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cestcirque · 3 years

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The “Secret” Clues: Opening Acts

There are entirely too many clues to point out all of them, but here are the earliest signs of the correct pairs being drawn to each other (and away from their original partner) 👀

THIS IS TECHNICALLY AN EXTRA SO FEEL FREE TO IGNORE THIS TAG IF YOU’RE NOT ABOUT IT! 😝 @crescenttooru @marissaraeblr @roselleviennesstuff @ash-levi @ntimacy @tmtau @ysatrap @nerdynstoned @fucktheworlddude @tabipleats @afire24 @internethome @kac-chowsballs @putmeinyourdeathnote @xfangirl-trashx @kodzuklutz @madsumu @kotarousproperty @blkladyelle @itoshibaby @ego-risu-ad-sidera @renhold-nightspear @lilith412426 @kiyokisses @wrongbitch24 @moonlitevibes @honeypirate @rain-kissed-clouds @luckyminhibou @rinnieroulette @scentedflower @kunimisgf (and also dedicated to @ixwrites bc I see you rereading and I love you)

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The two main themes of Aperture were “love isn’t found, it’s built” and “what matters is the relationship you want to make work.” The Cardinal Set’s rebuttal to this is “maybe you were meant to meet but not to be” and “sometimes you simply can’t hit all the right points w someone”

The three original pairs met with the entirely wrong mindset and circumstances. Trompe-l’œil Y/N trying to “put Semi in his place,” Screentone Y/N having to “get a read on” Akaashi, and Extrema Y/N seeing Atsumu as a “more direct route” to her own goals

The context of their meetings and the Y/N’s abilities were designed to bring out the setters’ worst traits and/or exploit their good ones: Semi’s pride, Akaashi’s attachment, Atsumu’s ambition

All three Y/Ns also already have a “better choice” of a partner, who can hit two out of the three points in the cardinal set w them: Terushima is intimate and companionate, Udai is (or at least was) romantic and intimate, and Sakusa is companionate and romantic—any viable partner would have to surpass them

Right away the interest is fully one-sided. None of the Y/Ns see their original partners as actual partners until their friends literally tell them to, and even then it’s still shaky. Which brings us to one of the biggest clues of the series:

“Striking twice” relates to a different clue later but the key here is that love is built but it can’t be forced. And this includes me as the author forcing them together the way they were.

Now onto the specifics:

Trompe-l’œil Y/N and Semi: Semi right away is fighting a losing battle, and his was the most heart-wrenching for me. His insincerity and lack of trust in Aperture stems from seeing himself as second-best, so thinking like that, (a) the “someone’s heart” that he’s going to end up breaking is his own, and (b) Y/N forcing him to take a hard look at himself will only make him edit out even more of his heart and soul 💔 Seeing all the early analyses of this pair lowkey broke my heart, she’s actually v toxic for him

…And I’m sorry but there’s no way the love of Semi’s life would hate his love songs, that should’ve been a giveaway 😶

Screentone Y/N and Akaashi: On Akaashi’s side, the second-year slump is actually meant to refer to him. Udai’s struggles getting Meteor Attack off the ground parallel Akaashi getting easily attached, trying to course-correct his previous mistakes, and having to “force lightning to strike twice,” right up until the manga is soft-canceled. Y/N then echoes the “striking twice” sentiment applied to koi no yokan, and that’s your biggest hint

…Also Screentone Y/N’s mess of a Twitter head cannot at all be helped by Akaashi’s mess of an actual head, that was another giveaway 😝

Extrema Y/N and Atsumu: Sakusa tells the MSBY crew that they can’t grow while they’re on marionette strings, and Mika calls Extrema Y/N a puppeteer… simple as that. This one is the most straightforward—a lot of the more flat-out stated hints come from Extrema

Now onto the real pairs:

Trompe-l’œil Y/N and Akaashi: Ways of Seeing. A trick of the eye, trompe-l’œil—that’s all it is. While he hates the idea of it initially, Akaashi’s ways of seeing were changed by Aperture Y/N. And besides literally calling out Ways of Seeing by John Berger, this Y/N is looking for a different way of being seen. She has lost track of herself and needs to be rediscovered through being appreciated as herself by another. This particular quote from Berger is also about the female gaze vs. male gaze, relating back to Olympia

Screentone Y/N and Atsumu: Besides her newfound love of volleyball that can only be satisfied by 💕 a professional, 💕 her ambition right from the beginning is to see a real setter in action. I even tried to tone down her obsession / desire for a “real match” just bc Atsumu is the only “real setter” out of the three. He also shows his resistance to body language tells VERY early on—I was worried this one was too obvious 🤭

Extrema Y/N and Semi: Right after Mika calls her a puppeteer, Extrema Y/N corrects her and says she just wants someone to run with. This was around the time I was encouraging a look back at Aperture, bc Aperture Y/N’s one-sentence description of Semi was “The type of headstrong I can run with.” If anyone had found the combination of “puppeteer” + “someone to run with” specifically, you would’ve been able to predict the endings only a quarter of the way through the story 😝

#cardinal set smau #trompe loeil smau #screentone smau #extrema smau #secret clues

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cherryonigiri · 4 years

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the retrospective: alice’s 1k special || lover masterlist

matchup requests: CLOSED

@bbytetsu asked: 💘id love a matchup. mbti: infp/isfp. in kind, creative, strong-willed, independent, romantic. my hobbies: cooking, doing my nails, gym-ing, watching movies, writing, astrology. my style is minimal, a lil romantic, and a lil punk (i 💖daisy daisy tv, vivienne westwood). fav outfit: white oversized button up + corset skirt (like orseund iris’s gamine skirt) + black kitten heels. fav drink: cold barley tea/passion fruit green tea w boba! i dont have a fav team but it wouldnt b karasuno yikes + omg i didnt know my house or patronus lmfaoo but i took a quiz n it said ravenclaw n orca 😳 hope that helps — ang

A/N: aHHHHHH ANG!!!!!! HIIIIII I HOPE U R DOING WELL ALSO OMG TYSM FOR GOING OUT OF UR WAY TO TAKE UR PATRONUS + HP HOUSE TEST HEHEEH OOO THAT IS SUCH AN INTERESTING COMBO WITH ORCA + RAVENCLAW. LOTS OF LOVE -alice PS - lmaoooooooo I was gonna match u with suga but ig that’s not happening

Your matchup is: Semi Eita

How you met: You’re working part time as a bartender at a place where Semi regularly performs with his band. He probably does 2-3 shows per month, and you come in early before the night starts to set up the bar, so the two of you end up talking because it’s only the two of you in the bar until opening. You’re working on finishing up your college degree and Semi just graduated and started his job as a civil servant. The two of you strike up easy conversation whenever he’s setting up for the night, and by now you know his regular drink and have it ready for him after he and the band finish their set. Eventually, you find out that the two of you actually attended the same university, only that you were in different departments/colleges.

Your first date: I feel like Semi is the kind of guy who will play things by ear for a while - and figure out if you’re interested or not. He probably just approaches you after his set and sits down at the bar until closing, sipping his favorite drink. He offers to help you clean up and the two of you enjoy companionable silence. Probably acts all chill/suave and is like “hey do you want to go out with me?” once you finish locking up the bar. For your first date, probably a nice dinner befor hand followed by a movie. I feel like Semi is a sucker for classic date ideas. Ooo but he’d probably take you to a drive in movie theatre - probably in a pickup truck. He packs several blankets, pillows + snacks so the two of you can lie in the bed of the truck watching the movie in peace. Lots and lots of cuddling during said movie.

Your first kiss: Ahhh it’s so romantic bc it also happens on your first date. The credits are rolling and people are slowly starting to pack up their stuff but you and Semi just sit there, kind of leaning on each other and enjoying each other’s presence. Slowly the lights + the projector turn off and it’s just the two of you and the stars. Mayhaps there is (coincidentally) a shooting star or meteor shower as you cup his cheek to bring his face closer to yours. I just imagine after the first time your lips touch Semi can’t get enough and pulls you closer, dragging you into his lab where the two of you continue to make out for quite a bit before packing things up and driving back to the city. When he drops you off at your place late at night he pulls you into another long and fierce kiss before you get out of the car.

