#please just make me okay again

[larrysballetslippers]

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#it's been a while that I put something in the tags but Im very lost atm for reasons i don't know #i don't know if Im nervous to see my friendgroup from uni again because my ex crush is going to be there and I have to pretend everything is #fine while also not getting frustrated by that toxic friend that I can't stand anymore #or if it's because im feeling so damn empty from getting on a dating app after being rejected by said ex crush #i don't know know why Im on there my friend said it was an good idea but Im already regretting but I can't just delete it or whatever #because I actually have some people I have been talking to but why do I feel so empty then?? #why does it feel like my life has been sucked out of me today? it can't just me the amount of interaction im sure that's not it. #i thought ... i thought this would make me happy to try bew things to get more attention from people get more confident #but why can't I shake this depression like feeling off #because I know this feeling well but I hope it doesn't stay please don't stay #how will I get better like this? am I still healing? i know I am but I was fine just yesterday just yesterday I didn't think of him #so why can't I shake this? #i have no answers I have nothing and I can't talk to anyone about it either because I don't even know what's going on #please just let me understand so I can heal this fix this #please just make me okay again #i can't start the year like this #please

[witchinatree]

i know the whole "do you think jon ever used his powers to Know what his parents looked like" thing is far more devastating than this but what if he tried using his powers to remember original sasha? jon and sasha always seemed closer than the rest, he picked her (and tim) to work with him and tolerated a lot more nonsense from her than anyone else (using his password to access his computer [161], debating his pronunciation of calliope [25], etc)

and ofc jon and martin became significantly closer as the podcast went on, but in the beginning he was cruel to martin when he gave a statement but accepting of sasha? idk i think their friendship was a lot deeper than we realized (ESPECIALLY since his first murder in season 5 was because NotThem provoked him about sasha) and i think jon wouldve used his powers to Know the original sasha, not sure if it wouldve worked though

so so sorry to distract from the post but can yall read the tags for me because i suffered immensely for this post

#they make me ill #sasha was so cool i miss her every day #i think we need more sasha content #idk i wish we got more of them specifically #THIS POST. HAS CRASHED. 4. TIMES. #i am trying to write about the magnus archives and its like “hee hee tumbeast ate your post” give it the fuck back? #it saved to my drafts after the 4th tag but this is pissing me off #every time i try to tag it as “tma” it crashes so im not doing that #just pretend i did ok #16 more times total of 20 every time i try to write tags it crashes #it wont let me write the archivists name im genuinely so serious #please help me please help me #im gonna sit here for a second and let it save as draft #6 more times #ur joking #total of 26 crashes over this one post #hate to distract from my incredibly brilliant insight but this is unusable #i think its okay again actually? #gonna try tagging with real tags wish me luck #jonathan sims #jon sims #sasha james #tma #the magnus archives #the archivist #notthem #notsasha #tma theory #tma spoilers #holy shit it worked

[grxceful-ly]

peter bringing mayday with him to do spider stuff because yeah, he had things to live for before--but now he has a child and he is going to raise this child and be there for her and maybe if she’s there, strapped to his chest, he’ll be more careful. he’ll consider his life almost as precious as hers. maybe bringing mayday to work is a precaution. 

#disclaimer: it's like 2am and i don't know what i just wrote because my brain won't function enough to read it over again #i also have read like zero spiderman comics so if this doesn't make sense because canon already speaks on it #i'm sorry #atsv spoilers #spiderman: across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #peter b parker #mayday #i am having thoughts #PLEASE BLOCK APPROPRIATE TAGS IF YOU DON"T WANNA BE SPOILED PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU #miles morales #into the spiderverse #spiderman #spiderman spoilers #this thought came about because i think swinging around with a child is the stupidest/coolest thing ever #and i feel like peter wouldn't do it without a reason #anyway sorry for the random change in fandoms i saw the movie tonight and it was fantastic #also #catch me crying in the theatre because peter wants his daughter to turn out like miles #OKAY IM DONE SPAMMING THE TAGS NOW BYE #across the spiderverse spoilers #spiderman across the spiderverse

[shima-draws]

My brain: Haha yeah I dunno if I’ll ever get into One Piece I mean it’s so long and such a huge dedication timewise—

