#she's the bad patient

[thankstothe]

#house md #gregory house #james wilson #screencap #s07e01 “Now What?” #one of the thing that bothered me about canon huddy #is it feels too close to the unrealness of s5 finale #just huddy becoming canon does not feel like it would be enough to offset all the issues house had building up in s6 finale #hes not even a bit bitter about wilson throwing him out anymore and it certainly wasn't just a cover for huddy #left unresolved #last patient's death unresolved (you can say it delayed if youre a pedant) #the overall stress from that wrecked building - unresolved #all this skipped overnight #even more of a rocky start to this relationship would be better #cuddy too #this is so ooc for both of them #like their characters got reset #i do wonder how proper huddy would look like in canon #like it wouldnt work long term either #but in s7 it just went too smooth #what does cuddy even gets out of it besides the initial thrill? #she is a freak and workaholic in a completely different way to house #literal mother #and an authoruty figure #they would clash so bad so fast it would be glorious #maybe it would be better if she didnt make it and house was already back on vicodin in the bathroom #also would give deniability to ooc moments #dont mind me *watching perfect house md in my brain*

[stuckinapril]

the neurologist i shadow is so funny bc she has a valley girl accent and yet she's the smartest person in the room. this woman was casually doing case consenus ab a man w frontotemporal dementia in the highest girliest voice imaginable. i want to be her i think

#case consensus is basically where several neurologists/doctors meet to decide what the patient's case actually is #im genuinely not sure why this medical center does it this way but they write down data on paper THEN input it into the digital system #which i have qualms w bc i feel like it wastes so much time #but literally my whole role at this internship is inputting this data into the system so i should probably be grateful they do it this way #but in that one meeting everyone was all over the place so this at the ending of the meeting this woman goes #“that... was frantic.” #in the most valley girl accent known to man #and ever since ive integrated this as my response to everything #youre right. that WAS frantic #she also was like “sorry im unfocused. need lunch rly bad” at one point during the meeting #this neurologist is just like the rest of us fr

[like-wuatafauq]

Korra gets so shitted on but she's one of my favorite comfort characters because she literally became disabled and they didn't try to hide it by being "oh she's still so strong cuz she's the avatar" or the "lets think about the positive side". They showed how depression hit her and how she alienated herself for 3YEARS, how frustrated she was to feel strong again, the shame she carried, and even how angry she got when others couldn't help her. People compare it so much to Avatar the last Airbender but completely disregard how other people found comfort in her story not to mention the lgbtq community and her progression with figuring things out with Asami. She went through a lot, it was not going to be a perfect story and she was never going to be a perfect person, and she could never be Aang. And that's okay.

#personal #txt #rant #sorry about the rant i ran into some bad posts #korrasami #korra #comfort character #some of yall be expecting traumatized people to not act traumatized #ALSO it showed how patient Asami had to be with her how gentle she was with her like ??? yall gonna shit on my girls??? #avatar the last airbender #tlok

[autumnwoodsdreamer]

Ahsoka and Sabine, master and apprentice? Nah.

Ventress and Omega, master and apprentice? I… wouldn’t say no, necessarily…

#that was… amazing. I have no notes. #I was prepared to not like it but she actually showed a patient and caring side to omega #omega #asajj ventress #the bad batch #tbb #tbb spoilers #the bad batch spoilers

[fucklestat]

this is literally one of the hottest scenes i’ve ever watched in my life

#just the . patient but teasing but firm way she's instructing him #she tells him he needs to talk to her and he immediately apologizes #she tells him to take a sip of his drink and he obeys #she tosses her hair and he laughs in panic #the encouraging 'keep going' when he starts to get it right #the whole fucking thing with his hair #he literally STOPS BREATHING and then GASPS when she says she wants to get her hands on it #never seen a boy who needs to be bossed around and praised and topped and hav ehis hair pulled so bad #and helen is the perfect person to do it <3 #the newsreader

[hahniana]

alright this it the third time i've seen an anime only question marcille's competence and the integrity of her writing as A Woman and im like what the hell is going on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heaven forbid someone be a cringe failgirl!!!!!!!!

