#retreat tag

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag

[ecoforesttreehills]

gravel ult of kill (+ vumo) holiday gift art for a server im on that took me 20303939 years to sketch out (lalala)

#iwas too exhausted to draw his wings or halo. hope this helps. #now I retreat back to my dyke v2 cave as god foretold #hi hb if you see this #gabriel ultrakill #gabv1el #<-not too much really but it was the original prompt #implied maybe? #ultrakill gabriel #ultrakill #ultrakill fanart #gabriel fanart #idk what tags to use for this guy #saff art

[charlunday]

it's okay to be sad. 💛

#tw suicidal thoughts #i should really start an art tag #the hunger games #peeta mellark #toast babies #everlark #hey everlarkshipper #this is what you meant right #right #I imagine that when Peeta feels particularly guilty/slips into a minor relapse/has an outburst (VERY normal for PTSD) #he retreats into their bedroom and locks the door. #Partly because he doesn't trust himself not to hurt his precious family (he wouldn't #ever) #and partly to punish himself. #This consists of hammering his head against things to have some painful distraction #and to reprimand himself. He copes how he can. #These episodes are few and far between #but when they do happen #he consistently has a very stubborn very chatty visitor on the outside of the door. #She doesn't see him as a monster #She sees him as her dad #who would never hurt her #who just has to hide sometimes

[tetsuooooooooooo]

the dells in emesis blue

#tf2 #emesis blue #tf2 engineer #oh wait lemme tag the source #sundown the vampire in retreat

[weaponizedmoth]

"Ladies and gentlemen, what we have here is a vampire in love with a human. Better integration than I could possibly have dreamed."

(just some Sundown The Vampire in Retreat fanart. More details and B&W vers. under the cut, etc).

:)

#I thought this movie was really cute and charming in a lot of ways #also I love Bruce Campbell's look in this one so much I had to draw him #I wanted to make him really warm to contrast her vampiric appearance which is more or less what they do in the movie #although he's pretty gray #I also like the costume designer's attention to detail like everyone is dressed more or less like they would be at the time they died #and a vampire western is just one of those ideas you pull from a hat that sound insane and are #but anyway charming film! I watched it twice this year! Then what! It's full on youtube so it's easier #I feel like she looked more like the actress in the sketch ALSO her actress played Muffy in April Fools Day????! #I fucking love that movie so much and Muffy is my girl she's like such an insane genius I love her to death #that movie is like a very long Are You Afraid of the Dark episode and this movie is a fairy tale with vampires. Iconic choices honestly #sundown the vampire in retreat #bruce campbell #I usually don't tag actors or actresses but I deserve this one #fanart #artists on tumblr #art #digital art #illustration #my art #digital drawing

[orderforbrian]

do you ever see a meme that is so in character and then it spontaneously generates on your screen

#tma #the magnus archives #tma memes #tma shitpost #elias driving a car to a staff retreat like he's holding them all hostage #order up! art tag

[ineed-to-sleep]

I'm watching Berserk and I may or may not have hyped myself up to turn my vampire ocs into dark fantasy characters. mmaybe

#sketch tag #so uh. pepper is kind of a guts basically jdjgkckkc #they're both in an army and they butt heads a lot bc pepper is big and stronk but very impulsive and reckless #but there's no griffith situation or anything like that it's just that vince worries abt her #and he's way more restrained as a fighter and a strategist. maybe a commander or second in command #and just like in vtm he's very paranoid and afraid of change. so he worries abt her and is also unhappy in the army but too scared to leave #so he broods a lot and mopes around and gets on her ass abt her recklessness #and just like in vtm pepper is impulsive and has a lot of pent up frustration and she uses the battlefield to release all of it #sometimes overexerting herself and nearly getting herself killed #she also wants to leave bc she's not sure she believes in what they're fighting for anymore. but then she loses her coping mechanism #things change when they have an argument where he reveals he cares abt her sjfjjfkf YES very cliche I am thriving #and she's dismissive at first but after being alone for a bit his words start sinking in #and when they're on a battlefield again there's a moment where they have to retreat and she's about to absolutely not listen to that #but then she has a change of heart bc she remembers what he said + she cares abt him too so she doesn't want him to be hurt by her actions #neither by him getting worried nor trying to come to her aid and putting his life at risk #so she retreats #and he's very happy abt that he thanks her later for what she did #and then she's like yeah sure I guess I didn't die but also guess what. I'm bored #everything she wanted to release back there she just didn't. so she's still frustrated and especially bc she had to admit defeat #and she's an extremely proud person. she's irritated #and he's like aight. I'm gonna fight you then #and she's like what. and he's like yeah #so he picks up a sword and throws another one to her and there's a *sexual tension play-fight* hell yeah babey #I'm having sm fun w this au can you tell jejfjckckkc #eventually they do desert the army they're in bc things get worse and pepper decides she no longer wants to be a part of it #and in a fight or flight moment she pushes vincent to make a decision and he leaves with her #and like the story is only getting started there bc then there'll be some big misteries in the story they're gonna uncover #which. I haven't figured out what they are yet #but either way akhhdskfha I'm having a lot of fun w this #sleep.txt

