#not sure how i managed but oh well

[one-strugling-bean]

Animatic ideas and songs that remind me of the Dragon Riders:

(because when I obsess over something, it takes hold over every aspect of my life, including, how I listen to my music)

“Family” by Mother Mother is the gang's friendship summed up

“Cult Of Dionynus” by The Orion Sound also gives me the gang's vibes, but while “Family” is about a platonic, familial friendship, with “Cult of Dionysus” I think of them as a romantic polycule (the mighty OT6)

“Melancholy Astronautic Man” by Allie Moss reminds so much of Fishlegs and Heather

“Someone you like” by The Girl and the Dreamcatcher is RttE Hiccstrid. Just yes, trust me on this, I'm right

“Saint Bernard” by Lincoln makes me think of both Hiccup and Snotlout, but for different reasons

McCafferty's “Beachboy” also gives me the gang's vibes, but not sure why

“Bromance” by nigahiga is an accurate representation of Snotlout and Tuffnut when they decide to be besties

Then Astrid makes a joke about them looking like a couple and Tuff breaks into Ninja Sex Party's “If We Were Gay” and Snotlout is not amused

“You, me, and Steve” by Garfunkel and Oates works so well with literally any ship+1 among the Dragons riders, try it yourself

“Boys will be Bugs” by Cavetown is teenage Snotlout material, but it's also teenage Hiccup material. I dunno, but I can hear both of them in this song

Meanwhile, whenever I hear “Talk to Me”, also by Cavetown, I just think of all the hurt/comfort fanfics I'll never write about the riders being each other's emotional rocks and leaning on each other when they need to decompress

I can totally imagine Ruff and Tuff performing “Have You Seen My Sister Evelyn?” by Evelyn Evelyn, except it's "Have you seen my cousin Gruff?"

“Heather” by Conan Gray is so freaking perfect for unrequited Fishlout - Fishlegs is in love with Heather and Snotlout mopes about it

“I can't decide” by Scissor Sisters was Dagur's vibe when he was evil

“UwU” by Chevy -> Snotlout about Fishlegs after he realizes his crush wasn't exactly Thor Bonecrusher

Speaking of Snotlout's crushes, “Boy Bi” by Mad Tsai is also a very Snotlout-y song. I wonder why

“Oh No!” by Marina & The Diamonds is my personal idea of Astrid's mentality up until Httyd1 rolls around. Maybe Snotlout too, but definitely more Astrid

"They're only Humans" from the Death Note Musical and it's the dragons' thoughts on humanity before Httyd1 (Barf and Belch are the ones singing it because I say so)

An AU materializes in the form of a very Dark Hiccup singing to Astrid “If I Killed Someone For You” by Alec Benjamin after finally killing Viggo for his transgressions against the Riders

“Love like you” from Steven Universe works in so many ways, but I'll propose Hiccup and Toothless, thinking about each other and their one-in-billion connection

Snotlout realizing the error of his teenage ways and trying to change for the better following the beat of Jaymes Young “I'll Be Good” (I know it's a cliché, but lemme have this)

An animatic of Hiccup convincing Eret son of Eret to join Berk's side through “The Other Side” from The Greatest Showman

Kodaline's “Brother” makes me think of Toothless and Hiccup, or just, the riders and their dragons in general - that tight bond they all have with each other. Or even just the riders themselves, amongst each other.

Hookfang's evergrwoing feelings towards Snotlout portrayed throughout the trilogy of songs from Kaden Makey "I just really hate/like/miss your face" (ik that's supposed to be a romantic song(s) but i think it can work for a platonic relationship as well, sue me). It's like, 1st works before Httyd1, and his feelings towards humanity in general, then the 2nd it's already at any point after they form their bond (Hookfang is a major tsundere peeps), and theeeeeen, 3rd is just, angsty, hurt Snotlout fanfic :>

“Oh Fionna” by Neil Patrick Harris from Adventure Time but Hiccup wrote it for Astrid during RttE - and then never had to courage to sing it to her up until their wedding night

One of the riders singing Centaurworld's “Rider's Lullaby” to their dragon, who's still recovering from an injury received in their latest battle

“In Our Bedroom After The War” by Stars is an absolutely beautiful song that I think illustrates the few months post HTTYD2, or perhaps even more accurately, HTTYD3 pretty well

