#my anxiety is not coping well

[grapehyasynth]

I don't know about the rest of you but if my brother died and I became heir to the throne and then my cousin released a sex tape of me, I too would lose my absolute shit

#young royals #yr s2 spoilers #considering how well i cope with my own little life and my own anxiety #wille did okay all things considered

[alchemania]

Finally got enough energy to talk about Furina's SQ and while I loved her and the troupe, MC and Paimon were .... Not Great. I talked about this with friends but in Paimon's case especially, the way they interact with Furina feels like people who just don't understand trauma and depression and then engage with someone suffering from both in all the wrong ways.

Talking about how much of a downgrade her house is from the opera house, making fun of how she can't cook, pushing her to act when she's set a very clear boundary and then guilt tripping her after she's stuck to her guns, shaming her for not being able to fight well (Paimon literally talks about how second hand embarrassment is overwhelming and I'm just like ?????), telling her she's "not acting like herself" when she attempts to open up and be vulnerable....it's just really rough. That and the MC asking "is something wrong" when Furina gets sad over Poission ..like bro people died and she couldn't save them and she's tearing herself apart over it. Those people are never coming back and you know it and you have the gall to ask her is something wrong??? Of COURSE there is!!

It just feels especially odd because we literally get to see all of Furina's suffering and Paimon in particular is. SO mean? Like she was more understanding with Wanderer and Ei and THEY'VE tried to kill us multiple times!! I don't get it, and honestly I'm very proud of Furina for refusing to waver. Let her rest!! She's tired and depressed and she needs time to heal; and honestly fuck Paimon for trying to make her feel bad. Furina's worked harder than she EVER will.

#as someone with depression and who's highly sensitive this story quest hurt a LOT because ive also encountered people who don't understand. #i've been told i need to get over my anxiety. i've been asked what am i so tired from since i just lay in bed. #so furina's character and how she was treated hit very very hard for me. she's isolating herself and not coping well but she is TRYING. #she's trying so hard and she equates her worth to her role. like she literally tells you that she serves no more use to anyone. #and i wanted to shake her so hard. because it's not about what she can do #she has worth simply because she exists. full stop. she is loved and she is appreciated just for being herself #her worth isn't decided by her power yk?? #i hope she can rest and heal and find some good friends - after the way mc and paimon treated her i honestly don't think they should be #or if they are; they'd have to work to earn her trust cuz good LORD. they treated her so weird and so tone deaf!! #i've seen a lot of people complaining about it too so im glad im not alone. #anyway. there is something wrong with me i have cried actual tears over furina please god she needs a hug #and to be told she did a good job and she can rest now and things will get better #4.2 spoilers #genshin impact #furina

[geosaurus]

Get Your Life Together AU

#kaiji #kaiji itou #akagi #akagi shigeru #FKMT #edit: updated this illustration bc some of the rendering was bothering me #if you dont know what Kaiji is just pretend these are my OCs bc they might as well be for how unrecognizable they are. Also read/watch Kaij #why did i draw an AU where Kaiji gets his life together & becomes a tattoo artist and f.t.m Akagi is there? anxiety i guess?? #i've been unemployd as flck and my coping stratergy is that i terraform my blorbos #i know tattooing is kinda tabooin japan bc of yakuza but kaiji and akagi are pariahs so why not. not like he can keep a normal job anyway #it puts him in the flow state he craves but instead of gambIing away ungodly amounts of money he just draws a w ee d leaf on kazuyas a s #i put thought into the tatoos and stickers etc i want to explain them but i doubt anyone would read all that. but please enjoy the details #HEY HERE'S A FUN FACT ABOUT THIS POST #it wasn't showing up in the fkmt fandom tags for a while so i complainted to tumblr about it bc i was feeling petty #apparently tumblr looks through all your tags and all the individual words within your tags to see if its sensitive material #so i went through and changed words until it showed up in the tags #and then changed some back to see what would keep it in. and i know for a fact that one of the sensitive words was f////t///////m #so thats cool.

