#not in an angry way even

[satanistsparklingunicorn]

Just finished Gideon the Ninth with a lot of expectation and I'm really disappointed :((((((

#not in an angry way even #i'm just sad #I thought this was going to be the peak lesbian couple #and it wasn't #I'm just so tired of the same tropes being used over and over again in lesbian media #and this one was different #it seemed so promissing 😭😭😭😭😭 #but it was just executed badly #and i'm really sad about it #maybe its success will encourage other authors to play with not-so-wholesome lesbians? #i hope! #the locked tomb #gideon the ninth

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[greencarnation]

eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him

#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds #but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve #when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was #but ok listen #its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him #episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun #episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind #and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people #episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing #all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror #like obviously we know why but amy didnt #this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry #and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate #you would make a good dalek ect ect ect #anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go #i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great #doctor who #eleven #amy #eleventh doctor #matt smith #dr who #dw #i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him #eleven was careening completely out of control #how long til doctor means warrior indeed? #mine

[tojisun]

ok but cute interactions need to be balanced with something embarrassing so imagine simon coming home to see you trying on his skull mask but you accidentally had put it on backwards and so he truly didn't expect to see the way you're desperately clawing at the material, failing to rip it off your head because the smooth fleece keeps slipping away from your acrylics, and he realizes that for all that they're pretty and long, your nails are essentially useless against his simple mask.

so he just stands there, blinking, not knowing what to do and how to react. he's hearing the little grunts you're emitting, your panic bleeding away to make room for frustration, and simon promises that he wants to help. he really does. but then you just stop moving before proceeding to fall backwards on your bed with a ragged snarl, and he can't help it - he bursted out laughing.

you freeze at hearing his voice, shame creeping up from the base of your throat up to the backs of your eyes.

"jesus crist, love," he'd say as he makes his way towards you. "you okay?"

he'd laugh at your silent treatment before cooing when he finally removes his mask from your face, seeing you haggard and pouting underneath, glaring up at him. he pushes your hair away from your face. then,

"so this is how you're actually supposed to wear it-"

"shut up!"

#suns.hc #simon ghost riley x reader #simon riley x reader #ghost x reader #need him to be angry and frustrated only to come home seeing u be silly and god the way he'll melt at the sight of u #u dont even have to be doin special :( #suns

[uncanny-tranny]

Whenever people who are entrenched in diet culture talk about how terrible chemicals are, I just want to whip out this:

#diet culture #diet culture tw #described images #image description in alt #'it's got CHEMICALS in it' and so do you! and me too! IT'S ALL CHEMICALS ALL THE WAY DOWN #instead of running from this world we must learn to embrace it #i'm not particularly angry at people who say this because it makes me think that they're incredibly invested in diet culture... #...i just don't want the whole 'food = bad' or 'bodies = bad' to go unchallenged... #...part of the reason why diet culture seems just as prevalent now (if not moreso) is partially because it isn't really... #...challenged or questioned without provocation. it's just assumed to be correct because it makes you 'feel in control' #when chemicals are bad you can control what chemicals you consume. it's individualistic and places the blame onto you for 'being good' #it places responsibility onto the person in such a way that it becomes impossible to fulfill #it isn't that i'm upset that people want to treat their bodies in a way they think is responsible... #...moreso that the *way* they go about it ensures that they're stuck in a cycle of self-blame and even self-hatred #because the METHOD is ineffective. not the desire to treat your body well #also the state of ohio looks stupid and i do Not respect it #it looks like a ball that is simultaneously deflated and over-inflated #also their state flag looks silly to me #it looks like the person who was making it fell asleep making it #i'm just clowning on ohio at this point. have never been to ohio but. are you guys okay

[sysig]

