#sometimes i feel like a silly little boy

[the-woild-is-y-erster]

help i don’t ever openly speak abt my “dysphoria” it’s not really dysphoria but it’s literally like

WHY CANT I BE JESSE TUCK WHO SAID WHEN I CLIMB TREES I CANT SING TOP OF THE WORLD? WDYM THE PARK IS CLOSED AND IM TRESPASSING…

this sounds so bad but as a joke one time my friend said ‘you would break your leg if it would make you look like crutchie” and i was Like WOW, OKAY, LETS NOT SAY THAT BUT WTF?

the next day i nearly broke my foot falling over i guess foreshadowing but MAN I HAD TO SIT DOWN AND THINK FOR A SECOND AFTER THEY SAID THAT

i really just wanna be a silly boy but i am comfortable as a girl that’s why i use she/he but not they bc im not an inbetween u fucking nerd LOL

like some days i’m like “ooh shit if i was a dude wowee” then other days i’m like “wtf whyd i think that “

but nevertheless this year my skl is putting on a production of Wizard of oz..and i’m gonna go for the bold role of the scarecrow i think.or the wizard. or elephaba. BAHAHAH IM SORRY OK I WOUDLNT

i reccomended newsies to my theatre teacher who hates me and she was like “okayyy i’ll look into it…” and she never fucking did thanks 👍 picked to do ur GSCE and for what 😭😭

brooo we did a mashup of alice in wonderland and wizard of oz called dorothy in wonderland a few years back and i was the tin man and the cheshire cat!!! great roles except i had to paint myself entirely silver for the tin man💀💀

and one of my dream roles is jack(or davey im not picky) just so i can sing santa fe from some fake scaffolding!!! like let me wreck my voice but have the literal time of my life doing it!!!!

i sang an elvis song for a contest a couple of months ago (you dont have to say you love me if you care) and won and it was one of the best moments of my life??? and i was wearing this 1890s vest i sewed with elvis-patterned fabric and it was just dhjdjj but like??? cant i just be a guy?? cant i just have a deep voice and facial hair and get the roles i want??

but then i also get these days where im rly feminine and i love wearing dresses and makeup, but sometimes i also just want to be like a gnome

like no perceivable gender, pronouns menace/hateful(/j lmao)

me and a couple of other kids in my theater class had recommended newsies too but she said there was too much difficult choreo (half of us were dancers and gymnasts but ok) but i just

gashhdhjgaahhkkdlj i want to be. male

yknow?😘

#sometimes i feel like a silly little boy #sometimes i want to be like a rich wine aunt who wears pearls and sleek black dresses #and sometimes i wanna be a newsie idk what to tell you shdbhdjbahah

[clockwork-nebula]

Persona 5 AU where none of the Persona stuff happens and the Phantom Thieves are just a music group that no one really saw coming that gets so popular that they almost put one of Shido's sponsors out of business and it just spirals into this group of teens who just wanted to write music uncovering and eventually destroying a government conspiracy.

#persona 5 #persona 5 royal #p5 #p5r #p5 royal #alternate universe #what is this even? #it's barely coherent but like I would read that #also maybe some boys kiss #or some girls #who knows #maybe the phantom thieves just feel a little silly sometimes.

[sysig]

