#story of the worlds worship

[basicallyanotherwitchesthing]

Frank S. Dobbins, A.M. with S. Wells Williams, LL.D. and Isaac Hall, LL.B., Ph.D. - Story of The World's Worship - The Dominion Company - 1901

#witches #worshipers #occult #vintage #story of the worlds worship #frank s. dobbins #s. wells williams #isaac hall #a.m. #ll.d. #ll.b. #ph.d. #the dominion company #1901

[meirimerens]

the pathologic Kin is largely fictionalized with a created language that takes from multiple sources to be its own, a cosmogony & spirituality that does not correlate to the faiths (mostly Tengrist & Buddhist) practiced by the peoples it takes inspirations from, has customs, mores and roles invented for the purposes of the game, and even just a style of dress that does not resemble any of these peoples', but it is fascinating looking into specifically to me the sigils and see where they come from... watch this:

P2 Layers glyphs take from the mongolian script:

while the in-game words for Blood, Bones and Nerves are mongolian directly, it is interesting to note that their glyphs do not have a phonetic affiliation to the words (ex. the "Yas" layer of Bones having for glyph the equivalent of the letter F, the "Medrel" layer of Nerves having a glyph the equivalent of the letter È,...)

the leatherworks on the Kayura models', with their uses of angles and extending lines, remind me of the Phags Pa Script (used for Tibetan, Mongolian, Chineses, Uyghur language, and others)

some of the sigils also look either in part or fully inspired by Phags Pa script letters...

some look closer to the mongolian or vagindra (buryat) script

looking at the Herb Brides & their concept art, we can see bodypainting that looks like vertical buryat or mongolian script (oh hi (crossed out: Mark) Phags Pa script):

shaped and reshaped...

#not sure how much. what's the word. bond? involvement? not experience. closeness? anyone in the team has with any of these cultures #but i recall learning lead writer is indigenous in some way & heavily self-inserts as artemy [like. That's His Face used for #the p1 burakh portrait] so i imagine There Is some knowledge; if not first-hand at least in some other way #& i'm not in the team so i don't know how much Whatever is put into Anything #[ + i've ranted about the treatment of the brides Enough. enough i have] #so i don't have any ground to stand on wrt how i would feel about how these cultures are handled to make the Kin somewhat-hodgepodge. #there is recognizing it is Obviously inspired by real-life cultures [with the words;the alphabet;i look at Kayura i know what i see] #& recognizing it Also is. obviously and greatly imagined. not that weird for you know. a story. #like there is No Turkic/Altaic/Mongolic culture that has a caste of all-women spiritual dancers who place a great importance on nudity #as a reflection of the perfect world and do nothing but dance to bring about the harvest. ykwim... #like neither the Mongols nor the Buryats nor the Tibetans dress the way the Kin does. that's cos the Kin is invented. but they're invented. #.. on wide fundations. ykwim...... #Tengrism has a Sky Deity (Tengri) with an earth-goddess *daughter* whereas the kin worship an Earth-Goddess mother of everything #+ a huge bull. Buddhism has its own complete cosmogony & beliefs which from the little I know Vastly Differ from anything the Kin believes #like. yeah. story. but also. [holds myself back from renting about the Brides again] shhh... #neigh (blabbers) #pathologic #pathologic 2

[orchid-n-petals]

So I've already shared parts of this on a discord server, but I have to scream about Ketheric Thorm on here as well. Obviously spoilers about the character under the cut! It's a long one.

The entirety of act 2 is about him, right? Jaheira, Shadowheart and numerous other NPCs shit on him for his fickle faith. First Selune, then Shar, then, as we meet him, Myrkul. You hear about his changes of faith on a whim, you hear that he's the person responsible for the shadow curse, he is painted as a villain, plain and simple.

You can figure it out pretty early on that Isobel was resurrected and that she is his daughter; the detail as well that he wants Isobel alive is so on the nose, it gives him away completely but there are still a few questions that remain unanswered, mainly about his faith.

And then you get to the mausoleum and the picture assembles; this entire tragedy, the death of hundreds if not thousands and the complete ruination of a landscape was all, ALL because you had this absolutely wrenched, heartbroken father who had lost everything and nobody answered his grief. He was left woefully alone, the Goddess whose daughter his daughter was involved with did nothing to save Isobel.

