#sorry im just kinda stressed

[risenshiney]

💛🐶SCRIMBLY GOOD BOY HOURS

SKRUNKLY POTATO MOMENTS🐶💛

#oatchi #poochy #pikmin #yoshi island #super mario #drawing #fanart #PIKMIN 4 #IN 10 DAYS #WHAT CAN I SAY #IM WEAK TO SCRUNGY #only watched family play 1st and 2nd pikmin but couldn't get into it bc it seemed so STRESSFUL #but for this game i plan to make an exception #the japanese here is just onomatopoeia for barking staring and sleeping lol #oatchi looking kinda too off model but i liked how this came out ill draw him better next time waaaaa #also i finally post fandom content during its hype WHAT SWEET HECKERY IS THIS #prob not really accurate but the idea of poochy interacting w another tiny weird dog thingy made my heart a bit too full #sorry for the tag vomit i have feelings lmao

[dreamsy990]

some of the less nice thoughts about being aroace

extras below the cut

sketch

closeups on my favorite panels

bonus: adios

#doodles #kingdom hearts #roxas #axel #olette #aromantic #asexual #aroace #do i tag pence. hes in the background of one panel #ehhhh sorry pence no tag for you #also not tagging soriku and namixi #i mean by the logic of 'theyre in one panel so i wont tag them' i also shouldnt tag axel but. he has dialogue so #anyways i have a very irrational love of olette whenever i need a random side character in a kh comic? olette #i think she uses webmd. anyways im done talking about olette #so let me clarify about this comic #im aroace. this is all just things ive thought before #im not saying in any way these thoughts are real. theyre just thoughts #thats why it ends with 'but there isnt. its just me.' there IS nothing wrong with being aroace. even if it feels like it sometimes #im not trying to send a message im just trying to express a feeling ive had for a while #anyways. the aroace community is super positive and i like that. but not everything i feel about it is that positive #sometimes it feels like im missing something yknow #this comic seems like its about roxas. but its about me. congrats youve been fooled #drafted something similar to this for aro week but didnt finish it in time so this is spiritually part of asaw 2024 #btw sorry im not posting as many drawings lately #schools kinda stressful im pretty tired and busy most the time #i am throwing this drawing to you like a slab of meat to a pack of hungry dogs. take this meager ration in these trying times #alright i think thats it bye now

[goatpaste]

I know a sorta made a small post along these lines the other day, but something a lil more official of!!

im kinda broke rn, between the recent stuff with losing my car and having to get a new one and work literally scheduling me 13 hrs a week. Im slowly losing money and it got really bad this month after paying my bills and everything and realizing I had just 300 bucks in my bank account.

My current job hasn't been working with me to give me the hours i need to make a living wage and iv been trying to get a new job for months with no success and it's looking like i could really use a lil extra support via online commission work rn until I can land a more solid paying job. I really hate to sound like a desperate wet cardboard box beast but I still need to insure my new car and cant afford it as i stand right now.

I wont ask for donations, I think im going to be fine, but a lil money to help keep my head above the water would be great so im just gonna promo my commission work. To anyone who can commission me in some way or another would be awesome! I appreciate any support I can get rn even just a reblog

My Commission Info

My Kofi

My Etsy

My Toyhouse

#again sorry for sounding like im crying wolf with 200 in my account but i havent bought groceries this month #or my car insurance #im waiting for my next paycheck #so i kinda know its about to get sucked down the drain #i still havent bought christmas gifts for my brother and the cousins which i would really like to be able to if i could #again im not gonna die #so im not asking for donations #i will be fine #im just a lil money stressed and if i could branch out to try and get some commission work rn that would be a huge help #again im not asking for donations #there defiantly ppl who need it more than me #but if you were everythinkin to commission me and have the funds rn #i wouldnt mind if you reached out #i know its the holidays and everyone is probably low on funds #i see the situation as it is rn #but if i could just make an extra hundred or two i think it put my mind at ease a lil more for when its time to pay all my bills again

