#at a funeral no less

[the-kipsabian]

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#today was such a long fucking day and i was made so fucking uncomfortable i literally threatened to walk out of a fucking funeral #i got told im dressed inappropriately just because im perceived as a girl and i was wearing pants #PANTS. #theres no such thing as a funeral dress code that prevents me from wearing pants. people just didnt like it #i got told by two extended family members that i was inappropriate. and later also by my mom #who didnt say anything when they picked me up. it was fine by her at that time but later when others said it wasnt fine? yeah #im so fucking tired man #i know the extended half family doesnt like me ive always been a black sheep but this just. yeah #at a funeral no less #i dont want to see these people ever again im so fucking tired. i dont want to see anyone ever again tbh #just let me sleep forever and rot away please im tired #sorry my headache makes me angry and upset just. its all just so much #im just glad this whole hassle is over and i dont have to think about this anymore. but between all the stress and anxiety and grief #and everything else? yeah this. this aint it fam #im so mentally fucking shot i just want to sleep but my body is still kinda in a fight or flight mode with this and the grief its so hard #and my head hurts. so yeah. i dont fucking know #i just need someone to hold me before i combust #again sorry #night is an absolute mess on main

[canisalbus]

i've returned for 2 seconds to tell you that they're not leaving my head. (sort of unrelated but i've been thinking as well. what if vasco died before machete ? what would go down)

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#ah this is so terribly cute #makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside #“possessed by the vaschete spirit” you and me both #their expressions are so sweet #couple of dorks #and I like the dusty desaturated color scheme! with pink and darker brown accents #gift art #insect-shenanigans #own characters #Vasco #Machete #as for what would happen if Vasco died first #and I'm assuming of natural causes like illness or old age #I suppose Machete would try to sneakily sponsor his funeral #throw the fanciest burial possible #and maybe add some kind of anonymous half hidden obscure tragiromantic inscription on the grave #about wishing to see him again one day #and then either go on to do what Vasco did and commission art in his honor #or get a bad case of widowhood effect and go downhill quickly after his passing #oh yeah he might start to financially support Vasco's widow so that there was a little less pressure on her to get remarried #as you may remember she's a lesbian and one lavender marriage was probably enough for her #I can see that being a thing in certain circumstances

[geosaurus]

sinner, you better get ready

#aura blackquill #simon blackquill #athena cykes #ace attorney #dual destinies #i know i should have looked up japanese funeral traditions for Metis but researching it made me sad. sorry >_< #Also I hope Aura's critique of masculinity comes thru- that its constructed to extract value from the working class & excuse state violence #it changes how I percieve Auras resentment of Athena- its almost less directed at her and more at the concept of innocence itself #that is: the binary of innocence & guilt which a foundational myth of the carceral state and simon wields against himself to save athena. #ANYWAY Aura have big tiddy and hate the system and that is why we simp #Also the subtitle is a linga ignotica lyric and a folk song

[originalaccountname]

head in hands the events of Storm Bringer took place over the span of 2 days I'm going too scream

Chuuya wakes up -> goes to Old World with the Flags -> is kidnapped by Adam -> fights Verlaine -> finds the dead Flags -> end of day 1

Flags' funeral (bright sunny day) -> team up with Adam -> Shirase meeting -> police station and Murase -> contact with N -> meeting at the lab -> Verlaine kidnaps N (sunset/evening sky) -> fight with Verlaine (night) -> end of day 2

(and part of the epilogue happens two months later)

#based on adam saying on the day of the flags' funeral that he repaired himself ''after yesterday's fighting'' #of course chuuya doesn't process the shit that happens to him he doesn't even have the TIME to do it #he did all of that in less than 48 hours i'm unwell #bsd #storm bringer #stormbringer #apparently i talk sometimes

[scintillatingshortgirl19]

i am begging one single person in this entire show to consider, for perhaps one single second, THE POSSIBILITY THAT THERE IS A REASON HOUSE HATES HIS DAD THIS MUCH