How is skeleton shaped (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Papyrus #Sans #Some redraws! I just don't feel like scanning the originals so they'll stay contextless for now lol #I apparently used to draw Papyrus' scarf/cape with a little squiggly bit down the middle of his chest as well :0 I think it looks silly now #The donk-pecks I was talking about! :D Give your sibling a family kiss ♪ As much as skeletons can anyhow lol #Papyrus was being silly and then leaned down fully expecting it lol - another thing smol and I do a lot haha #Sometimes doing the cat thing of headbutting for attention lol #Sad skele doodles! Oh no! D: Best boy is the saddest around </3 #I used to draw Papyrus' mouth as having teeth behind his teeth so I gave it another go - I think I'm good on it now lol I like his weird jaw #I don't know if I based the original eye-glows off anything specific :0 I wasn't as particular about my notes back then haha #He is still very fun to draw crying tho poor lad :') #Originally the second one of Papyrus with his eyes glowing had Sans comforting him with a forehead donk - even in this redraw! #But I got the angle wrong so I removed him and then had brainworms about it lol #Something something the player (the artist) controlling the appearance/experience and moving the pieces (the characters) around as they like #I already know all that! I've been metaphorically playing with dolls for years years years! It just never stops being weird #It's like being aware of my own breathing and blinking - it's ''natural'' and normal and there's obviously nothing wrong with it lol #There's just a level of awkward....Feeling surrounding awareness lol - intentionality! It's not like I can stop just because I'm aware of it #It's just so whimsical /neutral - if Sans had turned out how I wanted him to he'd be there comforting his brother! But because I... #As stated I have brainworms please excuse me lol #The level of weird feels between the various mediums is really interesting to me tho :) Being a player or reader or watcher or artist! #They all feel different - more or less in control of what happens to them and yet never fully without culpability hehe #Obviously as an artist it feels the most in control - even to my own empathetic detriment! (It's not that serious lol) #The difference between being a player and a reader is a lot closer than being a watcher tho imo it's like a spectrum of responsibility #Though that's kinda also just how I feel about media consumption in general lol - I guess one of those is technically media production #Anyway! Lol #I don't know where I got the idea that his hoodie is two-tone other than the separation of his pockets? #It is a cute design! Dunno if I'll keep it going forward just for convenience but I'm not mad about it lol

[lanshappycorner]

Sebek/Deuce is the ship ever because like they are just peak Teenage Boys yknow like how sometimes Deuce does things that amaze Sebek and vice versa but at the same time they openly tease and pick on each other its just such a bro to bro relationship. Also I just like seeing them being smug around each other

#like theyre both kinda smug sometimes but a different flavor of smug around each other and i love that for them #also deuce is such a perfect first crush for sebek like hes pretty and good natured and cute and cool at the same time #and he doesnt hesitate to tease sebek back and also hes just so silly and sebek just looks at deuce and feels his heart doing a thing #and he doesn't understand why but when deuce gets closer sebek just freaks out a little bit and pushes him away #and sebek absolutely hates how deuce looks at him like hes a weirdo for getting flustered that a boy (deuce of all ppl) sat too closely #sebek mumbles a stupid excuse that deuce smells bc deuce just got out of track and field practice and deuce looks at him clearly offended #but he replies that sebek is making shit up and sebek can only shrug and pretend like deuce is lying to himself when for once deuce is right #IMAGINE....!!!!!!!! deubek so real....catching feelings for ur homie the best dynamic

[fagofgod]

"Utena showed me that it is possible to be both the prince and the princess. Just because she prefers the men’s uniform doesn’t mean she doesn’t like a dress."

so baffled at this comment i saw... genuine question, are we thinking about the same utena. bc i think it's actually pretty well established that she doesn't like dresses. at all. like, it's a very key aspect of her presentation that she's miserable whenever she's in a dress. even ignoring... whatever, her only feeling truly comfortable in masculine clothing is shown in the literal first arc of the show

#also the prince and princess line.... again. are you sure you watched revolutionary girl utena. #i don't think you understood like. the very basics. of what the show was getting at. #also. feels like theyre implying that they think itd be bad if utena only liked the boys uniform. but like. UGHHHH #ur very little silly to me if you genuinely think its more revolutionary to have a girl be sometimes fem over being strictly masculine #might delete this later but. hm. ugh. ughhhhhh #ughhhh

[vaguely-concerned]

the implication in Legacy that anders and hawke, even when you're romancing him, have never. never! sat down and had a little talk about warden stuff, including that fun little detail that anders is seriously living on borrowed time and what the fuck that's going to have to look like when he eventually has to go on his Calling outside of the structure of the wardens (would hawke like. accompany him down to the deep roads and then have to watch him walk away past a certain point??? would he just take care to die in some sufficiently out of the way place before it took him for good?)............ with no sarcasm at all, I couldn't be happier about this fhsakdfhsakjfhasd in any other case I might be annoyed and call it implausible, but honestly yes this is exactly the level of emotional and communicative dysfunction I expect of the DA2 crew, if anything I would have been astonished and befuddled if they had ever talked about this like sane adults before it became absolutely necessary (because of taint-borne mind control, not because of the inherent 'hey babe you know how I have the vibe of a man who doesn't expect anyone to ever get to see what old age looks like on him... well you see there are several reasons for that let's sit down for this one maybe'-ness of it all)

