#the likelihood of me having adhd is inescapable theres too much evidence for it. but I cant even think abt it without having a breakdown

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coming to terms with having adhd is like wow so my brain has been broken all my fucking life and always will be. and when I felt like everything was unfair + more difficult for me than everyone else thats because it is actually. and it will always be like this forever. hope that helps 👍

#and also all my concerns abt being high risk for substance abuse + self harm + suicide are now statistically proven 👍 #not to mention risks of debt/houselessness + the whole spectrum of attachment/relationship issues etcetera #the likelihood of me having adhd is inescapable theres too much evidence for it. but I cant even think abt it without having a breakdown #my execution function hasn't been functioning for weeks and I'm so fucking tired I just want to be able to do shit. please #also so sick of ppl being like oh adhd is so fun it means youre more creative + energetic haha 🤪 whenever I try to talk abt it #like actually not to be a downer but its ruining my fucking life. its not some 'superpower' or coveted quirk. kindly shut the fuck up #maybe it would just be a fun different type of brain if society was structured differently. but its not! so it will always be a hindrance #I think I need to try and find a therapist to see who specialises in or has experience w adhd bc I am rly not coping right now lmfao #just so I can wrap my head around this. and figure out how to get my shit together and function as a member of society #anyway. sorry. #.vent #oddly this is very specific to adhd. when i think abt the fact i likely have autism im like hell yeah that rules B^)