Anniversary: I feel like Semi would get you two matching/paired leather jackets - custom made/comissioned with some elaborate embroidery. They wouldn’t be identical, but the designs would be similar or centered around a similar theme - maybe the same flower/object embroidered but with slightly different designs that represent your individual quirks and personalities - your jacket might have symbols related to astrology, have some laces/ties whereas semi’s might have some references to his band + volleyball. I feel like you might get creative and maybe getting some custom jewelry for the two of you - some rings, studs, earrings, etc. For the day of the anniversary itself - the two of you have a lazy day at home - maybe a jam session or karaoke session where Semi plays the guitar + binge watching marvel movies or something.

How they propose: Probably after you graduate from university. Semi still plays gigs at the bar you used to work at, except now that you have a full time job in a field you’re passionate about, you’re usually part of the audience, nursing some fruity version of a Long Island iced tea. As the band has grown, Semi has also grown as a songwriter (let’s be real he’s secretly a poet) so they’ve been performing more and more songs with Semi’s original lyrics/melodies. Towards the end of the night, when the bar isn’t as crowded, Semi steps up to the mic and dedicates the next song (I think he might call it “glowing eyes in the evening”) and it’s basically a song about your first date + other memories in your relationship. At the end he walks into the audience and kneels down in front of you, and says “Hey, can we get married?”

What your wedding looks like: Definitely on the smaller side - Semi is a private person and invites a small group of people that he genuinely cares about + really values to the wedding. I feel like both of you have kind of a punk + modern aesthetic, so I feel like your wedding might also reflect that - I’m thinking you’ll probably find a gothic style chapel (architecture wise) to get married in bc it matches your aesthetic, but also the decorations would be super sleek + modern. As part of your reception Semi sings you a song + your first dance is to the recording of the song he sang when he proposed. I think Ushijima and Tendou tag team the best men toast and Semi probably yells at Tendou to stop calling him “semi semi” but also Tendou comes in clutch by providing desserts/chocolate for your wedding.

Newlywed/domestic hc: You and Semi buy a house together, mainly because you convert one of the larger bedrooms into a creative studio/haven of sorts. It’s soundproof so Semi can jam inside and also has a bunch of production equipment but it’s also sort of cozy - with fairy lights, bean bags and a lot of throw pillows + blankets. Also there’s a lot of cupboards of stuff that you use for your artistic/creative projects. Also I feel like you and Semi would enjoy couple workouts - maybe every weekend on Saturday morning you’ll clear out your living room and lay out some yoga mats + weights and follow a workout video together.

#semi x reader #semi eita x reader #semi eita #shiratorizawa x reader #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu #haikyuu imagines #hq x reader #shiratorizawa #alice's 1k special #the retrospective

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bibuckbuckley · 4 years

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Tagged by @waterisntreal thank you so much!!!!

17 questions and 17 people

Nickname: KJ (i know that’s what I’m called on here but that’s actually my nickname), Kagemaster/Kage (my brothers’ nickname for me) Lena Beana/Beana Girl (my mom’s nickname for me. it makes sense with my full name), & simply Kay.

Zodiac: Scorpio

Height: 5′5

Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff

Last Thing I Googled:

Song Stuck in My Head: I Just Wanna Shine by Fitz & The Tantrums bc i just played it with my mom not too long ago and ofc the Julie And The Phantoms in stuck in my head 24/7 rent free.

Number of Followers: 1,582 ❤️❤️❤️ (this is an amalgam of followers i’ve gained and lost since being on tumblr since like 2012/2013 era. but i also gained like almost 300 followers since i joined the jatp fandom so y’all are AMAZING).

Amount of Sleep: ngl i have no clue. it always varies. my amount of sleep is like playing a game of russian roulette.

Lucky Number: 2 & 3

Dream Job: I honestly don’t know anymore, but I’ve always been trying to be some kind of psychologist and a novelist.

Wearing: Pajama pants with small purple and blue little intricate and flowery designs Also a semi-big dark grey t-shirt with a giant, decorative skull that has a giant purple and pinks flower on each of it’s eyes. It’s one of my favorite shirts tbh. (for those who are in different time periods i like to point out that I am in fact wearing pajamas at 2 o’clock in the afternoon).

Favorite Song: Currently all of the songs from JATP, especially Wake Up.

Favorite Instrument: The ukulele (partly bc I kinds semi-play it but mostly bc i love it so much), the flute (i miss playing it tbh), as well as the guitar and piano even though i can’t play them worth beans. but i was raised with my mom playing her acoustic and electric guitars all of the time, so i have a special appreciation for them).

Aesthetic: cottagecore. fairycore. fall sunlight (not summer sunlight, fall sunlight. summer sunlight likes to do everything in it’s power to kill me. fall does does not), cool breezes, basically everything fall, but also very springy aesthetics too like flowers blooming. the smell of rain. ocean waves. old books on book shelves. singing and dancing to favorite songs. (there’s so much more and i’ve explained it better b4 but this’ll do for now.)

Favorite Author: Neil Gaiman

Favorite Animal Noise: ooohh this is tough. either dolphin sounds, monkey sounds, or cats sounds especially when they meow or purr.

Random: literally nothing is popping in my mind bc my mind completely blanks under pressure when i have to come up with stuff lol (oh hey that actually is a random fact. it worked!)

Again thank you so much!

Tagging: @dirtycandyy @we-are-all-alex (i know u two already go tagged so don’t have to do it again) @e11evenseggos @hcourageous @raymolinas @lukesjulie @only-here-for-jatp @incorrect-jatp-quotes @incorrectphantoms @fangirling-account @pattersonluke @reggies-jam @notsunsetcurve @sunsetcurves @theofficialdramallama @juliephantoms @alexreggieluke @pearlseleganciess @sunsetswerv @lukesjulies @sunsetcurvez @a-writer-who-never-writes @raiseyourvoicetotherain and anyone else who wants to do this! (but none of you have to do this if you don’t want to)

#tag games #about me #again thank you so much hon #also sorry to those that i didn't tag!#as i said my mind completely blanks under pressure #also #i'm pretty sure tagged more than 17 ppl #oops

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famedexclusivearchive · 4 years

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[ARTICLE] BC, DIMENSIONS, AND GOLD STAR ANNOUNCED AS SPONSORS OF SEOUL SPRING FESTIVAL

The Seoul Spring Festival was announced earlier in the year by the local government as a city-wide event taking place from March 30th to April 5th. The city of Seoul will be hosting a number of events over the course of the week, as will private businesses.

Recently, it was announced that entertainment companies BC Entertainment, Dimensions Entertainment, and Gold Star Media will all be sponsoring the festival in part and the idols on each company’s roster will be performing at one of two concerts hosted during the run of the festival. Tickets to the live concert events will cost ₩30000 each and fans unable to attend the live event can access an official live stream of both concerts for ₩15000.

ADMIN NOTES:

The time has come for our next drop event! In something of a spiritual successor to our 2018 Busan Summer Festival event, this is a week-long event in-’verse with several different varied opportunities for interactions.

Everyone under the three companies will be required to participate in their respective concert part of the festival barring extenuating circumstances such as major injury or illness. It must be cleared with the admin if you want your muse to have a plot that will keep them from participating in that portion of this event. Public activities for the event as well as the Pink Party are entirely optional both in and out of character, while the other private and semi-private activities (the cocktail party, the art exhibition, and the charity gala) will be considered optional out of character, but you’re welcome to say your muse was forced to attend by management in-character for the sake of interactions.

Activities marked “semi-private” will be open to only a select guest list, not the public, but some press may be present. Activities marked “private” will be open to a very select guest list and no press will be present.

EVENT DETAILS:

The Seoul Spring Festival takes place in-universe from March 30th to April 5th.

