#lmao I need better hobbies…

[percy-the-enby]

It’s pikachu!

shhhh he’s trying to tell me something

I can see it in his eyes.

#pikachu #Pokémon #gay #times magazine #lmao I need better hobbies… #I don’t know #I don’t know where this came from #but I’ve been obsessing over Natural Harmonia Gropius recently #thought this was fitting #it’s me #I’m the faggot

[blitz0hno]

I don't want to get off my phone I don't want to stay on my phone I don't want to pump gas I don't want to do deliveries I don't want to get ready for bed I don't want to write anything of substance I don't want to create I don't want to not create I don't want to be here I don't want to go anywhere I don't want to move I don't want to stay still my brain and body seem to simply want to sit here and Yearn

#is this like a shutdown i think we're having a shutdown #cuz like #we're not experiencing the pain of the overwhelm #but that's because we're dissociating really bad #like am i blitz are we blurry have we been in this parking lot for hours #why can't i just do anything but type #we're just sitting here numb and unmotivated #vent #i guess #tagging in case as always #idk man #“get a hobby” we have several #“get a life” we have. one but we have to share #“get a job” 2 jobs going on possibly 3 next month ok im starting to understand #we are indeed having to face a future and have no solid Plans yet #i thought getting our biggest worry out of the way now that my cat is w a trusted friend would help #but everything else is at the Forefront of our mind now whoops!! #ironically it would be better if we just. cane up w a plan #but noooo sensory overload from our own fucking chatter #allllll dayyyyyy #fuckkkkk #we're probably gonna go to bed lol i can try again tomorrow #we're ok just. we “shouldn't be” if that makes sense lol #if we're going to be a wreck i wish i could at least provess it #like it's worse than emotional denial i straight-up don't have access to said emotions rn #“don't underestimate my capacity to not wanna” type shit sjfhhshsh #oh also we need to eat dude come on #dont want to do that either but alas we need nutrients to live #at least we like living! #usually lmao also i did it (apparently) i reached 30 tags. thank u tumblr i love yapping

[byanyan]

...staring at my drafts and realizing i should perhaps consider pausing on answering ask prompts to start getting caught back up on those instead bc the number is back in the 40s & i just found a starter i completely forgot about bc it got lost on the second page :x

#a few weeks of mentally struggling & being out of it has really done a number on all that hard work i did getting (almost) caught up l-lmao #tbf everything except like. 2 threads (& a few unprompted asks that're in there) are all from march & april but. hhhh. #i was doing sm better at staying on top of stuff and then suddenly that all went to hell lmakjfakjs #really tho i suppose i should just keep doing whatever i'm feeling/enjoying the most right? #i'm here to have fun not stress over deadlines that don't exist for replies #need to get better at remembering that. need to..... idk. stop feeling overwhelmed over a hobby lmao #i just!!!! feel so bad leaving things for so long!!! i worry it makes people think i don't want to write w them #or i've lost interest or smth which!!! is not at all the case!!!! my brain just sucks so bad!!!!! #i'm rambling to myself ignore me ajsfksd i'll see what i feel like tackling tomorrow #hopefully?? i'll have some better focus??? bc my writing has still felt v disjointed today and i don't. like that. at all. #but my usual routine around the house is still kinda disrupted & off-kilter until monday which i think is playing a big part in my struggle #so. idk. we'll see. i'm still rambling i'm sorry pls continue ignoring me askjfsd #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[feluka]

by far my least favourite thing about physical pain is that every time it flares up i foolishly and naïvely think to myself 'well ok maybe i should avoid anything physically demanding for the moment and instead do mental things like study!' but every time i fail because the pain is too distracting to literally even focus on a task or think straight

#sorry for posting so much about this. this is just my life now #the doctor was honest with me and said that there are ways to manage the pain and alleviate it but it will likely never fully go away 🙃 #I'm feeling a lot better after doing the physical therapy exercises that he taught me though! #he was really nice too. every time my mom butted in to imply that it's my fault i have these problems he would step in #like she kept going 'she spends hours doing needlework then complains of arm pain 🙄🙄' #he would say 'it's ok! she can learn a few things to adjust her workspace so she can still do her hobbies without pain!' #and every time she would point out my bad habits he would say it's ok and that i just need to incorporate a few tips to make it better #literally the first positive experience I've had with a doctor since one doctor told my dad to stfu back in the day lmao

[moomeecore]