Imagine outliving your wife and your daughter. Imagine dedicating your life to fight the Lady of Loss, your Lady of Silver's enemy, and then be left so completely alone and in silence with your grief, with your loss. It's so, so poetic how and why he turned from Selune, and it's so understandable as well; he broke. His spirit completely broke. He couldn't deal with that void of having lost the only two important people in his life, seemingly undeservedly so. He was going mad with this and a lot of his ire was likely targeted at Aylin who, in his eye, represented Selune; she's literally her daughter, after all, and it was implied that even before the deaths of his family, he sort of saw Aylin courting Isobel as Selune taking his daughter from him, despite his service. This relationship was clearly not seen by him as a boon of "giving his daughter to the Moon-maiden".

His ways in the past clearly didn't spare him from tragedy and having to cope with it (which he clearly didn't, he snapped under the weight of his grief). He was clearly angry and unable to do anything, furious and helpless, which is a dangerous combination. A good part of his first change of heart must have been fuelled by a sense of revenge.

But then Shar didn't provide any balm to his aching heart either. If you read his letters in Grymforge and in act 2, he is so focused on enacting the will of Shar because he believes that healing lies in oblivion. Everything would be easier if he could just forget, if the damn world could just forget, if nothing was remembered because without Melodia and Isobel, nothing was worth remembering.

Then came Myrkul. Literally the only god who was not only able, but WILLING to give back his daughter to him. Imagine spending your all, EVERYTHING you have to serve two gods who would not give a single shit about the greatest suffering in your life. You were basically nothing, your loyalty didn't matter for shit, everything that was taken from you amounted to no recognition whatsoever: you should simply cope and seethe. Your grief will not simply go unanswered (which is not inherently antagonising) but ignored.

And then comes this supposedly evil entity who can alleviate your pain just like that, snap of a finger and it's a done deal.

I am so serious when I say that I believe Ketheric's main incentive was to extend Aylin's immortality to Isobel as well. You can read in her diary that she feels a taint after having came back, and there are things not even Selune can cleanse, but at this point, Ketheric doesn't care about Selune, vengeance is secondary if not tertiary, he's done that war during his Shar years and what did it give him? Literally nothing.

He doesn't even care about the fact that Isobel is still her cleric. He cares about the single most important fact: Isobel is back. Life is worth living again, there is something for him, and it was not Selune or Shar who gave it to him but Myrkul, and for this singular gift, he would raze the world for the Lord of Bones. Like people can clown on him for being disloyal but the man has the loyalty of a dog bonded to its owner.

He is powerful and is willing to go to insane lengths for crumbs. What is raising a single life for a god? Nothing. It has happened and it will happen again. But Ketheric will go to the ends of the earth to serve the single god who actually listened to him. The one god who didn't ignore him.

He knows that what he does is not the morally upright thing! He is so insanely self-aware that allying with Orin and Gortash and doing this entire plot with them only to then betray them is morally reprehensible at the best of times, he knows that people hate him, etc-etc. He was a Selunite at one point and he's not stupid. He just doesn't care; it could be literal Asmodeus and he wouldn't care as long as he got what he wanted, no matter the price.

He is probably the only one from the three of the chosen who has complete clarity over his situation, he almost sways (if you pass the check during his confrontation), he is not an inherently evil man blinded by power.

But he is inherently loyal to those deserving, and as of the story's standing, completely broken by his grief. In his eyes, at this point, the only one deserving loyalty is the one who actually listened to him. Isobel lives. It doesn't matter that she hates him, that his entire life has fallen apart, that literally nothing else that is good has come of it, because Isobel lives.

I don't think he regrets a single thing. His consciousness might tear at him at the end, but I believe he would do everything over again, exactly as he did, because in the end, his daughter was brought back. Because what would a grieving, broken parent give to bring back their child? Everything. Absolutely everything. And it's such a simply given answer, no second thoughts, no doubts.

Nobody can tell me that this man is fickle. Nobody. This man was willing to burn the world to the ground, create a Boudica destruction layer all by himself for the one single thing he wanted. For any God that would listen.

