#since day three was attack

[starscoffeecreamer]

Bee using his scary dog privileges wisely and lets Blitzwing have his fun eating and offlining sexist bots who try to demean him for being a mini bot

this is what I imagine happens

edit: I quite enjoy drawing low quality doodles tbh so they're available to be asked for

#t&t answers anons #transformers animated #bumblebee #tfa bumblebee #blitzwing #tfa blitzwing #blitzbee #im sorry if this was meant to be a drabble if it is lmk so I can write one #would this count as #blitzbee week #since day three was attack #t&t doodles #doodle

[iero]

It's so stupid to be happy about this, but I finally made the call to make a doctor's appointment to finally talk to them about getting put on a new anxiety medication.

#personal #Bad news is it's in three weeks (My doctor is one of more popular ones in the building)... #I never said this but I stopped taking my Buspar a good two weeks ago and what do you know?! I have less panic attacks. #<- I still have them but not EVERY FUCKING DAY. #Anyway I'm 90% sure I'm gonna be put on an SSRI especially since they know I have MDD on top of my multiple anxiety disorders. #Like I'll be truly shocked if they straight up give me a Benzo at all. #And to be honest? I don't want them. They seem... dangerous and addictive and scary. #I was supposed to make this appointment at the beginning of LAST month at my doc's recommendation and then didn't. #And then I proceeded to have one of the worst months for my anxiety I've ever had EVER. It was time.

[arolesbianism]

Sier? I haven’t even met her! Laugh.

#keese draws #oc art #oc #ocs #eternal gales #today has been a shit day but Im feeling a bit better now that I’ve drawn sier #long story short one of my friends is being harassed by their ex #so I’ve been in a blinding rage all day and combined with me not getting enough sleep and cleaning all day today quite sucked #but hey. I drew sier and made them a new mini ref so that’s gotta count for something #but yeah sier my beloved I’ve been thinking abt them all day they’re just so cute and I love drawing them #I forgive them for being a human character they’re silly and have shapes #I now have only 4 eg refs to go I think? which is honestly a lot closer than I thought I was I thought this was gonna be another year of #last minute refs for artfight and some that don’t get remade but honestly this is super doable #rly the only big problem is going to be fydd since it’s been so long since I’ve drawn him properly #the other three are just dodie tali and bloom which shouldn’t be too bad at all #now idk if the icons are happening but it’s definitely feeling a lot more doable now so idk maybe I’ll get to some of them #key word maybe I make no promises #thankfully I don’t rly have any other ocs that I feel pressed to make new refs for so I can take it easy leading up to artfight this year #I’d like to get some of them icons but that’s not necessary #hopefully sier will get drawn this year she hasn’t been attacked since her old design from years ago lol #but sier is also a character I’ve gotten other pieces of art of over the years so I won’t be heartbroken if they keep getting ignored lol #I don’t rly know who I’d like to see attacked most tbh #obviously I’m always happy to see art of any of my ocs but usually I do have a preference #so Im excited to see who gets attacked even if it’s only a few of them #I’m willing to bet teke will get at least one attack I believe in him #hopefully teka gets drawn too I love her dearly as well #anyways shower time and then sleep time gn gamers

[yououghtaknow]

ben platt was so right when he said (to paraphrase) your heart can break so much that it breaks open and lets love in. that's 2023 to me baby.

#experienced Real grief and heartbreak for the first time in my life #lived alone for most of the year and really Grew Up because of it #lost the three people i was closest with and lost the person i became for them to love me (which is a good thing) #learned a lot about art and life and myself and what it means to Be Alive. #was this year objectively bad for me??? look at all my personal posts honey. #but i feel like i've Grown so much and i'm really proud of myself not Despite everything that happened but because of it #i'm not ashamed to have loved and made choices and to have been wrong about So Many Things!!! i am so young and always learning!!! #i feel like Myself for the first time in Years. and for the first time since i can remember i genuinely feel Fine. #a lot of things are bad and i have bad days (today was one of them) but!!! i am hopeful and i am Determined to survive and be happy. #i do not have to be great!!! i do not have to be good!!! i simply have to be and that is enough!!! #one thing i said this year that haunts me is when the person i was in love with told me i was being silly for having a panic attack #and i responded with 'why should i feel silly for experiencing true emotion?'. and that's just really guided me since i said it. #ANYWAYS. insane year for me. this time last year i was madly in love and denying So Much and this year i am Accepting and loving what i have #this has been the return of isaac's insane personal posts. which are happening So Much Less due to the healing but hey!! we ball!! #i love you friends who live in my phone <3 if you're still reading happy new year and may you find whatever you're searching for <3