Lol why do you defend bpd Seek help fr

bpd?? like. like borderline personality disorder? like, the mental disorder? that people have??? "defend bpd"???? DEFEND it?? from what??? abelism??? misinformation?? this ask is kinda mind boggling dude. like wow.

just so u know i am getting help for my multiple mental disorders :) that i have. ik that's not what u meant by "seeking help" but what does that rlly reflect other than ur lack of knowledge on mental health issues? wow i definetly trust you to be super educated on mental disorders considering you used "seek help" as an insult. ur rlly winning me over here.

here's a genuine question for you: have you tried seeking... i don't know... a reputable source on bpd? information on what it actually is, what it actually means to have bpd? or is ur only source of information that's led you to this conclusion.. reddit posts, listsicles abt "how to spot a borderline/narcissist/sociopath uwu" & ur own personal conclusions made from meeting one person w bpd one time ever.

#god i hate ppl like this #and the nerve to swnd an ask abt it. thats so PATHETIC LMAO #u care that much??? u r THAT dedicated to actively hating ppl w a certain mental disorder?? #..and u think IM the one who should 'seek help'?? #pls try reflecting a little bit. what got u to the point where u #(and ik u did this bc i dont think ive ever said anything else abt bpd) #u saw my comment sympathising w someone w bpd who got a rlly horrible disrespectful ask talking abt how 'evil' ppl w bpd are #CLICKED on my profile. and sent me this ask #ur short sentences and use of lol dont fool me. you are WAY TOO invested and u need to find something else to do w ur life #smthn that dosent hurt ppl! that dossnt spread misinfo or make ppl feel bad or encourage stigma!! maybe try doing a little reaserch paper #on bpd where u make sure to check the credibility of ur sources rather than looking at listicles like 'top 10 signs u know a NARCISSIST!!! #or if that sounds like too much work 4 you ..u could try minding ur FUCKING buisness . log off tumblr & try like #knitting or smthn. idk man. pick up a hobby please. for ur own saks #and for the sake of all the ppl w bpd out there who ur mercilessly treating like shit in order to put urself on a moral pedestal #bc ud rather pick & choose to beleive the 'easy' perception of life where ppl can be diagnosed with Bad Person and u get to feel better #than them .... than educate urself on the real world & accept the reality that things r more nuanced & complexed than that #(this ask didnt actually piss me off as much as it may seem. its p tame. i just have been complaning abt this sort of thing latley #and jumped at the bit to ruthlessly tear apart someone w these sort of beleifs. like u came to me dude lol. thanks for the free invite to #go feral lmaoo) #text

[hwanghyunjinenthusiast]

Insecurity is a hell of a drug

#i am just being self conscious about my writing don't mind me lmao #i thought this passed but oh well #i knew this would come up at some point running this blog but it's very not fun #would not recommend #also i am so much better at not taking stuff personally but my god sometimes i am not #and it is one of those times i guess #i think that's lowkey why i haven't touched my wips in days #this has been eating away at my brain #i know this is a hobby and not that serious but ego connected to what i create go brr #i just need to let these feelings pass #i think just touching my wips would help that and there are ways I've thought about improving my writing so let's see how that goes lol #or maybe how i approach my writing would be a better way to put it #i also need to realise that everything isn't going to be for everyone which includes what i put out there and critiques of certain things in #fic are not personal attacks against me specifically lol #it's the leo moon and virgo mars /lh #anyways enough spiralling #rj talks

[arihi]

There are small quirks about me. Like if my stomach is cold, I’m 80% likely to get a stomachache in the next 30 minutes, or how my hands are pretty consistently warm, and when I start to get sick or feel ill my icy fingers are the first symptom. I’m self-conscious about how my legs look, but bulking up and putting on muscle makes me feel more okay with them. It’s all small stuff, everyone has similar things and they’re not quite unique, but observing them in myself makes me feel like an observable person instead of a zoned-out passenger in my own body going along with the path of least resistance. And it makes me feel more like me. (And I like it.)