I don't know, I just have a lot of thoughts about his character.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #ketheric thorm #and I also have a lot of thoughts of how Aylin foils him #I fully believe that he was in the right in the capacity that he switched around his gods when he was literally ignored despite his life's #work. despite all that he has given. I think it's reasonable to expect in the world of gods who actively meddle in mortal affairs on their #whims and make shit worse that in just one single case they would. idk. NOT expect one of their devotees to remain blindly loyal to them #after their prayers go unanswered. like yes; go and try your luck elsewhere because this devotion of yours is clearly being taken for #granted. you get NOTHING out of your worship. you can't even sleep well because your loved ones are dead and you are expected to just what? #deal with it on your own? and remain loyal? why? #some sense of 'honour'? #I really like this depiction of faith actually. I really like when clerics and paladins are given agency and critical thought that hey! #this is actually giving me nothing despite me dedicating my entire life to it! and I have only one of it so why not take it somewhere where #it's actually valued. you know. as a treat. #I *personally* much more prefer this depiction of a crisis of faith than what we got with Shadowheart or Lae'zel; their stories are very #interesting on their own but I think throwing yourself from one end to the other not because you actually have a goal that it could serve #but because you are desperate for a purpose #is a slightly less potent character narrative than having an actual goal yourself. not by much but by a little. #again #PERSONALLY

[crimeronan]

i think there's something really beautiful about carpenter distancing herself from the trawler man every chance she gets and still getting showered by miracles while faulker, oh he of strong convictions, gets to bring the miracle of the trawler man to everyone around him but never quite gets to ascend to glory himself. i just love that they're both perfectly poised to stare at each other and each think "your goals are backwards and your methodology is dumb and possibly sacrilegious" and then still end up as something close to friends

also let's talk about how, despite these dynamics, at the end of the day, the trawler man is really just trying to give each of them what they want from him.

MMM YEAH. carpenter being beloved by multiple gods despite being such an ornery bitch who wants NOTHING to do with their sacrificial bullshit..... it really gets me. as does faulkner's ongoing crisis of faith and spiral into Faithless Cult Leader (TM). SO GOOD.

perhaps only tangentially related, but.

i've been thinking a lot about faulkner killing roemont lately. i was surprised that roemont's death ended up Breaking My Fucking Heart -- a real testament to his voice actor!! the whole pathetic old man losing everything he's worked for really.... Got To Me. ough. "don't you recognize me?" OUGH.

but i've been thinking about it in the context of faulkner's crisis of faith, too. because like. faulkner Knows that roemont is faithful. he considers roemont a heretic for trying to legalize the worship of the trawler-man, but it's like....

i feel like. killing roemont was a test of the trawler-man that faulkner devised on purpose. because if roemont dies due to the prayer marks that faulkner scrawled, then there are two possibilities:

1. the trawler-man really IS furious that the high katabasians want to legitimize the faith; the trawler-man really IS on faulkner's side; this schism really IS necessary to keep the faith "pure," and faulkner has never done anything wrong;

OR

2. the trawler-man really IS nothing but a mouth. this isn't a god with a plan or with sentience or with feelings, this is just a living river that chews things up and spits them out, and it doesn't care for its followers at all. and if that's the case, then faulkner is betraying nothing by being a faithless cult leader lying repeatedly to his people.

faulkner is devastatingly clever and constantly being underestimated. but he's also completely alone in the world. and he's Desperate for any sign that the choices he's making are the right ones. and he can't find that sign in anybody close to him, because he keeps destroying the lives of those close to him. so he has to devise his own trials....

hrugh. my boy. my boy my boy my boy.

#replies #the silt verses #the silt verses meta #faulkner #carpenter #horrible godsaint trauma pals #i keep just thinking about like. the constant question of how much gods care and how much agency they have #how much of this worship is a social construct made by people and how much is natural to the world? #does it matter? is there a difference between those things? #as someone whose original fiction ALSO plays a lot with #'magic is real but the way it's perceived is based in social constructs'.... I FUCK WITH IT SO HARD. #and the silt verses is a piece of media that like... i end up having different thoughts every time i listen to it #so in a few days or weeks i might not even stand by this meta. i might have different thoughts/interpretations entirely!! #it's a different story every time i listen. it's SO GOOD.