Me, already 13 episodes in: Um. Well,

#JFNSNFJSJD HELP!!! #Shima speaks #Okay I HIGHLY doubt I’m going to slog through over 1000 episodes. BUT. #I will watch a chunk of it #Anyway. I LOVE Luffy. And I LOVE Zoro. #They really made Zoro out to be this supreme badass who’s super edgy and cool #He is all those things. BUT. He is also soooo dumb. And I love him #His reactions are just so over the top #And I love his quarrels with Naomi #*Nami. Spellcheck PLEASE. #And the fact that he trusts Luffy so MUCH already #And that he has absolute faith in Luffy so even when Luffy is hurt! He’s like ‘Oh yeah he’ll be fine dw’ #Makes me soft. #AND AGAIN. HE IS DUMB (affectionate) #Love me a goofy gang of pirates #Also REALLY loving Usopp too #Gathers them all up #My kids now. #One Piece

[turtleblogatlast]

Thinking about the Don Suave scene and what it means in terms of LGBTQ+ representation because my brain does nothing if not torment me with random topics to ramble about on the regular.

Anyway, I just wanted to ramble about why I like the scene but to get it out of the way - the scene can very easily be interpreted in so many different ways, and all of them are valid. I personally see it as Leo having at least some attraction to a man. And the following is an explanation of my own interpretation and thoughts on it and what it means especially for Leo’s portrayal in the grand scheme of things.

Long-winded interpretation under the cut!

Now, to start with, it’s important to me that in the scene Leo looks at Don Suave in the very beginning and then for the entirety of the rest of the time the man is on screen, Leo’s eyes are closed. Yet, in the end, he is still visibly enamored with Don Suave, happily cuddling up to him as he’s being carried away.

You can very easily interpret this as Leo being spellbound and that’s honestly super valid and I believe he likely was at least somewhat in the beginning, but considering how fast he looked away and how he never looked again, I personally think it makes more sense to read it as Leo just finding the man attractive, at least somewhat. (For the record, I personally headcanon Rise Leo as bisexual with a heavy preference for men, but I want to be blunt when I say that any interpretation is valid. Literally any. Ace, pan, gay, bi, none of the above or a mixture of something new literally all of it is more than okay and fair. Hell you could even interpret this entire scene as more romantic attraction than physical and it would still work. Anything goes!! Don’t bother people, guys, really.)

The main reason I take this scene to be at the very least LGBTQ+ adjacent isn’t just because of how it’s portrayed, but because of who Leonardo is. Not in terms of Rise of the TMNT, but in terms of the entire Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles™️ franchise.

Leo’s a character who, while changing with each iteration, has still at his core been around for decades upon decades as “the blue one”. One fourth of the team. He’s the one most are going to look at as the Leader, and oftentimes he is the one closest to having the title of Main Character. Not to say the others aren’t just as important, but Leo’s presence in the A plots of basically all TMNT media is often something very main character-esque.

And that’s very, very important to note. Here we have a Main Character of a prolific and decades long-running franchise distributed by a children’s television network. You can play around with his and his brothers’ characters all you like, but there is always going to be challenges to dodge around, especially since this was still in 2018-2019.

For example, you can play around with their designs so long as they’re color coded turtles, but their sexualities? Now that’s tricky.

“But what about Hypno and Warren?” Not main characters and also they’re Rise originals. They have a lot more room to play around with than a character like Leo does. But even talking about main characters in the franchise, you could arguably have an easier time playing around with Donnie or Mikey’s sexualities than Leo or even Raph, as (unfortunately) the former two tend to get more B plots, so they’d likely have had a little more leeway (still not a lot though.)

So, where does this leave us?

It leaves us in a place where outright stating and/or showing undeniable proof of Leo’s attraction to men is very, very difficult. So, workarounds!

Workarounds like the entire Don Suave situation.

To be honest, as left up to interpretation and lowkey and deniable as it is, this whole scene means a lot to me because of who Leo is as a character. It’s just nice when we get so see even the bare bones of representation with characters that have been such a large part of pop culture for decades, y’know? Even if more would be so much nicer, this is better than I thought we’d ever get for these boys.

