#like dont get me wrong. im still tired

[deoidesign]

Melatonin is a delicate balancing act, it took some time to find a dose that helped me fall and stay asleep without leaving me groggy after 8/10 hours. For me, that has been 10 mg gradually increased to such over a few weeks then steady since.

I also take roughly a week without it every month or two, as the bottle recommends. Listen to your body and do what you can. Good luck, and thank you for the sweet gay were/pire comic<3

Yeah, I can tell my sweet zone is somewhere between 3 and 6 mg, at least right now. Or at least I think it is. Admittedly my sleep has been absolutely horrible since I was a kid so my standards on "not tired" are pretty low, so I'm not actually sure if they're any good right now. All I know is I'm getting more than 2 hours of sleep at a time, and I'm not spending every waking moment fighting off a nap!

Thanks for the confirmation I've gotta test with it and go off and on and such, my doc didn't give me a straight answer on that (he just kept saying take it as needed... I need it every night!!!). 75% of the time being good is way better than 0% so I'll take what I can get!

And the gay comics are the least I can do 🧡 thank you for reading it!

#my boyfriend actually commented unprompted that ive been complaining less about being tired all the time..m #like dont get me wrong. im still tired #but it has been a WORLD of a difference. #like. its been every day since i was like 14 that just. all day i could fall right back asleep #and every night i wake up every. other. hour. #ive never really been able to sleep longer than 2 hours at a time #so ive never gotten uhm. good sleep before. #and ive had to stay in bed 14. 16. 20 hours to even feel like i can GET UP!!!! #super bad hahaha #but I'll take a week of that every month or so over every day #im just glad ive found a dose and combo thats workint for me cause ive tried melatonin before and it didnt help #but that was qlso before i used those nose strips. which also help me a lot? #so i think the combo is important #and i wouldn't be shocked if in 5 years i learn of another secret sleeping ingredient #anyways. maybe i can line up the bad sleep week off melatonin with the other week that sucks every month auajjddjdjejdj #see how it goes lol #oh ive also been taking other vitamins which have also been helping #so that combo leaves me with some actual waking time that im not fighting off a nap #this is why I've been posting more recently btw lol #asks #jackedupjack

[whatsanameanyway]

"Look at it! They're different, aren't they?"

i drew a scene from chapter 9 of i am weary with contending by the incredible @ari--anon bc that fic is stuck in my brain and hasn't left it thank you

#pearlescentmoon #joel smallishbeans #grian #solidaritygaming #in order #the fic is so amazing and absolutely worth checking out and i love it #though these three (outside of g) dont appear much relative to the rest of the plot. so while theyre written wonderfully and i adore them #just know this is an out of context scene and they dont have a major role. just in case yk? #though. in the context of a 300k word fic a minor role is still like. 50k words. so they get their time to shine and i love them #also i. have no idea what glyphs look like. if i got it completely wrong please tell me and im so sorry i was completely guessing and just #did something i thought looked cool #god i am so tired #my art

[ganondoodle]

as cool as their design is im really starting to dislike the sonau in general, aside from their stuff suddendly being everywhere and everything being about them and how cool(tm) they are now with the mystery stone turning people into dragons and the similarities between the sonau and the three dragons (naydra, eldra, farodra) its actually not an impossibility that they used to be sonaus as alot of people have been theorizing about ..but ...... idk that would very much ruin their otherwordly yet ethereal mystery to me

i probably sound like some hater whos trying to find something more to dislike about totk all the time but i promise im not!!

the three dragons being some unexplained mystery, beings that are there yet few can see them, timeless, nigh untouchable, they dont act on anything, they dont talk, something about them has always made me look at them in awe; if it turned out they were just yet another cool(tm) sonau guy that ate a stone ... :/

not a fan of that one lads, but dont worry, i will keep my thoughts to myself from now on, i dont want to ruin other peoples fun nor seem like i just hate everything ... the three dragons are just really important to me so i had to say something

