#so meeting them sometimes and realizing

[lunarr-stuff]

...

#there are people in my life who have hurt me alot #in the past #somehow i never could quite break contact with them #so meeting them sometimes and realizing #that they really changing for the better #gives me hope #they arent mean anymore #they are processing thier emotions properly #they dont lash out anymore #im so happy for them #i had always wished the best for them #:'')) #im just relieved they are doing better.. #they are quite literally the cause of my anxiety and stuttering #but yanno #shit gets forgiven when u ask for forgiveness #i feel better about it :)))

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Good morning, Sleepyhead.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid. #The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier. #We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them! #Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)... #The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too. #The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed. #We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now. #It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud. #For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him. #It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes. #But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart: #It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it. #What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end. #There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet. #Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt. #Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this: #You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that. #Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.

[theoppositeofprofound]

not to go off topic but i think that ideal post-canon dungeon meshi situation for kabru is for him to simultaneously have a slowburn domestic cozy noodles and rare escapes to go monster hunting and falling asleep in the same bed situation with mithrun AND some sort of high politics high stakes power dynamics they can't escape, manipulation equally matched by hopeless affection, glances shared over council tables, getting caught in the closet with the king again (explaining basic social protocols to him) thing with laios.

then just as he's coming to terms with his own feelings and the possibility that they might be romantic he learns that mithrun and laios have in fact been carrying on some sort of psychosexual no-strings affair the whole time (mithrun sits on the dresser and dispassionately explains horrific and bizarre monster situations from around the globe while laios gets off seven feet away)

#dungeon meshi #mithrun #laios touden #kabru of utaya #labrumisu #sometimes Mithrun tells Laois about how he would have mercy killed him #and laios tells Mithrun what it felt like to have the demon spasm and die under him #hashtag just boys night #before you ask me how kabru didn’t realize this was happening #he KNEW they were having little secret meeting he just thought it was therapeutic #which in a sense trying to make each other cry is but #they always looked like they’d had a really cathartic conversation when they came out of laios’ room! mithrun was so cheerful afterwards #in fairness it was good for them #they were both having fun and letting off steam #it’s only kabru who’s being weird about it per usual

[sadisthetic]

hanbok!!! for fun!

#just because i wanted to see my favorite boys in them #ninjago #ninjago jay #ninjago kai #jay walker #my art #i feel like with the sheer amount of orientalism thats in the show i feel like i have full freedom to draw the fuck i was as an asian dude #for the record i actually dont headcanon either of them as korean i hc kai as japanese which like #i feel like he couldnt be anything else? as the one of the two characters in this show who are actually strongly japanese coded? #like waves hand he could be mixed but he at Least needs to be part japanese #but thats not my personal headcanon tho i just generally headcanon him as japanese #and ninjago doesnt have fucking countries and theyre just legos i know but like #the world is def still based on this one. so gestures very hard. #i do what i want. #and also i headcanon jay as a one fourth chinese wasian who never fucking realizes hes part chinese BC HE NEVER MET HIS MOM #this is funny to me personally #he will never know..... im normal about jay never meeting his mom i swear. #anyways all these tags are irrelevant to the art drawing them in hanbok was just sheer indulgence #lemme have this #(bc sometimes i think about s4 specifically and scream) #closes eyes. at least s4 had best episode ninja roll at least.

[s0ckh3adstudios]

EVERYWHERE I GO I CAN'T AVOID MARTLET SHIPS. /NEG

#ok I'm more chill with Martlet x Moray #bit more flexible with that one #but i REALLY hate Martlet x Ceroba #and i really don't understand why people ship it in the first place #other than to meet their lesbian quota or something #/lh #Martlet literally calls Chujin her father figure and Ceroba is the wife of that father figure #Chujin and Ceroba are older than Martlet #and this is why i don't like Starlo x Martlet either very much HFGDFEH #aside from that i just can't see them romantically either #like i said the other day i wish people didn't immediately jump to ships #there's a lot of interesting friendships and dynamics you could delve into here #ANYWAY. point of todays Sock Stresses post is that It Makes Me So Uncomfortable. #and I can't really avoid it anywhere #why does nobody realize the weird implications 😭 #but i digress I can't stop people from doing these things #sometimes it be that way #just going to sit in my corner and do my own thing LOL #sock talk