(also the way the Legacy DLC from Anders' perspective just like... a little Justice on one shoulder and a little Corypheus on the other, each yelling like a black metal concert. this poor man is just a walking playpen for any passing eldritch influence that decides to drop by and lives in a sewer, he needs help I am not qualified to give him I think)

#the things a man does for love I guess fdskjhfa #sometimes you need a funky fucked up little pairing that made nothing better and everything worse even when love was there. #handers is that for me lol #everyone who ships it as a healthy pairing (eventually or anywhere along the way) are super valid but the toxicness adds such spice #just for me personally #oh boy did they both try and oh BOY did it go up in hellfire in the end even so #(tho I also totally understand why someone might not want to engage with it at all b/c it does feel. a little too real sometimes. #like I've seen these dynamics in real life and they're not very comfortable even to watch) #dragon age #dragon age 2 #on second thought let's not go to kirkwall; it is a silly place

[gongedtornado]

help girl i got too silly <\3 (overthought every interaction ever)

#im okay i think #(lying) #hoooh boy #ill be alr but girl (/gnc) what the fuck is this #nahh i could’ve had a NORMAL FUNCTIONING brain but yknow what i got instead ? #a sentient lump of meat. that likes to imagine scenarios that will *never* happen and form ideas of what people think of it #even if like. yknow. ITS IRRATIONAL AS FUCK AND LIKELY WRONG ABOUT EVERYTHING #see. if i was a house cat i wouldnt have to worry bout this shit . just be kitty. lick paw. take nap. eat. in whatever order i desire. #oh and be silly and cute. #‘’embarrassing myself in front of a customer? overthinking what a coworker said?’’ #‘’eeerm. oh? you wanted to carry on about your day?’’ #‘’too bad. here’s the underlying feeling of dread for the next few hours. have fun!’’ #I HATE BEING SENTIENT RAHHH RAHHH #I COULD HAVE BEEN A LITTLE GUY DOING LITTLE THINGS. WHAT IS THIS!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! #i know i should be a big guy and act like it. but sometimes you gotta like. be a little insane. #okay anyways anxiety rant over. if for some reason you read my rant while i was Probably loosing my mind um. #1. i am sooo sorry you had to witness my illposting #2. i give you a little smooch (/p) for sticking with me . I bite you . (/pos) #kazzy complains #me when im cringe on main

[sailforvalinor]

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#hffjfhfhhhhghgh #sometimes you think you’re over a guy but then you have a normal conversation with him like a normal person and proceed to think about it #for the next ten hours #my silly little INFP brain is being insufferable about this #like seriously I don’t want to date a guy who curses like a sailor I don’t #but we just get along so well together? he was homeschooled like me? he’s an lotr fanatic (as in he’s read the books)? he has OPINIONS #about little women? he’s an agatha christie fan?? he had reasonable things to say in biblical studies a couple years ago (which is more #than I can say for 95 percent of the people in that class)? #but I mean it doesn’t matter we’ve known each other for nearly three years and I can’t tell that he’s ever had that kind of interest in me #(granted I am a TERRIBLE judge) #fun fact though he is the guy who read a story I wrote freshman year and read a romance scene and exclaimed ‘that’s it! that’s what love is #supposed to be!’ #I mean how was I SUPPOSED to react #if nothing else he’s definitely one of Anne’s kindred spirits and I think I can live with that #anyway sorry feel free to ignore I just needed to ramble #I drove for like three hours today and it was just swirling around in my head the whole time #will probably delete later because there are a couple people who follow me who know me irl and would probably know exactly what I’m talking #about. they’re not super active though so #(and yes this is Alcott boy. although hilariously before I knew his name I called him Agatha Christie boy) #on a lighter note I may have convinced him to watch otgw because it has Elijah wood in it lol

