#mainly because i am one LOL

[mmmthornton]

Listen, i'm about to make a statement here.

underrated lotr ship? Pippin/Faramir. I actually really love Eowyn and their relationship based on mutual healing, but tell me that sensitive jock with a shitty dad and high expectations couldn't use a fat happy stoner hobbit boyfriend. There's also the really fun dynamic that Pippin works for Denethor; nothing says "romance" like getting back at your shitty boss by woo-ing his son with how many pizza rolls you can eat.

#lord of the rings #faramir #pippin #peregrin took #Farapip? #PipFa? #idek #big fan of fat happy gay stoner hobbits #mainly because i am one LOL #lotr

[twisting-in-wonderland]

Huh-? Why's my sax's mouthpiece all messed up?

...

... Ah.

(wip progress + 'lineart' under read-more--)

portfest outfits are so cool looking,,,

#twst #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland port fest #floyd leech #art #ram's art #alright-! so i like port fest a lot- #mainly the aesthetics tbhhhhh #i'm biased i love water and aquatic themes and fish etc so its kinda obvious to me- #also!!! they play instruments!!!!!!!! look at them go! #unrelated never make me draw a saxophone again - #(i didn't even try and make this one 'realistic' because i . i cant draw a saxophone are u kidding me- #twst official artists show me your wayssss #also forgive the messy sketch extra underneath lol i am tireddddd #i just looked it up - high-end saxophone mouthpieces are made of something called ebonite- #apparently it's very durable - (though not. like SUPER tough like certain materials--) #I still think floyd could chew through anything if he tried hard enough so it's fineeee bitey boy 10/10 #resin is used for less top tier saxophones - but he could definitely bite that easily too- win-win! #also also sorry rook i couldnt fit you in the sketch :[[[

[twiyke]

I nuked my post limit reblogging the poll lmao (throw a random character at me idk man)

for you a little *rolls wheel* mm!leo

#mutant mayhem #tmnt mutant mayhem #tmntmm #mm leonardo #avepharts #mainly because he is in your icon lol #we're one trailer in and i am ALREADY getting ''me circa 2018'' vibes from leo #he deffo has anxiety and that is okay. giving him lots of hugs. #asks #donnie propaganda

[lee-hakhyun]

from an outside perspective it’s really feeling like they’re emphasising kim dokja’s status as an eldritch god. like,,, you don’t feel it through orv because kim dokja himself has just enough knowledge from reading twsa to navigate, and on his own you can really tell how human he actually is, but. take things from a distanced perspective, and suddenly. suddenly, it’s azathoth and the outer gods of lovecraftian lore, played completely straight. i’ve heard enough people compare azathoth and kdj that i think i can say this much

you wanna know something i’ve thought about a lot regarding kdj and the oldest dream? about yjh becoming a terrorist, and how kimcom willingly went back into the fray, how they returned to the previous timeline - and how some people couldn’t comprehend their choices at first? it makes me think of that old trope of ‘going mad from the revelation’, how some people say that gazing upon this otherworldly being’s true form or ‘learning the truth of the world’ would surely make someone go mad.

go mad with what, though? insanity? or grief? because so, so often, one’s pain is incomprehensible to outsiders, and fail to understand how or why you lash out or break down. it’s a depressing pattern in real life, too. kdj goes mad with grief and self-hatred, learning the truth; kimcom take on the insane route of going through the apocalypse again just to reach the end; yjh is unable to heal, to cope with a world without the scenarios and without his companion to bear through it, and so he fights over the replica of the arc. from an outsider’s perspective, without the understanding that the people involved are all brokenhearted over truths only they know, it might come off as insanity. but it’s all just grief.