Blind side (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Papyrus #Gaster #Sans closing his good eye every once in a while and keeping his blind eye open - obviously he does so in-game as well so it's a style-match #It's just interesting in the context of him being textually-confirmed blind in Handplates hehe #There's a level of vulnerability there! Not more than closing both eyes around someone - and potentially also distrust! #''I'm baring myself blind right now but /you/ don't need to know that'' - it suits him ♪ #Especially when he does it around Papyrus! Because obviously Papyrus knows about his partial blindness #But when he's trying to be duplicitous - the way he looks at him sidelong with his blind eye when he's trying to lie unsuccessfully ugh <3 #And again-again it being about how much he trusts Papyrus! That he can be a little lazy or spacey and Papyrus will help him! #Also something about his entire right side being impaired - pawing around with his plated hand for something he can't see on that side #The dynamics! Internal and external! Very good like them lots #And then there's Gaster lol ♪ Throw him into the mix I'm sure it won't make a mess at all haha #I guess he's visiting? Just spacing out - he and Sans have a lot on their minds - separately haha #I do love how Sans pushes Gaster to be kind to Papyrus - very deservedly! He wants Papyrus to be happy of course #And he's obviously still angry with Gaster a lot but how might that present itself when Papyrus is Papyrus at Gaster hehe #Even just in that small jokey way of ''you tryin' to step on my turf?'' hehehe #Especially since the comparison wouldn't even come up if he had two functioning eyes hm?? Right Gaster???? Lol #Speaking of that scene and Sans' partial blindness tho ughhughuhg <3 <3 The fact that Sans stands with Gaster to his blind side #It's the vulnerability/distaste/confidence of it all! He's grown up so much it's all right there in how he holds himself #That he either trusts Gaster enough not to attack him - starting to believe him - or that he has enough faith in himself to protect himself #And only looking at him with his peripherals unless he looks directly at him hghhhgh I am Normal about shot composition I swear lol #Also I like how that last panel turned out lol - Sans just appears at the bottom of the steps like how's it going. care to gtfo thx

[just-an-enby-lemon]

"The Mechanisms were Jonathan Sims college band" and "Jon is the secret real past of Jonny D'ville" are both great takes but I present "Jon's descend into an unwilling antichirst figure is The Mecs new album and Jonny plays him in the songs because they just have very similar voices for some reason."

#tma #the magnus archives #the mechanisms #jonathan sims #jonny d'ville #the mechs singing about Jon's life and interacting with it as a way to get more of the story is fun #ashes would love to join the corrupt avatar old men group for the maniuplation #they would be in all elias and peter divorce and marriage parties #Jonny is angry that people actually call Peter capitain #he is also at all grifters bones shows #and even played with them once or twice #breakon and hope accidentally adopt the toy soldier for a while #ivy helps jon be a proper archivist #marius tries to psicoanalyse elias #jonny is also just melanies bestie #she call him better jon #brian and jon discuss what it is to be human #gunpowder tim makes a whole presentation about why blowing up the moon is cooler than blowing up some clowns and he is the better tim #he also gives weapons to Martin #ralph becames an eye avatar somehow #manuella and brian insult suns together #ashes and anabelle became besties #ashes annabelle and jude perry go to parties together #ashes also hangs with gertrude and agnes they might have helped them became a couple because they now tragic saphics is a mecs classic #nastya just chills with her girlfriend at earths orbity and accidentaly saves dark sacrifice space guy and lonely experiment guy #she also bonds with manuela they discuss about spaceships and suns #she and aurora add manuella to spicy their sex life for a bit as a friend with benefit of both

[oh-wow-im-still-here]

I saw a post once talking about a bingqiu scott pilgrim au where LBH had to fight all of SQQ's suitors, which is a cool concept and all, but have you considered the comedic potential and insanity of a bingyuan Scott pilgrim au where SY has to defeat LITERALLY HUNDREDS of bingge's exes??

#just put him through the ringer! #make it even more baffling where shen yuan just thinks he started dating this really cool and mysterious guy in the modern world #but then oop! all these magical evil exes start appearing through portals super angry that binghe abandoned them for his shizun world hunt #now i know what you might be thinking #how does a hermit like shen yuan beat all these wives? #its because he's in the unexplainable world of scott pilgrim battle rules of course! #so its a mixture of outsmarting them in dumb ways and video game logic powers #so then its binghes turn to be baffled #“... i thought you said cultivation and magic doesnt exist in your world?” #“it doesnt.” #“you just punched that woman so hard she exploded into coins...” #svsss #scum villains self saving system #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #bingqiu #bingyuan #shen yuan #luo bingge

[i-ate-the-rats]

weldin is hot fr fr

#fuck gender #what is the probability that hobie prepared a plan with a fake watch in advance? #judging by the cut scenes even Lila couldn't track him down. #hence he had a way to escape. in another universe? did he destroy the tracking sensors in his world? #Miguel is so so angry hehe #hobie brown #atsv hobie #spider man: across the spider verse #hobie brown fanart #across the spiderverse

[dearmahiru]

honestly, it feels a bit of a disservice to me how people immediately label kotoko as someone who doesn't care for the people she saves when there's clearly a much more interesting relationship at hand here!

we know how kotoko gets when she doesn't care: she's stone-faced, she's self-assured, she's above it all ...but when a scared little girl hugs her? she doesn't roll her eyes or click her tongue; instead, she freezes, sweats profusely, and yanks the child off her. she just murdered someone seconds ago but it's the child she's antsy with?

Kotoko: "Treat you like a child? Hah, you’ve got to be kidding. Back when I was your age, I was already the person I am today. I don’t have any plans to let you get away with something just “because you’re a child.” ...Remember that."

i don't want to say anything concrete just yet but—especially when you take a look at mikoto—there's a very obvious fear at play with kotoko's relationship in protecting someone weaker than her. just like there's newborn imagery baked into john doe's character, kotoko is the little red riding hood, the child, who's been swallowed by a wolf.

#and it's also annoying because like... kotoko DOES care about that little girl? #like!! look at the way the mv frames her! cute and innocent who even got a little hat to match kotoko awww isn't that so cute? #compare this to say- the angry men that talked to shidou in throw down. one singular frame with no eyes #like yes she's clearly she's affectionate but this kid is at the very least important enough to share her spotlight #♡. cinnamon lead astray #milgram #kotoko yuzuriha

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: pregnancy, kids (you guys have a daughter together), fwb’s, angst with a bit of a hopeful ending, refers to you as ‘girl’ once

Friends with benefits Bakugou who never really got over his ego to fully commit to you. You’re a little ashamed to admit it, but when you fell pregnant, you thought that things would change. That the whole “no feelings” aspect would’ve been dropped, that he would’ve embraced you fully.

But he just…didn’t? If anything, he distanced himself away from you, became so formal like you were another coworker he would address. It was heartbreaking, going through your first pregnancy feeling so, so alone, but having to grin and bear it the whole way through.

He supported you though in every way that he could. He never missed an appointment, would trek to your house during late nights whenever you craved something. He even moved you in to his own apartment during your last trimester, but a couple months after your baby was born, you went back home. You never felt unwelcome, but you couldn’t pretend to be a happy family when he slept in the guest room every night.

So now, you coparent quite easily. At least, it seems easy to Bakugou, but really, it’s all a facade.

In all honesty? He thinks he’s a fuck up. An idiot. The stupidest, shittiest person who’s ever existed.

He thought what he was doing was enough, that the words he didn’t say carried across oceans, formulated into titles that he never verbalized. So when you told him you would be happy to coparent, his world felt upended suddenly, as he holds his tiny little baby girl in his arms.

Coparent? How could a couple coparent? Where did he go wrong? (He only slept in the guest room to give you and baby space, only moved you in late because you lived so far away and you were getting so big. He never said I love you because he was too embarrassed to say it out loud. He didn’t know he had to say it out loud to solidify it. He thought you just knew.)

So it’s why his heart breaks when he catches a glimpse of curly blond hair and red eyes in the grocery store. He tries to duck behind an aisle, but his baby would recognize him anywhere. (It’s true; you’ve sent many videos of her recognizing him on billboards and tv commercials and magazines.)

“Bakugou?” You call, ducking around the corner to catch a glimpse of him. He tries to act nonchalant like he’s looking at cans of soup, tries not to cringe at your formal name. He turns when you come into view, eyes drinking in your attire. His heart breaks a little when he recognizes the shirt you took in your second trimester, still has the pic you sent him of you grinning as you show off what you stole.

“Hey.” Bakugou greets gruffly, mouth pulled tight, but it cracks into a grin when his daughter starts squealing. She’s in the front part of the shopping cart, twisting her little chunky body to get out and get to him. She damn near screams when he sets his basket down to pick her up, rubbing his nose to hers.

“How ya doing, squirt?” He asks quietly, pecking at her chubby cheeks as she instantly starts babbling to him. He holds her close to his chest, eyes full of pure love for his baby girl, and it makes your heart squeeze so tight you think it might burst.

“This isn’t your neck of the woods.” You mutter, head tilting to the side as you take in your daughters excited face to see her father. Bakugou’s eyes snap to your own, letting his daughter play with his fingers in the meanwhile. He looks embarrassed, cheeks a dusty pink as he grumbles and looks away.

“I was just picking up some stuff to drop off for her. Was gonna text you and see if you were home,” he replies, and something tells you that it’s a lie. But you don’t pester him about it, just nod a few times, taking in the sight.

He looks so good like that, in his compression shirt and sweats, his hair mussed from your daughters incessant pulling. He’s grinning at her, but looks so bashful when he turns to you, like he’s thinking about things he knows he shouldn’t, like he has a boatload to say but can’t cough up.

And if you were a mind reader, you’d be so fucking right. He can’t help but reminisce on before you got pregnant, the nights spent with you. The day you told him you were having a girl, the tears you cried when you delivered her. He thinks, filled with so much guilt the entire time, that he wants another one. With you.

“‘S it okay if I walk my favorite girls home?” He asks you gruffly, nibbling on your daughters cheeks to hear her giggle again, uncaring of the drool she leaves on his hand. You feel your eyes widen at his term for you, face suddenly flushing. Favorite? You, his favorite?

Something tells you that you shouldn’t fall down the rabbit hole that is Bakugou Katsuki and his suppressed emotions and shitty ego. But there’s another something that tells you to trust it this time, to let things happen organically and without expectation. So you do.

“I’m sure she would love to show her daddy the new toy her grandma just brought her.” You tell him, giggling when he rolls his eyes at the mention of his mother. But he walks with you the entire time you finish up your grocery order, holding your daughter the whole time and pays for your groceries despite repeatedly telling him that he doesn’t have to.

He pushes her in the stroller stored underneath the shopping cart on the way home, making small conversation. And when you’re halfway home, does he reach for your hand. Only to cross the cross walk though, he tells himself, only for your protection. But he doesn’t let go until you’re in your own place, and even then, he’s close by the entire time. He helps you put away groceries, remembers where everything is like he lives here.

And for some reason, the familiarity makes your heart ache a little more than you would like it to.

#full of sadness tonight srry #but I’m obsessed with this idea actually #I wanna expand on it even more in a fic #I don’t like to write angst for him but this idea is just :( #he’s so shitty at communicating his feelings and you hate assuming things #so many things are just left unsaid for so long that you just force yourself to get over it and move on #and he’s so confused and so angry that you could leave him like that #but he never had you in the first place now did he? #ohh it makes me wanna sob #obviously in the end you get back together and have 98 more kids 🙄 #but the journey along the way is RUFF #okay I’m done writing my wrist hurts lol #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #dad bkg

[mirabel-on-a-bicycle]

I cannot say this enough, Charlie Bushnell fucking killed it this season. I hadn’t come across a single non book reader take before the finale that he could be the lightening thief. Like it was wild out there. Everyone was mentally preparing to get betrayed by Grover or Anabeth. People were gushing over Luke left and right. Some of them could literally see Sally or even Thalia (?!?) stealing the bolt before raising an eyebrow at him. Like they’re all great theories sure, but the fact remains that Charlie played Luke SO deceptively well, spewing hint after hint from the beginning, things that you can’t UNSEE in the second viewing, and still got away with it flawlessly✨ and idk I just feel so smug and proud?? like hell yeah those are my ultra talented writers and that’s Charlie and NO ONE holds a candle to him and also can someone tell me how those girls on tiktok are doing now i kinda wanna know :]

