#like okay its most likely not that deep

[nerdyqueerr]

sometimes i think a little bit about how the Wyrm's ultimate Evil Ploy on Elora was to grant her heterosexual marriage and then not only does she turn that down but she and two lesbian knights defeat the evil AND THEN the Power Of Love comes in to save the heterosexual marriage guy but its literally just the power of his sister saying hey come back i miss you. and, dear readers, i find myself going insane a little

#like okay its most likely not that deep #but i remember losing it at the willow finale like oh my god #the end of the world is brought forth by a straight wedding. i mean thats gotta stand for something right #also kinda iphigeniacoded of elora to go to a marriage thats also her sacrifice #gonna be real with yall i saw a silly post of like kit and jade reacting to the Crone Kiss as like haha lesbians seeing straight kiss #and it just reminded me of that insane bit of idk maybe semi intentional #metaphorism #many thoughts and feelings about this. might be worth looking into more #lol the lowkey bisexual boorman confirmation before the fight too...... its almost like....... theres metaphors and allegories happening #again no doubt im being more deep abt this than necessary #tbh im just really fixated on the wedding. truly couldnt have done better if i was writing some kind of fancy play about heteronormativity #in fantasy settings #yeah #whatever #willow 2022 #my shit

[sanatomis]

cw. none, except for satoru being disgustingly cute.

to outsiders, your relationship with satoru is as much a blessing as it is a curse. it’s a blessing, because even your mere presence causes satoru’s talking to drop by a hefty 80% at the very least. it’s a curse, because satoru only stops his chattering to cling to you.

he wraps his arms around your waist, and nuzzles into the crook of your neck. he holds your hands, and cups his own face with them. he tucks your hair behind your ear and squeezes your cheeks together. he’s so utterly enamoured with you, that words suddenly feel unnecessary. and you let him be.

it’s his way of recharging, of finding little bits of peace in a stressful day. so, you allow him to do as he wishes, and simply continue whatever conversation you are having—as if satoru wasn’t currently biting your finger. you dismiss the looks of disgust people throw at him, finding the way he clings to you like a baby koala oddly endearing.

it’s a custom, by now. a custom that’s loved by the both of you, and only the both of you. so, yes—a blessing and a curse. satoru is quieter when you’re around, but in exchange for a (not so) healthy dose of pda.

pick your poison, as one would say.

#my boo bear #i’m a sucker for casual intimacy that others wouldn’t think of as casual but feel like the most natural thing to the couple :(( #it’s a love for me that goes so deep #it basically says ‘loving you is as breathing; it comes to me effortlessly and constantly and i do it without thinking’ ITS JUST SO #oh to be loved like that #ꕤ — sanatomis darling: gojo satoru #gojo satoru x reader #satoru gojo x reader #gojo x reader #satoru gojo x reader fluff #gojo satoru x reader fluff #jujutsu kaisen x reader #okay sneaking this in. . . #⍣ ❥ ೋ 𝑠𝑎𝑡𝑜𝑚𝑖-𝑐𝑜𝑟𝑒.

[always-a-joyful-note]

Enstars sure is an experience. Did I miss anything?

#are you guys all okay? i definitely am not okay #this is not the type of media that i usually go for yet it is EXACTLY the type of media that i would like #so many gaps so many stories WAY TOO MUCH READING I DONT HAVE THE TIME #i know i missed a lot because ive only watched the anime and read the main music story up to ch 4 of the second part #and i have read some events stories that were free #and maybe one or two outside from translations #but like thats it #this is like reading orv and getting hit with its deep metas on human life and the importance of stories #but instead im being clobbered by the most deranged storylines known to man (and again. i read ORV and am a bsd fan) #this isnt fantasy but there is nothing realistic about enstars and i unfortunately am attached #every day i spiral into east asian media that gives me an aneurysm #bsd -> orv -> link click -> enstars....i wanna say they keep getting more unhinged but theyre all unhinged in different ways #anyway please help me.... #enstars #ensemble stars #fandom spamdom #stuff i say #i will admit i am mostly into the game for the stories #a consistent gamer i am not #but to unlock the stories ill push back the animes i have to catch up on etc etc #again. please help me.... #edit: updated to remove queerbaiting because apparently i dont know whats going on

