#rambles about ed

[justatiredblog]

An unpopular opinion:

Most people who are fatphobic have or had eds.

Ed bitches are the harshest and rudest to others in terms of their appearance, even if they don't voice it out.

And that's because they think they are being judged constantly themselves.

The hurt we have inside is transferred onto others, even if we hate the idea.

So, yes, you can hate the idea of being fatphobic.

But ask yourself if that actually equals not being it.

And, yes, I'm calling myself out as well. I hate it. I hate myself for it. I don't voice it. I say the opposite. But most of the time in my mind I am fatphobic as fuck and it disgusts me. But it doesn't stop me from being it still... because I hate myself when I'm fat and I hate fat on anyone, when it looks bad. I don't hate them. I hate the fucking fat. Why? Because it hits me square into my face with a note that "YOU ARE FAT, BITCH."

Does it make this any better? No. I still am a shitty person. But I acknowledge it and try with all my might to calm it the fuck down, because it's TERRIBLE AND UNFAIR towards other people.

Think about it.

#fatphobic #fatphobia #fatty #fat #rambles about ed #ed post #tw ed vent #fat piggy

[starryemeralds]

“i know the odds of this finding you are slim, but so were the odds of us finding each other in the first place”

someone please force feed drywall to me

#i fucking cant with these two — fuck me #i literally tweeted yesterday about the idea of ed finding one of the bottles #I LITERALLY KNEW THE MOMENT STEDE MENTIONED IT IN EPISODE THAT THISBWAS GONNA HAPPEN #WHY AM I STILL IN SHOCK #god.. i’m feral #ofmd spoilers #ofmd #gentlebeard #edward teach #ed teach #stede bonnet #starry rambles

[saltpepperbeard]

gnawing on my arm because i think there's something to be said about how stede not only dreams about himself with a beard, but ed with his full beard back too. like, the dream seems to be riddled with imagery that he thinks ed would want.

and i say this especially because of how stede reacted when ed had to shave his beard. he freaked out on his behalf. he shrieked in horror whereas ed was entirely unbothered. he feared he had ruined him, had dragged him down to some despicable level, when in actuality, ed was completely content to shed that part of his persona.

and then there he is dreaming about ed with that part right on back.

so there's very clearly still a part of his mind that's convinced that's what ed wants. because why wouldn't he? everyone else seems to. and why would he want the softness and femininity stede had been bullied for his entire life?

which in turn plays into his own imagery too. bearded, masculine, fiercesome, rugged...

because how could someone love what everyone has hated him for? how could someone want what everyone has tried to quite literally beat out of him?

#OFMD #OFMD Season 2 #OFMD S2 Spoilers #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Revenge Rambles #ALSO #I SAY ALL OF THIS TO SAY #I really REALLY hope they have a conversation about it #Because Stede clearly has some issues going on with his self-worth still #He's getting BETTER #But he's definitely still having issues #And I really hope I'm on the money when it comes to that one shot where Ed seems to be looking at him drinking/partying in Spanish Jackie'z #And is looking TROUBLED #I keep envisioning an exchange where Ed is like 'Well this is...different' #And Stede cheerily goes 'Ah yes. Trying something new! Do you like it?' #And Ed looks him dead in the eye and goes 'Do YOU?' #Also it kills me how they're both sort of having the same issues just in different fonts #Ie Ed worrying that he's unlovable how he is #And Stede ALSO worrying that he's unlovable how he is #They both want to change parts of themselves/shy away from parts of themselves #When in reality both of them love each other for who they really are #AND I HOPE THEY HAVE A CONVERSATION CENTERED AROUND JUST THAT #I HOPE THAT'S WHAT AAAALLL OF THIS IS BUILDING TO

[cataclysmic-cathexis]

Can we take it... slow?

Because I am once again completely normal about a piece of media, here is a visual essay on You Wear Fine Things Well Take 2: Faces and What Those Faces Are Doing (It's Kissing, But Also Emotions)

(I lightened all these screenshots up so the faces are more visible)

Ed is telling Stede his very sweet fishing story. Stede is reacting totally appropriately - gasping, eyes wide, interested and adorable. He's genuinely loving spending this time with Ed, hearing about his day.

