#suicide in the trenches

[apoemaday]

Suicide in the Trenches

by Siegfried Sassoon

I knew a simple soldier boy Who grinned at life in empty joy, Slept soundly through the lonesome dark, And whistled early with the lark. In winter trenches, cowed and glum, With crumps and lice and lack of rum, He put a bullet through his brain. No one spoke of him again. You smug-faced crowds with kindling eye Who cheer when soldier lads march by, Sneak home and pray you’ll never know The hell where youth and laughter go.

#poetry #siegfried sassoon #suicide in the trenches

[apoemadaykeepsthehoesaway]

Suicide In The Trenches

- Siegfried Sassoon (1886-1967)

I knew a simple soldier boy

Who grinned at life in empty joy,

Slept soundly through the lonesome dark,

And whistled early with the lark.

-

In winter trenches, cowed and glum

With crumps and lice and lack of rum,

He put a bullet through his brain.

No one spoke of him again.

-

You smug-faced crowds with kindling eye

Who cheer when soldier lads march by,

Sneak home and pray you’ll never know

The hell where youth and laughter go.

#siegfried sassoon #ww1 #war poetry #suicide in the trenches #ptsd #shellshock #tw mental health #suicide

[icouldmakeapun]

i have a hunch that this meme might be a little bit niche :)

i apologise to those who followed me after my percy jackson meme, i don’t think this is what you expected

#siegfried sassoon #ww1 #world war 1 #world war one #war poetry #poetry #poem #ww1 poetry #literature #classic lit memes #funny #humour #lit #lit memes #literature memes #poetry meme #suicide in the trenches #trenches #i’m so sorry #this is so niche #it’s like one specific poem #the author was probably gay tho #does that help #???

[postersbykeith]

#quotes #Siegfried Sassoon #suicide in the trenches #WWI #Remembrance Day

[waynzel]

#no cos it truly is the trenches #😭 #harley quinn #harleen quinzel #dc comics #suicide ment #mochi post

[stardustdiiving]

How evil is arlecchino and what is she cooking

As of 4.2, I’m really curious what they’re planning with Arlecchino as a character, especially as a villain/antagonist/morally dubious character, and how far/which direction they may go with that

Intuitively my impression is we’ll see her do something way more “villainous” than she presents herself as being for majority of Fontaine’s AQ in front of us right—(which isn’t a surprise given that, you know, Arlecchino nor the House of Hearth have never been presented as 110% ethical LOL) but I find myself not being in complete agreement with most analysis or speculation threads I see about Arlecchino’s morality and the like, level of sinister people seem to ascribe to her.

Idk how to put it, especially in regards to her children I do agree they are not a wholesome found family, that Arlecchino is not above pulling strings or using them for her own ulterior motives, but I kind of hesitate on the idea she only cares about the Hearth children as a means to the end/things she can control and there’s nothing else going on with her characterization wise there. I’m not saying that impression seems remotely unreasonable or unfounded, but just that it feels there’s something intentionally missing in how we are supposed to conceptualize her as a person

My main reasoning for this hunch is the fact they have not elaborated on Arlecchino and the previous Knave—who Arlecchino is stated to have taken over the position from by force. The extra tidbits I think about are that 1) Arlecchino was previously an orphan in the Hearth 2) the previous Knave is described as way, way crueler to the children of than Heart than Arlecchino was from when she took control of the House

Often, people’s major indicators that the House of the Hearth is kind of super fucked up are the NPCs we meet in world quests who are part of it and clearly suffering. But one thing I haven’t ever seen people mention w this that i think is a very interesting detail is, in The Very Special Fortune Slip Inazuma worldquest, where we stop this House of Hearth guy (Efim Snezhevich) from manufacturing tension between Watasumi/the Shogunate to restart the war with his other Hearth subordinates, at the end of the quest we get this dialogue that reveals he had been acting under the previous Knave’s directives:

It’s also mentioned he’s employing this plan in an attempt to “rebuild the prestige of the Knave” following Signora’s death, iirc? Now, see, the dialogue itself says that this is “assuming our captive is telling the truth” so who knows what’s really going on, but I find this a really odd/interesting thing to highlight. I’m a bit fuzzy on other world quests with Hearth members, and am not saying none of them were acting and subsequently being treated poorly by our Arlecchino, but like, this gives me a lot of questions especially when paired with implications this previous Knave seemed to be way worse

