#literally no work life separation

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[dolokhoded]

my one season 4 complaint is Where The Fuck Was Aneesa

#never have i ever #i really wish her and fabiola had stayed together them not working out didn't rlly serve any purpose to the plot for the new season #fabiola's new relationship was barely rlaborated upon. as expected. #and aneesa was basically written out she was barely even part of the group #plus that scene of them at the staircase talking about fab's robotics team. they still have so much chemistry and they were literally just #talking about robotics #i understand she's not a major character and she can't have a separate plotline to herself but she wasn't even involved in anyone else's #her and fabiola were cute together and she would've at least been part of the plot if they were still dating #allison was barely a character what was the point of writing some random new partner for fabiola when she already had a perfectly good #love interest #it just doesn't make sense to me. whi decided it would be a good idea for them to break up #was it just an opportunity to shove in a nonbinary character who had no personality and was just there as someone's s/o and call it #representation #cause there are Many better ways to have nonbinary rep than this #but ofc mindy kaling wouldn't give a shit about this. #n e ways for this support my nonbinary aneesa hc . it's real. #fabiola torres #aneesa qureshi #OR AT THE VERY LEAST SHE SHOULD'VE GOTTEN WITH PAXTON. SHE HAD THAT NICE HOT JOCK LINE AT THE END OF SEASON 3 #im fabneesa 4 life but i would honestly be haply with her dating paxton. they're both cool and they'd be fun together. and she deserves a #nice hot jock boyfriend.

[aemperatrix]

Fate/stay night: Heaven’s Feel III. spring song, wr. Hiyama Akira (transcript; own tr.)

Marguerite Yourcenar, Fires

Fate/stay night: Heaven’s Feel III. spring song, wr. Hiyama Akira (transcript; own tr.)

#fate #heaven's feel #comparatives #parallels #web weaving #if there ever comes a day wherein i am NOT insane about kirei / sakura separate OR in relation to each other. it's safe to assume i am dead #like the way this Most Catholic Man Ever indirectly but consciously fashions his very own allegory for a (corrupted) virgin mary... #the way he keeps her alive despite considering her an abomination—the very kind he has been specifically raised to destroy #because she is pregnant and he is once again The Most Catholic Man Ever. #the way this 'pregnancy' is the fruit of his life's work...the way she is pregnant with his destructive dream... #girl i am ILL #also the way he's like 'you don't have to pretend when you're with me'—as she LITERALLY HAS HIS HEART IN HER HANDS??? #insane. insane!!!

[brookheimer]

okay. i need to rewatch the episode probably but i think my current feeling is that i like most of it a lot (rome, ken, the siblings not getting ceo, etc), think the tom ceo makes sense from a logical/character perspective but not sure how i feel about it from a broader more thematic lens (altho i'm leaning towards fine with it), and am very mixed on shiv's ending because i think it's well-conceived and meaningful from a broader thematic lens (shiv becomes her mother, the cycle always repeats, etc) but doesn't quite make sense to me from a logical/character one -- it could've worked, it could've worked brilliantly, but it was far too rushed and forced. it makes sense as an ending for shiv, but not her next step. i'm largely talking about her decision to return to tom, not her decision to vote against kendall (which i think should've been executed better and given more space but can understand given her character, mostly). i'm fine with it as an ending for shiv, but what i'm struggling to stomach is the way it played out -- it didn't feel like a choice the shiv we know would've made. it's an ending that makes sense thematically and for her character arc, but not a decision that makes sense for her character at present. that's kinda where i'm at right now

