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kylewalker-peters · 1 month
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Gregory Peck in to kill a mockingbird was genuinely such a monumental moment for MANY in their gcse English class. Too late to be an awakening but the first time that man appeared on screen you Knew and Understood in you heart and soul what a beautiful man was
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spacebarbarianweird · 3 months
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After such beautiful headcanons about Noble!Tav I now must ask about Noble High elf!Tav x Astarion
Did I indulge into reading about noble elven families? I absolutely did.
The Isle of Evermeet - the last true elven Kingdom in Faerun created  −17,600 DR during the First Sundering. In the XIV century DR the island dissapared from Toril and many believed it was destroyed. However, the island was just moved to Feywild. In 1480 DR it returned back during the Second Sundering but it dwells in a state of coexistence between Faerun, the Feywild, and Arvandor MORE INFO
Astarion x Noble Elf!Tav
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You are one of Amlaruil Moonflower's many children.
Not too close to the throne, but still the member of the highest nobility.
The wanderlust, so common for young elves, forced you to leave to see the world.
You witnessed the Spellplague and, like many others, thought the Isle was gone along with everything you knew and held dear.
None of the magic portals worked. You were a princess with no kingdom and an elf with no home.
You kept leaving, forgetting everything but your name.
You meet elves like you here and there. But you don't like talking about your royal origin.
No need and no point.
Once you meet Astarion, you can't get rid of the thought you somehow know him.
You are the same age, and there are a few million elves on the Isle but you are sure he isn't from the Isle.
But his face, his surname, and some of his mannerisms are vaguely familiar.
The thing he doesn't remember anything about his past doesn't help.
In your reverie, you search for answers in your long 250 years of life.
Having to see your cruel mother and survive the court intrigues over and over again.
Astarion is bothered by it. He feels like you breach his privacy and you promise not to try it ever again.
But you aren't self-disciplined, and intrusive thoughts drag you through your memories.
Why did Astarion's face look familiar? Who did you think he was?
In the meantime, you travel. You are two elves, you have nowhere to rush.
You help Astarion to reclaim his identity.
He isn't a vampire, he is an elf!
You help him to remember his mother tongue, the True Tongue.
You tell him about the Isle, your royal family and ancestors.
He often mocks you calling you a runaway princess.
"Well, I should be grateful to be turned into a vampire. Otherwise, I would have no chance to approach you, my dear."
"Don't be stupid, we are thiramins. No one would dare to separate us."
That brings him comfort.
Should you die earlier than him, you will reincarnate like all elven souls do.
You will return and you will remember.
You eventually realize that the Isle was returned from the Feywild but what happened to its inhabitants is unclear.
Astarion doesn't want to know anything about it - the one last true kingdom of elves? Where you are a princess? With him, a vampire?
No, absolutely not. He isn't going there.
One day, you enter the reverie and get one of the earliest memories of your life in Faerun,
An elf with long silver curls. A ranger of the deep woods.
Emerald green eyes, pale skin, a grin.
"Dalar Ancunin, at your service, princess," he says in your memories, his voice echoing through the decade.
You remember him. You finally remember him. An elf born from two-half elves, who was blessed and cursed by inheriting his ancestors' features.
"It's funny to be born like that. No one knew what to do with us. So we decided to explore the world on our own and went to Baldur's Gate."
"Us?"
At that moment, Dalar's face darkened.
"We were twins, Astarion and I. He wanted to become a magistrate so he wouldn't have to live in the poverty. And I was too bored with books and studies. We… had an argument. A really bad one. And I left. Twenty years later I decided to reconcile but when I got back I only found his grave."
"I am sorry."
"The grave was empty. My brother wasn't there. And I am still looking for him. I don't know, it's been so long… But I just can't give up on him. Again."
Dalar.
You weren't close friends but you'd been in each other's life for a decade before parting ways. Members of the same adventure guild You suddenly remember his songs and his stories and how he called himself "a bastard elf". How he could literally foster any animals or beast they met on the way.
And he had a pet drake he called Nikym. "Dagger" in Elven.
You return from the reverie and look at Astarion with shocked eyes.
Astarion doesn't want to remember. Too much pain, too much sorrow- it seems like his brain just locked memories of his youth not to let Cazador learn of Dalar.
And you start talking. You try to remember every minute you spend with your old friend. What he liked, what he hated. How you sometimes woke up because Nikym was trying to eat your hair or how Dalar could shoot arrows with a blindfold.
You need to find him. If he is alive, if didn't leave Toril to try to live among the elves.
He must be there. Maybe he settled down somewhere, maybe he started a family.
How many decades will you need to catch his track though?
And Astarion doesn't have anyone else. Dalar said they were all half-elves (except for some long-forgotten ancestors). His family is long-dead.
Once you reached for your old friends they immediately pointed out where to look for Dalar.
"Always adventurer, always a traveler."
Astarion still hesitates, but, before he manages to say "no", you find what you wanted.
"The princess Moonflower in all her runaway glory! What does a royalty do in that wild place in the deep the night?"
You try to find the right words. To explain, to prepare. But Astarion has already stepped forward, staring into his mortal copy in disbelief.
You give them time.
Before Astarion manages to say anything or run away, Dalar Ancunin grabs him and hugs him.
They are different. A mortal and undead, a ranger and a rogue.
But similar at the same time.
You are a bit jealous because you got used to having Astarion all for yourself and now you have to share him with his brother.
But you get used to it. Besides, Dalar is your old friend,though forgotten for many decades.
And the drake, Nykim, accepts you both.
"I remember" Astarion once tells you. "I finally remember everything. My childhood, my youth, my death. My brother was searching for me and I just forgot about his existence."
A decade later, you three find yourself on the seacoast of the Trackless Sea.
Time to go home.
Whatever future you hold, it's there, in the distant Isle of Evermeet.
You notice both brothers are equally anxious. It will be difficult to lie about their origin and one of them is a literal vampire.
But you are adamant - you are in your own right to bring anyone along with you.
Astarion is your true love, your thiramin.
And his brother is his only family.
Both Ancunin brothers are coming with you.
For better or for worse.
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icouldntcareless22 · 1 year
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The Deal
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Summary: She was officially failing in life and most importantly in university! With her grades hanging of the edge of a thread and tutors rejecting her left and right her only option is to make a deal with the devil a.k.a Kim Seungmin.A deal should always be fair. Your grades in exchange for Kim Seungmin's dream girl. Simple?...Right?!
Word Count: 35k
Slight enemies to lovers, idiots to lovers, slow burn, angst, fluff.
No warnings, some foul language.
AN: Finally it's here! Tumblr won't let me post it in one post, so I am forced to divide into two parts. Would you be interested in SKZ x Greek Mythology theme? Hope you enjoy!!!
Part 2
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    "Your tutor requested to be released from his duties"
"Again?!" You cried out, frustrated beyond belief. You started sweating in your seat. That was my 6th one! You thought, running your hands through your hair messing up the soft curls you had tried to make 2 hours or so ago. "Mr Marlow isn't there anything that I can do? Can't I do some extra credit?" You pleaded the professor that stood across you, desperation clear on your face.
   Mr. Marlow was slumped also in defeat in his plush rolling chair. His office was always the epitome of an organized chaos. Heavy books sat on top of his mahogany desk, some opened, some closed. Papers littered the surface, some with angry red notes accompanying them and some others filled with highlighted colors as to remind him of an extra important issue. 
      You always felt grateful that you had been assigned to Mr. Marlow, he may oddly resemble the white rabbit in the Alice in wonderland film personality wise, but he had a good heart and God bless him, he was so patient with you. He was the first teacher to show you such compassion and empathy and to push you to pursue more of your studies. He was an excellent teacher. And he wasn't obligated to sit and listen to you whine about your problems, but he was sitting there and trying to work out a solution with you. With great hesitation he opened his mouth "Maybe if you approached a professional?"
    You signed. "That would be way over my budget" you muttered regretfully. That would mean double the hours only to be left with crumbs. And you couldn't possibly ask your father of this.
     You signed once again and stood up with your bag on your shoulder ready to leave, slightly bowing to the old man before you. He had way more grey hair in the midst of his hair and beard since you had first met him you noticed. You bet that you were responsible for a good chuck of it. " Thank you regardless Mr Marlow. I will try to work it out" You made your way to the door with heavy steps before heading a rushed "Wait!" 
    He stood hurriedly from his chair and walked around the desk towards you, or more specifically towards to the large bookcase that covered his whole wall behind you, and started shuffling through more papers. You watched him, waiting for an explanation to his sudden manic frenzy. When he finally found what he had been searching for, he let out a yelp and turned towards you. "I shouldn't be doing this. I mean- It's not against the rules, but they wouldn't be pleased- Anyway! Y/N-"
    "Is this the part where you tell me you are my father and try to convince me to come to the dark side, professor? Because if it has cookies, let me tell you, I am already sold" you joked.
    Mr Marlow chuckled under his breath but moved on quickly. " This list that contains the names of the top students of our university. They may be of help to you. Try and persuade someone to help you, dear"he said grabbing a pen and scribbling down a note before giving you the piece of paper. A brief look in his smiling eyes and an other to the piece of paper with messy familiar swirlings on it and you were melting.
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    "Thank you, Mr Marl" you smiled gracefully at him and bowed, deeper than last time, before taking the final step outside of his office.
 Now let the games begin.
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 "So let me get this straight.. you will stalk the top three geniuses of the school to convince them to save your sorry ass from failing?" Yuqi provided, rather unhelpfully, in your humble opinion as she continued to stuff her face with her banana yogurt.
  "I am not stalking! I am watching them with an interest" you corrected her sternly. You were no stalker. You were a girl with purpose.
   "Sounds like stalking to me, but whatever floats your boat" she ironically replied. "Who will be your first target?" She said glancing at the instagram page you were snooping through. "Namjoon?"
    "I mean he is a literal genius. Who would be better to teach me than him?" You wondered out loud, fingers continuously scrolling down his page. He seemed nice, a little on the dorky side and smart. Not to mention handsome. "Well wish me luck" you said as you closed your phone and stood up.
     "You are going right now?" She asked, shocked at your standing figure.
     "Well, the semester isn't going to wait for me" you cackled and made your way to the table Kim Namjoon sat.
    It was not your first choice to approach him like this, but he always seemed to be running around doing this and that, which left lunch as the only safe option that didn't made you into a creep (in comparison to approaching him in a bar setting as you had contemplated). But now that you were approaching the group you were nervous, not only you had to ask a very attractive and smart stranger to tutor your failing ass, but you had to-partly- do it in front of his equally attractive friends.
     You heard a lively laugh booming from the table, a young man with a heart shaped smile was the source. You scanned them quickly, going through shades and shades of hair colors, before settling on the ash brown color that you wanted to speak to.
     "Kim Namjoon?" You asked, tone uncertain. Even though you said one name, seven pair of eyes turned to you. Every one more attractive than the next, you though dreamily. You briefly locked gaze with a short male with honey coloured hair and equally honeyed smile before an answer from your desired target caught your attention. "That would be me" a low voice answered you.
     You turned your gaze to the tall male. Board shoulder that enhanced his already tall frame, even thought his oversized tee and lose pants made it difficult to pinpoint, you were sure he was well built. Sand coloured hair, neatly cut, complimented his olive complexion awfully well. Small face, even smaller than yours even though you wouldn't admit it, straight nose and upon inspecting his smile a pair of adorable dimples. Yep, that was Kim Namjoon.
     "Can I talk to you for a minute?" You asked, politely, arms crossed behind you, making sure you were using your customer service smile.
      He looked at you, obviously not recognizing you and then back to his friends that wore wolfish smiles and eagerly nodded at him. "Uhhh..Sure" he replied, not yet sure of your intentions.
      "Come on" you said, leading him away from his friend's prying ears. You ended up a few meters away, standing a bit awkwardly facing each other. You craned your neck to make eye contact with him and decided to bite the bullet. "I know that this" you made a notion between the two of you "is random, but I have a big favor to ask" you started and lowered your gaze, not being able to look up now, you played with your fingers out of nerves. "Umm I know you are really busy, but I need help." You said, finding courage to look him in the eyes. " Truth is... I am failing in math and physics and you are the only one that can help me. I heard you are a genius and I thought that learning from the best is the best strategy." 
      Okay.. that could have gone better,you thought. But flattery and a pretty female face seemed to make him flustered... hopefully enough to agree. He opened and closed his mouth several times, hands raising to stroke his neck in shame and in embarrassment at your rough compliments. "Ohh...Umm.. I don't really know if I am the one that can help you. I am pretty busy-" he started before you cut in.
      "So am I! And I really need this! I wouldn't have asked you otherwise! You won't have to work hard! Just- just when I don't get something maybe you could explain it to me? Please?" You clutched your hands together in front of you, almost giving him puppy eyes. You were desperate and it showed. 
      "I-I don't know if I will be a good teacher but..." He looked uncertain and confused but an easygoing smile made its way onto his face "Sure! If I can help, I guess" he chuckled as he shifted his weight from one foot to another.
      "Thank you! Thank you Namjoon!" You said, particularly jumping up and down from joy. You couldn't believe it! It was so easy! You were going to make it!
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You weren't going to make it.
You were doomed.
Namjoon was a sweetheart and a genius. And how did geniuses speak and explain? Apparently in a language you didn't understand or comprehend.
The gentle giant was true to his word and after you exchanged numbers you started going over the basics. For the record it was difficult to meet up.. Apparently everyone wants a genius in their project, so poor Namjoon was constantly running all around the place trying to fit it all to his hectic schedule. So you took it in a fast pace, trying to absorb as much info as you could and while Namjoon tried to help you (he truly did!) that only ended with frustrated signs and desperate stomps from you. Every word he spoke was like...like it was in an other language! You hit the first wall at physics and that wall extended into the math area and grew into a bigger and bigger wall and ended up like the Great Wall of China, separating your weak academic ass from the man who had an IQ of 148. 
    Sorrowfully you said your last goodbye at Namjoon, who in turn hugged you like the child he now thought you were and told you to call him whatever you needed.
    You signed.. it was already September! How would you be able to lift your grades by February? You couldn't give up though! Your part scholarship depended on it! So you pulled out the now crumbled paper and traced your finger over the second name. 
Kim Hong Joong.
You knew of him and his rowdy crew. Plus a close friend of his, Wooyoung, worked with you. You were on good terms with him, fortunately. He was way too cute for a guy in college you though, easy to talk to and with a breathy laugh, similar to those witchy cartoon characters, you like it though...not only it was contagious, but unique too. You would have to talk to him when you went to the coffee shop later, you decided. For now you slumped on your desk, ready for an exciting lesson on philosophy.
 After a good 3 hours of Aristotle's teaching you made your way to the cafeteria. Yuqi texted you a little while back, saying that her lesson ended early and was with Yuna to the cafeteria. You stood up shrugging on your thrifted university jacket and making your way through the crowd. The weather was perfect this time of the year, still hot enough from the summer heat with a light breeze blowing just enough to refresh you. The whole campus was still green and full of life, causing students to hang around the lawn. While you crossed the campus you catch a glimpse of the mess that consisted of Han Jisung. The short brunette was a ball of energy, that completely exhausted you while on the clock together, but his charm was incomparable. You still couldn't believe it that he had broken a dozen of cups and the manager just left him off the hook. You paused your walking to greet the boy.
   "Y/N! Hi!" He exclaimed, pulling you for a side hug. You smiled at him, greeting politely his friends as well. The brunette boy only stared at you, a single nod your only greeting while the taller of the two, a pretty boy with foxy eyes gave you an adorable dimpled smile, which you returned.
   " Hi! I haven't seen you almost a week." You replied, his absence from work painfully obvious. Thankfully you, at least, had Wooyoung, the funny man making the hours pass easily.
    "Oh yeah! I had to take some days off cause boss didn't match with my uni schedule. The semester barely begun and my professors gave us 3 new projects! To see if we lost our talent over the summer. Who says that?" He cried dramatically, but you were no better than him.
    "I know right?! Math has been beating my ass too" you whined, hosting your bag higher up your shoulder. You exchanged a look that only students who were failing could understand.
     "I get you. Not my best subject as well" he agreed as well.
     You smiled sympathetically and shook your head. "Anyway I got to run! Yuqi and Yuna are waiting for me! See you later Sung" you saluted, threw a last polite smile to your listeners and took the path to the cafeteria. You heard muffled whispers behind you, but you didn't pay much attention as you put your headphones on.
     Soon you were entering the cafeteria through the double glass doors, that overlooked a good chunk of the campus yard. You looked at the crowd trying to find the pair and just as you spotted a bright orange hair color in a space bun up do in the crowd, your front made contact with something solid causing you both to fall down.
     "Ouff!" A yelp escaped you as soon as you made contact with the floor under you. Ouch! You rubbed your aching bum as you checked yourself. Other than your headphones,that fell off (those darned wireless buds! I love you and hate you at the same time!) you were good to go. You lifted your head to see a petit girl, in a similar position to yours, only clutching her pink clad phone in her hands and letting a relieved sign. She lifted her head and-
     "I am so sorry!"
     "I am sorry!" 
   You both blurted at the same time, looked each other and burst laughing. You standed up, extending a hand to the dark haired beauty in front of you. "Sorry! I wasn't watching were I was going. You good?" you apologized as you pulled her up, inspecting her. Her short black skirt let you know that her thin legs were injury free, but you asked nevertheless, making sure.
   She smiled at you and showed her phone. "Nah I am good, only worried about my phone. Don't worry about it! I shouldn't have stood in the middle" she said as she dusted herself off.       
     "I am Lee Soojin" she said, extending her hand. She had glossy black locks framing her doll like face, which consisted of huge onyx eyes, a tiny nose and a set of full lips.Although she was the same height as you, she was thinner, almost fragile looking. She was dressed to the nines, a black skirt, a white fluffy top and loafers with a slight heel. She looked like a dream. Especially in comparison to you who wore flared jeans with a black tee, your outfit completing a pair of double soled black converse and your loyal thrifted university jacket. 
   "L/N Y/N" you said, shaking her hand.
   "I know.Sort of" she laughed a bit awkward in response to your raised brows. She knew you? "I often come by the coffee shop you work in. You get my coffee just right"
   Ohh."Vanilla Latte with one spoonful of sugar?" You asked, her face coming back to you bit by bit.
   "Yeah!"she beamed, unnaturally happy that her barista remembered her face. 
   "Nice to finally.. knowing you? " You joked, cocking your head. "I gotta go now. I will see you at the shop I guess" You said turning to see if Yuqi was still were you last saw her. She was. "Goodbye " you waved, before making your merry way to your table.
   "See you then"She called,waving. 
   As you made your way to your friends,you accidentally locked gazes with a boy who sat on the near table. Why was he looking at you so persistently? But then you noticed his gaze was still nailed to the spot, where your exchange with Soojin have been. You looked over your shoulder seeing Soojin talking with a tall male. Oh, well that made more sense, you snickered and started walking away.
   "Girl!" Yuqi exclaimed seeing you approach. "You okay? You fell on your ass pretty hard." She laughed that throaty laugh of hers, clearly enjoying your suffering.
