I got to say I really liked the episode (despite only having watched exu calamity of the exu series) and I think maybe Matt needed a breather after so many fast paced, lore filled episodes.
however, I am kinda bummed that the fcg processing has been put on hold for (at least) two weeks now and that means that, despite them being great actors that truly merge with their characters at the table, their reactions will be much less raw and thereās a chance some of them will forget tidbits of information, emotions they felt when it happened because they (as role players) will have had time to process it out of the game and it might create a dissonance in the game. tbf I kind of felt the difference even between the end of ep 91 and the beginning of 92 but it made sense because technically they were still running and couldnāt afford to process. idk. I have hope that weāll still see that raw emotion, but I fear it wonāt be as impactful as it couldāve been, especially if theyāll have to put the āreporting for dutyā hat on immediately when they get to the camp
I think being a little bummed about the sort of unexpected hiatus on the Bell's Hells/Post F.C.G processing is super understandable! As someone who also really did enjoy the Crownskeepers return (hello im still yelling about Opal internally), I'm kind of in the same camp of being kind of thrown/disappointed about not getting to really dig into/sit with the Bell's Hells post-F.C.G loss. Like, LOVED the Crownkeepers, fascinating second half, kind of meh on the specific timing.
I'm holding my reservations about whether they're going to have to keep running/moving once we return to their portion of the story, since hey, until it happens (or doesn't!), we don't know, so I don't feel like getting too in my head about it until then.
That said! I do think that in general the cast puts characterization and staying true to the emotions of the character/story as a very high priority within the campaign. I think you're right that it won't be the exact same as if they had done a big emotional blowup/goodbye/processing scene in the same ep where they lost F.C.G, or immediately after. I don't think that means it has to be less impactful, just that- yeah, they'll have had more time to actually think/process it.
But they're also all professional voice actors who have, IMO, thus far shown how much they think about the inner lives of their characters and enjoy really digging deep into the emotional/interpersonal aspects of roleplay.
My assumption (my hope?) is that with additional time to think about + process a devastating/deeply emotional loss for their character(s), they'd choose to lean into that more, and not less. It wont be the same as the immediate raw reactions, thats true! But i dont think that means it has to be less impactful, even if they (as people) have had more time to process, and will be choosing how their characters, fresh off the loss, react. I dont think thats a guarantee it will be less impactful/emotional (maybe the additional thinking would actually enhance the reactions being true/insightful to the characters vs gut reactions from cast), but it will be different.
But if the cast chooses to lean into the heartbreak/emotions, and the circumstances of the BH in the upcoming ep enable it, I'm sure they can still kick my ass (emotionally), timeskip or not.
In general, I'm cautiously optimistic about what could happen next! Even if I don't love the timing thus far. I think there's still plenty of ways for me to get what I'm hoping for wrt F.C.G/BH. :] There are plenty of ways for me to get let down too, probably, but until it happens, or doesn't, I'm opting to not get too doomery about it. We'll see.
I uh. Hope that helps? A bit? Being bummed about specific things you were hoping for being off the table is totally reasonable. just hoping to lend an alternate way of viewing it, if desired.
(i wrote the sentence: "don't be lamenting your chickens before they hatch" and then went "what the fuck" out loud. i spent 4 hours at work today just doing systems diagramming and my brain is fried. clearly. keeping this here for my own entertainment.)
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20 Questions for Fic Writers
Thanks @cha-melodius and @stereopticons for the tags! I know Iāve done this in the past, but itās been a hot minuteā¦
How many works do you have on ao3?
239!
What's your total ao3 word count?
822,937ābut thatās a collaboration-boosted lie. Per my writing tracker, words that I have personally written and published on AO3 is 693,613
What fandoms do you write for?
Mostly RWRB these days, but the majority of my back catalogue is Schittās Creek, with a few others sprinkled in for fun. The Pairing definitely made my brain whirrā¦ weāll see.