A number of events will take place in Seoul over the span of the week, from fun public events designed to heighten everyone’s spirits to exclusive, private events only the country’s most in-demand citizens such as celebrities and the wealthy have access to. As sponsors of the event, all three companies have allowed their idols some leeway in their schedules to participate in the festival even in their down time.

Muses will have a variety of required schedules throughout the week, but in their downtime, they’re also allowed to spend some time at the festival on their own as long as they follow the normal rules of staying on their best behavior in public. Any music shows taking place on the days of the festival can be assumed to either not interfere with what can be done that day or will be pre-recorded at a more convenient in the morning.

Outside of scheduled events, during the week of the festival, there will be sales at local shops and restaurants and smaller, special spring-themed events at cafes and parks.

The beginning and end of the festival will each be marked with a concert, for which each performer will be dressed in colors and cuts to suit the spring season. The concert set lists and styling can be found HERE.

CHOICE ACTIVITIES:

There are open events on the schedule listed below open to individual muses. This Google Form has been set up for muns to submit for the activity of their choice. At the time of posting, this will be open to one muse per mun only. All spots will be first come-first served from the time the event post goes up since choice activities will not have major career effects.

Keep in mind that canonically, companies would have final say in where their idols are scheduled, so you can request activities that your muse wouldn’t enjoy doing! These are completely optional, but can give you situations to write solos or threads about.

OVERALL:

In game, this event takes place Monday, March 30, to Sunday, April 5, but threads and other posts for this event may be started from Monday, March 23, at the time this post goes up, to Sunday, April 19, at 11:59PM EDT. Threads may be continued past the end date if needed, but must be started before then. Non-event related interactions may of course be conducted during this time as well.

NOTE: All posts related to the event should be tagged #fmdseoulspring.

SCHEDULE:

MONDAY - MARCH 30TH

9AM-11:45AM: Mini solo fan-signs (up to 30 fans each) at COEX Mall in Gangnam, Seoul.

9AM-9:30AM: Open.

9:45AM-10:15AM: Open.

10:30AM-11AM: Open

11:15AM-11:45AM: Open.

**2PM-5PM - Seoul Spring Festival Day Concert in Songpa, Seoul

2 MCs: @fmdxhaeun & @fmdhajin - cannot be performing during this concert.

Performing artists: BC Soloist 1, Dimensions Soloist 3, Gal.actic, Gold Star Soloist 3, Dimensions Soloist 2, Aria, Lucid, Unity, BEE, Fuse, CHARM, WISH, Origin [SETLIST]

4 solo or collab performance slots: @durifmd, @fmdtaeyong & two open spots - must have released at least two points claim songs at the time of the concert; the muse(s) can perform up to two songs.

TUESDAY - MARCH 31ST

12PM-1PM - Casual S/S fashion show, designs done by local fashion design students in Mapo, Seoul.

4 runway models: @fmdxyoungjoo, @fmdjynx & two open.

2PM-3PM - Formal S/S fashion show, designs done by local fashion design students in Mapo, Seoul.

4 runway models: @fmdchanmi, @fmdhyejung, & two open.

**5PM-9PM - Cocktail party and red carpet hosted by Vogue Korea and sponsored by Dior in Gangnam, Seoul. [semi-private event]

Attendance open to all muses.

WEDNESDAY - APRIL 1ST

1PM-4PM - K-Pop Cover Contest in Mapo, Seoul.

3 MCs: @fmdjaein, @dawonfmd & @fmddaisuke.

5 surprise special cover performances: @fmdtaejin, @fmdminah, @fmdxlux, @fmdnara, & one open. - idols will surprise the fans participating in the contest by giving unannounced cover performances themselves. performances can be vocal, rap, or dance, and may be done solo or as a duo. the song does not have to be an idol song or even a korean song, but must be family-friendly.

**6PM-10PM: Contemporary art exhibition opening at National Museum of Modern and Contemporary Art Seoul in Jongno, Seoul. [semi-private event, exhibition theme: “new life”]

Attendance open to all muses.

THURSDAY - APRIL 2ND

9AM-11AM: Cherry blossom photo shoot for a spring/summer wedding line on Ewha Women’s University Campus in Seodaemun, Seoul. (concept references)

3 womenswear models: @fmdbyul & two open.

3 menswear models: @fmdjiseok, @fmdyunki & @fmdsamsoo.

**10PM-3AM- Pink Party at a high-end bar and lounge in Yongsan, Seoul. [private event, dress code: pink and white.]

Attendance open to all muses.

FRIDAY - APRIL 3RD

9AM-11:45AM: Mini solo fan-signs (up to 30 fans each) at COEX Mall in Gangnam, Seoul

9AM-9:30AM: @fmdboram

9:45AM-10:15AM: Open.

10:30AM-11AM: Open

11:15AM-11:45AM: Open.

**All day - Seokchon Lake Cherry Blossom Festival in Songpa, Seoul.

Attendance open to all muses.

**11AM-6PM - Food tasting festival in Mapo, Seoul.

Attendance open to all muses - will feature discount food stalls from popular restaurants and cafes.

SATURDAY - APRIL 4TH

**All day - Seokchon Lake Cherry Blossom Festival in Songpa, Seoul.

Attendance open to all muses.

**7PM-11PM - Charity gala at Seoul Botanic Park in Gangseo, Seoul. [private event]

Attendance open to all muses.

SUNDAY - APRIL 5TH

**All day - Seokchon Lake Cherry Blossom Festival in Songpa, Seoul.

Attendance open to all muses.

**8PM-11PM - Seoul Spring Festival After Sunset Concert in Gangnam, Seoul.

2 MCs: @fmdsophie & @fmdmaverick . - cannot be performing during this concert.

Performing artists: Femme Fatale, Gold Star Soloist 2, MARS, 7ROPHY, Element, Silhouette, Alien, Dimensions Soloist 1, Decipher, Lipstick, Impulse, Knight, Gold Star Soloist 1 [SETLIST]

4 solo or collab performance slots: @fmdjoosung. @eunahfmd, @fmdsooyeon & one open - must have released at least two points claim songs at the time of the concert; the muse(s) can perform up to two songs.

POINTS AVAILABLE:

As with all events, there are special points up for grabs.

INTERACTIONS: Having an event thread with a starter and at least three replies (starter ▻ partner reply ▻ op reply ▻ partner reply) by the end of the event is worth 2 points. This is valid for up to ten threads.

INTERACTIONS: Having an event thread with someone your muse has never had a thread with before is worth 1 additional point for each thread for up to ten threads.

INTERACTIONS: Posting an open starter for the event is worth 2 points. This counts for up to one open thread starter (not a text/sms post) per character and does not count toward the monthly limit. To be a truly open starter, this should not take place during an individual choice activity or one of the two concerts.

SOLO: Writing a self-para related to spring in some way is worth 3 points not counting toward your monthly total. There are a lot of ways to interpret this prompt — it can take place during this event, or it can be about an important moment that happened in the spring in your muse’s past, or it can just be about their feelings about spring or something they like to do during the season!

If anything in this post is unclear or you have any questions, please feel free to contact the admin. Please like this post to let me know you read it.

#fmdevent #fmdseoulspring #queued post

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xmoonlitxdreamx · 6 years

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J2G Works Charm Review

HEY kind of random but I tried out a different charm manufacturer recently! I haven’t seen any reviews for this manufacturer so I thought I’d talk a bit about my experience. The manufacturer is called J2G Works, and they’re based in Singapore. Here’s their website:

http://j2gworks.com/

More info and pics under the cut! (also tagging @howtobeaconartist in case they want to share w their followers)

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Since this was a sort of test-run, I only ordered J2G Works’s minimum quantity of 5 charms at 6 cm. I did double-sided printing with some custom parts without a layer of white between the front and back to give a transparent-color look. I also ordered double acrylic charms, but received single acrylic charms. I’ll talk a bit about the printing mix-up first.