#ganondoodles talks #tloz #totk #totk spoilers #totk spoiler #besides i have leanred that i tend to have the unpopular opinions and frankly im tired of the hate directed at me #if you disagree thats fine but please dont spam me with why you think its cool actually #bc it just feels like yet another argument starting as to why im wrong and need to be talked down to and also suck actually #sorry its been all over my timeline on twitter so i just had to throw my dumbass opinion out there again #and it was a few times more than id like in a row where my random thought posts where torn apart by arguing people needing to prove im wron #the dragons where something i just absolutely loved in botw #they hold a special place in my heart and i dont like the thought of them too being just yet another sonau thing #i feel more secure posting my thoughts here than on twitter #but still i dont want to sound overly negative so i will hold back from now on #unless im exhausted and overly tired and not feeling that great physically like right now i guess lol #ill just have to grit my teeth and try to ignore everything i dont like but everyone else loves like always #anyway i need some sleep #ill be fine after that i think #and then try to resume work on destiny and a commission i havent had the energy to get to

[crimeronan]

Obsessing over your AU and Luz and Amity’s lumity dynamics. How tf are these two ever going to figure out they love each other? Is it going to be gradual (aka Amity realizing she has nothing to fear and Luz isn’t a cold murdering mastermind manipulator) or something more sudden where they’re in a situation where they HAVE to face their feelings, somehow? Very curious

god it deserves a full fic. i think i answered a similar question to this a few weeks ago but cannot for the Life of me remember what i said. (bad memory disease.) if this contradicts earlier kitkat just know that i contain multitudes but i Think it would be a combination of amity getting to know luz better and realizing that she actually really really REALLY wants to cede her power. and maybe even more than that, it's amity realizing that a lot of her most neurotic hangups about luz are bc of assumptions she's made about luz and hunter's relationship -- so the realization that hunter is nowhere Near as oppressed or mistreated as amity secretly worries he might be.

like i'm a sucker for involving a third party in any awkward romance but it's especially Vital here imo, because amity doesn't trust luz's intentions and also doesn't trust her own perceptions. and yet for some godforsaken reason, the person she DOES trust is hunter. like don't get me wrong, she thinks he's plotting her downfall at all times and like 80% of the time he IS, but he's also straightforward with her in a way that basically nobody else in the castle is.

amity and hunter getting into a heated argument because hunter is righteously indignantly going "she's NEVER mistreated me, she would NEVER hurt me, what are you ON" and amity is like "well of course you think that, you're delusional" and hunter is like "fine. tell me the ways you think she's 'mistreating' me"

and then amity rattles off like a solid twelve Wildly Incorrect And Also Super Fucked Up assumptions she's made about luz and hunter's power dynamic, while hunter is like

........blight. listen. do you like.... do you need me to go, like, kill your parents-

#hunter taking her by the shoulders: you are so much crazier than me or luz ever has been and that is something i thought was impossible #amity who's almost in tears of indignant rage: THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH ME YOURE THE ONE BEING HER PETTTT #like i think those two need to get on the same page and then itll be easier for amity to relax around luz. #there will still be hurdles dont get me wrong! trust issues and secrets and miscommunication and anxiety and whatnot #but at LEAST a step up from amity warily going 'this girl wants to blackmail me and destroy my life i am meat to her' #replies #toh #shitty idiot repression gang #princess luz au #and who is that other witch #lumity #as is ofyen the case when im deliriously tired i havent reread or edited this just. take it

[mamawasatesttube]

i like the name "supernova" for adult kon for a lot of reasons (stellar metaphors and imagery are just so good) but one of the chief ones is... something something the violently bright, explosive death of a star. the intent to die brilliantly. to go out with a bang. to never go gentle into that good night. ough kon you have issues <3

#i do believe he gets better about his issues with time dont get me wrong but i Don't believe he ever fully moves past his existential #well. his existential everything? crises. issues. problems. etc #its not the Same as his suicidality as a kid by any means #but. like. theres. god i am too tired to articulate it right hmmm #he's a lot more well-adjusted by the time he takes on a new name and all #but he still struggles to conceptualize of himself in certain ways #one of those being ''allowed to live (and eventually die) in peace'' #god. i have to come back to this when im not deep deep deep in postdrome headfog #i Know i'm not making sense and i'm not saying what im trying to say. bleughhh. #rimi talks #kon

[dishsaop]

does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing & #digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right) #and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh) #I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost. #anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic) #meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough. #im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY. #like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'

[sorchasolas]

I wish there were more SLA fics

I’m madly inconsistent and downright unreliable when it comes to my posting (i have two unfinished fics sitting in my works and im working on another that i havent even started) but i have such good ideas too

