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scrapyardboyfriends · 7 months

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In my opinion, 2015 was quite good even without Robert and Aaron (though that really stepped it up). I actually found the Ross/Debbie/Pete storyline really captivating, especially with the reveal at the wedding and then them thinking Ross died. It was quite well done. After 2015, I started to lose interest if Robert and Aaron weren't involved in a story. Also, the ships were better in 2015 too. Robron had electric chemistry, and Ross and Debbie had genuine chemistry as well, and I think that's something really lacking in the ships now. As a result, it makes it hard to believe that there's actual love between the characters. Like I'm sorry but are we meant to believe Mack loves Chloe, because there's NO chemistry there lol. You know things are going downhill when they're seriously planning on getting Victoria with her ex fiances son lol

I wasn't the biggest fan of Ross and Debbie but they definitely had more going for them than any ship these days. I was far more of a Ross and Donna person. That was good stuff.

The relationships these days are tragic. They just throw people together with no build up and then it's like "set it and forget it". They get no development as a couple until suddenly they have a random plot that either breaks them up or lasts for two seconds and then they're off screen again.

I was trying to think if there are any couples in the terrible trio's run that I've though actually worked.

Bernice and Liam are one that I thought actually worked really well and they did get a lot of fun story and development. It's just a shame that Sam had to leave and screw it up because nothing they've done with Liam since, relationship wise, has really worked as well.

Liv and Vinny worked fairly well. I mean I have my own personal reasons for appreciating that relationship but they meet all of my low bar criteria, which is impressive these days. Because Liv was ace they couldn't just have them sleep together and suddenly be a couple. They actually had to tell a different kind of story. Different being that there was a story. Haha. But no, they had to go through different stages because of the ace aspect. And that gave them more time for development. Plus being the romantic subplot of the Paul saga gave them more screen time to develop too.

Jai and Laurel were a good match. And they did actually get something of a story getting together although they could have done a bit more. But they've at least had various plots over the years to actually develop them as a couple.

Marlon and Rhona reuniting worked fairly well. Now, I think they work largely because of all of the history between them that the terrible trio had nothing to do with so I can't give them too much credit.

Matty and Amy I like, but I like them in spite of the absolute nothing that the terrible trio have done with them.

Billy and Dawn I liked in their first incarnation but I still think they missed a huge opportunity to have Billy be a part of the Malone lie and be ride or die for Dawn in that crisis. Instead they broke them up and only really put them back together again because they had to replace David and Vic in the Meena story. Now they're...fine I guess but they only get annoying kid stories.

But the rest...

Vic and Luke were insulting. Vic and David were okay sort of until external reasons ruined them and then they should have just let it go. And now we have this Vic and Jacob thing, which is just weird. Ethan and Marcus were a whole lot of nothing. Nicky and Suni could be something but I have no faith in these people to actually put in the work. Wendy and Bob have been pretty awful. Wendy and Liam were horrific. Chaddy lasted waaaaay past their sell by date. Belle and Tom are boring. All of Gabby's relationship attempts have been terrible. Brenda and Eric and pretty dull and are really only together because the actors are together in real life. Mack and Charity really never worked. Mack and Chloe is a joke. Amelia and Noah are kind of obnoxious. Arthur and Marshall could have been something but then...weren't. Will and Harriet were...not great. Will and Kim are so mismatched they have never worked for me and their relationship also came out of nowhere and was never developed properly. Andrea was the worst thing that ever happened to Jamie. Andrea and Charles were pointless. Charles and Manpreet could have been something but they overly relied on their convoluted past and haven't developed them since. Jacob and Leanna were all over the place just for extra dramatics when she was murdered. Graham and Rhona were terrible and never made much sense. And Ben and Aaron were obviously an abomination.

I could go on but you get the idea. I really think relationships are one of the biggest things they need to work on. Because they can be great sources of drama but also great sources of positivity if done well. And the show is desperately in need of the occasional bit of positivity.

#emmerdale complaints corner

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sugdenlovesdingle · 10 months

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I’m out with Emmerdale. I really didn’t think that show could reach the bottom of the barrel as much as they already have but they actually exceeded themselves. From what I have seen and, it was just one comment so it might be a supposition from the writer of that post is that Marshall was axed, which i would agree with what we know now. Notably due to the apparition of the aunt, we never heard about, of course it was supposed that he had other family than his father but why did she was never mentioned in any of the storyline he got. Now, if he got axed, I seriously won’t understand why, the actor wasn’t the actor of the year, he didn’t smash Emmerdale with his storyline and honestly him and Arthur could have been way better than they were, but he was a promising addition. I scoffed at the article that announced his departure after they said the ship was being compared to Heartstopper, I wished they had just an ounce of what Heartstopper got. I agree with the post you answered : what was the point of their storyline, how can they get together and then we hear nothing for months (because of the actors having exams) then they are back and they have a fight out of nothing and we are being told it’s been like this for quite some time and now departure. It just doesn’t make sense, it’s not a coherent story ( we know the writers suck but…) which also is the reason why I am thinking of the actor’s asked to leave. I mean at that age, he might not know what he want and decided acting was not for him. Also, I immediately thought about it when I saw the news and I hope it’s not the case but he might have had pushback from his classmates or others for playing a gay character or Emmerdale pushed back because they got told off by somebody that having a gay couple below the age of consent is not possible, especially with the ongoing issues in England with people pushing the lgbtq being gr**mer who lure children. Maybe also there has been criticism because the show is too “crowded” with lgbt character and of course Emmerdale being who they are decided to clean up just like they did when they killed Lawrence, Finn, made Kasim leave in an previous era. There is this new couple with Nicky and Vanessa is coming back so…

I am sorry, it was longer than what I intended it to be but if it’s Marshall that bite the dust, when there are dozen of others characters that should just leave, than Emmerdale is just the dumbest, most incoherent show that I might have ever come across. The funny part (that is actually very sad) is that the picture of his departure had the most intimacy, him and his supposed boyfriend had, since his introduction.

Let it all out anon, tell me how you really feel. 😉 Yeah the whole Marshall thing is stupid. I saw an article from DS though that suggested that this might have been the plan all along (based on a quote from one of the terrible trio). That the whole point was to have Arthur experience his first heartbreak... but then there are other ways they could have done that... and have them actually act like boyfriends. Alfie is 15 (thank you Google) and I'm guessing the kid who plays Marshall is too - even 15 year old actors can play a couple. Ok they can't throw them together and have a drunken one night stand (that's probably what they'll do with Nicky and Suni) but there are other ways to portray a couple than just sex. I think they get compared to Heartstopper because they're young - even though the Heartstopper boys are older (the actors - not sure how old the characters are supposed to be). But it does show how you can tell a romantic relationship story without throwing the characters into bed together. They would have to be careful (for lack of a better word) on how/what to do with them as a couple but I'm sure they could have come up with something in between random hook ups and what they actually got. And I know Alfie's mum is very involved in everything Emmerdale, and I'm guessing the kid that plays Marshall's parents/guardians are too since he's under age... so between the parents, the actors, the writers, and the terrible trio, i'm sure they could have come up with something that everyone was comfortable with and still gave us more of a story than whatever the hell this was. I don't think it's got anything to do with the facebook bitching. I saw comments about Suni today too - how Emmerdale needs to look at actual Yorkshire villages because that's not how it *really* is. Apparently brown people don't exist in Yorkshire - who knew! Just wait until they find out he's into guys too. But emmerdale has never given a shit about what's being said on social media and stuff. The only time I remember them ever addressing a reaction to a story was when they announced Laurel having an abortion after finding out the baby had down syndrome. People still bring that up and that was actually really well done (for a change). As for the show being too crowded - they can't seem to hang onto their actors for more than a year these days... Naomi, Marcus, Marshall, all left or are leaving. Liam Fox/Dan is apparently doing panto this year and hopefully at least leaving temporarily... and they just brought in Charles' parents and gave his dad an aneurysm so he's living on borrowed time too. If they really wanted to do a clean up they should bring back Meena and let her get rid of some dead weight. (not going to happen but a girl can dream)

#Anonymous #emmerdale

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archivyrep · 1 year

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It makes my head hurt: Analyzing terrible records management in "Tangled"

As I said on Twitter, when I posted these images (which I've combined here for your benefit), "Rapunzel, I know you love Cass, but can you organize your scrolls, books, and artifacts (?) correctly? 'Cause this looks really bad. What's your organizational system here? Stuff is gonna get lost, I guarantee it."

Ever thought, what would happen if you stuck a bunch of valuable scrolls in a wall, inside a big hallowed out tree, and left them there for thousands of years? Well, the Tangled animated series, called Tangled: The Series and Rapunzel's Tangled Adventure beat you to it, ha. The records management in this series really makes my head hurt. When re-watching this series I wondered, again, where the archivists, or librarians, are. I held out some hope, however little, that they re-organized records and hired some archivists. In this post, I'll review notoriously awful records management in this animated series, focusing on two episodes, connecting to actual preservation of scrolls, and other paper documents, by archivists, conservators, and others, and information about trees, especially dead ones, to give further context.

This post was originally published on WordPress on Apr. 12, 2023

In the past, I've noted how the abandoned scrolls inside a tree shown in the episodes "Rapunzel and the Great Tree" and "Islands Apart", which are organized but no archivist is in sight. [1] These scrolls are sitting around a tree, and there seems to be no set organization system, and writing that "sticking scrolls in random wall slots doesn't seem like a good organizational system". I've also pointed out that a well-educated man named Ricky Roxburgh, with a degree from SUNY Albany, wrote episodes for the The Ghost and Molly McGee and the aforementioned Tangled series, both of which contributed to perpetuation of archives stereotypes! Beyond that, the scrolls themselves clearly have value, as there are incantations written on them, but are still within a tree in what could be called scroll boxes, specifically the Great Tree, rather than in a library or an archive.

