#something I want to work on in myself

[itspileofgoodthings]

sometimes when people say things to me it enters my brain and then instantly calcifies into this immutable truth that I then have to adjust my entire reality around and it makes life so so hard

#I say sometimes because it isn’t always #but tbh sometimes I wish people would not say things to me for this reason #when will I learn that even the smartest and most sincere people will sometimes just say shit #that they wouldn’t say on a different day #*I* do this but can’t believe that other people do so I take their words not just to heart but to my brain #something I want to work on in myself #not sure if that is the correct use of the word calcifies

[localapparently]

/ orv epilogue + sp identity spoilers , cw blood

!! Please do NOT reupload my comics / works anywhere !!

(Read right to left)

#i wrote this feverishly thinking about how much my big sister meant to me #no alt text #<- very sorry #this took me a full week of working til 5am... coughs up blood.. i just wanted to finish this no matter what.. #fun fact i was struck by inspiration at night to script this comic and so i pulled out my phone to type out the idea #and while typing it out i made myself cry . pathetically curled up on my bed in the dark at like 2am or something. #orv #omniscient readers viewpoint #omniscient reader #omniscient reader fanart #orv fanart #orv spoilers #yoo joonghyuk #yjh #secretive plotter #yoo mia #crit's art: orv

[blackkatdraws2]

There are more things in the Parable than Stanley knows about. [Blank Scripts AU]

#hoh boy i was going to make a comic to introduce these monsters but #i couldnt help myself and made an animation instead #because i just think they're so neat and cool okay #listen i cant for the life of me just infofump about my AU and OCs #because i just think that making actual content about my lore and stuff will not only raise the chances of people being interested #but also it will also raise my motivation to actually produce more content other than the same old recycled front-facing-profile drawings #i need to get creative with my stuff or I'll also loose interest and I DONT want that #in order to be happy with what i have i cant just think about it and expect to be given something new NOOOO i need to MAKE it ughh #i cant believe in order to get more content out of my own au i would need to draw it and feed myself ugh ugh ugh unbelievable (kidding) #but also #i wanna make a little music video or animation again for youtube #its been a hot while since ive uploaded anything in there at all #maybe an animation reel will do for now? #i hope so :( #because ive been working on expanding the Black Scripts AU #and honestly i dont regret it #i had a lot of fun making up scenarios and comics for Stanley and the Narrator (Black) #but yeah! #apart from this little video #you wont be getting an explanation on what these things are supposed to be #and why theyre there #actually i was originally gonna make this into a full fledge animation with sound effect/music/frame-by-frame movement/etc. #but i got lazy HAHA #tsp blank scripts au #tsp au #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.

It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #like... anxiety and depression are often concieved of as simple and easy to manage... #...but that isn't the case for so many of us. anxiety and depression just have a lot more research invested into them... #...and while i wish this were the case for literally every other condition it does alter people's perception of you to some extent... #...so while this is NOT solely about anxiety or depression it includes us... #...my anxiety and depression and PTSD have *destroyed* my life. this is chronic and will probably be life-long... #...and that isn't my fault. i've done the fucking work but guess what? that doesn't account for the fact that I Am Just ILL #the least we can do for each other is to be compassionate #be compassionate to those who cannot heal. be compassionate to the people who can't manage their lives. this world is scary enough #recognize that management of symptoms is something not all of us can do - even IF their condition is labeled as 'easy to manage' #i allowed myself to feel angry that i can't heal 'normally' and that was unfair as fuck toward myself #and i NEED people to internalize this so that MAYBE this could help somebody else who is where i was #i NEED them to understand that it's okay that they are where they are - sometimes shit just doesn't turn out how you expect or want #don't beat yourself over you being a person. you are struggling enough. you deserve to rest. just rest please #and just... give yourself space

[accirax]

🌟🍬🤖🎈Congrats to Wonderlands x Showtime for finishing their 4x4!🌟🍬🤖🎈

#project sekai #prsk #tsukasa tenma #emu otori #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #wonderlands x showtime #wxs #the 4x4 is four rounds of four characters' songs if that wasn't obvious #also please don't ask me what happened to the colors i do not know everything got WAY paler on export #i color picked everything i swear #anyways i love wxs so much and i wanted to draw something serious for this huge milestone of so many songs that i adore #i was initially planning on doing this for every band but if you can imagine making four gifs from scratch is actually a lot of work #i do probably have a bit of time before honami 4 comes out (mixed first + 3DMV) though so maybe i'll still do it idk #but i'm proud of myself for having finished this #wish i had remembered to add a watermark but it would take way too much work to fix it now so. please remember me..... #(and don't repost without credit :) ) #my art #fanart #if the gifs are out of sync i am so sorry i have no idea how to fix that. this is my first time posting gifs :( #i hope they will be fixed

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

At the start of this project all I wanted was to 'learn how to draw' using comics as a medium and the MDZS audio drama as inspiration.