[nexus-nebulae]

brrrrr (/pos)

#weight talk #<- just in case even though this is pos #but like. okay ive been. SEVERELY underweight all my life #like i looked like a skeleton you could see all my bones it was AWFUL #i just. I've literally always hated looking like that i hated looking like a walking corpse i mean i looked ILL #but recently i started taking remeron for anxiety #partially bc my anxiety keeps causing me to not eat properly bc i feel sick constantly #so i kept ending up in the ER for malnutrition and dehydration and my liver getting messed up #well i started the remeron for the panic attacks bc daily panic attacks suck but the psych mentioned it could increase appetite #and it???? did????? I'm eating on a slightly more regular schedule???? I'm eating more than once a day???? #and like. ok I've always weighed like 100lbs #highest i ever got was 111 when i was 16 #and then it dropped 10 #and then dropped 10 more in the span of 3 months while i was in and out of ER #and i was genuinely starting to panic over it bc i could PHYSICALLY FEEL my muscles getting eaten bc i had no fat left #like i was getting drastically weaker by the day my knees still won't stop buckling #but in the about three months I've been taking those meds I've. gained 10 back #I'm actually gaining weight like me and my mother are genuinely SHOCKED this genuinely hasn't happened since i was fucking TWELVE #and just now i took off my shirt and noticed. holy shit. my stomach doesn't go CONCAVE when I'm hungry anymore #like whenever i couldn't tell if i was hungry before i would just look at my stomach and be able to tell if it was too curved inwards #but now!!!!!!! it doesn't do that!!!!!!! and I'm genuinely fucking ecstatic like oh my god i don't look dead anymore #I've always wanted to gain weight i feel like i would be 100% more comfortable in my body as a fat trans man #and i can't talk about that to anyone bc they always say it's either self harm or fetishistic #when no i just genuinely feel more comfortable in my skin thinking of myself that way #and now i have confirmation that i would genuinely be happier that way with this bc the sheer joy i have at not being underweight anymore #i mean I'm still a bit under but at least im gaining SOMETHING like at least i dont look like a drowned street cat #seeing the very slight rolls and folds in my stomach when i move the right way makes me happy

[spyderschaos]

I have written sm lore involving how amber got spider powers and how she decides to become a hero but I feel like half of it doesn’t make sense

#by written sm I mean I’ve rewritten it like three times #also I think hee first villain is gonna be doc ock #but I feel like what I’m trynna do makes no sense #also in trynna decide if I should make her become gold silk before or after the first like idk doc ock attack ig #bc bc ok my idea was #she gets bit and immediately tells her friends cuz I feel like she would do that #hee friends are like variants of Gwen and Peter but with slightly different names #and my idea was that doc ock was the one that made the spiders and since he lost one he’s trynna find it idk how tho idk the power of #bullshit science ig #and then one day amber and her friends are in this place when doc ock breaks in cuz he tracked the spider down to being here (how he traked #amber? no idea) and while this happens the building starts sorta collapsing killing Pietro (peter variant) and so right before he dies he #tells amber ‘with great power comes great responsability’ cuz yea #and then after that she decides she should be a hero and ofc gwanda helps her (but not before trying to stop her cuz dangerous) #y pues that was my idea #but idk if I should keep it #help #spyder’s chaos #gold silk #amber alvarez #ocs

[thedreadvampy]

I fucking love my friend!!!!!!!

#red said #I've been staying with my friend since Thursday night #they are one of my two amazing trauma-bonded pals from way back when #the Gay Goth Goblin Gang #as we have renamed the groupchat since everyone came out #and we have just had a chill fuckin time. we haven't really done anything other than that they had a gig on Thursday #which slapped btw #since then we've just like. sat around. watched cartoons and Auntie Donna. listened to the Trump arraignment. #talked a wee bit about trauma and mental health #most of the time we're hanging out on the balcony while they smoke up #uhhhh we went to their friends house and watched dont hug me I'm scared. we went out for wings. i met their boyfriend #these sorts of things. super chill super low key. #anyway i am in my way to bed and i gave them a hug and thanked them for a lovely weekend and they said #'thanks it's been nice to have a couple of days free of anxiety' #and i just. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ i love them so much #tbh last time i saw them one on one (cause the three of us catch up most Christmases) i was kind of a mega ultra me #mess. like i had been in therapy for like 6 months and i was in the break it down phase of breaking myself down and building back up. #and we were smoking up with their friends and they were talking about a stag do they'd gone to back home that my ex had been at #and my ex. I have. Experiences. that I'm fairly sure my friend is unaware of or they would NOT have been talking positively about him #so last time we were hanging out i was attempting to hide a full blown ptsd attack while also trying to be Charming to Strangers #cause i wanted to talk to my friend about the thing that i was dealing with but i was too scared to 🙁 #this time has been REALLY nice. like super nice. #i haven't gone into close detail on anything but we've chatted broad strokes about a lot of both of our Shit #which is also what i found talking to our other bestie. we're all in a place where we can support each other without depleting ourselves. #and with enough distance from our teenage selves that we can joke about the whole nonces-hanging-around-14-year-olds thing #and in their case the violent homophobia thing #idk this is all getting really negative sounding but it's not negative!!!! i just love them!!!! #I'm really happy i made some time to come and just Be With My Friend for no reason with no structure other than Hang Out #it's nice!!!!!! i like them!!!!!! #also holy shit leeds has some good food

