#maybe catharsis who knows

[ashh-tree]

aro/ace themed valentine's day teddy bears ^^ because i just recently found out i might be arospec but also just cuz like..... why not

#this may be out of character for me because just a few weeks ago i strongly disliked valentine's day lmao #now that i know im probably some kinda flavor of aro? i.. dunno how to feel #how i feel about the holiday is complicated #while i still dont like the romantic aspect of it.. at least i dont find myself rolling my eyes at valentine's themed stuff as much anymore #idk maybe i'll go back to disliking the holiday next year who knows lol #i guess its just the catharsis i suppose.. #aromantic #asexual #aroace #aspec #arospec #lgbtq #valentine's day #valentine's #teddy bear #digital art #art #ashton draws things

[rainecreatesstuff]

mr fitmc thank you so much for going yea fuck it my cubito is GAY gay.

#Like obviously any rep is wonderful but like #maybe it’s just because the word gay and queer terms were such a hushed topic for me growing up but like #sometimes all it takes to make me happy is to see a character just say they’re queer. Even just saying “I like men” or in this case #“If I had to choose between [a mom or dad for you] #it’d be a dad” #it just #it feels like safety #you know? #it feels like being welcomed into the room with a smile and knowing that the people there will keep you safe. #And I think as well. As someone who had a messy coming out. It feels like catharsis to see a character come out and be loved and supported #so quickly and clearly #fitmc #qsmp fitmc #qsmp #raine rambles

[p2ii]

forgot to post abt this panel but god it absolutely breaks my heart. I love when kaworu's 'ethereal easy-going' composure is broken through and we get scarce bits of the lonely boy unacclimate to being treated like a person underneath.

#his expression in the bottom left panel 😭 #can't believe there was such a goldmine of kaworu context right under our noses since 2007 and I didn't know #been re-reading the ep24 drafts like an animal instead :') #CA is sooo good #also just wanna clarify. I don't think his etheral poetry talk thing is a false persona persay. it's just how he as an extremely isolated #individual who is aware of how alien his existence is compared to his peers- has learned to communicate #but despite how attuned he is to the universe and others he is also a very hurt individual who doesn't see the purpose of hurting about it #in the first place. choosing rather to fixate on the hurt/general lives of the people around him #as a coping mechanism perhaps but moreso curiosity. a source of catharsis even? self recognition through other? #idk #either way I know he will be remembering that xp #psii.txt #campus apocalypse #kaworu nagisa #maybe kaworu is more like us Tumblr girlies than I realised. shinji is his blorbo who he is also in love w X)c

[roobylavender]

obv the movie is titled zoey 102 but the most annoying thing about it was that we didn't even really get to see quinn and logan in their relationship. like the focus was almost always on their conflicts with regards to the marriage but the first real moment between them where it wasn't about that conflict was when they had their first dance and quinn teased him about the oyster shuckers. and it was such a small moment but i loved it and i want more insight into their daily life and the everyday teasing and uplifting and idk like again obv the title is zoey 102 but i don't think most people would disagree that it fully being a movie about quinn and logan would have been so much better. like the zoey and chase plot took up so much unnecessary space and their sudden bout of closure didn't even make sense bc they had one conversation prior to it after over a decade of mutual non-communication so why was any of this more important than quinn and logan. esp logan tbh. like quinn kind of had the liberty of a few moments to herself where she expressed her worldview in her own way but logan had close to none up until the proposal and yes i do love that he's quinn's number one supporter but i also wanted to know what that was like outside of the context of the wedding if that makes sense. like how he exists in their day to day relationship. there were glimpses of that in the final wedding sequence but i wanted so much more and i know the idea of a spin-off is so delusional at this point but the cast do apparently want to do it and i for one would love an exclusively quinn and logan spin-off where zoey and chase can be side characters ig 🙄 so.. why not!