[chryblossomjjk]

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#first therapy session went well ! #i didn't cry which is v surprising lol #maybe bc we didnt go too in depth about things but #therapist already picking up on things i didn't like #never really thought of myself as an anxious person #depression was more so what stuck out to me #but like therapist was like bestie... u sound more anxious than ur perceiving #like i put that i don't struggle with social anxiety bc generally in a group of people im pretty outgoing #but like my coping skills are isolation lol #and i often turn down invitations bc of my insecurities #and in general just hate being perceived despite wanting it #like i literally havent answered any asks on here in months bc #im afraid of what people think of me #and im scared of interaction #but im also dying for human connection lol :')) #i also avoid men completely bc trauma so yeah #and it all stems from a deep deep belief that i am not worthy of love n wOw im sad but like we can only go up from here right :')) #LMAO SORRY THAT THIS IS WHAT MY BLOG HAS BECOME BUT #idk this is my diary fr #anywho sorry for everything #will most likely delete all these rants bc its embarassing lol but #love you all #and im so sorry for not answering the asks #thank you for reading my fics #your comments mean sm to me truly #love you endlessly

[lesbian-hannibal]

I FUCKED UP

#got Very stressed about a Situation at work and had a panic attack #and my anxiety was thru the roof and i couldn’t calm down #so… an unhealthy coping mechanism came out ……. #and i have a doctors appointment #on monday… and they have to see my arms…. bc that’s where my eczema is ……. and also the unhealthy coping mechanism……….. #well …….. #i’m so fucked bro #personal

[schizodiaries]

super easy self-care tips

There are plenty of self-care articles online, but I wanted to focus on easier and simpler self-care methods for mentally ill people like me with low energy/motivation or who have a hard time managing daily life.

Drink some tea — Tea can not only soothe you, it can hydrate you as well. I personally like teas that help reduce anxiety like chamomile tea, lavender tea, or rose tea.

Cuddle a stuffed animal — Even if you’re an adult, a stuffed animal can be great for your mental well-being. They can help ease loneliness, provide comfort, and heal your inner child.

Chair yoga — Don’t let the idea of yoga scare you, you can do it while sitting! There are many mental health benefits to yoga, such as relieving stress and improving focus. Search “chair yoga” on YouTube for some guided yoga exercises.

Sit in sunlight — You can do this outside or indoors next to a window. A few minutes of basking in sunlight helps boost your mood.

Step on grass — I know “touch grass” is often used as a snarky comeback, but seriously, feeling the grass beneath your feet can release endorphins. If you find this gross or don’t like the sensation, you can try stepping on a soft rug instead.

Pet an animal — Do you own any pets? Running your hands through their fur can lower stress and anxiety, and it also makes for a good grounding exercise.

Use hand sanitizer — It’s easy to neglect hygiene when you’re in a rut. But it’s important to keep our hands clean to reduce the spread of germs. Use some hand sanitizer, they’re less harsh on your hands than soap and water, and they smell nice.

Clean up your inbox — Unsubscribe to any mailing lists you’re not interested in, and delete any old emails you no longer need. Even just five minutes of cleaning up your inbox will take a weight off your shoulders.

Use a rocking chair — If you own a rocking chair, using one can release endorphins that promote relaxation, improve sleep, and boost your mood. They’re also good for stimming.

Doodle — You don’t have to be an artist to doodle. You can doodle anything from stick figures to scribbly lines. Doodling can help reduce stress and regulate emotions, and you might even make something you like!

Take photos — Try to take regular photos of yourself, friends/family, pets, food, surroundings, anything special to you. That way you can stop to appreciate life and have fond memories to look back on.

Aromatherapy — If you own a diffuser, you can use essential oils to promote relaxation and manage anxiety. You can also mix them with lotion or a carrier oil and massage it on your skin for extra relaxation.

Breathing exercises — When your stress or anxiety levels are high, even just one minute of deep and steady breathing can help keep those levels under control.

#mental wellness #mental health #self care #self healing #coping mechanisms #coping methods #coping skills #coping strategies #coping techniques #depression #anxiety #this post satisfies my need to make lists

[inky-goddess]

isnt therapy supposed to make you feel better

#the thought of having to go ruins my whole day #vent post #anxiety tw #my therapist doesnt even attempt to learn about the coping mechanisms that actually work for me #she just says 'well i still dont understand this age regression thing so heres something you told me doesnt work for you' #she doesnt even try to research it #she just basically tells me that because she doesnt understand a thing that works for me it shouldnt work for me

[kawaii-kushami]

nobody gets how hot it is that im laying in my hammock with my boobs out and my allergies won't stop bothering me 🙄

#kk.txt #this thought process comes from the social anxiety thought that all my neighbors are looking at me but it's fine. its fine #i know being more sneezy in the morning is a thing but i feel like its worse when i havent slept well idk why or if im just making that up #coping by mentally projecting my suffering onto t/sukishima as usual

[unganseylike]

my anxiety has been ridiculous the last two days for a stupid reason, and i just rewatched the trolley problem episode of the good place and why do its vibes feel just like my anxiety. u are put into incredibly stressful situation. some people are moderately bothered by this, but no where as much as you. someone is telling you its just a simulation, so why are you so upset? you have blood all over your face. also, someone adds, its just a simulation, but the pain is real to give it stakes, btw. you already knew there were stakes. you are a fundamentally bad person.

