#mainly just being sad

[papanowo]

i wonder if the shows ever gonna acknowledge how many clones the batch have just straight up murdered, especially echo whos always the most keen on saving his brothers

#i know its just bad writing BUT PLEAAASE DEAR GOD MAKE THEM HAVE SOME ACCOUNTABILITY #my art #star wars #tbb #bad batch #tbb echo #echo #edit i think this is being misconstrued a little #im mainly referring to season one when im talking about them killing clones #and yeahh they dont rllly like. straight up murder them but they arent exactly going out of their way to save them yk #thats the point im making #and yes this is also kind of about echo being the algorhythm like its perfect angst material but we've kinda just forgotten about it #which is sad

[looseinthecatroom]

Dreams just like us fr

He really saw Hob Gadling in 1589 and went: “You’re stable?? Happy?? Heterosexual*???

Boring.

I’ll be over there chatting with the art twink if anyone needs me.“

Then Hob comes back in 1689 like “I’M FILTHY, TRAUMATIZED, MISERABLE, YET FULL OF HOPE” and Dream is really like:

“At last. A blorbo.”

#the sandman #morpheus #hob gadling #dream of the endless #*my general rule is to assume that any being over 200 is bisexual but HEY thats just me >.> #gotta do something with eternal life #(I mean mainly if the alternative is default heterosexuality or otherwise looks like not much thought has been put into it obvi) #which is to say disclaimer: obviously you could still be bi just because your married with a kid doesn't invalidate that also this is hella #historical and trapped in all the mires that comes with re concepts of sexuality and its more about being socially approved then strictlyhet #doesn't exactly make for a punchy joke about dream hunting blorbos like a bonefide tumblr girlie now does it? #dream really said give me a sad little meow meow or I've lost ALL interest #relatable dream. honestly.

[moongothic]

May I ask for married lizards head cannons (Dragon x Crocodile)

Unfortunately, honestly, I don't really have Dragodile headcanons at all, mainly because we know so little about Dragon it's kind of hard for me to imagine what he'd be like in a relationship with anyone, let alone with the meanest reptile on the planet

Aside from Dragon being the worst lay Crocodile ever had but to be fair that is at least 38% a joke headcanon

#Moon posting #Asks #OP Meta #Dragodile #When your husband has had the honor of having a dick for 34 years and still hasn't figured out how to actually use it #🐊''Do I need to get one myself just to show you how it's done'' #🐉 ''You prommy? 🥺👉👈'' #There is something extremely funny about Crocodile being so mean and the idea that Dragon was INTO that #Although I often suggest that Dragon might be just plain straight- mainly because I can't imagine Oda making Gay Dragodile canon #There is something very interesting to me about the idea that Crocodile could've been Dragon's Bisexual Awakening #But he never understood that at the time. And by the time he realized he was still into Croc even as a man like. The Divorce had happened #(And if The Divorce had been bad... Could it have been partially due to Dragon's own internalized homophobia?) #And IDK I think that could lead into some interesting story directions but. Alas. Again. Can't imagine it happening #Like I can imagine Oda giving Luffy not just two dads but making one of them trans #I can't imagine Oda giving us not just a canon gay couple but making them the protagonist's own parents #Like I don't want to entertain the thought too much because knowing it'd never happen would just make me sad lol

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

"For a self-proclaimed researcher... I thought you'd know by now that Psychic-types are weak against Ghost." "Morty-ehehe! B-But I'm nohohot a type specialist!" "Maybe should've thought of that first before deciding to wake me up so early."

A spiritual successor to this lil doodle of mine 🫣💖💕

#sacredshipping #morty x eusine #morty/eusine #gym leader morty #morty pokemon #eusine #mystery man eusine #eusine pokemon #pokemon tickle #'tis the season to be giggly or however that song goes askjdasnd////////////////// #pretty much a self-indulgent treat for myself this holiday season SDKJFSNKDFNS it's been real quiet this time 'round #I honestly don't usually look forward to christmas anyways since I have some bad memories tied to it :'D though it has been exceptionally-- #--all over the place this year; partly on the busyness and errands being run on my household's side-- #--though mainly on my own headspace and how I haven't.............. been great- these past few months #December in particular has been a time of reflection for me and it's just--been a lot - to grapple with #I needed to distance myself from things to try to make sense of myself---and still - I'm not quite sure where to go from here just yet #but I'll figure it out - one day. I finally do have a schedule with that new psychologist so that's something to look forward to #and I'm trying to get my bearings where I am now so--that's at least something to be grateful for I feel ❤️ #got a bit sad there so I deserve to draw my sillies being tickly as a gift for myself yes yes akjsdajsknd #I've always wanted to draw a lee!Eusine ever since he's been implanted in my mind graaaaaaAAAHHHHHHHHHH /affectionate #let them be soft and sweet and domestic and silly with each other it's what they deserve 🫵🫵🫵

