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bigkickguy · 5 months

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Have u played canto 5? Its v good

I have seen some screenshots! Some of the character designs look so cool!!! and I'm excited to see what the story is about cause Ishmael is so interesting to me! I want to know what her deal is!!! I'm not playing the game unfortunately since I what happened with how the company treated some workers really sucked. I work in the games industry too, so the idea that someone would fire / bribe a resignation of a coworker or me over something someone on the internet said is so insane to me. Especially how stupid the pinching hand gesture call is, like its crazy. I can't get over it personally haha. It could also just be the worlds worst handling of public messaging too? But having worked too many places weird shit like this happens - I don't trust like that not without some kind of external proof. I am on the fence on if I will play again or not! It really depends on how the investigation will go if they end up doing one! I love the world and the characters and I still think it is the best mobile game I've ever played!! But it's much harder for me to enjoy the themes now knowing what the company chose to do or not do in real life. So I am holding off watching the chapter for now - if I do end up feeling alright playing the game again I think it will be fun to play through an experience the story as I play it! And if I do I'll probably scream and get all excited over it then! But if I decide not to play again I'll probably just watch it at some point!

#kickguyreply #sorry if I'm being a downer haha but that's how it is for me #i hear its very gay in chapter 5 and im so so excited - i saw ahab's design and i started doodling again haha #I still draw things every once in a while I just don't post them :')#but i also do this with various games and studios - like with riotgames lmao #hard to enjoy arcane given the main draw seems to be cool women when they're facing multiple lawsuits for being Awful to women in real life #also the whole job contract issue signing away your rights to a lawyer... and trying to sue the makers of the original warcraft mod...#i was pretty into LoL cause the characters and world were cool and it was fun - but i can just focus on other things now haha #can never answer a single question without going into a tag ramble sorry sorry hadkfjghadfkg

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toastsnaffler · 1 year

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coming to terms with having adhd is like wow so my brain has been broken all my fucking life and always will be. and when I felt like everything was unfair + more difficult for me than everyone else thats because it is actually. and it will always be like this forever. hope that helps 👍

#and also all my concerns abt being high risk for substance abuse + self harm + suicide are now statistically proven 👍#not to mention risks of debt/houselessness + the whole spectrum of attachment/relationship issues etcetera #the likelihood of me having adhd is inescapable theres too much evidence for it. but I cant even think abt it without having a breakdown #my execution function hasn't been functioning for weeks and I'm so fucking tired I just want to be able to do shit. please #also so sick of ppl being like oh adhd is so fun it means youre more creative + energetic haha 🤪 whenever I try to talk abt it #like actually not to be a downer but its ruining my fucking life. its not some 'superpower' or coveted quirk. kindly shut the fuck up #maybe it would just be a fun different type of brain if society was structured differently. but its not! so it will always be a hindrance #I think I need to try and find a therapist to see who specialises in or has experience w adhd bc I am rly not coping right now lmfao #just so I can wrap my head around this. and figure out how to get my shit together and function as a member of society #anyway. sorry.#.vent #oddly this is very specific to adhd. when i think abt the fact i likely have autism im like hell yeah that rules B^)

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distortionmewtwo · 2 months

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*sigh*, this is all, not very fun, maybe Giratina or Dialga will listen though if we explain that well Palkia has had all this extra time to choose a champion and that gives them an edge and let's not forget while I mean no offense Dialga is the ruler of time and could've, ya know peaked into the future? Easy to get an edge when you can see what happens if that's within their power range, no disrespect meant of course I'm sure Dialga is more honorable than that but if one had the power the temptation to use it and peak and see must be there.

It'd make more sense for them to just have to pick a starter route pokemon of the same species each just on the spot no preplanning no premeditating you all get a Ratatta and then the Ratatta can play fight it out but of course much like how this situation isn't fair on Uv it wouldnt be fair on the Ratatta to have to fight because some Gods asked them too. Plus with like random stats one will have an advantage and one will win and they could start arguing over that since I can't really see anyone save the one with the winning champion being satisfied by the end of this.

Sorry about being a downer and all it's not my intent I'm just rambling trying to think of a solution while also trying to judge and consider their reactions in it all. I'd suggest maybe they could talk it out since they're all so important they're all needed and everything would fall apart without them doing their respective part and surely they can agree on that and just go we're all needed without one we all fall that must mean we're equal. But I get talking it out probably won't work and there's the whole "all animals are equal except some animals are more equal than others," eventually one of them will want to be more equal and this whole hullaboo starts all over. Unfortunately we can't all shake hands and be done with it.

