#reminder first to myself

[bintturaab]

A very, very crucial thing for us as Muslims, is to never regret a decision you've made for the sake of Allah ﷻ.

Never regret the sacrifices you've had to make for Allah ﷻ, never think twice about things and people and dreams and wishes and a whole life you've had to leave for the sake of Allah.

The replacement of Allah is better than everything we've lost for His sake. And it's not even about the replacement. The pleasure of Allah is worth more than the whole world and everything in it, even if we never get the compensation for it in dunya.

One dip in Jannah, and we'll forget all the pains in this world. Being abe to gaze at Allah ﷻ is the greatest pleasure in all the worlds, in dunya and in aakhirah. And so we must train our hearts, minds and our nafs, to never regret any decision, no matter how small, that we made for the sake of Allah.

May Allah grant us contentment, and may He be pleased with us, ameen.

#txt #reminder first to myself

[even-disco-baby]

THOUGHT GAINED: INFERNAL ENGINES

PROBLEM

The world is ending. You know it, your neighbor knows it, the dealer knows it, the jailer knows it, the king and all his men know it. All one has to do is look around to see it— the future is curdling into something pale and incorporeal. The infernal machine that is this stupid world is going to blow, sooner rather than later. So what are you doing? Why are you still here? Why is anyone still here?

SOLUTION

You are doing the only thing worth doing. You are living. *Why,* you ask? Try and remember now. Remember your mother’s hand on your shoulder. Remember the taste of a fresh catch. Remember the times when you were kind to the dogs in the valley and they did not bare their teeth. Remember the weight of a child on your shoulders. Remember the stars throwing their light against the wall of sodium and smog. Remember singing until your throat was raw. Remember crying just as loudly and publicly, and the gentleness with which someone opened your curled fist and pressed a handkerchief into your palm. Crying, laughing, running, eating, screaming, haunting, loving, fighting, fighting, fighting. The fight fuels you, and you fuel the fight. You run yourself ragged just for a chance to keep running. You never stop. You cannot stop. The world depends on it. *You* are the infernal engine. You are the world. And, simply put: you want to live.

#disco elysium #thought cabinet #suicide tw #smth a little different #this is actually smth i would like to include in a full length one shot #but i think it’s gonna get edited p heavily for the fic this is just a first pass at it #but. i like this draft of it and i want to archive it #feels like me and all my loved ones have death on their minds most of the time lately… #reminding myself that keeping myself and all the ppl i care about on this earth is what everything is about #always and forever

[theelastword]

something new about aziraphale that i’m getting emotional over on this fine night (no one is shocked): i cannot stop thinking about the first scene of season 2. specifically i cannot stop thinking about the fact that even then, in a moment where both he and crowley even looked younger due to their innocence / lack of doubt or questioning just yet, aziraphale is already doing somersaults to worry for those around him. he doesn’t even KNOW this angel, and the idea that crowley could get in trouble for asking questions shouldn’t occur to him yet, but he’s still so burdened by anxieties and doubts for other peoples’ well-being and conditioned to protect others at his own expense (not to mention eerily close to seeing through Heaven for what it is). aziraphale is so fundamentally good, worrying about other people and caring about them before the very idea that bad things could happen to a fellow angel SHOULD have ever crossed his mind in the first place. and to me that disproves all notions that aziraphale is naive, because he’s been tragically aware since before the Beginning— and before crowley. which makes moments like the post-Job “what does that make me” scene even sadder because by all accounts, if aziraphale was familiar with what it’s like to doubt and worry before the Fall even happened, before he ever should have known what those things were, then he should have been one of the angels to fall, right? Wondering and doubting and worrying about things leads to a Fall, right? Only he didn’t. In a world in which there’s a line dividing doubtless, brainwashed, “happy” angels from doubtful, too-curious-for-their-own-good demons, aziraphale might just be the loneliest being in existence. he’s quite literally the sole person (that we know of) who stayed an angel but is forced to carry a burden that never should have been his, that NOBODY around him in Heaven has to carry. and he can’t ask about it because now he knows for sure where asking questions leads you, but he probably doesn’t understand why he has to carry that burden in the first place. the one he’s been carrying it since before Earth was even created.