[guinevereslancelot]

headache. death and destruction on planet earth

#pain suffering etc #not as bad as last night tho but ughhh #chronic pain tw #this has been a shitpost #i need food probably but cant move bc kitty is finally cuddly :') #she hates me ever since we got the second kitty so this is a big deal #ive got cuddles like once in the past three months from pumpkin #makes me so sad bc i love her so much thats why i got posy to be her friend #and theyre both my cats but only posy is nice to me and cuddles me usually #and pumpkin is sooo sad and upset with me all the time bc of posy #but shes getting better and they play now and stuf pumpkin even groomed her the other day but shes still mad at me #and this morning she attacked me and i had to spritz her so im surprised she forgave me this much #but i trapped her in my room with me and played purring sounds until she settled down <3 #but now i cant move and i need food and advil lol #but not enough to disturb kitty

[daimaoryu]

hm.

#death mention #someone my dads age passed away #again(!) #like two of my dads friends who i knew personally ever since i was a small child passed away when i was in the 10th grade #and it fucked me up sooo bad lmao #i had full blown anxiety attacks for like three nights in a row and it was exacerbated by school and academic pressure and whatnot #i got over it with therapy thankfully (and also just by like. graduating high school.) #but maaan. i dont want a repeat of that #they all died from heart attacks too btw. like they were otherwise healthy afaik #just one bad day 😬 #the silver lining is that idk the guy who passed this time but. still. #my DADS age #idk what i would do with myself if my dad died and left me with my mom. i would not be able to handle that #negativity tw

[theghostofashton]

the hs depression playlist really hits different lmfao

#watching tvd the other night and i was personally attacked when echo started playing #that song like......peak hs depression hours #and ever since i've been going through this playlist and god all i fucking listened to when i was 14 was skillet and three days grace #and simple plan #combined w like. one direction lmfao my range... #it's the weirdest feeling to listen to these songs now this feels like a different person's music #honestly so glad i never deleted it #neha rambles

[antibayern]

Bayern crisis hurting nt performance, nt defeat cursing overall mood, mood dragging bayern players further into the mud... this could go on forever what is our plan to stop this

okay so my plan is to cheer for them so loudly that somehow, all the way through the ocean, they’ll feel my love and have no other option but to get their shit together and go back to their sexy cunty selves

#more seriously tho. i think the key here is ROTATION #yes i keep saying how julian has a cabbage for a brain and can’t seem to understand that lol leroy works his best on the left #or lmfao that sadio works his best starting alongside another attacker upfront #but #despite this shit. i think the bigger problem is that they’re TIRED #they have been playing almost every three days since the season started w just light variations in the lineup #yes we all know which formation works and which players we need #but he (julian) needs to let everyone adapt to their comfortable positions #starting w the newbies #they need play time not only to adapt but to let the other players rest #cause to me that’s what we’re missing rn. how can they be passionate and creative if they’re too fucking tired to even move their legs? #we can talk about the uefa and the fifa basically sucking their souls out of their bodies w their nightmarish schedules but like :/ #there’s not much that we can say about that right? they already exist they won’t be changed #so yeah #idk what else they (bayern/julian) could to tbh #asks #anon

[iero]

Had a panic attack that literally woke me up in the middle of the night last night and lasted until the early morning and let me tell you, that shit is TERRIFYING. Needless to say, I think I'm ready to go back to work.