[butwhatifidothis]

Will never forgive certain parts of the fandom for letting the idea of "Claude being confused over Hilda's willingness to die for him is a showing of how morally lacking he is" become an idea that's any kind of popular.

This man spent the first 15-16 years of his life having basically no friends and having everyone around him either trying to murder him outright for attributes about himself he had no control over or otherwise forced him to completely fend for himself against said attempts on his life (Parents of the Year), but he's supposed to just accept that he has someone willing to die protecting him? With that someone being a person who presented herself as someone who would never do exactly that (and who in fact genuinely believed that she would never do that)? After he'd told them to retreat if things got dicey?

His parents literally wouldn't even lift a finger to help stop people trying to murder their child - they told his ass to Get Gud or perish. But him being horrified and baffled that someone would die for him means he's a shitty person who never actually cared for anyone in Fodlan. What complete balderdash

#claude #claude (fire emblem) #claude von reigen #don't normally post in the main tags but omg this take is so ass #''Local Man Raised To Rely On Only Himself And Not Others For Self-Preservation Is Confused By Others' Willingness To Protect Him'' #some folks: clearly this is evidence he never REALLY cared #also ignore his culture that teaches him that retreating to fight later is better than dying in a fight now #that can't possibly have anything to do with anything no it must be that he just doesn't genuinely care #because that is completely congruent with how absolutely distraught he sounds as he's yelling in horror over her dying for him #(oh ENG!Claude if only you were allowed the same emotional range as JPN!Claude because holy SHIT the difference is staggering)

[ivoryteeth]

gordon ramsay looking mildly confused.. yeah

#the way his teeth retreat back into hsi mouth?? what the fuck? #how do i tag this #gordon ramsay

[shopwitchvamp]

New bio just dropped-

Main highlights with added info:

-A reminder to please email us if you've got order questions or need help. Social media DMs aren't reliable and also make it much harder to connect you to your order, etc. Plus my bf is just way better at customer service than me lol, so if you email us things will get handled 1000x faster!!

-Anon asks have been disabled. End of an era, truly. But anon hate these days is so boring and uncreative anyway so what's the point. If you want to send an ask and not have it posted publically, just let me know if the ask. (But in that case, once again, it's probably a situation where you're better off emailing us rather than sending an ask that Tumblr may or may not eat depending on how hungry it is that day)

-Also I finally put into our tumblr bio that yes we are still just a 2-person business. I hear tell that my shop makes us appear to be a much bigger operation than we actually are (btw thank you so much for thinking things are too polished to possibly be a tiny business run by 2 people and a middle-manager dog out of an apartment), but please keep that in mind when it comes to what we're able to handle, how quickly we can expand/add products, things often being out of stock, etc etc.

#witch vamp #tumblr bio #bio update #announcement #also also about anon asks i pretty much woke up today and was like you know what! i value myself too much these days to leave anon asks on #lol #now asks are ya'lls problem instead of mine #although if *you* aren't a problem it won't be a problem anyways #and reiterating here in the tags again that if you have any kind of order issue or shop question pls pls just email us #i do tend to see things here at least (unlike twitter where it hides DMs from non-mutuals and i end up finding them like 2 weeks late) #but trying to run customer service from social media sucks and we'll all have a much better experience if you send us a support email #anyway all of this is just more steps towards living the hermit life of my dreams. retreating into my hovel and becoming inaccessable~ #expect more #haha

[bumblingbabooshka]