[ghost-proofbaby]

everyone sleeping? perfect. time to put some secret soft scenes between aruna and astarion on the dashboard.

#the moon will sing #astarion #astarion ancunin #i just love the thought of a soft astarion #i love digging into what his brain was like in that time between him realizing his plan fell apart and him confessing #all the fear he’d feel in feeling truly safe with someone for the first time in over 200 years #the genuine confusion he’d have to sort through #questioning why he wants to take these two hands bred to bring misery and lay them upon someone softly #questioning his entire world view when someone flips it on its head #the impulse to love and the instinct to kill as sleep token once said #astarion x tav #astarion’s love would be the purest devotion #he doesn’t worship frivolous gods — he’d worship *you* #the gods never answered him or saved him #but *you* did #anyways #goodnight #(this isn’t from the story’s main timeline)

[todderwodders]

ok actually though. I really love the narrative mirror of the slow shift in the tide for the Banite cult of Baldur's Gate. Like Durge was already disposed of and replaced and they were the literal child of a god. Gortash is just some cunt with bad breeding and too many schemes. The beginnings of a coup getting it's boots on while the Absolute plot begins to fall apart from his fellow Banites who are looking for any proof (or weak point) to knock him off his pedestal after he did all the heavy lifting to establish the cult in BG is such a Banite move.

if the game wont give me political intrigue i'll make it up myself.

#bg3 #enver gortash #if you all havent noticed i make it my job to have the world come crashing down around this italian-british man's ears #it might explain why he might be secretive about some documents and not so much in others #i fully believe this guy intentionally leaves papers out in order to tell a story #send a message #give an impression #i fully believe gortash is a dogmatic worshiper of bane because he starves for the approval but hes not good at it #but then again i dont think anyone can win bane's games which is why the polycule dissolved

[envelion]

Okee Osis

Mother of the Crop

This is my latest spirit mural piece, which brings the total up to 7? I think? I've lost count. These pieces are some of the most creatively challenging for me, and this one definitely took a lot of brain power to pull together. I make these to show the deities that exist in the world I'm building.

This is Okee Osis. (Okee is a honorific, you can just call her Osis) Osis is a eldrin (high spirit) of nature. The old story goes that long ago a nomadic people traveled the land as far as they could, heading east. Eventually they found themselves in a desert. They pushed forward, believing that one day they would find vegetation and a place to call home, but eventually the sands ran out and turned to cliffs overlooking the ocean. Too weak to head back the way they came, they were devastated. That is until some of the people paid tribute to Okee Osis and begged for her to save them. Osis, was always skeptical of people, but could not turn away from those is need, so she blessed the sandy landscape with a new types of vegetation the humans had never seen. Fruits, wheat, and vegetables that thrived in the sandy climate. Over the years, the people turned the land from a sandy desert into a thriving community. They vowed to always respect the land and protect their sacred bond with Osis.

Here are some close-up shots of the mural:

#artistsontumblr #fantasy artist #worldbuilding #mural #digitalart #illustration #artoftheday #webcomic #spirit #story art #ancient #gods #deity worship #deity art #originalcharacter #originalart #world building art #fantasy world

[penwrythe]

Learning how to be comfortable with being uncomfortable is important. I'm genuinely not okay when I hear, see, and research more about the genocide happening in Gaza, the history of Israel's founding, and its terroristic actions. It is important for me to know.

Taking short breaks (usually a couple of hours or so) does help when things get too much. Then, I return and continue engaging with reblogs on Palestine.

I really don't know what else to say, but this genocide must end. All genocides must end and must never happen again. Keep talking about Palestine, Armenia, Congo, and Sudan! Keep protesting! Keep fighting!

What is important now is to be as loud as you can be! Raise ruckus! Make your voice unavoidable! Be as annoying as possible! Do not let your representatives ignore this!