#zoey 101 #zoey 102 #quinn x logan #quogan #i was very wary of the idea of a spin off at first but now that we know dan schneider is completely divorced of the project #i feel more inclined to want it if it's possible #granted i do still think the cast needs to work out their issues with alexa bc that was still shitty #but with the way the timing of jennette mccurdy's book worked out i have this feeling it contributed to their maybe #reevaluating their relationship with him. like they reunited with him barely a few years ago so it was surprising to see him not involved #in this movie. but the fact that production started only a few months after jennette's release really feels significant to me idk #like obv i don't want to make excuses for the cast but when you're a kid doing that work and parents are largely controlling you bts #i think it's fair to say you may be less inclined to want to admit that your experience working on a show was fucked up #bc it's scary to think it could have been. and from the response jennette got i feel like it was a huge catharsis for a lot of people #so who knows. maybe her book was what they needed to recognize that how he treated them was fucked up too #or at least that's what i hope. but anyway. erin and matt are super super sweet and their chemistry is phenomenal and i want a show

[hypermascbishounen]

Thinking again about how healing from cycles of revenge and abuse is a pretty common theme in manga and anime,

and in particular from fathers or other male authority figures who have hurt boys in shounen manga and anime,

and how most of them start off from the beginning with the stance that hatred is consumptive, sometimes from a cultural Buddhist context,

to set up how a character will ultimately need to move beyond hating his abusers in order to fully heal,

and how the current wave of english-speaking manga and anime fans new to the genre, don't seem to notice any of this, and get extremely angry if the story pays off its own set-up, and has any character heal in any way that isn't just hating an abuser forever.

#I really wanna know how these people always wind up long term stanning a series that blatantly disagrees with them #And then still react like surprised_tails.jpg when it concludes exactly how it said it was going to #“Why does my baby still love people who hurt him? #In the story where everyone who chooses resentment becomes a villain and is horse punched 1000 times?" #On one hand I think some of this is maybe cultural Christians not getting how something isn't in that context #Maybe also some people just aren't at that point where this type of story is as valuable as revenge catharsis comfort #But I'm just baffled by how often people seem to feel like a really consistent theme came out of nowhere or was “wrong” writing #Why and how are you in the fandom for the story whose opening arc was “resolving to resent your way out of trauma is destructive”? #Like I thought that was the thing you had to be cool with to get on board

[phantomchick]

Looking back on Batman (2022)

Enough time has passed now that my initial adrenaline rush )and then later afterglow) over Batman 2022 has resolved itself at least enough that I can look back on the film a bit more critically.

I enjoyed this movie, I enjoyed this Batman, but and this is a big but, this movie did not like Batman.

The thing about Batman is that he's a grim dark fantasy where a hero who's in pain can use that pain as a motivation to help people, to change things, to strive for a better Gotham because he just can't fucking accept the Gotham that allowed his parents to get killed while coming home from the movies, that kills so many other parents and children and sucks the people that remain into a mire of corruption and austerity. This is not that Batman, this is a Batman that's utterly oblivious to the problems with wealth inequality until the movie rubs in his face and even then has his inaction in his role of Bruce Wayne while letting his Batman role monopolise his every waking thought presented as his main problem. This is not a Batman that announces to a dinner party, “Ladies. Gentlemen. You have eaten well. You've eaten Gotham's wealth. Its spirit. Your feast is nearly over. From this moment on...none of you are safe.”. That attacks violent crime on two fronts by giving legitimate jobs to ex cons by day and solving kidnapping or murder cases by night.

And most crucially this isn't a Batman that ... succeeds. By that I mean yes he solves the grand mystery, yes he saves people in the flood, but the classic Batman would have saved that man he interrupts the bomb disposal squad to answer Riddler's phone call for. The classic Batman would have saved Falcone, evil doer that he is, not because he deserved to live but because Batman is a hyper competent hero who's comic gimmick was that he was quick witted enough to stay ahead of the crooks and always save the person in front of him as a result, perhaps it's only natural for that to be subverted with the Riddler as his enemy (a character invented with the intent of putting the detective hero to the test when it came to his cerebral limits) but because this is a stand alone film, which as the name says has this Batman stand alone with the contents as the only basis to judge him with it has the effect of making his presence as a hero less warranted. After all, does Batman's presence in this film really save anyone besides the flood victims and Selina?

