It's that ancient one. I might have almost nothing of it left by now. Old art. All my ipod stuff is gone. By now surely. There's no way anything is left. I've been seeing this stuff for our whole life though, and thats fucking wild. I love being able to reflect on it, see all the tiny little glimpses we've gotten. This has been building for a while, mitten was right. Im about to see a whole fucking lot. It was the magic realm, where we mixed herbs and flashy words and feelings and other things and casted stuff. Worked together, survived. I went through hell. I have no idea what happened.
Im excited MORTIFIED of the journey im going to step into. Greatttttt!!!!!!!
More details needed on the ‘side business’ please! I was genuinely surprised when the Richard/Brandon stuff came out. I have a pretty good nose for showbiz gossip (and good connections) but I had heard ZERO rumours about his sexuality so even I was ‘oh!’ about it.
You know what, same here. I was 🤯🤯🤯 when I first saw those pics. In retrospect, we should've fucking known 😂
The 'side business' refers to a certain rumour about Richard having a certain reputation for doing certain things to and with men in a certain notorious gay club in Soho, and Jenna breaking up with him over that.
I remember seeing something about it years ago but I was never able to retrieve the source of that. If anyone could help, I'd be eternally grateful.
just opted to go back to my apartment and sleep at 8pm on a friday night instead of out to a bar so that i can get up for my 5 am shift tomorrow and have enough energy afterwards to write my grad school application personal statement and work in my capstone i know adam parrish my emotional support character would be so proud of me
very very random thought but imagine hobie and fem reader where theyre best friends of like a decade or more and he took her v card so her first time wld be w someone who she trusts and then they forget abt it but hobie wants her so bad from then on and she feels the same but she absolutely refuses and is lowkey mean abt it but its cuz she doesnt wanna risk ruining a friendship over some hormones
i love being delusional and thinking of these things lmfao
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UGH I CAME. THE LINGERING THOUGHTS, THE TOUCHES, THE GLANCES, THE MEMORIEA IF HIS CARESSING YOUR WAIST AND EHISPERING IN YOUR EAR AND HOLDING YOU AFTER. IT WAS SO SCARY BUT YOU TRUAT HIM WITH YOUR LIFE.
Rant time because I just need to get these thoughts out and shouting them into the void of tumblr seems like the safest option.
Ya'll probably figured out.by now my childhood was not all sunshine and rainbows. And I know no ones really is. But when you end up with cptsd afterwards... yeah.
And, well, this year marks the 10th anniversary of my dad passing. Which alone is a sombering event. But my step.sisters, whom I have had no contact really since my dad passed, wants to meet up for supper. So I agreed. And here in an hour I"ll see them and their family.
I just did not expect how anxiety inducing this last week has been as I fight off memories best left forgotten. I have had a hell of week, dissociating at work, memory shot, panic attacks.
I mean, I always have a low key war with trying to fight my memoriea and finding ways to distract myself from getting lost in them. But now is even worse and I keep hitting brick walls. Part of me wants to talk about like I am now, but I am too hesitant to because I don't want to trauma dump on people. I tried to talk to my mom, and surprise, she turned it into about herself and offered no sympathy. (Actually kinda verbally attacked me about it, but we won't go there.) And my bro is hurt they reached out to me and not him and...
God. I just wanna hide and runaway from all of it. I don't want this stress, I wanted to be free of these feeljngs and not snagged by them.
My friend reminded me I'm an adult now. I have a car, I can leave whenever, but I feel like that small child who was caught and pulled in so many directions and felt responsible for everything and everyone and simultaneously had no idea what to do.
If anyone is still reading this, if you could just send good gibes into the universe for me, be it prayer or whatever, I would appreciate it.
As it is, I'm gonna default into my maladaptive daydreaming and try to embody the stronger characters I know to protect myself. Wish me luck.
The beauty of the sky and the stars has always inspired artists and poets and led thoughtful people to ask questions about creation and life.
Indeed, we all realize that we are nothing compared to the immensity of the universe, and this should keep us humble.