#dungeon meshi #LIKE. is it really that bad as a newcomer???? #i know they're def playing up her role as the straight man/comic relief but god damn. she will be peak you just gotta be patient #and even as peak she's just got the failgirl personality like thats just who she is as A Person she has Character Traits #idk idk.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

oh im so Stoked - i got myself a little home hyacinth Kit! she's growing! look at her! Wow!

#the kit says she'll be blue! here's hoping! #i put her in a nice dark ventilated place As Instructed #now to wait... #itll be Weeks before she can come out and live in my room #but im patient! the time will pass anyways! #im just happy #my favorite flower <3 its gonna be in my room <3 #oh how i've missed having plants in my immediate living space <3 #ill just have to be very careful #cause hyacinths are highly toxic to cats #but i have many spots that they won't be able to reach! #so its fine <3 #photos from the bog #if i ever get myself some varnish or clear nail polish #ill put my posca pens to use and decorate the vase <3 #i really hope she grows and blooms and thrives #i love caring for plants... even if im very forgetful and bad at it...

[wtfuglydemon]

mirroring as a symptom is a doubled edged sword because it often makes you feel horrible because you not only have no sense of self, you will mimick the worst part of others and they will stack on top of your own problems, being around people who make others miserable will make you do that, being around people who are terrible will make you feel miserable (as obvious as it sounds, its more different than it is, as you kind of absorb their own bad energies for yourself).

it seems a lot easier to know it in retrospective but its so hard to notice when mirroring is what is affecting you because some people simply do not understand that mirroring is a thing, you only realize that when you start being around more pleasant people, people who are patient with you, comfort you and understand your problems and cares for you, once you find that relationship, be it friends or not you notice how much of what was making you feel so horrible came from mirroring those who do not care for you and mirroring those who does, often leads to a better and more stable self, because mirroring those who care for you, will lead you to caring about yourself.

#mental health #this is about my gf as she is so patient attentive and does so much to care for me and deal with all my worst moments that i often realize #im just mirroring her and it never makes me feel any bad her presence makes me entire day better simply because what she gives me to mirror #is a legitimaly good and caring person who does so much for myself that it leads to me caring for myself as well #lovetxt

[movielosophy]

till the end of the moon  | every time Ye Bing Chang talks...

#hahha #really had enough of her #but this plot is really interesting #In most dramas the female character usually resembles someone like YBC born from a concubine who has to endure harsh treatment #always (look) patient #Yet YBC possesses all the bad traits a girl should have (jealousy deceitfulness cruelty double-facedness fake tears). #She really exists just to make the audience mad #till the end of the moon #cdrama #till the end of the moon ep 22 #luo yunxi #character: tantai jin

[good-beanswrites]

If it's okay with you, could you write a drabble about the hypothetical aftermath of Amane getting attacked by Kotoko?

Welp thank you pal for making me absolutely insane with this request 👍 I ran through a few hypotheticals and realized I had to shift some things around since there were so many absolutely tragic outcomes. I worked something out but damn if it didn’t make me emotional to think about how uniquely rough Amane has it. Even making sure she's in a good place at the end, this got pretty serious, so warnings for child abuse and cult references. 

(So in canon, Kotoko goes in order and attacks Fuuta, but Kazui steps in. Then she attacks Mahiru while he’s distracted with his injuries. She’s about to attack Amane, but Mikoto gets in the way (my hc that he did it on purpose survives!). By the time they reach a draw, Kazui is back, and the two of them can prevent Kotoko from any further action against Amane. Sticking to this apparent system of three attacks and one rescue, I’m just shuffling around the injuries for this story. Fuuta’s attack went unnoticed, and he’s in the same state as canon Mahiru. Mikoto steps in before Kotoko can fight Mahiru, so Mappi’s the one who get out physically unscathed. While Mikoto checks on Mahiru, recovers himself, or discovers Fuuta, Kotoko is able to attack Amane next. Kazui comes to help, but not before she leaves Amane looking like canon Fuuta.)