[vilyar]

was in the mood to draw my sylvaris, so here are the 'commander-i'm-too-old-for-this" and the eternal HK jailbird :*

#gw2 #sylvari #ehhh im so rusty i havent had time to draw in MONTHS... #but was in a mood ! so yay #tried not to stress about styles here and just do what i vibe with #kinda trying to learn that art is FUN and not so serious #oc: runoin #oc: aderthan #tbh i love how Aderthan is 50% intimidation and 50% iskämatskuu #sorry cant come up with english term kjdjfdf #my art v #also had so many chances to use HKing as a reason to practice drawing hands. did not #and if you saw me post this earlier: no you didnt <3

[hecksupremechips]

Come back home when you have some sense

You can throw your life away just not at my expense

You’re not the son I raised

#jhariah #this one just rawrrfrrr #and then uh another line thats like ‘tell me did you raise a man?’ #nice #im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it #god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like #hnnnghhh #hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot #the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM #sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like ‘i just want you to know im so so...’ #like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke #but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me #and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards #the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome #the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear #its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe #but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill #and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill #you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit #and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it #and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was #very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me #which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me #yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend 👍

[rosadellic]

let me clear myself up. i dont hate jennifer keller. shes just not a good replacement for carson and shes not good for a romance choice because, i cant stress this enough, forced canon het relationships are absolutely exhausting to see and sit through in a tv show that brought me so much comfort in middle school. also her being forced into being one of the "gang" is mildly aggravating because it was conceived with no organic buildup or presence. like why are they having lunch with her and chatting like theyre friends? she had barely any scenes before this episode.

#this rewatch is stressing me out and im on s4 lmao #i just kinda wanna roll into a ball and end on s3 but i cant #i miss weir i miss carson i miss ford so much #on the bright side everyone wearing leather is hot #besides ronon we love out earthy toned king #anyways sorry #misc #text #venting #stargate atlantis #i just know if this show was made today the lgbt would be much more prominant and healthy #im watching doppleganger btw

[catsockpuppet]

kinda a vent piece?!

under cut is same drawing but eyestrain warning :}

#its a vent kinda?? i draw eyestrain when im stressed cauz i love bright colors #art #artists on tumblr #digital art #spooky month #fanart #spooky month fanart #i feel guilty for drawing streber #im sorry i draw him so much #and im sorry i draw so much fanart in general #streber spooky month #i might not post for a while cu i just feel guilty whenever i do #i feel like no one rlly care sfor it and im just flooding the sm tag with my shitty art #sr pelo spooky month #sr pelo #spooky month streber #eyestrain #eyestrain art #neon art #ethan’s art

[attaboy-art]

watched evil dead with my bf the other night

[Image ID: A digital drawing of Ash Williams from The Evil Dead in profile in front of a dark background. He is covered in blood and looking towards the viewer from the side of his eye. There are two shining car headlights in the background. /.End ID.]

#this guy is gonna sit in my brain for the rest of my life now #also. um. hai #so. sorry about not posting art for like Months #(or at least not posting art on This blog) #i got. really fucked up by stress & burn out so i kinda just stopped for a while and committed to writing #(which i may or may not share to this blog) #ive had a few ideas for layton art but like. auuugh. i shouldn't have done those art weeks. i really shouldn't have #i think i just overworked myself plain & simple #ill probably come back to it sometime down the line but for now ... Im just gonna post whatever i guess #no promises! #anyways #I love ashley joanna williams with all of my heart #evil dead #ash williams #evil dead 1981 #art #my art #illustration

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

damn... kinda mad i didn't die in my dream last night... could've added another method to the list