#// vent #// vent in tags #also eat butt biden you piece of shit I hope you don't get elected #no possibility of a ceasefire my ass WHAT THE HELL IS FUCKING STOPPING YOU FROM CALLING A CEASEFIRE #HOSPITALS SCHOOLS AND PLACES OF WORSHIP WERE BOMBED #YOU HAVE THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE PROTESTING AROUND THE WORLD AND FROM THIS COUNTRY DO YOU NOT FUCKING HEAR THEM #Jewish protesters were arrested too; how does their protesting against Israel warrant arrest?? #Some of them were also doxxed and harassed but they protesting is bad somehow okay I have serious questions about this #they do not want this at all; why are we arresting them?? #what are we fucking doing? Denying someone's right to freedom of protest. Freedom of speech. For saying stop killing people. #god forbid the marginalized rise up and raise our voices once we understand what happened to us and what will happen to others #we all stand together we will see a better world; a world we finally be free #but that means the US needs to really take a bit of time to really realize it's own history and learn from it for once #how the hell I got here? What happened to my people? I read the stories of slaves who barely survived the boats on the way here #....annnd I remember that some history books in the South omit that part. What's up with that? #And the Native Genocide here too? The broken promises the US made to steal more land and kill more people #Why this keeps repeating??? #palestine #tw colonialism #genocide

[vxmpirehunterd]

What horror trope are you?

the horror of the mother complete control over you, your complete reliance on her. you are a helpless child, and she makes every decision for you, asserting to you that she knows what's best. hysterical, emotional, even in her love for you, especially in her hatred for you. the fruit of her loins has rotted, and you cannot escape her scorn. distance means nothing if you're doomed to become her.

Tagged by: @lacedaether

Tagging: Everyone who sees this.

#{Replace mother with father and that's pretty much the underlying theme and plot of the vampire hunter d novels} #{The reason why D hunts his own} #headcanons #tiny headcanons #memes #{D's father is the reason he exists. D was the only successful experiment. His father and the vampire race basically rule the world #And subject humanity. Dracula is worshipped by vampires as a god and taunts D whenever they do meet up in the story. }

[professor-doc-emeritus]

it's incredible to me how some christians online will be like "you stupid atheists just don't understand Christianity, it's really like this!" and then go on to describe a heresy that would have gotten them burned at the stake 500 years ago

#i saw this one video of a guy trying to make a comeback to atheists who make the comparison between believing in god and believing in santa #or the tooth fairy #and his response was “well they exist too!” #he went on to describe how the IDEA of these things existed and had influence on the world and peoples lives #and made the ultimate point that santa and the tooth fairy and God are real in the same way a government or a society is real #its not a tangible thing but it nevertheless exists #and it was incredible to watch somebody in real time somehow miss the point that both parties are making #it's like dude the christians are not making that claim and the atheists are not addressing it #i don't think any atheist would contest that the idea of God exists and has influence on the world and people's everyday life #but they would contest that God is a thing that actually exists in material #which is in fact the core claim most theists put forward and try to defend #and i mean im normally not one to tell people what to believe or how to worship #but if God is no more real to you than harry potter or a ufo story then why is it at all important or interesting? #why base your life around it? #its such a bizarrely academic position thats so concerned with being technically right it becomes intellectually useless

[nvrcmplt]

𝕐𝕠𝕦'𝕧𝕖 𝕘𝕠𝕥 𝕞𝕪 𝕓𝕠𝕕𝕪, 𝕗𝕝𝕖𝕤𝕙 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕓𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕜𝕪 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕧𝕖, 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝔼𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕙 𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕠𝕨 ℕ𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠 𝕤𝕒𝕪 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕟𝕠𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕘𝕠 𝔸 𝕥𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕚𝕧𝕚𝕟𝕖

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[beeapocalypse]

trying to craft a funger oc like aughhhh i can see him i can picture him in my head right now [image of the most off putting little man possible]