And, again, literally nothing I’ve said is the only way to interpret it, I’m more than happy when people interpret media on their own honestly, it’s just something I’ve been thinking of lately and I was wondering if others felt the same way.

Whatever you think when you interpret this scene or Rise Leo as a whole, I just thought this would be interesting to think about, even if it was ramble-y, haha.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rise don suave #rottmnt don suave #I lied I’m back to ramble because I’m just #so bad at keeping my mouth shut #or uh #not typing word vomit #anyway- yeah this is my personal interpretation #I believe Leo was legitimately mesmerized by Don Suave’s powers…in the beginning #but even the series’ creator says it was ‘at least PART of what was going on with Leo’ so #idk it’s something that’s been on my mind and I was wondering if anyone else felt the same?? #may delete this later who knowssss #pleaaaase feel free to disagree I just like to talk lol #but yeah sometimes I look around at how much media has LGBTQ+ rep in it now and it honestly makes me emotional?? #(we always always ALWAYS could use more but) #we did not have even a crumb of this as kids #but also like most of that rep is new properties #and I just was thinking about what that could mean #idk man idk #once again please don’t take this as facts it is VERY MUCH NOT #man I was looking around for good images to use and found jack all #anyway tho did you know Donnie often has bi colors around him and Leo is often dressed in the colors of the trans flag- #okay anyway back to the caves I go this comic won’t draw itself #I gotta spray myself with water any time I go to type long winded essays because they’re not great for the mental health fr

[zetsubo-bani]

"ew why did they whitewash soma in season 4?"

Literally soma in official arts:

He always looked like that, cloverworks just colorpicked correctly compared to a1 pictures

#black butler #kuroshitsuji #soma asman kadar #I had to rant about this #this fandom complaining about the stupidest things again #just shut up please you guys will be the reason why we won't get green witch arc if you keep it up #if anything a1 pictures made his skin darker than he actually is #don't blame cloverworks it's a1 pictures that did a mistake #what I find even more stupid are the ones accusing yana of being racist because “soma doesn't look like how indian people should” #quote from tiktok btw #the double standards are crazy #whitewashing is wrong but making a character darker than he actually is it okay and encouraged? #never made sense to me #both are wronh

[demodraws0606]

Ok this is gonna sound very condescending but I feel like some people need to hear this :

What q!BBH isn't : Doesn't actually care about the eggs, always has harmful intentions, faking amnesia, doesn't care for his friends

What q!BBH is : A caring father, is very kind to the people he cares about, very much has issues he needs help with

What q!BBH isn't : "Just a little mischievious", better than *insert character who may have done one immoral act*, undeserving of consequences, a good person

What q!BBH is : Manipulative, willing to hurt and kill others for his own goals, has some level of enjoyement over causing people pain, doesn't have any sort of moral compass, overall a pretty shitty person

#qsmp #q!bbh #q!badboyhalo #bbh #badboyhalo #when i see either end of the spectrum i just become the neutral face emoji #like please #some nuance i swear if i hear another #“q!bbh is just a little mischievious” i will flip my table #he is NOT just a little guy #the whole q!tina base thing makes me want to pull my hair out yet again just #people just misinterpret that scene so fucking hard i want to Cry #no he is not faking his amnesia tf you talking about #it's okay i'm fine

[chaosandthe-deadblog]

okay, ENOUGH GAMING!

if youre interested, fill out this google form below :) thanks in advance!

#sol art #commissions #commissions open #art commissions #GUY WHO IS SOSOSOOSOSOS NERVOUS ABOUT WORKING AGAIN VOICE #RAAAH please be nice to me if you do commission me im just a little guy making moneys for twinky clothes and maybe to visit my best friend #in london #yay #okay bye

[corxoran]

I don't want money. I don't want fame. I don't even want love. I want Naruhodo Ryunosuke's little hips. I waNT HIM YOU DON't understand...

#hi god #it's me cork again #please please make naruhodo real #i desperately need to hold his pretty waist #cork yap #cork bREAKDOWN #PLEEEAE PLEASE PLEASE #hi naruhodo can i try rizzing u up? #okay here i go #PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLE #oh he makes me melt inside #what a sweet mousy boy #my beloved... #just one hug #i neeeeed it... #let me squeeze him...

