#muse is sorry

[ficwip]

reblog and in the tags, describe your current favorite character* WITHOUT mentioning any specific character or place names

*if you have lots, please pick one

#tag game #friday tag game #when you cannot remember your own tags #muse is sorry #she's v tired bc of something with her dog #dog is okay

[tofixtheshadows]

So I've been thinking lately about how Mithrun is Kabru's dark mirror (more on that another time- it needs its own post), and I thought it interesting that one of their parallels is that they were both cared for by Milsiril, but in opposite directions. She took Kabru in as her foster after he was orphaned and tried to convince him not to become an adventurer. On the flip side, she helped rehabilitate Mithrun specifically so that he could rejoin the Canaries.

And I kept wondering: why?

For Kabru, obviously she loves him a whole lot- despite any other shortcomings in their relationship, I do believe that.

So I get why she tries to convince him not to go dungeoning, and, failing that, at least prepares him as thoroughly as she can.

But why help Mithrun? She used to hate Mithrun, but after realizing what a secretly twisted person he was, she actually thought of him more positively (oh, Milsiril). So it wasn't as if she held the kind of grudge that might motivate her to make his already-depleted life even more miserable by sending him back to the dungeons. And it wasn't that she felt bad for him either, since she didn't visit Mithrun for the first ~20 years of his recovery.

The Adventurer's Bible says that Utaya was the impetus for Mithrun returning to the Canaries, but Milsiril is the one who made the trip to see him and tell him about it.

Why would Milsiril work so hard to get her old coworker back into fighting fit? Why encourage him to return to such a dangerous lifestyle, when she was the one who chose not to mercy-kill him?

That last panel is such a crazy thing to hint at and then never elaborate on. Without it we could have just thought that Milsiril wanted the Canaries' work to continue without her, even if it seemed out of character. I think some people even assume she's just a natural caretaker as a foster mom and handwave it to include nursing Mithrun too. What could Milsiril's suspicious motives be? What does she gain from Mithrun joining the Canaries that isn't an altruistic desire to see dungeons safely sealed? Feeling a sense of responsibility for the work she left behind isn't an ulterior motive.

My theory is: Milsiril, knowing that Mithrun was empty save for the burning desire to face the demon again, wound him up like a clockwork doll and pointed him back at the dungeons.

Hoping that he'd eliminate the biggest threat to Kabru's life, before it was too late for him.

Milsiril the puppetmaster.

#Dungeon Meshi #Dungeon Meshi meta #Mithrun #Milsiril #Kabru #btw I'm working with the only translations I could find sorry #so keep that in mind #like it just seemed WEIRD to me #that gloomy introverted Milsiril #who left the life of a Canary behind #decided to do this Canary-adjacent work of helping this guy #maybe the queen made her do it because so many people died and they needed more Canaries idk! #but why would anyone pick Milsiril as a life coach? I really think it was her own choice #it's so interesting how we get these hints of a downright sinster Milsiril #I really like the complicated relationship she and Kabru have #struggling to fully humanize him from her elven perspective #but still taking him seriously wrt: his fears over being a monster or his desire to go to a party! #crazy stuff there #everything about Kabru and adjacent to Kabru is insane what a character #musings with Dea

[tinystepsforward]

i see matt posted again

#i have Thoughts but i am at work and about to jump into a meeting so #maybe in 3 hours #tony muses #also. sorry to my little cluster of mutuals from Before All This when i reblogged cats mostly #i hope you're all doing well #and sorry to everyone who's like 'mate you never told us in all these years that the job you were bitching about was at The Tumblr Company' #but i think you can probably see why #tumblr meta

[jstor]

I realize I have not provided an update on my BG3 adventures and a few of you seemed invested, so...

I now have around 420 hours in the game (a little over 10 work weeks full of gameplay), I have two concurrent playthroughs in progress and 6 or 7 finished, I have many mods installed, my Tavs are beautiful, I'm playing on tactician, and I keep romancing Gale and Astarion to experience various permutations of the relationship. I have also considered making a side blog for this specific interest because I have nowhere to contain my feelings about it 😭

#mod's musings #bg3 #I KNOW THIS IS THE JSTOR BLOG NOT [REDACTED]'S BALDUR'S GATE 3 BLOG AND I'M SORRY. PLS LOOK AWAY.