#misinterpreting a sitcom and doing great👍🏼 #its literally something so stupid but i think just hit me at wrong time so now im overreacting #and then it crossected with my existing indecision over planning something career related so now im catastrophizing about that #meanwhile my sister texted me 20 times to basically tell me im an ungrateful bitch #im coping well by ignoring people and taking my remaining rationed medication that was not prescribed for anxiety but works for me sometimes #ik objectively therapy wld be better choice. But like. ok i believe in therapy for people just not me. #my sister is trying to be a therapist. and shes the one telling me im an ungrateful bitch so yknow. might be arrogant but i know myself #better than people like that. would be down for some real prescription meds tho #in conclusion. chidi and declan my anxiety stomachache comrades forever

[https-furina]

yall never let me go out again

#im injured (: #and the worst part is its smth i dont cope well with and my anxiety is through the roof #but im in bed !! and its bandaged (fucking tightly too) #im not tired so ill be here a while #serafina.txt #https-furina

[2hoothoots]

what if raz has a fifth archetype that's locked up and it's representative of his generational trauma

see, that's kind of a fun concept, but it doesn't really fit with how i see archetypes? the way i interpret them, they're something that you purposefully create to help you out, rather than something that spontaneously forms. i think if you wanted to explore, say, a trauma response in a character, it'd be more likely to be reflected in their mental world, for example.

besides, raz already has an archetype to represent his repressed trauma!

#future superstar agents au #raz: ive created the perfect archetype. the distillation of the ideal psychonaut #Lili: you've fucked up a perfectly good archetype is what you've done. look at it it's got anxiety #anyway yeah i feel like archetypes are somewhere between a self-help force and a coping mechanism #so it'd feel a little weird to me to have one that's just Trauma #like. the narrative that trauma makes you stronger is pretty much universally bullshit #and it'd feel almost like glorifying it in a way? which isn't something i wanna do #not saying that was your intent it's just how it feels to me #and like relatedly to clarify: raz trying to shove all his trauma behind his work persona is a bad thing. he's doing a bad job #he's overall well-adjusted and emotionally intelligent but he's doing a bad job with this one! #he he i drew this guy in my sketchbook before work. paper guy real #WAIT I SHOULD MAKE PAPER DOLLS OF ALL THE ARCHETYPES.... YES #ask #fsau archetypes

[lesless]

I really feel absolutely normal until like the day after socializing a lot & then I begin to reflect & start to think that my friend’s autistic girlfriend might have been right about me being a little autistic lmaoooo

#me #I don’t think the benefits outweigh the trouble of getting assessed #but I will say I’ve taken the diagnostic quiz more than a few times & scored higher than I expected #it’s in key areas mostly but maybe I don’t see how I’m coping in other ways #extremely touch sensitive & can’t wear synthetics #I can touch a shirt & accurately guess the fabric content #I do dishes & cleaning with organic rubber gloves on #I take things super literally #I have a mental list of social shortcuts so I can interact more seamlessly #a histamine intolerance #I love routines #I carry earplugs bc I can’t handle loud noises #but mostly I notice my differences when I socialize a lot #& when I don’t socialize seamlessly I get a lot of anxiety about how I communicate or the information I share #as though if I have enough data points I can ‘fix’ how I interact with others #which is not a concept that I think a lot of people worry about?? #maybe they do?? #everything went well yesterday but I still caught myself analyzing my interactions #like I’m preparing for the next mission lol #idk IS that normal? what do you think?? #basically I met her & out of nowhere she asked me if I am autistic #I said I didn’t know #she was quiet for a few moments watching me wash dishes #& then she said ‘you are autistic’ #lol peer reviewed #oh and I LOVE TO ORGANIZE INFORMATION!! #it’s like my favorite thing to do

[kumaronoa]

so.. my tablet broke for good,i'll just post the last sketches i was able to do.

silly genshin + juuni taisen

#idk when i'll be able to finish them or draw again (since tradicional art hurts my back and wrist too much ) #my way to cope with anxiety and all others things is gone #well excuse me while i cry #bye bye #see ya ~

[famewolf]

a shot of whiskey at night has been doing wonders for my nerves. not to sound like I got my prescription from a cowboy-doctor or something, but it's near instant relief

