#ocd & blorbos

[thedeitywhoplayedwithbricks]

Silly. Goofy even

Some zoom ins

#deity draws :3 #loz #legend of zelda #fanart #demise #ghirahim #batreaux #demibats #hc that demise has ocd. he cant be a called a control freak like ever #blorbo tag #skyward sword #sorry for not posting much art. :^[

[squidult]

there is no joy in ocd, only repetitive pain that circles back on itself and violates you and your sense of self.

#ocd #emotional journaling #i am doing way better than i was-say- three years ago #but that is because i did painstaking work to get better #i still feel violated by this disorder and only want it to leave #but i am stronger #right now i have an obsession that nothing 'feels right' because im secretly an awful person and repressing it #i dont like that at all #its so very dumb! #shut the fuck up brain! #lemme think about my blorbos instead!

[dandyshucks]

most confusing response to that one post i made that blew up (what a funny saying btw fjdkdl) are the ppl being all embarrassed (and defensive??) in the tags like. bro u are creating art and that is beautiful. who cares if it's because of a blorbo. some of the most beautiful art in history have been made of ppls blorbos

#most notably are like. all the bible art BDHFDKL #blorbos from ur bible .... #religious art has historically been so lovingly crafted! all sorts of religions and cultures! #but even if its an airbrushed anime twink WHO CARESSS YOU'RE MAKING ART HURRAY !! YOU'RE IMPROVING ON YOUR CRAFT !!! #YOU'RE FINDING JOY IN CREATING !!! #why is that embarrassing!! why are u feeling defensive!! what in my post made that seem like a bad thing AUGH #(<- says the artist who frequently experiences immense amounts of shame for extremely normal things SBHDKL) #idk i just think art made with love should be free from shame ... (unless its hurting ppl. but in that case i dont think it is made w love) #(also i think ppl should try to draw all kinds of ppl and bodies but thats another separate topic i think) #okay i gotta stop putting disclaimers on everything i say fhfkdl. moral ocd BEGONE! [psychic blast] #(<- the psychic blast and command doesnt work 😔😔😔 i am still haunted by scrupulous brain gophers) #dandy.cmd

[colrana]

i miss parker do you also miss parker (this is a request to hear more about your megan + parker interps)

omg...thank you for handing me the mic im so touched

the answer is yes! i do miss parker macmillan. i also miss megan ito! i miss them both so much. (also i feel deranged how it is confirmed that the book was the reader but im keeping my megan ito as reader thoughts forever!!!!)

i mainly focus on their relationship / megan ito more than just solely parker, but thats just how i go i suppose! parker to me kinda works in my brain how i believe that megan ito would exactly see him, and its kinda fitting in that way? (i do feel bad for that though) (im also paging @citadarkisle because hes my fiance and my parker interp is *heavily* based off his! he got more indepth thoughts on parker than i could ever muster)

so the way megan would describe parker would be this: a broken player who is a rival both and a friend, and full of *potential* melded up in one ball! with one issue: the parent issues. at least, thats how megan ito summarizes him and his issues. she kinda molds him into her narrative and makes him ripe for the saving and for the salvation that she truly believes she can bring to him.

parker in the meanwhile is kinda...passive to this? she isnt particularly harmful to him, and just having his boundaries be, as he would maybe describe, *gently* walked and trampled all over isnt really as bad compared to the literal hell his life is with being pulled at ten million directions and somehow being hated and revered at the same time... so like megan? yeah shes kinda like...maybe agreeable to that.

they have a roommates situation at megans place which is kinda pathetic-sad. awkward, quiet nights sleeping in the same bed because their relationship is like........ .............. incalculable. there is admiration there, but wrong? its to the left. there are arguments and boundaries crossed, but never to the point where they ever break off their friendship. and even saying *friendship* is odd. they were friends, yes! but then they got into a weird grey area........

i dont think theyve ever held hands or kissed or brushed arms or anything like that, actually. i dont think theyve had the silent-love filled room moments where they lock eyes and are smitten or like, believe that each other held love for each other. i think they knew they were in some *position* but not sure what it was. i mean they sure as hell were something more than basic friends. i think parker had normal friends somewhere in his teams! and megan too! but oh my god i think they were just in an interlocked battle that parker want *nothing* with but megan just had the fixation to keep holding him on.

i believe that megan is at heart a kind person and didnt mastermind the stolen forcefield out of ill will. i saw that action as a last resort for her. that she was willing to put their friendship on the line to make *visible* change in parkers life. she had an infatuation with fixing his issues, to finally pull him out of his shell, and to be *right* most of all. its kinda why i draw megans gaze towards the symbolic *orb* whenever i draw them together. i just love the symbolism of her being so fixated on something that doesnt exist, or doesnt need to exist, or that she never really properly took his words or history or anything truly to heart because she *felt* for his *situation* more than *him*.

you ever feel compelled to solve something for someone else? a problem that is so deep and beyond your means but feels so *tangible*? that youd do anything and would throw yourself into it to finally have it accomplished? to solve it *for* them, because you think you can see it from the outside and that gives you the authority and allows you to rob them their agency? these are the sort of questions that i play around with the parker + megan relationship as a whole....

i hope this wasnt too long!!! id love to elaborate more on specific details if anyones curious, but yeah! thank you ; - ;

#megan ito #parker macmillan #blaseball #not art #thank you again ;_;7 i love talking about these two theyre my blorbos #ESPECIALLY megan......yes im a megan apologist. but in the fun way you know? #i also want to add that as someone with ocd that my megan interps helped me with this realization that i actually lived with obsessive- #thoughts my entire life and this just......yeah! i put a lot of brain power into these twos relationship ;_; #blaseball tag

[sunset-bridge]

im assigning goro ocd. sorry boy. he has ocd sorry atlus told me its true

#me assigning my mental illnesses to my blorbos. #no look i can elaborate a bit. #his i think would be more like pure O type #then again not like we can see what he does in his appartment. but yes im diagnosing goro with pure O ocd #kibow

[biromantic-nerd]

one of the posts you rb today and a way older post i made with your tags, reminded me of your ocd dick grayson hc

i would love love love to hear more about it if you'd care to share <3

I do feel like somewhere buried in my posts is a post about Dick and OCD. I need need need to find it because oh man I should have written everything down instead of just thinking I'd remember. I was looking for it in my tags but I almost lost this in my drafts so I'm just posting but I will continue to look. I might have it written in my private notes if not posted, though I already checked one spot. Will tag you if/when I find it. If not, I'll just type something that makes a lot more coherent sense!

Okay honestly biggest factor was the blorbo gets the self projection award.

However! I do think there's basis for it. There were just some things that pinged my brain and went aha yeah.

A small part of it - easiest part to explain right now - was how people say Dick has eldest daughter syndrome (jokingly or serious) and it is so easy for the neutralization (or layman's terms: being in control aspect of symptoms -> if you do this, it prevents that) to be masked when someone is in a position of leadership. If something has to be done a certain way or else your brain says something terrible will happen - well Dick is already in that position of leadership and is already shouldering a vast amount of responsibility. Masking his symptoms - from others or from himself even - becomes easier.

I think specifically applying the neutralization lenses of OCD is very interesting to me with Dick Grayson. Like the hypervigiliance aspect of OCD is so so easy as well to overlook because of him 1. being trained by Batman who practically invented the word hyper-vigilant 2. his work as a hero - especially as a leadership role - that ensures his diligence where his symptoms get masked as crossed his t's and dotting his i's and just being very thorough and prepared 3. any ~ weird quirks~ are also put into a scope of comparison of all the other people he knows and, well, they all are filled with quirks and honestly a lot of neurodivergence. It's like when ADHD parents say kids with ADHD's symptoms are 'just normal' bc they don't know any different. His scope for things and what humans do is graded on a skewed curve.

If he double checks information, if he makes backup plans, if he has 'odd' rituals for 'good luck' - all these things can be seen as either being prepared or as quirks. It's so easy to overlook as not being OCD even when symptoms are actually debilitating.

But a part of what interests me is - I know the Blockbuster arc is controversial but the idea (made into reality) that Dick will bring destruction into peoples' lives just by being near them and that he thinks by engaging with them that means he's poisoning them it is so, so interesting to me. If he disengages, to him that means they're safe and vice versa because he's the element of contamination here. Kind of an extreme example but currently I can't think of what comics I was reading at the time and I haven't read any this past year - maybe year and a half?

I wrote a fic based on a Robin Dick Grayson that touched on how he neutralized soms things. A lot of neutralization based on how revealing impersonal information would reveal his identity. If he lied about minor and major details of his life, it would protect his secret identity, which would protect his actual life and the lives of those around him. Which sounds reasonable! But it's like lying about what his favorite candy is otherwise his brain is telling him he's endangering the lives of Batman, Robin, and the Teen Titans.

Now so all of the above is focused mostly on undiagnosed OCD but in the future I do hope to further branch out and maybe do a more detailed post (fic in a couple years if I'm lucky. not this year though) about a Dick knowing he has OCD and with more overlapping symptoms. Rituals that interfere with life and don't 'make sense' and can't be explained away via vigilanteism. Contamination issues. Intrusive thoughts. Oh I forgot the word for it but the one with prayer like - "If I do this in this very specific way then this will happen" the piety one it's called because it's almost like praying except very Symptomed and some people do pray and don't realize it's OCD bc they're religious

Anyways thank you for being interested!!!!! I wish I had way more coherency and I am definitely going to come back and reshape this and add on but I wanted you to know I'd seen your ask because I have such a habit of answering asks in buts and pieces and then losing it in drafts so I wanted to get this posted

#asks #my ramblings #dick grayson #ocd & blorbos #i'll start a tag in case #tw long post

[hamartia-grander]

Haven't seen anyone talk ab how relating to a character that people hate kinda hurts. Like "it's not that deep" or whatever but when I identify so many traits that I share with a hated character it actually does hurt especially if it's a character my friends hate

#Obviously there are situations that require different contexts #And obviously there are characters that are hated for what I know are bullshit reasons (misogyny/homophobia/ableism/fans' apathy/etc) #But still hurts especially if I can't find a reason why said character is hated or why their traits that I share are hated #Makes me think people actually hate things about me they just don't say #I also have ocd so the thought spirals are bad I know it's not my friends' faults but yeah just wanted to say #fandom #fandom posting #Blorbo #I often attach myself to these characters too either unknowingly or purposefully #I think a big reason it was so easy for me to empathise with North is bc I relate to so much of her esp. her anger and aggression #And Mia Winters because I more than understand her trauma responses and relate to her fears #But like also I don't need to relate to those women to know they're perfect and did nothing wrong. The fans are just misogynistic

[ihavea-natural-curiosity]

i got the dreaded “i’m not a psychiatrist, i can’t diagnose anyone, but…” from my therapist, and idk if i got a good or bad grade in therapy

anyways my therapist thinks i have OCD and that’s so silly goofy of me i think

#i saw an idea for ocd zuko and i am now going to obsess over it #bc what else is a girl to do besides project upon her blorbos??? #ocd #i might have already posted this? idk #reg speaks

[malhare]

Gus is such a neurotic freak... putting him in my pocket forever

#Not to armchair diagnose my blorbos but. this man has ocd #And he goes HAYWIRE when he's stressed. paranoia and control issues turned up to 100 #Mike trying to logic-and-reason Gus into getting some sleep... omg #malhare.txt

[daz4i]

Do you play Genshin? 👀

i do not! but some characters are like my blorbos or kins in law like i know them and i love/am them. so i rb pretty art of them ^_^

#the new guy whose name i can't spell. the blond one. the autism ocd combo. i think he's currently my biggest blorbo in law #like that's my guy right there. no i don't know him. but i am holding his hand rn 🤝

[dolls-self-ships]

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#hey guys I’m just gonna vent a bit #and it has a bit to do with self shipping so I’m gonna post it here #but lately I think I’ve just been like… idk so unmotivated to make content of my fos? #like don’t get me wrong I still love them all but #it used to be like so much fun and all consuming for me and like I would happily watch my f/os content over and over again #but lately it’s just been feeling … like.. not the same idk #like I’ll want to watch or see more pictures of hook but everytime I go to do it I’m like ‘but I’ve watched this 27 times already’ #and I’m bored before I even click on it #and I feel so bad ?? #like I’m falling out of love with self shipping or something #idk it’s hard to explain bc I still like.. do it and I still think about my f/so a lot #but since my ocd theme is very romantic/sexual orientation oriented it kind of like.. makes me romance and sex adverse sometimes #and rn I’ve been going through a really long period of that that makes me feel dissconnected from my f/os :( #it sucks bc it used to be a great source of a coping mechanism for me #but lately it’s just been different idk ;-; #I miss the days when I could just turn off my brain and obsess over my current blorbo and not worry about anything or anyone else #I love James so much but it’s like whenever I go to draw him and I doing something cute together halfway through I get unmotivated or I just #don’t get that same excitement feeling I used to #it might just be my new meds bc I know that they can kinda hinder romantic feelings and stuff #but man it sucks

[zehecatl]

Canis.. complete!!!

also the full BL section

still a work in progress, but i'm getting there :]

#ze.txt #genuinely so chuffed i got all the canis now 🥰 #kumapub my beloved #also yes i know there's the speaker arc but sdjgksjdg shhhhh #i'm reorganizing my manga shelf and it's SOOOO nice #clean... make ocd go 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 #god i just need to add i love ks i love ks so much cannot wait to get the full series on my SHELF #LIKE HELL THE FUCK YEAAAAH MY BLORBOS!!!!

[notabled-noodle]

I have a theory that Thomas Hobbes had OCD but I think historians may battle me on it

#it’s like assigning a mental illness to a blorbo but. #political philosopher edition #tw ocd #political philosophy #special interest posting

[frnkieroismydaddy]

Reginald, after turning the lights on and off seventeen times and checking every door in the academy: this is great. I'm going to get a good grade in compulsions, something both normal to want and possible to achieve

#umbrella academy #the umbrella academy #tua #reginald hargreeves #this is a reginald hargreeves stan account okay #he has OCD #and autism #he's my blorbo #he's my little meow meow

[angomay]

:) you already know what im going to say but im saying it anyway. susato for the ask game 🥺 also perhaps barok

[ID: Two bingo sheets titled, “Character Opinion Bingo.” The first has the squares, “they’re like a blorbo to me / i like them enough to project my issues onto them / free space / i’m mentally I’ll about them,” circled in purple. The second has the squares, “they are so (with many o’s) cool looking / everyone but me is wrong about them [heart emoticon] / if they were real i’d be afraid of them / i like them enough to project my issues onto them / free space,” circled in green. End ID]

susato character of all time ?

[ask game]

#not saying barok’s a horrible person because i do truly think he has the ability to improve and redeem himself #but. you know #also barok having ocd isn’t even me projecting that shit’s practically canon #asks #pringle tag #ALSO. looking back i’m sad this doesn’t get my all of my feelings about susato across #please just pretend i circled the ‘blorbo’ and ‘mentally ill’ squares 800 times

[alpacaattacka]

hey did something happen to the ocd blorbo bracket? I can't find it anywhere??

#ocd blorbo bracket #actually ocd