[fic-over-cannon]

Give me a Jason Todd that never fully left the grave. Where he used to run hot, he now runs cold. Not just in a “my body temperature is perpetually a few degrees colder than human” way, but in a “I never fully feel warm” kind of way. The leather jacket isn’t just a fashion statement, it’s to keep the chill out of his bones on Gotham rooftops (it doesn’t work but it’s better than nothing). The gloves aren’t just a forensic countermeasure. They’re there to keep his fingers from going stiff from cold even on warm summer nights. Under his steel toed boots, his socks are made of thick wool so his toes stay warm enough to keep sensation in them.

Give me a Jason Todd that sometimes feels the phantom sensation of wet dirt on his skin. No matter how hard he scrubs the feeling won’t go away. Who can’t wear specific fabrics because they remind him of the silk lining of his coffin. Who sometimes wakes up in the middle of the night and has to turn a light on, the darkness a touch too close to the blackness of the coffin. Who has to sleep with some kind of blade, not because of his training, but because it could be used to lever open a coffin lid.

Give me a Jason Todd that can’t remember what it was like to be buried alive but knows exactly what it feels like. He’s left the grave but it’s never left him.

#jason todd #character musings #red hood #jason todd my beloved #I’m sorry but I love him best traumatized #sunnie writes 🌻

[comatosebunny09]

Figure drawing is surprisingly lively today.

A question hangs in the air. Something about relationships sitting on your classmates’ tongues. You’re in and out of the conversation. Tucked between your peers’ laughter and the gentle croon of new age music spilling from the speaker.

Your fingers are smudged from the soft pastels you chose as your medium today. Stained red like the irises boring holes into your head, stripping you down to the marrow.

You’re warm when you feel them on you again. Warm like the ivory glow of sunbeams pouring into the classroom. You can’t focus. Can’t get your vision transferred onto paper. Too hard to concentrate. Your skin prickles with heat. You can’t help glancing up at him to lay your curiosities to rest.

He doesn’t look away. Shameless as he watches you, seated pretty on a stool in the center of the classroom. Porcelain-skinned and lithe. Knees tucked beneath his chin, arms slack, encircling his legs to keep them together and up on the stool—a little modesty for today’s pose.

His expression is unreadable. Maybe a bit contemplative. And you don’t miss the slight cant of his lips and the crinkle of his eyes when he catches you staring just as long. He waggles his silver, groomed brows. Like what you see, they query. The heat blooms tenfold through your chest as your eyes return to your sketchbook. Like a grade-schooler caught eying their crush.

Your throat thickens. You wipe your hands on your jeans, hoping to dispel your nerves. Hoping to distract yourself from the ethereal beauty watching you like a best-kept secret. Like you are the sun he’s never basked in, and he wishes to savor every moment beneath it.

Truthfully, Astarion makes you nervous. Makes your heart pump over time, and your tongue feel all doughy in your mouth. Causes the hairs littered across your body to stand ramrod stiff, and you breathe a little shallower when he guides you into idle conversation. He’ll throw in a quip or two to break up the monotony of the classroom, but his focus always drifts back to you.

You’re not sure why he’s always had this penchant for you. Why he sets your nerves afire like solar flares exploding beneath your skin. You can never deny you enjoy the attention. While everyone else vies for his recognition, you capture his intrigue so effortlessly, garnering the envy of your peers.

Maybe somewhere in a past life, you meant something to him. Maybe he exalted you. Offered you the sweetest supplications. Held you dear in the circle of his arms with his lips pressed cold yet reassuring against your forehead.

You shake your head, banishing the cacophony your thoughts. Silly you. Past lives and all that. When the hell did you become such a romantic?

You take up your pastel stick anew. Figure you’ll get the line work down before class ends. However, it’s proving rather tricky with the subject of your piece staring you down like that.

#astarion x reader #astarion x tav #astarion x you #past lovers #soulmate au #astarion drabble #just musing #seriously i’m sorry my writing is all over the place sometimes

[cornetespoir]

I am once again sketching him

#riddler #edward nygma #the riddler #batman rogues #edward nigma #my art #sorry im in the tag again 🙃 #i cant resist hes my muse at this point

[ghost-bxrd]

Just saw artwork of Jason doing the heads in a duffle bag thing and—-

I’m sorry but there’s just something so visceral and horrifying about a teenager sawing heads off people in a display for power.

Were they bad people? Yes. Did they deserve it? Probably. Did it send a message? Absolutely. Is it still horrifying? Heck yeah.

Just—- knowing Jason and his background, it’s just so heartrendingly tragic. I don’t even think he liked doing it, I’m just imagining him having to throw up afterwards before putting his helmet back on and playing tough crime lord again. The amount of self loathing he must feel whenever he thinks too hard about his actions. Falling asleep and seeing that—

Just— emotional repercussions, man. They’re real…

#sorry this one’s a little deep #see this is why I usually go with pit madness #one of the many reasons #like the put kind of numbs the part of you that feels guilt over something so atrocious #greys out your moral compass #if you can’t fall back on that— you’re doomed #in Jason’s case pls don’t quote me on that #anyway yeah #just #musings #ghost talks #jason todd #red #it was awesome art btw #just got me thinking tho

[ride-a-dromedary]

I think it's very based of Halsin to walk into Baldur's Gate, criticize the entire structure of civilization and its treatment of the less fortunate and the vulnerable, get *this* close to sending a racist back to the Oak Father, defend rats as a species, have a midlife crisis, and then decide he wants a baby.

#very based indeed #BG3 Musing #Halsin #Halsin Posting #this is obviously a cliff notes post #but like honestly people who say halsin is boring in act 3 aren't listening to him #he's a delight - my dude i am so sorry #he reminds me of that one quote from walk two moons #some of this is dependent on whether you take him along #me who takes him along always is blessed #he also flat out says the city stinks /negative and he is SO real for that

[mochixkisses]

i need you carnally, oh my fucking god. i need you in my skin, in my fucking ribcage. i need you to take a knife to me and cut me all open. hit me. scream at me. i don't fucking care. you can do whatever you want to me as long as i can call you mine. i need you i need you i need you.

#mochi's musings #sorry i'm in a mood #desiring.. yearning.. disgusting obsession #yandere #lovesick #obslove #yanderecore #yandere community #yandere girlfriend #yandere thoughts #yancore #yanblr #obsessive love #i don't recommend unrequited crushes as a yandere bitch btw shit is driving me to insanity

[caelanglang]

📸…

Lippmann’s last photo, he really thinks Chuuya’s got potential to join him on his ‘main job’.

Edit: (close up shot bc i just realized tumblr ate the quality)

pov: the undefeated prince is judging ur billiard playing skills hhh

#stormbringer spoilers #im sorry im trying to move on from the novel and its been hard they all deserve better : #what do you meam chuuya is not the muse of the flags skdjfksjasjjfks #they literally called chuuya the ‘undefeated prince’ YES PRINCE ROYALTY LEZGO #bsd nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #bsd fanart #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bsd flags #stormbringer #my art

[megaloserrr]

silly lust doodle i forgot to post when i made it

#losersart #utmv #lust sans #sorry not sorry for drawing fat lust again #it will continue to happen. repeatedly #HES SO FUN TO DRAWWWW #and plus sized bodies r becomimg easier n easier for me and i like the roundness #squishhey #my little meow meow my silly guy..... my muse....

[tinystepsforward]

it's notable that while terfs have certainly discovered me at this point, they're generally not attacking me personally bc i'm not a trans woman

#so fucking telling. #i would however like people who are on that 'sorry all staff are transmisogynists and there's no tma people on staff' vibe @ me to stop lol #bc like i am relatively safe to post through it specifically bc i am not in the us and i am not a trans woman! #why do you think you're hearing from me and not a trans woman! #also why do you think a software company with a sizeable group of trans people wouldn't have trans women! #tony muses #tumblr meta

[fly-sky-high-bug-games]

"It's an honor for you to come for my flame, summoner! Now... try not to die!"

The left one is original and it hurt my eyes! I thought I was cleaver to make Taka pinkish red like the whole Grimm troupe palette haha! ... sigh

#hollow knight #oc #eyestrain #muse: Taka #sorry I really had to get this out of my system #... I say and I still want to draw more Taka

[ne0nwithazero]

His muse

#Deltarune Cable AU #Rouxls Kaard #Deltarune OC #Klieg #Kliegkaard #Rouxls #Klieg Art #My Art #sorry still in hyperfixation hell #i was so giddy drawing this one..... #klieg and rouxls' whole muse thing makes me crazy

[bratfiction]

streamer!simon who is completely anonymous and wears his stupid balaclava on stream and in his videos… who has an insanely popular sever and millions of girls throwing themselves at him, but he still gets himself off to the thought of you. his twitter crush who he’s been in a VC with once or twice. imagines how cute you’d be with his fat cock down your throat while he streams or tries to edit </3

#🗯️.kit’s musings #he’s pathetic i love him #i need simon to be a stinky gamer i’m so sorry #i need it to THRIVE mentally