#[static] #my ocd has been worse than it has been in months and it makes me feel feral-animal levels of anxious #as a general rule I never drink; never much liked the taste of it #the anxiety has been so bad that I've been trying all sorts of remedies on top of the healthy coping tools I have in my pocket #I'm not currently insured so I can't go to my normal doctor and ask for anxiety medication #but the moment I get insurance again in June ... you can bet I'll be making some phone calls #I just need to be conked over the head and put to sleep for a month maybe that'll help #I turned to trying whiskey as a last ditch effort and I'm grateful its helped ... settles my nerves enough where I can actually sleep #and not wake up still in a state of deep stress and anxiety #do not take this as medical advice if you're experiencing anxiety/ocd #i know my limits very well and am highly aware of the downward slope that self-medicating can lead to #*gestures to my entire family* I've learned from their history and have always been hyper aware of vices/crutches #but when a man can't sleep nor think except for the constant spiral of anxiety sometimes you have to find temporary aid

[thethingything]

local man discovers he's gotten into the habit of using DBT techniques without actually being taught them because at some point he realised that the things we get the urge to do when we have strong emotions often aren't healthy and that he doesn't like how he feels afterwards so he started noticing when that was happening and going "fuck that shit" and doing the opposite instead

#personal #thoughts #Lucy post #talking to 🍬 about various stuff we do because of our social anxiety and what are probably undiagnosed BPD symptoms #and we realised he's gotten himself into the habit of paying attention to how his emotions affect his judgement #and trying to take a step back when he's experiencing an emotion that he knows gives us the urge to do stuff that's not healthy for us #and he said he felt bad about having those emotions and urges to do unhealthy stuff #at which point I was like ''okay but you're choosing not to act on that and to take a step back and do something healthier instead #which is what actually matters here and is also something that takes a hell of a lot of self-awareness and self-control'' #this is shit they teach you in therapy that's difficult specifically because you're going against your brain's instincts for a situation #and we were never taught how to do it so you've just fucking taught yourself to do it instead #without actually knowing it's a specific technique that has a name #I was aware of it but had never actually looked at the instructions properly because when I stumbled across it #it was at a point where being told to go against what my emotions made me want to do felt invalidating and upsetting #I've literally just pieced together that ''oh right that's what that is and how it's supposed to work #and how it's meant to feel when you do it right'' #anyway all this is to say that I keep being impressed with the amount of progress 🍬's made on learning healthy coping mechanisms #including things I could never seem to get the hang of when I was fronting more and handling more stuff #and I'm really proud of him and 🦋 and everyone else who's been handling stuff within the system and keeping things running #but also nobody in here seems to realise how much progress they've made with anything until someone else points it out #I just realised I should tag this as #happy posting #because I'm talking about stuff that's going well and where we've actually made a lot of progress

[surelysilly]

Writers ask game: planet, snowflake, desert :D

🪐 ⇢ name three good things going on in your life right now

huh. this made me actually have to take stock of all the good going on in my life rn...

im slowly but surely getting away from a job that is much too mentally taxing (i am actively seeing the progress it's cool :3)

touching a lot of grass once more and learning what it actually is (going outside is great)

eating so much good food

❄️ ⇢ what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best?

dear me, what a question... i love time travel and time loops a lot, so like, just anything involving that with a nice plotty plot honestly that fully fleshes out the world of the source material... @/blackkatmagic has written some of my most favorite naruto time travel fics, so they obviously would already be amazing at it, so they would write it best (again) uwu

i'd love to be able to do what they did in those fics one day lol

🏜️ ⇢ what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

the ones where people pick up what i put down (foreshadowing/hints at a wider picture)!! especially when i hadn't even realized it yet xD

i feel like i write too.... subtly sometimes, not as clearly as i could, so i always worry "does this make sense!! to people!!! who don't have the whole plot living in their head??" so i feel great when people say "i saw what u did there" >:3c

#asks #i didnt wanna tag em since they dont write naruto anymore for unfortunate fandom reasons i think but i still love their fics sooooo muuuuch #not to blab too much on the interwebz but #2014 to 2022 were some of the best and worst years of my life for the close friends i made and yet the actual trashfire of my mental health #my anxiety and depression have FINALLY taken more of a backseat kicking and screaming these past two years and it shows in litu au coughs #yes yes litu is legitimately almost a diary at this point we all cope by writing fic dont @ me lol #but ive never been able to stick with a fic so well until now... i dropped off tumblr alot in 2015 too... coincidence...? i think not lmao