#sorry gnna sound like a shit person now but im not feeling well i just need to rant

[silenthillbunni]

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#sorry gnna sound like a shit person now but im not feeling well i just need to rant #nothing good ever happens to me. every aspect of my life is a mess. im constantly miserable w nothing to pull me out of it #it's been getting worse nd worse for years nd if it keeps getting worse im not gnna be able to take it much longer #ofc there are sooo many others who have it way way way worse than i do. so i feel weak nd pathetic for being so affected by it when i know #it could be literally sm worse than it is now. like i get that. i know im not nearly as bad off as many ppl are #but idk still it's rlly tough to have *nothing* that makes me keep going. the literal only thing is that i dont kms bc i dont wanna hurt mom #bc im poor so i cant do ANYTHING. i cant go anywhere. not the cinema not concerts not to the mall not to the bookstore not an amusent park #i cant even go to cafées bc i dont have any money at all to spend on that #i have no friends to hang out w. even if i couldnt afford going anywhere i cant even just take a walk or sit nd talk to them bc there r none #my sisters havent talked for me in over a year #and like yada yada i dont have anything to pull me out of my misery bubble. no friends to comfort me no family to hang out w #nothing to do or nowhere to go. hell i havent even been able to eat for 8 months so i cant even like eat smth yummy nd watch a movie lmao #i cant even read bc of the constant noise! i cant go out into the forest bc there r always subway construction work or choppers or gun shots #i know im 'focusing on the negative' but what am i supposed to do when theres nothing positive to focus on lol????? #im always physically uncomfortable bc of pain nd health issues nd im always anxious nd stressed too so like... yay #and. this is where i sound mean but like after years nd years of nothing good happening to me... idc for others anymore like #when they talk abt their loving relationships and their kind friends nd them going to concerts im like.. wow !! u get to be happy!! i dont!! #im just envious nd jealous nd bitter bc why cant i have ANYTHING good???? not just ONE fkn thing? #other ppl get to have multiple things but i get nothing????? #and its not exactly like i hate them or wish illwill on them im just like wow kinda dont feel sympathy for u bc u have sm things #i've never had :))) nd u can never understand how awful it feels to be deprived of it so idc :))))

[bxngthedoldrums]

im going insane over gabilliam today so im sorry if this is annoying, but which cobra starship songs do u think are about william? personally ive always thought (aside from the kids are all fucked up) keep it simple, you can’t be missed and one day robots will cry are about him lol

u are so valid and this is not annoying at all its actually what i Love 2 Do so thank u

im not gnna be talking abt any late midtown (idk it well enough!) or anything from night shades (i pretend this album doesnt exist) so past that let’s just go album by album,,,

lets start w OBVIOUSLY the kids are all fucked up - since i detailed it in a post a bit ago i won’t get in2 it here but it’s pretty self-explanatory,,past that, while the city sleeps has it’s warmer in the basement. i FEEL LIKE gabe himself joked w william abt this being about him, so if my memory isn’t failing me i’ll try to find a source abt that...i dont think the song is really about him as its kinda just a joke song but its worth noting

keep it simple !!!! this song fucking OWNS and i agree w you,, “i’m down if you don’t expect any more from me” is SO telling,,, yall Know how william talks abt gabe in his songs about him, that kinda looking up to/respecting/being intimidated kinda way. yeah. the rest of it is just cutesy partying stuff and that tracks w them i love it

YOU CANT BE MISSED !!! this song goes CRAZY the chorus is so poignant and “we’re too young / i hate to love you” UMM let us fondly recall william Was 21 when this album came out and like 18 when they met...makes u think....”we’re too fast for love” is a sentiment that has been expressed similarly in some other cobra songs and some tai songs as well !!!

one day robots will cry has always felt like a continuation of you cant be missed to me? so it goes without saying that its prob abt william,, i mean “don’t be afraid my dear / now i’m older” when he just talked abt them being too young in you can’t be missed,, “i’m dying not to hurt you” HOMIE.... “when you were young you kept a list / of the things you’d miss as you got older” sounds like one certain aquarius we know but who’s guessing !!! also the whole “sleep for days” thing just echoes the whole sharing a bed shit both cs and tai talk about OFTEN 

these r the ones u mentioned, but allow me to add on the world has it’s shine. “the way i’m living makes you feel like giving up” compared to the lyrics in chop chop? bruh “i’m gonna make my way home / we can turn our backs on the past” lil similar to the vibe of robots imo....im not even gonna explain these next few lines all u gotta do is read them and u will understand: “i used to dream you up and make you up in my mind” “all i’ve ever wanted is to be understood / you’ve been the only one who could” “not long ago i gave up hope / but you came along and gave me something i could hold onto” ok not long ago sdfghjhgfd when this came out in 2007...ALRIGHT OK ALRIGHT

i may be crucified for this but pleasure ryland sdfghj it seems like such a cutesy jokey song gabe wld definitely write for william to tease him,,like cmon,, “be my hoe ‘cause i’m your moneymaker” also “my heart, it breaks when you get on your knees / won’t you let me take you home?” he’s got JOKES guys gals and nb pals

hot mess is a bit scarce in the gabilliam department other than fuckin FOLD YOUR HANDS CHILD !!!!! HOW THE F U C K . . . whyd they let him release that like truly not one person sat gabe down and was like “maybe this ones too obvious or smth” ... ofc not because pete wentz was enabling his ass and we all know pete’s treacherous past...

anyway that’s some cobra starship songs about william beckett. thank u so much

#gw #made sure 2 choose songs not using she/her or words like 'girl' as well :)