written?

I can't really pinpoint an exact thing but I have definitely posted chapters of my multi-chapter that I wasn't completely satisfied with.

20. Favorite plot point/chapter/moment you’ve written?

From Lovesick again (I really do like it): “You’re very hot Jug.”

“Why thank you, my dear. And I love you very much, but I am in no state to fool around today” he deadpanned. I like sarcastic Jughead

21. Favorite character to write?

Jughead and Betty, can’t separate them sorry. I mostly only write those two anyway in my one-shots. I’m just in love with those characters and their love story.

22. Favorite line or lines of dialogue that you've written?

Jughead waited for Betty’s eyes to flutter open and meet his, meadows of green locked with floods of blue. He sighed quietly, “there is nothing in this world, or the next, that will stop me from kissing you.”

23. Best comment/review you’ve ever received?

Literally every comment I receive makes my heart sing and puts a smile on my face. There are no favourites because they all mean the world to me. Whether it’s three words or thirty, I can guarantee any comment will make me happy.

24. How do you handle bad reviews or comments?

I’ve had none so far thankfully, but I imagine I would try and not let the bad outweigh the good. I understand that’s sometimes easier said than done though.

25. If you could change anything in any of your stories, what would it be?

Sometimes I post a chapter and then when I’m writing the next one and I think of something and I’m like ‘damn that would have been so much better’ but I can’t really pick out something specific.

What is your favorite story you’ve ever written? Any fandom?

Before I entered the bughead fandom I didn’t even read fanfiction of any sort, let alone write it so there are no fics from other fandoms. I’ve already said Lovesick a few times (Really? Hadn’t noticed.) so I’ll pick another one. I am really loving writing He Was Gone to be honest, I don’t think I’ve seen anyone else do the Now/Then thing that I’m doing and I’m just enjoying exploring that.

27. What are you reading right now? Both fan fiction and general fiction?

Not really reading any general fiction at the moment sadly, I need to start reading again for sure. But in terms of fanfiction, I literally am LOVING Serpent and the Swan @jugandbettsdetectiveagency, meet the morning, which has just finished but it’s one of my favourites @sylwrites, OF COURSE The Stacks by @malmo722, a long time favourite (shout out to its brilliant author who also thought of this awesome idea, thanks for letting me be a part of it <3), there’s definitely loads more and literally tons on my need to read list.

28. Do you have an advice for writers that want to get into this fandom but might be scared?

I’ve seen a lot of people talk about comment culture and reaching out to others so I’ll try and write something a little different.

When you put your work out there for the first time, it is super scary and it can make you feel super vulnerable, I can remember the exact feeling because it feels like barely anytime has passed since I posted my first fic. Try not to expect immediate success, unfortunately it doesn’t happen for everyone. I know it can be intimidating to see a much smaller number of notes on your post than the most well-known writers get, but try and not let it affect you. Instead, try and appreciate every note that you get. Every like, kudos, comment or reblog, no matter how few or how many, means that someone read what you wrote and appreciated it, isn’t that awesome?! I think it’s epic.Also, if there isn’t an immediate or huge response to your fic, don’t let it discourage you. Don’t stop writing, keep going, write more.

And finally, don’t write for other people, write for yourself.

#bughead author spotlight #fan fiction #fan fiction writers #ao3 #betty cooper #jughead jones #jughead x betty #betty x jughead #Bughead #bughead fanfiction #riverdale #bettyluvsjuggie #lovesick #he was gone

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Tag Game

Tagged by @gone-to-fight-the-fairies Thanks! I don’t often do these because my attention span is short and I’m not that interesting but these questions look good haha.

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag some people.

1. Nickname(s): Liz, Lizzie (mostly family, good friends and those who I’m affectionate with), My husband calls me bumhead does that count?

2. Gender: Female

3. Sign: cancer but I’m not much into that stuff tbh

4. Height: about 2 inches shorter than Rob Benedict

5. Time: 9:46 am

6. Birthday: July 19th - same as one Mr Padalecki 😊

7. Favorite Bands: Louden Swain and Station Breaks obvs, Imagine Dragons, Muse, Twenty One Pilots,

8. Favorite Solo Artists: Rag ‘n Bone Man, Ed Sheeran, Jess Glynne

9. Song stuck in my head: if I’m honest? My husband’s alarm ringtone... because I sing at him after he’s turned it off to be annoying. 😂 otherwise A Lot To Learn by Louden Swain because I’ve been writing the series based off it.

10. Last movie I watched: Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix. I fell asleep though.

11. Last show I watched: Kings of Con (whilst washing the dishes for my Mum)

12. When did I create this blog: Can’t remember. Bout a year ago? Year and a half?

13. What do I post: SUPERNATURAL, Louden Swain, Supernatural fanfic, poetry, occasional fanart and a lot of Rob Benedict.

14. What did I last google: Telling you that would reveal a major secret I’m not willing to share yet 😉 it involved cheese.

15. Other blogs: I used to have a writing blog called Postcards from my Mind on ... another site I can’t remember. It was all serious and stuff.

16. Do I get asks: Yeah sometimes and I love it 😊

17. Why did I choose this URL: ok long story.

In Secondary School/high school I was obsessed with the sci-fi Show Farscape. It gave me escapism from the oppressive institution, from the mundane existence, from the bullying and isolation. My favourite character was Chiana, a Nebari. They are a race who are blue. Their planet is under an oppressive regime aiming to brainwash all its inhabitants to be peaceful, submissive and compliant. I felt this was a metaphor for my school. Chiana is a rebel who ran and escaped and followed her own will.

I created a character for myself in this race - an avatar, who I called ‘Nari’. This then became my online name on all forums and everything. When I created this blog it was actually going to be my writing journal back in 2010 but I abandoned it because I didn’t get on with Tumblr back then. When I became part of the SPN fandom, I picked this old account up again and I’m not smart enough to change the url 😂

So there you have it if you have ever wondered!

18. Following: Inactually don’t know! 200ish?

19. Followers: Just over 400!!! You all rock😊

20. Average hours of sleep: 7ish? When Rob’s On a night shift I get like 10 😂

21. Lucky number: 7 - because for some reason when I was learning my times tables (I really struggle with numbers and maths) it was the one I knew best. Since then I’ve always gone with 7 for everything.

22. Instrument: Drums, though I’m very rusty as I haven’t played in years. We don’t have the room for my kit to be set up properly and we live in a terrace so it’s too noisy.

23. What am I wearing: Pyjamas which currently involve green shorts with cats on and my SPN Love campaign t-shirt.

24. Dream job: Published author too tbf.

25. Favorite Food: odd things. I love peas. Hallumi. Avocado. Pizza. Many things.

26. Last book I read: I’m currently reading And the Mountains Echoed which is taking me forever because the text is small and it jumps about a bit. It’s soooo good though. I have to keep going back and reading bits out loud because it’s worded so beautifully. Also about to start The Core by my mate Peter V Brett ❤️

27. 3 favorite fandoms: Supernatural, Swain(does that count?) The Demon Cycle Maybe? I used to be majorly into the Farscape fandom and for a long time 30 Seconds To Mars (The Echelon).

28. What’s the most ridiculous fact you know? - the average Golf ball has 336 dimples in it.

29. What fictional character is amazing in their book/show/movie, but would be insufferable if you had to deal with them in mundane everyday situations? - Sheldon Cooper I guess!

30. What’s the best Wi-Fi name you’ve ever seen? - ha sleeping-with-your-WiFi and PrettyFlyForAWifi 😂