Mahiru could practically feel her heart shatter into a million pieces when Amane finally cried in front of her. She hadn’t shed a single tear yesterday – it was the shock, Shidou said. Mahiru was skeptical. After all, she had been shocked, too, and cried plenty.

Amane woke as she came in with breakfast. She took a moment to survey herself, bandages peeking out from beneath her pajamas and an eyepatch securely over her right eye. As calmly as one might say “good morning,” she started to cry. Mahiru might have missed it, if Amane hadn’t wiped at her good eye with her sleeve.

“Oh, sweetheart…!” Mahiru rushed over to her. “It’s okay, I’m here.” She wanted nothing more than to wrap the girl in a secure embrace, but she remembered the mass of bandages that were around her chest. Shidou had mentioned broken ribs and bruises. It took everything in her not to cry along with Amane, at the thought.

“I can get you another ice pack, if you need. Or more medicine.” Her mind spun with ways to help with pain. Many of the first aid supplies had been used to keep Fuuta from the brink of death, but surely there were extras to spare for Amane. 

The girl just shook her head. 

She muttered, “I can’t… I…I’m going to be punished, I’m going to be punished…”

“No! You’re safe now.” Mahiru placed her hands gently on Amane’s arms. “Kotoko’s not coming back. We’re all watching over you. You’re safe. She’s not going to hurt you anymore.” 

“That’s not…” Amane pulled away. Her voice stayed level, despite hiccups interrupting her. A hand reached up to her eyepatch. “It’s this. It’s all of this. It’s sinful. I took it off last night, but he must have…” She started unwrapping it. “They’re going to punish me...” 

With a careful motion, Mahiru held it in place and took Amane’s hands into her own. She’d been picking up on the signs ever since they arrived here together, and a final wave of understanding washed over her. 

“I can’t let you do that.”

Amane’s expression twisted, though words came out far more frantic than fiery. “Let me go.” 

Mahiru didn’t. “I’m sorry. Amane, you need this treatment.”

“That is not your decision to make. That is not any human’s decision to make.”

Mahiru pressed her lips together. “I know. But I can’t watch as you… I can’t sit by again while someone…” She was careful not to apply any pressure, but she could no longer fight the urge to gather Amane up in her arms. “You don’t need to be afraid of those people, anymore.”

“I’m not afraid.” Amane hiccuped. “They love me, and I love them. I need to be good for them.”

“I love you, and I don’t want to see you in pain.”

“You just pity me because I’m young.”

“Why does your age matter? You are a lovely young woman – you are my friend – and I can’t bear to see you in pain.”

The two sat in silence for a moment. Mahiru doubted she would take that as an answer; Amane had refused to call any of the others her friend. At least she didn’t argue. In fact, it seemed she was leaning into the embrace a bit more. She sighed a shaky breath into Mahiru’s uniform.

“Listen, Amane. Can you do me a favor? I’m trying to be a good girl, too. To make up for something awful, I need to make sure you’re alright. Can you help me? Can we be good together?”

A long pause followed. Amane’s voice spoke up, ever so gently.

“I suppose I can consider it.” She added quickly, “for the sake of your redemption. Of course.”

“Of course.”

#milgram #amane momose #mahiru shiina #thank you so much! i dont want to be bubbly on such a serious drabble but i want to give an enthusiastic thanks because this one really got #the gears turning!! #i started making plans as soon as i saw the ask and it took so long finding something that wouldnt result in straight up tragedy :( #if i kept to the initial timeline and said kazui didnt step in until amanes attack then both fuuta and mahiru would be close to death #and given there seems to limited supplies i think one of them would have died if shidou needed to treat three critical patients #so i moved people around to make sure everyone survived #which brought me to the main problem of amane self sabotaging her medical care #even minor injuries could have resulted in death if she got her way and removed bandages/refused treatment #but the mental strain of keeping the treatment would be just as bad as the physical pain -- shed be paranoid 24/7 of #divine punishment and repeating the mistakes that led her here.... it would hurt more to be forced like that #so i needed someone to be able to get through to her gently #but the only one who shes been able to trust just got the shit beat out of him and is in no position to talk!!!! #everyone else would just make her more upset or not know how to convince her the right way :( #still - i think mahiru could do it the best! with her own trauma from allowing loved ones to die in front of her i think shed be motivated #so. yeah. #i know amane is supposed to be talking in the plural pronoun now but i couldnt get it to work - lets just say that kicks in soon after this #tw cults #tw child abuse #drabbles