[goemon-fan]

This was easily one of the best Lupin episodes

#there will be a rant in the tags that you can ignore #but it is so upsetting how modern/current lupin took away the depths of these characters and flimsily tries to restore their earlier depth #i'm one of those people who craves depth in what i watch and it's so difficult to like this franchise because it will be so close to doing #something interesting only to abandon it #this episode and part one as a whole was peak lupin in my opinion with each character having emotional depth yet flaws to overcome #yet modern lupin would have you believe that these characters don't desire to improve in any capacity #if we were to just focus on Goemon for example right here he shows depth with revealing hidden emotional maturity and empathy for Lupin by #comforting him and admitting he himself is afraid (which is a big deal for a character like him who is supposed to be unflinching) #but in modern lupin goemon will literally say that he's not afraid of anything and this is written without any hint of irony or depth #i'm okay with mindless entertainment and i understand that this is a series simply about stealing but the character assassination is so #disappointing #and when this series does try to be “deep” they pick the most triggering subject matter possible to depict to the point where it's #practically unwatchable (this is in reference to Part 4 and its constant SA plots as well as the rampant gratuitous child abuse plots #throughout the entire series) #i want so badly to love lupin the 3rd but it's a huge problem when fanfiction understands the characters better than the source material #lupin iii #lupin the third #lupin the 3rd #goemon ishikawa xiii #goemon #arsene lupin iii #jigen daisuke #daisuke jigen #fujiko mine #part 1

[cheerfullycatholic]

Who's gonna get whacked by the snowstorm? It's supposed to get me the next two days and I'm kinda excited tbh 👀

ARE Y'ALL PREPARED?!

#my animals all should be okay #im just a bit worried about the half wild chickens who wont let me put them in the coop #or even the garage #i know theyll be ok with the cold im just worried about how deep the snow will be #ill have to keep up on making paths for them #other than that #i have enough animal and people food to last awhile and i have extra straw in case someone needs more #also got ten gallons each of diesel and gas #lots of blankets medical supplies board games #oh dang i should make sure my portable phone charger is charged #i really need to get a solar charger #the thing im worried about most is if the power goes out #we have a generator but if we can keep the house warm during the day we might turn it off at night #and i know its stupid but i have anxiety and nighttime is really hard for me #especially in pitch black silence #i dont like the way my fear and anxiety makes my heart feel #anyway #ill stop rambling now #yall are in my prayers #please pray for us

[aejiee]

Coming to terms with the fact

That I will never be tall,

Or unbelievably beautiful,

In the way that people turn their heads

And stare.

I will have never loved,

Or begun to understand what love might be,

Aside from in books and movies.

I may never understand, and that scares me.

I feel so young. Too young.

Though I desperately try to

Claw at the remains of my youth.

I'm falling behind, yet I don't want to get back up.

Is this what growing up is?

I want so badly what time will grant now

And yearn for what I have lost in the process.

#poetry #poem #writing #writeblr #im 14 and this is deep #writers on tumblr #!!! this is my first poem guys #i dont normally sit down and write #i wrote most of this while waiting for my burrito #i dont know ive always wanted to try poetry #plus ive been reading dead poets society fics #its 4 am as i am posting this #im going to wake up and be like wtf was i on #well anyways #if this is cringe i never posted this #okay good night #just kidding #im going straight to ao3 lmaoooo

[imflyingfish]

This isnt a crazy statement but i still think that there should be better diversity on the life series. I mean specifically there should be more woman creators and creators who are poc.

Like 3rd life had ONE woman!!! WHAT THE FUCK?

Theres only ever been TWO non-white members of the life series! What????

Only 4/17 of the secret life members are women! Thats like 4 and a bit men for every woman! THIS IS THE SEASON WITH THE MOST WOMEN????