#everyone is so dreadfully shocked and confused by him not wanting to go to his own father's funeral #but not no one makes any real effort to find out why #and that's not to say house would actually talk about it #(though tbh he might if someone asked in a genuinely nonjudgmental way. and he does tell wilson a couple of things.) #but either way it just feels like everyone is assuming #that house is just being an asshole for the sake of being an asshole #and it has occurred to no one that house's late father could possibly be at fault for his son not wanting to attend his funeral #i just. it would be nice if someone would consider the notion #that a person not wanting to be at their parent's funeral might have a valid reason for that #(like abuse. or something) #anyway this was a good episode #i'm always up for for daddy issues and hilson road trips #(i am considerably less up for forcing abuse survivors to honor their dead abusers) #house md #house season 5 #house 5x4 #op #john house

[oh-katsuki]

yk when someone dies and you just have to... sit with it.. and you're like... how do i tell people something is wrong. how do i tell people who never met them or knew them or spoke to them that something happened. and it feels selfish somehow to even talk about it out loud but at the same time for some reason you feel like you have to. like somehow you're telling a lie or being disrespectful or being self-indulgent. when the reality is that you just don't want to be alone in grief. but they didn't know them and even after saying something, you're alone anyway.

#i don't even know what to do with myself #for some reason #talking abt it here feels less intrusive than calling a friend and talking about it #but it still feels selfish for some reason #even though i know i just need to find a way to process #and i can't help but be like.. well i won't tell anyone because what if it's a mistake? #what if she's fine? and at home somewhere or in her kitchen singing? #or practicing for her next show #idk grief is weird #and i hate that i'll have to go to another friend's funeral. #tw: grief #tw: death #vent #personal

[buqbite]

1864 | 999

#Uriel uriel uriel I love you uriel #Just some more practise sketches so I can draw the different uriels #I think 999 uriel should look a little less “fun” #aka straighter hair (well its flames at the ends of it so like. eh. tough luck uriel. and a dress that looks like a funeral gown) #Also the (singular) wing looking different. 1864 uri (yuri..) looks more like a stone angel wing #whereas 1864 is kinda fucked up and on fire a lot #orv #omniscient readers viewpoint #orv spoilers #orv uriel #demon like judge of fire #the living flame #my art

[kuro-ayameart]

Frieren

#sousou no frieren #frieren #frieren: beyond journey's end #sorry for the inactivity #Expect less drawings for a while #Burnout and irl things are eating me #frieren at the funeral #frieren fanart #my art #sd art #artists on tumblr #manga #drawing #art #anime #illustration #draw #black and white

[sp4mja]

Btw I've been thinking about this for a while but the last time Ramón saw his dads together was in the funeral of his death siblings, Spreen threaten to kill Dapper in front of him, and this was literally like 8 months ago.

I can totally see why he's excited to have a new present and kind father figure in his life.

#qsmp #qsmp ramón #well and by extension #hideduo #like imagine. you are less than a month old. your dad is kinda mean to you but he made you a nice basement #you never see him and he never wants to see you.so you only see your other dad who is slowly warming up to you #and then he comes back for the funeral of youe siblings. talking about playing futbol. he fights your other dad. and then downs the dad #of your best friend so he can win the right to kill him #but then its all a joke and you never see him again #next time tou hear if him hes dead #and now your nice dad has something with this nice guy #so yeah. 2 plus 2 is new dad #go for it Ramón!! get that dad!!! #hes so happy euueueueueueu #fran.txt

[confusedsiewmai]

Sometimes, I don't like looking at Frieren fandom things is because it feels so alienating as an aroace person sometimes.

I relate to Frieren in a lot of ways. The way she goes through life at her own speed, the way she has a certain way of doing things that is hard to change, the way she struggles to fully understand others but is still compassionate and tries, and last but not least, the way she doesn't feel romantic or sexual attraction the way most people do.

So when a fan posts something about how elves like Frieren don't really feel romantic or sexual attraction and it's wonderful that Himmel's unrequited love with her is still portrayed as something beautiful, healthy and valued, but the comments section is just filled with people being like: No!!!! That's not true!!! Frieren loves Himmel even though she doesn't realise it!!!!