I hope after SLA 5 we see more cus yk but in the meantime im gonna refresh the Stormlight Archive page everyday and hope for a fic that isn’t 500 words long

#no shade to the people who do those short fics tho #i couldnt #like cant #lmao #also dragonthrill is just. my favorite. when it comes to fics #do they have a tumblr #share if they do #I <3 DRAGONTHRILL’S STORMBLESSED FIC #my comfort fic #i am still writing all three pf my fics #dont get me wrong #i just forgot about that #btw go read them (if you want) #my ao3 is. the same username #bc ofc it is #im tired #stormlight archive #cosmere #the stormlight archive #brandon sanderson

[shesalewa]

My Roman Empire is 14yro me joking about committing suicide before my mom died because I was too scared to hear or learn about her death, and my mother's response to that was

"Stop saying that. You know the only worst thing that can happen to a parent is their children dying before them."

I still think about that whenever I joke about killing myself.

#ever since i started highschool i started having a joke about killing myself #whenever i got stressed I'd say: #ugh. i wanna die. #of course it's was to make the people around me get used to my dark humor #however i didn't think I'd use it so much thag even i didn't know if it a joke anymore #but from the very start i think my mom knew something was wrong with me #but she never sent me to a therapist nor a psychiatrist. we can't really afford that. not even now. #but she'd find ways to make me. my sister. and brother feel like we have worth. #but when she said that i think she thought that she's failing as a parent #especially because her husband was always absent in raising us #i still joke about killing myself. but i tone it down a bit because i don't want my mom to look at me like that again #it's sad #i dont like the way she stared at me #im probably being dramatic #but ever since then whenever my mom came home tired and stressed #and i wad happy and energized. #i would take half of her negative energy and be sad too

[deoidesign]

please take as much time as you need to rest and recover. burn out is so hard and takes so much to heal from. your art and your supporters will still be here when you get back :) take care <3

Thank you very much

Unfortunately, my situation doesn't really allow me to take the time I need. I've got a ~two month hiatus scheduled for my midseason, but much like my first hiatus I'll most likely be working double time during it...

It's unfortunate because I could really really use a bigger break!

Having the time and flexibility to work on other projects really fires me up and keeps me going, and being able to take a guilt free day off for family and friends is necessary to my mental health, and I've been having to turn people down lately...

This is a very kind message, and I'm sorry to vent in response! But I just feel transparency about the pressure I'm under is necessary and important. I'd love to take the time I really need, but due to deadlines and that pesky "needing money to live" I can't.

But, once the series is over I intend to take a pretty big break before I start whatever I'm doing next! I've got so many short stories and projects planned that I want so badly to get to, I can't wait to really get to truly dive in to them!

#im so sorry to take a nice message and respond like this! but just... trust me haha i know my supporters are genuinely here for me <3 #but webtoon... not so much unfortunately. i mean im sure i could take a longer break but theres the looming anxiety #that ill get in trouble or itll ruin my chances of working with them again etc etc #i took this week and i genuinely took it off. sort of? i flew to a convention which was exhausting #and i did paintings that i hope to print eventually #and i. started planning and prepping for a Kickstarter. for time and time again... #so ive still been working the whole time. but i love working! #i just... like to be able to work on things OTHER than time and time again... #and unfortunately for a few months. more than a few months. i haven't been able to do anything outside of it. #even all of my paintings have been for it cause i cant afford to switch my mindset! #my first hiatus i moved. worked on a pitch for my next series. and then i made two episodes a week the entire time #and i still ran out of episodes... #i dont know if im just not fast enough or if something is wrong with my brain that i have to fight to get it to focus but. #yeah i mean ive been burned out! been really burned out for like a year now #i can tell by how much better i feel after literally 1 week of doing anything else #and how tired i feel explaining this and knowing ive got another 3 months before i get another break #ok sorry i vented a lot more in the tags. it's hard to explain all of this eloquently and i like my posts to be somewhat professional #asks #anon #vent #delete later #and also how often my brain keeps wanting me to like. beg for 'nice words' from other people #(i always stop myself from asking people for compliments and stuff because otherwise i get very carried away and do it too regularly) #(people are very nice to me all the time. the kindness is endless and i need to let myself recognize and appreciate it rather than seek more #(its sort of a mental health thing I've been trying to like... force myself to do) #(for myself and my longevity but also for others sake lol. ive been bad about it in the past)

[thompsborn]

i know i’ve said that being able to do the stereotypical insane ao3 authors notes is fun and amusing to me but can the universe NOT take that as a challenge to add more shit to my list of things to add next time i post ???? like. fucking. Calm Down Please.