   "I am glad my suffering and humiliation is funny to you" you murmured as you took a sit across her.
   "Don't pay attention to her, bub. You okay?" Yuna asked. She was always a motherly figure to the group, always asking and caring about you two. 
   "Thank you Yuna. I am fine Yuna" you answered sweetly, not looking to the direction of Yuqi. In response she laughed even harder, mocking me right back. 
   "Did you figure out what to do with your tutor problem?" The orange haired hirl asked as she was playing with the remaining food on her tray.
   "My second line of defense is Kim Hong Joong. I know him, sort of. Wooyoung is friends with him. I will try to get more info from him, I guess" you answered, unsure as you are a spoonful of the food the girls brought you.
   "And the third Kim?"she asked, mirth dancing in her eyes. She found it extremely funny that the top 3 students of the school were Kims'. 
   "Kim Seungmin." You muttered,against your bitten fingernails. Anxiety was not your scene. "I didn't find him on insta. I don't really know anyone who knows him. I will have to snoop around" Yuna swatted your bitten hand away from your mouth. 
   "I can ask some people if you want" suggested Yuqi, in the mist of a bite. You nodded gratefully towards her. Yuna looked between you two, several times before signing "You know you should stop talking like you are members of a mafia gang" she contemplated, finishing the last of her desert. 
   You looked at Yuqi, cocked your head and with one voice you both answered: "No"
   Yuna laughed, raising her hands as if she was admitting defeat, Yuqi and you soon followed.
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   You were on the very edge to being late.
Once again your professor thought that, their lesson was the only thing taking up your time so he thought it would do you good to deepen on the subject. 
  For an extra half hour.
 Which left you with little time to no time to eat, cause queues in the cafeteria were a bitch and hurrying to make your way to your afternoon shift.
   When the coffee shop was on your line of vision, you were finally able to catch your breath. Usually the sight of the small coffee shop that was full of  glass covered walls and potted plants brought you a sense of calm. Today you were on edge though, not only you were running all the way from across campus, but you were going to ask Wooyoung about Kim Hong Joong's number so you can make contact with your second contestant. 
   As soon as you walked through the glass door, the sound of shutters going off greeted you. Your boss's idea to make the place instagramable was the best thing that could happen to her. Cute art on the walls, well placed neon lights, that were not over the top and fit the relaxing vibe of the shop were placed on bare walls, that the costumers could be photographed against. Cute cozy sofas and chairs in pale colors were all over the shop. A grand staircase by the bar lead to the second floor, which was reformed into a studying area for the struggling students. All in all, the shop was an instagram dream, the staff was consisted mostly of cute looking guys and dashing girls (you still couldn't understand how you got the job, you were pretty but those people were on a whole other level) but you wouldn't complain.
    You made your way behind the bar, into the staff room shedding your jacket and your favourite messenger bag and donned your black apron with the log of the shop.  By the time you were out, Wooyoung was leaning against the counter, sweet talking to some girls that were giggling in response. You shook your head and started to make a cup of coffee for yourself, reading yourself for a busy shift. 
    You had barely touched the machine, when you noticed a tall boy waving at you to get your attention. You went to him and started reciting your familiar line: "Hello. What can I get you?"
    He smiled prettily at you and leaned slightly closer so he can speak more quietly "Hello.. Can I order a coffee and maybe you can deliver it to the table?" He asked, scratching the back of his neck, not sure how to get out his inner thoughts.
     "Sure" you answered easily. "What can I get you?"
      "A vanilla latte with one spoonful of sugar please. Can you deliver it to the table by the window? To the girl with the green cardigan. Tell her it's from Eric" you raised your head to the direction the boy pointed and saw Soojin sitting there with a couple of friends you vaguely recognized.
     "Well, Eric...consider me your cupid for the evening. Don't leave until after I give her the drink" You supplied with a crooked grin as you made the coffee. You exited the bar and drink in hand you made your way to the girls.
     "Good evening Soojin. Girls" you greeted, placing the cup in front of her. "This is for you from the gentleman over there" you pointed out the lean form of Eric, that stood rooted in place. He gave an adorably awkward wave and a charming smile and bolted (as confidently as he could) out of the door.
      "You are for sure popular" you joked.
    She politely raised her hands, silently arguing with your statement. "You just got here? Is.. Jisung's.. shift over?"
      "Jisung is the brunette one. The red headed one is Wooyoung. But yes, he is done for the day. And I am just getting started..Yay.." You made sure to plaster a very fake smile to show your.. excitement for the day that is to come. "Anyway, nice seeing you again. I gotta go back now" you said, already walking backwards to your post.
       "Hey Y/N! How it's going?" Wooyoung greeted you now that the coast was clear of beautiful girls, that required his attention.
      "I am good. I wanted to ask you something though... about your friend Hong Joong-"you started to say, but was rudely interrupted.
       "While you are beautiful, he is currently semi-available. He has his sight on this girl-" he started, but you quickly cut him off.
       "Thank you for the unwanted info and for the compliment, but that was not my intention. I actually wanted to know if he is interested in tutoring. I learned that, he is one of the top students. Currently math and physics are making my life a living hell and I thought maybe someone who was on a more...high intellectual level, would be able to help little old me" you finished.
       He stared for bit before answering "Well, I don't know if he have the time, but I'll tell you what. I'll give you his number so you can ask him yourself" he exclaimed, already fishing his phone out of his back pocket.
      "Thank you, Wooyoung! I owe you one!"  You grinded big and wide. Maybe luck would be on your side this time. "How it's going with Somi by the way?" You asked, as you put your phone back to its place under the bar.
       His smile immediately fell and frustration took place. "She hasn't called, texted or anything! I just don't understand! We go out, have fun, we are talking and suddenly, she disappears! Is that normal?" He cried out, hands shooting to his fiery locks, messing them further up.
      "Maybe she doesn't know what she wants yet. Or maybe she hasn't cleared up a previous relationship yet and is hesitant to get involved with you" you shrugged as you leaned back into the wooden surface of the cashier.
     "Well why can't she say so then?! What does she think that I would do?" He clicked his tongue as he cleaned the tools he used to make a coffee. At least he was putting his frustration into good use.
        "Hello!" A voice sounded from behind you and you turned to ask yet again, what the next person would like.
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     You were once again on your way to the coffee shop. You swore that these days the shop saw you more than your own house. It was a sorry excuse of a house really, but it was a house. You couldn't complain, it was cheap rent and a roof over your head. You walked into the shop and immediately you were greeted by a familiar voice "Hello! What would you lik- Oh it's you" the man finished, his voice significantly lower by the end of his sentence.
      "Nice to see you too, Sung" you sassed back, walking to the bar where he usually lounged. "An Americano, please! Is he here?" You inquired as you watched him get to work. The shade he dyed his hair now suited him very well, you thought. Pure black with blue undertones. You had heard several girls gossiping or rather complimenting him on his new appearance. He had let his hair grow a bit longer, not enough to grow a mullet, but enough to ruffle through. Today he donned a white shirt and black skinny jeans with chains, that gave him an edge. He never learned his lesson though, you clicked your tongue, white clothes and making coffee didn't go together. As he turned to you, you noticed a tiny stain on his sleeve. You passed him a bill as you took your coffee.
       "Yeah, he is upstairs" he answered as he passed your bill right back to you, winking.
        "Thank you love" you said, winking back and making your way upstairs. For a Wednesday afternoon the second floor was understandable empty, especially at the beginning of the semester. That's why you immediately knew who was the party who awaited you. You crossed the floor and took the opposite seat. "Hong Joong, right?"
        "Yes. Y/N?" He asked you, hands around his cappuccino. He had a small face, his straight slim nose was a masterpiece you were jealous of and pared with a nice set of lips, he seemed adorable. What greatly contrasted his sweet face was his wild half white half black hair, that was styled into a mullet with the side chopped off. Along with his hair, his multiple piercings gave off a more bad boy vibe that you were used to.
        "Yeah thank you so much that you agreed to come. Wooyoung mentioned your.. hectic schedule." You laughed the awkwardness off. 
       "Don't mention it! I came to talk to you, but I don't know if I can help you. I am on my final year and this will get crazy pretty soon." He said, grimacing throughout every word. He threw an apologetic smile towards you, but you cutt him off before he could continue.
        "Yeah I know! I know and I don't want to pressure you! But I really need help.. I really can't afford to fail.. I can be available whenever  you are. If you tell me in advance, I can schedule it with my manager so my shifts won't be a problem." you breathed, suddenly dropping out was becoming a very real problem. You never thought that you would be so close to failing and doing so was not an option.
       "Well then..okay. I will try to help you. But just so you know things will be difficult. Mainly because my hours can be weird-"
       "I am fine with that! Just-...Thank you" you finished, a grateful smile spreading across your face.
       "How about we start now?" He suggested with an oh-so-innocent smile on his face. 
       "Now now? Well I have only my math notebook with me.."you trailed.
       "Excellent! I can see where do you get stuck then!"
       "Yes! Thank you Hong Joong!"
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        "..And then she tried to call your grandma out!" He cried out onto the speaker 
        You laughed loudly at that. "Did she beat this granny up?" You questioned, knowing oh so well your grandma's fiery temper.
      "They almost dueled on the supermarket with the carts!" He giggled, recalling the scene.
      "Damn! I wish I was there to see her!" You cheered gleefully. You had missed your home.
         "Aahh you should have seen her! Now that you said this..when are you coming home?? Your grandparents are talking my ear off! They want to see you! And so do I?You know better than this!" He laughed that full belly laugh of his. 
     "I will come home for Christmas daddy. I promise!" You oathed. 
    "Can't you miss one weekend?" He asked, defeat evident on his tone. You couldn't miss your shifts, but he didn't have to know that. 
  "I will be there before you even know it, old man!" You sassed, distracting him. 
 "Yeah, right " he scoffed into the line.
You couldn't go now. Not when everything was going great!
     Everything, for once, was going in your way! You and Hoonie were on spectacular terms when it came on understanding, he explained everything so well, that it was practically impossible not to get it! Your physics professor ,after seeing your newfound effort in her class and after a particular talk with Mr. Marlow, agreed to give you an extra project, so you can get some much needed credit.
     You were running around double the time you were used to, but it was worth it. Many times Hong Joong would finish particularly late, so he would come over to teach you and you would study well into the early hours of the morning, but you were content. You were good on your house payments, even making something extra to send to your dad. He was on house installments that were kicking his ass and together with your grandparents he made it through, but with little to spare. 
     Your phone vibrated as you spoke. You checked it out seeing the familiar Instagram name of Hong Joong."Yes yes dad! I gotta go now. I love you" 
        "-ve you too " you vaguely heard him call out, before you hung up. A message from Hong Joong made you freeze. 
We should talk.
That's all it said. You quickly unlocked your phone, searching for his number and called.
         "Hey Hong Joong! I saw your message.. Is everything okay?"you inquired, plopping down your bed. You should reverse it back to the couch setting, since you expected the man that you were currently on the phone with, you mentally noted.
         "Yeah, but I have some bad news. I will tell you in person. We have a session in 2 hours right?" He asked, absentmindedly as he was shuffling through papers. He was making so much noise you could barely hear him.
        "Yeah, I will be expecting you Hoonie"you said as you nervously bounced on your bed.
       "Do a recap, okay? I will test you on the last four chapters" More shuffling was heard from the other end of the line. 
       "Okay.. I have the papers you were asking for ready, by the way. I asked my friend" you mumbled, teeth already working on your ruined nails.
       "Thank you Y/Nie! I won't be long" he chanted, his voice more distant now.
        "Ok! Byee!" you called. You shouldn't panic, maybe he wanted to tell you about a problem he had found on your worksheet, you reasoned. It didn't have to be anything bad. You decided to distract yourself, you had chores to do and a review to complete before Hong Joong arrived. Get up, you said to yourself. Don't think about it.
         You pulled yourself up and started collecting your fallen clothes, that you had scattered around in your try to get to your lecture on time this morning. You should go to the laundry mat later, you noted. The pots, that were left on the sink yesterday evening, were starting to smell so you donned your apron and quickly started cleaning the kitchen as well. An hour passed by, before you settled on your old but comfy grey couch-bed to study per request of Hong Joong. Math were starting to get easier as you went by, but they were still a pain to deal with.
    Not much time passed, or so you thought, before you heard a knock. You looked at your clock to see it was six o'clock already.
        You stretched over the sofa to reach the doorknob, turning slightly to let Jong Joong in.
      "You know you shouldn't open the door like that. What if I was a stranger trying to rob you?" He said as he passed the threshold, already hand in his backpack to get out his books. 
       "If someone came in and saw me like this, he wouldn't tried to rob me, he would pity me so much that he would even give me pocket money' you said, eyebrows lifting as you watched him spread books upon books on your coffee table and on your floor. 
      "Ha ha" he ironically said. "Are you ready?" 
      "What was that you wanted to tell me?" You wondered.
      He hesitated, but eventually he said "Let's study first ..I will tell you after." Do you studied meticulously for the next hour or so. And when you thought the torture had finished, you were in for an equal bad time.
      "What?!"you incrediously exclaimed, shocked by the news. "Noo!" you shouted in despair. 
      "I am sorry. We are only a month in and I couldn't keep up." He admitted regretfully.
      "No...this isn't your fault Hoonie. I had known that you would be burdened eventually. Your final year is beating your ass, you should do your best to concentrate" you admitted, head lowering. Despite your words of encouragement, you felt as someone was destroying your carefully build house of cards.
       "Thanks for understanding. And if it comforts you are doing much better already!" He tried to cheer you up, but a look on your face was enough to shut him up. "Do you have a backup plan?" He asked you, concerned.
        "I have one more person, that was recommended to me. But I don't know him so I have to look him up. I hope that he is accepting "you signed, checking your phone. "Hey, do you have plans right now? Yuqi and Yuna are coming for a movie night" 
        "I have plans with Yunho and Mingi, but I appreciate the offer. Good night, Y/N!"
        You smiled and waved him goodbye. You would have to study twice as hard now. It was true, that you were getting better. Physics, with a little more effort, would be doable. Math on the other hand...
         You opened your phone, entering Instagram. You tapped on the search bar and typed Kim Seungmin. But no results came.. well it came up with several names and faces, but none of them was connected to your university or had common friends with you.. How the hell you were supposed to find him? You searched on Facebook, on Viber too.. N.O.T.H.I.N.G! Was the dude a ghost or something?
       A knock on your door pulled you out of your daydream. You recognized the loud voices and the frequent giggles, so once again you opened the door without checking. 
       "Babyy~" arms wrapped around you and the smell of peaches filled your senses. Yuqi rocked you in her arms, quite strongly, for such a petite figure. "How was your lesson with Joong?" She asked as she released you and Yuna made her way into your small home, carrying a large pizza.
         "Hoonie was wonderful, but that was our last lesson" you wailed. Wiping fake tears, you continued "He got assigned to two new projects and his professor suggested him for a possible internship. I mean, I am happy for him. I am just worried." You ranted as you got up.
        You made your way to your fridge and took out a half empty bottle of rose wine, that you kept especially for movie nights. You grabbed 3 glasses and returned to the girls that were already opening the bed. You passed each of them a glass and took a sit on the head of the bed.
         "So now what?" Yuna asked as she took her first bite of her pizza.
         "I tried searching for Kim Seungmin on insta, on facebook, on everything! But I came up empty...I will try some more and if I can't find him...I will just do whatever I can on my own." Yuna's hand rubbed soothing circles on your back. You looked up only to find their concerned gazes focused on you.  "Hey don't look at me like that! Come on! Let's forget about it and eat! On which episode we paused last?"
         "The 12th! Finally! I was waiting the whole week for this!" Yuna cheered "Do you know that, they will make a second season?"
         "As they should. Alchemy of souls is a masterpiece! I would watch 10 more seasons!" 
         As the tittle song rolled in, all of you fell quiet and let the amazing drama pull you in.
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    "Y/N!!!"
  A piercing scream in the form of your name echoed inside the coffee shop. Some customers were startled, some were plain staring at the hurricane,that was Yuqi. 
       You shushed her warningly and turned with a very fake smile to the customer in front of you. The guy gave you an understanding look, took his coffee and left you with the loud girl. 
     "You'll never guess! You owe me! You owe me!" She was literally rocking on her heels, her hands clasped together and looking at you adorably excited. "So about the thing with your third Kim. I asked Lucas, who asked Yuta, who knew that Ten and Minho are friends, that Minho is friends with Seungmin. But guess who Minho and Seungmin are friends with?!" She finished without a breath and left you staring at her. 
       You blinked twice. "You should have become a rapper, not a linguist" you amazed. "And also... what?"
        "Girl! Focus! Kim Seungmin! The target! We know who he is!" She exclaimed, her excitement peaking again. "Kim Seungmin. Second year like us. Science department, dental care. Tall, brunette, glasses. He doesn't really have a large friend group. He is close with Minho, who I mentioned earlier and guess who else?!"
        "Who?" you asked, looking at her rather dumply. 
        Not caring about you not catching up, she exclaimed a name you didn't expect. "Han Jisung!" 
        That startled you out of your shock. "My Jisung?" You questioned, pointing at the culprit who was cheerily cleaning up the station. The only response you received was a fierce nod from her. Luck was smiling at you again. So you took casual but calculated steps towards the boy, who had his back turned to you. 
         "Jisung! My man! How are you?" you squealed as you placed your hands around him, successfully capturing him. He turned around with a smile, not having a better sense to start running away. 
         "When we last talked..you know 7 minutes ago..I was well."he laughed as he wiped his hands on the only dry towel we kept in our station. 
           "I have heard you are friends with Lee Minho and Kim Seungmin.."you started, not really knowing how to tell him but a voice stopped you on your tracks.
           "What would you like to know about me?" A smug voice asked from the counter. You turned and saw a new presence next to an awkward Yuqi. The new arrival was a little taller than Yuqi, brown locks,almost honey colored, were framing his slim face. His eyes were up turned, feline like and they were watching your every move with intelligent and playfulness. Like a true cat. His lips were slightly up turned as well, giving you the impression that he was silently laughing at you. 
      "Who are you?" you asked as you approached the cashier where he was standing, not knowing better yourself. 
       Eyebrows raised and smug smile intact. "I am Lee Minho. I heard you talking about me." he returned as he tapped his fingers against the counter. 
        "Oh!" you said, finally understanding. "Actually I was interested in your friend-" 
        "Seungmin!"
        "Seungmin!"
   Two voices cut the air, equally shocked. You looked both at the stranger by the cashier and your coworker in wonder. Their smiles threaten to break off their faces, eyes widened with pleasant surprise. Oh! They misunderstood you. "No! No! It's not what you are thinking! I actually am searching for a tutor and I was told he was on top of the academic list. But I can't find him anywhere" 
       "Ahh.." 
       "Ahh.." 
    In union they let out an equally disappointed sign, making you let out an amused huff. 
       "It's a shame tho...I think you would suit each other.."murmured Jisung, tousling his hair gently. 
