#so they’re just like. uncomfortably close

[the-woman-upstairs]

Really fucked up that, when they’re young, Patrick and Art are SO tactile with each other, so comfortable sharing the same space. Art lets Patrick touch him and move him and physically overwhelm him and easily acquiesces to it, if not outright enjoys it.

Then in the present, they’ve been so far out of each other’s orbit for so long, held such animosity that when they have their moment alone in the sauna, Art physically recoils from Patrick’s close proximity! It’s so painful to watch because even as Patrick’s goading him, it’s so obvious he wants to be able to get back into Art’s space. But Art has erected all these walls around himself, he refuses to give Patrick an inch or even admit to missing how close they used to be!

AND THEN we see Art and Tashi later and he wants her to hold him, to be gentle with him, and just TOUCH him. Like, he does miss that kind of close physical contact! He either doesn’t know how to ask for it or is uncomfortable being that openly vulnerable. Worth noting that he pretty much always defers to Tashi in regard to initiating physical intimacy (with their first kiss, though he does state his desire, SHE has to be the one to make the first move). And it seems pretty obvious that Tashi herself isn’t comfortable providing that intimacy, whereas Patrick actively seeks to provide it (the hug/forehead kiss after their win together in the early years, dragging the stool closer to him).

Art has tried very hard to act like he doesn’t need physical affection and even though his discipline and devotion to Tashi has made him a stronger tennis player, it’s made him a hollow person, which, in turn, has kept him from becoming a GREAT tennis player.

All of this, of course, is why the ending hits so damn hard.

#challengers #challengers spoilers #art donaldson #unfortunately i have once again zeroed in on the most repressed character and made them my favorite #lol @ all the people saying he’s a manipulative snake: that’s part of what makes him great! #i think a fair amount of that manipulation or attempts at it come from a fear of loss and being alone #if he has to lose one to keep the other he’ll do it because it’s better than being left behind #hoo boy yet another character trait my fucked up faves have in common 😬 #let’s not even get into how tashi AND patrick are trying to do right by him #tashi by making it so he can retire with a career to be proud of #patrick (who was pissed on art’s behalf wrt throwing the match) by laying all his cards on the table (court) #and giving art what he needed to play a great fucking game #there’s a whole other post to be written about how tashi and patrick handle art in similar ways #specifically that he submits to them so easily they take charge of him manipulate him the ways they want #good lord i need to see this movie again #or not might not be conducive to keeping my brain from melting out my ears lol

[indieyuugure]

I love how you respect Mikey as a character here

He’s a goofy lil guy and you don’t deny it in the fic, but I appreciate how you allow the writing to actually acknowledge his (conflicted) feelings. He’s not just a one-note comedic relief, he feels like an actual character.

Not to imply he doesn’t have any internal life in the actual show, but based on the admittedly very few episodes I have watched and what I’ve heard from fans, the way he’s portrayed makes me incredibly uncomfortable. That’s why I’m more drawn to fics like yours :)

Also, if Donnie wasn’t dying and they’re not in danger (i.e., in Foot HQ), I 100% bet these two would have a blast just hanging out. They’re adorable here.

Also also, PS: This update looked so good! It’s so clean and gorgeous! The jump to Clip Studio was absolutely the right choice.

Thank you!

I agree, Mikey is a goofy little dude, but he’s also a person with feelings. It’s definitely easy to forget that when writing him, but I think because he’s such a silly guy, when he says something with a lot of weight, it means something.

I think the show actually covers his true emotions more than some fans would like to blow out of proportion, so I’d highly recommend watching the entirety of the show, I feel that the show’s ability to portray it’s characters gets better over the course of it’s episodes(as is pretty common with tv-shows), but also it’s just a fun show to watch.

Regardless though, I’m flattered to hear you think I do a good job writing the characters as people :] Also yes! Leo and Mikey are such an underrated team! I love writing them on missions together.

And very glad to hear you like the pages. I’m still working out all the settings and stuff to make it look the same as before, but I was thankfully able to get it pretty close 👍 Definitely enjoying using CSP a lot, and the fact that it uses iCloud is such a relief too.