#he does not have a name yet but he DOES have a vague concept. author from the eastern union who got drafted into the military and-- #--met another guy during the 1 week he had b4 getting shipped out to basic training. they immediately develop a WAY intense relationship-- #--and constantly send letters to each other. author is a total chickenshit and comes to cope w the violence of war thru-- #--alcoholism and a complete retreat into his obsession w the other man. gets a couple wires crossed and has his lust morph into more + more #--violent fantasies that the other man plays along w bc its Fun+Wild (at its core its the authors desire for CONTROL. if hes the one-- #--bringing the pain then hes safe. even better if its with the single person in existence he feels like he can trust during that-- #--period of time). manages to live throughout the rest of the war and rushes back to his lover. spends a slowly degrading week w him where- #--the man comes to realize what he thought of as simple metaphor+exaggeration was TRUE desire from the author + the author flounders-- #--without the then expected+familiar terror day in and day out. culminates in the man demanding the author leave and never try to contact-- #--him again (saying their romance was wild and exciting and unlike anything hed ever experienced but the only good way it couldve ended-- #--was if the author died out on the front and forever left him Wanting without the actual reality of those desires realized) and the-- #--author either tries to shoot himself or the man (fails to do so. lol) b4 running off to the first train out of town. worlds messiest guy #ya it leans a bit into samarie territory but hes fun. his theoretical ending b would probably have smth to do w sylvian worship + marriages #even more vague idea for his moonscorched form is a sopping wet pathetic red wolf ('red wolf' being one of the mans terms of endearment-- #--thru their wartime love letters) w its legs tangled up in barbed wire so it has to drag itself around. red bc its incredibly-- #--thin skin (<-- do you get it .) splits and bleeds thru with every movement. a lot of whining and incoherent babbling as it hesitates to-- #--ACTUALLY attack anybody. should have some cock horror element but ive no ideas on that front LOL #skill ideas are persistence predator (more melee damage dealt the less mind hes got- a backstory choice where he focuses entirely on the-- #--love letters rather than splitting focus on his on-pause career with short stories) and an unnamed one playing into his terror/lust deal- #--where he gets a buff to either melee damage or speed when his phobia is active. want to come up with at least one more though #mmmaybe him being an author doesnt play that well into his concept as a whole but hes my strangeguy so whatever

[ethanhuntfemmefatale]

thinking again about my beloved tracy thephiladelphiastory. what it means for a girl disillusioned by her father to say 'the right time to decide on someone is never.'

#there's so many threads of thought in this movie which really feels more exploratory than i think most people's reactions to it give it #credit for. there's an urge to take everything it gives you at face value but the morality of the movie is murky and contradictory #which i think is the most valuable part of it far more valuable than the efforts it makes to pin down a Moral. #anyway im going to be thinking about tracy for a long time. i see her in myself i can't help it #there's a thread through it all. tracy's inability to accept her own and others' weakness. her inability to #trust anyone after her father let her down. the way she holds herself at a distance from the world #so she can't be loved only worshipped. #if you never believe in anyone then you can't be let down #if you keep people on trial all the time you can stop them from being human and scary or at least punish them for it #if you keep yourself on trial all the time maybe your father will love you or maybe it will stop mattering that he doesn't #at least you wont ever become him #mike remarks how strange it is that dext knows so little about her even though they were married. dext says #is it? #of the three men he's the only one who sees her defenses for what they are. i find his arc of resentment-to-acceptance to be refreshing #he's not the moral arbiter in the end just the guy who recognizes that she's a bit ridiculous #and loves her for it #the philadelphia story

[405blazeitt]

starting around 2nd grade or so, i came up with this fantasy world with fantasy animals that can all communicate with each other, and it gradually evolved folklore and a collection of gods that i never quite decided were real or not in-universe

a key figure in said folklore was the god of darkness and ice (and cold and death etc etc) who was stripped of her powers and sealed away by the other gods for being too destructive for a few centuries, gets released by her followers, and regains her powers by gaining the following of the daughter of the 2 most powerful gods, light and life (ie the manifestation of spring), who'd hidden her in a regular village because her physical form was the same species as that of the god of darkness n ice n stuff

i haven't actively worked on anything from this world in a good while, but it came back to me a few days ago and i had the thought that eventually the dark god has a conversation with the god of plague (who's actually the manifestation of entropy and much older than any of them thought) and realizes that she's not cold or darkness or whatever, she's not a destructive force or an absence, but a manifestation of the universe itself trying to reach equilibrium

so she starts to make peace with the other gods because she no longer sees them as competitors but as a part of herself, and she now knows that even without her intervention she'll outlast them and probably see other planets arise with their own gods and she'll outlast those too, until it's just her and entropy