#personal #Am I still in pain? Yes. Is it controllable when painkillers are taken though? Also yes. Somewhat. #Breaking news! #Girlie who doesn't have their mental health under control feels 100x worse being holed up in the place they live alone under for FOUR days #I literally have not left my house since my surgery on Wednesday morning... #And then I'm wondering why my anxiety/panic attacks have been God awful these four days... Gee I wonder why! #Like I don't wanna go back to work because capitalism but I need to for like... A distraction. #My thoughts have been racing and I'm just begging for people to talk to me in my personal life to calm my anxiety down. #It feels debilitating at this point. It's literally taken over my life. #And I have my anxiety meds but I only just got them so I have to wait that 1-3 weeks for them to actually 'kick in.' #I really should have asked my new GP for the tiniest amount of benzos to get me through this recovery. #And I don't even have a follow-up appt. for my recovery but I am gonna call them on Mon. and ask for one for my own peace of mind. #I've called this office three times now over the course of three days to make sure what I'm feeling is 'normal.' #Anyway!!!

[mrdinomaiz]

Feeling like shit about school and sending stuff in late and crying because wow it really is only the fourth week and I am already crumbling from the workload and stress

#Dino Personal Log #And like I know having ADHD makes it a lot more difficult for me but also you know. Having that midnight doubt about what if it's me. #I gotta talk with a lot of my teachers probably... But if they barely let me send in stuff after having to deal with three accidents in... #The span of two days and with just partial credit then I dun think they'll accept my ADD as something to give leniency to #Ah well. Sleeping will probably make me feel better tomorrow. I am so tired man... Crying is even more tiring... #WAIT am I having an anxiety attack since last week. If so this sucks ass

[esyra]

After the hospital bombing, I finally heard back from my grandmother and confirmed that several of my relatives were murdered by Israeli bombing. Seven of them, to be precise. Three are still going, including her. We've been talking constantly ever since.

Asked if it was possible to head south, and was told they did but were also bombed there. So they decided to go back home, in Zeitoun. Their home was bombed and they were pulled out of the rumble, then driven by ambulances to the al-Ahli Arab Hospital. There were people in every corner. Gazans sheltering, sleeping on the floor. Gazans dying on the floor, waiting for beds.

Four were declared dead on arrival, three were in need of surgery and other three were just bandaged. Then, a bomb was dropped in the parking lot that made parts of the ceiling collapse, like Dr. Ghassan Abu Sittah reported in that horrific conference/interview. Those in need of surgery died.

By the way, just in case you didn't know: the Church of Saint Porphyrius, the third oldest in history, bombed by Israel a few days back, was located near the hospital.

When looking for new shelter, they saw schools with signs hanging outside, "We can't take any more families." They met families, sympathetic but already sheltering too many people. They're now staying in an apartment building they found empty. Sleeping in the corner of the living room. If the family comes back, they'll apologize and leave.

Told me she was saving her phone battery for when the bombing stopped, and she had to ask for help to rebuilt the neighborhood. But she doesn't think it's gonna stop anymore. The ones still with her are mute most of the time, like they're saving energy, but she feels lonely and wanted to talk. There's no internet and to connect to WhatsApp, people are buying "a card from the supermarket, there's a password and username." Not sure what she meant. Still, the internet is inconsistent and won't load neither videos or images nor pages, so she doesn't know what's happening on the outside world.

Told her there were a lot of people protesting to stop the genocide, she replied, "The bombings are getting worse by the day." The bombing yesterday was the worst she ever witnessed. The entire neighborhood is infested with the smell of death, of decomposing bodies. Bodies are piling up in the streets and she's not sure if it's because they ran out of places to store them, but most of them are in bags. The smoke of the bombings hide the blue sky—she hasn't seen the clouds for a while.

Asked if I could share their pictures, names and dreams with people and was told, of which I partly agree, "they're not entertainment." If anyone genuinely cared, they would be alive—I'd argue there are people who do care, but I'm not gonna lecture her pain. And they don't deserve to be used to fulfill someone's sick fantasy. Told me to remember what some Israelis do with pictures of dead Palestinians. And I do.

For those of you who are not familiar, many times before settlers got together to celebrate the murder of Palestinians. For one, in 2015, Israeli settlers set a house in Duma, West Bank on fire. An 18-month old baby, Ali Dawbsheh, was burnt alive. Both parents later died of wounds and only a 5-year-old, Ahmad, survived, although severely injured.

Two celebrations of their murder are widely known, one at a wedding and others outside the court in which two were indicted for the terrorist attack. In the wedding, guests stabbed a photo of the toddler, Ali, while others waved guns, knives and Molotov cocktails. Israel's Minister of National Security, Itamar Ben-Gvir, was present.

That's what happens in an apartheid. Palestinians are so abused by authorities that their "innocent civilians" come to accept the brutality as necessary or are desensitized by our suffering. After all, it's been 75 years—get used to it!