Specifically, the scrolls, in the episode, [2] are deserted and clearly untended. In the episode it is revealed that it has been millennia since the tree was a sentient being, then corrupted by evil sorcerer Zhan Tiri, and then put in a sort of stasis by Lord Demantius who stopped the magic of the tree by using an enchanted spear. Considering that Demantius used magic and science to build machines, capturing evil spirits almost like the ghostbusters, perhaps he installed these scroll boxes? Anyway, by the Rapunzel (Raps), Cassandra (Cass), and their compatriots arrive there, no one is there to help them. No one warns Raps to not use an incantation which unleashes death and decay to anyone around it, and changes her "seventy-feet long hair from blonde to black, and her eyes from green to black"! This incantation almost kills her, and she is only helped/saved by her friend, Cass.

There is more to the scrolls than this. Not only is there a scroll for ancient, and magical, spell that grants "miraculous, life/light-based powers to heal minor injuries and even return those to life" which can only be activated by singing it, but there are many other scrolls. Presumably, all these scrolls are other incantations. This spell is more directly associated with Raps (Mandy Moore), who is the manifestation of the Sundrop Flower, while the other spell I mentioned in the previous paragraph is associated with the Moonstone.

So many disorganized scrolls, which I noted on Twitter. But, why? And who put the scrolls there? This is never answered.

These scrolls are put in an even worse position when the tree, a magical and ancient place, collapses after Raps uses the death and decay spell. However, this room makes a reappearance later in the series. At the end of the episode "Islands Apart", Cass (Eden Espinosa) and the evil blue fairy, the Enchanted Girl (a manifestation of Zhan Tiri) visit the tree looking for scrolls in hopes of unlocking the Moonstone's full powers, but find these scrolls have been destroyed. It is then that the Enchanted Girl mentions the Demanitus Scroll, and Cass realizes she needs to go to Corona to retrieve it. At the same time, neither of these characters seem to care about the scrolls, which are in worse shape, lying scattered across the ground due to the tree's collapse.

The aforementioned Demanitius Scroll has an important role in the series, as it is an ancient parchment which outlines the abilities of the Sundrop and Moonstone, giving "instructions of how to wield a supreme power of unknown heavenly origin". The scroll, written by Demanitus, was later ripped apart and hidden in different parts, since the valuable document would be dangerous if it fell into the "wrong hands". Raps goes on a quest to find the missing pieces in the show's second season, along with her companions. The scroll, in the right hands, however, can be "used for good". It is later examined, in the episode "Cassandra's Revenge", by Varian (Jeremy Jordan), who finds a third incantation, allowing Cass to "control the Moonstone and create a fortress" in the place where Raps had been imprisoned in the infamous tower. He later finds another incantation and transcribes it before the scroll is destroyed, allowing Raps to "recite it and unlock the full powers of the reborn Sundrop Flower".

With this summary of what happened in the two episodes, from which I excluded some details so as to make sure it was not too long, it brings me to preservation of actual paper documents by archives and other institutions. Sometimes loose items, like a map or brochure can be repaired with "conservation-grade double-sided tape" but there's also pamphlet binds, repair of pages with heat-set tissue, and inside hinges. At other times, new spines are added to books, while original and damaged ones are removed. There are specific and specialty conservator labs, with repairs to documents by conservators, reference staff, and others with experience with rare materials or even interns with work at libraries and archives. [3]

The Library of Congress (LOC) has a whole division that focuses on this, called the Preservation Research and Testing Division or PRTD, which works with the Conservation Division, as preservation is a major priority for the library. The PRTD, which undertakes research to "advance and support Library preservation", even has a pigment reference collection used to "gain historical understanding and scientific information about the materials." The division often has projects which evaluate "condition of fragile and damaged items and proposing preservation actions". There are also machines, like the BC100 which takes extensive photos of "brittle books and newspapers for archival purposes." [4] Imagine if something like that was used on any of the scrolls inside the Great Tree or the Demanitius Scroll? Both would need to have restricted access if anything equivalent to them existed in archival collections, with extensive conservation care.

Two scrolls from the Dead Sea Scrolls lie at their location in the Qumran Caves before being removed for scholarly examination by archaeologists. Original image on Wikimedia, reprinting an image from an 1959 Israeli book.

This is another way that the Great Tree is a terrible place to store documents. What kind of ways does the tree "properly manage temperature, humidity, and other conditions" which can prevent "damage to materials" [5]? If that isn't enough, there are no organization of the scrolls. There is no method shown for protection of fragile and vulnerable items, i.e. the scrolls. The scroll boxes, as they could be called, are nothing akin to boxes used by LOC to store valuable records, nor any stabilization statements or deacidification conservation treatments. The latter can be used on records like older comic books, for example. There are further issues if the paper is acidic, and yellows over time, as it can decompose more, and faster, than neutral paper. None of this was considered by whoever put the scrolls in boxes, of sorts, within the tree. [6]

The LOC also notes that paper of a good quality which is "stored in good conditions," i.e. cooler temperatures with 30-40% relative humidity can last a long time, perhaps "even hundreds of years." Is this the case with the tree? Well, another paper from LOC adds this:

"Good storage significantly prolongs the preservation of paper materials and includes…A cool (room temperature or below), relatively dry (about 35% relative humidity), clean, and stable environment (avoid attics, basements, and other locations with high risk of leaks and environmental extremes)…Minimal exposure to all kinds of light; no exposure to direct or intense light…Distance from radiators and vents…Supportive protective enclosures*…Unfolded and flat or rolled storage for oversized papers[, and] individual/isolated storage of acidic papers to prevent acids from migrating into the other works on paper…Supportive protective enclosures include…document boxes…and polyester film sleeves that are stiff enough to adequately support the paper(s) within"

Now, it has been shown that trees across the world strive to "maintain a near-constant temperature of 70 degrees in their leaves". It has also been shown that trees can have a cooling effect. But what about inside a hollow tree? Can it still regulate its own temperature? They can regulate their own internal temperature and have homeostatis, i.e. keeping temperatures "mostly stable no matter what's going on outside", although they regulate temperatures more with leaves.

In some ways they can. In fact, a 2016 study by Chris O'Connell and Gunnar Keppel in Wildlife Biology, an open-access, and high-quality, scientific journal, stated that tree hollows can be crucial habitats for fauna and even buffering "ambient environmental conditions". This means that these hollows can provide stable microclimates, even "maintaining lower temperatures and higher humidity during the day and higher temperatures and lower humidity during the night." However, the Great Tree in Tangled is dead, and tree hollows are a cavity in a living tree, as the tree was a living organism, but became dead over time. Instead, the tree is almost equivalent, in some ways, to coarse woody debris or large woody debris.

More than that, dead tress, generally, can be teeming with life, playing a vital role in "lifecycles of hundreds of species of wildlife, providing a place to nest, rest, eat and grow". They can provide excellent habitats, benefit the environment, shelter, regenerate soil, or provide additional resources to an ecosystem. [7] This is clear from the aforementioned "Rapunzel and the Great Tree" episode, where the inside of the tree is teeming with life. However, by the "Islands Apart" episode, this is likely no longer the case, especially due to effects from Raps' death and dying spell, although the tree would continue its decomposition into the ground around it, but perhaps faster than before.

This article took a direction I did not originally plan for when I started writing it, but that made it all the more fascinating! I am no expert in trees, nor in preservation (or conservation) of documents, by any means, but this does give me a bit more context and analysis than any of my previous posts focusing on or mentioning this series. I had originally intended review all the episodes with themes about records and archives in one post, but decided it would make more sense to divide them into various posts. Those will follow later this year. As always, comments and suggestions are welcome.

Notes

[1] The show has at least four episodes with archivy themes: "Keeper of the Spire," "Rapunzel and the Great Tree," "Islands Apart," and "Race to the Spire." On an additional note, I mentioned the series in passing in posts here and here.

[2] On Disney+, the episode "Rapunzel and the Great Tree" is divided into two parts, each of which is 25 minutes long. There is also another magic tree in the series, the Eternal Tree which is used to order to open a portal and free Zhan Tiri.

[3] See Tydall, Lily. "Librarians Learning Conservation: My 10 Weeks as the First General Collections Conservation Section Intern." Guardians of Memory. Library of Congress, Aug. 29, 2022.

[4] See Villafana, Tana. "Paints and Pigments – When Art and Science Combines". Guardians of Memory. Library of Congress, Aug. 20, 2022; Hasbo, Beatriz. "Exploring Collections Management and so Much More: a Summer Experience at the Library of Congress." Guardians of Memory. Library of Congress, Aug. 18, 2022; Chaletzky, Aaron D. "Preservation Intern Profile: Brandon Mack." Guardians of Memory. Library of Congress, Aug. 11, 2022.

[5] For information on LOC doing this, see Overstreet, Anna Katherine and Alexandra Ptacek, "Climate Correlation: Environmental Monitoring at the Library of Congress." Guardians of Memory. Library of Congress, Aug. 1, 2022.

[6] See Long, Leslie and Lily Tyndall, "Box Making Activities in the General Collections Conservation Section." Guardians of Memory. Library of Congress, Jul. 28, 2022, Tyndall, Lily, "Live Long and Repair: Caring for the Library of Congress’ Comic Book Collection." Guardians of Memory. Library of Congress, Jul. 21, 2022, and Shovlin, K.F. "When the Paper Fails the Test." Guardians of Memory. Library of Congress, Jul. 14, 2022.

[7] See "Tim-ber? … Not So Fast: The Important Role of Dead and Dying Trees | EarthCare Northwest", Seattle Audubon Society, Mar. 7, 2022; Miranda, Tango. "Dead Trees and Their Role: A Naked Encounter." Age of Awareness. Medium, Dec. 8, 2020; "Snags: The Life-Affirming Role of Dead Trees." Blue Thumb, Apr. 6, 2022; Wiebe, Shiela. "Why do we leave dead trees in the forest?" Ontario Parks, Nov. 12, 2021; Wuerther, George. "The ecological value of dead trees." The Wildlife News, Dec. 20, 2018; Bundell, Shamini and Nick Petrić Howe, "Dead trees play an under-appreciated role in climate change." Nature, Sept. 1, 2021 for more information.