#long shiv post talking ab this upcoming lol #bc so far i haven't seen like any shiv takes i've actually agreed with #it's either entirely anti ending or pro ending #whereas like. to me the ending works as an ending for the character. it's tragic dark devastating but it works and works well #but shiv making that choice does not make sense for where she is right now. it was rushed writing that forced an ending on her #that would be a satisfying ending but not a satisfying character choice and thus NOT a super satisfying ending #could've been EXTREMELY satisfying. but shiv wasn't there yet. her fatal flaw is blowing up good situations when she feels she's being #disrespected -- she's respect > power when it comes down to it #even tho she thinks she wants power more she NEEDS respect and is unable to stay quiet or make the smart choice in the face of disrespect #or men thinking they're superior etcetcetc. so her making a choice that allots her power (wife of CEO) but is the singular least respecting #outcome imaginable (meekly returning to your husband who betrayed you and stole the job you've been fighting for your entire life right out #of your grasp alongside your closest ally/flirt guyfriend who tapped him to do it explicitly to fuck you over because you're a pregnant #woman and thus inferior to the man who inseminated you -- and EVERYONE KNOWS ALL OF THIS! everyone knows you're the daughter of #the previous CEO and on two separate instances were meant to be CEO and now the weak man you married publicly betrayed you TWICE #but you still meekly return to him and place your hand in his and have his baby like the good pawn you are...) #that does not make sense for shiv. if we saw some development on the power > respect front or had a few more scenes or episodes developing #shiv as someone who would choose to become her mother (powerful and rich yet a disrespected pawn) over literally anything else #given her fundamental fear of being disrespected than maybe this would've made sense. it could be a great meaningful devastating ending #but it's one that just does not track for shiv as we know her right now. #ok tags got long as always sorry LOL i'm gonna write a longer thing explaining my hashtag thoughts bc i haven't seen much i agreed w on thi #front yet oops. ok bye 4 now tee hee #succession #succession spoilers #casey shut the fuck up about shiv roy

[hussyknee]

"We don't hate Jews and fight them because they are Jews. Jews are people of a religion, and we are people of a religion. We love all people of different religions. My brother even if he is my brother and he is a Muslim—if he steals my house and kicks me out, I will resist him."

— Sheikh Ahmed Ismail Hassan Yassin, founder of Hamas.

#yes the 1988 charter is very fundie islamic and uses an antisemitic hadith. it has been changed #but you cannot possibly treat antisemitism as something separate from the geo-political character of the situation #hate as a reaction to oppression vs hate as a reaction to paranoia. one is human the other is always a deflection from the legitimate threat #there's really no point asking colonizers to feel the suffering of the colonized #or to treat them as human beings who wouldn't make these choices if anything else had ever worked #none of the people criticising armed revolt and suicide attacks consider how intolerable the occupation must be to prefer death #how armed rebellion is the choice made between dying a victim and dying a fighter #i am literally the last person to advocate for armed rebellion until and unless every other option is exhausted #the same value for human life that makes violence the last resort must embrace violence when it is the last resort #decolonization #free palestine #hamas #glory to the resistance #knee of huss

[gingerbreadmonsters]

sleepy and v fed up w this blasted reading for japanese history class tomorrow. give me 45 minutes to finish this article and i will be back to talk about kissing or something

#for the blissfully uninitiated: hello i am history student #which is a fantastic thing to be but also a significant pain in the [REDACTED] when it wants to be #the professor for this class is almost unbearably terrible which does not exactly make me WANT to do this reading #but the exam is in like 2 weeks lol #so yk. i have the hardest life of anyone on earth etc etc #god forbid i actually do the degree i asked to do lmao #also i up early this morning to drag myself to the immigration bureau for a visa amendment #which meant a decidedly unpleasant hour on the metro during rush hour :( #its bc im applying for this english TA position in spring #its literally only for 5 days and tbh i wouldn't mind doing it for free bc i am sad like that and enjoy teaching for fun #but it IS paid - and paid work is Not Allowed under my student visa #so even though i literally have not even GOT the job (applications close today) i still had to go and apply for permission to work #watch as they dont hire me lol #oh i should mention - for those who may not know i am in tokyo this year #i am british and i usually go to uni in the uk but im on a study abroad year this year #i came to japan in sept of 2023 so ive been here for coming up on 5 months and i will be going back home in august on 2024 #its weird to think that im approaching the halfway point #tbh i should really just make this a separate post but whatever #coming to japan has been very strange but a good thing i think

[sage-nebula]

If you don't leave your house unless forced because you feel so guilty about leaving your dog home alone that it regularly makes you break down crying can you really say you have a guilt complex

#hi my name is Sage and i have a Problem™️ #websites say to never leave your dog home alone for more than 4 hours #but i have go be gone for 9 hours 3 days a week for work!!! #and she has separation anxiety so she trembles when she realizes i'm abt to leave! #so how am i supposed to leave during other times? i do on special occasions but otherwise i can't! #i feel too fucking guilty! #i am literally in tears rn bc i feel like i have failed her and her life is worse bc i'm the one who adopted her #when i'm a single woman with a full time job who has limited WFH #this is why i need therapy but can't get it bc no one is accepting new clients! fuck!!! #anyway #i'm gonna go drown myself in my tears now #be back later

[themoonking]

i have a lot of issues with rachel smythe's writing in general, and i don't think a proper outline would make her shakespeare or anything, but like. half of lore olympus's story issues are the result of rs clearly making shit up as she goes along. a lot of the general weirdness and disjointed vibe of lo is the result of the author not really knowing whats going to happen next, and it could have been solved had rachel just sat down and planned what she wanted her comic to be and where she wanted the story and the characters to go. if not from the beginning than at least when she made the switch from canvas to webtoon original.

#like she clearly has the most vague most broad ideas for whats coming #but literally everything other than that is made up as she writes im sure #like that kind of seat of your pants and just adding whatever comes to mind when you think it would be cool #can work for like a 100% slice of life comic #where there is ZERO plot and each episode is completely separate from the rest #and if she wanted to write something like that then webtoon has plenty #but lo is NOT a slice of life comic #rs may not be sure of what she wants lo to be but the one thing it isn't and was never intented to be is a slice of life comic #but despite that she writes it like one #anti lore olympus #lore olympus critical #i speak

[worstloki]

Thor knowing that their family is terrible and hurt them both but still asking Loki to return to it because it's what they have

#like you think Thor doesn't know he's hurt Loki? #you think he doesn't know that their parents did? #Thor refuses to let their family go because his role is what gives him worth the same way as it did for Loki #it's harder for him to let it go because it's a decision he would have to consciously make #and things are better for him as a prince of Asgard than they ever were for Loki (he has Odin's favour. is the heir/son by blood. is liked. #Thor has a lot more to lose than Loki did #Loki didn't have to refuse the family because he found out he was lied to and the decision was made for him #he wasn't liked and didn't have Odin's favour or a special weapon or friends or an official role to grow into #Frigga can say she's his mother and Odin can claim whatever he wants but it's just a reminder of what he no longer has #Loki relatively had a lot less to lose on Asgard but it made up the entirety of what Loki had because it separated him from. everything. #he let go on the Bifrost because there was quite literally nothing left for him there or that he wanted and could have #when Loki got cut off he didn't have any guarantee that his brother would side with him and... Thor probably wouldn't have #but if THOR decides to leave their home behind after Loki's death he would have been siding with Loki and would've been the one cutting awa #Thor has a choice in staying a family because he can suck it up to Odin and Frigga and is unable to comprehend that Loki doesn't have that #from Thor's perspective Loki is the one who is rejecting their home by not playing nice and returning #Loki's the one who will be rejecting their home if he faces consequences for attacking Midgard or sits in a cell for his whole life #because Thor thinks Loki can just make the same decision he does by simply staying loyal to Asgard and keeping complaints to himself #that's the way the family worked before anyway so Loki not *wanting* to go back to that is a betrayal. and for what? #from Thor's point of view Loki is stubbornly refusing to return to Asgard and gain everything he lost #he doesn't understand that the only thing Loki was given a choice in losing was his brother and that he never reached a decision about it #Loki betrays Thor and hopes he dies before any judgement is passed but calls him brother and hopes Thor gets the throne. like. what a mess. #Loki works with Frigga and Thor against what Odin/Asgard has decreed until you bring up that they're a family where he shuts down #if Thor works against Odin/Asgard but doesn't feel the need to separate that from the fact they're family so he doesn't #he doesn't see that Loki is incapable of doing the same because it's Odin/Asgard that already rejected/betrayed *him* #there was never enough on Asgard for Loki to want to return or seek forgiveness for when he was the one hurt/who lost it all #he cares for Frigga and Odin regardless of them not being his parents and cares for Thor because there's really nothing else for him #Thor didn't reject him and he didn't lie to him about his race/lineage but telling him to come home like he still has that is cruel #because Loki thinks that Thor knows there's nothing he has on Asgard and Thor thinks Loki's side doesn't need to be considered #family hurts and lies and betrays and judges you and Thor's accepted it because feelings don't matter when family is what it is #tldr; bold to assume that Thor's got any better idea of what love or healthy relationship is meant to look like than Loki