#credit was due. i’ve known what was gonna happen for like 10 years and even i was blown away #gosh it was SO difficult to see him as the thief i don’t blame anyone. he’s too good #like THE WAY his soft happy cinnamon little face just. twisted into that bitter hurtful angry expression in an instant ugghf #FLOORED #percy jackson #pjotv #pjo tv show #luke castellan #charlie bushnell #the betrayal scene

[note-boom]

See here. BSD is a story about how all of our characters were once children. How the scars and wounds and secrets of their past will always haunt them to the present. We see it with Chuuya, Yosano, Ranpo, even Odasaku briefly, Atsushi, Tachihara, Akutagawa, Kyouka and Kenji right now, even Kouyou just a little bit. They've all overcome it or they've allowed it to consume them. And yet that brief glimpse into a past where they were young and scarred shows us once again just how human they are...every criminal, ever person, was once a child wounded by or protected from the world and doesn't that count for something even if it doesn't excuse the atrocities they commit today?

#its about the way backstories are burdens in this manga #im always a sucker for a good backstory but i love it even more when you can clearly see that... #...shedding the ghosts of your past is harder than it looks #and its more just a motivator but its also something that restricts and binds you #and this is why yosano's arc and also ranpo's arc are just so.... #like one was horribly hurt by the world and the other somehow managed to be lucky and find a protector #and you can SEE how theyve both grown or overcome the baggage from their past #but how it still affects them like with ranpo holding onto the deception of his ability #and yosano getting angry at mori #AHHHHHHH i love this #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd spoilers #kinda #too lazy to tag all the characters #bsd musings #character analysis #spitting nonsense

[echosong971]

more expression studies and notes on p cause i love doin’ these hehe

#if you can’t tell #echo LOVES drawing expressions #it’s my favorite part of drawing the face #and P is an interesting challenge because he strikes me as someone who #even when he’s got full humanity #visibly emotes in more subtle ways more often than not #he’s pretty reserved #and so really solidifying those microexpressions of his has been really fun hehe #i also hope this helps anyone else trying to draw him haha #oh and one last note #whenever i draw a character angry #i like to let my lineart get a lot more loose and sketchy #i think it really adds to the anger feel hehe #pinocchio #p #lies of p pinocchio #geppetto’s puppet #lies of p #neowiz #echosong971 #art #digital art #fanart #lies of p art #lies of p fanart

[fangirltothefullest]

I wish everyone who decided miss piggy needed to be thin in the middle even though she is a round-faced pig and therefore is allowed to be round and a fashion icon and diva and fabulous actress all while chubby, a very go crawl in a hole and stay there.

#looking up references of her makes me SO angry #because they keep making her skinny in the middle even when she's got large legs??? and she doesn't have to be snatched??? #and i'm just #so tired #let her be fat please #i beg of you #i don't care if she didn't start out that way #she's an icon let her be fat!

[hajihiko]

Fuyuhiko: I'd kill any fucking one on this island except you, Hajime. We need to make it out together. Half of my life is yours. Carry the reminder of our bond with you forever. This is my first time having a friend can you tell is it obvious

#COMING OFF A LITTLE STRONG BUDDY. I watched the island mode and even moreso. No chill little hypocrite #'Your life is mine' dude. 'Dont die without me' BRO. CHILL. #I love angry characters that are way too intense about everything. Love em #fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Kuzuhina #For block purposes if anyone needs that (like everything in draw is just Extra Special Best Friends) #Sdr2 #super danganronpa 2 #Dr2 #Danganronpa 2 #Danganronpa #danganronpa goodbye despair #an art #fuyuhiko #hajime