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rennyji · 24 days

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Yesterdays Revelations, Todays Conclusions (Lessons)...

THERES A SECTION TOWARDS THE BOTTOM, SEPARATED FROM THE TOP HALF, BY EQUAL SIGNS, THAT WAS NOT ON TWITTER. PLEASE NOTE.

Random convoluted conversation, in mixed languages of English & Indian, between my mother and me, from 5:45 PM-5:54 PM, on 4/1/24, in kitchen, where moms & my phone present & brain hacking.Shows nonsense that has to be b/c some1 is trying to get me frustrated with basic things.

Lesson of PowderedMix, in cup of water, on kitchen table(from 4/1/24 - mayB b4 12PM/after1PM). I spilled powder randomly, 2x. Was made 2B inattentive.-

-in conjunction w/last tweet, Mom gets on myCase, asking Y I don’t use sink, Y I don’t use counter where she is, Y I didn’t ask her 2 move from sink,& wats wrong w/me 4 spilling powder- all these Why Why Why’s! -was heated conversation necessary over 2 bounty paper towel sheets?-

-regards2lastTweet, POINT: U can’tPlan simple/even big things (where2scoopPowder4drink), U cantAnticipate(powderSpilling), U cantGoOnEverlastingSalvaging(w/Y’s as2Y, onKitchenTable vs sink/Y not askSome1Else2DoIt-escalates). U talk Directly w/voice, by lookingInEye,orGetLost.

Would any of you believe, the people doing the various levels of mind control/mind reading/possession with me, spend hours talking, gently addressing having sex, then harem style lesbian sex, then a girl who I never talked to, but felt heart broken over,-

- in conjunction with previous tweet, over & over, its told 2 me, like military conditioning, “Rachel is dead” like they think I have god like powers & saying it in me,will make it happen. They haunt me repeatedly w/this name. Then they say she attempted suicide over randomness.-

- they tell me while everyone experienced, what they call are my strong emotions, somehow I’m responsible for her attempting Suicide over these stupid kids saying they relayed her inappropriate manner.-

- they tell me, while everyone experienced, what they call are my strong emotions, somehow I’m responsible for Rachel, a girl from 18 years ago, attempting Suicide over these stupid kids saying they relayed her in an inappropriate manner.-

-They tell me I’m Ram & she’s Sita from Hindu love story, in manner of making fun of my dad as owner of something like a 7/11, or me as Apu from Simpsons, or me being a version of Buddha nicknamed “Guru Nobody.”army men tell me I’m a pussy, that they as numerous d*ks RamIn.-

- we all watch tv w/our favorite actors/actresses. They notice I like how Fox News Anchor Kaylie McEnany, who I believe is married w/2 kids. They then tell me, while talking in head as me, 2 condition me thru me, that forget Rachel, whos also prob married now, move w/ Kayleigh. -

- then nonsense about a paycheck/telepathic reality love show or whatever those things are called…I think it’s called The Bachelor…then someone tells me recently, she’s been recruited as to be a female victim of some sort, so it’s not all about the Indian kids getting abused.-

-I was never treated as American citizen;never had rights, privacy, freedom, dignity, of 1. For 18 yrs+, this transpires. These guys doing this, get me in2delusional state & have me write against a possible Unity(United) government& have me in that state, depict self as patriot.-

- I think if you knew my time, inside and out, during the times this phenomena about penises and sex from SUNY University at Albany, and mind control from the U.S. government, transpired, where they give sensation of ball fondling/seizures, you agree with my next tweet:-

-regards2lastTweet, 2 finish thought/2 make it clear, While Ive no problems w/individual Americans, Myself? I am NOT an American. I will never B American. I refuse 2B anAmerican. These people inside me, outside me, are not my people. They claim 2B w/ me? Where?On TV?Delusions?!-

In the words of Christ, whose principles this Satanic country and American military (in their Crusade against the mind) were founded in, “My people are not my blood brothers and sisters, or the mother who shares blood/genes. My people R those who share in my values & practices.”

- in same manner the military or University at Albany makes me make life gestures at my television, which allegedly has a camera, from some of the correlational eye movements and how my chair is positioned, they made me, Renny, f* prostitutes, Rachel suck d*ks of guys arranged,-

- theyre telling me Kayleigh got hooked in another conspiracy associated w/1 of channels she’s aired in. Apparently something was gave her a “conscious stream” like virus in2 herHead. This conscious stream has apparently nullified brain waves, so she’s now like a cat w/o a soul.

- if U were all experiencing a fake conscious stream, it couldB governments way ofSayingThey can hack any1’s head, but they need 2 do it w/virus of a false conscious stream. They claim, only w/that, they can read minds/control them. That’s propaganda sent, when can happen w/o it.

- the fake conscious stream installed to experience emotions or mental upgrades, if any of this is real, was a trick 2 figure out ur brains frequency to read it/control it w/o fake stream, with correct key 2 door..I guess logic is, it happens 2 every1 now-2B paranoid or not…?!-

- the other two women that they keep extrapolating pros and cons in my mind repeatedly, like conditioning or even brain washing, are Paula Reid from CNN and Carlie Shimkus from Fox News. Something thought thru me Carlie had a tear masked over joy and makeup,-

- &Kaylie recd. a harmful upgrade 2 control emotion…So Kalyies married w/ 2-3 kids, Carlie’s either single mom or has single mom & apparently I’m receiving Indian arranged marriage w/ blondes b/c Im depicted as something outside an “Independent.”& Paulas unhappy as a Democrat?!-

- apparently, American theme of big cars, bigMoney, 4 blondes, this is propaganda 2 justify mind control/ reading…”look how he came out of it!” All while hearing conspiracy theories validated from The Why Files, w/Trump preaching Christian Nationalism w/ American Bible version.-

- then, while 7pm EST CNN Primetime was airing, when I went to my main floor, from my bedroom, to get something to eat: Between 7:43 PM and 7:47 PM, on 4/01/2024, My mom comes down and complains I left tv on. I have a complicated setup to turn on and I like sound playing around-

-in conjunction with previous tweet, Between 7:43 PM and 7:47 PM, on 4/01/2024, when my mom asks me why I left the tv on, I flat out say, we have bigger problems than tv raising electricity bill, like mind reading, mind control, &mental illness to worry about.-

-in conjunction with previous tweet, Between 7:43 PM and 7:47 PM, on 4/01/2024, regards2 mom asking me Y I left tv on, I flat out say, we have bigger problems like mind reading, mind control, &mental illness to worry about.-

-regards2last tweet,b/w 7:43 PM-7:47 PM, on4/01/2024, onMomSsking Y TV on, I said, WhenLifeConstantlyIn spotlight,U stopCaring. But mom responds w/utmost seriousness/tone, yeahSure, ur “go-to-excuse”2All Is “mind control.” TV showsLookBack @ me, Y&howCouldParents B outOfLoop…?!-

-regards2lastTweet, My tv shows look back @ me, Y & how could my parents be out of the loop…- does it have something 2 do with a troubled kids show, that put a camera in my tv screen, that the military & University at Albany is using 4 verifying mind control/reading, remotely?!

- so I’ve been in my situation for at least 18 years with no one, even my parents telling me, what goes on, I went numb to what I couldn’t change a while back. But something’s making me feel non matching sensations/anxiety 18 years later. Doesn’t time heal? -

-SUNY Albany ganged up on me on day of my finals, where I had 4 back2back. I went 2 that school 4 an additional semester. & I stayed behind in Albany area, w/o setting foot on campus, 4 a semester after that. Wouldn’t it strike any1 as odd, for random feelings 18 yrs later?-

- on famous people I see on News-legit famous people who no they get attention 4 normalReasons (Anderson, Erin, or Wolf on CNN), they seem calm (ifNothingElse )w/“abrupt” news. If fake conscious stream wasPlanted in ur head, it probably numbed news2mind control w/o need4 18 yrs.-

-if ur in fake conscious stream, where newscastersSeeMe, correlating2myMovements from TV screen onTheirEnd, thatsSourced fromCameraBehindMy TVscreen,this opens door 2 psychic “remote viewing” from 1960s CIA Project Stargate, exploring seeing others thru eyes of pics/vids of them.

Note conversation b/w mother & me, in common area consisting of kitchen, on 4/2/24 between: 10:17 AM-10:20AM (Lesson of “Buuut”this/that) 10:24AM-10:28AM (Lesson of Connotations like with basic words like “Worry”) Note mother’s attitude in voice, head shaking, body language.