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Acrylic Printing Mistake

So the first thing I wanna get out of the way is that they messed up the kind of charm I ordered. The charms I ordered were supposed to be double acrylic, meaning the image is sandwiched between 2 pieces of acrylic. This is more expensive and protects the image from fading or getting scratched. Vograce is the only other manufacturer I know of who does double acrylic, but I’ve had difficulties with Vograce in the past so I was excited to try double acrylic out with a different manufacturer!

However, when my charms arrived it seems they sent me single acrylic charms instead, with the image printed on the back of one sheet of acrylic. This is how places like Zap! Creatives and Acorn Press do their charms. You can see that my charms aren’t double acrylic from this pic:

Notice how there’s only one piece of acrylic, and no indication of the img being sandwiched between two pieces of acrylic. To compare, here’s what the side view of a double acrylic charm (that I got from a zine) looks like:

On double acrylic charms you should be able to see where the two pieces of acrylic meet. The charms I ordered didn’t have this. Plus I could feel the matte texture of the printed image on the back side like I do w/ Zap! Creative and Acorn Press charms.

I’m used to selling these charms so it’s not a big deal, but it was still disappointing + I paid the extra price for the double acrylic... I’ve emailed them, but I’m still waiting to hear back about getting some sort of compensation/refund for this mistake.

BUT YEAH NOW THAT THAT’S OUT OF THE WAY, l’ll talk a bit about the details working w/ J2G.

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Packaging

Something that was interesting to me was that the charms came individually packaged in little plastic bags! This was a nice detail and saves the trouble of bagging them for whoever I would sell them to later. The charms also come with a protective film on the front and back that should be peeled:

The protective film on the front is v noticeable and easy to take off, but the one on the back is a more transparent, thicker plastic that’s a bit harder to take off. It’s also not totally noticeable, so I have a feeling that customers who buy my charms may not take off the back film if I give the charm as I’ve received them from J2G Works... so I guess in that sense having them individually packaged could be a hassle if you wanna take the films off before giving them to customers, but eh I think it’s a neat touch.

As also pictured above, it also comes with a keyring already attached. You can e-mail to order charms without the keyring if you want to attach your own (phonestraps/etc) but the keyring comes attached at no additional cost.

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Minimum Quantity/Pricing/Shipping

J2G Works’s mimimum order quantity is 5 charms at $1.91 USD per single acrylic charm (aka the kind of printing that Zap and Acorn Press does). The default charm size is 6 cm (approx 2.4 inches). Considering the low order quantity and the relatively large size, I think this is a great deal! Zap’s minimum order quantity for 2″ acrylic charms is 25, while Acorn Press’s minimum order is 10. They don’t offer any bulk discounts of orders less than 100 charms, but I think the price is still reasonable for those who want to order in small quantities at a time.

Here’s a size comparison to 2″ charms from Zap Creatives and Acorn Press, btw:

Also, I’m not sure if J2G would split the minimum order of 5 between different designs... their website just says “minimum purchase 5″ and has a location for uploading one file for that order, so probably not. But still, for someone like me who gets worried about ordering in bulk and selling charms bc I don’t do conventions that frequently, being able to order charms at 5 charms per design is useful.

The only downside about pricing and ordering in small quantities is that since they’re Singapore-based and I’m US-based, shipping is v expensive. My charm order for the double acrylic charms was around $12, but the shipping was around $30. The shipping isn’t so bad if you add more things to your order (they offer a lot of other services) but it’s definitely not ideal if you only want to order a small quantity of items.

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Template/Customization

Based on my past experiences with Zap! and Acorn Press, I thought customization was kind of a hassle with J2G. Here’s what J2G’s Template looks like:

The way their template works is that you literally put the front and back of your charm in the boxes, and that’s it. It’s really straightforward for people who just want acrylic charms of their art, but it makes it difficult for those who want to customize how the charms are printed and cut.

Unless you email them, they do the cut-line and loop hole themselves. I can definitely see this being a problem for people who want to put multiple loops and non-silhouette cuts for their charms. I’m not really sure what the protocol for customizing the cut would be, but I’m guessing you’d have to email them and put the desired cut on a different layer like one would w/ Zap’s or Acorn Press’s templates.

Their template also doesn’t have any indication of where the white in between the front and back layers should go. I asked J2G over email what I should do if I wanted transparent-colored parts of the charm (which is what I wanted for the roses), and they told me to put the transparent-color parts on a separate layer from the opaque-color parts.

Anyway, I think this style of template is definitely nice for those who don’t have much experience with setting up charm files, but for those of us who are used to setting up files I can see doing charm customization via email correspondence as a negative part of the ordering process.

***

Printing Quality

I’m gonna go through a couple things one by one, but as a summary I’d compare their printing quality to Acorn Press. (And I like Acorn’s charms, so overall I’d say that’s a plus)

Colors Like with most manufacturers, the colors are a bit darker and duller than the colors on my computer. One nice thing that I noticed is that the white parts are pure white, unlike the white parts in Zap charms (which are usually a little grainy). Here’s how the white looks on J2G charms:

Notice the white in the eyes doesn’t have any grains in it. On the other hand, here’s a Zap charm:

Here, you can see in the eyes and teeth that the white isn’t pure white.

This isn’t a huge deal bc it’s not noticeable from far away, but it’s something that’s always bothered me about Zap’s printing, ahaha.

Double-Sided Printing From what I can tell, the double-sided printing doesn’t have as opaque of a white layer in between as Zap’s charms. Here’s the back-view of the J2G charm in slightly-strong natural lighting:

The front of the charm is pretty clearly visible on the back of the charm. Here’s how double-sided printing from Zap looks in comparison:

I don’t see the other side of the charm almost at all here. If I hold it against a strong light it becomes visible:

The back is VERY visible against a light for the j2g charm, tho:

That may just be because the back has a lot of dark colors against the light parts of the front.

The colors are actually opaque enough imo, it’s really only noticeable against semi-strong light, especially from the back view. Here’s what the front looks like in the more neutral lighting:

And here’s what the back looks like in less-strong lighting:

I think what’s mostly making the front show through on the back is the texture, which is what I’ll talk a bit about now.

Texture Kind of an annoying thing is that the texture of the front is very visible on the back. It’s like this weird embossed texture on the spots where the front and back don’t align? Here’s a pic that can maybe show how the texture is weirdly embossed:

It’s most visible in strong lighting, but you can feeling just by running your fingers over it. :T I’ve bought charms that have this texture on it before tho, so it’s not a huge deal... I don’t have any double-sided Acorn Press charms, but I think it’s Acorn Press that has this oddly textured finish. You can kind of see it on this single-sided charm I made thru Acorn Press:

People still buy charms like this so it’s not a super big deal, but I just prefer a less textured finish on charms. I think it distracts less from the back image on the charm, too. This might’ve been solved if J2G gave me the double acrylic charms like I ordered, but I’m not sure. :T But yeah, this was the main issue I had with the printing.

***

Customer Service

For me, I found the customer service to be very friendly and flexible! Like I noted throughout, I had some customized parts for the charm and they were very accommodating and polite about that. They normally respond in about 1 business day, but it depends...? I think they actually have 24 hour customer service (?!) which is wild... they once sent me an email at midnight Singapore time, ahaha. Communication was also never an issue, which I know can be a problem for people who use Vograce. (English is widely spoken in Singapore and I spoke in English in my emails, which was never a problem).

Another nice thing about working with them is that it seems like they have a quality control aspect to their process or smth...? I used a chalky/fuzzy brush for this charm so they emailed me to let me know they didn’t think my lines would print well. (I told them I’ve printed w/ these lines before, so I would be fine with the quality.) That’s just a small thing, but idk it’s nice that they reach out to the customers abt printing concerns.

Lastly, they also email you some pictures of the finished charms before shipping! I don’t know if they do that so you can voice any concerns before they ship, but idk I thought it was nice.