I've come *very* far from making simple, 3 panel black and white comics, and I truly do intend to go even further. Thank you to everyone who cheered me on throughout 2023, it has been an incredible year in so many ways I never could have imagined. I look forwards to drawing throughout 2024 B*)

#poorly drawn mdzs #art summary #It's so interesting looking back at how my style and technique changed throughout the year! #I used PD-wwx as the consistent factor (October is an exception) and you can see so many processes going on. #My little petri dish amoeba (with a little red bow to tell him apart from the other amoeba) <3 #Whether it's getting new markers or trying out a new shading style - it's cool seeing a snapshot of my journey like this B*) #There's certainly been a slower curve to my overt improvement *but* I have become so much faster! #My life outside of drawing has been hectic and at several points extremely stressful this year. For all the work this blog has been- #-It has truly been a life saving anchor when the darkest of times have hit. #Love is hard work. Change is even harder work. Sticking to a goal I set out for myself and striving to keep going was worth it. #And I love drawing. I think there has always been something in me that longed for this. And it is finally tangible! I can draw!!! #I wanted to make a more elaborate year reflection where I looked back at my favourite comics and jokes. #but I'll leave that to the one year anniversary. #I have also been collecting a ton of statistics throughout the year and I am desperate to share them. I'm that kind of nerd B*) #I can never say it enough: Thank you all for the kindness and support. I wish everyone a lovely 2024!!!

[yasmeensh]

Got the Master sword! I believe there is still one more upgrade to go...

Bonus Groose after Link sealed the imprisoned.

#loz #Skyward Sword #skyward sword hd #I'm almost there... this is where I'm at right now #I couldn't have done it without groose :'0 he's such a cool guy #he's a bully yeah but his character development is WOW #I'm on a roll here #just finished my final semester :))) Freeeeeeee #got splatoon 3 for myself as a graduation gift hehe #now... so much art to do #fanfictions and books i want to read #games to play #also lots of life things to do deal with hhhhh #also i gotta work on my storyyyyyy #i'm spending like... 20 minutes after dinner working on it #it's very little #but it's something!!!

[kelocitta]

In honor of the @rw-ship-showdown I wanted to write about Artihunter as someone who jokingly slapped them together pre-downpour and still thinks they are actually very compelling. Just not in the super soft love wins kinda way (Although I get why people like that more) And the only way I know how to do that is talking too much so heres a far too long slug essay-

Obviously the slugcats don't offer a ton of characterization but theres not nothing to work with. Their stories, whether by their roles in it or the overarching themes do provide a backbone to work with. Even gameplay itself can provide a bit. (for some more than others) Hunter, to me, is ultimately a story about selflessness. The goal is to revive Moon, which is very much an act of kindness from both Hunter and NSH. But the weight of that action is much more significant for Hunter- Hunter is deeply sick. They're on the clock, and for all their skill in combat none of that will ultimately help them to survive longer than their body can hold out. Moon is a close friend of NSH but that means little Hunter- Hunter really gets next to nothing out of helping them, and ultimately pays quiet a bit spending their limited time alive fighting to deliver that neuron so that someone else can live.

To spend ones limited days on helping another, in a game that very much stresses the unwavering cruelty of the world and nature- is pretty notable. (And you could even say that Hunter being the Hardmode of Rain World adds another layer to this)

And then we have Artificer. A storyline that very much stands out to people as more… villainous (so to speak) than the other slugcats. Artificer's story covers a lot of things. Trauma, violence, revenge, etc. Revenge is a bit of a selfish desire- That need to see someone hurt as they have hurt you. A punishment that ultimately does not fix whatever harm was done- but feels good to see because you were hurt and now those responsible share that pain.

Artificer's actions are founded in that need for revenge, their pups killed for overstepping boundaries they didn't know existed. Is it not fair for them to be angry at that, to punish the scavengers for their violence with their own? Why should the scavengers ever be forgiven when they and their pups were not? And that's how you get that loop- Harm for harm over and over.