Urghh respectfully, Fuck, this sucks, sorry for the bad language and I'm sorry Uv for my rambles I know this probably isn't fun to listen to I'm just trying to spitball anything that could work.

-U

"Soon, I will... tomorrow, perhaps, right now, I just.... I need to.... I... I don't know...."

Getting away from all this sounded very nice right now. Ultraviolet glanced back at Katharsis to see her reaction to JJ's invitation. While she looked very curious about the portal, she shook her head.

"I don't think it's my place to accompany you now. We can go our separate ways here for now... it was good to meet you, Ultraviolet, even with the circumstances... or maybe, because of the circumstances..."

He nodded in agreement. "W-Without you, I might.... never have found out about all this... and while I don't like a-any of it in the least... I must still thank you for that... and for being kind to me in the middle of this."

Katharsis nodded back, expression sympathetic. "Sorry for jumping at you earlier."

"Haha, I'll try."

With that, Katharsis turned and bounded back into the forest she'd first appeared from. Ultraviolet stood still for a moment, steeling himself, before he turned with a nod to JJ to go through the portal

...He'd never actually been to space before.... and the sight beyond the portal was so staggeringly beautiful that for just a moment, all that had happened was chased from his mind.

But that could only last so long. He felt small here.... naught but a pawn of the gods.

Ultraviolet still seems very upset. What do you do?

(Asks are officially open again!)

@justice-the-pandisaster

#ultraviolet #my art #mewtwo oc #other peoples art #pokemon ask blog #JJ #a champion's reign #katharsis #byebye katharsis... for now

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veterveter · 4 months

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Finally gathered teh courage to watch the Berlin trailer and... big cringe. i don't like the whole vibes of it, i don't believe them when they say its gonna be better than lcdp. i don't care about the new gang and andrés? i have a feeling they gonna ruin his character with this. i'm honestly glad that sergio and martin are not part of this. the only thign i'm looking forward is ralicia. (sorry for the negativity, maybe it's gonna be the best show of the century lol)

Heyheyhey!!!

Let's talk about your thoughts before I talk about mine: thank you first of all for popping by ♥️ Do come back if you'd like once you've seen the show, I'd love to hear if you still feel the same 👀 And I pretty much agree on everything you said. I don't feel like Martín would fit the tone they're going for with this show, they'd probably relegate him to being like, a fun sidekick cracking jokes or something - pass. Let me keep one half of the ship I still really like as a character. Ralicia could have actual potential though, their history seems of interest, so I hope they at least give us something there.

Other than the incessant need to turn everything into a franchise and milk audience goodwill until it runs dry, I think there's very little need for this to be about Berlín or set in the LCDP universe, if they don't really care about following up or building up on... anything, really. But I hope I'm wrong! Maybe I'm misjudging them! Maybe the advertising has done them dirty! In which case I'm so sorry to be a downer. I'm trying my hardest to not hate it on principle.

And for want of something positive to say, the smallest compliment sandwich you've ever seen: the bit they posted a couple days ago at Fontana di Trevi seemed a little promising? That was more of the vibe I wish this show had, haha.

They really want to hype up the new banda and I'm always unironically heartbroken when they call this Andrés's golden era and his dream team (I cannot remember the wording but you know what I mean). Maybe I'm overly invested and clinging too hard to the parts of pre-established canon that I like, so sue me. I know I should be taking this much less seriously and I might even enjoy it; instead I'm fretting over how I can possibly fit all these different Andréses into one person for writing purposes - let alone remaining invested in him as a character. I've already said this before, but S5 already did a world of harm in how much I like him, so.

I've had nightmares about this show, actually :D In one, they declared in the advertising that his third wife was the love of Andrés's life and if I want to know how he really felt about Martín, I should watch the show - and then proceeded to never mention him again 🔪

And haha you needn't apologise to me for the negativity - if the show turns out to be amazing, feel free to call me a fool :) Though I'm sure Pedro can carry quite a lot even if it's bad. I watched Gran Hotel last summer.

Anyway, I hope you take care, anon!! Do come back to me if you'd like, and have a lovely rest of the year :)

And buena suerte.

#asks #anon #Berlín 2023 #still calling it that yes

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dballzposting · 2 years

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How much do you think Trunks missed Goten during GT?

He was up there in space and he didnt want to be a downer so he never said it outloud but occasionally while he was steering the ship for long periods of time in complete solitude he would think about how if they failed then the earth and the whole universe would be fucked and before their imminent demise he would have to live with Goku and Pan on some planet somewhere, or die early trying to fight whatever beast was inevitably coming their way. And well that thought just sort of sucked.