Good question! :]

#tmnt #q&a #the mutation situation #I don’t think that was a question #Was that an analysis? #Help 💀 #How do I end and analysis? “Good analysis?” That sounds stupid… #Whatever I give up #GOOD USING YOUR NOGGIN

[calif0rniahighwb1ll]

Omg hi!! I was wondering if you could write maybe something will bill in like 2007-2009 with a girlfriend that's in the band? The rest of the band know they are together but the public doesn't know until they slip up(there was already signs but nothing was confirmed) and all the fan girls figure out , and they are already don't like the reader because shes a girl in a band with 4 guys, how would this affect their relationship?

I don't really request so I didn't know how to word this sorry

-🍰💫

ofc!! I hope that I understood your request correctly and that it turned out how you wanted! <3 ( this is btw my first ever fanfic on tumblr, so if there are any writing mistakes, I apologize 😭 english isn’t my fist language, but I’ll try my best!)

Complications

„How do you do that?“ I asked genuinely interested the twin brother of my boyfriend, who was just playing something on his guitar again. He smiled at me. „Years of practice,“ he explained, whereupon I started laughing. I would probably never learn an instrument, I was just too impatient for that.

Warm hands suddenly wrapped around my hip and I immediately knew who it was. My cheeks had received a visible pink tone and my lips twisted into a grin. I felt Bill’s breath on my neck, which he kissed lightly. „Where have you been, babe? I missed you,“ he mumbled, whereupon I had to giggle and went through his spiky, soft hair with my hand. I wondered every time, how his hair could withstand all the chemicals contained in the dyes and all the cans of hairspray.

I looked into his pretty, brown eyes. “Where I have been? Where have you been! I missed you as well.” I said grinning. He lifted an eyebrow and a little smile appeared on his face. “I was running away from screaming girls and flashing cameras, just a normal day.” He said, sighing a little. Tom made a weird sound, which made my head turn into his direction. He was looking at us.

“Well, you guys know that you can’t hide your relationship forever. Sooner or later, it will come out. They will always find out.” Tom said with a little concern in his voice. My stomach twisted in an uncomfortable way and I shared a look with bill. I was pretty aware of that and I knew, that it was just a matter of time until everyone will know about our little secret.

“I know, but as long as we can, we will keep it undercover.” Bill said and I nodded in agreement. “I think that you’ll can’t do that for long anymore. They’re already signs.” Tom said and grabbed a newspaper from this morning. He handed it too bill and Bill opened the paper to find the article about the rumors. I looked too and there it was. It wasn’t so large so it didn’t got much attention, but it was still there.

„Frontman of Tokio Hotel was seen suspiciously close with the star-girl of the band! Could there be a possible relationship between the two? Does it affect the band? ...“ The article was not very long, but it was still visible and you immediately saw, that it was Bill Kaulitz in the photos. I was only seen from behind and my face was not great to see, yet we were close to each other. Slowly I shook my head and looked desperately at Bill, who seemed thoughtful.

„Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if we just dissolved it,“ I said, staring deep into the eyes of Bill, who also now looked at mine. He pulled his eyebrows together. „Yes, probably, but it’s not that easy. I don’t want to drag you in there.“ His voice seemed worried and slightly anxious, which immediately made my chest tighter. My hand found his cheek, which I gently stroked.

„Hey, everything will be fine, I’m sure of it. You don’t have to worry, Bill. I have you, I know you will always take care of me. You’ll see, everything will go great as soon as everyone knows!“ I said cheeringly, but Bill’s half smile he gave me didn’t reach his eyes.

My heart raced and I felt Bill’s hand holding mine tight. The black sunglasses only protect a little from the violent lightning storm, which took us from all sides. The next day had begun and our „little secret“ was no longer so small. Reporters stood on every corner, asking unpleasant questions that we avoided.

Bill kept looking down at me to make sure I was okay, but I was already used to it. I have been part of the band for two years now and since I joined the band in 2006, I have already been included in the world of the band.

„Just look! There’s his girlfriend!“ Suddenly screamed a girl, who had stood between the reporters and now behind her a huge crowd of fans came towards us. Fear spread in me and I now clung to Bill’s arm, who now also took faster steps. He bent down to me, which only made the snapping of the cameras louder.