[sideblogdotjpeg]

I LOVE SOL AND SWAGS FUCKED UP BROTHER-FATHER-SON-CLONE RELATIONSHIP...... THE ALTERNATE LIVES I COULDVE LIVED... BEING LONELY AND WANTING SOMEONE TO UNDERSTAND YOU SOO BAD AND THEN UR WEIRD FUCKED UP OPRHAN CLONE SHOWS UP

#also solum is asian btw < not going to elaborate or explain that #but they are SO....... #and theyre so hot. #anyway solums backstory is so deeply sad actly and its mainly played for laughs because its naddpod #but just sitting there like 'yeah hes a clone of someone who was captured and tortured and then he grew up alone in an abandoned waterpark #before being indoctrinated by mothership into being a minimum wage worker' #and the i just have to go about my day like thats normal #on par with the fucked up-funny of jvelins backstory #WHAT IS UP W THESE COMIC RELIEF CHARACTERS. AND BEING REALLY TRAGIC AND SAD. BUT ALSO REALLY HOT? #naddpod #ramble tag

[phantastragoria]

The tragedy that is the majority of viewers not catching onto the fact that Gamora had tons of internal cybernetics and an entirely replaced skeletal system when those are the only things that will remain long after she's gone.

#lex thoughts #universe: mcu #gotg thoughts #ive seen many people assume the silver markings were just. weird alien makeup and not the metal poking out of her skull #but granted i can't really blame them when the only mentions of the internal stuff being a quick aside during the briefing on Xandar #but. i still think about it and how it never really got brought up. almost as if it didn't matter because it was all mainly on the inside. #odd and offputting. #especially when it was always made a point to highlight the cruelty of involuntary body modification enacted on Nebula and (mainly) Rocket #bummer moment sorry i just can't get over vol 3 and watching everyone try to cover up her death as if it didn't happen #and that meaning they didn't go to Vormir so they'd be able to give her a funeral nor do they even seem very bothered by that. #very sad and depressing when yondu was allowed one and appearance beyond the grave multiple times but gamora..? Denied. #i also dislike OG Groot becoming nonexistent to the team post Vol 1 so i guess you could say the precedent had been set. but #even rocket buried a piece of him in that planter. #i wouldn't want to be a bunch of metal bones rattling around but i guess you don't always get a choice #and Gunn's tweet that he did think to include OG Groot and Yondu in Rocket's afterlife scene. but very specifically left out Gamora. sigh.

[kyistell]

Wow me, drawing Jersey? Craazzzyyyyy

Anyway, I had an original design for this type of look on the Ipad, ended up not looking at it once since I apparently have memory. Kinda glad I didn't since I could go just by memory and figure it out as I went along ya know. (ps, for those who don't normally read tags just like, please do, i put so many lil things in there lolz)

Okay SO, I have this lil headcanon, nothin big, that Jersey didn't used to wear shorts until like 2000 or something, maybe a bit before then. This is because he has some scars on his legs, just from over the years, and wearing shorts not only shows those but also make it easier for him to get scrapes and such.

He was fine wearing shorts around NY, Del, and Rhode, occasionally Mass as well if he happened to be around at the time. He couldn't wear them around anyone else for a long time, some scars had Memories(tm) attached to them, some good most bad, so he just never wore shorts.

He's gotten a lot more comfortable wearing them around the other states over the years, mainly because of Covid where Mass unfortunately wouldn't let him keep wearing the same two pairs of pants. So he's fine now, if still a lil uncomfortable around some states (the west mainly), you just won't see him wearing them until it's the first day over 60 in state.

Anyway I love NJ but this isn't surprising, I live here. I am NOT a simp for this bitch, he's my state, I have to like him, 'sides who else would I attach to? Pennsylvania? Florida? Or god forbid NEW YORK!? Absolutely not, that's sacrilegious that is.

#welcome to the table #wttt #wttt new jersey #wttsh new jersey #also #jersey with a bun #how we feelin bout it #i personally love it #like i love the idea that his hair is shorter underneath #like maybe from an undercut thats just outgrown? #also also the headband he's using is one of SJs #although they are more like communal headbands #since yorkie connie and a few other northers “borrow” them #i feel like this pic was taken sometime during the summer #either at the shore or a roller rink #i feel like jersey would drag the group out all the time during the summer #the group being york connie penn rhode florida loui cali new mex north dakota and occasionally texas and kentucky #florida and loui only join because of cali #connie because there needs to be one “responsible” adult to supervise (he isnt much better but is trusted) #nd because jersey is very persuasive (he really isnt but nd caves quickly) #texas mainly joins when food is involved or its a rodeo #and kentucky would just more but sigh horses #honestly more states would join but they either learned their lesson (cough The Action Park Incidents(tm) cough) #or jersey never thought to ask them because the poor boy has self esteem problems since apparently NJ is one of the most disliked states #still sad about the btw cause NJ is so nice but also please stay away we dont want you here #anyway he thinks that most states dont like him so he only invites those that he knows dont hate him #so most of OG13 plus florida and loui

[goldentigerfestival]

honestly the basic way I can say it about Vesperia's dub is that like... it doesn't sound that bad when it's all you know for context, but then when you just hear it in the original context (not even also having the original context, but hearing it), you realize just how much tone they changed.

it all makes sense in the dub because of the context they changed to make the tone fit with it, but when you hear the original tone, suddenly the dub context starts losing its foundation. basically the only way, in some cases, the vocal tones work in the dub is because they changed the context itself, and changing context/meaning/the message of what's being said is just a HUGE no-no for me.

I've probably mentioned this before but most of the contextual changing happened with Yuri. in a lot of cases for me like with Raven and Karol I much prefer the original delivery and that's a preference, and in some cases there were little to no changes (primarily the first and second visit to Dahngrest were mostly the same). a lot of them just center around Yuri and given that he's my baby boy, I'm just naturally set off by it lol.

#GTF Vesperia Localization Woes #mainly posting this in response to some followers' interest #but it's like. I can't even go back now. and I'm really sad that they did this bc #obviously that's what ppl in the west will play. it's only reasonable that they'd want to play dubbed #so when a dub deliberately changes stuff it just comes off as malicious to me #especially in the case of Yuri and Flynn where they make Yuri so randomly angry at him for NO reason #when they met at Nor Yuri was just... super casual and relaxed. he wasn't even angry #for some reason the dub went from having him talk constantly about Flynn to just ??? being so angry? #like the idea is that they start at 100 and wane and get back to 100 #but the dub was like... zero to a hundred. angry and then Hypionia happens #and I think BECAUSE of the way they changed the context it makes sense #and I know I said I'm working on my post(s) about the JP run but let me TELL you #I am making the Nordopolica port scene ITS OWN POST bc that was to me the worst case of context editing #it was framed as Yuri being aggressive and angry and not utterly heartbroken with a shaking voice #and honestly? I think that was what truly cemented me hating what the loc did with Yuri

[no1ryomafan]

The only thing I’m hesitant about is if I do make in depth mega man post is I’m low key afraid to be hostile even if I’m having this moment of self awareness by that fact- it’s just a lot of the awful takes I’ve seen in the fandom stuck with me and I wanna give my two cents to how dumb some of them are but I have to also remember the tumblr environment of the fandom is probably the exact opposite of what I’m use to it given it was fucking twitter so the fandom is probably far *less* hostile here so I gotta like not be a massive dick/overly defensive about something I like when no one trying to beef with me anyways.

#meg text #as you can tell- I’m not use people being nice about this interest which is sad💀 #I will make sure to actually tag in depth post so if no one wants to see you can mute it though #I will mainly talk about ZX though probably cause I feel it’s the series that’s neglected the most in story talk #it’s not perfect but people harshly criticize it when it’s like- far better executed then X lol #peeps just need to realize it’s not supposed to be like Zero even if they’re tied in some aspects #(And also well- they kinda had to put it on the LC bc no one would buy a two pack of just ZX)

[lord-squiggletits]

>be me

>looking for MegOP fics on AO3

>see fic tagged IDW1

>fic has Megatron/Optimus as the main characters

>there's only a couple other ships so I know they're going to be at least one of the main ships and not a background ship

>I click

>see the author's note

>"I tagged IDW but it's mostly continuity soup" etc etc "and archivist Orion Pax"

#squiggposting #this is why i gave up looking for idw megop fic years ago #and now i only read my friends' fic OR fic they recommend or i just write/read my own stuff #idk if my presence in the fandom has swayed more people to actual idw OP content. i havent checked lately #honestly more sad than ppl refusing to write coptimus is how they don't even write their OPs like idw op's personality #if you gave me like. an angry jock librarian with the loyalty of a puppy and impulsive anger issues then i would be fine #but everyone just does dockworker/librarian/whatever OP who's mainly just a Good Guy #which is like. inoffensive enough i guess #but if your problem with idw op is that he's a cop. then just make him not a cop and keep his personality #but no one does that. big thinks as to why #bc ppl either don't know what idw op's personality is or they don't like that his depression comes out as being distant or angry #squeaky clean optimus whose depression is just him being sad and forlorn ONLY. we cannot have him be flawed #or have his flaws/inner turmoil manifest in destructive ways/ways that make bad things happen