Or even the more "generous" ones are like: No!!! She is just falling in love with him years later!!! The whole story is about how she regrets not pursuing it until it was too late!!!!

And like, every person has their own interpretation and ships. But it really is a bit saddening as an aroace person that sees Frieren also as an aroace who probably would never feel as much romantic love for Himmel EVER. People have almost this... need to correct people that Frieren loves Himmel romantically.

#sousou no frieren #frieren at the funeral #talking to myself #aromantic #aroace #asexual #of course. i have only watched the anime. but the source material itself has said that elves are not in touch with their romantic feelings #i think that is VERY aroace #and should therefore make frieren's feelings up for interpretation #and less of smth ppl rush to correct. like its AWFUL that frieren doesnt return himmel's feelings #and it hurts me a bit... because i see so much of myself in frieren #why r ppl ok with her living her life at mostly her own pace and struggling to understand ppl #but not so much with her aroace-ness.... u know? #and if anyone is interested abt my interpretation of frieren's feelings #frieren sees himmel as a pillar and closest friend. her entire journey is her grief over losing such an important person in her life #the only other person like that for her was flamme. and she managed to spend time with her till her death #but she miscalculated this one and ended up only staying with him for ten years #((another reason why i really connect with frieren is definitely her grief and regrets))

[muppetbyers]

joyce has been to both will and hopper’s funerals and she still saved them both btw. if you even care

#idk like the woman brought back two people from the dead due to the sheer power of her love #like who else #'lmao joyce and her magnets!!!' she is literally noticing patterns and making connections and she is always right too #sorry i was thinking about wills funeral and realised hopper wasnt there but that will has been to his. and so now im just in agony #like joyce had to bury her son. and then less than two years later she had to bury the only person she had who understood it all #like fuck. what the fuck #joyce byers #will byers #jim hopper #byers hopper family #jopper #i guess? #byler #not byler related #mine

[sesamenom]

Hunting of the Dragon

What if the Arkenstone really was a Silmaril? (very late, but inspired by arofili's @funwithfanon prompts from last march!)

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Galadriel, Celeborn, and Thranduil are the only people on the right side of the mountains that a) have fought a dragon (mostly in the war of wrath) b) remember the Hunting of the Wolf and c) are mentally stable enough to be trusted around a silmaril (more or less)

so of course they end up having to fight silmaril-raged smaug. (he sat on it and now it's stuck to his bald spot)

since the sindar don't have metal armor galadriel is the only tank, and therefore the person on dragon-stabbing duty.

celeborn is the spearman in charge of keeping smaug from escaping or mauling someone else (and also making sure the silmaril doesn't fall on galadriels head, because at that point it definitely would still burn her)

thranduil is supposed to be doing air control to keep smaug from flying up and torching everyone, but he decided it would be a great idea to jump-dive at the dragon's head.

(version with fire because i couldnt decide which one i liked better)

#silm #silmarillion #lotr #lord of the rings #the hobbit #galadriel #celeborn #thranduil #smaug #elrond would have also been volunteered for dragon-stabbing if only he lived less than a year of travel west of the lonely mountain #daeron is probably in the area but he has never fought a dragon and also would probably have a nauglamir-trauma breakdown #of all of them galadriel is probably the most used to dealing with the silmaril light since she basically has a silmaril for hair #celeborn and thranduil lived in doriath for long enough to at least know what to expect #the dwarves are currently too scattered to be of much help (unless thrain wants to pull an azaghal) #unfortunatley smaug has wings; less respect than glaurung; and far less things to distract him #so a mid battle funeral would be rather ill advised #galadriel is reckless enough to dive at smaugs face #but she is also experienced enough at dragons to know that stabbing it is generally more effective

[brother-emperors]

Do you think there s any parallels to Brutus and Cleopatra, after they each have to bury Cassius and Mark Anthony?

oh for sure! I've written a little about the narrative comparisons between the two pairs with regards to HBO Rome.