[nattousan]

when

whe you, when You were just trying to put i n some extra effort to try adn improve yoursel f and it got misinterpreted as malicious n u get yell ed at

#i'm slow as SHIT at carving the wax when making the dentures #equally bc of time blindness and being meticulous #i am VERY aware of how slow i am and have been working my ass off to try and improve #so when i got told AGAIN that i needed to pick things up #i asked my sis who is also a lab tech how she carves her wax #so she vid called me on lunch to show me how she does it #SO TO TRY AND SHOW MY TRAINER THAT I WAS TRYING TO IMPROVE #i go #oh! my sister suggests i do this and that to improve! #and she gets SUPER MAD AT ME #she GROWLS #LISTEN #you can't keep calling your sister for every little thing #(i'd only done this one other time) #I'M your trainer NOT her #you need to STOP being so damn meticulous and just Pay Attention #and i've tried being patient with you but you need to pick it up #and i was just like #*see above image* #she did apologize later but i think she thought i was like.... #trying to undermine her somehow?? #by seeking outside help?? #bc i'm neurodivergent and asking someone who knows how my brain works?? #i know she was just having a bad day probably but having adhd means #Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria #and so i went home like #aheem aheem whimper #nat chats #moi loif #neurodivergent

[fruitsofhell]

After finishing She-Ra 2018 I'm trying to work on my unified theory for why CatDora bothers me as the endgame ship. Cause as CEO of mentally ill cartoon women, there's something about it that feels a disservice to Catra's psychology and trauma. She is genuinely such an interesting character to watch because they so clearly lay out the abusive dynamic that informs her entire character, but by the kiss, I feel like they lost steam with it.

The biggest thing to me is the simple fact that Adora is basically a trigger for her. Adora's personality as someone who is constantly self-sacrificing and forgiving is something Catra has a deep hatred for because she believes she is worthless and unforgivable, and when people try to help her she feels they're using her to look better while she fails to get better.

The fact that ADORA herself was the one in that original dynamic that traumatized the hell out of her makes me uncomfortable with how Catra eventually just... stops getting set off by things. I just can't imagine how what happened leading up to their kiss would desensitize Catra enough to that trauma response that she'd be in love with her. Like in that same season she was fucking death gripping the table at hearing Adora's name, and in seasons earlier she straight up like dissociated when people brought up her heroics. Not only the unearned healing, but the "I've loved you all along" feels a bit patronizing to her past. That all her emotionality was complicated romantic feelings, and not... having really nasty childhood trauma.

#shut the heck up #she ra #that damn cat #show was good btw #not a masterpiece - it was kinda corny in a bad way sometimes - but was fun #it felt like it wanted to be there and had ideas it was interested in #and i really like catra she is my fave as you can see #mentally ill cartoon women #im actually still getting my little pea brain around it cause her trauma and dynamic with adora is a lot #i like that the show was patient with her i wish it wasnt patient just cause it wanted her to kiss adora #imo she should be with someone else who is willing to stick up for her as adora does but isnt her #isnt the woman who's name and face can send her into self-destructive hysterics #something that is bad and needs ro change but she needs more time for than was given #wheres she-ra future where we recontextualize the casts trauma and show happy endings still need more time? #tag talking #media analysis

[stuckinapril]

I think I realized how severely humor infects all spaces when I witnessed two of my coworkers at the neuro clinic I’m interning at laughing at putting in a patient as deceased