with that said, however, to have someone jung heewon KNEW, cruel as he was, replaced by someone from a world beyond - and to start singing the praise of someone else’s name? to say ‘i need to find them?’ how all of them look to one name that outsiders simply DO NOT KNOW, to hail this unknown person as important, as an idol, as… as a god…

the 41st turn before their version of shin yoosung travelled to the other worldlines is a forgotten story, and by orv logic forgotten stories are outer gods. in lovecraftian lore, the outer gods sought to wake the blind idiot god azathoth, who in orv is represented by kdj dreaming for ‘eternity’. also, the Outer Gods of orv (the one actually being called as such right now) see the side story - which is the ‘forgotten’ 41st turn, now being written in where once it was not - as their chance to finally be written on the wall. so it’s. it’s. this is just singshong taking their lovecraftian elements to their logical extreme

interestingly, however, kdj isn’t the only reader anymore, is he? orv places a lot of emphasis on communication and writing on the wall, but in the side story it could perhaps be interpreted as ‘trying to be read by one person in particular’. and then the readers that die are labelled as ‘kdj33’ or ‘kdj47’, reducing them to being ‘just a part’, but… they’re all different people. they’re all people who took in kdj’s story, thus his story becomes a part of their own - but only a part. i’ve said that before, but.

well, you can’t force your own narrative on to someone else.

han sooyoung tried that, actually, didn’t she? tried to get kdj back through ending the story early only to realize the hurt she was causing and backing off. you can’t always reach people in the way you want. that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t stop trying, but there’s also a point where you need to recede, to compromise. am i making sense? i have no idea where singnshong is taking this story, but i’m looking at hsy with lee hakhyun and ceokdj with the readers turned kdj fragments and the outer gods wanting their story written on the wall and. i feel like i’m starting to see a pattern. i could also be hallucinating, but i could also not be. i offer this for your consideration

okay i put this aside for a bit but yes. oh my god. eldritch kdj.. i had not heard about this before, but that's so interesting thinking about it through that lens. and in the side story, hsy forcing the memories of orv on jhw to try to break her.. the explict mentioning of han sooyoung being seen as a 'god' in that moment...

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fun fact, if you don't remember! lovecraftian horrors are also mentioned as outer gods in orv

chapter 179. when talking with the devourer of dreams, kdj mentioned these modifiers

the fear of sarnath - bokrug

horror from the hills - chaugnar faugn

master of r'lyeh - cthulhu

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now, adding my own thoughts - the pattern is identity. stories.

there's something wrong with everything in this turn.

the kkomas were cute. until it was revealed that they were dead readers. though.. is that not also kind of what the yoo joonghyuk kkomas are? they may have all been yoo joonghyuk, but their lives in that turn were their own. <- however. the difference here is that while the yjh kkomas were all 'yoo joonghyuk' these kdj kkomas were NOT. they all had their own lives before being brought to wos, and upon being killed and placed in the theater.. they lost themselves.. which is terrifying to think about. you die, and you're brought back to watch your companions go on without you, but you're not yourself anymore. you're kim dokja, who wants to continue watching the stories on the screen.

the transmigrated readers. until the latest chapters, we hadn't been shown the real effect of the readers possessing characters in this world (honestly, we were led to believe that most people transmigrated into 'extras' without their own story. but that's not true, is it?). cheon inho has no one close to him as far as we know (lol), but that's not the same for others. what about the people who knew the possessed characters? lee hakhyun realizes this in the latest chapter, that maybe him and the readers coming here were an additional disaster for the people that lived here.

lee hakhyun's problems,, he's constantly going back and forth on 'lee hakhyun' and 'cheon inho', and there's clearly something wrong with the way he sees himself... we know more about him that he does currently, and if he does find out. i don't think things are going to end well.

and of course. everything about kim dokja. his name is in everyone's minds, the readers are desperate for a source of hope and he has become that to them. kim dokja is being idolized. even before the scenarios, there were those using kim dokja's story in the same way he used yjh. it's not framed as a negative, if that's what you need to do survive, then you should always do what you can to survive, no matter what. but even when you borrow stories, you need to stay yourself. you are your own person.

there's a clear connection with all of these, and it's identity. who someone is, the way they're seen, their stories. what makes you yourself? stories make up who you are, and these outer gods want their own stories written down on the wall to define themselves. rep kdj wanting the readers to forge a new story, lee hakhyun discovering stories that were never told in orv.

right now, nobody's happy. time is running out for the outer gods, the readers have unwittingly destroyed others by taking over these 'extras', kimcom are still desperately searching for their star, our dear protagonist is continuing to doubt himself. and kim dokja is still watching.