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

i see a lot of interpretations of zor being this otherworldly, anomalous presence- larger than life, practically non-human. and i, too, like perceiving zor through this veil of anonymity. i think making them too tangible or perceivable really detracts from what's been established about their character.

but, i personally really, really like the thought of zor being human. mortal. but terrifying to the point where you'd be forgiven for forgetting it.

i think one of the things that i adored about ieytd before the third game dropped (and honestly made me a little disappointed when it was changed later on) was the fact that the agency never had a face. it just... was what it was. it had facets- granted, the EOD was always the only one of any relevance. but, really, think about what we know about the agency between all three games. compare that to how much we know about zoraxis.

there's something really appealing to me about zor being who they are... they're probably the most wealthiest person on earth. they had a monopoly that quite literally gripped the world in their first- as their emblem would suggest. they hire some of the most lethal minds in the world- chemists, inventors, engineers.

and yet... despite it all, they're just one person. to me, their anonymity is a shield against the fact they are a person. they hide behind the lethality and prowess of their elite operatives- not to mention we've seen how clever they can be when it came to manipulating prism. they're by no means useless.

but what would they be without their anonymity? what would they be without the weapons they didn't design, the lairs they didn't build, the employees they use as human shields? the second zor is gone, zoraxis crumbles. they are the support pillar of their entire corporation.

... but what's the agency's equivalent? even post morales being a character, can we be certain that he's the glue holding the entire organization together?

think about zoraxis' most lethal schemes. seizing control of the world's atomic weaponry. striking targets anywhere on earth's surface with a giant laser. exploding the brain of every telekinetic agent on the planet. are they really seeking to cause as much damage as possible- to the agency specifically, collateral, or otherwise?

or do they not know where to strike. zor's tactic- for as high the stakes have been escalating- has always carried a similar motif. cleave and strike indiscriminately until the threat is neutralized.

but it never works. zor is lashing at a hydra- sprouting new heads where the old ones have been lopped off. they don't seem aware of how to destroy the agency other than exterminating each and every one of them off the face of the earth, in whatever way is most convenient at the moment.

i just think there's something to be said about zoraxis- and by extension, zor- always being seen as this oppressive, near-otherworldly force, constantly applying pressure on phoenix... when for all we know, zoraxis could be perceiving the agency in the exact same light.

zor, ultimately, has one beating heart. the agency has thousands. and all of them are dispensable.

#ieytd #headcanons #i GUESS #dr zor #i'll tag them. i guess this post is abt them sure why not #this blog is anti morales. if there are no morales haters i am no longer on this earth #i hate him for reasons unrelated to this post but it's still important that i say so #i just think there's something so narratively enticing #about. phoenix being fed the thought that zor is this. almost eldritch presence. despicable. a monster. a plague. #something that needs to be killed to ensure the safety of the world- and (perhaps more importantly) the agency #growing to see zor as an almost demon like entity. subhuman. scourge. #before finally actually encountering them. meeting them face to face... and seeing themself in their eyes. #zor is still a menace. they're still a murderer. they're still evil. but they're human. #and it's with a dawning chilling realization that the agent realizes that they've made a connection with zor- #-that they've *never* felt from the agency. cold. disconnected. a beacon of self identified purity they've been taking at face value #i guess what i'm saying is just because zoraxis is obviously bad that doesn't make the agency good. #sometimes eldritch horror can be the organization you risk your life indefinitely for #does this make ANY sense is anyone reading this. hello. where am i. what is this place. #long post

[scoliosisgoblin]

doodles and some lore. I'm tired.

#Jay does this thing on second dates where he tests the other person #he wants to make sure they'd like all of him. every part of him that may throw others off or realize he's insane #Matt and Jay were friends during high school. dated in college and broke up just before finding out Jay was pregnant #they decided to co-parent Mona and just view one another as friends #Mona really likes Don and Tk. loves Peter. though dislikes Lucy quite a bit because of how much she hears Jay complain about her with Matt #Mona is very close with Jay despite living with Matt and only coming over to Jay during the holidays/some weekends #Jay moved into the complex about a year prior to meeting Peter. he's had 5 roommates since moving in #Lucy has been the worst compared to the rest but is the only one Jay tolerates (since she's young and reminds him of himself. pretransition #Jay and Don hated each other in the beginning. only really bonded over talking shit about a neighbor #and Jay saying “anyway I gotta finish watching the game.” Don saying how he wanted to too but his tv is fucked so they watch together #Tk does have feelings for Jay but Jay just can't take the hint. he simply just thinks he's making jokes and is very kind #Jay really cares about Lucy. he often checks up on her when she's out and buys her dinner if he didn't make anything for them #and she ofc tries to make his life easier by cleaning the apartment making him coffee in the mornings etc etc #also Jay and Don sometimes just talk about marriage. how both of theirs didn't work out (I headcanon that for Don) #how it'd go - Don: I just wish I showed her how much I cared... Jay: I chased mine down with a knife. didn't kill her though. I promise. #Jay also calls Don's kid (the cop) Don Jr. he doesn't mind it that much. it's mainly cause Jay never remembers his name #my art #yb peter #Yb don #Void #Jay #Yb tk #Yb lucy #none of them die btw. Peter kills some guy who treated Jay poorly #the entirety of Jay and Peter's relationship before the abduction takes place over June #I say so cause it was a bit alarming to Tk. Don and Matt how fast Jay was rushing into the relationship and such #anyway uhh idk what else to say

[oh-meow-swirls]

was looking through old posts and i'm surprised to see that i seemingly didn't have any commentary on anything in 3 in chapter 7, 8 or 9, the posts related to 3's story go from "my first reaction when i saw yopple-bot was 'i love you. but also you are definitely the boss for this chapter-'" to "i have been in hell all day. hell being bada-bing tower." funny to me cuz those chapters are like, the best ones sdfkljsdfjfsdkjlfsdjkl-

#puppy rambles #yo-kai watch #yw3 #i love dukesville. yo-kai watch wild west. though also everyone in bbq talks like they're in the wild west- #i don't blame myself for not having any commentary on hazeltine mansion tbh. it sucks ass. i mean it's kind of fun but like #god is it annoying. i think using the mechanic of switching between nate and hailey for puzzles is a cool idea but. bad execution #very bad execution. it is so annoying #especially the section where you're in the basement and have to use the drill a bunch #... why are there prison cells in the basement anyways??????? i just realized how fucking weird that is- #i'm mostly just annoyed by the dining room puzzle tbh. i KNOW the fucking answers but verygoodsir is an ASSHOLE for some reason #and won't let me choose the FUCKING CORRECT DOORS #3's so fucking amazing tbh. i really wanna replay it soon. don't wanna have to delete a save file though #wish 3 had three save files like 1 and 2. i get why though i mean it's the biggest 3ds game klsfdjfskjfsdjksdf- #i wanna like. actually use my originyan for once. i might just end up using nyases ii instead tho fsdkljjdsfjskd- #i love every chapter in 3 after nate and hailey meet tbh. the bestie moments are so good #though also i don't think it was an amazing idea tbh. it means there's six main characters after that point #sometimes one character will go several cutscenes without talking at all. it's usually buck #he doesn't have any dialogue during any of the key quests in new yo-kai city. which is pretty amusing admittedly #i think the writers just forgot about him or something fslkdjdfslkjfsdljkdf- #i think my favorite thing related to that is like. during the stuff in bada-bing tower komasan and komajiro are there too #but they don't have any dialogue. which makes it seem kind of pointless #i get why they're there plot-wise but like. at that point you should either have them leave before you go to bada-bing tower #(esp since they don't end up in the ufo with everyone else. idr if there's a reason for that there probably isn't-) #(i think i slightly blocked out everything in bada-bing tower cuz it is so grueling) #or just. give them dialogue??? #i love 3 and all but it definitely has some problems- #which is why i'm so excited to rewrite it <3 for both of those reasons. i can fix things. and also it's the best game #just. full-stop. not just the best yo-kai watch. i just think it's the best game ever #that title changes based on my current biggest hyperfixation though sfldfsjdkslfdjkfdj- #i think i'd say my overall top 5 is like. yo-kai watch 3. deltarune. ummmm. fantasy life is up there

[starlooove]

Dick drops Damian off at Joey’s to babysit and Damian is so pressed on the car ride there. Like first of all he doesn’t NEED a babysitter and even if he did why can’t he just go with Dick? Dick is so hateful, he preaches all that bullshit about love and tolerance and care for family but now that Damian needs him he’s abandoning him??? To a STRANGER?! Dick will rue this day, the day of his ultimate BETRAYAL.

Dick goes to pick Damian up and he refuses to leave.

#he’s covered in paint and there’s 70s music going on in the background and if Richard picks him up rn it’s proof he doesn’t love him so…. #whenever literally anything happens he demands to go to Joey’s to be babysat. #I am but a child Grayson. I cannot be on my own. it’s dangerous. #literally everyone but Jason is at the manor rn. #Joey ofc joins Damian to gang up on dick #‘what if something happens and the only way it can be solved is by him being possessed by someone with more experience hm? what then?’ #that’s his son now #dick wonders if this is how bruce feels sometimes #Joey visits wayne manor but it’s not the same #(bc Joey’s place doesn’t have any bad memories associated unlike WM but this ain’t about angst so) #Dick is chill yknow like he KNEW Damián and Joey would get along he’s not feeling replaced at all #…until he sees Damian rocking overalls. he only started wearing them after meeting Joey and before that he would’ve killed himself before- #-even considering. but NOW?! #oh hc that Joey regularly wears overalls btw. last tag doesn’t make sense without that #anyways Damian is trying to get dick and Joey together now. it literally makes the most and when dick is like m #‘bro u cannot do that’ Damian is like ‘I thought u wanted me to be happy…’ and joeys like ‘I DID hear u say that (lying)’ #Damian may be a child of divorce but he refuses to be a child of two idiots who didn’t even realize they were in love. embarrassing. #Joey absolutely let’s Damian be a kid he introduces him to fingerpainting and he goes wild #personal hc that’s totally not projection that Damian feels like he not only has to master everything but do it at 100% every time period #Joey is like no bro like ik the process of getting a painting right is satisfying but u can draw a squiggly line and you’ll be fine I swear #it takes Damian a while bc he gets it mentally but he physically can’t like he feels so much shame at the thought of smth ‘imperfect’ #everything Damian draws goes on the fridge and the walls and in frames around Dick and joeys apartment bc duh #but all three of them have an adoration for the fucked up bee Damian fingerpainted with wonky lines a goofy smile and the colors bleeding- #-out the lines. #all of this is like when Damian is 11 to me like ik he is older now but they kept him in such a wack environment I need to fix it #anyways

[claymorexpunisher]

Imagine trusting a man enough to let yourself be the perfect ✨passenger seat princess✨ at least 98% of the time.

Wonder what that’s like…

#one day lmaoo #✨manifesting✨ #a couple weeks ago one of my besties asked me being single has me feeling lonely. #no im not lonely. I think loneliness can cloud your judgment and can make you make poor decisions that will have you settling for less than #you deserve just to fill that void. #so no im not lonely. i have other relationships that are just as important. #but im def more open to meeting my Prince Charming. #i used to think that relying or depending on others in some ways was a sign of weakness. but now i know that there’s strength in that. and #that it can be so freeing and beautiful. and though I do value my alone time and a certain amount of independence is important- it’s okay #to pass your burdens onto someone who’s willing to take them on sometimes. and I’ve realized that Ive been so hellbent on not being #dependent on a man bc I didn’t have a man I could depend on. ever. I didnt have that example of a man in my life who would hold it down as a #father or as a husband. but I know they exist. bc I see it on the daily. the man of my dreams is out there and I’m patiently waiting to meet #him and to love him for all eternity. #i totally might delete this later lmao. #but for now if you’re reading this word vomit- I hope you meet your person too and if you already have- I hope you cherish them as much as- #-they cherish you. ♥️♥️♥️🌹 #IM IN MY FEELINGS DONT MIND ME. #🤮 😂 #love #romance #soulmates #fate #trust #romantic relationships

[j-esbian]

sometimes i really do want to study the flavor of intense misogyny from older folks, especially when it comes from older women, that assumes all women and girls are sluts and deviants because (checks notes) fashion trends, which the individual consumer has no control over, means that most people’s only options, especially in summer, are to wear somewhat revealing clothing. because it’s hot.

#how have you gotten to this age and gone clothes shopping and not realized the landscape #like i first became aware of this problem at age 12 #i didn’t want to wear short shorts and honestly COULDNT bc of school dress code. but it was hard to find another option #enter those plaid bermuda shorts #and i can only imagine it’s 100x worse now in an instagram tiktok age than it was when i was that age #bc god knows I was embarrassed to wear those. felt like they were actively trying to be as ugly as possible #but for swim suits it’s a whole other can of worms #i currently do not own one bc i don’t want to get a wedgie every 30 seconds #two piece bottoms are all advertised as Cheeky. and i already know i have more ass than expected for my waist size #and the other option is. board shorts #but you’re going to blame the 14 year old for wanting to go to the pool?? #‘and then they wonder why guys keep staring at them. where are their mothers i can’t believe they’re allowed out like that’ #be so for real right now. they’re kids. they should be allowed to have fun and go outside without being creeped on #i always try to meet them halfway with ‘yeah it sucks that there’s not a lot of modest styles of clothes available’ and they’re just like #‘well EYE spent $100 at a specialty online store’ but these kids are going to forever 21 with cash from babysitting or whatever. try again #your single solution does not apply to everyone #like a LOT of it feels like projection. ‘i acted out as a teen so my daughter will do the same’ #just not a lot of self awareness. combined with internalized sexism they’re not willing to question #sometimes when my coworker goes on one of her rants about how she’s glad she never had daughters bc of the Way Teenaged Girls Are #i want to be like. i wasn’t like that. your granddaughter isn’t like that. #i genuinely want to study these people. how did you get to this point

[cinnamon-notes]

i have been ghosting my friends for idk a month??? and they have been doing the same??? except for when we meet in a workplace cuz somehow our jobs decided to cross over :)

#feeling so bad about it but like i cant bring myself to interact with people right now but i am also constantly sad because i dont interact #with anyone out of work :/ but working makes me socially exhausted & tbh all i wanna do is be depressed with my books & my movies &my tunes #but i also crave affection like i realize i have zero social life and i sometimes schedule some hangout with my friends but it's almost #become like idk a task? something i look at through work eyes. like- i arrange our hangouts the way i arrange work meetings. it's so sad. #i know it is. but still- i cant help it. through all my life ive been missing having a lifelong friend who knows me like the back of their #hands and i know like the back of mine. never had it. cant cry over that. it's passed. i cant invent lifelong friendships that never existed #and i gotta make peace with that. plus- what am i complaining about if im just incapable of keeping any friend for longer than a month??? #after the first month- maybe the first couple of months- it all gets boring and dont get me wrong i really love my friends but somehow they #lose interest in me and i lose interest in them and we become just people who know each other and occasionally hang out but like- i've never #had a friend who's there for me when things happen in my life. i've always had friends to tell things to afterwards. like- i know i cant #really pick up the phone and say “hey. im having a bad time. can we take a walk? talk on the phone? can you tell me about your day? can you #just be here for me?“ and i cant even idk just randomly pop up with a ”oh my god i hate him i hate him i hate him it's a whole montague vs #capulet but if romeo and juliet never existed kind of hatred!!“ i just cant vent right away. ive always thought that that's my problem. #and maybe it is. but still- how's come they can vent to me? im always there right away. i do love my people and i show up for them. #sometimes my depression makes it soooo difficult to hang out constantly but if there's one thing that cannot be said about mw is that i dont #care. cuz i do. and maybe that's the problem #and maybe it's just easier for me to care than let others care? idk? but then again- i did try to open up. i did try to let them care. i did #try everything by the book & off the book but still- idk it's always just an “im sorry” never an “i care so much to say more than im sorry” #and yeah it's my problem cuz i am not a constant person im not that steady in what i do. i still dont know if it's because i havent found #yet the people worth doing it or if i am just traumatized (my ex is knocking on this door lol) but- idk it makes me extremely sad!!! #and ive rambled on way too much but i jusg needed to let some things out of my mind cuz i cant understand whats wrong with me and why i #crave true friendships although im hella scared of and bored of and unwilling to nurturing one :) #cinnamon diary

[designernishiki]

feeling things over the fact that haruka in y5 is in so many situations where people are mean and vindictive towards her and her whole life has been tragedy and people wronging her and etc and yet she still chooses to be kind and even when someone is spewing hatred at her she still sees them as a person; a person who’s hurting for one reason or another, but always a person nonetheless, and thus someone needing compassion and love and support and shbcbddhsjdnnfnn she’s really honestly too good for this world i want to buy her a starbucks cake pop

#haruka #rambling #y5 #I’m thinking about. like. when she says to t-set after they trip her and make her spill a drink in the other agency’s manager’s lap #she goes up to them and says okinawa is a beautiful and relaxing place and sometime she hopes they can see it because they’ve been working #so hard and deserve that kind of relaxation and rest. and of course both them and their manager assume she’s mocking them or something but #when haruka’s manager guy later says something about it being a snappy comeback to get back at them she just looks at him like. what are you #talking about? and he realizes oh she was being completely honest. oh #and then the other thing that got me good was that (obviously pretty insensitive) substory/revelation where she meets ulala- an overweight #wannabe idol girl. and she’s really mean to haruka for no reason and goes off on her on the street and etc. and later she’s dancing on the #bridge and has her wild ass revelation-worthy ordeal that results in her doing a backflip on accident that gets people’s attention #and when haruka takes a picture and posts on her blog about it there’s not a single mean-spirited word on the page #she’s genuinely just like. wow! ulala really knows how to get an audience’s attention! this was so impressive! :) #like god. you are. you are the best girl in the world I’d kill and die for you

[lunarr-stuff]

...

#its been so long since i actually made a friend #vent #that its hard #to realize that they like me #that they want me there #and that they miss me #that i assume that they dont care and they wouldnt want me there anyway #after who would care about lil ole me #and then they ask #hey where were you why didnt you come #didnt you say you wanted to meet #im just too used to pulling away at the slight bit of disinterest #that it surprises me that they like me #the concept is so foriegn to me #i feel like if i get too close im going to be so dissapointed #know ing so many times that i got sttached that i loved and got spat in the face on #the amount of times i decided to pull away for a bit and then we never talked again #it had happened so many times that it has affected my self esteem to the point the thought that i am a useless person that no one could car #for let alone even see had become a fact in my mind i feel so damn invisible sometimes i cant even feel myself #when people show interest i smile and wave knowing fully well that its all just temporary and i wont see them after the first 3 meetings #it hurts so much #i feel unlovable yet when someone tries i cant believe it and end up ghosting them #i need to believe in myself more #i need to learn to love abit more #even if it ends up hurting me #im sorry #but i need to do this for myself #this person feels like a good person #i should give them a chance #even if it feels like ive already messed up

[orcelito]