Like i know the gaming space is a bit messed up on this front but like cmon....

I dont think that the life series is like. Intrinsically bad or anything, but it would be cool if Grian/the team and such could take notice of these facts and help to change the server just a bit more.

#trafficblr #traffic smp #okay originally this post was only going to be about women and then i realised also how messed up it is that theres only two black #people on the server #fuck i dont even make posts like this like. ever. #but i feel like it would be really you know. COOL to get some more diversity in this particular minecraft gaming sphere especially #idk im trying to increase the diversity in the last couple of months in what i watch and listen to since i realise that its not good enough #and i realised these facts and im like. shit this isnt just like a me thing this is deep in our fandom #same goes with most minecraft series #heck i watched a random up-and-coming minecraft youtubers video today on a competition server. #not a single woman???? really??? #hey maybe if theres enough backing it would be worth like. sending an email or something idk #so long as people are polite about it ig #idk ive never really talked about this stuff before but its been bothering me #grian #grian critical #also sorry if my maths is just totally wrong idkim bad at it

[todayisafridaynight]

y3 remaster changing daigo saying “that was a close one, but we’re safe now” to “that was a close one huh? but it’s all okay now” is the worst thing to ever happen

Not as intense of a change as ‘i dont deserve to be with you’ to ‘i dont deserve to live’ if im so tbh but it can be a part of the top five changes list

#snap chats #i can understand your point tho … tho ‘we’re’ could also include kiryu #so its not as tho daigo was exclusively referring to him and mine being ok. kiryu there too. theyre all ok. its all okay now #and then it wasnt toEPFNSKS #i actually like daigo saying ‘its all okay now’ oppoed to ‘we’re safe’ #probably more on the personal side though #whenever i was in deep shit hearing it’d be okay comforted me the most #it’s reassuring in that Everythings Okay and back to normal. or something of that nature in any case #theres no need to be scared anymore Its Ok … #like shushing a wild horse ….. its ok babes….. mine being the wild horse in question fhEPDJSK #but thats just my personal opinion SOOO

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

Something I can't help but think is a little funny is that so many people look at Gabriel and try to figure out why he Acts Like That and they give him a mental illness/disorder they either have or have experience with. Anyways my working theory is that its low empathy autism

#i think like. okay you know how hakita literally took the time to explain during the dev stream recently that like #that gabriel audio on ferrys ship was to show how he acts to most people and not when hes fighting someone #and hes nice! hes polite! #i think gabriel is generally a nice guy but he has low empathy and struggles with black and white thinking #i think every time he had a realization hey maybe this thing me and the council is doing is fucked up one of them is able to convince him #its not because theyre the supreme authority in gods absence and god would approve and god is good #but gabriel would still feel deep down that something is wrong but wouldnt DO anything abt it #not trying to absolve gabriel of all the shit he was complacent in its more like. i do think the idea of him having black and white thinkin #and looking the other way when it comes to other angels doing bad because of course theyre good is an interesting thing to explore #i am putting this guy under a microscope. essentially. #also ive seen people say he has bpd and i dont know enough abt that to weigh in. also too busy shooting him with the autism ray

[sendmyresignation]

finally reading dance of days (thank you ohiolink and oberlin college <3) but my most consistent takeaway thus far. is oh my god. people who think punk is primarily ideological and not subcultural/musical. are so out of touch.