...this is orv. not everyone will get their happy ending. their goals oppose each other. we can hope for the best, but that isn't going to happen.

#word VOMIT. im not editing this sorry if it makes no sense! #THESE ANALYSES ARE ALWAYS SO GOOD AND I AM NOT A PERSON WHO THINK ABOUT THINGS TOO DEEPLY... #i cut some parts of this out (mainly about han sooyoung + the outer gods) because i couldn't word it right. but they connect with this too #<- might come back to this once i have the corresponding chapters translated. give me a day or two #i know i talk about identity so much but this is what the side story is all about #i didnt know about the lovecraftian stuff until i read it on the korean wiki for orv <- it's so much more detailed than the eng one lol #ask #orv #orv side story #orv spoilers #lee hakhyun #somewhat related? but i realized part of why i related with lhh so hard #it's the trans experience #living a life that might not be the worst‚ but you're not truly yourself. feeling like you're living someone else's life‚ #responding to a name that isn't really your own. #anyway the TRANS CHEON INHO PFP IS STAYING !!

[sydbarrettism]

🔥 pink floyd fanfiction

i have a lot of thoughts about pf fanfics so uhh sorry if this gets long and rant-y im just very opinionated #peaceandlove

idk if it's unpopular but a good chunk of the ones in ao3 are umm... not exactly the level of writing im used to compared to some my other fandoms. to put it nicely. (mainly talking about the slash fics) there are okay ones, but the best fic i read in ao3 was essentially a gen fic.. so... Yeah. anyway i've read a lot of good ones in livejournal but trying to navigate that site was like using a metal detector to find treasure and it's either i get a gold coin or some random piece of metal

also in the ao3 sphere i think that we need more fics about the guys being in messy unlabeled situationships rather than anything about them being loving boyfriends to each other (exceptions may apply in moderation). i don't think these guys have the emotional intelligence to say "i love you" to each other in a way that feels like they're in a normal romantic relationship do you get what i'm saying?

anyway that's all what i've thought of for now thank u for sending me this ask 🫶

#okay im being a hypocrite because i drew my silly rarepair doing cutesy stuff #at least i have the self-awareness to know they wouldn't fucking do that #unless i come up with an elaborate scenario in my head that i am unable to articulate and makes sense to me #oh right i have roger ships in the brain when writing this so idk if my points in the 3rd paragraph can be applicable but lol whatever #it does add more flavor though <3 #i think that fluff fits rognick a lot. but on other roger ships i prefer it to be messy y'know #i think sydger has good fluff potential when done right in a way that there's an air of melancholy around them #btw all im saying is mainly about fics not fanart. i like fluff in fanart a lot but in fics it's like.. hmmm.. im a bit selective #different mediums different vibes y'know #also this is mainly a pf fic thing bc i do love fluff fics in other fandoms im just picky with this one lmao #well i rambled on the tags long enough im gonna stop here byeeee #ask #quiet-desperationn

[robots-on-film]

making this as a separate post-

You know what is fun? aus. So I propose a new au idea to just ponder in your head and play with like play dough.

So like, au were, somehow, scout's missing dad turns out is another merc that is NOT a spy. The second-most fun part is figuring out how would that be able to logically be able to happen. The first-most fun part is how heart achingly sad or stupidly funny would the reveal of it be + the aftermath or confrontation, of course.

