Hi! I've been thinking a LOT about mutual pining Smick recently, and I have nowhere to yell abt them so I hope you don't mind me putting this here!
Consider: Mick growing up around Sebastian and utterly idolising him. Seb is a permanent fixture in Mick's life, as his dad's friend and then later as his mentor. Teenage Mick, figuring out that he's attracted to guys as well as girls, but never putting 2 and 2 together with his hero worship of Seb. Early 20's Mick spending so much time with Seb during the pandemic and into his f1 career, growing closer and forming a genuine friendship in its own right away from the family friendship. This is the same Mick who maybe accidentally thinks about Seb as he comes one night, cuing the glorious OH SHIT moment. Fuck, this can't be happening, he can't be attracted to SEBASTIAN. The realisation takes the air out of his lungs, it's a 'sit-on-the-floor-of-the-shower' kind of moment. Later in the coming weeks when he realises it's feelings and not just lust it feels life ruining, too big to fit under his skin, but he keeps living in Seb's pocket despite the fact that wanting something you can’t have fucking hurts, he couldn't stay away if he tried.
Seb watching Mick grow into an extraordinary young man. He has the emotional maturity an extra decade of life gives you, and realises early into Mick's time in f1 that he could very easily slip into a crush, his desire to protect and care for Mick could so easily become something more... he has to work to tamp it down, tries to stop it before it starts, but when does that ever work? He berates himself sometimes for even considering it. Mick is so young, Seb has such a position of power in his life. The reasons why this is a terrible situation are numerous.
Seb is … loosely aware that Mick had a crush on him, before Mick even realised it himself. The kid always wore his heart on his sleeve, but Seb always hoped he’d grow out of it. Mick had gotten better at hiding it in time, but there are still moments that make Seb think it’s still there, somewhere.
And so they reach a stalemate. Mick doesn’t know Seb knows, and they both know every single reason why it shouldn’t happen. And yet they YEARN. It’s delicious.
ANYWAY this got out of hand really fast, I just! Love! Them!
perfect post. perfect perfect post. nothing to add. phd scholarship. i'm nodding i'm agree i'm taking notes. cait your brain. your brain!
they both know every single reason why it shouldn't happen and yet they yearn is the sebmick thesis of every story i've ever conjured up in my head about them.
tell me more, cait! tell me, does it boil over in a heated moment? maybe mick on the podium, maybe seb's final race? and they think, well what's the point of holding back just this once? maybe i can etch this kiss into my brain and sear this feeling into my bones so that i can take it out when i'm alone, when the longing gets too much?
or do they just go on, yearning and pining and hurting each other? until years later mick shows up at seb's doorstep, a little more world-weary, a little older, but infinitely surer of everything he's ever wanted?
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I’m really enamored with the dynamic of two characters who work perfectly in tandem, like pacific rim drift compatible level, but they don’t like each other. It’s not even as strong an emotion as hate it’s just a very neutral-negative dislike, but they still act in perfect concert and their individual abilities are fully complementary
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