So I won't risk the image of my loved ones, in fear they are used in these kinds of depravity. I will say, though, the world lost a young footballer. Lost a female writer and an aspiring ballerina. Lost a kind father, who was also a great cook, and a loving mother that enjoyed sewing and other types of handicraft art. Lost a math teacher and a child that wanted to become one.

People think Israel is testing new weapons on them. There's civilians arriving at the hospital with severe burns, which they thought was from white phosphorus, but apparently the pattern is different from the one caused by white phosphorus. It's widely believed Israel tests weapons in Palestinians.

Jeff Halper, author of War Against the People, a book on Israel's arms and surveillance technology industries, said: "Israel has kept the occupation because it's a laboratory for weapons."

They've ran out of drinkable water and the "aid" Biden sent was only for the South of Gaza and no fuel, for hospitals, was allowed in. Many shelves in the supermarket are empty. She said many are convinced that if they don't die from the bombing, they'll die from starvation or dehydration, or whatever disease will develop from the dirty water they're drinking.

Told me all people do now is pray, cry and die. Told me she hopes West Bank is spared. Told her Israel bombed a mosque in West Bank and dozens of Palestinians in West Bank are being murdered by settlers, so she bided me goodbye.

#palestine #free palestine #gaza #free gaza #may allah protect them #may almighty allah see our pain #hopefully she'll message me tomorrow

[steampoweredlovemachine]

fellas i don't feel so hot

#things are bad. i think #ive been running on 5 hours or less of sleep every day since the start of this week #i havent showered since sunday #i constantly feel like im being hunted for sport i keep having anxiety attacks #yesterday i had a mental breakdown that lasted THREE HOURS. #tomorrow morning i have a mechanics exam and i havent even studied much yet. and its 10 pm #im swarmed with assignments and i have my end of semester exams in less than two weeks #and the worst thing is. my birthday is in 3 days :[ #and i feel like i hit a new low

[sayruq]

The United Nations said Tuesday it suspended food distribution in the southern Gaza city of Rafah due to lack of supplies and insecurity. It also said no aid trucks entered in the past two days via a floating pier set up by the U.S. for sea deliveries. The U.N. has not specified how many people have stayed in Rafah since the Israeli military began its intensified assault there two weeks ago, but apparently several hundred thousand people remain. The World Food Program said it was also running out of food for central Gaza, where hundreds of thousands of Palestinians fleeing Rafah have sought shelter in a chaotic exodus, setting up new tent camps or crowding into areas already devastated by previous Israeli offensives. Abeer Etefa, a spokesperson for the U.N’s World Food Program, warned that “humanitarian operations in Gaza are near collapse.” If food and other supplies don’t resume entering Gaza “in massive quantities, famine-like conditions will spread,” she said.

The prosecutor at the International Criminal Court cited Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu and Defense Minister Yoav Gallant for alleged “use of starvation as a method of warfare,” a charge they and other Israeli officials angrily deny. The prosecutor accused three Hamas leaders of war crimes over killings of civilians in the group’s Oct. 7 attack. The U.N says some 1.1 million people in Gaza – nearly half the population — face catastrophic levels of hunger and that the territory is on the brink of famine. The crisis in humanitarian supplies has spiraled in the two weeks since Israel launched an incursion into Rafah on May 6, vowing to root out Hamas fighters. Troops seized the Rafah crossing into Egypt, which has been closed since. Since May 10, only about three dozen trucks made it into Gaza via the nearby Kerem Shalom crossing from Israel because fighting makes it difficult for aid workers to reach it, the U.N. says. For months, the U.N. has warned that an Israeli assault on Rafah could wreck the effort to get food, medicine and other supplies to Palestinians across Gaza. Throughout the war, Rafah has been filled with scenes of hungry children holding out pots and plastic containers at makeshift soup kitchens, with many families reduced to eating only one meal a day. The city’s population had swelled to some 1.3 million people, most of whom fled fighting elsewhere. Around 810,000 people have streamed out of Rafah, although Israel says it has not launched the full-fledged invasion of the city it had planned. The United States has said Israel did not present a “credible” plan for evacuating the population or keeping it safe. The main agency for Palestinian refugees, UNRWA, announced the suspension of distribution in Rafah in a post on X, without elaborating beyond citing the lack of supplies. U.N. spokesman Stephane Dujarric said the UNRWA distribution center and the WFP’s warehouses in Rafah were “inaccessible due to ongoing military operations.”

An absolute nightmare

#yemen #jerusalem #tel aviv #current events #palestine #free palestine #gaza #free gaza #news on gaza #palestine news #news update #war news #war on gaza #rafah #all eyes on rafah #famine #gaza genocide #rafah under attack #united nations #genocide