He even leans forward to examine the lil fishy. CUTE. He's just so happy to be here, with Ed, talking about their days, spending time together. ("I love being near you.")

Stede tells Ed his abbreviated "cursed suit" story, where Ed delivers the "that wasn't a long story at all" line deadpan with this hilarious face:

(Why is this face so funny? Scientists in the future may know, but alas, this mystery will not be answered within our lifetime.)

Ed then ups the ante - going from that hilarious face to this SCORCHING HOT ONE after uttering the line that ruined the life of everyone on this hellsite

You wear fine things well

Those big brown 'come hither' eyes are HITHERING (it's a word, don't Google it tho)

What I also like about the refrain of "you wear fine things well" - Ed is signaling to Stede that he is ready to take another step. In the last episode, Ed put down a firm boundary - "you don't get to say that to me." Stede, in his adorable, desperate, determined, stubborn yet respectful way, backed off (by delivering an arguably MORE romantic speech but whatever - he respected Ed's boundary and didn't say "I love you"). Ed is pulling from their shared history, from a beautiful moment where they both felt something (although it's arguable as to whether or not in the moment Stede actually knew what he was feeling - he certainly with hindsight was like OOOOOOOOHHH).

So Ed is giving Stede the ok to take a step forward - which he does, while making this face with is the human equivalent of the heart eyes emoji:

Stede then looks away - and he stays in place, letting Ed come to him, making sure it's Ed to initiate. I think Stede wants Ed to be sure, doesn't want to push, since he knows how badly he fucked up and knows how deep Ed's hurt is.

Stede looks back up, but stays in place. Ed is looking at him with such vulnerability...

..as he slowly does his adorable little teenager-about-to-have-their-first-kiss shuffle...

And he leans in for that sweet kiss under the waxing moon.

Initially it's just Ed who is leaning in, but then Stede leans into the kiss as well - and deepens it.

Ed is then like "ok weird for ME to be the one saying this but it's probably healthier if we don't skip straight to banging each other's brains out on the deck of the ship and like, make sure of our feelings first"

After Ed says "We're whim-prone, as you said," Stede goes through a little mini crisis. First, fuck why did I say that:

Then - before Ed can finish what he's saying, Stede's face falls. He's so worried he's messed this up. Ed gave him a kiss and he tried to go too fast, and he's getting rejected again.

He tries to put a brave face on it, but our lil guy is SO SAD

Then once Ed finishes his fish metaphor ("You can't catch a fish unless the fish wants to be caught") Stede realises that Ed isn't rejecting him. I think Ed's vulnerability here and how unsure he is ("we're the fish, I guess. Maybe. I think.") helps Stede to remember hey, this isn't about me and my stuff right now, this is about Ed and Ed's stuff.

Stede gains a little confidence back. He's reassured. Ed is still trying to figure out who he is without Blackbeard, and Stede gets it. And Ed still wants him to be a part of who the new Ed is ("we're the fish"). He's like ok, I got u babe.

So he pulls himself back, but he still wants Ed to feel his affection, and to know that Ed is loved. So he holds Ed's hand and asks for permission.

"What about this? Is this alright?"

"This? Perfect."

Then they have their adorable little hand moment - just happy that they understand one another, happy to be touching, happy to be together.

"You won." Stede whispers.

Ed looks away, beaming:

And, in contrast to the last time they stood on the deck, under the moon, and said "you wear fine things well", this time they walk off together.

FIN.

#cool #cool cool cool #again i am completely normal about this piece of media #did i hyperfixate and take screenshots of this entire episode? MAYBE but that's MY BUSINESS #ramblings #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 ep5 #blackbonnet #gentlebeard #ed teach #stede bonnet #ed teach loves stede bonnet #stede bonnet loves ed teach #you wear fine things well #our flag means death #ofmd meta

[harrylovesspaezle]

frenchie would 100% have a podcast talking about conspiracy theories and mythical things, and he would invite a different crew member every week to talk about a specific thing

#olu's episode would be about MLM schemes #ed would talk about mermaids #izzy would not show up #oluwande boodhari #izzy hands #frenchie ofmd #ouizzy #ofmd #our flag means death #ed teach #stede bonnet #edward teach #lilo rambles