- regarding last tweet, I didn’t have phone on me, but moms iPhone (for phone mic listeners) was lying on kitchen counter. For brain hackers remote viewing/mind controlling/brain map ear listeners,U have our ears, brain processing of copy able data, and real time ability2listen.-

- like how many idiots does it take to change a lightbulb when a camera or phone mic or, even more obvious: talking 2 some1 in the structure of law enforcement (after 18 years of snowballing escalation w/wats “already” been witnessed), face to face, human to human, eye to eye.-

- all these extra bells and whistles & trying to make things cool, is American government trying 2 exploit situation w/ everything it wants to do with a stupid brown man(face of their enemy) who’s apparently “lucky” to get such fortunate opportunity in his supposedly sad life-

- while I write things, b*stards in military & SUNY Albany cut off blood flow in various parts 2 body, regardless of headstand/corrective measures, causing constant sedation/weakness, complete lack of wound healing/facial scar healing/balding, pain where a slight stretch hurts-

- so physical torture and obstruction of breathing is induced. If I try to do the Harvard Dr Herbert Relaxation Response, my brothers is forcibly stopped midway b/c it’s supposedly gets in way of mind reading/control.-

- b/c good blood flow apparently contains Chinese CHI, and apparently source of my blessings in this cursed life is the Kama Sutra and something called tantra, Americans constrict my veins 2 being spindly at cost of great pain/discomfort 2 me, out of fear project won’t succeed.-

-so watIs “lesson of buuut this/that”? In life, alwaysA “but” weCanAdd 2OurSentences. “I can,” but cost is this, but I might have to do this, but then I’ll have to worry about that. Take out the “buts” or excuses 4 doing right things & act ethically, or continue being a*ses.-

- so watIs “lesson of connotations vs definitions vs colloquialisms, of basic words like “worry” ”? “Worry as colloquial expression “Don’t worry about it, man.” “Worry” by definition, w/mayB a little cultural connotation is anxiety, which canB extrapolated to excessive concern.-

-“Worry” in terms of cultural connotations/cultural clashes? My mom notices I bought 2 coolLooking sweaters. She decides 2 tell me, w/her 60, me 36, don’t wear everyday. U’ll ruin it. Where the h*ll do I have 2 go amidst confinement? I buy these things 2 feel comfortable @ home.-

- Then this inane topic becomes an intellectual random discussion, where if mom just ignored her idea for my clothing, there would be less irritation. I tell her “don’t worry about what I do” in these matters.-

-4 expressionSake: “don’t worry about it”: mom’s showing concern w/my shirt deteriorating from excessive wear. She defiantly responds w/“I am not worried.”She thinks of word “worry,” as an immigrant, quite literally. Shes thinking probably, something related 2 tears/fear/anxiety.

Prayer is communication w/God. OrchestratorsRestrictAbility 2prayInHead w/stream, whereOnlyThey canTalk. So, I say in a dialect, w/my mouth. Aloud, cuz can’t in head. Non English?2respect sanctityOfPrayer. Orchestrators? “Y he asks God 4 revenge on me? ThenInterrogationOnThat.-

Matthew 6:6-7 “But when U pray, go in2 ur room, close door & pray 2 ur Father, who is unseen. Then ur Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward U. & when U pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, 4 they think they will be heard b/c of their many words.” ================================================

(WASN'T POSTED ON TWITTER)

"Lesson of the Username and Passwords" took place between 11:10AM-11:20 AM, where my dad, for some reason, prays aloud, about a brand range of things, without a door to close, on the floor, in our living room. His phone is always on him, even if mine wasn't on me or in my pocket. You're clearly hacking his brain, or could at the very least, listen through the mic on his phone. He said quite clearly, casually, (like more American nonsense in this crazy country), "none of us are behaving normally at this time, in his Indian dialect." (Months or years go by, since that comment in our tv room or living room). But what is the lesson from the story? My dad makes random requests of me, from updating a payment option on his automatic payment sites or taking a 5 hr driving class on his behalf. It's never, son! "Can you make me a cup of tea or warm some snacks for me?" It usually borders around: "Can you use the slow printer scanner (instead of the quicker TurboScan Pro App picture taking/scanning method on iPhone 14 pro max), to individually scan the 50 pages from a book I wrote and sold in India, where I was a trophy winner for writing through the Malayalee FOKANA convention. Being the water bearer of the family, the theme of his books, of which I cannot read because of the Indian language and Indian letters, is grief/toil/turmoil/anguish. But back to the point. My father's requests are slow, painful, and tedious. Then when someone raises a better method, or some criticisms, he says in his Indian dialect, "heaven forbid! I should ask my family members for some help with anything" <-Extreme random comments. So with the lesson of the username and passwords? I need to update my dad's payment method for his business' telephone bill's automatic payment, online. There is a username and password. In my thought restricting/blocking/ &inability to recall dilemma, I can't remember my own things or my own day shaping beliefs. If my dad doesn't know this and expects me to keep track of his usernames and passwords, and blames for not knowing them, on top of it all (when he can take the slightest bit of burden to write it in his Notes iPhone App or take advantage of the iPhone Password Manager), it just adds to the frustration of the day. It makes a 10 second online update, into a time consuming process, that he knows nothing about, where I have to update the username, forget the password link, change the password, confirm new account update in his email, and so forth. What's the lesson? Make reasonable requests from others, and take some responsibility for your information and actions by jotting them down or telling someone, so that when he asks someone to help you, there is no having them start from scratch. If you take responsibility, you lessen the responsibility of others. In effect, if you take care of yourself, you then take care of others and the load the they have to carry. In conclusion, you respect and love yourself, whereby you now respect and love others, in their time, and use of their mental energy.

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solangelokisses · 3 years

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This was never supposed to be this long??? But what if Andrew & Aaron found out they have a sister?

- Andrew and Aaron have a sister

- They find out after Aaron does one of those 23&me tests about two years after they graduate from PSU, he’s curious about possible medical history things in their family & maybe Andrew is a little curious too

- Along with the medical history, they see their mothers greek heritage & then they see Portuguese & Scottish makes up the rest & accept that fact

- Neil & Andrew decide to learn Portuguese together next (which kinda doesn’t always work in their favor considering Nickys fluency in Spanish allows him to understand quite a lot)

- But they see these things & move on, there’s not much to do with the information ultimately

- Until three years after this, Aaron whips open Andrew&Neils apartment door in NYC (Aaron is doing residency w Cornell Med & Neil & Andrew are playing on the same NYC team)

- “We have a sister” he says into the dead silent apartment

- Andrew gets up & they leave for some time & Neil kind of just sits & waits

- When Andrew gets home he just slides his phone into Neils hand, a picture on the screen

- A girl, in her young twenties if that, is smiling on the screen & Neil knows it is this mysterious sister

- “Her name is Lilah. She contacted Aaron through that DNA shit. We’re going to meet her on Tuesday, she goes to school in the city”

- Neil stares at her tanned skin & dark hair & hazel eyes that mirror the man sitting to him & the small dimple that creases her right cheek just like the twins & sees them in her

- When Tuesday comes, Andrew tries to be pretend to be fine, but Neil sees through it if only by the small quirks that come from knowing someone so well

- Neil, Andrew, & Aaron meet her in a random small cafe near NYU, Neil there for Andrew (& maybe a little bit for Aaron though neither will admit that)

- She’s already sitting & through the window she looks so small that Neil almost laughs

- When they walk in she stays in her seat & smiles up at them & it doesn’t seem to get past anyone that she doesn’t stand up to hug or touch like most people in the situation would

- They sit & talk for awhile, asking about each other’s lives

- She was five years younger than them, had grown up in NY, & was graduating from one of the SUNY colleges that semester & wanted to become a history teacher (neil could practically feel andrew & aaron eyes roll as they no doubt thought about Kevin & how well these two would get along)

- Lilah had been in foster care herself. She had met their father once when she was 11 & last she heard he was dead & his family didn’t have much interest in her. Her mother had died when she was 8, drugs

- “Daddy-o had a type, huh?” She mused & something about it was so AndrewAaron it was almost unsettling

- Andrew asks a lot about the foster care. She seems to understand what he’s trying to find out

- “I’m okay. I managed to get a good one where i lived from 14-18. I’ve always been safe. I’m okay” Lilah stared at him like she somehow already knew all of Andrew & Aaron’s secrets & when her eyes slid to Neils it was almost like she could have figured his out too

- They leave when the sun has been down & the cafe is closing

- Lilah becomes a fixture in their lives

- Nicky just about dies when she meets her & she hugs him right away & she smiles a kilowatt smile & her dimple is on display & Neil doesnt miss Andrews quick look away or Aaron’s soft smile

- Nicky & Lilah become like brother & sister & it’s a blessing that Nicky finally has someone who just wants to be in his presence the same way he loves being with others

- Kevin & Lilah have some sort of weird stare down & then Lilah cracks a smile & looks at Andrew & tells him she understands why Andrew watched him for so long

- They argue about history each time they see each other & end up drunk & yelling & passionate & they’re really best friends & no one is surprised when they hang out just amongst themselves

- She eyes Renee suspiciously & whispers to Neil that she bothers her & she can’t figure out why. Neil gives her a small smile & tells her she’ll get used to it

- Lilah is soft & kind & though it’s not hard to tell life has not been soft or kind to her, it’s inspiring to see how she is the way she is

- Sometimes she leaves for a long time with Andrew & Aaron & they come back, Aaron & Lilah puffy eyed & they all start drinking & Lilah sleeps on their couch & is always awake before all of them

- Sometimes Andrew & Lilah sit on the couch together for hours, just staring at a tv, not saying anything & Andrew is always less tense in the days after

- Neil notices she always asks to touch & he thinks that no one ever told her to ask she just knew

- & surprisingly the twins (& everyone) tend to relent to her on anything. She asks to hold their hands or gives hugs or to get ice cream (even when Kevin is around he’ll agree)

- She just makes sense, she fits perfect in their world & she becomes a part of it almost seamlessly

- Aaron will proudly tell anyone of his sister doing gods work as a high school teacher for underprivileged kids

- Nicky will pout when she can’t hang out every moment he’s in the states

- Andrew will quietly love her as fiercely as he does his whole family without ever saying the words

- The whole original Foxes accept her & love her

- Neil finds even himself curious about her when she’s not around for a week or so & will even seek her out himself for a run around Central Park

- Lilah is the piece they didn’t know was missing & they’ll never let her go

#tfc #aftg #neil josten #andrew minyard #aaron minyard #kevin day #nicky hemmick #all for the game #the foxhole court #renee walker

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decodingellipses · 3 years

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Modern Love: He Made Affection Feel Simple

[courtesy of Brian Rea]

"Dating as a transgender woman, in my experience, meant low expectations and casual sex. Then I met Jack."

This piece is part of the Modern Love column at The New York Times

by Denny

My bio on Grindr read: “Be trans friendly. Send face to chat.”

It was difficult to be on a gay hookup app as a trans woman. Most men in my feed desired to only sleep with each other. But I knew there were straight men on Grindr who hungered for a woman like me. I wanted them too.