“Don't Forget” from Deltarune, and it's Astrid, singing their kids to sleep and definitely thinking about Stormfly the whole time

Listen to “Let Her Go” by The Passenger while thinking of HTTYD3 and join me in the crying corner :')

These are just a select few I've thought of from the top of my head. Anyone else wanna add any? I love finding songs that match my favorite fandoms

#every single one of these songs is amazing #i tried thinking of a wide variety of them #not sure how i managed but oh well #Im not sure why im posting this #its really random #httyd #httyd rtte #hiccup #hiccup horrendous haddock the 3rd #astrid hofferson #astrid #snotlout #snotlout jorgenson #fishlegs ingerman #fishlegs #ruffnut thorston #ruffnut #tuffnut thorston #tuffnut #dagur the deranged #httyd heather #viggo grimborn #toothless #hookfang #stormfly #meatlug #barf and belch

[ew-selfish-art]

Dpx Dc AU: Ectoplasm is required for Ghosts to be visible to the human eye- And Danny creates his own ectoplasm.

Danny is visiting Jazz in Gotham and its weird how friendly everyone is. Like, the city gets a really bad rapport, everywhere he goes there is someone trying to strike up a conversation or answer his questions about getting around to the tourist spots. A few people even pointed out restaurants and ways to find off the beaten path gems! Jazz seems to role her eyes at him, but when he brings up her 'roommate' being kind of cute she flat out laughs.

Danny then comes to understand the Jazz doesn't have a roommate and that Ghosts in Gotham don't move far from their haunts- He's just been inadvertently turning these undead folks visible by accident of generating abnormal amounts of ectoplasm.

Which, is comforting in a way, he's never walking this dangerous city alone and really, most of the ghosts have been really friendly! They disappear once he's a few blocks away from them anyway.

---

Tim Drake is having a horrible day.

He'd been given intel that one of Black Mask's guys was going to snitch but that he'd died before given the opportunity to reach out to the GCPD. He tracks down the guy's last know whereabouts and yikes. Its next to the Theater. Tim was often grateful for his childhood obsessions, this time it backfired.

Tim and Bruce get into an argument about trust and respect and, worst of all, mental health. And even though Tim was vehemently against Batman accompanying Red Robin to the alleyway - that's exactly what happens.

They arrive and Bruce is closing up faster than a clam in the contaminated Gotham Bay- Clearly being in the Alley bothers him. No fucking shit. RR gets started on collecting evidence, there are a few extra blood splatters and a single left shoe... When a kid walks into the Alley.

"Uh, sorry to intrude-" The kid looks scared shitless, and runs away. And then, all of a sudden, Batman and Robin aren't alone in the Alley.

Tim can hardly believe his eyes as the dead man appears and quickly blabs Black Mask's bank passwords and what the plan had been- and While he's over joyed to have that closure, he turns around to Batman weeping in the arms of his parents.

The ghosts fade, and the emotions are certainly charged as this was never something Bruce or Tim would have ever dreamed of happening. Ghosts in Gotham. Talking, floating, granting closure.

"RR, Bats, come in." Oracle calls into their ears.

"Reporting in, but, uh, we need a minute."

"A minute? We have a case on 4th and-"

"O, we just saw the ghosts of the Waynes. It's going to be a minute."

"...Lots of Ghost reports lately then. Any chance you saw a kid looking like he could be adopted?"

"Yeah, actually, black hair and blue eyes. He was super polite before he ran away."

"We have work to do. Oracle, lets prioritize finding our person of interest and divert Nightwing and Robin to the case on 4th." Batman cut between them on the comms and he sounded... calmer than either of them anticipated.

---

Jazz is no longer laughing when Batman appears at her door explaining that he's looking for Danny (Who already flew away from town to get a good night's sleep before class on Monday). Turns out Danny reunited the man with his dead parents just briefly- and then the second guy appears and mentions how Danny had also given a guy who'd been murdered by a Mob enough time to explain the ongoing threats the city faced.

Jazz just rolls her eyes and says that it's not like the ghosts are going anywhere anytime soon and Danny will visit in another month. When pressed, she just explains that her brother is a weirdo. No of course he doesn't have powers. Gaslight and Girlbosses her way out.