(look at tags for my ideas/ramblings for this concept)

#tf2 #team fortess 2 #scout #au #au idea #i got no clue how to tag this! #martin speaks #i once saw one for sniper turning out to be scouts bio dad and man. it was just one chapter. but it changed something in me /pos #every single one could be very funny or very sad depending on how the writer approaches it but #soldier. engie and pyro stand out to me as PIQUE “this could be stupidly sad and heart breakingly funny” #both for themselves or scout. like specially in the pyro and soldier case #engie's path in this au (lol like a vn) is the most. bittersweet and heart breaking. cus i am going with scout already seeing engie as a #father figure. and engie caring for scout as well! but when it turns out scout is basically a Conagher and therefore he applies like. #standards and expectations of what a Conagher should be to scout. EXPLODES #Demo would be the most chill about the whole situation. like it would all still hurt for the both of them but ironically. the situation doe #not have a way to explode and go horribly south like the other ones. in my opinion. #Heavy or Medics paths are the most crack to me. mainly because i cannot think of a way for it to happen and when it comes to romance i ship #them with each other. anyway. scout is medics lost test tube baby that ended up in a bostonian lady's care. i can give you that #and thats all i have

[arthurtristankingsmen]

also small announcement but i have a new tumblr rp blog under construction. It'll be a nice fresh start for getting back into things again, and i'm very excited to share it with people who are still interested in writing with me :3

#tristan rambles #something positive!! i don't have work yet but i am too excited at this point to keep waiting. it's gonna be a multimuse for my world! #Artair will be the main muse because he's my boy from here/PaFK but i have a lot of other ones i hope people end up enjoying too =^x^= #right now the thing i mainly sawdust (just a name lol) but soon i shall have something to show :3 i hope to write with people again soon!!! #i miss it soooo much and i'm excited about the prospect ^^ #the thing *is* mainly sawdust as far as a wip goes!! i missed a letter there oops

[traaumaa]

tw ////

#i feel my ed coming back ahhh #i stopped purging mainly because i have no privacy to and am terrified of being caught in the moment #and i stopped bc of my teeth.... #but havent gotten binges under control completely #n been in a cycle #it's obvious ive gained in the past few months and it kills me i can never stop thinking about my body every second im awaks #but if i'm just going to kms then i might as well not care and die skinny. #i'm just really unhappy and i think if i started losing weigh again i'd have at least one less problem and that's worth it to me #idk. i haven't had an appetite lately thankfully but now i feel like i'll gain each time i eat lol

[bluebellthesponge]

making ocs is such a powerful fucking feeling man…now i am planning out making ‘90s/‘00s boyband ocs because brain rot so bad baby i just want 5 white dancing boys to completely control teheheh…

#i don’t talk much about my ocs #i have a couple but now i am planning on making some new ones tehehe #‘cause boyband brainrot bad and sometimes i just want a group to completely control over #ofc there’s rpf and that’s fine but sometimes i just want some guys that are my creation #only downside is that i don’t have actual real life pics and videos to keep me occupied and giggle at #and also actual songs but that is ok imagination is a strong thing #anyways my boyband ocs are gonna be mainly nsync inspired #ofc like a boyband theyre still gonna make fun pop music and shit #but like all ocs of mine they will be made into queer marxists because i want them to #but ofc the american music industry is a fucking capitalist hellhole so idk i probably have to factor that in lol #but for now no story because i still have to plan the personalities and designs #bluebell talks

[chompe-diem]

GOOD NEWS

JAKE IS LIKELY RETURNING TO THE $5 TIER STREAMS NEXT MONTH

bad news murph is not doing another dm stream in that case (hopeful news it seems he's enjoyed it as much as we have and seems interested in returning at some point)

#naddpod #is that a liveblog i see? #brian murphy #jake hurwitz #i mean i wasnt surprised i didnt get my question answered but i was tryna ask murph in the chat if he'd be interested in doing streams even #after jake comes back #tbh. i wld love another $10 tier thingy #i pay for $10 tier and while i personally Do Believe it's fully worth it for all the perks it comes with as a whole #*tucks hair behind ear* i wouldnt mind..... a lil somethin extra #....look i dont wanna discredit the pricing system esp because the honest truth is i am not great with money and value #however i mainly am comfortable paying $10/month bc 1) ofc it's affordable for me to do but also #2) i personally feel like $5/month for all the short rests/aftershow eps theyve ever done [which is also 4 new ones per month] is a steal #so to me paying 10 bucks feels like 5+ dollars for all the short rests and then the extra bit bein the bonus mixed bag n caldwell's stream #i just think a lil somethin more for the $10 tier compared to the $5 tier wld be neat..... #HOWEVER also i am not tryna shit on them ofc. clearly the perks distribution has been working for them so far #considering theyre one of the most popular patreons??? lol i have no grounds to claim theyre doing it wrong or anything #butijustthinkitwouldbecooltohavemonthlymurphdmstreampluschatmovesabitfastformurphinthe$5tieranywaysoplsconsiderthanks