Mentors

#Mentors & Mentees who have the same thing wrong with them <- words by clementine-kesh that spurred this on #Janeway & Kim: Be a Hero - Blaze of Glory #Tuvok & Kes: Curiosity Hasn't Killed The Cat Yet So Let's Keep Going #bea art tag #Kes #Harry Kim #st voyager art #st voyager #Janeway #Tuvok #Kes & Tuvok going absolutely wild with their mind powers was something I wish we saw more of I just know they'd disregard a lot of bullshit #just to unlock some inner truth/potential/see what there is to see #Kes & Tuvok would go to some desert retreat and almost die just to see what happened bc they heard from some alien mystic that it would #help them talk to Alien God & unlock universal secrets #Harry: I think that guy might be a conman. / Kes: -packing- well we won't know until we try will we?? #Janeway & Tuvok self destructive habits excused as 'for the greater good'

[pepprs]

not to keep liveblogging the retreat but it’s over now (it has been for most of the day). i cried so much today and it was amazing. im so sad and so happy and so relieved and so tired and so proud

#purrs #retreat tag #i was rly anxious facilitating today and overwhelmed bc we had to pack (i didn’t help at all and felt terrible) and i didn’t finish writing #notes to ppl and i had to facilitate and i was nervous abt the emotions. and then we got there and i said the final words and started crying #and this time EVERYONE was looking at me. but it wasn’t sad tears it was like…. wow. look at this. we made this together. we went through so #much this week and also for three years and we did it and it all mattered so much and we’re here together. and i felt all my past and future #selves and pods and cohorts in that moment and all the ones i didn’t get to see too. and it was so… wow. and then i was bawling when we were #hugging goodbye and someone in my pod hugged me for like a solid 2 minutes it felt like and we were just rocking each other and crying 🥹🥹🥹🥹 #it doesn’t even feel real but also it was SO real. i can’t believe it’s over. not to keep talking a but crying but i cried for like an hour #when i got picked up and we went back to the hotel omg.. like this was MONTHS of intensive prep and planning plus 2 years of the heaviest LY #lifts to put on diminished versions of this magical thing and we got to do it this time and everything that led up to that mattered and the #ripples will roll out forever. im a little scared bc part of me feels distant from it bc i know so much now and have a lot of experience w i #it but like.. this program changed my whole life. introduced me to so many of the people i love. exploded my world into light. and i got to #be part of doing that for 43 other people. i feeel so lucky and warm #i feel cringy for talking abt it on here liek it’s disingenuous / just for performance but i rly mean that its just thisis my public diary 🥴 #like omg. 5 years ago. and 3 years ago. and last semester. and now it’s over???? but also it’s just beginning. wild #naur also im a staff coach now and it was kinda sad the distance i felt. like they were scared of me / felt like i was untouchable a little #bit but it’s like… im only a couple years older than you. someone in my pod was a year older than me! so that was sad. but it was good

[rh0mbus0fruin]

doodlessssss woy human au blehhh

#my art #wander over yonder #woy #sorry been getting a lot of notifs for my posts and I feel like the one joe biden image that goes “guys? *gets scared*” #like feel free to rb but I'm gonna start retreating back like a small animal #I soley keep putting tags to keep shit on my blog organized and stuff #black cube of darkness #lil bits #something the so and so

[jakeperalta]

I literally think being in the taylor fandom is making me a worse person like I am so not a hater at heart and yet I just get so irritated by the fandom that it makes me feel like the most negative bitter person :/

#my previous tags on that ask about how kelsea has similarities with taylor this year has really made me realise #like i see kelsea being very public in her post breakup relationship and doing things like lyric changes on stage or kissing after a show #and i'm like 'aw that's nice for them :) if they're all loved up why not show it :)' #and then i see those things from taylor and i'm like 😐😒🫤 #and the difference is that with kelsea i can see it and move on but with taylor i know i'm gonna see a million posts about it #and weird overly invested takes and analysis and annoying jokes #and it's meant that my automatic reaction is annoyance even though i'm annoyed at the fandom and not taylor #anyway this is just one example but i'm just realising that this fandom is like.. not a good place for me really #but it's tough when i've been so embedded in it for years and it's been such a good fun community at times #i'm trying to slowly retreat but idk it's not working that well #also doesn't help when my other fandoms are all quiet/on hiatus currently so there's no escape lol #talking

[peaceandgentletragedy]

10 min after this you get a POV of an EPF agent who should’ve stayed home

Inspired by the Cass Apocalyptic Series Comic by @somerandomdudelmao because that may be just some random dude lmao but they give me galaxy brain too often and I am super stoked about it

Update: POV You Don’t Get Paid Enough For This

#casey junior #rottmnt #bad day to work at epf labs #fanart #excuse me while I retreat back to my hole in the ground #rise casey #somerandomdudelmao #Cass fanart tag #If you think Casey’s eyes look different than they did a minute ago #no you don’t #shush

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb