#older sister i love you

[ab-cedario]

having an older sister is so crazy because i adore you but you’re so mean to me it makes me cry. i want to be just like you but i hate being compared to you. i want to tell you everything about me but i’m so scared you’ll judge me. everything is fine and then we argue and suddenly i’m five and you’re refusing to play dolls with me. i love you more than anyone in the world but i hate you so much. you are the only reason i have any confidence. you ruined my self esteem. i can’t feel pretty unless you compliment me. i wish i was as pretty as you. you are the easiest person to love. i still cry over what you said three years ago. you are half of my soul. all i want is for you to see me. i want you to think i’m as cool as you. you understand me without words. you don’t get me. i wish we were friends. i’d rather die than fight with you. we fight every day. i wish you loved me as much as i love you. nobody will ever love me like you do. you make me hate myself sometimes. i decided to play soccer because you played it too. i would follow you anywhere. you’re the first person i ever tell anything. i wish you would confide in me. you make me feel so lonely. i listen to that song you showed me every day. you make me so angry it makes me punch a wall. when you hug me i cry because i love you so much. i have never hated anyone like i hate you. i would die for you. i don’t think i’d survive without you. please love me as much as i love you

#webweaving #web weaving #quotes #feelings #eldest siblings #sister #older sister #brother #sibling #youngest sister #youngest daughter #oldest daughter #older sister i love you

[inkskinned]

you're grabbing lunch with a nice man and he gives you that strange grimace-smile that's popular right now; an almost sardonic "twist" of his mouth while he looks literally down on you. it looks like he practiced the move as he leans back, arms folded. he just finished reciting the details of NFTs to you and explaining Oppenheimer even though he only watched a youtube about it and hasn't actually seen it. you are at the bottom of your wine glass.

you ask the man across from you if he has siblings, desperately looking for a topic. literally anything else.

he says i don't like small talk. and then he smiles again, watching you.

a few years ago, you probably would have said you're above celebrity gossip, but honestly, you've been kind of enjoying the dumb shit of it these days. with the rest of the earth burning, there's something familiar and banal about dragging ariana grande through the mud. you think about jeanette mccurdy, who has often times gently warned the world she's not as nice as she appears. you liked i'm glad my mom died but it made you cry a lot.

he doesn't like small talk, figure out something to say.

you want to talk about responsibility, and how ariana grande is only like 6 days older than you are - which means she just turned 30 and still dresses and acts like a 13 year old, but like sexy. there's something in there about the whole thing - about insecurity, and never growing up, and being sexualized from a young age.

people have been saying that gay people are groomers. like, that's something that's come back into the public. you have even said yourself that it's just ... easier to date men sometimes. you would identify as whatever the opposite of "heteroflexible" is, but here you are again, across from a man. you like every woman, and 3 people on tv. and not this guy. but you're trying. your mother is worried about you. she thinks it's not okay you're single. and honestly this guy was better before you met, back when you were just texting.

wait, shit. are you doing the same thing as ariana grande? are you looking for male validation in order to appease some internalized promise of heteronormativity? do you conform to the idea that your happiness must result in heterosexuality? do you believe that you can resolve your internal loneliness by being accepted into the patriarchy? is there a reason dating men is easier? why are you so scared of fucking it up with women? why don't you reach out to more of them? you have a good sense of humor and a big ol' brain, you could have done a better job at online dating.

also. jesus christ. why can't you just get a drink with somebody without your internal feminism meter pinging. although - in your favor (and judgement aside) in the case of your ariana grande deposition: you have been in enough therapy you probably wouldn't date anyone who had just broken up with their wife of many years (and who has a young child). you'd be like - maybe take some personal time before you begin this journey. like, grande has been on broadway, you'd think she would have heard of the plot of hamlet.

he leans forward and taps two fingers to the table. "i'm not, like an andrew tate guy," he's saying, "but i do think partnership is about two people knowing their place. i like order."

you knew it was going to be hard. being non-straight in any particular way is like, always hard. these days you kind of like answering the question what's your sexuality? with a shrug and a smile - it's fine - is your most common response. like they asked you how your life is going and not to reveal your identity. you like not being straight. you like kissing girls. some days you know you're into men, and sometimes you're sitting across from a man, and you're thinking about the power of compulsory heterosexuality. are you into men, or are you just into the safety that comes from being seen with them? after all, everyone knows you're failing in life unless you have a husband. it almost feels like a gradebook - people see "straight married" as being "all A's", and anything else even vaguely noncompliant as being ... like you dropped out of the school system. you cannot just ignore years of that kind of conditioning, of course you like attention from men.

"so let's talk boundaries." he orders more wine for you, gesturing with one hand like he's rousing an orchestra. sir, this is a fucking chain restaurant. "I am not gonna date someone who still has male friends. also, i don't care about your little friends, i care about me. whatever stupid girls night things - those are lower priority. if i want you there, you're there."

he wasn't like this over text, right? you wouldn't have been even in the building if he was like this. you squint at him. in another version of yourself, you'd be running. you'd just get up and go. that's what happens on the internet - people get annoyed, and they just leave. you are locked in place, almost frozen. you need to go to the bathroom and text someone to call you so you have an excuse, like it's rude to just-leave. like he already kind of owns you. rudeness implies a power paradigm, though. see, even your social anxiety allows the patriarchy to get to you.

you take a sip of the new glass of wine. maybe this will be a funny story. maybe you can write about it on your blog. maybe you can meet ariana grande and ask her if she just maybe needs to take some time to sit and think about her happiness and how she measures her own success.

is this settling down? is this all that's left in your dating pool? just accepting that someone will eventually love you, and you have to stop being picky about who "makes" you a wife?

you look down to your hand, clutching the knife.

#writeblr #this is a mashup of like 3 dates i accidentally went on lol #by that i mean that i was out with a woman on a date in 2 of these situations #and a man just. joined us. and we were too awkward to say anything while he tried to ''date'' me #& one was a longterm friend that i was like. you what???? #like he's nice he's a doctor and my mom was SO happy she was like raquel think about it #''it's a perfect love story you grew up together and reconnected as adults and like the same things and he's friends with ur brother #and his sister is one of ur close friends!!!'' #yes but alas. he is a boy . she only likes girls. can i make it any more obvious #anyway im tryna write about like the force of male attention being actually incredibly ingrained to women like we are SUPPOSED to like it #it's seen as the only important thing #even if ur gay #and it's a nuanced thing idk #and while rn i i.d. as lesbian #like .... it wouldn't be UNTRUE to say i am probably like ''cusp bisexual'' bc i CAN experience attraction to men bc like . #sexuality is fluid... #don't tell straight ppl tho bc they do not understand the concept that ppl don't necessarily need a solid everlasting label #they're like GET in the BOX #if ur gay & in boston i'm 30 and pretty please come kiss me. #(i usually only date older ppl sorry in advance tho)

[thisisnotacreativeusername]

ok guys. i have to be so real with you. luke saying annabeth is like a little sister to him was not just added for the tv show he says that in the book ("she would never... i mean, she's like a little sister to me" (page 223))

#personally i have never understood why people think that the scene in last olympian is luke saying he loves annabeth romantically #'did you love me' can mean so many things and also luke saying annabeths his lil sister doesnt necessarily mean annabeth doesnt have a crush #its extremely common for little kids to crush on people older than them #like i wouldnt be surprised if they drop that plotline but to me its always been deeper than 'annabeth has a crush on luke' #am i being a lil pedantic and petty. perhaps #percy jackson #mine #pjo tv #pjo #luke castellan #annabeth chase

[aflawedfashion]

The Damodreds | The Wheel of Time 2x04

#the wheel of time #wotedit #wot on prime #tvedit #moiraine damodred #anvaere damodred #rosamund pike #cinemapix #cinematv #chewieblog #userstream #fantasyedit #moiraine and anvaere #aflawedfashiongif #affwot #wot: season 2 #wot: 2x04 #i love this relationship #the complexity of it all #imagine seeing your much older sister only slightly aged in the decades since you last saw her #imagine seeing your much younger sister an old woman #this season did a fantastic job of showing the very human side of the aes sedai aging slower than regular people #this and liandrin's son #great arcs #A+

[milk-ducts]

oops! there goes my wrists 🤣🤣🤣🤣

#invincible #this is so fucking adorable #tw; sh caption #tears were brimming… ougm #mark … is so older sister core..: #you wouldnt get it #mark grayson #debbie grayson #invincible season 2 #im eating up so much graysonfam content rn #oliver … i love yoy… u will bring back the love in this family w/o nolan.. #milky.txt

[chipistrate]

Game Vanessa appreciation post<3

#Chip Chatter #no Vanny I wanna do her later #sorry I don't know where this came from either I just decided to collect images of my creatures #Vanessa (not Vanny or Movie!Nessa) only having 17 compared to Gregory's 50 is fucked up ngl #Gregory I love you but where is the love for your older sister

[betashift]

Dad has a very old fashioned idea of what a successful career looks like, what a fulfilling life looks like. And it just so happens that it looks like you.

James Tiberius and George Samuel Kirk in STAR TREK: STRANGE NEW WORLDS (2022- )

+ bonus :'(

#brothers....you love them you hate them #(<- spoken as the first pancake older sister of a perfect darling brother who is the favourite child in the family 👍) #trekedit #snwedit #snw #strange new worlds #startrekedit #snw spoilers #tvedit #jim kirk #sam kirk #did i go a little overboard here even tho it's possible that no one else cares about this? perhaps >:) I've been known to do that

[pbnmj]

miles and felicia have barely interacted in canon TO YOU. in my mind they are already at batman and robin levels of working together

#i actually think felicia as an older sister figure to miles can be so real. SO REAL!!!!! #felicia hardy #miles morales #spider-man #spiderman #black cat #not rly spiderverse but i did take miles' design from it.. ? #anyways if this devolves into felmj then just allow it please. i think peter's love interests have to unionise #my art #projected a little of my little brother onto these two as well. sometimes there is a 15 year old in your life begging you #to buy them jordans for christmas/their birthday. and you have to look them in the eye and say no <3

[milimeters-morales]

top ten reasons to live: this !!!!!

#BIG BROTHER/SISTER OF THE NEIGHBORHOOD MOMENT ‼️‼️‼️ #once i have enough space in my mind to redraw this it’s OVER for you #literally sobbing crying he may not be good with like baby babies but toddler babies? so older brother…. it’s almost as if… he’s gonna be- #(taken out back and shot like a horse) #please this is so adorable i’m gonna DIE. bro how did pavitr not fall in ANY sort of love here is beyond me bruh. #unless…. (the aro flag starts becoming more visible over a low quality jpeg of pavitr) #but no seriously i would hand my life over. my soul. #miles is just such a sweet and caring guy like omg. he’s literally LOVE ITSELF. #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #across the spiderverse #across the spider verse #atsv #spiderman atsv #m&m posts #reblogs on again

[uselessnbee]

if i don't get Robin and Mike finally talking to each other and then Robin basically adopting Mike like this in s5 then i don't want it

#Robin becoming the gay mentor but also just the older sister figure Mike's wanted for so long but can't have is so special to me #yes i'm in my robin and mike feels today again #robin buckley #mike wheeler #robin and mike friendship #byler #also can you tell i love making those dumb memes hehe

[lovingdabeessss]

@incredibly-unprofessional HOW DARE YOU THINK ABOUT THINGS I HAVENT EVEN PONDERED ON M Y POST

Also jaune both has an older sister and can definitely relate with this with Ruby and also is an older brother of many younger sisters so is probably happy to be seen like that again

Also he’s definitely used to being called the wrong name because he has a billion siblings

Also poor Ruby is leaving home for what could be YEARS knowing yang CANNOT follow her or be with her or anything and she didn’t even say goodbye and she’s just completely without her sister for the first time ever like they can’t even CALL it’s got to be so devastating for Ruby not to mention she’s doing this after two or more of her close friends have died and she JUST WOKE UP FROM A COMA

Yang has no idea calling other people Yang is a thing Ruby does and is very confused when people start to respond to her name when she gets to them

Yang: my name

All of her friends: o u r name

Yang:????

Also I can’t draw jaune I’m not ashamed of this but it is true

#rwby #yang xiao long #blake belladonna #ruby rose #jaune arc #green light volume 10 #get older sister-ed #Ruby: sorry for calling you my sister Blake #Blake: well eventually I’ll be your sister so it’s fine #Ruby: what?? #Blake: what #I adore fun creative tags so this person is the best love you

[toaster-fire-art]

obsessed with her again

#mdzs #mo dao zu shi #yunmeng trio #yunmeng jiang siblings #yunmeng shuangjie #laying on the floor crying over jiang yanli #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #Jiang Cheng #jiang yanli #wei wuixan #lotus pier #my art #toasterfireart #mdzs fanart #once again i spent too long on little details #but i am very happy with the results #twin heroes of yunmeng #love that yanli is just everyones older sister #i literally started this just for her and then i was like: but the other 2 #if you couldn't tell i'm trying to get better at backgrounds #hope you like it <3

[shima-draws]

Reiju saying don’t ever let him (Luffy) go to Sanji…she knows. She KNOWS

#Sanji: I—what?? #Reiju: He’s a keeper. Don’t let him go no matter what #Sanji: H. HOW DID YOU KNOW THAT I. UH #Reiju: Older sister’s intuition ^^ #Shima speaks #Also that made me tear up a little holy shit. The parallels between Reiju pushing Sanji forward the first time VS now #The first time she had no idea if he’d even survive let alone be generally okay but this time she knows for SURE he’ll be alright #Bc he has his captain and his crew and they love him so so much #Her having to watch him leave again tho 😭 #She really cares about him and I’m EMO #I love Reiju sm……she’s such a good sister #One Piece #Sanlu #Lusan #Sanji #Luffy #Reiju

[raspberryzingaaa]

Listen I love "I am no man" as much as the next lady who was once a barefoot girl who ran around with a sword. But it irks me Every Time that she sneaks off to battle because Theoden and Eomer a) genuinely want to keep her from experiencing this Horror and b) maam you are third in line to the throne imagine if all three of you died. Do you have no love of country and land???