[lazylittledragon]

don't you love when you Just stopped feeling guilty about eating the things you like and then one of your parents drops the "i'm concerned about your diet"

#ramble #tw ed #this is because i sometimes eat pasta twice a day btw #which. i didn't think was THAT bad as far as diets go #is that not normal??? is that BAD??? #they would've fainted at some of the shit i ate when i was at uni #also i walk my dog for an hour every day #and also i'm 3 months into hrt and i'm HUNGRY give me a break #i just don't see why you would bring it up if it wasn't something that could ACTUALLY fuck up my health long term #uhghghghghghghghhghghg #also. not that it MATTERS. but i have NEVER had diet/food related health issues outside of IBS #maybe be concerned about my brother who works a full time restaurant job and literally doesn't eat #idk why i'm surprised when my mum thinks she has a terrible diet because she eats chocolate sometimes

[chronicowboy]

#sami rambles #i was screaming crying throwing up etc. then i was screaming crying throwing up etc. for completely different reasons #still salty about them not getting to dance but hey the shielding was hot #ofmd spoilers #ofmd #our flag means death #ed x stede #blackbonnet

[m-o-o-n-f-i-r-e]

help i’ve fallen for another ship comprised of two insane autistic queers that want each other dead despite also being willing to do literally anything for the other even at risk to themselves

#nygmobblepot #i literally never gave a shit about the penguin and the riddler #but the moment my brother makes me watch a show where they are portrayed by theatre nerds who care about the characters #i become obsessed instantly #i would watch the show out of the corner of my eye while my brother and dad were watching it and see oswald and id just think #that little weirdo is the only thing that makes me like this show its so fun when hes on screen #then ed starts showing up more and i start to love his autistic ramblings and general energy #then ed kills a guy and i think fuck i love this show so much #then i see them interact and find out that they are semi canon??? #like oswald is canonically in love with ed but the show seems to want you to think that ed just doesn’t reciprocate #but he obviously does and just doesn’t realize at the beginning because he thinks hes straight #but by the end that man is NOT hiding how much he loves oswald #like what the fuck was that hallucination scene if not his concince trying to make him realize how much he loves oswald #and there scene in the last episode in the car??? #like that man has finally accepted that hes in love and is finally ready to act on it #anyways rant over they are just like hannigram and danbert and i will never change my mind #also their actors fucking killed in their rolls i love them #and fun fact: edward was cory michal smith’s first role outside of theatre and it fucking shows in the best ways #him being a mostly theatre person just adds so much to edward and makes him just so enjoyable to watch #now the rant is actually over #gotham #gotham tv

[scarrletmoon]

sorry, if you think ed couldn’t read in s1 but never once assumed izzy couldn’t read, get away from me

give me a reason you think this is way that isn’t racist. quickly.

#scarrlet rambles #this also includes just taking it for granted that he could read when he gets the note in s2 #con himself made a joke about izzy illiterate #if anything IZZY was confirmed to be able to read in s2 #there was always evidence for ed being literate

[cowchickenbeefpork]

Oswald mostly yearns for Edward while Edward mostly craves for Oswald, both will never be satisfied at the end of the day.

#gotham edward nygma #gotham #gotham 2014 #gotham oswald #oswald cobblepot #edward nygma #nygmobblepot #do ya get me #might write a fanfic about this idk #the depraved ramblings of a madman #edward is a craver on the outside while on the inside he is a yearner while oswald is yearner on the outside but a craver on the inside #but thats less poetic both do yearning and craving for the other but both express it differently #edward does not let himself yearn for oswald so he craves #oswald does not let himself crave for edward so he yearns #the yearning oswald does is a cope for his constant craving #the craving edward is a cope for his constant yearning #natural consequences of ed being npd with bpd traits and oswald being bpd with npd traits

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[foldingfittedsheets]

This one isn’t funny or cute but one time at the sex shop an absolutely stunning Asian lady in her thirties asked me in lightly accented English how not to have any more babies. It absolutely devastated me.