That’s where I met Jack. At 22, he was a few months older than me, and, other than his age, his entire profile was blank, usually an indicator of a cisgender straight man who was guarded about his attraction to trans women. Typically, the messages I received would start with a vulgar sext, sometimes an unwanted nude photo.

Living in Morningside Heights, I was attending Fordham University for my master’s degree in strategic communication. One night I was up late working when I received a Grindr message from him, a selfie. Amid his light brown hair, two-day scruff and meek gaze, his lacrosse T-shirt stood out to me the most. He looked like a sporty boy I would have crushed on in high school.

He followed up his photo with “Hello.”

Messages in my Grindr inbox tended to cut to the chase: “Down for now?” “Car sesh?” Men who contacted me because they fantasized about trans women made it difficult for me to feel seen as a person in general, let alone a person worthy of respect.

Although my interest was piqued by Jack’s picture, it was his gentleness that drew me in.

Our sporadic small talk was harmless, spanning two months. I brushed him off, but as I commuted to school and spent hours in the library, he was persistent.

“My sex drive is pretty low these days,” I wrote. “Give me a bit and I’ll hit you up.”

“OK.”

When I turned back to my studies, he added, “Just so you know, we can do non-sex things and hang out too. It would be fun.”

This became our pattern: he being distant enough to show interest without pressure, and me appreciating his laxity, given my demanding schoolwork. His ease led me to trust him, so we set up a day to meet.

The first afternoon Jack came over, he admired my bathtub and drank his cup of water with two hands. His poised demeanor in a beige wool peacoat and long scarf reminded me, in a good way, of John Bender in “The Breakfast Club.” In my bedroom, he fixated on my yellow Power Ranger figurines, noticing my framed academic award next to them on the windowsill.

“You went to SUNY Oneonta?” he said. “I went to SUNY Potsdam.”

I pictured my friends who also attended Potsdam eating in the same cafeteria as Jack, getting drunk at the same frat party. Suddenly, the person I’d seen as a stranger now fit into my world.

I imagined what the deer looked like from his dorm room window, roaming the grass at dawn. Or how he spent his day when the school canceled classes because of snow. Or where he would have gone if his parents were able to afford private school.

We sat on my bed, my back leaning against the wall. He slouched his head onto my hip and wrapped his arms around my waist. “This is weird,” I thought. Aside from sexual intimacy, my hookups were typically aromantic, absent of cuddling and expressions of affection.

I kissed him and rolled on top. I took off my shirt and he hugged me tight. His face dug into my chest as he said, “I like you. I think you’re really cool.”

Unsure how I actually felt, I said, “Oh. I think you’re really cool, too.”

The next time I saw Jack, he spent the night at my place. It was then, awake in bed at 4 a.m., that I realized I had never let a guy sleep over before. His heat warmed the bed, so I crept to the bathroom to cool off. I Snapchatted a disoriented selfie to my friends, my hair messy and eyes bloodshot.

“How do you guys do this sleepover thing?” I wrote. “I can’t sleep at all.”

Customarily, my flings with strange men were brief. The men did not take note of my bathtub or my educational history before sex, and they did not linger after.

I came back into bed, disturbed by the rumble of his snoring, but his sleeping face on my pillow struck me. For the first time, the thought of sharing a bed with a man did not come from pure imagination. I now had a real image for this fantasy; I could pretend Jack was my boyfriend, reach for his face and whisper “I love you, good night,” then fall asleep and meet him somewhere in his dream as if we had done this a hundred times before.

The next day, he flew off to see his family for the holidays and the first weeks of the new year.

“merry crimmus,” I texted.

“u too, babygirl,” he replied.

After our sleepover, I didn’t hear from him unless I initiated — an unexpected change. Instead of giving in to my insecurity that the sleepover meant little to him, and therefore I meant little, I imagined other scenarios: him asking me to sleep at his place, for a change, or spontaneously calling me while I’m in line for my morning coffee. But because I had presumed a sex-only expectation from the start, I shamed myself for developing feelings.

“miss u,” he texted one random morning.

“really?”

We stayed in touch and occasionally saw each other, weeks in between. On a hot morning, he snored behind me as I sat on the floor beside my bed, working on my final thesis. He put his hand up to my face, letting me know he was awake. With my eyes on the laptop screen, I took his hand and planted kisses in his palm, wallowing in these ordinary joys — the kind of affection I slowly grew comfortable displaying.

Longing to be more than casual with him, I sought a therapist to guide me through my growing feelings.

Jack’s periodic “miss u” texts progressed with heart emojis, an unprecedented closeness. And I returned the sentiment. It felt thrilling to express my adoration so directly, until the weeks between seeing each other and texting ultimately turned into months of silence I knew to be ghosting.

I relied on Grindr as my safe dock because dating as trans is complicated. Sleeping around was easier for me. I had set the bar low, then met Jack, who saw me as more than a fantasized body, only to have his mysterious exit echo a looming insecurity I avoided for years: Being trans implies I am not real enough to deserve decency.

I broke down in therapy, mustering the courage to say out loud what was undeniably true: “He left me.”

“I don’t mean to put this on you,” my therapist said, “but could him being a cis straight man and you being a trans woman play a part?”

I didn’t want to blame Jack, who showed me a new realm of affection that made desire feel as simple as just a boy and a girl who liked each other. But he made leaving simple, too; all of this could still not be enough.

Deep down, I denied how my mere existence as a trans woman could ever cost him. Jack, in wooing me, nurtured the possibility that my romantic fantasies could come true, that I could be seen as a complex person rather than a fetishized token of someone’s imagination. After being deserted by him, I ruminated on my insecurity that being trans denied me of even a simple goodbye.

And yet I know myself to be real because my transition, as a teenager, required exceptional certainty. Doctors and psychiatrists double-checked my decision constantly.

“Yes, I’m sure,” I repeated, and I became more real each year. With Jack, I felt even realer. Not only had he seen me as a woman, but as a woman worthy of being held.

I could blame my being trans for Jack’s ghosting, but maybe it had nothing to do with that. Maybe he hated his job. Maybe his family fell apart. Maybe the pleasure we felt together contrasted whatever pain remained of our baggage.

On lonely days, I imagine myself at SUNY Potsdam. At a frat party, I drunkenly dance across from Jack, cheap blue lights grazing the curves of our cheekbones, sweat dripping like cyan fireflies. Neil Diamond’s “Sweet Caroline” roars through the party. “Good times never seemed so good,” everyone shouts. “I’ve been inclined to believe they never would.”

I put myself in the cafeteria, where Jack and I approach the salad bar at the same time. When he sees me, he steps back and says, “You go first,” with a grin so big I would need both hands to hold it.

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Denny is a writer, actor and musician living in New York City.

#modern love #ML #NYTimes #New York Times #The New York Times #Amazon Prime #dev patel #anne hathaway #tina fey #NYT #trans #trans dating #trans love #lgbtq #pride #grindr

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yunkiwii · 2 years

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why do guys use "i started listening to harry styles bc of you" as a form of hitting on a girl?? like no bestie, you started listening to him bc he's awesome. now stfu

#suni random thoughts #this has happened to me before btw

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cyberghost-scout · 3 years

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Some thread ideas that I thought of cause I got inspired by the others.

- Something isn't adding up. Hidden Ghost Au. @braveggg-hq : things have been odd as of late as two figures appeared, thought to be zonder, but no human trace? Attacking at random places, while the massive beast slows time to a crawl of the braves, letting it escape as they're frozen for ten minutes. The other pair, more minor but fleeting flying hot, making things difficult to stop the first robot from slowing time. Then worst of all, rumors of a third bot, clocked, mask, but it always runs away as the group finds a clue on how to stop the mysterious new threat. Someone noticed something weird about a new employee, Suni Visser. Something not entirely human about her.

-The monster is out to play. General. A monster is stalking the area, leaving a trail of black goop and empty shells of robots, both in a literal sense and emotional. And it is heading towards Ghostwire and the gang!

- Sparkling. @kaonacademyishere . The sparkling is coming a lot sooner than both Sparkcase and Ghostwire expected. Fun times.

- Anything with Flow would be fun.

- Polaris is about to bite someone, and they deserve it from the cat's perspective.

The return. @tranaformersareepic Blueberry has found something to bring some happiness to his sister. It may involve a sassy blue and gold ghost

(This all I got)

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purpleyellow · 4 years

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Bon Voyage season 4

BTS 8th member

Sunny’s masterlist

“Sunny during Bon Voyage 4″ Shout out to the Bon Voyage anon!

a/n: It took a while but it’s done. Your opinion is very important for me, send feedback and requests anytime 💜 Also, don’t be shy and interact a little, ask box is always open

(Italics means the person is speaking in English)

“It’ll be around 45 minutes until we get to the destination” Jimin spoke from the passenger seat after reading the GPS.

Jungkook nodded while starting the camping trailer they were in and Suny got comfortable in the small table the van had, Hoseok and Taehyung sat in front of her. The other members were driving in an SUV.

“Are you going to read during the trip?” Hobi asked the girl pointing to the book she had placed on top of the table “We’ll probably be noisy so I don’t know if it’s the best idea right now”

As he said that, Jimin pressed play on his phone and the melody of Ddaeng started playing as Taehyung turned the electric microphone on, singing with his whole soul and ignoring the two members talking.

“I was going to see if I would be able to read without having motion sickness but I guess I won’t be able to do that now” She sighed looking at the noisy boys and head bopping to the beat. “Ahh, New Zealand”

Looking out of the window, Sunny got lost in the view as she sang along with the boys, the small road trip passing by relatively fast for her.

“Okay, let’s go,” J-Hope said opening the backdoor of the vehicle and the three members in the back instantly got hit by a very cold breeze “Maybe not without coats,” He said turning around and Sunny grabbed the big trench jacket she had miraculously found in the store they had gone to earlier.