The original action has been lost in a spiral of violence for violence. And here stands Artificer- their very spirit scarred. Not just because they sought revenge, but because they never ceased trying to scratch that itch for violence as an answer. Artificer only has two paths for their story- killing the scavenger king (Someone who, really, has little to do with the original 'crime' of the scavengers, but represents an important individual to them- as did the slugpups to Artificer), locking themselves as karma one for good and spending the rest of their life chasing creatures that no longer even fight back in a warped sense of closure- or to dissolve themselves in the acids of the void sea because they're too far gone to find any real peace.

They can't meaningfully recover from that state, not alone, twisting in on themselves. Even if they halt their actions, they've been using violence as a feeble defense against their own pain- violence that no longer has any real direction or basis. Artificer gets no real closure from killing the scavenger king. All they can do is continue the cycle, or try to scrub it away. No real peace in a prison of their own making. So you have a creature, who even with a strict timer on their life- a body that will crumble to disease, spends its last bit of time on saving another. And another who was so caught up in the pain of loss that were eaten alive by their own anger, poisoned their own soul on such a deep level even self-proclaimed gods have no solution for them. What peace can they offer each other? For Hunter, its only a fleeting moment of happiness- of selfish love, before their own body fails them. A bit of indulgence in something for themself. For Artificer, its a single, comforting thread to ground them again, something tangible to protect and care about again. But thats a thread that will ultimately be snapped under the cruel indifference of the world. Hunters timer will tick down regardless of if it takes another with it. Its a tragedy- its doomed to end badly. Whatever good it offers to either of them to find each other will only provide the fleeting comfort of a band-aid that will be ripped away too early. But all that can be worth indulging in anyway, if only for the moment. It doesn't change the ending, but the ending was never going to be happy. Its can so yuri

#rain world #rw shipping #tagging that just cause this is explicitly about that even though I usually dont do shipping stuff #with that said i dont even think this particular interpretation of a possible dynamic needs to be romantic its just kinda #about companionship in general. companionship thats going to absolutely shred an already unstable slug emotionally but thats #the point. friendship and love in spite of the unavoidable ending #just noticed this is like 80% theme analysis and 20% 'these go together just trust me' #but also theyre both girls because i want them to and also because im channeling hornet from hollow knight #who made me so deeply ill that my rain world tags still havent outcompeted my Hk tags because i drew her so much. so so much. #hunter is hornet coded to me and artificer is like if angela and gebura from lc combined into a deeply fucked up ferret #also i did tag the poll because they kinda inspired this but also. i wasnt gonna put all this out here WITHOUT a readmore thats embarassing #but i guess this is propaganda for a ship already seen as popular but like... idk i think theres something to it even as someone #who did literally slap them together originally because they were both red slugcats i considered girls. predownpour so we didnt have anythi #anyway hi tag readers i have so much work to do im being bad by writing about gay slugs. i need to get myself together #its so late this might just be nonsense bwaaaaaaa

[chkn-kit]

proseka au where everything is the same but toya plays the triangle so i can stop drawing the fucking violin

#currently working on something else that requires me to draw him with a violin #i love that boy but holy SHIT why do i keep doing this to myself #also yes this implies his dad wants him to become a world famous triangle player #project sekai #proseka #prsk #prsk_fa #toya aoyagi #aoyagi toya

[candyheartedchy]

The comfort character of all time!

#shared this on both IG and Twitter idc!! #i got so much work I have to do but wanted to draw something for myself rn #❤️ scratchyenne ❤️ #self insert #self ship #🎨 chy creations 🎨 #canon x self insert

[bluespiritshonour]

here's 18-19 year old aang sketches. been hearing aang is ugly discourse—no he ain't. he was just 12.

#i really wanted to take part in zukaang bingo but the urge to art struck me a little later #i still might make something else later #enough art for now #i'd try to participate in maiko week but i'm not sure #it's smack in the middle of end semester exams #ink blot #avatar fanart #avatar the last airbender #atla #artists on tumblr #fanart #avatar aang #why did i never use the pencil brush before?!?! i seriously have a personality flaw where i just don't explore stuff. #can you believe i've been using the same fucking brush for lineart ever since i started digital art? #anyways! i don't know how the pencil brush would feel like if i go for colours but this is impeccable. #I have more control over stuff and i love the result #so #i have promised myself i'd be fucking off this hellsite because i have a huge backlog of work that needs to be done #and i'm presently suffering from “can't help but art”. so #yeah. y'all would probably see me around maiko week. byeee! #if i deprive myself of drawing for too long it bursts out of me like this where i do nothing but draw #not healthy at all