#ramblies #she looked sad when I talked about condoms and planned parenthood #got the vibe that her husband would not be on board with contraceptives #when she first came in she asked me what a condom was and then there was a beat after I told her before she asked how it worked #I was probably not even old enough to drink yet trying to give this lady sex ed past a language gap

[saltpepperbeard]

the way several characters have told ed and stede to "shut up" in some way, shape, or form. but when they're both talking to each other, they absolutely cling to every single word. they can't get enough of each other's stories, or ramblings, or little recounts of their days.

#OFMD #OFMD Season 2 #OFMD S2 Spoilers #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Revenge Rambles #inspired entirely by ed rambling on about his day/about fang's actual name towards the end of ep 5 #and stede just looking at him as though he hung the moon and stars #stede looking at him and absolutely holding on to every little word pouring from ed's mouth #and i think it's resonating with me quite deeply because uh #I TALK A LOT LMAO #IN CASE YOU HAVEN'T NOTICED #and i've gotten in trouble for it/snapped at for it/told i'm being too loud whenever i'm being passionate about something/etc etc #so to have someone like...LOVE you for your ramblings #love you for everything you have to say #someone who is just as excited to hear what you're saying as you are with speaking it... #man #MAN..

[1989edteach]

i’ve been thinking way too much about ed’s wedding hair and him having a small little braid in a half up half down hairstyle with purple and white little flowers in it all along the back the crown of his head, even a few framing his face

#my ramblings #ed headcanons #i think about you too much mister pirate man #ed teach #ofmd #gentlebeard #edward teach #our flag means death #save ofmd #renew as a crew #save our flag means death #blackbeard #blackbonnet

[harrylovesspaezle]

thinking about "i dreamt that ya killed me" "good for you" with the fucking snarl and then ed saying "it was good for me" it fucking haunts me in my dreams both of them are so insane yet so perfect

the anger and the fear and the obvious sexual tension as well as the fucking way that they say all their lines.. literally everything about it is so unsettling and yet so captivating

like in the first half of that scene izzy doesn't really get what's happening but the second he does he gets that little smile that's so absolutely terrifying and wonderful and it just shows the kind of actors they are. Because wow hearing con/izzy laugh like that while pointing the gun at ed was downright insane but so perfect, and i could go on and on about these two but i'll shut up now

#i'm so normal about them #the tension #i can't even describe it #i am nervous every time i watch it #i could write whole essays about these gays #izzy hands #our flag means death #ed teach #edward teach #edizzy #ofmd s2e2 #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #lilo rambles #con o'neill #taika waititi

[sunnibits]

loving reminder as someone who struggles with food: you are allowed to add joy to your food. you are allowed to add a little joy even if it’s a tiny thing, something silly or something weird. you are allowed to do it whenever you want, as many times as you want. anything that makes food easier and more enjoyable for you is worth it!! it’s your food, you can decide what to do with it!! you can add rainbow sprinkles to your ice cream. you can cut your food into little heart shapes. you can pack your snacks into cute little bento boxes. it is not pointless or childish, it is an effective and active coping tool that you are allowed to use.

give yourself a little joy. the little things add up.

#even if it’s just a teeny tiny thing it’s sooo helpful to get just a little bit of excitement out of ur meal!! #you are allowed to do it!! if it’s ’pointless’ then what’s the point in denying yourself from it?? #I’m being so serious like. put stickers on your air fryer. put your meals into cute containers even if you don’t need them. #cut your food up into little cute pieces if you have the spoons for it. buy yourself Dino nuggies. #try to have at least one thing to look forward to in every meal even if it’s just a little piece of candy #just!! change things up!! be self indulgent!!! you are worth it and anything that helps you be healthy is worth it!!! #there are no rules!!!! you are allowed to be kind to yourself!! #anyways. don’t mind my rambling. I’m just trying to romanticize my own struggles rn #and it’s genuinely been very interesting to learn what helps and how my brain works!!! #idk I just think about it a lot. it means a lot to me rn. #also before anyone tells me I piss on the poor. obviously my experiences are not universal and will not apply to everyone #things that work for me might not work for you and that’s ok!! I wish you luck I love u!!! #tw ed #just a teensy implication #gem don’t look #arfid