Putting on the black thing on top of her jeans and pink sweater, she finally got out of the car and ran to the fence that divided a big field filled with sheep. Waving at them, she unintentionally caught the attention of the pastor there.

“You guys are recording something?” the middle-aged man asked her pointing at the cameras recording the rest of the members who were only starting to make their way to where she was.

“Yes, it’s kind of a Reality thing” She answered and smiled politely, not wanting to give off too much information about what they were doing.

“Oh okay, I’ll see if the dog brings them over so you and your friends can interact with them” The man did a head nod and whistled to the dog. Jungkook approached Sunny after a little sprint, leaning on the fence as well to get a better look in the approaching sheep. “Come inside, there’s no problem”

Opening a little gate for them, and the other members, a few of them walked inside and started taking pictures with the animals and the landscape for a moment, until it got too cold for them and they decided to go inside to grab warm drinks.

“Are you ordering?” Sunny asked Hoseok as Namjoon told him the same of the drinks and he nodded to her.

“Putting to work the English I learned in the US” He smiled and waved the waiter over “You want coffee right?”

“You got it” She answered him in English making RM chuckle. They walked together to the table and waited for the waiter to bring them their drinks.

The group spent a good amount of time just sitting in the small restaurant as some of them rested and J-Hope and Taehyung recorded the Chicken Noodle Soup challenge. Retuning to the campervan, they sat in the same arrangement and tried to pass time since the trip would take a long time.

“Let’s play that game where you have to rhyme” Jimin spoke loud enough from the passenger seat so everyone could hear him.

“Which one? The poem thing?” J-Hope asked locking his phone and putting it away.

“I don’t know. Let’s just have one person say something and then somebody else rhymes with it until everyone had a go” He explained while still giving out directions “Taehyung you can start”

“Roses are red, violets are blue” He said without thinking too much.

“I was born smart, what happened to you” Sunny completed with the first thing that came into her mind making Hoseok and Jimin laugh while V widened his eyes.

“That’s not the direction I was going for but okay,” He said repressing a smile.

“I want to start, let me think,” Jungkook said from the driver’s seat and thought for a second before speaking and leaving everyone dumbfounded “Roses are red, corpses are blue”

“Sorry you’re dead, I forgot you’re allergic to roses,” Sunny said without really thinking and making the rest of the boys laugh once again “Oh, it doesn’t really rhyme”

“What’s up with you today?” Jimin turned around to look at her and she just shrugged.

“Kook was the one bringing up dead people”

The BTS members had just arrived at an observatory when the sun started setting, having to wait for it to be completely dark before looking at the stars, the members parted ways, some of them going inside the small cafe to stay warm, while the others, Sunny included, stayed outside to look at the landscape or shoot J-Hope’s challenge (a very recurring theme in this trip).

“We should have bought more coats, it gets too cold during the night” Namjoon noted while he and the girl were walking around and taking pictures of the view.

“Yeah, I have like this thing and a hoddie in my backpack,” Sunny said looking down at her clothes and staring out again “It’s fun to have a change for once, we usually go to warm places for Bon Voyage”

“Agreed, although I miss the warmth a little” He chuckled kicking a rock and pondering for a moment before speaking again “I have so much to do back home, it’s like my mind can’t stay focused and enjoy what’s going on in that moment”

“Oppa, I think you’re going through work abstinence,” Sunny said with a breathy laugh.

“The weird thing is when I was on vacation back in Europe I wasn’t feeling like this. But now, it’s like the cameras triggered my memory and everything that was on hold keeps showing up in my head” He sighed stopping in his tracks and looking around to see if anyone was recording them. Although the mics were capturing all the words, the audio wouldn’t have a use unless there was footage.

“We won’t go back to actually work in a week, but I guess you can find some time to rest your conscience and run over the lyrics I wrote over the break” She smiled sheepishly and shrugged her shoulders.

“You didn’t rest?” He turned around to her with a shocked face and tried pinching her arm, although all he did was twist the fabric of her coat.

“I did. I spent some time with friends and stayed with my mom for some weeks. But when I had nothing to do I wrote a little, not my fault I wasn’t in some foreign country like most of you” She winked making him roll his eyes.

“Not fair, I’m as much as a workaholic like you. Now I feel even worst for not being productive”

“You’re the biggest workaholic in this place, maybe with the exception of Yoongi Oppa but you get me” She placed a hand on his arm and turned around so they could go back to the little restaurant. “That means you deserved to rest more than anyone here. So tell me, did you find a girlfriend during your break like JK?”

“Please don’t remember me those rumors,” He said now fake annoyed and smiling at the situation. “I’m kind of worried for him still”

“He does seem a bit quieter than usual” Sunny noted “I just wanted to talk to him for a bit and get him to vent for once, he seemed so stress when I called him one day”

“Yeah, let’s give him time. I’ll chat with him if I get the chance and I’ll tell him you’re worried too”

“Thanks, on a random note, I’m still not 100% used to seeing him with tattoos, but it does fit his image for some reason” Sunny smiled along and they joined the rest of the group.

Waiting for a few more minutes inside, the members had a pleasant surprise once they walked out and the sky was completely full of stars. The desert-like place helped to make visible the whole milky way, making a lot of amused sounds leave their mouths.

“It’s insane to think that’s over us all the time and we can’t see it” Yoongi said from somewhere near her and Sunny nodded along, even though it was too dar for anyone to see her.

“The camera can’t capture it like I’m seeing it” Jungkook complained while trying to take a picture and Sunny grabbed her own phone to see if she was luckier than him.

“There’s no use trying to take pictures,” One of the observatory people told her and pointed to the telescope they were walking to “You’ll have a better sight with that, but everything is going to be stored in your memory”

“Oh, so like, not even the crew is going to capture the sky like this?”

“I’m afraid not,” He told her and she nodded “I’ve seen they have some professional cameras so maybe a picture that comes close to it”

Smiling at his reassurance, Sunny walked a little faster to be able to look through the telescope before the other members.

“It’s dark, stop running or you’ll trip” She heard Jin speaking from her left but she ignored him, going straight to the object and bending a little so she could see better.

“Woah” Sunny gasped with how close the stars appeared, their shine being indescribably beautiful, but the moment got interrupted by Jimin patting her on the back.

“I want to see it too” He insisted until she moved along, of course stealing a last look to hopefully remember that sight forever.

After the two accommodations they had gone to, BTS finally arrived at the place they would be camping for two days.

To be honest, Sunny wasn’t too excited about it, sure she had gone camping with her parents as a child, but she knew the boys wouldn’t just let her run around and play with flowers like she used to, not that she would do that anyway but it still would be nice not have to light up a fire like she was doing right now.

“Why can’t I help them with the tent?” Sunny asked Jin, who was next to her trying to do the same thing.

“Because they learned how to do it last season when you were doing nothing because of a small cut” He reminded her of the excused the had used last time and Sunny tried not to smile.

“It hurt okay, I still have the scar on my foot”

“Show me then” Jin challenged her, knowing it was a lie and Sunny shrugged.

“It’s cold, I’m not taking my shoe off,” She said and sighed when the small flame she had going died once again. “I don’t think I’ll be able to light this”

“Of course you are, just keep fanning it,” Jin said handing her a frying pan, to which she frowned at “What? It helps to make more wind, you’ll thank me once it works”

“Alright then” She grabbed the pan and started fanning the fire more aggressively, her arm growing tired sooner than anticipated, but the flame got bigger none the less and at some point, the fire was strong enough to live by itself.

Massaging the muscle on her arm, Sunny got up from her crouched position and walked over to the campervan, where Taehyung was grabbing some things to decorate the tent they had just built.

“Can you help me carry those things outside?” He asked and gave her a bunch of fairy lights after she agreed.

“Do you know who will be sleeping here tonight?” She asked him once they were inside the orange tent and watched as he hung the lights on the walls.

“I think it’s Yoongi Hyung and Namjoon Hyung” V answered “I’m staying in the trailer with Hobi Hyung, Jimin, and Jk. Are you really staying in the SUV with Jin Hyung? We can make room for you if you want to”

Taehyung recalled the conversation they had earlier when Jin said he didn’t like sleeping on sleeping bags and since there was no room in the van he would just lay one of the car’s seats down and sleep there. Sunny said she could do the same since she didn’t want to make the trailer’s bed too crowded.

“I can give it a try, it’s no big deal,” She said getting out of the tent with him. “If it gets too uncomfortable we’ll change the sleeping settings tomorrow”

“Okay then, if you want to wake me up in the middle and trade places I’m okay with it” V smiled and they walked to where the rest of the members were getting ready to have diner.

“Why are you going to do this when last time you almost died with only having diner in a suspended table?” Hoseok laughed at Sunny when they arrived in the place they would be going on this insane swing.

“Because since last time everyone keeps saying I’m scared of heights, I’m here to prove I’m not,” She said determined but her palms were slightly sweaty.

Of course, it was normal to get a little scared before going on a 300-meter swing that could probably lead to your death, that did not mean she was afraid of heights, it only meant Sunny had the self-preservation instinct that people like Jungkook didn’t seem to have.

“You should go on the catapult thing as well,” He said while bouncing on his place and the rest of the boys bought their tickets.

“I’m already going on the swing of death, I don’t want to be thrown into it as well” She mumbled holding onto his arm, to both keep him in place and relieve some of the nervousness she was feeling.

After getting into the special gear and both Jimin and Yoongi had declined multiple times the opportunity to do it, the group moved along the bridge that they would be “jumping” from. Holding onto Jungkook’s shoulders, Sunny tried her best to not look down and quickly got over that part.

“We doing the swing part in pairs, so Jin Hyung and Hobi, me and Taehyung, ad then you and Jungkook okay?” Namjoon asked her once they were on the platform thing and watching Jin and Hoseok get settled on the thing.

“Okay” She said strangely more calm than before, mostly due to the instructors making sure the equipment on her groupmates was very well adjusted before letting them hang over the edge of the platform.