        "You could give him a run for his money. From what Jisung told me about you." Minho pleasantly hummed.
         You turned to face your friend, eyes squinted and face accusing. He immediately raised his hands and denied any guilt. The rest of your company let out laughs at the comical scene. 
          "But jokes aside. Our Seungminnie is a little... emotionally constipated. Yeah, let's say that." Minho explained as he scanned the menu now. Yuqi was silent by his side, eyeing between you and him. "Other than that, he is an lovable idiot"
        He eventually ordered to Jisung, who started making the drink right away. "What do you mean by that?"you asked. 
        "Well he is rather reserved and he is the no bullshit type of guy. He will not be likely to accept tutoring you." 
        Wonderful. That was exactly what you didn't want to hear.
        Well you hoped you could have to change that. 
    You turned to him, with a hint of a smile and asked him.
      "Can you tell me where I can find him?"
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      After your short talk with Minho and Jisung, you stalked Kim Seungmin. 
      You and Yuqi were the main agents, that were running all over the place. The first time you caught a glimpse of him with Minho and Jisung at the courtyard, chilling leisurely. In contrast to what Minho told you, he seemed lovely, cute smile and animated talking from what you saw. You spotted him going to class, thankfully your hours matched, so you had an eye on him. You even saw him at the coffee shop a time or two, though he never stayed. 
     From what you gathered he was a reserved guy, just as Minho said. He didn't really talk to many people, he made a funny comment or two, but then he was out of sight. You currently were on the cafeteria, with Yuna and Ryunjin by your side, watching him from afar. He was sitting with a black haired boy you didn't know, he looked quite young though (probably younger than you two)  and was constantly glancing somewhere. You tried to follow his gaze, but you couldn't pint point where it landed every time. Something in your gut told you to pay attention though, as if this could be the solution to your problems. 
And you always trusted your gut.
       So the gazes continued. He was watching someone and you were watching him. Just as you were growing tired of this and was beginning to quit your whole detective game, his gaze shifted. The person he was watching was moving towards the exit. So you snapped your gaze at the door and there they stood, in all their glory against the sunlight that burst through the glass walls. As fair as the snow white herself. You turned your gaze towards Seungmin again, watching him ogle Lee Soojin, like an idiot in love and a smile made itself known in your face. 
      You had a plan.
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    After careful examination, or detective work as Yuqi had affectionate calling it, you finally had confirmed your hatch. 
    A little more stalking was required, but along with the help you received from your girls, it was easy as a piece of cake. 
    A little comments here and there in an attempt to make Jisung spill some beans, which worked wonderfully and left him in a stupor (you made yourself a mental note not to trust him with anything personal again), and your plan was set.
    It was a little bit of a stretch, to think that he would agree to help you just so he can get a girlfriend, but you had no options left. Math was kicking your ass again and alone you were struggling, it was like you were drowning and you were trying to paddle your way through.
    You just needed a lifeline that would get you through. Just for the upcoming exams. So determinately you lifted your chin and made your way to the library.      
         You hadn't made it a habit to visit the library. You hadn't had the time either. 
You stood outside for a beat, gathering your wits. The building was tall and imposing, making you even more hesitant to go in. But you had to brave it, you had to fake it till you make it.
   You took one big breath and entered. The three floor building seemed even bigger on the inside. Old wood, that was a miracle that still held, was everywhere and the smell of old books surrounded the place. Your eyes ranked over the multiple desks, that held many students. No, not him. Him neither. No. And here he was. Your eyes found him.
    He was there, just like Minho said he would. He was taller than you expected. And more handsome. Soft brown locks that were cut into a neat haircut fell just above his eyes. Glasses stood high on his straight nose, hiding the exact color of his eyes due to the light hitting on them, but if your own eyes didn't deceive you you would swear that they were a dark brown, maybe even onyx like. He wore a serious expression, his mouth pressed into a thin line. The oversized white tee he wore, along with the black cargo pants didn't do wonders on his figure but he sure looked comfy in them. He also looked very concentrated and you felt bad to break it off, but not bad enough not to do it. 
       You criss crossed between the tables and unsuspecting students and plopped down on the opposite seat. He briefly looked up from his laptop, but upon seeing your unfamiliar face, he soon returned his gaze at the screen in front of him. 
      "Hi, you're Kim Seungmin, right?" You slowly asked, testing the waters. When the words left your mouth, he slowly looked up and met my gaze. He seemed unsure of what my deal was and not really keen on finding out. 
     "Yes, that would be me" he said, not offering any other information or asking for your own name, for that fact. His face stayed the same as when he was reading. 
     Great.. from what it seems, this was the default.
     "Since you didn't ask. Hi, my name is Y/N and I am here to propose a deal to you." You said, bringing your hands on the table and waving them together. He didn't say anything just made himself more comfortable on the chair and his figure slouching . 
      "I am on the verge of failing my math class and I need help. Your help to be exact." He crossed his arms and leaned back further. No emotion yet on his face, a subtle raise of his eyebrow was the only answer you got, something similar to a disbelieving scoff leaving him, he seemed like he was mocking you. But you didn't know if you were imagining things, just to fill that void in his facade. Maybe if you stroked his ego? "They said to come to you and that you were one of the top three students of the school" you said putting your chin on top of hands, smile still intact. Be pleasant and nice was your only option. Smile and waved boys, just smile and wave.
        He leaned forward, mimicking your posture. His hands were long and elegant you noticed, like that of a piano player. "Thank you for the.. preference. But I will have to decline" he said with a grimace that some would call a smile. You knew better.
       "But you didn't let me finish. It has come to my knowledge that you like Lee Soojin" you said, a smile making it's way on your face.             Finally, a spark of emotion! His  eyes momentarily widened and his mouth fell slightly open before he straightened his expression, he immediately turned his head right and left and he leaned closer to you, glaring intensely. You grinned even wider at the action, a crack in his armor was all you needed.
     He continued glaring at you for a moment, clearly contemplating if killing you was the safest option, but eventually he fell back against his chair, not speaking a word.
     "I can help you get together with her. I saw you watching her from a far. I happened to know her, she is a regular to the cafe I work at" you begun before he could open his mouth.
          His face didn't change much, now annoyance was a little more prominent, but the emptiness still ruled over his face.  "Unfortunately, I will not be helping you as I have my own issues and I believe the second statement is none of your business. I wish I could say that it was a pleasure meeting you but I avoid lying. Have a good day" he said, utterly dismissing you. He turned back to his laptop, leisurely fixing his glasses, not giving you an other lick of attention.
 Well that went exactly as they warned you. When Minho said emotionally constipated, you didn't think they really meant it. Even though you wanted to grab him by his shoulders and shake him, you couldn't force him to accept. You had played your cards and lost. As you would probably lose your scholarship..
            You looked at him for a moment, then collected your stuff from the chair you had pushed them into and stood "If you change your mind, you will find me at the coffee shop by the uni. You know the one Soojin goes. Have a good day "you said, almost giggling to the look he threw you, at the mention of the girl's name. You gave him a salute and turned walking away so you can cry away your day in peace.
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       Despite you thinking that the promise of a girlfriend would be enough, mister Kim Seungmin proved you wrong and didn't agree to your offer. So you were left struggling alone just shy of October. To your surprise and utter delight of Mr. Marlow, you were decent enough in physics now. Your physic proff was moved by your struggle and impressed by your newfound knowledge so she agreed to give you a couple of projects, in order to make up for the lost grades. It was a real pain in the ass to balance your university life, along with work and the extra hours of studying that you put in to catch up, but at least you were afloat..for now. 
      And despite of denying your deal you saw more and more of Kim Seungmin. First it was at the cafeteria, him gazing discreetly at her and you gazing at them. Once or twice, your eyes would meet and you would raise your eyebrow at him, secretly judging. He would answer with a fiery look and squinting eyes back at you.
  You would meet him at campus were he would simply hangout with his friends. You had repeatedly greeted them, asking the usual 'how are you' and 'are you good', both Jisung and Minho had answered you (your coworker bubbly as ever and Minho albeit with less enthusiasm but not unfriendly), but Seungmin just stared you emptily. You swore he only had two emotions, emptiness and aggression. If he had more.. well you had yet to see them. 
     The third place he frequent went in was no other than your workplace. He collected the info you gave him, the sneaky bastard, and used it without you reaping the benefits. He showed up just a week after your meet up. As Minho's friend he had visited the place before and sure, he could have grabbed a casual pick-me-up, but he had never sat down on the cafe. One day though, he rolled up in a casual sky blue hoodie and a pair of jeans with his own trusted bad on his shoulders. A cute pair of glasses decorated his face and his hair, even messy, had a certain charm.
    Such a waste of good looks, you thought. His face upon seeing you behind the bar was comical to say the least. He was pretty neutral before entering, a calming aura around him but when he saw you, his lips pressed together in a grimace and a cold demeanor met you. You had smiled though and took his order, mentally scoffing. A black Americano. How unoriginal. 
     He had came up empty that day, as Soojin hadn't shown up. His next try was successful, not only he had manage to nail the time the girl came ,but also managed to secure a spot near her table. His subtle heart eyes made you want to puke. 
     His third time though was your favourite. Soojin was by her usual corner, but she was not alone this time. Eric was by her side in all his blonde glory, making the girl giggle and blush so hard. Of course Mr Kim Seungmin was shooting lazer from his eyes, face empty and eyes filled with the promise of murder. It was a delightful thing.
        Two weeks flew by and your panicked began to rise. A typical Wednesday and you were staring blankly at the entrance, wondering if a future as a barista was the only option left for you. Your train of thought was rudely interrupted by a tall figure getting all up in your face. A tall brown haired menace.
   As the days flew by your polite smiles turned into sarcasm filled giggles and a pressing desire to annoy the fuck out of his majesty, the genius. So you looked up to meet his eyes, met with the usual picture of him frowning down at you. 
       "Can I help you?" You asked monotone, already moving away to prepare his order. He never tried anything else besides his bland americano. 
        He didn't move, only looked at you decisively. He leaned over the counter as much as he could "I don't want coffee. I want to talk to you" You stared at him. Did you want to be rude and deny? He deserved it, but that would require your downfall so you swallowed your pride and nodded.
       You quickly told  Shushua you would be a minute and leaded Seungmin into a quiet corner of the shop. You sat down and the staring match began. 
     You knew this, this was a war of nerves. As a business major you knew he wanted the deal you presented, but he was stubborn enough not to begin the discussion. " You thought about my proposal?" You probed gently.
      After a brief hesitation he nodded and finally spoke. "I would be willing to help you" he stated simply. He was truly a man of few words. You hoped that didn't seep through to his teaching. 
       "Wonderful!" You cheered, clapping once in satisfaction and leaning back to your plush chair. " When can you start? I am in immediate need of attention" you joked, just to see him squirm. He didn't disappoint as he lightly shifted his weight on the comfortable couch he sat. 
        "I don't work.. so we can follow your program" he stated dismissively. "Where do you lack?" He seemed more comfortable focusing his attention on your academic problem, than his unrequited crush. Cute, you thought.
       "Math is my main problem. I fixed my physics grade enough to pass through this semester. Maybe a lesson or two in exam season, if you are kind enough." You listed, resting your head in your hand. You should sound dismissive and aloof and play your cards right this time. 
      "Okay we can work on that.." he trailed off, not knowing how to get on with the conversation.
       "You should open an Instagram page" you suddenly said. He needed the exposure you had decided. He had the looks, he was smart and if we worked on his manners.. he could get Soojin.
        He scoffed, right back at his usual self. "And why would I do that?" He asked, now that you knew him a little, his voice filled with disbelief and irony.
       "So you can show off your good looks to Soojin obviously. From my point of you this is the only thing you have going on" you stated, smirking. His relaxed, albeit a little uncomfortable, pose tensed. "It's adorable how tense you get when I mention her" you teased, lips curling a little, not able to resist. You had to ask. "What made you change your mind?"
    "I thought about it. That's it"  You looked at him. His jaw was clenched, his posture still tense and he was looking you straight in the eyes, almost as if he was daring you to say it.
   "Are you sure? Are you sure that someone didn't help in changing your mind? Like someone trying to get your girl. Someone named...Eric?" you waved your fingers together and placed your chin lightly on them. From the way his body tensed even more, his mouth was pressed into a thin line, fully concealing his full lips and the lightly squinting of his eyes, you hit bulls eye. 
      "Well.. appearance wise, I don't have a lot to fix. Personality wise though..we could do so much better." You innocently smile. "Anyway she is on social a lot, she often comes to take photos here, she even followed me. The first step we have to make is her acknowledging you. So genius boy... When are you free?" 
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     His way of teaching is as insufferable as he is you soon learned.
     You had agreed to meet at the library. The tall building served as an excellent place as he wasn't keen on visiting your house. It was fine by you, you weren't thrilled about having him in your apartment as well.
       The first thing he did was a through  exploration of your knowledge. And then, the torture began. Equations, problems, types... And a good chunk of it, you failed to get.
     "You must be kidding! Even the professor doesn't give us that much homework!" You dramatically yelled, earning a few looks from the people around you and a glare from your companion.
     "If you want to improve, this is the appropriate amount. It's truly remarkable how much you don't understand" he noted as he started gathering his books, placing them neatly in a navy blue backpack. You were amazed at capability of his backpack. You could probably fit yourself in there, if you tried.
     "I am a marketing major! I don't need to know these things!" You cried out, more quietly this time, no less dramatic though, desperation coloring your voice. 
      "You are in marketing?" He asked, taken aback. You were crossing the entrance of the library and stood there for a moment. Should you be offended by his surprise?
      "Yeah, why the surprise? What you thought I would be?" You rocked on your heel, craning your neck to look at him. 
       "Something more dramatic. Performing arts, perhaps" he replied. Well... you could give him that. You could be a total drama queen when you wanted.
       "I will inform you, that I am excellent at what I do. Point proven by the fact you are here. I advertised my deal in an appealing way, you weighted your options and you took mine." You said, trying to bite back the smile you could feel surfacing. He grimaced at your wording, not being able to deny the truth.
        "Whatever." He said as he began to walk to a direction that you had not in mind. So you reached for his precious backpack and pulled him towards you. He lightly stumbled, but regained his footing quickly and turned to you, eyebrows raised and mouth pulled tight together. "What?"
        You smiled up at him. "I thought our deal should be fair. After our lessons, it will be your turn. So today we are going to the cafe!" You pulled once again, at his sleeve this time and much to your surprise he followed you without complains.
     You let him go and walked backwards so you can face him "Soojin visits the cafe regularly. But Fridays are a must for her. Her lecture is done at two, so she eats at the cafeteria and she usually comes around 3ish"
      "You know too much for someone who is simply her barista" he noted, eyes fleeting at the road behind you and refocusing on your face. You shrugged nonchalantly.
      "You would be surprised at what I know " you dismissed. You turned to walk normally and adjusted your brown messenger bag on your shoulder. You should try using a backpack as well, you adored the bag but the weight was starting to hurt your shoulder, especially with the weight of the extra books. "After going to the cafe, we are going to have a photoshoot!"    
He looked at me from the side like I had grown a second head and shook his head."No"        
         "Yep"        
         "No"      
         "Yep!"   
         "No!" He raised his voice for once matching your tone, but quickly he cleared his throat and said "I am not doing it"     You threw a smile over your shoulder and opened the door to the cafe you had reached. People littered a few tables, here and there, but a calmness ruled over, a calmness that your loud coworker disturbed with over hyper 
tunes.
 His bright red hair served just as an additional distraction from the comfy atmosphere as it caught the light from the way he moved all over the place from behind the bar. You smiled and you made your way to him. You didn't turn to check, but you felt Seungmin following silently behind you.
     "Wooyoung!" You exclaimed, successfully capturing his attention. You dramatically threw yourself over the counter top and whined for coffee. 
       "Hello to you too!"he giggled and threw a polite smile over your shoulder to the giant behind you "Hello!" He said, receiving a nod from Seungmin and turned back to you "How was your lesson?" He asked as he showed his back to you, starting to make the precious drink you desired.
      "Awful" you and Seungmin answered as one. The 2 hour session clearly weighted down both of you. "And a black americano as well, Woo" you added, reaching into your bag to pull out your wallet. 
        A hand fell on top of yours stopping you and you turned towards the boy, a question in your eyes. He shook his head and answered "You don't have to buy me coffee"
     "You are helping basically for free. A coffee isn't much" you cheered back. Giving your card to a awaiting Wooyoung, he passed it over the machine quickly before giving it back. 
     "Were are you heading now?" He asked as he prompted his head on the counter. 
      "We were thinking about taking a walk in the park near by. You know... the one with the garden" you absentmindedly returned as you scanned the place, not telling him that it was in fact Seungmin that informed you about its existence, mere minutes before. 
     And score. At the far away corner sat a certain snow white. Target required "Woo ,I will talk to you later. We are still on for Sunday right?" You threw, getting a response you didn't pay any attention to and strode towards your prey. A tug on your arm halted you, a grim Seungmin shaking his head greeted you, but you promptly ignored his whines and mouthed a 'come on'. You reached the table rather quickly and called "Soojin! What is my favorite customer doing?!" 
       The brunette turned with a smile on her face "Favorite customer huh? You say that to everyone" she teased you, good natured.
      "Pss no!.. Only on regulars" you commented, giving her a wink, which made her let out a quiet giggle, before her gaze shifted behind me.. bingo. You also threw a look to the boy that stood behind you, almost as if he was hiding behind his mom. "That's my new tutor, Kim Seungmin. He really saved me. This is Lee Soojin, she comes by often so I guess you will be seeing each other" you finished, turning your body sideways so more of Seungmin could be shown. No that you could hide him, you snorted. 
        "Nice to meet you" she showed a bright welcoming smile at him, that quite literally made him shake. You couldn't blame him through, if you had been in his shoes, you would have fell on your knees too. 
        "You too" he quietly said, looking at the table and avoiding eye contact at all means. You looked at him, trying to control your laughter.
       "Well.. we have to get going! But I will see you around "you waved, throwing a smile at the rest of her group and tugged your tutor along with you.
   You waited until you two were no longer visible throughout the windows and turned to him, hands behind your back and your foot awkwardly scratching the ground and said in a manly voice that in no way resembles the one you mocked. "Y-You t-too" you mumbled, looking at him from underneath your lashes.        His face was comical. His jaw was clenched hard and his ears were an adorable shade of red. "Shut up" he said, looking everywhere else but you. 
       "Come on! Let's get you your photos, doc"
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      The Instagram business went well. The  park was a lovely place to get the photos you needed, even with your uncooperative model. His friends cheered and howled, welcoming him to the civilized world. Two days later, your first story starring him at the library (unknown to him) with the caption: 'study session with @kim_seungmin' had  earned him a follow from The Lee Soojin.               Instagram has became your main form of communication as well, it started with you sending memes that reminded you of him, mainly Squidward memes, and proceed with him spamming you with math questions. A look in your notifications was truly a nightmare now. You learned that the boy was more on the grumpy side, but had always had good intentions. Minho had let it slip that, he had an alarm on his phone especially to remind him to send you your insta-homework. You also discovered that he also shared a great love for kdramas, similar to your own. Contrary to the first meeting where he uttered only a couple of words, he spoke more comfortably now, not less savage but you could usually find him in a conversationable mood. Your quick tongue and his unbothered nature made you a interesting duo. And a duo that always had a target. Most often than not, poor Jisung had the short stick on this deal. 