#i cry #aziraphale i’m shouting your name from the rooftops #i’m gonna need every post-s2 hater to leave him alone before i snap #and become not unlike Clint Barton in the first few minutes of Endgame #i gotta start attaching myself to happier characters #remind me to work on that #it’s my new year’s resolution #alexa play mirrorball and the archer by taylor swift but press play on both at the exact same time #good omens #aziraphale #aziraphale defender #good omens analysis #good omens text post #good omens s2 ending #good omens season 2 #crowley #aziracrow #neil gaiman #michael sheen #david tennant #aziraphale defense squad #aziraphale x crowley #gabriel x beelzebub

[essektheylyss]

did someone actually hate on your fave? or did they neutrally attribute a trait to them that you've unnecessarily negatively moralized and you hurt own feelings about it? or, perhaps, did you project too hard and now interpret even mild critique or simple acknowledgement of interesting character flaws as an ad hominem attack on yourself?

#like I'm sorry but. as an essek stan. skill issue. #ngl I'm more inclined to block someone going 'essek is baby who has never done anything wrong in his life and he should be exonerated' #than someone going 'essek is a horrible criminal and he should die' #the first is like 'incorrect. even his partner does not hold this opinion.' #the second is like 'depending on your tone it's possible you have a point. let's talk it out and see if you do' #I myself have also had my fave formally executed on occasion. for kicks and angst. 😌 #actually laughing this reminded me of a one-shot post live show that I never finished where caleb and essek basically have this conversatio #I should actually finish and post that #anyway this is not that serious it's just constantly on my mind on this hellsite

[sopuu]

what a lonely victory.

#mcyt #mcyt fanart #goodtimeswithscar #goodtimeswithscar fanart #slsmp #secret life smp #trafficblr #life series #cw blood #sopuuart #ok i screamed abt this on twitter already but this is SUCH a deserved win #like he played it so well- snuck into so many different groups and eliminated so many people #he’s just someone that makes people underestimate him at first but is actually a force to be reckoned with #ALSO the way he’s been wanting to make friends the whole time. only for the secret keeper to guide him towards making enemies #until ​scar eventually yields and embraces the villain they want him to be #which then led him to victory #it works so so well narratively and i constantly have to remind myself this isn’t a scripted series #good soup

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

close

too close?

(the correct answer is all 3 at the same time of course)

#ninja showdown #my immortal soul #first ninja x chase young #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #chase young #rc9gn #xiaolin showdown #if only people knew how much a think about them and the way i draw them. everyone will lose any respect they ever had for me xD #someone said on one of my previous art that this crossover ship is very 2014 and honestly? i WISH it was #i just know it would have been so popular in 2014 xD lol i would have started my insanity so much earlier and maybe now i'd had a lot more #content to go crazy bout cause uu sometimes i cringe at what i create but then i remind myself that if i dont create my own ideas who would

[florsial]

Regulus cries more often than not. It's something he's picked up on during the war. When he felt like there wasn't a light at the end of the tunnel, when he felt as if he couldn't differentiate between the nightmares to reality. He doesn't sleep because of it, he just spends his nights crying. Walburga told him he sounded like a wailing baby. She doesn't look at him.

But James notices he cries more after the cave. Mornings, afternoons, nights. He can hear it from his room. When he eats breakfast. When he slips under the blankets. During meetings. It rings in his ears. In Sirius' too, he can tell.

They don't do anything about it in the beginning. James didn't want to be overbearing, so he just let Regulus be, let him cry it all out. But it seemed as if there wasn't a bottom in the endless pit. Regulus just kept crying. Crying. And when he isn't, he just stares off. It isn't much better than the wailing.

One day, it gets too much. When he hears Regulus crying, he walks into the younger's room and starts to cry as well when he sees Regulus doing nothing but just sitting at the end of his bed. His face was in his hands and crying, wailing, again and again.

"I'm sorry, I-I'm sorry..." James says repeatedly. He doesn't know how, but he finds himself kneeling in front of Regulus, his face buried in the younger's knees. They are both crying. He's apologizing and Regulus is wailing without words.