***

ANYWAY yeah that was my experience with them. Here’s a quick run-down of the pros and cons:

Pros:

Low minimum quantity (ideal for me personally)

very cheap price per unit, especially considering the charm size

comes with keyring attached

individually packaged

friendly and responsive customer service

relatively decent print quality

Cons:

messed up my order (single acrylic rather than double acrylic) which was kind of a bummer

template not very customizable

texture from front image visible on the back image

shipping is expensive

I think I’ll definitely use their services again because they have some other charm options that I’m interested in... but I’d only use them for the more straightforward charms rather than ones that need more specialized customization for cuts/loops/opaqueness. I’d also recommend ordering a minimum of 25 charms from them considering the shipping price. But yeah, overall I had a good experience with them and I think the charms are of the same quality as other charms I’ve seen sold at artist alleys. :^)

Thanks for reading, hope it was useful!

#review #j2g works #artist alley #artist alley help #acrylic charms #i didn't proofread this so sorry if it's wild

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ubelyptus · 6 years

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soooooooooooo bb,,,...,.,,,strawberrry.

......I JUST FIND IT

interestinggggggggg

how you Big mad cuz MY block game seeems

skrong or summn

hanh???

oh.

well.

i never blockedt you

on snapchat

or whatsapp (you weren’t even muted),

yup, i still haven’t

but i didn’t have a properly working phone...

still......don’t

but either way you keep threatening to split on me

like a weapon…fcking

manipulative as shit

it just seems to me that you just want to?

you never imprinted tho

but she did

so why should you?

i won’t ever, again, fight....

….with you.

my favorite accomplice

i wanted to learn with an open mind

even after my phone died

how to remain soft with you.

even after being callled

“old news"

pffft

at least until

i ‘m eventually murdered by a cisgender man...

but

don’t fckn

pppppppop shit

cuz like….. literally…..all i did was change my url.

shit, i Only blockedt you AFTER i saw you referencing gaslighting.

bc uhmm IIIIIIif that is about meeeeeeeeeeee

ha!!!

how fucking dare you.…..lyk....wuhh?

like when you said there is no difference between syn and alesia?????

HANH?

oh, but you think i blockedt you first bc i didn’t wanna get my feelings hurt?

….mhhhhhhh. ok.

seeems odd since you’re not liar

right, eli????

but,,,,,so what’s this about the cozi password change? am i just shifting too rapidly between your and my reality???

bet.

no, i blocked you on things after THAT

AND THAT WAS TODAY

oh, and didn’t your friend, my so-called “fighting buddy,” anan…

.just,,,,,fckn block me like i’m useless

trash

randomnly

after all

i asked

was that they

not speak to me

about you?

but YAAAAAAS twas ONLY Me and simply Myself and just i

who ain’t wanna get….hurt.

hanh?????

oh ,

obvi,

yeaaaaaaa

yeeeei

truuuu,

sooooo

sssssorry,,,,but

calling me “old news” or saying i’m “old too”

don’t forget your girl is 2 yrs older than you

and then staying silent for these few days about changing passwords

that..... already did that, boo

at least i sent alesia third party emails thru the app, boo

she pushin 30 and can only talk you

venuse....????. no....a

talking and

w a l k i ng tragedy

entyway don’t bring that up just to be loud and wrong about that too

you’re not always wrong tho, you know

you’d probably fuck up and slit my throat

powertripping

when i’m wrong about you

and you can only do that if you

black and white

me out

to NEVER BE WRONG

AND I DO

ACTUALLLY HATE THAT ABOUT YOU!!!!!

WHY CAN’T I EVER BE WRONG, ELI????

WHY????//

OH your emotions....? about your father that after 6 yrs you didn’t tell me about?

your reality? when you have a habit of projecting?

and lowkey being dishonest

to yourself first

and then subsequently

to me????

your time? when i’m mostly on yours?????

your efforts? like ripping up notes and telling me

“my turn” to get fucked

by you

was over

when the only reason i was tiredt

was bc i crashed

too tiredt after explaining to You

that

i‘m not even going to LET you play middleman

for a baby pushign 30????

oh. bet.

but since we’re being transparent:

here are receipts with timestamps:

http://microhealer.tumblr.com/tagged/hop-hop-hop-hop

http://microhealer.tumblr.com/tagged/hop+hop+bun

http://microhealer.tumblr.com/tagged/hop-hop-bunny

yea you must love dirty laundry

oh.

but that’s what i knew about you.

oh:

be yr own guest my love

i Knew you would ignore the “old news” message since that's literally when you started telling on yourself

you do treat trans partners

like side hoes,

thasssa wholeBET

and some change

for you to create

cuz thassssssss

how you feel about me fr fr

so that “like” is mine but

i…..actually really Really love that you laughed tho.

bc i haven’t heard you fully belly laugh in a long time.

if ever iirh.

even after knowing you for 6+ years,

your supposed “first friend “ in the DMV

the person i can trust my life with

the only

you’re my only...

,,,,,even after i spiraled

and cut myself for the first time since middle school?

now my friends are fucking spotting you

and talking to each other

about you

oh, you didn’t know.

but i got mehndi done today

let a summer baby boy

love

a cut up

by me

body

before noon

today

thinking i’d see you and we could talk like,,,,

…..like real people do.

and you’d be distracted by the design and not zone in

on the failed cuts

on my wrist

since i’m shit at not just repeatedly carving into

white meat

when i can only use a ceramic blade

i just didn’t WANT you to

so i never “came home to [you]”

you said that on nov 4th/5th of last year

and

i’ve been looking up bpd all day

eventho i told you

i don’t trust the internet

sooooo you not telling me

didn’t hel p

but it’snot at all your job to

and i sitll

stilllstil stil stilllca’t see

....and i dind’t want you to see.

bc i’m not just a man.

i’m still femme

which you seem to love to forget

and still soft enough, i think.....

i hope…..or learning to be soft,,,,

where it won’t get me killed,,,,,

but where it still counts.

with…or without you.

either way i’m a man who loves you. a man whose phone died at 28% trying to get you to see that i was trying to be soft even after you called me

“old news”

but,,,,,.....,,,compared to …..who?????? sh....oooo??????

your new girlfriend who is 1 or 2 years older than you?????

and can’t speak to me

a man who is only barely out of 23???

and instead only whispers

to you?????

bruh, she’s clearly not fond of me.

and you’re not a liar ,

so don’t

she had to tell you that she wasn’t the one putting out “aggy energy”

specifically

during yennayer which

i ruined

and im still sorru

but which means

she’s probably done it in your apartment on purpose already, boo

didn’t think of that, did you

lingustically.,,,,,nope.

oh, but there’s power in a whisper, darling.

i am just cardinal like you

i am air too.

i should know

bc i accidentally whistled....and,,,,,,

i only blockedt you so that you wouldn’t “hurt [your] own feelings”

like you told anan you sometimes do.

sooooooooooooo yea... i

did it so you wouldn’t hurt you.

as cardinal water/pisces moons

are prone to do.

you can;t drain

and you can’t drown

ain’t that how i affirmed you

i already hurt me

when i dissociated

and i’m STILL FUCKING sorry

that there was blood that you had to see.

i couldn’t stay in my body long enough to clean fast enough

but i still didn’t want you to hurt you bc of me.

like you did repeatedly

bc of bpd or bc of basically cishet or at least cis ~queer girls

or other partners

like when you were with kat,

who’s still disgustingly attached to a messy white

and now a new black kid.....

or with shushoo.

and how you might with alesia.

no, correction: how you have with alesia.

how you will continue to, if you’re not careful, with alesia.

you’re a lion facing a prince of a house kitten ,....,

.,, who is homeless.

do you feel good, big boss?

all i asked was for you to listen t

o how you were speaking to me

on the phone

at your place of work

and when she’s there

possibly a place of worshiop

..... even after i told you

that i was intentionally putting energy into Not fighting you

and you

say you

"don’t wanna be a middle person"

but you also….wanna cape for yet another fucking cis girl.

who isn’t even muslim this time.