         October was nearly over and you were excelling. Seungmin, on the other side, was not making so much progress with Soojin. Sure.. now he was talking a little bit with her in the coffee shop, when their tables were near.      And sure, they were exchanging likes on insta, but was that enough? On top of that, Eric was still regularly hanging around Soojin and that was making you uneasy. What if Seungmin decided to call the deal off, if they got together? What would happen to you then?
      That evening, you were meeting up with the girls so you reluctantly you picked yourself up and headed to your bathroom to get ready. Your dim lighting complimented your tired face. Or rather it didn't. It was a few weeks of that feverish schedule and you were begging to tire, but you shook yourself. 
   Put on some concealer and your best jeans, you said to yourself and soon enough you were braving the cold, in order to get some alcohol in you. 
          As soon as you entered the local bar, you took a look around you. Almost all of the booths were full, the jocks that were by the pool tables were howling loudly and the bar was half full of people trying to get their poisons. From the corner of your eye, you saw a sudden movement. Yuqi was waving at you, as Ryunjin and Yuna were giggling over who knows what number cocktails of the night. You broke out a smile and made your way over to them, avoiding busy waiters and drunk bodies. You took a seat in the enormous red couch by Yuqi and greeted the others. 
         "Won't Lisa and Rosie be joining us?" You asked, as you took a hold of the menu, already knowing you would order your usual Daquiri, but scanning it nonetheless. 
       "Nah, Lisa is doing two solos at the school festival and is freaking out. Rosie..is mental support, I guess" Ryunjin informed you as she sipped on her drink. You nodded and took a look around the bar. 
     Your waiter was nowhere on sight. But you understood, if you worked at a place like this you wouldn't be able to keep up with everyone either. But you did catch a quick glimpse of a particular sassy brunette on the dance floor. Minho did know how to have fun, that was certain by the smiles of his companions and the way they seemed to want to get closer to him. You wondered if your grumpy tutor lurked somewhere near. But a quick look at the place revealed a happy Jisung with two anonymous blondes by his side. You made a mental note to stop by and greet them later. 
        "What are we looking at?" A voice whispered, rather loudly, in your ear. You turned to Yuqi, grimacing, but answering all the same.
        "I spotted Minho on the dance floor and I was wondering if Seungmin was here" you truthfully replied. 
         She craned her neck to catch a glimpse of Minho as well. She looked at him way more than the respectable time, so you leaned in and tapped at her chin, a knowing look on your face. She chuckled but didn't deny anything. "You know for someone who you described as emotionally constipated, you get rather along with him" 
      You shrugged. "He was a little...shy in the beginning. All glares and moody. Now he is just... fun to tease" you huffed as you remembered him speaking so fast, almost rapping, when you told him that you hadn't completed a couple of exercises or him going red on the face from frustration when you couldn't understand a solution. "My biggest problem now is that he can't talk to Soojin!" Your deal was a known fact among your friends, that you have swore to secrecy. "He is cute, he is smart, once you get over the first shock he is pleasant to be around! Why he can't score a date with her?!" You wailed, dramatically flopping on the table. 
      "You should keep him to yourself, if he is that great" Yuna proposed, laughing as soon as you gave her the stink eye.
      "Why don't you tell him to come to the festival? Soojin is performing. He can come by the backstage, compliment her a little. Oh! Oh! Maybe ask her to go to a little walk around the festival!!" Ryunjin clapped, excited about her idea. 
       It wasn't so bad. Rather it was a rather good idea.
       "My sweet sweet genius!" You proclaimed, throwing your hands up in the air. "That's it!"
      As if the universe agreed and decided to reward you, your waiter appeared. So with a drink in your near future and a good plan to match, you enjoyed the rest of your evening. 
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   "I am just saying, that you could be a lot more productive if instead of going out, you studied" He said, as he slid your red highlighted notebook back to you. 
     "You say that as if I am out everyday! I went out a Friday night to have a drink! Kill me!" You sassed as he signed and turned to his own workload.
     A moment passed and then two.
    You looked over at him under your lashes, biting your lips. Now it was just as good as any time you guessed. "Seungmin" you whispered. 
      Upon hearing the quiet call of his name he turned his head towards you. "You solved it?" He leaned closer only to see the math problem in front of you half solved and you looking at him. "Come on. We have done this. I am not helping you. Think again and solve it" he said almost soullessly, returning to his own homework. 
        "No no. I wanted to ask you something" you said, fumbling with your pen. "You.. haven't made so much progress with..you know who" you grimaced, remembering how many times you have uttered her name and Seungmin have immediately shut you up by placing his hand hastily over your mouth. Voldemort had she became.
      He let out a quiet sign, resting his head on the table. "Yeah..I mean we talk a little but.."
        "But not enough" you completed his sentence "Can I ..propose something?Why don't you try getting her a coffee and sit there with her?" You whispered, reaching your hand to play absentmindedly with your notebook. 
         "Yeah, I could do that" he mumbled as he straighten himself up, leaning onto his chair instead.  
         "I have an other proposal." You said, adopting his previous position and leaning onto the table. 
         "You scare me" he replied drily, with a hint of smile playing on the corner of his lips. 
         "Why? I am spectacularly amazing and I have at least 70% ratio of success" he snorted at that but didn't comment further "As you know ..SHE is a dance major. Why don't we go to see her performance? You say a few nice things to her, give her a smile, you know, tell her a 'I will see you around' Maybe offer a walk around the festival? We have to get her to notice you" 
         He looked everywhere but me, such simple conversations still managing to embarrass him. "That would be..nice" 
          "Perfect! I have already gotten you a ticket!" you cheered, collecting a few looks by the surrounding students. That's why you detested the library, quiet wasn't your forte. 
          At the sound of that he stilled and turned to look at you. "You won't come with me?" He looked like a deer caught in your car's headlights. You compared his current look with the void ironic silent that greeted you the first time.
          "I mean...I am coming. I have tickets to see Ryunjin and Yuna perform. I didn't know if you would like to stick with us" 
          "Yes, please" he replied instantly, probably imagining himself alone in the large crowd and recoiling. 
          "Sure. Wear something nice though! No hoodie! And for the love of God, no sweatpants!" You cried out, well aware of his usually fashion choices. He always looked comfy though, you like his style but he had to dress to impress for the festival.
           He stayed quiet in reaction to your request, mumbling under his breath 'what's wrong with my sweatpants' and 'wouldn't do that' but the rest of the session rolled smoothly without interruptions and talking about Voldemorts. 
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        You were running as much as your heeled legs could muster. Of course you were late..but it wasn't your fault! If only those damn customers didn't come in last minute, maybe you would have time to go shower and get ready like a normal person.  
      Your phone vibrated in your hand, no wonder the others were searching for you. You answered the call not looking at the name on your screen. "I am coming!" You panted. 
      "I am waiting by the front entrance" a deep voice answered, taking you by surprise.
      "Seungmin?" You called, unsure.��
      "Yeah. Now come on" he said and hung up.
      You gathered your strength and ran the remaining distance. As you reached the entrance you looked around, you tried to locate him. You found him by the door, a lean body waiting for you. He had heard your advice. Black slacks, a simple white T-shirt underneath and a grey coat adored his frame. He looked put together and a perfect image of a boyfriend. You jogged lightly towards him. "Hey! You look nice. 100% boyfriend material" you complimented. 
       He shyly smiled at you and cocked his head inside. "Come Yuqi saved us seats. What took you so long?" He questioned as he turned to walk to the theater.
        "Some customers came last minute and I couldn't leave. I never have gotten ready that quickly" you laughed, avoiding bodies that were threatening to crush you. He took your forearm and guided you to your seats. 
        "It's okay." he comforted you. 
        You looked up amused and surprised. "I never thought that the Kim Seungmin would tell me it's okay to be late" you teased. 
        He huffed and lead you to the seats, where Yuqi and Jisung awaited you while discussing the music he had produced for one of the acts. You waved at them and settled on your seat, readying yourself for the spectacle. And you were just on time. You were amazed by the elegant lines of the dancers and the sharp moves, that were enhanced by the booming sound of the bass. The couples, that were twirling on stage, stole your breath and the solo performances were equally enchanting. 
        "Aren't they so cool?" You whispered to Seungmin, feeling bad that he was singled out. You were sitting between him and his friends so he stayed mostly quiet, except when he replied to your humorous comments. 
        "Yeah, I couldn't do that in a million years" he agreed, still captivated by the performance. All too soon the performances were over and the curtains fell. 
        You stretched, pulling yourself out of the uncomfortable seat and nodding to Seungmin "Come on! Let's go and give our congratulations to the 'chef'" you joked as you pulled him up.  "Yuqi we will catch up with you outside,ok?" She nodded her consent and dragged Jisung away, possibly to get some food. So you turned to your own companion who waited you patiently..not that he had an other choice as he didn't know the backstage as you did. "Come on lover boy, let's go to your ballerina"
        He grimaced but complied, following you into the dark backstage. You turned and turned until you catch a glimpse of Soojin. Then you promptly stopped and turned to him, fixing his clothes and fussing over him. He tried to avoid your touch but seeing you not giving up, he simply gave up. You fixed his hair as well, passing a hand threw them and perfecting each straw so they framed his face beautifully. "Okay. You got this" you said pushing him lightly to the door. 
        "Wait! You are not coming?!" he said, panic filling his eyes as a hand raised to clutch your wrist.
        "No! You go and tell her she's beautiful and if she wants to hang out after the show" 
        He opened his mouth to argue, but you pushed with more force and he stumbled into the room. The noise all around the place didn't exactly help you to listen in on their conversation, so a few minutes passed and you didn't know if that was a good sign or a bad one. But the door suddenly opened and Seungmin crossed the border throwing a careless 'I will see you around' over his shoulder. After the door closed though, he clutched his heart and let out a troubled sign. Immediately you were on his face.
        "How did it go? What did you say to her? She didn't want to come to the walk?" You buzzed, shifting your weight, almost circling around him.
         "Can you calm down for a moment?" He said, tugging at his collar "She said thank you and that she appreciates that I came. She said that she has plans but she will see me around in the coffee shop." 
         "Such a shame.I expected her to go with you." you pouted, disappointed. You had to fix him up in order to continue with this deal. You casted a glance towards him, to find him watching the space across you. You followed his gaze and located a blonde figure lounging there. Eric, who probably came to give his own congratulations. 
         "Maybe I can get her a cup of coffee when I see her again?" He quietly mumbled, gaze not straying from Eric's figure. 
         "Yeah" you agreed, eyes stuck in that direction too. But quickly you shook yourself out of your stupor. "Since you are free how about a stroll around the festival? I wanna go to the waffle station. I heard they are to die for" you whistled, already imagining the sweet chocolate melting in your mouth.
         He looked down on the floor for a beat, until you nudged him playfully. He met your stare but the discouraged look didn't leave him. 
         "You don't have to look down. You played your cards and lost. It's okay. There will be other opportunities. Now come with me" you took a hold of his jacket, gently moving him towards the exit. 
       He didn't say anything but moved along. 
       Once outside you were contemplating where to go. The food stands where a must and you voice that.
        "Okay. Plan." You said, turning to your companion who seemed equally as lost as you. "I wanna stop by the food stands. I heard this year they have a theme about foods around the world. Other than that I have no clue what is there" 
        "Umm okay. We can stop by. Not something spicy though. I can't really eat it" he said, not really here. He looked dazed at the festival. 
        You looked up at him, squinting. "Where do you wanna go?" 
        He still looked lost. Maybe he had been more hurt than you thought. Well you could distract.
        "Seungminnie!" you whined, hoping to distract him. And it worked by the distasteful scoff that took over his face. 
        "Don't call me that" he puffed and strode to whichever direction his feet took him. Hopefully for you, to the food section. 
        "Why?" Giggling, you took a look around. You were currently to the craft section. You marveled at the things that the student body managed to put together "But seriously what do you like to do? I never heard you mentioning hobbies" 
        "I like to take pictures. I took some nice shots at the park" he said, quietly.
        "Ohh that's how you knew about the park! Show me later some. That's really cool" you returned. "And? What else?" you questioned. 
        "I like baseball" he answered simply.
        "Oh! Oh! Which team?" You asked as your attention was snatched from a very nice pair of earrings to him. 
        "SK Wyverns" he replied, hesitantly. "You like baseball?" Suddenly focusing on you, you knew it was rare for women to like sports but you didn't know if you feel offended by his surprise.
        "Nahh my old man watches it so I know a couple of teams. He isn't a fan of that one though" you commented.
        "Which one he likes?"he asked, intrigued. 
        "Something heroes" you said, tapping your chin. You couldn't remember their name for the life of you!
        "Kiwoom Heroes! Over the Wyverns! Really now?!" He exclaimed, eyes wide and bewildered at your father's preferences. The scrunching of his nose betrayed his true dislike towards the team.
       "Hey don't tell it to me! Tell him that!" You joked as the sparkly earrings stole your attention again. The blue sparkling light caught your attention, the gold only enhancing their beauty. You shook your head. You weren't here to buy jewelry. You were here to eat. 
       "What do you like to do?" He asked as he took in his surroundings too. He looked more relaxed now, hands crossed at the back, head moving wherever to take in all of the stations. 
        "I don't have really the time to spare. If I do.. I guess a movie or some drinks with friends." You never really were into something particular. A simple time could be a good time too. 
         "Yeah I noticed. How come you are always working? Don't you want some time of?" He asked, examinating you more now.
         "Yeah it would be. But I need the money. And besides I stir up enough trouble when I don't have time in my hands. Could you imagine me with time to spare?" You raised your eyebrows at an alarming pace to empathize the fact. He scoffed, clearly amused.
       "God no. I wouldn't like to see that!" He laughed behind his hand. 
       "Exactl-" you started but an aroma stole your attention. A chocolatey rich aroma, that came from the stand ahead. "Seungmin, the sweets!" You exclaimed and thrusted forward, literally dragging him along. 
         "On the other hand.. with your limited attention span how bad could it be?" He sassed, but turned towards the chocolatey dough. "We will take two" he said to the boy in the cashier. 
         You reached in your bag to take out your purse, but you noticed Seungmin taking out double the amount that was required and give it to the cashier. "Hey! What are you doing? I can pay for mine!" you pouted. 
         "Too late!"he replied, having already paid and grabbed the sweets. You took your own while he took a bite from the dough. His eyes widened comically and he pointed at it with his mouth full. You laughed, but your reaction was very much the same as his when you took your first bite. 
        "I will pay for the next round" you said as you started your rounds again. This time heading towards the games. 
         "Sounds good" he said, the desert on his hands half way eaten. Men you thought, they could eat anything within seconds. 
         You wondered around for a bit. You tried the trivia game they hosted, you were tremendously bad at it while Seungmin tremendously good. You tried the maze they made up by cardboards and some other poorly made materials, but you both had a good sense of direction and got out pretty easily. One look at the karaoke stand had you both running for the hills and you ended up in front of an other food stand. But to the bad luck of Seungmin, the spices didn't sit right with him so here he was gulping water as if his life was depending on him.
       As you waited for him to calm his taste buds down, you were looking around. You spotted something in the far corner, a enormous cube, painted pink but the color was peeling away revealing the grey mass underneath. But none the less you jumped and shook Seungmin, pointing aggressively at the photo booth. "Let's go take some pictures" 
       "Now?!" he coughed, still red in the face. "I am dying!" 
       You looked at him and dead serious you replied "Well..die later" 
       He looked at you perplexed, but once again he let himself be dragged by you. So you got in first and patted the space by your side, which he dutiful filled. You chose a simple frame and a playful one, that one  he frowned upon. But you ignored him and passed an arm around him, squishing yourself into his arms in order to get into the frame. You feel him stiffen momentarily so you quickly looked up. You were a little too close for comfort, you could almost count his eyelashes. He looked.. pretty from this close. His eyes big, looking down at you slightly more wide than normal. His skin was so smooth it seemed like marble. 
       "Sorry" You said, as you shifted away, giving him more space to breathe.
       "Um..it's okay. Shall we?" he said and faced the poor quality camera again, so you leaned in (not too close) and stroke a ridiculous pose with your eyes crossed and tongue out. You turned as soon as the sound ticked of and saw Seungmin poker faced behind you. 
       "Come onn. Humor me" you teased. So he did. He brought his hand over his face in a cute v pose. You gleefully turned around in a similar pose. For your last click you just smiled at the camera, leaving Seungmin to fend on his own. You soon paid for two copies and left the booth. As you were handing Seungmin his own, you heard your familiar ringtone pierce the air. Your phone, you realized. So you opened your bag, manically searching for it, finding it at the bottom of your bag and breathlessly answered. 
       "Y/N!" A raspy voice boomed through the speaker. 
       "Yuqi" you cheered. 
       "We are at Tony's. Fancy coming?"she shouted into the line so you can hear her above the music and the noise. "Jisung is with me. And we bumped into Minho too. If you are still with Seungmin stop by!"
       "Roger that."you said and you hung up. You turned to your tutor, who was observing whoever was left at the fair.
       "Yuqi is with Jisung and Minho at Tony's. Wanna go?" You asked as you began to descend the stairs, that lead to the front entrance of the school.
       "An unlikely combination." he noted as he strolled right beside you. The descend was supposed to be easy but your heeled boots hurt your feet now and the breeze was getting stronger for your liking, lightly blowing your hair into your face. 
       "What can I say?" you said as you tried to get your locks away from your face. "You wanna come?" 
       He stayed quiet for a while. Gazing at the remaining tents that the students were scruffing to pick up, so they can party the night away. 
       "Yeah. I will come. For a little while" he replied at last, focusing on you. 
       You smiled at him, strangely happy your new friend decided to join you. So you made your way to the bar.
 With Seungmin by your side.
And your heart beating abnormally loud in your chest.
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     It was a slow day in the cafe.
     Wooyoung and you were absent-mindedly cleaning, while talking about your weekend plans. The flow of people was steady, close to none at the time, so you tried to get the shop ready for the next shift. You looked over the supplies you had gathered. Cups? Check. Coffee? Check. Lids? Check. What was missing? You thought as you skimmed the shelves. Oh! The straws! 
    "Wooyoung! Do we have any straws over there?" You called, hand wandering inside the low cupboard in order to feel around for any stray sets. 
    He lowered himself to see into the other supply cupboard, with a quick look he confirmed your thoughts. "Nope!" 
     You grumbled under your breath. "Going to grab some from the back!" You called as you headed to the back room, where your supplies were stored.
    It was not a big room, storage shelves decorated every wall and it had no window nor any other form of natural lighting, except from the tiny bare bulb above your head. You switched it on and took a look around, trying to locate the troublesome straws. In the end you found them on the highest shelf of the stock room on the far right corner. 