„Don’t panic, we’re almost there,“ he said gently, which calmed me down a little, but still did not completely free me from the nervousness that was spread throughout my body. The last steps were now taken and we all quickly rushed through the door of the studio.

The first preparations for the new album were sue, which is why we had a lot to do and thus spent a lot of time in the studio. Bill sighed with relief when he took off his sunglasses and looked at me. I did the same. His hands now held my face, which immediately captivated me. „I love you,“ he whispered and now pulled me closer to let his lips dance passionately on mine. We ignored everything and it was nice until Tom’s call brought us to the here and now.

„Stop!“ He called and came up to us to pull us apart. Bill stared at his brother stunned and was just about to say something, but I put my hand on his mouth to stop him. It was dead silence.

„Bill,“ I whispered and took my hand from his mouth. „What-“ he stopped his sentence, when he looked in the same direction as me. A group of girls, all with their cameras, had caught us. In addition, a larger group of reporters. My shocked look was found by Bill, but he was exactly the opposite of me. He didn’t look shocked or scared. He looked rather relaxed and calm.

„It’s in the news.“ it now came from Georg, who had turned on the TV in the meantime. Goosebumps spread on my body and my hands found my face. „Shit.“ I murmured and now felt Bill’s cold hands, gently enclosed my hands and freed them from my face. A smile lay on his lips, which left me confused.

„Fuck it,“ he said, his eyes sparkled just like his black hair, which smoothly framed his head. „Everyone should know that you are all mine and I belong to you. From my sight, the whole world can find out! I stand by you and I think we should stop hiding our feelings. They will understand it sooner or later,“ Bill said and stroked his thumb over my open lips. He was right.

I blushed. „That was really sweet,“ I said smiling, which made him give me a toothy grin. He came closer and pulled me into a long kiss again. This time it didn’t matter that all the fan girls were still glued to the window and photographed and filmed every inch of our kiss, because we were no longer interested in the opinion of others. It only counted him and me, everything else was unimportant and I will proudly present, how much he means to me.

#tokio hotel #bill kaulitz #fanfic #writers on tumblr #new fanfic #2000s #2008 #first story

[giurochedadomani]

“That’s bullshit”. A beat. “You know that, don’t you?”. 

Luffy shines like the sun in the sense that he’s giving Zoro a headache and making his eye twitch. He throws him a look, annoyed but mildly impressed at his precarious balance on top of the kitchen’s window. 

“Are you sure sure about it?”. 

“Dude”.

“I’m just saying! You have admitted that you don’t see him go to sleep!—”. 

“He works late”. 

“—And that he offers blood whenever you guys have a visit”. 

“I said wine, I didn’t say—”. 

“And I saw Shanks having to invite him over before he ever—”. 

“Luffy!” —and then he automatically clasps his mouth shut, glazing to the half closed door that leads to the living room. 

A beat. 

Then silence, and hushed whispers Zoro’s definitely going to ignore. 

Once he’s moderately confident that dad hasn’t heard him or is otherwise occupied, he turns to glare at Luffy— who frowns a bit even as he grabs a couple of licorice from the nearby top shelf and slurps one up. 

Zoro opens his mouth— 

“Why—”, Luffy shallows, then tries again: “Why are you so mad about it?. Well, because— “You know I like him, right?”. 

—Zoro’s mouth hangs open, the half formed reply about how Luffy should mind his business evaporating. 

He blinks. Stares at the other’s face as he climbs down to the floor like some sort of overgrown monkey. Confused, he eyes the licorice that he offers him, then his toothy grin. 

Then the red sugary stain on his lips. 

He huffs, blushing, and squishes out of his mind the memory of Helmeppo’s nasty words about dad and Perona. Forcing himself to relax, he takes a bite out of the licorice. 

“You like him— even if he’s a vampire”. 

“Because he’s a vampire”.  

—Which, okay, whatever. Maybe this is just one of Luffy’s many peculiar quirks. Perhaps when you’ve grown up in sets it’s easier if you give everyone a role. Still.  