The sudden drop and the boys’ scream startled her a little, but Sunny couldn’t hide the smile on her face seeing how much fun they were having on the swing. So she sat next to Jimin on the steps and cheered Taehyung, who was far more scared than her when it was his turn.

“We’re doing it like the others okay?” Sunny turned to Jk once they were waiting for Namjoon and V to get back on the platform. “No funny ideas or things to make this any more dangerous than it is”

“Sure, sure,” He said jumping excited for their turn, and once the instructor asked them which way they were going to drop he nonchalantly answered “Upsidedown”

“No, no” Sunny exclaimed shaking her head. She had watched four people safely drop on the thing sitting down, she would safely do it sitting down as well.

“Yes, yes. Upsidedown” Jungkook repeated making the woman smile.

“He can go upsidedown and you can sit normally after him. How does that sound?” She asked politely making Sunny consider going alone.

“Can I do it first then?” She asked turning around to one of the producers to ask if it would make the content less exciting. Giving her a thumbs up, Sunny took it as a yes and turned to the instructor again.

“Sure, you can go in any other you want” She waved the girl near the edge and started to fix her gear.

“Wow, you’re making me wait more because you’re too scared” Jungkook laughed watching from her side and leaning on one of the security bars.

“I’m swinging off this thing by myself, I think the only thing you can’t call me right now is scared” She rolled her eyes at him and heard Jin laughing at their exchange.

“Okay, you can sit and take your feet off the edge,” She said, and in that moment, sitting seconds away from a 70-meter free-fall and 300-meter arc swing, Sunny felt scared shitless.

She looked ahead to the instructor and blocked out any kind of noise around her, not really knowing what was going on or how much longer until she would fall onto her inevitable death backward, the only thing she could feel was her heart beating out of her chest.

It came out of nowhere, but suddenly she felt all of her body drop and a scream leave her mouth, instantly gripping onto the swing’s ropes. After a few milliseconds that felt like ages, she finally could feel the security stuff holding her body in place and preventing her to slip and die. Her screams turning into a laugh as she started to swing on the huge thing.

“I’m gonna swing, from the chandelier” Sunny sang as the thing lost momentum and looked around at the mountains around her. The adrenaline running crazy on her body as she leaned her body back every time the swing went back.

“Were you singing Sia?” Jimin asked once she made back to the platform making the girl laugh.

“Did you hear that from here?”

Getting out of the helicopter, Sunny stretched a bit and walked along the mountain of snow, following her members. She saw a few of them making snowballs, and falling in the snow so she thought she should do the same.

Falling back on the snow, she moved her arms up and down hoping to make a snow angel, but once she got up it didn’t look like one at all.

“That doesn’t look quite right” Yoongi smiled at the weird blob on the ground and helped her get some of the snow off her hair.

“I don’t know where I was aiming with that, to be honest” Sunny said shaking her coat. “What are the others doing?”

“Jimin and Taehyung are walking around and doing something I don’t understand and the rest are building a snowman” Suga said and started walking with her to where the rest of them were.

“Sunny, do you have something to put on it?” Hoseok screamed for her pointing at the two balls of snow that barely looked like a snowman.

Taking off her beanie, she threw it to him and walked closer, looking for things that could make the “statue” more human-like.

Placing a pair of glasses on its face and a scarf around its neck, the members decided they had done a good enough job and walked away, looking for more things to do.

“Hey, look at this” Jimin approached her with a concerned face and a hand full of snow. “Is this an insect?”

Leaning down to look at what he was showing her, Sunny didn’t react fast enough when he lifted up his hand and smeared snow on her face.

“Really?” Sunny screamed after taking some of the snow off her eyes and looked around to see the boy jumping excited and grinning mischievously. Running towards him to push him on the ground, she got slowed down by the snow and failed to do it, instead of holding him in place and kicking the back of his knee to somehow take him down, which she also failed to do.

Looking at them from afar, Jin sighed and looked at Suga “Why are they like this?”

END OF THE TRIP INTERVIEW

1.What did you think when you heard you were coming to New Zealand?

“I liked it but it wasn’t anything special. Like I had heard good things about it and was interested in some of the videos the guys showed me so I thought it would be fun to come here, and it really was.”

2. This was your first work after vacation. How was it?

“I didn’t travel anywhere during the vacation, mostly because I wanted to see some people and I couldn’t do that if I was away, but also because I knew we were going to come to New Zealand right after and I just realized I didn’t have this extra need for going away and spending time outside of Korea. It sure was fun to spend this time with the members after not having them on my daily routine like I’m used to, it consolidated in my mind that no matter the time we spend apart this group of people will always feel like family.”

3. What did you like the most?

“I really enjoyed the overall feel of the country. I don’t know how to explain, but everywhere we went the sky was always beautiful, the landscape, the mountains, the roads we went through, everything was always beautiful, and even though my nose is stuffy and my fingers froze a lot, the weather feels so cozy and so nice. This just seems like one of those places you go backpacking with your friends and the fact that we did exactly that feels really good to me”

4. When did you feel bad or disappointed?

“Hmm… I don’t think I felt disappointed about anything, but since we changed locations so many times this trip, it did cross my mind how I wasn’t much use whenever we went to another accommodation since I don’t drive and couldn’t really help them whenever someone got tired and needed a rest. Also, I don’t think I was that entertaining this time, so sorry for the people watching this”

5. How did you feel about this trip?

“Everything was really nice. Compared to the last time we spent most of the trip together as a group instead of pairs, and that made me grateful for all of the members’ presence. Also, the destination really made me want to come back, with them but also with the rest of the people I love”

6. To ARMYs who’d watch Bon Voyage Season Four

“I said it before, but first I’m sorry if I didn’t appear as entertaining. I hope you understand that I truly liked this trip and was just living through it in my own way instead of exaggerating it and making it seem fake. Everything was perfect and I hope you can have some enjoyment just watching the members being ourselves”

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I honestly think out of the main British soaps (Eastenders, Hollyoaks, Emmerdale, and Coronation Street), Emmerdale may be the worst out of the lot rn. I feel like the other three soaps have AT LEAST one or two storylines that are kind of interesting and keep people watching, but Emmerdale just doesn't have anything! It's so boring. I watched the national television awards and even with the brief snippet they showed of Emmerdale, it looked like the most basic and boring soap out of them all. Not to mention that Emmerdale's ratings have lowered and the buzz around the show is poor compared to the other soaps, even Hollyoaks which has always been the underdog. I've lost so much interest in the show, I've basically stopped watching. They really need a huge overhaul. I just hope they're starting to realize that a big change needs to be made. I think the best way to do this would be to completely start fresh with new showrunners. Eastenders had a huge overhaul and even though the show is not my fave, they've done a good job at starting fresh and creating buzz for the show again.

I'm glad they didn't win anything at the NTAs last night. They certainly didn't deserve it. I feel like they're just floundering right now. They really do need a complete overhaul with someone coming in with a fresh vision and plan for how to rehabilitate the show.

I haven't watched in over three weeks now. I mean that's also cause I kind of fell down a Red White and Royal Blue rabbit hole and suddenly had new tabs to refresh but also because the show is garbage and there's really not a single storyline that I read about that makes me want to actually watch.

I have zero interest in this Lydia story because I just don't think it should be happening in the first place. It's bad enough that it's yet another rape story but it's that on top of her being basically off screen for months and then coming back not only to this but to revisiting the whole stillborn baby plot too. It feels like they're just stuck with all of these characters and only know how to give them one story and so they just continually go back to that well and pile on more misery and it's exhausting.

I'm annoyed with what they're doing with Gabby. All they do is have her throw herself at unavailable men. At some point, maybe it would be nice if a guy actually liked her back. Radical thought. Maybe her character could actually grow?!? Not to mention, her continued hatred of Nicky and trying to screw him over is just boring. Everyone else has moved on. It's not like he wasn't being manipulated into it all anyway. I wish they'd just had them become friends.

Anything with random plot gangsters is a no go for me. The fact that it also involves Nate is just doubly bad.

I truly could not care less about Amelia.

I know the Cathy actress needed a break for exams or whatever so they shipped her off in the middle of her story but the fact that they're bringing her back just to finally give her the diagnosis we've all known about for months and she knew she had already is just silly. I'd rather have her learning to adjust rather than lashing out over a diagnosis.

I might watch some of the stunt week just to see Chloe die if that actually happens. But I just could not care less about that love triangle. It's so tedious and boring and none of these people work together and I wish they'd just let everyone move the fuck on.

I can't believe they're going back to the David and Victoria well for his exit. They truly have nothing to do with these characters. It's just sad.

I think the only thing right now that might get me to watch again is if they actually brought Amit in for Jai and Suni. The fact that they killed Rishi off and then the whole story seemed to just die with him is so wild to me. I have to assume that it's going to come back but it's just so dumb that Jai spent his last weeks with Rishi hating him for this lie and then turned around and decided he would just continue the lie with Suni. It's kind of ridiculous. And while I feel like it all has to come up again and they have to bring in Amit eventually, I could equally see it being forgotten about entirely because these people suck that much.

So yeah...they really have a whole lot of work to do.

#emmerdale complaints corner

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DWTS Week 8 - Janet Jackson Night

Jimmie & Emma

I thought this dance was sharp with plenty of hip action, I still love seeing Jimmie’s growth every week. This was colorful and fun to watch, I don’t know what the judges are on tonight. He’s a far better dancer than they’re claiming he is and I just wish they’d actually allow him to shine.

Suni & Sasha

That was by FAR her best dance of the season!! Her technique is great as usual but what made this one stand out is her newfound confidence. She looked like she was having so much fun out there and I am so proud of her for it! This dance officially shot her up to the top of my list of favorites to win.

Melora & Artem

What was that random cutaway to Carrie Ann? This was a very different side of Melora than we’re used to seeing but it was a great change! She’s not necessarily my favorite to watch of the stars left, but that’s not for lack of talent. With all the attack and precision in this number she could definitely have what it takes to make it all the way.