 Whose brilliant idea was this? 
  No one in the coffee shop could boast about their height so the supplies usually where at a reasonable height for you. Except these darn straws! 
      "For fuck's sake.!" you spat out as you dragged the small ladder behind the door to help you up. You climbed it easily and took hold of the straws. But in your haste to finish your task, you knocked over a box.
        You blew a breath out and climbed back down. You let the packet of straws fall from your grasp and hosted the medium sized box in your arms. You climbed the ladder quickly, the box obscuring your vision. You placed the merchandise in the very edge of the shelf and pushed it with as much strength as you could. But as it seemed you needed to hit the gym sooner than later as your strength was proving not to be enough. You pushed even harder going on you tippy toes to get the box into a safer position and then you heard it. You heard the sound before your eyes caught up.
 The awful sound of the ladder tipping. Suddenly your vision tipped, just as the ladder did and you were falling. You thrashed your hands out in hopes of softening your fall, but it was of no use. You landed on the floor on your side, with an intense pain piercing your left ankle. 
         You sucked your teeth in response to the pain travelling up your leg. Fuck! That was exactly what you didn't need right now. You tried to get up and put some pressure on your leg only to stumble and nearly fall flat on the floor again. 
         Desperate situations required desperate solutions "Wooyoung!" You wailed loud enough for the whole store to hear. And when you didn't get an immediate response you wailed even louder. Till the sound of a pair of feet, running to you, was heard. 
 The door was thrown open and a dramatic I'm gasp cut through the air. "Y/N! What happened? Are you okay?" He fretted as he attempted to lift you up.
 Key word. 
Attempted. 
    As Wooyoung lifted you up, you put pressure on your bad leg almost falling down again. "Ouch!" you hissed out, grinding your teeth in order not to whine out loud. This time more carefully, Wooyoung lifted you and kept you close at his side so he can manage your weight. 
         "What happened?!" He asked incredulously as he moved you to the staff room.
       "I fell from the ladder. I must have twisted my ankle, it fucking hurts when I try to stand" you pouted, looking down at your feet. It didn't look swollen nor bruised. Maybe you had gotten lucky and it was just a strain.
         After a quick visit to the doctor, courtesy of your very fretty boss, he confirmed that you had indeed gotten lucky and that it was a sprain that. Rest was prescripted and you should be fine in three days time. 
    Your boss was overjoyed, that she didn't have to pay you medical leave or worse. She even happily offered you a ride back home as you couldn't quite move easily. You thanked her, truly grateful that you wouldn't have to walk all the way back to your apartment by yourself. 
   Once you were in the apartment you let yourself ungracefully plop down on your bed and sign. This incident would take you back a few days. Days you could spend working.. studying...doing everything else besides sitting on your ass. 
         You heaved a sign of exaggeration and pulled out your phone. You had a lesson with Seungmin today and you would have to cancel. You couldn't go to the library like this and he had made clear that he would not go out of his way to come to your apartment.
 You bit your lips, deciding what to write. A simple and nice message would do. 
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 A skull emoji? Really? But given his aloof personality it oddly suited him. You shrugged it off and decided rest and a bowl of warm food would be the best for you. 
    Two episodes in your new series and your telephone was ringing. You felt around your covers for your phone and once your hand come in contact with it, you answered without a second thought. 
       "Hello?"  
       "Hello" A gruff voice greeted. 
    You sat up, suddenly more aware. You weren't expecting a call from him."Seungmin?"
       "Yes, it's me" he confirmed quietly.
       You bit your lips. Have you forgotten to write something on your text? Had you forgotten your homework? "Can I help you?"
       "I heard that you fell today and require rest. Is this the reason you cancelled our lesson today?" He asked, dare you say, concerned. He didn't sound like he was craving a path on his room out of worry but he cared enough to ring you up. It was oddly sweet of him.
       "Yeah.. the doctor suggested rest. Like 3 days top" you said, absentmindedly, but soon paused. "Does this change your programme?" You fretted, hands going through your hair, succeeding only in messing it up further.
        "Not much but.. We can have our lesson tomorrow.. At your house" he quietly proposed.
        He had made sure not to include your home at the possible study places. Maybe it made him uncomfortable..was it out of concern for you? The surprises didn't ceased. After a brief hesitation you asked "Are you sure?"
        "Yeah. It's not like you are bored walking to the library. You are injured. I am not that cruel to make you walk till there" he said in astonishment. 
      You suppose he was not. "I really appreciate it, Seungmin. Thank you"  you whispered.
       A humm was heard from the other line before asking "Same hour tomorrow?" 
        "Yeah. Yeah. Bye" You muttered before hanging up. 
        Huh. You fully expected him to take advantage of his free day. Instead here he was calling you to ask you if you were okay and arranging tomorrow's date.
 He was nicer than you expected. 
You felt warmer than before.
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    The buzzer let you know that Seungmin had arrived.
    With a grunt you stood on your good leg and hopped over to your door to buzz him in. Leaving the door ajar so he could get in, you hopped back to your kitchen table, where you had laid your books.  
    You could hear his steps as he made his way to your apartment, the instructions you had provided guiding him. You heard him pause outside your door, unsure whether to enter or not, based on it's open state. You giggled and called him over "I left it open for you! Come on in!" 
    He stepped over the threshold and inspected your house. Well... house was a bit of a stretch. Your apartment was rather small, but had a homey and cozy feeling to it. The walls were painted a beige that didn't express you, but it was a requirement of your landlord.     
 You had tried to make it better by hanging artwork all over the apartment. Some where of land scapes you enjoyed, some of quotes that you favoured and some of your close friends and family. Your couch, that also served as your bed, was placed against the wall facing your spacious wardrobe and a bookcase that took way too much time to build.
     Your kitchen was small, some of its wooden surface were begging to submit to time, but you used it well. Plenty of fake plants were decorating it, giving it a splash of color that it needed. Once upon a time you tried to decorating with living breathing plants but... your skills proved not to be up for the challenge. 
      Your bathroom completed the wonderful set. A small white thing that consisted the only other door in the apartment, besides the threshold.
     Seungmin stood still at your threshold, unsure how to move in your space. You shook your head and guided him to leave his things by your couch and join you. He slowly did and approached as fast as a platypus. 
      You got up, careful not to apply much pressure on your bad leg and asked the awkward boy "Coffee?" 
      He looked you as if in thought. "Are you supposed to be standing?" 
      You shrugged, already hopping over to your counter. "I sprained it, I didn't break it so I should be fine. Want some cookies?" You asked, not bothering to turn to him as you were focused on the task. 
      "No, thank you" he said as he watched you make him coffee "Are you sure you're okay? Want some help?"he pressured.
      You did turn to look at him then. He was attentively looking at you from his seat, alert as he expected you to fall over.
      "What did Wooyoung said to you?" You joked as you leaned back. 
       "He said that you fell from a ladder. He didn't heard the crash, but he heard you shouting for help" he parroted back immediately, brows furrowing. 
       "Always the drama queen" you mumbled under your breath, but the boy heard you letting a chuckle at your words. "I am fine. Really. But thanks for the concern and thoughtfulness" 
       He looked at you oddly before turning you his back and reaching inside of his backpack to pull out the necessary items. "Minho had injured his leg last year. It took him a while to recover. He had it bad. But looking at you now.. you do seem fine. So finish that coffee and come here. We should begin" 
       "Yes sir. Right away sir!" You saluted. A small smile your only reply. 
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     "Hey Puppy" 
     "Do NOT call me that" he stated, not even bothering to acknowledge you. You heard his sister calling him that over the phone, ever since you haven't missed the chance to call him that. He hated it, of course.
     "Say...You said you have read the SKZflix series right?"you wondered aloud and that was enough to catch his attention. He slightly turned his body towards you and stopped typing on his laptop. 
      "Yeah..why?" He asked, now giving you his full attention. He lifted his hand to pull his glasses away, rubbing his eyes tiredly. He needed more rest.
      "Well, you know that they are making a movie-"you started but was rudely interrupted.
      "Obviously" he sassed, scrunching his nose at you.
      You rolled your eyes at him. "Well it comes out next Friday. And I was wondering if you wanna..maybe.. go?"you mumbled the last part.
      He blinked in surprise. The last month and a half it was not strange for our groups to merge here and there. In fact, you have spend several evenings with your grumpy tutor and his sassy group. They now visit your workplace a lot more, even when Jisung has a day off. Yuna, Ryunjin and Minho, being all dance majors, have a lot of classes together and often end up having lunch together while the rest of you fill the table.You and Seungmin usually come together because your hours matched and your buildings are close. Jisung arrives always fashionably late and Wooyoung pops out here and there.
     Even though you spend a lot of days together, be it at school or outside of it, you have never hangout alone together. But it wasn't like you were never alone. But, never, neither you nor Seungmin have made such plans. But as soon as you saw the posters, your first thought was him. 
      Seungmin and you often talked about the movies and books you enjoyed and, to your surprise, your tastes matched. When you shared your favourite series you didn't expect the enthusiastic reaction. It seemed he was a hug fan as well. So it was only natural to think of him.
        "Sure" he said, after his initial surprise. "What time is the show?" He asked as a hand came to rub his nape. 
         "I don't know. I simply saw the posters. We can swing by after to see, if you are up to it" you said, fumbling with the paper in front of you. You couldn't keep still for some reason. 
         ".. Yeah, let's do that" he said, giving you a small smile.
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   Days flew by quickly. Tomorrow was the screening for the movie and you were so excited. You contemplated dressing up as the main character, but you quickly disregarded the idea, thinking about the turned up noses and stares you would get. 
    You were on your way out when you felt your phone buzz and the familiar song filled the atmosphere. You fished it out of your pocket and checked the caller. Puppy, it read. 
    "Hel-" You squeaked as you balanced your phone in your shoulders to lock the door. 
    "She asked me out!" Seungmin shouted through the phone. His tone bright and happy, as if he had won the lotto. 
     You paused your motions, taking better hold of your phone. She asked him out? Soojin? When? What has you missed?
     "Soojin asked you out..?"you slowly repeated, trying to focus.
     "Yes! We were talking since the festival you know! She said that there is a photography exhibit at the center tomorrow so she invited me to go! She said she felt bad that she couldn't go with me when I asked her after the performance" he eagerly continued, happy with the date he scored. 
     "Tomorrow?"you asked as if you were lagging. Tomorrow was your movie. 
     "Yes! I know I told you I would go with you to the SKZflix... Do you think we can reschedule? I would own you a big one" he rushed to say, explaining himself. 
     You bit your lip hard enough to draw blood. They have known each other for nearly 2 months and they decide to go out now? Now that you had plans to watch the premiere? A sudden itch on your skin, your hands couldn't keep still. But what could you say? No?
     "..yeah. That's alright Seungmin. I mean- it's a bummer that you'll.. miss the movie. But- umm have fun at your date!"you rumbled, shifting uncomfortably. 
     "Thank you! We can still watch it together at my house some time later. Minho bought a pair of new speakers so he can practice at home. They help him to 'hear the music better' or whatever that means. They have amazing sound though, I give him that" he continued, happiness clear in his voice. On the other hand, you were distracted. You barely managed to step away from your building, answering with hums and acknowledging him when necessary. When you had crossed over half the distance to your work, you decided that you couldn't keep up anymore.
      "...my partner didn't know this, so the teacher said-" you hesitated but you cut off his grumpy voice, rather rudely. His just wanted to speak about his day, but you wanted none of that at the moment. You wanted some quiet.
      "Seungmin I am at work now. We should hang up." You stated, tone flat. You prayed that he couldn't hear the noise around you through the speakers.
       "Oh..okay.. I will talk to you later" He paused briefly. You usually let him talk longer, you tried not to interrupt him when he was ranting. Not today, you guessed 
       "Yeah. Later" you mumbled the last part and cut off the connection. You kind of stood there for a moment.
 Breathing in and then out.
 It would be a long day today. 
You could just feel it.
        You ended up seeing the premiere with Hong Joong, who was available and a big fan as well. He had recently ended his something with Dami and he was in the mood for company. That's how you ended up in a restaurant after the movie, happily drinking your night away. 
      The next day Seungmin particularly skipped over to you, all smiles and giggles. You almost didn't want to ask about last night so you didn't. You sat at your usual desk and dived into the math problems. You had ignored the efforts he made to start small talk, choosing instead to focus on the numbers in front of you. 
      You managed to stay quiet a whole hour and a half before your curiosity got the better of you. You turned towards him, a little hesitant and not looking at him, you asked "How did it go with Soojin yesterday?"
    He paused his typing and turned to you with a small smile. "Good. We went to the fair and then we grabbed something to eat. We had a great time"
     You slowly looked up to the desks in front of you. "That's great, Seungmin. I hope it goes well" you murmured. You felt a little funny today, distracted, head above the clouds. It must have shown because you felt a hand being placed on your shoulder. You turned, dazed, towards him. He had a smile, a different one this time, as if he was asking you if you were alright. He voiced his concern soon after. "Are you alright?" He asked slowly. 
     You met his stare for what it seemed like the first time this evening. His eyes were full of concern for you. You felt bad that your moody ass was making him concerned, so you plastered a small smile and answered.
"I am alright. Just a little blue"
      He looked at you for a beat. "Do you want to..maybe watch the SKZflix together? I have the place to myself. Sorry for cancelling last minute yesterday" he regretfully said, his head lowering this time. 
       You looked him over and the first thing you thought, he was feeling guilty. You don't know what he was guilty about..but you oddly appreciated the thought. So you gave him a small smile "it's a deal" you chuckled.
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Days flew by in a rapid pace.
Life was normal, if not a little bit hectic. Your days was full of classes, work and Seungmin. You woke up, went to uni, you ate, you went to work, on the days you didn't work you had your lessons with Seungmin. To say the least, you were exhausted. 
And it was shown clear as day. Either by your ... irritable attitude or by your awful appearance.
     "Girl you look awful. Like I-spend-all-week-doing-all-nighters-and-have-been-drinking-only-energy-drinks" she put out while she pitifully looked down at you. 
Upon hearing her, you lifted your head and looked her dead in the eyes. "What kind life have you been living?" You returned, tiredly.
      "One that doesn't require me to live like a zombie. When was the last time you rested or went out like a normal person?"she inquired while taking a long sip of her already dried up frapuccino, making your temples throb even harder. 
       When was the last time? You picked yourself up and thought about it. "Like.. two weeks ago? I watched a movie with Seungmin" you concluded.
     Yuqi raised her eyebrow at that, but didn't comment. Instead she wondered, tone full of promises "Can you take off the next Friday and Saturday?"
      You threw a glance at her. "I can run it by boss. Why?" You asked. 
      Her eyes were almost glowing. "It's party time" 
     "Say it again"
   You winced when his voice reached your end of the line. You weren't even asking for a cancellation! "Puppyy" you let out a long whine. 
     "I thought you said you were on schedule, Y/N" 
     "I am. I am just...tired, Seungmin. I am running around since September with little to no time to rest" you mumbled as you run your hand over your face, trying to wake yourself up a little. "I am not asking you to cancel...just move it to the next day?" You asked, hopefully.
     Grumbles could be heard over the line. "Fine, yes" A brief pause and then "Are you ok?" He asked, a little above a whisper. 
       You let out a breath. "Yeah, I...I choice that. I just want to rest for 2 days." You concluded.
      "Okay. I guess I will see you on Sunday. Don't sleep in" he warned, knowing full well your post drinking behavior by now. He had woken you up many times by now.
     "I won't!" You chuckled  "As for the Sunday part. I have a proposition.." you trailed off with a smirk on your face.
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 "It's freaking cold!" Yuqi whined as she stepped out of the car.
       You also got out of the Uber you had to catch because of the stinging cold. 
      You were already regretting the dress you chose to wear, even if your knee high boots were covering most of your legs, the cold was hard to beat and was freezing your exposed legs to the bone. You hurried towards the entrance of the club you had agreed to meet with the rest of the group.
    As you neared the club two loud laughs could be heard from the queue, two laughs you could recognize anywhere due to the long hours you spend together. Jisung and Wooyoung stood in the queue joking, quite loudly as Minho and Seungmin stood there, nodding and smiling at the goofy jokes that were thrown at them. You were pleasantly surprised by their presence, you were sure that when you had proposed the idea to your grumpy tutor the answer would be shift and... negative. 
    The both had donned their winter coats so you couldn't see exactly what they were wearing, but you catch sight of a collar picking from the neck of Seungmin's coat. He had pushed his hair back and now his face were all angles and sharp lines. After months of being in his presence you still couldn't believe how handsome he was. 
      "Hi!" Yuqi cheered, capturing the groups attention. Even if she hadn't greeted them, she would've captured the attention - the pink iridescent dress she wore left no other choice, but to look at it. Yuna and you followed closely behind her, huddling in the queue along them. You exchanged pleasantries with everyone and a quick hug with Woo and took your place next to Seungmin. 
       "Well we'll look who we have here!" You puffed, your breath shown clearly in front of your face - almost like white smoke. You could feel your nose running, possibly ruining your make up and the crispy wind slapping your face.
    He clicked his tongue and gestured with his chin to Minho. "He dragged me. Said something about having fun." He huffed and puffed like a child that was being dragged to a family gathering by their parents. 
       "Oh come on, you grandpa! We will have plenty of fun! You'll see!" You said, jumping in place to keep yourself warm. You saw him briefly looking down at your attire and your legs before tearing his gaze to your face. You wondered if the flush on his face was from the likes of you or the wind. But you didn't have time to dwell on it or question him as the bouncer ushered you all in.
     Stepping inside, smoke filled your lungs and colourful lights blinded you. The warehouse, that was turned into a club, was full of swaying young bodies that cheered and drunk the night away. A anxious waiter showed to your table, that were basically two stands pushed together and certainly couldn't accommodate your large group but you hadn't had it in you to complain, you simply dumped your things into the tables and catch the nearest waiter to take your orders. 
      After your third drink you found yourself on the dance floor in between Yuqi and Wooyoung. With Wooyoung's hands on your waist and your own embracing Yuqi around her shoulders, you threw your head back as you let the music that played consume you. Giggles and smoke surrounded you as you let your hazy gaze wondered and it fell straight to a pair of moody eyes that watched you. You untangled yourself from the chaos that were your friends and you lightly treaded towards Seungmin.
     He somehow managed to find a chair into the chaos, which he dragged to your table and sat there, his first glass of the night still in his hand half empty. You reached him and threw an arm over his shoulders, his sitting position making things easier. He side glanced you but didn't react otherwise, choosing to bring his glass to his lips. 
     "Seungminnie why are you brooding?" You sing songed as you shook him playfully. Everything had a pleasant haziness that you were enjoying, even the smoke that was suffocating before started to gently caressing you and the lights just made everything prettier. Especially the boy beside you.