#three thought threads excuse it but okay. #first as much as dc punk was not political for much of its history (revolution summer/positive force nonwithstanding im talking oldschool) #i do think the structure of diy and creating an alternative subculture economy is more radical than. making an antireagan song lmao. #even if i think the result was a bit of a failure. the intention was significant! imagine a world where artists do not have to contort #themselves to majors and can be supported by an alternate network of payment and such. would be nice if the arbitrary ideas #of like 5 dollar shows and zero pr and not fighting for what your worth didnt infest that ideology but whateves #okay then also. what the fuck how did i not know the bad brains homophobia was that bad. anyway. #third thread. hilarious that dc punks were.. hesitant to work with positive force bc of its association with revolutionary communist party #lol lmao even. now that im sufficently deep into these tags i can say what all this made me think of which is that #oh my god mcr is a punk band. well theyre more than a punk band but they unequivically came up in punk. they are based in punk. their first #lbum is a posthardcore record without question. in the context of punk as a MUSICAL SUBGENRE mcr is under that umbrella #more than they are Most Other Things #mcr is punk in the outsider-opposition sense which was as defined as some poltics were for a lot of early bands #and shit like black flag which my chem drew on was not textually very political at all it was a subcultural thing #equal opposite force to The Establishment. charting your own path even if it meant fighting for it #obv though black parade barely qualifies as a punk record it was an evolution for them #(and a really interesting zigzag since many of its influences are 70s rock- the very thing og punk was reacting against! #but which now represented a past oldschool rocknroll (esp with glam)) #anyyyway #my posts

[lesbicastagna]

hate when bitches are like oh 2 years is too long for a weird situationship where you don't know where you sit with eachother SHUT UP. how are you making it my problem that you never felt real love

#you're there liking eachothers stories on instagram i'm here feeling a pit of want so deep it makes me nauseous We are not the same #but most of the time im chilling thinking things like it's okay if we don't text i know i will see her again when the universe thinks #its most funny. and i will be delighted. and then i just go on with my day #a

[always-a-joyful-note]

You don't know how much I can Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint code Enstars because I could. Because you have a set up where you are basically taking the place of Anzu--a person created simply to be the reader's/player's self-insert. Because the characters all exist to love Anzu while they're going through their own arcs. Because Anzu also exists to love and support the characters by the game's own coding. She is their world and their hope, and the enstars characters are her idols (and I don't just mean that as singers and dancers).

But slowly, I've seen posts and even small summaries of how Anzu starts becoming her own person, small ways apart from the characters. Yes, she's still quiet. Yes, she is almost always a Viewer. Except for the fact that this is a game story, not just a book or novel story. And games are meant to be played...not by the characters but by someone who is watching them but has not created them.

This is how Anzu has more power than a normal reader. This is also how she has less power than a normal reader. The game allows her to exercise power over the characters' lives that a normal reader of a book cannot--she can help along Trickstar, be the behind the scenes producer for a number of the idol groups in the school, doing something to make them shine. But she is always a puppet, controlled by the player. She has a silly personality with a questionable naming sense and determination and hard-headedness to boot...her preferences for the units and who she builds up are always changing according to the player. Her only goal is to make sure her idols shine (what more does a reader want than to see their characters shine?), yet the goal of the Enstars characters is to adore Anzu and make people like her who support them happy (where would the characters be without a reader?)

Like the Oldest Dream, she is the most powerful and weakest god of all. A puppet steered by the fantasies of many, many individuals yet always loved by the characters for "herself."

#okay first of all #orv spoilers #i know this is incoherent and slightly dramatic but FJIASOJEIRWERe #i am honestly OBSESSED with the self-insert aspect of this game #i know this is probably not how self-insert is supposed to work #and i stay far away from self-insert fics cause theyre not my thing #but like....a y/n character as an actual character???? #i latch onto anzu so much like girl i love you. you are yourself. you are me. you are the other people in the fandom who play this game #she really is everything and everyone #please forgive me i know its not that deep but i think it would be so cool of the writers to one day release a story that has an anzu card #where she becomes part of the world.... #that would be both the most hilarious thing and horrifying as well if written right #fandom spamdom #enstars #ensemble stars #stuff i say #seriously tho i keep thinking about it compared to orv #and how people always talk about yjh and kdj as a ship. and how anzu sometimes gets romance-coded words thrown at her #(maybe more in basic but i still need to read the basic stories) #and when you really think about it the relationship between the characters and reader really is like....every kind of love #its a romance that isnt a romance. a family that isnt a family. a friendship that isnt a friendship #you know what i mean? #yeah someone gag me before i start overthinking this i swear i am very normal about this game #okay finally finished this thing in my drafts and im having second thoughts about posting but ah well.... #this game is making me insane i think