#situations keep happening and i am TIRED #had to restrain a kid at work today which was AWFUL but he was trying to run into the road so i literally had to #almost cried bc of it but got the situation under control #but then when on my way to meet w coworkers to carpool to a meeting #my tire popped #super fun times super awesome super great #i mean my mom helped and we got it all fixed and handled #but basically from noon to like 6pm my mom and i were dealing w it bc everything had to be COMPLICATED #so i only just got home like 45 mins ago ish and i am SO tired holy fuck #but im eating left over orange chicken and then gonna shower and then just gonna be lazy and read and maybe write #if i have the brain power i will work on hb chp17 #but i also have a 4 hour training for work tomorrow so yeehaw #its 12:30-4:30 which isnt that bad but still #im also going to my dads afterwards to stay the night and visit him and my siblings #which is a good thing dont get me wrong i love visiting them #it just means i wont have a lot of freetime this weekend to work on writing and cleaning and stuff #not the end of the world and definitely worth it to see my dad and my baby siblings #but i wish it was a 3 day weekend so i could also have a day to just stay home and do things that i havent had the time to do yk #oh well. tis life. adulthood. having to handle situations and finding the best out of shitty circumstances. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[kennabeth]

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#like look obviously the narrative that ~wah no one loves fitz~ is stupid he is so very very loved by so many people #but hes taught himself that if theres a part of him others dont like or if someone can use him #then their love for him might as well not exist #and thats how most people love. it's not wrong. #he just thinks it is because hes used to being treated as an item by everyone who doesnt love him unconditionally #up to his adulthood the only person who did ever seem to love him unconditionally was patience #so he made sure to take away from her the opportunity to see something in him she'd find repulsive #--like the wit--because she didnt have the chance to fully know him #which sucks because patience is the best person in the whole series #if he'd like her know him she'd love him all the same #anyway where im going with this is after the accidental... skill coupling?? #and understanding for sure and for real there is no part of him that beloved does not know and does not love anyway #that despite his love of the world in general beloved is only continuing to use him as his catalyst because it's the only way fitz lives #(the fool weeping with makeup running down his face saying he doesnt want to be a prophet he wants this to end #but he cannot watch fitz die again had ME weeping) #ANYWAY that all scared fitz shitless #'it's too much. no one can give that much' is just. devastating to me for both of them #fitz because he still cannot see himself as worthy of being loved and not used #and beloved because all he does is get shit on for what fitz demands of him #I'm so tired #and fitz has yet to notice it was the fool making sure he had food/water/fire in the tower even when they were fighting #because unconditional is unconditional. not liking at that moment is not not loving #i hate it here #also fitz violently breaking the skill connection because 'he would know my secret. he would see my deception' is absolutely crazy #repression go brr #says kenna #kenna reads rote #ALSO when the coterie was healing him and he was begging beloved through skill to not look at his heart or his mind #what the hell!! #one flesh one end bitch!!

[theythemclockenjoyer]

please tell me they did not give the author with very racist and homophobic past who realied on stereotypes and whitewashing in her book another story about another culture she knows nothing about

#im tired im very much am becus the ik she will not do Egyptian mythology any justice and will straight up make allthe mc options white agai #again** #she doesn't deserve another chance to write about swana culture or anything the like in general #the only good thing about her book is the art #yet everyone praise it for doing the bear minimum in story telling #and ignoring everything wrong about #romance club #.reaverannoyingrants #also dont get me started on the fact that she paires lima the lesbian li with a man im still fucking mad over it

[loverboybreakdowns]

& now im crying. great.