      "I am not brooding" he scoffed as he turned slightly towards you. "I am simply not enjoying myself. This isn't my scene" 
     "Well how are you gonna enjoy yourself when you are sitting here alone?" You pouted and tagged at his black shirt, noticing he had rolled up to his elbows due to the the heat in there. A ridiculous idea popped into your head, making weirdly sense into your clouded mind then. "Come dance with me!" 
       He gave you a look and turned away again  "I don't wanna dance. Go back to Wooyoung and Yuqi" he said, not looking at you. His focus was on the dance floor and you fleetingly thought that maybe Soojin was in there, if he knew she come here often and the only reason he was here was to catch her or if he was simply watching by the sidelines again, but you shook your head dismissing the thought. Instead you stepped in front of him, effectively cutting his view of the crowd and making him look at you. 
        You tugged gently at his hands, not altering a word, you smiled and nodded to the floor and he got up willingly. Rocking on your uncomfortable heels, you looked at him for a moment and replied "But I wanna dance with you" 
        He also gazed at you for a moment, signed before giving a brief nod. You slipped your hand in his, for fear he will change his mind, and tugged him at the dance floor . You found a space by the sidelines that wasn't as crowded as the centre of the floor and started swaying away to the Rihanna song that blasted through the speaker. He stood there swaying awkwardly, even from your tipsy point of view. So you drew closer and threw your hands around his shoulders, making him match your tempo. He freezed briefly before you felt hands slowly cradling your waist and hips, which you were moving with the music and body mimicking your gestures. You looked up at him throwing a smile, hoping you were helping him relax and enjoy himself.
     He was looking down at you with a unrecognisable look. His brows was furrowed and his eyes lidded. His eyes looked more smothering and hot than normal under the red lights. So you did what your hazy mind told you and stepped even closer, hands tangling in the hair on his nape. The song, as if to prevent you, changed to something quicker and fun making you break the intense eye contact and swing wildly with him. 
       The songs were changing from pop to old rocks to rap music you both didn't know well but you didn't move from your spot, continuing dancing with each other. Tem songs have pasted until the DJ settled to a slow piece, that allowed tou to catch your breaths. You were both smiling, making grimaces and weird dance moves to entertain yourselves.            You were once again in each other's embrace, moving slowly. You tip toed to whisper in his ears "See? Aren't you having fun?"
    His breath fanned your jaw and neck as he draw even more near and whispered "Yeah" 
      You turned your head to look at him and realized you were inches apart. You could see the lights reflected in his eyes, a swirling mess of colours, much alike to what you were feeling now. His sharp features looked painfully good and mixed with the smell of his musky cologne, it made you more dizzy than the drinks you previously had. His lips, unreasonably red and inviting, parted lightly and only then you realized you were looking at his mouth. You pulled your gaze to his eyes, only to see his gaze lifting up to meet yours, painfully obvious that he followed the same path as you. You could feel the distance between your lips getting smaller and his hands holding you just a bit tighter as you both moved closer to shorten the distance-
        "Y/N!" A loud voice pulled you out of your daydream. You took a step back out of Seungmin's arms and turned to the direction of the call, only to see a pink clad figure approaching. "I looked all over for you! Come with me for a moment, please?" She wrapped herself around your form, batting her glittery eyelashes at you. You laughed and nodded, casting a glance at your partner.
      "Go ahead. I will go order a drink" Seungmin said as he passed a hand through his already disheveled hair. Before you could answer him, your friend started dragging you away. So you called over your shoulder to wait for you by the bar, by the smile he sent over his shoulder, you took it as a sign of consent.
      You waved your way through the crowd, which was getting larger as the night went by and found the toilet tucked away in a corner. The line, fortunately, wasn't unfathomably big so you leaned by the wall awaiting your turns.
       "Girl what was that on the dance floor?" Yuqi inquired as she came to stand in front of you. Not a sight of sweat on her skin, despite the way she was jumping on the dance floor. You sure you looked like a mess.
      "What?" You asked as you looked over the tacky bathroom, from the papers that littered the ground to the overflowing baskets by the sinks. 
        "Don't what me. You and Seungmin, of course. I swear you were ready to kiss, if I hadn't walked in" she gassed, leaning even more towards you. "Did I do something stupid?" 
     A brief irritation passed over you, before shaking your head to clear it from the alcohol you consumed. "It wasn't like that. We were just talking, maybe it looked weird from your angle. Besides he likes someone else." You dismissed as you moved deeper into the bathroom. 
         "Are you sure? You looked pretty comfy to me." She questioned, giving you her pooch as she reached an empty bathroom stall. 
          "I mean.. yeah. We are close" You answered, facing the mirror. Your make up wasn't totally ruined, but you could see a faint shine to your face due to the heat and all the dancing you were doing. You quickly passed your hands through your locks, ruffling them just right. Before reaching into Yuqi's bag and reapplying the lipstick on your face. You didn't mind the slightly different shade. You closed it up and waited for your companion to exit the stall. Once she did exit and after a couple of 'are you sure' questions, you braved the crowd once again, reaching your table in a agonizing slow pace. 
       When you did arrive, you saw the lone figures of Seungmin and Minho at the table, the others were missing. Even after a quick scan of the dance floor you only managed to pinpoint a dancing Jisung and a Ryunjin chilling with a couple girlfriends' of hers. Wooyoung wasn't anywhere to be found, but you had learned better than to question that. 
      "Wanna have shots?" You asked. The buzz was going away and you couldn't have that, especially that early into the night. 
         "You already had 3 drinks"  Seungmin said, leaning in his chair once again. Minho sipped on his drink of choice but didn't give a negative reply yet, seemingly watching the scene unfold. 
            "Blasphemy! I only had two. Come on three shots!" You raved as you bounced, along with Yuqi, who you didn't have to get consent. 
"Yeah! Let's have some shots!" Her booming voice, parroted. 
         "One" he said, ignoring your pouty lips and puppy eyes. 
         "Two" you challenged, already making your way to the bar, giggling along the way with Yuqi. 
         Once you reached the bar, you waved the pretty bartender over and placed your orders. 4 shots of tequila. You gave the boys their own, noticing Seungmin looked at the glass like it was poison. You cheered, clinked your glasses and off you went to the dance floor, where you ended up in the arms of your handsome tutor. As the night went the one shot became two, and then three, and then four and then you lost count. The only thing that was on your mind was the music, the laughter and the arms that supported you. 
       Suddenly the world was twirling along with you and your eyes closed. When you opened your eyes again, darkness greeted you. You felt yourself moving but not really, and your head leaning on a surface, that was uncomfortable and digging on your cheek. You made to move but a warm voice told you not to and as a warm sensation racked your back, darkness took over again. 
      Your eyes fluttered open once again,but this time, light was hitting your face. 
      You groaned as the first thing you felt was a raging headache. How much did you drink? You opened your eyes only to see that you were in bed, blanket tightly wrapped around your frame in order to keep warm. How did you get home? You sat up, rubbing the sleep from your eyes and stretching your body. You could feel your legs killing you, even though you hadn't used them yet. You stepped on the ground to get up but a sudden groan from the floor spooked you. A body laid there, in between your spare blankets. Oh god...what have you done? 
       "You finally woke up?" A deep voice grunted, still laced with sleep. Seungmin?! He rose from the floor, wrapping the blankets around him and he moved onto the bed with a pained moan. "Move" 
      You pulled your body to the side, allowing him to climb better and lay down on your bed. His shirt was replace by one of your oversized hoodies that, no surprise there, fit him well enough, since they were huge on you. His hair was messy from sleep and his eyes half closed.
      "Seungmin? Why are you here?" You asked, but he was already in dreamland.
      You looked at him for a beat, trying to gather your thoughts. You remember dancing with him last night, cracking jokes and laughing.. and then nothing. You vaguely remember waking up to a moving vehicle, leaning on someone and you looked at the boy sleeping in your bed. Did something happened between you? No. Seungmin wasn't the type of guy to take advantage of you. Also, you had your clothes on and he was sleeping on the floor, you doubted that he was that gifted. 
     You got up, treading towards your bathroom. Your hair could be more of a mess, you decided, thanking yourself for straightening it last night. Your face was clean of make up, only a light shadow under your eyes from your mascara. So that meant you washed up last night. You now realized that you were dressed in your PJs and that you had no recollection of doing so or anything for that matter. Hell, you didn't even remember bringing Seungmin here. You washed up and went to your living room again.
      Seungmin was still peacefully sleeping in your bed and you felt bad waking him up, especially when he spent the night sleeping on the floor. You decided on making some coffee and breakfast. That would be sufficient for now. 
      You had just finished making the last bit of the french toast, when a grunt left your guest. You looked over and saw him, slowly sitting up and freezing when he realized that he was sleeping on your bed and not on the cold floor. 
      "Good morning" you saluted, from your seat in the kitchen table- already nursing a cup of hot coffee. "I made breakfast. Come to eat."  
     He slowly walked up to me and took a seat opposite of you. Either your toast looked really appetizing or he was really hungry, because he fell immediately on top of the plate and started devouring it. "Coffee?" You asked,  getting a positive grunt so you got up and  poured him a mug. You looked idly at the boy, eating your breakfast and hesitantly spoke up. "Seungmin? How did you end up here?" 
    He looked up from his feast and took a sip before he spoke. "You don't remember?" 
    "..No" you responded. 
He lifted his hand on your forehead, flicking it lightly. You blinked, rubbing the sore spot on your forehead "Ouch! Why was that?!" 
     "For the trouble you got me into. After you downed your first shot, you kept drinking. I tried to stop you but you slipped away. Mind you, surprisedly, stealthily for someone so drunk and downed more shots. Eventually it took a toll on you and you blackened out. I brought you here." He used his dad look, the look when you got a problem wrong. Squinting eyes, eyebrows drawn together and his left side of his lips slightly raised. 
     You cleared your throat in order to avoid the tension. "And how exactly you ended up staying over?" You quietly mumbled, now playing with your food. You expected the worst now. 
      He quietened for a moment before reaching to scratch his nape. "You... umm.. you were in a pretty bad condition and I didn't want to leave you alone. You threw up several times-" You closed your eyes, regretting your past actions. But quickly your eyes quirked over your place, looking for accidents.
       "No! No you managed to race to the bathroom. I didn't see anything, but I.. umm.. heard you. " he rushed to get out, explaining the situation. You mentally face palmed, of course you had and done that. You hanged your head in shame, not mustering enough courage to look at Seungmin at the eye. "Are you ok?"  
       You huffed, lifting your head only a little to look at him. His attention was on you, eyes full of worry. Who could blame him though? You would worry about you, if you were in his shoes. "Yeah.. I do that kind of often... if I have too much to drink. And the clothes?" 
       "You gave them to me." He said, pitching the sky blue hoodie he wore to show it off. "I almost thought you were cold stone sober when you exited. You gave me clothes and insisted for me to sleep on the bed."he laughed, making you hang your head even lower.
     "A guest should always take the bed."you mumbled even quieter than before. 
     "Yeah that was exactly what you said!" He laughed, your embarrassment clearly entertaining him. 
      "Puppy... " You said carefully, as you put your weight on your elbows on top of the table. He looked at you, now resigned at the shameful nickname and hummed. "My head is killing me.."
      "Serves you right" was the immediate response. Meanie.
      "Yes..but I don't know if I can concentrate like that-" you got out before he cut you off.
       "You can't concentrate either way. Now get to the point" he huffed, taking a sip of his coffee. 
 "Canwepleasenothavealessonandputonamovie?" You got out as quickly as you could, secretly hoping he wouldn't hear you and just agree. A girl could hope. 
     He didn't shut you down immediately, just looked at you with a strange expression. 
     "You don't have to fill it. It would be on me. Promise" you persuaded him further. 
      He looked at you some more, before nodding "What do you wanna see?" He said as he got up to put his plate on the sink. You grabbed the chance to go and get the laptop and prob it to the coffee table, stretching yourself on the still unmade bed. 
      "I started the show you proposed. It's good. I am on episode 4. Hey! Leave them! I will do it later" you called over your shoulder, hearing water running from the kitchen. 
     "You did? I told it was good!" He exclaimed, as he finished the dishes and took his respective place on the other side of the bed. 
     "Care for a rerun?" You wingled your brows.
      "Nah, put it on" and the rest of the day was spent there with idle talk and comments about this and that...
You could get used to that...
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lostywrites · 2 months
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Summary:
The Hidden Ones encounter a mysterious traveller from Azeroth. Recognising an opportunity to expand their influence and forge new alliances, they appoint Basim Ibn Ishaq, a devoted disciple, as their representative.
In a realm where ancient lore and magic are as tangible as the air he breathes, Basim must rely on his wits, skills, and newfound connections to fulfill his mission and unlock secrets that could change the fate of both worlds.
A Warcraft/Assassin's Creed Mirage crossover fic. Set before the events of Dragonflight and Valhalla.
Pairing: Basim/OC
Chapter 1 I Chapter 2 I Chapter 3 I Chapter 4
Chapter 5 - The White Pawn
"Pardon my curiosity, but what has led a king to forsake his throne and shroud himself in secrecy?" Basim asked as they navigated through the thick underbrush.
The king paused, taking a moment of introspection before replying, "My return from the Shadowlands have left me...in need of solitude. I needed time to reflect, to understand the person I've become, accept what I've done...it's only here, away from everyone else I could truly find the strength to face my own inner demons..." he confessed, his voice tinged with melancholy.
"The Shadowlands?" Basim echoed. The king's eyes however held a story untold, a narrative heavy with trauma.
Choosing to keep his personal story private, especially from someone he'd just met, Anduin simply said, "It's a cautionary tale for another time, one I'm not yet prepared to share." His gaze then drifted to the concealed cave entrance ahead, camouflaged by the wild embrace of vines and moss. With a silent gesture, he invited Basim to follow him further into the depths of his secluded haven.
The cave maintained a moderate temperature, bathed in the serene glow of crystals embedded into its rough-hewn walls, creating a calming ambience within the rugged environment.
Basim's eyes scanned over the king’s humble hideout dotted with an array of books, maps, and rolled up parchments, hinting at ongoing plans and studies. Finding a place at a sturdy wooden table, he settled quietly and watched as Anduin moved about the space.
Moments later, Anduin approached the table, carrying two cups and a jug brimming with something oddly luminescent yet a refreshing sight.
“Shukran,” Basim said with a grateful nod, taking the cup handed to him. The beverage was pure and seemingly blessed with restorative qualities, as though he was drinking from the well of Zamzam, brought an immediate sense of rejuvenation. He felt a wave of relief wash over him, dispelling the lingering fogginess and the oppressive humidity that clung on to him from the island's dense atmosphere. “Aah, it’s been a long time since I’ve tasted water this good.”
Anduin smiled, pleased with Basim's reaction. "The Kal'dorei have a way with nature's gifts," he explained. "It's said to have healing properties, and from what I've seen, I'm inclined to believe it. But each time I take a sip of their sacred water, I can't help but remember the tragedy at Teldrassil, the loss of so many innocent lives..." The king's voice tapered off, the deep-seated sorrows of wars past casting a shadow over his thoughts.
"I have heard about the Burning of Teldrassil," Basim said. "During my time in the Cathedral of Light, I had the honour of meeting the night elven children. Despite everything they've been through, their resilience is extraordinary, unlike anything I've witnessed before."
"Indeed they are," the king replied, his smile returning. And his curiosity was directed towards Basim now. "You know, in my time as an Alliance king, I've had the privilege of meeting people from all walks of life. I pride myself on being able to distinguish an outsider from a native. And you, my mysterious friend, don't strike me as a simple merchant from the 'Far East'.”
Basim’s voice deepened, the mask of Gilgamesh fading, revealing his true self, "You have a sharp eye. It is true that I have disguised myself as a merchant to cover the true purpose of my journey here. A purpose that's greater than myself.”
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gladstones-corner · 2 months
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A Brief History of Gladstone
I'm going to break some of my own rules here. 
Normally I don't talk too much about myself as an individual—mostly out of paranoia, but also because it's less relevant to the material I usually discuss. 
The exceptions are the Ask Games, of which I tend to enjoy interacting with you more than talking about myself.
At any rate, what follows is a brief history of who I am. 
I'll skip over most of the details and just say that I'm Mexican-American. I've spent most of my life on the United States East Coast, with brief stints in Germany here and there. 
I've always been into magic of some kind or another. I mentioned in an earlier post that one of the first books I remember owning is Wizardology. The little fortune deck it came with still brings me such joy and nostalgia.
I began seriously practicing magic when I discovered Buckland's Complete Book of Witchcraft at about 12 years old. I practiced in secret, given that my mother would react...strongly if she knew. It was during this time that I took the magical name Gladstone.
I studied Wicca and Witchcraft until I was about 18. In college I discovered Modern Magick (notice the trend with the big blue books?) and began studying ceremonial magic. 
Shortly after, I discovered Liber Null and Psychonaut, effectively beginning my studies in chaos magic. I practiced both ceremonial and chaos magics seriously until around 23 years old. 
At that time, my wife and I moved to Germany so I could study abroad. During that period, I briefly studied the Left Hand Path and adjacent schools of magic, but never dove deeply into any of it. 
Still 23, I returned back to the United States and resumed training in Wicca and chaos magic. I also picked up a copy of The Druidry Handbook and began studying Druidry.
However, having been changed for the worse by my studies abroad, I struggled to adjust back to normal life without copious use of magic. 
I gained a lot through this use; in fact, I gained just about everything I could want in my life at that time. But my abuse of magic eventually took its toll. 
At 25 I had a complete mental break. I gave up everything—my religion, my magic, even all my journals. All my materials went into a box and collected dust in my closet for months. That was, until I needed a new job. 
I built the ritual quickly, but made sure to remain firmly within the territories of Wicca and religious Witchcraft. It worked really well—I was back on my feet in no time, and I'm forever grateful for that. 
But I was warned in a dream shortly after: find a worthy path, or you'll land back at rock bottom. 
So I did. I created this blog, discovered all of you guys, and here we are. At the time of this writing, I am 26. I am a polytheist, occultist, and magician.
Today I am forging my own path. It's looking so far like a form of ritual magic, distinct from—but firmly embedded within—my larger religious worldview. I study all the paths I can, because each one contains something I can learn from, adapt, and use to help others. 
That's pretty much it, so far. Hopefully I'll continue to learn and grow. 
Thanks for reading. Blessed be~ 
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ener-chi · 1 year
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Big Big Life Update
Hey guys! I've been sitting on this for a while and I'm so happy that I finally get to talk about it! TL;DR - I GOT ACCEPTED INTO MY DREAM SCHOOLLLL
6 years ago, after experiencing acupuncture a few times and having it blow my mind and rock my entire world, I decided that I wanted to study it. After doing some research, I found that one of the best schools in the nation is in Oregon, and I decided on that one.
I set it as a direction, and modeled my entire life around that goal. I saved up enough to move out, moved to Oregon, finished my undergrad, went through their brutal application process - And today I received the formal acceptance letter! Ahhhh fs;lkhjsdfa
The school itself teaches Traditional Chinese Medicine, or TCM. This includes other things in the curriculum besides acupuncture, such as energy-based massage, qigong or tai chi (you already know what I'm going to be picking), Chinese Herbology, and a kick-ass business management program.