He missed everybody and everything but he missed Goten specifically in the way that cool shit would happen and he had nobody to tell it to :( he couldnt just pull out his phone and be like "Hey Goten. Youre never gonna believe this. There was this frog guy and he tried to marry me. Yeah MARRY ME. Yeah I had to dress up as a bride but it was okay because it spared a real woman from an arranged marriage with that big green thing. Yeah it was righteous of me. Yeah and then we got a dragon ball and then this OTHER GUY SHOWED UP and STOLE IT. Yeah and now we're chasing those guys. Yeah uh huh. yeah I'll let them know you said that. Yeah for sure. Okay. Take care. Bye man."

Again he didnt want to be a downer but he really missed the little things about home .... all the room to walk around in .... the nice meals ..... the sound of his mother tinkering in one of the many garages .... the sound of his father fucking shit up in the gravity chamber ..... the peace of his office (which he normally hated).... his sister's stupid Nintendogs game that she always played at full volume .....the way that he could exist without being subjected to a gas leak all day..... The sound of Goten pissing really hard in the urinal next to him (with his pants on the floor ass fully bare) and he would piss so hard that it was to the point where Trunks would often take the next urinal down becasue he was afraid of splashback .... sighhhhh.

Anyway he makes a best friend out of Giru so it's not a big deal. He comes home and is like "Hey Goten meet my new best friend" and Goten is like "haha you mean like your SPACE Best Friend right? Like the guy who is your best friend when youre space traveling but not all the time right....Your spaceship buddy right" and Trunks is like "Nope. This is my new best friend Giru :D" and then he kisses the robot deeply and with passion on its glass face and Goten is flooded with a toxic amount of jealousy so fast that his muscles and bones begin to melt and he starts shaking and he goes "haha well gimme a minute i gotta go blast ass real quick...i'll be back..." and then he runs to the bathroom and pukes his guts out.

Later he assumes that it was all a misunderstanding so he goes to talk to Trunks again and he overhears him talking to the robot and Trunks says "Youre a much better best friend than Goten. You dont pee or spit at me and you never smell like dog food. You only smell like metal and burning wires and sometimes chrome polish, and I'm into it. And you're quiet when you sleep and you actually listen to me when I talk. Also, you've forgiven me for when I had space madness and I kept trying to breastfeed you. If that were Goten instead he never would have let me live it down. He would probably keep trying to get me to do it again honestly. And honestly Giru, I would do that again for you because I have fond memories. And I love that you eat the spare nuts and screws and wires that end up at the bottom of my bags and on my floors because I dont know what to do with them otherwise. You're a real friend Giru. I love you" and again Goten has to run and limp and fall down the hall to throw up in the Capsule Corp shitters.

and idk maybe they make up. Maybe Trunks is like “Im sorry Goten I was wrong. I miss you and all of your weird smells. I miss how your flesh is fleshy and notably not metallic and how it’s wet but sometimes it’s dry instead. And I miss how you would make me do fun things with you rather than let me work on machines all day. You know Giru really just sat on my desk and watched me file papers all of Thursday and I hated it. And I miss peeing at the urinal with you. Giru doesnt pee. GIRU DOESNT PEE ! I miss you man. I’m sorry”

um this isnt what you were asking about...

#dballz posting #dballz asks #Goten & Trunkz

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polyamorousmood · 1 year

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Any advice on how to tell your partner that you are poly? And that you want to add more people to the relationship? Bc i trust them but im scared that they might leave me :(

Haha, nope! 😁

That's overly glib. I mean, I do, a little bit, but if I'm being honest, there's always a chance for it to go really poorly. And most people, even if they're ultimately okay with it, are also going to be at least a little hurt and struggle with the thought of it. You have to face that. It can also go really well! I'm not trying to be a downer or say being poly is a curse. But the monogamous expectations run deep. It is really easy to take "I want to love other people also" as "my love is not enough" in that context.

There's always going to be risk that what you need isn't something your partner can handle. And that's not just with polyamory. That's life. It still sucks though, and I'm sorry, and I know how scary and hard it is to be at that crossroads💗I feel for you. I've been there.