Like, what drove Arlecchino to take over? How unexpected and controversial was this within the House? Assuming the above information is all true it definitely says something this guy went rogue and acted on what the previous Knave would want and didn’t think our Arlecchino would greenlight it, which does feel consistent with the previous Knave being described as basically worse & crueler than our Arlecchino. It also makes me question how much house of hearth things we’ve seen outside the main story are the work of our Arlecchino or if there’s a bigger divide of loyalty. Heck, I could be wrong but it doesn’t even seem like we know if the previous Knave is dead or not

This isn’t me saying Arlecchino couldn’t possibly be treating hearth children worse than she wants us to know, especially ones who aren’t her “favorites” the way the fontaine trio seem to be, but I really don’t feel sure about making a solid conclusion of her exact level of malice the way ppl r generally understanding it rn when it feels there’s going to be more about her. Just the idea of she, as a Hearth child, clashed with the previous leader who was known for being cruel, overtook their position and took on less harsh methods of leading that made at least some members with more power/possible closer proximity to the previous Knave go rogue and try to commit atrocities in the previous Knave’s name…I feel this leaves a lot of room to suggest there’s more going on with how Arlecchino is as a person

I don’t mind if she’s just very evil and deceptive bc if she totally had me fall for thinking she was less evil than she actually was that’s fun tbh. But I feel people suggest that’s all her character could be with no degree of like, “sympatheticness” or deep grey morality and that if her character did go there it would be automatically poor writing and genshin walking back on making a truly evil woman when IDK. I feel you can claim at this point they have left it open ended and it’s never been completely confirmed she’s pure evil. Also sometimes I just get a hunch and feel cautiously confident in Genshin executing certain characters well. Not all characters, just certain ones. Especially given Fontaine’s character writing being very good and a character like Lyney feeling very solid to me when any development with Arlecchino would likely involve him and his siblings as well, I honestly feel open to the idea of Arlecchino being satisfyingly written to be both villainous/morally dubious but “sympathetic/likable as a person” in ways outside of just her ruthlessness if that makes sense

If I’m wrong/they drop the ball with it more than I anticipate I’ll eat my hat but I am pretty excited about her character and which way they decide to go with it. I will say the only potential impression I have of where they’ll go with her has been wondering if it will go in a “cycles of abuse” direction—I’d be surprised if they ever elaborated on Arlecchino’s character especially in how she feels about things and her also growing up as an exploited child of the hearth wasn’t relevant

#arlecchino #see my track record with said hunch with when I feel I should let genshin cook has been #for months truthing my vision of xiao’s speififc brand of internalized dehumanization induced suicidal ideation #and how genshin will one day he will get another quest of sorts thst develops his character towards #the idea he’s allowed to live and enjoy people’s company and this will likely #also come with following through on yaksha lore and when they do this they will do him SO well and it will be peak genshin quest #all of this Months before the existence of perilous trails was even rumored #and then I was soo stubborn xiao would show up in 2023 lantern rite w more character introspection to follow up PT #and also from the first fontsine teaser I was in the trenches for furina bc I felt so confident #the main storyline would handle her very well & if genshin went anywhere near the direction of her #not being a ‘true archon’ & ppl were Wrong if they thought genshin woudlnt take her seriously #and HAHA. WWOOWOOWOWOEOEOOEOEE #I have also been sent into hysteria multiple times bc genshin keeps canonizing my exact ideas of my favorite character dynamics #and often exceeding my expectations that I thought were jsut wishful thinking #yes I predicted exactly how xiao would interact w Venti & zhongli on screen yes I predicted #the exact nature of hat radish friendship no I was wiped out on the floor #by nahida enrolling wanderer in college & calling him hat guy & zhongli saving xiao’s life #& xiao having hardcore social anxiety from zhongven flirting with each other st the dinner table #this sounds so conceited. see I often don’t know What genshin is cooking but k feel sure in knowing when soemthing is going to be #a shitshow or mediocre or when we need to let them cook. even if it takes 6+ months #TRUST ME <— guy who has been waiting on genshin to cook for several characters for multiple years and is still sure I will get my food #am I crazy. yes. am I also often right when I have hunches on when genshin is going to suck and when it’s going to be good esp character #writing wise. often yes #one day I will annihilate genshined impact with my bare hands #genshin #fern.txt #fandomferns

[lostinthewoodsomewhere]

Everyone wants the big chair, Meg...

Been chipping away at this one for a couple of weeks, and I'm really happy with it!