[lystring]

just love that amongst all the insane pushback people have been getting lately for talking very openly about fatphobia in our society which is a serious problem people are straight up reblogging posts adding severely triggering images of extremely anorexic people as some sort of Gotcha, like fatphobia Cant be real because Look how mean people are being about this person who is clearly dying from one of the worst diseases born Out Of Our Fucking Society Being Fatphobic im losing my mind what is happening etc

#like i dont think ive ever talked about this on this blog or ever #but i used to be DEEP into proana tumblr back in the day like. #most of us didnt consider ourselves 'proana' or 'probulimia' or whatever but it was a fucking lifestyle and it was a dark hole #that i had to claw myself out of #and im sorry its extremely triggering that people are harping onto posts TALKING ABOUT A REAL ISSUE THEY DO NOT EXPERIENCE #with images of severely diseased women sayin Well Actually Your Experiences Arent That Bad Cus Look #We Also Have It Bad #yeah well #one does not detract from the other #and also Maybe. hmm. there is a correlation...if not even causation........ #maybeeeee if fatphobia wasn't such a huge issue....you wouldn't feel the need to...idk avoid experiencing that... #cus like okay I know im only speaking from my own experience but #seeing the way society treated fat people growing up constantly surrounded by people on Diets all the time #trying to Avoid being fat at All Cost #miiight have contributed to my ED and wanting to be skinny #like. #honestly moving away from those spaces and being friends with and following people that experience fatphobia #has heloed me in soooo many ways to just like accept myself a bit more and also realize the enormous damage #that fatphobia does to us through media and social media like #im honestly just ranting rn but god im so mad #I saw like One Too Many posts like that but didn't wanna jump on being annoying so i made my own posr #im sorry for anyone going through it rn being stuck in proana or fitblr whatever hell #because like it wont make it better. it will feel like your only escape because People in your life wont understand #but it will just continue to pull you in until nothing else or no-one else mkes sense #and that is Not Good or okay and yeah #talk to someone outside of this site about this please #don't argue with others talking about their own experiences that you cant relate to because if you somehow #like #see that as an attack on you personally #thats a problem...you need to address that.

[mejomonster]

Oh also when I start dropping the Red White and Royal Blue book quotes expect a FLOOD I'm highlighting the fuck out of this book

#red white and royal blue #lb #okay so 1. its well written. sincerely. #2 it knows the GOAL of its story so in its own way its Plenty deep #in regard to a. romance. b believable lived in characters c hinted emotion and biased pov narration #d political commentary social commentary international commentary generational commentary family trauma commentary #e excellent at what seems to be its theme which is showing how to connect to people you see as different #and like. the way that ties into the core romance and ties into the leads individual family trauma and fharacter arcs #and the way f OUTSIDE the novel how that affects the reader #the novel expects all readers to connect to this democrat politicial loudmouth half mexican texan child of divorce #whos stubborn as hell and somewhat self centered and so Mean to a guy he barely actually knows (when novel starts) #and thrn of course Alex is asked by his life to Connect to Henry. and the readers even if they are a TON like alex #still will also find connecting to Henry a leap (after all most of us simply are NOT royalty and know no one who is #even if we know public social media figures. its not to rhe degree of the Fantastical levrl of Prince Henry #and i think partly the character is a prince rather than Old Money generally because it TAKES the point further #it makes it so unrelatable to nearly all readers. so it asks us and alex to be open and get to know someone we simply cant judge or guess #ok anyway my point 3. i fucking HATE writing advice and heres why #different authors who are GREAT tackle the challenge of writing wrll very different. theres somr advice to #avoid writing thought felt wonders etc type words. this novel does it. and i feel does it well #it keeps the pace snappy in a DENSE book that needs it. it helps create the biased unreliable pov narration of alex #by telljng us not what he Actually thought but what hes PRETENDING TO HIMSELF to acknowledge or not. #which is alsl how i use those words. and its a fun time when the character is lying to themselves and readers have to notice #and get to be in on it

[dallonwrites]

did not write as much as i liked today but i made the playlist for the nanowrimo 2023 project that has a specific order to reflect the tones of the story and that's the closest i get to outlining before a draft so

#idk how to explain this from a I Dont Actually Outline Before Drafting Usually POV but #making playlists with a specific order feels like the first layer to understanding a narrative bc its like i can hear the tone of it unfold #i dont need to know what it will look like on page but i can look at a playlists body #and it feels like i can see the ebbs and flows of the narrative's tone/vibes/etc. the emotional movement #which for the type of stories i write that helps a lot LOL #making playlists that way kind of feels like ive put the story into a heart monitor. its not showing me all the vitals but its showing me #the movement of the story's core #OKAY WAITTT i think the best way to explain it is #i'm a very vibe driven writer but also vibes are very sensory to me #when i make a playlist its not just songs that remind me of the wip its songs that SOUND like the wip to me #i have a very deep sensory relationship to stories + sensory things connect me to the Vibes #and the more familiar i am with the Vibes of a story the easier it is for me to enter the story and then figure out what actually happens #which is why i prefer to discovery write most of the time bc being deep in the story like that #feels like a similar level of immersion that i get from things like playlists #PERSONALLY! #so when i make playlists in a specific order the songs usually group themselves together and it feels like i can hear how the story moves #through those groups without knowing what the events look like yet #playlists and moodboards etc are literally integral to me because stories usually start very abstract/vibey in my brain #rather than a clear idea and i need something more tangible/sensory to flesh it out

[themyscirah]

Started thinking about the Amanda Waller + Ben Turner relationship again.... fuck, I'm gonna need a minute

#I JUST- SHDIAUDJSHDSHEYEYRYRYRY guys. guys #i know none of you see my vision and thats okay. i will make you see my vision. i will force you to see my vision. i will- #like jesus fucking christ oh my god. its so interesting and gives me so many emotions and just!!! #i know im not making sense bc none of my moots are sui sq fans and also like half of the content fucking me up specifically here is in my #head because i cant stop thinking about my absolute power fix it au but like!!!!!!! #also the fact i have a fix it for a comic that isnt out yet is so funny to me. its literally fucking real though. god knows we need it #may my own content carry me through the dark times (extreme villain waller arc) #anyways this fucks me up so bad you dont even know. someday ill actually explain it #dc hire me to write a suicide squad ongoing PLEASE. i could do it so good it would be so fucking good dc PLEASE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also like this isnt me shipping them btw. like 110% not that. just to clarify. #i wouldnt even call it a friendship bc like. theyre not friends really. he has the most equal dynamic with her i would say but it still isnt #equal. shes v much his boss even though they have an understanding and respect there #like she believes and trusts in him much more than anybody really even himself. like she sees the good man and the leader even when he #doesnt. but she isnt nice about it. and there is a lot of conflict between them when there needs to be #like as much as ben is “wallers man”--the team leader she wanted from the beginning before rick flagg pushed his way in #ben i would say is still a very moral person even when lost and unsure of himself and his goodness (which is like one of his main things) #like i feel like while amanda can lean very into a “the ends justify the means” mindset in her worse moments and do bad things to get #herself out of a corner ben has like a deep and meaningful understanding of how the choices of your methods and how you act can weigh on you #like even though he was brainwashed and whatnot (thats still the story right? i cant remember) he holds a lot of guilt and baggage over his #actions and i think is able to temper amanda's worse tendencies in terms of that by calling her out when he recognizes that behavior #idk. i just really think that amanda waller and the suicide squad as a whole has lost its way without a more moral authority presence there. #like someone who can call her out and keep them more on track. which i really thing ben is and could be #i just very much am interested in their dynamic and how that would look like as equals and how i think they could help each other. #which ofc is what my wip is about and revolves around #blah #sui sq