My advice on how to make the conversation go as smoothly as possible knowing nothing else about your situation is to preempt what concerns you can: reassure your partner you're happy with the relationship, that you love them, that you want to stay together, etc. Assuming you're pretty sure you'd want this no matter who you were with, point that out too. You probably have some idea what your partner would be worried about in this, acknowledge those worries and counteract them. The rest is going to be trusting your partner to be motivated to sort this out with you. 💖

My advice for you in general in this situation is to have some idea how much you're willing to compromise. If you want a kitchen table poly set-up, and your partner says they can only handle it if they don't meet your other partners, what happens? If your partner says they have to take some time to adjust to the idea before opening the relationship, how much time are you willing to give them before you're pretty sure you're just stuck in a monogamous relationship but no one wants to end it? And these questions fucking hurt to consider, because they mean considering you'd have to give up someone you love. But it is better if you do it now than spend years struggling in an unfulfilling relationship.

You can do this. Stay strong.

#ask box is always open #polyamory #coming out

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brontes · 4 years

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20, 31, and 36 for the aesthetic asks, if you haven't done them yet?

ah yay thank you!

20: what are the promises you’ve made to yourself? when I think of promises I usually think back (forward is goals/challenges) so like I have some rather sad sounding promises but I’ve promised the self who was so lonely and miserable and alone that she wouldn’t be alone because even though she was then and I am now, I’m not going to forget her. Even if it’s more painful, she deserves to have her pain felt and to be known and I can give her that in a way.

31: if you had to choose three articles of clothing to keep for the next three years of your life, what would they be? Just three??? The black full-length skirt I made with my mom, my ripped up light wash jean shorts, and let’s pretend I have already replaced my black turtle neck with one that fits because I’d keep that.

36: have you ever wanted to be invisible? oh all the time. I think it’s the anxiety. Being invisible would allow me to observe and do without being observed myself which would relieve that nearly-ever present worry of being not-quite-right in doing things.

send me an aesthetic ask!

#thanks for sending!!#sorry for being such a downer there haha #ask meme answers #jessicanjpa #answered #text #(also re:20 I don't wanna make it sad like I'm sad all the time #but like specific times are harder #and even when I'm happy I just don't want my past self to feel that I'm ashamed of her #because I know how deeply she feared being an embarassment #I'm happy and grateful to everyone who's participated #but especially to me #and I owe her that grace and forgiveness #and this is starting to sound really hokey)

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fandomscombine · 3 years

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Heartbreak Woman [Cho/Cedric Ending]

Warning: Angst! Brokenhearted!Reader

WC:1454

I proposed 3 varying endings and the response was across the board so I decided why the heck not write ALL 3 choices!

a/n: I haven't been active on tumblr this past month. Motivation to read & write wasn't really there. Feelin pretty crap. I don't think it's my best work- I actually wrote this ending last month but delay posting it since I promised to post all 3 endings back to back- but with the recent burnout, my progress is slow. Proofread it and push the insecurities & anxieties away and here we are. Love was put into this, I hope you enjoy it! Don't worry, the other 2 endings are on the way.

I tried posting this 9 times now and it keeps saying error. this is me testing it with mobile so formatting is hard but I hope it posts

BG: You were hoping that your best friend, Cedric to ask you to the Yule Ball. Instead you were roped into helping him ask Cho out. It broke your heart, but at least this way while helping him out you could pretend that he was doing all the sweet things to you. On the other side of the picture, Harry was too heartbroken upon learning that Cho is going out with Cedric.

Read the main story before it diverges ending here!

>>>Heartbreak Woman [Main]

>>>MASTERLIST<<<

Did Harry Potter really just ask you out and you said yes?

Touching your forehead, it wasn’t bleeding anymore but there is still a slight sting to it from the collision with Harry’s broom. Yes. That definitely happened. You thought to yourself, this isn’t some delusion from the injury.

This is good. This is good. Hyping yourself up. You enjoy his company and that should be enough to stop your thoughts from going about a certain Hufflepuff boy. The same boy you had abruptly left alone in the greens. It’s not his fault nor it is Cho’s for wanting to date each other. You have nothing against them, they are both such lovely and kind people and not to mention popular- it was only a matter of time that they got together, Hogwarts’ Power Couple.

No, it’s just you and your stupid feelings falling for your best friend and agreeing to help with the courtship.

‘Y/n? Hii.” The voice reels you back to reality.

You blinked. “Cho! Hi!” Greeting her loudly had been taken by surprise. You dial down your volume. “What can I do for you?”

“It’s actually what you did, really… I just wanted to say thank you.”

You were confused, why was she thanking you?

“For helping Cedric I mean” She clarified. “He mentioned that you helped him with the picnic idea. It was very sweet. It was what made me finally say yes.”