#control #control remedy #jesse faden #she #zachariah trench #dylan faden #cw: suicide imagery #tw sui implied #cw: blood #cw: guns #just in case #trench came out looking so disney... #my art

[missoneminute]

Was looking for an old long lost demo and came across this forgotten doozy.

#that’s a suicide in the trenches reference from when Carl taught him to play if ever I saw one #the libertines #pete and carl #pete doherty #carl barat #peter doherty

[pattern-recognition]

i can keep making “in the year 203X” jokes from now until time catches up with me but no matter what i post it still won’t match the dark humor of blu rivers revolution

#also in the year 2034 President hunter biden will instate recreational trench warfare in a bid to curb the male suicide rate epidemic

[castielcommunism]

hm. how to put this. watching the newest episode of the boys where butcher leaves his younger brother alone with their father to join the military puts the stanford fight in spn in a potentially new light. like in the boys the roles are reversed and it’s butcher (dean) doing the leaving, but the set up is very similar - older brother protects younger brother from abusive and highly controlling father. and the consequence of butcher leaving is that butcher’s brother kills himself because being alone with their father is too much to bear on his own. so like I’m just wondering, given the events of 5x16 in spn and how dean talks about sam leaving (“that was like one of the worst nights of my life”), and how eerily similar this story seems to be in the boys, like. I guess I’m wondering if kripke was able to make supernatural now with an amazon budget and the freedom to go a lot darker than cable tv ratings allow, what sam and dean’s childhood would have looked like

#tbposting #spn.txt #bro.txt #the boys spoilers #suicide mention #like he seems very preoccupied with this specific cycle of abuse #sons becoming their fathers and brothers in the family trenches together etc #and just the general familial dysfunction that is produced by this kind of abuse

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

people telling me im looking better, mum pointing out im helping with clearing up after christmas dinner (i hadn't realised i haven't for months), saying im getting better-

#and i cannot bear to tell them that i have both plan and intent. #tw suicide #worry not and also do not you DARE tell anyone outside of tumblr this! #it's not for more than a week anyway and last time i had plan and intent i didn't go through with it. i probably won't. #but ig it's just people telling me it's getting better while im still here in the trenches yknow #puddleglum hours #personal #delete later

[amethysttribble]

I’ve been in the Silm fandom now for *checks notes* Jesus fucking Christ, six years. Certainly not as long as others, but also certainly a while. And in those six years… by god is it incredible how the same fights keep getting picked again and again and again

Same arguments, same clapbacks, same rejections of ‘common fanon’, which feels like it’s on a three year cycle. And I do find it funny when I see people say “no one in the fandom does, writes, sees THIS” when really it’s like, no

That was en vogue four years ago and then people got sick of it and we made something new.

Or, worse, “where did this even come from?” Well, if we reviewed the court records from 2020, you’d see all the lovingly detailed and footnoted meta and fanfic that championed that interpretation.

And it is a little tiring, cause once I was right there in the trenches, but now… I’m entrenched, shall we say. I don’t want to go three feet forward, I’ve been there before, I don’t want to go three feet backward, I’ve been there before, this is my trench. I carved it out and it’s mine and it’s just as muddy and full of shit as all the rest, because there’s no one true fandom interpretation, it’s all trends and interest.

But it’s my trench.

#don’t mind me #I sound and feel old like aren’t y’all tired? aren’t you BORED? it’s so boring #im so tired #no more war #things have been so contentious lately #folks can vague and bicker all they want #fight over my head im not leaving my trench #ever since someone got suicide baited I can’t anymore #Tribble post

[brysbeddixt]

Jiang Cheng in MDZS novel: *hissing, spitting, glaring* FUCK you!! I hope you DIE, you piece of SHIT *stabs someone*

Me: there he is. My. My little meow meow

#like honestly nobody is as blorbo shaped as JC #he is AWFUL at people and TO people and I love him #man has trauma deeper than Mariana’s Trench #but I still look at him and want to ruffle his hair #it would be suicide but totally worth it #like tbh if I ever see people JC bashing. I make a judge on ur character and it is not a positive one #jiang cheng #mdzs