Yes the only victims who really get killed are all bad people but... that's not the point of Batman, the point is that he saves everyone he can.

The film also does the whole 'batman creates his own villains and actively makes the city worse because he espouses vengeance and violence' thing which egh, slightly more palatable with the transition from vengeance to hope, but I really don't fucking like it all the same. And besides that I dislike the idea that vengeance can't be hopeful, that a man who lost everything in one terrifying night, who got no justice, whose loved ones and personal loss and whose innocence remain unavenged saying to himself "I am justice, I am vengeance, I am the night!" as a way of reclaiming everything that's happened to him and everything he wants to be for the people of Gotham whose cries go unanswered by corrupt law enforcement and an even more corrupt bureaucracy, is presented as invalid, as somehow immature. When Batman was always crafted as a mature hero in the mold of the Scarlet Pimpernel and Zorro and James Bond, of Sherlock Holmes! That was part of his central appeal! He's the cool mature down to earth, detective hero.

Here he is reduced to a naive rich boy who's so ignorant his main approach to crime is to inefficiently beat the shit out of whatever hoodlums he encounters and who literally doesn't have the idea of using his money to fix the poverty or corruption fuelling the crime until Riddler highlights what his parents wanted to do for the city by denigrating it + the politician lady who repeatedly points it out. It's a movie that loves Batman but also passionately declares the stupidity of Batman. Perhaps that's also inevitable because solving crime by beating it up while dressed as a Bat is well, silly, when you approach it with real world cynicism instead of the wish fulfillment, the fantasy of being rich and powerful and smart enough to actually do something about an entire city that's drowning in crime, that has been drowning, suffocating, for decades, and have a hope of succeeding. There is no fun of acting like an airhead so the other rich people and crooks will underestimate and look down on you like they look down on everyone in the city as you use your access to learn things people outside that circle of rich opportunists can't and then use it to reveal their crimes as a vigilante whose identity no one suspects. Instead we have a traumatised Bruce Wayne openly beg Don Falcone for information who indulges him because he owes his father that favour and Bruce Wayne isn't a threat, is it interesting pathos? Definitely! Is it dramatic and fun! Also yes! Is it traditional Batman/Bruce Wayne secret identity shenanigans? Well kind of in that it gets him the extra information but genuinely not so much because it's not really an act. Does it have to be traditional Batman? I really don't know. We can't ever create something refreshing like this movie was if we don't try to deviate from the norm and in that regard I think it deserves respect. And yet. There's a but.

This movie doesn't let Batman succeed at anything but the bare minimum as a vigilante but it does let him try his best, always and it lets him care, deeply. Which is enough that it pulls through as a good batman film. However for all the budget and clever characterisation I don't think it's a great Batman film. After all Batman is a superhero fantasy and in those, the good guys are allowed to save the day.

#and yet #batman 2022 #bruce wayne #meta #thoughts #personal #batman 2022 meta #batman #something about how he doesn't prevent the flood but does save some people in it could be a great metaphor #for how batman in the comics can't ever fix gotham (because then the comic would end) but he can save people who live there #but i don't actually think that's what they meant to do here #my main problem is the movie clearly doesn't approve of vigilantism and like that's fine but it's a movie about a superhero #and it never lets us really suspend our disbelief because it's too busy being cynical about the whole concept #and like maybe that too is refreshing in its way? the whole this is a stupid way to deal with crimes thing is true #but it also fails to acknowledge that #what other recourse is there? with a police force that's literally in the pocket of the mob #when you look at it like that batman becomes a much more understandable alternative course of action #and a vehicle of narrative catharsis for people who know the law isn't protecting them but still desire justice #desire that the criminals be they the rich defrauding them of what little money they have or the mob bosses actually will see consequences #the whole concept of vengeance is too readily dismissed as toxic and as diametric to hope imo #like yeah i'm all in on a redemptive justice system that actually helps people reform but the idea #that bad powerful people shouldnt be made to face consequences by batman if no one else (because cops and lawyers and politicians won't) #is dismissed soooooo readily to the point where bruce's initial stance on justice as vengeance is presented as two dimensional #something about that bothers me #and i think also gets to the core of batman as a character and to the core of why I can't fully vibe with this presentation of him #for all its many boons

[scribefindegil]

Don't mind me just thinking about how Reigen ran into a hurricane with absolutely nothing to protect him and it wasn't a fraction as terrifying as simply standing in front of Mob and coming clean about how he'd lied

#being honest is scarier than anything else he's ever done!! #'if i showed someone my true self i would be immediately rejected' but then he ISN'T #he isn't!!! #he is SO SURE that this is the end #that if he admits to what he's done Mob will never speak to him again #(that if he dies here maybe that will be easier for all of them #but he can't do it yet. #he has to say his piece. #) #and instead #it's exactly what Mob needs #he knows!! he already knows!! #they both know this!! #but Reigen admitting it #breaking down #baring the worst parts of himself #is what Mob needs to achieve his own catharsis #he's not a monster! he's not special! he's just a person! #he accepts Reigen for who he is and what he's done and loves him anyway! #so finally he can do the same for himself! #i may never recover #mp100 #mp100 spoilers

[mrpsychokiller]

i need to consume a piece of media that will emotionally impact me forever. i need to watch a movie or play a game that will leave me crying and sobbing desperately. i need something that i will think about forever. i need something that i will be able to say "means a lot to me", something that will influence my life permanently, something that will make me think about things and make me better as a person. i need undertale 2

#best way i can explain my genuine desire to experience sometimes important #i think my life has been so stagnant i just feel the need for something that will change everything #something that will be important and impactful #because im bored and i need something new #and i miss the emotional catharsis of experiencing a really important piece of media for the first time #i havent really consumed anything new since i read homestuck two years ago and im starting to get bored again #not because homestuck doesnt mean anything to me anymore its still one of the most important things ive consumed media wise #but by now i just need something new. maybe im just thinking too much of media and i just truly want a change in my life #who knows

[mister-eames]

"....holing up in some town he’s never been to before to see if he likes the fit of it before moving on back to his actual residence where he know he doesn’t fit." hi, thanks for casually breaking my heart with this throwaway line!!

Sorry nonnie. Silly Arthur doesn't realise (yet) nowhere will feel like home while he doesn't at home with himself - but he will!

#maybe with the help of a forger who knows #what arthur needs is a proper break #at least a couple of years #i want a fic where arthur takes a hammer to a pasiv #for the catharsis

[shopcat]

i totally get what you mean in that last reply! Him being "dumb" seems to be one of his own personal insecurities and both the fans and the writers of the show tend to be guilty of leaning a bit too heavily on that perception of himself but not really questioning it? so he says he's dumb and everyone goes oh yeah he is :) even when he gets chances to prove that he is smart and capable in his own way that perception still stands for some people (also both in fandom and sometimes in the show there's a weird tendency to make characters be condescending when he says something Silly or play some of his more serious moments (like the Russian scene in season 3) kind of for a laugh? or just not really take it seriously

OHHH exactly <3 sadly the tried and true steve harrington manifesto continues to be "doesn't get taken seriously including even in the midst of literal torture" in every possible way 💔

#asks #which is sad and potentially frustrating for anyone who may relate to him in these ways which i'm sure isn't their intention in-show #BUT GOD!!! it's so wild how a show based on not judging people and everyone having worth no matter who they are let alone if they've been #judged or ostracised for it will both hit the nail on the head of This in particular with steve and then entirely dismiss it in the same #breath. but if i think about this i'll mummify myself #sts #like it makes sense ig. show made for and by needs to celebrate it but then steve is used as the duffer's way to like. get back at their #own highschool bullies or SOEMTHING. i don't know. i think they have to have a complex atp #*nerds #he is their peaked in highschool fallen from grace ex-popular jock character they get catharsis through and they don't stop for a second to #maybe consider hm... hey... Maybe constantly calling a particular character dumb as rocks is coming off bad actually