#all that 'oh god im gonna die' dream stress for Nothing smh #got stabbed... i mean it was kinda my own damn fault but also was it? was it. #it was absolutely fault when the blade had to be removed but yk. didnt die so it was whatever #shaking a fist at last night's dream like COWARD!!! #what was Interesting though was upon waking up #i was still kinda dozing and i held my position #and i was very careful moving as to not jostle the knife. Not Realizing Yet. that that was a dream and was now awake #there is no knife in ba sing se #but damn. gnarly #usually i dont have to go through the whole 'coming to terms with my imminent demise' in these sort'a dreams #its typically Fast #the longest dream-death ive ever had was that one where i got shot #but even that wasnt That long #its just that the others are usually immediate. and non-wound based #absolutely unprompted #sorry to dream post but Hey tumblr blog is my personal diary. To Me <3 #its weird tho that this is the second time ive had a death or death-adjacent dream #where i woke up convinced that it was Real #knife wound.... legit asking myself if im dead after another... fun stuff! #these dreams are very interesting. in a morbid way i enjoy them

[squuote]

I think people should be allowed to share their distaste for certain headcanons n such without people making posts about how they’re ‘gatekeeping’. for as much as I’m a ‘do what you want’ kinda dude, I do think that includes allowing people to express why they don’t enjoy something. like most people are pretty civil bout it until you antagonize them by pointing and saying they’re ‘policing’ spaces.

#crow thoughts #sorry fandom stuff is like. kinda stressing me out a bit #and it’s kinda making me nervous to post opinions on things. #additionally I think people need to hear out minorities when it comes to things and not antagonize them #additionally if they aren’t going up to people and saying rude shit or actively posting rude shit in the tags #what does it matter if they don’t enjoy your headcanon? #like I’ve already seen four different posts all talking about fandom negativity and it’s like. just block them. #additionally maybe also don’t put those posts in the main tags? especially if the other person just posted it to their blog :-| #im not explaining this correctly. I just don’t have good experience with people who point and claim negativity #especially in the context of actual criticism about character design preferences and the treatment of certain designs #like you cannot deny that people treat fat designs very differently from skinny designs #ur not a bad dude for having a skinny design but you gotta allow people to discuss and critique things #idk I’m just tired as fuck seeing people in the main tags make longass posts about an opinion from a handful of people- #-who only posted it to their blog and not directly in the tags yknow? #if I get too anxious I’ll delete this but for now I’ll post this

[transannabeth]

one of the editorial jobs i applied to relisted the job on indeed and i'm just like. yall. i'm completely at a loss. i do not know what they want i do not know how to get companies to have any interest in me i really do not know what to do to appeal to anyone

#the career center person looking at my resume was like you've done a lot and a lot of interesting things #you clearly are good at getting jobs #AM I?? AM I REDACTED???? #sorry im just. i am!!! stressed. distraught. frankly kinda very upset about this because i think i would be ok at this one #not pjo #chitter chatter #tea tries to get a job

[smearedgore]

a 20 something razputin + his mentor because why not. i think theyre good friends.

REBLOGS > LIKES

close-ups + info under cut.

alright close up done, some stuff about this bc i do have thoughts.

His specialization is levitation, clairvoyance and Telekinesis. Though he's really good at most psychic skills. He's mostly in stakeouts, and infiltration missions. The occassional retrieval of stolen goods. He's surprisingly REALLY good at lying.

To hollis' shagrin

He's drawn as early 20s. like 22-23~ around then

still a junior agent, people dont really take him seriously seriously at the moment. he's fighting his way through to be considered elite. But hollis' teacher instincts simply Dont Allow It

He's no longer dating Lili. Mostly cuz like. shit didnt work out. theyre BEST FRIENDS though. like the closest of buddies. you'll catch him dead before he talks ill of that girl on god.

he's really smart and incredibly skilled, but horribly reckless in missions. self preservation is NON existant

Sasha still mentors him closely. Basically they're mission duo whenever sasha's not out on missions with milla or doing something else. Both to sasha's pride and disdain

Sasha's barely 33 and he's already getting grey hairs from this kid because he gets himself almost killed every other mission. someone save him why did he decide to mentor this child.

he's too attached to stop now though.