#came home she got out pork chops says i have to cook & eat them bc i need protein #dont want hot food rn & even if i did i dont have the energy to cook dont even have the energy to get a glass of water #but like i was handling it was gonna lay down a while then make pork chops feed them to the cat if i couldnt make myself eat & thats fine. #but then she said i was being a little shit bc of like i guess my tone of voice ir something? #idk man im tired & im frustrated & im in pain & im trying so hard to be polite & say the right things #but like. no matter how hard i try i cant get it right my voice always comes off wrong #& it always has & it will continue to the rest of my life #i try SO HARD she knows i struggle with tone & i still cant get it right & shes mad at me for it #i cant fucking do this i cant be a person im not GOOD AT IT. #im like failing at humanness and i always have been #& idk its a stupid thing to get so upset over & i know logically im being dramatic #but im just so tired #& i havent eaten since 7 so i probs have low blood sugar or something idk #and i’ve had a headache for 3 days that wont fucking go away #& i just cant make myself be rational rn #rambling

[kirexa]

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#i spend so much time looking at this post making screen feeling like i want to vent but i dont know how. i feel like itd be a bother #i hate feeling like that #i hate everything #ive been logged out because every notification unintentionally just makes me feel bad. what if i respond wrong? #im just not in the mood to do anything right now and i dont want to give a lackluster response because of that #but then i forget #and i never respond #....a lot of the time when i post just the invisible character its because i eanted to vent but i couldnt get my words right #but discarding the post felt like i was ignoring my feelings so i just put that. to silently say something #even if its nothing. #the tags are nice #it feels like im whispering here #its less scary #its too loud in the body #even if it still reads the same #it feels quieter here #i love you guys #m tired #vent

[lannisterdaddyissues]

today is not a good day

#i am so done with this semester you have no idea #i dont even know why i am still in college i feel like i should just drop out #no matter how hard i study for an exam i cant get so much as a fucking C on any of them #i worked my ass off for this exam and i thought for sure i could get a high B but i didnt even come close #i dont understand i did well enough on my last two exams but i fucked this one up so bad and it doesnt make any sense #theres just no use in me even trying anymore ill never get better than a D on any of my exams #its like these classes are setting me up to fail #im so lost i dont know what is going wrong in my head but it just isnt working #and i hate this #sorry to vent on main but i am so done i am so tired of being stupid i want to go back to when i wasnt failing everything #im so genuinely lost because i thought i knew this material so well so what the fuck happened #to delete later

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

MAC. MAC. MAC. I'M ON HANNIBAL S2E9. WHAT THE FUCK MAN. this is gettign insane. i don't have much else to say except whaaaaaat the fuckkkkk dude. "i sent a man to kill you, you sent a man to kill me. i suppose we're even." I'M GOING TO START GNAWING ON FURNITURE. wagh. hannibal isn't lying to will anymore, he's just not saying anything because will already KNOWS. he KNOWS. he doesn't HAVE to say anything it's all unspoken. i thought will was either gonna become his partner in crime or hide his crimes from the fbi while feeling conflicted about it but no. it is a secret third thing. and i don't even know what the fuck that thing is but BOY IT SURE IS SOMETHING!!!! also it's getting quite gay?? there may have been straight sex scenes on screen but that is nothing compared to the eroticism of whatever the FUCK is going on between these two. what the fuck man. i gotta go lay facedown on the floor for a bit. i'll start ep10 soon. hopefully finish the season either tonight or tomorrow morning. very looking forward to the season finale. WHAT THE FUCK MAN!!!!!!!!

ITS A SECRET THIRD THING !!!!!! god. season 2 is so. ugh. i think season 1 is my favorite overally but s2 has some absolutely fucking banger moments. yeah. whats gayer. gay sex or whatever the fuck those two have going on etc. god i CANNOT wait for u to see the finale. im not gonna give u any hints but i promise you. You Will Know the scene im talking about when it happens. good lord.

#season 3 is the weakest in my opinion. its still good but it didnt capture my attention quite the same. #also hiiiii whsikey i am soooo tired im sorry this isnt longer but just know i am LOVING ur hannibal liveblogs. #sorry about freddie btw <3 #except not really bc oh my god i could not stand her. #DONT GET ME WRONG. shes an EXTREMELY well written and interesting character and i think the show would be worse without her. #however. i see a nosy annoying firey redhead and it is ON SIGHT. she activates my cain instinct i think. #like i love her but also i think i would like to punch her <3 #HAVE YOU MET THE VERGERS YET. I CANT REMEMBER WHETHER THEYRE SEASON 2 OR 3. i need to tell u my verger story #actually. wait. hold on. maybe theyre season 3. let me google something rq. #asks #friends!!! #anachronistic-falsehood