[elytrafemme]

every single fictional character i like should split and have mood swings like me. "ohhhhh but it's not canotical" "ohh they have good control over their emotions and stable views on the world" i don't fucking care. i see cq in his fake desert i see klavier's control dialogue i see dahlia and her serial murders and komaeda and the gun literally fuck with me right now. we need to stop being cowards about our fictional character headcanons i think everyone should kill people always because i can't

#neg #omg am i having an episode right now is this episode coded is that what we're doing oh my God should we tell all your friends #should we call the president oh my God mare is having an episode right now guys don't freak but it's finally happening aaaahhh #we've been waiting forever but our queen's finally back she's having an episode oh my God we stan like crazy oh my God i'm calling everyone #can we have a cake at the episode tell me we're having cake at the episode i'm buying a cake it's official girls oh my God AAAH #she's so crazy LOVEEE her. oh my God!!! #anyway i think my blond bitch rockstar fave should get to kill the titular character! #sorry i hate the fucking name censoring in tags i'm trying to ween off of it cause it's like not accessible tee bee aych #but like i need to speak my truth so we're doing epithets #he should literally get to kill him and rip his carpet up WHY DOES NOBODY TALK ABT IT #they all make him cry or whatever this isn't the right blog for this but i've got images okay #enough crying enough consolation hugging where's my apology only for it to not be accepted and things to be fucking over #where's MY catharsis you know. this barbie needs catharsis! #i'm super light headed i should super stop posting but like who am i going to text in these conditions #the answer is nobody nobody wants to text my phone like they can blow it up it's fine w/e #i'd make instagram stories but it'll be like a whole thing and they'll report me again for mental illness #i'm going to stop apologizing for having breakdowns publicly actually. if you were like this you would too. #actually maybe you wouldn't because you'd be soooo well adjusted well i'm a weak bitch like actually #and my bones are fucking breaking right now so i'm gonna tell everyone about it <3 #i licherally don't want to damage public property now and by that i mean my room LMAOOOO #this is nawt public property but the paints so nice

[delicatebluebirdruins]

still haven't played village so might just rewatch someone play it

#resident evil #rosemary winters #ethan winters #mia winters #ellie plays resident evil #well can't as all i have is a switch or my old and amazing pc #which by all accounts should not have been able to play RE3R but did #sis and I are looking into getting a playstation however there are options and that automatically confuses us and #in this special case makes us feel overwhelmed #size is a issue as have you all seen in a PS5? about a PS4 Pro or slim or normal? #don't know who to watch though- Hollow? as he cried when Ethan died or Stephen or someone new? #maybe Hollow #personal for ts #i need the catharsis of beating up mother miranda

[hollowisthyname]

Thoughts on Yandere Sim? (and it's way more lighthearted sorta-related game Crush Crush?)

hmm i've seen a bit of it and it seems fun if you don't mind all the gore but i've also heard it's bad and ik there r a lot of problems with the whole yandere trope so ig it's kinda a mixed bag ? i also don't know a ton abt it so there's that and i've played crush crush !! didn't know they were related but that ones v fun i usually end up deleting the app though bc after a while it takes a long time to get anywhere and i don't have the patience :(

#jinx gets asks #as someone who almost certainly has bpd i have a lot of thoughts abt the yandere trope #mostly like .... i know its made to demonize us #but also i relate to it a lot #like its kinda cathartic for me ? it takes all those super intense feelings and actually *does* something with them #which you could never do irl bc .... murder and all that #but uh yeah catharsis with a smidge of guilt #i will talk abt this more cohesively later . maybe #also i will tell u abt night in the woods !! ive just been busy this weekend #its got a lot of stuff to explain so i feel like i have to devote a bunch of time to it yk #but i will do it !!