#listen even the state of the union requires one guy to go hang out alone in a bunker #eowyn was the last line of defense!! #and also. she hasnt HAD to fight in war before! its BAD! Eomer obviously hates it! #im an older sister. if i had experienced the horrors and knew what i was going into. i would not have my brother go as well #i would not wish it on him #iirc its less girlbossy in the book. but in the movie i just want to smack her upside the head #girl they dont want you to fight bc you are GOOD at what you do and they need someone they love and trust to make it thru #and if they both die they will be able to rest easy knowing the land they died for was in capable and loved hands #keep in mind as well that tolkien WAS in war. #rip to her but if i was the kings neice id take the responsibility that was falling upon my shoulders and know that i wasnt trained #and KEEP THE PEOPLE!!!! Maam who do you think is gping to lead your people????? #lotr #nia post #and yeah i love her role in the battle #but her lack of responsibility to her people and her position always bugs me

[luck-of-the-drawings]

oh the dread, oh the worry! you love your sister so much and you need to know shes okay. you trust her but you cant trust the world, and more than anything else you cant trust yourself

#jrwi riptide #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide spoilers #jrwi show #gillion tidestrider #edyn tidestrider #RAHHH IVE HAD THIS ROTTIN IN DRAFTS FOR A BIT but im finally here n ready to POST!!!! #SO THE LIL GILLION AND EDYN ARC HUH?? #gillion as a character makes me so emotional. he means so well yet sucks so bad in every way he wish he didnt #HE CARES SOO MUCH ABOUT HIS SISTER. MAN HAS NEVER CRIED EXCEPT FOR THE DAY HE SAW HER AGAIN #HE WAS SOOO HAPPY TO SEE HER AND FIND OUT SHES OKAY. I ALSO REMEMBER SCREAAAAMIN WHEN SHE FIRST APPEARED #I HAD BEEN THINKIN ABOUT EDYN FOR SO LONG... ohhh older sisters where u at... u understand... only us older sisters get it #andNOW WHERE IS SHE..? WHERE IS SHE NOW.... working with the navy to 'undo' what the undersea has done to her precious baby brother #OKAY ENOUGH EMOTIONS TIME FOR ME TO TALK ABT MY ART #REAAALLY THIS IS ONE OF MY BEST DOODLE PAGES SO FAR. IM SO PROUDA THE COLORS N THE SCENES AND THE EMOTIONS #the lil scene with edyn comforting gillion after 'a day of alot of failure. that was the first we ever saw of edyn right? i love my colors #A MIRROR! edyn painted in red when shes often blue. framed by rock and coral and memory sharing bracelets and fire. #A MEMORY! a recent event! finding her at the bar and meeting her at a tavern. its cathartic to hear your older sister tell you its okay #even more cathartic to have her remind you that you are not your tragedies. you were just a kid. you didnt deserve what happened. #you really missed having her here #OH BUT THE NEXT. A NOTE LEFT BEHIND. NOTHING ELSE. i love you a million gillion #BUT THATS NOT A REASSURANCE IS IT? its a trust fall. emphasis on the fall. emphasis on the needle in your chest as wind rushes past #you anticipate the ground but you wish you could anticipate her arms. you wish you could trust. you need to trust. so why cant you? #instead you lash out. again. just like last time. just like always. you were never good at controlling your emotions #all you do in the end is break stuff. none of them can trust you. thats why she cant tell you. thats why he didnt tell you. noone trusts yo #chips got way too many damn belts btw. put some o those back boy u do NOT need all that mess jingling around ur gay hips. you FRUIT!!!!!!!! #I liked the scene with jay n chip dragging gillion around. its a comical scene ofc and i LOVE that balance here. but that sadness remains. #they care about gillion so much..... auuwuuuu..... #OKAY FINAL THOUGHTS. I RLY LIKE DRAWING DIFFERENT TEARS FOR DIFFERENT TYPES OF CRYING #when the tears well up so big from uncontainable joy that you cant even see

[starrynightsxo]

"well I'm not a poet, I'm just a woman"

#amy march #little women #little women adaptation #little women 2019 #march sisters #louisa may alcott #classics #classics girlys #shes so slay #i love her when shes older #you can see her maturity but theres still HER #books #bookish #light academia #booklr #florence pugh #books to film #films #academia #classic academia #academics #literature #artist #shes so great #image source: pinterest #aesthetic #i love little women