[nyxvrse]

ngl demonising kuwei sometimes just feels too far-fetched to me

#i like him! he's a little shithead! #he's a gremlin a skrunkly boi !!! #and YEAH sometimes i feel like demonsing kuwei feels racist but also im probably remembering things wrong so i wont say that #but rlly #hes such a silly character #six of crows #soc #kuwei yul bo

[carcinized]

the older & more mature i get the more i kind of settle into being percieved as cishet. this isnt at all shade to people who DO care, because its your identity and you get to care, but like for me there is sooo much power in not caring. and its kind of fucking awesome. im an undercover gay. need to know basis. not everyones business. im chillin

#like well no im not TECHNICALLY a cis girl. but id prefer if you thought i was 100% cis and had no nuanced feelings about my gender tbh #no im not straight. yes i only really want to date boys. would i date a girl tho? yeah. i dont even really find boys all that attractive #am i ace? am i aro? yeah. also i have crushes on people sometimes and want to kiss them though #so yeah.... i guess you could call me 'cishet.' if you didnt know about all the silly little feelings inside. #but i am basically a cishet girl in love with a cishet boy for all intents and purposes #this is all anyone needs to know unless they actually matter #like im chilling #tobin talks #but then again i was talking to a coworker recently and i was like 'yeah ive had like 2 crushes in my entire life.' #and she (cishet) was like 'have you heard of being asexual' #so maybe im pretty aspec 😔 #BUT STILL PEOPLE DONT KNOW THAT UNLESS I TALK ABOUT IT. MY POINT STANDS

[moe-broey]

Ooughhh Céline Fire Emblem................

#finally. picked up engage again . #you ever just feel like. you're on the verge of being deeply autistic about a character. #I NEED. ALL HER SUPPORTS. BADLY #my problem is that i spend way too much time in the sominel doing fuck all. #she's SO fucking cool though like. i love how she knows she's a bad bitch. she knows she's hot shit. #i love how she's slightly just not normal. she seems like she would be very normal but. #HER SUPPORTS W HORTENSIA ARE SO FUCKING FUNNY..... girl why are you like that!!!!!!!!!! #and i love... her resolve... i'm so sleepy tired i can't think of how to put it. #but i do love when kindness becomes ruthless. #and her feeling like she's lacking strength... even when she's already hardened herself so much. #i also just. love. when women love women that's so epic and cool #comparing how she acts around the girls vs the guys is so funny. #unless if you have divine dragon rights OR saddest most pathetic sopping wet meow meow rights #OR just a little baby boy rights. you're nothing to her and she WILL goof on you about it LMFAOOO #AND THAT'S SO FUN TOO.... i love how serious she is. but she is still so silly. perfect balance #she's deeply emotional she's deeply repressed she's kind AND ruthless she's serious she's goofy. #she HAS the range!!!!!!! #also she is not beating the autism allegations actually. #she is just a little weirdo sometimes and i love that for her

[werewolf-apologist]

ppl who complain that muto hates finn or that the show loses focus on finn bc it also includes side character episodes……..are u ok

#bro the whole world gets deeper more interesting more complex when it chooses to show side characters and their journey #also the series as a whole broadens its scope of characters and stories as the world becomes more nuanced and realistic. respectfully how #did u miss that. the show always stays abt being finn and jake but it lends itself to the world of ooo where they live to deepen the lore #and make the world richer. would u truly be happy and feel connected to a world where only the main characters are given voice. not any of #their friends or family ??? idk mayb i am a silly choose goose who enjoys a lore ep as much as a main plot ep but like. how can u say muto #hates finn when islands exists. when finn gets to be a teen/young adult who makes mistakes and changes and grows and Becomes even if it’s #ugly or negative sometimes. without the writers love and care he would be the same in s1 as he is in s8 Please be so honest in this space #idk i truly believe that to love a character or story u have to be willing to fuck it up a little. to show them in an honest light even if #it doesn’t look good. the flame princess/ice king arc does finn dirty on Purpose !! he’s a teen boy who doesn’t know how things work !! #it doesn’t villainize him it just shows he’s a fallible boy figuring it out and he fumbles. he isn’t perfect #it literally would’ve been 10x worse if finn was always the objectively correct person in every situation #idk. i love this show i love these characters. it’s silly (imo) to say the writers don’t bc they make the world wider and the conflicts more #nuanced. i think that’s silly is all