[insomniphic]

“I just want to get to know you better because I care about you, okay?”

He’ll understand.

#okay okay so— this ISNT CANON but Narry is now my science experiment son :] #OKAY BUT LIKE I’VE BEEN NITPICKING AND DISECTING EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM THAT HE MIGHT AS WELL BE CONSIDERED AS ONE #I’VE BEEN STUDYING HIM IN DIFFERENT SITUATIONS #TRYING TO MAKE SOME SORT OF UNDERSTANDING ABOUT HIS EXISTENXE #LOOKING THROUGH HIS VALUES IDEALS AND MORALS #HE’S MY SON AND HE’S MY SCIENCE EXPERIMENT HAHAHAHAAH #🧪 👩‍🔬 #the thought of the possible angst makes me rabid too #like I imagine situations where he’s stuck in a glass cage because of me #and keep in mind he’s claustrophobic #OH OH IMAGINE HIM BEING NICE AND SWEET AND GOOD *JUST* BECAUSE HE DOESN’T WANT TO BE TRAPPED AGAIN #HOHOHOHO #guys guys guys I swear I’m not imoral #I’m a very kind person #GUYS #PLEASE #(this also emerged because I was talking to Ney and Bear about how great parents we are to our Narrys’) #💙💙💙💙 #the stanley parable #tsp #tsp narrator #stanley parable #tsp fanart #the narrator #sketch #tspud #InSomniphic’s Art

[spoonmoment119]

C-

Can u put etho in a little jar and shake him?

0_0

Ough

he's fine, trust me

#hes okay #just a little confused #thats all #ethoslab #creecher #please dont make me draw glass again

[nat-has-two-girlfriends]

me rn

Episodes come out at 5 am for me so I will be waking up to carnage on the tl/dashboard 😗✌️

#yellowjackets #mistynat #misty quigley #natalie scatorccio #please if they kill of my little guy I will actually cry #hey that rhymes #you know someone is really delusion when they start rhyming at half past midnight #like. let’s be real here. Jeff is the only one acceptable to die #cause he’s so so pathetically in love with sharan and honestly good for him I would be too #that he makes the ultimate sacrifice for her to be okay again #and it would just a beautiful end #but with nat? #it would be a half assessed redemption arc because of javi to die for someone else #which is all well and good but it’s a shitty end to a shitty life and she does not deserve that!!! #not with everything that she has suffered and survived through! she made it out! she did amazingly well #and it would be so so tragic and devastating at the end almost as if to say that the only ending that someone like nat can have is death #and that’s just so unfair #anyway I’m only a bit passionate about this I truly do love her character it means so much to me #also if they make misty kill nat that’s a really fucked up version of Romeo and Juliet #can you imagine? #Misty having to kill the one person that for some reason believed in her and trusted her against the odds. and she has to sacrifice AGAIN

[cookinary]

Okay, I get it now

Thanks @mileikcin for making me curious about this game like god damn I've been missing out

#Sayonara Wild Hearts #THIS GAME IS SO MUCH FUN??? #DAMN #AND the OST slaps??? #how did I not play this earlier holy shit #some of my reactions including but not limited to: #''BROOO HOHOHOHO'' *mad laughter intensifies under insane good times* #''Oh so it's like Audiosurf all over again'' #''THIS IS NOT LIKE AUDIOSURF ALL OVER AGAIN'' #''I'VE PLAYED JUST SHAPES AND BEATS YOU AIN'T GOT NOTHING ON M—'' *dies* ''Okay maybe you do get something on me'' #''I'VE PLAYED HI-FI RUSH YOU AIN'T GOT NOTHING ON ME'' *misses QTE* ''FUCK!!'' #''What the fuuuuuuuuuck'' #''THIS GAME IS NOT COMPATIBLE WITH MY ATTENTION SPAN'' #''NO MAGICIAN I REFUSE TO SKIP THIS BIT STFU I WILL STRUGGLE BUT MAKE IT THROUGH'' #''YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO MY BRAIN PLEASE'' #''C'mon smooch the dragon. Can we smooch the dragon? WE CAN SMOOCH THE DRAGON 10/10'' #also The Fool is super cute #might add her to my list of cosplays i wanna do #after Chai and Beheaded #Yeah I'm gonna enjoy replaying this game every so often #fave boss are the Howling Moons btw #insane