#I still struggle with identity sometimes #strangely I’m more solid on the overarching stuff like gender/sexuality and don’t feel as much uncertainty there #but it’s the small stuff like what kind of music do I like and what ARE my hobbies #I talked about it way too much on this blog back then in the Before Times and I’m not trying to overshare #but I can’t describe how 100% set in stone my life practically was because it was expected to be decided for me #and I didn’t treasure myself enough to want better for me #(also why I bounce off of drone stuff specifically in hypnokink and doll stuff needs to be worded the right way) #feelings about perceiving and perception of myself as of late #I get uncomfortable sometimes when people perceive me in a way I don’t expect #because I think it forces me to confront the fact I don’t always feel solid in my own identity #so how are others seeing me exactly? what are they seeing? #because I’m not sure what I’m performing #anyway I haven’t done my nightly recordings in a long time so now YOU’RE getting my late night introspection lmao #personal

[elsolaer]

i have many thoughts in general but this tidbit from tingyun's voice lines is one of the things i wanna elaborate some more on at some point...

" Every time I head out, I leave a letter behind and lock it in the drawers of my shop. If I come back, then I'll burn it later. If I don't... then it'll be something for others to remember me by."

#OOC. #this post is more of a reminder to myself before i go try to write some stuff for nat and/or stelle #but idk i like her concept of being pacifistic despite the inherent dangers of her position as... basically a galactic ambassador? #it says that most reps take weapons with them but she refuses to because she believes that you should build relationships from a foundation #of peace instead of threat of violence #which has worked in her favor but idk its kinda sombering knowing that she basically leaves her last words in a letter every time sh #e leaves for another planet to do her job because she knows shes leaving herself vulnerable if somebody wanted to do something to hurt her #and she burns it every time she comes back only to rewrite it again months later when she goes on her next trip #xi.anzhou's lore is ROUGH dont get me wrong but theres a lot of fun concepts in there that im smashing together LMAO #also her traveling the way she does opens up so much room to meet literally anybody #its just jarilo-vi right now but as more worlds open up it just gives her more room to work with #also the fact that it opens up a lot of possiblities for world building for her to come to these planets because she's there ON business an #trade & commerce is one of the BIGGEST things a society needs. one decision could steer the entire direction of their society in a complete #y different direction #like even just introducing more leisurely/hobby focused products can be a huge turning point for a war stricken world #or better materials for their tech and their buildings #new crops in exchange for what they have #literally the exchange we see in her lore is her discussing taking just a few samples of a world's plants and growing it on xianzhou for #commercial sale AND that world would recieve shipments of said crops along with wahtever other deals they struck #and blablabla yes i know capitalism whatever. tis the way of the world and i think its really interesting frmo a worldbuilding standpoint #tingyuns a very interesting character because she can change a lot of things in very little time in the big picture #i feel like she's commonly brushed off as a shallow character who doesnt do much but she's one of the most accomplished characters in xian #zhou EASILY #yes you could argue that jing yuan is more because of his general shit or yukong is the helm master blablabla like Yes they are also very #accomplished but she is the literal only reason that the grand fairs are FAMOUS throughout the galaxy. they werent until she took leadershi #she's completed trade missions to SIXTEEN different panets and is implied to have formed alliances with at least a few of them #and was the one to renew xianzhou's mutual alliance with the IPC #i dunno #also i think people see her as way more of a trickster than she is #like ... i thought she was too but she really isn't particularly mischevious? girls tried to leave MULTIPLE times during the story bc she

[xamaxenta]

Did I rly just spend two hours taking billions of low res ingame pics because I love Ace and I think he’s mad cute? The answer is yes

#i need a better hobby LMAO #xam plays mhw #no tatts because for some reason mhw doesn’t seem to care for them nor does the modding community f in the chat #portgas d ace but hes in monster hunter #low res bc my pc sucks ass cant handle the render my cpu is totally meleted graphics card whats that lol #he got that phoenix drip #listen he looks way better in game idk whats up with steam pics but ive set to high res dunno why theyre pixelled to shit here #anyway Ace with all my safijiiva weapons bc theyre sexy and hes sexy #all safi except the HBG which is frm stygian zin

[crimsonkenjii-writes]

I wanna write so bad but i cant

Writer’s block can suck my cock

Im sorry to all the unfinished drafts and unanswered asks/requests. Feel so bad but I just got no inspiration or I hate the way I wrote it and wanna make it better but cant

All I want for Christmas is my inspiration and ability to write again

#this is a hobby #and I shouldn’t stress so much #but I feel bad #you guys send me requests and I wanna fulfill them #at one point I got bombarded with them #and I was happy about that cuz I love hearing from you guys and seeing some cool requests #but it also made me stop writing cuz it felt like too much #thats all my fault tho I need to figure out how to pace myself better #and I also got really d depressed at one point cuz my job was killing me #now all I do on this blog is shitpost and selfship art lmao im sorry 😭 #anyways #crimsonkenjii rambles

[retro-friki]

It's so funny to look at my current pfp after voting on a poll. Miorine Rembran very thoughtfully choosing the dumbest possible option available just to commit to the bit.