“That’s awesome.” You force yourself to smile. “I’m glad you guys are together, I can finally get that git to stop bothering me with date ideas. That’s 3 weeks of my life I’m not getting back!” There was some truth to that statement, now that she and Cedric are together you don’t have to go through the pain of practice dates with Cedric.

“You y/n are the absolute wingwoman! Legend material!” Cho praised. “You're like my fairy godmother!” She continues, wrapping you into an embrace.

“yayyyy….That’s me…” You mumble into her luscious hair. Grateful that Cho couldn’t see your face. Pulling apart, you don’t let her go quite yet. With hands on her shoulder, you stare unwavering. “Just don’t break his heart yea? He’s really smitten by you, promise you won’t hurt him.”

Cho is taken aback a bit, your words clearly coming from a strong emotional bond with the boy. Thoughts of love, Eros, passed through her mind but brushed it away - It can’t be y/n help them get together. Y/n’s words must come from Philia love, y/n and Cedric had been best friends since before they could talk! Everyone knows that. They have a soul connection that can’t be replicated. “I promise.”

14th February.

Valentine’s Day.

This holiday sucks.

No, not for the reason that you’re single. Nah.

Today is a downer as you won’t be able to do your annual tradition.

See every since 3rd year you and Cedric would be in a pink ensemble outfit complete with red heart sunglasses. Spreading chants of self love and showering fellow single students and professors with compliments. This all started out when your roommates teased you for not having a date for Valentine’s day. When Cedric had heard about it, he went all out. The boy basically made sure that every single person knew how wonderful, beautiful and intelligent you are.

It was this day onwards that 2 things happened.

Complementing and advocating for self love, Philautia, in a pink get up became an annual Valentine’s tradition. (Even a couple of students joined the cause, expanding from you just both into an association/group of sorts.)

You started to see Cedric in a new light. In other words, you were falling in love with your best friend.

Scanning the Great Hall for pink cladded pupils, you were glad that the group had saved you a seat however a certain Hufflepuff was out of sight. Taking a deep breath, you cleared your head. Get it together y/n. Today is about sharing love and do NOT think about Cedric and Cho going on a romantic date in Hogsmeade.

You were about to take a step forward when-

“Argh!” Shutting your eyes as the hall spun around.

“Relaxx!! Relax! It’s just me.”

Feet back on solid ground, you turned towards the perpetrator, the one boy you did not want to see right now. “What the fuck Ced! Don’t scare me like that!”

“I’m sorry…” Cedric raises his arms in surrender. “Is everything alright?”

“Yea everything’s fine.”

Cedric raises a brow. You forget that this boy can see through your bullshit.

“Only had a couple hours of sleep, that’s all.” It wasn’t a lie, in fact you’d only gotten 3 hours of rest last night, it was just the case of omitting that his upcoming date with Cho was the reason for your restlessness. You don’t want to blame it on jealousy, but it is.

Grabbing hold of your hand, he pulls you towards the group. "Alright then, I've got some spare sleeping potion if you need."

You wave to your fellow singles as you sit down."uh..thanks Ced." You couldn't stop vocalizing your confusion as to why Cedric is still right next to you. Normally you wouldn't complain, but today was Valentine's Day.

"Ouch y/n!" Cedric sassed, eyes focused on piling food onto his plate." Just because I have a girlfriend now doesn't mean I would disappear on my best girl."

My best girl. It hurts to be called that in another context than you wanted.

"Don't you have a date with Cho today?"

"Yea but Madam Puddifoot’s Tea Shop doesn't open until 11am. Which gives me time for our annual Valentine's tradition!"

"But you're taken."

"Yes….but I could still help spreading the love!" Cedric glanced around. "No one minds that I come to join you right?"

A murmur of Nos filled your eyes.

"Haha! See I told you!" Cedric brags, wrapping an arm around your shoulder. Looks at you straight in the eyes, those gorgeous grey irises melting away your defenses."You can't get rid of me that easily." He whispers, loud enough only for you to hear. You could feel the heat filling up your face due to his closeness. Too busy lost in the rapid beats of your heart, you failed to notice his face getting even closer.

A softness like cotton grazes your cheek.

Cedric kissed you!

Your mind is close to being short circuited. The area of where Cedric's lips were a nanosecond ago is cold as ice. The cold contrasted with your now burning hot, blushing face.

You could live in this forever. All external environments quiet, blocked out of focus. Cedric's arms around you while the butterflies in your stomach bursts out, occupying your whole body with sheer giddiness from having his lips on you.

But the daydream breaks.

"Hey Love! You ready?"