[clophie]

google dot com how to be comfortable around people google dot com how to make friends google dot com how not to be off-putting google dot com how to make friends as an adult no dnd google dot com how to stop feeling lonely google dot com fun activities to do alone

#clophicore #rambling #i’m mainly just being sad cus i’m on my period #every day is just wake up do my chores then sit on my computer by myself 😭😭😭 #not even enough of a shut in to have internet friends that i hang out with!!! i have like 1 maybe 2 at a stretch #and none are hang-out-for-the-sake-of-hanging-out friends #it’s been like it’s for years with brief breaks of having some sort of social thing going on but it’s soooo exhausting #and now i don’t even know how to have friends anymore

[chaserofstarsandtheabyss]

I feel like hate as a word has become desensitized.

We need to start using loathe and despise more, it just has more flare, more personality. Hate is fine, but I am seething, dripping with rage, hissing as a snake, simmering with feeling if I despise you. I am consumed, fiery, a long burn with the same passion as love, turned into a dark reflection of pain if I loathe you.

Hate has lost that punchy impact, the burst of rage, the red hot flame of emotion. It has its place, but it’s not always the correct word.

#this applies mainly to writing #I just like the feelings and connotations of words #also the fact that loathe and despise seem to mean more is sad #hate is used very effectively in I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream though #great impact #feels like being punched in the face repeatedly #as it should

[ilyxo]

sad that so often when there's a fat character in a show with multiple seasons, you can see that person losing weight as the seasons go on :-/ fat people literally cannot be seen in peace.

#sure - for some ppl it could just be that acting changed their circumstances which led to weight loss without wl being the goal. #but mainly it is just actors wanting to escape the fatphobia they deal with. #it's so sad i hate it #fatphobia #h

[angelstrawbabie420]

u ever seriously wonder if ur gonna make it thru the year

#im #not even sad abt it. #just thinking. #i saw my aunt today and she bought me alc like every time i see a family member. lolololol i am mentally and physically ill i absolutely #failed at resisting temptation #mainly bc im a WRECK due to my period #i did not break the cycle of addiction that runs HEAVILY on both sides of my family 💀💀💀 #maybe one day but that isnt today. #i actually havent drank in like a month whixh is awesome for me given. The Tendicies. #anyone else also feel like theyve taken a stimulant on alc???? #like i have so much energy and joy but without the horrific heart racing symptoms #it’s bc it works on gaba receptors that seems to be what im lacking #bc neurontin (gabapentin) was the psych med that worked WONDERS for me and i’ve been on 10+ other meds that haven’t done SHIT #my doc wld not prescibe me last time i went despite being prescribed before and ir working wonderfully #she just upped my paxil which didnt do jack fucking shit #then i lost insurance so i havent been able to follow up w her But im working on that #it just sucks so much that the only time i feel relatively happy is on drugs #then i think well. at least im no longer in my benedryl phase like when i was younger💀 #and im like wow it rly cld be worse. i guess. #tendencies* #oh jesus i am NOT proofreading this. sorry

[infizero]

grgrhgahahh i wanna read more pokespe but i cant do it on my phone and im not unpacking my stuff until the morning

#this is not a real issue i am plenty entertained rn and also am going to be going #to bed soon anyways. i just am rlly in pksp mood #im in a pkmn mood in general lol ive been reading reguri fics as previously stated #but also i got back into legends arceus earlier today which i havent played in TWO YEARS. which is crazy #and man i fucking loveee playing pkmn i rlly hope they make the next #mainline game not half baked. i didnt get scarlet and violet bcuz of that :( #i had a playthrough of it in the bg but. its not the same #it makes me sad that im not up to date like i dont know any of the new #pokemon i dont know anything about SV's region or characters or story #i want to though. maybe ill get around to actually sitting down and watching a playthrough at some point #i also want to get caught up with pokespe in my reread so my first #experience w SV might be thru spe. which is weird to think about #thats never been the case for me with a pkmn game before #i mean. in terms of just being familiar w the game not playing it myself #i have not played every mainline pkmn game lol #my first one was pokemon pearl. which i never beat. but after that i #got alpha sapphire which i was CRAZYYYY obsessed with. i played that game to the bone til there was #literally nothing left to do other than grind to lvl 100 for the hell of it #pokemon moon is INCREDIBLY special to me for a number of reasons #mainly that it was my first pkmn game that i ANTICIPATED. i remember watching the trailers #over and over. every time they dropped new info i was eating it up. i remember when the starters final evos #were finally revealed i was so excited. and ofc the INSANITY that was the red and blue reveal. good times #but yes i similarly played the shit out of moon til there was nothing left to do. and it was the first one #where i was INCREDIBLY invested in the story. i cared and still care about the alola casrt #soooooo much they were literallyyy my friends. i drew them sooo much. and ofc lillie was one of my #most specialest little blorbos ever. i was in LOVE with her as a kid. it was serious #anyways and then i played pokemon sword which i also love dearly. i beat the main game but i #actually still havent finished the dlc.... but i also care very deeply about the galar cast and drew them a lot as well #and thats all not mentioning from my years long obsession with pokespe lol. but anyways yes #serena.txt