At the same time, however, knowing that despite our littleness the Creator does not hold back from loving each of us deeply, touches our hearts, because it makes us understand that in his eyes we are precious.
He knows everything about us, he knows our characteristics, our strengths and weaknesses and he calls us by name, just like he does with the stars.
All this is truly extraordinary, to the point that
it should impact our lives and help us live them with wisdom and gratitude.
As?
By listening to what our Creator has to say to us and putting his advice into practice.
"Then those who feared Jehovah spoke among themselves, one to another, and Jehovah paid attention and listened. And a book of remembrance was written before him for those who feared Jehovah and for those who meditated on the name of he."
(Malachi 3:16)
"Count the number of stars,
he calls them all by name.
Our Lord is great,
his power is immense,
his wisdom is immeasurable."
(Psalm 147:4,5)
"Lift your eyes to heaven and observe:
Who created these things?
He who brings them out like an army, knowing their exact number;
he calls them all by name.
Thanks to his immense energy and extraordinary power
La bellezza del cielo e delle stelle da sempre ha ispirato artisti e poeti e ha indotto persone riflessive a farsi domande sulla creazione e sulla vita.
Infatti tutti noi ci rendiamo conto che siamo nulla in confronto all'immensità dell'universo, e questo dovrebbe farci rimanere umili.
Nello stesso tempo però, sapere che nonostante la nostra pochezza il Creatore non si trattiene dall'amare ognuno di noi profondamente, ci tocca il cuore, perché ci fa capire che ai suoi occhi siamo preziosi.
Lui sa tutto di noi, conosce le nostre caratteristiche, i nostri pregi e difetti e ci chiama per nome, proprio come fa con le stelle.
Tutto questo è davvero straordinario, al punto che
dovrebbe influire sulla nostra vita e aiutarci a viverla con saggezza e gratitudine.
Come?
Ascoltando ciò che il nostro Creatore ha da dirci e mettendo in pratica i suoi consigli.
"Allora quelli che avevano timore di Geova parlarono tra loro, gli uni con gli altri, e Geova prestava attenzione e ascoltava. E fu scritto davanti a lui un libro di memoriea per quelli che avevano timore di Geova e per quelli che meditavano sul suo nome."
(Malachia 3:16)
"Conta il numero delle stelle,
le chiama tutte per nome.
Il nostro Signore è grande,
immensa è la sua potenza,
incommensurabile la sua sapienza."
(Salmo 147:4,5)
"Alzate gli occhi al cielo e osservate:
chi ha creato queste cose?
Colui che le fa uscire come un esercito, conoscendone il numero esatto;
le chiama tutte per nome.
Grazie alla sua immensa energia e alla sua straordinaria potenza
#throwback too much back! . . 14 years ago, it was my first time to Agra and experiencing Taj Mahal from close proximity was a marvel. When it was decided that we will be visiting Northern India for educational tour 😷 from our engineering batch, I couldn't have been more excited. My first time traveling alone with friends after my class 2 excursion. My parents being travel lover, I didn't have to coerce much. . . We travelled from Delhi to Agra via bus, a memorable experience landed in the Taj city in the night. We had to spend the night before we can see the grandeur. At our young age, everyone of us was very excited. The tour was arranged very well by our department taking care of everyone. It was a leisure for us to have such great accomodation and services being provided to us. . . This trip would be memorable for many reasons being the first and also for creating a passion for travel in the years to come. I am glad that due to the lockdown, we are getting connected to all my batch mates, sharing the #memoriea and current whereabouts. #Lockdown surely is connecting people a lot. . . Keep following @bongfooodie for sharing experiences. . . #tajmahal #travelgram #teenagememories #lockdowndiaries #lockdownindia #memories #traveling #travel #tajmahalagra #makingmemories #travelphotography #tajmahalpalace #goodmemories #throwbackthursdays #tajmahalindia #throwbackthursday #tajmahalhotel #lockdownlife #throwback #collegelife #BornonInstagram #bongfooodie #engineeringdays (at Taj Mahal, Agra City) https://www.instagram.com/p/CALbtK4l7ac/?igshid=1txbnfgxqs56g