I'm enrolling in a dual masters and doctoral program. While it's going to be more work, I'll come out of it with my DACM certification - or Doctor of Acupuncture and Chinese Medicine.
I'm just. It's so crazy to me that. I set this goal SIX YEARS AGO and... it's now a reality. I've worked through so much, grown so much - hell, I'm a completely different person 2000%. And yet... here I am.
The past... week or so, has been pretty strange for me. I had my final interview with them, which honestly I was really nervous for. But aside from that... I felt an energy shift. I think part of it is that we're transitioning into spring. But the other part is that... I've been feeling like I'm entering into a new chapter in my life, and this really cements that.
So much is going to change for me in the upcoming months. I mean once school starts, I'm going to be moving to a completely different city (and moving in with a partner for the first time!), I'm going to be going back to school, going to be learning completely different material, etc. I'm also going to be changing alot in that time, too. I can feel it.
I already have lol. My practice has actually completely changed in the past month or two, I just haven't really talked about it here. I feel like I say that alot LMAO but this time I really mean it. I think this should be saved for another post, but I'll briefly go over it. First, I was able to figure out how to astral travel and do all my stuff again etc. after my ego death experience. I have two new... guides, I would call them, who have been teaching me and helping me with stuff. I work with a "new" energy and have been spending time working with what I'm pretty sure is the afterlife and helping people cross over. And lastly, I found a book that has COMPLETELY CHANGED how I do energy work and energy healing. It's an incredible incredible book that I think is required reading for energy healers. Again, I'll mention this in another post sometime soon because there is just. So much. I could talk about and share from this book.
Anywho. I think that's it. This has been over a month-long process, and I've been waiting for the past like week to hear the final decision. I'm incredibly happy and grateful, and I'm really excited to be studying TCM. It's going to be really cool, and I'm going to be able to help soo many people.
I hope that everyone has a great night!
Blessings!
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aerialsquid · 7 months
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FFXIVWrite Day 25: Call It a Day
Dear readers, Squid's month did not improve. Here is more dads. I'm having a rough one.
"Of course, as soon as I heard your name, I did not actually require further convincing."
"M–my name?" It was the first time today his name had carried more weight than Charlemend's, and he wished he wasn't feeling a bit sore about it. "I wasn't aware the Sahagin were…so invested in foreign politics."
"As a people, we are not. But I know among the shorewalkers, those who can comprehend the runes you set down on paper hold great power in bargaining and trade. I set myself and a few of my sons to learning your runes so that we might hold that power too. One book in particular was in great abundance, fresh as it was and bought by so many that even a Sahagin might get his claws upon a few copies, so I used it for my studies."
The scarlet fin on the back of Novv's head unfurled and shook slightly in amusement. "A saga of a people trapped in endless war with an ancestral enemy, now searching for a way to peace amidst the unpaid debts in blood and lost sons. Very much the sort of tale a Sahagin would relate to."
"You read my book?" Blessed Fury, he'd barely expected any interest further than Gridania and now the Sahagin were reading it?
Novv laughed. "I have gone through three copies. The next time you make a set, I might ask you make them more waterproof."
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Charlemend and Carvallain were still talking by the time the Kraken's Arms were ready to cast off. Charlemend cast him a brief, grateful smile as the pair crossed over to the Misery. His eyes were reddened from recent weeping but he was standing taller now, as if a weight had been taken from him. Carvallain, too, seemed to move with less tension in his body, though his expression was difficult to read from across the ship. As the two ships parted he turned back to Novv, popping a stiff armed salute in the Sahagin's direction. One by one, as each noticed, his crew hurried to do the same - rows of hardened, scarred, and half-naked pirates standing to attention to salute a battered ship of beast men.
Novv was laughing at them long after the Misery had pulled away.
"Y'need anything else, m'lord?" Gerald asked, yawning as he trudged by Edmont's perch. He had a glass bottle in his hand that roiled with some green liquid, likely a mix of Ether and whatever liquor additives made chugging a full bottle of Ether actually palatable.
"Yes, if you have it. Paper, pen, and ink, as much as you can stock me with, since I'll be little help to you in the sailing." Carvallain had pulled his father into his own cabin to continue their talk, and Edmont was quite sure they'd be there until the ship made port. Twenty years was a lot to catch up on. 
"For what?"
"For my next memoir. I want to get all this down while it's fresh."
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You should do! Waning Crescent with Strange, Blue Moon and Mordecai, Waxing Gibbous and 🚬, First Quarter and Undertaker!
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Waxing Crescent - You and your F/O have to leave everything behind and start over, with nothing but each other. How does that look? + Strange
Zacharie had been sent to bed, in the largely metaphorical sense of the word. Kronos was in the passenger seat of the car, staring out the window as they kept driving. Faers eyes narrowed, index finger tap, tap, tapping faers nail against the pistol in faers lap. Restless, fae looked out the back window, studying the road with a dull expression.
"Are we being followed by them," Strange asked. Kronos shook faers head. "No."
"Then we're fine."
Kronos looked at him like he spat in faers face. "Fine? This is the opposite of fine!"
"Kronos," and there was a weariness to his voice. "I don't like this anymore than you."
Fae huffed like a pissed off child being denied dessert, returning faers attention to the road behind them. "I don't know why you didn't just send me in there. I could've handled this."
"You aren't a one man army."
"Why didn't you make me one?"
Strange was too tired for this.
HOH IT'S ROUGH.
Gotham-Specific here. The idea of them running off as things get hairy, maybe around when Mooney came back? And just... Ough...
Strange would of course want to start up again with All His Everything, but more underground I imagine. Kronos would be working overtime to play guard dog, and Zacharie would be well and tucked away until they were 100% sure they got off the ground. That said, everywhere else is way harder to do this than in Gotham itself, and I imagine they had to book it from the whole ass city...
They're gonna be eating cup ramen for a little whlie.
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Blue Moon - Do you/your F/O believe in luck? Magic? Do you feel it favors you? + Mordecai
"Luck's a sham," Mordecai started. Fae was half laid in the cover of rocks less dense than they looked, a boulder being the support. Faers leg was kicked up, fae balancing the rifle on faers knee. All fae responded with was a hum.
"You ever been lucky?" He took a drink, other hand bringing up a scope he'd yanked off of a gun. "Don't answer that, I already know the answer."
"You do," fae replied.
"Hey, north west."
Fae moved in an instant. Though fae was focusing far east before, the man Mordecai was watching was dead in seconds. Boom, click, silence.
"What about magic," fae asked in a half mumble.
"You seen Lilith?" Mordecai scoffed. "Yeah, obviously."
"Aren't luck and magic the same thing," fae offered. "Maybe she's just real lucky."
"I don't think she's lucky. I think... I think magical and lucky are separate states of being."
Fae hummed, taking a shot at someone fae spotted on faers own. Mordecai looked out the scope at the body, whistling after. "Think we're winning?"
"I don't know. You been counting the bodies?"
"Yeah," he replied. "I think that makes 20."
Fae chuckled. "We're winning."
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Waning Gibbous - What have you and your F/O brought to each other's lives that you are most grateful for? + 🚬
Terry planted a kiss on Bone's forehead. Fae sighed softly. He moved to leave, but Bone reached out and grabbed a fistful of his jacket. "Stay," fae pleaded.
Terry hesitated. "Alright."
Bone never really knew kindness that lasted before Terry. If someone was nice to faer, they ended up dead later anyway. Terry was dangerous enough to survive, and warm enough to keep faers head above water.
For Terry, it's faers consistency. The world is chaos, their world is strife. Bone though never changes. Fae is an easy beast to tame, not requiring the intricate rituals every other aspect of his work does. As long as fae has a target or a schedule for when jobs will come through? Fae is happy. It's a strange thing to be the most grateful for, but fae being so easy is such a blessing at the end of the day...
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First Quarter - How do you and your F/O celebrate major life events? + Undertaker
Vladislav had come by the shop late that night. Even without parents, the servants and caretakers all had elaborate birthday nonsense planned. Now though, fae looked tired.
Makeup was running a little. Had fae been crying? He stood in the opened shop door, humming in consideration. "It's your birthday, isn't it?"
"Yes," Vladislav mumbled.
He wanted to ask how fae got here without a carriage, but he didn't. Instead, Undertaker was kind enough to step aside. "Come in," with a beckoning wave.
Vladislav did gladly. It was quiet in there. Quiet was all fae really wanted.
Basically everything gets blown out of proportion to Vladislav. Balls and shit are just so noisy and social! Vladislav doesn't have a social battery ready for that kind of nonsense...
Undertaker is willing to put things down for a moment to give faer a peaceful respite. They celebrate in relative silence. Maybe some food, sure, but he knows the quiet is a better gift than he could get faer...
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softedgessculptures · 4 months
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In my self insert X canon au Armin said he believed in the existence of the sea, of a vast world teeming with diversity of life. I, on the other hand, believed in the heavens and a world beyond Paradis, and even beyond the ocean he aways said.
Armin noticed the genuine twinkle in my eyes over his secret book, his blue eyes in addition reflected the most beautiful shimmering pulse when I also mentioned about my dreams being about the stars, or the supposed "mysterious bright spots" in the sky. At first, his countenance seemed somewhat hesitant about my words. It's good. I don't judge him. Where people and places were barely known beyond the limitations of territories, with so many problems and increasingly bizarre discoveries happening, it was strange for a crazy person to suddenly arrive playing about the skies. The heavens.. I've been so judged for this. "No one cares. But it was so important... for Armin recognized him, and recognized me through my dreams. I still feel my heart beating faster when I feel the smile he gave me as he watched me tell my ideas, it felt like in a circus, with him watching my pirouettes and new attractions. I still remember the moment when que mumbled him "I believe in you Armin, this is my dream! Also, why don't you look to the sky? Wouldn't it be magical if there was life up there too?! Just imagine.. people or even other beings—" "Like us?!" he replied to me in an impulse that drew him closer to my personal book. I swear by God I could even hear his voice crack for a moment just by looking at my notes and I.
Well, to tell you the truth, our conversations have always been like this. Of course, we had our affairs about the scouting troop, separate trainings and squads, our own groups of comrades and co-workers; Admittedly, we were all racing against time just living our lives as much as possible. And...... Dude, to be honest... It was all so stressful. Witnessing that damn hell often gave us so many headaches, wrinkles on my face, my hair even kept falling to the ground from so much worry I felt about work. It is almost impossible to deal with a stressful routine within research centers, study laboratories next to Hange and soon after almost losing arms and legs to giants that seemed more out of orbit than anything else. Oh dear, I ask you to forgive my words of complaint and indignation even though I have the blessing of being alive even today... And who knows.. tomorrow? Please know that still, my dreamy soul will go ahead with my dream. For the other people, for the others I love so much, and for myself, I am grateful.
Am I really? Well be it. I don't want to put God and heaven in the middle of this. I beg your pardon once again.
However, all was not lost because we all had something to dream about and get addicted to in order to keep moving forward, right? Something, an object, a place, a person....
When I wanted a moment that would make me feel peace once again, a sense of belonging, of being able to let our senses stop being alert for at least a few moments. We wanted a moment of peace to remember a world beyond the walls and the blood that flowed from our hands and blades. I had what kept me going, beyond the stars and the heavens.
Armin. My dear and sweet friend from the Scout Corps. Whenever I was looking for a peaceful place where I could study, read, or paint in peace while muttering my songs about a world... He was there. He always has been. Surprisingly, Armin aways appeared. Sometimes I felt like it was like he knew I was there, or at the exact moment I was going. In fact... I know. I know he knows, and that he'll go for me.
Since then, we have been meeting. When off duty or taking time off from training to come to me (Armin wants to be strong so he would NEVER run away from his training but after he met me) he always ended up running to my special place.
God... I loved his ditties, I loved his stories. Armin is aways too sweet for everyone, but for me.... he's even more sweetie, more dear, more lovely, more everything. When he softens his voice and speaks softly to me at the moment we're glued to each other staring at my notebook or his forbidden book I could melt. I thank him so much for being my friend. "I'm so glad you share it with me. I love... I love dream of a vast world, and I also love those who dream with me." Armin told me.
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sunnyanddumb98 · 5 months
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Dear Haruki Murakami,
Hi, I'm Karla Muñoz, and I'm writing this letter to express my appreciation for all that you have done for me.
For context, I study animation in college and have worked on 3D sculptures for some really low-budget shooter video games. Even though I don't play video games and don't particularly care for them, I've also worked as a background painter for animation. I've been struggling to find passion in my work, even though I do have a fondness for cartoons. Thanks to you, I'm now writing a book about a girl who, after a breakup, metaphorically releases butterflies from her stomach and embarks on a trip to Europe with a friend, despite having no money or resources. It's about that moment when everything feels numb, and one yearns to go deeper.
You're probably wondering how you fit into this picture. The truth is, you've entered my thoughts several times during this journey. As I write this letter in the common room of a hostel, there's a Mexican guy nearby who keeps trying to make contact with me, using the doorframe to stretch his arm towards me, even though there's plenty of space and no one else around. Even when I moved inside from the terrace, he followed and tried to strike up a conversation. It's not his fault that I'm more engrossed in talking to the image of a seventy-something-year-old Japanese guy that I've constructed in my mind, pieced together from your books and interviews.
I'm a bit of a bullshitter at heart. At a young age, I realized that you don't have to know everything to get good grades or appear knowledgeable. I learned to just echo their questions with affirmation and speak mostly in statements, using descriptive adjectives but avoiding adverbs. You just have to sound like you know your stuff and be convincing. As a result, I never really learned how to communicate my true thoughts and feelings. That's why I chose communication as my major. I went in and out of it quickly, feeling detached. I started working in corporate video games and quickly burned out.
I took a gap year and started therapy because I was crying every day and night, becoming dehydrated from it all. My therapist told me I had feelings, and though I initially found it amusing, I decided to go along with this "feelings" theory in a desperate attempt to stop crying. I learned to recognize and name them, but I had to be acutely aware of my inner and outer self, which, for a twenty-year-old, was at best erratic. Still, I could only put names to them in a language that was foreign to me.
And then you appeared as a grainy fifteen-second video with a quote. At that time, it may or may not have been true. You wrote it in Japanese, then I translated it back and forth. My goodness, bless you. This technique opened up so much for me. Who would have thought that rewriting whatever comes to mind three or four times would make so much sense? Of course, the credit isn't solely yours. Taylor Swift, the woman I skipped in my teens to read about social constructs and our obligations to each other, pretending that I had any inkling of understanding and also pretending that I was the only person with internet access at my school.
I started writing little songs about what I had seen and experienced. Making them rhyme turned it into a game, and translating them made everything come together, although it also brought pain and forced me to confront many things at once. For that, I will always be grateful.
The next time you entered my life, I was 24 and had just experienced a disastrous falling out with my male best friend. Long story short, we became involved romantically, it continued, feelings got messy, and he developed feelings for someone else. I distanced myself and was truly saddened, acknowledging it this time.
It was a sunny spring day when I had my left wisdom tooth removed. I'm terribly afraid of dentists, and like the spoiled brat I can be, my mom bought me a book as a treat. Books are quite pricey in Chile and come with higher taxes than regular goods. I asked for something funny, sarcastic, First person singular, That was the first time I laughed heartily with a book.
More books followed, and I began jotting things down. Writing short stories were the only things keeping me going. It was like talking to a friend I no longer had. The stories weren't directed at him, but I mimicked in those early tales how I used to ramble and mumble to him for hours. Then came a month-long trip to London, staying in an Airbnb room. Irritable bowel syndrome and returning to my hometown. Freelance work, a big corporate job, the dead of a dear friend. The dead of a friendship.
With my college girlfriends, we have a group chat. We all fell into astrology at the same time, not knowing much about it, so we sought answers in the stars. Quite the reliable information source, you know. One of them was in love but didn't feel the butterflies, so I advised her to eliminate them and choose. We debated the best ways to do so, and in the end, I found myself in my room, in front of my screen, laughing and giggling.
I took a Eurotrip to validate the book or the time to write the book. However, travelling on a budget is exhausting, and I eventually stop giggling in front of the screen. Instead, I found myself wandering aimlessly in the streets for hours on end. Don't get me wrong, I love eating bread every day, navigating winding cobblestone streets without a map, and sharing a room with twelve rather unhygienic Europeans. Essentially, I'm living out every dream I had when I was twelve, but also facing every fear.
I'm in Porto and haven't written a thing in a month. At first, it was due to exhaustion, then I grew weary of avoiding admitting how poorly my body felt. Finally, a spirited Spanish woman, around 60 years old, complained loudly about the lack of Spanish books in the hostel. There was only one copy of "Norwegian Wood". After devouring a hundred pages, I began writing again.
It's true that I've only read three of your many books: "Novelist as Vocation," "First Person Singular," and "Norwegian Wood." However, each time you entered my life, it was uninvited, and yet somehow, immensely helpful. I no longer think about how my friend would phrase things or react when I write. Will he find this funny? Is this pun good? Instead, I think of you. When I'm tired, I listen to "Novelist as Vocation" because you are as chaotic as it gets, and it makes me feel secure.
Intentional or not, you have become my mentor and have taken care of me on numerous occasions. Thank you so much. Please continue to do so, as I have no one else I look up to in quite the same way. Don't leave us just yet. I promise to read the rest of your books, but it's like savoring an incredible meal. One of them sustains me for a long time, and I don't want to indulge in gluttony.
Sending a very awkward and uncomfortable hug along with my best wishes to you,
Karla
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Gratitude Changes You
Today's inspiration comes from:
Quiet Prayer
by Marie Chapian
"'Just look at us! We’ve become overcome with gratitude! Gratitude can’t occupy the same area of space in your heart as carping and complaining. Which will it be? The truth that emerges from the center of you, from the core of your being, is revealed to you by the One who chose you, and this is worth celebrating. You’re possessed by God, you’re surrendered and blessed. As His loved child you possess all things.
It’s time to be grateful.
Look for small things to celebrate. The way your fingers move across the page of this book, the touch of sunlight on your neck, the sound of leaves scraping against the window. Pay attention to the small things and be grateful.
For who has despised the day of small things?” — Zechariah 4:10
When you purpose in your heart to be grateful, you’ll thank and praise the Lord all day long for no reason at all. You’ll thank Him for Himself alone, and that’s the purest form of gratitude to God.
You no longer need answered prayer to be grateful. You no longer require things work out the way you planned to be grateful (though we rejoice and celebrate these blessings!).
Your personhood now and forever is His, and you can exclaim with a sigh of grateful relief, “It is well with my soul.”
The studies made of the effects of gratitude on the overall well-being of a person are unanimously positive. It proves one thing: God created us to be grateful. A thankful heart frees you to love life.
Nothing opens the gates of Heaven like gratitude. In gratitude all things are yours.
In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. — 1 Thessalonians 5:18
It is good to give thanks unto the Lord, And to sing praises to your name, O Most High. — Psalm 92:1
Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever. — 2 Chronicles 16:34
The purest form of gratitude to God is thanking Him for Himself alone.