Olivia & Val

This dance had a weird staccato to it that I didn’t like and there was one lift in particular that felt super awkward on the dismount. I also agree with Len that the chairs were unnecessary, Val could have included more actual dancing instead. Probably one of my least favorite performances from Olivia, which is too bad because I know she has the dancing skills.

Cody & Cheryl

The judges must be watching a different dance than I am because I still think his movements aren’t connected and the dance just doesn’t feel as polished as it should. I don’t understand the Cody hype, almost everyone left is a better dancer than he is. Definitely over scored, all 9s would have even felt generous.

Amanda & Alan

This dance was a lot of fun with plenty of attitude, although one of the lifts here looked weird too. I’m surprised one of the judges didn’t call them out on it, although I suppose with “jazz” they can just brush it off as artistic interpretation. Otherwise well danced and well choreographed, one of Amanda’s best.

Iman & Daniella

There was a misstep from Iman at the beginning but his movements are so much sharper than they used to be and he’s actually learned how to place his arms plus create some nuance with them. I would still say he’s the weakest dancer left, but there’s growth and that’s the important thing.

JoJo & Jenna

This dance had so much sass and power to it, JoJo continues to be such a joy to watch every week. I appreciate that Jenna continues to push her, so they don’t perform similar routines. The starting lift alone was iconic and I so look forward to their performances every week!

Dance Off

Jimmie vs Suni

Honestly all but one of these pairings felt very unfair, they it was obvious from the start who would win each round. This is the one that upset me the most though. Jimmie & Suni we’re the only two couples I voted for tonight and I still think Jimmie should have won this one. He is who my eyes were drawn to on the dance floor, he has the performance flavor that Suni was lacking the last few weeks. She was much much better tonight than she has been but it did feel like the judges were setting Jimmie up to be eliminated.

JoJo vs Olivia

This is the only pairing I thought was somewhat fair, although ideally JoJo would have been paired with Amanda. Olivia also hasn’t figured out how to perform and has the same smile on her face in every dance. JoJo was definitely my winner here and I was very relieved that Carrie Ann didn’t go the Olivia favorite route again.

Melora vs Iman

I don’t understand this pairing at all, why was Iman not paired with Cody. It felt very unfair. Melora won this, no question, but Iman put in a valiant effort.

Amanda vs Cody

Cody actually did a lot better here than I was expecting, I noticed some improvement from his other dances, but Amanda was always going to win this. There is something about Cody’s dancing that just does not work for me.

Elimination

I knew I was going to be devastated by at least 1 elimination tonight and I was RIGHT. Jimmie is a stronger dancer than any of the other men left and it makes me mad that the judges were so harsh on him tonight. I agree it was Olivia’s time to go but Jimmie? Voters let me down, but mostly the judges did and I’m really going to miss seeing him perform on the dance floor.

#dwts 30 #dancing with the stars #my thoughts

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appleteez · 4 years

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Weird Birthday

Pairing: San x reader

Genre: Fluff

Word Count: 1470

A/N: This is for my little and favorite bean ever @ckyunoirs she asked for fluff San in the park? She gets fluff San in the park~ I hope you like it Suni bean ♥︎

My eyes fixed on the book in my laps, music playing very lowly in my ears. Just low enough for me to still hear the wind going through the orange and red leaves falling from the trees elegantly. From the corner of my eye, I see my phone lit up on my bag that I put next to me on the little bench. I put the book aside and read once again a birthday message from an old high school friend. I smile at myself and answer a big thank you to the thoughtful text.

“Here you are” I look up right after sending my text and see my friend San.

“San !”

“When you said you were at the park you could have been a bit more specific where exactly in the park.” He laughs a bit scratching the back of his head.

“Sorry~” I say actually embarrassed by my terrible communication.

“Well, I found you so it doesn’t matter.” He smiles warmly showing me all his teeth. He had a blue scarf wrapped around his neck, a scarf much thinner than mine who was engulfing most of my face in it. I look down and I’m surprised to see that he’s dressed more elegantly than usual. He has nice plaid pants with nice brown shoes and finally a button down jacket.

“Wow, Sannie.. you look.” I look up to his face from my glasses. “A little less messy than usual.”

“Well, I told you I was taking you out for your birthday, I thought I’d dress a little bit nicely at least. You didn’t try much..” He laughs a bit at my outfit. My hair in a messy bun, my glasses low on my nose, my huge scarf, my dad’s jacket and finally a pair of pants that had some random patching around covering holes made over the years. “You dressed the same way you dress when we get mcdonalds at 3am after study sessions.”

“Are we not going to mcdonalds?”

“What? No! I told you !! I’m taking you out to a nice place for the occasion !”

“I thought you were messing around and it was just code for fast food..”

“Oh my god Y/N..” He scoffs more than amused by my complete misunderstanding. “Maybe..” He comes closer to me and gets his hands on my bun. I feel little by little my bun getting looser until my hair fall completely on my shoulder and my bangs fully in my face. “You’re cute with your hair down.” He smiles his face still close to mine, and my cheeks start to feel warm.

In case I didn’t mention it, me and San aren’t dating. I know confusing right, he’s so caring and he’s taking me out for my birthday lunch. People would think we’re dating at this point ! But no, we’re not. I met San my freshman year of college, it’s now my third year and we’ve been friends ever since. Now, do I have feelings for him? Of course I do ! This man is beautiful, caring, charming, funny, kinda smart, in short he’s the whole package. Sooo, going back to him calling me cute after touching my hair and being so close to me? Yeah, I would say I’m freaking out inside, just a bit.

“Th—thanks.” I end up saying after a good half minute of being silent.

“Sorry if that was out of nowhere.” He says actually pretty calm.

“Don’t worry. Let’s go?” I stuff my book in my bag and stand up ready to go.

“Let’s go.” He brings his arm out a bit, his hand was in his pocket. Was he offering me to put my arm around his? “Come on~” I end up rolling my arm around his and he pulls me lightly as we start walking in the park. My hand clenches lightly around the fabric of his jacket and my cheeks don’t seem to want to cool down anytime soon.

“This feels like a date, it’s weird.” I end up blurring out without thinking. I guess I was comfortable enough around San to say dumb stuff.

“You think so?” He says sounding a bit hurt.

“Why do you sound like that?”

“Well, you said it’s weird. Would it be weird if you went on a date with me?” I stop walking and look at him with a shocked expression plastered in my face. Nothing too crazy, just really wide eyes and furrowed eyebrows. He gives me a shy side glance, here’s the shy San that I was waiting for.

“What is going on?” I squint my eyes. He had been awfully sure of himself. First my hair, then him saying I was cute, and the arm thing? Something was definitely up.

“Nothing, I’m just trying to take my best friend to lunch for her birthday but she’s making this awfully difficult.”

“Why did you say I was cute?”

“Because you are?”

“Why did you held your arm out for me?”

“Because I care about you.”

“You once pushed me in a huge puddle and laughed your ass off for five minutes without helping me up and now you care?”

“Well I—“

“You even stand and slam me at least once a day.”

“It’s your birthday and I thought—“

“On my birthday last year you yelled ‘TRUST FALL!’ and jumped on me… That’s not what a trust fall is.”

“Yeah..”

“I spent the rest of my day at the hospital.”

“You did..”

“The year before that—“

“Ok I get it !!” He says trying to hide a blush on his face. “I.. You’re special to me, and I wanted to at least have a nice birthday for you. I guess I felt bad about the previous ones..”

“San doesn’t feel bad about that kind of stuff. Who are you?”

“Come on Y/N, let’s just go.” He says lightly bouncing.

“Ok, ok fine.” We start walking again, my arm still around his. After a few minutes, his eyes glance towards me again.

“Are you hands cold?”

“A little but it’s fine.” I say still looking straight at the beautiful leaves falling down the huge walkway of the park. I suddenly feel his hand come out of his pocket. He takes my hand in his and brings it back inside his pocket. I look at our hands now lightly intertwined in his pocket and I look up.

“Don’t.” He just says knowing damn well I was about to question his, once again, weird action.

“You’re making this very hard for me, but.. It’s better than a trust fall of yours.” He turns his head towards me. I try not to glances, when I suddenly feel a pair of warm lips on my cheek. “Ok.. Now I have to say something. Choi San what is going on.” We stop walking and he just looks at me. His expression between a sorry and hesitant look. I turn to face him and he does that same.

“You’re just really cute today and..” He hesitates again. His eyes go from left to right, to my eyes, to my lips. He leans in a little bit and seeing that I do not move away, he presses his lips lightly against mine. Without moving away too far, his forehead against mine. “I kinda really like you.” He says almost in a whisper. I stay still for a minute not knowing how to react. Obviously, my cheeks start burning up more than ever now. I bite my lips together and start laughing a bit.

“I like you too San, but why did you have to act so weird about it.”

“I don’t know !” He steps back completely embarrassed now, while I laugh my heart out. “I always think of you as my buddy. Like I’ve liked you for a while but when I thought about actually confessing to you. I thought I needed to act a bit more, romantic or boyfriend like?”

“You’ve never act this way with me before though San. If I like you, it’s for the way you are with me all the time not some weird romantic San.” I laugh and he ends up laughing with me.

“You’re right. I’m just glad I got this out of the way.”

“Same cause I wasn’t up for any more of that weird behavior of yours.”

“Whatever..” He rolls his eyes playfully. “But at least~” He leans in again to kiss my cheek hard. “I can do this whenever I want now.” I laugh with him and we keep walking in the park in direction of the restaurant we were suppose to eat at. This was definitely an upgrade from last year’s birthday. However, He did do some wrestling moves on me when we got back to his dorm room.

#ateez x reader #ateez san #ateez choi san #choi san #San x reader #Ateez #choi san x reader #fluff #San fluff #choi san fluff #kpop writing #kpop scenarios #kpop oneshots #ateez scenarios #ateez writing

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