[diningpageantry]

haaaaiiii guyyyyssss (gn) probably gonna be on here more often again soon. life events occurring. have occurred? still occurring, i suppose.

i'll probably post abt it more in depth at some ltr point, still in the very early stages of some stuff. i dont want to classify them as positive or negative things, however they're certainly things.

there's a lot of thoughts in my brain (hah), and ultimately i want to share them, but for now this is kind of me waving at everyone with a smile while my life has an "under construction" sign

#the last sentence also pertains to system stuff bc there was a major split from a significant alter #so like imagine an 'under new management' sign as well #not a host shift tho afaik but the split has resulted in a new fronter who's very active and has been co-con very frequently since #i've been having a Time recently in ways i'll ltr divulge abt but i finally established a solid communication with her today and that helped #i dont know how many splits/alters had broken off because intuition is saying a few but she's the most present and active in my awareness #i think we settled on her name being Lily but that may not be concrete #for a few alters i get like a single letter for their name and i try to work with them to find a name within that letter that feels right #one of my oldest and closest alters has only had the letter 'E' for the longest time and he and i cant find a solid name yet #every now and again im like 'edgar??? edwin??? edward??? emil???' and he's like 'fuck if i know' so like. fair enough dude. #i wonder if he'd like ez/ezara given that's a name we picked for ourselves pre-diagnosis however he doesn't fit that name in my opinion #ANYWAY. Lily is a teen girl in very much every way possible and she's very much an ANP #she is loved but as i type that she made it clear she's having an eyeroll reaction but that is the best i've got lol #i dont really mention system members often on here and mention them moreso to friends however i have a feeling she'll want a sideblog tbh #which is not something i've created/done for alters before as generally most of the system choose to be more private #but she seems extremely social and i want to give her her own space #i hesitate to give her an okay posting on her own on here mainly because i am an adult and i consider this blog an adult space #but im also okay discussing her in reference if that makes dense #anyway. yeah. as you can probably imagine shit has been Going On given there was a major split/restructuring but again that's for later #that's enough rambling from me lol ttyl

[sr-sam-bodypillow]

why does sam always manage to do something every tavern episode that makes me go 😳

#like. he did something in an episode (i'm going goblin mode) that i REALLY want to write a oneshot about #only thing is i think it'd be x reader. and also very smutty #mainly because i can't think of anyone to actually put in that scenario #but godDAMN #i am fatally weak to the SR_Sam Rizz and it SHOWS #lmk if you'd be interested in that one shot lol #he's good with his mouth if you know what i mean 😳😳😳😳😳

[kissmefriendly]

Got my mother and my little brother staying with me soon. On the one hand, brilliant, I haven’t been in the same room with both of them at once in years. On the other, holy fuck how. In my place? It’s tiny! Someone is sleeping on the floor for a week and the other two are sharing a bed. I’ve never wanted to sleep on the floor more in my adult life.

#holy fuck could they not have scheduled this a little better? #also cannot wait to get shamed #for what? anything. it’s fair game. #a week’s worth of ‘you’re just being lazy’ and etc. #a week worth of name calling and transphobic slurs hurled at me #mainly from my mother who is staying much longer than a week #a week of never feeling safe because if I forgot to hide just ONE piece of paper or just ONE ticket to an event or ANYTHING #I could get re-outed as trans to them and my mother might actually kill me #I’m so scared lol #and my brother and I only JUST began talking again this year #before that the last time I saw him in person he was whaling on me #nearly broke my collarbone and hit my head against the tiles so badly it briefly knocked me out #I am happy that we’re back on speaking terms #but I admit I’m a little scared shitless #these two are (mostly in my mothers case) bearable ON THEIR OWN #I don’t think I can take them both at once #starting to feel like the city from a Godzilla vs Mothra film #YIKES. #doesn’t help that with my heart condition I can’t clean for as long or as well as I used to #they’re gonna rip me apart for that. ‘I LITERALLY have a debilitating heart condition I can’t stand without fainting’ #’you’re just being lazy. sheer laziness. just drink some salt you’ll be fine it’s not a big deal’ #I FAINTED TODAY JUST VACUUMING ONE ROOM! #anyways