[doctor-says-im-alright]

Ive been wondering lately if I really do have bipolar with psychotic features or if I have schizoaffective. Idk why the idea of bipolar though is so offensive to me lol. I think its because I never really feel grandiose and thats just an unfair part of the bargain.

The main difference I found is psychosis symptoms outside of mood episodes. Ive been trying to figure that out, but as my moods are really long, Im not sure. I was thinking maybe that is true because this year I seem to launch into paranoia in a single afternoon instead of over months. But thats associated with a stressed mood, not anything neutral? Idk. My paranoia is generally after Ive become fully stressed, but honestly, it is possible I have delusions constantly. How do you even know? I know I have OCD but I am so fixated on death that it might be more delusional than just OCD - like I do have rituals but its mainly just stressful thoughts that Im being haunted and the proof was a dead bug.

But the past week I noticed I shifted into a different phase. Im suddenly energetic or agitated. Like laughing hysterically, talking a lot, becoming really upset or angry, sad, overwhelmed, and constantly unreasonably scared. Everything is a threat. I seem to be really focused on fires happening for some reason. I am sleeping way more than normal, actually my sleep is suddenly really stressful. I dont go to sleep unless I take meds but thats normal for me, but now I cant get up. Ill wake up and its like Im magnetised to the bed and am stuck for awhile until I actually wake up. I sleep 12-14 hours but when I look at my Fitbit data its somehow only 5-6 hours in that time Im asleep. I know it, too. Its like Im not asleep and am in my room but dreaming in it. I didnt even realize I was so upset about this until I saw a post by someone talking about training their service dog to wake them up properly and asking how to do it and I could cry with the relief if I could figure out something mine could do to help me with it.

I generally always get told Im too self aware to have any psychosis issues and I think Im good at sounding self aware but Im actually not at all. I have no idea what Im thinking or feeling, Im guessing based on any knee jerk things that may have come out. Like last year I was in the psych ward for paranoia, but I hadnt even noticed or was able to communicate, but can see it now, that I was actually in danger of attacking people because I believed they were going to kill me first, and that had been my motivation to go in. And it wasnt even the person I said I was paranoid of.

I cant even figure out if my hand hurts or not. I have no idea what Im thinking or feeling. I know Im jumpy and on level 100 of agitation. I just suddenly start crying, Im overwhelmed with proofs of life and death. If someone tells me a joke I literally cry laughing. My words are mixing up and I feel like I cant say anything. I read things Ive written and even Im like what?? What does that even say. I know I am having PTSD symptoms - thats a given with me. I know for months Ive been hyperfocused on it, its been a source of anger outbursts.

Like for some reason the thought of romance or sex or any relationship sends me into a flying rage. My dog licking my other dog disturbs me so deeply I immediately lose it and have to run outside or throw something. People talking about love and needing people makes me feel so revolted. Ive been half dating someone and they mentioned kissing and Im ready to set myself and everyone else on fire. I cant stand the thought of desire and needing someone and craving them it is disturbing and I want to be sick thinking about it. But Im not normally like this at all. Not at all.

I am asexual and aromantic and my friend keeps making sex jokes and referencing my being asexual and I swear to god Im going to throw up on him or hit him with a wooden spoon. Havent decided yet.

#does anyone else get disturbed by proofs of life #i made a list recently #mainly food bothers me the most #like people being hungry or eating just sparks deep fear in me because that proves they are alive and its a risk #its the strangest thing #because it can also completely snap me out of a rage episode #like if im mad at someone and I see them #pouring a glass of water #then i am suddenly desperately sad and scared instead of angry #how can you hate someone who is pouring a glass of water #half eaten food in the fridge is one of the most disturbing to me #but also the back of the head is a proof of life and terrible