#gregor says: hyperfix stuff. #gregor says: talent show of mine. #razputin aquato #sasha nein #psychonauts #adult raz #sasha loves this child but MY GOD why is he like this. #he cant handle this much stress at this old age (he's barely in his early 30s) #i do hc that sasha started the psychonauts when he was young as well just not as young as raz #probably around 14-15 yo #so id say thats why sasha kinda gravitates towards mentoring raz #sees his younger self in him type beat #EDITED POST #sorry for the added disclaimer #its just a personal thing. probably shouldve clarified earlier #not mad at anyone for liking im glad u guys enjoy #just prefer the reach

[malwarechips]

ok hot take: arti is NOT balanced. specifically her combat. not in an overpowered way, but the opposite. she's not strong enough for combat against scavengers. arti has ZERO abilities to resist spears outside of the parry, which requires timing and honestly quite impressive reaction speed. ("just turn the game speed down!" some people cant play with the speed lowered! (me) ive been playing since before downpour and ive NEVER used the mushrooms so im USED to this speed. turning it down throws me off so much that id die MORE) sure, she can resist explosives somewhat, she wont die to them, but she still gets stunned anyways. so who cares if shes immune to death from explosives when she cant do anything PASSIVELY about spears, the thing that matters. you survive a grenade, but then you get stabbed in the head a second later and die anyways. scavengers weren't designed to be fought. they have a reputation system for a reason. they're the sort of creature you dont fuck with because they WILL fuck your shit up beyond belief. arti goes against all of that. and shes not strong enough to. she doesn't have resistences to what MATTERS. fighting large groups can be near impossible sometimes. and sure, you can avoid those most times, but you physically cannot in metro. you HAVE to fight them at least SOMEWHAT to even get through.

i understand how people can like arti. but the problem is she's simply not strong enough. i understand that rain world is MEANT to be difficult, but arti takes it too far imo. she's difficult into unfairness. sure, losing karma doesn't matter. but doing the same thing again and again and again just... is terrible. even if you take a different route. i took different routes almost every other time i died while playing arti. i still got sick of dying. i was so relieved when i beat it. i never plan on playing her again. she brought me genuine, terrible stress. she killed my drive to want to play rain world for a while; the thought of just opening it stressed me out. games are meant to be fun. i can understand how arti could be, but she just isnt to me. she's not fun. she will never be fun for me without significant altering. and even then, i highly doubt i could ever bring myself to play her again. just looking at her select screen art makes me anxious.

#i want to emphasise that i dont care if ppl do enjoy arti. im glad. i have nothing against ppl who enjoyed her campaign #its just.. i wish i knew people who had the same experience as i did #''get the arti revives on kill mod!'' i have it. ive had it the entire time . i have it set to the max time it will let me set it to. #it barely helped #sorry that this turned into more of a vent i just . really needed to get this out . #ive always struggled with feeling like im bad at games and will never get better and just . #seeing everyone else LOVE arti's campaign just... has made that so much worse. #i love arti as a character . i really do. #i think her campaign has potential. but its not executed well . #i WANTED to like it. i TRIED to like it. i cant. #i both understand how people could and dont understand at the same time. #how can you guys cope with doing the same thing 60 times in a row? does it not stress you out? does it not get boring? #do you not get sick of it? i dont get it #i just ... want to feel good at something. #i felt somewhat good at rain world for a while . i still do sometimes . but then i remember arti. and i feel like an outlier again . #lev.txt #hyperfixation.txt #vent #<- kinda #rain world #long post #<- somewhat . idk

[bunnihearted]