HOWtragic.

i couldn’t laugh

couldn’t ever laugh at sway

bc by whatever fortune if you do split or don’t

i still love you

i love you too much

but in those moments after that phone call….

after my phone died…

and my body couldn’t move to charge it.

wouldn’t move….

and all i could do was cry during the adhan.

bc you’re tooo much like matt now

i wish i knew what it could feel like to

hate someone

who called you

"OLD NEWS”

compared to a bitch pushing 30

youza WHOLE fuckn clown, dawg.

matt did this same shit

move me out for a new side bitch

yet anotehr cis

look at how cute trans love can be

no,

this is what you give me:

laughter.

BC what fucking luck.

BUT IT’S gotta be TROOF

s ince you don’t lie?/?

shit I LAUGHED TOO:

it sounds like….

NEITHER OF US

KNEW WHAT COULD

HAVE BROUGHT US

HERE, ELI.

maybe you nursing poison in your own home

and telling me i’m making you feel unwelcomed

on a blog and not to my face did it

fuckingggggggggg. why’ald.

you think it’s too much sweat????? false.

that apartment stayed cold.

too many tears?

ok ok yea troof.

but too much love? forreal?

we?????

ooooop

hoooop!!!

oh, you speakin’ french now. our collective colonizers tongue in 20gayteeeeeeeen?????

CAN’T RELATE

bc I’M TOOOOOO GAY

wow. we ruined it, fam???? fr fr?

nah, chosen fam.

you ruined us.

you ruined us over:

a cis girl and

your own impatience

and your own anger.

and my slow brain and my slow body

i’m not sure she’d find you from maryland

if you dissociated bc your other semi

but not

girlfriend emotionally abused you

until people who didn’t know you were muslim

thought you were fucking drunk

and you fucking stilllllll

work with her?????

why couldn’t you just wait until she found a new job???

ain’t she trying????

or izzzzzz she??????

hahhnh???

where was the damn rush?????

you’re like two goofy high schoool kids

reaching for the quickest nuts every 6 hours

like jesus fuck.

you’re irresponsible as shit telling me i’m a grown man making grown decisions and i see this

?????

unREASONABLE, ELI.

this isn’t a situation of a kettle calling a pot black

babe

bc i’m actually Black

and you’re not

but she’s black too.

what did i tell you:

"you datin’ two whole Niggas. if you fight me over her, you will lose either way.”

but instead you called me “obtuse”

SAT words for me

but not for you…….what.,,,.,,,,,,,, fckn luck……..

what luck,,,,,that the one person who housed me consistently

and kept me alive

when i trusted no one

would call me "old news”

and let their cis girlfriend

turn herself into your

personal "healing” …...

sibkid. \\\\

howTragic like all of CC’18

you know what happens when you slip and get sloppy and let a baby bitch be responsible for your healing?

she leaves.

for a real bitch

with microhealing abilities,

GOOFY.

she worships a new goddess every friday?????

well, i know only of orixas

and only of black power

but from what i know of goddesses OFF of OUR continent…

soooon...

at least one of them WILL want a soul from her

just letting you know it might not have to be hers.

…..OH!

and when i chargedt and openedt my phone after days of wandering. ….the last messages from you are:

YOU SHOULD HAVE SAID “LEAVE [[[[MMMMMYYYYYYY]]]]]] KEYS”

like a fucking baby.

imagine that.

even to you, i’m still a whore.

out…the…bakc….dooor.

??????

i couldn’t even work a john when i wanted to

if i was sad about you.

but imagine?????

a cis-pixie woman older than you

letting you treat her like a child?????

then

imagine me feeling shamed into leaving

bc of pictures of your smiling face

after i cut myself and felt shame

that

in your unwelcomed to both me and you

BLOOD

blood

is what brings me back

to life.

how.

fucking.

why’yald.

i blockedt you so that you didn’t lurk.

bc THat is what you do.

instead of speaking with me,

you seem to have expected me

to read your blog back 7 years.

and just know all of the fatherly things that trigger you.

like…even during the times when i was afraid of my own phone and laptop for 2 months bc of my sister, brother, and birth parents????

funny how i’m the youngest of us “grown folks” and yet still find that really

FUCKING

immature.

of YOU

to do

you really never knew me, or did you…..??

you donated to me before you even knew me.

so i know your heart has parts made of gold.

but now you show off your crystals and your gold.~~~

yep.

here we are.

you’ve "only every seen [me] as a boy.”

ok. bet.

and unti this post:

i’ve hardly heard you refer to me as a man.

so:

ain’t you late?

ain’t you late, babe??

ain’t you late?

i’m a year younger than you.

which means if you grown

i musta BEEN a man too, boo.

but you’ll always be

my favorite accomplice

and always be my favorite friend too.

but you cannot think you can play me by calling me

“old too” or “old news"

for young fish who is basically femme trade

and thinking i won’t cut open a fool.

which coincidentally always happens to be me

she’s hardly out to anybody important and lying at work too.

i must be bigger fool.

bc you knew better and didn’t do better.

but i’m being immature.

ok ...,.,,.,,

cute.

your pisces moon is keeping you from seeing clearly but that’s what young water seems…to do. to much light reflected; tho it is a fountain of youth.

she’s pushing 30 baby

but true, you’re her boo.

yea, a childish boo.

you ever wonder why her playlist from you had more songs than ours did?

why she can never keep a man around for valentines day?

oh but don’t you love “patterns”, baby????

unless it’s her leaving shit around the apartment

or her triggering you

or her treating your dick like it’s foreign,

even to you.

my gay ass was shookedt

when you told me you voluntarily

triggered yourself

for her kitty too

but i AM

a grown man

who is “running” from….you

you think that statement is not…. dishonest??

you really think that statement is true???

—

i didn’t run. i just

needed space

and you afforded me none.

you couldn’’t afford it.

february is before march which is before april

sooooooo it’s always a tight month ain’t it???????

oooooooh but you afforded her plenty.

she gets to take off her fucking pants while i try to figure out if i should move from a spot next to you….

on your fucking bed.

she took off her pants to climb near you before she could even say hi to

nooonoo

ahh right

and THEN ME.

“Oh, you CAN stay”

that’s what She told me.

and you said nothing.

so i left….the room.

i never run.

you pushed me out with your captain save-a-cis silence.

it’s violence.

and

you’re still pushing and pushing and pushing and pushing

until me…you know

i, the "old news”

just feels like he should just

fucking fall

onto the district streets

and she finds it

to her fucking fancy

to fall

into your lap

like a damn,,,,zel.

distressedt.

with a roof over her head outside of your apartment too.

woooooooops!

yip, as she is probably prone to do.

her kind….isn’t new….boo.

her kind isn’t new to me

her kind isn’t new to you

you ever wonder why she feels so familiar to you?

she reminds Me of the girl who told you

she could never marry you

and is now trying to date someone just like you

so don’t be so unkind to me

or to you

or be so foolish

as to believe i gave up on you

you gave up on me

and on top of that

you think i just...ran

ran….with what clothing?

the ones you packed up for me and left at the door

that i was suppose to pick up

and slide out the back….like a fucking whore?

you just tryna be

a cissie's bae

who stay clownin on trans folks now?

oooooooh issa bet, mo

. i mean.,,,.,,.mhhhh i guess?

—==—

but troooof, i don’t “need" anybody.

but i want you.

but you need her.

that’s how it work, don’t it?????

that’s why you risk job security every day.

and let her leave her panties on my clothes.

and let her tell me i "can stay" in …..A, not MY, spot next to you

in yo'bed?

what fucking fools. the two of you.

but “no one is forcing [me] to"

oh, baby you /are/ forcing me too

i look on your blog and then find out you’ve been feeling “unwelcome in [your] own home”

this whole fucking time

all the way since early november, innit?????

if i love you at all,

what else am i to do?????????????

??????????????????????????/

know that you will self-destruct

and just…wait for you to????????????????????