#lmao need to engage myself on better hobbies #or not #misc #and yeah like half the fandom has this pfp but it's nice #i think that canonically she would be a very boring poster #only using social media for academic and business related stuff #not belonging to any gaming community despite being an active gamer

[byanyan]

the want to reply to everything all at once so much that you overwhelm urself trying to figure out what to reply to first... so u get tired and frustrated and give up before u can do much at all. that's it, that's what i've been dealing with, i finally figured it out

#v frustrating bc i've replied to almost everything in my drafts in my head #but writing it out??? hmmm that takes a lot more work and mental illness don't like that #....once again i realize i still need to get better about replying to what i want in whatever order i want #aksfjhsdsd just thinking to myself as i frustrate myself staring at my drafts #WANTED TO DO MORE TONIGHT but w/e i'm exhausted & indecisive & don't know what i want so #gonna just leave it idfk #it's a hobby it's my blog i shouldn't make myself feel like i need to do stuff when i don't have energy just bc i'm an oc blog & people #will lose interest if i'm slow #the people who matter stick around regardless so who cares!!!!! #ugh. unintentional vent ig. just losing patience with my own brain lmao... #depression's a bitch no surprises there :/ #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ DON’T @ ME. #tbd. #negative cw #is this negative?? idk but idk what else to tag so w/e

[lesovoj]

like im already busy enough but i need to be extra busy by the time PJM1 comes out or i will lose it

#i better find new hobby and travel with my friends more snd start a relationship so my mind can focus on other things otherwise i will #pass out when jimin releases his solo #i need to be more chill about #let me make more interests in my life so i dont throw up from excitement over his album lmao

[ihopeucomehomesoon]

to be honest, i need to give up manhwas so i can actually focus on maintaining my study schedule

#i need better hobbies LMAO

[workwort]

wish I had money loll

#never enough recovery time or money in this line of work. Forming community and entertainment out of the soil of the land itself. #every farmer who has a decent quality of life here is like. fucking. Married as hell to someone with a much better income. #I wonder how much it occurs to them that the hobbies and lifestyles they enjoy are very much dependent on their spouse #being for example an architect or a government henchperson #idk. bitter? Yes. I sacrificed a lot for passion or perhaps on the basis of being disabled in the brain and unable to be that govt goon #Lysposting #Or they outright own or run the farm. Agri bourgeoisie with the giant fuckin RV bitching about how tough it is out here LMAO #With their leibensraum 2.5 blond settler children in summer camp and equipped with ATVs. #and those of us on the bottom just scraping by won’t dream of ever having a family or even pregnancy. no doctahs unless u got time n $$ #even then! Good fuckin luck. Why do u think I got into herbal medicine. U Fucking Need Something. idk! life!

[guinevereslancelot]

this eye care routine is a lot

#sooo many steps #but in a week or two i can step it down a bit once my eyes aren't so dry i think #they said treating the symptoms wasn't gonna help the cause but i feel so much better already and im only half a day into the routine #so that's nice at least #if i go blind i go blind but at least my eyes will be moisturized and not itchy and uncomfortable for once #i will go blind in comfort 😌 #coping with humor rn sorry 😂 #also sprry if there's typos i cant see shit the warm compress made my eyes so blurry lmao #anyway 😬 #hopefully the chances of going blind or losing part of my vision aren't super high but i wont know until i see the specialist probably #but i genuinely dont know what i would do if tbat happened. lol ✌️🥲 #i do not live in a public transportation area idk what kind of job i could be qualified #and being dyslexic has made it impossible for me to wrap my brain around learning new alphabets including cyrillic and ecen reading notes #so i think i might have a very hard or even impossible time learning braille 😭 #anyway #this is simultaneously stressful and scary but also does not feel remotely real <3 #ugh if i go blind it will not only ruin my ability to live but even my hobbies are all visual #i couldn't gif or draw or paint or even garden 😭 #i couldn't even look at my cat and see how cute she is 😭💔 #okay i need to calm down and not obsess over the worst case scenario #goodnight friends in my phone i love you #this has been a shitpost