Top five fics by kudos:
With so much of my heart (that none is left to protest), RWRB, 65.5k, the Much Ado About Nothing stage actor AU
Kinda think that I might be his type, RWRB, 12.8k, Alex and Bea fake date and Alex gets a little distracted by Beaās brother
We were supposed to find this, RWRB, 3.3k, soulmate AU
We always walked a very thin line, Happiest Season, 2.7k, Riley character study/alternate ending
All the Lonely Starbucks Lovers, RWRB, 5.8k, barista Henry repeatedly putting his foot in his mouth in front of his coworker crush
(This is how I learned Puck It has been knocked out of my top five š)
Do you respond to comments?
Yes! And absent a Schittās Creek resurgence of some kind that sees me absolutely inundated I donāt see that changing.
What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
Five ways it could have ended (and one way it still could), Schittās Creek, 1.2k, for the love of god read the tags
What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Likeā¦ most of them? I love to end on a good HEA haha. For sheer joy, though, itās probably With so much of my heart (that none is left to protest)
Do you get hate on fics?
From time to time. Iām very free with the delete button. Weirdly, it occasionally pops up in the AO3 comments but mostly seems to come to me via anons on tumblr??? I have no idea why.
Do you write smut?
Itās been known to happen, I guess š
Craziest crossover:
I havenāt written any AO3-era crossovers! A few fusions/media AUs, but no crossovers.
Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not to my knowledge.
Have you ever had a fic translated?
Nope. Iāve only been asked once, and they wanted to post off AO3 which is a big heck nope for me (and my permissions statement has now been updated to reflect that)
Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Heck yeah I have. Iāve done several anthology-type collaborations where we each wrote a chapter in a fic, and Iāve fully cowritten fics with @ships-to-sail several times. We have another collab coming up for @aroyallybigbangrwrb and Iām also cowriting The Big Secret AU with @indestructibleheart which is essentially us one-upping each other on emotionally devastating ideas until someone writes them down. Good system š
All time favorite ship?
Stop making pansexuals choose things.
What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
Look, the chances of kinktober 2021 being finished at this point are slim š
Schittās Creek kinkverseā¦ I donāt know. I have little snippets written of future fics and theyāre great butā¦ idk. Maybe Iāll write one vignette-y wrap up fic one day.
What are your writing strengths?
Narrative POV, dialogue that feels like the characters, epistolary bullshit, smut apparently.
What are your writing weaknesses?
Coming up with actual plot lmao. Visual descriptors ā Iām not even remotely a visual person so I really really struggle with writing the sorts of things people can visualise. Also likeā¦ the passage of time? A scam.
Thoughts on dialogue in another language?
Love it. Iāll shoulder tap a fluent speaker if I need an actual sentence/anything Google isnāt super reliable for. Forever heartbroken that there are no fics in my second language in AO3 and no reason for me to be able to sprinkle it into my own writing (though one of the subscriber shindig prompts might be about to change that š)
First fandom you wrote in?
HP
Favorite fic you've written?
Stop! Asking! Pansexuals! To! Choose! Things!
I donāt know there are 239 of the bloody things š Iām far more interested in what other peopleās favourites are than what my own is!
I have no sense of whoās done this already so apologies if this is a double up but tagging @agame-writes @affectionatelyrs @anincompletelist @cricketnationrise @getmehighonmagic
@happiness-of-the-pursuit @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @indestructibleheart @inexplicablymine @nontoxic-writes
@read-and-write- @rmd-writes @sparklepocalypse @welcometololaland @whimsymanaged and, as always, anyone who wants to play!
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could i kindly ask for a blind date? For afab reader, but can be any pronouns, brown hair, average height, curvy figure. A person who is a dependable, responsible and though on the outside when needed to be, like work, or when others need help but in their downtime are really childish and likes watching cartoons and are pretty innocent at heart. Hobbies include pottery, learning languages, travelling, cooking or baking and basically trying out each activity at least once. Highly disliking conflicts, will avoid them at all costs, even at their own cost. Hate loud and bright places due to easily being easily overwhelmed. Love the concept of parallel play dates or doing some kind of activity together dates as I am really nervous to open up to people if my hands and mind is not busy with doing something. Idk if i look for something specific, maybe for them to just be patient with me as I have a difficult relationship with a feeling called love. I am sorry if that is to much too, then please ignore this request
JJK Blind Date
Thank you for the submission! I pair you with Gojo!