[bearseokie]

back to writing shownu's fatal love story after a week of being too sick to even open the doc !!!

#y'all aren't even ready for this story #mainly because I'm not even mentally ready to finish this story #still got a bit to go before it's done but i think this might be one of my best fics in a while ??? we shall see #remember to vote for the next fatal love story! #last time i checked i think quid pro quo + objects in mirror are closer than they appear were neck and neck? can't remember exactly #but damn y'all are USING that poll i am so happy please keep voting i love you #fatallovemx.series #you know this story is deep when this mf has a prologue LMAO #me: gonna write a series! #also me: posts said series out of order of the mlist so I can't even link last and next in the fic posts #bruh moment #off topic but i promise i have more wips going rn than just mx LOL seriously there is something in the works for everyone else too #bearseokie.txt

[gucciforasushirestaurant]

Writing Update :)

More writing today! I'm really gonna focus on this vampire!reader one (if you fuck with TVD you're going to love it, i can't wait) its sitting at about 15k at the moment (and that's free writing it, no real editing or even as descriptive as i want it to be so...she's a big gorl lol)

I'm going to edit the 6k smut. because sub space featured, i was going to treat that as a request fill because someone specially asked for a subspace fic, but i think I'm just going to write another one because this one has like....every kink in it and i don't think the person that requested subspace wants all that lol Plus that way i can leave the 6k one up as like a 'mini-verse' of sorts that i can add onto as i see fit? if that makes sense?

I am changing how i post. I usually post and write simultaneously and it never ever ends well, i just get burned out and never come back for a while. and I want to keep going (I'm proving something to myself okay let me have this lol) So what I'm going to do is stock pile a few different things, have at lest 4 done, and 3 or so in the workshop phase before i start posting stuff, so I can remain consistent.

#this was mainly just for me to like hold myself accountable lol #but i also wanted an update for you lol #because it will be a while before i offically post anything new : ) #but i am working I just want like a pile that way i can get on a schedule and stay on one ya know? #i don't think yall care but.... :) hi #fic update #fic updates #writing updates

[milkyberryjsk]

i got back into r6

#i wad like #“wow. i'm not that into fps anymore 🙂” #Pants. On. Fire. #ok it's mainly because my girlfriend started playing again and i missed playing with her #that mere thought of the game has been dormant in my mind for like. 3 years then BOOM #dude every chance i get i hop on a qm #it's monday now so I won't get to play today til after 12 am but it's STILL ib my mind #ok i might as well ramble now #my og favorites from 2019-2020 were doc iq ela #it's still doc & iq now #ela not that much anymore.. idk i just got kind of bored of her esp after they retconned her lore w zofia #recently I've picked up brava (i love her) #ram (i love her) #fenrir (i love him) #mav (i suck as him) #wamai (i love him) (i'm pretty decent with him! his loadout is awesome) #oh lion is also one of my og favorites i cant believe i forgot to mention him lol #random but whenever i see vigil i just think of sam #to the point where when i play with my gf that's the callout i use #“SAMMY ABOVE SAMMY ABOVE” #“they have a sammy” #“the samlette killed me he's rotating” #i have so many assignments to complete i'm itching to play so bad #we had some chemistry in phys science and fenrir kept popping up in my mind 😭 #n e ways... ahhhm #idk who to get next #i'm thinking iana or melusi ?? #but i already have a decent amount of intel & gadget ops i frequent in atk and def respectively #maybe ace... & lesion. we'll see #a.talks