It's almost comforting. The two of them acting like a complete mess together. Sobbing in each other presence. Holding onto each other for dear life because they don't know when it will slip from their grasp during the war. It's so comforting that James doesn't realize when they've stopped crying until his weak and broken repeating of, "I'm sorry" is finally stopped by Regulus carding his fingers into his curly and whispering, "I'm sorry too."

They both feel lighter after that.

#i actually don't know why i wrote this #but my mind the entire time was just #regulus would look so pretty when he cries regulus would look so pretty when he cries regulus would look so pretty when he cries- #💥🤛 I NEED TO GET MYSELF TOGETHER #its like tuberculosis during the 1800s #walburga getting war flashbacks from reg's crying cuz it reminds her of when he was an infant #sirius is having the exact same flashbacks btw #regulus parenting squad 💪 #marauders era #regulus black #james potter #jegulus #starchaser #james x regulus #first wizarding war #sunseeker #jegulus microfic #poor james #again #florsial's microfics

[suntails]

a living bolt ⚡

#im kicking my feet and blinking so cutely at u. im deranged #iiiiii ouuhggghh the money id pay to see sebeks UM animated like. full anime cutscene style. itd be so gorgeous #my fx anim skills are SEVERELY lacking in everything outside of basic liquids so i cant do it myself. GRGAGAHH #its okay ill just be so brave and imagine it in my head #i said this on twt but i think its so funny that last week i was like 'maybe silbek isnt my fav sil ship anymore' and then this shit droppe #like. dude theyre in LOVE. i. i just. im fuckign weeping #anyone that thought sebek didnt care abt sil or was j annoyed by him? take it back. u can have backsies so take it back #twst #twisted wonderland #ch 7 spoilers #book 7 spoilers #sebek zigvolt #twst silver #silver vanrouge #weeping #suntails #silsebe #silbek #fuckit im tagging them #also posted to tumblr first. casual occassional reminder that i like yall more <3

[emetitur]

kaveh - at the drawing board

#yes you saw right it's been 4 months since i first sketched this #spot the al-haitham #love putting cameos in genshin art like im making a where's waldo page #anyways. i drew this for my lockscreen to remind myself to not give up on work and i hope it does something for you too #kaveh #alhaitham #al-haitham #genshin impact #kavetham #art #my art #mine

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

"Laughing stock" can be their ship name ;)

OHHHHH GALAXY BRAIN thats so good omg. LaughingStock my beloved <3

#i KNEW there was a fitting name along those lines #my dumbass self was sitting there last night like 'something... stock... joke... nah theres nothing' #but you Got It ty ty #with the help of everyone we can get this name Approved and Widely Used & Accepted #because its stellar #either way im gonna be tagging my howdy/barnaby stuff with it #welcome home #scribble salad #rambles from the bog #welcome home puppet show #howdy pillar #barnaby b beagle #LaughingStock #edit: and no one will see the reblogged version where i lost my mind in the tags #over CONTINUALLY FUCKING UP THIS SKETCH #first i forgot his antennae that i Actively Reminded Myself To Draw while making this #then i updated the pic here but i accidentally erased a bit. and also the blushy effect is gone now so fuck me i guess #im incensed <3 purely off my rocker <3

[our-transmasculine-experience]

sorry it's been a while everyone.

bunch of family stuff. not to get too heavy but my conservative parents found my journal with every little detail of my life since 6th grade and for personal reasons, things got a bit heavy.

i'm back, however! my askbox is incredibly daunting, but i'm going to start going through them. askbox is open btw!

thanks for being patient

#not surprised that the first thing that happens when i logged into here #was a message through my dms about a transmasc person being assulted #even though i've specifically said not to send ask material through my dms #and reminded myself why i took a break in the first place

[s0fter-sin]

thinking about the way ghost doesn't hesitate to start killing shadows when graves betrays them but soap only takes one hostage

you can almost hear the voice in his head telling him it doesn't have to be this way; they can still talk it out