Gojo is someone who loves sweets, so he would definitely love your baking
Gojo is someone who can be very playful at times, especially with his loved ones. But despite his playfulness actions, he is also very responsible
Gojo also really likes Digimon (fun fact) so he most definitely watches cartoons
The perfect date I can see you both on is a baking date!
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Gojo had shown up at your house with full bags and held them up, "I was thinking we could have a date night."
You were surprised and confused but you let hi in, then asked him what the bags were for. Gojo didn't say anything but took out what looked like ingredients.
Gojo then held up a big bag of flour before plopping it down right on the counter, "Okay! Let's make a cake."
You started to put the ingredients in the bowl but Gojo stood idly by while watching you explain how to actually make a cake. You didn't know why he wasn't actually doing anything until you asked him if something was wrong. Gojo just shook his head, "Nothing's wrong, I just like seeing you do the things you love." he smiled, "That, and I'm also hungry."
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I absolutely adore your sims style and how you give all your sims so much detailed lore and an elaborate character! I know that's a super random thing to ask, but does Jacques Villareal ever make an appearance in your sims universe/story? Idk I'm just really curious about what your take on him would look like
thank you!
well, actually, he does appear in my sims stories! 3-4 years ago (i'm not good with time) i even had a whole villareal-centered (more specifically, max-centered, but jacques played a huge part) gameplay, it was all about politics, business, mafia, power play on a really big scale. i even researched finances of all families in the game to better understand power balance.
to be honest, i didn't change jacques that much back then, i just made his eyes less ridiculous. but those are 2021 makeovers that beg for some 2024 treatment.
(apologies for a vanilla cas)
or you meant my take on jacques personality? because oh boy do i have to tell a lot about it, but that warrants a whole another post
also there's some ancient max who has trust issues, anger issues and nearly not enough free will
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dude i hate long workdays so much when i leave and i feel dysregulated and so separated from any rhythm of the natural world. it was beautiful today, and now the sun is going down, and iāve noĀ ārealā interaction with people (as myself vs.Ā āWorking With Publicā guy) and the day starts and ends alone and without (barring Halliwell) any genuine or meaningful social exchange. usually get home and feel too uncomfortably hungry (even if iād packed a sufficient amount of food for the day) to know when iām fullĀ
iāve been trying to challenge myself on what i callĀ āworkā or donāt because i realized i was only calling my day jobĀ āworkā when i spend most of my time alone, when home, working on shop stuff or commissions or something otherwise related to money or productivity (which i guess can also include housework)Ā
iāve tethered myself to working (or productivity) so much that iāve been very neglectful of any hobbies that allow me to rest. i prioritize active hobbies (ie, hiking) first because i love them but also partly because halliwell needs the engagement, partly because i start feeling terrible if i donāt spend at least a good part of the day out of the house, and partly because itās easier to keep doing things when iām just doing them. i have a hard time sleeping if iām not completely exhaustedĀ
i try to force myself toĀ ādo nothingā and iāve gotten a little better at it, i can bake something for friends, i can sit or lay down and read for a while now, but most of the time i find myself in some sort of nagging doom scroll, telling myself i will close my phone and get on with heat setting or orders or finish or start a drawing or send an email etc etc etc. then i procrastinate because here is the LICK of downtime iām allowing myself, here, on my phone. i donāt feel enriched by time spent this way, i mostly feel as if iāve failed to start something and all the content iāve idly glanced at somewhere in my mind half-stuck and not fully retrievable. itās like smeared text. unflavored food. ruffage. it is unengaging yet inescapable. iām not learning iām just seeing everything until nothing is really novel, in a way that feels passive and dull
i want to do things that feel motivated by interest again, not money or deadlines. i donāt want to experience the world on the clock. i want to feel satisfied by curiosity and experimentationĀ
days like this make me feel so small. iām tired and hot and itāll be dark and buggy by the time i get there, but i think i am going to go to the woods and i think the mosquito bites i scratch will be the only proof iām something living in the world today. iāve spent the last few hours on my phone unable to make a decision, i feel under and over-stimulated. i wish i had someone to chat with. i wish i could spend more time alone in ways that were enriching to me. i wish we could all experience the world in ways we were meant toĀ
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