🐁☁️🌫️

#sorry gnna sound like a shit person now but im not feeling well i just need to rant #nothing good ever happens to me. every aspect of my life is a mess. im constantly miserable w nothing to pull me out of it #it's been getting worse nd worse for years nd if it keeps getting worse im not gnna be able to take it much longer #ofc there are sooo many others who have it way way way worse than i do. so i feel weak nd pathetic for being so affected by it when i know #it could be literally sm worse than it is now. like i get that. i know im not nearly as bad off as many ppl are #but idk still it's rlly tough to have *nothing* that makes me keep going. the literal only thing is that i dont kms bc i dont wanna hurt mom #bc im poor so i cant do ANYTHING. i cant go anywhere. not the cinema not concerts not to the mall not to the bookstore not an amusent park #i cant even go to cafées bc i dont have any money at all to spend on that #i have no friends to hang out w. even if i couldnt afford going anywhere i cant even just take a walk or sit nd talk to them bc there r none #my sisters havent talked for me in over a year #and like yada yada i dont have anything to pull me out of my misery bubble. no friends to comfort me no family to hang out w #nothing to do or nowhere to go. hell i havent even been able to eat for 8 months so i cant even like eat smth yummy nd watch a movie lmao #i cant even read bc of the constant noise! i cant go out into the forest bc there r always subway construction work or choppers or gun shots #i know im 'focusing on the negative' but what am i supposed to do when theres nothing positive to focus on lol????? #im always physically uncomfortable bc of pain nd health issues nd im always anxious nd stressed too so like... yay #and. this is where i sound mean but like after years nd years of nothing good happening to me... idc for others anymore like #when they talk abt their loving relationships and their kind friends nd them going to concerts im like.. wow !! u get to be happy!! i dont!! #im just envious nd jealous nd bitter bc why cant i have ANYTHING good???? not just ONE fkn thing? #other ppl get to have multiple things but i get nothing????? #and its not exactly like i hate them or wish illwill on them im just like wow kinda dont feel sympathy for u bc u have sm things #i've never had :))) nd u can never understand how awful it feels to be deprived of it so idc :))))

[dahldahlbills]

I really need to get serious about personal projects again

#I think I said something like this last year too lol #currently in a weird headspace about it #the biggest reason why I lost focus on them was bc I prioritized engaging in fandom #(something that I never really did when I was focused on publishing a few years back) #so part of me feels like in order to make considerable progress on projects again I need to cut myself off from fandom #and I kinda have been weening myself off a bit from animanga but not really for that reason #it was mostly bc I was getting overwhelmed by how much I was consuming and I wanted to appreciate things fully #I don’t think I’d cut myself off from fandom completely either I’d still try to keep up with stuff #but the idea of not engaging in fandom anymore kinda.. scares me? #idk I feel like a major loser admitting this lol #it just feels like I’d lose a lot of connections with people #and would lose a lot of the love I have for stories if I’m not actively interacting with them :( #and then there’s also that stupid feeling of being a ‘fake fan’ because I’m not dedicating every single second of free time to fandom #which is dumb bc like I have a life and need to make money yknow I got things to do #im just Stressed bc I’m at such a critical stage career wise and im getting closer to 26 so hhhhh healthcare coverage will be up in the air #so I really can’t afford to dawdle #there’s just so much I wanna do and while I’m not necessarily racing to get it done I still want to take advantage of the time I have #but it also sucks feeling like I’m giving up a part of myself to progress on another part of myself #I don’t think any of this makes sense sorry I just needed to dump my thoughts bc I am Terrified™️ #anyway personal projects! gotta get back to those ! #blahblahbills #delete later

[the-kipsabian]

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#today was such a long fucking day and i was made so fucking uncomfortable i literally threatened to walk out of a fucking funeral #i got told im dressed inappropriately just because im perceived as a girl and i was wearing pants #PANTS. #theres no such thing as a funeral dress code that prevents me from wearing pants. people just didnt like it #i got told by two extended family members that i was inappropriate. and later also by my mom #who didnt say anything when they picked me up. it was fine by her at that time but later when others said it wasnt fine? yeah #im so fucking tired man #i know the extended half family doesnt like me ive always been a black sheep but this just. yeah #at a funeral no less #i dont want to see these people ever again im so fucking tired. i dont want to see anyone ever again tbh #just let me sleep forever and rot away please im tired #sorry my headache makes me angry and upset just. its all just so much #im just glad this whole hassle is over and i dont have to think about this anymore. but between all the stress and anxiety and grief #and everything else? yeah this. this aint it fam #im so mentally fucking shot i just want to sleep but my body is still kinda in a fight or flight mode with this and the grief its so hard #and my head hurts. so yeah. i dont fucking know #i just need someone to hold me before i combust #again sorry #night is an absolute mess on main