"Morning!" He greets, kissing her. "Uh…" It's only 9:34am. You nod, silently telling him that it was okay to miss your annual tradition. You weren't expecting any quality time today, yet he managed even if it was just for breakfast. "Yea.. give me 10 minutes to go change and I'll pick you up at the courtyard?"

"Sounds great. Be quick cause I miss you already!"

"Sure will sweetheart." He pecks her lips again then waves goodbye to the table and he's off, running.

The tension changes once Cedric is gone.

"Can I talk to you outside y/n?"

"uh yeah" Once outside. "What's up?" Trying to sound casual. Cho inviting you to speak privately isn't usual-seeing that you were the couple's go to accomplice for surprises.

"I see the way you look at him."

"I'm sorry?"

"I know.you like him. y/n. I know you like Cedric."

"Cho.. you can't be serious, he's my best friend!"

"I wasn't sure then.but just now..the way you act around him. the way you look at him. y/n is undeniable. It’s so obvious-I had assumptions then but everyone just brushes it off as your childhood friend with each other. heck even both of you say that."

"Cho…."

"I didn't bring this up before because I felt insecure, jealous even that I can't live up to the standard of relationship you and Cedric have.”

You couldn’t believe what you were hearing. There were too many revelations bombarding you all at once, that you are having trouble processing what is going on.

“But I am tired of what ifs and worrying.” Voice quivering, she continues. “You've got to tell him, y/n."

The words snap you back into place.

"Cho… I can't. I can't ruin your relationship."

If you love someone and they love someone else, you let them go.

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winged-fool · 3 years

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Hey friend! Anti-max/echo/Maria anon here 🧡🧡 I have some thoughts… the first goes without saying - Alex is the most under-utilised character on the show (closely followed by Kyle) 😒 Tyler is contracted for 10 episodes but instead of using those appearances effectively they sidelined Alex for both episodes and he wasn’t involved in any of the group scenes.. WHY?! He’s a great character! He’s smart, resourceful and could’ve been used so well in these storylines.. it’s so goddam frustrating!! The second is continuity - yes, I have watched this show for three seasons and should know better but when an episode involves Michael being stabbed, Sanders at deaths door, and Jones finding out about Michael’s feelings for Alex and seemingly going to use it against him, you’d think maybe some of that could be addressed in the next episode!! At least if Michael had’ve had a conversation with Alex about how Jones would target him because he knows about Michael’s feelings it might have made sense that Alex wasn’t with the group!! My third thought is that Maria didn’t need to be in 3.12… and I know I seem biased, I mean I’m an anti Maria anon hahaha but hear me out… her conversation with Kyle about his feelings for Isobel could have been a conversation between Kyle and Alex… and Alex could have found Michael and saved him and Sanders (AND SANDERS!! Like seriously, is Sanders alive?!) after their run in with Jones.. and everything else she did in the episode was unnecessary and the time could have been utilised elsewhere.. Le sigh.. I’m trying to focus on the positives because the Malex scenes we got weren’t bad but I’m just so disappointed there were so few in these episodes when there was such potential… that’s the story of this show though I guess.. sending love your way my friend and sorry for being a downer! I’ll be back later in the week with happy thoughts about the episode 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡

Hello my friend!! I can't believe we made it to the end!! Proud of us haha I'm truly stunned that they would bring two pretty big name actors and then...sideline them every scene. It's ridiculous! Very upsetting...

Yeah there were just so many scenes yesterday that would have made sooo much sense narratively for Alex to be in so many scenes yesterday. Very upsetting that he wasn't there!

Ahahaha omg you nailed it completely "I have watched this show for three seasons and should know better" we always hope for better and yet we're constantly disappointed lol I can't believe how many loose ends were left!! I'm mad about Jones finding out about Malex and then...doing nothing about it. What was even the point??

I COMPLTELY agree that Maria could have been replaced in 3x12. It was just a way to to shoe-horn back into the plot and it was annoying...

Yeah the potential was there but sadly just...not utilized. It's a real bummer though because I usually really enjoy Hollier's malex eps and this was just...not there.

You never have to apologize for chatting here, you're not a downer at all! I enjoy it!! Looking forward to the positive thoughts later!! Enjoy the rest of your week my friend!!

#my asks #anon ask #anti max/echo/maria anon #rnm s3 #rnm spoilers

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I'm curious to know why you think concerts are not going to happen in 2022. I think it too (especially with all these variants and 3/4 of the world not getting vaccines) and also, a singer i know cancelled his 2021 tour and decided to do it another one in 2023. 2022 was never an option for him, but didn't explain why. I'm honest, i bought a Louis ticket today for 2022, knowing that i will be terrified of attending and with lots of doubts about really happening. Hoping for the best of course!!