[ephemeral-winter]

in undergrad i had a graduate student instructor who i was obsessed with because she was so smart and so beautiful and such a good writer and she remains my role model for How To Do Academia Today even though we work at opposite ends of the long second millennium. also her cat is very cute. at the time i suspected she was dating a different graduate student i was less intensely obsessed with and have been assembling a mental bulletin board of evidence from their respective twitter accounts for several years now but the trail had gone cold due to them graduating and working in separate countries. academic job markets, man. but i got new evidence tonight. going to be entirely normal about this

#literally who am i going to tell is the thing. they weren't even in my dept #i loveeeeee academic relationship gossip i need more of it in my life #this is exactly like the time my roommate and i put together the gossip about our respective tutors #and deduced that they were common law married. and even though we have kept in touch with our tutors #and could have a more peer to peer discussion of our lives they still have not indicated to us the precise nature of their relationship #but we Know #funnily enough these tutors ALSO work in separate countries now. academic job markets MAN #rare pic of me in the wild

[atlasshrugd]

all hot priest needed was a therapy session with fiona shaw’s character and he’d be back with fleabag in no time

#yeah I’m one of those ppl who don’t buy his ‘it’ll pass’ line #he’s not choosing god over her he’s choosing fear #he’s afraid to give up everything he knows and everything he’s worked towards his whole life #when he ought to know that love for and with soemone else is the closest way to god #it’s literally god actualised and materialised #he’s not a monk and this self-denial is not moral it’s fear-based which means I don’t accept the ending #he uses priesthood as a clutch from his trauma thinking that’s all he can offer now #but he doesn’t actually deal with his trauma he just bottles it up into helping others #they may be separated for a couple of months or even a year but there’s no way they never get back together #fiona Shaw needs to ask him some deadpan straightforward questions and sort him the fuck out #fleabag #hot priest #hot priest x Fleabag #mine

[solvicrafts]

One of these days when I'm in the right mental space for it I really, really want to post about how incredibly isolating it feels to be neuro-divergent in the pagan community and, at the same time, more or less following a near-reconstructionist path despite how extraordinarily difficult it is because my brain just wired differently so I basically have to fight own instincts and inherent nature in order to practice my religion but at the same time I fight entirely of my own accord because it falls in line with my personal principles and--

#solvi's personal ramblings #it's late for me so today probably will not be that day #but I've been wanting to write a series of posts on this topic and others #because there's an immense feeling of isolation that I deal with in the pagan community that I don't talk about #and weirdly enough I feel like my non-pagan followers on here would understand it a lot more than the broader pagan community likely would #especially my abbilen in the Legend of Drizzt community #but like to put it simply for now I genuinely feel like Kimmuriel and maybe a bit like Drizzt sometimes #especially in my offline social circles #because certain people in my personal life who have grown progressively anti-theist over the years #will actively shit on anyone who believes in or worship anything because in their mind it's all Christianity #and all of Christianity is the Westboro Baptist Church #and on those rare occasions where I do manage to slightly challenge them they give me the Drizzt treatment #'man drow suck they're awful they're just the worst I can't wait to kill them... oh well except you 'cause you're OK I guess' #like because my brain just doesn't work the way other peoples' brains do there are aspects of religion and spirituality I struggle with #so I don't really fit in with the crystal woo crowd but I also don't fit in with most other recon-leaning polytheists #and then I get really actively shat on by anti-theists I know because they can't separate modern ex-Christian baggage #from literally everything else #like it does not compute in their mind that extreme American Christian beliefs =/= ALL RELIGION or ALL CHRISTIANS #and nothing seems to get it through to them and they take everything in bad faith #so I feel very isolated at times because I don't seem to really have a place really anywhere #because my interpretation of religion and spirituality and my ability to practice it will always be different due to my inherent nature #so I'll basically never 'belong' anywhere #I'm gonna join Kimmuriel in the 'I shoulda been born an illithid' thing except I don't know what I should've been born as #I just know that the person I was born as just doesn't seem to fit in anywhere or have a place in the world