I have less thoughts about antony and cleopatra in a historical kind of way, but it is interesting that they're like. a decayed narrative parallel to brutus and cassius in the greater theater of history (ends of an era). cassius and antony (gladiators, baby!) both commit suicide, but antony's suicide gets real fucked up: he's straight up denied a clean end to his own life. on the other hand, cleopatra and brutus are such hard opposites to each other, both in politic and reception, that it's difficult to find themes that work for them both the way that antony and cassius have, without discussing much broader subjects like transitional time periods.

but in a way. cleopatra and antony also fulfill the statesman-gladiator pairing. so. there might be something there.

#i have less thoughts about antony and cleopatra historically bc i find the focus on their doomed romance tragedy arc tedious at best #there is. a historical pair that i think brutus and cassius have a strong parallel to and i wrote it down somewhere. SOMEWHERE #when i find it i'll update this with that. or make a comparatives post about it #eh maybe theres a parallel between antony being denied a clean suicide and brutus not giving cassius a funeral bc he didnt want to #bring down morale. like okay buddy but one of you is going to be a ghost that's going to keep caligula awake at night. #the romantic in me says brutus did it to keep octavian from doing corpse desecration #the less romantic part of me is gesturing at spartacus and crixus and yelling 'YOU'RE SKIPPING A THEMATIC PARALLEL PAL' #no wonder you couldn't win without cassius smh. you should've done gladiatorial games with octavian's captured soldiers #but that would require you. to do. a funeral. biting him for that. #ask tag

[soldier-poet-king]

'bereavement leave only applies to immediate family' okay wig tell me these policies were written by western individualist society WASPs without explicitly telling me so

Not attending a cousin's funeral?? In MY family?? With the approximately seven billion aunts and uncles and assorted relatives??? Lmao okay. I literally do not understand these ppl who assume everyone is like them and dont have a large extended family and accompanying obligations (regardless of whether or not I /like/ this family, Im gonna/gotta go)

#also its literallly not my fault i have to be gone for 4 days of work #bc its far away #and not like a little day jaunt for a funeral #the duality of Fran #its starting to hit me now and i. just. overwhelmed and tired and weepy #and i wasnt even CLOSE to my cousin. she annoyed me alot!!! we barely saw each other #i selfishly am more worried about having to manage my fathers emotions #and the whole extended family drama #over the next few days #lowkey staying home would be preferrable but im not gonna do that im gonna be responsible #and there is smthn to be said about presence and a duty to the dead #even if no one else sees it like that. and mt whole family does drama #to me. to ME. there is an important duty to the dead. the waiting. the accompanying #its a duty and its also peaceful #ive long thought id have been a good graveyard keeper #less the physical elements #more the records and tombstones and paperwork #of some large long historied place #caring for the memory of it #yknow the rolls and registers anora speaks of in the cemeteries of amalo #and how none of the prelates want the public cemetary duty?? i would do well there

[dumortains]

ok since rooks grave was brought up, how often do your detectives visit it?

#the wayhaven chronicles #twc #twc book 3 #liv goes there often and leaves little trinkets #she feels closer to him and like she can talk to him there #but after finding out the truth about him and his death it would be harder to go there #cuz now she knows the few things she thought she knew about him were a lie #and it makes her feel like she knows him even less and going there would be a reminder of that #and now would make her feel even more disconnected from him :/// #lex probably has only been there at the funeral #she takes a similar approach to dealing w grief as rebecca so avoids thinking too much about him #pearl.txt #oc: alexis kingston #oc: olivia greene #game: the wayhaven chronicles

[lunari162]

gladiolus ✧ forsythia ✧ cornflower ✧ gerbera daisy

Miku, happy 16th anniversary <3

#vocaloid #hatsune miku #miku hatsune #miku16th #初音ミク誕生祭2023 #初音ミク生誕祭2023 #初音ミク16周年 #初音ミク #in hindsight this feels less like a celebration and more like a funeral #but i started this so late that i didn't have time to change the plan #i'm so stupid #there are 16 flowers- originally i was going to have 11 but things did not go as planned #my art