I suppose a huge part of it is just me being salty and my plummeting depression giving me subzero hope. haha. I laugh because there’s nothing else I can do.

They probably will happen at some point. But as we get closer, the more I feel like theyre going to be postponed/cancelled again. With artists announcing new shows that haven’t been on sale yet, they can cap the numbers of tickets being sold and put together “safety” measures. For example, a venue here is only selling tickets in spaced out pods throughout the theater for new shows. These shows are already sold out at capacity or close to so I don’t really know what areas of the country or world are ready for that. I want to have hope that they’ll be able to go ahead... but look at Canada. They’re still in a FULL lockdown. It’s hard to rationally think there are going to be full arena shows in a few months when they can’t even buy underwear at the store right now. (I have tickets for several Harry shows in Canada. As of right now, my best friend can’t even cross the border to come to the shows we have tickets for in the US)

I just have a feeling that especially bigger venues are going to err on the side of caution to protect themselves from liability and potential bad press for events coming up in the near-ish future.

Also, not to start this convo, but we still don’t know how long vaccine effectiveness lasts. There’s nothing we can do but gaze into the crystal ball and make hopeful predictions.

THIS SOUNDS LIKE SUCH A DOWNER RESPONSE!!! I’M SORRY!!! I really want to come on and be like DON’T WORRY, WE WILL SEE OUR KINGS SOON!!! But I did that this spring and set myself up for epic let downs all year. Soooooo I’m trying to think more “realistically” which I have to admit probably sounds extremely pessimistic.

I’m not an expert on anything here. These are just some of my thoughts on the topic. Let’s all hope everything will work out!!

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I hope you've been doing well recently, with the new job and all that! I hope you enjoy angst :)

Considering Murdoc's drug use, how many of the low points do you think Stu has seen? I'm talking about like... Extreme paranoia, the shaking, the vomiting... And how do you think that would change how Stu perceives Murdoc in his mind?

How do you think the relationship between them would change if in the earlier years, 2d found Murdoc overdosing?

Thank you so much for your well wishes and for thinking of me! It's been an adjustment, juggling multiple jobs and getting the hours I need, but it's not too bad! Thinking about the terrible twosome passes some time, haha. Cut for length!

This is interesting! As I've mentioned in other contexts, I tend to see Murdoc and Stu as much more alike than they realize-- the natural tendency in shipping, or in showing any characters as foils to one another, is to emphasize their differences, and quite often that intent trips right over itself into the insistence that they must be opposites. Stu and Murdoc absolutely have their contrasting desires or motives, taste in uppers vs downers, presentations vs paranoias, but all being footnotes in the end I do think they are more alike than they are different. Case in point: they are both addicts, and neither calls himself as much. The extent and effects of their addiction can differ though, and you're right that Murdoc absolutely seems closer to overdose in the early years. He is a glutton for punishment and a glutton for reward, and he has built what tolerance he has simply by managing to elude death before.

I think Stu and Murdoc have both seen each other at low points, and I think their first selfish and self-conscious (as fellow addicts) response is to make it go away. Fic much nicer than mine will say that Murdoc wants to stop Stu from taking so many pills, but I don't think that would be the case when they're young; not only is it hypocritical of him but it is uncomfortable, Murdoc doesn't have high enough ground to think denial of a fix is worth it. Stu, on the other hand, I think does feel some compounding of guilt and discomfort, some awareness that Murdoc does too much, is too much, cannot forever be that way-- but there's also some willful belief that he can, that Murdoc is never going to break from these things, and it is more alarming to see him "broken" without them. I do think Stuart has his mother's nervous gut and he does have those worried responses, but I don't think Stuart has the maturity or the caregiving instinct to actually stop Murdoc, and he'd sooner encourage an available fix than suffer withdrawals. On the flipside, when he's taken too much and has a bad reaction to something and there is nothing to be done but wait it out, I think it is a harrowing experience to Stuart. Forgive me for stating the obvious, but I think that's the simple truth: there is nothing to be done but look away, or he'll internalize something about himself when he sees Murdoc. Stu, I think, is deeper in denial than Murdoc is about his status as an addict. I think Stu talks casually about the weed because the weed is casual, but he is silent about the pills because he recognizes there is shame around it. So to that point, I think the ugly breakdowns, the chills, the vomit, the accusations, the bargaining cruelty, the caged animalistic fear, all of it challenges his perception of Murdoc as gnarled but elastic, something too crooked and enduring to ever be broken; it challenges the inhumanity he assigns Murdoc, and unsettles the crude balance between them; worst, it makes Stuart see and hear the word "addiction" in his mind, see the shape of it and how it looks in a man spitting, in his sweat and the sound of his heaves, in the hollow of his own chest, which he'd never choose to see himself.