[ronanlynchbf]

haiiii question for the masses <333

#this is just a few things. i debated putting adam spends the whole summer wanting to break it off with ronan in here but ended up not #doing it bc while it IS considered ooc 2 me when u look at it straight on (adam would've def taken Everything into consideration before #choosing to start a relationship with ronan) if u look at it like adam is separating his academic and personal life and convincing himself #he can't have both or not allowing himself to accept happiness that does not come with pain or being too scared of the different directions #ronan and adam were going in and deciding to break it off bc he felt like eventually it would stop working anyway and he thought it was #best to end it now bc it would hurt less than ending it after a couple more years or even growing apart would...alas we do not get this #insight it is quite literally what i THINK was going on with adam and probably not actually what it meant. if maggie meant for option 1 to #be the truth then i consider it ooc. for the small chance that maggie meant for option 2 and just didn't rlly manage to make it come across #as explicitly so then it is not ooc i actually think that would be very like the adam i know so i didn't include it. and the poll was full #anyways. also there is a lot of declan ooc moments........ #tfw u ask ur mom if u can have declan lynch & she says we have declan lynch @home & then the declan lynch @home is declan lynch in gw 😐 #trc #dreamer trilogy #polls #SORRY i know all the gw dunking days r in the past sort of but i need to know i'm not the only one who thinks this. #greywaren #also sorry for the essay in the tags ✋

[gothamcityneedsme]

also. The start of the game forcing u into the genesis comic feels. Very silly. its a tonal jump from the death to like have sudden narration. It shouldve been framed differently idk. Or just. Not inserted into the story. Anyways.

Love the beginning of this game. Setup is so good. I love Jacob and Mirandas intros. Jacob as the one who tells you the truth, who has a moral compass vs Mirandas sole purpose and drive for two years being to bring you back to life regardless of her impression or opinion of you personally.

#Shitpost #love how miranda responds once you have results too #i love how cold and calculating she is #and like she wouldnt work as well if she wasnt the lead on the project. Her leading it and basically being a huge part of why youre alive #just like. Immediately places her in a fascinating space #also shes basically your XO but also shes reporting back to TIM about you #side note but tbh still mad at how they handled TIM in 3. he just became a villain where hes WAY more interesting here #hes so middle ground nuanced and that sort of dies. A shame tbh #theres a lot i dislike about me3 lol. Not entirely but still #TIM and the ending. And the mechanics with the separate app #is that still up? I hope so. Im playing og mass effect lol #anyways also. Jacob is so interesting too #Hate that he got memed on and ignored by most of the fandom #tbh his loyalty quest is kinda iffy too iirc but his base here is so good #and his comments throughout the game too #Also. I think me could have been fixed if we learned who built the reapers and got into the shit #The theme of organic vs synthetic life couldve been expanded upon #ESPECIALLY since synthetic life literally cant exist without an organic creator #the cycle couldve been MORE is all im saying #the creators couldve built the reapers with that pov. Like a terrible cleansing pov #Organics so convinced organic life is corrupt that they wished to destroy it #and the reapers if shown that truth would realize the hypocrasy. The lie they were built on #Or something #mass effect is so good but the endings are all bad #Thematically they are a little interesting. Esp the ending where you leave it to the next cycle #BUT. like i hate synthesis and control. Those are hard to reconcile with the Themes imo #destroy works but tbh to me. Destroy shouldve ended with a scene of some scientist who believes life is corrupt. Building another AI #an AI to destroy life. #thats all. #Ok ill shut up now