[daz4i]

suicide and general negativity ig

i hate that english doesn't have a good word for מיואש (filled with despair. hopeless? ig) bc this is how i'm feeling fr

there is just. nothing good. and there is so much bad - both BAD bad bc of the war but also mundane bad bc yknow, Life - that i'm getting so overwhelmed i can't handle anything

my whole month is filled with medical shit and there's probably gonna be even more bc i need more tests and they're all just. such a pain to do (it sounds whiny but genuinely i can't handle them. just thinking abt them makes me so anxious bc they all require lots of painful preparation, sometimes for a few days, and they're so gross and require being poked with needles which my medical trauma certainly isn't helping with. and even tho i did so many already they can't find shit and i'm so tired i'm so done with this body

and like. it'd be one thing if i wanted to live. if i wanted to make my life better or thought it was possible. but by now i know it's not and i know i won't so it just becomes infinitely harder. like if i compare life to being in prison, it feels like the warden decided to torture me just for fun to make it even worse

but there is nothing good there is nothing to look forward to bc everything is shit and nothing's worth it and i hate when ppl tell me to enjoy the little things bc there is nothing to enjoy about them either. i can't have most of them anyway. i wish i could. but this shitty ass body and fucked up brain won't let me

there is no future for me i know i'm never gonna amount to anything when i can't even do the most basic shit about being human, literally how am i gonna be able to fulfill my """"potential"""" when i can't even do stuff like eat or sleep normally. when i can't go outside. when i can't handle being around people. when my body crashes and burns after standing for a few minutes or walking for more than a couple hundred meters. what even IS there for me to achieve in such a state. the only win i can have is getting out of bed and it doesn't feel like a win because i don't. want. to live. i have fucking professionals, people getting paid to help me do at least some of these things, and i can't bring myself to even take the first step bc just thinking about it makes me clam up so bad i can't move or talk and everything starts hurting so much more

there's not even. mundane fun. or joy. bc no one i know has time or energy for that. bc that's just what being an adult is ig. not that there's much to do in order to have fun anyway. like i said nothing to look forward to everything is so shit and nothing actually brings me joy anyway and it's not like i can handle being around people enough to help with that

i was not meant to be alive i am not designed to exist and like at this point I'd assume my who knows how many near death experiences may have been the universe trying to correct the mistake that is my existence and for some reason not managing to pull through the final stretch

i'm so tired i'm so done with this i wish i could be killed in some certain quick way bc i can't. i can't handle any of this. this is too much

#vent #a very long one. because. i am doing very bad rn 👍 #i am in the trenches as they say. #suicide // #what if i take a bunch of pills. ik i'm just more likely to throw up then get hospitalized but man :/ #my body is so fragile yet so resilient at the same time. it can't handle anything but it survives through everything #man i'd ask for help rn but idk what even could help me rn. other than being killed i mean #already took a clonex and i can feel it fighting for its life to calm me down but unfortunately. my shitty brain's shittiness is stronger #anyway sorry for all the negative bullshit it's been a bad week and it's gonna be a bad month #january usually is honestly. #i mean last year i met [redacted] and they did make me want to live but! that lasted a month. so. no more will to live for me 👍 #sorry for the even more negativity #trying to keep it contained to one post at least to spare your dashboard more bullshit later tonight #...i want to know ppl don't want me gone tho. maybe. idk if that'll help. but. ugh idk how to ask for things sorry

[anotherpapercut]

I'm gonna say something controversial and I don't care what y'all think of me after because a) I'm right and b) it's called a difference of opinion

twenty one pilots first 2 albums (self titled and vessel) were genuinely beautiful works of art and it was honestly really fucking weird that everyone decided they were Problematique because they "made music to profit off mentally ill people" as if they couldn't just be mentally ill people making art for themselves and the people like them. also there's no way you can listen to oh miss believer and not be moved

#i just think it was sooooo weird that with literally 0 proof peoe decided the 2 members couldnt be mentally ill #there is no way anyone could write friend please without having had a friend who committed or tried to commit suicide #because that song is exactly what it feels like to have your friend violently ripped away from you by their illness #sorry if youve never been 13 sobbing on your bed listening to vessel because someone finally understands how you feel #but that shit was powerful and i will never believe that someone who wasnt mentally ill could write those lyrics #and yall are fucking stupud if you think its wrong for people to use their own illnesses in their art #ok mic dropped #(side note i do like some of blurryface just not nearly as much‚ wasnt super into trench and havent listened to their latest) #so thats why i said the first 2 specifically #its great if you like the later ones too i just personally think those 2 are their strongest #also inb4 someone says well theyre bad in another way: thats not what this post is about lol #didnt say they were amazing role mods whove never done anything wrong. i havent kept up with them in years so idek what they may have done

[angelthanatology]

can't believe it ended with kendall on literal suicide watch. well at least no one died that's a win for me

#succession spoilers #succession #suicide tw #colin will stay ! doing the watching and fighting in the trenches