And Jazz thinks that the game is up for at least another month, obviously when Danny visits more shit will stir up, but then this new guy appears.

Unlike the other Bats who are keen on watching her from a distance, the Red Hood knocks on her door. Are her eyebrows all the way into her hairline when Red Hood asks her to send his thanks along to Danny because somehow this whole situation led to his Dad expressing remorse for his actions and apologizing? Yes, yes they are.

But Jazz can smell Dissertation Data off of these vigilantes- Who is she to send them away? Jazz welcomes Red Hood into her place for a cup of tea and a small chat.

The story then devolves into Jazz getting shit done, Danny being cute by proximity and also bringing ghosts to the party, and the Bats having trauma resolve between them.

#dcxdp #dpxdc #dc x dp #dp x dc #danny phantom #dc crossover #dp crossover #long post #danny can make ghosts appear like they do in amity but only for a short while and when in proximity to him #its not apparent in amity because the ghosts are just like that there #Danny just having a good time #Danny having zero brain cells about this whole thing and neither he nor jazz will offer explanations #they're just like 'gotham has ghosts. its not like he put them there' #Bruce getting into therapy because his dead parents said they were proud of him and he didnt know how to handle that #bruce having to turn this energy around somehow and seeing jason - my boy i love you so much and im so sorry and im so proud of you #heres the thing i dont know how i made it anger management ship at the end but i sure as fuck did. #jason is at a lack of words at bruce's confessions of pride and love but is also about to be a BAT about this and track down info #info in the form of a cute girl #oh yeah she has a brother #uh well #he has brothers too- this is fine #someone write this fic pls n thx u

[moeblob]

You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

[skeletalheartattack]

re: your recent tags about the gameboy sp! that boy's got headphone adapters i POMISE!!!

the magic of modern science. wow...

#ask #sapphicdroid #i did look it up to fact check myself after i reblogged the post and saw the adapters #honestly when i was younger i never knew it didnt have a headphone jack #granted the only time i ever saw one in person was on the school bus with a friend #he played pokemon blue on it and i dont remember the details of all that went on during #i mightve also seen another kid on the bus play pokemon emerald. i dont remember. #however that was my first exposure to gen 3 pokemon. as a kid i only knew about Red Blue Yellow and Crystal #my brothers had Red and Blue. and so thusly i have both games now. i... dont know where my copy of Red is though. #i have a copy of Yellow from Ebay but it loses its memory sometimes. which i think is why it was put on Ebay in the first place #Crystal however? well first i knew of gen 2 through pokemon stadium 2 #we had both pokemon stadiums for the n64. or. well. still do have them. #speaking of. sure does suck to go through the gym leaders and elite 4 in those games. mostly due to how long rounds are. #emulated it a while back and i had to use the fast forward feature a lot #anyway. Crystal. somehow i got my copy from a random coat in a clothing store. just. in the pocket. #i dont know how i managed to find it. it was either in a coat my mom was looking at or i was looking through pockets... probably the former #anyway within like a week. a kid in 3rd grade stole it from me #i... think i got to the elite 4? i remember getting to the last dude with the charizard. forgive me for forgetting his name. #but like right after i had it stolen. i got on the bus and vented to my friend and he was like ''oh i have two copies of crystal'' #and then gave his second copy to me. i forget if it was on the day of or if it was the next day. #anyway that same day it got stolen again. by the same kid. that kid stole so much shit from me #he switched schools the next year so i couldnt do anything about it #i have uhhh... soul silver now. so its not that big of a deal these days #anyway thank you for the ask :) i appreciate you telling me anyway

[sanchoyo]

haven’t been on much bc my dog has been sick :( between seizures and an infected tooth we’ve been having a Time trying to get everything fixed (this started around the holidays so our vet has been very booked up…we have been like 3-4 times in the past 4-5 weeks OTL does not help it’s like an hour drive there, so that’s been exhausting) now his new seizure meds are making him sick (was hoping it was like, just an adjustment period thing but he’s been sick for a week and having concerning symptoms…) if I’m not on a ton or slow to replying to messages it’s bc I’m working as much overtime as my job will give me bc Vet Expensive and mentally drained obvi 😞

#it makes me a lil mad his meds were kinda pricy and they literally are making things worse. like sure he isn’t have seizures but he can #barely walk and keeps running into things and keeps having diarrhea so like. 🙃 and the meds are making him sooo hungry and thirsty #I’m seeing the vet AGAIN FRIDAY I know she’s so sick of me but man my little guy. if she can’t figure out a combo that doesn’t have such #bad side effects I’m literally going to scream and cry #he’s the most sensitive boy in the world and my mental health hangs on his and my cats well being. please. 😭 #sanchoyorambles #I’ve also called them like twice to find out if I should stop or what they want me to do and keep getting ‘oh they’ll call u back’ WHEN #GIRL MY PUBBY #if I don’t hear back before his next dose I’m just gonna make an executive decision myself to stop them for now #he’s literally on the smallest possible dose too bc he’s so little. so. they can’t go down in dosage they’ll need to put him on smth else 😑 #which means paying for ANOTHER PRESCRIPTION A WEEK AFTER ALREASY GETTING ONE THAT WAS $30 ON TOP OF HIS STUPID VET BILL #screaming. #and like if I have the money it’s fine. and it’s not like the vet could’ve known he’d have bad side effects #im just frustrated it’s no one’s fault #I could go to a closer vet. the thing is I LIKE the one further away #they have the only groomer I’ve found that can trim him without sedating him! they send me reminders abt his shots! I like the vibes!!! #they seem caring!! but they are always SOOO BUSY it takes forever to make appointments or to hear back from them 😭 #remember how I said one of my goals was to buy a vechicle this year lmao the vet bills are draining any savings I’ve managed to build up 🤧 #my pets are priority 1 tho like even before all the medical stuff /I/ need like lol… that’s my baby #it’s just really bad timing. not that there’s good timing for medical issues but. u know

[v2is-baby]

Do you think v1 and v2 knew each other before hell? And if so what do you think their relationship was like?

I doubt they actually met because V2 prototype wasn't a thing while V1 was still relevant and being tested. Once the war was over and the money invested in the first prototype became a problem, the company just stopped spending much time in V1, keeping it dormant, deactivated while simultaneously used to prepare their next project, V2. Surely maaaany things were taken from the first V model and adapted to the new one.

There was probably a lot of pressure set upon the company's engineers and robotic specialists to take as much advantage from V1 for V2's design. We cannot afford new, innovate ideas, just copy what we have and program it differently. Go for a cheaper, less warfare oriented technology, people need protection, not a weapon. Cannot sell this thing otherwise.

Considering V2's meant to accomplish a different function, it was programmed and tested several times. Since it's function is to protect, a good machine needs a flawless, unquestionable, integration of Asimov's laws, a flawless execution and a flawless calculation of priorities. Variables must always aim to what's best for a person's sake. V2 was surely learning a lot, especially morality, creativity at decision making, among other things such as fixing one or two things in their body. And well, people talked, commented about V1 and how V2 was designed around it. Being meant to serve people made it a good listener. It loved to listen, to learn, to surpass the expectations.

Comments such as "V2 performs identically to V1 in combat but doesn't know how to exploit it's durability" (of course it doesn't know, V2 fights like V1) may have been a common critique to hear for the second prototype. The machine probably never had the chance to see their predecessor, however it knew it had to prove it's worth to be considered good enough to salvage the company.

Oh, how much they loved people when V2 achieved little things by itself, by utilizing its creativity and highly adaptive program. The nice comments were nice, but it always knew that, deep down, people were still comparing it to V1. And V2 never understood why V1 was such a great comparison point besides similarities in their designs.

When they finally met, it turned out V2 was better at so many things except one. A flaw that didn't come from themself, but from their creators. Because they adapted all possible aspects from V1 to V2, except one.

Something V2 would never be able to change because it wasn't it's own incapability but a limitation by design. And that's just so unfair.

And to apply salt to the injury, they're retrocompatible.

Wouldn't that fill you with resentment?

#headcanons #v1 ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #I also have the theory that the knuckleblaster is special for V2 #possibly the first arm they finished by itself without human aid #they managed to make a weapon!!! and improve their design! #while adapting to a existence without people #without purpose #surely an empty existence #asimovs law erasure and V2 is able to prioritize itself above any husk any demon or anything that resembles a person #a weapon is selfish #oh poor thing was never meant to live like this no matter how well V2 adapted #that hatred such a human feeling was its downfall #the resentment bloomed in its guts and gnawed its logical mind #it learned what V1 does in combat but it doesnt know why it loses #its something they cant change nor improve #because in the second fight V2 still fights like V1 without exploiting its durability #it gets close #thats something V1 does and for a reason #and keeps doing it in the second fight #poor baby girl #so many typos phone ough #english bad reminder

[monty-glasses-roxy]

If it wasn't obvious with the last incorrect quotes post, I still find the idea of Roxy and Freddy both having flavours of tism that bounce off each other in the worst way possible very enertaining lmao

Even before canon events, they just. Never saw eye to eye on anything ever and if they did, it would stun everyone including themselves

#fnaf security breach #'oh you two are so similar sometimes.' #'how DARE you!!!' #that's the response from both of them btw #just a general 'I am NOTHING like them why would you even think that' #and yet... #lmao I just think it would be funny #they've just barely tolerated having to be in the same space together this entire time #they've jokingly been refered to as 'messily divorced' several hundred times #they have never worked together on anything successful except the ONE april fools day they decided to impersonate each other #it was the most difficult day of their lives and neither are sure if it was worth it #but it freaked the others out so hard it was hilarious #did they gain an appreciation for each other from the experience? #no. not even remotely. #if anything they're WORSE now #'what do you MEAN this is how you live your life???' for the entire time they're preparing for this #if they manage to get staff involved with vanessa's help they managed to switch places through the show as well #so roxy was singing and freddy was playing the keytar #it was the most weird yet fun show those two have ever had btw #just an innate sense of 'this is so wrong' but at the same time its like 'oh so THIS its what its like doing this!! wow!!!' #everything else is torture for them though lmao #they're winning but at what cost #roxanne wolf #glamrock freddy #i love their silly little dynamic lmao

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really? #ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious. #i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

[keeps-ache]

little soup cans are some of the neatest things we have, wish there were more soup-can-like things in this world

#just me hi #though canopeners need to stop being deadly weapons to some degree before that hfhs #'they're not deadly tho ?' well usually yes. but did you know that they can age Badly? i did not! #and the one I was using was dulled to an extent that it would Skip over a part of the can #(nearly the same spot every time lol) and when I thought I'd managed to fool it and had only #the tiniest bit of metal between me and some beans (pretty sure it was beans) I thought #'ohh I'll just pull up the can lid :)' Well the lid snapped off completely towards and Into my hand #and I had a bean-can wound on my pinky for about a week or so. I do not know how long it's been lol #//but soup cans are pretty cool I feel like they're kinda underappreciated !! #you can just have Soup ? Whenever ??? and it's Normal !! wow :D #sure making soup is pretty great. but that's a process man. and we're not even associates #[<- 'a process I am (not) intimate with'] #like there is a little can of menudo in the pantry rn - medunito they call it isn't that just !! - and it's just there. it can be made in #like 10 minutes. is this Not the best thing ever ! ? #//I've also gotta figure out this sleeping thing that I've got going on (everybody has it going on) #I was maybe half a week into actually have a consistent thing going but the night I stopped was bc I am a sucker of a storyteller and we #were up til about. I think 4-6 a.m. #that's on me yes. my siblings vs. my desire to tell stories and rubber willpower hfbdh #a deadly match truly #and also I lost my snoopy watch (RIP snoopy watch you will be missed (I can't find it send help Waough)) and that was the only clock I had #in this room so now if I wanna know the time I have to go the living room - which is like a whole dang thing lemme tell you about it #/first I've gotta get up - easiest thing by far - and get to the door - assuming I don't get KO'd by my siblings' belongings on the floor - #get to the door. the door Is broken to some extent. opening it means a loud THDPD noise is sent throughout the entire house lol. and you #have to yank on the thing to get it open - so double effort there - and then you step out into the hallwayish area where you can then enter #the living room - oh so easy! but No! you then have to either turn on the kitchen lights and wake everyone with their door open or sleeping #in the living room for whatever reason Orrr you have to clamber over chairs pots perhaps a cat if you've got real bad luck that night to ge #up nice n personal to the clock so you can read the dang thing and see it's 11:23. which is like nothing so you stay up Anyway and do not #check the clock again because not only was that a hassle but also you released every creature that was in the room with you (that's a lot o #noise). but Yea the clock situation is ongoing hfbsh #'why don't you get a clock' that would be much too easy loll :) (last one disappeared and we keep forgetting lol) //ran out of tag space so

[vriendenboekjes]

i need a new hobby i need to feel something i need to see a friend i need to sleep

#jesus chrissstttt #thesis meeting went well today and we decided to try to have a complete draft in like 5 weeks oh my god. HOW. but itll be nice to be done #this academic year. im just not sure if i will manage. well. #and my parents came over because they were in the city visiting my grandpa at the hospital. #and i have my lute lesson tomorrow but ive barely practiced 😬😬😬

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

ALSO ALSO the other day i successfully managed to debate politics with my father without crying. this is in fact a win for me

#he just knoes exactly how to piss me off and i hate feeling likr im disappointing him and so its really hard to verbally disagree with him #on anything #because were both stubborn and he thinks hes always right and sooo smart and well read even though he gets 90% of his fucking news from #clickbait yahoo articles #and refuses to do Actual Research or read uo on any of the topics hes so sure hes an expert about #and he looooooves brunging up completely different arguments in the middle of what were taling about like. 'oh well if this were true then #thus completely unrelated and nuanced issue is exactly the same!!' #and it pissed me off because he DOES T FUCKING KNOE WHAT HES TALKING ABOUT BUT OF COURSE IM JUST A DUMB TEENAGER WHAT DO I KNOW RIGHT #anyways. managed to have a like. 20 minute discussion with him and i was on the verge if tears for most of it bc he was sooo condescending #abt it but i held it together & managed to successfully shut down the conversation once it was clear it was going in an upsetting direction #which is another thing he does bc hell see me gettibg upset and then keep pushing and i think he thinks its a good thing to like. get me out #of my comfort zone and consider different perspectives and shit #but like. man. he doesnt understand that i soend time reading about different perspectives he doesnt fuckibg understand how much #i actually follow the goddamn news in my own YOU CONTINUING TO INSIST UR RIGHT WHILE IGNORING EVERY VALID POINT I BRING UP IS NOT FUCKING #HELPFUL ITS JUST OBNOXIOUS. DONT ACT KIKE UR ENCOURAGING ME TO DEBATE YOU INTELLECTUALLY WHEN HALF YOUR FUCKING TALKING POINTS ARE #GOING 'NUH UH' AND 'WELL I THINK THIS IS TRUE MY SOURCE IS MY OWN BRAIN AND THEORIES'

[coffinbutch]

Spent like 5 hours deep cleaning and overhaul organizing the other location of my job bc there was like water/pests/weird stuff, and there were some different toys and things where the packages had superficial damage that made it nonsaleable, and my coworker talked our manager into letting us each keep a packer that they weren't gonna be able to sell. So now I have a packer!

#exhausting day but honestly. i didnt hate it #i like my manager and i really like my coworker #and it must be said. i love a bit of deep cleaning/organizing #wish id worn different shoes but oh well. i managed #i should have a tag for jobposting uhhhh how about #sex shop shenanigans #sure that works

[call-me-corvid]

Manger in charge of a LOT of shit quit recently because he got a job offer that was

A) 3x his original salary, and

B) involved far less responsibility

I had worked as his subordinate last year, so naturally the head honchos asked me take over what he was doing. Not with the title, but with the “promise” that we can visit that discussion in eight months depending on my performance (yeah okay /s).

Key note: I had received a similar promise for a different manager position. (No followup mention of that promise + no significant training provided to move me towards that position) * 7 months = empty promise. Alright cool.

One month in. Not getting too much guidance (expected), told I’m doing good and need to value myself higher.

Okay. Bet.

Asked for a raise in recognition of increased responsibilities beyond my current job description, quality of work, pay scale of the position (i’m at the bottom), etc. You know, hard facts that cannot be influenced by subjective feelings of importance or relevance.

Oh let’s not forget part of the raise was the annual raise that the HR manager promised ALWAYS happens but I have not received since my annual review four months ago. That I told the HR manager about two months ago but never heard anything back on. So there was a reminder of that, as well.

Told (to my face) that I’m entitled, don’t work hard enough, issued an ultimatum (literally didn’t make any sort of threat but okay), used the owner’s words against him (literally just quoted him on something he told me about pay when I was first hired but okay), they threatened that they could easily go out and find an external hire to take on in the role I’m being “trained” for, and asked if I REALLY think any other place would hire me. Among other “”feedback.””

Okay. Okay okay okay okay. I see how they view me now. Good to know. I learned quite a few things from this conversation and I think some of those things may surprise them.

#you like talking about red flags? let’s check off how many you just dropped #literally all care for this industry: gone in one conversation! #a new personal record honestly #one of my favorite bits was when i was blamed for a management meeting being run poorly because i ‘should’ve been the one to structure it’ #oh but of course no mention of how i was never told that #and that i’m not actually a fucking manager #’act like you have the job you want to have’ oh good! you mean what I was trying to do?? with no clear outline of expectations?? #WELL right now I want to have a different fucking job so maybe I should take that advice #and refocus the energy that i was using for doing work shit in my free time #i’m an idiot but don’t ever say I don’t learn from my mistakes #because i’ve learned from this one #you’ve made your opinion on me abundantly clear #(we wont discuss the derogatory Slack messages about me that I found) #(pro tip: when adding someone to a new chat PERHAPS you should go through and make sure you delete messages insulting that person) #personal

[dangoulains-devotion]

thinking just a bit too hard about how the added depth given to tifa and aerith's friendship only increases the weight threatening to crush tifa after the forgotten capital, she already had so much to carry on her weary shoulders, she's going to have to carry even more when mideel happens, and it doesn't even stop after meteorfall, ohg od oh i love her so much i

#(sobbing and crying and snotting everywhere) AERITH GAVE HER SOMEONE TO CONFIDE IN ON SUCH A TUMULTUOUS JOURNEY #SOMEONE SHE COULD BE AS CLOSE TO FULLY RELAXED AS POSSIBLE #SOMEONE TO GOSSIP WITH OR SHARE HER CONCERNS OR JUST. BE A NORMAL GIRL WITH #YUFFIE'S THERE BUT SHE'S JUST A KID AND TIFA WOULD NEVER WANT TO HARM THE AIR OF CAREFREE CHILDISHNESS SHE MANAGES TO MAINTAIN EVEN IF #ITS BECAUSE YUFFIE IS HIDING THINGS THAT ARE CRUSHING HER #but poor tifa . gentle tifa. is now left to regret. to blame herself. #she has barret who acts like a father figure to her sure - but despite how much she cares about him and values her frienship with him #he's not aerith. he's not someone she can just gossip about first loves with. not someone she can fully Relate to. if you get what i mean #she is left to trace back the thread of how poor aerith got caught in this mess #she was the one to ask aerith to save marlene. but how did they get there? aerith refused to let cloud be a bystander in wall market #how did that happen? she made a risky choice that put her in a position where their paths crossed. why? because cloud was briefly lost #during the bombing mission. why did the bombing mission happen? she couldn't stop it. ETC ETC #NONE OF IT WAS HER FAULT... BUT SHE NEVER WANTED TO DRAG INNOCENT PEOPLE INTO THIS AT ANY SINGLE POINT #AND NOW SOMEONE WHO QUICKLY BECAME A CLOSE FRIEND IS GONE oh lord my heart #all of this added onto the things like how alone she was in nibelheim... it was just her and her dad for some years after the boys all left #and then the Incident happens and she loses that last person she had... and to an extent another she didn't even know was right there(cloud #god i could talk about her and how she has suffered more than jesus for ages (happy easter. lmao) #FF7 Rebirth spoilers #just in case?? for anyone who's only playing the remakes i guess. since this was basically already there the remakes just elaborate on it #i think about 'we found you!' 'i guess you did!' SO OFTEN #these two girls mean the world to me and i will not let you reduce them to love interest rivals #when tifa ran over to aerith's body i think everyone in the world heard my heart shattering into dust #these thoughts are a bit disjointed and don't articulate well what i mean but god. god. i am thinking about her today

[imminent-danger-came]

My favorite part of 4x07 is the fact that it doesn’t tell us fucking shit. I knew more going into that episode than coming out. Like, what is the curse? What’s it’s relation to MK? Does it even have a relation to MK? Was turning into MK’s likeness just a trick, or are they really the same? How the fuck does Azure lion control the curse and the scroll (especially at the end after the curse is “defeated” and everything is cracking apart)? How does this episode relate to MK’s flashes from previous episodes? Did MK give the curse form? Was anything Azure Lion said about it and the scroll in 4x02 true? How did Azure escape the scroll? How does the underworld play into all of this? What did defeating the curse honestly do? And, now that the curse is supposedly defeated, what in the world is the inside of the scroll like for those trapped inside? How was MK able to defeat the curse? Supposedly the scroll is “a prison designed to contain wicked souls, forcing them to relive their past misdeeds over and over again.” The curse however is something else. So again, WHAT IS THE CURSE.

The more I think about it the less it makes sense.

#BUT THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED WHEN I THOUGHT ABOUT MK A LITTLE TOO HARD #Like oh. He can just regenerate his powers? Even when supposedly both Macaque and LBD took it from him? Okay. Sure. #Did Sun Wukong even want a successor? He kinda just goes off and does whatever. #Really he just left the world for hundreds of years. What's the point of coming back now and having a 'successor'? #And um. It takes 'someone special' to wield the staff? It's *not* the product of SWK 'mysteriously' giving MK powers? #Well. That kinda sounds like SWK didn't give MK any powers. And even if he did how in the world did he manage that. #Does even Monkie King have the ability to just give people that much power? #and like #'oh everyone has some form of a flashback or implied history EXCEPT for MK. We know nothing of his past. That's kinda weird.' #The number of times SWK is like 'no MK can do it' when there is NO FEASIBLE REASON FOR HIM TO BELIEVE SO #'Like yeah come on man 'patience and focus' you can wield the staff even if Macaque supposedly took my power from you.' #or even like #'Oh yeah lol of course you got your powers back when you needed them most. That's not surprising.' #'No pigsy let him go and face LBD alone he can do it. He'll stop her use of the samadhi fire and save the world.' LIKE WHAT #Like nothing made sense the more you thought about it #AND NOW I HAVE MY ANSWER #MK *IS* A MONKIE IN SOME FORM. #Idk how he was created or what his past is #BUT I DO KNOW I WAS RIGHT TO QUESTION THE BULLSHIT #Like lol his weird interactions with LBD's powers and the scroll (who are both connected to the underworld) JUST FUELS ME FUTHER #OH AND THE FUCKING KEY. WHATEVER THE FUCKING KEY IS. #I swear MK is some sort of destiny altering fucked up eldritch boy made as a weapon. #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk s4 #imp tag

[running-in-the-dark]

got a new hard drive (had to, no space left 😔), so I'm using that as a reason to completely reorganise my files (mostly shows, movies etc)

I'm having such a good time 💖

#not sarcasm! it's so fun #the only thing that sucks is that I managed to break sonarr somehow. didn't touch a thing but okay sure #I'll figure it out #I've got to wait for a couple cables that we had to order anyway before I can start moving stuff around #I've been sooo frustrated with how chaotic everything has been so this is gonna be great #but yeah I've had to delete so much stuff already (not at all because I've been downloading too much John Larroquette stuff or anything... #😬😬) #and I've been complaining about it every day so my husband bought me a new hard drive 🙈 #still not enough space but it'll do for now #I always think 'oh I'm not a data hoarder! I don't have nearly as much stuff as those guys on reddit or wherever!' but like. it's not #because I don't WANT to save all of it #I only have *checks* 16 TB now with the new hard drive. I'd absolutely get a bunch of 20 TB ones if I could but no instead I spend money on #dumb shit lol #anyway yay I can stop deleting movies! very exciting #lol if anything I'm a hard drive hoarder.... I've got 7 internal ones and 3 external ones now. #yeah I just add new ones and don't remove any #I don't even wanna say it because I'll jinx it but. I've never had a hard drive fail. in over 20 years of having computers. I'm scared it's #gonna happen but 🤷 so far it hasn't lol #well one external one started failing but it went gradually not all at once. so I was able to move everything off of it first #and I mean I have backups of everything that's important! but not any of the media stuff 😬 it wouldn't be awful but it'd definitely make me #sad because I'm sure there's things there's that I couldn't find anymore #personal