[vi-visected]

this is a lot more personal than any of you really need to know about me, so if you dislike relationship drama then go ahead and skip over this! it’s very much not necessary, to really anything, it’s just been on my mind for a while. realized sometime after i made this account that i didn’t have my ex blocked on it, and no longer really feel the need to do so, because although his sense of boundaries and respect need work i doubt he’d be stupid enough to ever interact with me in a way i could see it because he knows how well i stick up for myself by now.

so will, if you see this, this is about you.

you probably could’ve gathered from the way that i apologized to you for being distant in my breakup text and then less than 6 months later blocked you on everything, but i wasn’t completely honest about why i broke up with you. i told you it was because i couldn’t see us together, but in reality it was a lot more (and a lot worse) than that.

i broke up with you because you couldn’t seem to respect my boundaries on, well, anything. you left these constant, persistent reminders that you respected me and wanted me to be comfortable but you never actually did anything to achieve that. you made sexual advances on me and then made me feel like i was overstepping by returning them. you wanted exclusive rights to certain parts of me (both physically and emotionally) and would get upset with me if i told you that you couldn’t have them. you shared personal information that i didn’t consent to being shared with people who had no right knowing. you reiterated so often and so aggressively that my “safety and comfort” were important to you while reacting so negatively to any rejection that i never actually felt like i could say no to you. you weaponized my consent against me, made me feel like it was something i owed to you and not something that was mine. and that was all before i’d learned just how obsessively you’d been pitting me and my best friend against each other for years.

their beef with you is their own to do with what they please, but if you genuinely thought none of that would ever get back to me you’re wrong. i know all about how you isolated them, and the way you twisted things each of us said to look bad to the other. it didn’t fucking work, obviously. they are still my best friend and you’re just a regrettable ex, but the fact that you tried at all is fucking abhorrent.

and the fact that our entire friendship and relationship was founded on a lie? that’s just the fucking icing on top, isn’t it? the fact that you waited until we were dating to tell me that not only had you been pining over me for almost 8 fucking years, but that you’d lied to my face about it several times? yeah. that was fucking great. thanks for that.

you reaching out to my best friend to spontaneously ask to hangout with them 3 days after i blocked you from everything? yeah, that was not subtle in the slightest. the fact that you would treat my best friend like that should have been a massive red flag, but even they hadn’t realized the extent of your bullshit at the time and you had kept us well enough isolated from each other that i didn’t know about too much of it.

i’ll say it once again, in case you missed it, they are my best friend. they have always been my best friend, not you.

i should have seen things earlier on; the fact that you were bringing up marriage and moving in together after only a few months of dating, the weird ways and places you’d try to be sexual with me, and the fact that your reaction to me setting a boundary with you was to fucking give me the silent treatment in a restaurant like a child and then make me watch you “have a panic attack”. god forbid i had friends you didn’t know, god forbid i be allowed to prioritize people who weren’t you, god forbid i be able to tell you no once in a fucking while.

we were never going to work, not because we’re too different and not because you were too good for me and not because of whatever other reason you could come up with. we were never going to work because despite what you want to think you did not respect me as a person, you did not want to respect my boundaries, and you do not know how to treat people in a relationship.

i was not going to change for you. i was not going to be docile. i was not going to do what you wanted.

i’m a person, and i ended things because you refused to treat me like one.

want to fix that? i suggest being honest with your therapist for a start. if you ever go back to one.

#it’s a public post so you can do what you want ig #but i don’t think this will be especially relevant to anyone else #except maybe my best friend #who knows all this already #this is a catharsis for me #i’ve needed to get this off my chest for a while #if you ever see this #this is about you #you were so shitty to me and all you could ever think about was yourself #you held mistakes over my head for years and i never thought twice about it #you took advantage of me #fuck you

[ma-39]

do my comfort characters say anything about me. yes. yrs they do

#yipping! #catharsis seeing one like yourself experience emotions you do not know how to shit out #OR being able to identify struggle in another who you like. amd being like. maybe im not evil

[doomednarrative]

Okay god I really do need to write this post RE2 au fic don't I

#hesitant to post it if i do cause. well its kinda heavy #deals with talk of self harm due to poorly coping with trauma #but im writing it both as personal catharsis fic and as someone who could actually handle the topic with care cause ive been there #it is very cleon flavored even if its meant to be platonic there but maybe ill revise it a bit who knows #either way. i need to write it. #kief rambles about resident evil