[boy-above]

i love my dick even if it doesn't exist, pretending it does is self care i think. just like i started taking care of myself so i look nice for a boyfriend that doesn't exist. imagining what Could be helps me in the present i guess. even though i know it's not going to happen

#i got my teeth fixed and started taking care of myself for a hypothetical boyfriend #i don't think doing any of those things is going to make it More Likely that somebody will love me #because it's just kind of a given that i'm not going to have someone no matter what i do #but taking care of myself makes me feel less silly for imagining it #yknow #the idea of someone being attracted to me. it makes the notion feel a little less ridiculous #and sometimes that's all i need #so in a way i guess despite it being for a hypothetical boy it's still for Me in a way? #makes me feel a little better somehow #wow damn marshal crying in the club tonight #i just wish i had a dick and i wish i had a boyfriend #and i wish nobody would ever see me as anything other than a man #no matter how i looked #is it so bad to want to be cute and pretty and small but still be man? #is it so stupid to dream abt a world where i could be that? #i know it's not happening because the world just isn't meant for people like me #but yknow!! #i do wish i could think about it without feeling like an idiot even in the privacy of my own thoughts #like damn stupid dumbfuck marshal thinking he can be a pretty boy and someone could love him #fuck me i guess lmaooooo #anyway sorry marshal seems to be having a Moment™️ #marshal gets harshal #i guess

[diamondsmind-galaxy]

Being called a "good boy" no matter my gender >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

#ramblings #head empty no thoughts #feeling a little silly #idk I just like being called a boy sometimes

[s4pphoiduser]

sometimes the only place you can still get the snacks you've loved since you were five is the department store that hasn't gotten an upgrade since 2010 and still stocks the same things it always has with only a handful of new additions

#nostalgia #it's just across the road from my school and its insane how many memories i have there despite how shitty it is #i used to go there after basketball practices. before and after home games. i'd walk past it when i walk home. #it was there that i first bought chocolate for valentine's for the boy i had a crush on and then the second time as well for the same boy #i would meet my friend there on days we would skip school and then sneak into practice #sometimes i would go there and chill and walk around a little. #it still has all my favorite snacks from when i was a child #i know this is probably gonna be like 'ok who gaf...' but there was this one store real close to my place and it was TINY #but it was right on the way home from school and we would stop there almost every single day to get our silly fish flavored snacks and chips #i miss it #as i grow up and the world around me takes its own turns i sometimes feel so alone going around my neighborhood #as dramatic and stupid as it sounds it's just not the same quiet place i liked as a child. it's all apartment buildings #and condos and bars and liquor stores and clothing stores #tiny stores are gone old restaurants are gone this one small kindergarten school is gone #i just miss when it wasnt so commercialized :( #s4pphoiduser

[ellie-probably]

made a little book of silly answers to "are you a boy or a girl"

That's a federal secret; if I told you, I'd have to kill you.

I'll refer you to my secretary.

[If morning/AM] No, [If afternoon/PM] Yes.

Like and subscribe and hit that bell to never miss an upload.

I eat 3 apples a day :3

Sometimes.

I'm autistic.

What are you, a cop?

I'm from the 'left' your parents warned you about.

I'm a shark! *snaps teeth* [I couldn't resist a Nimona reference].

I'd like to know myself.

Puny mortal... *laugh*

I'm Nimona [i know this is the second one shut up].

Are you?

I'm allergic.

[windows boot up sound] update pending...

Heads or tails.

Gender? In this economy???

I'm in danger!

Is anything even real? [or some other nihilist saying]

Feel free to add more in reblogs! I might add to my little book, my plan is to when assholes who ask me 'boy or girl,' I'll tell them 'pick a number' and choose whatever comes up :3

#nonbinary #funny #meme #genderqueer #transgender #silly billy #queer #lgbtq