Revealing myself as a 98 vashmeryl truther by how I write vash and meryl's interactions in itnl

#speculation nation #itnl shit #THEYRE JUST SO FUNNY and i love them 😭😭😭😭 #so yes this is a trimax fic but i am just gonna. push my 98 agenda for their relationship hfkdhfj Just a little #idk their dynamic is just more Present in the anime than in the manga. and it works for the setup i have so There. #also yes this is a vashwood fic IM ALLOWED to enjoy other dynamics too #toeing the line a little bit on the slight undertones but nothing will come of it #i. plan to have an acknowledgement in this chapter. chapter 13 #vash makes a joke that could be interpreted as flirty and she's basically like 'Dont Deflect. you dont see me like that anyways.' #vash realizing that Yeah there kind of is a dynamic there. but also hes so focused on wolfwood he wouldnt wanna lead her on #it's like. this is just kinda part of being an adult ykno lol like #sometimes you have feelings for your friends and you can acknowledge it even & if youre mature enough about it it's Fine #he'll let her believe he has 0 possible interest in her bc it's easier that way. for both of them. #he doesnt want her to get her hopes up. doesnt wanna lead her on. #and YEAH MAYBE IM A POLYGUN TRUTHER I THINK ALL 4 OF THEM WOULD BE GREAT TOGETHER #for the purposes of this fic im keeping it to just the vashwood #but i cant resist... a lil sprinkle here and there...... #like them meeting with a goddamned meet cute & then vash subsequently being an Asshole by getting her hopes up & then dipping #thats like. the vibes. thats the thing. vash realizing he needs to nip this in the bud bc he Cant be what she wants him to be. #im just. man. i have some Thoughts about this all. #if you couldnt guess vash & meryl r having some relationship development this chapter. im excited !!!! #they Will be friends!!!!!!! soon.

[sysig]

Oh heck yeah

So y’know how how every Sim made as an adult starts out with the generic “Mystery Sim” as their teenage love?

(Which I mean. Is fine. Personally I’d prefer nothing but it’s not bad as such lol)

Well I finally dug around in the SimPE memory tab to see what I could mess with without - hopefully - breaking anything this time, and well :3

Hehe ♪

And as further proof that that wasn’t just him getting rejected after I put them on the lot (though “Very First Kiss” is only a teen option and I made them both as adults) -

I modified his very first memory to be meeting Dex!

I also gave him this very rare memory of being attracted to Dex for funsies hehe ♥

#WPTS2 #WPVG #The Sims #The Sims 2 #I love SimPE <3 #Apparently that ''Attracted to'' memory can be flagged in the game but it's really hard to come by! #From the very cursory glance I took around it seems like it's initiated by seeing a Sim - not necessarily meeting them - with 2+ attraction #So at least two lightning bolts - and Sims tend only to notice other Sims when they use ''Scope Room'' #The chances of seeing another Sim with enough for 2+ bolts is pretty low admittedly haha - it's cute tho! I like it :D #And I especially like the idea of Max meeting Dex and being like ''Oh. OH'' lol #Oh I just realized the ''Be Rejected'' memory is green oops - I'll have to go back in and see what setting I missed lol #I'm just pleased I was able to mess with them at all! :D Definitely planning to do this with the Vargases and the ''official'' Helix boys ♪ #I've moved Max in! I found a custom house in my lots that had basically the exact driveway that I had envisioned so I had to use it ♥ #The house itself could probably use some work - honestly I'd like to sit down and make a floorplan of how I see the Helix house sometime #But the point is!! I can make and modify memories!! Excellent!! #I dunno if it quite aligns with my Sap personality trait but I do feel some kind of way about being able to modify Max's memories like this #Like how he canonically tried to kiss Dexter as a teen and that is reflected here in the teen-specific memory I fjslafjd #Does make me wonder haha Max is based on ZEX and while he was broken up about it - could that have really been his first kiss? #Sheltered poor little rich kid hmmm ♪♫ How many people would he even have access to kiss haha #Helix #SCII