#anyway sealing away the “god of death” didn't stop death or cold or darkness from happening because that's entropy's job #who the other gods had misidentified as plague and was just rolling with it. entropy never overstepped its boundaries so they let it be. #a thing elementary school me thought of was ice/dark having an alliance with wind and water #now me thinks that wind and water ought to have known entropy's (and maybe ice/dark's) true identity before anyone else #i haven't decided whether fire and light should be separate entities but light/sun is the most powerful but also relatively hands-off #so life is functionally the one in charge on the planet #idk how powers work in this world because if power was linked to worship then the most powerful would be some grain god #....which i guess would also be life? huh. #i cant remember any of the gods' names but they each had 2 forms: one resembling a species from the planet and the other is a big ol dragon #elementary school me also had the idea that these stories would be told as stories in-universe #so there's a mix of stories that are mythology or legends and stories that are more historical fiction or biographical #maybe there's the people's perspective and the gods' perspective #where the people start off ignorant (eg separating grain and life) then become more aware than the gods (eg realizing ice/dark isn't evil)

[j-esbian]

see the problem with all of the puzzles in bg3 is like. sometimes the player (me) is stupid. and at least in a real dnd game you might get the dm to take pity on you

#the number of ‘’walkthroughs’’ that i’ve found that don’t actually. help #they tell you the map coordinates or whatever. what about if i cannot physically find what you’re talking about AT THOSE COORDINATES #or cannot figure out how to get to those coordinates (like when i spent three days trying to find karlach) #i’m in hell. actually still having a very hard time getting invested and like. not rly enjoying this game lmao #I AM PLAYING ON EXPLORER MODE AND SOMEONE GOES DOWN IN ALMOST EVERY COMBAT #also just. open world syndrome a little bit #too many quests that apparently i can’t actually move forward in yet. and too much open space #making me feel like. i need to go explore and grind when i just want to finish the quests i already have good lord #idrc about exploring every corner of the map. at this point??? #tried going into the mountain pass and it was like ‘hey you’re really low level. reconsider <3’ and im like #literally WHAT is there to do for me here #(it wanted me to go to the underdark. which i figured would progress the story so i was trying to find lae’zel’s crèche while we’re here??) #also on a non gameplay note #inSANE that all of the questlog items for daughter of darkness list her and i having interactions that We Did Not #got to act 2 and she’s like ‘hey i worship shar btw. this is supposed to be a reveal’ but like. the quest log told me that immediately?? #was i not supposed to read that?? she never told me that she wanted to join the justiciars. i never gave her the idol. #but it said all of those happened??? #maybe i’m biased bc my first save was trying to play as her but it REALLY feels like they’re pushing her to be the main character #like. kinda sucks how she’s the only companion you can check in with and say ‘how do you think we’re doing’ #and these fucking controls #why are the items hit boxes so weird. my cursor is a centimeter away and yet it still highlights something #the label isn’t actually next to the thing it’s describing so holding the alt key does nothing to show me where it is #god forbid you try to point at something through an open door #the fucking. camera angles. impossible to see what i’m doing or where i’m going because the trees and walls and shit keep getting in the way #straight up not having a good time #but this was a lot of money and i’ve heard it picks up #when tho #also the fact that i rly like wyll and he’s got like. nothing. id heard he has less content than other origins but #didn’t realize it was to a noticeable extent #maybe it’ll pick up and give him more to talk about once i save his dad. please god

[mimiatmidnight]

Went to visit my great aunt in the hospital and she and all the other old ladies in the room spent no less than 15 minutes discussing in DETAIL all the different kinds of operations they suspect Kate Middleton of having 😵‍💫🔫

#on the one hand its kind of funny to see celebrity culture transcend generations #if these ladies were born but a few decades later they would be absolutely entrenched in the weeds of stan twitter #on the other hand this conversation was so mind grating it made me want to kill myself and everyone in the room with me #i just barely escaped with my life by distracting her with a joke about her becoming such a yenta which made her laugh extremely hard #and then she started telling me a story about her own aunts when she was a kid and i nearly died of relief for the subject change #but rest assured I will remember this next time some boomer tries to imply our generation is somehow uniquely obsessed w/ celebrity worship #these ladies are 90 years old fanfic-ing about some random british woman having ovarian cysts like omg 😭😭😭 #didnt you people live through a WORLD WAR?? surely you have other things to think about