#It wasn’t because the patient was dead it was because of an error the system did or something #But even joking about it in that context is fucking weird to me #I thought death would be the only thing humor couldn’t touch #Especially in the context of FTD which is a very aggressive dementia #I don’t think they’re bad people but I do think they’re weird as fuck for that #And if it were me I wouldn’t be able to sleep knowing I made that kind of joke #I don’t mean to be a buzzkill but I have my limits and wtf was that #I didn’t say anything I just pretended to be engrossed in my paperwork #The neurologist I’m shadowing wasn’t present #And while I do think she’s a little too robotic when dealing w patients I don’t think she’d have been in on that joke #Just odd idk the us healthcare system already has issues but I think a big one I’m starting to see is #How desensitized the healthcare workers get #Where’s your heart #I love medicine for the humanism of it I don’t wanna become like this one day #I know some people are gonna tell me it’s Just Two Coworkers Being Silly #But can’t they be silly about something else

[maskyartist]

yknow how u cant tell when a cat's in pain cause cat's cant just TELL U they hurt? so they scratch n bite?

yeah

yeah its kinda like that

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"I'm sorry"

"I know you. I can't stop myself from hurting you."

"I hurt. The hurt won't stop. Hurt how I hurt."

#masky says #trolls dreamworks #trolls viva #trolls poppy #feral putt putts au #viva struggles a LOT when separated from clay #they work a lot on having solo time with just them yknow? #an hour a day to show they'll be okay even if they dont know they're there #clay's very numb to it all u cant get a response out of him for awhile #while viva....she and poppy are tense #poppy's trying SO hard to stay cheerful and patient #but viva is so complicated and poppy has barely scratched the surface #viva KNOWS its poppy. she KNOWS shes family. pack. shes real real real. #but she cant help herself #shes not a bad dog. she doesnt know why she bites.

[michyeosseo]

Will you keep talking about love?

Yoon Hae Young and Choi Myung Gil as JANG SE-MI & BAEK DO-YI LADY DURIAN (2023) 1.01, 1.05

#kdramaladies #kdramaedit #kdrama #lady durian #durian's affair #yoon hae young #choi myung gil #아씨 두리안 #y'know i was about to have the easiest queueing time until i remembered jeon nomin also asking why and if she knows such love #the parallel makes me infinitely sad #that semi for the longest time was alone #but now having that experience grants her the capacity to be patient with doyi's lashing out reaction #after all these 'bad feelings' confused her once too #and if we're on honest hour YES YOU TWO DO SUIT EACH OTHER

[autistic-katara]

there r fics that make u insane (so amazingly good it’s removed ur sanity) and then there’s fics that make u insane (you need to fistfight the author for how they did a specific thing that caused u to rant for hours)

#i know i just posted that other thing but ffs that is NOT how u handle someone in that situation everyone involved made everything 10x worse #yet it’s being treated like the right thing to do (which again ofc they’re cops they don’t understand harm reduction but still) like #seriously everything’s so forceful like u seriously think forcing ur friend to talk to u or forcing a patient to talk to a therapist under #the threat of being admitted to a psychiatric hospital is gonna make her feel comfortable talking to u? or anyone? she’s just gonna trust u #less and get better at hiding it and speaking of which the taking away all sharp objects thing makes sense in theory but like think abt it #for a minute she confirmed she isn’t suicidal and this is her only way of coping so do not just forcibly take away all her coping mechanism #like yes she is hurting herself but it’s a COPING MECHANISM. she’s coping with something. help her with that don’t just take away her penci #sharpers or whatever (which btw since she’s an adult she could easily buy more stuff and yk learn to hide it better) which again has to be #voluntary it isn’t gonna work if u force someone to do smthn they don’t want to like as ur friend u could’ve made it clear u care abt her #and wouldn’t judge her for anything and r here if she wants to talk don’t just say “you have to talk to me” and casually threaten #hospitalisation when she isn’t ready in the moment like seriously if this wasn’t a badly written fanfic she would completely stop trusting #bcz given that this wasn’t even done out of panic i would like ffs u are NOT doing any of this right #oops sorry ranted abt the bad fic in my tags- #it’s not where the author’ll see it and know it’s about them i don’t feel bad abt it #this was my first time even looking at stuff for this fandom so #cw self harm in tags #idk if i need to tag anything else for that 😭 #fanfic #ao3 #ryan shut the fuck up