[peachfruitcake]

something to remember

#twf #the walten files #twf fanart #the walten files fanart #susan woodings #linda thompson #sulinda #Twf susan #twf Linda #susan x linda #Twf susan x Linda #twf sulinda #the walten files susan #the walten files susan x linda #Prime Doomed Yuri #i was burnt out while drawing this but u see it was Valentine’s Day so I had to sprawl something out #it’s so hard to let myself rest but I’m enforcing it rn but I still have other work I wanna finish 😭😭 idk adderall finally allowed me to be #the workaholic at heart that I was always meant to be and always Wanted to be #art #digital art #procreate #fanart #doodle #ship art #valentines day #valentines art #valentines 2024 #will reply to asks soon I swear I WANT TO just gotta rest my head a little longer

[brother-emperors]

a bystander: both of you are focusing on the wrong thing

anyway! this is a comic from the vault™! it was originally something goofy I drew for myself after I read a couple of different takes on this whole event (Crassus leaving Rome in 63 BCE, see Plutarch Pompey 43). like.

the phrasing is giving late night teleserye plot drama.

and this literally sounds like something a friend has told me about someone else's relationship drama with their sometimes ex. but like. on a less high stakes stage.

ALRIGHT, moving on. some stuff that was Fun To Read, To Me

Crassus' New Friends and Pompey's Return, Eve J Parrish

Crassus: a Political Biography, B.A. Marshall

speaking of titles, fascinated by how this part of crassus' life gets defined by pompey's absence/return. hello fellas!

AND FINALLY inspiration for Pompey's comment about perpetuating cycles of violence comes from this delightfully dramatic bit of writing

Marcus Crassus and the Late Roman Republic, Allen Mason Ward

bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost

#pompey immediately: FUCK YOU i treat all of my wives great. you'd LOVE it #crassus without hesitation: you go through wives the way cicero will go through a house. NO. #komiks tag #drawing tag #roman republic tag #tris homines #there was another quote i wanted to add in but this is already too long and it's in an epub file and i have a detective novel up #i am loathe to close out of to bring up something else #ANYWAY. this is from my vault of comics i drew for myself but i took it out of the vault to letter it #because it's done on the canvas dimensions/dpi i have trikaranos set up for #and i needed to test out this new font on something comparable so i can make a note of it for my lettering settings. ehghgh. tech work #my vault of unposted comics makes them seem like leads in a very weird romantic drama if a romantic drama also had a lot of dead people #marcus licinius crassus #gnaeus pompeius magnus

[spooky-activity]

the moms are fighting

#my art #mine #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr himeko #hsr kafka #kafhime #motivating myself to draw more using bloody homoerotic scenes is working #i think himeko could win with enough prep time like batman #but it takes a while to aim the orbital space laser ya know #even if she does win one of these drawings kafka’ll still say something witty and flirty #thats just how she is #where’d himeko’s jacket go? #kafka sliced it up to show off her sword dexterity #himeko did not appreciate this #but now we get to see himeko’s big muscles so #oh well 🤷🏻‍♀️ #(i did actually draw it but i wanted to stare at her biceps MORE than i wanted her to have a jacket on)

[tapakah0]

Is Jacob's ladder over ?

Nope. It is freezed till I get back to rottmnt 👍🏻

I currently wanna concentrate on doodling what gives me serotonin right now, on animating, animatics, college, side works and learning, especially since it will be finals dor me soon and I don't know what will be happening later

So feel free to unfollow me since there will not be what you want for the near time 👍🏻

#I think I should put “freezed” somewhere on masterpost. And just clean masterpost *sigh* #but with what percentage people will see it #I'm pretty sure very little amount of people can start drawing something on command #I am still on the tumblr only because of one person in the first place #I can't draw even more and not expect myself not to explode #It is with the fact that I don't even have an official work like most people do #So yeah I'm pretty sure you didn't mean to sound bad or anything but the more asks I get about if JL is finished or not the more I don't #want to get back to it. I have drafts and main ideas finished. I will get back to it when I will feel like drawing rottmnt again #For now let me enjoy other things *bow*

[rnmyn]

OCTOBER 31st | Wei Wuxian

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#mxtxnet #dailyuntamed #mxtxtober #mdzs #the untamed #mdzs fanart #wei wuxian #wei wuxian fanart #fanart #rnmyn.art #i really thought i would manage a lot of prompts then proceeded to work on a 12 x 30 inch canvas for wwx bday ha ha ha #still can't draw animals pls look away from lil apple #will work on a matching lwj that no one will see until january since i really just wanted to draw something i want to print for myself #rare full body drawing by op (。_。)