???????????????????????????????/

i didn’t run.

you just fucking pushed me.

and you’re still fucking pushing.

and you’ll keep pushing.

bc that is what you do.

embe…..@strawberreli

se sá’m te konne nu’ou.

you like microblogging so much

so like it if you read this shit

#ritten #pisces tw #solar cancer cw #cutting cw #self harm cw

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roundthatcorner · 7 years

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"Something that didn't happen but did. But only for a minute" Can you elaborate on what you think this means?

(Okay,hopefully you are still here, anon (carpal tunnel = me reluctant totype much of anything, sadly, bc I need to save my loser hand for myjob…Gird your loins or w/e, this is long…and meandering…)

Ithink I stuck that in the tags of a post, but I was just paraphrasingPaul’s lyrics in ‘The Pound Is Sinking’, where he sings ‘hear me,lover/I can’t be held responsible now/for something that didn’thappen/I knew you for a minute/oh, it didn’t happen/no, only for aminute/your heart just wasn’t in it anymore’ (probably you knowthis, but just for background…).

So,just let me like riff on my interpretation a little, and don’t be toooffended if I get off track, it’s all related in my head:

Incomparison to the kind of nether-world of John and Paul’srelationship with each other, we can maybe look at theirrelationships with their (eventual) wives to see what wouldconstitute, at least in Paul’s mind, something that actually'happened’. No matter what we think DID happen between John and Paul,it was clearly never a 100% fully fledged relationship, right? Theynever got married, they never bought a house together, they nevermade each other breakfast every morning, they never adopted kids,etc. They never actually ran away together – at least not withoutcoming back. Paul wrote those lyrics after 10 years of marriage withLinda and 4 kids, and in comparison to that level of day in, day outcommitment, whatever John and Paul had is something that onlysemi-happened, or only happened for a minute (or happened in 'anotherlifetime’ or 'was I just dreaming or was it only yesterday?’).

Awhole range of possibilities exists for what their relationshipactually was (I have another ask that I am trying to formulate aresponse to that will be more along those lines), and so these lyricscan be interpreted a lot of different ways…but essentially…nomatter how far they went with each other, romantically or sexually, Idon’t think either of them ever got quite what they wanted out ofeach other, you know? Neither of them was ever fully satisfied by it– there was always SOMETHING in their relationship that was out ofreach – unattainable – whether because of their ownpersonalities, conflicting demands and desires, fame on a level noone could possibly understand (I mean…really…the ENORMOUSpsychological pressure on them is simply unfathomable and somethingwe should always try to have deep, deep empathy for), exteriorpressures, homophobia, the hard slog of being in a band together,jealousy, competition (!!), differing drug habits, etc.

Like,I think we can get a pretty clear idea of WHAT John wanted out of arelationship by comparing his relationships with Paul and Yoko. Whydid John swap Paul for Yoko? Presumably because he was gettingsomething from Yoko, at least in the first couple of years of theirrelationship, that he COULD NOT get from Paul, or wouldn’t ask forfrom Paul, or couldn’t expect from Paul. Paul was never going to beat his beck-and-call 24/7; Paul was never going to go on about himbeing a genius without also expecting him to actually producegenius-level work; Paul was never going to BLOW UP everything theyhad built, their whole world, for John, on an impulse; he was nevergoing to tear the Beatles apart for John; he was never going todevolve into junkie-ism for John; he was never going to stop writinggreat songs because it made John jealous when he did; he was nevergoing to stop being the prince of swinging London because it madeJohn feel stultified in comparison; he was never going to…put hiscock on the front of an album, or mail back his MBE, or put on artshows that are designed solely to rile/exasperate/pull-one-over-onpeople (Paul’s art, in contrast, is almost always 'invitational’). IfJohn was into his 'great debunker’ mode in '68, Paul could not be hispartner in that – but Yoko could, since she never put in thefucking hard work of building their Empire (though she has happilyreaped, for decades, the benefits of what she helped destroy).

(Also– Paul could never stop being a man in order to bolster John’smasculinity, or to quiet his gay panic, or lessen his probablepost-Brian-dying existential crisis about what-the-fuck theirrelationship, or any gay relationship, could ever be. A best friendwho you can fuck but is also a woman (so it’s alright)? That’simpossible for Paul, he can only go two-for-three there.

Also,not unimportantly – for all John described Yoko as a genius, blahblah blah, she was NEVER EVER going to write a number one hit. Youknow? She was NEVER actually competition for him – he never wasgoing to look at her and be like, “Gosh, I like your songs on thisalbum better than mine…”, LOL. Yoko and his post-Beatles work wasa way of REMOVING himself from the game – how better to escape fromthe pressure of coming up with another Ticket to Ride than byproducing Life with the Lions, or whatever-the-fuck? He TALKED a shitload about his genius after the Beatles were over – but by thatpoint his genius (which was being the leader of a ROCK 'N’ ROLL BAND,btw, in case anyone (Yoko) ever forgets) was atrophying. The world will never love Yoko the way it loves John or Paul, which allows John to win that competition BY DEFAULT -- with no effort! -- while also getting to play a bit of a martyr vis-a-vis her and her treatment by the press/society/fans.

Also, Iwould compare what Paul was able to get from Linda to what he gotfrom John (it’s a valid comparison, obviously – Linda and John werevery different Libras), but doing so doesn’t quite make sense here,since Paul never actually made a choice between John and Linda. WhatPaul chose Linda over was dying – literally fucking dying – of abroken heart.)

So,having hashed out some dynamics or dysfunctions that were presumablypresent no matter what 'level’ their relationship went to, and whichpresumably drove them apart, you’re probably saying…what the fuck,dude? Because all of this is sort of putting the cart before thehorse, right? Since John’s impulse to do all of theseBeatle/Paul-ruining things, which necessitated 'Yoko boat’ ratherthan 'Paul boat’, had to come from somewhere…

Myactual shortened timeline-sort-of view of their relationship and myCONJECTURE on how it may have happened: sometime between 1964 ('If IFell’) and May 1968 they moved into a semi-stable phase of theirrelationship which is semi-explicitly romantic (the sexualinterplay/experimentation presumably far pre-dates this period, maybedating back to their first months together ('Baby Elvis’ – John wasphysically/sexually knocked-the-fuck-out by Paul from the start)), inaddition to being ten dozen other things. One or both of them mayharbor the notion at this point that some day – when the demands ofBeatlemania are done, when things are more settled, when they haveaged out of fucking around so much, when they buy an island, when thepress hounds them less, when homosexuality is more destigmatized inaddition to being decriminalized (1967 in Britain, which may playinto this) – they will be in a yet more stable, more exclusive &more serious relationship.

Atsome point it becomes clear to one or both of them that this is notgoing to happen: Brian dies which fucks everything up (nothingharshes a buzz like death, especially the death of one’s gay mentor, which may then precipitate a decisively un-gay turnaround), Paul gets engagedto Jane in a last ditch effort to save their relationship, and Pauland John as-a-couple fizzle out. Possibly it’s even amicable atfirst, like they’ve agreed to put it on hold because they acknowledgethat they can’t give each other what they want – which wouldexplain why Paul is so docile and accepting of the Yoko thing atfirst. Not only does he not think it will last (another of John’swhims – Chip Madinger puts the Two Virgins recording on the VERYSAME DAY that John announces that he is Jesus fucking Christ! (*)) andmaybe it’s actually in-line with what they’ve agreed to, but Paulalso doesn’t yet understand that John will at some point becomewilling to destroy the whole dang thing, all-or-nothing, 'if we can’tbe lovers we’ll never be friends’, etc.