Gratitude has been shown to reduce health complaints too numerous to name, but I’ve had clients tell me their ulcers have vanished, their headaches are gone, their skin has cleared up, and their bruxism (teeth grinding) has ended. Gratitude must start and end your day.
Deep inside the grateful heart is the treasure of the joy that the whole world seeks.
For you are a holy people to the Lord your God, and the Lord has chosen you to be a people for Himself, a special treasure above all the peoples who are on the face of the earth. — Deuteronomy 14:2
But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. — 2 Corinthians 4:7
What do you need to be grateful?
An inmate serving a life sentence in a Texas prison wrote the following poem. He sent it to the prison ministry spearheaded by Benedictine Sister Joan Chittister.
A THANKSGIVING DANCE
I own nothing but these arms, So I swing them, So I clap them. I have nothing but these legs, So I lift them in dance. I have nothing but my own hips, So I sway them in a trance. Except I may not even own this body — but I move. Even still I may not say where I go, Yet I possess my soul. “Dance, dance. Dance,” said He. “I am Lord of the Dance” said He. For all these I give thanks To the One I owe, (O my soul dance) the fact that I exist, that I breathe and that I know the One from Whom all blessings flow.1"'
(Used by permission)
William Backus and Marie Chapian, Telling Yourself the Truth(Minneapolis, MN: Bethany House, 2000), used by permission.
Excerpted with permission from Quiet Prayer by Marie Chapian, copyright Marie Chapian.
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Thank God for The Fleas
“Some cause happiness wherever they go; others whenever they go.” ~ Oscar Wilde
In her book The Hiding Place, Corrie Ten Boom tells of a time she discovered that God was working even in the most horrific circumstances.
Corrie and her sister Betsie had been imprisoned by the Nazis for hiding Jews behind the wall of their Holland home, and Nazi prison conditions pretty well unbearable.
Corrie writes:
“Barracks 8 was in the quarantine compound. Next to us–perhaps as a deliberate warning to newcomers–were located the punishment barracks. From there, all day long and often into the night, came the sounds of hell itself. They were not the sounds of anger, or of any human emotion, but of a cruelty altogether detached: blows landing in regular rhythm, screams keeping pace. We would stand in our ten-deep ranks with our hands trembling at our sides, longing to jam them against our ears, to make the sounds stop.
“It grew harder and harder. Even within these four walls there was too much misery, too much seemingly pointless suffering. Every day something else failed to make sense, something else grew too heavy.”
Yet, in the midst of the suffering, the women prisoners around Corrie and Betsie found comfort in the little Bible studies they held in the barracks. Corrie writes they gathered around the Bible “like waifs clustered around a blazing fire…The blacker the night around us grew, the brighter and truer and more beautiful burned the Word of God.”
When they were moved to Barracks 28, Corrie was horrified by the fact that their reeking, straw-bed platforms swarmed with fleas. How could they live in such a place?
It was Betsie who discovered God’s answer:
“Rejoice always, pray constantly, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus.” That’s it, Corrie! That’s His answer. “Give thanks in all circumstances!” That’s what we can do. We can start right now to thank God for every single thing about this new barracks!’
“I stared at her; then around me at the dark, foul-aired room…”
They thanked God for the fact they were together. They thanked God they had a Bible. They even thanked God for the horrible crowds of prisoners, that more people would be able to hear God’s Word. And then, Betsie thanked God for the fleas.
“The fleas! This was too much. ‘Betsie, there’s no way even God can make me grateful for a flea.’
“Give thanks in all circumstances,” ‘she quoted. ‘It doesn’t say, “in pleasant circumstances.” Fleas are part of this place where God has put us.’
“And so, we stood between tiers of bunks and gave thanks for fleas. But this time I was sure Betsie was wrong.”
It turned out that Betsie was not wrong; the fleas were a nuisance, but a blessing after all. The women were able to have Bible studies in the barracks with a great deal of freedom, never bothered by supervisors coming in and harassing them. They finally discovered that it was the fleas that kept those supervisors out.
Through those fleas, God protected the women from abuse and harassment. Dozens of desperate women were free to hear the comforting, hope-giving Word of God. Through those fleas, God protected the women from much worse things and made sure they had their deepest, truest needs met.
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Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. ~ 1 Thessalonians 5:13
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A Very Special Highschool Journey
High school life is difficult but I am very happy through experiences that I did not expect to happen in my life. I thought high school life was just a book and study and very stressed full because that is what I heard from those who experience highschool, but when I entered high school a very good memory was formed and I will start this story by introducing myself. I am Janelle Anne C. Ramirez now in grade 12 and this is my Highschool journey since i was grade 7.
When I was in grade 7 I went to grade 7 galatians and my teacher was teacher Marielle V. Garcia. I was first anxious since I didn't have the intelligence to keep up with my peers, but I persisted in studying because I had a dream.
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I had friends in grade 7, individuals I could turn to in both happy and sad circumstances. Everything I went through was difficult I experienced bullying from classmates and moments when I was alone myself. However, because I still had friends who consider me their sisters. I was able to fight and we both advanced to grade 7 together.
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Drum and Lyre was the only organization I ever joined because I was shy and lacked confidence at the time.
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My grade 7 Galatians family is a Blessing for me because my Highschool journey start with them.
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My grade 8 family, was the best. It's my best section ever that i ever had because this section no matter what happen we help each other's hand. And my best adviser, Sir Jobert Munchang.
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And when i was grade 8, i met my first love and became my first boyfriend ever, the situation is very hard for us because we are just young that time we are not matured to handle a serious relationship and end up we didn't stay together.
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This is my Grade 9 Journey, having them was a good experience. It have a lot of memories and having a good adviser like sir Allen V. Grancho II. But this section is early end because of pandemic.
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When i was grade 10 it's a pandemic, online and modular that time, the situation is very hard because of the pandemic but the help of the Lord in my life, Lord give me knowledge, wisdom and understanding to take this. And finally graduate in Junior High school (moving up).
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My Senior High school journey, Since we just had computers and telephones to speak with, I didn't enjoy it. The online class makes the situation more challenging because studying there is more uninteresting, but because I want to finish studying all the topics I pursued, I complied in order to avoid being counted among the summer students.
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We finally met after the gap of two years in order to sharpen our study habits and make the most of the days left before starting college. One of the Sections that I will always remember is this one since it was here that I made a buddy who treated me both like a brother and a princess. In my final year of high school, I made the decision to get over my shyness and start participating in class. I ran for grade 12 representative and won, so now I'm a member of SSG and one of the athletes in intramurals. I'm grateful that I overcome my self-consciousness, shyness, and the situation where i don't confidence in everybody. This is my final high school adventure before I head off to college. I will continue to complete my high school education throughout the rest of my life in order to become stronger. I am quite proud of myself for completing it in just six years with the Lord's assistance.
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God gives blessings in strange ways: Reading Day 1
 
Yesterday, I was the lucky recipient of two steroid shots, which I have decided was a gift from God, in a strange way. This morning I woke up at 4:00 a.m. and I am very grateful I got any sleep at all with the steroid shots. Someone told me once that if you wake up in the night and you can’t go back to sleep that is God telling you to spend time with him, to talk to him. So, I spent a bit of time in bed talking to God before I got up. Around 4:45 I had given God all my first world problems, money issues, husband issues, children issues, health issues, etc. and realized it was time for me to start my day because sleep was over (this is a new problem for me- normally I am late because that snooze button gets me). I got up and did some light stretching, which I have been saying for weeks I am going to incorporate into my bedtime routine, I have even found THE YouTube video, but I just haven’t made time for it. I then got ready for work and finally pulled out my 52-week Bible study plan. I have wanted to open that book since the moment it came in the mail (big thank you to my sister for sending) but my schedule has not allowed it or I have not made it a priority- we could debate both ways.
This morning I stopped making excuses and sat down at my kitchen table with my Christmas coffee mug and my book! I realized that I wanted to take notes and I did not let the fact that I could not find a notebook or ink pen stop me! So, I used my orange Crayola twistable and an old half-used planner this morning as my tools.
 

I opened it up and is smelled like a new book- sigh. I started to read my planner, who would have thought I would need my Bible for this!? Haha In my defense I might have thought the passages where in it? Insert shrug emoji.
I realized I'm really not sure where my Bible even is.  I sent it to church with B a month or so back… but then it’s blank. But that wasn't going to stop me this morning! I will concor my ADHD, not get distracted and stay on track! So, I moved on with my handy dandy YouTube and Bible app- even though I was not a fan of the guy’s voice (but that’s not important). 
I listened to day one: Geniuses 1-4, all of which I’ve heard a ton of times, but I’m glad we are starting simple. It really gave me the opportunity to let my mind wander within the passages. When he spoke about in the beginning I remembered listening more carefully than I ever had before because I wanted to make sure that I picked up on something I heard Pastor Steven Furdick (love him- Elevation Church online/YouTube- I found him at my lowest point and his sermons got me through- more on that for a different day.) say in in one of his one of his sermons. He said- and I am super paraphrasing here- something to the effect of how God called forth the earth to produce the plants and animals (which in my mind led to evolution) but when he created Adam he actually reached into the dirt with his hands and created him his self and breathed life into him. While my version was not exact, this was so profound to me. I never truly grasped the importance of human life in the grand scheme of living things before I heard this. While I don’t really have a point here this is just one of my takeaways I wanted to share.
Then another portion that spoke to me was the way it talked about Eve eating from the forbidden tree, while I’ve read this story and heard it a million times something about today was different. I felt like I actually heard the story without a predispositioned defensiveness for all women (thanks for that, mom). I actually heard the part where Eve was seduced with knowledge into taking the forbidden fruit. While she was seduced, and we all know how easy it is to let happen, that does not free her from her consequences of her actions, as we have all had to learn. She then chose to seduce Adam in the same way. To me this felt very “today- breaking generational curses” Eve came from Adam she was a part of him and instead of taking the knowledge of what had just happened to her and breaking the cycle she chose to do the same thing to him. I also never heard the part before where God says that because of this women will always rely on men, I don’t think I was ever allowed to hear this part before. However, having a beautiful, messy, hard and successful 18 year relationship with my husband I (and don’t shoot me for this) find something deeply satisfying in needing my husband.      
These were my two big contemplations today and my takeaways are:
-          Just because God allows it does not mean he ordains it. In promises of God you should not take matters into your own hands.
-          This week think and speak positively
-          Intentionally respond to your doubts with declarations of faith!
Side note: It’s okay that I’m just now opening my 52 week Bible study that I intended for the year of 2023, in the last week of April. Better late than never. Regardless, I felt very accomplished to get that first chapter read.
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3/5/2023 DAB Transcript
Numbers 4:1-5:31, Mark 12:18-37, Psalm 48:1-14, Proverbs 10:26
Today is the fifth day of March, welcome to the Daily Audio Bible. I am Brian. It is a wonderful to be here with you today, as we greet a shiny, sparkly new week. And this week is out in front of us, and we are stepping into the first full week of this, the third month of the year. We kind of transitioned into this new month during the last week and so this is our first full run through a whole week in this month. And I am grateful and thankful to be here around the Global Campfire together with you today, as we take the next step forward together. And that of course, the next step forward begins where the last step ended and that will be the book of Numbers. So, we’ll read from the Christian Standard Bible this week, picking up where he left off yesterday. The book of Numbers, we’ll read chapters four and five.
Prayer:
Father, we love You, we thank You for this brand-new, shiny, sparkly week that we are moving into, and we acknowledge as we so often do, at the beginning of the week is out in front of us, these decisions that we will make, they are out in front of us and we can choose wisely from the beginning, from this point, right now, to walk with You and all of our thoughts, words and deeds. That we might in deed, and in thought, and in word do exactly what we were reading in the Gospel of Mark today, love the Lord your God with all your heart with all your soul, with all your mind with all your strength and love our neighbors as ourselves. There is zero chance of our succeeding at this, without us surrendering completely to You and becoming fully aware that we are utterly dependent upon You, and that all that we have is Yours, and that all that we have we are stewarding and that You have allowed us to do this, so that we might review You to the world. Come, Holy Spirit, and show us how to love You with all that we are. We pray this in the name of Jesus. Amen.
Prayer and Encouragements:
Lord, I came to You on behalf of Kathy in Kentucky. And I just thank You for blessing her with 31 years of freedom from alcohol addiction and just ask that You bless her health, Lord. Help her to…to follow the plan. It sounds like she already knows what she needs to follow, as far as diet and exercise and just ask that You give her peace and comfort in her heart, Lord. And I’m not sure why she wasn’t invited to the wedding, I don’t know if that was just uncomfortable because of her brother's death, or what. But I just ask that You give her peace with that and that You speak to her heart, as she needs to reach out to her, her former sister-in-law and mend that relationship. And Lord, I just ask Your, Your peace and blessing on her and her health. In Jesus name. Amen.
Hey family, this is Bobba D from Tennessee, offering up prayer today for Work In Progress and his daughter. Heavenly Father, be with work in progress. Lord, the father's heart is completely destroyed by this horrible news of what his daughters going thru. Lord, I ask that You be with him. God, I’m asking that You would give him the strength to keep praying, keep believing, keep trusting in You. Though we ask that You would intervene and get his baby delivered from this. The rumors of being trafficked, Lord God, would You send Your angels to fight on her behalf. In Jesus name. Bless you brother.
Hey, DAB family, it’s Sadie McFarland. I’m a student at __ University and I just listened to the February 26th readings and God is amazing. I actually had this, the topics of the vision of Elijah and Moses in that reading in Mark in my Bible study today at my church. That was really cool. But I really want to just take time and bless and pray over the gentlemen that called with his daughter being trafficked. That just breaks my heart and shows how much the world needs the Lord. So, please DAB family, let’s join together in prayer for a moment over this family. Please pray with me. Abba Father, we come to You today, humbly, knowing Your power, know Your might. And we pray that You would just pour out Your love and comfort on this family. Bring their precious daughter back. Help the sisters to be there for one another when that happens. And just protect that daughter, protect that family. Bring peace upon that house, upon that family, Lord. And punish those who have trafficked her. Laugh in their faces, because You have prevailed, and You have rescued this poor woman. I pray for her safety and her restoration to the family. In Your almighty, powerful name. Amen. Thank you all. Let’s continue that prayer daily. God bless.
Hello Daily Audio Bible brothers and sisters. My name is Michael, also knowns as Michael Rows the Boat Ashore. I come to you, humbly, asking for your prayers. My wife, of 35 years, 7 years ago was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s dementia. She’s in a nursing home, where she’s falling multiple times. I am estranged from her because of the decisions that I made in my past. I haven’t talked to her or seen her in 3 years. And my kids are currently not talking to me. But my oldest son reached out to me and gave me permission to go visit my wife in the nursing home. Her name is Ingrid, and she took a fall yesterday. And she’s in the hospital. I was supposed to go see her tomorrow, which was Monday the 28th I believe, or the 27th. Anyway, if you could pray for the situation. So, that I can restore the relationship with my children. And get to see my wife again. I’m 100% blind. And that isn’t gonna stop me from seeing her and speaking to her. Please pray for me. Thank you DAB family with all my heart. Again, Michael Rowing the Boat Ashore.
Hello, my DAB family. This is Mark Street from Sydney, Australia. Today, is Sunday, the 26th of Feb. And I was calling, I was just listening to today’s 25th podcast and just heard Junk to Treasure calling in, asking for prayers for her daughter. And that’s what I wanted. Heavenly Father, we live in such a world that makes us feel unappreciated, unworthy, unloved, by the surroundings around us, Lord. That put pressure on us, Lord, to meet expectations of this world, Lord. And Lord, You don’t want us to have to meet the expectations of this world. We only need to meet your expectations. Lord, open Junk to Treasures daughter's mind. See that, what the world needs, is not what You need. Lord, open her mind. Fix all the things that she needs, Lord. Lord, and I ask You to put a blessing also onto Junk to Treasure and the rest of her extended family as well, Lord. Lord, You know exactly what they need. And I am coming humbly before You, Lord, asking You to help Junk to Treasures poor family and her daughter, Lord. Lord, in Your name. Amen. Love you, Junk to Treasure, and I’m praying and will continue to pray for your extended family and your daughter. Mark Street from Sydney, Australia.
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December 27 2023
I really just need to give a recap on everything becaue i have had the most amazing and blissful year of my entire life. I just woke up today and tidyed up my apartment a little bit and went to the gym had some breeakfast and am now doing my journaling. I am so happy i live in new yorl i feel like it was something i really needed adn the fact that i can afford it is still insane to me like im out here making enough to afford a 5k nyc aartment like what??? but i am making like 20 k a moth which is insane. I started off the year strong with a nice 90k a year illustration jo btht was so incredibly enlightining and good for my resume and portfolio alike. i am so happy i had the foredight and motivstion to be postingon instgra nd tik tok consistantly nad in march when my first video went viral adn my folowers started growing it was so crazy how i was able to start aming real money on social media and I started to get gallery attention. I really would have done anything but the fact that i just get to freely fly from project to project and feel so fulfilled and get paid for it is amazing ot me the fact that i get to do freelance work but have my social media/ art work to fall back on becasue i am starting to gain traction as a visual artist for my vision and style so im now being represented by two great galleries! here are a couple highlights of the of the year! I am 90% vegan and am super proud wth how far my health habits have gone. I have a super solid moring routine down. in march i reached my ideal body of 115lbs and run 5k-10k 3-5 times a week. I read 3-5 books a month! I have 5m followers on ig 1m on youtube and 8m on tik tok. my social skills  have been so shrpened by a year full of blessed interactions w the best peole ever! I am doing amaznig work that i love that centers aroun fmy mexican heritage. I as able to visit mexico for the first time this year and it was an absoulte blast i feel like if everything happened this year because i also got my green card and my and teddys relationshi is stringer than ever i have never been more in love he has grown so muvh and is veeryhtin gi ahve ever wanted! a personal triumph for e has finished my acnh island! my other highlights other than art basel! have to have been moving to new york! visitng paris and treting my family be it geli and my dad to  disney tri or my mom to a retreat wholistic yoga trip together with her. I am also so proud o fmyself for how much i hav chosen to go through with educating myself and i am so grateful for all i have learned in feminist studies and i thinkits so cool that i got into college and have been taking classes here and there. I have a busy schedual but after becoming a more preset erson i feel like if 24 hours in  day is so much i feel like fi i am so much more prodtictive and i can get so  much done everyday. i am living my best day and i am mostly proud of how far i have come nad its insane to me how much i have grown how outgoing and brave and confident i have become. i am my bg=iggest cheerleader and i believe in yself so muvh!. christmas this w=year was the best having a little reunio with everyone being able to host so muh of out mexican family adn renting a huge house and having a big beautiful christmas party was so so fun! I am extremly gratful and blessed in all aspects of my life and i am so grateful for my inner bean for awasy being wit me and watcign out fo rme and gfor all thelessns i ahvel learned and for the gratifulying satisfyin and hapy life i get to live everyday no matter what
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