"i'm calling shepherd"

his first instinct when confronted with betrayal is to play it by the books; to go up the chain and sort it out democratically. that goes against everything we've seen him do; he’s quick to drop his enemies and bucks authority at every chance except for the one time he's confronted with the barrels of his allies' guns

he wants a peaceful resolution; for the first time we've ever seen, he doesn't want violence to be the answer

there has to be another fix, a solution that doesn't end with him killing the same men he's been working with; his friends

nothing's happened yet

it doesn't have to go this way

but ghost has been betrayed before. he knows the way this ends; either with him six feet under or his enemy

he doesn't hesitate

it's only when they knock alejandro out that soap shoots; when they spill the first blood and cross a line they can never come back from

only when ghost orders him to run and he has to cover his retreat

and somewhere along the line, between civilians’ screams and taunting voices, between his shaking breath and ghost steady in his ear, that naivety is stripped away; his trust turned to teeth that he uses to sink into throats of men he'd have given his life for

"be careful who you trust, sergeant; people you know can hurt you the most"

he's learned the price of trust

just like ghost did

but unlike ghost, he has someone to guide him through the aftermath

"good advice, It"

#i might crown myself the ceo of soap meta at this point i love digging into this boy #but it seriously fucks me up how much he tries to de escalate the situation #invoking shepherd like hes trying to remind graves of who funds him and the power he holds #the consequences he’ll face if he goes through with this. just stop and think it through first #only to be stricken silent when graves drops ‘general shepherd sends his regards’ #he doesnt say a single word after that #ghosts the one who picks up the lead for him ‘he knows about this?’ #he can still function through his shock and the gut wrenching betrayal bc he’s been through this before #and he knows freezing will get him killed #but soap doesnt #he freezes #getting shot is something he wouldve been through before but being shot by an ally? #at that moment he isnt sergeant mactavish #hes johnny and hes in shock #and thats why ghost yelling for johnny doesnt reach him #he only breaks through when he calls him soap. when hes forced back into a soldiers mindset #thats all thats keeping him going. he isnt johnny a man whos been betrayed by a friend #hes a soldier following direct orders to keep himself alive #i can only imagine the after #when he lets his rage run out and is faced with the vulnerable and painful betrayal #but ghosts there to help him through that too. there for johnny the way he wished someone had been there for him #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #cod mw2 #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #soapghost

[nordsea-horizons]

new entrance on nordsea🌾 my airport is very close to resident services so i do struggle a bit when designing this area and usually tend to hide one or the other! however this time i wanted to recreate a bridge area for the entrance similar to one i had a long time ago and i think it turned out pretty nice🌻

#reminding myself to keep it simple every step of the way #i did two other layouts before deciding on this one #i only knew i wanted many shrubs and a bridge somewhere #so the first attempt was a diagonal bridge and it just didnt look good #nordsea forever island💛 #acnh #animal crossing #animal crossing new horizons #new horizons #acnh island #acnh exterior #nordsea #acnh nordsea #acnh entrance #acnh bridge #acnh resident services #acnh autumn #acnh fall #acnh november

[filthyguts]

comic I made two years ago and forgot about

#my art #queer art #queer nsft #nsft #suggestive #hooray for gay people! #this is literally like 2 years old based off personal experiences trying to put on a strap for the first time LMAOO #now I sling dick like a champ 🩷 #this is also a reminder for myself to buy a new harness bc my current one is in tatters 😭 #comic

[funkbun]

mr. bus

#wambus doodle energy coming back to me once every varying amount of months #i gotta remind myself when Wambus n Triff got together. but i personally think they dated as teens or younger adults #then later on decided to get married #wambus was crushing hard on her first while Triff was slightly oblivious #bug game

[cypher05]

so about that eclipse. huh.

#VALORANT #valorant cypher #valorant omen #valorant fanart #cypher valorant #omen valorant #cyphmen #shadowwire #cypher #omen #valorant art #cypher x omen #GOD THIS TOOK WAY TOO FUCKING LONG #the only finished work ive had in months and its fucking shadowwire fanart #what kind of hell is this #popping back in to remind myself i am in fact an artist #i made this damn account for art not silly doodles #first actual actual art and its. christ there is something wrong with me #i will promptly disappear into the shadows and never return #honestly cannot describe it but finishing this is like. #encouraging and inspiring to get back into writing #may or may not do that in the future #ive wanted to write valorant fics before but ive never had the bravery or motivation to do so yet #shadowire