“My dad would win”, he feels the need to point out, feeling very silly the moment the words leave his mouth. Why does he always let Luffy drag him into his antics? And then, because it doesn’t sit well with him: “And even if he is, he wouldn’t bite him. They’re like. Friends”.     

His stomach churns uncomfortably, probably at the licorice, which tastes surprisingly bitter. 

He takes a breath because he doesn’t know what else to add, trying not to think about how quickly dad has turned over their sacrosanct routine the moment Shanks has called. They can always train tomorrow morning.  

“...I don’t really think Shanks would mind if he bit him”. 

#mishanks #zolu #akagami no shanks #dracule mihawk #roronoa zoro #monkey d. luffy #one piece #one piece live action #opla #family au #don't worry zoro just has a big fat case of not knowing how to share your favourite person

[meowthiroth]

one thing in oblivion that will never not be hilarious to me is talking to someone while there are other npcs nearby and seeing the goofy-ass faces they get freeze-framed with

for example, this one I got today

#tes #oblivion #shitpost #that one clip of Lucien visiting the player while there’s two guards pogging in the bg kills me every time #it’s also great when you get into dialogue when a npc’s standing in between you & the one you’re talking to #so they’re just like. uncomfortably close

[ophernelia]

i went to a fashion show today for one of my old mentees and baby… i don’t miss that scene at all. his showcase was great! he did an amazing job with his recent collection. that wasn’t the issue. that whole backstage life i really don’t miss. too fast paced. too much noise. i just was ready to go. i feel like i just got off a rollercoaster. i don’t wanna do that again.

#i was so close to having a panic attack #the venue was crowded #my mask was making me hot #i did not enjoy that experience at all #I can’t believe I was like 19 in the midst of all that just enjoying it #I can’t even fathom how I did it #the most excitement I want in life now is picking paint swatches with my bf #or going to the store and finding a bunch of figs cause they’re always out of stock #I’m rambling but it’s because I’m uncomfortable #I don’t miss being a socialite I like staying home #nonsims #text post

[mossiestpiglet]

Frenchie pressing in close but keeping Fang’s arm between him and Izzy is such a smart and kind move. He understands that no one but Fang can hold Izzy like that and have it work, but he still wants to express his support with physical proximity. He gets as close as he can while still affording Izzy the barrier that is Fang, and it’s so gentle and shows an emotional and situational awareness that is integral to Frenchie as a character.

#frenchie ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #I think there’s also a reason it’s frenchie who says the toe line #he doesn’t shy away from addressing hard realities but he’s also not the person who can jump right in with trying to comfort izzy because #he’s not fang and he hasn’t spent as much time with Izzy as fang has. and frenchie is the kind of person who can read relationships like #that and understand that fang needs to be the closest to izzy and needs to take the emotional lead #fang HAS to be very in it very close to izzy because literally no one else could do that. jim has to be farther removed and coached through #their part because stuff like this is so uncomfortable and unfamiliar to them so they’re gonna be more on the sidelines not really knowing #what to do or expect. but frenchie is observing so actively and making such informed choices the whole time about just HOW close to get. #just what to say and how much to reveal and how to say it. #obsessed with frenchies brain frenchie is everything to me #of all my like top favorites hes the only one that’s made it through to s2 to im gonna be so all about frenchie now

[worstloki]

Avengers in the tower together with Loki and things are chill except for the brodinsons who have Absoluteky Not worked through their issues and refuse to talk civilly to each other most days then one day there’s an emergency with the tower getting attacked and they’re forced to fight in their pajamas and everything is fine no one gets seriously injured all is well and then Clint asks why Thor and Loki are wearing matching sleepwear (red/green). This solves absolutely none of the aforementioned conflicts and makes everything worse.

#Loki is considering resorting to villainy at this point #Thor like yes Loki why ARE you wearing your *asgardian* sleeping clothes if you resent Asgard so much #Loki like they’re mine they belong to me I consider it stolen property why are YOU wearing the matching other half if I’m not your brother #and you just love earth so much!!! #Thor: their materials are uncomfortable #Loki: THEN WHY WOULD *I*— #Thor: YOU CANNOT RENOUNCE HALF OF OUR LIVES— #Loki: GO GET YOURSELF SOMETHING ELSE MADE— !!!!!!!!!!!! #Thor: YOU WILL *RESPECT* THE TITLE YOU ABANDONED— #Loki: CANT RESPECT THE ONE WEARING WAR CRIMINAL CLOTHES THAT LOOK LIKE MINE!!! #Thor: I WOULD NEVER BETRAY ASGARD— *TACKLES LOKI OUT A WINDOW* #Clint like d*mn. well at least my eyes are working fine. no concussion 👍👍 #now that Clint points it out everyone starts seeing similarities between them even when they try so hard to be different #Thor doesn’t do anything to his hair? haha that’s like Loki! guess he’ll be braiding it every morning now #Loki aggressively keeping the sugar close to his part of the table so Thor doesn’t get any for his tea etc.

[arthur-r]

lyrics: all my mistakes are a work of art / love letters aimed straight for the heart / should i let them / teach me how to fall apart / it gets better when you get on top and show me how it works / i could never be your kind of flirt / tell me that you’re falling out of love / cause i could never be your kind of drug / love me til the morning cause it hurts to be the one that’s headed for the / curb your appetite and drink your tea with herbs / helps if you just believe it does / tell me all your secrets and i’ll leave you in the morning / help me fight my demons and i’ll love you without warning / sick of sitting pretty in my pearls / thinking i could ever be your girl / do you even notice when i’m gone? / the thought of you, it keeps me up til dawn / waiting, wishing, wanting for your love / but don’t think i could ever be enough / to satisfy your raging taste for blood / but maybe that’s just the way we love / tell me all your secrets and i’ll leave you in the morning / help me fight my demons and i’ll love you without warning / i’ve been waiting so long for someone like you to come / i thought i’d found the answer to all of my lonely nights / coming down, have i reached the ground?have i reached the ground? have i reached the ground?

i’m obsessed with this song rn listening to it on repeat so just thought i’d share

#help me fight my demons and i’ll love you without warning!!!! #(unfortunately discovering a pattern in my ex’s life where he just kind of. delves for people’s traumas as a default #and he’s like a normal fucking well adjusted person with a good childhood. so it’s not like we’re even reciprocally trauma bonding it’s like #he just fucking GETS THE STORIES out of people. stupid fucking journalism major) #(disclaimer i LOVE journalism majors!!!! it’s a really admirable pursuit. it just makes me uncomfortable how he sees people as. content??) #so not ALL journalism majors. just ones who get close with you learn all your secrets and then break up with you when they’re tired of it #ANYWAY MOVING ON i’m just obsessed with this song in general. the lyrics are iconic i love the beat and it’s what i want to make music like #and it’s so beautiful and i love it so much #me. my post. mine. #music

[star--anon]

How do you tell when you talk about traditionally romantic things in a platonic context way too much?

Are there any ways to tell that I talk too much about platonic relationships?

Because I just got kicked out of a server for “fetishizing friendships and aromantics” and I’m wondering if maybe that could be a sign?

#vent #just for context it’s a strictly sfw server and also I’m not out as aroace bc idk how supportive they are of that #it seems like they’re pretty supportive considering they kicked me out for fetishizing them #so that’s nice #there’s silver linings to everything #also I could totally appeal this but I don’t wanna #turns out a bunch of people who (I thought) were good friends made a private group chat #and basically psycho-analyzed everything I said #basically just picture a room of people convincing each other their close friend was a creep #meanwhile said close friend is just closeted aroace #mostly I’m pissed because they could’ve just. asked me #like. ‘hey you talk about platonic kissing a lot what’s up with that’ #or like. ‘hey you talk too much about platonic kissing and it’s making some people uncomfortable’ #I literally had Chat With Me !! as my server name idk how they messed this up #anyway the good news is I will probably be talking here a lot more in regards to the Gladers and neat platonic things I thought of about th #(that last word is Them. I ran out of space) #I just wanna make it clear that I talked to one of the admins who decided to kick me #and yes it literally was just that I talked too much about it #not that I was creepy or that I forced the conversation into platonic cuddling/etc. to the point of being uncomfortable #no no I just. talked too much #in the channels that were dedicated to talking #I talked too much

[chirpsythismorning]

TikTokers gotta stop making edits of Mike/Finn AI audios!!! You’re gonna ruin the essence of the reveal before it even happens !!!!!

#byler #and like half of them just make me uncomfortable bc they’re so close to being good #but then miss the mark with it feeling sort of ooc #I wish they would be more subtle and do stuff like that Finn audio from WYFSW audiobook #something more vague but meaningful like that?? #but nope they’re just flat out making fake audios of Finn/mike saying really overt stuff #and it’s low key ruining the excitement of the revelation for me 😭 #no hate to the editors bc I get it’s a trend #i just hope it dies #i will admit I saw exactly one (1) that was sensational but that was enough no more #not until canon pls

[gremlin-pattie]

read Fun Home for one of my classes and we were discussing it as a class today… i cannot listen to straight people talk about alison bechdel anymore it’s fucking exhausting

#like. they’re sooo close #they’re trying their best #but there are some things that just don’t click for them #and it’s very frustrating #as a queer person who is in the closet #because i want to correct them/explain stuff so bad #but that would out me #one girl was talking about how the nude drawings made her uncomfortable and she felt weird reading it… okay? #you’re a woman. you have seen a naked woman before. #just say it’s because they’re lesbians and go #it’s JUST bodies #fun home #alison bechdel #lgbtq+ #queer #kat is typing

[catzgam3rz]

Shout out to my coworker tried for the second week in a row to trade shifts with me because they “don’t feel like closing” and they’ve “covered a lot of shifts for me recently”

Ah yes, the shifts where I was visiting urgent care and the emergency room because I was in intense pain??? Those shifts?? Yeah those are comparable to you wanting off early sure man! /s

#like I get it I don’t like closing either #but it makes me really uncomfortable that they’re making it seem like I OWE them after trying to get help for my leg #I’m just annoyed #vent #definitely vent lol #rambles #personal I suppose #negative #eh kinda idk #ALSO my hours are already cut to shit and they’ve worked 4 days this week I am NOT trading my longer shift for a short one it’s so stupid

[legofbicuriosity]

i hate you expectation of romance i hate you seeing romantic subtext in the most mundane interactions i hate you amatonormativity i hate y

#SHUT UP #SHUT UPPPPPPPP SHUT UP #the other day i posted a bereal of me and my cousin standing like 5 feet apart like 😁✌🏼 just cheesin. and having a good time. #and two of my friends reacted to it with like 😏😏 faces #and it was so uncomfortable #granted they didn’t know he was my cousin but like. even if he wasn’t. can i not have friends????????? lol #can i not hang out with guys without y’all being fucking weird about it #and if they’re gonna be like that where’s this energy for literally everyone in my life then. u Know i’m gay #and the other day i was at a building party and i was talking to my roommate and he was telling me abt how he wanted to play ping pong #and then i went to talk to this girl i met at the party and i was like haha yah that’s my roommate and she was like oh him? i thought he was #flirting with you #and like ???????????? #why is that the first assumption you make???? #sorry i’m bubbly and sociable sorry you’re not capable of seeing normal interactions as they are #sorry i assert myself in conversations because i’ll be talked over if i don’t #i think it’s a cultural thing also but. i’m not rlly used to it bc my close friends are Not like that #my best friend was telling me abt how every time she goes out for lunch with one of her guy friends the ppl in her uni (bc it’s quite small) #would always teasingly be like ‘omg are u cheating on your bf🤭🤭’ #?????? HELLO???????? oh my god #are u not tired. are u not Exhausted #BECAUSE I AM #i hate people oh my god #like it literally does nothing but make things uncomfortable #anyways #delete later #i was just a little bit annoyed. tiny bit🤏🏼🤏🏼

[jemmo]

takara-kun to amagi-kun is an actual work of comedy genius

#and at the same time is so fluffy and cute #but also at the same time is one of the best portrayals of young love esp in this high school setting #everything about their relationship feels new like it really is a first #but also in a very specific gay way like the keeping things lowkey the distance they have to maintain with their separate friendship groups #the longing stares and the innocent smiles and waved and takara looking away so that he doesn’t ruin his cool guy image by getting blushy #the simplicity but absolute pure joy of walking home together holding hands and sharing hugs #that kind of contact that you very specifically you only get from a romantic partner and they’re slowly exploring it #takara being just the best in respect of not wanting amagi to be uncomfortable and always being there to comfort and reassure him #amagi very rightly voicing how he feels about progressing to doing stuff and how he needs time but to also take things slowly #and takara’s very fitting and realistic isolation and boredom he feels around his friends and how that’s erased when he’s with amagi and he #can he himself like him taking ballet and not liking it as a kid just fits so well bc he probably was that shy precious kid that wanted to #do something different even if he ended up not liking it #and the comedy omg the way takara walked away when amagi’s friend was asking about him then doubled back #that is comedy gold but still doesn’t beat last ep and amagi’s reveal wearing takara’s clothes #that shit gets me every time #fuck I just adore this show it’s wholesome in a way that doesn’t feel watered down or softened at the edges #it’s like the purity and fluffiness of it is real it properly conveys that want to be close to someone in an environment where it feels #weird but you try to go after it anyway but with the absolute purest heart and best intentions #bc you’re always terrified of fucking it up at any point #agh it’s just so how that young late teen love feels I can’t even with words anymore it’s just fantatsic #takara kun to amagi kun

[designernishiki]

as much as a i understand and respect ace kiryu truthers, i really feel like kiryu is the type to really take the idea to heart that sex is something vulnerable and meaningful and thus reserved for someone completely trusted and special to him– someone who feels right. after years and years he’s still never legitimately voluntarily slept with someone, always tries to turn women away or is at least apathetic when they try to get physical with him, never feels that deep and specific bond with a woman– nothing compared to some of his bonds with other men throughout his life. and maybe, hopefully, one day it’ll hit him that there’s a pretty big, glaring reason why no women have ever felt “right” to him.

#I’ve become a pretty devout gay kiryu trigger at this point #it just. makes the most narrative sense / is the most narratively interesting / explains So Much #kiryu #yakuza #kazuma kiryu #honest to god though it’s. the most realistic way of explaining why he jumps to the assumption that he must date or kiss a woman or whatever #as soon as possible with little to no room to actually fall for one #with yumi he’s literally in the classic comp het situation of ‘well someone told me I’m in love with her so I guess I’m in love with her’ #no deeper thought no proof of falling for her etc #sayama’s more convincing and they start out actually building a dynamic that could end up being romantic maybe- but then they fucking jump #the gun and have kiryu randomly kiss her like something he saw in a movie instead of. you know. talking about things first. or anything. #partly because they’re in a life or death situation and are essentially pushed together via traumabonding #and that’s Extreme when it comes to the end of kiwami 2. honestly that makeout scene was just. really weird and uncomfortable. for multiple #reasons. I mean for one he says something like ‘I’m sure she (haruka)’ll understand’ in between the making out in reference to him not #even trying to get further from the bomb or anything #and just lowkey choosing to kill himself (disturbingly similarly to nishiki mind you) like uh kiryu did you forget that haruka. literally #lost her mother in an extremely similar situation. in front of her. and nearly lost you at the same time. kiryu’s personality is Not one to #just shrug off something like that- either he was purposefully choosing to kill himself because he felt like a failure and that haruka would #genuinely be better off without him Or the writing there was INSANELY out of character as to make him seem more focused on the supposed #Romeo and Juliet tragic romance situation than saving his daughter the grief of losing EVERYONE CLOSE TO HER and reliving the worst night of #her fucking Life #god if anything the ending of yk2 just screams ‘this relationship would not work out under normal circumstances and both of them are just #clinging onto whatever’s closest out of desperation and need for any kind of emotional catharsis available’ #if you can compare a pairing to romeo and juliet . it’s probably not #a pairing that’s meant to be #sorry im going off on a huge tangent about how weird the ending of yk2 was to me uhhh anyway I could write a video essay on why kiryu being #gay is the most realistic and interesting interpretation of him possible . send tweet