Withouttheir being lovers, all the little resentments John has towards Paul– over leadership, talent, looks, personality, music, etc, that heis able to overlook when they’re fucking – boil over. If John’sperception becomes that Paul has managed to wrest the band away fromhim by sexually manipulating him (**), then that’s one more reason forhim to now try to assert his dominance – by foisting Yoko on all ofthem, which only drives home further how not-the-leader he is (in hisown mind), since if he WERE the leader, they would accept her(especially because he thinks she’s cool, and they generally thinkeverything he thinks is cool is cool!). Having Yoko nearby all thetime also conveniently keeps Paul-and-his-sexual-wiles away from Johnand gives him a continuous alternate sexual outlet. For John to’re-take’ the leadership position (which has always actually been aco-leadership, of course, since the moment John and Paul were theones wearing matching blazers while everyone else had plain shirts)would require that he start writing better songs than Paul – onlynow he’s too heroin-addled to effectively do so and he’s got writer’sblock something major, so instead he withdraws further into Yoko andheroin and non-communication. At the point where Paul is begging himon bended knee – writing Oh Darling for him and then repeatedlyTELLING him it’s for him – Paul is at his lowest point yet and he is STILL writing more songs than John andpretty soon he’s refusing to go along with Klein, too, which onlyfurthers the resentment. And especially if Paul’s love andprotectiveness towards the band partially caused him to put thebrakes on the relationship with John, what better way for John toessentially fuck with Paul and get all his latent heartbreak anddisappointment out than to leave Paul with nothing by destroying theband, too?

(*) John really seems to have experienced a BREAK with reality at this point, and it’s bizarre how rarely this is explicated in discussions of him finally getting together with Yoko. After years of compulsively drinking/drugging they go to India where, at least at the start of things, John is STONE COLD SOBER and meditating for hours on end – anyone’s psyche would be shaken up by this! And then Paul LEAVES – which, even if it wasn’t precipitated by any argument or whatever (I’m agnostic on this), had to be massively destabilizing for John because suddenly he has HOURS to ruminate on Paul and their relationship and what he is and isn’t getting from it, and he no longer has Paul actually physically there to ground him, both in reality generally and in his Paul-ness and how essentially lovable and fascinating and alluring John finds him and will always find him.

(**)Paul may well have been the first guy that John was physically turnedon by – bisexuals supposedly realize their same-sex attractionslater than their opposite-sex ones and comparatively later than gaypeople do – but moreover Paul seems to have SET and embodied thepattern of John’s male attractions for the rest of his life. Not fornothing was John’s intended panty-dropper line to Tony Manarosupposedly 'you’re prettier than Paul’. Practically every rumor I’veever seen of John’s sexual encounters with males in his later yearsemphasizes that he liked PRETTY BOYS (and who’s the toppermost of thepretty boy heap?). So if John was conflicted about his attraction tomen, it makes sense that he might manage to blame that on Paul, too.

Hopefully this makes a slight bit of sense…at any point in there at all, lol. Feel free to ask me again if I didn’t quite hit the mark or if you want clarification. :)

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I’M BACK.

Hiatus is officially over, so now I’ve gotta catch up on Artfight and the roleplays I’ve been neglecting. :’D

Updates on stuff and spazzing under the cut. I’ve bolded some keywords, so look for those to find the paragraphs you actually care about bc I ramble.

A’IGHT, SO THE CONVENTION WAS AWESOME. As were all the other attractions near the Chicago area that we went to. :D I took lots of pictures of the city that I need to go through and edit, got to see see Lake Michigan (which was cool because it was the first time I looked out over water and wasn’t able to see the opposite shore at all), and was a total loser within a few feet of the members of STEAM POWERED GIRAFFE (which hopefully wasn’t memorable for them fhdsihgjkdshgjfd) and they signed my shirt and took a picture with me in my SPG Fanbot cosplay. Best weekend of my life. The anime stuff was cool too, but I mostly payed attention to the steampunk and cartoon stuff that was there. xD I need to go to more steampunk conventions...

BUT SPEAKING OF COSPLAY, no pictures yet, sorry. I was gonna wear my WIP lawbot suit on the 9th, but ended up skipping that day altogether for various reasons, so rather than putting it on and getting some lame pictures, I’m gonna wait until it’s finished and get some COOL pictures. ;D I have replaced the dress shirt’s buttons, made the bowtie and vest, and am halfway done with the emblem (which unfortunately won’t light up unless i can figure that out gaaaahhhh), but in order to actually make the suit jacket and slacks I gotta find a better pattern. The Burda one i have right now doesn’t have enough instructions for a newb like myself, so I’m gonna look for either a lot of tutorials or a Simplicity pattern instead. No idea when that’ll be done, but the vest only took me a day of work so hopefully the rest won’t take forever either once I sit down and do it.

NOW FOR BLOG UPDATES YAY.

Sorry to all the ROLEPLAYS that I’ve been just not touching for at least ten days now, I’ll be getting on those ASAP. I’ve got so many of those going right now... That said, I’m still open to more if you hit me up. Just be aware that I am pretty slow on replies, as just about anyone I’ve ever rped with will tell you. I do a lot of other stuff at the same time and my motivation is a fickle thing that I have not yet learned how to whip into submission somehow. I still love roleplaying though, it’s helped me flesh out several characters already. Plus I really love it when my characters interact with other peoples’ characters. <3

I’M STILL WORKING ON THE COMIC I SWEAR. I know updates on it are slow, but it’s already been like eight years in the works now? So I’m not dropping it. Ever. As soon as I finally get out this chapter, the next storyline/chapter is where it should start getting really good, and I’m hella psyched. It’s the original story that I’ve reworked about five times by now, based on that dream I had in like fifth grade which is the reason Mumble and Benny even exist as characters. However stoked I am to start drawing that though, the Coach Z thing actually is necessary. Not only is it really good practice to get me into the swing of making comics (which is actually brand new to me, i’ve never actually sat down and really committed to it before now), but there’s also a semi-important plot point right near the end of it? And a character. I’m 90% sure that he needs a brief introduction, and here be where he gets it. So look forward to that.

IF ANYONE HAS ANY TIPS FOR DOING BACKGROUNDS THEN PLEASE HIT ME UP. If you’ve been reading the tags of the comic pages, I think I’ve said before that I flounder when it comes to making the backgrounds of those things, so if you’ve got any unique/different techniques for that kind of thing and wouldn’t mind letting me know so that I can try some stuff, I would love you forever. I especially struggle with the more geometric stuff (i.e. the interiors of cog buildings fml).

On a side note, I’M WORKING ON UPDATING MY CHARACTER PAGE! The new one will not only be prettier and possibly harder to read if you’re dislexic or have eyes but it will also have ALL of my more developed OCs on it that will either play a memorable role in the comic or that I have/will roleplay with. Some of my more minor characters will also be on there, but they won’t get their own pages to themselves. The new pages for the major/supporting characters, however, are more complete than just the drawing references that are on my current character page. The overview/synopsis/whatever for each character will basically be the same, but the pages also have the character’s tag right there, plus some info about their laff/level, sexuality and gender, and gag tracks. Before I publish the full page, you will be seeing me post a bunch of drawing references for all of the characters that are even mentioned on the new page just like I did for Julian before the hiatus. If you wanna keep count or just have an idea of how many to expect, I’ll be doing a total of I think eleven references for the main character pages (four of which are already done and have been posted at some point), and then several more for the minor characters. I don’t have an exact number there yet oof.

ALRIGHT LAST NOTE, I’M GOING TO BE POSTING SOME BACKSTABBER ADOPTABLES AT SOME POINT. I sketched a bunch of knives a while ago and most of them I thought looked kinda cool, so since I had at least a few interested parties on Discord, I’m going to be finishing some of those designs and giving them brief stories, then posting them here for other people to take because wtf am I supposed to do with all these knife people. I only need two of them wink. I’ll probably make designs for at least three more of them depending on popularity after I get that faceless one started for Summer to do with as she pleases, so be watching for those either this month or the next at the latest methinks.

That’s all folks!

#mumble squeaks #a lot #that was longer than i thought it'd be #but that's less that i have to shove into the tags of my actual posts so #yeh #i'm tired #but i already slept six hours today #so idk if i'll be able to sleep much tonight #ewaugh #ps if anyone wants my discord feel free to message me on here i'll hand it out to anyone #i can also throw you an invite to the toonblr discord i and most of toonblr is on at this point #so there's that #i keep posting wips and stuff there #whatever i don't think is good enough for this actual blog x'D #i also roleplay on there a lot #so yeah

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