How would the relationship change if Stu found Murdoc overdosing? Part of me says, you have me stumped-- if the real threat of death were hanging there, you'd think it has to change something, right? But another part of me says it's likely happened at least once in Murdoc's life, and I go back and forth on how much Stuart knows about the correct procedures. I don't think Stuart surrounded himself with addicts the way Murdoc likely did, but I don't think Stuart is a babe in the woods by any means; I tend to write him with a tooth for inhalants on top of his tablets, and when his social circle changed from old St. Wilfred's schoolmates to Murdoc and groupies, touring bands or recording engineers or coked-out executives, he would most likely gain a seedy education or possibly be a bystander to a close call. I recognize that all of this is sort of getting away from the point, sorry! To be entirely frank with you, I'm just not sure how to answer this. Their relationship to drugs is absolutely a top-of-mind topic for me, but I haven't explored this scenario properly. I tend to write more about Stuart's hiding of his habits at the consequence of his functionality as a frontman. I will say that I don't think this would be the first time for Murdoc, and while it does shake him up more than he lets on, it certainly doesn't shake him up enough to stop, not for many, many years; similarly, I think it rattles Stu in a way he is utterly unprepared to reckon with let alone articulate to Murdoc or anyone else, and therefore he doesn't. Wrapping us back around to an earlier point: for all their differences, I think Stuart and Murdoc share a particular talent for compartmentalizing interruptions to their chosen reality. Sorry that this answer isn't quite what you were asking, it is the best I can offer at this time! I'm currently writing about Stuart and addiction, and if I do end up writing again after this, I have a few concepts knocking about-- but I haven't explored Murdoc's own relationship to substance much since Oysters, so I will see what I can do with that!

#headcanon posts #tw addiction

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starlightsymphonies · 7 years

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me: *says something honest about how bad I'm feeling*

me: my emotions are valid and my friends care about me; it's okay that I said that

me: ...

me: "omg sorry for being such a debby downer, haha. I'm just overreacting, it'll be fine!"

#why am I like this #also why am I so upset about this???#'maybe my wifi is just down rn or something' I say knowing damn well that I just overshared and made my friends uncomfortable 🙃

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I'm a Charinina fan and your post helped me understand the reaction of the other side of the fandom and I sincerely thank you for that. You pointed some stuff I had never considered in such perspective. Though I am still a fan of the show and still think that it is well written from my point of view, I can't deny that a lot of what you said is true. Hope you don't misunderstand, though. Much respect to you!

you’re welcome, and thank you for the kind message!

haha glad to know my ranting makes sense somehow orz

I also actually think aesthetically speaking, this anime is really, really well made and has such high quality, and you just know the production value is also quite high. Ep 17 is especially very pretty and has such smooth and consistent animation rarely seen outside anime movies, the kind that makes you want to watch again and again. It’s just a pity that I couldn’t enjoy the pretty since the ep’s content bothers me too much haha

generally speaking, the show’s premise is interesting; it’s just the execution and the pacing really needs fixing i think. There’s this sense of stage direction? uh i don’t know how to say it, but that feel like characters conveniently disappearing when they’re not needed? and appear again only when needed and to say their speaking lines? It feels more like stage-drama where you have limited space and stage and esp limited time, so you could only have limited characters on view at a time. idk. i just feel the way hamsa, bacchus, and azazel seem to be forgotten is rather peculiar.

this ep17 feels even more so, since all the “nakama” or “comrades” are gathering and discussing their plan, yet azazel alone is excluded for whatever reason. it makes it feel like azazel’s not actually part of them, not their “comrades” somehow, even when in ep16 he agreed to join their fight.

also it makes me expecting the worst again, like somehow, azazel is set to take the fall for butchering their plan bcs he would join the fight but he doesn’t know the actual plan; at the current time, azazel knows from kaisar chari has bahamut-like power, but he doesn’t hear rita telling them all chari’s wristband might be the controller of said power.

It’d be nice if the true reason he’s gone is bcs he tries to recruit lucifer’s army, and not what i said above :’)

sorry for being such a debbie downer >__

anyway, thank you again, I really appreciate your message

#snb talks #replies

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