[ducktracy]

yet another reprise of the same post i’ve made dozens and dozens of times before but GEEZ! i am so incredibly lucky to be doing what i’m doing! to think i spend hours and hours and days and weeks and months and years and hopefully DECADES pouring over animation history, lauding the masters and studying their work so intently and absorbing it and feeling and identifying with it, and the fact that i get to walk the same turf they did. that i get to be a part of this business that they established. that i get to carry the torch and that, some day, no matter how small or insignificant, my own work and contributions will be regarded as “animation history” because i work in animation and all history is history. i just can’t believe that i’m privileged enough to indulge in some of the same practices that The Greats did, that i get to study their work and, if i’m so lucky, channel and make homages to it where possible.

this isn’t to say “i’m just like Tex Avery because i work in animation TOO!!!!”, but, rather, an expression of my sheer GRATITUDE and amazement that i get to do what i do at all. i’ve met so many nice people. blossomed so much as an artist and cartoonist. get inspired each day by the talent i am constantly surrounded by. and to think that i get to be a part of it!!!!! that i get to carry the torch! i know this sounds so conceited and pompous and i really don’t mean it that way at all because i don’t WANT to be known as someone who people are only interested in because i work in cartoons. i just wanna be known for me! what “me” is i guess is for you to decide! but, regardless, i’m just feeling extra thankful tonight that i’m able to indulge in my passions and SPREAD my passions and have said passions fostered. that i’m lucky enough to tread the same ground as some of the greatest creatives that gave me this ground to tread on. there will never be enough words to properly articulate just how deeply and passionately my gratitude extends.

#not naming names because i feel weird bragging about them behind their back but one person who works on our show i look up to very very #highly. I MEAN I DO FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE. i am literally surrounded by some of the best in the business. but one person i particularly revere #said they were a ‘big fan of my work’ and when i was told that i legitimately went lightheaded for a few seconds #or again Ruth Clampett commenting that her dad would ‘love to see this cartoon live on’ on my art and making me bawl like an absolute baby #IT’S JUST SO CRAZY #i just. man #it’s really beyond words #and so many other kind words from bosses coworkers friends mutuals acquaintances total strangers #i don’t take any of your kindness or even just. awareness for granted #i know i’m not often vreat at responding but i do read every single tag every ask every DM! please know i never take it for granted #thank you for keeping me company and deciding i’m worth the company to keep #okay i think i have officially gone into word salad territory so it’s time to retreat #i’ve gotten much less candid for fear of maintaining some semblance of professionality but sometimes you just need to speak from the heart #(and i’ve gotten much less neurotic about that in recent months thankfully. Tumblr is my little safe haven) #so thank you for making it a safe haven at all

[ghosts-cyphera]

we love you so much angel! & we are proud of you. please don’t be too hard on yourself. 🩷

love you the most-most 💗 )-:

#tw suicide #tw depression #I’m deleting my original tags again I’m sorry #I don’t want to make you all feel worse #in short: depression relapse. I have an appointment with my gp tomorrow morning (in six hours). I’ll be alright I’m sure #I just feel really hopeless right now and staying positive feels really hard #I also self-isolate a lot when I’m down so if you don’t see me around for a while please know that I’m okay. #just recovering and hopefully getting the help I know I need #I love you all so very much #cw depression #cw suicide #lo answers

[femmeroi]

All robots please.. take off your clothes

#bruno yugioh #bruno borrelli #aporia #primo #placido #ygo #my art #My autism jumped out here #The only thing stopping me from doing this to Paradox is my obsession with his clothes #He somehow managed to be much much cooler with his clothes on than off #I feel like I should make Aporia more broad next time I draw them.. #Not to mention she and Bruno are both so empty #Well that's okay ^^ I can always add more when I draw them again #I'm honestly a little shy posting these even tough they're just silly sketches #Please understand I just think robots are so so so so so so so so super amazing